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    For years, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov lived in the shadows. Rivals on ice, something much deeper in private.

    Now the secret is out, engaged-to-be-married, and a new chapter begins. Marriage, a new team, and a season that might change everything.

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    This fanfiction takes place between Chapter 37 and the epilogue of 'The Long Game'. I was curious about what happened during that time, before Ilya and Shane returned to the ice as a married couple and star players for the Ottawa Centaurs. So, I wrote it the way I think it would go.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    “I like it,” he says weakly. “I like it, I like you holding me like this.”

    “Like what?”

    “Like you own me.”
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    or; They're falling in love. They can't have it, even if they can have each other, just for a little while.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    they'refallinginloVe 🤩

     

    noactualsmut

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    Flowers. There were goddamn flowers—a whole bouquet of lillies—sticking out of Shane’s locker for the whole team to see.

    “Hollander, you fucking beauty!” Mitty whooped. Someone slapped him on the back. A chorus of hoots and wolf whistles filled the room as everyone took turns peering over shoulders to get a better look.

    Hayden turned to him, wide-eyed and a little bewildered. “You and Lily are that serious, man?”

    Shane opened his mouth to reply, but before he could find the words, J.J. cleared his throat exaggeratedly, readying to read something, and oh god, was that a note he’d just pulled out of Shane’s locker?

    He was going to kill Ilya, seriously.

    Ilya decides to surprise Shane with a bouquet after their game against each other, posing as Lily.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    If you've read Appeasing the Hockey Gods - this is Scott worshiping Kip for the Hockey Gods. Kip offers up Anything Scott wants. And what Scot wants is to tie his man up and worship him, until Kip is begging to come.

    If you haven't read Appeasing the Hockey Gods - this is Scott tying Kip to the bed and worshipping Kip ;) but also go read Appeasing the Hockey Gods for the fluffy coming out before this scene that has way to many weird Smoothie names.

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    30 May 2026

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    Shane and Ilya broke up. It was the adult, mature decision they made together and moved on from. Except Shane is still Ilya's emergency contact and Ilya's coach just called.

    Ilya had a seizure. Well, seizures. Multiple. He is in the hospital, in the operation block and suddenly Shane is met with the possibility that last words Ilya Rozanov ever heard from him were "Maybe love isn't enough."

    And then complications occur. And Ilya is not waking up.

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    They’d sat on a perfectly ordinary Wednesday afternoon in their perfectly ordinary kitchen, with coffee that had gone cold on the table between them, and calmly dismantled the life they’d built together. One sentence at a time.

    “Maybe we need space.” “Maybe we’re just hurting each other.” “Maybe love isn’t enough.”

    He wants to go back and shove that version of himself against the wall. Shake him until his teeth rattle.

    Love is the only thing that matters when someone is under general anaesthesia and a stranger is touching their brain, Shane thinks wildly. Love is literally the only currency worth anything in a room like this.

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    27 May 2026

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