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Summary:

Hours before Marissa Schurr’s body is found, Hannibal asks Will out on a date, which Will accepts, though they both agree to keep their relationship a secret. At the scene, Will comes to the realization that Hannibal is the Copycat, and confronts Hannibal. Will thinks the man is being honest about all of his kills that follow. That is—until Will realizes, months later, that Hannibal is also the Chesapeake Ripper.

Dealing with the knowledge the man he loves is more sadistic and cruel than he previously thought, being in a closeted relationship, and experiencing loss, illness, injury, and betrayal, Will finds himself descending into a dark place.

Ironically, Hannibal is the only person that can hold all of Will’s pieces together.

Notes:

Not beta-read. All mistakes are my own, and I'm sure there's a few.

Title: No One Knows by Queens of the Stone Age

Please note: this fic has been edited as of 1.30.22 -- I have deleted and rewritten a few things from chapter 12 onward, where I removed all mentions of a tattoo I gave Hannibal in this fic. If you're looking for those specific scenes: they're gone. If you notice anything beyond chapter 12 that doesn't make sense and alludes to a tramp stamp, please let me know so I can pull it out. Thanks!

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Hannibal leaves his hotel room late. Nearly 2 in the morning, and he’s sure that no one is going to see him leave. Of course, he can’t be so lucky. He was going to kill Marissa Schurr tonight, Abigail’s friend who was swearing at her mother. Teach her a lesson, blame it on Nicholas Boyle. 

That plan is halted by the sound of another door in the hall opening just as he’s quietly shutting his own. Hannibal looks up from the door handle and sees Will Graham leaving his own hotel room. 

Both men freeze and look at each other, Will frozen like a deer in the headlights. Hannibal gives Will a once over. He’s fully dressed, shoes and all, a jacket on, though certainly not actually warm enough for the Minnesota fall air. 

Hannibal is very glad he dropped off his supplies at a somewhat neutral location before today because if he’d been caught with everything, Will would arrest him. 

“Good evening, Doctor Lecter,” Will says after a moment. “What has you up and out of your room at this hour?”

“I should be asking you the same thing,” Hannibal replies with a tilt of his head. 

“Uh huh. Nice try. I asked first.”

Hannibal thinks fast. “I was on my way to the vending machine for something to drink.”

“Right. Well, I’ll walk with you, then,” Will says. He nods once and starts walking down the hallway, towards the elevator where the vending machines are. “I couldn’t sleep so I was gonna go for a walk.”

“Outside? It’s cold,” Hannibal points out. “That jacket can’t be warm enough.”

“I am sweating, if you haven’t noticed. I think the chill will do me some good.”

Hannibal looks at Will again, inhales, and sure enough, he smells the unmistakable scent of sweat. He brings a hand to Will’s forehead and frowns at the heat. 

“You’re quite warm,” Hannibal says. They stop in front of the vending machine and Hannibal puts in a few crisp dollar bills. He punches the button for a bottle of water, then does it again, and hands one to Will. He continues, “You should go back to your room and draw yourself a bath. And drink plenty of water.”

“Are those doctor’s orders?” Will asks, an eyebrow raised. 

“Yes.” 

With any luck, Will is going to listen to him, go take a bath, then go back to bed. Then Hannibal is going to put his plan back in motion to go kill Marissa and display her in the Hobbs’s hunting cabin, to be discovered in the morning when they make the trek out there. 

Will leans against the vending machine, arms crossed, then nods. 

“Might be a good idea. I probably haven't taken a bath in years, but it sounds nice,” Will sighs. 

“Have you been feeling unwell, otherwise?” Hannibal asks. He starts walking back down the hall towards their rooms, wanting to speed this up. 

“Headaches, body aches. I’m probably coming down with something,” Will shrugs. He doesn’t seem too concerned. 

“Well, try and get some rest. Why were you awake tonight?” 

“Nightmare,” Will says. “I’ve been having them a lot since… since Hobbs.”

“Understandable. You are dealing with a traumatic experience on top of a lot of other work related stress. Now you’re back in the state it happened, going to the exact location, surely it cannot be good for you. Perhaps you should go home to Virginia and take some time off?” 

They come to Will’s door and he shakes his head. “No. No, I’ll be just fine. Abigail still needs our help and I feel like I’m finding some answers myself. I’ll take that bath, I’ll take an aspirin, and I’ll get back in bed.” 

“Very well. I cannot force you to go home if you do not wish to. I hope you feel better,” Hannibal says and goes back to his hotel room. 

He waits until he hears the water running through the thin walls and he sets off again, not running into anyone this time. He hopes, if it comes to it, if he needs an alibi, that seeing Will in the middle of the night will do him a favor or two. 

—————

Hannibal works quickly, having lost a bit of time in the hallway with Will. By the time Marissa’s body is mounted on the antlers on the second floor of the Hobbs’s hunting cabin, steadily bleeding out onto the floorboards below, the sun is coming up through the trees. 

Knowing he has to get back soon, he restashes his supplies, somewhere he hopes they will not be found, and he heads back to the hotel. 

Once back at the hotel he sneaks up to his room, careful to avoid the eyes of anyone in the halls, jacket hood pulled up over his head. Inside his room, he strips off all of his clothes and gets in the shower. If Will hears it running through the wall, he’ll just assume Hannibal has just woken up. If Alana or Abigail hear him from the other side, they’ll just assume the same. 

Dried off and clothed again, Hannibal leaves his room and knocks on Will’s door. He’s greeted a moment later, Will rubbing sleep from his eyes, sweat-soaked hair plastered to his forehead, in just his boxers. It’s completely endearing. 

“Mornin’” Will mumbles. 

“I came to see if you were feeling any better,” Hannibal says. 

Will shakes his head. “No, but I’m fine. Sorry, what time is it?”

“9:30,” Hannibal tells him. 

Will pushes his hair out of his eyes and then looks down at himself. The realization he’s just in his underwear clearly hits him and he looks back up at Hannibal with apologetic eyes. 

“Sorry. I didn’t realize I’m half naked.” 

“Not to worry. How about you get dressed and I take you out for breakfast?” Hannibal asks. 

“Okay sure. I’ll shower and get dressed. Twenty minutes?” 

“Twenty minutes is perfect.” 

Hannibal goes back to his room and waits until there’s a knock on his door. He opens it to see Will dressed in the same clothes he wore the night before, the same jacket that will not be warm enough for him. 

They find a diner nearby and walk to it, Will with his hands shoved into the pockets of his light coat. If Will weren’t so stubborn, Hannibal is sure that his teeth would be chattering. 

The diner itself is not quite up to Hannibal’s standards, but he wants to make sure Will eats something. Hannibal sits there drinking cheap black coffee, trying not to grimace with each sip. 

“You really aren’t going to eat anything?” Will asks. He pushes eggs around on his plate with his fork. He picks up a strip of bacon and holds it out to Hannibal. 

With a sigh, Hannibal takes it and eats it, for some reason, not wanting to disappoint Will. Hannibal doesn’t live for anyone but himself, but here he is, doing exactly what Will Graham wants of him. 

“You can’t just ask someone out on a breakfast date and then not eat anything,” Will says. 

Hannibal raises an eyebrow and cocks his head. “Is that what I did? Ask you out on a date?”

“It was a joke,” Will mutters. “Unless that’s what you did.”

“Would you have accepted if I had?” Hannibal asks, curious as to what Will is going to say. He wouldn’t mind dating Will, he’s been completely taken with the man since the second they met in Jack Crawford’s office. 

There’s a darkness in Will that Hannibal wants to nurture and help expand. Hannibal wants to be seen by him, wants to see Will in return. That’s new for Hannibal. Uncharted territory. 

“Maybe,” Will shrugs. He spears a piece of sausage with his fork and brings it to his mouth, watching Hannibal as he chews. Once he swallows, he says, “Although, I’m, like, sort of your patient, right?”

“Not in any official capacity, no. And we could always put an end to that arrangement should our relationship venture into something different.” 

Hannibal takes another sip of his coffee and watches Will, trying to see if his face gives anything away. Hannibal knows he’s being very, very forward and likely shouldn’t even cross any sort of boundary like this. If Alana finds out she’ll definitely report Hannibal on ethics violations. 

“Okay. Yeah. If you asked me out on a date, I would accept,” Will says finally. “But this is not a date. This is me eating breakfast while you watch me like a creep.” 

Hannibal lets himself smile at that. 

“If we do pursue any sort of romantic relationship,” Hannibal starts. “I would not want to tell anyone. At least not until we have been out of therapy together for several months.”

“Bold of you to assume we’ll make it several months,” Will says. He pushes his plate away from himself, clearly done with his half-eaten breakfast. “But, sure. Yeah, that could be serious ethical issues if we tell people now.” 

“Yes,” Hannibal agrees. 

The waitress comes by and sets the check down on the table. Will reaches for it, but Hannibal picks it up first. 

“You didn’t get anything,” Will protests. He reaches to grab the check again but Hannibal just holds it closer to him and pulls his wallet out of his pocket. 

“I asked you to breakfast, I will pay,” Hannibal says firmly. 

Will looks like he wants to protest again but Hannibal shoots him a glare across the table and stands to pay the check up at the front. With a huff of breath, Will stands and follows him. 

On the walk back, Will says, “You never did ask me on a date.”

“I suppose I didn’t. Dinner tonight? I will make reservations somewhere,” Hannibal replies. “Say, 8 o’ clock? Assuming everything with the Hobbs’s cabin goes smoothly.”

“Sure. It’s a date then, Doctor Lecter.”

“Is that what you’re going to call me?” 

“No, probably not.” Will shakes his head. 

They reach the hotel again close to 11 and Alana calls Hannibal the second he’s back in his hotel room. 

“Good morning, Alana,” Hannibal answers. 

“Good morning, Hannibal. Where are you?” 

“I am back in my room, now. Will and I were out for breakfast,” Hannibal says. “Are we planning on going soon?” 

“Yeah, Abigail is getting ready now. Are you ready to go?” 

“I am. I will go check on Will,” Hannibal says and hangs up. 

A few minutes later they all meet at the car. Alana drives and Abigail sits in the passenger seat, giving directions to her father's hunting cabin. 

That leaves Hannibal and Will in the back seat together. Hannibal wants to reach out, see if holding Will’s hand would be acceptable, but with Alana just in front of them, her eyes darting to the rear view mirror every few seconds, Hannibal knows it’s a risk he’s not willing to take. 

Upon arrival at the hunting cabin, Hannibal shuts down all outward emotion about what they are about to uncover. Not wise to look even minutely excited and give away the entire surprise. 

“Everything’s already been taken for evidence, but maybe being here can help you uncover a memory or two,” Will tells Abigail before they get out of the car. 

Walking in, nothing seems out of the ordinary, until blood starts seeping through the ceiling and a drop lands on Abigail’s face. She runs upstairs, against Will’s instructions to let him go first, lets out a piercing scream and nearly falls to the floor in shock at the sight of her friend. 

Hannibal stands there, a hand over his mouth in an attempt to look shocked himself. Will calls Jack, tells him to get crime scene investigators and a coroner here to take the body. Alana takes Abigail back downstairs and out to the car, her wails permeating through the entire cabin. 

“You can go back to the hotel with them,” Will says when he hangs up the phone. “You should. I have to wait here until police show up to rope off the area, then it’ll be another couple of hours before Jack can get here. He’s getting on a plane now.”

“I would like to stay, but maybe we can sit outside?” Hannibal suggests. He’s already grabbing Will by the shoulders and leading him down the stairs to the first floor of the cabin. 

Before Alana and Abigail can leave, Hannibal retrieves a blanket and his extra coat from the car, then tells them to return to the hotel, that they’ll get a ride back with Jack when he arrives. 

Hannibal and Will sit next to each other on the small step outside the cabin’s door. Hannibal gives Will the extra jacket, and Will puts it on gratefully, then Hannibal wraps the blanket over both of their shoulders. They have to sit close, but Hannibal doesn’t mind. 

“We might have to cancel dinner tonight. Sorry,” Will mumbles. 

“That’s alright, Will.” 

“It sucks. I didn’t think this Copycat would kill this way again. Especially with Hobbs dead, of course this guy has to know we know he’s a separate killer, right?”

“Maybe seeming like the same killer wasn’t his intention at all,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“The first one felt gift-wrapped. As if whoever left it had left it to show me exactly what Hobbs wasn’t. Now, sure, it’s a tragedy that another teenage girl had to die for me to see Hobbs, but if she hadn’t, and I hadn’t, there would have been ten, fifteen, maybe even twenty more girls for all we know,” Will says quietly. “But this? I don’t know what this is.” 

Will takes a bottle of aspirin out of his coat pocket and dry swallows two pills. Hannibal brings a hand to his forehead again and feels the feverish warmth under his skin. Will pushes slightly into the touch. 

“You shouldn’t be on this, Will. This case.”

“I really have no choice, Hannibal.” 

He drops his head to Hannibal’s shoulder and Hannibal really can’t believe how freely he’s giving Hannibal trust. Not that a head on a shoulder shows trust, but Will is allowing touch, allowing Hannibal to sit with him, now. The killer he’s searching for. 

“When the police get here, I am going to call Jack Crawford and ask him to list us on the next flight to Virginia, and then I’m going to drive you home and make you soup and feed your dogs.” 

“Hannibal, really. I can’t go home.” He rubs his face on Hannibal’s shoulder, likely enjoying the softness of his jacket. “I have to save lives.” 

“You shouldn’t put your own health at risk.” 

“I’m fine. That’s final.”

Will pulls himself off the step and out of the blanket encasing them both and Hannibal is left cold despite the blanket over his shoulders. Will paces the clearing in front of the cabin, a hand rubbing at his mouth, then fingers massaging at his temples. Hannibal watches him do this for fifteen minutes. 

At that point, the first of the police show up and start roping off the area. Investigators go inside to start marking evidence and Will follows them up the stairs. Hannibal gets up from the step and stands off to the side, out of everyone’s way. 

An officer comes up to him and starts asking questions. Hannibal relays everything that happened from the moment they drove up to the moment Will called Jack Crawford.   

Will comes back outside and stands next to Hannibal. 

“It looks like she tried to fight. There’s blood and skin tissue in her teeth. We might be able to get a DNA match,” Will tells him. 

Of course, Hannibal already knew that. He planted Nicholas Boyle’s blood in her mouth. 

“Well, that’s good news,” Hannibal nods. “Jack isn't flying into Minneapolis, is he?”

Will shakes his head. “Well. Yes, he’s flying into Minneapolis but he’s getting a connection to one of the regional airports closer to us. We won’t have to wait for him to make the drive from MSP to Chippewa National Forest, at least.”

“That’s fortunate.” 

Will nods once then shifts awkwardly on his feet. “They want to wait for Jack before taking the body down, but she’s gonna bleed through those floorboards until she’s drained. I don’t really want to be around to watch it or hear the dripping.” 

“Let’s take a walk, then,” Hannibal suggests. 

They start walking down a path near the cabin, far away from the police who walk in and out, away from the sound of blood dripping onto the floor. 

 


 

Inside the cabin with the investigators, Will realizes something. When they mention Marissa’s supposed time of death, Will realizes that was only a few hours after he had seen Hannibal trying to sneak out of his hotel room. Marissa had been reported missing by her mother earlier that day. She didn’t come downstairs for breakfast that morning and her mom went to check on her, thinking she was just sleeping in, only to find her bed empty. 

Will doesn’t want to think about the possibility of Hannibal being responsible for this, but the timing makes sense. If he took Marissa the night before and sedated her, tied her up somewhere, he would’ve had enough time to get from their hotel to the cabin, kill her at the time suspected, then be back by 9:30 in the morning. The timing is too perfect. 

(And to think he believed Hannibal would actually drink a bottle of water from a vending machine, as if he doesn’t probably buy cases of expensive water everywhere he goes.)

Then he thinks about how he met Hannibal and then the next day, Cassie Boyle was left on the stag head, a crime scene gift-wrapped to the point where he could see almost perfectly. 

And even though it’s quite possible Hannibal killed these girls, he did it for the sake of the investigation. The first one, at least. He saved countless other lives by killing one more to show Will what he was missing. 

He doesn’t actually care about the sound of dripping blood, not that they’ll actually be able to hear it much anyways. She won’t seep through the floor like Will tells Hannibal because a tarp was put down. He wants to talk, but the only way they can do that is if they’re nowhere near the cabin, away from curious ears. So that’s why he’s glad Hannibal suggests a walk. 

Once out of earshot from the cabin, Will stops Hannibal with a hand on his arm. 

“I know,” Will says simply. 

Something on Hannibal’s face changes, and he says, “I don’t know what you’re talking about.”

“You’re the Copycat,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal tenses but Will brings a hand to his cheek, an attempt at soothing the man. He doesn’t look into Hannibal’s eyes, not right now. 

“Are you going to turn me in?” Hannibal asks. 

“No. Not now that I find you interesting,” Will whispers. “But if that blood in her mouth is yours…” 

“It’s not,” Hannibal says, cutting Will off before he can finish his thought. “For you to suggest I could have made such a reckless mistake is almost insulting.” 

“I didn’t mean for it to be,” Will says with a shrug. He finally meets Hannibal’s eyes, hand still resting on his cheek. “I just want to know so I can push this investigation in the correct direction. Whose blood is in Marissa Schurr’s mouth?” 

Hannibal closes his eyes and sighs before answering, “Nicholas Boyle. The young man that came to the Hobbs’ property the other day.”

“Good. I can work with that.” 

“Will, I must say, this is rather unexpected.”

“Is it?” Will asks. He drops his hand and reaches for Hannibal’s own. He looks down at the hand in his grasp, then says, “I feel as though you wanted me to see you, Hannibal. And I do.” 

“Not all of me.” 

“No, I imagine not. Maybe one day.” 

And Will hopes so. He doesn’t know exactly where this is coming from, but as he stands there with Hannibal’s hand in his own, he realizes that it’s something he might want. 

Killing Garrett Jacob Hobbs made him feel powerful, and here’s an intelligent killer right in front of him, one that will show him what he’s missing in crime scenes if he just asks. 

“Maybe,” Hannibal agrees. 

————

Hours later, when Jack finally arrives, Hannibal and Will are sitting in the back seat of one of the police cruisers. Just about everyone is sitting outside in their cars, waiting for the FBI to roll in. 

Beverly, Jimmy and Brian follow Jack up to the door and Will gets out, patting Hannibal on the thigh as a way of saying he’ll be back. He didn’t expect Hannibal to get out and follow them in, too. Of course, no one will question it. Hannibal is supposed to be his anchor in situations like these. 

Hannibal walks ahead of Will and Will watches him whisper something in Jack’s ear. Jack turns to look at Will, then back at Hannibal and nods, patting Hannibal’s back before leaving him to go ahead into the cabin. 

The body has drained by this point, a puddle on a tarp they placed underneath it. There’s markings of possible evidence, which is actually not much at all. 

“Tell me what you think, Will,” Jack orders. 

“Victim’s been ID’d as Marissa Schurr from Bloomington. One of Abigail’s friends from home,” Will starts off. “At first, I believed this to be the same killer that killed Cassie Boyle, but it doesn’t appear that any organs have been taken from Marissa, so it is difficult to say. It could be another copycat killing for all we know. There was blood found in her mouth, by the way.”

Jimmy nods and swaps the inside of her mouth, bagging the sample for testing. 

Will continues, “The killer that killed Cassie Boyle had done it to show us exactly what we were missing in regards to Hobbs. This killing isn’t quite like that. This. This feels like a warning, Jack.” 

“Why do you say that?” 

“A young man showed up while Abigail and Marissa were walking around the woods behind Abigail’s house the other day. He was harassing Abigail because he thought Hobbs killed his sister.”

“Cassie Boyle’s brother,” Hannibal interjects. 

“Right, Cassie Boyle’s brother. I’m not saying for sure it’s him, but it would make sense, Jack. He has the motive, Marissa defended Abigail and threw a rock at him. He would have the means, old enough to leave home, has a car, knows his way around the state, likely. After Lounds’s article about the cabin, anyone has a means to find it,” Will explains. He glances over at Hannibal who is standing behind Jack. Will can tell he’s satisfied with the way this is being handled. “It’s a starting point. Otherwise our suspect pool expands to the entirety of the state that reads Tattlecrime.”

“We’ll start there, then,” Jack nods. “Will, get out of here. You look exhausted.”

“We have no way to get back. Alana took Abigail back to the hotel in the rental car,” Will sighs. 

“I’ll arrange a ride with an officer. We’ll call you in the morning if we figure anything out. You’ve done enough for today,” Jack says. 

The car ride back is filled with silence, the police officer driving doesn’t try to make conversation with the men in the back seat and Will can tell he’s annoyed. Who would want to play chauffeur to the FBI consultants? Will gets it. 

Unlikely they’ll ever see the man again, unlikely that he’ll say anything to Jack, Will decides to reach across the middle of the back seat and pull Hannibal’s hand into his own. They hold hands in the space between them. 

They thank him for the ride when he pulls up outside of the hotel. It’s dark, much too late for a proper dinner date, but Will suggests food anyways. He hasn’t eaten since breakfast, and Hannibal hasn’t eaten at all as far as Will knows. 

They find a decent restaurant near the hotel, and Hannibal actually orders something to eat. 

While they wait for their food, Will tries to find something to say, but nothing seems suitable for public conversation. They just watch each other from opposite ends of the table. 

Dinner goes by in silence. So much for a date, Will thinks sarcastically. 

They finish their meals and leave the restaurant, Hannibal once again paying for their meals, much to Will’s dismay. 

Out of the cold fall air, walking back to the hotel, Hannibal’s hand brushes Will’s and when Will doesn’t pull his hand away, Hannibal laces their fingers together. 

The rest of Will is cold. Hannibal was right about his jacket. The only warm part of him against the cold is where their hands are conjoined. 

When they reach the edge of the hotel parking lot, they release each other, neither one saying a word about it, just knowing that if Alana saw them, it would be bad. Cataclysmic, even. 

Will clears his throat when they reach his door, suddenly nervous. “Did you want to come in?” 

Hannibal glances down the hallway then shakes his head. He lifts a hand to Will’s chin to tilt his face up towards him, and places a soft kiss on his lips. 

“Get some rest, Will,” Hannibal whispers. He backs away from Will and goes to his own door, leaving Will completely flustered in the hallway as Hannibal disappears into his room. Will stands there for a moment, fingertips grazing over his mouth where Hannibal’s lips had been a second before. He shakes his head and pulls himself together, then goes into his hotel room. 

————

Will wakes up to his phone buzzing on the nightstand next to him. He grasps blindly for it in the dark of his hotel room. When he finally gets his fingers around it, he manages to answer it right before the last ring. 

“Hello?” He answers, voice heavy with sleep, throat dry from turning on the AC in the middle of the night after waking up sweating. 

“Will, it’s Jack. Sorry to wake you,” Jack replies. Will knows he isn’t sorry. 

“No, no it’s fine. What’s up?” Will rubs at his eyes, then searches for the lamp switch. He puts on his glasses while Jack talks. 

“We’ve had officers outside the Hobbs residence over night just in case you were right about the murder being a warning. They saw a man lurking around and looking in through windows a few minutes ago. He ran before they could catch him,” Jack explains. 

“They didn’t chase him?” Will asks. 

“No, the area behind their house is really wooded and he seemed to know the area. It might have been Nicholas Boyle.”

“So what are we gonna do then? Did you go to his house to question him earlier?”

“Yes, just after we left the scene. His mother said he hasn’t been home more than five minutes since Cassie’s body was found,” Jack sighs. “She doesn’t know when he’ll be back next or what he’s been doing.”

“So what’s the plan then?” Will asks. He stares up at the ceiling and wonders if Hannibal is awake next door. He wishes Hannibal would have come in with him tonight. 

“Bring Abigail back to her house later today, spend the night there. If he’s lurking, he’s looking for her.”

Will feels rage bubble up inside him. He takes a steadying breath, counts to three, then says, as calm as possible, “You want to use her as bait?”

“You’ll be there, Hannibal will be there, Alana will be there. We will be right down the street to come get him at a moment's notice. You just need to get cuffs on him. You know the Miranda rights, yeah?” 

“I was a police officer for years, Jack. Of course I do. So what, I make the arrest? On what grounds, exactly do I get him? Was there a DNA link or just trespassing?”

“Trespassing for now unless he attempts to harm one of you. We’ll get his DNA when we bring him in.”

“I don’t like this, Jack.”

“It’s all we’ve got, Will. Sooner we get this done, the sooner we can all go home,” Jack says. 

“Have you told Alana about this plan yet?”

There’s a pause. “I was hoping you could.”

“Not a fucking chance. You know how she’ll react, you don’t want to deal with it. Figure it out, Jack. I’m going back to sleep.” 

Will hangs up without another word. He throws his phone back down on the nightstand, takes off his glasses again, turns off the lamp, and turns over, pulling the covers up to his shoulders. Minutes later his phone starts buzzing on the nightstand again.

He answers without looking at the caller ID. 

“Jack, I swear to fucking god,” Will says into the phone, patience running thin. “If you’re calling to ask me to tell Alana I swear-”

“Will.”

The voice that cuts him off isn’t Jack at all.

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “Sorry, I thought you were Jack.” 

“Do you not have contacts saved?” Hannibal asks. There’s a hint of amusement in his voice. 

“No, I’m just not wearing glasses, and I didn’t bother to look, you know,” Will says. 

Hannibal hums in agreement. “Jack did call me a moment ago to tell me about a plan to use Abigail as bait. He then asked if I would pass the message on to Alana.”

“And did you agree?” 

“Absolutely not. I have known Alana for many years, and I know she will be furious with this idea.”

“And you? How do you feel about it?” 

Will knows, knowing what he knows about Hannibal now, that he is likely indifferent. There’s no way Hannibal truly cares about it one way or another. What he doesn’t expect is for Hannibal to tell him the truth. 

“I’m curious to see what will happen,” Hannibal says after a moment. 

At the admission, Will can’t help but let out a quiet laugh. He runs his hand over his face and takes a deep breath, unsure if he should really say what he wants to say. He decides to. 

“You should come to my room.”

The sun hasn’t yet begun to peek through the curtains, and Will has spent every waking moment since they parted earlier in the night thinking about that kiss. It was barely a kiss, more like a brushing of lips, as if Hannibal had just gotten too close. He wants more. 

And it’s likely Jack won’t call Alana for several more hours, having more courtesy than to wake her up at– what time is it? Will thinks. 

Either way, Jack Crawford wouldn’t do that, wouldn’t call Alana at this hour, not when Alana and Abigail are sharing a room and it would cause Abigail panic if she overhears them discussing the plan so early. No, he knows her reaction will be loud and angry, so he’s going to wait until it’s practical for Alana to step away from Abigail for a few minutes. That will not be for several more hours.

So, without the threat of Alana being awake any time soon, Hannibal and Will could have some time to– to what? Will realizes he doesn’t know exactly what reason he asked Hannibal to come over. To kiss? To fuck? To just spend time together? Will finds himself not caring much about the exact outcome. 

“Did you hear me, Will?” 

Hannibal’s voice pulls him out of his thoughts and he curses at himself for getting so wrapped up in them. 

“Sorry, no. What?” Will asks. 

“In an attempt to sound flirtatious, I said ‘oh, should I?’ but when I didn’t receive a response I thought you may have hung up.” 

Will groans quietly at himself for missing that. “Sorry, I was thinking about how if you come over we’d have time because Jack won’t call to wake Alana up at this hour.”

“And yet he decided to call and wake the both of us,” Hannibal says. There’s movement on the other end of the line, it sounds like Hannibal getting out of bed and putting his shoes on. There’s the sound of shuffled footsteps across the carpet and then a door opening. “Very well. I’m outside your door.” 

“Uh. Right.” Will hangs up his phone. He hadn’t expected Hannibal to actually agree so quickly and now he doesn’t even know what he wants or what he plans to accomplish by this late night meeting. 

Will disentangles himself from the hotel sheets and stumbles to the door. He opens it to see Hannibal, still in pajamas, a pair of slippers on his feet. His hair falls into his face and it’s the first time Will has seen him so casual, so soft looking. 

Yet again, Will looks down and realizes he’s in nothing but his boxers and he feels the need to cover up. 

Hannibal pays no mind and steps into the room, a shiver ripping through his body the second he steps over the threshold. 

“It’s very cold in here and you’re in nothing but your underwear,” Hannibal says once the door is shut behind him. 

“I. Yeah. I can turn off the AC if you’re uncomfortable.” 

Will goes to the unit and turns up the temperature a few degrees, but Hannibal comes up behind him and lightly grasps his wrist to stop him. 

“It’s quite alright,” Hannibal whispers. He lets go of Will’s wrist then turns and walks to the bed, climbing in and getting under the blankets. 

“Make yourself at home,” Will mumbles under his breath, but he follows Hannibal and gets in next to him. 

Hannibal brings a hand to Will’s forehead and makes a displeased noise in the dark and Will thinks for a moment that Hannibal might leave if he thinks Will is sick. When Hannibal makes no attempt to move, Will settles down in the bed and lets himself relax again. 

“I understand why you have the room cold,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“I don’t know what’s wrong with me,” Will says. 

“If it persists I would suggest seeing a doctor,” Hannibal tells him. 

“You’re a doctor.”

“Hm, yes, but I do not currently have the proper tools to diagnose you or treat you.” 

“No, I guess not.” 

 


 

Will rolls over onto his side and faces Hannibal, who sits up against the headboard. He looks down at Will and wants to touch him again. Against his better judgment, Hannibal lays down on the mattress on his back and pulls Will towards him, allowing both of them to get comfortable. 

It’s dangerous, as Hannibal wouldn’t mind another few hours of sleep and he knows Will likely needs it too. If they both fall asleep, then chances of them being caught by Alana are high. 

The smaller man is warm against Hannibal’s body, head slightly damp from sweat, where it lays on Hannibal’s shoulder. Hannibal runs a hand up and down Will’s back. Will splays his hand against Hannibal’s chest, right over his heart. 

“Is this what you were hoping for when you asked me to come over?” Hannibal asks quietly. 

“Mm. I wasn’t hoping for anything in particular,” Will responds. Hannibal can hear the truth in his words. “This is good.” 

They lay there in silence for a few minutes until Will speaks again. 

“Were you the guy lurking outside the Hobbs residence?” 

Surprised by the question, Hannibal laughs. “No, although that would not have been a terrible idea. I do believe Nicholas Boyle is trying to find Abigail. Maybe explain that he’s being set up. Surely his mother contacted him about the FBI questioning her. I am sure she has seen her son more than she told them.”

“Well, of course she has. She won’t believe her son had it in him to kill Marissa, and especially not Cassie. She doesn’t want to lose another child, so she’s going to protect him,” Will says. “I mean, wouldn't you?”

“For different reasons, likely.” 

“Do you think Abigail helped her father?”

Again, Hannibal is surprised, but he can’t help but feel like it makes sense that this is where Will’s train of thought has gone. They’ve taken in Abigail, feeling somewhat of a responsibility, and Hannibal sees it in her. That’s part of why he wants to see what may happen with Nicholas Boyle, should he show up to try talking to Abigail. 

“Yes. I do,” Hannibal responds. “I see why you have asked. And yes, I feel the need to protect her from Jack Crawford, but also, as you know, I’m curious.”

In truth, Hannibal can’t believe how open he’s being with Will. All Will currently knows is that Hannibal is the Copycat, not that he’s also the Chesapeake Ripper and several others. In time, everything else will fall into place for Will, and if he doesn’t figure it out on his own, Hannibal may even tell him. That’s how compelled he is to be honest with Will. The person who is hunting him, who could go to Jack with Hannibal’s confessions and put him in prison. It’s a weird feeling. 

“Curious to see if she’ll kill Nick Boyle?” Will asks. His voice is barely audible, muffled against Hannibal’s shoulder. 

“Yes,” Hannibal breathes. 

“It won’t work.” Will lifts his head from Hannibal’s shoulder and meets his eyes in the dark. His voice comes loud and clear as he explains, “Jack will wonder why we left her alone in the house. There’s no reason for him to think we didn't facilitate it if we claim we were all out of the room. And you saw the kid. He’s barely bigger than I am, surely no match against the both of us. He’d have to injure me, you and Alana if we want any chance of it looking like Abigail killed him in self defense.” 

“Can I ask you something?” Hannibal whispers. 

“Sure.” Will drops his head back to Hannibal’s shoulder. 

“Why didn’t you go to Jack? What do you have to gain by letting me walk free?”

“You understand me,” Will says quietly. “Maybe we haven’t known each other for long, but I think what we have experienced together has made us close and I feel as though I can trust you with my brain. Most psychiatrists want to study me, but you’ve never made an indication that would be something you want.”

“And yet, here we are, laying together. We went on a date earlier tonight. Jack Crawford is going to want to find you a new psychiatrist if we stop having sessions.” 

“I’ve considered that. If we don’t tell anyone about our relationship and we just tell Jack we’re still having sessions, what’s the harm? You don’t need to actually act as my psychiatrist, I wouldn’t ask that of you as a… as a romantic partner?” Hannibal makes a noise of assent at that and Will continues, “But it would keep him satisfied. Make him think you’re keeping me stable. I can fake it.” 

“And if you can’t? That would reflect poorly on my reputation if something were to happen to you.”

“I don’t feel unstable… Not always. I don’t know. I’m just thinking out loud here. We don’t have to figure it out right now,” Will says. He yawns into Hannibal’s chest. 

“I feel as though you’re holding onto consciousness just to converse with me. I can go if you would like to sleep,” Hannibal says. He makes no attempt to move. 

“Stay here. Sleep a few hours and go back before Alana gets up.”

“That’s risky.”

“I don’t really care right now. If she sees you going back to your room just say you fell asleep on my chair after coming over to drink the day away,” Will suggests with another yawn. 

“I’m unsure how believable she’ll find that, but very well. As you wish.”

Hannibal reaches over and sets an alarm on his phone for 8 am, four hours from now and he settles back onto the pillow, Will’s warm body curling around him in the freezing room. 

Will’s breathing evens out, his head resting on Hannibal’s shoulder still and Hannibal inhales, trying to focus on the scent beneath the sweat. There’s a fevered sweetness to Will and Hannibal realizes it may be the early stages of encephalitis. 

Quite possibly, Hannibal could use this to his advantage– let Will believe he’s slowly slipping into madness, allow his darker urges to come to light through manipulation of his ailed brain. He stores that possibility away for later, unsure if he wants to do that, or if he wants to spend the rest of his nights like this, with Will curled around his body, sleeping soundly. 

Hannibal knows not where this softer side of him is coming from. Typically all romantic or sexual relationships have been a means to an end. Alibis, to gain information, or just simply because he likes sex. 

Not Will, he doesn’t feel the need to gain anything from Will, though at this point it will help to keep him close, knowing what he knows. It has nothing to do with an alibi because he’s not suspected of anything, nor does he want to reduce it all down to sex. It’s more than that but what it is, Hannibal doesn’t quite know yet. 

The moment he met Will, he was interested. With each conversation after, with Will killing Garett Jacob Hobbs without a second thought, all of it. He feels drawn to Will in a way he’s never been drawn to another human. 

With Will in bed next to him, he lets himself be lulled to sleep by the sound of Will’s steady breathing. 

 


 

Will wakes to a phone ringing nearby and groans, “Oh fuck off,” into his pillow. The pillow then shifts under him and Will realizes it’s a body. He opens his eyes and remembers he had asked Hannibal to stay the rest of the night.

He sees Hannibal turn off the alarm and set his phone back down on the nightstand. Will buries his face further into Hannibal’s chest and then with a groan, he rolls off of him onto his back. 

“I trust you slept well?” Hannibal asks, turning to lay on his side facing Will. 

“Like a baby,” Will responds. He doesn’t remember the last time he slept without nightmares, but with Hannibal there it seems as though they were all scared off. 

“I should go back to my room before Alana wakes up and comes looking for us.” 

Will nods. “Yeah. Probably.” 

“If this case stretches out longer than we planned on staying, I will be having to go home before it’s over. I would honestly suggest you come, as well.”

“We’re gonna end it tonight, though, right? Nicholas Boyle gets caught, they match the DNA? We’ll both need to come back for the trial, I’m sure. It won’t be right away.” 

“Yes, but if it doesn’t go as planned and Nicholas Boyle doesn’t even show up?”

“Are you going to kill him before he can?” Will asks. He sits up and looks down at Hannibal. The man stretches where he lays and smiles lazily as he does it. 

The act seems oddly more human than anything Will has ever seen him do. There’s never much emotion on his face, everything about him always seems so perfect and calculated, but this? His hair is astray and his sweater is rumpled. It’s not the Doctor Hannibal Lecter that everyone else sees. 

“Of course not, just listing possible outcomes.” 

“Right.” 

Will pats Hannibal’s stomach and smiles when Hannibal’s hands catch his. Hannibal lifts Will’s hand to his lips and brushes a light kiss over his knuckles. Will’s heart skips in his chest at the gesture and he is torn between pulling his hand away or leaning down and kissing Hannibal’s lips. He decides to do neither and just stays exactly where he is. Hannibal drops their hands to rest on his chest. Will feels his steady heartbeat under him palm. 

“You should go,” Will says after a few minutes. 

“And yet I find myself reluctant.” 

Will shakes his head with a laugh. “Get up. Let’s go get breakfast and make sure we’re far away from the hotel when Jack calls Alana with the plan.” 

Hannibal sets Will’s hand on the bed between them, then sits up and stretches his arms above his head. 

“I can be dressed in ten minutes,” Hannibal says, collecting his phone and sliding on his slippers again. He goes to the door and opens it just a crack, making sure no one’s out in the hall.

“Ten minutes,” Will agrees and pulls on a pair of pants as Hannibal leaves the room to go back to his own. 

On the walk to a restaurant, Will pulls his jacket tight around him and digs his hands into his pockets.

“I’m assuming you have another car somewhere,” Will says. “There’s no way you drove the rental to do what you did.”

“You would be correct.”

“Are you going to elaborate on how you got a car here? It’s not a rental, right?”

Hannibal shakes his head. “Stolen, of course. I changed the plates, but I took it from a park-and-ride near the airport so the owner has not yet reported it missing.”

Will blinks in disbelief. “You– You what? Hannibal, Jesus, those places have cameras and shit.” 

“I am very good at what I do, Will.” 

“How long have you been doing stuff like this?”

“A long time.” 

Will knows by the tone of Hannibal’s voice that the conversation isn’t going to go much further than this. So much trust has already been given and any more would be too much, too soon. 

They reach a restaurant and Hannibal actually chooses something off the menu this time. Halfway through their meals, Alana calls Will.

“Hello?” Will answers. 

“Did Jack Crawford call you about this plan he came up with?” Alana says right off the bat. She sounds beyond pissed off. “Also, where are you?”

“Yes, Jack called me,” Will sighs. “Hannibal and I are out for breakfast.”

Hannibal tilts his head ever so slightly as if trying to tell Will something. Will can’t quite figure out what, Hannibal’s mental walls built up too high. 

“And do you think it’s a good plan?” Alana asks. 

“God no,” Will says. “I think it’s terrible. Hannibal thinks it’s terrible. Someone’s going to get hurt and Abigail’s gonna end up even more traumatized.”

“I agree. Jack won’t hear it, though. He thinks you’ll be able to restrain Nicholas Boyle and arrest him.” 

“I know.” 

“Anyways. Why don’t you and Hannibal wake us up to see if we want breakfast? That’s two days in a row you’ve gone out without us,” Alana changes the subject. 

“They’re sort of, ah, impromptu therapy sessions. After yesterday, I especially needed it,” Will explains. 

Hannibal gives him a curious look and Will rolls his eyes at him. 

“Look, Alana. We’re gonna finish eating then come back to the hotel, alright? I’ll talk to you later.”

“Alright,” Alana huffs. “Bye.”

Will hangs up and sets his phone down on the table. 

“Impromptu therapy sessions,” Hannibal repeats. 

“I was thinking fast,” Will mumbles into his plate. “Should I have told her flat-out that we’re on a date right now?”

“No.”

“I didn’t think so.” 

They finish their breakfast and Will snatches the check off the table before Hannibal can. When the waiter returns Will’s credit card, he slides it back into his wallet and looks at Hannibal across the table. 

“Hey, so if I’m sick with something, you’re probably gonna get it. I would say sorry, but you kissed me last night and you got into my bed, so I can’t really take responsibility,” Will says. 

“I have complete faith in my immune system, don’t worry,” Hannibal replies.


 

Hannibal says it, knowing full well that Will isn’t sick with anything he can catch. He hasn’t decided whether or not he should tell Will about this or not. The encephalitis could mean promising things for Hannibal. If Nicholas Boyle doesn’t take the fall for these murders, he could easily manipulate Will until believing he committed these crimes. 

At the same time, Hannibal doesn’t want this magnificent mind to boil in this man’s skull. He has crossed a boundary now, becoming a romantic partner as Will had labeled it earlier. Now it’s personal. If their relationship stayed doctor-patient then it would be different, but Hannibal feels no real need to jeopardize what’s becoming of him and Will now. Not when Will is seeing him.

Will doesn’t see everything, Hannibal knows that, but Hannibal decides he won’t work to blind Will as much as he does everyone else. Just as long as Will proves his loyalty to Hannibal and gives him no reason to blind him from the rest of his kills. Will knowing about two murders, both with no evidence leading back to Hannibal, and not saying anything is one thing. When the first was vital to solving the investigation and finding Hobbs, Will is clearly willing to overlook it. The second murder was for nothing other than trying to put the blame on someone else, cover his tracks one step further, and that could be pushing Will’s limit. 

If he finds out about the rest now, finds out that Hannibal is the Chesapeake Ripper, or that he’s killed tens of people that haven’t been attributed to any specific killer, it could be too much. Will can empathize with killers, the most gruesome of them all. He can understand their actions, their motives, everything. But can he learn to love one? The one that his superior has been searching for? And won’t give up until he’s caught? 

All the more reason to keep their relationship a secret for now. If Hannibal does follow through with his encephalitis related plans, then Hannibal will be questioned about his involvement with Will’s alleged crimes. He’ll be asked how he, an accomplished psychiatrist, missed the signs of Will’s developing insanity during a close, personal relationship. The court will take Hannibal’s testimonies with a grain of salt, knowing he’s too biased to be objective about his romantic partner. 

On the other hand, if Hannibal doesn’t go through with those plans, Will would take the fall for any of Hannibal’s crimes. It would be seen as near impossible for such a gifted profiler to miss what is happening right under his nose. If no one knows their involvement with each other, beyond the hour a week spent in Hannibal’s office, or beyond friendly dinners, or working cases together, then no one will suspect the other should anything happen to one. 

Hannibal pulls himself out of his mind when a hand lays over his own on the table. His eyes shift down to the hand, then up to Will’s eyes. Will looks at him under the rims of his glasses, blue eyes wide with something that looks like concern. Hannibal turns his hand under Will’s so they can intertwine their fingers and Hannibal gives Will’s hand a light squeeze. 

“I apologize. It appears my train of thought got away from me,” Hannibal murmurs. “Did you say something?”

“I asked if you’re ready to go.”

Hannibal nods and drops Will’s hand onto the table. He stands and pulls on his jacket, then wraps his scarf around his neck and Will shrugs his own jacket on. 

Just like the previous night, they hold hands on the walk back to the hotel. Will leans slightly into Hannibal as they walk side by side and Hannibal considers the power in the body of the man next to him. He could easily push Hannibal off balance if he wanted to, if he leaned a bit heavier into Hannibal’s body. Hannibal considers himself quite strong, he has to be, but Will doesn’t show his strength in his appearance. Hannibal thinks he wants to test it one day. Maybe even tonight if things with Nicholas Boyle go in that direction. 

Hannibal wants to see if Abigail will kill Nicholas Boyle, but if it comes down to it, Hannibal wouldn’t mind seeing Will do it himself. And of course, if both of them are put in positions where they can’t fight back, Hannibal will just finish the job. At that point it’ll be clear self defense, if the kid is able to do anything to the rest of them. Maybe Hannibal will find a way to keep Alana out of the way for this. 

He will just have to see what happens, he supposes. He grips Will’s hand a bit tighter and slows their pace a bit, wanting to savor this moment before they make it back to the hotel, before they’re stuck with Abigail and Alana for the rest of the day. 

“Will?” Hannibal asks just before they reach the hotel.

“Hm?”

“When this is all done, I would like to have you over for dinner when we return home.”

“I’d like that,” Will agrees.

They drop hands and make some space between each other as they enter the hotel and go to their floor. Hannibal knocks lightly on Alana and Abigail’s door and it opens to Alana standing there, face straight. 

Hannibal knows she’s upset about this plan, but there’s really not much else they can do. They discuss it with Abigail, explaining what Jack had told them. Will explains it, Hannibal stands next to him, not too close, but close enough. Alana looks like she wants to speak during each of Will’s pauses, but he gets his next words in before she can. 

When Will finally finishes, Alana wastes no time. 

“None of you seem worried about this,” she states angrily. “Abigail? How do you feel about this?”

Abigail shrugs. “You’ll all be there right? Nothing bad is going to happen to me.”

“We will not let you out of our sight, Abigail,” Hannibal assures her. “Should he show up, I have full confidence in Will’s ability to make the arrest. Jack Crawford will be right down the street to take him in.”

“Then I think it’ll be okay,” Abigail says. She avoids Alana’s eyes, focusing on Hannibal and Will. “Are we going now?”

Will nods. “Pack your stuff. If this goes well, we’ll all be on a flight back to the East coast by morning.”

Alana sounds beyond annoyed when she says, “We’ll meet you at the car." 

Chapter Text

That night, Nicholas Boyle shows up while Abigail is alone in the basement. Alana had gone out to pick something up for Hannibal, Hannibal was cooking and Will was in the kitchen with him. They had both assumed Abigail would be fine in the basement for a few minutes while she got some time alone. She’s been hovered over by doctors and the FBI for a while now. Letting her sit on the couch in her own home doesn’t seem like too bad of an idea. 

It gives Hannibal and Will a few minutes to themselves with Alana gone. A few minutes they didn’t think they’d have and wanted to take advantage of. Will stands behind Hannibal at the stove, hands on Hannibal’s hips, forehead resting against the back of  his shoulder. Will feels content, it feels domestic, and really, he doesn’t feel good and the touch is calming to him.

Will knows Hannibal has killed people. Likely more than just the two girls. Many more. He can’t bring himself to care about it. Hannibal is a constant in his life at this point, even after just a short amount of time. He understands what Will is experiencing because he experienced it, too. Will doesn’t think he wants to throw that away. He has no reason to hate Hannibal. 

Their moment is interrupted by the sound of footsteps coming up the stairs. Will steps away from Hannibal and leans against a different countertop. When Abigail emerges over the top of the stairs, her hands are covered in blood. 

Abigail looks up at Hannibal and Will from her bloody hands, tears in her vacant eyes. Will rushes to her side and directs her to the sink to wash the blood from her hands, then sets her down in a chair at the kitchen table. He kneels in front of her and Hannibal disappears down the stairs. 

“What happened, Abigail?”

“H-he was going to kill me,” Abigail whispers. 

“Nicholas Boyle?” 

She nods. 

Will hears Hannibal come back up the stairs and turns to look at him. Hannibal nods his head in the direction of the stairs and Will pats Abigail’s knee, then stands to follow Hannibal. 

“She gutted him,” Hannibal says softly as they take the stairs down. “He’s barely alive. We need to decide what to do.”

“It was self defense,” Will says. “It had to have been.”

They come to the body and Will looks down at the blood pooling, a hunting knife next to him on the floor. Nicholas Boyle is gasping as he tries to hold his bleeding stomach together. 

Will looks back up at Hannibal. “What are the chances of him surviving that?” 

“She likely damaged organs and if an ambulance showed up now, he would bleed out before they could even make an attempt to save his life,” Hannibal shrugs. “I, personally, would suggest hiding the body. This goes beyond self defense.”

“I don’t. Not if we come up with a story.” Will shakes his head, then grabs Hannibal’s hand. “I want this to be over. If we hide the body, they’ll keep us here for days trying to draw him out.”

“Will, she’ll be seen as an accessory to her father’s crimes.” 

“No. No,” Will shakes his head again. “Look, over here,” Will moves to the couch where a box is open and a pillow is cut in half, filled with hair. “She had the knife in her hand already, she was opening this pillow because she remembered that her dad used every part of the body. Nicholas Boyle came in. We heard Abigail scream and came running down, but it was too late. He had her pinned, yeah? She stabbed him, we ran to try and save him, we called Jack, we called for ERT, but he was gone.”

“Will.”

“Hannibal. Who’s the one that works for the FBI?”

“Who’s the serial killer?’ Hannibal shoots back. 

This takes Will by surprise. “I- we… Hannibal,” Will settles on. “We’re not hiding this body. It’s going to cause more problems, and Alana’s going to be back soon. Let me work this out. You can say you stayed in the kitchen, and I ran down to see what happened, if you don’t want to be a part of this. If you do, please act like you’re trying to save him when the ambulance gets here.”

Hannibal sighs and kneels down beside Nicholas Boyle, barely holding on and tries to stop the bleeding. Will pulls his phone out of his pocket and calls for an emergency response team, then Jack.

“Jack, he showed up and he’s, well... We left Abigail alone for five minutes and he must have seen Alana leave because he came in and,” Will knows he sounds frantic. 

“Will, slow down. Is anyone hurt?” Jack says in his soothing tone. 

“Nicholas Boyle is. I called for ERT, Hannibal’s doing his best, but I don’t know if it will be enough.”

“Who hurt him?”

“We heard Abigail scream in the basement and ran down, he had her pinned against the wall. She stabbed him with a hunting knife.”

“You saw it happen?”

“She had no choice,” Will says firmly. “I had my gun drawn but the risk of shooting would’ve been too high, I could’ve killed her if I did.” 

“We’ll be there in thirty seconds. I want to talk to her.”

“Okay.” 

Will hangs up and runs up the stairs. He stops in front of Abigail and kneels again.

“Abigail listen to me. Jack Crawford is coming. You are going to tell him that Nicholas Boyle had you pinned to the wall and you screamed. Hannibal and I ran down to see what happened, I had my gun drawn, but you were scared. You had to stab him or he would’ve killed you, and Hannibal tried to save him while I brought you to wash your hands,” Will tells her. “Jack’s going to see you as an accessory to your father’s crimes, but I’m going to help you, you just need to keep it clear that your life was threatened. Do you understand?” 

Abigail nods. 

Jack Crawford and several officers come through the front door and Will takes a step back, then points to the basement. A minute later, the paramedics show up with a stretcher and run down to the basement. Jack goes down the stairs, then comes back up a few minutes later. 

“Abigail, can I speak with you outside?” Jack asks her. “Will, Doctor Lecter was asking for you.” 

Will nods and gives Abigail a pat on the shoulder, before leaving her to be interrogated. He just hopes she sticks to the story so none of them look like liars. 

Downstairs is a mess of officers and paramedics and Will can’t find Hannibal at first. He’s not near the body, which is being loaded onto a stretcher and being covered in a white sheet. Will can hear the water running down a hallway and goes to find Hannibal washing the blood off his hands in the bathroom. Will steps in and shuts the door behind him. 

Hannibal glances up at him, no emotion on his face or in his voice when he says, “I couldn’t save him.”

“Couldn’t? Or didn’t want to?” Will asks. He takes one of Hannibal’s hands and holds it under the water, wiping the blood away.

“Yes,” Hannibal whispers. “I didn’t want to, but I don’t think I could have, regardless.” 

Will hums and picks up Hannibal’s other hand, cleaning the blood away from that one, too. He speaks softly, “Jack is talking to Abigail. I told her to make it clear that her life was threatened. He’s going to want to talk to you, too.”

Hannibal shuts off the water and picks up a towel, drying his hands. 

“Yes, I know. The story is that we heard her scream? You had your gun out, but could not shoot, for risk of hurting Abigail. I came down behind you, I did not see the stabbing completely, just rushed to Nicholas Boyle’s aid while you took Abigail upstairs,” Hannibal says. He turns around and pulls himself up to sit on the bathroom counter, legs spread slightly. 

Will looks down at Hannibal’s lap, then up at his eyes, and Hannibal puts his fingers in Will’s belt loops and pulls him to stand between his legs. They’re close now, and Will leans his forehead against Hannibal’s and closes his eyes. Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s waist and Will puts his arms around Hannibal’s neck.

They stay like that for what feels like an eternity, but not long at all at the same time. Breathing each other’s air, arms wrapped tight around each other. Will, in the arms of a serial killer, when he should be out talking to Jack, or placating Alana when she shows up. Instead, he just closes the distance between their mouths, kissing Hannibal. 

Hannibal makes a surprised noise at the kiss, but starts to move his lips against Will’s a second later. Before it can go too far, Will is pulling away a few inches, pulling in deep breaths of air. When he opens his eyes, he sees Hannibal is smiling at him. 

Will puts his forehead back to Hannibal’s and closes his eyes again, enjoying the closeness. Will knows they’ll have to leave the bathroom soon, as to not be suspicious, but he wants this. 

“Do you think Abigail is going to be arrested?” Hannibal whispers after a few minutes. 

Will shakes his head. “No. Alana’s going to show up any second screaming her head off about how this was a terrible idea and that Jack should have seen something like this coming. And I am going to leave this bathroom in just a minute to ensure that’s the case.” 

“And me?” Hannibal asks. He catches Will’s lips with his own in a soft kiss, but pulls back right away, before Will can even process it. 

“Think about what you’re gonna make me for dinner when I come over. I am sure we’ll be leaving on the next flight,” Will murmurs. He pulls himself away from Hannibal entirely and makes sure he looks presentable in the mirror. “But, actually, you should come upstairs with me. Jack will want to talk to you.” 

Hannibal gets down from the counter and crowds Will against the back of the door. Will puts a hand on his chest and pushes him away, knowing if he gives into temptation, they will never leave the bathroom. 

The crossing of their boundary came easier than Will had thought it would. He was joking when he made the comment about a date, but then touching Hannibal was easy. Kissing him was easy. And it all felt good. Hannibal’s presence is calming even though Will knows he should run in the opposite direction. 

Will turns and opens the bathroom door without another word and steps out into the hallway, with Hannibal following a few feet behind him. They don’t look at each other, they don’t touch, they don’t make any indication that anything other than a private conversation was happening in the bathroom. The officers pay no mind as Hannibal and Will walk through the basement and up the stairs. 

The kitchen is how Will left it, Jack and Abigail still outside. Hannibal goes to the stove to check on the food he had abandoned. He must have turned off the burner before going downstairs because nothing is burnt. Hannibal glances up at Will and Will looks away, having been caught staring. 

Will clears his throat. “We should go outside.”

Hannibal sets the pan back on the stove and nods, following Will through the front door. 

Immediately, the sound of Alana's yelling fills the air. Will ignores her and sits down on the front step next to Abigail. She has a shock blanket around her shoulders, and isn’t handcuffed which is a really good sign. 

Abigail turns to look at Will as he sits, then looks back towards Jack and Alana, who are still arguing. Hannibal sits down next to him, using the limited space on the step as an excuse to sit close, Will knows that. 

“Can I talk to you guys in private? Not now, but soon?” Abigail asks quietly. 

“Of course,” Hannibal responds before Will can. “You are walking from this, yes?”

“Yeah. It was self defense,” Abigail says. 

“And Alana’s still yelling at Jack?” Will asks. “I mean, at least you’ve got people in your corner.”

“Yeah,” Abigail sighs. “Agent Crawford is firm in his belief that I helped my dad, but this doesn’t prove anything.” 

Jack turns and sees them sitting there and when Alana stops talking for a second, he says something to her and walks towards them. 

“Doctor Lecter, can I speak with you?” Jack asks. 

Hannibal stands. “Of course, Jack.”

Alana takes Hannibal’s place next to Will as Hannibal and Jack walk toward the middle of the driveway. 

“Why was Abigail alone?” Alana asks, no nonsense in her voice. 

“I was having a private conversation with Hannibal while he cooked. Abigail wanted to be alone for a few minutes. I figured she knows her own house and would be fine, but apparently Nicholas Boyle did more snooping than we thought,” Will shrugs. 

He doesn’t mention the fact that he and Hannibal weren’t actually talking and that Will was just pressed to his back while he cooked. 

Will realizes he used Hannibal’s first name instead of calling him Doctor Lecter like he normally would and hopes Alana didn’t notice. When she doesn’t say anything further on the topic, apparently too tired to argue any more about it, Will lets out the breath he didn’t realize he was holding. 

He watches Hannibal and Jack speak, unable to hear either of their voices, but Jack seems to believe everything Hannibal says. The man is well-respected, an esteemed psychiatrist, and there’s no reason for him to seem suspicious. Will realizes he’s the perfect kind of serial killer, one that could fly under every single radar for years just as long as he doesn’t leave evidence. The way he acts, the company he holds, the money he has, keeps him from ever being a suspect. It’s genius. 

Will turns to Alana. “Did Jack say anything about us going home?”

“I didn’t let him get many words in.”

Will breathes out a laugh at that. 

Several minutes later, Jack and Hannibal come walking up to the three of them on the step and stop in front of them.

“We’re gonna put you guys in a hotel next to the airport and see about getting you guys on flights in the morning. Beverly’s been texting me about all of it,” Jack says and pulls out his phone. He reads a message and then continues, “We’ll probably have to split you up on separate flights because there are only two seats on each flight.”

“Abigail and I can take two, and Hannibal and Will can take two,” Alana interrupts. 

Will tries to not let anything show in his voice when he says, “That works for me. Abigail and Alana can leave on the first available if that’s okay with Doctor Lecter?”

Hannibal nods. “I do not need to be home to Baltimore for another few days. Are your dogs okay?”

Will nods. He had forgotten about the dogs. “My neighbor is watching them.”

“And, looks like the hotel only has two rooms available tonight. Hannibal and Will, you’ll have to share. Sorry,” Jack says. 

“That should be fine,” Hannibal answers. “What about you, Jack?”

“I’m staying around here. There’s a bit I have to take care of, still. You are all free to go.”

They collect their bags from different rooms of the house, Hannibal takes care of the food on the stove, and they all leave the house, leaving it to be picked through yet again by investigators. 

Hannibal and Will get into the back seat of the car and Alana navigates to the hotel. 

 


Hannibal watches Will go to the hotel desk to check them in, getting key cards for all of them. He checks his watch, much too early to take care of the stolen car, but he’ll have to do it sometime during the night. He’s glad Will knows about him and he won’t have to drug him to ensure he stays asleep. It would likely make him foggy for their flight, could raise suspicions. This will work out, and Will can provide an alibi if anyone asks. 

Will comes back and picks his bag up off the floor, where it had been sitting by Hannibal’s feet, and slings it over his shoulder. He hands Abigail and Alana their room keys, then hands Hannibal’s to him. Hannibal lets their fingers brush on the exchange and smirks when Will freezes. Hannibal goes on pretending like nothing happened as they go to the elevator.

“Since dinner was cut short, should we get settled and then eat at the restaurant attached to the hotel?” Hannibal asks. He pushes the button to his and Will’s floor, then Alana punches another number. 

