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  1. Public Bookmark 72

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    In 2023, Hayden Pike will be 33 years old.

    He will also be in a crisis with Ilya Rozanov — but really, what’s new ?, faced with the impending doom of his marriage, freaking out about his sexuality, finding a friend (?) in Cliff Marleau — shocking, he knows, and testing his faith, in every way possible.

    But he’s still 32, and he has a dinner to attend.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    “Marley.” Ilya says evenly, suddenly knowing he can actually breathe. He had a plan and he knew what he needed to do. And he couldn’t do it from the locker room bench. “If he is very injured, if he cannot play again, if he is very bad, I will kill you. I will kill you painfully.”
    Cliff gapes at him.

    In which the hit that Cliff Marleau had on Shane Hollander goes a little different. For one, they’re in Boston. For another, Ilya realizes he might be panicking? Which is probably not something to do in the middle of a game. And, oh yeah, he just outed both himself and his not-boyfriend to an entire locker room of hockey players.

    But that’s okay, because while Boston may be vicious, they do take care of their own. And they quickly realize that their captain’s happiness and willingness to stay with the Bears is tied to Shane Hollander. The solution is easy, they’ll just have to make Shane Hollander a Bear.

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    03 May 2026

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    chapter 7

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    “Nice pass,” Cliff says as he slides to a stop beside Pike in front of the bench.

    “Thanks,” Pike mumbles, keeping his gaze locked on the chute leading back to the locker room. It’s at that moment that Coach calls practice, and Pike wastes no time in hurrying off the ice and down the corridor, alone and not looking back.

    “What did I say?” Rozanov slams into Cliff’s back, lucky that he’s propped up against the boards, and they both remain upright. “Interesting.”

    Or: When Hayden is traded to Boston, he takes it as an opportunity to remind himself that he isn't in the NHL to make friends and that no one can know his secrets. Cliff, on the other hand, can't take his eyes off his new linemate, and he's far too observant for his own good.

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    30 Apr 2026

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    [Today]

    So, yeah. That’s how it started.
    Rozanov gave Hayden a pale pink leaflet and told him that his best friend offered Hayden a free prostate massage.
    And Hayden accepted it.
    Technically, it’s his own fault, but Rozanov really is the best scapegoat in the world.

    Hayden thinks if Rozanov knew about all of this, he’d blame himself, too.

    or: Cliff Marleau is a masseur who offers tantric massages and Hayden gets a sample... of fucking course it spirals out of control.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    “What I’m trying to say is sorry. It’s fucking shit what you’re going through, and your team sucks for not being there for you. I mean, they’re Voyageurs, so they suck in general, but yeah. Sorry.” Marlow said. His brows were tugged into a conflicted brow. He had one hand raised up to scratch at his neck, eyes boring into the pavement.

    It was oddly sweet. As dense as the rest of him, but sweet. Hayden didn’t know what to make of that, but it felt nice having someone simply acknowledge that it was shit.

    It was shit, for crying out loud. All of this was so shit.

    Or, Hayden is going through a divorce, and through it he finds a friend in unlikely places. Maybe a little more than a friend.

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    09 Apr 2026