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sein Blut ist mein Blut by LucreceSayre
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types, Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 May 2026
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"All I want," Shane tells him, voice so low it's barely more than a whisper, "is to grow old and gray with you. You don’t get to take that away from me."
"What if I'm never fixed," Ilya protests. "I stay like that. Don’t get better."
"You will," and his lover makes it sound so simple, the truth of it may as well be woven into the very fabric of the universe. "Your life isn't your own anymore, Rozanov. If you want it back, you'll have to pry it out of my cold, dead hands, do you understand ?"
No, Ilya doesn't. But by God, does he want to.
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or, Ilya has spent most of his life suffering at the hands of his brother and yeah, sure, that sucks. He won’t pretend otherwise. But it’s also just pain and at the end of the day, Ilya’s used to it. It’s fine. Honestly. All fine. Until one day, Shane introduces him to the somewhat revolutionary concept that it’s really fucking not.Series
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13 Jun 2026
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another day, another struggle by blushgush
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Jun 2026
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Shane Hollander’s hopes for the NHL were ripped from him by an ACL tear and replaced with doctor prescribed opioids at age 18. Four years later, hockey is a distant memory and his days consist of strange men and chasing a feeling drugs can never seem to provide anymore.
Ilya Rozanov’s family returned home to Russia when his father’s mental state deteriorated and the government wasted no time snatching back his work visa. Ilya stayed behind in that godforsaken city to do the only thing he had ever been able to support his family doing: sell dope.
Ilya sees a lot of sad people. Shane sees a lot of horny men. Neither of them are prepared for what they see in each other, and what it means for the boxes they’ve allowed themselves to be put into.
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19 May 2026
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He watched Ferran’s silhouette in the weak light that filtered through the curtains, his mind replaying what he’d said earlier—"useless," he’d called himself. Something in Pedri’s chest cracked at the word. Ferran was everything to Pedri—his second home, his partner, his best friend—but right now, he could only see himself as a failing footballer. Pedri wasn’t sure how to help him find his way back to his old self, but he had to try.
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Ferran's world takes one hit after the other, and every time he falls apart, Pedri tries to put him back together like it's second nature. He never questions the tenderness he feels towards Ferran. But what happens when the cruel reality of football turns their lives upside down?
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19 Apr 2026
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Shane Hollander knows he’s not the easiest person to love.
As Ottawa’s captain, he’s busy. He’s particular. But he manages it. He’s always managed it. Shane makes sure his anxiety never becomes anyone else’s problem.
And he’s lucky—his boyfriend Clayton is willing to put up with him just fine.
Clayton isn’t always perfect, but he’s a great guy. Shane knows how lucky he is to have someone like him.
Even if it hurts sometimes.
Ilya Rozanov has just been drafted, and he’s ready to prove to the league that it’s his year. He’s played against Shane Hollander for years. He knows exactly how good Ottawa’s captain is on the ice.
But the more Ilya sees of Shane off the ice, the more something starts to feel wrong.
Because Shane Hollander might be the perfect captain.
But his life doesn’t look anything like Ilya imagined.
And seriously—who the fuck is Clayton?
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Bookmarked by saudademoon
10 Apr 2026
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Shane does not pull away, does not speak, does not kiss him again, just holds him like it is easier than letting him go, rocking them slowly back and forth on the edge of the mattress. There is a damp patch on his very nice new shirt where Ilya has failed to swallow back his tears, but he is cradling Ilya to him, anyway, like it doesn’t matter. Like it costs him nothing to do it.
Nobody has touched Ilya this way in a very, very long time. He had forgotten that it was possible to be handled with care—to be treated like a breakable object, instead of a broken one.OR: What happened in the hotel room after the Tampa Bay All-Stars Game.
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23 Mar 2026