“You guys go ahead, I’m not hungry anymore,” Alana says. 

“Abigail?” Will asks. 

“Yeah I’ll eat,” Abigail nods. 

“We’ll drop off our bags, then come to your room to get you,” Will tells her. “Ten minutes, maybe?”

Hannibal knows Abigail is going to tell them about her involvement with her father’s crimes, that’s why she asked to talk to them in private. He hopes the restaurant will be empty enough at this hour, well past the dinner rush, so she can tell them now. That way Hannibal can find the evidence and cover it up before the FBI finds it. Or find a way to justify it in a way that will keep her out of prison. Hannibal wants to see what she can become if she continues to walk free. 

The elevator opens and Hannibal and Will step out onto their floor, leaving Abigail and Alana behind. 

“I should warn you that I get nightmares, but I think I’ve told you that. I might wake you up,” Will says as they approach their door.

“You didn’t this morning,” Hannibal reminds him. 

“No, but it might still happen.” 

“I will consider myself warned,” Hannibal says. He slides the key into the door and pushes down on the handle, pushing the door open. 

Hannibal holds the door as Will walks in, then shuts it behind them. Will sets his bag down on one of the beds and Hannibal does the same with the other. 

“I need to tell you that I will be leaving sometime tonight to dispose of some evidence and return the car,” Hannibal says. He looks down at his bag as he says it. 

“Okay. Maybe wake me up before you go? Just so I know.”

“If you want,” Hannibal agrees. It’s a simple enough request. He looks down at himself. “I believe I should change my clothes.”

Hannibal hadn’t even realized he was still covered in blood. Oh, how that must have looked to everyone in the lobby. 

Opening his bag, he removes a sweater and a pair of slacks, then takes them to the bathroom to change and clean up some more of the blood from his skin. He’ll have to shower when they come back from dinner, but they told Abigail ten minutes, and he doesn’t want to make her wait. 

When he emerges, Will is sprawled out on his back on the bed Hannibal had set his own stuff on, a clear hint that Will wants to share. He climbs onto the bed and over Will’s body, holding himself up by hands on either side of Will’s face while he looks down into lovely blue eyes. 

“Hi,” Will smiles. 

“Hello.” Hannibal returns the smile, then leans down to press a kiss to Will’s lips. Before Will can react, Hannibal is hauling himself off the bed and grabbing one of Will’s hands to pull him up too. “We shouldn’t keep Abigail waiting.”

“No we should not,” Will agrees, but he wraps an arm around Hannibal’s waist and pulls him right to his chest. “Stop kissing me then running away like that.”

“Does it bother you?” Hannibal whispers. He brings his forearms to rest on Will’s shoulders. 

“Yes. It’s shockingly annoying.”

Hannibal doesn’t respond, just leans forward and kisses Will. When he pulls away, it’s slow, allowing for Will to chase after his lips. He doesn’t try to pull out of their loose embrace and lets Will take the first step away. 

“Will.” Hannibal stops him a foot from the door with a firm hand gripping his arm. 

“Hm?” Will turns to look at him. 

“I cannot be certain, but I believe Abigail is going to tell us of her involvement in her father’s crimes.”

“I assumed as much. We helped her come up with a plan to make sure she wouldn’t be convicted of murder. She trusts us,” Will shrugs. 

“Yes. That said, we mustn’t let on that we know Nicholas Boyle is not the man who killed those girls. She may trust us, but I am not willing to share this information about myself,” Hannibal says. 

“Hannibal. I am never going to tell anyone about you unless you give me a reason to do so.” 

Hannibal searches Will’s eyes for any sign of dishonesty, but he doesn’t come up with what he’s looking for. He releases Will’s arm and nods. 

They collect Abigail from her and Alana’s room and go down to the restaurant. Hannibal is relieved to see the restaurant is nearly empty. 

Abigail sits across from Hannibal and Will and they sit in silence while they look at the menu. Finally Abigail sets hers down and looks up at them. 

“Are you guys dating?” Abigail asks. 

Hannibal and Will look at each other, completely surprised by the question. Before they can think of an answer, Abigail continues. 

“I’m not going to tell anyone, don’t worry.” She looks back down at the menu. 

Hannibal opens his mouth to speak, but Will beats him to it. “We are. Is it that obvious?”

“No. While I was coming up the stairs earlier, you didn’t move away from Hannibal quick enough. The stairs in my house are built so I can see above the floor as I come up. I purposefully made noise after I saw so you wouldn’t feel caught,” Abigail explains. 

“Right,” Will huffs. “I guess we’ll be more careful next time.”

Abigail shrugs. “Well, now you don’t need to hide it with me because I know. You are hiding it, right?”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. He puts his hand over Will’s on the table. “There are people who see me as Will’s psychiatrist even though I am not. Some of our acquaintances will be unhappy with the nature of our relationship.” 

“Doctor Bloom and Agent Crawford?” Abigail asks. 

“Yeah,” Will responds. “Is this why you wanted to talk to us privately?”

“Oh. No, not exactly.” Abigail looks around the restaurant. “I, um, actually? I’d rather not talk about that in public.” 

Will leans forward across the table and lowers his voice. “If it’s about your involvement in your father’s crimes, we know. You can talk to us when you’re ready, but we’re here to help. We’re going to protect you, Abigail.”

Tears well up in Abigail’s eyes and she nods, then looks back down at her menu. Hannibal uses his free hand to reach across the table and put his hand over hers, a soothing gesture. 

“He means it, Abigail. We will do everything in our power to convince Jack of your innocence. Come to us when you are ready and I will cover up any and all evidence you can think of,” Hannibal says. 

“I wouldn’t even know where to start,” she laughs quietly. “What will they be looking for?”

“Receipts, plane or train tickets. He took girls from colleges, so if you were there on tour, they’ll look into that. Hotel rooms,” Will lists off. “Most of that stuff can be explained away, though. You can’t tell anyone you ever knew anything. Hannibal and I are the only people.”

“Will, you're FBI. Shouldn't you be… not helping me?”

Will shakes his head. “Whether you were an accomplice or not, your father destroyed your life by what he did. There’s no way any normal person can expect you to turn in your own father. Especially with what happened when he got the message we were coming.” 

“And Abigail,” Hannibal starts. “If, for some reason, we cannot help you, you cannot tell anyone at all that we were aware. If you do, we will not be able to continue helping.”

“What, you mean like, break me out of prison?” Abigail asks. 

Hannibal is about to say, or fake your death, but the waiter comes up to the table to take their orders, effectively shutting down their conversation for the time being. 

They all sit up straight and pull their hands back into their own spaces while they order their food, and watch as the waiter takes their orders to the kitchen. 

When he’s out of earshot, Hannibal whispers, “If either of us catch wind that the FBI is on your tail, I believe we should be able to fake your death. I would be able to get you a new identity and you could go to school in another country, or stay in hiding in Baltimore, at my home. It would not be ideal, but it would ensure your freedom for the most part.”

Abigail nods, but doesn’t say anything. Hannibal knows it’s a lot to put on her, especially after killing Nick Boyle. 

While they wait for their food, Will drops his head into his hands on the table, rubs at his eyes with the heels of his hands, then sits up straight to pull something out of his pocket. Hannibal watches as Will shakes two pills out of his bottle of aspirin and swallows them with his water. 

Hannibal frowns and lifts a hand to feel Will’s forehead. 

“I think you should see a doctor when you get home,” Hannibal murmurs. He pushes Will’s hair out of his eyes, then puts his hand on Will’s back instead, rubbing his hand up and down. Will relaxes into the touch. 

“Maybe. I’m sure I’m fine,” Will says. “Just a fever and headaches. I’ll get over it.”

Hannibal wonders how long it’ll be before Will is having worse symptoms, if this is encephalitis, as he suspects. If Will is too stubborn to go to the doctor for the physical symptoms, maybe he will for the mental ones. If Will thinks he is going crazy, maybe he’ll lean more heavily on Hannibal, needing him to the point that when Hannibal finally reveals (or when Will makes the connection between Hannibal and the Ripper by himself) how many people he has killed, Will would have no choice but to overlook it. 

It would be a subtle manipulation, one that he could easily lie his way through an explanation when Will inevitably finds out what’s going on. Hannibal decides he won’t direct Will to a neurologist until it starts to become noticeable to other people, too. 

This way, when other people start to notice, Hannibal can pretend he has only just noticed, as well. There would be no criticism about his lack of observation of Will’s stability. No one will ask how he didn’t think to intervene. If he uses Will’s sickness for his advantage any further than that, it’ll reflect poorly on him when Will completely loses himself. 

 


 

After dinner, they drop Abigail off at her room, then go back to their own. Will’s head is killing him, despite the aspirin he took, and he just wants to lay down and go to sleep. He dreads the early morning flight that Jack got them on. 

“I am going to take a shower,” Hannibal says. “There's still quite a bit of blood on me.”

Will nods and flops down on Hannibal’s bed, hoping his intention of sleeping next to Hannibal is clear. 

“I’ll take one after you,” Will tells him. Not that he wouldn’t mind taking one with Hannibal, but he actually wants to get clean. He wants to sleep. And even though Hannibal has faith in his own immune system, Will still thinks it’s probably a bad idea to continue kissing him. Even just sleeping next to him could make him sick, but Will slept better in Hannibal’s arms earlier than he has in weeks. 

Hannibal disappears into the bathroom and Will hears the shower turn on. He reaches for the remote and flips through the TV channels until he finds Jeopardy. He turns the volume low, trying to help his head, but the ache persists. Maybe Hannibal is right and he should see a doctor. 

When Hannibal comes out, Will jolts awake, realizing he had started to doze off until he heard the bathroom door open. Hannibal comes out in just a towel and goes to his bag. Will averts his eyes when Hannibal drops the towel and pulls on a pair of underwear, and then a sweater, forgoing pants. 

“Shower in the morning, Will. You’ll fall asleep standing up if you do it now,” Hannibal says as he gets into the bed next to him. 

“Okay. As long as you don’t mind me smelling like I do,” Will says. He stands up from the bed and starts unbuttoning his flannel. 

“I don’t mind,” Hannibal confirms. 

Will strips down to his boxers and undershirt and gets into the bed besides Hannibal. 

“I didn’t even ask if we could share a bed,” Will frowns. “It’s okay, right?”

“Yes, it’s alright.”

“If I start kicking feel free to push me off the bed,” Will says. He turns off the lamp on the nightstand and plugs in his phone to charge. Then he turns off the TV and settles into his side of the bed. 

“You were a perfectly respectful bed partner this morning,” Hannibal whispers into the dark. 

“Still.”

Will rolls onto his side, facing away from Hannibal. He’s not sure how the other man would feel about him sleeping closer, if he’s okay with cuddling while they sleep. He seemed fine with it before, but Will hadn’t even asked. It’s weird to think that a killer would do something like that. 

His worries are put aside when an arm comes around his side and Hannibal presses himself into Will’s back. 

“Is this okay?” Hannibal asks. “If you would prefer to sleep on separate sides of the bed, that is fine, but I’d like to be close.”

Will’s breath catches in his throat and he swallows audibly. He whispers, “Yeah, yes. This is okay.” 

“Good,” Hannibal whispers. He presses his face into the back of Will’s neck and inhales. 

“Did you just smell me?” Will asks. 

“Yes.” 

The arm around Will’s waist tightens and Will relaxes his body into the contact. He knows he’s going to get too hot, he’ll start sweating. He’ll probably end up moving to the other bed in the middle of the night. 

“You said you were leaving?” Will remembers. 

“In a few hours,” Hannibal says into Will’s neck. “I’ll wake you before I go.”

“Okay.” 

Will falls back asleep, content to be held as he does. He dreams of his stream by his house. 

It’s peaceful until it’s not, until he hears heavy hooves in the dirt and turns to see a giant black stag, covered in feathers. Atop the stag’s antlers lay a girl, who appears to be Marissa Schurr. Will wades out of the stream and gets closer, only to find that the girl impaled on the stag’s head is Abigail Hobbs. 

Will’s mind is telling him that he put her there, that he killed her and placed her on the antlers to bleed out. Her blood runs down over the stags face, down to the ground and pools at his feet. It spreads to the edge of the stream, filling the water with red. 

He wakes up abruptly, sweat covering his entire body, breathing heavy. He tries to sit up, but he’s pinned in place by a strong arm.  

“You’re okay,” a voice murmurs. The arm around his waist holds him tighter and Will remembers he’s with Hannibal. It doesn’t help him relax at all. “I’ve got you, Will.”

His attempts to steady his breathing and calm his mind aren’t helping at all. Lips on the back of his neck, leaving light kisses, don’t help either. The arm around his waist isn’t doing any favors. 

“Let go of me,” Will says. The arm loosens immediately and Will is able to sit up finally. He sits on the edge of the bed, feet planted firmly on the floor, trying to ground himself. He drops his head into his hands, elbows resting on his knees. “Sorry. I just need a minute.” 

Hannibal sits up behind him and leans against the headboard. He turns on the lamp and the room is no longer filled with darkness. 

“What time is it?” Will asks. 

“Nearly 2.”

“When are you leaving?”

“I was going to get up at 2, but if you need me to stay here I should be fine pushing it back a bit. The car is not far. I just need to dispose of my supplies and change the plates back,” Hannibal tells him. “Then return it to where I found it, of course.”

“You shouldn’t return it. Too risky,” Will says. The subject is a welcome distraction from the nightmare he just woke up from. “You wore gloves, right?”

“Yes, there would be no evidence of myself in that car after I remove everything from it.”

Will nods. “Then don’t return it. Just make them think it was stolen and ditched.”

“Very well. If you think that would be best.”

“Yeah,” Will says. “And you can go now if you want. I’m going to take a shower while you’re gone.”

“Did you wish to talk about your nightmare?” Hannibal asks. 

Will turns back to face Hannibal, then moves closer and lays next to him. He rests his head on Hannibal’s thigh and Hannibal lifts a hand and seems to hesitate before putting it in Will’s hair. 

“It was nothing. I’m sorry I’m such a nutcase,” Will mumbles. 

“Nightmares are a normal response to trauma, Will.”

“But you shouldn’t have to worry about mine outside of therapy,” Will says. “I can’t ask that of you.”

“Will,” Hannibal says softly. “I knew what I was signing up for when I asked you to go on a date with me.”

“If it ever gets to be too much, I understand.”

“It won’t.”

“How can you be sure? If we continue seeing each other, this is going to be an every night thing. Can you really deal with me interrupting your sleep every time we share a bed?” 

Hannibal’s fingers move through Will’s hair, lightly massaging his scalp. It seems like an absent minded action, but Will can’t help but feel like nothing Hannibal does is absent minded. He seems so calculated about everything he does. 

“I require less sleep than most people. And if you recall, I was going to be waking up soon, regardless,” Hannibal whispers. “I enjoy your company, Will. I would like to pursue a relationship with you, and that means all of you. If you have nightmares every night and I never sleep again, I would just be content to lay by your side.”

Will scoffs, “You can’t mean that.” 

“I do.”

For some stupid reason, Will believes him completely. Hannibal moves his hand from Will’s hair to his back, and lets it rest between Will’s shoulder blades. Will feels safe again, the nightmare nearly forgotten. He can’t help but wonder if he’s just reflecting Hannibal’s calm mood, but he won’t complain. 

He does make a noise of complaint when Hannibal pats his back once and tells him he has to go, but Will just rolls onto his back and lets him up. He watches as Hannibal pulls on pants, and then a jacket. 

“I am leaving my cell phone here. I apologize that you will not be able to reach me if you need me, but-”

Will cuts him off. “I know. Tracking. It’s okay.”

Hannibal nods once and puts on his shoes. He gets to the door, then turns around and walks back to the bed. He leans down and kisses Will once before standing straight again.  

“I’m not kissing and running. It is simply a kiss goodbye,” Hannibal says. 

Will can’t help but laugh. “Don’t get caught.”

“I won’t.”

And with that, Hannibal leaves. 

Will rolls out of bed and strips off his sweaty shirt and underwear next to the bed. He goes into the bathroom, finds a towel, and steps into the shower. He turns the water cold to relieve some of the heat in his body and sighs under the spray. 

Hannibal left his shampoo, conditioner and body wash in the shower, and figuring he won’t care, Will uses them. He washes away the caked on sweat and stays under the spray until he feels like he can’t anymore.

Will steps out and towels off. He drops the towels on the bathroom floor and opens the bathroom door, stepping into the bedroom, figuring that since he’s alone he doesn’t need to worry about modesty. He freezes when the door opens and Hannibal steps into the hotel room right as Will starts walking toward his bag. 

“Sorry,” Will finally says and walks the rest of the way to his bag to find clothes. He can feel Hannibal’s eyes on his naked body the entire time. 


Hannibal inhales deeply and smells his shower products on Will from across the room. The sight of Will naked, skin glistening from the shower, hair still damp, the smell of himself on him, makes Hannibal’s pants feel infinitely tighter. 

Will goes to pull underwear out of his bag, but Hannibal steps close to him and grabs his wrist to stop him. He presses himself to Will’s back and feels the man shiver at the cold still left on Hannibal’s clothes from being outside. 

“You’re gorgeous, Will,” Hannibal whispers into the back of his neck. He inhales again, closer now. 

Will turns around and brings both hands to cup Hannibal’s cheeks, then leans forward to kiss him. Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s waist and pulls him close. The kiss is soft and slow at first, but grows hungrier as the seconds tick by. Hannibal can feel Will’s cock hardening against his and pulls Will even closer to him, both of them groaning into each other’s mouths. 

“I feel severely overdressed,” Hannibal breathes when he pulls away. 

“What’s to be done about that?” Will asks. He moves his hands to push Hannibal’s jacket over his shoulders and Hannibal releases Will’s waist to take it off completely. 

Hannibal pulls his sweater over his head as Will starts at Hannibal’s belt and zipper. He pushes Hannibal’s pants and underwear down at the same time and Hannibal kicks off his shoes, then his pants, leaving everything in a messy pile on the floor. 

Then Will’s mouth is back on Hannibal’s as Will pushes him back towards the bed. Hannibal feels the mattress behind his legs and allows himself to sit. Will pulls away for a second to breath and Hannibal scoots back on the bed. Will follows after him, straddling Hannibal’s thighs where Hannibal sits. 

There’s still too much distance between them for Hannibal’s liking so he pulls Will down and forward by the hips so he’s fully sitting in Hannibal’s lap. Their cocks press together between their stomachs and Hannibal is fully hard now. Aching for the man on top of him.

Will’s lips are back on Hannibal’s in that instant. He pulls away from Will’s mouth for a second. He looks up into the wild blue eyes that stare down at him. Will’s cheeks are flushed a beautiful pink and he’s panting slightly. 

“You really are beautiful,” Hannibal murmurs. He presses a kiss to Will’s jaw and then his throat. 

Hannibal notices that Will ignores the compliment, just as he had the first one. He thinks he’ll have to ask about that in the future. He grazes his teeth over Will’s throat and bites lightly. 

Will slides back slightly, their cocks no longer trapped between their stomachs, but still lined up next to each other. He reaches down, fingertips grazing over Hannibal’s erection. Hannibal desperately wants Will to take them both in his hand, but Will stops and pulls his hand back, away from both of them.

“I, is this okay? You want this?” Will asks. 

“Yes. Very much, Will,” Hannibal says into Will’s neck. 

That’s all it takes before Will takes them both in hand and starts to stroke them both slowly. Hannibal lets out a low moan into the crook of Will’s shoulder and bucks his hips up into Will’s dry grip. Will pulls his hand away and Hannibal pulls his head from Will’s shoulder and almost growls, but stops when Will spits into his hand and brings it back. 

Hannibal grips Will’s hips and encourages him to thrust into his own grip and both men moan at the friction. Will’s hand moves faster, and Hannibal buries his face in Will’s neck again. He starts sucking a spot on Will’s throat before he can stop himself and when Will moans, he feels he has no choice but to continue. 

Will’s hand speeds up even more, his hips moving quicker and Hannibal knows he has to be close. He bites lightly into another spot on Will’s neck, sucking and leaving bruises across the skin. 

“I’m, ah, not gonna be able to- I can’t cover those up,” Will pants out between moans, referring to the bruises forming on the skin. “Someone will- ah fuck, someone’s gonna see them.” 

“Good,” Hannibal breathes. 

When Will comes, it’s with his head thrown back, and Hannibal’s name falling out of his mouth and that is enough to bring Hannibal over the edge, too. Will strokes them both through it, then pulls his messy hand away when it gets to be too much. 

Will lifts Hannibal’s chin with his clean hand and claims Hannibal’s mouth with his own. The kiss is soft and lazy and after a minute Will pulls away. 

“I’ll be right back,” he whispers and climbs out of Hannibal’s lap. Hannibal flops down onto the mattress and stares at the ceiling. 

He disappears into the bathroom and Hannibal can hear the sink running before Will comes back with a wet cloth. He’s already cleaned himself up and comes back to the bed to clean Hannibal.  

Will just drops the wet cloth on the floor and gets into bed, then pulls Hannibal up. Will sits against the headboard and pulls Hannibal to sit between his legs, up against his chest. Hannibal leans his head back onto Will’s shoulder and Will rubs his hands over Hannibal’s chest. 

“If you told me we’d be doing that that day we met, I’d have laughed in your face and stormed off,” Will laughs. 

“To be fair, I told you nothing of the sort and you still stormed off,” Hannibal says with a lazy smile. 

“Mm, yeah. You’re right.”

They sit like that in silence for a few minutes before Hannibal pulls himself out of Will’s arms to turn off the lamp on the bedside table. He settles back down and pulls a blanket up over them. 

Will’s chest is warm on his back, his skin feverish, not just warm from exertion. 

“How did your thing go?” Will asks. 

“Good. Everything is taken care of,” Hannibal answers. “What time is our flight?”

“9. We should leave here at 7:30. What time is it now?” 

“I got back around 3:30, I believe.” 

“So we have three hours to sleep, then,” Will says. 

“Yes. I think sleep would be wise for both of us,” Hannibal agrees. 

“I used your shower stuff, by the way. I hope that’s okay,” Will says. 

“Yes, more than okay,” Hannibal answers. 

Hannibal climbs out of Will’s arms and settles down on his side of the bed. Will lays down next to him and faces him. 

“Turn over,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal does as he’s told and Will presses up to his back, wrapping an arm around his waist. Much like how they were laying when Will had his nightmare, but the roles reversed. 

“Is this okay?” Will asks. He continues before Hannibal can answer, “I felt pinned in place earlier, like I was experiencing sleep paralysis earlier when I woke up with your arm holding me down. I… I enjoy being close, but I didn’t like feeling trapped after my nightmare. And I was hot and felt like I was suffocating. This way if I need to move, I can.” 

“I didn’t realize you felt that way, but I am glad you have told me. This is fine for me,” Hannibal responds. 

He had thought his grip on Will earlier would be a grounding point of contact, but he didn’t take into account that Will isn’t used to that much human contact. There’s a chance he woke up not remembering he was in bed with someone else, thinking his body wasn’t awake yet while his mind was. 

“It’ll probably be better for me once this fever breaks and I’m not so uncomfortable,” Will whispers. “Speaking of which, really, Hannibal. If we keep kissing each other, you’re going to get sick, too.”

“I have full faith in my-”

“Full faith in your immune system, I know, but everyone gets sick,” Will cuts him off. 

Hannibal can’t even find himself to be annoyed or mad at Will cutting him off so impolitely, in a mocking tone such as his. Hannibal knows it’s light hearted, but even so, if someone else talked to him like that he would certainly not tolerate it. 

“Get some sleep, Will,” Hannibal says. Will’s worries about him getting sick can be voiced at another time. Hannibal isn’t worried, he can’t catch the encephalitis. He’ll tell Will what the problem is eventually, he decides. Maybe sooner than originally planned. 

He finds himself thinking about it while he drifts off to sleep. 


Will wakes up to the sound of a knock on their door and rolls over to check his phone. It’s 6:00. Too early to get up. He turns back to Hannibal, hoping whoever is at their door will just leave, and wraps his arm back around the sleeping man to try and get a bit more sleep before his alarm is supposed to go off. 

There’s another knock and Hannibal starts to stir. 

“Are you going to get that?” Hannibal asks, accent thicker from sleep. 

“No.”

Then Will’s phone starts ringing and Alana’s contact shows up.

“It’s Alana,” Will says. “Shit.”

He accepts the call. “Yeah?”

“I have a few items from the car for you and Hannibal. We’re leaving soon and I’ll have to return the car.”

“Right, yeah. Give me a minute.”

Will jumps out of bed and picks up a pair of underwear and a shirt off the floor, pulling them both on. He messes up the blankets on the other bed to look like it was slept in. 

“Will,” Hannibal says and Will turns to look at him. 

Hannibal is getting out of bed already and is pulling on clothes himself, and gestures to his own neck and Will remembers last night, remembers the bruising kisses and bites Hannibal had left. 

He wishes in that moment he had one of those scarves Abigail wears to hide her scar.

“I’ll get the door,” Hannibal says. “You go get properly dressed in the bathroom.” 

Will nods and takes his entire bag into the bathroom, not having time to find something. He hears Hannibal open the door and Alana’s voice, but can’t hear the words spoken. 

He looks in the mirror and examines the marks on his skin. He’ll have to get some makeup to cover them up when he goes back to work. He’s extremely lucky that Alana is on an earlier flight than them and that he won’t have to see her this morning, but that was a very close call. 

The hotel room door closes again and there’s a knock on the bathroom door.

“She’s gone, Will.” 

Will opens the door, still not dressed yet, just in the underwear and shirt (which he realizes is the sweater Hannibal discarded earlier) he went in wearing. 

“That was close. No more marks if we’re gonna successfully hide this,” Will says firmly. 

“This morning would have been difficult to lie about, but in the future you could always just say you are seeing someone and that you aren’t telling anyone,” Hannibal shrugs. “I cannot promise I won’t mark you again.”

“People are going to think I have some secret girlfriend,” Will mumbles. “Or that I gave these to myself to make it look like I have a girlfriend.”

Hannibal smiles. “Get dressed. Let’s get breakfast downstairs. There’s a shuttle from the hotel to the airport, so we will not need to call a cab.”

Will nods and leaves the door open as he brushes his teeth and pulls on comfortable clothes for the flight. Hannibal dresses in one of his three piece suits. 

“Am I coming over for dinner tonight?” Will asks as Hannibal brushes his teeth. 

Hannibal spits into the sink and wipes his mouth with a towel. “If you’d like. Or I can come over and cook at your house if you’d like to get your dogs home and settled in tonight.”

“Actually, that’s a good idea,” Will decides. “You can drive me home, I’ll get the dogs from my neighbor’s and then we can go to the grocery store together? Unless you want to go home for a bit.” 

“Yes, I think I’ll go home just to change my clothes. I may have some meat in my freezer that I could bring back.”

They pack up their bags and leave them in the room while they go downstairs to get breakfast at the hotel’s restaurant. 

The waiter eyes the bruises at Will’s neck and Will pretends nothing is out of the ordinary. He can see Hannibal’s faint smile. 

When they finish breakfast, they go up to their room again and make sure they have everything before collecting their bags and going downstairs to wait for the airport shuttle. Will reaches out and grabs onto Hannibal’s hand while they wait, happy that Alana is gone and they won’t have to hide for the rest of the day. 

The airport is busy, they have to wait in line to check in and check their suitcases. The security line is even longer, wrapping around the entire roped off area. Will holds tight to Hannibal’s hand the entire time and hopes that none of the other FBI agents are on their flight or at the airport at the same time as them. 

Will isn’t too worried about someone like Beverly finding out, but there’s always the chances that she’ll tell Jack. Freddie Lounds flashes through Will’s mind too, and he wonders if Freddie could be in Minnesota right now. Surely she’d have heard about Marissa Schurr and Nick Boyle by now. Maybe she’s already here. Will doesn’t falter in his grip on Hannibal’s hand, though. 

Once they get through security, Will releases some of the tension he didn’t know he was holding. 

“Coffee?” Will asks. Hannibal nods and they walk to the Starbucks across from the TSA checkpoint. They both order black coffee and Hannibal pays before Will can even get his wallet out. 

Will figures that is how it’s going to be now. 

At the gate, they settle into seats next to each other and wait for the gate agent to call their zone to board. Somehow the seats left on the plane were actually next to each other and Will is grateful. 

Hannibal lifts a hand to Will’s forehead, and Will thinks he should be annoyed by that at this point, but he finds that he can’t be. Hannibal frowns just as he has every other time he’s done it. 

“Besides the nightmares have you been experiencing anything else? Hallucinations? Lack of coordination?” Hannibal asks. 

Will freezes at the word hallucinations. He really hopes he isn’t going crazy. “No, why?”

“Just going through a possible list of ailments in my head. I do smell something on you, but I cannot be certain without the other symptoms,” Hannibal says quietly. “Please do keep me updated if anything changes.”

“I, yeah. Okay. You don’t think it’s just the flu?” 

Hannibal shakes his head. “No, but it’s too hard to tell. We’ll see how it progresses.”

Will isn’t sure if he should be relieved or not that he has a doctor- boyfriend? Partner? Is it too soon to label it? Will wants to ask, but before he can, their zone is called to board and Hannibal stands, offering a hand to Will to pull him out of his seat. 

They board the plane, shove their bags under the seat, and Hannibal sits in the window seat, with Will next to him in the middle. A man sits on Will’s left and immediately puts his headphones on. 

Hannibal lifts the armrest between them and Will settles into his side, resting his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. He lets himself doze off when the plane finally takes off. He wakes up periodically, looks up at Hannibal’s face. He’s awake, watching a show on the screen in front of him. Will falls back asleep with a smile on his face each time.

When the pilot announces they’ll be touching down at Dulles in twenty minutes, Will finally decides to actually wake up. He sits up straight, but holds Hannibal’s hand in the space between them. 

It takes another twenty minutes to get to a gate by the time they land and by then, Will is anxious to get home and see his pack. Anxious to have Hannibal come over for dinner tonight. It’ll be nice to get home and not have to worry about any cases for a while until Jack gets back. 

They shuffle off the plane and Will’s excitement for what’s to come grows steadily, even more while they wait at baggage claim, and keeps growing when they get to Hannibal’s Bentley and start driving to Will’s house in Wolf Trap.

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Hannibal can feel the anticipation radiating off of Will the entire car ride to Wolf Trap. He reaches over and rests his right hand on Will’s thigh while he steers with his left. Will looks down at the hand, then out the window. Hannibal thinks Will blushes, or else his periphery is playing tricks on him. 

The car ride is spent in a comfortable silence between them, the sound of classical music playing quietly on the radio being the only sound. Hannibal doesn’t mind. They’ll have time to talk during dinner, and perhaps after. 

Will hasn’t asked many questions about Hannibal being a killer, and Hannibal is certain it’s because they’ve barely had much time alone where a conversation such as that would be a good use of the meager time they did have. Now, however, they have all the time in the world to know each other, see each other. 

Part of Hannibal wants to tell Will all that he has done, tell him that he is the Ripper, among others. Another part of Hannibal wants to let Will figure it out on his own, with gentle prodding from Hannibal in the correct direction. A third part of him knows that he shouldn’t let Will know anything more than he does and that he should kill him the second Will finds out more. 

He ignores that third part, an intrusive thought that he won’t act on. Hannibal is keen on self preservation, but a life without Will does not seem pleasant. He sees Will as a potential partner in more ways than one.

It comes down to the first two parts. Hannibal wonders if he should tell Will over dinner tonight, but when they pull up to Will’s house in Wolf Trap, the look Will gives him makes him want to hold out just a little bit longer. Those beautiful eyes, filled with so much appreciation. If Hannibal tells him now, tonight, there’s no certainty that those eyes will continue to look at him with appreciation. It would more likely turn into fear. 

Will leans across the center console and presses a quick kiss to Hannibal’s lips before unbuckling his seatbelt and opening the door. Hannibal grabs his wrist at the last second and pulls him back for another, earning a quiet moan when he sucks Will’s bottom lip between his own two. It takes all his restraint not to climb over the space between them and into Will’s lap. Later. He tells himself. 

Hannibal pulls back, then. Will looks at him from under his bangs, lips still slightly parted, breathing quickened. It’s a gorgeous sight and he has to clear his throat and look away. Will affects him like no one else ever has and it’s a strange feeling. 

“Thank you for the ride,” Will says after a moment. “What time should I expect you?” 

Hannibal checks the clock in his car. “It’s an hour both ways, I will likely shower and change my clothes, then start a load of laundry… although I could start my laundry when I return home, instead. It’s nearly 2 now… would 5:30 or 6 be agreeable?”

“Sure,” Will nods. He goes to the trunk to pull out his suitcase and carry-on bag. Hannibal watches him through the rearview mirror and follows his movement back around the car. 

Will stops outside Hannibal’s door and Hannibal rolls down his window, looking at Will expectantly. 

“I have next to no food in my house, I’m sure. Did you want me to get a few things after I pick up the dogs? Or we could go grocery shopping together,” Will says. 

“We can go together, if you’d like,” Hannibal smiles. 

“Yeah. We can do that. I’ll see you later, then.”

Will turns around then and heads towards his front door, pulling his keys from his pocket as he takes the steps up the porch. Hannibal puts his car back in gear and leaves, heading home to Baltimore. 

The entire time he thinks of how he can gently suggest to Will that he’s the Chesapeake Ripper without actually telling him. The most obvious plan is to start a new sounder, as Will so graciously named them. It’s been years, though. Nearly two since he took Miriam Lass hostage. 

There’s been talk that the Ripper has retired, or that he may be in prison due to other crimes, and killing again would put those suspicions to rest. 

He would need to talk to Will though… learn more about the profile the FBI has built on him, learn what Will thinks of the displays he’s left before. Then he would need to use those conversations, in a way that Will would start connecting their conversations to the scenes in the same way Hannibal will purposefully connect them. Things that no one else would know about Will besides Hannibal himself. 

Hannibal decides he is prepared to play the long game with this one. A sounder now to get Will on the case, as he wasn’t officially before, having not been consulting with the FBI when Hannibal was active as the Ripper last. Then, conversations. Another sounder would follow those conversations, to ensure Will makes those connections. 

He thinks of it the entire way home, how he’ll start this. Not for another few weeks, perhaps. It may raise suspicions if they start popping up the second the BAU comes back from Minnesota. It would give him ample time to prepare, choose victims, learn their routines, plan a dinner party even. 

When Hannibal arrives home and gets in the shower, he thinks of the dinner party that would be to come. 

A dinner party that he would certainly invite Will to, and should Will actually attend, he would have two secrets from his guests that would bring him great amusement. The fact that he would be feeding them all human meat, and the fact that none of them are aware of he and Will’s new relationship. No one would have a single clue just how close the two men are. He has Will all to himself. 

He enjoys playing games with his colleagues, and this is just one more thing that he gets to blind them about. As much as he would enjoy parading Will around on his arm, showing him off, he will also find amusement in Jack Crawford having absolutely no idea. Or Alana Bloom, either. 

That makes him wonder how Will would feel about a public relationship outside of their work. Hannibal’s own acquaintances at the opera or other functions would not be aware that Will is technically his patient. He would like to take Will out on dates if at all possible, even if it means going out of town for the weekend to do so, just so they aren’t seen by anyone that could have a problem with them. 

One day, when they are further removed from a professional relationship with each other, when no one can assume that they were together at the time Hannibal cleared Will for work in the field, then they can tell people. Until then, the timing isn’t ideal. Especially if Will is slowly slipping into madness with the possibility of the encephalitis, it would be too easy to ruin Hannibal’s life for rubber stamping a romantic partner. Even if they weren’t together at the time, it would be too difficult to prove. 

Hannibal thinks about all this while he stands under the water in his shower, while he changes into a clean suit, free of wrinkles. When he opens his Rolodex and finds the business card belonging to the person he’ll want as the first Ripper victim nearly two years. 

After nearly two hours at home, he gets back in his car and drives back to Will. 


The second Hannibal leaves, Will throws his bags into his living room and gets in his own car to head to his nearest neighbor’s farm. The dogs all pile into the back of the car, beyond excited to see him again. 

They get home and Will lets them roam around outside while he unpacks his bags and puts everything into the washing machine. He goes into the bathroom and realizes he still has the sweater on from that morning. Hannibal never even mentioned it to him the entire morning. 

He brings the collar up to his nose, inhaling the lingering scents of Hannibal. Soon. He reminds himself and drops the collar back into place. 

The bruises littering his neck have been on display all day, through the airports, on the flight. Some of them are too high to cover with a button up collar, and he thinks he may have to cover them with makeup. Or let everyone see them. 

He smiles at the thought of everyone wondering where they came from, who this mystery person is, and how they caught the attention of the grouchy and elusive Will Graham. A secret for him and Hannibal only. 

Part of him wants to tell everyone that he managed to snag Doctor Hannibal Lecter. The other part of him wants to keep Hannibal all to himself and never tell a single soul. He knows eventually, that kind of relationship won’t be able to sustain itself, but he will enjoy it for as long as he can. 

He calls the dogs inside, feeds them, then takes off his pants and lays down on his bed. He got subpar sleep the night before and rest on an airplane isn't really sleeping either. With nothing else to do between now and the time Hannibal comes back, he lets the dogs pile on the bed with him and he curls up for a nap. 

Sometime later he wakes up to pounding on his door and groans as he stretches in bed. The dogs jump to the floor and run to bark at whoever is here. He checks his phone and it’s too early for Hannibal to be back. He frowns, then gets up and walks to the door. 

Alana Bloom is on the other side. 

“Hi!” Alana says cheerfully. 

Will rubs at his eyes. “What are you doing here?” He tries to make it sound as polite as possible, but he doesn’t feel that way. He just wants to take his nap and have his dinner with Hannibal later, but instead he has to entertain Alana. Who he just spent several days with. 

She eyes his neck and he watches as her gaze goes down his chest. Will swears inwardly at Hannibal for marking him so much. How is he possibly going to explain hickeys and Hannibal’s sweater?

Thankfully she doesn’t comment on either. “I wanted to talk to you about Abigail.” 

Will frowns again. “Now? I was asleep. I’m sorry, Alana, I’ve been feeling sick for days and I really do not feel like getting into anything right now. I just got home.” 

“Too sick to talk to me, but not too sick to go out and hook up with someone at some point in the last fourteen hours?”

Will can’t believe her boldness, can’t believe she actually went there. He’s just glad she does not seem to know that it was Hannibal. 

“I am sure you know that is hardly your business, Alana,” Will scoffs. “My personal life is none of your concern, and whatever you need to talk about can wait until I am back at Quantico on Monday.”

“That’s four days away!”

“Whatever it is,” Will says again. “Can wait until Monday.” 

Will starts to push his door closed. His head is pounding and he wants to go back to sleep. 

Just before he can shut the door completely, Alana speaks loud and clear, “I think Abigail Hobbs played a role in her father’s crimes.”

Will sighs and opens the door again, but he still doesn’t let Alana come inside. “Why are you talking to me and not Jack Crawford, then?”

“Because I don’t know for sure,” Alana says. “And if I ask her, it’s not as though I can tell Jack. It would break confidentiality.”

“Again, why talk to me about it?”

“She trusts you, Will.”

“You want me to get it out of her? Fuck, Alana. Even if she trusts me, I don’t see why she would tell me something incriminating.” 

“You could try,” Alana suggests. 

Fuck no. “I can try,” he lies. “Sorry, I’ve been rude. I’ll see what I can do about Abigail, but really, I feel like shit and just want to go back to bed.”

“I shouldn’t have dropped by unannounced, it’s my fault,” Alana says apologetically. “Get some rest, Will.”

He waits to close the door again until Alana’s back down the front steps. 

With a sigh of relief, he falls back down onto his bed and falls back asleep. 


Hannibal stands outside Will’s door and knocks once. He can hear a cacophony of dogs barking inside, then Will’s voice yelling at them to shut up. 

The door opens a second later and he takes in the sight of Will in his sweater and a pair of boxers, marks scattered across his neck. His hair is wild, his eyes are tired as though he’s just woken up. Hannibal’s heart melts. 

“Hello. Did I wake you?” Hannibal asks. 

Will let out a strained sigh. “Yeah, but that’s what I was planning for.”

He steps out of the doorway to let Hannibal inside and the dogs go running out. Hannibal turns and looks at them go, then looks at Will, who is not at all concerned that his dogs could run away, and he realizes that it’s normal. 

“Come in,” Will says. 

Hannibal remembers how his feet work again and walks into the house. 

“I brought some meat from my freezer, as well as a bottle of wine, but if you’d like to put some pants on, we can go to the market,” Hannibal says. 

“Yeah,” Will nods. “Kitchen is through there.” 

Will points to a doorway and then goes to the opposite end of his living room to his drawers. 

Hannibal sets the meat in the fridge and sees what else Will has in there. Nothing. 

Back in the living room, Hannibal watches from the doorway as Will pulls pants over his hips, then lets the too-large sweater fall back into place. 

“You didn’t tell me I still had your sweater on this morning,” Will says. 

“I didn’t want you to take it off,” Hannibal shrugs. “It looks nice on you.”

Will hums, but doesn’t say anything in response to the compliment. Instead he changes the subject entirely. 

“Alana came to see me. Woke me up to tell me she thinks Abigail was helping her father,” Will scoffs. “I nearly told her to fuck off when she said, and I quote ‘too sick to talk to me, but not too sick to hook up with someone in the last fourteen hours.’ I mean, how bold is that? She wouldn’t even be alone in a room with me before all of this and now…”

Will trails off, shaking his head. Hannibal thinks about which part of Will’s story he should comment on first. Of course, what Alana had said was quite rude. He wishes he could have a word with her without outing Will and himself as a couple. 

“What did she say about Abigail?” Hannibal asks first. 

Will laughs once. It sounds more like a bark, really. “She wants me to get Abigail to confess so I can tell Jack. Because anything Alana gets out of her can’t be repeated.” 

“And you told her?”

“I told her I’d try. I’m not telling anyone shit, though,” Will says. 

Hannibal nods, satisfied with that answer. “Alana commented on your neck, then. In not so many words.”

“I’m pretty sure she thinks I either left the hotel room to get laid, or I brought someone back to our room while you were there. I wonder if she’s going to ask you about it.”

“And yet it has not crossed her mind that the person who gave you those marks was the person who was already supposed to be with you all night.” Hannibal finds this extremely amusing. 

“Pretty sure she thinks I’m straight,” Will shrugs. “Anyways, should we go?” 

Hannibal steps away from the kitchen door frame and approaches Will. 

“If you are straight, then that would be rather unfortunate for myself. And it would also be news to me,” Hannibal says. He can’t help but smile when Will laughs. Hannibal stops in front of Will and tilts Will’s chin upwards with his fingertips. “But yes, we should go.”

Hannibal brushes their lips together as he says it, then steps away. Will goes to the front door and calls all of the dogs in, then puts on a pair of shoes and slides a jacket on over his borrowed sweater. 

Will offers to drive so they get into his car and head to the nearest grocery store. Hannibal picks out other ingredients for dinner and Will gets some groceries for the rest of the week.

Back in the car, Alana calls Hannibal. 

“Hello Alana,” Hannibal answers. 

“Hannibal,” she says as a greeting. “I stopped by your house but you weren’t home.”

“Ah, you just missed me. Unfortunately I am on my way to have dinner with a colleague,” Hannibal lies. He glances over at Will in the driver’s seat and the man is smiling as he changes lanes. 

“Well, I won’t keep you long then,” Alana says. “I was just going to tell you that I stopped by Will’s today and he was rather rude when I tried telling him about some concerns I have about Abigail.” 

“Oh, I am so sorry to hear that, Alana,” Hannibal lies. “I know he hasn’t been feeling well as of late, so I would not take it personally if I were you.”

“He told me the same thing, but what am I supposed to believe when his neck is covered in hickeys? Did he go out last night?” Her tone sounds almost… jealous. 

Hannibal glances over at Will, completely unsure how to handle this. He sighs. “Yes, but I do not believe that it is either of our business how he chooses to spend his personal time.” 

“Right,” Alana says, defeated. There’s a pause. “I’ll let you go then. Bye, Hannibal.”

“Goodbye, Alana.” Hannibal hangs up the phone. 

“She called to gossip?” Will asks. 

“So it would seem. I had to tell her that you went out last night.”

“Yeah, I suspected,” Will sighs. “It’s been, what? Three days? And we’ve already lied to her how many times?”

“I have no qualms about lying to Alana, Will.” 

“You’ve known her for a long time,” Will points out. 

Hannibal shrugs. “Again, it doesn’t bother me.”

Will just nods and keeps his eyes on the road. 


Back home, Will leans against a wall and watches Hannibal in the kitchen, but he doesn’t help with any cooking. He’s too mesmerized by the way Hannibal’s hands move with a knife to move from where he leans against the counter. 

“So,” Will starts once he rips his attention away from Hannibal’s fingers. “How is this going to work, anyways? If we go out in the area someone we know might see us.”

“I did think about this, yes,” Hannibal says with a nod. He sets his knife down on the cutting board in front of him and gives Will his full attention. He continues, “Of course, I would always be willing to just cook you dinner and walk your dogs with you, and stay out of public, but… There are places I’d like to take you; museums, the opera, different restaurants, other events. I would not be against telling my friends in those circles about us. I don’t believe we would have to worry about our colleagues seeing us at many of those places. Of course, I’m being presumptuous in saying you’d like to continue seeing each other.”

“Well, no shit I want to continue seeing each other. Would I have asked otherwise?”

“I suppose not. Still,” Hannibal says and shrugs. 

Will cannot believe the amount of insecurity in Hannibal’s words. There’s no way something like this could bring forth feelings such as that for Hannibal. He could have anyone in the world, but he’s worried Will isn’t going to stick around past a few dates. Unbelievable. Will feels like he should be the insecure one.

“I’m not saying that whatever this is,” Will gestures between them to show what he means. “Is going to work out long term, but I want to see what happens? Take it a few days at a time for now.”

Hannibal hums in response and goes back to his chopping. “I’d like that, too,” he says quietly. 

“I, uh,” Will starts. He takes a breath and tries again. “Would you be honest with me? If I ask you questions about…”

“Murder?” Hannibal supplies. 

Will breathes out a laugh. “Yeah. Murder.” 

“Are you wearing a wire?”

“What? No. Of course not.”

“Very well. After dinner, then,” Hannibal decides. 

Will nods and pours himself a glass of the wine Hannibal brought. He decides to leave Hannibal to do his cooking and goes to sit down in front of his TV in the living room. 

Some time later, Hannibal comes out to tell Will that dinner is ready and they sit down at the kitchen table together. The food is amazing, Will tells Hannibal as much and Hannibal beams at him. 

They don’t say much, with the promise of discussing Hannibal’s kills looming over their heads. After dinner, Hannibal gathers all of the plates and brings them to the sink, insisting on washing them himself.

“I’ll dry, at least. It’s my house,” Will says as he takes a freshly washed plate from Hannibal’s hands. “Thanks for cooking.”

“Of course, Will,” Hannibal says with a smile. “I will cook for you every night if you just ask.”

“That’s rather enticing.”

They finish the dishes and each pour another glass of wine before moving into the living room and sitting down on opposite ends of the couch. Will sighs then scoots closer, but stops and looks at Hannibal, questioning. 

Hannibal lifts an arm up so Will can settle into his side, so Will goes. Will drinks his entire glass in several gulps and then sets his glass down on the coffee table. He pulls his feet up on the couch to the side of him and rests more firmly into Hannibal’s body. 

“So, you’ll answer anything I want to ask?” Will asks. 

“I will not lie, but I reserve the right to not answer any question.” 

“Fine,” Will says with a nod. “How many people have you killed?”

“Jumping right into it, I see. I will not be answering that one today. In the future, when you see all of me, I shall tell you, but for now I will just say that it’s more than just Cassie and Marissa,” Hannibal answers. 

“I figured,” Will mumbles. “What did you do with Cassie’s lungs? Did you eat them like Hobbs? Wait.” Will pauses, then it dawns on him, “Did I eat them?” 

“I suppose you weren’t given your job for no reason,” Hannibal sighs. “Yes. The protein scramble. Does this bother you?”

Not as much as it should, Will thinks. “Sort of…” He says instead. “What did we eat tonight?”

“Someone who was quite rude to me,” Hannibal whispers. “You have figured that part out, so if you want me to feed you strictly animal meat, I will.” 

Will shakes his head. He’s starting to feel the effects of all the wine he’s drank tonight. He knows he’s not entirely in the right state of mind to consent to eating human beings, but he still says, “All your food is good. Either we eat it, or it goes to waste?”

“I suppose. Or it stays frozen until my next dinner party.” 

“Is that why you have dinner parties? Because you’ve killed enough people and taken enough… meat to feed everyone?” Will asks. 

“Yes,” Hannibal breathes. 

Will stands up abruptly, deciding he needs another drink or seven for this conversation. He takes a second to steady himself after having more than enough wine. 

“Will?” Hannibal asks. There’s caution in his voice, it’s a question asking whether he should run or not. His body is on alert as he sits up straight on the couch. 

Will shakes his head and walks across the room to where he keeps his bottles of liquor. “I need another drink.”

He pours one glass, drinks it all, then looks at the bottle again. He knows he’ll regret the decision in the morning, but he has other things to worry about, much worse than a possible hangover. 

Hannibal relaxes again as Will pours himself another glass of whiskey and comes back to the couch. Will doesn’t settle back into Hannibal’s side, sitting with a cushion between them, but pulls one knee up so he can face him more comfortably. 

“I’m making a mistake, aren’t I?” Will asks quietly. 

“You’ll have to be more specific.”

“Dating you. You could kill me right now, couldn’t you? Would you even feel anything about it?”

“I don’t wish to kill you, Will,” Hannibal says. He reaches across the couch and takes the now half empty glass from Will’s hand. He sets it down on the coffee table, out of Will’s reach and Will knows that's for the best. 

Will nods at Hannibal’s response, only slightly reassured. Hannibal leans toward Will, and pushes his hair out of his eyes. Will shuts his eyes and leans into the touch, mentally chastising himself for being so trusting. 

He takes a breath, then moves across the couch so he can settle across Hannibal’s lap sideways. Hannibal makes a noise of surprise, but his arms don’t hesitate to come around Will’s waist. 

“Knowing… what I know,” Will starts. “That makes me an accomplice, doesn’t it?”

“No one has any reason to believe you know anything. No one knows we are together in this moment discussing this topic,” Hannibal explains, his voice quiet. “This is another reason why keeping our relationship a secret could benefit us. You, mostly.”

“You’re saying that if you get caught, I should just say I don’t know anything?” 

“Yes. And if they have no reason to believe we’re involved romantically, then there’s no reason for you to know any of the things I have told you,” Hannibal whispers into Will’s neck.

Will hums in response, but doesn’t think he can come up with a coherent answer to that. It’s getting late, anyways, and he decides the rest of the conversation can wait for another day. He doesn’t know what else he wants to ask Hannibal about, but he knows he needs to figure it out. 

They sit like that in silence, the only sounds are their breathing and the dogs’ breathing scattered across the room. 

“I should go soon,” Hannibal says after a while. 

Will shakes his head. He pulls away from where he leans against Hannibal’s body and kisses him lightly. He turns his body so he’s straddling Hannibal’s hips and kisses him more soundly before saying, “You can stay. You should. Stay.” 

“You’re drunk, Will.” Hannibal’s hands settle on Will’s thighs and Will knows he wants to push him off, but he makes no attempt to actually do so. 

“Not very, but if that’s your only problem,” Will sighs and climbs out of Hannibal’s lap. He sits down on the couch next to him and turns his head, laughing at the thoughts that go through his head. “Of course you're the perfect gentleman, aren't you? You murder people and eat them, but I’ve had too much to drink and you don’t want to take advantage of me.”

Hannibal nods. There’s nothing on his face that Will can see, no emotions pouring out of him. 

“You can stay. It’s too late to drive home and I have enough room in my bed, you know. Make breakfast for me in the morning because I know how bad you want to.” 

Hannibal puts a hand on Will’s knee and sighs. “I am going to get you a glass of water, and I will sleep in your bed next to you and make you breakfast in the morning,” he agrees. 


Will gets up from the couch and Hannibal watches as he tries to keep himself steady. Hannibal stands up and watches as he stumbles towards his bed, kicks off his pants, sets his glasses on his nightstand, and falls down onto the mattress, still wearing Hannibal’s sweater. 

Hannibal goes into the kitchen and finds a glass, filling it with water, then shuts off all the lights. He hears Will in the other room standing back up and opening the front door,  calling for the dogs to go out before bed. Hannibal finds Will standing on the porch, leaning against the house as the dogs run in the yard. 

“Drink this,” Hannibal says, handing him the glass of water. 

“Thanks.” 

The dogs get called inside and curl up in their own beds on the floor and Will grabs Hannibal by the hand to pull him into the house. 

“Did you want some pajama pants?” Will asks. “Or a shirt?”

“A shirt,” Hannibal says with a nod. 

Will goes to his dresser as Hannibal starts to undress down to his underwear. 

“It might be tight on you,” Will shrugs and hands Hannibal a long sleeve shirt.

 “You could always give me my sweater back,” Hannibal jokes. It looks better on Will, in his opinion. He pulls the shirt on over his head as Will begins to speak. 

“I forgot I was wearing it. You can have it back, sorry,” Will mumbles and goes to pull it off, but Hannibal stops him.

“It’s yours now.” 

Will shakes his head, but doesn’t protest beyond that and gets into bed, Hannibal following suit and climbing into the other side. 

“If I have a nightmare, or start kicking, wake me up and I’ll go sleep on the couch,” Will says. 

“We’ll be just fine, Will.”

Hannibal turns in his side to face Will and reaches out to feel his warm forehead. Will leans into the touch, then rolls over and pushes Hannibal to lay on his back so Will can lay his head on Hannibal’s shoulder, pressing their bodies together, wrapping an arm around his waist. Hannibal knows that Will sees this as a good thing for himself, and he wonders if he should actually take advantage of the inflammation in his brain or not. Hannibal thinks what they have going on is a good thing, too. He thinks he doesn’t want to ruin it.

After laying in that position for several long minutes, the silence between them suggests that Will has fallen asleep, but then Will’s hand starts to move and his fingers are walking in circles on Hannibal’s stomach. 

“Is it bad that I don’t care?” Will whispers.

“Hm?”

“I don’t care that you’re a serial killer,” Will clarifies. “Why not? Why don’t I hate you?” 

Hannibal brings a hand to rest in Will’s curls and sighs. “Maybe this is a conversation for the morning?” 

“Maybe,” Will yawns. “Okay. Goodnight, Hannibal.”

“Goodnight, Will.” 

Hannibal wakes up to Will thrashing in his sleep, breathing heavily and he loosens the arm he has around Will’s back. Suddenly Will moves to sit up, and his hand collides hard with Hannibal’s chest as he attempts to push himself up. Hannibal groans in pain and Will turns, eyes wide with surprise. 

“Shit, sorry,” Will breathes out. He takes a few deep breaths, and Hannibal sits up next to him, placing a hesitant hand on his sweaty back. Will relaxes under the touch and Hannibal rests his hand a bit more firmly. Will adds, “I’ll go sleep on the couch.” 

“No, you won’t.” 

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “You need to sleep.”

“If you recall, one of my conditions for staying the night was that I would be sleeping next to you,” Hannibal whispers. He leans over and presses a kiss to Will’s sweaty forehead. “Did you want to shower? Or at least take off this sweater. You’re overheated.”

Will pulls the sweater over his head and tosses it on the floor, then Hannibal leans over him, grabbing the empty water glass from the nightstand and goes to the kitchen to fill it back up. 

“You don’t need to take care of me like this,” Will mumbles, taking the glass when Hannibal returns. “I’m usually alone.”

“And now you aren’t. It’s fine, Will.” And it really is, Hannibal realizes. “Did you want to shower?” Hannibal asks again.

Will shakes his head, sets the cup down on his nightstand again and lays back down. 

“Did you want to talk about your nightmare?”

Will curls back into Hannibal’s side, resting his sweat soaked head on Hannibal’s shoulder. Hannibal ignores how unpleasant the feeling is.

“I keep dreaming that I’m killing Abigail,” Will says softly. 

“You feel responsible for her after we saved her life.”

Will nods against his chest. “I don’t need it interpreted. I just want to sleep.”

“Very well.” 


The sun is filtering through the blinds and there’s a pounding on the front door when Will wakes up. Hannibal is still sleeping next to him, one arm outstretched in the bed, reaching for Will. They must have separated at some point during the night, Will curling up on his own side of the bed. Once again, he looks so soft and vulnerable. The morning sun hits his cheekbones and glints off the few graying strands of his hair and Will realizes just how beautiful Hannibal is. 

Will is pulled away from his observations when the pounding on the door persists and he groans at the pounding in his head before pulling himself out of bed. He opens the door to see Jack standing on his doorstep.

“Jack? What can I do for you?” Will mumbles. He rubs at his eyes and realizes he’s in his underwear. Then he remembers the hickeys on his neck, and the fact that Hannibal’s car is parked next to his, and the man is asleep, in just a shirt and underwear, in Will’s bed. Will steps onto the porch casually and shuts the door behind him, shielding his bed from view.

“We’ve got a crime scene, but your phone kept going to voicemail…” Jack explains. He turns back and looks at the Bentley parked next to Will’s Volvo. “Sorry, is Doctor Lecter here?” 

“Yeah, we got to drinking last night. He crashed here,” Will only half lies. “Sorry, I must have forgotten to plug in my phone. I slept on the couch.”

“Right. Well, can you get dressed and I’ll give you a ride? We could use Doctor Lecter, too if he doesn’t have plans today,” Jack says with an eyebrow raised.

“Do you want to, uh, come in while we get dressed?” Will hopes he says no, but it’s polite to ask.

“I’ll wait in the car. How long?”

“I’d hate to make you wait, but I really need a shower and coffee, so...”

“Body isn’t going anywhere, take your time,” Jack cuts him off with a nod and heads back to his car.

Will lets out a sigh of relief and walks back into the house. Hannibal is getting out of the bed and the dogs are starting to wake up and make their way to the door. Will pushes the door open again for the dogs and shuts it behind him once they’re out. 

Hannibal is in Will’s space, pushing him up against the door and kissing him. “Good morning,” Hannibal says when he pulls away. “Was that Jack Crawford?”

“He wants us at a crime scene. I need a shower and coffee.”

“He didn’t suspect, did he?” Hannibal asks, heading towards the kitchen. 

“I told him you got drunk and I slept on my couch while you crashed in my bed,” Will sighs. He leans against the kitchen door frame while Hannibal starts a pot of coffee. “We need to be more careful, holy fuck. Even at my own house?” Will shakes his head and crosses his arms. “I’ll clear a space in my barn this weekend and you can start parking in it, so unwanted visitors don’t see your car when they pull up.” 

“Hm, or you could tell people not to show up at your home unannounced at,” Hannibal glances at the clock on the stove, “Eight in the morning.” 

“He tried to call, but my phone’s dead,” Will mumbles. “It’s fine this time, he believed me.”

