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Kurt’s footsteps echoed down the empty halls of McKinley High, Glee club had finished almost an hour ago. Blaine had already left too, giving him a chaste kiss and promising to call him that night. The thought of Blaine made him nauseous although that could have also just been morning sickness and Kurt had to fight the urge to run back to the boys bathroom he had been hiding out in for the past forty minutes and puke his guts out. This whole situation was messed up. He didn't even know whose child it was yet, he hadn’t told his dad yet and now he was on his way continue things with Sebastian who also had no clue about the possibility that he was a father.
Sebastian.
The whole thing had been so innocent at first, Sebastian had been at the Lima Bean chatting with Blaine and of course Kurt had jumped to conclusions and introduced himself. Blaine had left the table to get more coffee and while he was gone Sebastian had explained to Kurt in a rather flirty way that he had been trying to steal Blaine but now he saw Kurt, well that was all down the drain. Kurt had blushed furiously and stuttered his way through an attempted rejection but by the time Blaine had come back it was lost cause.
He was hooked.
And then everyday for the next four weeks after that Sebastian and Kurt had met at the Lima Bean for coffee, playfully taking jabs at each other while doing their homework. Kurt would vent about his endless stream of problems with Blaine and Sebastian would eagerly listen, giving his snarky opinion when necessary or sometimes he would talk fluently in French giving out crass suggestions for Kurt’s problems while Kurt giggled furiously.
Then it happened. After a particularly awful fight with Blaine, Kurt had come into the Lima Bean in tears and Sebastian, who was practically fuming by the time Kurt had told him why, had dragged Kurt outside into the car park. And kissed him hard on the lips. And Kurt had kissed back with almost as much enthusiasm, something warm and fuzzy bubbling in his chest. Heated kisses in the back of Sebastian’s BMW had turned into something more and Kurt had enjoyed it. He loved feeling wanted, needed. He had kind of liked the idea of a scandalous romance and so for next few months at least twice a week that was the routine. Sebastian would pick him up late from school or glee club; they would go back to Sebastian’s, mess around for a bit and cuddle afterwards while Sebastian whispered sweet nothings in Kurt’s ear and pressed soft kisses on his jaw. And Kurt had loved it and him and was able to almost push out the guilty, dirty feeling every time he was intimate with Blaine. He loved Blaine he really did he just loved Sebastian too and that had been a good arrangement, one Blaine was never ever meant to find out about. But with that one little stick it was all about to come crumbling down in Kurt’s face.
He deserved it.
The thought plagued him as he walked out of the school building into the parking lot. It was starting to get late in the afternoon, the sun had already started to make it’s decent, bathing everything in an orangey yellow glow. Sebastian’s silvery car was the only one in the parking lot, even then it looked so out of place compared the rest of the dirty school, which was half the reason Sebastian always got him late. The sports car always stood out like a sore thumb and someone would definitely notice if he got in it at a crowed school parking lot. Kurt took a deep breath to calm his overwhelming nerves and to fight the reflex to turn around and just run back to the boys’ bathroom and hide there for the rest of eternity. Looking as calm as he possibly could, strode over to the passenger side of the car. Even through the tinted glass he could still see Sebastian grinning inside. Kurt slid into the leather passenger seat, trying desperately took look straight ahead and not make eye contact with Sebastian.
“Hey baby” Sebastian purred leaning over the dashboard to kiss him
Kurt turned his head so the kiss landed on his cheek and not his lips. A look hurt swept across Sebastian’s features, resembling that of a kicked puppy
“Hey, what’s up kitten?” Sebastian softly asked frowning
Kurt’s blue eyes met Sebastian’s green ones and his stomach lurched.
“Nothing Bastian, just drive please,” Kurt mumbled earning a look from Sebastian that clearly said “We’ll talk about this later.”
Sebastian nodded awkwardly before turning on the ignition, the BMW humming to life. As they drove effortlessly through Lima Kurt remained silent, Sebastian switched on the radio and besides occasionally humming along softly to songs he knew he was also quiet. Sebastian seemed to be getting more agitated with each mile they drove, his hands gripping the steering wheel tighter as he dug into it with his nails. It didn’t take long for him to finally crack, suddenly pulling over to the side of the road near a park.
“What’s happened?” Sebastian asked reaching across the dash and cupping Kurt’s cheeks in his hand, his thumb lightly stroking the soft skin affectionately.
Tears began to spring from Kurt’s eyes, as he looked into Sebastian’s, the sick twisting feeling in his gut returning full force. He had to come clean. He had to tell him.
“I’m pregnant.”
It was like he had physically wounded Sebastian, the other boys’ eyes closing as he moved back from Kurt and lay his head back against the headrest of the drivers seat.
Sebastian let out long sigh; eyes still closed “Do we know whose it is?”
“No. I’ve got a doctors appointment tomorrow to find out,” Kurt answered softly, looking down at his hands in an effort not to look Sebastian in the eyes.
Sebastian rubbed his face with his hands, resting them at the back of his head and scrunching at his own hair.
“Does Blaine know?” Sebastian asked his voice hoarse and constricted
“No, I won’t tell him until I know if it’s him” Kurt said quickly
Now Kurt was really crying, tears streaming down his a face as he sobbed softly, still looking down at his hand in his lap.
“Hey, shhh don’t cry kitten,” Sebastian cooed leaning over and lifting Kurt’s chin so they were making eye contact
Kurt stared into Sebastian pain filled eyes, making him cry even more. Sebastian gently pulled Kurt into his lap and wrapped his arms around him.
