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    27 May 2026

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    This is a great version of Shane and Ilya where they fight that weird "walks like a dog" dynamic.

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    24 May 2026

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    Now, sitting in Ilya’s kitchen, Shane wanted nothing more than to hold him.

    Unless…

    Couldn’t he just go to the airfield? Families were probably there. It was normal.

    He could go.

    …Could he?

    No.

     

    or Shane just wants to see his bf after the plane incident

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    22 May 2026

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    The moment Ilya slips the wedding band onto Shane’s finger, it feels like the world goes quiet for the first time in his life.

    Peaceful in a way Shane has never known.

    They’re married. Husbands.

    And Shane is excited for all of the firsts that lie ahead of them as a married couple.
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    OR: A Bunch of "Firsts" from the First Year of Shane and Ilya's Marriage

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    22 May 2026

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    “You…wanted to see me?” He asks, barely resisting a wince at how awkwardly it comes out. “After yesterday-” He stops, swallows.

    Hollander makes a face–one of Ilya’s favorite faces, in fact–that says he’s a little embarrassed about what he’s about to say. Ilya feels his chest go a little tighter, wondering if Hollander has had time to reconsider, if he’d even planned to reach out after the game, apologize for spooking and running, ask to come ba-

    “Did something…happen yesterday?” Hollander asks.

    Ilya stares at him.

    (the accident that takes shane out for the season happens the day after the tuna meltdown) (...it also takes his memory of the tuna meltdown with it)

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    21 May 2026