Will watches as Hannibal opens a cupboard and pulls out two travel mugs, and he’s amazed by how comfortable Hannibal is in his kitchen already. 

“Go shower, Will,” Hannibal says, pouring coffee into each and twisting the tops on. 

“Join me?” 

Will turns, not waiting for a response, then goes to the door and calls the dogs back inside. Once inside again, he shuts the door again and kicks his boxers off, throwing them into the clothes basket by his bed. He turns to see Hannibal standing in the kitchen doorway where Will had been a moment earlier. 

Hannibal pulls his shirt over his head as he follows Will towards the bathroom. He throws it onto Will’s bed and steps out of his underwear as Will watches. 

They make it to the bathroom, Will pushes Hannibal up against the counter and grinds his hips forward, letting their hardening cocks slide against each other. Hannibal grabs him by the face and kisses him, biting his bottom lip between his teeth when he pulls away. 

“How much time do we have?” Hannibal asks as Will starts moving towards the shower. 

“Jack said to take our time, we have long enough for him to think we both took separate showers,” Will responds, turning on the water and waiting for it to warm up. 

He grabs Hannibal by the wrist and pulls him close so they’re chest to chest. Will kisses along Hannibal’s jaw, Hannibal holds tightly onto his hips, encouraging Will to grind against him, both of them letting out small gasps at the friction. 

When the water is comfortable enough, Will pulls Hannibal into the shower, standing facing away from him. Hannibal pulls Will into his chest, sliding his cock against Will’s ass, then slides a hand down Will’s chest and stomach before gripping his cock in his hand. 

Will turns his head and cranes his neck, so he can catch Hannibal’s lips in a kiss while Hannibal strokes him in his hand, and ruts against his ass. Hannibal’s other arm is wrapped around Will’s stomach, holding him tight to his body as he brings the both of them off. Will gasps and moans into Hannibal’s mouth until Hannibal pulls his mouth away. Will braces one hand against the shower wall and pushes his hips back harder against Hannibal, and forward into Hannibal’s firm grip. 

Hannibal’s lips find Will’s neck and Will manages to gasp out, “Don't mark me where people can see,” between moans. Hannibal takes that as permission to nip at Will’s shoulder, leaving bruising bites as he moves along the skin there. 

The hand on Will’s cock speeds up and Will drops his head back on Hannibal’s shoulder, mouth hanging open as he comes. The arm around his stomach keeps him upright as his knees threaten to give out for a second.

When Will regains his bearings, he turns around in Hannibal’s arms and takes Hannibal’s cock into his hand, allowing Hannibal to thrust into his grip until he is also coming, Will’s name on his lips. 

Will kisses Hannibal softly, then turns back towards the spray of the water and makes quick work of actually cleaning himself, scrubbing away the caked on sweat from the previous night. He hears a shampoo bottle open behind him, the sound of the bottle being squeezed, then feels hands in his hair, Hannibal’s fingers massaging into Will’s scalp. 

“You don’t have to do that,” Will says with a moan. It feels good, he’ll admit that, but he doesn’t need it. 

“I want to,” Hannibal says, quiet but just loud enough to be heard over the sound of the water. 

“I know you said you would make breakfast this morning, but we don’t have time,” Will says as they’re getting out and toweling off. 

“After we return from the crime scene, I’ll make lunch to make up for it,” Hannibal smiles. 

Will nods and opens up a cabinet, pulling out a brand new toothbrush that he is glad to have. He hands it to Hannibal, who opens the packaging with a grateful look on his face. They stand next to each other at the sink as they brush their teeth.

“How are you feeling this morning?” Hannibal asks after he spits. “You had a bit to drink last night.”

“I’m fine,” Will shrugs. “Headache, but I’ve had one for days, so I don’t think it’s from the alcohol.”

“Take something for it. Going into the mind of a killer this morning will only make it worse.”

Without another word, Will opens his medicine cabinet and pulls out a bottle of aspirin, shaking the pills into his hand and taking them with a handful of water from the sink. 

“Last night, I asked if it’s bad that I don’t care and you said we should wait until this morning,” Will says quietly as they walk out of the bathroom together. 

“Yes,” Hannibal agrees. He picks up his underwear and pants from the previous night and pulls them both on. “Do you have a shirt I could borrow?”

Will nods and gets a long sleeve shirt from his drawer. It’s more casual than he’s ever seen Hannibal wear in public, but with a coat on over it at the crime scene, it’s likely no one will even notice. 

“So? Why don’t I hate you for what you are?” Will tries again. 

“You may, still.” 

“I already know you’ve killed a lot of people, I know you eat them, but you insist there’s more. How much worse can it be, Hannibal?”

“It’s not like that, necessarily, more so once you realize something key about me, you’ll realize just how… inconvenient it is,” Hannibal says, pulling the shirt over his head. It’s tight, just like the one he had worn to bed, and Will’s eyes linger over the way it stretches over Hannibal’s muscles. 

Will figures that Hannibal means he’s a killer they’ve been looking for, but which one Will has no idea. There are plenty of unsolved cases for the FBI. He doesn’t see how which one he is really matters when he already knows that Hannibal is a seasoned killer. 

Hannibal speaks again as Will starts pulling on his own underwear and a pair of jeans. 

“You may not hate me now because you see yourself in me. Killing Hobbs made you feel powerful, yes? So, and forgive me if I overstep here, so perhaps you see me as someone who can fully understand you and know what it’s like to take a life and enjoy doing so,” Hannibal says. “We could accomplish beautiful things together, Will.”

Will frowns at that and shakes his head. He keeps his tone unaffected, not wanting to sound mad when he isn’t, but knowing he feels slightly defensive, nonetheless. “I killed Garrett Jacob Hobbs because I had to. Because he had killed eight girls, his wife, and was about to kill Abigail. What I did was right and just. What you do… Cassie Boyle and Marissa Schurr were nothing but pigs to you. There was no true need for you to kill them, was there?” 

“You already know I killed Cassie Boyle as a way of helping you find Hobbs, and she fit the victim profile,” Hannibal says. Will knows Hannibal isn’t putting the responsibility of her death on him, but it almost feels that way. Hannibal continues, “Marissa Schurr was to help ensure I could place the blame on someone else, of course.”

Will nods as he finishes getting dressed, buttoning up a flannel shirt, all the way to the top, knowing it still won’t hide all of the marks from before. 

“But okay, so, what? You want a… a partner? You want us to kill together?” Will asks as he pulls on his shoes and a jacket, then heads towards the kitchen door, waiting for Hannibal to follow. 

Hannibal walks in behind him as he says, “Perhaps one day. I won’t force you.”

Will laughs as he picks up his coffee mug. “Well, that’s good.” 


Hannibal picks up the travel mug of coffee he poured for himself and takes a long sip before shrugging on a jacket and wrapping a scarf around his neck. 

“We should go,” Will says. “We can talk more about this later.”

They leave the house, shutting the door behind them. Will gets into the front seat of Jack’s car and Hannibal gets into the back. 

“We aren’t sure, but we think this is the work of the Chesapeake Ripper,” Jack tells them as he pulls onto the main road. 

It’s not, but Hannibal can’t say that. He didn’t kill anyone, he hasn’t since Marissa Schurr. Whoever this killer is, is copying him in some way if they think it’s him. 

“What makes you think it is?” Will asks. 

“Organs removed. Mutilations appear to have occurred while the victim was still alive. Displayed in an abandoned shop window like a mannequin,” Jack lists off. “If it’s him, we’ll have two more victims in the next few days, then none for a long time. The last sounder was almost two years ago.”

“Did he leave any evidence?” Hannibal asks. 

“We left the crime scene as fresh as we could. Zeller, Katz and Price did a bit of poking around, but nothing more than what I’ve told you about. We wanted to wait for Will,” Jack says. 

“Well, you have me,” Will sighs. 

On the scene, Hannibal watches as Will stands in front of the body with his eyes closed, curious about what Will’s seeing behind those eyelids. 

Eventually, Will steps away, rubbing as his eyes with the heels of his hands, then massaging his temples. Hannibal wants to reach out and ease the pain in his head in any way he can, but he keeps his hands secured in his pocket.

“Not the Ripper,” Will says, shaking his head. 

“How can you be sure?” Jack asks. 

“It’s not right. None of it. Missing organs, sure. Displayed in a shop window, though? It doesn’t seem like something he would do. I mean, at the very least he’d add flowers or something else to solidify a metaphor about materialism and consumerism, or some shit like that,” Will shakes his head. “This is just what it is, a body put in a window so it would be found. Maybe this person is trying to get someone’s attention, or even the Ripper’s attention, but it’s not the Chesapeake Ripper. Besides, the cuts aren’t as precise as all other Ripper victims. This killer could have surgical knowledge, but he’d be a lousy surgeon.”

Hannibal tries his hardest not to beam at the man in front of him. 

“What do we know about the victim?” Will asks. 

“Nothing. We haven’t been able to get an ID yet,” Jack sighs. 

“We need to start there. Then figure out who owns this unit, or what store used to be here,” Will says. “It’s very likely there’s a connection there.”

While Will continues talking to Jack, Beverly Katz comes to stand next to Hannibal. 

“You and Will showed up together,” she points out quietly. “Will’s neck is covered in hickeys. You keep watching him like he’s the best thing you’ve ever seen. It’s not my place, but what’s going on? Aren’t you his therapist?”

“If you are implying that I gave Will those marks, you are very wrong. I am not officially his therapist, no, we are friends and have conversations, where I give him advice from a more therapeutic standpoint, and that conversation last night led to drinking, but Will and I are not involved in any way beyond that. I showed up with him because it was unsafe for me to drive home last night and I fell asleep in his bed while he slept on the couch,” Hannibal explains, not letting a single thing slip through the cracks of his walls. 

“Right,” Beverly says, not entirely convinced, Hannibal can tell as much. “I won’t say anything. You’re keeping it a secret for a reason, and clearly everyone else believes you. I’m just saying, if you aren’t careful, more people will find out. Jack Crawford will be pissed.”

“I am aware. There’s nothing for people to find out about, as there is nothing between us beyond friendship,” Hannibal reiterates. He knows Will considers Beverly to be a friend in some way, but he considers this entire exchange to be intrusive and impolite. 

Beverly pats Hannibal on the shoulder, says, “Uh huh,” and leaves him to go help bag some more evidence. 

Hannibal regards the body in the window, held up by a stand to look like a mannequin. He turns and looks around at the street, the other buildings, the lamp posts and electrical lines, looking for surveillance cameras. The area seems to not have any, the building clearly didn’t have an alarm system. It was easy for this killer to put the body here, with no one to see who they are. 

Surely, Hannibal thinks, the simplicity of the display should have been enough for everyone to know it wasn’t him, not just Will. It doesn’t take a gift like his to know that. Hannibal also feels insulted that everyone thinks the Chesapeake Ripper would set up his display in a spot that poses no challenge. He’ll have to show them, and soon, what he’s capable of.


Back at Will’s house, Hannibal starts pulling out ingredients to make something for lunch while Will takes the dogs outside, then feeds them. Will remembers seeing Beverly talking to Hannibal while he himself was still speaking to Jack. 

“What was that about with Bev? You looked like you wanted to wring her throat.”

Hannibal’s lips quirk up into the faintest smile, as if recalling a fantasy of a similar situation. “She suspects us.”

“What did you tell her?”

And Hannibal tells him the entire story, how he told her there is nothing for people to find out, and how she didn’t believe him at all. Not in the slightest.

“We need to be more careful, then,” Will sighs. “Help me remember to plug in my phone every time you stay over so we don’t have to worry about Jack showing up.”

“And I’ll help you remember if you ever stay the night at my house, as well,” Hannibal agrees. 

They eat lunch, take the dogs out for a long walk in the field, walking hand in hand, then Hannibal leaves when they return. 

“Call me if you want to set up another date soon,” Will says as Hannibal heads out to his car. 

“Of course,” Hannibal says. 

The second Hannibal drives off, Will sets to work in his barn, starting to clear enough space for Hannibal to park out of sight of unwanted visitors, just in case. Will hopes that, with any luck, Alana has learned her lesson about dropping by unannounced, but there’s always the chance she’ll come knocking again. 

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Will calls first, just to tell Hannibal the barn is cleared out and that they won’t have to worry about anyone seeing his car. With that, though, they still didn’t set up another date, not officially. Will is still going to his regularly scheduled appointments, just until they figure out a way to convince Jack he doesn’t need them anymore, but Hannibal has a full schedule for the coming week, and tells Will he’ll be busy the following weekend. 

With the rest of the weekend, Will finishes up some slides for his coming lectures and Jack tells him he should give one on Nicholas Boyle now that the case is closed. Will frowns as he writes a script of their fake story, the fake killer, who was actually innocent. Will includes that, even though the killings had been done slightly differently, the FBI still believes it to have been the same killer between both girls. It’s true, but not in the way Will plans on telling it. 

How he got to this point, where he’s actively covering up the tracks of, and lying about, a serial killer, he doesn’t know. Maybe Hannibal was right, maybe Will is leaning towards that darkness, that powerful feeling he got from killing Hobbs. Only time will tell just how hard he falls. 

On Monday, Will goes into Quantico, wearing Hannibal’s sweater, the marks on his skin on full display. He knows it’s unprofessional, but even if he wore a shirt with a high collar, they’d still show. Besides, it’s a nice sweater. He’s not even being clingy, definitely is not inhaling Hannibal’s lingering scent each chance he gets, it’s just a nice sweater. 

After his first lecture, Will is sitting in his office, thinking about texting Hannibal, but instead he is just sitting there with his phone open on the desk in front of him. 

“You don’t seem like the type to wear a hundred dollar sweater,” Beverly says from behind him. 

Will spins in his desk chair to see Beverly leaning against the door frame of his small office. 

“Oh. It was a gift,” Will tells her. He turns back to his desk, locks his phone so she can’t see whose messages were open, then back to Beverly. 

“Are you and Lecter dating?” Beverly asks, waiting absolutely no time to jump into it. 

“Doctor Lecter? No,” Will says, shaking his head. “We’re friends.” 

“I’m not going to tell anyone, Will,” Beverly sighs. She closes the office door and comes to sit on top of the desk. “I saw you guys at that crime scene. You looked more well rested than I have seen you in a while, and he looked like he wanted to jump your bones.”

“Bev,” Will warns. “Nothing is going on between us.”

“I saw him wearing that sweater two weeks ago, Will. He showed up to the crime scene wearing your shirt. Your neck? Who else would do that? Who else would you even let close enough to you to do that?” Beverly points to a specific mark, then says, “Those are literally impressions of his teeth. No one else’s teeth are sharp like that.” 

Will knows he’s blushing and he drops his head into his hands and groans. 

“No one can know.” 

“No one else does know, but it’s not going to stay that way for long. Get a scarf or a turtleneck sweater. I’m sure he’ll buy you one if you ask.”

“I can buy my own sweaters, thanks,” Will says. 

“Dude, have you seen how he dresses, or his car for that matter? The man has gotta be loaded. I’m not saying you should take advantage of that, but if I had a rich boyfriend, then…” She lifts her hands in a way that says ‘you know what I would do’ and Will can’t help but laugh. 

“You think I should ask Hannibal to be my sugar daddy?” Will jokes. 

“I don’t know if he’d want you to use that terminology, honestly,” Beverly shrugs. “If he wants to buy you things, I’d say let him. Or ask him.” 

Will shakes his head, deciding to change the subject. “Is this what you came to talk to me about?”

“Oh, no. I came to tell you we found prints at the scene and got a match. Dude’s been arrested, confessed to the whole thing.” 

“Well,” Will says. “That’s good, then. Not the Ripper?”

“No, just some Ripper wannabe who killed a former friend.”

Will nods. “Well, good thing that case is closed then.”

There’s a knock on the closed office door and Beverly stands up to leave just as Will says, “Come in.”

The door opens and Hannibal is standing there, a lunch bag in his hand. Beverly pats Hannibal’s shoulder on the way out and Will just looks at him. 

“What- what are you doing here?” Will asks. “And shut the door.” 

Hannibal closes the door behind him and Will reaches out for him to come closer, which Hannibal does. Hannibal leans down to chastely kiss Will before standing straight again.

“I had time today and wanted to bring you lunch,” Hannibal says. “You’re wearing my sweater.”

“It’s a nice sweater,” Will shrugs. “And Beverly knows about us, by the way.”

“Maybe I should not have come. Someone else may see me,” Hannibal sighs.

He sets the bag down and starts taking out containers, then pulls an extra chair up to Will’s desk and sits beside him.

“No, I’m glad you’re here. I was gonna eat a granola bar for lunch,” Will laughs. 

Hannibal looks at him with a disgusted look on his face and pushes a container towards Will, who takes a fork and begins to eat. 

“You said you were busy all week,” Will says. 

“I lied so I could surprise you. I hope that is okay,” Hannibal says. 

“I think it’s fine,” Will says. 

“Did you tell Beverly?”

“Hannibal, she practically already knew when she talked to you. Don’t blame this on me,” Will says defensively. 

“I’m not. I’m just curious what happened,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will sighs and tells him about the conversation he had with her, leaving out the sugar daddy part of the conversation. 

“And you’re certain she won’t tell anyone?” Hannibal asks. 

“Pretty sure. We need to be more careful, though. I’ll have to start wearing scarves or makeup if you can’t control yourself,” Will tells him. 

“Or turtlenecks, as Beverly said.”

“Yes, or turtle necks,” Will smiles. He puts the lid back on his empty container and slides it back towards Hannibal, who puts it back into the bag. “They caught the mannequin guy.”

“Well that’s fortunate. Not the Ripper, I take it?”

“No. I just hope the Ripper doesn’t get mad about this copycat, you know? Jack wants to catch him so bad, but he doesn’t leave evidence so it’s just a lot of work that I’ll have to put into reading these scenes for next to no reward.”




Hannibal considers this and tries to decide how to approach this. 

“You think the Ripper might become active again in response to this murder?” Hannibal asks after a moment. 

“Don't you? He’s proud of his work, his art, so don’t you think he would want to, I don’t know, prove himself?” 

Hannibal loves the way this man’s brain works, and reaches out to hold one of Will’s hands.

“I suppose. But you think it would just be a waste of time to get on this case? Don't you want the Ripper to be caught?” Hannibal asks, giving absolutely nothing away.

“Hannibal, it does not matter what I want. The Ripper will not be caught unless he wants to be. You know that as well as I do. Everyone knows that, but no one wants to accept it.” 

Will’s cell phone alarm starts going off before Hannibal can respond.

“Shit! Sorry, I have to go. Thank you for lunch,” Will says, gathering all of his things for his next lecture. He leans over and kisses Hannibal on the lips. “When can I see you again?”

Hannibal leans forward for another kiss, then whispers, “Wednesday. Come over for dinner Wednesday.”

Will smiles, kisses the corner of Hannibal’s mouth, then stands up. “See you Wednesday, then. I’m sure you can find your way out?”

“Yes, I had a few things to talk to Jack about, though.”

“Okay.”

Hannibal gets out of his chair at last and follows Will out of his small office, pretending nothing is going on between them besides a lunch between colleagues. With one last glance at each other, they part ways, Will going to his lecture hall, and Hannibal going to Jack’s office. 

“Ah, Doctor Lecter!” Jack smiles when Hannibal walks into his office. “What have you got for me?”

Hannibal is there to talk about Will, as part of the arrangement he has with Jack to keep him updated on Will’s ability to be working in the field. 

“I am slightly worried that Will has too much on his plate. We just discussed the possibility of the Chesapeake Ripper coming back after this copycat killing,” Hannibal explains. “Will worries that, since the Ripper does not leave any evidence, that his brain and his gift will be used too much for too little reward. Which is why, I suggest that any work he does for the Ripper cases is kept to a minimum.”

“That’s assuming the Ripper does come back,” Jack frowns. 

“Do you think he will?” Hannibal asks. Hannibal knows it’s only a matter of time before he gets back out there as the Ripper.

“If he does, we’re gonna catch him. We need Will, though.”

“Perhaps, but as I said, it may not be good for him. I fear he will get too close like Miriam Lass did,” Hannibal says softly, trying not to get Jack worked up or upset about the loss of his trainee. 

“I wouldn’t put him out there if I didn’t think he could handle himself,” Jack says. 

“And Will can handle himself, I am just voicing my concerns. He said himself that he hopes the Ripper stays inactive because he feels as though it’ll be a stressor for him,” Hannibal says. 

“Right.” Jack sounds defeated, but like he wants to say more. 

“The Chesapeake Ripper may not even be in a position to kill anymore. There are rumors he has been incarcerated for other crimes, are there not?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yeah, but do you believe that?”

“It’s possible.” 

“Is there anything else?” Jack asks. 

“Will has been unwell as of late, and he isn’t sleeping well. He told me he’s been having nightmares and a fever, as well as a few other symptoms that could possibly suggest a neurological condition, but it’s too early to tell if that’s what it is, or if it’s just a bug. If it doesn’t clear up soon, I am going to suggest he sees a neurologist,” Hannibal tells him. 

He’s decided, for the most part, that he doesn’t want to keep Will sick for longer than he has too. Just long enough to actually convince Will he’s sick and needs to see a doctor. Will won’t see one until it gets bad. 

“You think he may be sick?” Jack asks. There’s concern in his voice. 

“I have a very strong olfactory system, I was able to smell cancer on a teacher before he even knew. I believe I may smell encephalitis on Will, but I do not have enough experience to compare it to,” Hannibal explains. “As I said, if it persists, and I can become more sure, I will suggest he see someone.”

“Well, you should probably get on that sooner rather than later.”

“Will won’t see a doctor until he really thinks something is actually wrong. I believe he thinks he’s coming down with a cold.” 

“Well, convince him it’s not a cold.”

“I’ll do my best, Jack. Just remember what I have said today,” Hannibal requests and then leaves. 

He doesn’t enjoy sharing anything with Jack, but it doesn’t break confidentiality as he’s not actually being paid for any of Will’s sessions, so Jack expects something from him. And keeping Will further from the Ripper case would keep Will’s wishes, while allowing Hannibal to do as he pleases.

It will help them both if Will can find out it’s Hannibal on his own time, rather than when he’s surrounded by FBI agents looking for his opinion. 




Wednesday comes and Will lets the dogs out when he returns home from Quantico, then gathers clothes and a toothbrush, throwing them into a bag. He doesn’t know if Hannibal will ask him to stay, but he wants to be prepared just in case. 

He opens his nightstand drawer and throws the condoms and lube he keeps in there into his bag too. Just in case. 

When the dogs are set for the night, Will locks up the house and heads to Baltimore. He knows he’ll have to stop home in the morning to feed them and let them out before his lectures, but he knows they’ll be fine at least through the night. 

Hannibal opens the front door and looks Will up and down, eyes stopping at the bag over his shoulder. 

“I didn’t want to presume, but I also wanted to be prepared in case you asked me to stay,” Will says, suddenly feeling warm in his face and the back of his neck. 

“Of course, you can stay, Will. I’ll show you upstairs where you can put your bag,” Hannibal says and steps out of the doorway to let Will inside. 

Will follows Hannibal through his house and up the stairs to the large master bedroom. He sets his bag down on the bench at the foot of the bed and takes a look around the room. A large fireplace against one wall, with two chairs in front of it. Will wonders how often those chairs are actually sat in. It can’t be often that Hannibal would choose to sit there with a guest rather than lay in the huge bed, or in a sitting room downstairs. 

Back downstairs in the kitchen, Hannibal continues preparing food for their dinner. 

“What kind of meat is that?” Will asks. He knows he was drunk the other night, but he still remembers their conversation. He wasn’t that drunk. 

“Liver,” Hannibal says simply. 

“From?”

“The same man I fed you the other night.” 

Will knows he should find this more bothersome than he does. Knows he should not be ready and willing to eat a human being, but at the same time… Hannibal’s cooking has been nothing less than extraordinary. So Will pretends it is absolutely not human, and eats alongside Hannibal at the dinner table. 

He goes easy on the wine tonight, slowly drinking a single glass over the course of their meal, and not refilling when Hannibal suggests they retire to his study. Hannibal settles down onto the couch and Will sits close next to him, not quite touching. 

“Will, I believe I should be honest with you about something,” Hannibal says after a few minutes. 

Will tries to hide the panic he feels about that statement and just responds with a, “Hm?”

“On Monday, I did not only come to have lunch with you, but Jack… expects me to report back to him on your state of mind,” Hannibal explains. He drops a hand to Will’s thigh and lets it rest there. “As you’re not officially my patient, and no ones paying me for your sessions, I am not bound to confidentiality and Jack always wants me to give him something.” 

“Okay…” Will says, waiting for Hannibal to continue. 

“I did tell him that we discussed the Ripper at our lunch and that he shouldn’t throw you head first into the Chesapeake Ripper case should he resurface,” Hannibal says hesitantly. 

Will sets his hand on top of Hannibal’s and looks up to meet his eyes. “You were scared to tell me this?”

Hannibal shrugs slightly. “You said it to me in your own office, to me as a date, meeting you for lunch, not in… not in the setting that I would typically have conversations with you that would be relayed to Jack in some way. It feels like a betrayal of your trust in me.”

“Hannibal, it’s okay,” Will says, and he means it. “Thank you for telling me.”

“In the future, I would like you to tell me exactly what I can repeat to Jack, or perhaps we leave those conversations to strictly be in my office.”

“Of course,” Will nods. Feeling bold, he climbs into Hannibal’s lap, and he says, “Right now I would like to say something that I do not think you should repeat to Jack Crawford.”

“Hm? And what would that be?”

Will leans forward and whispers into his ear, “I want you to fuck me.” 

“I can assure you I will not be saying those words to Jack Crawford,” Hannibal smiles. “Should we go upstairs?” 

Instead of answering, Will gets off of him, stands up and turns to offer Hannibal a hand, which he uses to pull the man off the couch with. 

Will starts unbuttoning his own shirt as they go up the stairs, but halfway up the staircase, Hannibal pushes him up against the wall and connects their mouths, licking into Will’s with intent. Will’s hands make their way to Hannibal’s hips and pull them together, moaning into Hannibal’s mouth when he feels Hannibal’s hardening cock against his hip bone. 

“Bed,” Will manages to gasp, pulling his face to the side and away from Hannibal’s mouth. 

“Bed,” Hannibal agrees and pulls away from Will, grabbing a hand to continue leading him up the stairs, making it impossible for Will to continue unbuttoning his shirt. 

They make it to Hannibal’s room, only stopping twice to push each other into a wall and grind against each other. 

A few feet from the bed, Hannibal stands behind Will and pulls him into his chest, rubbing his clothed erection against Will’s clothed ass while his hands trail down Will’s chest and begin unbuttoning the rest of his shirt. Hannibal’s lips trail down the side of Will’s neck and one of his hands starts to palm Will through his pants, causing Will to push forward into that hand with a groan. 

The hand is gone too soon and Hannibal releases him, allowing Will to turn around and face him, and Hannibal pushes the flannel shirt over Will’s shoulders, letting it fall to the ground. Will starts unbuttoning Hannibal’s waist coat, pushes it off of him, then starts on his shirt, while Hannibal’s hands go for Will’s belt, then button and zipper, then he’s pushing Will’s pants and underwear down in one swift movement. 

Will is left naked in front of Hannibal, while he still unbuttons Hannibal’s shirt. He feels exposed and hesitant now, and Hannibal seems to sense it because he pushes down his own pants and underwear and steps out of them. 

And then Hannibal is on him, lips and teeth on Will’s neck, one hand on his face, the other pulling him close so their naked bodies are pressed together, cocks aching and trapped between their bodies. 

“Hannibal,” Will groans, trying to pull away and get to the bed. 

“Patience, darling,” Hannibal murmurs against his neck, but he still lets Will go and Will pulls him by a hand to the bed, where Will lays down on his back, and Hannibal climbs over him, not yet allowing their bodies to touch. 

He holds himself up with his hands and bows his head to press his lips to Will’s in a tender kiss. None of the urgency or aggressiveness from the hall, just gentle kisses that move from Will’s mouth, to his jaw, to his neck. 

Will wraps his arms around Hannibal’s shoulders and pulls him closer, and Hannibal finally drops most of his weight down on Will’s body. Hannibal props himself up on his elbows and looks down into Will’s eyes, and Will takes his glasses off and sets them down on the nightstand next to the bed. He feels the need to look at Hannibal without his usual barrier of his glasses frames, and Hannibal kisses his forehead, his cheekbones, and when Will’s eyes flutter closed, Hannibal kisses his eyelids. 

It’s all far too intimate, nothing like their previous rushed encounters that were just to get off. This feels like so much more than that to Will and part of him feels the need to get away, withdraw into himself, or distance himself from Hannibal before his feelings evolve into something more. 

Hannibal’s touches are so gentle, in all the right places, he knows exactly what to say to Will at any given moment, he’s perfect in every way, but that’s dangerous. 

Because this is just supposed to be… sex between two men with a mutual attraction, dates between people who enjoy each other’s company, and nothing more. It can’t turn into love, it will never be love, right? Right? Because they’re keeping it a secret and it can’t last beyond random dinner dates. Right? Because Hannibal is a killer with far too many secrets, and Will is an FBI employee and it can never work long term. Because it’s way too soon to feel this way, to even think about feeling this way. But, oh god, the way Hannibal makes Will feel… he wants this. He wants all of it, but he knows he can’t have it, he knows that. It shouldn’t– can’t –mean this much. 

“Darling, where did you go?” Hannibal whispers against his lips. And there Hannibal goes again, calling Will things like darling and that does something to Will. Causes a warm feeling to spread throughout his entire body, causes a tightening feeling in his chest, causes the muscles in his mouth to threaten stretching into a smile. 

“Nowhere, I’m here,” Will swallows. 

“You’ve withdrawn. Stay here with me,” Hannibal says. His lips trail down Will’s neck, to his chest. He kisses down Will’s stomach, hands trailing down Will’s sides. 

“I’m with you, I am,” Will assures him. He tugs at Hannibal’s shoulders, where he’s kissing his hip bones now, and pulls him back up so they’re face to face. 

He tilts his chin up and catches Hannibal’s lips with his own and sighs into the kiss, tangles his fingers into Hannibal’s hair, and uses his other arm to run his hand up Hannibal’s side. Hannibal drops his hips down so their cocks can slide together and Will moans into Hannibal’s mouth and wraps his legs around Hannibal’s waist, urging him closer, pulling him tighter to his body. 

Hannibal kisses the corner of Will’s mouth and pulls away, then sits up and back on his heels between Will’s legs. Hannibal just looks down at him, trails his hands up and down Will’s thighs, but doesn’t move any more than that. 

“There’s lube and condoms in my bag,” Will tells him, pointing to the duffel bag he brought with. 

“I have both,” Hannibal says with a shrug. “I just want to look at you for a minute.” 

Will feels the need to look away from Hannibal’s gaze, squirm away from the gentle touch on his thighs. He’s nearly uncomfortable with the way Hannibal looks at him like he’s the best thing he’s ever seen. 

“Beautiful,” Hannibal whispers. “You have no idea what you do to me.”

Will doesn’t respond to that, he never knows how to respond to something like that. Thankfully, Hannibal doesn’t wait for a response and climbs over Will to the side of the bed, where he opens a drawer and takes out lube and a condom and sets them both on the bed next to Will. He gets back in his spot between Will’s legs and runs his hands up Will’s stomach, down his sides, over his hips and thighs. 

Hannibal takes Will’s cock in hand and leans down to kiss his lips as he gives Will a couple lazy strokes, causing Will to buck into his grasp, searching for more, and moan into his mouth. He can feel Hannibal smiling against his lips.

Will hears the tube of lube click open and then there’s a slick finger circling his entrance. 

“You’re sure?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes.”

And then Hannibal is pushing one finger inside him, working it in and out before adding another, stretching Will open. Hannibal takes his time and Will is squirming under the attention. Each time Hannibal’s fingers find his prostate he has to grip the sheets and bite back moans. 

“Hannibal. That’s enough,” Will says when it’s too much and Hannibal pulls his fingers out immediately. While Will is grateful that they’re going to get this show on the road, he’s left feeling empty as Hannibal opens the condom and rolls it over his cock. He watches as Hannibal slicks himself up, and he spreads his legs wider and lifts his hips slightly to give Hannibal better access. 


Hannibal looks down at Will, his small but powerful frame, his leaking cock against his stomach, his parted lips, red from kissing. Slowly, oh so slowly, he pushes into Will, watching those gorgeous eyes close and his back arch. Hannibal falls forward and frames Will’s head with his elbows. 

Strong legs wrap around his waist and heels dig into his back. Will wraps his arms around Hannibal’s back, one hand makes its way up and into Hannibal’s hair and he’s being pulled down into a kiss. He swallows down the moans Will lets loose as Hannibal pushes all the way into him. Despite all of his preparation, Will is still so tight around him and Hannibal has to take a moment so he doesn’t come right then. 

Hannibal is about to start moving when Will whispers, “Wait another second.” And Hannibal does, letting Will adjust to him. 

He doesn’t know when he decided that he would do anything for Will, but he knows in this moment that’s entirely true. He’s never felt that way about anyone in his life, truly didn’t think he ever would or could. Hannibal doesn’t even know what to call this feeling, just knows that his mind is filled with nothing but Will, Will, Will. 

“Okay, baby,” Will whispers and oh. Hannibal moans at those words alone and he only grows louder as he pulls out nearly all the way and pushes back in, setting a steady rhythm that has Will writhing underneath him. 

Hannibal shifts his angle and earns an, “Oh fuck,” from Will that only makes Hannibal speed up and drop his head so he can kiss Will, drinking down the sounds that come out of his mouth.  

“Hannibal,” Will groans. “Let me, ah, I want to be on top of you.”

All Hannibal can respond to that with is a low growl and a hiss as he pulls out and lays on his back. Will rolls over on top of Hannibal and pushes himself up with his hands on Hannibal’s chest until he’s sitting up, straddling Hannibal’s hips.  

He lifts up, reaches behind him to grasp Hannibal and then sinks down in one fluid motion. Will leans forward and puts his hands on Hannibal’s chest for leverage as he lifts himself back up, then drops down again, setting a pace that has Hannibal’s toes curling as he watches Will above him. 

Hannibal’s hands grip Will’s thighs, his hips, trail up his stomach, anywhere he can reach. Will’s head is thrown back, his jaw slack. His fingers are tangling into the hair on Hannibal’s chest. 

Will falls forward, pressing his chest to Hannibal’s, his mouth to his neck, sucking and biting and kissing, no doubt leaving marks as he trails along the skin. Hannibal pushes his hips up, thrusting to meet Will every time he grinds down. 

Hannibal’s close, so close and he reaches between their bodies and takes hold of Will’s cock, stroking him in time with both of their movements. 

“Fuck,” Will groans. “Hannibal.”

“Come for me, Will,” Hannibal whispers. 

Seconds later Will is coming between their stomachs and clenching around Hannibal’s cock as Hannibal fucks him through it and Hannibal is falling over the edge, too, holding Will tight to his chest as he comes. Will slumps against him, both of them breathing hard, coming down. 

“Fuck,” Will laughs breathlessly against his throat. “I’ll move. Just give me a second.”

“Take all the time you need,” Hannibal says. 

After a minute, Will is pulling off of him and laying down on his back next to Hannibal, the both of them staring at the ceiling. 

Will starts to laugh, the sound permeating the room around them and Hannibal turns his head to look at him curiously. 

Shaking his head, Will says, “So, yeah, probably do not repeat any of that to Jack Crawford.”

And then Hannibal is laughing too, a full bellied laugh that he didn’t even know he had in him, and he can’t seem to contain it. The things Will does to him. 


When they compose themselves, Will watches Hannibal get up from the bed and disappear into the bathroom. He comes back, the condom disposed of, and a wet cloth in his hand. He wipes down Will’s stomach, then returns to the bathroom once again. 

Hannibal comes back and climbs into bed with Will, pulling the blankets over them both. 

“Don’t forget to plug your phone in. You don’t need Jack Crawford showing up to your house to find you missing if there’s a crime scene,” Hannibal says. 

Will sighs, knowing Hannibal is right, but mostly wanting to just ignore Jack if there is a crime scene and face the consequences later on. Still, he retrieves his phone from his discarded pants, then his charger from his bag, and plugs it into the wall on his side of the bed. 

“I know I have warned you several times before, but I will likely have a nightmare,” Will tells him. He’s already sweaty, and he knows that he’ll just wake up even sweatier. “I’m serious, if I get too sweaty drag me out of bed and dump me on the floor.”

“I will do no such thing,” Hannibal says. “Your nightmares do not bother me, Will. Have I ever appeared agitated that you have woken me up?”

“No,” Will huffs. 

They’re laying on their sides, facing each other and Hannibal reaches out and places a hand on Will’s forehead and Will pushes forward into the touch. Hannibal pushes Will’s hair away from his forehead, then trails his hand down to cup a cheek. 

“You’re still feverish, darling,” Hannibal says. “I may have to suggest you see a neurologist.”

Will shakes his head. “No, no I’m fine.”

“Will, really. If it’s what I think it may be, it’s only a matter of time before your symptoms worsen.” 

“Hannibal, I’m fine. Please just drop it,” Will requests. “I don’t need you caring for me like I’m your patient right after we have sex. It’s weird.”

“Will,” Hannibal tries. 

“If I say drop it, I expect you to drop it. And that goes both ways,” Will says, firm as he can. “That’s all I ask.”

“Any time one of us says to drop it, the other has to comply?”

“Exactly. That can be a rule between us.”

“You believe we should have rules.” It’s not a question and Will knows that. 

“Considering our dynamic, yes. You’re a serial killer and I am sure you have secrets you don’t want me to know as an FBI agent. You’re a doctor and there are certain times when I do not want to be treated like a patient,” Will explains. “So yeah, I think setting that boundary would be good for us moving forward.” 

“Very well,” Hannibal sighs. Hannibal leans over and shuts off the lamp on his nightstand. “We should likely get some sleep.”

Will, somewhat unsure if he should or not, rolls closer to Hannibal. His worries subside when Hannibal lifts an arm so Will can settle into his side. 

He rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder and suddenly his exhaustion catches up to him and his eyes are growing heavier with each moment. 

Just as Will is about to fall asleep, Hannibal speaks again. 

“Will?”

“Mm.”

“I’d like to take you to an event at a museum this Saturday. I was planning on attending by myself, but I find that I would rather enjoy your company.”

“Okay,” Will agrees. “Ask me again in the morning. Too tired to think about it.”

Will dreams of the stag again, this time walking through his house, hooves clicking on his scratched up hardwood floors. The dogs don’t seem scared of him, Will isn’t scared of him just standing there, face to face, but he knows there’s a danger lurking beneath the surface. When Garrett Jacob Hobbs steps out of the kitchen, as he so often appears in Will’s nightmares, Will lifts his gun and shoots, but when he approaches the lifeless body, it’s Abigail’s vacant eyes that stare back at him. 

He wakes up sobbing, shaking, and the arm around his body retreats and he wishes it hadn’t. Hannibal, always so considerate, who is pulling away now because Will told him before that he got scared when he was pinned down after a nightmare, but now Will seeks his touch. 

“Hannibal,” he whispers into the dark. He sits up and grasps the air next to him, looking for a hand, anything. 

“I’m here, darling,” Hannibal whispers back and offers Will his hand, and Will clutches it tight as Hannibal sits up next to him. 

Will is still shaking and Hannibal shifts next to him and the lamp switches on and for a second the shadows look like Hannibal has antlers, and he squeezes his eyes shut and they’re gone when he opens them again.

“Did you want to talk about it?” Hannibal asks. Will can tell he's still not sure if he should touch Will, so Will moves closer, pressing his face into Hannibal’s neck and wrapping his arms around him. 

“No. I don’t,” Will says. Hannibal’s arms come around him, cool on his warm body and Will can’t help but shiver. The sweat on him is cooling in the air conditioned room and he almost feels bad that he’s subjecting Hannibal to this. “I should shower. I’m disgusting.”

“If you want to. Or I can draw you a bath,” Hannibal says into Will’s hair. “We could both take a bath.”

“No, no. You should go back to sleep. What time is it anyways?” Will lifts his head from Hannibal’s shoulder to look at his alarm clock and the besides table and sees it’s just after two. He wasn’t asleep for long at all, but it felt like he was. 

“Come on, Will,” Hannibal whispers and starts to extract himself from Will’s arms. He gets up from the bed and Will watches as he makes his way to the bathroom. He hears the bath running and a second later, Hannibal is back at his side, coaxing him out of bed. 

Hannibal leads him by the shoulders to the bathroom and over to the tub. 

“Get in,” Hannibal says, so Will does. 

“Are you joining me?” Will asks, raising an eyebrow at Hannibal, who just stands next to the tub, fully naked. 

“If you’d like me to,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods and slides forward in the warm water so Hannibal can get in behind him, Will between his legs. 

“Do you spend time with other people or is all of your free time consumed by myself lately?” Will asks, leaning back into Hannibal’s chest. 

“I would rather be in your company than anyone else’s,” Hannibal whispers into his ear. “But no, I had dinner with Alana last night.” 

“Did you?” Will feels jealousy spread through his entire body, a weird sort of possessiveness that he knows he shouldn’t feel. 

“Yes. We have dinner often,” Hannibal says. His hands find their way to Will’s stomach and chest and pull him closer. “You have nothing to worry about, Will.”

“I’m not- I didn’t mean it like that,” Will says. “Besides, it’s not like…” Will swallows. “It’s not like we’ve established exclusivity, right? Even if you were, uh, seeing Alana, that’s… I can’t feel mad about that.”

“You’re the only person I’m seeing, Will,” Hannibal says. “Is there someone else for you? Did you not want to be exclusive?”

“Oh god no, Hannibal. That’s not what I was saying at all. You’re the only person I’ve been with in months and I’m not planning on finding anyone else.”

Hannibal kisses his neck. “Good. Neither am I.”

“So that’s… that’s that, then? We’re together and we’re exclusive and these are more than just hookups and random dates.” 

“I would say we’re in a relationship, yes. If that’s what you’d like.” 

Will breathes out a laugh and says, “Yeah. I would like that.” 

He can feel Hannibal smiling against his neck, and then his lips start brushing light kisses against the skin. Will turns his head so he can kiss Hannibal on the lips. 

They sit in the bath until the water goes cold and uncomfortable, sharing each other’s company and stealing kisses. Will eventually decides it’s time to get out, no matter how badly he wishes he could stay in this moment, and Hannibal follows, pulling towels out of a cabinet for both of them. 

Will dries off and decides to pull on a pair of clean underwear from his bag, feeling slightly too exposed, despite everything he and Hannibal did tonight. Hannibal seems to notice and dresses in a pair of sleep pants and a shirt before getting back into bed. 

The clock says it’s after three now and Will knows he’s going to be tired when he wakes again, only a few hours until he has to leave if he wants to make it home to the dogs in time to still have enough time to make it to Quantico. He frowns at the long day ahead, several lectures, stopping at home to check on the dogs once again, then his appointment with Hannibal at 6:30. It’s going to be tiresome. 

Hannibal turns over and reaches out to caress Will’s cheek. Will closes his eyes and leans into Hannibal’s gentle touch. 

“You’re thinking loudly,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Thinking about the long day ahead,” Will sighs. 

“We can cancel tonight if you don’t feel up to it.”

Will nods. “I don’t think I’ll make it through the day if I come to my appointment. Not that I don’t want to see you, of course, just…”

“It would be a therapy setting and that can be more emotionally draining than our regular interactions. I will feel your absence, but I would rather you get some rest,” Hannibal says. He rolls closer to Will and rests his head on Will’s shoulder. “I already gave Jack a report of our conversation on Monday, so I assume he’ll consider that adequate for this week.”

“Yeah,” Will says. He yawns then and Hannibal reaches over to turn off the lamp, then settles back down, head on Will’s chest, an arm draped over his stomach. 

“If you don’t want me here, we can change positions,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will hugs Hannibal around the shoulders and squeezes him tight. “No, stay right there.” 

Hannibal kisses Will’s chest and Will feels like he’s right where he belongs. 


Before Will’s alarm even goes off, Hannibal wakes up to Will removing himself from underneath him and getting out of bed. He checks the clock on his nightstand and it’s not even 6 yet and Hannibal makes an attempt to reach out for him as he gets up. 

“I’ll be right back,” Will says and disappears into the bathroom. 

Hannibal can’t believe he’s being clingy. Will only had to get up to use the restroom, but Hannibal still finds himself missing the man for that minute he is gone. His goal was to ensure Will would fall in love with him, give him no reason to turn Hannibal in for his crimes, but Hannibal thinks he may be falling quicker than Will. 

The toilet flushes, the sink runs, and a second later Will is falling back into the bed, sprawled out on his stomach next to Hannibal. He turns his head to the side and Hannibal can see him smiling in the dark. 

“Your bed is really comfortable,” Will says. “I might just start staying here every night.”

“As much as I would enjoy having you here, it perhaps would not be good to leave your dogs home all the time,” Hannibal says. 

“No I suppose you’re right,” Will says with a yawn. “God I’m tired. I don’t want to cancel tonight, but I really think I have to.”

“I already told you it’s alright,” Hannibal whispers. “Sleep for a bit longer.”

Will makes a noise that sounds like agreement and then turns himself away from Hannibal and scoots back on the bed until his back is to Hannibal’s chest. He reaches behind himself to grab hold of Hannibal’s hand and pulls his arm around his waist. Hannibal smiles into the back of Will’s neck and tightens the arm. 

An alarm goes off at 7 and Will groans loudly before sitting up. Hannibal turns to lay on his back as he watches Will stretch his arms above his head.

He reaches out and traces his fingers down Will’s spine, which causes the other man to shiver, then turn to look at him. His eyes are tired and his hair is wild and Hannibal wants to pull him forward and kiss those lips that look like they’re suppressing a yawn.

“Morning,” Will mumbles and then he does yawn and Hannibal sits up and does kiss him. 

“Good morning,” Hannibal responds when he pulls away. “Do you have time for breakfast?”

“No,” Will says, shaking his head. “I have to let out the dogs and get to Quantico by 9:30.”

“You better get up then,” Hannibal says. 

“Yeah,” Will says and then groans again as he gets out of bed. 

Hannibal still goes downstairs and starts cooking while Will showers and gets dressed and by the time Will comes down, Hannibal has coffee and a breakfast sandwich, along with some cut up fruit waiting for him. 

“Take it to go, darling,” Hannibal says, handing off the travel mug and the container of food. 

“You’re perfect, thank you. I’ll see you Saturday? For your museum thing?” Will asks. He takes a sip of coffee and moans. “God that’s good.”

“Yes, Saturday. I’ll text you with more information.” 

Hannibal walks him to the door and holds both food and cup while Will pulls on his jacket and ties his shoes. When Will takes them back, he kisses Hannibal quick on the lips and then turns to go. 

With his first appointment not being until 11, Hannibal has time to lay back down. He buries his face into the pillow Will used all night, breathing in the lingering scent. 


Will reaches his lecture hall just as his students start filing in. He sets his coffee mug down on the desk, then starts setting up his laptop for his lectures. He talks about the Ripper copycat that displayed his victim like a mannequin, talks about how if he hadn’t made the mistake of leaving prints, it’s likely there would have been several more murders like these. He explains what this could mean for the actual Chesapeake Ripper case and how it could cause him to resurface.

As his lecture starts winding down, Jack Crawford shows up in the doorway, but makes a gesture for Will to continue. Not urgent, then. 

As the students leave the room, Jack makes his way up to the front where Will stands. When he reaches the front, he stops in front of the desk. 

“What can I do for ya, Jack?” Will asks. 

“Doctor Lecter and I spoke on Monday about the Chesapeake Ripper. He said I shouldn’t throw you into the case if he resurfaces. I wanted to know what you think,” Jack says. 

Will shrugs. “I told Doctor Lecter that it would be too much work for not enough reward. You and I both know the Ripper doesn’t leave evidence and going into the mind of killers is… difficult to say the least. I would rather do it for killers that we actually have a shot of catching.” 

“You don’t think it would be worth your time to help catch the Ripper?” Jack asks. Will feels like he’s being baited. 

“That’s not what I mean, and you know it Jack. This work takes a toll on me whether I’m stable or not. I want to catch the Ripper as much as anyone, but it’s not a case I want to get too close to. If the Ripper resurfaces any time soon, then I think I need to be able to reserve the right to stay home if I don’t feel like I can do it.” 

“Is everything okay with you, Will? Lecter said you’ve been feeling unwell.”

“I’m fine, mostly. I just don’t sleep through the night. Tired a lot. It won’t do me any good to be on a case like the Chesapeake Ripper. Any other cases, give me a call and I’ll be there,” Will says. “We don’t even know if he’s going to resurface, Jack. For all we know he’s in prison for other crimes.”

“Do you believe that?”

“No. I don’t. But we can hope, right?”

Will picks up his coffee and takes a long sip. 

“We can hope. I’ll let you get back to work then. You have a session with Doctor Lecter tonight?”

“Oh, uh. No. We cancelled tonight because we talked on Monday.”

“Right, well. I’ll see you, then.”

Jack turns and walks out of the room and Will feels the need to call Hannibal to complain about all of it, but he doesn’t. Hannibal is probably in an appointment right now, anyways. 

He gets through his next lecture, then heads to his office to work on slides for his next lesson plan. He opens his bag and pulls out a granola bar for lunch and after a while he heads to the cafeteria to get a soda. When he returns to his office, Beverly is standing in front of the door waiting for him.

“Jack says you’re distancing yourself from cases. I think that’s good,” she says. “He works you too hard and every time we tell him that, he says you can handle yourself.”

“I can handle myself,” Will says, unlocking the door and stepping inside. He holds the door for Beverly to follow. “But it’s still nice to have people looking out for me, too. Jack said he would watch me, take me out when he knows I can’t handle it, but when people actually tell him I can’t, when I tell him I can’t, sometimes he tries to convince me to stay.”

“Yeah,” Beverly nods. “Good to put your foot down, though. Does it have anything to do with Lecter?”

“He’s… Yeah, I guess so. I don’t know. It’s different talking to him as a boyfriend than as a patient and when he’s honest about his concerns about me, it hits closer to home now, I think,” Will says. “I feel the need to take care of myself, even if it means I’m not actively saving lives. Especially when it comes to a killer like the Ripper.”

“You’re right, you know. The Ripper is a waste of our time usually, but after Miriam Lass went missing, Jack won’t let him go. I mean, he’s killed 9 people and left absolutely no evidence, nothing useful for us,” Beverly says. “He’s evaded us and the only person that found him was a trainee that went digging and jumping to conclusions we couldn’t explain or retrace and now it’s too late to take any of that back.”

“Jack seemed to think I was saying I don’t want to catch the Ripper,” Will says. “Of course I want him to stop killing, but he’s outsmarted the FBI for this long. Even when we caught up to him, he found a way to cover the tracks.” 

“It’s gonna take a hell of a mistake on his end for us to catch him, that’s for sure,” Beverly says. She stands from where she’s sitting on Will’s desk. “You still have appointments with Lecter now that you’re dating?”

“We’re gonna keep having them for now. Not tonight, though.”

“You wanna go get drinks after work?”

Will thinks about saying no, but Beverly is becoming his friend, one of his only, and he finds himself wanting that. Wanting friendship. Especially because she’s the only person, besides Abigail, that knows about him and Hannibal, and it would be nice to confide in someone about his feelings for the other man. To ask if things are moving too fast. So, he finds himself saying, “Yeah, sure.”

“Cool, I’ll text you the bar location. I’m done at 5.”

“Alright.”

Beverly leaves his office then and Will smiles to himself. He’s never really had close friends. Ever. But Beverly seems to understand him and where he comes from and she doesn’t poke or prod in places she shouldn’t. That’s hard to come by. Even Alana has a professional curiosity about him and real friendship with her seems like it wouldn’t be easy. 

Will finds himself wanting to tell Hannibal, so he sends him a text. 

thank you for breakfast and the coffee, i really do appreciate it. beverly invited me out for drinks and i actually accepted, if you can believe that. 

He smiles when his phone buzzes with a response a few minutes later. 

As much as I would like to say I am not surprised, I actually quite am. I am happy you are finding friends to spend your time with, though I do find myself a bit jealous to not be the one occupying your time tonight. You’re very welcome for the coffee and breakfast, and I hope to cook breakfast for you properly soon. Call me later if you’d like. My last appointment ends at 5. 

Will sends a message back. 

as much as i would prefer spending time with you tonight, i think drinks with bev will do me some good. i’ll call you when i get home tonight if i don’t forget. 

He sets his phone down and continues working up until the time he has to go back to his lecture hall for one last class of the day. After that lecture, he checks his phone to see a location for a bar from Beverly and heads out to meet her there. 

“Will!” Beverly calls from a table when he walks in. He makes his way over. “I wasn't sure if you’d actually show.” 

“I said I would, didn't I?” Will says as he sits down across from her in the booth. 

“I’ll get you a drink,” she says, standing up and walking to the bar. 

She comes back with two beers and slides one across the table to Will. 

“Okay. Spill. Tell me about you and Lecter.”

“What do you want to know?”

“Everything. When did you get together?”

“In Minnesota.”

“You guys had to share a room, didn’t you? Oh my god, is that how it started?” Beverly asks. 

“No. He asked me out the morning we went to the hunting cabin. Before we went,” Will says, feeling the need to clarify that they didn’t see a dead girl and then decide to go on a date. “Sharing a room was just… A bonus.” 

“Well, damn,” Beverly laughs. “Do you love him?”

“Bev, we’ve been together a week. I wasn’t even sure if it was a real relationship or if we were just hooking up until last night.” 

“That doesn’t answer my question, though, does it?” Beverly raises an eyebrow. 

Will sighs. “I don’t think it’s love. Not yet. Honestly, it is way too soon. But the way he makes me feel…” Will shakes his head and smiles to himself. “No one’s made me feel like he does.” 

“You've got it bad, huh?”

Will laughs and takes a sip of his drink. “Yeah,” he breathes out. “I think I do.” 

“You think he feels the same?”

“Fuck, I hope so. I have perfect empathy, but he’s hard to read, you know? Some things slip through, I can tell he cares about me and that he’s happy when I’m around, but he has walls built up really high,” Will says with a shrug. 

“Probably a result of trauma,” Beverly shrugs. “On top of the fact that he’s a psychiatrist and has to listen to everyone’s problems without showing emotions.”

“Yeah, you’re probably right,” Will says. “So what about you? Are you seeing anyone?”

“This job makes it really hard to. At least Doctor Lecter knows about the things you see and you’re supposed to talk to him about them. It’s hard to find someone who can even stomach the idea,” Beverly says, looking down at the table. “Not that I’m really looking right now, anyways.” 

“I really wasn’t either.” 

Beverly smiles weakly. “Well, not everyone has a hot, rich, European psychiatrist that wants to get in their pants.”

“He’s not technically my psychiatrist. We have conversations,” Will reminds her.

“Yeah? So why haven’t you told Jack, then? Or anyone else?”

“Jack would make me find a real psychiatrist and would think Hannibal cleared me for the field based on romantic interest alone. I don’t want to see anyone else. Alana has come close too, and she’d definitely report Hannibal for some sort of ethical violation,” Will sighs. “It wouldn't go anywhere because all of my sessions have been off the record, but it would still be a pain in the ass.” 

“Yeah, I guess so. What’s going to happen when you guys move in together and get married, though?”

Will chokes on the sip of beer he was taking and coughs. “That’s not even a thought right now. Fuck, and I was worried we were moving too fast as it was, but now I’m gonna start thinking about that shit now that it’s in my head.” 

Beverly laughs. “Sorry, but it’s true. You won’t be able to hide forever.”

“No, but when it gets to that point it’ll be so long after I got cleared that we’ll just lie about getting together so soon after. No one would even think about it.”

“Yeah, I guess you’re right.” 

After that they fall into comfortable conversation about nothing in particular. Will really feels like he’s normal for once, not seen as some sort of freak like so many people think of him as. Beverly doesn’t see him for how he gets into the minds of killers, doesn’t see him for how he shot Hobbs nine times, or any of that. She sees him as a friend, as Will Graham. 

Will’s phone starts buzzing in his pocket as they’re laughing about Brian and Jimmy’s latest argument over a corpse and he pulls it out, his smile growing even wider.

“Hey baby,” Will answers. Beverly’s eyes grow wider and her smile gets bigger. Will blushes and looks down at the table. 

“Hello darling,” Hannibal’s voice comes through the phone. “Are you still out with Miss Katz?”

“Yeah, I am. Did you need something?” 

“I was just wondering if you were home yet. I was tempted to come by and cook you dinner tonight if you haven’t eaten yet.”

“Oh. I, uh. Sure. Yeah. I’ll call you when I leave?” Will asks. “Or if you wanna head over now, there’s a key hidden under one of the dog figurines in the window.”

“Yes, I can leave now and start cooking when I get there. I could possibly have something ready for you by the time you get home,” Hannibal says. 

“Okay. Um. Did you want to stay over? You don’t have to, but if you want to you can.”

“Not tonight, I’m afraid. I have some things to do at home tonight. You have fun with Beverly and I will see you soon, alright?”

Will tries to hide his disappointment. “Yeah. Okay. See you soon. And hey, let the dogs out, but don’t worry about feeding them, I can do that when I get home.” 

“Okay, Will.”

He hangs up his phone and sets it down on the table. 

“What was all that about?” Beverly asks. 

“Hannibal wants to cook me dinner. He’s heading to my house now and said he’ll have dinner by the time I get home.” 

“Jesus. He’s perfect,” Beverly laughs. 

“I said the same thing this morning when I left his house with breakfast and coffee,” Will smiles. 

“Spending a lot of time together, then,” Beverly says. “It’s only a matter of time before we hear wedding bells. I better be your best man.”

“Of course, Beverly,” Will says, slightly sarcastic. “If Hannibal and I ever get married, you’ll be my best man. And don’t worry, you’ll be the first to know when we get engaged.”

“Good.”

They talk a bit longer until Will decides he better get home to Hannibal and the dogs. He’s sure Hannibal can handle letting them outside, but he’s not entirely sure they’ll listen when he calls them back in. 

Will surprises himself when he pulls Beverly into a hug and thanks her for inviting him out, and promises they’ll do this again, And he surprises himself even more that he actually means it. 


Hannibal makes it to Will’s house, an entire trunk full of groceries. And several garment bags for Will. He finds the key easily, and he opens the door, nearly getting knocked over by the hoard of dogs that come streaming out into the yard. He props the storm door open with a brick Will keeps nearby, likely for that purpose, and carries everything in.

He unpacks all the groceries, putting them into cabinets and the fridge and the freezer, anywhere he can fit them. He’ll prepare a few lunches for Will, knowing he doesn’t eat when he should or what he should, but that has to wait because he promised to have dinner for Will when he gets home. 

After half an hour, the sound of Will’s car can be heard pulling up, the door opening and shutting, and then Will’s shoes coming up the wooden steps of his porch. Hannibal hears the dogs come in the house first, then the front door shuts again and Will is taking off his shoes, letting them thump on the hardwood floor. 

