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    “Okay. Do you… Do you think you can talk to anyone about this? Even if it wasn’t me?” Ilya inquired. He brushed the tip of his nose against Shane’s upper arm and rested his head against it. Obviously Ilya would love it if Shane opened up and talked to him about it but he figured if Shane wouldn’t talk to him maybe he could talk to someone else. Maybe a therapist, or his parents or Rose or… Hayden. As much as Ilya disliked the idea of Shane going to Hayden to talk about his problems instead of him, it was better than to keep it all inside.

    Shane shrugged at the idea. “I don’t feel like I could talk to anyone about this…” His eyes were open now and glassy. He swallowed hard as he avoided looking at Ilya.

    OR; Shane is hiding something from Ilya... from everyone. And Ilya is worried sick.

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    10 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 48

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    When Ilya begins spiraling through depression and mania, the carefully controlled story of Shane and Ilya's "friendship" starts to fall apart. As Ilya's mental health worsens, Shane and the community around them struggles to keep him safe. What follows is a public breakdown, a disappearance, world shattering news, and the crumbling of a public image. Can they navigate not only the depression and escalating mania, but most importantly everything that comes after?

    or: A story on how mental illness during depression, mania, treatment, and recovery effects Ilya's life and everyone around him.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Shane smiled against the warm skin of Ilya’s thigh, his hands stroking his hips to calm him.

    “Easy,” his voice came out low and thick with arousal. “The night is long, Rozanov… and I want to enjoy my boyfriend inside me to the fullest.”

    He placed one last light kiss along the still-pulsing shaft—a gesture of ownership and promise—before climbing up Ilya’s body, kissing every inch of skin along the way: the defined abdomen, chest, throat, until he found his lips again in a deep kiss where Ilya could taste, with brutal intensity, his own desire on Shane’s tongue.

    “Who are you?” Ilya asked between hungry, rough kisses. “And what did you do with my sweet, shy Shane?”

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refuses to cancel dinner with Shane's parents, terrified that showing weakness will make them think he is lazy, broken, or a disappointment. But when a severe depressive episode causes his hands to shake, he accidentally drops a crystal water glass.

    The sound of the shattering glass triggers a violent childhood trauma, sending Ilya into a full-blown, terrifying panic attack on the dining room floor as he frantically tries to clean up the mess before he gets hit.

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    08 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 7

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    After Ilya Rozanov wins the Stanley Cup, Shane must make good on a bet they placed months prior, a chance for Ilya Rozanov to piss on his beloved Shane.

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    Piss piss shower woohoo

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    06 Jun 2026