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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

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    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Shane would always be yearning for something with a man who didn't want him, wouldn't he? A little positive attention and he'd folded like origami. Pathetic.

    "Stay," Rozanov said. It sounded like pleading. That trick had worked on him, once.

    “Why?" Shane's tone was more biting than he intended. "What do you think is going to happen if I stay? Are you gonna make me a goddamned tuna melt?”

    Rozanov, to his credit, took the words like the blow they were. His eyes widened, then he covered his face with his palms and muttered something in Russian.

    Shane had never seen shame written across those features before.

    In April 2017, Shane Hollander suffers the most painful not-breakup he’ll ever experience. Months later, he's outed. Two years after that, a broken knee ends his career.

    When Rozanov unexpectedly crosses Shane's path four years later, Shane resolves to be courteous yet keep his distance. But Ilya is just as beautiful and charming as he ever was, and he’s determined to give what they'd once shared a second chance. A real chance.

    It's a bad idea. Shane knows it's a bad idea.

    The terrifying thing is that it doesn't feel like one.

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    09 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    He stepped forward, softly backing Shane into the wall, and put his hands on both sides of the man's face.

    “Let me say this one more time extra clear,” he spoke softly while staring into Shane's eyes.

    “I don't love you. I don't want you, at least any more than your mouth after a game.”

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    After the All-Star game, Shane decides he wants more than just a kiss on the ice. Ilya decides it can never happen again.

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    03 Feb 2026

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    Andrew met Neil in a park when they were five, hiding in a tunnel in the playground set and immediately the two became inseparable; causing chaos for the adults around them, growing closer and closer as the years trickle by even through trauma and abuse from caregivers and unstable mothers all until one day Neil's unstable mother snatches Neil away for eight years just as everything in Andrew's life shifts- from having a new adoptive mom, to finding his brother and doing everything he can to protect him, to gaining a family that he wants to share with Neil. And after eight years, after thinking that his best friend and only love was dead, Neil comes back into his life easily fitting himself by Andrew's side once again, leaving the two of them to navigate their new developing relationship together alongside their traumas and complex family relationships

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    25 Sep 2025