“Hey,” Will says when he comes into the kitchen. 

Hannibal looks up from the stove and sees Will leaning against the door frame, arms crossed, dogs trying to jump up and say hello while he ignores them. His attention is on Hannibal instead. 

“Did you have a nice time with Miss Katz?” Hannibal asks, turning his attention back to his cooking. 

“Yeah. She’s a good friend, I think. I can’t say that about… anyone really,” Will says with a shrug. He pushes off the door frame and walks across the kitchen. Hannibal can feel his warmth just inches behind his back, breath on his neck. Then Will is resting his chin on Hannibal’s shoulder, pressing their bodies together, his arms snaking their way around Hannibal’s waist.

“That’s good. I’m glad you have her. Did you talk about anything interesting?”

“You,” Will laughs. “She thinks you’re good for me.”

“Hm, and do you agree?” 

“Yes. I do.”

Hannibal smiles as he continues to cook their dinner, Will plastered to his back until he needs to move away from the stove. Will lets go and walks into the other room, saying he needs to use the restroom. 

When Will comes back, Hannibal is plating their dinner and bringing it over to the table. 

“You’re sure you can’t stay tonight?” Will asks as he sits down across from Hannibal.

Hannibal can see the hopefulness in his eyes, even if Will doesn’t want to come across that way. He considers his plans for tonight, how he said earlier that he has things to do at home, but… 

“On second thought, I can. I’ll take care of my other errands another night. It’s getting late already,” Hannibal says. He still needs to do what he was planning, but he has ways to ensure Will stays sleeping tonight. It’s risky, but it would provide an alibi. 

After dinner, Hannibal makes the excuse that he needs to move his car into the barn, just in case. When he’s out, he retrieves sedatives he keeps just in case and brings them back into the house. 

The original plan was to wait a while longer before resurrecting the Chesapeake Ripper, but with the recent copycat killer, he’s been presented with the opportunity. Though, because he’s not ready to tell Will, he has to drug him, and that will just prolong the amount of time he has to keep it a secret. Hannibal is now committing to blinding Will, which isn’t what he wanted to do, but it will work out better this way. He won’t be gone long tonight, he’s already killed and arranged the display. He just needs to leave it in a suitable location. Two and a half hours at most. 

Will is settled on the couch when Hannibal returns inside. 

“Wine?” Hannibal asks, heading into the kitchen before Will can even respond. He sees the dogs are eating, so that just leaves putting them outside before bed, not a hard task when the effects of the drugs set in. He knows he shouldn’t do this to Will, but still, he hands him his glass and settles down onto the couch next to him.

“Thanks,” Will says. “Did you stock my kitchen?”

“Yes. And I’m going to prepare you lunches to take to work with you.”

“You don’t have to, really.”

“I’d like to,” Hannibal assures him. “I also bought you something for you to wear on Saturday evening. We don’t have time to get anything tailored, but it should fit just fine. I would like to get you some suits fitted eventually.”

“I should say no, but I know you won’t take no for an answer.” 

“You’d be correct,” Hannibal smiles. 

Chapter 5

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Will leans against Hannibal on the couch, watching the TV he has turned on, but set to low volume as Hannibal reads one of the books Will had left on the coffee table. He drinks his glass of wine, and sets the glass down, immediately feeling the effects of his long day starting to set in. 

“I’m going to turn in,” Will says with a yawn. He gets up on unsteady feet, too tired to walk properly, and the dogs perk up and come running to the door to be let out one last time.

He stands there, leaning against the door frame, barely able to keep his eyes open as he waits for the dogs. They come back in and curl up in their beds and Will locks the front door. 

Hannibal has gotten up from his spot on the couch and is by Will’s bed, taking off his clothes and climbing into bed in just his underwear. Will stumbles to the bed, unsure why he’s having such a hard time with his coordination and nearly falls over as he kicks off his pants. 

Will gets into bed and is nearly asleep by the time his head hits the pillow. 

“Your phone, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Before Will can react, Hannibal is leaning over his body to pick up his discarded jeans and pull his cell phone out of his pocket. Still leaning over him, he grabs the charger and plugs in Will’s phone, setting it on the nightstand next to him. 

“Thanks, baby,” Will mumbles into his pillow. 

He feels Hannibal’s arm settle over his back just as he’s pulled into sleep. 

When Will wakes up, his head feels foggy and his mouth is beyond dry, waves of nausea hit him every couple of seconds and he feels that normal pounding in his brain. He feels like absolute shit. The sun is starting to rise through the curtains and despite how shitty he feels, sleeping through the night is a small victory in itself. 

Hannibal is next to him, sound asleep, laying on his side facing Will, but not touching him, just a hand outstretched towards Will’s side of the bed. 

Will tries to sit up but the pounding in his head is unbearable and all he can do is groan and flop back down, curling up on his side. 

Next to him, Hannibal starts to stir and moves closer so he can pull Will’s body into his own. Will goes because he feels too groggy to even bother fighting against him, but the sudden movement of Hannibal maneuvering him does nothing good for the way his stomach is twisting. 

Hannibal’s lips press to the back of Will’s neck, and a hand starts trailing its way down his stomach, but Will stops it from going further. 

“Is everything okay?” Hannibal asks. 

“I feel like shit, sorry.” 

“Can I do anything for you?” 

“Could you get me a glass of water?” Will asks. 

Hannibal is out of bed and shuffling towards the kitchen before Will can even process he wasn’t touching him anymore. Hannibal comes back with a glass of water and hands it to Will, just as Will’s phone starts ringing on the nightstand. 

“Yeah?” Will answers. 

“Got a scene. I know what you said about the Ripper, but-” Jack starts. 

Will cuts him off, “If it’s the Ripper and you already know, I’m not coming out.” 

“Will, I really think we have a shot this time. We could really use you,” Jack tries. 

“For what, Jack? You don’t need me to confirm it’s the Ripper. You have everyone else around. I’ll be there for the autopsy and you can bring me as many photos as you want, but I’m not coming to the scene,” Will says. 

Hannibal has been sitting next to him on the bed, rubbing tension out of his back and shoulders and that’s enough to make Will want to stay here all morning. When Hannibal’s thumbs dig into a knot, Will has to cover his mouth with his free hand to stop himself from crying out. 

“Are you okay, Will?” Jack asks instead of responding to anything Will said.

“Yeah. Just feel like shit this morning. I’m calling out from my lectures, I think. Give me a call later if you want to drop off photos,” Will says. Hannibal kisses the side of Will’s neck, then bites lightly and starts to suck on the spot. Will elbows him, and hisses, “Knock it off.”

“Are you with someone?” Jack asks skeptically. “Because if that’s the reason why you’re calling out-”

“No, Jack,” Will cuts him off. “The dogs are just getting restless.”

“Right,” Jack huffs. “Well, I’ll call later, then.”

“Bye, Jack.” 

Will hangs his phone up and tosses it back on his nightstand, then turns to look at Hannibal who is smirking at him. 

“You asshole. Jack thinks I’m staying home to fuck someone,” Will groans. 

“You could,” Hannibal shrugs.

“Yeah, maybe after I take an entire bottle of aspirin and die,” Will says, only half joking. “It feels like I’m hungover ten times over, but I barely drank last night.”

“You haven’t been feeling well,” Hannibal says. “Likely just a bad morning.”

“Yeah,” Will sighs. “It’s the Ripper, by the way. That’s why Jack called.”

“I heard. It’s good of you to put your foot down,” Hannibal says and gets up from the bed. He walks towards the bathroom and Will can hear the medicine cabinet open, then shut again, and Hannibal comes back to the bed with a bottle of aspirin in his hand. “Here.”

“Thanks,” Will says gratefully and takes the bottle from Hannibal, washing down two pills with the glass of water. “Do you have to leave soon?” 

“My morning patient cancelled, so I don’t have to leave until noon. If you’ll have me that long.”

“What time is it now?” Will asks, but he does not wait for an answer and picks up his phone to see it’s barely after six. “Mm, come lay down.” 

Hannibal lays back down on his side of the bed and Will picks up his laptop from the floor underneath to write an email to all of his students saying classes are cancelled. He shuts his laptop and slides it under the bed, then rolls over and faces Hannibal. 

Will’s eyes flutter shut as Hannibal pushes his hair away from his forehead, then leans forehead to kiss the top of his head. 

“Hey, Hannibal?” 

“Yes, Will?”

“If you ever leave a crime scene that the FBI gets called to, you’ll tell me, right? So I don’t give anything away about you?” Will asks softly. He moves closer to Hannibal and nuzzles his face into the other man’s neck. “They believe anything I say. I can change the motive, or change the profile. Anything.”

“Of course, Will. Though, I do not plan on killing anyone anytime soon. Especially now that the Ripper is active again, I wouldn’t want to place another killer in your head,” Hannibal whispers into the top of Will’s head. He wraps his arms around Will, tugging their bodies close and tangling their legs. “Get some more sleep.” 

Will manages to sleep for an hour more before the dogs do actually start waking up. He opens his eyes slowly as a wet nose starts to nuzzle the back of his neck. Extracting himself from Hannibal’s embrace rouses the other man and causes him to pull Will back into bed, holding tighter. 

“I have to take care of the dogs,” Will says. Hannibal makes a low groaning noise and it causes Will to laugh. “Come on, I’ll be back in five minutes.”




Hannibal lets go, very reluctantly, and Will gets out of the bed. Hannibal can hear the dogs scrambling on the hardwood floor the second the front door opens. 

“Are you feeling better?” Hannibal asks across the room, watching Will as he stands, looking out the screen of the storm door. 

“A bit, yeah. Still tired,” Will shrugs. “I’ll feed them then come back to bed.” 

Hannibal nods and rolls onto his back. He doesn’t know if he necessarily feels bad for Will, and he certainly doesn’t feel bad for what he did, but he does wish Will didn’t feel so many side effects of the sedative. In time, it’s likely Will’s body won’t react so strongly, though he hopes he can use drugs very sparingly on him. 

It would not do any good for Will if he got hooked on drugs he wasn’t even aware he was taking. 

The fact that this worked out so smoothly, that Will thinks Hannibal was in bed with him all night, that there’s no way Hannibal could be the Chesapeake Ripper, is almost enough to make Hannibal jump for joy. That plan worked, but at the same time- that’s not what he wanted to happen. He really did want Will to know at some point soon, but now that’s out of the question.

He made the decision to drug Will and follow through with leaving this display when he did and now he has to wait it out longer than originally planned. He may still be able to have the dinner party he had thought about, but Will does know about the meat, and Will may get suspicious if Hannibal says he hasn’t killed recently and still hosts a party. 

Hannibal is pulled from his thoughts when the door opens and the dogs come running back in, excitedly running around Will’s legs. He watches as Will stumbles towards the kitchen and hears the dogs’ bowls get filled with food. 

Will comes out of the kitchen and crosses the living room, disappearing into the bathroom for several minutes. When he comes back out, he’s drying his hands on his boxers shorts and Hannibal can smell toothpaste from across the room. 

“You told me you bought me clothes,” Will states as he gets back into bed. He moved across the bed on his knees and straddles Hannibal’s hips. 

“Yes. It’s not much, just a suit. And it’s not tailored either, but there isn’t enough time before tomorrow, so it’ll have to do,” Hannibal explains. He rests his hands on Will’s thighs and looks up at him. “I also bought you a few sweaters like the one you stole from me.” 

“You know it’s not the sweater I like so much, right?” Will laughs. Hannibal raises an eyebrow, pretending he has no idea. He just wants to see if Will is going to say it. “You idiot. It’s because it’s yours.” 

“Well,” Hannibal says with a smile. “I suppose I’ll have to take them back, then.” 

“No,” Will says quickly.  “I’ll keep them.” He leans down and kisses Hannibal. “Thank you.”

“You’re very welcome,” Hannibal smiles against his mouth. “You seem to be feeling better.” 

“I’m exhausted if I’m being honest,” Will says. He slides his knees out from under him so his legs are no longer holding him up and he settles down on top of Hannibal. 

“Sleep, then,” Hannibal whispers into the top of his head. He wraps his arms around Will’s back. 

“Here? I can move if I’m crushing you,” Will mumbles into Hannibal’s neck. 

“Here.” 

Will’s breathing evens out, but Hannibal doesn’t attempt to sleep just yet. He savors the feeling of Will’s full weight on top of him, so trusting in his arms. It’s an odd feeling, but Hannibal knows he’s falling in love more with each heartbeat against his own. 

Eventually Will makes a noise that sounds like he’s waking, mumbles something incoherent into Hannibal’s neck, then rolls off of him. Will settles back down on his side of the bed and falls asleep again within seconds. 

Hannibal gets up and uses the restroom, brushes his teeth with the toothbrush Will had for him last time then walks back out into the living room. The dogs look up at him while he walks across the room to Will’s dresser and he looks for the sweater Will borrowed. It’s folded neatly in one of the drawers and he pulls it out and on, then puts on his pants from the night before. 

Once dressed, he goes into the kitchen and starts making breakfast for the both of them, hoping Will feels up to it. As he’s finishing up the cooking, and he’s about to go wake Will, Will beats him to it and stumbles into the kitchen. 

“Breakfast?” Hannibal asks as he sets the plates down on the kitchen table. Will goes right to the coffee maker and pours himself a cup. Hannibal is going to buy him a better coffee machine eventually, and better coffee for that matter, but Will still looks grateful.

“Hm, let me go put some pants on,” Will says, setting his mug down on the table and walking out of the kitchen again. When he comes back he’s in a long sleeve shirt and a pair of jeans. He looks at Hannibal. “That’s my sweater.”

“Ah, it’s mine, if you recall. You may have it back when I’m done with it. Or you can choose any sweater from my closet next time you come over.” 

Will sits down at the table in front of a plate and Hannibal drops a kiss to the top of his head as he passes him to get to his own seat. 

“How many appointments do you have today?” Will asks after he swallows down several bites of his breakfast. 

“Two,” Hannibal responds. “When do you think Jack is going to bring over the crime scene photos?”

“Hard to say. Could be in twenty minutes, could be tomorrow. Whenever he finds time,” Will shrugs. “Thanks for breakfast. I do feel a lot better, I guess I just needed to sleep it off.”

“Hm, yes,” Hannibal says, pretending to be contemplative. “You haven’t been sleeping well and it is finally catching up to your body.” 

Will nods and takes several long sips of coffee. “What’s the plan for tomorrow, then?” 

“The event starts at six, so if you’d like to come over early for a light dinner, we could do that, but it would be quite early, likely 4 or 4:30. Otherwise we could eat after and you can arrive at my house at five.” 

“Which would you prefer?” 

“I would prefer dinner after, but only if you eat lunch tomorrow. I wouldn’t expect you to wait that long to eat,” Hannibal says. 

“Sure, I will eat lunch tomorrow, and we can do after.” 

Hannibal can tell there’s a question Will wants to ask, but won’t. 

“You can stay over tomorrow night, if you wish. It will be late to drive home from Baltimore,” Hannibal answers anyway. 

“Sure. If you want me to.”

“Yes, Will.” 

They continue to eat their breakfast and when they finish, Hannibal insists on doing all the cleanup. Will just stands, leaning against the counter behind him, and Hannibal can feel those eyes on him, trailing up and down his body. 

Back in the living room, Hannibal pulls the garment bags out of the closet he stuck them in, and lays them on the bed. He unzips the bag while Will hovers in his space behind him to reveal the black suit he wants Will to wear, with the dark blue waistcoat and tie. 

“As I said, it’s not tailored, but it should fit well enough. Eventually I will be taking you to my tailor,” Hannibal repeats. 

“I know, you’ve told me.” 

Will wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist from behind and pushes his face into Hannibal’s neck. His hands run up and down Hannibal’s stomach and chest, and then he pulls away and goes to the other shopping bags sitting next to the closet. 

“Are these my sweaters?”

Hannibal turns and looks. “Among other things, yes. I may have gone slightly overboard.”

“You don’t need to buy me things, Hannibal,” Will says, walking back towards the bed. He cracks a smile. “You know, though, Beverly did say I should ask you to be my sugar daddy.”

Hannibal nearly chokes at that. “While I would not use that term, I suppose I am not opposed to the concept. I’ll buy you anything you want, Will. I have more than enough money to do so.” 

Will looks like he’s considering it. “I’m not going to say yes.”

“But you aren’t going to say no,” Hannibal finishes what he left unsaid. 

Will ignores him and pulls out all of the clothes and lays them out on his bed. There’s sweaters, button down shirts, a few ties, some nice pants. 

“If anything doesn’t fit, just tell me, and I can return it,” Hannibal says, softly. 

Will turns and kisses him on the cheek. “Thank you.”

“Of course.” 


When Hannibal is collecting his clothes from the night before, preparing to leave, there’s a knock on Will’s front door. Both men freeze and look at each other. 

“Go hide upstairs,” Will whispers, getting up from where he sits to push Hannibal towards the staircase. 

“Will, I have to leave now if I want to stop home to change,” Hannibal whispers back.

“Well, you can’t, so go upstairs and I’ll come get you when they’re gone. I think it’s Jack.” 

Hannibal goes up the stairs and Will goes to the front door and sighs in relief when it’s Beverly, and not Jack Crawford. 

“Fuck, Bev. I thought you were Jack,” Will laughs. 

“I offered to come because I had a feeling Lecter was here,” Beverly says. “He’s not, though? His car’s not out there.”

“No, he parks in the barn,” Will says. He goes to the staircase. “Baby, you can come down. It’s Beverly.”

Hannibal comes rushing down the stairs, puts his shoes on, then his jacket, and he’s about to walk right through the door, when he turns suddenly, and wraps his arms around Will’s waist and pulls him close. 

“I will see you tomorrow. Come over early if you’d like,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will once, pulls away, then apparently decides that wasn’t enough because he goes in for another. “Okay. Bye, darling.”

“Bye,” Will says. He can tell he’s smiling as Hannibal hurries towards the barn to get into his car. When he’s out of sight, Will closes the front door and turns to look at Beverly. She’s smirking.

“You guys are sickeningly cute,” she says. She holds out a folder. “I have Ripper photos for you.”

Will takes them with a nod. “Thanks. Autopsy?”

“Today, as soon as I get back. Are you feeling better?” 

“Yeah, I just needed some good sleep and a good meal,” Will shrugs. “I’ll come in.”

“I can give you a ride, if you want? We can take a minute to look at these photos.”

Will nods. “Sure. Yeah. You guys really think we’ll figure anything out?”

“It’s worth a shot, but it’s the Ripper. He’s not going to screw up on the first kill after two years, you know?”

“Yeah. He’s had a long time to prepare,” Will agrees. He opens up the folder to look at the displayed body. “What flowers are these?”

“You’ll have to talk to Jimmy about them. He’s the walking encyclopedia,” Beverly shrugs. “He was listing meanings for them and it mostly just says there’s danger, that we should be cautious, that the Ripper is pissed.”

“I mean, we already knew that would be the case if he came back,” Will shrugs. He glances over the photos again, but doesn’t let himself go into the Ripper’s head. He can do it with photos like these, but he’d rather wait until he’s on his own. “I’ll look these over later, then. I’ll get dressed in something else and we can leave.”

Will puts on one of his new sweaters and a pair of slacks that Hannibal bought him. They fit good, too good. He’s sure Hannibal went through his drawers to find his pants sizes, but he doesn’t find it weird. Maybe he should. 

When he comes out of the bathroom, Beverly looks him up and down and nods approvingly. “He buy you those clothes?”

“Yes. I told him what you said about him being my sugar daddy.”

Beverly looks mortified. “What did he say?”

“He said and I quote- ‘While I would not use that term, I suppose I am not opposed to the concept,’ and then said he’ll buy me anything I want,” Will tells her. He goes to the closet by the door to find a pair of shoes, then pulls them on. 

“I hope you said yes,” Beverly says. 

“I didn’t say no,” Will laughs. “Ah fuck. Hold on, I should let the dogs out for a while before we leave.”

At the words, the dogs come running to the door and Will opens it for them. He and Beverly stand out on the front porch, watching the dogs run around the yard. 

“Is Jack pissed I wouldn’t come out today?” Will asks. 

“Yeah, kind of. He was told before though, so he can’t blame you. Plus if Lecter is saying to keep you out, Jack thinks that’s his opinion as your psychiatrist.”

“You can call him Hannibal, you know. You don’t have to call him by his last name.” 

“It feels weird to be on a first name basis with him.”

“I guess,” Will shrugs. “I find myself still calling him Doctor Lecter sometimes.”

“Either Doctor Lecter, or baby, huh?” Beverly teases. 

Will feels his face go warm in the chilly fall air and he ignores her in favor of calling the dogs back inside. 

“Calling him ‘baby,’ was impulsive the first time I did it, but the way he… reacted made me want to keep doing it,” Will says.

“How did he react?” Beverly asks as they start walking down the porch steps to her car. 

“Well, uh…”

“You guys were in bed weren’t you?” Beverly asks when he trails off. 

“Yeah.”

“Say no more. I get it,” Beverly says, throwing her hands up in surrender. She laughs quietly, but Will catches it and raises an eyebrow. She shakes her head and says, “Can’t believe you’re fucking your psychiatrist, Will.”

Will feels the corner of his lips attempt to pull into a smile, but he forces it down. “Not technically my psychiatrist.”

“No, of course not.” 

In the car, on the way to Quantico, Beverly breaks their silence after a solid fifteen minutes.

“At least those hickeys are fading, but he’s got some now, too. And he was wearing that goddamn sweater you insisted was yours.”

Will’s hand goes to his own neck, having forgotten they were there, really, and he smiles. “Yeah. He said I can take any of his sweaters next time I go to his house.”

“Jesus, how are you guys this in love already?”

“We’re no-”

Beverly cuts him off. “If you’re about to say you’re not in love, I’m crashing this car.”

“Seriously, Bev.”

“Will, if you’re in denial, that’s fine. The way he looked at you today, though? He’s the most polite man I’ve met but he didn’t even say hello to me. It was like you were the only person in the world for him.”

“That doesn’t really mean anything.” 

“It means everything. If he doesn’t say he loves you within the next month, then you can say I was wrong,” Beverly says. 

“Even if he does, I’m sure it would take longer than that for him to come out and say it,” Will shrugs. If he’s being honest, he doesn’t know if Hannibal is capable of such feelings. 

Hannibal kills people, Will knows that much, but he doesn’t know enough. If Hannibal’s another killer, like he insinuated, then it’s possible he can’t feel love. But that can’t be right, right? Not with the way he’s treated Will thus far. 

“So, he stayed over last night? And you stayed at his house the night before?”

“Yeah.”

“And you have a date tomorrow, did I hear that correctly?” Beverly asks. 

“Yes.”

“I cannot wait to get the call about an engagement,” Beverly teases. 

Will just shakes his head. When Hannibal asked him out in Minnesota, Will was skeptical they would even make it past a first date. That was just over a week ago, but now they’re inseparable, it seems. 

Could he love a killer? He asked Hannibal early on why he doesn’t hate him and now that’s all starting to settle into his mind. He shouldn’t continue this, he should tell Beverly right now, see what he should do, and get Hannibal locked up. He can’t though, he can’t. He doesn’t know why, but he can’t. 

There is no way of knowing how Hannibal truly feels about him, not with his defenses built so high that Will can’t see over the walls, not even with his gift. Will shudders at the idea that all of this is just a way to placate Will and keep him in Hannibal’s line of sight, as to not be arrested. 

“Will?” Beverly asks, pulling him out of his reverie. “Are you okay?”

Will swallows audibly. “Yeah. Yeah, I’m good.” 

“Look, if the marriage talk freaks you out, I get it. I won’t joke about it anymore. I know how soon it is,” she says. 

Will notices they’re in the Quantico parking lot now, the car no longer running. He wonders how long he was in his thoughts for. 

“No, no, it’s okay. I just got lost in thought.” 

In reality it does freak him out, but not for reasons he can actually tell her. He’s feeling the need to withdraw from Hannibal, just as he had the night they had sex in Hannibal’s bed and it felt way too intimate. He stores these thoughts away for later and gets out of Beverly’s car. 

Inside the lab, Will greets Jimmy and Brian, and it turns out Jack will not be in attendance which makes Will sigh in relief. 

“Tell me about the flowers, then,” Will requests, coming to stand in front of the table where they’re all laid out, away from the body. 

“Right, so a lot of these have double meanings– canna lilies,” Jimmy points out. “Symbolizes glory and power, which would be on par for the Ripper, wanting to claim his glory and exhibit his power.”

“And the other meaning?” Will asks. 

“Beauty and perfection,” Jimmy answers. “Now that could apply to his kills, as that’s how he likely sees them, so this one isn’t quite as confusing as the others.” 

Jimmy points to another type of flower and continues, “This one, oleander means caution, or danger, which makes perfect sense and is a warning that the Ripper is not playing around.”

“And the confusing part?”

“It can also symbolize everlasting love, and romance, among other related things,” Jimmy says with a shrug. “We think maybe he just means the caution part and was limited on the number of flowers with only single meanings.”

“And the others?”

“Poppies,” Jimmy points. “Can symbolize death, which duh. But there’s also sleep, peace, pleasure, and a few other things.”

“Right, so. We’re just assuming it’s death and not the other things then?” Will asks. He looks over the rest of the flowers. 

“The Chesapeake Ripper is a psychopath, he has no capacity for love, so yeah,” Brian steps in. 

“But we don’t actually know him, we’re just assuming all of this,” Will responds. “Sure, he may be a psychopath, and I’m not entirely sure they don’t have a capacity for love, but let’s take a minute and explore our possibilities here,” Will says and looks down at the flowers again. “Are these petunias?”

“Yes,” Jimmy answers. “Anger and resentment. Or desire and hope.”

“Okay so let’s consider this idea, then. I’m assuming all of the flowers have double meanings like that? Something on par with feelings regarding murder, or taking back what is his? And then another symbolizing something involving love?” On Jimmy’s nods, Will continues, “I am assuming the Ripper at least did a single google search. I’m sure there are tons of flowers with each meaning, are there not? Several for anger, several for glory, caution. So why choose ones that also symbolize love, desire, pleasure, romance, peace, sleep?”

“You think the Ripper is sending two messages?” Beverly asks. 

Will shrugs. “Possibly. I mean, if I found someone and was spending my time with them, loved them, felt at peace with them, slept with them, et cetera, and a killer tried to copy my work, then maybe that resentment is placed because he’s being torn from his lover.”

“So, you think the Ripper’s been in hiding for two years because he’s taken a lover?” Brian asks. 

“Maybe? The Ripper might be trying to send two messages here. This display could be an offering for their lover, I mean who doesn’t like flowers? But it could also be to prove a point that he’s not gone, and that if anyone tries to take away his glory, he’ll be there to set things straight,” Will says. “Or maybe even that these feelings of resentment aren’t even towards the copycat, but resentment towards killing because it takes time away from his partner.”

“The Ripper doesn’t want to rip anymore?” Jimmy asks. 

Will shrugs again. “I’m just throwing out ideas here. What organs were taken?” He asks, changing the subject away from flowers. 

“The heart,” Brian answers casually, then looks up from the body, glancing at everyone in the room. 

Jimmy throws his hands in the air. “Well, of fucking course! The Ripper’s in love!” 

“Well, shit.” Beverly responds. “Can’t wait to tell Jack this one.”

Will’s phone starts buzzing in his pocket and he pulls it out to see Hannibal’s name. “One second guys, I gotta take this.”

He steps out of the room and shuts the door behind him the hits accept on the call.

“Hey,” Will answers.

“Hello, Will. I’m between appointments and I was wondering how you were feeling?”

“Better. I’m uh, at Quantico right now looking over the Ripper victim,” Will says. 

“Hm, find anything helpful?” Hannibal asks. 

“No, just that he might have taken a lover and doesn’t want to kill anymore because of it,” Will says, breathing out a laugh at how ridiculous it sounds. “Anyways. How are you?”

“I’m well. Thinking about you a lot.”

“You’ve grown too attached, Doctor Lecter,” Will says. He lowers his voice, “I’ve been thinking about you too, though.” 

“Oh, have you?” Hannibal asks, very flirtatiously. “And what about me have you been thinking?”

“That I need to get back in the lab before this conversation goes somewhere it shouldn’t,” Will responds. “I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?”

“Yes, of course. I’ll let you get back to it,” Hannibal says.

“Bye.” And Will hangs up without another word. 

Will walks back in to see Jimmy and Brian staring at him. 

“Who was that?” Jimmy asks. 

“Oh. Doctor Lecter. We cancelled last night because I was sick and he wanted to see if I’m doing better,” Will lies. 

“Oh yeah, Jack told us you were sick,” Jimmy nods. 

They drop the subject and start poking at the body, looking for any sort of evidence left over. Of course, there’s nothing at all. 

“So why does the Ripper take organs?” Brian asks after a while. 

“This one is symbolic,” Will tells him. “The heart was taken, just as his love may be taken away if he has to continue killing. Or something like that.”

“Right; not only was the victim surrounded by flowers, but there was a small arrangement in the cavity left behind,” Beverly nods. “So what, the Ripper just has hearts, kidneys and brains in jars then?” 

Will shrugs. “Probably.”

He remembers what Hannibal does with organs… but what are the odds of two cannibals in the Baltimore area, right? And Hannibal was with him all night, and had promised to tell Will if he leaves a crime scene. So it’s not him. He keeps his thoughts to himself, regardless. 

“God, when we find this guy and get a warrant for his house, we’re gonna have a field day,” Jimmy muses. 

The rest of it goes on, Will zones out until he's addressed directly, Jack stops in briefly to see what they’ve found and they tell him. 

When there’s nothing else they can possibly do, no more skin to look at for prints, no more hair to comb through for fibers, they pack up the body and put him in a drawer in the morgue for later. 

“You wanna get something to eat?” Beverly asks as they walk out of the lab together. 

“Sure. I haven’t eaten since breakfast. I was left with a prepared lunch in my fridge, but,” Will shrugs. “Came here instead.”

“He’s making you meals for when he’s not around to cook for you?’

“Yeah, he stocked my entire kitchen because he thinks I’m not eating right,” Will shrugs. “I’m not sure how I feel about all of it.”

“Well, tell him to back off if it feels like coddling. I mean, he knows you’re a grown man, right?” 

Will laughs. “I am sure he does. He just… it’s probably the doctor in him trying to take care of me.”

“Right, but you don’t like being taken care of.”

“I mean, I’ve been alone my whole life, really. All of my relationships have been random and short lived, and not with, well, not with a doctor, you know? I’m not used to it.”

They get into Beverly’s car and she drives towards a restaurant. 

“Tell him that. Set a boundary, honestly.” 

“Yeah, I think I will. He told me he wanted to make lunches for me, and I said he doesn’t have to, but of course he pulled that, ‘I want to,’ card,” Will says. “Maybe I’ll call him when I get home tonight.” 

“Good idea,” Beverly nods. 

They eat, and they talk quietly about the Ripper victim, when they think the next victim will drop, then they talk about Hannibal more. It seems their conversations always circle back to Hannibal. 

Will picks up the check, paying for both of their meals, and Beverly drives Will home. When he gets home, he lets the dogs out, feeds them, then takes a shower. 

He sits down on the couch and opens his laptop, answers emails from students, looks up the list of flowers Jimmy gave him. Some websites say different things, but ultimately it comes down to what they talked about. Will wonders who the Ripper could possibly be in love with. He wonders if the person knows about their partner’s proclivities, or not. 

The entire time he has been home, he has been trying to work up the nerve to call Hannibal. They’ve been so honest so far, and Hannibal’s been so understanding, but for some reason Will is having trouble with wanting to set that boundary. 

He goes through his regular nightly routines and forgets about the call, letting his nerves settle. It turns out he doesn’t need to make the call because just as he’s getting ready for bed, his phone starts ringing on his nightstand. 

“Hey, baby,” Will answers. “I was just thinking about calling you.”

“Were you?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yeah, I, um, I wanted to talk to you about something, actually,” Will says, nervous again. 

“Hm, what about?” Hannibal asks, calm as ever. His voice has a certain soothing quality, the way he purrs over the line causes Will to relax minutely. 

“I was just thinking about… Hannibal, I don’t want you buying me groceries or doing meal prep for me,” Will says, rushed and uncertain.

“Okay,” Hannibal says as if it’s the most simple thing in the world, and Will supposes that he’s the only one making a big deal out of it. “I hope you have not been letting that thought affect you all day, darling.”

Will sighs. “Maybe a bit.” 

“Oh, Will,” Hannibal says. “You needn’t worry about talking to me. It is good that we’re setting boundaries, but we can’t do this without honesty.”

Will settles down on his bed and stares at the ceiling, holding his phone to his ear. “I know that,” he says after a stretch of silence that likely lasted too long. “It’s just that, I guess after so many years of living on my own, I’m not comfortable with you caring for me like that.”

“Will, you don’t have to explain yourself,” Hannibal says. “I understand.” 

“I know. You’re good at that. At understanding, I mean.” 

Hannibal makes a satisfied noise, then changes the subject entirely. “I actually had something to talk to you about, as well.”

“Oh, yeah?” Will asks. 

“Mhm, unfortunately I’m going to have to cancel tomorrow,” Hannibal says softly. 

“Oh,” Will says, disappointed. Not that he would even enjoy the event, but he was looking forward to seeing Hannibal. “Okay. Why?”

“I forgot that I made prior commitments. I was reminded today,” Hannibal says with a sigh. “I need to go out of town for a psychiatric conference. I would cancel that, but I promised to drive with Alana.”

“Oh,” Will says. Suddenly he feels jealous, even though Hannibal promised there’s nothing between the two. 

“Yes. So you can see, I can hardly tell her that I have a date tomorrow. I’m sorry, Will. I know this is very last minute, and you wanted to see me. I want to see you, too,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Hannibal, it’s okay. When do you come back?” 

“Tuesday? Possibly Wednesday,” Hannibal says. “Maybe I can come over that night to see you. If you want me to.”

“You’ll be tired from travelling,” Will says. “Don’t make plans with me until you know for sure you’ll be up to it.”

“Okay, Will.” 

Hannibal sounds defeated, and Will realizes he sounded passive aggressive and bitter when he said it. 

“Hannibal, I… That sounded rude, I’m sorry. Of course I want to see you when you get back. Give me a call, okay?”

“I will. Goodnight, Will.” 

“Night.”

Will continues staring at the ceiling, clutching his phone in his hand long after Hannibal ends the call. He thinks he royally fucked this up. That’s what he wanted though, isn’t it? Some space between them, to withdraw, to stop himself from falling in love with a killer. 

He can’t help but think Hannibal is lying about something- whether it be the convention, or that he’s not fucking Alana, too. Will realizes it’s entirely possible that Hannibal lied just because of what Will requested of him. It’s impossible to know.

Calling Alana for confirmation is out of the question, too. He can’t exactly pick up the phone and say ‘Hey Alana, are you fucking my boyfriend?’ or ‘Hey, Alana, my boyfriend said he needed to cancel a date because there’s an out of town psychiatry convention he somehow forgot about. Is he telling me the truth, or should I be worried?’ No, that’s all out of the question. 

Will doesn’t plug in his phone before he falls asleep, doesn’t even take off his pants or sweater. Both things were a big mistake. He wakes up from a nightmare gasping, feeling suffocated in the clothes. He reaches for Hannibal in the dark before he remembers he’s alone. So alone. 

The next thing he thinks to do is call Hannibal, but his phone is dead in his hand and he’s shaking too hard to get the charger in the port, so he lays back down in defeat after peeling off all of his clothes so he’s just in his underwear. He can’t even remember the nightmare, but he’s terrified. He is sure it had a similar theme of the others. Stag, Hobbs, killing Abigail. They’re all the same. 

“Winston,” Will calls out into the dark, and he can hear the dog get up from his bed and move across the floor, nails clicking on the hardwood. Will pats the space next to him in bed. “Come on, buddy.”

Winston pulls himself up onto the bed and curls up next to Will. Will tangles his fingers in the dog’s fur and lets the steady breathing lull him back to sleep. 

In the morning, Will wakes up early, takes care of the dogs, makes himself breakfast, and then decides to go fishing. He hasn’t touched his phone since trying to call Hannibal during the night, and he doesn’t particularly care what he misses. 

He catches a few fish and brings them home, cleaning them, then freezing the ones he isn’t going to eat today.

When he finally decides to find his phone, where it’s dead and tangled in his blankets, he plugs it in and sees two missed calls from Hannibal, as well as a text. 

Your phone must be dead. Give me a call.

And Will puts his phone back down to charge, does not give him a call and takes the dogs for a long walk, throwing sticks for them and letting them chase squirrels for nearly two hours until they’re thoroughly worn out. Even when he returns home and sees two more missed calls, he doesn’t return them. He doesn’t listen to the voicemail, either, and starts making dinner instead.


Hannibal wishes he didn’t have to go on this trip with Alana, but he promised, and he never breaks his promises. He really cannot believe he got the weekends mixed up; he thought it was the following weekend, and usually he would never mess something like this up, but with his attention on Will and reviving the Ripper, it completely slipped his mind until Alana called him asking what time they would leave. 

Will seems to have not taken the news well, that’s for sure. He knows where Will’s mind has likely gone, all the doubts he may feel because of this, and Hannibal wishes more than anything he could show up at Will’s house and hold him tight until Will is sure of Hannibal’s feelings for him. 

There’s a pang of hurt in Hannibal’s heart when Will doesn’t answer his phone in the morning, both calls going straight to voicemail, but he knows how Will forgets to plug in his phone sometimes, so he pushes down that hurt feeling. Until he realizes Will was probably upset the night before, to the point where he let it slip his mind completely. 

Alana picks him up at their agreed upon time, and Hannibal sends Will a text, knowing it’ll go unanswered. All he can think about during the three hour drive from Baltimore to New York City, is how badly he wants to call Will again. 

He can’t call Will while he’s in the car with Alana, though. 

She tries to make conversation several times, but for once, Hannibal can’t engage in it. It used to be easy with her, but the air of flirtation that comes with all of their conversations feels so wrong to him, now that his heart is consumed by Will, and only Will.

Not that he has feelings for Alana, but it was always a fun game to play. He finds her attractive, and a great person to keep around, and if needed he would have had no problems taking her to bed to fulfill a purpose, but that’s not necessary, nor would he want it to be now. 

“You’re very withdrawn, Hannibal,” Alana says halfway through the drive. “You’re never this quiet.”

“I have a lot on my mind this weekend, I suppose.”

“Would you like to talk it through?” Alana asks, using her psychiatrist voice. 

“Thank you, but no.” 

“Well, if you change your mind, I know a good therapist,” Alana jokes. Hannibal forces a smile at that and they fall back into silence. 

After another twenty minutes of silence, Hannibal asks if Alana can pull over at a restroom, so she pulls into the next gas station.

Hannibal gets out of the car and calls Will again. He’s hopeful when the call rings, knowing Will’s phone is on now, but when it keeps ringing, it’s clear the call won’t be answered. 

He goes in, uses the restroom, then buys a coffee, knowing it’s going to be terrible. He buys one for Alana too, and takes it back out to the car, where she waits. She doesn’t say a word beyond ‘thanks,’ when he hands her the coffee, and he’s grateful for the silence. 

When they finally arrive at their hotel, and get to their shared room, Hannibal sets his bag on his bed and tells Alana he’s going for a walk to stretch his legs after the journey.

“Want company?” Alana asks. 

“I’d rather be alone,” Hannibal says and leaves the room. 

He waits until he’s in the lobby of the hotel before dialling Will’s number again and holding the phone to his ear. He walks down the street in front of the hotel as it rings, and rings, and rings. He didn’t want to leave a message, but he feels like he has to. 

“Darling, I understand if you’re away from your phone right now and just haven’t seen my calls, but if you’re ignoring me, then I will give you any space you desire, and I hope to speak with you whenever you’re ready. I arrived in New York City with Alana about five minutes ago, and we have to share a room, so if you call back and I don’t answer, it’s nothing personal. If I did something to upset you, Will, I really hope I didn’t, but if I did, I would be more than willing to talk it through,” Hannibal says softly. “Have a good night, Will.” 

He shoves his phone back in his pocket and continues walking, feeling the need to blow off some steam. Perhaps find someone to kill if there’s someone rude enough. Which, Hannibal is certain there’ll be someone in New York City that makes him mad enough. He shakes his head, pulling himself out of that mindset. He doesn’t have the means to kill anyone this weekend. 


Will finishes his dinner and settles down on the couch in front of the TV. He doesn’t exactly know why he’s ignoring Hannibal, but it feels like the right decision. He was supposed to be out with him, going back to his house, they were going to fuck, no doubt, and probably take another bath together, but… But Hannibal cancelled their plans. And Will convinces himself it’s because Hannibal doesn’t want to see him tonight. 

And it hurts. 

Once he gets in this mindset, it’s impossible to get out of. He feels unwanted, and like he’s a second choice. Which, he is in this case. Second to Alana, of all people. 

Will gets up and goes to the table where he keeps his liquor, forgoing a cup, and bringing a bottle of whiskey back to the couch. 

He drinks throughout the entire movie he turns on, and when the end credits roll across the screen, he realizes he has had more than enough. He gets up on unsteady feet, goes to the bathroom to piss, then goes back into the living room to collect the dogs and opens the door for them one last time before bed. 

Finally, he decides he can listen to the voicemail Hannibal left, and he’s happy to be called darling, but when Hannibal reveals he’s sharing a room with Alana, Will feels nothing but jealousy and pain. 

He doesn’t even wait to hear the rest of the message before he hits the call button. 

“Hello?” Hannibal answers after a second. 

“Hey, baby,” Will slurs. He doesn’t mean to say it, he’s mad, but he also knows how much he loves when Hannibal hears it. Will shakes his head vigorously, trying to get back on track. “Are you alone?”

“I can be, just one second,” Hannibal responds. Will hears movement, a door open and shut, and then Hannibal asks, “Are you drunk, Will?”

“Yeah,” Will laughs. “Because you didn’t want to see me tonight, so I had nothing to do but drink.” And there it is, the point he wanted to make. 

“Will, that’s not-”

“No, no Hannibal, no I get it, don’t worry. You’re spending time with Alana Bloom,” Will sneers. “Because I’m not enough for you, right?”

“Will, darling, that’s not at all the case. It’s you, and only you for me. I told you that,” Hannibal says. 

“Uh huh. I think I do need space, actually, you’re right. Have fun with Alana,” Will says. 

“I respect your wishes, but I’d very much like to discuss this when you’re sober, darling,” Hannibal responds. 

Will barks out a laugh. “Sure, Hannibal. I’m sure you’d love to have this conversation when I’m sober, because right now I’m distracting you from what you really want to be doing.”

“Will.” 

“Good night, Doctor Lecter,” Will says and hangs up the phone. He feels satisfied with that. Cutting Hannibal off before things can get too serious, before he can get hurt because Will is certain Hannibal’s affections lie elsewhere. 

Will undresses and gets into bed, instantly falling asleep. 


Hannibal listens as the line disconnects before he can say anything more. How far they’ve strayed in such a short amount of time, how Hannibal has screwed up the best thing he’s had because he made a simple mistake. He goes back into the hotel room, knowing tears are welling in his eyes. Another unfamiliar experience for him. He hasn’t cried in years, and now he feels the tightening of his throat, and the warmth in his face, the tears threatening to fall. 

Alana looks over at him when he closes the door again.

“Hannibal?” Her voice is so concerned, and Hannibal wants to kill her. He wants to kill her for being the reason Will feels this way. But he can’t.

“Ah, just received some difficult news,” Hannibal lies. “It’s alright.”

“What happened?” 

“An old friend from Italy passed today, unfortunately,” Hannibal lies again. 

“Oh, I’m sorry, Hannibal,” Alana says and gets off her bed. Hannibal thinks for a split second that if she tries to hug him, he’ll snap her neck and flee the country. Instead, his arms just come around her when she embraces him, and he lets himself be held, and lets the tears fall into her hair. 

“I’m okay, Alana. I’m going to sleep now,” Hannibal whispers and pulls himself away from the woman. 

He goes into the bathroom, brushes his teeth, and changes into pajamas, putting on the sweater Will had borrowed for days, which now smells like the both of them combined. He holds the collar to his nose and inhales as deeply as he can, then lets it drop and steps out of the bathroom, pulling his mask back on to appear like everything’s perfectly fine. 

Hannibal doesn’t look at Alana as he crosses the room and gets into his own bed. He turns off his lamp and curls up on his side, facing away from her, then pulls the blankets up to his chin. 

Sleep does not come easily. 

In the morning, he apologizes to Alana, then books the next flight home. 


When Will wakes up, he’s more hungover than he’s been in a long time. There’s a missed call from Hannibal, as well as a text. He groans at the pain in his head and reads it. 

I’m coming home today. My flight lands at eleven. If you don’t want to see me, ignore this. If you do, call me. 

The conversation from the night before comes flooding back to him and Will feels guilty. Hannibal cancelled his plans for the weekend and came home because he knows Will is upset, and Will feels guilty. He should have just believed Hannibal, but he couldn’t do that. He had to fuck it up. 

Will doesn’t call. He can’t face the things he said to Hannibal. 

He knows he’s making it worse by ignoring this, but he can’t bring himself to call, or text, or show up at Hannibal’s house. Instead, he goes to visit Abigail.

“Didn’t want to bring your boyfriend?” Abigail teases as they walk through the greenhouse at Port Haven.

“We’re, ah, taking some space from each other,” Will shrugs. 

“What happened?”

“I said some things I shouldn’t have? I was drunk and upset.”

They sit down on a bench and Abigail turns to look at him.

“You two are good for each other. Whatever it was, I’m sure he’ll forgive you.”

“It’s not that,” Will shakes his head. “I’m… I already know he forgives me, and he wants to talk about it, but it’s me. I can’t forgive myself.”

“Well, I hope you find it in you to forgive yourself. I need you guys,” Abigail says softly. “I… Will, I was the lure. For my dad.” 

“I know, Abigail,” Will says. He pulls her into a hug and feels her shudder, sobbing against his chest. “I know.” 

“We would be on college tours, and he would have me befriend the girls. I couldn’t tell anyone, Will. I didn’t want to do it,” Abigail sobs. 

“I know. But you’re going to deny all of that. You’re going to say you never spoke to any of the girls, that you always thought you and your dad were just on regular college tours, and you found it weird that girls were going missing from your school choices, but there was no way for you to know,” Will says quietly. There’s no one around to hear their conversation, but he knows this shouldn’t be a conversation for this setting. “We’re going to help you. Whether Hannibal and I are together or not, we won’t let that stop us from helping you in any way we can.”

Abigail sniffles and pulls away from the embrace. “Thanks, Will.”

“You’re welcome, Abigail,” Will smiles weakly. “How would you feel about learning to fish? Next weekend. I’ll check you out of here, you can meet my dogs, we can make a day of it.”

Abigail nods and wipes the tears off her face. “I’d like that.”

When Will leaves Port Haven, he momentarily considers stopping at Hannibal’s house, but knows he should not do it. 

At home, he goes for a long walk with the dogs, cooks himself dinner with some of the food Hannibal brought over the other day, then he sits down in front of his laptop at the kitchen table and starts working on his lectures for the coming week. 

His eyes start to grow heavy around ten, so he crawls naked into bed and lets himself be pulled into a fitful sleep. The nightmares keep waking him up, but he can never remember them, just wakes up shaking, pulls the blankets tighter around him despite how hot he is, and tries to fall back asleep. 

He wakes to his phone ringing and answers. “Yeah?”

“Got a Ripper scene, you up to coming out?” Jack says through the phone. 

Will considers saying no, but he’s upset with himself, he’s upset with Hannibal, and he knows that the Ripper scene will be bad for him. What better to do while upset with himself and his boyfriend, than to become self-destructive and spiteful about Hannibal’s wishes to keep him out of the field for the Chesapeake Ripper?

“Yeah. Text me the address,” Will answers. 

He hangs up and starts pulling on clothes, lets the dogs out and listens for the ping of his message tone. He gets the address and gets into his car after the dogs are inside and settled. 

The Ripper scene is set up just like the last one had been, almost identical to the photos Will saw, but with different flowers. 

“Jimmy? Flowers?” Will asks, the second he pulls up. He knows he’ll have a better read of this scene if he knows what he’s seeing. 

“Yeah, so we have: Saxifrage- devotion, affection, passion,” Jimmy lists off. He’s looking at his phone, likely reading a website about generic meanings. 

“Any other meanings for that one? Involving murder?” Will asks, circling the body.

“Nope. And most of them are like that, too,” Jimmy says. He continues to list them off, “Pulmonaria; can mean ‘you are my life,’ but also symbolizes admiration, devotion, joy. We have Camellias; desire, passion, perfection, longevity. Erysimum symbolizes fidelity. Gardenias; purity, sweetness, joy, secret love. The Ripper put a lot of flowers in this one. You still with me?”

“Yeah, keep going,” Will nods. 

“Red tulips; true, deep, undying love. Aster is patience and elegance. And then we have purple hyacinth. The most common flower used to symbolize regret,” Jimmy finishes.

“This is an apology and a promise, but I think it’s specifically to the partner we discussed on Friday,” Will says. “Heart missing?”

Brain nods, “Chest cavity is stitched back up, very neatly, of course. We’re talking about the Chesapeake Ripper, afterall. We’ll have to wait to see what’s in there until we get back to the lab. Assuming it’s some of these same flowers. That’s how the last one was displayed.”

“Alright,” Will nods and turns to look at Jack.

“Alright! Everyone clear the area, give Will some space,” Jack calls out, and everyone goes scurrying.

Will closes his eyes and let’s the pendulum swing. 

“I tear out your heart physically, just as mine has been, albeit metaphorically. If I can’t have what I want, then neither can you,” Will says, taking over the mindset of the Chesapeake Ripper. “The person I intended this for doesn’t know it’s for them. I am trying to prove my devotion in the only way I know how, but I know it won’t get across in the way I want. There’s no other meaning to this. I’m not responding to a copycat, I’m not warning anyone, I’m making a promise of my love, I’m showing that I regret what I have done in my own way. This is for no one but him and I. This is my design.”

Will stands there for a second, breathing heavy, trying to come back to himself. This one hits too close to home for him, too much of it is what he wants to hear from Hannibal, and he almost wishes he had a lover like the Ripper at this moment. Only because this display is an offering like one he’s never seen. Or he thinks this is a display he should be making for Hannibal, seeing as he’s the one that fucked it all up with that phone call. He shakes his head, trying to vanish the thoughts.

“Will?” Beverly says from behind him. 

He turns to look at her, and he realizes there’s tears streaming down his face. He wipes at the snot coming down from his nose, then wipes away the tears on his face. 

“Sorry, I’m good,” he says softly. “Fuck. It’s basically what we already discussed. He’s trying to prove his devotion in the only way he knows how. I’m sensing there was some sort of misunderstanding between the two, and the Ripper is trying to channel the way he feels into his display because he doesn’t know how to make words out of it.”

“Are you okay?”

“It just hit close to home, I guess,” Will says, looking around to make sure no one else can hear. “I said some really shitty stuff to Hannibal when I was drunk on Saturday night. He had cancelled our date to go out of town on business, and I called him and accused him of cheating. It’s ah. This just hit me in a way… I go into the Ripper’s head, but it feels like he’s already inside mine.” 

“Get out of here, go get some rest. You said it yourself, the Ripper is hard on you,” Beverly says, putting a soothing hand on Will’s shoulder. “It doesn’t help that you’re going through some shit on top of it.”

Will nods and wipes at his cheeks again, wiping away the tears that continue to fall, and won’t stop. “I have to talk to Jack, then I’ll go home.”

“Have you and Hannibal talked? Since the night you called him?”

Will shakes his head. “No, he came home the next morning and texted me, saying to call him if I wanted to see him. I didn’t call.”

“Will, you should call him.”

“I can’t. I can’t face what I said to him, I can’t do it.” 

Beverly pulls him into a hug. “Take your time, then. Call me if you want to eat ice cream and watch shitty movies, okay? You know I’m here for you.”

A sob makes its way out of Will and he nods as he hugs her tighter, so extremely grateful to have her right now. “Yeah. Yeah, thank you, Bev.”

So Will goes and talks to Jack, tells him what he read from the scene, then goes home, claiming a headache (which is true). He tells Jack to call with what they find during the autopsy. 

When he gets home, he finally decides to call Hannibal, but the call goes unanswered and Will’s heart breaks. He doesn’t leave a message, just shuts his phone off and crawls into bed fully clothed. He stares at the ceiling for an hour before his eyes finally grow heavy enough to go back to sleep. 


Hannibal doesn’t want to ignore Will’s call, but if he answers, he knows he won’t be able to conceal the fact that he’s the Ripper. It will slip, and it will ruin things, even if Will saw the scene, even if he knows the meaning of every flower. Because if Will knows now, he’ll know that Hannibal drugged him, and Hannibal can’t even think of a way to justify that quite yet. No, Hannibal needs time. To figure out how to communicate with Will, and to figure out how to continue seeing Will without hurting him like he already has.

He bared it all with that scene, but he knows murder tableaux are not healthy means of communication, and are not a proper apology for the way he made Will feel. He had thought coming home early would be enough to get Will back into his arms, but Will didn’t call. He ignored the text because he doesn’t want to see him, Hannibal is clear on that. 

It causes a tear in his heart in the shape of Will and he’s already planning the next kill. 

Notes:

I’m sorry for this. Next chapter will have things looking up tho! I promise a happy ending for these two, but we still have a long long way to go until the end of this story. Please leave comments and let me know what you think!

Chapter 6

Notes:

Yes I know I have completely fucked up the timeline and that the lost boys case happens closer to Christmas, but this is my narrative so shhh. And also the flower symbolism is literally just pulled directly off different websites so if any of it’s wrong just pretend it is not.

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Will doesn’t attempt to call Hannibal again after Monday, doesn’t turn down any crime scenes, which has him flying all over the East coast trying to find these lost boys that keep killing their families, saving mothers for last. 

It’s cases like these that Will would usually go to Hannibal for insight, to be steered in a different direction than the one he’s facing. Right now, all he wants is to call him, but Hannibal doesn’t want to hear from him, that much was clear when he didn’t answer on Monday and never called back.

He doesn’t call to cancel his appointment, he doesn’t call to apologize after his no-show. Just as Hannibal doesn’t call to ask why he didn’t come. They have an understanding.

Will misses him. So much it hurts to think about him. And Will finds himself thinking a lot. Every time he’s home between crime scenes he’s looking at spots around his house that Hannibal occupied in the short time they were together. The kitchen, his bed, the couch, the shower. 

He doesn’t even have the comfort of Hannibal’s sweater. Because Hannibal took that the last morning they saw each other. That morning when he was so reluctant to let Will out of bed to feed the dogs, when he let Will fall asleep on top of him, then cooked Will breakfast. When Beverly told Will that Hannibal looks at him like he’s the only person in the world.

Even if he did want to see Hannibal (which he tries to convince himself he absolutely doesn’t), he’s too busy. Between providing an education, and being shipped off to two different states in four days, he has no time. Then there’s the constant pouring over evidence, databases, newspapers, everything else that he’s helping with. 

“Will,” Beverly calls out Friday night when he leaves the lab to go home. He turns to look at her and he can feel her concern radiating off of her. “Let me come over tonight. We can order pizza, okay? On me.”

And Will wants to say no so bad, but he just nods and walks out of the building with her. She follows him home. 

“Alright, talk to me, Will,” Beverly says after she orders a pizza over the phone.

Will shakes his head. He can’t.

“Okay, then we won’t talk,” Beverly says and sits down on the couch without another word. “We’ll watch dumb movies while we eat pizza and we won’t talk at all.”

So that’s what they do. Until Will falls asleep on the couch, head resting on Beverly’s shoulder while a movie he can’t remember the name of plays on the TV. 

He wakes up in the middle of the night, chest heaving, neck stiff, a soothing hand on his shoulder.

“Hannibal?” Will says into the dark. 

“No, Will, it’s me. It’s Beverly,” Beverly whispers. 

“Fuck,” he breathes out, rubbing at his eyes. “What time is it?”

She picks up her phone off the coffee table and the display lights up to show it’s just after three in the morning. 

“We both fell asleep,” Beverly shrugs. “Did you have a nightmare?”

Will swallows audibly. “Yeah, yeah. It happens a lot. I can’t remember most of them.”

“You were calling out his name, Will.”

“Sorry if I woke you,” Will sighs. “I, um, you can take my bed if you want? I’ll stay on the couch.”

“Will,” Beverly says softly. “You’re exhausted, go sleep in your bed.”

Will figures there’s no use arguing so he goes, and Beverly lays down on the couch and pulls a blanket over herself. Will changes into a t-shirt and a pair of shorts and gets into bed, but he doesn’t go back to sleep.

He lays on the pillow that smells like Hannibal and tries not to think too hard about how badly he wants to call. 

In the morning, Jack calls Beverly first, and she tells him she’s already with Will, so there’s no need to call him, too. They get on a flight to North Carolina after Beverly runs home to get a change of clothes. Will calls Port Haven on the way to the airport to have them tell Abigail he won’t be able to take her fishing.


Hannibal goes to visit Abigail on Friday. He hasn’t heard from Will again since he tried to call on Monday and he knows the ball is in his court, but Will said he wanted space. Hannibal is determined to give it to him. He won’t reach out first. 

And that’s hard. So he keeps himself busy, like planning the next Ripper display, and visiting Abigail. 

“Are you and Will still fighting?” Abigail asks the second Hannibal walks into her room at Port Haven. 

“We’re not fighting. He needed space,” Hannibal says. “Did you talk to Will?”

“He came to see me on Sunday,” Abigail shrugs. “I’m not entirely clear on whose fault everything is, but it seems like he thinks it’s his.”

“It’s not Will’s fault,” Hannibal sighs. He changed the subject. “I’m taking you to my home tonight for dinner.”

Abigail’s face lights up at that. “Really?”

“Yes.”

Hannibal goes and picks up a jacket from the back of a chair and holds it out for Abigail to put on. She slides shoes onto her feet and heads towards the door. 

“When did you last talk to Will?” Abigail asks in the car.

“Our last conversation was on Saturday evening. Otherwise, he attempted to call me Monday but I wasn’t near the phone,” Hannibal says. 

“And you didn’t call him back?” 

“No. I did not,” Hannibal shrugs. “He’ll come back to me when he’s ready to.”

“No offense, but you’re stupid,” Abigail mutters. 

“Well, as long as there’s no offense then I will allow it,” Hannibal responds. 

He normally wouldn’t let someone speak to him like that, but Abigail’s a teenager. And he knows she’s kind of right, even if he won’t admit it out loud. 

“He was so upset with himself,” Abigail continues. “He thinks he fucked everything up.”

“While Will may have said some things that were hurtful, I know they came from a place of hurt on his end, which was my fault. Still, I don’t want to reach out until I know what to say. I’m letting him come to me,” Hannibal says. “This isn’t a conversation for right now.”

Abigail huffs and crosses her arms in the passenger seat and doesn’t say another word for the rest of the drive back to Hannibal’s house. 

