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    Inspired by this tweet:
    Ilya, unbuckling his belt: I’m sorry

    Shane, so horny he can’t think: What did you do?

    ilya: No, for what I’m about to do

    or: CNC Freak Pervert Hollanov play CNC Freak Pervert Games

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    28 May 2026

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    Hockey. Ilya wanted him to give up hockey. Ilya beat him until Shane agreed. It didn't take long.

    Self-betrayal felt heavy, reducing Shane to something tiny and insignificant. A little mouse pinned under a concrete slab. He wanted to burst under the pressure and finally be free from the pain, but instead he just shrank, melting, flattening out. Methodically, slowly, without any clear point of no return he could have noticed.

    Until this evening.

    An alternative ending for "i'm coming home" series by unseemlyndisturbed. Diverges right after final chapter of "i'm coming to the cottage".

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    26 May 2026

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    The irony—that it's Shane who once made everything bearable, and Shane who now makes even leaving unbearable—registers, but without bitterness now, without panic, not even with regret. The dichotomy swirls inside him, and he just watches it spin, as he’s done so many times.

    Ilya thinks, with a strange, aching tenderness, that Shane was the first and only person to give his adult life shape and meaning. The first person who ever made him feel real. Chosen. The first and only person to see him, really see him.

    It's only fitting, he thinks hazily, that you're the last.

    Loving Shane Hollander changes Ilya Rozanov’s life.

    It doesn't save it.

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    22 May 2026

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    “You like this, Hollander? Really?”

    “Yes,” he sobbed, more tears rolling down his cheeks. “Fucking love it. Love it so much, thank you, Ilya. More, please,”

    “Greedy boy,” Ilya scoffed, tugging Shane’s head back roughly. “You always want more. Am I not giving you enough?”

    “It’s not..” he thought carefully, pausing for a moment. “Hit me harder, Ilya.” Another tear fell from his eye, soothing the burn of his cheek.

    “You are sure? I don’t know, does not seem like you can handle it.”

    “I can take it,” Shane breathed out. “I can, I promise. I want it to hurt.”

    Or — Shane’s been trying to work on emotional regulation and his feelings for a while now, nothing seems to work. Nothing but the sensation of hit after hit, slap after slap, delivered straight to him.

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    21 May 2026

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    “This might have been a bad idea.”
    “You think so?”
    “Hollander’s pissed.” Marlow said, stating the obvious.
    “No he’s not.” Ilya answered easily. “He’s just nervous.”
    “About what?”

    “About asking if he can watch you fuck me.”

     

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    Ilya and Marlow have been hooking up for years - though it was never personal (until it was too late).

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    21 May 2026