“Shhh it’s gunna be ok,” Sebastian whispered stroking Kurt’s hair as Kurt buried himself in Sebastian’s chest.
The sat there holding each other for what felt like forever before Sebastian made a move, putting two fingers under Kurt’s chin, bringing Kurt’s face to his and capturing Kurt’s lips in his. Kurt snaked his arms around Sebastian’s neck as he kissed back. Sebastian began to deepen the kiss, flicking his tongue inside Kurt’s mouth making Kurt let out a soft moan in response. Kurt had always thought Sebastian was an amazing kisser he had an awful habit of comparing him to Blaine and most of the time Blaine never quite met up to Sebastian’s standards. Sebastian’s kisses made him feel like he was walking on air. Sebastian let out a moan as Kurt ran his fingers through his hair and Sebastian let his hands roam around Kurt’s body before settling on Kurt’s waist. Fumbling around a bit the moved between the two seats into the backseat, Sebastian laying Kurt down on the leather.
Kurt lay naked on Sebastian’s bare chest covered by a blanket that Sebastian had kept in his car for those occasions. The steading thumps of Sebastian’s heart and the in and out of his breathing comforting him. It was like nothing else mattered at that moment, not the baby on the way, not Blaine or his father, right now in that moment- in Sebastian’s arms- nothing else mattered but them. Kurt felt Sebastian press a soft kiss to the back of his neck and tighten his hold around him.
“What will you do if it’s his?” Sebastian suddenly asked quietly
“For the sake of the child this will have to end” Kurt replied his voice slightly wavering
Sebastian released his grip of Kurt, slowly sitting upright.
“And if it’s mine?” Sebastian asked his eyes searching Kurt’s
Kurt stayed silent.
“Your going to pretend it’s his aren’t you?” Sebastian asked in disbelief
And Kurt slowly nodded.
“Huh” Sebastian sighed wrapping his arms around Kurt again tightly “Just when I thought this couldn’t hurt anymore than it did”
“Sebastian I-“
“Shhh kitten it’s ok, you don’t have to explain yourself,” whispered Sebastian pressing a kiss to Kurt’s temple
Kurt felt bile rise in his throat; he hated doing this to Sebastian. God did he hate it. But Blaine could never ever know about what him and Sebastian had shared, it would hurt him too much. Fragile sweet Blaine would never ever recover and Kurt couldn’t do that, the choice had already been made. The tears started again running down his cheeks and making his eyes red and puffy.
“God kitten please stop crying” Sebastian begged gently whiping away Kurt’s tears
“I’m sorry,” Kurt croaked
“Kurt it’s not you fault, I technically started this and to be fair I wouldn’t take back a single minute.”
“But-“
“Please kitten” Sebastian insisted “Don’t make it harder than it already is, yeah?”
Kurt nodded.
“Well if this is the last time for us I might as well give you something to remember me by,” Sebastian said, getting up and reaching underneath the seat in front of him and pulling out a small black box.
Kurt felt like someone had just sucked the air right out of him. He let out a small gasp turning to Sebastian with a look of “Tell me you didn’t” written on his face. Sebastian opened the box and Kurt felt his blood go cold, there in the box was a ring, gold with glittering silver and dark blue jewels.
“It’s a promise ring,” Sebastian explained smiling sheepishly and giving Kurt the box “I bought a chain too, I figured you couldn’t wear it where Blaine would see it so”
“How much did this thing cost?” Kurt asked in awe running his finger of the jewels in the ring
Sebastian chuckled lightly, “Almost as much as this car, the diamonds are real and the blue ones are sapphire they reminded me of your eyes”
Kurt felt his heart flutter and his stomach flip and despite all that was happening it was the best feeling ever.
“It’s beautiful,” Kurt breathed
Sebastian smiled, a genuine sad smile that made Kurt’s heart ache.
“One other thing too” Sebastian said nervously
Sebastian never got nervous.
“What else-“
Kurt was cut of by Sebastian’s kiss. It was different from any other they had shared; it was as if Sebastian was trying to say everything he’d wanted to say in one kiss. Don’t leave me.
Sebastian pulled away suddenly to look into Kurt’s eyes.
“I love you”
Kurt almost thought it was his mind tricking him, that he was hearing things. But he wasn’t. Kurt’s heart ached in his chest now, it took everything he had not to take everything back and just stay here. In this car. Forever with Sebastian.
“I love you too,” Kurt said in an almost whisper
Sebastian grinned.
“Of course you do baby, I’m irresistible” Sebastian said smoothly
Kurt laughed a genuine musical laugh.
“That you are” Kurt said smiling
They began gathering their discarded clothes, redressing themselves quickly while stealing lovesick glances at each other, Kurt helping Sebastian straighten his Dalton tie. Both boys climbed back into the front seats and Sebastian once again revved the car to life.
“Promise me something Kurt?” Sebastian asked, the car still stationary.
“Anything”
“Can you meet at the Lima Bean tomorrow after you know and tell me?”
Kurt contemplated it for a moment. It wouldn’t hurt he guessed and Sebastian did have a right to know if the child was his and give them both a bit of closure.
“Of course, I’ll text you then”. Kurt replied quickly
Sebastian smiled sadly again.
“Now let’s get you home aye?” said Sebastian clearly trying to hide how hurt he really was.
“To which one?” Kurt asked teasingly, trying to ignore the ever-present pain his chest.
“Why Kitten,” Sebastian grinned although it didn’t quite reach his eyes “The choice is entirely up to you,” he continued, winking playfully.
Then Sebastian maneuverered the car back onto the road to begin the trip “home”.