Even if Hannibal did wish to contact Will first, he knows he’s been out of town on a case, only coming home for hours at a time, mostly spent at Quantico, working. Alana told Hannibal when she said she was feeding the dogs every time Will leaves. 

Will was supposed to have a session on Thursday, but didn’t even reach out to Hannibal himself to cancel. Hannibal had known he wouldn’t be there. 

Hannibal pulls into his garage and they both get out of the car and walk into the house. Hannibal started preparing dinner before he left and there’s only a few things left to do. 

He pours Abigail a cup of tea, telling her the benefits of psilocybin mushrooms in controlled therapy environments.

“Magic mushrooms?” Abigail asks, raising an eyebrow.

“Yes.” 

She drinks her mushroom tea, under Hannibal’s watchful eye. He watches as he continues cooking eggs and sausage, watches as she drops her teacup on the floor. He sets down his cooking utensils and walks around the counter to kneel in front of Abigail, picking up the shattered teacup. 

“Doctor Bloom said this was okay?” Abigail asks, standing up from her chair and walking to a bowl of fruit.

“Absolutely not. She and I have a difference of opinion.”

Abigail settles back down into the chair with a fruit in hand and examines the skin until she sets it down, bored of that as well. 

“I don’t feel so good.”

“It’ll pass,” Hannibal assures her. 

He goes back to cooking and allows Abigail to sit where she is before instructing her to go sit in a spot at the dining room table. She disappears into the room and a few minutes later Hannibal’s doorbell rings.

On his doorstep is Alana Bloom, mad as he’s ever seen her. She yells at him in the kitchen, and he says sorry, though he doesn’t mean it. He lies and says Abigail is hazy because he gave her half a valium, then he tells Alana to join them at the table. Her mood brightens when she sees there’s a third place setting. He doesn’t tell her that he actually set it hoping Will would show up randomly, just as she had done instead. 

Abigail is a lot hazier than he made it out, but Alana doesn’t question it at all, just sits down and lets Hannibal serve her breakfast for dinner.

After, Alana takes Abigail back to the facility, but she looks reluctant to leave. 

Hannibal was hoping Abigail would tell him about her involvement in her father’s crimes tonight, with the help of the drugs to make the memories less hard on her, but Alana’s unexpected visit ruined that. He’ll have to visit Abigail again soon, and see if she’s willing to talk. 

Hannibal takes his third victim that night and begins to build his display. He wasn’t planning on making all of the victims in this sounder look the same, but it seemed fitting. The language of flowers is enough of his brand for it to work, and he grows most of them in his basement, anyways. The rest he buys at different shops outside of Baltimore, always paying cash. 

He waits until Saturday night, a full week since the last time he spoke to Will, to place the display, having caught wind that the BAU, including Will, are all out of town again.

He busies himself with work, catching up and reviewing patient notes, doing research for a paper he plans to write. None of it fills the void left inside of him.


On Sunday morning, mere hours after Will and the rest of the BAU returned home from North Carolina, Will’s woken up by a call from Jack. 

“Ripper. Texting address,” is all Jack says before hanging up on Will, not even waiting to see if Will is going to show up. Jack probably figures he either will or he won’t.

And Will does. And it’s the same as the first two victims. Jimmy lists the flowers for him when he walks into the scene.

“We have pink Camellias: longing. Red carnations: alas poor heart and admiration. Primrose commonly means ‘I can’t live without you.’ There's several that mean different kinds of love, a lot of them are repeats from the last display,” Jimmy explains. “A lot of purple hyacinth.”

Will just nods. “Heart ripped out, I’m assuming?”

“Yeah. Last one had a small arrangement inside, one of each flower. We’ll have to wait and see what these are,” Beverly answers. She pulls Will aside, away from everyone else. “You’re sure you’re up to this?”

“I’ll be okay, Bev,” Will nods. 

She pats his shoulder and they both turn to Jack, who calls for everyone to clear the area. 

Will closes his eyes and lets the pendulum swing. 

“I am left with nothing. A hole in my heart shaped like him. There’s nothing I can do to bring him back, so I am biding my time, showing my feelings in the only way I know how. I miss him, more than anything, but I can’t say sorry, as I never have before. This isn’t an offering, nor a warning. This is an outlet for my emotions,” Will says, the voice of the Ripper coming out as his own. “This is my design.”

Will drags himself out of the killer’s mind and his hands are trembling in his coat pockets. 

“It’s like this is a diary. He’s not speaking to anyone, but himself. He feels sorry for himself,” Will tells Jack. He looks for Beverly, but she’s in conversation with someone else. He feels like he’s going to fall apart any second now. “I’m… I need a minute.” 

“Are you okay?” Jack asks.

Will decides to tell a half truth. “I’m sort of going through a breakup right now. This hits close to home.”

“I didn’t know you were seeing someone.”

And Will knows that’s a damn lie because he hasn’t been subtle about the bruises on his neck, but he’s grateful to Jack for pretending.

“It was rather short lived,” Will shrugs. “Not really in the mood to talk about it.”

“Right. Well. The autopsy will be today after we get this packed up. You think you’ll be up to it?” 

“Yeah, I just need a breather right now,” Will nods. “I’m going to sit in my car for a bit.”

“Have you been talking to Doctor Lecter about what’s going on with you?” 

At the mention of his name, Will really feels the need to get out, and get out fast. He needs to get away from this conversation, but he just swallows and shakes his head. 

“This last week has been too hectic, so I really haven’t gotten a chance to have a session with him.”

“Right. Go catch your breath, and I’ll let you know if we need you for anything else.”

Will nods and turns quickly on his heels, going back to his car and getting into the driver's seat. He puts his forehead against the steering wheel and can’t help but laugh. He feels so absolutely unhinged because of this one man. This one gorgeous, caring, thoughtful man. Who didn’t return his call. The laugh turns into a sob and there’s tears falling not even a second later. 

Gasping for breath in his car alone, he hopes no one is paying attention to him. Of course, his luck has never been great, and the passenger side door opens and then there’s a hand on his back. 

“Let it out, Will,” Beverly whispers. And while he had hoped no one saw him, he’s glad she did. 

Will lets himself really cry, no one there to hear it, but himself and Beverly. 

“How long are you gonna let this go on? When are you going to call him, or show up at his house? Or I’ll show up at his house and give him a piece of my mind, whichever you want,” Beverly says after a while. 

Will can’t help but laugh. “Thanks, Beverly.” 

“Any time, man. You wanna head to that autopsy now? See what’s inside?” 

“Yeah,” Will nods. He wipes the remaining tears from his face. 

“Jimmy drove me this morning, but I’ll get a ride to Quantico with you, if that’s alright?” 

“That’s fine,” Will nods, turning his key and putting the car in gear. 

At Quantico, after the body is brought down to the morgue, Jimmy and Brian start off by reopening the stitching on the chest. They peel back the skin to reveal just one type of flower inside the cavity. 

“Wild blue phlox. Commonly known as Louisiana phlox, or a Woodland phlox, though some people do actually call these Wild Sweet Williams. Just like our own sweet William right here,” Jimmy teases, pointing a scalpel at Will in the corner.

“My name’s not William,” Will shrugs.

“No?” Jimmy asks, surprised. 

“Just Will, but I do appreciate you calling me sweet, Jimothy,” Will jokes. 

“It’s James,” Jimmy corrects. “Oh you’re being silly. Duh, Jimothy isn’t even a real name.”

“I am so glad these are the minds we have working for the FBI,” Jack mutters. “What do these flowers mean and why did he only put this one kind in the chest?”

“So, phlox symbolizes good partnership, passion and sweet dreams. It’s not technically a Sweet William, but if we go with those meanings as well, they symbolize love, admiration, passion and gratitude. Gallantry is also a common one for Sweet Williams, but I believe the Sweet William meanings would pertain more to Dianthus barbatus which is a different flower,” Jimmy shrugs. “I don’t know if we’re supposed to make that leap with the name or not.”

Everyone nods while listening, and Will speaks up, “I’m going to assume we’re not necessarily looking at the sweet william meanings but the phlox ones instead. I’m sure the Ripper was just tight on resources and chose these for the good partnership and passion meanings.” 

“Why do you say that?” Jack asks. 

“I mean, if this display was more of a diary entry than a public announcement, then I’m just going to assume he feels as though his heart was torn out and all he’s left with is some sort of memory of a good partnership. We leave flowers to mourn loved ones when they pass. He’s mourning the loss of his lover.”

“Is it possible his lover died?” 

Will considers that, but he can’t quite explain why it doesn’t feel right. Instead he says, “It’s a possibility. It’s possible he even killed him if I’m being honest. Maybe he didn’t accept the last display as an apology. Think about it, the first one was a message to us, the copycat and his lover. The second was just a message to his lover. This one is for himself. I suppose if we look at it that way, then sure.”

“So we look into the victim’s relationships first, then missing persons. It’s possible he’s hidden the body, or that he’s keeping it somehow,” Jack says. 

“The victim wasn’t the partner,” Will says, shaking his head. He doesn’t entirely believe the Ripper’s partner is dead, but if he is, it’s not the guy on the table right now. “The Ripper didn’t feel anything towards this man other than disdain. He’s simply a vessel for the Ripper’s own problems.” 

“Still,” Beverly says now. “Wouldn’t hurt to check.” 

“Wouldn’t hurt,” Will agrees quietly. “I should get home to the dogs. Do you guys need me for anything else tonight?”

Jack shakes his head. “Go home, get some rest. Take care of yourself.”

“Thanks, Jack,” Will says.

With that, Will goes home. 

He thinks about calling Hannibal, wants to resolve this so bad, knowing that Hannibal is just waiting for him. He said he needed space, and Hannibal is respecting his wishes. Will wants to call, but his thumb just hovers over Hannibal’s contact and he never makes contact with the screen. 

Because he’s still convinced Hannibal doesn’t want him anymore. 

Monday is miserable, but he gets through his lectures. Beverly brings him lunch to his office, and sits and eats with him. Tuesday goes the same. And Wednesday. Thursday, the day he usually has sessions with Hannibal, he debates whether or not he should go. He decides not to. 

Thursday night, he goes to bed early. When he wakes up, it’s after a dream that he’s walking with the stag. But he wakes up and he’s in the middle of the road, a police officer in front of him, his feet cut open on the pavement. This is the first time he’s ever sleepwalked. 

“He yours?” The officer asks, pointing his flashlight behind Will. 

Will turns and looks down. “Hi, Winston,” he whispers. He pets the dog that followed him out, keeping a watchful eye as Will sleep walked down the middle of the road, in the middle of the night, during cold mid-November.

After questions, he’s in the back of a police car, Winston sitting next to him on the seat, being taken home. All he can think about is how terrified he feels. He doesn’t stop shaking long after he gets dropped off by police, nor does he stop when he calls the dogs back inside from where they roam, looking for him after the front door was left open. 

He continues to tremble as he falls into his bed and does the only thing he can think of to calm himself down.


Hannibal expects Will to try calling again after this Ripper display, like he had the week before, but Will doesn’t. His week drags, and all he can think about while he listens to his patients is how much he misses Will. 

Thursday night comes and he stays in his office late, just in case Will does try to come to his session, but he doesn’t show up. Hannibal doesn’t know why he expected it to go any different. He thinks of Will every single time he walks into his bedroom, thinks about the one night they shared here. Maybe they weren’t meant to be. If Will wanted him, he would have called by now.

So, Hannibal gets into bed that night and tries his best to sleep, but it takes time. He wants nothing more than to be sleeping next to Will. He holds a pillow tight and inhales the scent of Will that barely lingers anymore. It is nowhere near enough.

Just as his eyes finally close and he feels himself start to drift off, his phone starts ringing on his nightstand. He doesn’t look at the name before accepting the call.

“What?” Hannibal answers in a harsh tone. Whoever it is will get the hint that it’s impolite to call in the middle of the night, and he will be able to finally get some sleep.

“Sorry, I’m sorry. I don’t know why I called. I just needed… I’ll hang up.”

“Will?” Hannibal’s voice softens at the sound of the man on the other end. Will’s voice is shaking and he sounds terrified. “Are you alright?”

“I just needed to hear your voice. I shouldn’t have called. I’m sorry, I’m going to hang up now.”

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers, but the line has already gone dead. 

There was so much fear in Will’s voice, and Hannibal knows Will wouldn’t have called if he didn’t have to, so Hannibal gets out of bed and doesn’t even bother changing out of his pajamas. He instead pulls on his robe, and then a coat, and then slides on a pair of shoes and gets in his Bentley.

Hannibal speeds all the way to Wolf Trap and makes it there in record time. He finds the key under the dog figurine in the window sill, and he lets himself in.

A few of the dogs greet him excitedly, but the only thing on his mind is Will, and he finds the man curled up in his bed. He’s still trembling, surrounded by the dogs that didn't greet Hannibal at the door. 

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers again, just as he had on the phone. 

He takes off his shoes, throws his jacket and robe on the floor and sits down on the bed, pulling Will’s fevered body into his arms, holding him to his chest. 

“Hannibal,” Will sobs. “What are you doing here? I shouldn’t have called. I’m sorry, I know you don’t want to be with me anymore. I don’t know why I called.”

“Will, my love. You’re all I want. Don’t you understand?” Hannibal says softly. “I’ve been waiting for you to come to me after you said you needed space. I’ve spent every minute of the last two weeks wondering what I could do to make it better.”

Will doesn’t say anything in return, just wraps his arms around Hannibal and holds tight.

“What happened tonight, darling?” 

“I was sleepwalking. Dreaming that the stag from my dreams was following me, but I was out in the middle of the road with Winston. I don’t… I don’t even know if this is real, Hannibal,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal frowns at this news. “This is real. Repeat after me, darling. My name is Will Graham, it’s 3:32 in the morning, I am in Wolf Trap, Virginia.”

Will repeats him, with some hesitance, and Hannibal knows Will likely finds the exercise to be stupid and belittling, but Hannibal doesn’t know what else to do for him besides grounding techniques. All of his years of psychiatric work are forgotten because all he can think about is how Will trembles in his arms.

After another minute, Hannibal whispers, “Were you sleepwalking barefoot?”

Will nods against his chest.

“How are your feet?” 

“Cut up and dirty, probably. They hurt, but not too bad.” 

“Come,” Hannibal whispers, maneuvering Will to stand. “Let’s go take a bath.”

“I can’t ask that of you,” Will murmurs. “You should go home and go to sleep.”

“I’m here because I care for you deeply, Will. Nothing will ever change that. If you don’t want me, I’ll go, but don’t think for a moment longer than I don’t want you,” Hannibal says, standing and guiding Will by the shoulders to the upstairs bathroom where there’s a bathtub. 

“I was terrible to you, Hannibal,” Will whispers on the steps. 

“Only because I hurt you first,” Hannibal whispers. “I didn’t have the words to tell you how I feel about how I treated you, and I still don’t, so I hope saying sorry will suffice.”

“I convinced myself you didn’t want me anymore. It happens sometimes. I have something good and I ruin it because of a little thing, and then it snowballs,” Will says. 

They step into the bathroom and Hannibal sits on the edge of the tub and turns on the faucet. When the water is a comfortable temperature, he stands again and starts removing his own clothes. Will hesitates for a second, watching him, then removes his t-shirt and boxers. 

“I should have called you back after you attempted to call me last week, but I couldn’t find the words I wanted to say. I knew if I did, I would say something wrong and drive you further away from me, so I waited. I needed you to come to me,” Hannibal says, stepping into the tub and sitting with his legs spread as an invitation. 

Will gets in, but he sits with his back to the other side of the tub, letting the water from the faucet hit his spine. He draws his knees to his chest and hugs them tight. Hannibal knows it will take more time before they return to their past levels of intimacy. 

“You’re a psychiatrist. Pretend I’m actually your patient. What would you say to me if I told you about our entire situation?” Will asks. He’s not making eye contact either, which brings them back to the day they met. 

“I would tell you that you and your partner need to effectively communicate. You find yourself pushing him away for misunderstandings and missed calls, convincing yourself you’re not wanted, but telling your partner about these insecurities would be the first step to mending the problem,” Hannibal says quietly. He, too, draws his knees to his chest, mirroring Will’s position. 

“And what would you say to me as my boyfriend?” Will asks, voice small, almost inaudible above the sound of the water running.

“I would say the same thing, but I’d likely kiss you, as well,” Hannibal smiles weakly. “Will, these last two weeks have been unbearable. I found myself wearing our sweater and smelling it whenever I could. I haven’t washed my pillow cases since the night we spent at my house because it’s what I had left of your presence in my home. I’ve stayed in my office during your session time hoping you’d come to me.”

“I haven’t spent a single moment not thinking of you,” Will whispers. “I can’t promise you this won’t happen again, but if I ever shut you out again, please come to my house or to Quantico. It’s hard for me to get out of that mindset once I get into it.” 

“Now that I know this, I won't let you stray from me again.”


Will turns and shuts off the water, now that it’s filled the tub enough, and he slides across the space between them. Hannibal slides his knees back down so they’re no longer hugged to his chest, and Will sits on his own knees between Hannibal’s, facing him. 

Hannibal looks at him curiously, but Will doesn’t move at all, just looks down at the man in front of him, memorizes the face he missed so much. Then he lifts a hand and runs his fingers through Hannibal’s hair, soft and fluffy, unlike his usual gelled back look. This is how Will likes him, because it’s how he looks when they wake up together. 

He slides his hand down to cup one cheek, then brings his other hand to cup the other, letting his thumbs caress those sharp cheekbones. Hannibal’s eyes close when Will does that, his lips part when Will brings his fingertips to outline them. Will can tell Hannibal wants to touch him, to pull him close, but Hannibal stays where he is, with his hands clutching the edges of the tub, letting Will continue his exploration. 

“I’ve missed you so much,” Will whispers, only millimeters from Hannibal’s mouth. 

Will hears Hannibal’s breath hitch in his throat, and closes the distance, kissing Hannibal so softly, but with so much feeling. Finally, those strong arms come around Will’s waist and pull his body close. Will pulls his lips away from Hannibal’s and rests their foreheads together, eyes closed. 

He’s getting hard, where his cock is trapped between their bodies, and he knows Hannibal is likely getting there himself, as well, but he’s so tired and sex would be a bad idea, without a doubt. They have all the time in the world for more later, and Hannibal seems to be thinking the same thing. 

“Let me see your feet, and then I would like to sleep,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Just. Give me another second,” Will whispers, staying kneeled between Hannibal’s legs, being held tight and close. 

Finally Will sighs and slides back to the other side of the tub and extends his legs, letting Hannibal take each foot in hand, cleaning them gently with a washcloth. It stings, but Hannibal is careful and Will doesn’t make any indication that he’s in any sort of pain. When Hannibal is seemingly satisfied, he stands, and steps out of the bath, then extends a hand to Will, pulling him out with him. 

Once standing, Will leans down and pulls the stopper on the drain, then turns back around to find Hannibal holding a towel open for him, which he steps into and takes it from Hannibal’s hands. 

They both dry off and leave their clothes on the bathroom floor, dropping the towels next to them, and go back downstairs naked. 

It feels weird, just how easy it is to fall right back into what they had before. Will knows Hannibal wouldn’t have shown up in the middle of the night if he didn’t want to be here.

They get into bed and Will lays on his side, facing away, and pulls Hannibal’s arm with him so Hannibal is pressed against his back, holding onto him. 

Hannibal is hard against his ass, but makes no attempt to relieve himself in any way. Will is glad they’re on the same page for the night. While he wants to be close, to be held, and to hold, he doesn’t want to push it further than that for now. He’s glad to have Hannibal back, but he’s still thinking about the last two weeks. How unbearably painful it all was. Intimacy and sex would be too much for him right now, even if he weren’t too tired to keep his eyes open. 

“Are you sure you want to be held like this?” Hannibal asks. It’s a valid question, Will knows, but god he wants nothing more than to held like this right now and the question feels stupid to him.

“This way I won’t be able to get up and go for a walk naked,” Will laughs quietly. 

“I’ll be sure to hold you tight if that starts to happen,” Hannibal whispers against the back of his neck. “You don’t know how badly I wanted you back in my arms.”

“The feeling is mutual,” Will whispers. “I’m tired.”

“I know. I am too. We can talk in the morning,” Hannibal says. His arm tightens around Will’s stomach and Will feels safe again, for the first time in two weeks. He just hopes he can keep it this time.

Will sleeps better than he has in days and he knows he owes it all to who is in bed with him. 

The sound of a cell phone ringing wakes him up, then an arm tightens around his waist and he momentarily forgets that Hannibal is here and Hannibal is real until lips are pressing to the back of his neck and words are coming out of them in that low purring sound. 

“Ignore the call.”

Will glances at his phone on the nightstand, groaning at the name displayed on the phone.

“It’s Jack,” Will sighs. 

“I don’t care.” And Hannibal reaches and rejects the call himself. “He can come here and I will tell him myself that you are not doing field work today or tomorrow or Sunday. Possibly even Monday.”

“Are you going to be naked when you do?” 

“Mm. Indubitably.” 

The phone rings again and Hannibal picks it up and turns it off completely. 

“Hannibal you can’t do that,” Will whispers, but he doesn’t move to turn the cell phone back on. 

“It’s six o’clock in the morning, and I have just gotten you back. Forgive me that I don’t care about whatever murder victim Jack Crawford wants you to see this morning,” Hannibal says into the back of his neck. “Now go back to sleep.”

“I will have to get up eventually, you know. I have lectures today.”

“Cancel them. I am calling my patients in an hour to cancel due to an emergency and you’re going to call out sick,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Let me up for a second, then. My laptop is in the kitchen. I’ll be back in less than five minutes.”

Hannibal lets go of Will and Will walks on his sore feet into the kitchen. He stands at the kitchen table while he writes an email and sends it off to all of his students, cancelling all lectures for the day. 

As promised, Will gets back into bed next to Hannibal and settles with the front of his body pressed to Hannibal’s back, this time being the one holding Hannibal in place. He inhales the familiar and comforting scent of the man as he holds him tight to his chest, their legs tangled and their fingers intertwined on Hannibal’s stomach. 

Will wants to say it. Wants to say ‘I love you.’ Wants to say it more than he’s wanted to say anything in his life, but it’s too soon. Much too soon, so instead he kisses the back of Hannibal's neck and closes his eyes. He allows sleep to take him again. 

He wakes up to a pounding on his front door and Hannibal pulls himself out of bed. 

“Baby, come back. I’ll get it,” Will mumbles into his pillow. “Jack can’t see you here.”

Will slowly pushes himself up on his hands, then puts one foot on the floor, then the other, then lays back down for another second because he really wants to stay in bed. He changes his mind when he turns and sees Hannibal is completely naked, unlocking the deadbolt on the front door. Will scrambles out of bed,  picks up the robe Hannibal discarded the night before and runs to where Hannibal is pulling the door open.

“Jack Crawford, please- Oh! Miss Katz. I apologize,” Hannibal says just as Will puts the robe over Hannibal’s shoulders from behind and ties it around the front. “Thank you, darling.”

“Uh,” Beverly says, and Will looks down, remembering he’s also completely naked. 

“Sorry,” Will mumbles and turns back towards his bed, towards the drawers of clothes. 

“It’s a good thing you two are good looking,” Beverly laughs. “Man, and Jack wanted to be the one to come get you. I would pay to see his reaction to this.”

Will smiles weakly as he pulls on a pair of boxers. 

Beverly keeps talking. “Doctor Lecter, I gotta admit it’s a surprise to see you here.”

“Ah, I take it Will has confided in you,” Hannibal says. Will can tell he’s bothered, but won’t say it, not in front of Beverly. 

“Beverly’s been… really helpful, Hannibal.”

“Oh? Is that so?” The Jealous is evident in his voice, and Will knows exactly how that feels. 

Will laughs and walks back over to him, pushing up on his toes to press a kiss to Hannibal’s cheekbone.

“You have nothing to worry about, baby.”

“If it helps ease your obvious jealousy, I am a lesbian, actually,” Beverly says. “I feel nothing romantic nor sexual towards your boyfriend, don’t worry.”

“Oh, well. That’s. I suppose I have nothing to worry about, then,” Hannibal smiles. 

“Anyways,” Beverly says. “Get dressed and get your ass in my car.”

“I’m not coming out today, Bev. Sorry,” Will says firmly. “Have Jack take it up with Hannibal if he’s upset.”

“We could really use you today, Will,” Beverly tries, but Will knows she’s not going to push him any harder than that. “What do you want me to tell Jack?”

“Just tell him to call Hannibal. Say we talked about taking time off from field work during my session last night and that I gave you no other reason other than that.” 

Beverly sighs. “Yeah, okay. I can do that.”

“Thanks, Bev. Call me later if it’s anything interesting.”

“Oh, I’ll call even if it’s not. I want an explanation about this,” she says, pointing at both Hannibal and Will in turn. “I don’t have time now, though.”

“Alright. Sorry you had to make the trip for nothing,” Will apologizes.

“I knew when you didn’t answer Jack’s calls and then shut off your phone that you wouldn’t be coming out. I insisted he let me be the one to come here because I figured you’d rather see me than Jack if something was wrong with you. I can see now that everything’s fine,” Beverly laughs. She heads back towards the door. “I’ll call you later.”

“Bye,” Will says, and shuts the door behind her. He turns to look at Hannibal, who is already pulling the robe off again and dropping it onto the bed. “You bastard. What if that would’ve been Jack? Actually, it makes it no better that Bev saw both of us nude.”

Hannibal’s smile is so smug that Will wants to kiss it off his face. “She handled it rather well. I would have expected her to be more flustered.”

“She sees naked bodies every single day. Dead bodies, but still bodies,” Will shrugs. “I’m just not super excited that this time it was ours.”  

Hannibal shrugs, grabs his phone from next to the bed, then settles down onto the couch, laying on his back. A few dogs go up to him and sniff at his hands, but he shows them he has nothing for them and they leave him alone to bother Will, who puts them outside. Will steps onto the front porch in just his underwear and watches as the dogs take care of business, then come running back.

He steps inside and sees that Hannibal has picked up the book Will left on the coffee table, surely something he has no actual interest in, but he still reads it. After Will returns from feeding the dogs, he steps out of his underwear and sets them on the bed for later, before joining Hannibal on the couch, laying on his stomach between Hannibal’s legs, resting his head on Hannibal’s stomach, just below his chest. 

It does not take long at all before one of Hannibal’s hands finds its way into Will’s hair, lightly rubbing his scalp as Hannibal reads the book. He thinks Hannibal might not actually be reading, but his head feels too heavy to lift it long enough to check. Will finds himself drifting off again after just a few minutes of that. 

When Will wakes up again, Hannibal’s eyes are closed, the book is set on the coffee table, but his fingers are moving in lazy circles on Will’s back. Will smiles to himself, then turns his face and kisses Hannibal’s ribs. 


Hannibal smiles down at Will as he wakes, when he kisses Hannibal’s ribs with a shy smile on his face. He flattens his palm on Will’s warm back and resists the urge to pull him up by the armpits for a proper kiss. 

“Morning,” Will mumbles. 

“Mm, it’s nearly noon,” Hannibal says. 

“That late? Did you call your patients?” Will asks, lifting his head to look at Hannibal with sleepy eyes. 

“Yes. While you were outside with the dogs earlier,” Hannibal answers. “I also talked to Jack while you were sleeping just now.”

“Man, I was really asleep wasn’t I?” Will muses, resting his head back down on Hannibal’s chest. 

“You needed the rest,” Hannibal says. “I’m sure you need a good meal, as well.”

“Mhm. No food in my house. Maybe some eggs, actually.”

“I can work with that if you’d like. Or we can go out,” Hannibal suggests. 

Hannibal feels Will tense on top of him and he shakes his head. “No. We can have eggs. There might be other stuff, too. I don’t really know.”

“Have you been eating, darling?” Hannibal asks, though he already knows Will hasn’t been eating well, not to Hannibal’s standards, at least.

“Enough to get by. Beverly brought me lunch all week because she didn’t think I was eating,” Will whispers. “It was easy to forget. A lot on my mind.”

“Yes, I suppose,” Hannibal whispers back. “I know you don’t wish for me to purchase you groceries, but if you aren’t going to take care of yourself, I must insist.”

“I… It makes me feel like I’m being babied,” Will says softly, uncertain and hesitant. “It makes me uncomfortable and makes me feel like you don’t trust me to be able to take care of myself, when I’ve been doing it for my entire life.”

“That’s not at all my intention, I hope you know,” Hannibal says. “I just take care of those dear to me. It’s no different to me than making dinner for my friends, or being a proverbial shoulder to cry on, I would say.”

“Being a shoulder to cry on is your job,” Will mutters.

“And yet I do not get paid when I counsel Jack through what he assumed to be marital problems, or when I listen to Alana complain about all she complains about to me,” Hannibal whispers. 

“What’s wrong with Jack’s marriage?” Will asks, raising his head again, an eyebrow raised, curiosity in his eyes. He drops his head again, then says, “I suppose it’s not my business.”

“Mm, maybe not, but I don’t particularly care. His wife has cancer. Stage IV lung,” Hannibal says softly.

“Shit. When did they find out?”

“Mrs Crawford came to me as a patient, and I convinced her to tell Jack. Up until then he thought they were just growing distant, until last week,” Hannibal says. 

“Fuck, that’s terrible. He’s holding it together really well, I’d say. Meanwhile I broke down in my car at a Ripper scene because of something that could’ve been fixed if I just called you,” Will says. “I told Jack I was going through a breakup as if that’s anywhere near comparable to what him and Bella are going through.”

Hannibal feels his heart break in his chest at Will telling him his reaction to the Ripper display, just as it broke outside his hotel room in New York. 

“I wasn’t aware you were going to the Ripper scenes,” Hannibal murmurs. “Did something about the scene trigger your breakdown?”

“I don’t want to talk about it. I shouldn’t have mentioned it,” Will whispers. 

“Will, darling,” Hannibal sighs. He has to know if Will understood the scenes he left, as they were mainly messages to him, even if the last was just a way to express himself. He wanted Will to read those scenes, but he hadn’t intended for them to cause Will any turmoil. He didn’t think Will would actually show up to the scenes.

“Drop it, please. I don’t want to talk about it right now. We can talk about the Ripper in our next session.”

That’s almost a week away, and Hannibal wants to say as much, but instead he just sighs again and finally pulls Will up by the armpits so he’s laying more fully on Hannibal’s torso. Will gasps as Hannibal does it and Hannibal smiles, completely satisfied by the reaction. Will just buries his face in the crook of Hannibal’s neck. Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s naked waist.

He realizes Will is hard, and Hannibal’s been there the entire time Will’s been laying on him, his erection trapped under Will’s chest for the last several hours. He didn’t dare move an inch the entire morning.

“Want me to give you a hand with that?” Hannibal whispers. 

Will shakes his head, and Hannibal doesn’t push the subject any further. He knows it could possibly take time before they get back into being comfortable with that level of intimacy, but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t ache for it immensely.

After a few minutes, Will starts speaking into the side of his neck.

“I want to take things slow,” Will says. “I mean, yeah, we’ve fucked already, whatever, but… I feel like we moved too fast before, like we just jumped right into bed without really understanding each other. I think that played a role in, well, you know. I want to start over, for the most part.”

“Mm. Very well. We will wait as long as you need.”

“It’s just that…” Will continues to explain. “I know it’s majorly my fault, but the pain of the last two weeks is still lingering right on the surface and I… it’s hard. I want to forget about it, but I can’t, not really.”

“I understand wholeheartedly,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will just nods against Hannibal’s neck, kisses him so lightly Hannibal almost doesn’t feel it, and then hauls himself off the couch. 

“We can go grocery shopping, and you can fill my cart with as much as you want, but I’m paying for it myself,” Will says. He offers Hannibal a hand, and Hannibal takes it, letting the smaller man pull him off the couch. “You came here in your pajamas, didn’t you?”

“I have a spare change of clothes in the car,” Hannibal says. He put them in there two weeks ago, the morning he had to leave Will’s house in a rush when Beverly showed up to drop off the Ripper photos. He didn’t want to be caught in the morning without something to change into. They’ve been in his car since. 

Hannibal pulls his robe back on, and slides on his shoes, then walks out to the barn where he parked his car the night before. He opens the trunk and pulls out the bag he has in there. There may be more than one change of clothes, and some of his shower and grooming products of choice, but if Will is uncomfortable with him leaving any of it in his home, he will bring it back to the car.

Will is buttoning his pants when Hannibal walks in. Hannibal sets his bag down on Will’s bed and starts to pull out several items, including his preferred toothpaste, cologne, his hair gel, and a comb. 

Will disappears up the stairs, and comes back down a minute later pulling a sweater on over his head. Hannibal recognizes it as the one he left on the bathroom floor before getting in the bath last night. 

Hannibal starts pulling on his underwear as Will comes over to look down at the bed. 

“Is that your hair gel?” Will asks, pointing at the product on the bed. 

“Yes.”

“Don’t use it today. I like when your hair is… normal,” Will says cautiously. 

“As you wish,” Hannibal says, bending down to pull on his pants. 

When they are both fully dressed, Will has to take care of the dogs again and they stand on the front porch together, watching them run and play. 

“What did you say to Jack?” Will asks.

“I told him that I do not find it wise for you to be in the field right now while you’re dealing with both a possible physical illness and going through… a breakup,” Hannibal answers. “I also told him you have been sleepwalking.” 

“Great. He’s going to think I’m losing my mind,” Will mutters. 

“You may very well be,” Hannibal shrugs. “The illness that you do not want to see a doctor for could be altering your mental state.”

“What do you think it is, anyway?” 

“Encephalitis. I can’t be sure until you get a brain scan,” Hannibal says. 

“And how long until it’s actually a problem?”

“I would argue that it’s a problem already,” Hannibal tells him. “If you get treatment, then you’ll no longer have the fever, and likely the nightmares won’t be as frequent. You won’t wake up sweating as you have been. If it is encephalitis as I suspect, it is only a matter of time before you’re experiencing spatial neglect and loss of time. Seizures are a possibility, as well.” 


“Well, fuck,” Will says. He digs his hands in his pockets and continues to watch the dogs move around the yard. None of what Hannibal said sounds good. None of it is anything he wants to experience. “What do you suggest I do?”

“I can call an old colleague of mine. Doctor Sutcliffe. He’s a neurologist and owes me a favor or two. I can see if he can get you in for an MRI sometime soon,” Hannibal says. “If that’s something you would be okay with.”

“Okay. Please,” Will says. “How much time do you think I’ll have to take off work?”

“It’s customary to hospitalize encephalitis patients for a few days, time depending on severity. Then there’ll be bed rest for some time, of course. It is hard to say without knowing for sure that is the problem,” Hannibal says. 

Will doesn’t particularly like the uncertainty of it all. He’s already taken too many days away from the classroom, either staying home or being away on cases. Someone will have to take care of the dogs while he’s in the hospital, someone will have to step in and substitute lecture, someone will have to keep Jack and the rest of the BAU off his ass while he recovers. 

And Will would be all alone with no company if Hannibal decides he doesn’t want to stick around… Will shakes the thought from his head. He can’t keep letting himself think that way. Hannibal’s here, Hannibal’s with him. 

Hannibal steps behind him and puts his hands on his shoulders. Will groans when his hands start to massage the tension out of his body. 

“There’s nothing to worry about, my dear. It will all turn out okay,” Hannibal whispers into his ear. 

Will nods. He knows Hannibal is talking about more than just the encephalitis and the treatment. He knows he’s talking about that, but also their entire relationship to come, everything they’ll experience together from this day forward. He just hopes Hannibal is right. Will doesn’t think he’ll be able to get through another separation between them.

 

Chapter Text

Hannibal drives Will's car to the grocery store, and Will holds Hannibal’s right hand on the center console, unable to not touch the man. He finds himself lightly squeezing Hannibal’s hand periodically, and if Hannibal is annoyed he doesn’t make any indication. 

“I visited Abigail,” Will says just as they turn onto the main road by his house. 

“I had Abigail over for dinner. Alana rudely interrupted us. Although I did remove Abigail from Port Haven without permission and gave her psilocybin tea,” Hannibal says, as if it’s the most normal thing he could possibly say. 

“You’re joking.” 

“I’m not. I had hoped it would help her create positive associations with speaking about her father and would encourage her to tell me about her role in his crimes,” Hannibal says. He gives Will’s hand a squeeze, then removes his own from Will’s grasp to focus on steering as he drives on a busier road. 

“She told me without the help of shrooms, believe it or not,” Will tells him. “We could go visit her together.”

“That may be a good idea. She asked me if we were still fighting when I went to see her.”

“When did you go?”

“Friday, a week ago,” Hannibal says. 

“I hung out with Beverly that night. We fell asleep on the couch after watching stupid movies and drinking cheap beer,” Will says. “I considered showing up at your house that night, but she stopped me as we were walking out of the lab.”

“I had a third place setting for you in hopes you would show up,” Hannibal says quietly. “Of course it helped placate Alana as she thought it was set for her.”

“Alana’s attracted to you,” Will says, almost out of nowhere. “It’s not hard to see and that’s why I was… the way I was that night you were gone.”

“I’m aware, but I can assure you I feel nothing towards Alana,” Hannibal says. With that, he reaches back across the space and takes Will’s hand back in his own and Will is grateful to have that point of contact again. “I considered killing her and fleeing the country that night.”

Will laughs incredulously. “Why? It’s not like it’s really her fault that I’m a jealous asshole when I’m drunk.”

“I was rather distraught when I walked back into the room after our call and she noticed. Ever so observant, she makes a wonderful psychiatrist, so of course she asked me the problem. I had to lie and say an old friend from my past died,” Hannibal explains. “She got out of her bed and in the moments between then and her embracing me, I considered snapping her neck. Luckily I returned the embrace and then went to sleep instead.” 

“I’m glad you didn’t kill Alana,” Will says. “I’m sorry for shutting you out.”

“I have forgiven you since the moment it happened, and I’m sorry I didn’t try harder to get you back,” Hannibal replies. “It won’t do good to dwell and continuously apologize. The best we can do is move forward and learn from our mistakes.”

Will just nods and hopes Hannibal catches it in his peripheral vision. He stays silent for the rest of the drive to the grocery store, listening to the quiet music on the classic rock station that Hannibal, surprisingly, made no attempt to change. 

As promised, Will lets Hannibal fill his shopping cart with everything Hannibal thinks he needs, but Will pays for it. Hannibal does disappear for a few minutes while Will is checking out and when they meet outside the store, Hannibal presents him with a stuffed dog.

“Why do I need this?” Will asks, eyeing the stuffed animal in Hannibal’s hands as he pushes his cart to the car. 

“I would agree you don’t need it, but that does not mean you shouldn’t have it,” Hannibal says. “I saw him when we passed the gift aisle and I thought of you.”

Will can see the sincerity in Hannibal’s eyes, hear it in his voice how much he wants Will to have this stuffed animal. Because of that, when they reach the car and put the groceries in the trunk, Will picks it up and takes the dog to the passenger seat with him. 

Hannibal gets back into the driver’s seat and Will leans over, kisses Hannibal’s cheek, then lifts a hand to turn Hannibal’s face so he can kiss him on the lips. He realizes they haven’t properly kissed since the night before in the bath, and even then it was soft and only lasted a second. Will has missed those lips, and when he pulls away, he decides against it and goes back for a second kiss.

“Thank you,” Will whispers with a smile. He settles back into his seat, and holds the stuffed animal to his chest as Hannibal turns on the car and takes them back to Will’s house. 

“If you don’t want me to, I won’t, but I’d like to spend the weekend with you,” Hannibal says as they’re carrying the groceries into the house. “Well, I may have to go home to get a few things, including Doctor Sutcliff’s business card, but otherwise I’d like to be here.”

Will thinks he should say no, but he finds himself nodding as he sets the stuffed dog down on the counter. He simply says, “Sure.” 

Hannibal nods and starts putting Will’s groceries away as Will lets the dogs outside. Beverly calls while he’s outside watching them and he answers immediately.

“Hey, Bev,” Will says.

“First of all, this dude is making angels to watch him while he sleeps, second, what’s up with you and Lecter?” Beverly says both things without a pause between them, giving Will no time to process the first before he’s stammering out an answer about Hannibal.

“I went out sleepwalking last night and got picked up by the police,” Will says once he gathers himself together enough to form a coherent answer. “When I got home, I was scared and called him without even thinking about it, apologized, hung up, and next thing I knew, he was here.”

“Well, damn Graham, what did I say? The man loves you,” Beverly says. “But you’re okay? The sleepwalking and everything?”

“Yeah, yeah. Police found me walking down the middle of the road with Winston. I’m lucky I didn’t get hit by a car.”

“I’d say. What are you doing tonight? Me and the guys are gonna go out for drinks when we finish up tonight. You wanna join?” 

“I would but Hannibal asked to stay the weekend, and well, I don’t know if he’d want me to leave him at my house alone,” Will sighs. Drinks with Beverly, Jimmy, Jack and Brian sounds nice, and he could use a bit of a break from the emotions that come with rebuilding what he and Hannibal had.

“But you want to come out with us, don’t you?” Beverly asks, catching on to what Will didn’t say. “Bring him, too.”

“I can’t. You know that,” Will says. 

“I guess. Talk to him about it, maybe he’ll be okay with you leaving for a bit,” Beverly says. “We could use your insight on the case, but we don’t wanna make you come into Quantico if Lecter thinks it’s bad for you.”

“He did say he wanted to go home to get a few things, so maybe he can do that when I’m gone,” Will tells her. “I’ll call you back in like fifteen.”

“Alright, Will. Beg if you have to. I could probably blackmail him with something,” Beverly laughs.

“I’m sure you could,” Will laughs back. “Bye.”

Will hangs up and calls the dogs inside, then finds Hannibal laying on the couch with his eyes shut. 

“Tired?” Will asks, sitting on the edge of the cushion next to his thigh. 

Hannibal’s eyes open and there’s a fondness in them and in the tiny smile on his face. “I will admit I haven’t slept much at all. Usually I don’t require much sleep, but I have gotten less than that.”

“Hm, you can take a nap in my bed if you want,” Will suggests. He rests his hand on Hannibal’s stomach and Hannibal puts his own hand over it. “I just talked to Beverly.”

“What did she have to say?” 

“She asked if I could go out with her and the guys for drinks tonight. I said I’d talk to you first,” Will says. 

Hannibal nods, eyes falling closed as he does. “I can run my errands in Baltimore while you’re gone.”

“Come on, come to bed,” Will says, pulling Hannibal up by the hand resting over his own. “You’ll be more comfortable and then I can lay with you.”

“You laid with me on the couch this morning,” Hannibal protests. He tries to pull Will back down onto the couch, back into a similar position they were in this morning.

“And you didn’t sleep,” Will responds. “If you want me to lay on top you, you just have to ask. In bed, though.”

Hannibal groans and finally gets up, and follows Will across the room to the bed. Will kicks off his shoes and sees that Hannibal brought the stuffed dog from the kitchen and set it down on Will’s pillow. 

“Lay down, I’m gonna call Bev back and get a snack, then I’ll join you for a bit,” Will says. 

“I can make lunch if you’re hungry,” Hannibal says, starting towards the kitchen. Will shakes his head and catches him, directing him by the shoulders back to the bed. 

“No, baby, lay down,” Will says.

“Why do you call me that?” Hannibal asks with a yawn. Will sits on the edge of the bed as Hannibal lays on his side, facing Will. 

“Because I know you like it,” Will laughs. “Don’t try to deny that, I see it in your eyes.”

“I do, I was just curious.”

“It wasn’t exactly a conscious choice the first time, but,” Will shrugs. “It’s a common pet name, so it slipped out.”

Hannibal nods. “Go call Miss Katz and eat your… snack, and then come lay on top of me.”

Will laughs and goes into the kitchen, makes a sandwich with the lunch meat and bread he bought and eats it, standing over the sink before calling Beverly back.

“Hey, what’s the verdict?” Beverly says when she answers.

“I’ll come out for drinks tonight. Hannibal’s gonna do his stuff in Baltimore while I’m gone. What time?”

“We’ll probably wrap up around six or seven here. I can give you a call when we leave Quantico.”

“Same bar as last time?” Will asks. 

“Yeah. I gotta get back to the lab. See you later, Will.”

“See you,” Will responds.

He goes back into the living room and climbs into bed next to Hannibal. Hannibal’s eyes open when the bed shifts, and his arms encircle Will’s waist and pull him towards himself. Will feels his breath leave him with the sudden movement, realizes just how strong Hannibal really is, but after a second he catches his breath again and settles between Hannibal’s spread legs, head below his chest, just as they had been on the couch.

“Do you usually sleep on your back or do you just like me here that much?” Will asks. He doesn’t let Hannibal answer before continuing, “I bet you’re sacrificing your own comfort and forgoing your usual sleeping position just to have me here, aren’t you? As if you think I won’t be here when you wake up if I’m not fully pressed to your body in a way that can’t be ignored.”

“Attempting to psychoanalyze me, darling?” Hannibal asks. “Maybe you’re correct. Usually I would sleep on my side.”

Will rolls out of his spot and pushes Hannibal to lay on his side.

“I’m not going anywhere. Please sleep,” Will whispers, laying down on his side behind Hannibal, arm around his waist. “You can be the little spoon, and I’ll hold you if that makes you feel better.” 

“I suppose,” Hannibal says, clearly defeated on this subject. Hannibal takes hold of the hand resting on his stomach and Will gives his hand a few squeezes, then nuzzles his face into the back of Hannibal’s neck. 


Hannibal sleeps for an hour and when he wakes up, he turns in Will’s arms to face him, seeing he’s awake. 

“Did you sleep?” Hannibal asks, lifting his hand to push Will’s curls out of his face.

“No, I slept earlier.” 

“When are you leaving?” 

“Beverly said they won’t be leaving until six or seven, and it’s only four now,” Will says. 

“Should we have an early dinner, then?” Hannibal asks. He sits up in the bed and stretches, then goes to the kitchen without confirmation from Will. He’ll cook whether Will wants to eat or not. 

“Can you make the frozen chicken nuggets I bought?” Will asks from behind Hannibal, who is now standing at the fridge. 

Hannibal glances over his shoulder to see if Will is serious, and, to Hannibal’s dismay, it seems as though he is. He resists the urge to sigh, and he opens the freezer to pull the bag out. 

Will gets out a baking sheet and preheats the oven while Hannibal reads the instructions and examines the photo on the bag. 

“Darling?”

“Hm?”

“Are these shaped like dinosaurs?” Hannibal asks, cutting the bag open with a knife.

“Yes, they are.” 

Hannibal nods and pretends to be unaffected by Will’s choice of dinner. At this point, he knows it’s best to do as Will asks, not push him towards anything he doesn’t readily want. Hannibal is too scared to even kiss him first, not sure where Will’s boundaries lie at the moment. Anything to keep him from running again, anything to keep him close. 

“Should we have something else with these?” Hannibal asks, placing the chicken down on the baking sheet. 

“Tater tots,” Will says with a nod, going back to the freezer to pull out that bag, too. He opens the bag and dumps them next to the chicken nuggets, then puts the whole thing in the oven. 

“That’s not even preheated yet,” Hannibal protests. 

Will shrugs. “It’s almost there.”

Hannibal doesn’t consider himself to be a religious man, but he’s praying to ten gods at that moment. His patience in the kitchen only stretches so far, but he’s momentarily distracted from his growing irritation when Will lifts a hand to Hannibal’s cheek, cupping it and running his thumb over the bone. 

“Thank you. I know it’s difficult for you to see me eat this way, but after days of barely eating, I don’t think it would be good for me to jump back into it with one of your meals,” Will explains. “You can make something else if you don’t want this.”

Hannibal shakes his head and leans into Will’s hand, savoring that touch that hasn’t been as forthcoming as Hannibal would prefer. 

“I am more than capable of eating frozen food, and if this is what you want, then this is what we’ll have,” Hannibal tells him. 

Will smiles, just the corners of his lips tilting up, but still a smile and Hannibal wants nothing more than to lean down and kiss him. There’s so much fondness in Will’s eyes, a look usually reserved for no one but the dogs, but he gives it willingly to Hannibal as well. 

Hannibal considers, for a second, telling Will that he loves him, but makes himself shake that thought. He doesn’t want to scare Will away by moving too fast, and surely a love confession would qualify. 

As if Will can sense all of Hannibal’s hesitancy, and Hannibal realizes Will probably actually can sense it, Will takes a step closer so their bodies are touching and he buries his face in Hannibal’s throat. His arms find their way around Hannibal’s waist and Hannibal’s own make their way to rest on Will’s shoulders. 

“You’re scared,” Will points out. “I don’t know what about, and I won’t make you tell me, but you’re hesitant. You can touch me, and kiss me, and talk to me about anything.” 

Hannibal makes a noise in his throat, letting Will know he acknowledges the words, but doesn’t know what to say. He knows Will understands. It’s clear with the way his arms squeeze Hannibal a little bit tighter, the way he hands fist the back of Hannibal’s shirt, the way his lips pepper kisses across Hannibal’s neck. 

Will’s touches are reassuring, affectionate, and Hannibal returns them by dropping kisses to the top of Will’s head, and lowering his arms so he can hug Will around the shoulders. 

Again, Hannibal wants to say it. Wants to tell Will ‘ I love you.’ But he doesn’t, he just holds Will tight as they stand there in the kitchen, waiting for the oven timer to go off. 

After a while Hannibal clears his throat. 

“There is a performance at the opera I’d like for you to come to. It’s not until after the New Year, but if you agree, that gives us plenty of time, both for your recovery, and to get you a tux and a dog sitter for the night,” Hannibal says. “And I can assure you I will have nothing else that night in terms of forgotten plans.”

“Okay,” Will whispers in his throat. He pulls his head back, then pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal on the lips, just once, very soft, then says, “How long do you think it’ll take to get me an appointment?”

“The doctor I’m going to call owes me several favors, so I am confident he could you get you in by Tuesday or Wednesday,” Hannibal answers. 

Will nods and puts his head down on Hannibal’s chest, and Hannibal puts his chin on top of Will’s curls. 

“I’m just letting you know that I do have a regular routine on weekends that I’m not going to change just because you’re here,” Will says after a few minutes. “I’m going fishing in the morning and you can come or not, but I'm going unless the weather is bad.”

“What else?”

“This is a bath weekend for the dogs. I make their food for the week on Saturday evenings. Sometimes I visit Abigail on Sundays, so we could do that, if you want,” Will suggests. “Saturdays are my day as long as I’m in town for them, and I wasn’t last weekend.”

The timer goes off then and Will extracts himself from their embrace and turns it off. He grabs an oven mitt from a drawer and pulls the pan out of the oven, setting it on the stove. 

“I’d like to visit Abigail. Maybe we could take her to lunch,” Hannibal suggests as he watches Will. 

Will nods and pulls down two plates from the cupboard. “No drugs this time?”

“No drugs this time,” Hannibal confirms with a smile. 

Will sets both of their dinner plates across from each other in the kitchen table, then pulls down two cups for water. 

Hannibal sits in front of one of the plates and mentally prepares himself for this meal. He hopes Will might let him make something simple, but homemade for dinner tomorrow night, but he doesn’t get those hopes too high. Will has as good as said that Hannibal is intruding on his weekend and Hannibal doesn’t want to push it more than he has. 

Will watches him take his first bites and it reminds Hannibal of how he does the same every time he cooks. Hannibal doesn’t think the food is bad, it’s just not at all his first choice of cuisine. 

“Did you kill anyone while we were…” Will trails off.

Hannibal considers his options here. Of course he did kill as the Ripper, but he can’t say that. Will’s face shows that his question is genuine, meaning that Will still has not put it together that Hannibal is the Ripper and isn’t looking for that answer. Hannibal knows he can get away with a lie right now.

“No. I considered it. In New York.” 

“Besides Alana?”

Hannibal nods slowly. “Right after I left you that voice message, I considered finding someone impolite, but I didn’t have the means to actually get away with it,” Hannibal explains.

“Is that your criteria? Impoliteness?” Will asks. He pushes his empty plate away from him and leans back in his chair, hands clasped over his stomach.

“For the most part. I have killed for more complex reasons, but oftentimes that can be tracked as a motive. If I kill someone for simply stepping on my foot at the grocery store, it’s not something other people would notice at the time, so they wouldn’t consider me a suspect,” Hannibal shrugs. 

He wonders why exactly he’s telling Will this, but he finds himself not wanting to lie. 

“So anyone could be your next target, then,” Will says. 

“Well, no,” Hannibal says, shaking his head. He doesn’t elaborate further. 

“No traceable motive, no connection between victims. I suppose you hold onto them somehow for years before acting, don’t you? So they don’t even remember who you are,” Will states. “I’ve gotta hand it to you. Not a bad way to do it, though I can’t entirely agree with your proclivities.”

“I wouldn’t expect an employee of the FBI to agree with what I do,” Hannibal responds. “I haven’t been caught, yet, but I am certain you’d be the only one capable, regardless.”

“And I don’t plan on catching you. I like you too much to put you in prison.”

“Well, that’s reassuring.”

“Was that sarcasm, Doctor Lecter? Is that not impolite?”

“Are you suggesting I kill myself, dear Will?” Hannibal asks, light hearted. He picks up his empty plate, as well as Will’s and carries them over to the sink. 

Will gets up from his seat and stands behind Hannibal at the sink. He goes up on his toes just a bit so he can put his chin on Hannibal’s shoulder, and he wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist.

“Of course not,” Will says softly. His voice is shaking ever so slightly and Hannibal can tell he must be upset by the suggestion, despite it being a joke, and he makes a mental note to refrain from such jokes in the future. 

Hannibal sets the plates he was washing down and turns to face Will. 

“I’ve upset you,” Hannibal whispers.

“No, no. It’s okay,” Will says dismissively. He steps away and takes Hannibal’s place at the sink, washing the dishes himself. 

Now Hannibal stands behind him, lowers his head so he can nose at Will’s neck, leaves featherlight kisses along his neck and jaw. His hands make their way around Will’s body and he moves his palms along Will’s stomach and chest. 


“You’re trying to distract me,” Will points out when Hannibal’s fingers dance across his waistband. He groans when Hannibal’s lips start to suck on the spot just below his ear. “Hannibal.”

“Yes, darling?” Hannibal whispers, breath hot on Will’s neck. 

Will dries his hands on a dish towel, then places them over Hannibal’s, stopping them from going any lower. Hannibal’s lips latch onto his neck again and Will knows he’s going to be left with marks.

“You’re relentless,” Will says, a hint of a gasp making its way into his words. He wishes he could remain unaffected, but Hannibal’s pressed up against his back, lips attached to his neck, hands attempting to move, attempting to touch any part of Will’s body, it seems. He’s very affected.

“Do you want me to stop?” 

“No,” Will breathes, then shakes his head. “But, yes. You should stop. For now.”

Will lets that hang in the air as Hannibal takes a step away. Will grips the edge of the counter and attempts to compose himself for a second. 

“For now?” Hannibal asks after a second.

Will nods and swallows, then turns to face Hannibal. “I meant what I said about wanting to take things slower. I don’t want sex to be the foundation of this relationship. I mean, I know it’s not, but before… it did take me nearly a week to realize we weren’t just hooking up, you know? Sorry, I’m not… I don’t know if I’m making any sense about this, it’s just me being insecure, I guess.”

“Not to turn into a psychiatrist here, but why do you believe you feel this way?” Hannibal asks. 

“My empathy. I already know that’s the problem,” Will shrugs. “Usually I know people’s intentions; whether they just want sex or if they want something more from me, and I’m fine either way if I know that. With you, though…” 

“You can’t read my intentions,” Hannibal finishes for him. 

“Right. You build your defenses too high for me to see over, and I understand there’s probably a reason for it, but it’s just difficult with you. Because,” Will waves his hand, looking for the words he hands to say. “I want more than something casual, and you say you want that too, and I hear your words, but I don’t feel them. Sometimes there’s glimpses of your feelings, but they’re always fleeting. Or they’re when we’re in sexual situations. That’s not enough for me.”

Hannibal doesn’t say anything, and Will doesn’t blame him. 

“I’m not going to ask you to become something you’re not and be outward about your emotions, or drop your walls, but that’s just… where I am about it. If it helps you at all, you don’t need to hide from me. I’m not going to judge you for your emotions, or take advantage of them. You’re safe with me, Hannibal,” Will says sincerely. 

He doesn’t know if it’s something Hannibal needs to hear, but Will knows it’s something he would want to hear himself in a situation like this. Will builds his own defenses, too, he knows that. 

“My psychiatrist has told me I wear a person suit, pretending to be something I’m not, always,” Hannibal says after a second. Will realizes Hannibal is trying to drop that mask as he speaks, and there’s a sadness coming from him, his eyes are lowered to the ground. He’s trying to open himself, but he won’t look Will in the eye, likely remembering that’s how Will tends to read people best. “I don’t want to wear my person suit, to continue the metaphor, with you.”

“You don’t have to. I want you, Hannibal. Not something fake, okay? Come here,” Will says, opening his arms. 

Hannibal steps into Will’s arms and rests his chin atop Will’s head. 

“I know you’re trying,” Will whispers. “I know you push a lot of things down and don’t let yourself feel. I’m not asking you to change how you cope, okay?”

“I know, Will.”

“I just need to know sometimes that your feelings match up with your words,” Will says. “I’m not asking for it all the time.”

“I know.”

Will feels the need to keep making it clear, but he lets himself drop it for the moment, and let the embrace speak for him, squeezing Hannibal tight.

Hannibal whispers something into Will’s hair, but it was quiet and didn’t sound like English.

“What was that, baby?” Will asks. He’s sure Hannibal won’t tell him. It would’ve been understandable, if Hannibal wanted him to know, but it doesn’t hurt to try.

“Talking to myself, darling,” Hannibal responds. “When did you say Miss Katz would be calling?”

“Six or seven. What time is it now?”

“Fifteen after six.”

“Mm,” Will hums, squeezes Hannibal, then lets go of him. “I’m going to change.”

“You look fine,” Hannibal says.

“I smell like you. I think Jack would notice,” Will sighs. “I can’t show up places wearing your clothes anymore. That’s how Beverly figured us out.”

Hannibal sighs. “Very well.”

“You’re possessive, huh? You like when I wear your sweaters because then everyone knows I belong to someone. Because there’s no way I’d buy something too big, or this expensive.”

“Perhaps,” Hannibal shrugs. “Is my possessiveness an issue?”

Will laughs. “No.”

He turns and walks out of the kitchen and opens his dresser to pull out one of the button downs Hannibal bought him. Halfway through buttoning up the back shirt, Hannibal walks into the room and makes an approving sound. He steps closer to Will and finishes buttoning it for him, leaving the top two undone.

Hannibal places his palm over Will’s heart and suddenly, Will feels like he doesn’t want to leave anymore. Such a simple gesture, but so gentle, Hannibal feeling the beats of Will’s heart. 

He thinks about pulling him in for another hug, but god they’ve hugged a lot, and Will feels like if he does it again he won’t want to let go. 

“Come with me,” Will whispers, against his better judgement. 

“I fear that would be unwise,” Hannibal says, always the voice of reason. “I do need to do some things in Baltimore tonight and I’d rather not be too late driving back here. If I go with you, it’ll likely cause us to get home too late.”

“I know, I know,” Will says. “I should take care of the dogs.”

Hannibal nods and steps away. “I think I should leave now. What time do you expect you’ll be back?”

Will shrugs. “I’ll probably only have one beer, but we’ll all talk. They want to see what I think about the case.”

“Well, if I return before you, I’ll let myself in,” Hannibal says. 

“That’s fine. The dogs might want to go out but if they don’t listen when you call them in, they’ll be fine outside until I get home, or until they get bored and come back,” Will says, walking to the door to let them outside now. 

Hannibal pulls on his coat and slips on his shoes, then meets Will at the door. 

“If I were to go fishing with you tomorrow, what should I bring?” Hannibal asks.

“Warm clothes. I have an extra pair of waders, but you’ll feel cold under them,” Will says. “You don’t have to fish with me.”

“Would you prefer I didn’t?”

Yes, Will thinks. Instead, he shrugs. “It’s normally something I do on my own.”

“Darling, if you want to fish alone, that is okay with me,” Hannibal says softly. “You need only say.”

Will nods. “I’d rather go alone.”

Hannibal nods in understanding. “I know I've already invited myself to stay with you, which perhaps I shouldn't have done. Your personal activities and alone time are very important to you and I wouldn’t wish to intrude on those, as well.”

“I want you here this weekend. Just, I don’t want to take you fishing,” Will says. His phone starts ringing in his pocket and he pulls it out to answer. “Hey, Bev.”

“Hey, Will, we’re leaving Quantico now. You still coming?” Beverly asks.

“Yeah, I’ll be there. See you,” Will says and hangs up. “Well, I better go.”

“I’ll see you later, darling,” Hannibal says and leans forward to kiss Will once.

Will calls the dogs inside and watches Hannibal leave, then gets in his own car and heads towards the bar. 

“Will!” Jimmy calls when Will walks in. 

Will pushes through all the people at the bar, it is Friday night after all, and makes his way to the table in the corner. 

“No Jack tonight?” Will asks, sliding into the booth next to Beverly.

Brian shakes his head. “Went home to be with his wife.”

“You heard about Miss Crawford, right?” Jimmy asks.

Will nods. “Han- Doctor Lecter told me.”

“First name basis with your psychiatrist, huh?” Jimmy teases, catching Will’s slip.

Will shrugs. “Not really my psychiatrist. We have conversations to make sure I don’t go insane.”

“Right. Because that’s not therapy, at all.”

“We’re friends, it’s not strictly professional.”

Jimmy drops it after that and Will wonders if it had anything to do with the way Beverly's face moved out of the corner of his eye. Likely a glare, but Will can’t be sure. 

“Anyways, yeah, that’s really sad about Bella,” Beverly says. “I feel terrible for both of them. Can’t be easy.”

“Can’t be,” Will agrees. “I’m gonna get a drink.”

Will slides out of the booth and makes his way to the bar, and waits for the bartender to notice him. He orders his drink and goes back to the table when he gets it. The group is huddled over the table, speaking in hushed voices. He gets back into the booth and realizes they’re talking about the case.

“He’s making angels to watch over him?” Will asks after they give him a brief explanation of the crime scene. Will gives them what little insight he can provide without seeing the scene or photos, which isn’t a lot at all. “Oh, I should mention I’m seeing a neurologist soon. I might be out of work for a bit.”

“What for?” Jimmy asks. 

“Doctor Lecter thinks I might have encephalitis,” Will says, taking a sip of his beer. “I’ve been having symptoms and he wants me to get a brain scan to make sure.”

“Well, shit. It’s good you’ve caught it early,” Brian says. “When’s your appointment?”

“Lecter said he’s gonna call in a few favors and see if he can get his friend to see me sometime early next week.”

“Does Jack know?” Beverly asks.

Will shakes his head. “Not yet. I think Hannibal said something about me being sick this morning when I didn’t come to the scene, but we didn’t talk until this afternoon about the brain scan.”

“Well, let us know if you need anything. If you get hospitalized I can feed the dogs, or I can get your mail, or whatever,” Jimmy offers. “I’ll bring you flowers and a balloon, for sure.”

“Flowers and balloons would be unnecessary, but yeah I’ll let you know about the dogs,” Will nods. He’s sure Hannibal could do it, but at the same time he thinks he might want Hannibal visiting him whenever he’s not working. “It’s early as far as I know, so I don’t think I’ll be hospitalized for long, though.” 

“Keep us updated,” Beverly requests. 

“I will, don’t worry,” Will says. 

After another half an hour of them talking, the subject having wildly changed to something completely unrelated to illness, Will finds himself getting a second drink. 

Then he gets a text from Hannibal. 

Would Tuesday at 3 o’clock work for you?

Will sends back an affirmative and Hannibal sends back a red heart emoji, which causes Will to smile. Beverly sees it over his shoulder and nudges his knee with her own, a smile on her face. 

“You two are good, then?” she asks quiet, but not quietly enough, as Brian still raises an eyebrow. 

“Yeah, everything’s good,” Will says. 

“Ah who has our sweet William’s attention today?” Jimmy teases. 

“Just Will,” Will corrects, though he knows Jimmy hasn’t forgotten. “And no one.”

“No, come on Graham, who is she?” Brian asks, reaching for Will’s phone. 

Will locks it and slides it back into his pocket before Brian can reach it. 

“None of your business, Zeller.”

“Keeping a low profile?” Jimmy asks. 

Will nods. “You could say that.” 

Some time later Will’s phone vibrates in his pocket again and Will realizes they’ve been sitting there for a few hours now. There’s another message from Hannibal. 

Are your dogs allowed on the couch, or is Buster lying to me? 

Will laughs and sends back a message of his own. 

it’s fine. you’re at my house? i can leave now and be there soon.

Will doesn’t wait for Hannibal’s response before he’s pulling his jacket back on and standing. 

“Gotta get home. I’ll come see you guys in the lab on Monday if you don’t get whisked away to a crime scene,” he says, pulling his keys out of his pocket. He’s suddenly buzzing with the need to get home to Hannibal. 

“Alright, see you, Will,” Beverly says. 

Hannibal’s response comes through as he’s walking out the door, back into the cold air. 

Don’t let me keep you from your friends, darling. Enjoy your time, I will be here when you get home.

Will shakes his head and puts his phone back in his pocket. He already knows Hannibal doesn’t entirely mean it, that he wants Will all to himself, but Will appreciates the message either way. 

He gets in his car and he’s home within twenty minutes. He finds Hannibal on the couch, a book in hand, Buster in his lap. Hannibal looks up when Will walks in and starts taking off his jacket and shoes. 

“Hey,” Will says. He crosses the room and shoos Buster out of Hannibal's lap, then takes the dog's spot, draping himself across Hannibal’s thighs. 

“Hello,” Hannibal whispers, a hint of surprise in his voice. He sets the book down on the side table and his arms make their way around Will’s waist. 

“Buster likes you,” Will says. 

“So it would seem. He likes the space between his ears scratched.”

“Yes, I know,” Will laughs. 

“Did you have fun?” Hannibal asks.

“Mhm. Good to be back, though,” Will says. 

Will can feel the fondness and adoration coming from Hannibal, as if holding Will and hearing him talk is the best thing in the world. He can’t help the little gasp he makes when he’s overcome with Hannibal’s feelings. 

“Hannibal,” he breathes. 

“Hm?” Hannibal presses his nose into Will’s neck, then kisses him lightly, ghosting kisses across all the bare skin he can reach. 

Will tilts Hannibal’s chin up so they can meet each other’s eyes, and Will knows just how hard Hannibal is trying to show him everything. Their lips meet, soft and slow, but Will’s hand finds Hannibal’s hair, and Hannibal’s tongue swipes across Will’s lips and Will knows he’s a goner. 

“Bed?” Will breathes, pulling away. 

“I thought-” Hannibal starts, but Will cuts him off with a kiss. 

“I can tell you’re trying. That’s all I need. I can tell that you want me more than you’ve wanted anyone, which is…” Will trails off and laughs nervously. “It’s not bad, or unwelcome. Just new. Very new for me.” 

“I fear it may be true. You’re different than anyone I have ever known,” Hannibal whispers. 

And oh god, Will can tell he’s being truthful and he wants to hold Hannibal close and never let him go for as long as he breathes. Their separation only made his heart grow fonder, as the saying goes. He’s always heard it, but he knows now just how true it is. He doesn’t move from his spot in Hannibal’s lap, just cups both of the man’s cheeks and stares down into his eyes.

“Tell me what you want, Will,” Hannibal whispers, breath skating across Will’s lips. 

Will wants to kiss him, so he does just that. Then he grinds ever so slightly into Hannibal’s lap, garnering a breathy noise from Hannibal. 

“I want to be inside of you,” Will whispers. He noses at Hannibal’s cheekbone, presses their faces close. There’s something that sounds like a growl coming from Hannibal’s chest, and next thing Will knows he’s being lifted and carried bridal style to his bed. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says, somewhat belatedly as he lays Will down on the sheets. “Anything you want, my love.”

Will stops for a second at that, just looks at Hannibal, who is standing next to the bed, undoing the buttons on his shirt. Hannibal doesn’t seem to notice he said anything new, and then Will’s memory of the night before comes back, and Hannibal had said it when he found Will trembling in bed. But that… Will was in distress, it was just something soothing to say. Right?

My love.

Does Hannibal love me? Will thinks to himself. He shakes his head and pretends there’s nothing to think about and he sits up. 

Hannibal is already out of his shirt and is unzipping his pants, but he stays in his underwear to help Will unbutton his own shirt, steady fingers undoing each button with no fumbling, unlike Will’s own. 

Will takes in the sight of Hannibal in front of him, then reaches out to let his fingers skim across the small, tight shorts Hannibal’s wearing, lightly grazing Hannibal’s half hard cock through the thin fabric. 

“Are these silk?” Will asks, looking up to see the faint smile on Hannibal’s lips. 

Hannibal hums an affirmative sound, then drops his hands to the buckle of Will’s belt. 

“I can buy you some if you’d like,” Hannibal suggests, undoing Will’s belt and then going for the button of his pants, then his zipper. 

Will stands and lets Hannibal push his pants down, then steps out of them.

“That won’t be necessary,” Will laughs. He reaches out to slip his fingers under the waistband, then pushes down on them, freeing Hannibal’s cock. 

Will takes him in his hand and strokes him until he’s fully hard, kissing Hannibal’s throat as they stand there together. 


It takes Hannibal a second to start moving again, too caught up in the feeling of Will’s hand on him, but he snaps out of his and pushes down at Will’s boxers, then takes his cock in hand to work him to hardness. 

Hannibal pushes Will down on the bed and climbs over him, kissing the corner of his mouth, then his jaw, then moving down his throat, to his chest. Will squirms under him when Hannibal’s mouth reaches his nipples, but he doesn’t linger long before he’s kissing down Will’s stomach, and then his hip bones. 

He glances up at Will, asking permission with his eyes, and Will nods. 

Hannibal pauses for a second, then sits up and back in his heels. “Should we be using a condom?”

“I’m clean, but,” Will waves his hand in the air vaguely, voice not quite caught up with his brain. “Your choice.” 

“Very well,” Hannibal says and lowers himself back down, face just inches above Will’s cock. He lightly kisses the shaft before licking a line from root to tip, earning a small noise from Will. 

He smiles and takes Will into his mouth, sucking at the head and swiping his tongue over the slit, earning small breathy moans from Will. Hannibal smiles to himself again before lowering his face and taking more of Will’s cock in his mouth, tightening his lips,  being mindful of his teeth. 

Hannibal runs one hand up Will’s flank, then over his chest, then seeks out one of Will’s hands, places it in his hair. He’s pleased by the sounds coming out of Will’s mouth, and makes no attempt to stop the man’s small thrusts into his mouth, just trails his hands over any part of Will’s body he can reach. 

Will’s other hand is gripping the sheets next to him, body squirming under Hannibal’s mouth. 

“Hannibal, Hannibal,” Will whispers after another minute, voice strained, tugging at Hannibal’s hair. “That’s enough. Come up here.”

Hannibal pulls off of Will’s cock, a string of saliva coming away with him. He wipes it away and slides back up Will’s body so he can kiss Will soundly on the lips. 

“How do you want me?” Hannibal whispers against Will’s mouth. 

“On your back,” Will whispers back, then catches Hannibal’s lips in another kiss. 

Hannibal lays down next to Will as Will rolls over to sit on the edge of the bed. Hannibal takes his own neglected, aching cock in hand, giving him a few strokes to relieve some of that. 


Will hesitates over his bedside drawer, hand hovering over a condom while he holds the lube with his other hand. He told Hannibal he didn’t need one for a blowjob, but would Hannibal want him to use one now? 

He glances over his shoulder at the gorgeous man, sprawled out on his bed, lazily touching himself while he waits. Hannibal looks over and seemingly senses his hesitance. 

“Is something wrong, darling?” Hannibal asks, reaching out to trace Will’s spine with a fingertip. 

Will holds up a condom and raises an eyebrow at Hannibal. 

Hannibal shakes his head. “Up to you. I’m clean.”

And Will trusts him, so he tosses it back into the drawer and shuts it, then gets back on the bed, setting the lube down next to Hannibal as he settles on his knees between Hannibal’s spread legs. 

He leans forward, putting his hands on the mattress on either side of Hannibal’s head and looks down into his eyes. Hannibal’s hands make their way up Will’s sides and eventually move to cup Will’s cheeks. 

“Will,” Hannibal breathes. “You don’t know how beautiful you are.” 

Will feels his cheeks heat up under Hannibal’s large hands. He leans down to kiss his lips, closing his eyes to get away from the intensity of Hannibal's gaze. 

“You’re gorgeous, Hannibal. I can’t even begin to describe how much,” Will whispers when their lips part from each other. He goes back down for another kiss, a soft, tender thing, with so much feeling from the both of them.

He rests their foreheads together and breathes, long, deep breathes, wanting to savor this. The way Hannibal is allowing Will in makes Will want to live in this moment forever. But as he opens his empathy up, to the way Hannibal is dropping down his walls, it becomes apparent that it’s too much, too fast. He feels so much at once. 

Will still doesn’t know if he can – should – call this love. So he doesn’t say anything, just clears his throat and pulls away, trying to distance himself from the feeling for a moment. 

He’s slightly overwhelmed by it all. From very little coming from Hannibal, to so much, Will doesn’t know where he ends and Hannibal begins. He knows it will likely become worse once Will’s actually inside him. Currently he’s just sitting on his knees between Hannibal’s legs, eyes closed as he composes himself. 

Hannibal sits up and pulls Will in for an embrace, skin on skin on skin. So many points of contact, but as long as none of that contact is eye contact then he can handle it for now. He buries his face in Hannibal’s throat and clutches at his upper arms. 

“Will, darling,” Hannibal whispers. “We don’t have to tonight.”

Will shakes his head and swallows loud. He takes a steadying breath. “I want to, Hannibal. I just need a few seconds.”

Hannibal kisses the top of his head. “You’re uncomfortable.”

“I’m okay, baby,” Will whispers. “Can we just take it slow? I think it’ll help me to take a few minutes to make sure I’m all here, rather than withdraw every time it’s too much.”

“Is it too much?” Hannibal asks. “Tell me what’s going on in your head.”

“I-” Love you. “don’t know if it’s what I’m feeling or what you’re feeling. But it’s all a lot.” 

“We’ll take our time, love,” Hannibal says with a nod. “Likely for the best. It’s been quite some time for me.”

There's that damn word again. Love. All Will can do is nod against Hannibal’s chest and then pull away. He pushes Hannibal back down to lay on his back, then leans forward to kiss him just once. 

Will sits up and picks up the lube resting next to Hannibal’s hip. He takes his time working Hannibal open with his fingers, only adding another when Hannibal asks. He leans down and kisses Hannibal’s stomach, runs his free hand up and down his thigh. 

Hannibal watches him intently, something in his eyes that Will can’t quite place. Will realizes Hannibal’s pulled back a bit, isn't as freely letting Will see him, and for once Will’s grateful for that. He got what he wanted, and it was so much more than he could have been prepared for, so now he’ll allow Hanniabl to zip his person suit back up, sit on the other side of that barrier. 

“I’m ready, darling,” Hannibal says after many long minutes. 

“Sure?” Will asks, pulling out his fingers at Hannibal’s nod and leaning forward to kiss him. 

Hannibal lifts his hips and wraps his legs around Will’s waist, then wraps his arms around his shoulders and pulls Will down on top of him. Will laughs and pulls back. 

“Give me a second. I didn’t take you as being impatient,” Will laughs, grabbing the lube off the bed and slicking up his cock.

“I am not impatient,” Hannibal protests. 

Will smirks and lines himself up, slowly pushing the head of his cock into Hannibal, earning a small moan from the man below him. Will pushes just a bit further, then falls forward to where Hannibal had him before, their stomachs trapping Hannibal’s hard cock between them.

Hannibal moans into Will’s mouth as Will continues to push into him, and Will drinks them down, responding in kind as he slowly pushes into Hannibal’s tight body. Hannibal doesn’t seem to mind that Will is taking his sweet time, so he doesn’t do anything differently.

Will feels a hand in his hair, fingers tangling, and another hand finds one of his own where it rests next to Hannibal's head. 

When Will is fully inside Hannibal, he doesn’t move at all, makes no attempt to pull out and thrust back in, letting Hannibal fully adjust. He attaches his lips to Hannibal’s neck and leaves bites and kisses across all the skin. Hannibal whispers something into his hair, but Will doesn’t quite catch it.

He pulls back, just even to look Hannibal in the eyes. “What was that, baby?”

Hannibal clears his throat. “I said you can move.”

Will doesn’t entirely believe him, but he nods, places a kiss on Hannibal’s cheek and starts to roll his hips, ever so slightly. 

“I won’t break, darling,” Hannibal murmurs.

Will shakes his head. “I know. I know, just let me,” Will swallows and ducks his head into Hannibal’s neck again. “Just let me have this, okay? We’re going slow, right?”

“Okay,” Hannibal whispers, hand cradling the back of Will’s head, holding him close. His other arm makes its way around to hold Will’s back, pressing their bodies even closer, if that’s possible. “Whatever you need.” 

So Will continues to grind his hips, not quite actually thrusting, as Hannibal clutches onto him, legs and arms wrapped tightly around his body. 

Last time they had sex, Will thought that was too intimate, but this… this is leagues beyond that. He tries to welcome it this time, tries to allow himself to feel this way, but his body responds with tears welling up in his eyes. 

The last two weeks come flooding back to him and he has to push down a sob, hoping Hannibal mistakes it for a sound of pleasure, rather than for what it is. If Hannibal suspects anything different, he doesn’t say a word. Will rewards him by pulling out halfway and pushing back in, still slow, but more than what he was giving before. 

He keeps his head buried in Hannibal’s throat, sucking and biting as tears start to fall from his eyes. He’s too overwhelmed by all the lingering emotions, he can tell Hannibal’s not trying to mask his own like he was before. Will feels like he should’ve known this would be a mistake, but he doesn’t admit defeat, just continues to thrust slowly into Hannibal. 

It feels good and Will doesn’t want to stop, and he feels so loved, but he doesn’t know if he entirely deserves that. Not after he pushed Hannibal away from him for two weeks, not after he accused him of being unfaithful, and didn’t call him back. 

It’s all so conflicting. 

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers. Will doesn’t lift his head from Hannibal’s neck, doesn’t change the pace of his movements. Hannibal says, more firmly this time, “Will.”

Will kisses his shoulder and lifts his head, knowing Hannibal will see his tear stained cheeks, and his red eyes, but he figures Hannibal likely felt those hot tears on his skin. 

“Tell me what’s going on,” Hannibal whispers, wiping the tears away with his thumbs. “What’s wrong?”

Will sighs and comes to a halt. He pulls out, even though physically he really does not want to, but mentally… Mentally he needs to pull away entirely. Lock himself away in his mind for a few hours to think, away from Hannibal. 

He lays down on his back next to Hannibal, cock still hard, still wanting more, but he knows he needs to have this conversation if he wants to move past it.

“Nothing. Everything,” Will says, finally. Hannibal doesn’t respond, just turns on his side and traces over Will’s stomach with his finger tips. Will knows he has to elaborate if he wants to get Hannibal to talk. He takes a deep breath and stares up at the ceiling. “You love me, don’t you?”

Hannibal’s fingers come to a stop for half a second before moving again. “And if I do?”

“I don’t deserve it,” Will says. 

“I disagree.”

“Hannibal, we haven’t been together long at all. I hurt you. How can you?” Will asks, voice strained. He’s still fighting back tears, biting back sobs.

There’s a stretch of silence before Hannibal finally speaks. “Some say love at first sight doesn’t exist, but I can give them proof otherwise.”

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “I don’t… I don’t know if…”

“Will. I don’t expect you to.” 

“I think I might, but I don’t know if that’s me, or you inside my head,” Will whispers. “Can you give me time to figure my shit out?”

Hannibal flattens his palm on Will’s stomach. “You can have anything you need, but I do hope that doesn’t entail us separating again.”

Will shakes his head. “I can’t do that again.”

“Good. Just tell me what you need, and I’ll always do anything in my power to give it to you,” Hannibal murmurs. He leans over and kisses Will softly on the lips.

“First and foremost, I need to get off. And I think you do, too,” Will says with a laugh. “Christ. I’m sorry I’m such a basket case.”

“Your brain may very well be on fire, darling. I don’t blame you in the slightest,” Hannibal says. “Sit up.”

So Will does, and Hannibal climbs over his legs, straddling Will’s thighs. He reaches down, grabs hold of Will’s cock, then pushes himself up on his knees.

“May I?” Hannibal asks, just as Will feels the head of his cock lightly pressing against Hannibal’s entrance. 

Will’s breath hitches in his throat and he nods. Hannibal sinks down on him and Will wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist to keep himself upright. 


“We can, ah, talk after, but, mm, as I said, I’ll give you anything you need, and both of us need this,” Hannibal says, words broken up by moans as he sets a pace. Not too fast, but definitely more than Will was giving him.

Hannibal shifts his angle slightly and digs his fingers into Will’s shoulders with every brush against his prostate. He takes what he wants, fucking himself on Will’s cock.

Will lays down, taking Hannibal with him, arms wrapped too tightly around Hannibal’s waist for him to try and stay upright. Hannibal slows to a halt, so he can speak honestly and clearly. 

“I do, Will. I do love you, and I know you think you don’t deserve it, and I know they’re just words that don’t fully capture how I truly feel about you, but I want you to hear it. I think it would do you some good to hear it. I love you, Will.”

“Hannibal,” Will says, voice strained, tears welling up in his eyes again. 

Hannibal leans down and kisses each cheek, and then his lips. “You don’t need to say it back, you don’t need to feel the same way. I will still tell you anytime you need to hear it.” 

Will doesn’t say anything, just pulls Hannibal down for another kiss. It’s not at all elegant. Their noses smash together, their teeth clank, but Hannibal understands. It’s all he needs.

Hannibal starts moving his hips again, and Will pushes up to meet him with each thrust. Hannibal reaches between them and grabs his own cock, jerking himself off in time with each thrust.

“Close,” he murmurs against Will’s lips.

Hannibal is surprised by the sudden movement of Will rolling them over, gasps as his back hits the bed and Will speeds up, fucking him like he means it now, holding himself up by his hands on either side of Hannibal’s head. 

When Hannibal comes, his back is arched, and Will’s name is coming out of his mouth as he clenches around Will’s cock. It only takes Will a few more hard thrusts before he’s there, coming inside Hannibal with a loud moan. 

He leans down to catch Hannibal’s lips with his own, pulls his softening cock out of Hannibal’s body, then rolls onto his back to lay next to Hannibal, breathing hard. 

“Thanks,” Will says after a minute. “I needed that.”

“I need a shower,” Hannibal responds.

“That’s probably a good idea,” Will says, almost wistfully. 

“Join me.” 

Will’s expression becomes less withdrawn, his eyes a little less sad. Hannibal has no idea what has been going through Will’s mind this entire night, but he’s determined to make it all better if he can. 

“You go ahead, I think the dogs might need to go out,” Will says, looking over to the crowd of dogs laying by the door, as far away from the bed as possible. “I think we traumatized them.”

Hannibal can’t help but laugh at that. He gets up from the bed and walks carefully towards the bathroom, very aware of Will’s come attempting to go down his thighs. He starts the water, and while he lets it warm up, he looks in the mirror. 

Will left quite a few marks on the skin on his neck, but he can’t find it in him to be upset for any reason. Rather, he’s glad that everyone will know he belongs to someone, even if they don’t know who. 

He checks the water temperature with his hand, then steps in when it’s comfortable. A few seconds later, Will comes into the bathroom and steps into the shower behind him.

“Did they go out?” Hannibal asks, reaching for his own soap that he brought over to start cleaning himself. 

“Yeah, I’m letting them roam for a bit. They should be fine,” Will says, reaching for another product. Hannibal sees it’s his own shampoo, but doesn’t say anything. It Will wants to use it, that’s fine with him.

Instead, Will starts lathering it into Hannibal’s hair and Hannibal moans at the sensation of Will’s fingers massaging his scalp. 

Will washes Hannibal’s hair for him, then presses light kisses to his shoulders. 

“We don’t have to talk tonight, do we?” Will asks quietly, just barely loud enough to be heard over the spray of the water. Will rests his forehead on Hannibal’s shoulder, then whispers, “I’m exhausted, Hannibal.”

“Tomorrow, then,” Hannibal agrees. 

He knows it’s late, and Will has had an exhausting couple of days. He still wants to get to the bottom of what Will’s been feeling, why he seems so sad and withdrawn. Hannibal hopes he hasn’t put together that he’s the Ripper yet. He knows that finding that out would get him a similar reaction, best case. Worst case, Will breaks all of his stuff and attempts to kill him. Or he leaves him. 

“It’s nothing you’ve done, I just want you to know that,” Will whispers. Hannibal lets himself relax, throwing out his previous thoughts. “I’m just…”

“Will, darling, you don’t need to explain yourself tonight,” Hannibal says, turning to face him. He kisses him once, then turns to shut off the water. “Let’s go to bed.”

Will shuts his eyes and nods and Hannibal can see all the exhaustion on his face. Will is making absolutely no attempt to hide anything and Hannibal pulls him into a wet and slippery hug, letting Will slump against him while they stand in the shower, slowing air drying without the spray of water falling on them.

“Come on,” Hannibal says, pulling away and stepping out, Will following close behind. 

He gets a towel from the cabinet and hands it to Will before taking one for himself and drying off. Once dry, they leave the bathroom, put on underwear and tshirts, and Hannibal makes Will lay down.

“The dogs,” Will says, trying to get up, but Hannibal holds him down gently by his shoulders. 

“I’ll get them,” Hannibal says, already letting go of Will and going towards the door.

They’re all waiting to be let in and Hannibal counts each one as they walk in, making sure they’re all inside before shutting the door and locking it. He turns to see that Winston has gotten into the bed beside Will, on Hannibal’s side,  and he frowns inwardly, wanting that space for himself. 

He stops frowning when Will pushes Winston further across the bed, Will rolling more towards the center so Hannibal can get into bed behind Will. He shuts off the lamp by the bed and lays on Will’s side, Will sandwiched between Hannibal and the dog. 

Hannibal slings his arm over Will’s stomach and pulls him back toward him, so they’re sharing body heat in the chilly house. Will is really, really warm, and Hannibal knows that probably has a big part in why he’s so tired, and his exhaustion is likely why he’s been so emotional. Trying to keep it together both physically and mentally. 

He kisses the back of Will’s neck and holds him tight.

“I don’t think I’m going fishing in the morning,” Will whispers.

“No?”

Will shakes his head. “I don’t feel good tonight. Probably won’t be a good idea.”

Hannibal hums against his neck. “You need a lot of rest.”

“Yeah, but all my rest is… bad.”

“I know, darling. We have your appointment on Tuesday. Hopefully we’ll find some answers and some solutions,” Hannibal says.

He can’t believe that, just weeks ago, he wanted this beautiful mind to melt. That he considered using it to his advantage, to frame Will for crimes, to make him go completely mad. Now, seeing him in distress at all hurts Hannibal. Their two week separation was already too much, and Hannibal knows that putting Will in prison would just be worse. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers, because he feels like he has to after bringing that line of thinking back to the forefront of his mind. Will doesn’t respond, just finds the hand resting on his stomach and laces their fingers together, giving Hannibal’s hand a light squeeze. 

They fall asleep together just like that, fingers laced together, bodies pressed against one another, Winston’s steady breathing a few inches away. Hannibal didn’t expect to become so completely gone for Will, but here he is, vowing to do anything for him. 

Hannibal wakes up to Will trying to get out from under his arm, and he fears Will is about to sleepwalk, so he holds onto him tighter. 

“Bathroom,” Will whispers. Hannibal relaxes and lets him go, letting Will, fully awake, get up. 

Hannibal drifts back off while Will is gone, and only stirs momentarily when Will settles down next to him again. 

After a few minutes, Hannibal is nearly back asleep, when he hears it. So soft, obvious that Will thinks him to be sound asleep, and won’t hear it. But Hannibal does. 

He hears the whisper of, “I love you.” 

Knowing that Will does not mean for him to hear it, knowing that Will feels too vulnerable to say it to his face, Hannibal pretends he’s asleep. He pretends it’s not music to his ears, that he doesn’t want to roll over on top of Will and make love to him for the rest of the night, until the morning light comes through the windows. He pretends to sleep. He pretends that he deserves to hear those words, and he pretends that he does not hear them.

Chapter 8

Notes:

My longest chapter yet. I was planning on pushing the plot along a lot more in this chapter but all of a sudden I had 12k words and wrote nowhere near what I wanted to plot development-wise. It happens. This just means the fic is gonna end up being really long. I hope you all stick around for it, as I have big plans.

Warning beforehand: there is a bit of homophobia from Doctor Sutcliffe. This in no way reflects my personal views. I just think his character seems homophobic and Hannibal will definitely... do what Hannibal does. Eventually. I just wanted to put a warning so you read with caution. It’s not bad, but I’d rather not let it go not warned.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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Will has no idea what compelled him to say it. Maybe it’s the fact that Hannibal held him tighter when he thought Will was going to start sleepwalking. Maybe it’s because when he woke up and laid there for a few seconds before deciding to get up, he realized Hannibal was asleep and therefore not influencing any of the feelings he was feeling. Maybe it’s because he’s wanted to say it since the day they met, but didn’t even know it. 

Maybe he says it because when he settles back into bed, Hannibal stretches like a sleepy cat and immediately reaches out for him again. He waits several long minutes, curled up to Hannibal’s chest, face pressed to his beating heart, until he’s certain Hannibal’s breathing is even again, his heartbeat steady and calm. 

The day will come when he says it, knowing Hannibal can hear him, but for now he just wants to see how it feels rolling off of his tongue, how it feels to permeate the air around them. 

It sounds right, but he is not sure if it sounds truthful. He knows his mind is starting to play tricks on him, has been for some time now, he just hopes his feelings for Hannibal don’t change after the inflammation clears up. 

When the morning comes, Will wakes to an empty bed. He stretches out on the mattress and the spot recently occupied by Hannibal is barely warm any more. He turns his head and sees the dogs are nowhere to be seen either, so he pushes himself to sit up with a groan. His body is sore and his head hurts, nothing worse than normal, but getting out of bed is a challenge sometimes. 

Hannibal comes back into the room from the kitchen and Will sees dogs peer into the room from the kitchen doorway. 

“Are you hungry?” Hannibal asks, coming to sit down on the edge of the bed. 

Will shakes his head. “Not really.”

“Toast, maybe?”

Will frowns at the thought of eating anything, but decides he can likely get some toast down, so he nods. Hannibal reaches out to push Will’s hair away from his eyes, resting his palm on Will’s forehead. 

“Not feeling well?” 

“I’ll be fine. Can you get me my aspirin?”

“Of course.”

Hannibal disappears towards the bathroom, then goes towards the kitchen instead of bringing the bottle to Will. He normally just dry swallows the pills, but he supposes he can always leave it to Hannibal to not let him do that. Fucking doctors. 

Will is given a glass of water and the bottle of aspirin and takes them with the water. He mumbles a thanks and lays back down on the bed, rolling over to see that Hannibal put the stuffed dog on the nightstand at some point in the last twenty hours. He hadn’t even thought of it. 

“Sleep a little while longer,” Hannibal whispers, sitting back down on the edge of the bed. “I was about to make us breakfast, but I can wait.”

“Have the dogs been out and fed?” Will asks. 

“Yes,” Hannibal nods. 

“Come back to bed,” Will requests. 

Hannibal lays back down behind Will, drapes an arm over his stomach and pulls him close. Will scoots back so he can fit snug against Hannibal’s body. 

“Have you told Jack about your appointment yet?” Hannibal asks. 

“I’ll tell him on Monday. I have to line up someone to cover my lectures, too,” Will sighs. “Do you think Alana would take a few?”

“If she can fit it into her schedule, I’m certain she would. They may allow me to, as well,” Hannibal says. 

Will shakes his head. “Call me selfish, but I’d rather you spend that time with me.”

Hannibal kisses the back of his neck. “Of course, darling.”

Will nods, already drifting back to sleep. He doesn’t even know what time it is, but he really doesn’t care. He could sleep the entire day and not care, just as long as he gets the dogs bathed and their food made. He can do that in the evening. Maybe Hannibal would even make the food if he asks. 

Around noon, Will feels a lot better and finally gets up for the day. Hannibal makes them chicken soup for lunch and Will decides to take the dogs out for a walk after. 

“Care for company?” Hannibal asks as Will puts on his jacket. 

“I need some time to think, so no. You distract me,” Will says with a flirtatious smile, then kisses the corner of Hannibal’s mouth. 

And while he said it as a flirtation, he really needs some time alone. Without his quiet stream this morning like he had planned, he’s been with Hannibal, having to deal with everything that happened the night before. 

Part of Will is embarrassed he almost couldn’t get through sex. Couldn’t do it without crying. The other part of him thinks he should have no reason to be embarrassed, which he knows is true. Hannibal was caring and gentle through it all, so, so understanding. Will is worried that the understanding may soon run out. 

Part of him is also embarrassed he can’t say ‘ I love you’ to Hannibal while he’s awake. He came close a few times during lunch: when he realized Hannibal was making him soup to help him feel better; when Hannibal smiled so fondly at him while they stood side by side washing the dishes; even when Hannibal put the leftover soup in a container and told Will where exactly he was putting it in the fridge. 

Will walks through the fields by his house and throws sticks for the dogs, lets them chase them down. It’ll be good to have them less hyper for bath time, good to help them work out some energy before Will inevitably pisses some of them off. 

He wonders how Hannibal will feel about dog bath time. Or how he’ll feel knowing that in the colder months they get washed in the same bathtub they have used themselves. He smiles at the thought, imagining the face Hannibal might make when he sees. 

Walking through the fields with his dogs, he doesn’t have to worry about anything other than making sure they don’t eat a dead animal or try to fight a live one. No one else’s feelings, nothing but the wind and an occasional bark. It’s not as peaceful as his stream, but it’ll do. 

When he returns, Hannibal is sitting on the couch with a book in one hand and a glass of whiskey in the other. 

“Drinking without me?” Will asks, taking off his shoes and jacket. 

“So it seems. You were gone for a while,” Hannibal says, tone light and conversational, but he doesn’t look up from his book, as if he’s upset about something.

Will thinks that’s real rich coming from the man that invited himself to stay the weekend, even when Will told him he wasn’t going to change his plans because of it. Will tries not to be bothered and goes to the table where he keeps his liquor. He pours himself a drink, then turns.

He leans back against the table and regards Hannibal, who still hasn’t looked up from his book. He knows Hannibal isn’t actually reading, just looking down at the words and turning the pages after some time has passed.

When it’s clear Hannibal isn’t going to say anything, Will decides to respond. “The dogs had a lot of energy. I need them less hyper if I’m going to get them to stay in the bath.”

Hannibal gives Will the smallest nod and Will has to count to ten so his voice doesn’t come out angry. He doesn’t completely succeed. 

“What’s got you pissed off right now?”

“Nothing, dear. I’m just reading. This story is very captivating,” Hannibal responds.

“Oh cut the shit. You haven’t read a single word since I left the house, have you?” Will sets his drink down on the table and crosses the room, sitting down on the couch next to Hannibal. He plucks the glass and book out of his hands and sets them on the coffee table. He speaks, soft this time, “Talk to me.”

Hannibal sighs. “Very well. I feel as though you’re being avoidant.”

“I just went for a walk. I needed to clear my head, the dogs needed to run.”

“You were gone for over two hours,” Hannibal points out. 

Will really did not realize he was gone for that long. He thought it was closer to an hour, but he brushes it off, assuming he can blame it on getting lost in thought.

“We went far, we had fun. I told you I wasn’t going to cater to you this weekend, and you decided to stay anyways,” Will says. “So what’s really the matter? If it’s that, you don’t have a right to be upset.”

“I would like to talk about last night. And the Ripper scenes. And your night terrors. You keep finding ways to not talk to me,” Hannibal says, quietly. 

“Because I don’t want you to be my therapist in my home. I want you to be my boyfriend,” Will says. “I told you we could talk about last night today. You’re not upset about what happened, are you?”

“No, of course not,” Hannibal says. He finally turns to look Will in the eyes and Will knows he’s being sincere. “I do not know why I am behaving this way.”

Will picks up one of Hannibal’s hands in his own two, and looks down at it as he speaks. “If you want me to be more open with you, you just need to say. I have a hard time expressing in words how I’m feeling, so most of the time I don’t even try. Please don’t get mad at me for the things I can’t control. It’s hard enough as it is.”

“Sweetheart, I could never,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will leans against Hannibal and rests his head on his shoulder. “Last night,” he starts. “I was overwhelmed. I wanted you so bad, but I got too much, all at once.”

Hannibal kisses the top of Will’s head and squeezes his hand in response. He’s letting Will speak, and Will knows that.

“I should have listened to myself,” Will continues, he starts to squeeze Hannibal’s hand himself, a steady rhythm to keep himself grounded. “When I told myself we shouldn’t have sex until we deal with these last two weeks, I should have listened to myself. Instead I thought that, because you were letting me in, everything would be just fine, but… Everything was so conflicting, Hannibal. I was thinking about how bad I’ve been hurting, how I convinced myself you didn’t want me, all the while you were giving me this flood of adoration, and,” Will pauses and tastes the next word before it rolls off his tongue. “And love. And it was… too much.”

“You feel as though you do not deserve my love,” Hannibal whispers. “Whereas I feel as though I do not deserve to love you.”

That strikes something in Will. A realization of how highly Hannibal regards him. He doesn’t truly understand how that can be possible. People never see him that way. Until Hannibal. 

“I’ve never… People never stick around long enough to love me,” Will says quietly. With that, he lets go of Hannibal’s hand and stands, seeking a small amount of distance. He scratches at the scruff on his chin and paces the living room. He picks up his glass and takes a long sip.

Hannibal just watches him, follows him with his eyes as Will tries to figure out what to say next, or while Hannibal tries to figure out what to say in response. Will doesn’t know which is going to come first.

Will decides it’s going to be him. “You’re the first person in probably fifteen years to say it to me.”

“You haven’t been told you were loved since you were twenty?” Hannibal asks. 

Will squeezes his fist at his side a few times and wishes he had Hannibal’s hand to squeeze like he’s been doing that last two days, but he still keeps his distance. “A girl I was seeing at the time said it, but I… didn’t love her back, so I broke up with her. No one else has gotten that far.”

“And yet you haven’t broken up with me. Surely that means something,” Hannibal points out, raising an eyebrow and tilting his head over so slightly. 

Will freezes for a second, wondering if Hannibal heard him last night. He isn’t going to ask, so instead he shrugs. 

“I was with her for six months when she said it to me and I still didn’t love her, nor did I see it happening. We were young. It’s different from this. Us,” Will explains. He doesn’t go beyond that, doesn’t take now to be a time for his own confession, nor does he point out that they have been together for a fraction of that amount of time and still have time for that. He just lets Hannibal take it for what he will. 

“Yes I suppose it would be,” Hannibal nods. He stands from the couch. “I’m going to make dinner. You said you need to bathe the dogs?”

“Yeah,” Will says. “And I need to make their food.”

“I could do that if you tell me what to do,” Hannibal says. “How long will the baths take?” 

Will shrugs. “It depends entirely on their cooperation.”

Hannibal smiles and picks up his glass from the coffee table. He takes a sip, and turns to go towards the kitchen with a glance over his shoulder that Will takes as a request to follow. 

Will gives Hannibal the recipe for the dogs’ food, then approves the meal Hannibal wants to prepare for their own dinner. 

He leaves the kitchen, picks up the two smallest dogs and takes them upstairs to be bathed first. The two hour walk in the field helped, there's nearly no conflict as he sprays them down with water and lathers them with their shampoo. 

Each dog takes their turn, giving him varying levels of discontent. Winston gives him a particularly loud sigh when he’s directed into the bathtub, but it’s expected. 

There’s a soft knock on the door after he’s done with Winston, only two more dogs to go after him. He’s on his knees toweling the dog dry as Hannibal opens the bathroom door behind him. 

“Dinner’s ready if you are,” Hannibal says. 

Will lets Winston go and brushes his hands on his pants as he stands. “Yeah, I think I’ll do the others tomorrow. I’ve used enough hot water tonight.”

Hannibal nods and turns to go back downstairs. Will stops by his dresser when he gets down there and changes into something dry that doesn’t smell like wet-dog. 

Plates are already set on the kitchen table when Will walks in and he sits down in his usual spot just as Hannibal sets down two glasses of wine. 

“Thank you for cooking,” Will says, reaching out to give Hannibal’s hand a quick squeeze before withdrawing. He picks up his utensils and starts to eat.

“It’s my pleasure, darling.”

After a few minutes of silent eating, Will looks across the table. “Do you still want to visit Abigail tomorrow?”

“Yes, if you’d like. Only if you feel up to it,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods. “I’ll be fine.”

After dinner, Will sees that Hannibal made the dog food and it looks fine, so he gives him a kiss on the cheek when he plops down on the couch next to him. 

Hannibal is actually reading the book he had been holding earlier. He turns his face, eyes trying to linger on the sentence he was reading, and catches Will’s lips with his own. 

“Can I turn on the TV or will it disturb your reading?” Will asks. 

Hannibal immediately sets the book down on the side table and tells Will he can. Will snuggles into Hannibal’s side, under his arm and lets himself relax for what feels like the first time since he got out of bed in the morning. 

Will dozes off halfway through the evening news and only wakes when his body is being lifted off the couch and carried to the bed. 

“Hm?” 

“I’ve got you,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will is fully awake and tries to pull himself out of Hannibal’s arms, but he’s really strong and just holds him tighter. 

“Put me down,” Will says.

Hannibal laughs quietly and sets Will to his feet next to the bed.

“Thank you. Why are you so strong?” Will asks, though not entirely seriously. 

“It is rather beneficial. I work out,” Hannibal shrugs. He goes around to the other side of the bed and starts to take off his clothes, then slides under the covers in just his underwear. 

“Don’t you get cold?” Will asks. He knows his house is chilly even if he sweats through the night.

“Sleeping next to you is like sleeping next to a space heater, I will admit,” Hannibal says. “Besides I figure if I sleep in pajamas it will be uncomfortable for how hot you get.”

“Sorry. I can sleep somewhere else if you want,” Will says. He starts to take off his own clothes and tosses them into his laundry basket. 

“I do like sleeping next to you, actually,” Hannibal says, reaching out for Will. Will shakes his head and goes to the front door to let the dogs out. 

He hears Hannibal’s socked-feet shuffle across the floor behind him and then his arms make their way around Will’s waist and pull him into his chest. They watch the dogs through the storm door and when they all come in, they curl up in their beds, except Winston, who goes and gets into Will’s bed. 

“He’s been sleeping with you?” Hannibal asks.

Will nods. “It was nice knowing I wasn’t completely alone when I would wake up from nightmares.” 

“Dogs have calming abilities,” Hannibal nods. 

Will turns off all the lights and they get in bed next to each other. Will buries his face in Hannibal’s chest and Hannibal holds him close as they tangle their legs together and fall asleep.


Hannibal holds onto Will through the night and tugs him closer when Will tries to move, trying to keep him from sleepwalking.

“Too hot,” Will mumbles into Hannibal’s chest, then turns over when Hannibal releases him. 

Will sleeps on his side of the bed, away from Hannibal. Winston has already found refuge on the floor and realizes Will must have pushed him away. Will’s entire body is soaked in sweat. His t-shirt is completely wet, his boxers too. The blankets are just loosely tangled around his legs even though the house is freezing.

Hannibal carefully moves towards him and rolls Will onto his back so he can remove Will’s underwear with a clinical touch. 

“Not now, baby. Too tired,” Will mumbles, swatting at Hannibal’s hands.

Hannibal laughs and pushes Will’s wet hair away from his forehead. “Take off your shirt. You’ve sweated through it.”

Will makes a, “Mm,” noise, but doesn’t move at all, so Hannibal awkwardly does it for him.

“I have half a mind to carry you upstairs to the bathtub,” Hannibal says, kissing Will on the top of his head. 

“No thanks,” Will says, eyes still closed, lips barely moving as he lightly shakes his head. He rolls over to lay on his stomach and Hannibal figures that’s that then. 

Hannibal gives Will some space and goes back to sleep. Not being a heavy sleeper at all, when the bed shifts and Will is getting up, Hannibal notices.

“Darling?” Hannibal asks into the dark.

When there’s no response, Hannibal quickly gets out of bed and says Will’s name, loud and firm from a few feet away. Will continues walking toward the front door so Hannibal gets in front of him and gently turns him by the shoulders, making him walk back towards the bed. 

“Back to sleep,” Hannibal whispers as he carefully helps Will back into the bed. He lays down next to him, between Will and the door, a change to their usual sleeping positions, but if Will tries to get out of bed again, he’s likely to try climbing over Hannibal. 

Hannibal wraps one arm around Will’s body, kisses his neck and holds him until he stops trying to move. 

In the morning, Hannibal doesn’t mention it to Will, just smiles at him when he wakes. Hannibal pushes Will’s hair out of his eyes and Will leans into his touch. 

“Why am I naked?” Will asks, voice rough from sleep. 

“You were overheated,” Hannibal says. He kisses Will on the shoulder and splays his hand on Will’s stomach. 

“So you undressed me while I was sleeping?”

“You were partially awake. You thought I was trying to have sex with you, I believe.”

“What did I say?” Will asks, rolling over onto his stomach to rest half his body on Hannibal’s. His chin rests on Hannibal’s collarbone and he looks up at Hannibal’s face with those gorgeous eyes, blue and green in the morning light. 

Hannibal laughs quietly. “You said ‘Not now, baby. Too tired,’ then pushed my hands away.” 

“Sounds like something I would say,” Will says. “What time is it?”

Hannibal glances at Will’s alarm clock sitting on the nightstand. “Twenty after eight.”

“When are we going to Port Haven?”

“Arriving around eleven would be ideal. That way we can steal Abigail away before she is served lunch there.”

“So then we should leave at ten,” Will says. He rolls off of Hannibal and sits up “Breakfast?” 

“Something light,” Hannibal agrees. 

Will looks down at them with a puzzled expression. “Why am I on this side of the bed?” 

Hannibal is at a crossroads, wondering if he should worry Will about the sleepwalking, or if he should lie. He decides on the lie. 

“I got up to use the restroom and when I came back you had rolled over onto my side, so I just took yours,” Hannibal answers. 

“Oh. No sleepwalking or anything, then?” 

“No, Will.”

After that they get out of bed slowly. Both of them dress for the day and Will hovers very close the entire time Hannibal cooks them breakfast. 

It’s just scrambled eggs and toast, but Will moans as he takes his first bite. 

“This is great. Thank you,” Will says, a mouthful of food. Normally Hannibal would find something like that to be gross and impolite, but everything Will does makes him think differently than he normally would. 

“Of course, my love.”

Will gives him a little smile and bows his head, looking down at his plate as he finishes his food. 

They wash the plates together, take the dogs outside, opting for a short walk together instead of waiting on the porch, and then get into Hannibal’s Bentley. Hannibal sends Alana a text saying he and Will are going to take Abigail for lunch. Just so she can’t get upset and claim it was without her knowledge. 

Will holds Hannibal’s hand on the center console, one of his feet is tapping somewhat erratically in the footwell, and he keeps fidgeting in his seat. 

“Darling, what has you on edge?” Hannibal asks after twenty minutes. 

“Nothing.”

Hannibal doesn't press any further and let’s Will keep up his movements. If Will wants to talk to him, he will. 

They arrive at Port Haven just before eleven, sign in at the front desk, then go upstairs to Abigail’s room. Not touching, just in case someone they know might be lurking around. 

Will knocks on the door and a very surprised Abigail answers, seeing Will first, then turning and looking at Hannibal. She grins wide and steps out of the way to let them in. 

“We were hoping to take you out for lunch today, Abigail,” Hannibal tells her. 

“Am I allowed to leave? Doctor Bloom was really mad last time you took me without permission.”

“Doctor Bloom has been notified, yes.”

Abigail nods and picks up a coat, then slides on a pair of shoes.

“Freddie Lounds wants to write a book about me,” she says once they’re in the car.

“Don’t let her,” Will says. He’s squeezing Hannibal’s hand hard enough to almost hurt. “I’m serious.”

“I don’t think I will, but it would be good money that I could put towards school or use to buy a car when I get out of Port Haven.”

“I’ll buy you a car. Don't do the book,” Will says. Hannibal turns his head slightly to look at Will, reads his expression and it’s dead serious. 

“I will pay for your schooling if you desire to go to college,” Hannibal supplies. “I agree that the book would be a horrific idea.”

Abigail doesn’t say anything in response to either of their offers, just nods. Hannibal knows the conversation will likely be revisited. 

Instead, she changes the subject. “You two seem fine,” she points out. 

Hannibal gives Will’s hand a squeeze and Will seems to realize just how tight he’s gripping Hannibal because he loosens his hand slightly. 

“Yes. We are just fine,” Hannibal answers. 

“Did Will, uh, tell you about what I told him? About my dad?” Abigail asks. 

“I told him you talked to me, but I figured it’s your story to tell,” Will responds. 

Abigail nods. She then tells Hannibal that she was the lure for all the girls her father killed. Hannibal can tell she’s on the verge of crying in the backseat. When she finishes telling him, Hannibal gives her an understanding smile through the rear view mirror.

“I am glad you have told us, Abigail,” he says. “I am sure this feels like a weight lifted off your shoulders.”

“Not really. I still have to live with it, knowing what I did. I have nightmares about it, and about killing Nicholas Boyle,” Abigail tells them. “I can talk to Doctor Bloom about Nicholas Boyle, but it doesn’t help. I can’t tell her about my dad, I know that.”

“Doctor Bloom suspects. She came to me requesting I find out and relay the information to Jack Crawford,” Will tells her. 

Hannibal sees her tense up in the mirror.

“I’m not telling him anything, Abigail,” Will adds. “We all carry secrets that could get us in trouble. I don’t plan on damning any of us.”


They have lunch together and keep the conversation light. Will talks about the dogs, Hannibal talks about books he thinks Abigail might like. Abigail tells them how her group sessions have been going, and how badly she wants to get out of Port Haven. 

Back at Will’s house, after dropping Abigail off at the facility, Will turns to look at Hannibal. 

“Are you going home soon?” Will asks, though he hopes Hannibal stays a bit longer. He’s half tempted to ask him to stay the night and leave early in the morning, but he bites his tongue. 

“I can leave anytime you want me to,” Hannibal says. 

That just won’t do, Will thinks. He figures he has the excuse that he’s still worried about sleepwalking and would feel better knowing he has someone to hold him down. Or the fact that he just really wants to spend more time with Hannibal. Will doesn’t think Hannibal would disagree with that reasoning. 

“And if I don’t want you to leave?” Will asks casually. As if it’s a challenge, to see what Hannibal would do. 

“Then I would stay,” Hannibal answers. 

“The night?” 

“If you’d like. I don’t have an appointment until eleven and I do have clothes here that I could leave in,” Hannibal says. “It wouldn’t be an issue.”

Will nods and goes to sit on the couch. “Then I want you to stay the night.”

Hannibal takes off his coat and crosses the room. Will opens his arms and Hannibal goes, sitting on the couch next to Will. Will shakes his head and pulls Hannibal by the hips so has no choice but to move over until he’s straddling Will’s thighs. 

Will looks up at him with a smug smile and Hannibal leans down to kiss him softly. Will’s hands find Hannibal’s ass and squeeze lightly, then roam over his hips, thighs, then back to settle on his ass.

“What’s your goal with having me sit here?” Hannibal asks. 

“Nothing,” Will shrugs. “Maybe I just like you here.”

“Your hands are roaming. One would think you’re trying to seduce me,” Hannibal whispers, leaning down to kiss Will’s lips again. 

“Is it working?”

Very abruptly Hannibal pulls himself out of Will’s lap and settles on the couch, laying with his feet in Will’s lap and his head on the other end. 

“No, it’s not,” Hannibal says, closing his eyes, a clear sign that he wants to take a nap instead. “But maybe it would after dinner.”

“You can go sleep in my bed,” Will reminds him. 

“I like this couch,” Hannibal responds. “Allow me to rest for twenty minutes and then I will entertain you however you please.”

Will can’t help but laugh at how ridiculous he sounds. 

“I’ll bathe the other two dogs, then,” Will says. 

Will does just that, and it takes longer than twenty minutes, and when he comes back downstairs to change, Hannibal is still curled up on the couch. Will wonders if he sleeps at all at night. 

After changing into a dry sweater and jeans, Will sits down on the edge of the couch, right next to Hannibal’s hip. He places a hand on Hannibal’s chest and that’s all it takes for Hannibal to open his eyes, seemingly fully alert. 

“You don’t sleep much, do you?” Will asks. 

“I don’t require much sleep,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“All of your sleep is really light though, isn't it?”

Hannibal shrugs. “It’s what I am used to. With you, I feel as though I can’t sleep too heavily or else you’ll get up and walk out in your sleep.”

“Well I’m not gonna do that when you’re napping on the couch mid afternoon. You don’t have to fight off sleep just to stay alert around me,” Will says.  

“It’s a habit more than anything. When I was a surgeon sometimes I would have to be called in, plus I would work odd hours in the emergency room.”

“That’s not all, though is it? Something happened before that,” Will whispers. “You don’t have to tell me.”

“I will. Not today, but I will one day,” Hannibal says. Hannibal opens his arms and says, “Come here.”

Will settles down on the couch on top of him, sets his glasses on the side table, then buries his face in Hannibal’s red sweater. 

“I think I’ll nap, too,” Will says. 

One of Hannibal’s hands rubs his back, the other cradles the back of his head. Will’s content to be here and he knows Hannibal feels the exact same way.

They nap for the better part of the afternoon. Will, in a constant state of exhaustion, appreciates it. Hannibal with no choice but to surrender to Will’s body weight on top of him, seems to tolerate it. 

Eventually the dogs get restless and Will does have to let them out. Then Hannibal decides it’s dinner time after a while of sitting around, so they eat. It’s a lazy Sunday, for sure. They settle back down onto the couch after dinner, drinks in hand, and the TV on low volume while Hannibal reads. 

After the news ends, Will sits up from where he’s laying with his head in Hannibal’s lap and moves to sit atop Hannibal’s thighs. 

“You said after dinner,” Will says, taking Hannibal’s book out of his hand and throwing it aside. He leans down to press kisses along Hannibal’s neck just as Hannibal’s hands come to rest on his hips. 

“I’m not certain it’s a wise idea,” Hannibal whispers in response. 

“Likely not,” Will agrees, nosing at Hannibal’s jaw. “Do you want me to stop?”

“No,” Hannibal breathes. “But maybe we should, still.”

Will doesn’t want to push it so he climbs out of Hannibal’s lap and sits next to him instead. 

“You’re right,” Will says. He tries to keep any and all disappointment out of his voice, but Hannibal still reaches out a hand for his own.

“It’s not because I don’t want you, Will,” Hannibal says, bringing Will’s hand to his face to kiss his knuckles. “I can’t promise I can control my emotions and I don’t want to overwhelm you while you’re sick. You may not care, but the toll taken on your body the other night isn’t something I wish to revisit.”

“I know,” Will says, resting his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. “We should go to bed soon anyways.”

“Yes, I agree. A bath first to help relax?” Hannibal suggests. 

“Will you join me?”

“I don’t think it would lead to much relaxation if I do. I can sit outside the tub and keep you company if you wish.”

Will nods. 

Upstairs, Hannibal draws the bath, adding stuff from his own shower products. Will doesn’t even know what, just that it smells like Hannibal, and Will knows he’ll also smell like Hannibal. 

As Will undresses, he looks down at Hannibal who is leaning over the tub. “You know,” Will says conversationally. “You’ve got me on a real bath kick. Normally I just take showers.”

“They are great for relaxation. I make it a point to take a bath at least once a week,” Hannibal responds. He stands up and dries his hands on a hand towel, then gestures for Will to get in. 

“You’re always relaxed,” Will says as he steps over the edge of the tub. “You don’t need extra calming techniques.”

“Perhaps I’m relaxed because I do relaxing things,” Hannibal counters. 

“Oh fuck,” Will groans as he lowers himself into the warm water. “I get it. It is nice. Would be nicer if you joined me.”

Hannibal smiles down at him and then sits on the floor, leaning against the tub wall. 

“I thought about carrying you up here last night when you were soaked in sweat but you said no,” Hannibal says after a while. 

“Jesus, you had a full conversation with me while I was asleep.”

“So it would seem. You don’t remember any of it?” 

“No. I did dream I got up and walked around, but thankfully that was just a dream,” Will sighs. 

“I am very thankful you didn’t get up and walk around naked last night,” Hannibal agrees. “Though I believe I would have noticed and found you if you had.”

Will nods and sinks lower into the water, letting the tension in his body ease. His head feels foggy, a throbbing headache, but his body, at least, is relaxing. He’s glad he might find a solution to the head problems soon. 

“Will,” Hannibal says. 

Will opens his eyes, having not even realized they were shut, and looks up at Hannibal.

“Hm?”

“You’re falling asleep.”

“I’m not,” Will mumbles. “My eyes were just shut. Relaxing.”

“Come on, you’ve been in there for a long time now, the water must be going cold,” Hannibal says, offering a hand to pull Will out. 

And Will realizes the water is much colder than it was a few seconds ago, which means he must have fallen asleep, but… that can’t be possible. His eyes were barely shut, he doesn’t remember nodding off, just thinking for a minute. 

“How… How long was I in there?” Will asks hesitantly after he’s out and has a towel around his hips. 

Hannibal looks at his watch. “Nearly an hour.”

“I would’ve sworn it was more like ten minutes. The water was warm and then you were saying my name and suddenly it wasn’t,” Will says, soft and slow, trying to wrap his mind around it. 

“You fell asleep.”

“I wasn’t asleep, Hannibal.”

Hannibal frowns at him. “A loss of time then?”

Will shrugs. “I don’t know. Maybe I did fall asleep.”

“What was the last thing you remember?” Hannibal asks, opening the bathroom door and guiding Will down the stairs. 

“We were talking about how I dreamt I was sleepwalking, then I remember thinking how bad my head was throbbing. Then you were saying my name.”

“We conversed for a moment between that. Do you not remember?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head. 

Hannibal pushes him gently towards the bed and Will drops the towel, climbing in without putting on any clothes. He figures they’ll just come off one way or another in the middle of the night, anyways. 

“It was nothing of importance. I just asked if you wanted to get out yet, you told me you didn’t. Then you mentioned the dogs will have to be let out before bed,” Hannibal explains, unbuttoning all of his clothes. “It’s possible you disassociated, or it could be a symptom of the problem in your brain.”

“Well, let’s hope it clears up, then. Can you take care of the dogs?” 

Hannibal does just that and Will’s asleep before he settles down next to him. 

In the morning, Hannibal makes breakfast while Will takes the dogs out, and they eat together. Hannibal leaves at the same time as Will with a promise to see Will for his appointment the next day, and a kiss goodbye. 

Will arrives at Quantico and immediately heads down to Jack’s office before his first lecture, knocking lightly. 

“Come in,” Jack’s voice calls from inside. 

Will pushes the door open and he’s greeted with a smile, though he can see just how exhausted Jack really is, how sad he is under the smile. 

“Morning, Jack. Do you have a few minutes?”

“Of course. Sit, please,” Jack says, gesturing towards the chair in front of his desk. 

“I heard about your wife,” Will starts. “I’m very sorry to hear.”

“I appreciate that, Will,” Jack says, voice and face sincere. 

“How are you holding up?” Will asks. 

“As good as I can be, all things considered,” Jack answers. “Is this what brought you in today?”

“Not entirely,” Will says with a shake of his head. “I wanted to tell you I’m getting a brain scan tomorrow. Doctor Lecter suggested it after I told him about some symptoms I’ve been having.”

Jack nods. “He told me it was a possibility, just a matter of getting you to a doctor.”

Will gives him a faint smile. “Yeah, I can be stubborn about that. I just figured I’d let you know. I’ve got most of my lectures covered, and I’ll be taking some time off. Amount of depends on just what’s wrong with me.”

Jack nods and gives Will an understanding smile. “Health is important. You take all the time you need and give me a call when you’re ready to come back to the field. Not a moment sooner.”

“Right. While I’m stuck at home, if you ever wanna drop off crime scene photos or ask me for insight, just stop by,” Will tells him. “I’ll be bored.”

“Of course. You have lectures today?”

“Yeah, I,” Will starts, glancing at the watch on his wrist. He hates wearing watches, but they’re oftentimes necessary. “I should get going. Thanks. And if you or Bella need anything, you know where I’ll be.”

“Thanks, Will. And take care of yourself.”

Will nods and gets up from his chair, leaving the office relieved that this went well. Not that he expected Jack to be upset about his time off, just that Jack was much more understanding than Will expected him to be. Everyone’s been a lot more understanding than Will expected them to be. 

After his first lecture, he has some time so he heads down to the lab to see if Jimmy, Beverly, and Brian are around. He finds them looking over a body that has sections of his back skinned off. 

“Are these the wings you told me about?” Will asks, sitting in an empty exam table. 

“Yup,” Jimmy answers. “We think we know who did it, we just have to find him.”

“Did you talk to his family?” 

“Looking into it,” Beverly answers. “This guy showed up last night in an alley. You’ll never guess what else we found.”

“Testicles,” Brian answers. “Assuming they belong to the angel maker.”

“He’s preparing himself to become an angel,” Will says. “He’ll be his own final victim.”

“So what, we should just wait for him to get bored of killing other people and off himself?” Brian asks. 

Will shrugs. “If you don’t find him before he does, that’s when you will find him. If he’s married, ask his wife about any locations special to him. That’s probably where you’ll find his body.”

“You have your appointment tomorrow, don’t you?” Beverly asks, changing the subject. 

“Three o’clock,” Will answers. 

“Is Lecter going with?”

“Yes,” Will says hesitantly, glancing at Jimmy and Brian to see if they think anything of it. They don’t seem to, so Will relaxes a bit. “He knows the doctor and it’ll be good figuring out where to go with my therapy, too. If it’s not encephalitis like he thinks, then it just means I’m crazy which is Lecter’s department.”

“Makes sense. Give one of us a call with whatever news you get,” Beverly says. “Better yet, make a group chat and text us all.” 

“Will do. I gotta get back to my lecture hall,” Will says, jumping from the table to the floor. 

He finishes his last two lectures and walks out to his car. On his way out, someone falls into stride next to him and he turns to see the fiery red mane that belongs to none other than Freddie Lounds next to him. 

“You haven’t been at the latest crime scenes. Did they finally realize you’re a psychopath?” Freddie asks, voice mocking. Will would think about strangling her if they weren’t on FBI grounds.

“Fuck off, Lounds,” Will mutters. 

“Well, that’s not very kind. I must be right.”

“Whatever you want to believe. Now leave me alone,” Will says, walking as fast as his legs can carry him, off towards his car. Freddie doesn’t seem to follow him, knowing when a conversation is over. 

Will gets home, takes care of the dogs, reheats some of the leftover soup Hannibal made on Saturday and eats it alone at his kitchen table. 

In the living room, he realizes Hannibal left the sweater he wore all weekend laying on Will’s bed, folded neatly next to the stuffed dog. Will smiles to himself and immediately starts unbuttoning his own shirt, then pulls the sweater over his head, breathing in the scent. 

The rest of the night is occupied by the TV and the dogs. Will ends up going to sleep early, laying on Hannibal’s side of the bed, breathing in the scent on the pillow he uses. 

In the morning, there’s a text from Hannibal. 

Meet me at my home anytime between 1:30 and 2:15 today. 

Will sends back a thumbs up emoji and goes about his day. He packs any essentials he might need in case of a hospital stay, makes sure there’s enough dog food for the week, for whoever ends up feeding them. He makes sure none of Hannibal’s belongings are out in the open, just in case it’s someone other than Beverly or Hannibal that comes to take care of the dogs. 

At 12:30 he gets in his car and heads off toward Baltimore, just after giving each dog a kiss on the head and a handful of treats.  


Will arrives at Hannibal’s house just after 1:30 and Hannibal opens the door and immediately pulls him in for a kiss. 

“Would you like something to eat? We have time for lunch,” Hannibal asks, directing Will toward the kitchen. 

“No thanks,” Will says, shaking his head. Hannibal can tell he's nervous, but doesn’t comment on it. 

He gestures towards the armchair in the kitchen and Will sets his bag down next to it, then sits. Hannibal brings him a glass of water and then sits on one of the chair’s arms. 

“Miss Katz agreed to help me bring your car back to Wolf Trap tonight,” Hannibal says. “I would have picked you up, but this last appointment couldn’t be rearranged, so we would not have made it in time.”

“That’s okay,” Will says, taking long sips of his water. Hannibal takes the empty cup from him and sets it in the sink, then places himself back where he was. 

Will’s arms wrap around Hannibal’s waist and pull him off the chair’s arm and into Will’s lap. Will shoves his face into Hannibal’s neck and starts nosing at the skin. 

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers, attempting to sound warm and affectionate. “There’s no need to be nervous.”

“I know, I know,” Will says. He kisses the back of Hannibal’s neck. “But if I can’t do this for a few days, I’m doing it now.”

Hannibal laughs and turns more, so he’s sitting sideways across Will’s thighs. He kisses Will lightly, just a grazing of lips, but Will clearly wants more and pushes them more firmly together. Hannibal obliges, allows Will to deepen the kiss and lick into his mouth. 

Will pulls back, completely breathless, hips grinding up against the back of Hannibal’s leg. He rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. 

“How much time do we have?” Will asks. 

Hannibal smirks and checks his watch. “About half an hour.”

“Good. Let’s, uh,” Will starts, still trying to catch his breath. Hannibal gets the message, though and adjusts his position so he can straddle Will’s hips, his knees fitting snug between Will and the sides of the chair. 

“Make it quick?” Hannibal finishes the sentence for him. 

Will nods and swallows, quite loud. He pushes himself up against Hannibal again, and Hannibal grabs him by the hips and pulls him forward in the chair so their clothed cocks can rub together. 

Hannibal pushes against him, his cock getting harder against Will’s, who is already nearly there. He knows they’ll both have to change after this, that it would be better off to just get unclothed beforehand, but Hannibal can’t bring himself to stop. He sets a steady pace, grinding down in Will’s lap. 

“You’re gorgeous, Will,” Hannibal murmurs, leaning down to kiss him. Will lets out a soft moan into Hannibal’s mouth as Hannibal pushes down more firmly. 

Hands on Hannibal’s hips guide his movements, and Will pushes his own hips up to meet with Hannibal’s. 

Hannibal can tell by the noises Will is making, that he’s getting close, so he draws back slightly, earning a protesting sound. He unzips Will’s pants and slides his hand into the waistband of Will’s underwear, gripping his cock firmly. He grinds his own against Will’s thigh as he jerks Will off.

Will comes in his boxers and Hannibal’s hand with a cry. Hannibal keeps stroking him until Will is squirming and pushing his hand away. He looks down, then shifts his thigh so Hannibal can do as he pleases with it, until Hannibal comes in his pants, head buried into the crook of Will’s neck. 

“Feel better?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Will breathes. “We need to change. That wasn’t my original plan.”

“What was?” 

“Anything other than coming in my pants, honestly,” Will laughs. 

Hannibal kisses him once, then stands. Will follows suit and picks up his bag from the floor and they both go upstairs to clean up and change. Hannibal takes their dirty clothes and throws them in the laundry machine, then checks his watch again. 

“We should go,” he says. “If you need those underwear and jeans, I’ll bring them to the hospital for you tomorrow.”

“I should be good,” Will says. They walk out to the garage and get into Hannibal’s car. 

Will reaches into his bag and pulls something out, holding it out for Hannibal. 

“Here,” Will says, handing Hannibal a key. “It’s for my house, and it’s yours. That way you don’t have to worry about putting the spare back every time.”

Hannibal nods and puts it on his key ring before putting his car key in this ignition. “You’re sure you want me to have this? Usually exchanging house keys in a relationship is a symbol of it being serious.”

“Yes, Hannibal, I want you to have it. It’s more about practicality than anything, in case I need you to feed the dogs or get something from my house. Alana has her own too, just in case.”

“I see.”

“Don’t give me that. It may be about practicality, but it does… it does mean more with you,” Will says quietly. Hannibal reaches across the center console and pulls Will’s hand into his own as he pulls out of the driveway.

“I’ll get you a key to my home as well,” Hannibal murmurs. He’s not sure why he said it, but he knows he means it. It would be completely unwise to give anyone access to his house, but he wants to show Will that he trusts him, and feels the same way. 

“You don’t have to,” Will says. 

“I will,” Hannibal smiles.

Will nods and they stay silent for the majority of the drive. A few blocks away from the hospital, Will speaks. 

“Does this doctor know that we're in a relationship?”

“I told him I was making an appointment on behalf of one of my patients,” Hannibal says. “That’s not to say we need to act that way, it was just easier to set it up that way. Plus I was unsure if you wanted me to out you in that way to a stranger.”

“It would have been fine if you did,” Will nods. “I don’t… want to act like we’re not together.”

“Very well. I should warn you that he’s…” Hannibal searches for the right word. “Not as accepting as some people are. It won’t affect the quality of your healthcare, though. I will see to that.”

“Right,” Will says, voice hesitant. “He’s not going to think differently of you? Would you rather not out yourself?” 

“I can assure you that it makes no difference how he thinks of me. I do not particularly like this man nor do I care about his opinions, but he’s a good doctor,” Hannibal says, pulling into a parking spot. They still have a few minutes, so he turns in his seat after shutting off the car and looks at Will and gives his hand a squeeze. “I want you to be comfortable, darling. I know you’re nervous and that you tend to seek contact from me when you are. I don’t want you to forgo holding onto me if you need to, just because of how he may perceive me.”

“Okay, okay. Thank you,” Will says. 

“Of course, my love. You can leave your bag here and I’ll come back and get it if you’re admitted,” Hannibal tells him, reaching out to cup one of Will’s warm cheeks. “For now, we should go if we want to make it on time.” 

Inside, Will sits down in the waiting room while Hannibal goes to the desk to check in. The receptionist hands him a clipboard which he brings back to Will to fill out.

“I would like to pay your bills,” Hannibal says as he sits down.

“Absolutely not,” Will says, filling out his insurance information. 

Hannibal sets a hand on Will’s thigh. “Please.”

Will sighs and hands Hannibal the page for billing information without another word and Hannibal smiles to himself as he fills it out. Hannibal returns the paperwork and they wait to be called in.

A nurse calls them back, takes Will’s vitals and confirms a fever, which Hannibal already knew, and has known. She leaves after that and Will sits next to Hannibal, squeezing his hand tight. 

The door opens and Doctor Sutcliffe walks in, and to Hannibal’s dismay, Will immediately lets go of his hand and puts his own into his lap.

“Hannibal! Good to see you again,” Sutcliffe exclaims. He turns to Will and looks down at his clipboard. “And you must be Will Graham. Doctor Lecter says you’ve been having symptoms that might suggest a neurological condition.”

“He thinks it’s encephalitis,” Will says. 

“And what makes you think this, Doctor?” Sutcliffe asks, turning to look at Hannibal as he sits down. 

“I can smell it,” Hannibal answers simply. 

“Do you make it a habit to smell your patients?” Sutcliffe asks, amusement evident in his tone.

“Hannibal’s not actually my therapist,” Will says. “He did my psych eval for my work with the FBI, but the sessions we have are more just conversations between… colleagues.”

“I see,” Sutcliffe says. “Either way, let’s talk about your symptoms.”

“Right, uh,” Will starts. “Headaches, nightmares, the fever. Body aches, sleepwalking, loss of coordination one night, then I woke up the next morning feeling worse than I have in a long time.”

Hannibal knows the loss of coordination was because he drugged him, and the next morning were side effects, but he keeps his mouth shut.

“Has the loss of coordination persisted at all?” Sutcliffe asks, typing everything into Will’s report.

“Somewhat? Not as bad as that first time, though. That was…” Will trails off and looks at Hannibal, and asks quietly, “How long ago was that? The… The next morning Jack called about the Ripper and Beverly showed up.”

“Just over two weeks ago,” Hannibal answers. 

“Memory loss?” Sutcliffe asks, seemingly oblivious to their conversation implying Hannibal spent the night when that happened. His eyes stay on the screen in front of him, not looking at either man in the room.

Will shrugs and looks to Hannibal, eyes asking for help, hand reaching out to grip one of Hannibal’s.

“Will may have lost some time on Sunday night,” Hannibal answers. “He didn’t remember a short conversation we had.”

“How much time?”

“Perhaps forty minutes?” Hannibal answers. “I had thought he fell asleep, but Will was certain he hadn’t.”

“I was in the bath. One second the water was warm, the next it was freezing and Hannibal was saying my name,” Will explains.

At that, Doctor Sutcliffe turns to look at them with a questioning look on his face. The second his eyes meet their conjoined hands sitting on Hannibal’s knee, understanding floods his features.

“So then you’re… Okay,” he says and turns back to look at the screen. His voice sounds like he’s trying to hide disgust for the sake of professionalism, but Hannibal catches it. “How long have you been having symptoms then?”

“Couple of weeks? That’s when the fever started, at least. I’ve had headaches and nightmares for a lot longer, but,” Will waves his hand vaguely. “Comes with the job.”

“Right,” Sutcliffe says with a nod. “Well, let's get you a brain scan, then.”

Sutcliffe gets Will a hospital gown and they walk towards the room with the MRI machine. A technician is waiting at the door to take Will inside and Hannibal leans in to give Will a quick kiss.

“I love you,” Hannibal murmurs, hoping to ease some of Will’s nerves about the whole day. 

As expected, Will doesn’t respond, just kisses Hannibal on the cheek and goes into the room. 

When it’s just Hannibal and Sutcliffe alone in the hall, Sutcliffe finally speaks what’s on his mind.

“So what is this? You guys have some sort of arrangement going on?”

“I’m not sure I understand what you mean,” Hannibal answers. 

“He’s young, a good looking guy. You’re, what, fifty?”

“I’m forty-two,” Hannibal answers. 

“Anyways, what is it? Is he with you for your money, a sugar daddy type thing? Or does he sleep with you in exchange for a passed psychological evaluation?” 

“Neither,” Hannibal answers, trying to push down his annoyance. He’d love to have Sutcliffe for dinner after these remarks, that’s for certain. “Will and I are in a committed relationship that started quite some time after I performed his psychological evaluation, and he has no need for my money. I would prefer you didn’t make assumptions about someone you have just met.”

“Well, something’s going on if you told him you love him and he didn’t say it back,” Sutcliffe laughs. 

“He doesn’t need to say it.”

“Right. Well, I guess I should’ve known you were batting for the same team.”

Hannibal doesn’t say anything in response, just goes over recipes in his head that he could make with Sutcliffe’s tongue. Perhaps a few other parts, as well. 

After Will’s scan, Sutcliffe brings them both into his office to talk about the results. 

“So it appears you do have Anti-NMDA receptor encephalitis. You’re lucky you didn’t wait much longer to come in,” Sutcliffe starts explaining. 


Will doesn’t pay much attention to the course of treatment Sutcliffe explains. Most of the terms just go over his head, and he knows Hannibal’s listening well enough for the both of them. After Sutcliffe finishes talking, he’s being admitted into a hospital room, put in a gown and bed, and being stuck with different needles and being asked countless questions.

Hannibal stays by his side and holds his hand whenever possible. When they’re finally left alone, Hannibal kisses him softly on the lips.

“Sutcliffe didn’t seem too bothered by us,” Will says quietly. He knows that isn’t true at all, could read the man like a book, but he wants to see if Hannibal corrects him.

“On the contrary, he thinks you’re with me for my money, and a fraudulent psychological evaluation,” Hannibal says, sitting back in his chair next to Will’s bed. 

“Both are true, how did he know?” Will says, teasing Hannibal. He lifts Hannibal’s hand to kiss his knuckles.

“He also thought I was fifty,” Hannibal says with a fake sniffle. 

“How old are you actually? I guess I’ve never even asked,” Will says, realizing that Hannibal’s age has really never come up. He knows the man is older, but never really stopped to think how much.

“I’m forty-two,” Hannibal says.

“Really? Oh,” Will says.

“You thought I was older?”

“You do have a bit of grey hair,” Will shrugs.

“You would too if you had to deal with the type of people I deal with,” Hannibal says with a smile. “Especially if one of those people were yourself.”

“Uh huh, baby, I deal with myself every day, and I’m just fine.”

“Well,” Hannibal says. “I actually would not mind having Sutcliffe for dinner one of these days.”

“That’s quite the turnaround and subject change,” Will points out. “First he’s homophobic, calls you old, and now you want to have him for…” Realization of Hannibal’s wording sets in. “Oh fuck. Hannibal, no.”

“It doesn’t seem as though you’re in a position to stop me,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Hannibal,” Will says in a warning tone. “Jesus, at least wait a few months.”

“I intend to, darling. I’m not stupid.”

“Didn’t say you were, I just think it’s a bad idea,” Will says. “What else did he say?”

“Not much else. He pointed out that I didn’t get a response when I said I love you, and I told him I don’t need one, then he said, ‘should have known you bat for the same team,’ which, it’s not as though I have ever kept it a secret,” Hannibal shrugs. “Gender has never been a factor in who I have been involved with in the past.”

“Right, well. He seems like a total ass. I don’t have to deal with him anymore, do I?” Will asks.

“He’ll likely stop in a few times in the next few days just to see how you’re doing, then you’ll likely have to come back for a second scan a bit later on,” Hannibal says. He leans forward and whispers “After you’re better, you will not see him again until the police find his body.”

“You cannot say shit like that,” Will mumbles. 

“Perhaps you’re right,” Hannibal smiles. “Have you let anyone know you’ve been admitted?”

Will sighs. “Not yet. You said you talked to Beverly about my car? When did you even get her number?” 

“I got it from Jack Crawford some time ago,” Hannibal says. “But yes, I believe we agreed to meet at my house around seven.” 

Will nods and looks around the room for his phone. Hannibal pulls it out of his pocket and Will only vaguely remembers handing it to him. 

He makes a group message with Jimmy, Jack, Brian and Beverly and sends off a message. 

in the hospital for two nights. anti nmda receptor encephalitis. bed rest for the foreseeable future.

A message from Jimmy comes back almost immediately. 

Sweet William, I am happy to hear you’re being treated for your brain fire. I will be by with Zeller, balloons, and a teddy bear after work.

Will laughs and sends back a simple ‘thanks,’ along with his room number. 

Jack sends a message saying he’ll stop by sometime tomorrow. Beverly responds that she’ll feed the dogs tonight. 

Will sets his phone down on the table next to his bed and looks at Hannibal, who watches him so fondly. 

“Beverlys going to feed the dogs. Jack said he’ll be by tomorrow and Jimmy said he’ll be by with Brian after work.”

“Did you tell Alana? Maybe she will bring Abigail to see you,” Hannibal suggests. 

So Will sends a similar message that he sent the group, along with his room number and an invitation to visit with Abigail at any time. Alana sends a message saying that she will definitely bring Abigail by and to let her know if the dogs need to be taken care of. 

Will is grateful for all the people in his life, so willing to help him. He really thought he’d be met with some resistance about taking so much time off, but no one has said a word about it and he supposes that should have been expected instead. 

“When do you have to leave?” Will asks. 

“Maybe in an hour and a half,” Hannibal says. “I can come back for a bit later, seeing as I still have to bring your bag in from the car.”

“Are there specific visiting hours?”

Hannibal shrugs. “I’m known here. I could sleep on the couch over there and no one would care.”

“Don’t sleep here,” Will says. “I couldn’t ask you to do that.”

“But would you like me to?” Hannibal asks.

Will hates to admit it, but he nods. 

The idea of being alone in the hospital chills him to the bone. He remembers back when he got stabbed, how much pain he was in, and how alone he was, dealing with those nightmares, reliving the stabbing every time he closed his eyes. He remembers watching his dad die in a hospital bed, with nothing to do, but watch him go. The time when Abigail was in a coma, not long ago and he felt so hopeless, unable to ensure she’d ever wake up. Or when he had to shoot Eldon Stammets as he tried to take Abigail away. He hates hospitals.

“Then I will,” Hannibal says, giving Will’s hand a gentle squeeze. “Is there anything you want me to get from your house?”

“Something to read, maybe? I trust your judgement of my books,” Will says with a quiet laugh. 

“Shall I bring my tablet, so you can play Candy Crush?” Hannibal asks.

“You know what Candy Crush is? You don’t seem like the type to play mobile games,” Will laughs. “But yes, if you want to bring it, then sure.”

“Very well. You can play the level I’ve been stuck on for days,” Hannibal says. 

It’s so simple, and so dumb, but Will loves him for that. He can’t say it though, not yet. He doesn’t know why, he just can’t bring himself to say it while those warm brown eyes are watching him. Instead he just squeezes Hannibal’s hand and gives him a smile. 

“Thank you,” Will says. “For everything. You’ve been… really helpful and really good to me.”

“It’s what you deserve, sweetheart,” Hannibal says. 

“Sweetheart, really?” Will can’t help but scoff. He knows Hannibal’s said it before, but he thought it was a one time thing at the time.

“Is that one a problem?” Hannibal asks, an eyebrow raised. 

“I mean. I guess not, it’s just… I don’t know. I’m not a sweetheart,” Will says. 

“I disagree,” Hannibal says. He doesn’t elaborate any further and Will supposes that’s the end of the conversation. 

“Oh!” Will exclaims, remembering something. “Did I tell you Freddie Lounds showed up at Quantico yesterday? I guess not, we haven't talked since Sunday, but she was waiting for me in the parking lot while I walked to my car.”

“What did she have to say?”

“She said she has noticed I haven’t been at scenes and asked if it’s because they finally realized I’m a psycho,” Will says. “I told her to fuck off.”

“That’s not very polite,” Hannibal says.

“She said the same thing and said that means she must be right,” Will mumbles. “I told her to believe whatever she wants. I’m tired of her shit. Maybe you should have her for dinner.”

“Not going to happen.”

“No? Not even for me?” Will asks, pretending to pout.

“No,” Hannibal whispers.

“Fine. It was worth a shot, though,” Will shrugs. 

Hannibal stands up from his chair and kisses him then, just once, and sits down.

“Not that I’m complaining, but what was that for?” Will asks.

“I am just very fond of you,” Hannibal says. He looks down at his watch. “I better go. I’ll come back after I get your things. Did you want your laptop?”

“Sure,” Will nods. “I’ll see you later.”

Hannibal kisses him again before leaving and then Will is alone besides the nurses that come in every once in a while to check that things are going smoothly. He lets himself doze off for the time being, finally realizing just how exhausted he is. 

There’s a knock on his door sometime later and Will opens his eyes to see Jimmy and Brian standing in the doorway, a large teddy bear in Brian’s arms, as promised. Instead of balloons, Jimmy’s holding a bouquet of flowers. 

“Hey guys,” Will says with a smile. 

“Sorry, the balloon store was too far out of our way,” Jimmy says, setting the flowers down on a table. Brian sets the teddy bear in the chair Hannibal had previously occupied. 

“You already have a visitor?” Brian asks, looking at the chair’s proximity to the bed.

“Yeah, Doctor Lecter sat with me for a while,” Will has, truthfully. “Thanks for coming, guys.”

“No problem, Will,” Jimmy says. 

They sit and talk for a while before the two men stand to leave. About an hour later, Hannibal and Beverly both walk in.

Hannibal eyes the teddy bear in his spot and Will laughs. “Just move it and sit down.”

So Hannibal sets it on the couch a few feet away and sits in his chair. “How are you?” Hannibal asks.

“Good. Jimmy and Brian stopped by. I slept for a bit. How are the dogs?”

“They already miss you. Buster peed on my shoe.”

“He was excited to see you,” Will laughs. “Is your shoe okay?”

“No. I went home and changed them.”

Will turns to look at Beverly. “Thanks for bringing my car home.”

“It was no problem. Especially considering I got to see Buster pee on Lecter’s shoe,” she smiles. 

Will laughs then turns back to Hannibal. “Did you bring my stuff?” 

“I did,” Hannibal says. He holds up the bag Will packed earlier, then another. 

“Thank you, baby,” Will says. 

“I’ve probably said it already, but I’m really glad you guys are back together,” Beverly says. “Where can I find someone as perfect as Doctor Lecter?”

“I found him because Jack wasn’t sure if I was stable enough,” Will shrugs. “You could try that route? See if Jack assigns a shrink to you?”

Hannibal glares at him and Will returns the look with a big smile. 

“Alana Bloom is kind of like Hannibal,” Will realizes after a moment. “Hannibal, do you know if she likes women?”

“She has dated both men and women in the past, yes,” Hannibal answers. 

“Bev, maybe you should see if Alana wants to go out for drinks?” Will suggests. 

“Ha! Yeah right,” Beverly says, shaking her head. “Dr Bloom doesn’t even know who I am.”

“I’m having dinner with her tomorrow, perhaps I could see if she’s looking to date anyone,” Hannibal says.

“You’re having dinner with her tomorrow?” Will asks. He didn’t know that.

“Yes, but I’ll be here both before and after, my love,” Hannibal says, tone reassuring, but the words are not what Will is really looking for.

“I can’t control who you’re friends with. I know that. But I still don’t like you having dinner alone with her,” Will says quietly.

“There’s nothing to worry about, and if she were to ever make a move, I would decline and tell you right away,” Hannibal says. It eases Will’s mind a bit, but he still doesn’t like the idea that Alana gets to get Hannibal to herself long enough for her to even have a chance to make a move.

“Hey, Lecter, you mind if I talk to Will alone for a second?” Beverly asks.

“Of course. I’ll go talk to an old friend for a minute,” Hannibal says, standing to leave the room.

Beverly immediately sits down in Hannibal’s chair.

“He called you his love,” Beverly says.

“He told me he loves me on Friday night,” Will says, looking at his fingernails. 

“And you said it back?”

“No. I didn’t,” Will says, somewhat embarrassed. “I mean. I did. When he was asleep.”

“If you weren’t in a hospital bed I would punch you. Are you stupid, or something?”

“Maybe,” Will sighs. “I can’t do it. Not yet.”

“What are you waiting for?”

Will shrugs. “I need to know I’m sure about it. And sometimes the emotions from him are too overwhelming for me that if I tell him, I need to be prepared for that reaction.”

“Tell me the story. When did he say it, what happened when you didn’t say it back?” Beverly asks, her curiosity and concern genuine. 

“We were having sex,” Will starts slowly. He figures Beverly is his best friend, he can tell her about this stuff. She just nods, permission to go on. “His emotions were too strong. I may have started crying, so he asked me what was wrong, so we pulled apart. I asked him if he loved me, and he said he does. I told him I didn’t know if I love him back yet and he said that was fine. And it actually was fine, too. That’s the worst part, I really don’t deserve him, but he just… he does so much for me.”

“First off, you do deserve him, and he’s really good for you, Will. You need to let yourself enjoy good things sometimes,” Beverly says. “He’s really understanding, isn’t he?”

Will nods. “Too understanding sometimes.”

“That’s good, though isn’t it? You’ve met someone that gets you, and everything that comes with knowing you.”

“Yeah,” Will agrees. “It’s really nice that he doesn’t see me as a freak, you know? People normally realise there’s something wrong with me really early on, but he’s never made me feel like what’s wrong with me is actually wrong.”

“Because there’s nothing wrong about you, just different. He gets that,” Beverly says with a smile. “Not everyone’s out to get you.”

“I know, I know,” Will says, waving his hand.

“Real quick, before he comes back. What’s up with him and Doctor Bloom?”

“The way she looks at him,” Will says, shaking his head. “Part of the reason we were split for those two weeks is because I got drunk and found out he was sharing a hotel room with Alana and accused him of fucking her.”

“Of course,” Beverly laughs. “You don’t see the way he looks at you if you think he’d ever cheat on you.”

“I get that in theory, but I can convince myself of just about anything. And Hannibal not wanting me was one of those things I convinced myself of.”

“It happens to the best of us,” Beverly says. 

There’s a light knock on the door and Will looks up to see Hannibal standing there.

“May I come back yet or should I check back in ten minutes?” Hannibal asks them.

Will and Beverly look at each other, then Beverly stands. 

“I should get home,” Beverly says.

“Thanks again for helping with the dogs and my car,” Will says again. 

“And I’ll let the dogs out again in the morning on my way to Quantico,” Beverly says, heading toward the door. 

Will waves her away with another thanks, and Hannibal takes his spot again at Will’s side. Hannibal picks up Will’s hand and holds it in his own on the edge of the bed. Will falls asleep with Hannibal at his side, and every time he wakes to nurses checking on him, or to a nightmare, Hannibal is still sitting there. Around three in the morning, Will wakes and Hannibal is sleeping sitting up, hand still resting over Will’s own.

“Hannibal,” Will says, squeezing his hand.

“Hm?”

“Go lay down,” Will tells him.

Hannibal opens his eyes and smiles. He lifts his watch, frowns slightly, then stretches his neck. 

“Did I fall asleep?” Hannibal asks, voice rough from sleep. 

Will laughs. “Yeah, baby. You did. Go lay on the couch.”

“Or I could lay next to you if you move over a bit,” Hannibal suggests, eyeing the space next to Will. 

Will sighs and scoots over, leaving as much space as possible. “Okay but you’ll have to move if a nurse comes in.”

“Yes, Will, I know how hospitals work.” Hannibal stands and climbs into the bed, careful not to bump and of the needles sticking into Will’s arms. He curls up on his side next to Will, pressed close in the small hospital bed. Will gets his arm around Hannibal’s shoulders and Hannibal sets his hand on Will’s stomach. “By the way, I have no patients for the next three days.”

“Why?”

“I want to be with you when I can be,” Hannibal answers.

“I suspect it’s too late to argue with you on that.”

“It is. Go back to sleep.”

So Will closes his eyes, Hannibal pressed very close to him. Hannibal’s steady heart beat and his firm hand has a calming and grounding effect on him, and he places his own hand over Hannibal’s on his stomach. Will really does think he loves him, but he still can’t say it. Not tonight. He lets himself fall asleep again. 

Notes:

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Chapter 9

Notes:

This is a short chapter compared to the others but it’s a more fun one. Only sort of proof read (I skimmed) so there might be mistakes.

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It’s not very comfortable, but Hannibal stays curled up next to Will until morning, drifting in and out of sleep every time Will moves. He gets up early, goes home to shower and change, then starts making soup for Will. 

He gets a message from Will asking where he went, so he replies, telling him. Then he takes the meat for his dinner with Alana out of the freezer to thaw for the day. 

When he finally walks back into the hospital, it’s just after eleven, he’s carrying soup and Will’s washed clothes from the day before. There’s voices inside Will’s room and Hannibal pokes his head around the door frame to see Jack Crawford sitting next to Will’s bed. 

Will glances over at him, a smile on his face, leftover from something Jack was saying, that only grows wider when his eyes meet Hannibal’s.

“Doctor Lecter, come in,” Will says, waving him in. 

“Good morning, Doctor Lecter,” Jack says. 

Hannibal nods at them both, then holds up both bags and says, “I brought you soup and those clothes you asked me to bring.”

“Ah, thank you,” Will says. 

Hannibal goes and sets everything down on a table while Jack and Will keep talking. If Jack suspects Hannibal is out of place here, he doesn’t mention it and eventually says he has to get back to Quantico. 

“I can go let the dogs out if you need me to,” Jack offers, but Will shakes his head. 

“Beverly got them this morning and Alana said she’ll do it this evening,” Will tells him. 

“Alright, take care,” Jack says. “Doctor Lecter, mind walking out with me?”

Hannibal nods and follows Jack out of the room. 

“Thank you for all you do for Will,” Jack says once they’re around the corner. 

“Of course. Will is my friend,” Hannibal says. “I couldn’t see him suffer the way he has been.”

“There is something else, besides the encephalitis that I am slightly worried about,” Jack says quietly. “Will was having a hard time at our Ripper scenes and I was wondering if he’s talked to you about that. He said it was due to a breakup, and I know we talked briefly on Friday, but I just want to make sure he’s doing okay with that.”

“He mentioned it,” Hannibal confirms. “He didn’t say much, as he thought his relationship was the least of his issues. He was also worried about his physical illness. We haven’t talked much about it, but I do believe him and his partner have since reconciled.”

“He did seem a lot happier today and on Monday than I have seen him in quite some time, but I didn’t feel it was my place to ask,” Jack says. 

“No, perhaps it’s not,” Hannibal agrees. They come to the front doors of the hospital and Hannibal stops. “Will and I will not be having sessions for some time, and seeing as he is not doing field work for the time being, I will not have any reports for you.”

“Right, right,” Jack nods. “I better go. Good seeing you.”

“I would love to have you over for dinner soon. Call me with a night that works,” Hannibal says, shaking Jack’s hand. 

“Sure,” Jack says and turns to go, leaving Hannibal relieved that he can go be alone with Will for the afternoon. 

When Hannibal returns to Will’s room, Will is getting out of his bed and crossing the room to the table Hannibal set the soup on. He pushes his IV stand across the floor, walks on his bare feet. 

Hannibal watches him for the doorway, then goes to one of the bags he brought the night before. He takes out a pair of slippers and sets them on the floor in front of Will. 

“You think of everything, don’t you?” Will asks, sliding the slippers onto his feet and shuffling across the floor to sit at the table. 

Hannibal gives him a smile and sits down across from him. He takes the containers of soup out of the insulated bag and sets one in front of Will. 

“You made me chicken soup again?” Will asks when he opens it. 

Hannibal takes a pause. Will reduced a more complex soup down to just being chicken soup, but Hannibal pretends he doesn’t care. “Yes.”

“Thank you,” Will says and begins to eat. Hannibal does the same. 

Will finishes his soup and slides the empty container back towards Hannibal.

“Sutcliffe came by while you were gone this morning,” Will says after he’s back in bed. “He thinks everything’s going good with my treatment and I should be able to go home tomorrow.”

“As he already said yesterday,” Hannibal reminds him, sitting down in the chair next to Will’s bed again. “What else did he say?”

Will sighs. “He didn’t really say much, but he sounded like he wanted to be anywhere but in this room.”

“He is likely just envious that he actually is fifty and has not yet found a younger man to use him for his money,” Hannibal says. 

“Oh, right. How could I have forgotten?” Will asks sarcastically. More sincerely, now, he says, “You know I don’t give a shit about your money, right?”

“I know, Will.” 

“Good. What did Jack want to talk to you about?”

“He’s worried you’re going to break,” Hannibal answers. Jack didn’t say it, but that is what it sounded like he meant. Hannibal smiles slightly, just the corners of his mouth tilting minutely. “He asked if you’ve been talking to me about the breakup you were going through.”

“Jesus, what did you tell him?”

“I said you and your partner have reconciled but your physical health and those symptoms were my top priority, so we haven’t talked about it,” Hannibal says. “That said, we are in a hospital room, not your home. Would you allow me to be your therapist for a few minutes, so we can talk about the scenes you’ve been going to?”

Will sighs. “The Ripper scenes upset me because he was using flower symbolism to send a message to what we presumed to be a romantic partner. Things were good between them for the first one, then the second two it was clear something shifted, which happened around the same time we weren’t talking.”

Hanninal knows that if he gives anything away in his face or in his words, Will is going to make that connection and he might cause a scene right here in the hospital room. He reaches out and squeezes Will’s hand, then brings it to his lips to press a light kiss to his knuckles.

“I just,” Will shrugs before continuing. “Had to cry in my car at one of the scenes. Jack was a bit worried. We’re past it. As long as we don’t stop talking for two weeks again, then I will not be crying at crime scenes anymore.”

“I do not intend on that happening again,” Hannibal agrees. 

“Anyways, no more crime scene talk,” Will says quickly. “How did you sleep last night?”

“You were quite restless,” Hannibal says. “And this bed is not made for two.”

“So you slept like shit, then,” Will laughs.

“I didn’t say that,” Hannibal counters, light hearted. “I will gladly do it again tonight. You don’t like being here alone, I assume.”

“No. I hate hospitals.”

“Associated with bad memories?”

Will nods, then tells him about how alone he felt after his stabbing, about his father, about watching over Abigail. Hannibal stands from his seat, pushes Will’s hair away from his face and kisses his forehead. 

“Besides my dinner with Alana tonight, I’ll be right here.”

“You could always cancel on Alana,” Will says.

“It would be unbearably rude, but I will try to make it quick.”

Will’s phone chimes on the table and he picks it up. “Speak of the devil. Alana’s coming by. She’s picking up Abigail now.”

“Well, then I suppose I better slide my chair away from your bed and let go of your hand,” Hannibal says, doing just that.

“We have a bit of time,” Will protests, but he doesn’t reach out to pull Hannibal back to him, so Hannibal stays where he is. 

“Alana has a tendency to, ah, say she’s fifteen minutes away when she’s actually pulling up,” Hannibal explains. As if right on cue, Alana walks into the room with Abigail trailing her. 

“Oh, Hannibal! I wasn’t aware you were here,” Alana says with a smile. She looks over to Will and keeps smiling. “How are you, Will?”

“Can’t complain,” Will answers. Abigail’s eyes go between Hannibal and Will, a question in her eyes. 

Hannibal stands and says, “I’m going to take Abigail to get a snack from the vending machine, so you two can talk.”

Outside of Will’s room, Abigail looks up at Hannibal. 

“Don’t you think people are going to catch on if you’re always here?” Abigail asks. 

“I’m not always here,” Hannibal says. “I went home this morning and I am having dinner with Dr Bloom tonight.”

“How does Will feel about dinner with Dr Bloom?” 

They stop at the vending machine and Hannibal pulls out his wallet, handing a few dollars to Abigail. She punches in her selection while Hannibal pretends to think about his answer. 

“He didn’t seem happy,” Hannibal says finally. 

“Dr Bloom flirts with both of you guys if you haven’t noticed,” Abigail mutters. 

“I have noticed,” Hannibal says. 

“Well, as long as you know that,” Abigail shrugs. 

The walk back towards Will’s room in silence, Abigail with a soda and candy. 

Hannibal pretends not to be bothered by Alana holding one of Will’s hands while she sits in Hannibal’s chair. 

“Well, I suppose I should go,” Hannibal says. “Alana, would you mind if we moved our dinner to 5 instead of 6? I have quite a bit of work to do tonight.”

“Oh, sure. That’s fine with me, Hannibal. I’ll see you at five, then,” Alana says. 

“Thank you for lunch, Doctor Lecter,” Will says with a smile. 

Hannibal wants to kiss him goodbye, but instead just nods and picks up his jacket, leaving Alana and Abigail with Will. 

He has several hours to spare between now and five so he makes the drive to Wolf Trap. He knows the dogs are lonely and that only being let out and fed in the morning and evening isn’t ideal for them. 

They all jump up when they see him, then run out into the yard while he goes inside to use the restroom. He looks around the house and decides to start cleaning up some of the things Will has laying around. He puts a load of laundry in the washing machine, then brings the dogs back in and feeds them. 

He decides he can spare enough time until the washing machine is done, so he sits on the floor with the dogs and pets them all. He can’t believe what he’s become after being with Will for such a short amount of time. 

Any other person would never get the same treatment Hannibal gives Will. He would never sit on the floor with someone else’s seven dogs at once, never sleep in a hospital bed curled up next to someone else, nor would he do their laundry without being asked. 

As he sits on the floor, his phone starts ringing in his pocket and he smiles. 

“Hello, Will,” Hannibal answers. 

At the sound of his name, Buster barks and Hannibal sets a hand on his head, scratches his ears. 

“Are you at my house?” Will asks. 

“Yes, I figured the dogs would like some company,” Hannibal answers. “I know I left the hospital abruptly, but I felt as though the room was overcrowded.”

“You didn’t like that Alana was sitting in your chair,” Will corrects him. “How are the dogs?”

“They’re well. Winston misses you a lot,” Hannibal says, looking over at the dog laying in Will’s bed. 

“Well, I’ll be home tomorrow. You’re coming back tonight, right?”

“Of course, my love. The second Alana leaves my house tonight I will as well,” Hannibal says. 

He pushes himself off the floor and goes into the laundry room. 

“I washed your clothes that were in the laundry basket,” Hannibal says, opening the washing machine with one hand. He holds his phone between his ear and his shoulder as he pulls them out and puts them in the dryer. 

“Oh you didn’t have to do that,” Will says. “But thank you.”

“You’re welcome.”

They talk for a few more minutes before Hannibal decides he’s pushing it for time. He hangs up and goes home to Baltimore. 

He arrives at his house close to four and immediately changes out of his dog hair covered suit into something more comfortable. A long sleeve shirt and slacks. It’s casual for him, but he has no one to impress tonight. 

When Alana shows up, she’s right on time and Hannibal is just pulling their meal from the oven. Alana sits down in the dining room while Hannibal starts plating their food. 

He carries their plates in and finally has a second to take in Alana’s appearance. Her makeup clearly had thought put into it; deep red lips, and a dark smokey eye shadow. Her dress is nicer than she usually wears to dinner at his house, and her hair is styled. Hannibal inwardly curses, hoping she’s not dressed up for him in some way. 

As dinner goes on, it grows more and more apparent that she’s trying to get something from him. Her smiles, her subtle touches across the table, her compliments. Hannibal knows.

It doesn’t help at all that he spent months encouraging flirtatious behavior from her by actively flirting back, dressing nicely for her, buying her small gifts. He had thought it would make it easier to manipulate her later on if needed, but it seems his plan backfired on him. 

He doesn’t offer more wine when she finishes the small glass he originally poured her, he doesn’t take more himself, either. He needs to be sober if he’s going to make it back to Will in one piece tonight. 

Still, he doesn’t want to seem like anything is too out of the ordinary, so like always, they take their dessert into Hannibal’s sitting room. She sits very near him on the couch, only an inch or two between them. 

Hannibal finally sets his bowl down on the coffee table in front of them and Alana does as well, though hers is only half finished. 

“Hannibal,” Alana whispers, and he turns to look at her, which he knew before he did that he should not, and he really shouldn’t have. 

Alana lifts a hand to his face and before he can react, she’s leaning in. 

“Oh,” Hannibal says before her lips can meet his, and he turns his head away. “Sorry, Alana.” 

“What?” Alana asks. “Oh I must have read this wrong, then.”

Hannibal stands and picks up both of their bowls, but he doesn’t move toward the kitchen yet. 

“I started seeing someone recently,” Hannibal says as a way of explanation. “I do not believe you read anything wrong, just kept reading when I was no longer giving you something to read into.”

“I see,” Alana says quietly. “So… so you were flirting with me before, then?”

“I believe I stopped a month ago,” Hannibal answers. 

“Oh. Okay. I should, um,” Alana stands. “I should go. I’m sorry.” 

Hannibal nods and then leaves the room to take the bowls to the sink. Alana is already gone by the time he returns to the sitting room. He waits ten minutes before getting in his car and going back to Will. 


“Hey, baby,” Will smiles when he sees Hannibal come in the door. The look on his face is one which he sees on his dogs all the time. “Oh, no. What did you do?” 

Hannibal’s eyes go wide, likely because he doesn’t understand how Will knew. Will is getting better at picking up on his facial tells. To anyone else, he would look as he always does, but Will can see some sort of guilt lying under the surface. No, not guilt… confusion, maybe. 

“I did not do anything,” Hannibal says. He takes off his coat and shoes and Will scoots over in the bed, making space for Hannibal to crawl in next to him and curl around his body. “Alana tried to kiss me.”

With that, Will feels a type of rage he hasn’t felt in a long time, if ever. No, not rage. Will feels possessive and jealous. He also wants to kill Alana. Instead he makes a growling noise, completely involuntary, and wraps his arms around Hannibal. Tight. 

“Did she, now?” Will asks through gritted teeth. 

Hannibal rubs his face on Will’s chest and finds one of Will’s hands with one of his own. 

“I rejected her, of course,” Hannibal whispers. “Though, I am afraid I encouraged this, as I did play a game with her for some time. It stopped the day I asked you out, but she didn’t seem to realize.”

“What did you say to her tonight?”

“That I am seeing someone and that I haven’t made an attempt to flirt with her in a month,” Hannibal answers. 

“It’s a good thing I am in a hospital bed right now, or I would go give her a piece of my mind,” Will says. He wants to kill her, he doesn’t say. “You’re mine, Hannibal.”

“Yours and only yours,” Hannibal agrees. He kisses Will’s chest. 

“Good. Thank you for telling me, by the way.” 

“You immediately knew something had happened,” Hannibal whispers. 

“You looked at me like the dogs do after they piss on the floor,” Will laughs. He loosens his arm around Hannibal and brings a hand to his chin to turn his head up. “You didn’t get to kiss me goodbye today.”

Hannibal smiles and sits up carefully, then leans down to kiss Will lightly. 

There’s footsteps in the doorway. 

“Sir, I’m sorry but visiting hours are over, and the patient needs to get some rest,” a nurse says. 

Hannibal looks up, away from Will, just as Will also turns his head to see who is interrupting them. 

“Oh, Doctor Lecter!” The nurse exclaims. 

Hannibal gets out of bed and greets the nurse with a handshake, like old friends. Will watches Hannibal pull him out into the hallway and watches both of their lips move, but he can’t hear a single word they say. They glance over at him a few times during their conversation. Finally the nurse nods, then leaves and Hannibal walks back into the room. 

Will raises an eyebrow at him while Hannibal climbs back into the bed. 

“I can stay,” Hannibal whispers. “I said you’ll likely get no rest if I am not here, and it would be better to just let me stay.”

“Good.”

They lay there together in the small, cramped bed, but there’s nowhere else Will would rather be as long as it means he can have Hannibal by his side. 

Will drifts off at some point, Hannibal’s head on his chest pushing him down into the mattress, encouraging him to succumb to his exhaustion. 

His dreams have been just as bad as they always are, and tonight he dreams of Hobbs sitting in the chair at his side, chest full of bullet holes. There’s a pressure pushing him down, down, down into the mattress and when Will looks down, his own chest is being littered with gunshots, pushing him down with each blow. 

Garrett Jacob Hobbs holds one of Will’s hands in his own, and behind him stands Abigail, a hand on Hobbs’s shoulder, a slice across her neck, antlers through her midsection. 

In unison, they both say, “See?” 

Will wakes with a start, just as he always does. The room around him is the one like his dream. The hospital room he’s been in for two days. He tries to get his breathing under control at the realization that he’s awake and that Hannibal is the only other person in the room. 

“You’re alright, Will,” Hannibal whispers. “You’re okay.”

Will’s hand finds Hannibal’s own resting on his chest and squeezes it tight. 

“I’m okay,” Will says after a minute. 

“At least you aren’t sweating through your hospital gown. That is a good sign,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will woke up in a sweat, but not drenched like usual. That's an improvement. He realizes the room around him is even slightly chilly and he tries to pull his blanket up from his waist. 

“You’re on the blanket,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal gets out of the bed, which isn’t what Will wanted at all, but Will is able to pull the blanket to his chin. He watches as Hannibal goes to one of the bags he brought and pulls out two pairs of pajama pants.

“Put these on,” Hannibal says, handing a pair to Will. 

Will carefully gets out of bed and pulls the pants on, instantly feeling warmer in the cold room. He hasn’t felt chilled like this in a long time. Hannibal changes his pants too, and then they’re both climbing back into the hospital bed, Hannibal curled up next to Will under the blanket. 

Hannibal kisses his chest and Will falls asleep again within minutes. 

When he wakes in the morning, he’s pleased that Hannibal is still in bed with him, snoring softly next to him. He smiles and lets Hannibal sleep on while he picks up his book and reads it. 

After twenty minutes, Hannibal begins to stir and Will looks down to see a sleepy look on his face, his hair completely rumpled, a yawn forming on his lips. 

“Good morning,” Hannibal says. “You get to go home today.”

“As long as it looks like I am responding well to treatment. They’re bringing me in for another brain scan at ten,” Will says, setting the book down. 

Hannibal lifts his head to look at the clock on the far wall. “In thirty minutes?” 

“Mhm. I suspect nurses will be in any moment to start taking these needles out of my arms.”

“Good. I will get up then,” Hannibal says, rolling off of the mattress and standing on the floor. He picks up his pants from the night before and takes them into the bathroom. 

Hannibal comes back, hair slicked back with water, sweater only slightly wrinkled. Will gestures for him to come over, which he does, and Will reaches out to mess up his hair again, earning a glare, which turns into a fond smile only a second later. 


Nurses come in, remove Will’s IVs, then Sutcliffe comes in and gives Hannibal and Will both a look, then takes Will for an MRI while Hannibal stays back to clean up their stuff around the hospital room. 

Hannibal sits and waits, playing a game on his tablet for a few minutes before switching to see if there’s anything good on Tattlecrime. No ones tried to copy any of his work, which Hannibal finds boring. He does see a few kills that he could easily copy if he wanted to, though. He could tell Will about those kills and Will would just think Hannibal is a really good copycat killer and nothing more. 

When Will comes back, Doctor Sutcliffe is following him and addresses them both. 

“It seems that you’re responding well to the treatment and you’ll be able to go home as expected. I have prescriptions for you, take as directed. You’ll need to come back for a few more scans just to make sure everything is still going well,” Sutcliffe explains. Finally he gives Will papers with all of the information he’ll need about continuing his treatment at home and then he’s free to go. 

“When do you go back to work?” Will asks as they get into Hannibal’s car. 

“Monday,” Hannibal answers. “I was hoping to stay with you until then, but I don’t want to invite myself.”

“No, no, please. Stay with me,” Will says. “I am going to be bored out of my mind alone.” 

Hannibal smiles as he puts the car in drive. “I need to stop at home.”

“Okay,” Will agrees. 

Will stays in the car while Hannibal fills a bag with enough clothes to last him until Monday morning. He gets a cooler that he fills with ingredients to use for meals, knowing Will’s fridge is likely lacking after so many days away. 

The drive to Wolf Trap is quiet, Will leaning against the window with his eyes closed, Hannibal not wanting to disturb his rest. 

They stop at the pharmacy Will sent his prescriptions to, and Will goes inside, a tired look in his eyes. Hannibal stands in line with him, holding his hand. Hannibal doesn’t mind public displays of affection. He likes showing people that he and Will are together, and he does so at any moment he can. Which isn’t often at all, with them hiding their relationship from everyone they know. 

At Will’s house Hannibal carries in all of their bags, leaving the clothes next to Will’s bed, then bringing the cooler into the kitchen. He sets it on the counter, then hears the front door open again, even though Will was supposed to go lay down.

“You’re on bed rest,” Hannibal reminds him when he finds Will standing on the porch, watching the dogs. “I will worry about the dogs, you go put on some pajamas and get comfortable. I will join you soon.”

Will huffs in response, but goes anyway, leaving Hannibal to take care of the dogs. When Hannibal goes back inside, he hears Will’s house phone ringing. 

 


Will stumbles out of bed to get to the landline in the kitchen, just as Hannibal comes in the front door with the dogs. He knows Hannibal wants to say something about him being in bed, but it’s better to answer now than have to worry about them calling back.

People don’t usually call his landline; he usually doesn’t give the number out to anyone other than his vet’s office and doctor’s offices. Especially doesn’t even tell Jack Crawford he has one because then he’ll never be able to shut off his cell phone and ignore him again. 

“Hello?”

“Will Graham? It’s the Wolf Trap Veterinarian Clinic. We’ve been trying to reach you for a few days now. We were wondering if you have room for one more,” the woman on the other end says. 

He looks around at the seven dogs filing into the kitchen, Hannibal in tow. Definitely not, Will thinks. 

“Yeah, of course,” Will answers instead. What’s one more? he reasons with himself. 

“Cool. He’s a Brittany spaniel named Rusty. Around four years old. His owners couldn’t keep him anymore and I told them we’d help find a home,” she says. “He seems to be really good with other pets and he’s trained. You’re the first person we thought of.”

“Sounds great,” Will says, looking at Hannibal, who is putting food that he brought into the fridge. He smiles slyly. “Could my boyfriend come pick him up now?” 

“Of course, just give us his name, and make sure he has his ID for confirmation,” she says. 

Will gives her Hannibal’s name then hangs up the phone. 

“You know where the vet clinic is?” Will asks, pulling out a piece of paper to write the address down. “Bring your ID and tell them you’re picking up Rusty.”

“Is Rusty a dog?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Will answers. 

“And you want me to go get him for you,” Hannibal says. 

“Yes. And you’re going to because you love me, and I should be in bed, so I can’t go myself,” Will says quickly. 

Hannibal sighs. “Very well. I’m taking your car.”

Will finds his keys where Beverly left them on the counter and hands them to Hannibal, then kisses him on the cheek. Will hands Hannibal a collar and a leash and pushes him out the front door with a promise to get in bed right after he leaves. 


Hannibal drives to the address Will gave him. He doesn’t think Will needs another dog, not while he’s supposed to be resting, but the look on Will’s face… Hannibal knows he has to do this for him, so he does. 

When he goes into the building, he walks up to the counter and smiles at the lady sitting there. 

“I’m Hannibal Lecter. I was told by Will Graham to come pick up a dog named Rusty,” Hannibal tells her. 

“Of course! Could I just see a driver’s license?” 

Hannibal hands it to her and she looks it over, then hands it back. 

“I will be just a moment,” the lady says with a smile and disappears into a back room. 

A few minutes later she comes back with a beautiful white dog with large brown spots. He pulls the leash out of his pocket and clips it to the collar he brought, then puts it around the dog's neck. Hannibal leans down and feels the dogs soft, fluffy ears and the dog turns to lick his hand.

“I am assuming Will already knows everything about bringing a new dog home, but do make sure to tell him to call if Rusty has any problems with the rest of the pack,” the lady says. “We’ll take him back if it’s not a good fit, but Will’s taken a few from us over the years.”

“Very well. Thank you,” Hannibal says with a nod. 

He leads the excited dog out to Will’s car and opens the back door for him. Rusty jumps into the car and sits on the seat, as Hannibal closes the door and gets into the driver’s seat once more. The dog is panting heavily, so Hannibal opens the back windows just a crack, letting Rusty stick his nose out while Hannibal drives back to Will’s house.

Hannibal can’t explain it, but he already likes this dog. “Russel, I do hope you get along with the others,” Hannibal tells him. The dog stands with his front paws on the center console and licks Hannibal’s ear, which causes Hannibal to smile. 

Back at Will’s house, Hannibal pulls into the barn and gets out of the car, then leads Rusty around to the house. Will is standing on the front porch waiting for them both.

“You’re supposed to be in bed,” Hannibal reminds him. 

“I need to oversee how the other dogs like him,” Will says. He bends down and pets the dog, leaning his forehead against Rusty’s while he ruffles his ears. “Hi, Rusty.”

When Will stands, he brushes his hands on his pajama pants, then walks across the porch where he has a collapsed kennel leaning against the house. He sets it up, then gestures for Hannibal to bring Rusty over.

“He’ll go in the crate, so the other dogs can come and sniff and if anyone gets aggressive, he won’t get hurt,” Will explains, taking the leash off and shutting Rusty inside. “I almost never have problems, though.”

Hannibal nods then looks down. “Why don’t you have shoes on?”

Will shrugs.

“It’s freezing out here,” Hannibal says. “You’re not even wearing socks.”

“Fine, I will go put on some socks,” Will retorts, and goes inside. He comes back out wearing shoes, and a jacket because he must have known Hannibal was going to comment on that next. “I’m going to bring them out now.”

Will opens the door and all seven dogs come running out to see the new friend they likely already smelled when Will walked into the house. 

“Sit,” Will commands. All seven dogs sit right where they are and look up at him, then peer around him to look at Rusty, who is tapping his feet excitedly where he stands, jumping up and down in the crate. “Rusty, sit.”

Rusty sits too, but all of the dogs continue to wiggle, waiting for Will’s next command. Hannibal watches from a few feet away, leaning against the porch railing while Will leads each dog to sniff at Rusty and meet him. When no one seems to have a problem, Will lets Rusty out of the crate and lets them all meet each other up close.

Hannibal notes that Winston has no interest in meeting the new member of the family, just stays by Will’s side as the other dogs go play in the yard.

“Don’t worry, buddy,” Will says, patting Winston’s head. “You still get to sleep in my bed whenever you want.”

Winston cocks his head at Will, then licks the hand Will extended towards him. 

“Good boy,” Will says, then pulls a treat out of his pocket. 

“You aren’t good at hiding your favoritism, darling,” Hannibal says, watching the entire thing happen.

Will shrugs. “Winston likes me better than the rest of them do. Buster likes my attention too, but he’s an asshole about it.”

Hannibal laughs. “Yes, he’s quite demanding, isn’t he? I wonder who he learns it from.”

“Uh huh, you’re the needy one, not me,” Will says with a smirk. 

“Perhaps,” Hannibal says, defeated. He knows he’s more forward about what he wants than Will is, more quick to pull Will close and hold him, more likely to drive an hour just because he misses Will.

Will whistles loud and all the dogs come running back into the house, Rusty watching his new brothers and sisters to see what the protocol is. Once inside, Will turns on the space heater for them, and they all curl up in different beds, except for Winston, who follows Will to his own bed. 

“I’m going to make lunch,” Hannibal says. “Any requests?”

“Could you make more soup? And maybe something to go with it? Your choice,” Will says, settling into bed and pulling his blankets up to his chin.

Hannibal’s glad the fever has gone down and that Will is finally cold. It’ll make him stay close at night, which is a thought Hannibal smiles about as he goes into the kitchen to begin cooking lunch. 

Will’s asleep when Hannibal brings in soup for him. He sets the bowls down the nightstand, then puts a light hand on Will’s shoulder and says his name.

“Huh?” Will wakes with a start, then settles again when he sees it’s Hannibal. 

“I made a heartier soup today, more in it than the other ones. Instead of making something else,” Hannibal explains, handing Will a bowl and getting into bed next to him with his own.

“Thank you, it’s good,” Will says after he takes a mouthful. 

They eat their soup sitting against the headboard, legs crossed as Winston lays at the foot of the bed. When they both finish, Hannibal takes both bowls to the sink and then changes into some pajamas, so he can get into bed with Will.

He’s trying to let himself sleep more, knowing he has nothing to worry about by letting his guard down around Will. Even so, the night before did not bring a great quality rest, with the hospital bed making it hard for him to get comfortable. It didn’t help that Will was quite restless next to him the entire night. 

Hannibal pulls the blankets over both of them, and curls up next to Will, an arm draped over his stomach, his face nuzzling into the side of Will’s neck with his nose.

“You’re like a cat,” Will says, then turns to face away from Hannibal, grabbing his arm so Hannibal can lay pressed up behind him. 

“Have you ever considered getting a cat?” Hannibal asks, stuck on that comparison. 

“I don’t mind cats, but I have eight dogs now.”

“Hm. I like cats,” Hannibal says. 

“Why don’t you get one then?”

“My house is not…. decorated safely for a cat,” Hannibal answers. “Maybe one day.”

“A cat would shred up all of your nice furniture,” Will agrees. He yawns, then says, “I’m going to sleep now. No more talking.”

Hannibal laughs quietly, then tightens his arm around Will’s body. He falls asleep after just a few minutes of listening to Will’s breathing. 


The rest of the day consists of nothing but eating and sleeping. Hannibal agrees that Will can lay on the couch and watch TV instead of staying in bed, so he lays with his head in Hannibal’s lap. Hannibal lazily pets his head while he does. 

Friday, Beverly comes over to see how Will’s doing, and they sit and eat lunch together while Hannibal runs a few errands. Beverly leaves when Hannibal gets back, and the two men spend the rest of the day laying in bed. 

Saturday, Jack stops by to talk about a case. He didn’t call ahead of time, so Hannibal has to hide upstairs the entire time Jack is there. Will keeps trying not to glance at Hannibal’s shoes or coat by the front door, or one of his waistcoats draped over a chair. He knows if he glances, he’ll draw attention to them. He hates how he can’t even have Hannibal’s things in his own house without running the risk of someone noticing.

If Jack does notice anything, he doesn’t say a word. Not that Will ever wears waistcoats, but maybe Jack just thinks it’s his. He does have to keep calling Rusty away from the stairs each time he goes near looking for Hannibal.

“Did you get a new dog?” Jack asks. 

“Yeah. Picked him up yesterday,” Will says. “His name is Rusty. His family couldn’t keep him so my vet called and asked if I had room for another. He doesn’t quite know he’s not supposed to go upstairs yet, but I don't blame him for being curious.”

“Is that eight now?”

Will nods. He doesn’t push the conversation further, hoping Jack takes his leave soon.

He enjoys Jack’s company, sees the man as a friend, but god is he nervous about Hannibal being upstairs. It feels like he’s harboring a fugitive, which - Will laughs to himself at the thought that he technically is hiding a criminal in his house. Not that Jack knows that, and not that Will even knows if Hannibal is a wanted killer. For all Will knows, Hannibal has pinned every kill on someone else, just as he did with Nicholas Boyle.

Finally, finally Will finds it a good time to tell Jack that he needs to get back into bed to rest, and Jack nods sympathetically. 

“Take care, Will,” Jack says on the way out the front door. “I’ll likely stop by again if we find anything else out about this case.”

“You can always just give me a call. If I don’t answer, assume I’m sleeping and I’ll call back later,” Will tells him.

“Of course.”

After that, Jack leaves, and Will calls Hannibal back downstairs. 

“I hate this,” Will says once Hannibal is downstairs and they’re settled on the couch, Will’s head in Hannibal’s lap. 

Hannibal’s hand stills in his hair. “You will have to be more specific, I’m afraid,” Hannibal says.

“Having to hide. I thought Jack was going to see your clothes, or that Rusty was gonna give you away,” Will sighs. “I know why we have to do it, it just sucks that not even my own house is safe from people showing up.”

“We will just have to give it some time, my love,” Hannibal says.

“Jack’s going to want you keeping an eye on me from a psychiatric standpoint,” Will says. “I’m not seeing a different fucking shrink, I’ll tell you that.”

Hannibal doesn’t say anything, just resumes running his fingers through Will’s hair and massaging his scalp.

“Do you actually not get paid by the FBI for my sessions?” Will asks.

“It’s part of what I get paid for consulting work. There’s nothing that says they’re paying me for your therapy.”

“So you basically just consult on cases with me specifically,” Will clarifies. “So there’s like no ethical boundary being crossed. We’re coworkers that just happen to meet in your therapy office.”

“I suppose so, but you know Alana doesn’t see it that way. Your psych eval was not long ago either. The Bureau would see a problem if we come out as a couple any time soon.”

Will sighs. “I know, I know. I’m just thinking about how stupid it is that we’re in this situation.”

“Mm, I know.”

Will falls asleep with his head in Hannibal’s lap, and after a while, he’s being moved and laid down on the couch. He wakes at the movement, then Hannibal pulls a blanket over him and leans down to kiss his lips.

“I’m going to feed the dogs,” Hannibal tells him. “It’s Saturday. Should I make their food?”

Will knows Hannibal picked up the ingredients the day before, and Will adjusted his recipe card to account for the extra dog, so he nods. 

Some time later, Hannibal shakes him awake again, and Will sits up on the couch. He’s given a bowl of pasta and mumbles a thanks as Hannibal sits down on the couch next to him with his own bowl. 

“Did you want to take a bath after dinner?” Hannibal asks.

“Will you join me?” Will asks.

“If you want me to.”

Will nods and they continue to eat side by side on the couch. When they finish, Hannibal takes both bowls into the kitchen and Will can hear him washing them.

Hannibal comes back and they both go up the stairs together, and undress when they get into the bathroom. Hannibal starts the water, and gets into the tub, then Will follows, getting in between his legs, pressing his back to Hannibal’s chest.

“Thank you for staying with me this week,” Will whispers. He lets his body relax in the warm water, feels safe with Hannibal’s arms wrapped around him. He always feels so safe with Hannibal’s arms around him. 

That first night they shared a bed, Will felt suffocated by Hannibal’s arm, felt pinned down in the bed after his nightmare. Now he needs that. He needs Hannibal’s calming touch when he wakes up gasping for air. Needs it like he needs the air he can’t get into his lungs every single time. 

Will intends to keep Hannibal as long as he can, until that frequently sought after touch turns painful. Right now, Hannibal is what he needs, but Will knows Hannibal is a killer, has a penchant for violence. He just wishes he knew how much violence. He hopes the love overpowers it.

Chapter 10

Notes:

A few things.
1. I hate writing sex scenes with a passion.

2. This chapter has ended up longer than I wanted it to be and I didn't even get to the thing I was planning on putting in it (next chapter tho, don't worry) which means this fic is going to be so long. So much longer than I initially thought it would be. Hope everyone sticks around.

3. I don't actually know anything about encephalitis recovery, as I'm not a doctor, I've never had it, and research only gets me so far because I am incapable of doing it for more than five minutes. Excuse any inaccuracies in that subject.

4. This chapter is mainly fluff and smut and I hope you enjoy :)

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

Chapter Text

“There’s no place I would rather be,” Hannibal murmurs into the back of Will’s head as he holds him in his arms.

The bath water grows cold around them, and only then do they get out of the position they’ve been in the entire time. No longer comfortable, they get out and towel off. 

Hannibal takes the dogs outside after he dresses in pajamas, urging Will to get back in bed. 

All the dogs shuffle into the house, go lay by the space heater Will keeps on for them. Hannibal goes into the kitchen and gets himself a glass of water, then goes back to the living room. 

Will is sitting up in bed, glasses perched on his nose, a book in hand. He glances up at Hannibal then extends his hand towards the glass Hannibal is drinking from. Hannibal smiles and hands it to him, then crawls into bed next to him. 

“You are aware I got that for myself, aren’t you?” Hannibal asks as Will drinks the rest of it. 

Will doesn’t acknowledge him, just continues to drink the water while he reads his book. 

The glass is set empty on Will’s night stand after Will finishes it off. Hannibal almost wants to get up to get himself another, but he’s settled against Will’s body now, and he’s content to be close. He nuzzles his face against Will’s ribs, and Will finally takes off his glasses and lays down. 

“You should get a nicer bed,” Hannibal murmurs. The bedframe is flimsy, the mattress is thin. Hannibal can feel the metal of the frame under the mattress some nights. It’s something that has been on his mind since the first time he slept in the bed. If Will’s going to be spending all his time in bed, he might as well have something comfortable.

“Are you going to buy me one?” Will asks, amusement in his tone. Hannibal knows Will is not seriously asking, that he doesn’t even consider his bed to be uncomfortable. 

Still Hannibal nods against Will’s chest. “Don’t give me permission if you do not want me to.” 

“If you have a problem with it, you can solve it,” Will says. 

Hannibal smiles to himself, knowing Will is likely just saying it because he thinks Hannibal is bluffing. He rolls over and gets up, shuts off all the lights, then settles back into the uncomfortable bed with Will. The only reason he sleeps in it is because he’s so content to have Will by his side. 


On Sunday Will wakes early. He has been sleeping for days and there’s no more sleep left in him. Hannibal, on the other hand, sleeps well through Will showering, letting the dogs out, feeding them, and even feeding himself. 

Hannibal stirs when Will finally settles back into bed after all of his morning activities. 

The rest of their day is spent in bed, or on the couch, or the few minutes Hannibal lets Will stand on the porch. Will knows Hannibal just keeps an eye on him like this because he wants Will to get better, but Will is going crazy in his house. Not able to do anything but lay down. 

Monday morning, Hannibal leaves Will after breakfast. He leaves lunch in the fridge for Will to heat up, and he promises to come back after his last appointment. Will almost tells him not to; not to leave the lunch, not to come back if it is inconvenient, but he mostly just finds himself wanting to ask Hannibal to not leave in the first place. 

The next few days go in a similar fashion. Hannibal leaves in the morning after breakfast, a kiss goodbye, lunch in the fridge. He comes back to cook dinner and spend the night.

Friday he comes over after his last appointment, just as he always does, but not even an hour after he shows up, so does a large truck. And then two men are carrying a bed frame, a box spring, and a mattress into Will’s house. 

“A little warning next time?” Will asks. He makes Hannibal help him quickly get the dogs herded into the spare bedroom upstairs, out of the way. 

“That would spoil the surprise,” Hannibal responds. 

Back downstairs, the men are taking apart his old bed, leaning the mattress against the wall. They make quick work of assembling the new one. It’s much too large for the small space, looks just like Hannibal’s at home. For a second Will thinks Hannibal brought his own bed, but then he shakes his head. Hannibal may be spending the nights - every night - but he hasn’t moved in yet. Right? Will asks himself. 

The men ask what should be done with the old bed and Will tells them it can go in the bedroom upstairs not occupied by dogs. 

With that done, and the workers gone, Hannibal goes out to his car and returns a minute later with several large bags. 

He takes out the items inside and Will sees it’s all new bedding. Hannibal puts the new sheets on the bed as Will stands back and watches. 

“You really hated my bed that much?” Will asks. 

“The only good thing about it was that I was with you,” Hannibal answers, which Will scoffs at. “Besides, the dogs will fit more easily in this one with us.”

“It’s too big for the room,” Will says, but he knows he’s just making excuses. The bed looks really comfortable, and if it’s similar to Hannibal’s, he knows it is. It’s large, but there’s still enough space to get around it. 

Hannibal doesn’t respond to that, just puts pillows on the bed, blankets that look warmer than Will’s own.  

“You spend too much money on me,” Will tries. He knows that point is going to be argued. 

“Technically, this is an investment for myself as well. Seeing as I have spent more time here than my own home in the past two weeks,” Hannibal answers, not looking up from where he’s straightening a corner of a blanket. 

“That’s your choice,” Will says. 

“Would you like me to take the bed back and go home?” Hannibal asks, finally looking up at Will. Where his words are serious, somewhat exasperated, the corners of his mouth lift, and his eyes sparkle. 

“What if I said yes?” Will asks. 

He goes upstairs and lets the dogs free from the confines of the bedroom, then comes back down and immediately jumps into the bed. He flops down on his stomach and buries his face in the pillow with a groan. He never realized how uncomfortable his old bed was until he was faced with something so much better. 

Will turns his face against the pillow and looks at Hannibal, standing at the edge of the bed. 

“Don’t people ever show up to your house looking for you?” Will asks. “Surely Alana or Jack do.”

“Alana has hardly spoken to me since that night she attempted to kiss me. Jack has been spending time with Bella,” Hannibal answers. “Typically my conversations with Jack are about you, and he has no reason to seek me out for one of those conversations while you are out of the field.”

“Mm. I guess,” Will says. He reaches out for Hannibal, who laughs quietly and joins Will in the bed, sitting up against the headboard next to him. “We should have set Alana up with Beverly before she tried kissing you.”

“Yes well, now it would not be a good idea. She would think I am trying to make up for rejecting her,” Hannibal replies. 

Will moves closer so he can rest his head on Hannibal’s thigh, dances his fingers dangerously close to Hannibal’s groin. He knows he’ll be stopped before anything can progress, but for the moment he enjoys Hannibal squirming under his attention. 

Just as expected, when Will runs a finger from the base of Hannibal’s zipper, to the buckle of his belt, Hannibal grabs his wrist. He laces their fingers then rests both of their hands on his knee. 

“Oh come on,” Will protests. “The encephalitis is not going to withstand my medication just because I give you a handjob.”

“You and I both know that is not your end goal. You should not exert yourself more than you have to,” Hannibal says, for what feels like the fifteenth time this week. 

Will groans and rolls onto his back. 

“What if I lay back and you do all the work?” Will tries. 

“No,” Hannibal whispers and leans down to kiss Will’s lips. “Trust me, I would like to, but I am not risking your recovery by causing your mind or body any unnecessary stress.”

“If it’s only because of what happened last time we fucked, I can assure you I will be fine this time,” Will counters. He adds, only half joking, “If you keep your emotions in check.”

“I cannot guarantee that I can, my love,” Hannibal murmurs. “Just a bit longer, I promise.”

Will sighs. “Fine. As soon as I’m better I am riding you into the mattress. I promise you that.”

Hannibal’s breathing stops for a split second, enough for Will to catch it. He can also see that Hannibal’s cock is interested in his words. Will smirks to himself, but doesn’t say another word on the subject. 

After a while Hannibal gets up to make dinner. The rest of their night is spent laying in front of the TV while Will drifts in and out of sleep. Hannibal’s fingers card through his hair, where his head rests in Hannibal’s lap. It’s all become so routine. 

There are nights Hannibal doesn’t come back at all, and Will doesn’t blame him. Hannibal claims to not be bothered about waking up to Will’s nightmares, or the way Will has accidentally hit Hannibal on multiple occasions while he thrashes in his attempts to get out of the tangle of blankets. 

Still, even if Hannibal claims to not be bothered, Will knows the man needs to get a few good nights of sleep once in a while. On those nights Hannibal calls him, lets him know it’s because he’s having dinner with a colleague, or has an early morning appointment. 

Will doesn’t mind a few nights alone. 

He misses Hannibal on those nights, but he tells himself he’s not that needy, not that clingy. But he does miss him, and he does prefer the nights Hannibal stays. The nights Hannibal is there when he wakes up from nightmares and can’t breathe, can’t tell where he is. 

One those nights Hannibal whispers into his hair as he holds him. Whispers things in different languages, sometimes. Just so Will can hear the low purr of Hannibal’s voice and can ground himself back into the moment, back into reality, even if Will doesn’t understand the words he says. Even with the encephalitis clearing up, the nightmares are still frequent and cause Will to wake in a panic. 

Will’s recovery and time off goes through November, and into December. Jack stops by to show Will crime scene photos, Beverly stops by to just hang out. Alana even stops by a few times to see how he’s doing. 

He puts his foot down about Jack and Alana showing up unannounced, saying he needs at least a couple hour’s notice, or else he might be sleeping. Mostly it is so he can be sure none of Hannibal’s clothes are scattered across the house. Hannibal is usually good about putting his shirts and pants into a laundry basket, but sometimes a suit jacket is laid across the back of a chair, or a waistcoat is sitting on the arm of the couch. 

If Jack or Alana ever notice there is a second toothbrush in the cup on the bathroom counter, neither say anything about it. Or if the kitchen seems more well stocked than a person living alone, with only occasional guests getting a snack, would need. Or the fact that there’s books on both nightstands, on each side of the bed. Those are all things Will doesn’t want to move. That’s where he draws the line about hiding. 

Clothes shouldn’t be scattered around the house, anyway, but the rest of it? It’s his house, he should be able to live in it the way he wants. It helps that Jack knows he’s seeing someone, but Jack doesn’t ask, doesn’t mention, so Will has to wonder if he just doesn’t notice. Alana doesn’t seem to notice. 

Beverly, on the other hand, always points things out. 

“Really, Will? All of his shower products? Hair gel, nice toothpaste, even his cologne is just laying out in the bathroom,” she says one day. Will is sitting at his kitchen table, waiting for coffee to brew for them, while Beverly had been in the bathroom.

Will shrugs. “He’s here a lot. Like a lot.” 

“He’s practically moved in,” Beverly says.

“No. He’s just making sure I eat and sleep.”

“Every night.”

“Not every night,” Will protests. But it is nearly every night. Hannibal spends one, maybe two, nights a week at home.

“And is that a new bed I saw out there?” Beverly asks.

Will groans and puts his head in his hands. 

“He bought it,” Will admits. “Because he sleeps here so often that my old bed was a problem for him.”

“Have you told him you love him yet?” Beverly asks with a smile. “Because I know the only reason you’d agree to him buying you a bed is if you do.”

“You know I do. And no, I have not told him.”

“When are you gonna get your shit together, Graham? He’s not going to wait around forever until you say it,” Beverly sighs.

Except Will thinks that Hannibal definitely would stay around forever, even if Will never said it to him. Will knows one day he will, but even if he didn’t… Hannibal doesn’t seem bothered at all any of the times he says it and Will doesn’t respond. Well, Will responds, just not with words. He responds with smiles, and kisses, and a squeeze of his hand. Maybe for Hannibal, that’s enough.

Beverly leaves after they have coffee. Everyone always leaves after a short amount of time, after a quick conversation, or a coffee, or lunch. Even though Will insists they are always welcome to stay longer. 

None of them are as welcome as Hannibal, though. He likes seeing them all, but he’s always looking at the clock, waiting for Hannibal to show up. 

And Hannibal does, or he calls to say he won’t. Nearly every night, they eat dinner together, then lay on the couch, or take a bath, or lay in bed. Always near each other. Will wonders if this is just the honeymoon phase, or if they will always be like this, always craving each other’s company. 

For a month, it goes on like this. 

And for that entire month, they don’t have sex, barely even kiss longer than a few seconds. Will is surprised Hannibal even lets him sit so close, or sleep in the same bed, at this point, with how he’s acting about it. Because every time Will even hints at wanting to do anything sexual, Hannibal changes the subject, or takes Will’s hands into his own and holds them. Or rolls over to sleep on the other side of the bed.

Of course, Will isn’t going to push Hannibal if he doesn’t want to, but Will knows Hannibal is only doing it because of Will’s health and state of mind. Because he is so worried they’ll have a repeat of the night Will cried and had to pull out so they could talk. Even though Will tells him that will not happen again, because his brain is not completely on fire or melting in his skull anymore. 

Hannibal always tells him to wait until he is better. And it’s frustrating because Will feels fine enough, besides the tiredness, and besides the occasional headache, or spike in temperature.

Finally, finally after that month, Will goes in for another brain scan and most of the inflammation is gone. He still has the headaches sometimes, the fever comes and goes, but nowhere near as bad. He is assured that’s all part of recovery. 

He’s told he can go back to work, but to limit his time in the field. Jack tells him to wait a while longer, and Hannibal agrees with him. 

“It won’t do you any good to get back out there, darling,” Hannibal murmurs in bed, the night before Will is set to go back to teaching. 

Will splays his hand against Hannibal’s chest, feeling his heart beating under his spread finger tips. 

“I know,” Will says with a sigh. “I barely even want to go back to teaching.”

Hannibal laughs quietly. “I know, but it will be good to get out of the house. You’re nearly recovered.”

“Does that mean you won’t be staying here anymore?” Will asks, voice slightly muffled where he buries his face into Hannibal’s sweater.

“You need only ask if you want for me to spend the night. Or if you would like to spend the night at my house,” Hannibal whispers. “I will admit I have just fallen into a routine of coming here to cook you dinner and sleep in your bed.”

“It’s not an unwelcome routine, but I do think time apart will do us some good once in a while,” Will says.

Not that he wants time away from Hannibal, but they both have lives to live. Will knows he can’t keep Hannibal away from all of his other friends forever. Will knows he’ll get back into the field soon, and he knows how exhausted he can be coming home from lectures. Sometimes after a long day, the last thing he wants is to talk to more people. Even if that person is Hannibal. 

After a while, Will is sure Hannibal has fallen asleep, but Will is nearly startled by the sudden voice in the darkness.

“I think I may kill again soon,” Hannibal says. He says it soft and casual, as if it’s a usual conversation between partners. Maybe for them, it is. Or will be as time progresses.

Will lifts his head from Hannibal’s shoulder and looks up at his face. Will hopes his own face is asking for some sort of explanation in the dark.

When Hannibal doesn't immediately supply an explanation, Will asks.

“When and who?” 

“This weekend. The identity does not matter much.”

“You’ve got to give me more information, Hannibal,” Will says. “What are you doing with the body?”

“There’s a killer that has been taking organs. I may do a copycat of that,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will’s heart stops. “Not. Not the Ripper.” It’s not a question, more of a Please, do not rip off the Chesapeake Ripper. 

“No,” Hannibal says, his voice taking on a soothing tone. “Not the Ripper.”

Will drops his head back down to Hannibal’s shoulder and sighs. 

“I’m not going to stop you, but if you get caught I’m denying knowing anything,” Will says. He adds, because he feels like he needs to, “Please don’t get caught.”

“I am very careful.”

“Is that what you do? Copycat killings?” Will asks. 

“Among other things, yes,” Hannibal answers. 

Hannibal’s hand rests on Will’s back and rubs circles, a calming motion. Will feels himself start to get tired and he moves his hand from where his fingers are spread on Hannibal’s chest, to wrap his arm around his waist.

“Thanks for letting me know,” Will says after a while. 

Hannibal makes a noise in acknowledgement and Will knows he’s on the verge of sleep. Will lets himself drift off too. 


The alarm goes off much too soon and Hannibal groans as Will sits up to shut it off. Hannibal has been letting himself get more sleep, and now his body craves it like it never has before. Will flops back down onto Hannibal’s chest and presses a kiss to his collarbone. 

“Must you set your alarm so early?” Hannibal asks, checking the clock. Neither of them have to be up for at least another hour. 

“I like waking up and finding out I have more time to sleep,” Will responds sleepily, already settling back into the mattress. 

“It disrupts your sleep cycle.”

“Don’t care. Go back to sleep,” Will mumbles. 

Hannibal knows that if he didn’t love Will as much as he does, he would not stand for the alarm clock being set so early. But he does, and with that, he would do anything for the man curled up next to him. 

When it is finally time to wake up, Hannibal kisses Will, then leads him to the shower. Hannibal is still firm in his no sex until Will is fully recovered mindset, so even when Will’s hands drift in the shower, Hannibal redirects them. Even if he is rock hard and has been thinking about all of Will’s promises to ride him into the mattress non stop since he said it. 

“Are you busy on Saturday evening?” Hannibal asks when they finally get dressed and make it to the breakfast table. 

“Depends,” Will answers, taking a sip of orange juice. He looks at Hannibal over the rim of the glass, his eyebrows raised.

“There’s an art gallery I would like to visit. With you. And then I would like to have you over for dinner,” Hannibal says. “And of course, you can stay the night if you wish.”

“A public date?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods. “No one we know would be there, though. It is not a large gallery. A couple of local artists.”

“Tell you what. I’ll go to the gallery. And I’ll come over for dinner, but I have a condition,” Will says, giving Hannibal a serious look. “I need you to stop worrying about breaking me.”

“Meaning?”

“Meaning if we’re both in the mood to fuck after dinner, I really don’t want you to stop us by using my health as an excuse. If I’m fine to teach, I am fine to take you to bed,” Will says, pointing his fork at Hannibal. “If you don’t want to for any other reason, we won’t. The reason won’t be my health, though.”

Hannibal sighs. “Very well.”

“Good.”

After breakfast, they both leave at the same time. They kiss each other goodbye, Hannibal pressing Will up against the door of Will’s car before leaving him for his own in the barn. 

Hannibal sits through several patients, all complaining about something or other. Then, he makes his way to Bedelia’s house for an appointment of his own. 

“Hannibal, come in,” she says, opening the door. 

“Doctor Du Maurier,” Hannibal greets her. 

“It’s been quite some time since our last appointment,” Bedelia says after they settle into their opposite chairs. “Tell me what is new since we’ve last met.”

“I’ve met someone,” Hannibal tells her. He’s unable to contain his smile at the words. “Who I have entered a relationship with.”

“Tell me about them,” she prompts. 

So Hannibal does. “I met him through work with the FBI,” Hannibal starts. “We’re keeping our relationship a secret. He is not technically my patient, but some of our friends see him as such. I did his psychological evaluation before we started our relationship.”

“And you’re scared people will think you only passed him because of your romantic interest in him,” Bedelia supplies. 

Hannibal gives her a small nod, such a minuscule gesture, but she sees it. 

“And how many people do know?”

“You,” Hannibal starts. “Abigail Hobbs, and one of Will’s coworkers. Beverly Katz.”

“Abigail Hobbs is the girl you saved in Minnesota,” Bedelia clarifies. “And you said Will…” She takes a pause, in thought, then, “Will Graham was the agent that took Garrett Jacob Hobbs down,” Bedelia says. “Will Graham is your partner?”

“Yes,” Hannibal answers. 

“And Will is different from any other past lovers? I can tell you regard him highly.”

“Perhaps higher than anyone else I have ever known.”

“Different, indeed.”

“Very. I have never felt the desire to open up my life to someone as I have him. He was in the hospital with encephalitis, and then on bed rest at home for nearly the past month. Today is his first day back at work. I have spent almost every night with him since his diagnosis,” Hannibal tells her. “I would never have done that for anyone else.”

“You are not a selfless creature. Surely there is something in it for you,” Bedelia says. Hannibal wonders if he should feel insulted by this, but he doesn’t. It’s true that he almost always acts selfishly. 

“I love him,” Hannibal says quietly. “He makes me feel… alive. He understands me, sees me. Not completely, but enough.”

“And does he love you back?”

Hannibal smiles to himself. “He has not told me to my face. He said it when he believed me to be sleeping. About a month ago.” 

“And not again since?”

Hannibal shakes his head. “Unless he does when I truly am asleep. He’s not ready to admit it yet. He has told me none of his relationships get to the stage where he is loved or loves in return. This is new for him.”

“It’s new for you as well, is it not?”

“Yes. Very.”

“Does he know about your past? What happened to your family?”

Hannibal shakes his head. “He assumes I have had a traumatic event in my past, but I have not told him yet.”

Bedelia doesn’t press him any further than that. He talks about Will’s dogs, about how much he enjoys spending time at Will’s home. Right up until his hour is over. 

After his appointment he checks his phone to see a message from Will. 

come over tonight?  

Hannibal sends back a simple ‘Yes.’ and gets into his car. He’s done with work for the day, so he stops home for a clean suit for the next day and drives to Will’s. 


Will has had a day. Not his worst, but certainly not his best, either. A day. He wants to crawl into bed and sleep. His heads been pounding, he’s beyond tired. He’s stretched so thin by all of the human interaction he had to endure all day. 

For some reason, after all of that, he still craves Hannibal’s arms around him, craves his company. Wants the man to rub the tension out of his body and massage his temples until his headache goes away. So he texts him, and he’s delighted that Hannibal agrees to come over. 

He lets the dogs out, feeds them, then crawls into bed and waits. Winston joins him and Will falls asleep not long after that. 

The bed shifts and Will wakes up at the movement. He didn’t hear the door open, and thinks it’s a dog for a second, but then he feels a hand on his face. A gentle caress, pushing his hair away from his forehead. He leans into the touch.

“Hannibal?” Will murmurs. 

“I’m here,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will opens his arms, heavy as he’s still half asleep. Hannibal lays next to him and settles beside him. Will falls asleep again instantly, arm draped over Hannibal’s waist. 

When he wakes, the sun has set completely and the room is dark. Hannibal is there, a few inches away, and he only vaguely remembers him arriving. He shakes his shoulder slightly and Hannibal opens his eyes. 

“Hey, baby,” Will whispers. 

“Hello,” Hannibal smiles. He rolls over and kisses Will on the forehead. “How was your day?”

“Better now,” Will responds. “My head was killing me almost all day. I was so tired when I got home.”

“You’re not used to so much moving around. You should not have gone back to your full course schedule, but rather eased into it,” Hannibal says. “Maybe only do one lecture a day, or teach every other day. Surely someone else can continue to fill in until you’re fully recovered.”

Will makes a humming noise and buries his face in Hannibal’s chest, inhaling the scent that feels like home. 

“How is your head now?” Hannibal asks. 

“Okay. Nap helped,” Will says. “Can you make dinner?”

Hannibal laughs quietly, his chest lightly rumbling under Will’s face. 

“Of course,” Hannibal says. “Now?”

“Please,” Will says. On cue, his stomach growls and he laughs. “I wasn’t hungry at lunch, so I haven’t eaten since breakfast.”

Hannibal makes a dissatisfied noise but doesn’t say anything about it.  He gets out of bed and Will lays there for another second before following him into the kitchen. 

“How was your day?” Will asks. He sits down at the kitchen table and watches Hannibal move around the kitchen.

Hannibal looks up from the stove after he sets a pan down. 

“My patients are very dull,” Hannibal sighs. “I did have an appointment with my own psychiatrist today.”

“You see a psychiatrist?” 

Hannibal nods once. “Yes. I have since I became a psychiatrist. This was my first appointment in quite some time.”

Will nods and taps his fingers on the table twice. He wants to ask more questions, but decides to let it drop when the dogs come into the kitchen and sit around Will’s feet. Buster jumps up and puts his front paws on Will’s knee.

“I don’t have any treats,” Will tells him. He gestures with his head towards Hannibal. “Go ask him, he’s the one cooking.”

“Do not send them over here,” Hannibal warns. 

Will snaps his fingers to get all of their attention and points in Hannibal’s direction and the dogs go scrambling over to him. 

“Will,” Hannibal sighs. He looks down at the dogs surrounding him. “If only I could cook without all of this extra help.” 

“You choose to be here knowing I have eight dogs,” Will reminds him. 

“And you are fully capable of making sure I don’t get swarmed in the kitchen,” Hannibal responds. 

Will watches him take a bag from the fridge and start dropping pieces of sausage on the floor for the dogs. 

“What’s that made out of?” Will asks. 

“Pork,” Hannibal answers. He glances up at Will. He adds, “Actual pigs.”

Will barks out a laugh at that and shakes his head. He stands from his seat at the kitchen table and goes to the fridge to pull out their food. 

The dogs all leave Hannibal alone in favor of eating their dinner. Will settles back down into his spot at the table and watches Hannibal cook. 

When Hannibal sets a plate in front of him, he also drops a kiss to the top of Will’s head. Will smiles into his plate as Hannibal takes his seat across from him. 

“Thursday,” Will says, pointing his fork at Hannibal. “6:30?” 

“If you’d like,” Hannibal answers. “We do not need to meet in my office. I told Jack we aren’t having sessions until you’re back in the field.”

“No, but we should likely talk about what going back into the field entails. And you’ve wanted to talk about those Ripper scenes for a while now. Maybe we come up with something none of us have thought of before the next sounder,” Will suggests. 

“Maybe,” Hannibal agrees. “Very well. Thursday at 6:30 in my office.”

“Should we talk about office etiquette now or later?” 

“Hm. Finish your dinner,” Hannibal says. “We can talk about it over a glass of wine on the couch.” 


When they finally finish eating, and the dogs have been outside again, they sit down on the couch with wine, as promised. 

Will closes the distance between them and Hannibal lifts his arm so the other man can fit comfortably into his side. 

“Office etiquette,” Hannibal prompts. 

“Mhm. In your office, we’re not in a relationship,” Will says. “It’s not as if anyone will be there, but… I do need these sessions, which is not something I often, or ever, admit. We need to have some professionalism. Can’t spend them fucking.”

“I wouldn’t dare think of it,” Hannibal says. Although, he has thought of it. On more than one occasion. “I do need to tell Jack how you’re doing with field work, of course. The sessions would need to include at least some discussion about that.”

“Yeah. And,” Will pauses and Hannibal looks down to see him smiling into his wine glass, seemingly remembering something pleasant. “We’ve already established that there are things you don’t repeat to Jack. Office conversations will, for the most part, be fair game.”

Hannibal now remembers that night in his study all those nights ago when they had a similar conversation, the night where he and Will just barely made it to the bed. Too caught up in each other to part for more than a few seconds as they took the stairs. That night was the start of them giving a label to their relationship. The night Hannibal started falling in love with Will Graham. He is certain that’s the night Will is thinking of, too.

“I mean, I’m sure you can judge what I would want shared or not. Some… more personal stuff like my nightmares, or whatever, I would rather keep between us,” Will says. “Work stuff is fine.”

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. “I presume that the professionalism extends to me not being allowed to kiss you hello.”

“Mmm,” Will hums, drawn out as if in thought. “I’ll allow one kiss right at 6:30. And perhaps one more at 7:30 when I leave.”

“I would be okay with that,” Hannibal agrees. “Though you are more than welcome to come over for dinner after your appointment.” 

“As therapy?” Will teases. “Or will I be your boyfriend?”

Hannibal kisses the top of Will’s head, but doesn’t respond. He smiles into the curls and Will picks up the TV remote, the conversation over. 

After fifteen minutes of some sitcom Hannibal isn’t too keen on, Will makes a displeased noise and fidgets in a way that Hannibal knows means he wants to change positions, but doesn’t want to ask. It tends to happen every time they sit down on the couch like this.

“Yes, Will?” Hannibal asks. 

Will sits up straight and looks at Hannibal, as if Will thinks Hannibal should just understand. Of course, Hannibal does understand. 

“How would you like me to sit, then?” Hannibal asks with a sigh, looking back at Will. Hannibal is settled on the couch, his side leaning against one armrest with his feet on the floor in front of him. He’s comfortable as he is, but he knows he would do anything for Will.

Suddenly, hands are moving Hannibal’s legs onto the couch, and his body is being moved so his back is resting against the arm rest. Will settles down between Hannibal’s legs, back to Hannibal’s chest. 

“You can just ask,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Moving you works just fine,” Will says. He tips his head back against Hannibal’s shoulder, and Hannibal turns his face so he can kiss the corner of Will’s mouth. 

Hannibal puts his arms around Will and Will holds one of Hannibal’s hands in his own. Eventually Will’s hand goes slack in his grip and his breathing has evened out. Hannibal doesn’t want to move him just yet, wants to let him sleep for a bit, so he stays where he is. 

He doesn’t intend on watching the entire movie that comes on TV. He isn’t a big fan of comedy movies, but this one has caught his attention. Students that play classical music being taught rock n roll by a fake substitute teacher. Not even in their music classes. He can’t help but smile through it. 

Will stirs after a while, during the scene when the parents find out the teacher is a fraud.

“Mm. Are you watching School of Rock?” Will asks, voice still sleepy. 

“Is that what this movie is called?” Hannibal asks. “I’m quite intrigued by the concept.”

“It’s a good movie,” Will mumbles. He turns on his side slightly to face the TV better, still pressed against Hannibal’s chest. 

“Your shoulder is cutting off my airflow,” Hannibal says. 

“I’m comfortable,” Will responds. 

“Well, of course. How could I be so inconsiderate?” 

Will makes a tired groaning noise and scoots down lower so his shoulder is no longer digging into Hannibal’s chest. 

“Are you watching the movie or are you going to fall asleep again?” Hannibal asks. 

“No, no. I’m watching it,” Will says with a yawn. 

“Go to bed,” Hannibal says, pushing at Will’s back to urge him off the couch. “It’s late, anyway.”

“Only if you come with me,” Will says. 

“I want to finish this.”

“Then I’ll stay here,” Will says. He turns over so he’s laying on his stomach between Hannibal’s legs, head resting on Hannibal’s stomach. 

Hannibal drops a hand to Will’s head, running his fingers through the man’s hair. Will falls asleep on top of him again and Hannibal laughs quietly. He had known this would happen the second Will said he would stay awake to watch it.

The credits roll on the screen and Hannibal leans forward to pick up the remote and shut off the TV. 

“Will,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Hm?” 

“Let’s go to bed.”

Will makes a groaning noise before pulling himself off the couch and onto his feet. Hannibal takes both of their empty wine glasses to the sink and comes back to find Will laying face down on the bed, fully clothed. 

Hannibal puts the dogs out, watches them from the porch, counts them all as they come back to the house. Inside, he locks the door and shuts off all the lights, then finds Will exactly where he left him. 

“Don’t you want to get undressed?” Hannibal asks as he unbuttons his shirt. 

“Tired,” Will says into the pillow. “Help me?”

Hannibal finishes undressing down to his underwear, then climbs into the bed. He rolls Will over and starts unbuttoning his flannel shirt, and Will sits up long enough for Hannibal to remove it completely. 

He gets Will’s pants off, too, and Will is left in just his undershirt and boxers. 

“You’re going to be cold,” Will tells him. 

Hannibal is already getting up and pulling on a sweater and sleep pants when Will says it. 

He gets into bed with Will again and pulls the blankets over both of them. Will rolls over and nuzzles his face into Hannibal’s chest and Hannibal’s wraps an arm around his back. 

“Hannibal,” Will whispers. 

“Will.”

“What you did with Cassie Boyle to show me Hobbs,” Will starts. Hannibal makes an acknowledging sound and Will continues, “Could you do that to help us catch the Ripper?”

Hannibal’s breathing stills for a second and he wonders how he can possibly handle this situation. Of course he can’t say yes to Will’s request. But how can he say no without it being obvious?

“The Ripper is not someone I would like to provoke,” Hannibal says after a moment. “Hobbs had a specific victim pool. He would not have come after me had he known it was me copying his work. He was no match for me physically, regardless. The Ripper would likely be stronger than I am and his victims don’t fit any sort of pattern. He’d have no qualms about adding me to one of his sounders.” 

“I guess,” Will says. After a few seconds he continues, “You’re right. I wouldn’t want you to put yourself in danger like that. I’m surprised the Ripper didn’t catch that last copycat before we did.” 

Hannibal wants to say he didn’t even try, that he could have if he wanted to. He keeps his mouth shut about it and nods instead. 

Eventually Will falls back asleep in his arms, and Hannibal tries to let himself sleep too, though it takes him a long time to get himself to stop thinking. 

He has spent nearly every night at Will’s house in the last month, and he knows that every night spent away from the man going forward will feel lonely. He also knows that he doesn’t want to drug Will every time he wants to display another Ripper victim. He really only wants to drug him if he really has to. But then he would only want it for one of the victims in a sounder, and he can’t do all of his displays in one night. Most take two. 

With all of that, he knows he will have to spend nights at home when he kills. One victim will be displayed on a night that he spends with Will, just so Will doesn’t see it as a possibility that Hannibal left that specific display, thus making Will think it impossible that Hannibal left any of the others. 

Only because it’s clear Will is trying to catch the Ripper. Hannibal needs Will more dependent on him being around, needs to be sure Will is in love with him, before Hannibal tells him. 

He can’t stop thinking about all of this and eventually Will wakes and moves in his arms. He looks up at Hannibal’s face and Hannibal looks back in the darkness, not even pretending to have been asleep.


“You’re still awake?” Will asks when he sees Hannibal’s eyes are still open. Will doesn’t know how long he was asleep, but he knows it must have been a while. 

“A lot to think about.”

“Do you want to talk about it?” Will asks. He rearranges himself so he is face to face with Hannibal, lifts a hand to cup Hannibal’s cheek. 

“Not tonight,” Hannibal sighs. “Go back to sleep, darling.”

Will shakes his head. He’s awake now. He’ll just stay awake worrying about Hannibal for an hour if he tries to sleep now. Plus the nap earlier, along with falling asleep on the couch, has made him more awake than he has been since he got home from work. He tells Hannibal as much, then leans forward to rest their foreheads together. 

He wants to tell Hannibal he loves him, thinks it’s likely part of what Hannibal is worrying about. It’s been nearly a month since Hannibal said it to him, and Will hasn’t been able to say it back. Instead, Will just kisses him, soft and slow. One of Hannibal’s hands moves to rest on Will’s hip, then moves up his side and back down. Hannibal grips Will’s hip and deepens the kiss, earning a soft whimpering sound from Will.

Will wants more of that, more of Hannibal’s firm but gentle hands touching his body. It’s been so long since they last fucked. Will hasn’t even gotten off since the day in Hannibal’s kitchen before his appointment, and Will needs something. 

“Hannibal,” he whispers against his mouth. He grabs hold of Hannibal’s hand and moves it so Hannibal can feel Will getting hard. “Please.” 

“Will,” Hannibal breathes. It sounds like a protest, like Hannibal really is going to say no again, but then Hannibal is wrapping his arms around Will’s waist and rolling them both. He has Will laying on top of him now. He looks like he’s going to deny Will once more, but then he says, “Only if you’re sure.”

“I’m sure,” Will assures him and pushes himself up to sit on his knees, straddling Hannibal’s thighs. He pulls his t-shirt over his head and throws it onto the floor. 

He rolls his hips slightly and Hannibal makes a whining noise in the back of his throat. Hannibal’s hands settle on Will’s thighs and his fingertips creep under the hem of Will’s boxers, pushing them further up Will’s thighs. 

“You aren't going to stop me this time, are you?” Will asks. He pushes his hands under Hannibal’s sweater, running them up his stomach as he rolls his hips again, feeling Hannibal’s hard cock under his ass.

Hannibal shakes his head, swallows, then sits up. Will is almost thrown off Hannibal’s lap by the sudden movement, but Hannibal grabs him around the waist to steady him. He kisses Will, hungrier and needier than he has in weeks and Will kisses him back with just as much enthusiasm. 

When they pull apart, Hannibal pulls his sweater over his head, throws it across the room, seeming not to care where it lands, just as long as it’s no longer on him. Will laughs, pecks his cheekbone, and moves off of Hannibal so he can remove his underwear. Hannibal lays back down and lifts his hips off the bed so he can push his pants and underwear down, and kick them off.

Will is back on him the second their clothes are out of sight.

“I believe I promised you something,” Will whispers, leaning down to kiss Hannibal again. 

Hannibal gives him a wry smile and pushes his hips up against Will’s body, his cock sliding against Will’s own. “You’ll have to remind me what that was. It was so long ago.”

“By no one's fault, but your own,” Will laughs. He rests his hands on Hannibal’s chest and just sits there for a second, looking down at the man under him. He can barely see him in the dark, the only light coming from the moon through one of the open curtains. 

Will frowns and stretches his body so he can turn on the lamp on the nightstand, then he opens the drawer and pulls out the lube. He sets it down on the bed and settles back on top of Hannibal. With the lights on, he can finally get a good look at him, how he looks up at Will with so much desire and adoration. There’s a smile tugging at the corner of Hannibal’s lips. 

“If you keep looking at me like that, we will be up all night before I am even inside you,” Hannibal says. 

“You like it,” Will murmurs, leaning down to kiss Hannibal just once before picking up the lube again. “You try so hard to keep your face straight all the time, so unbothered. But when I give you attention, it all cracks. I don’t think anyone else would notice, but I see you. I see the smile you try to force down, and the twinkle in your eye.”

“You make me feel things I have never felt before,” Hannibal whispers. “You crumble all my carefully constructed walls just by looking in my direction.”

Will is so in love with him, but unable to say it. Instead he leans down for another kiss, which Hannibal takes as a chance to wrap his arms around him and roll them over. Will can’t help but laugh at how impatient Hannibal is, how he takes the lube from Will’s hand and is pressing two fingers into Will within the next twenty seconds. 

He has to bite back a yelp at the sudden intrusion, has to quickly relax himself. Hannibal seems to notice, runs his free hand up one of Will’s thighs, whispers soothing words. Will pulls him down by the back of the neck and kisses him, moaning into his mouth as Hannibal starts to scissor his fingers and stretch him. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers against Will’s mouth. 

And Will knows this is his chance, where he can say it back, tell Hannibal how he feels, but no. Instead he just presses his lips to Hannibal’s and tangles his fingers in the hair at the back of Hannibal’s head. 

Hannibal just kisses back in response to Will’s non-response. If Hannibal is hurt by Will not reciprocating those feelings, he doesn’t make it known. And it’s not that Will doesn’t - he just can’t say it. Because he can’t quite come to terms with the fact that he’s fallen in love with his psychiatrist. His serial killer psychiatrist. Who eats people. Will knows it’s so wrong, that he should not have let this happen, but he has. Saying it makes it real. 

Will grasps at the sheets with one hand and tugs at Hannibal’s hair with the other when Hannibal’s fingers find that spot inside him. He chokes back a moan and Hannibal leans forward to kiss him again. 

Hannibal adds a third finger as he continues to kiss Will. Will can’t help the sounds he makes into Hannibal’s mouth. He’s needed this for weeks now, wouldn’t even touch himself during that time. Waiting for this.

Hannibal pulls out his fingers, leaving Will feeling empty, reaching for Hannibal to come back. 

“I believe you promised me something,” Hannibal says. 

Will grins and sits up, pushing at Hannibal to lay down on the mattress. He climbs over him to sit across his thighs, takes the lube and slicks up Hannibal’s cock. 


Hannibal watches as Will pushes up on his knees, bites back a moan when Will grabs his cock and gives him a few strokes. He grips Will’s hips hard enough to bruise when Will lines the head of Hannibal’s cock to his hole, pressing down ever so slightly. 

He doesn’t dare push up into Will, allows Will to take charge of this. It takes all of his self control not to slam his hips up as Will slowly works himself open further with just the tip of Hannibal’s cock. 

“Will,” Hannibal groans. 

“Just a minute, baby. It’s been a while,” Will tells him. He takes more of Hannibal inside him, and Hannibal can only throw his head back against the pillow and grip Will’s hips tighter. 

The man above him is gorgeous, his eyes are closed, his mouth is hanging open, his hair falling into his face. Hannibal wants to pull him forward and kiss him, so he does just that, releasing his death grip on Will’s hips to sit up just enough to pull him down by the back of his neck. 

Will’s eyes open and he smiles down at Hannibal as he falls forward onto his hands, placing them on either side of Hannibal’s head. His face hangs low between his arms, catches Hannibal’s lips in a kiss. 

He takes more of Hannibal’s cock inside him, so tight around Hannibal, then pulls himself back up, until he’s almost all the way off. He slowly fucks himself on just a fraction of Hannibal’s length and Hannibal grips Will’s thighs. Without warning, Will drops all the way down, fully seating himself. 

“Fuck,” Hannibal groans. 

“That’s a first,” Will muses. 

He lifts himself halfway, before going back down, setting a quick pace that has Hannibal’s toes curling and his back arching. Will’s cock hits Hannibal’s stomach each time Will grinds down and Hannibal wants to take him in his hand, but refrains. 

Will’s hands find Hannibal’s chest, using him as leverage, gripping the hair there in his fingers. 

“Love seeing you like this,” Will says, words broken up by moans and gasps as he rides Hannibal. “The way you come undone. Fuck. You’ve been thinking about this for a while, haven’t you?”

Hannibal opens his eyes, that he didn’t know were squeezed shut, and nods frantically. 

“Me too,” Will says. “God. Those nights you went home, didn’t spend the night. I thought about this, but I wouldn’t even touch myself. I needed it to be you.”

Hannibal groans at those words. 

Will just continues talking as he continues his relentless pace, his voice breathy, but his tone airing on accusatory. “You just kept denying me. Every time I wanted you to touch me you would move my hands away, go into the other room. Move further away on the couch. Like I’d break.”

Hannibal shakes his head. A loss for words, Will’s movements making him unable to tell his real reason for denying him. Because Hannibal thought he himself would break. Not used to all these feelings, not used to being vulnerable. Having been so completely unable to reign in his own emotions last time they were so intimate. 

“No?” Will asks, slowing down to a near halt, just giving slight rolls of his hips. 

It’s possible that the slowed down pace is meant as punishment, but it allows Hannibal to finally form a coherent thought and put it to words, Hannibal pulls in a breath, then says. “No. It was not you I was worried about breaking. Your health is important to me, yes. That wasn’t all of it.”

“Please enlighten me, doctor,” Will says, continuing to roll his hips. There’s an amusement in his voice, a bit of disbelief that Hannibal was any other reason for the accusations Will has thrown at him. Playful. 

Hannibal takes a breath and swallows, then says, “It’s myself I am worried about breaking, not you. I’m not used to these feelings. Sex has never meant anything to me until you. I am not used to laying myself bare and vulnerable, especially not with someone as adept at seeing me as you.”

Will makes a humming noise in his throat, somewhat skeptical, but not entirely. Hannibal is not lying about himself, but Will’s health and mental stability is definitely a factor, and he knows Will knows that. Hannibal reaches up and pushes Will’s hair away from his eyes, then cups Will’s cheek. 

“Beautiful,” Hannibal whispers. Will’s skin appears gold in the lamplight, and Hannibal wants to bury his face in Will’s neck and mark the skin, to bite and suck. His eyes are still so tired and it’s so endearing, the way he looks soft and relaxed. The soft noises he makes as he continues to roll his hips cause warmth to spread through Hannibal’s chest. Will’s lips are red from kissing and Hannibal wants to kiss him even more.

Will falls forward and presses their chests together, nuzzles his face into the crook of Hannibal’s neck, along his throat and jaw, leaving light kisses. Hannibal can sense the mood shift, no longer needy and desperate, Will no longer making vocal jabs at Hannibal for making them wait. 

Hannibal holds Will tight to his chest, moves his hands from Will’s back to his hips. He helps guide Will’s movements, but doesn’t use any force in doing so, just an encouraging touch. Will’s cock is trapped between their stomachs, leaving a smear of pre-come on Hannibal’s.

“Will,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Mm?” Will hums as he noses along Hannibal’s jaw. He moves his face to lightly kiss Hannibal’s lips. 

Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s waist and rolls them over so Hannibal is over him.

“Okay?” Hannibal asks, leaning down to kiss Will as he thrusts slowly into Will’s body. 

Will nods and pulls his knees up higher, then wraps his legs high around Hannibal’s waist. He squeezes Hannibal tight around his torso with those strong legs. 

From this position, Hannibal can see the clock on the nightstand. It’s nearly three. Neither of them are going to get a sufficient amount of sleep, but Hannibal feels no need to rush this. Will pushes Hannibal’s hair out of his face now, then moves his hand to rest on the back of Hannibal’s neck. 


Will loves him. Beyond belief. He is in love with a murderer. And he can’t find an ounce of disgust in himself over that fact. Just so much adoration towards the man on top of him, and an odd sense of safety. Will can’t help but laugh at the thought, a breathy laugh that turns into a moan as Hannibal shifts the angle of his thrusts. He squeezes his legs tighter around Hannibal’s body, grips the man’s hair tight between his fingers, but doesn’t pull. 

“What’s funny?” Hannibal murmurs in response to Will’s laugh. He leans down and kisses Will’s forehead, then his lips. 

“Everything,” Will says, as if that explains it at all.

Hannibal pulls back to look down at him, his head tilted in question. 

“I was,” Will starts, then pauses, trying to think of how he wants to word this. He laughs nervously then starts again, “I was just thinking about how you are a murderer, and yet I feel safe with you somehow. I have to be crazy.” 

Hannibal smiles down at him. “No crazier than I.”

Will lets out a laugh. “That’s really reassuring. Thank you, baby.”

Hannibal hums and leans down to bury his face in Will’s neck. Will knows what he is about to do before his lips even make contact with the sensitive skin on his neck. Then Hannibal’s lips are sucking, his teeth are nipping and biting and Will has half a mind to push him away, but the other half of his mind wins out. 

Every emotion from Hannibal has been spilling out the entire time, and he knows how much Hannibal loves him, loves marking his skin. Claiming him. Without the fever, without so much exhaustion, it is so much easier for Will to accept everything Hannibal gives him. With their relationship developing, more honesty between them, it has gotten easier. He is glad for it, that their intimacy is not plagued by self doubt and tears this time.

He’s going to be covered in marks and beyond exhausted during his lectures later, but it’s all worth it. All worth it because Hannibal is moaning against his skin, and Will likes to hear it, likes to hear Hannibal lose himself to his pleasure. All worth it because all the walls built around Hannibal crumble with every touch Will gives him, every time Will looks at him. Will wants it to be this way forever.

Will drags his nails down Hannibal’s back, which only causes Hannibal to bite down harder over each spot of Will’s neck. Hannibal’s thrusts pick up the pace, and Hannibal continues to suck at Will’s throat as one hand makes its way between their bodies. 

Will arches his back as Hannibal’s hand wraps around his cock and strokes him as he thrusts into him, each thrust hitting his prostate in a way that makes everything too much and then he’s spilling over Hannibal’s hand and his own stomach. He clenches down hard around Hannibal’s cock and throws his head back against the pillow as Hannibal continues to stroke him through his orgasm.

Hannibal pulls out and Will just looks up at him, confused as to why Hannibal stopped, but then Hannibal takes himself in his own hand and gives his cock a few final strokes before he’s moaning out Will’s name as he comes on Will’s cock and stomach. Will had hoped Hannibal would finish inside him, but he supposes it’s less cleanup to worry about this way, so he doesn’t voice his disappointment.

“Fuck,” Hannibal breathes as he falls forward, placing his clean hand on the pillow beside Will’s head. His other hand rests on Will’s stomach, covered in both of their releases. 

“I don’t think I’ve heard you say ‘fuck’ before tonight,” Will laughs, pushing himself up on his elbows so he can kiss Hannibal on the corner of his mouth. “Didn’t think you could swear, actually. And here you are doing it twice in one night.”

“I prefer not to,” Hannibal says after a few more deep breaths. “You make me do awful things, Will Graham.”

“I’ll be sure to tell everyone you know that I am probably the only person to get you to say fuck,” Will laughs.

Hannibal leans down and kisses him once before getting out of bed and disappearing around the corner. Will can hear the water running in the bathroom, then Hannibal comes back with a cloth, gently wiping Will down. Will watches him, eyes beginning to grow heavy as Hannibal takes his time.

It becomes apparent that Hannibal is just taking his time because he wants to keep touching Will, and keep looking at him, but Will is tired, so he swats at Hannibal’s hand. He pushes at Hannibal to get off the bed, and Hannibal laughs quietly. 

“Put that in the laundry basket and come lay down,” Will says. He pulls the blankets over him and watches Hannibal cross the room to the laundry basket, then drop the washcloth into it. Hannibal keeps walking off toward the kitchen and Will groans. “Now what?” 

He flops down on his back on the mattress and waits for Hannibal to come back. When he does, Will is handed a cup of tea, while Hannibal holds one of  his own. 

“Chamomile,’ Hannibal says, settling down in bed next to Will. “It should help both of us sleep.”

“I don’t need any help sleeping. You wore me out,” Will says, but he drinks the tea anyways. Because Hannibal made it for him, and because he loves Hannibal. 

It’s nearly four by the time Hannaibal takes both cups back to the kitchen and finally lays down and gets under the blankets. Will knows he’s going to be tired when he wakes up in just a few hours, but he isn’t going to regret finally getting back to this point between him and Hannibal. 

“I think I might take your advice,” Will murmurs. Hannibal rolls over and rests his head on Will’s shoulder, splays a hand across Will’s stomach. 

“Which advice was that?” Hannibal asks. He kisses Will’s collarbone, the noses at his neck like a cat. 

“Cutting down on lectures. Maybe one a day instead of three,” Will shrugs. “At least until winter break. It’s only a few weeks away. I’ll go back to a more normal schedule when the next term starts.”

“Hm. Likely a good idea,” Hannibal whispers. “Did you have plans for your break?” 

“No,” Will says. “Maybe I’ll work a few cases. I don’t know.”

“Christmas plans?” Hannibal asks. 

“No Christmas plans.”

“I don’t suppose I could convince you to spend it with me, could I?” Hannibal asks. 

“It’s hard to say, Doctor Lecter,” Will whispers. “Maybe I want to stay home alone with the dogs and drink the day away.”

“I would be more than happy to join you.”

“You? Get drunk with me on Christmas?” Will laughs. Then, sarcastically, “Right.”

“I am completely serious. I would like to spend the holiday with you,” Hannibal says. His words catch on a yawn and Will brings a hand up to rub at Hannibal’s back. 

“And what would you have planned for the day, if not that?” Will asks. 

“Have dinner with you Christmas Eve, wake up on Christmas morning together. Whether here or at my house. I would make you breakfast. Exchange gifts if you’d be inclined,” Hannibal lists off. “Though, we could forgo all of that to inebriate ourselves on your cheap whiskey together, if that’s what you would prefer.”

“Both?” Will suggests. 

“We can do both,” Hannibal agrees. He yawns again, and Will decides for both of them that it’s time for bed. He shifts under Hannibal to be able to reach the lamp switch and turns it off, leaving the room in darkness. 

“Goodnight, Hannibal,” Will whispers. I love you, he almost adds. 

“Goodnight, darling,” Hannibal whispers back. He nuzzles his face into the bare skin of Will’s chest, wraps an arm around Will’s waist, and pulls him closer. Will just lets him.

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Chapter 11

Notes:

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As expected, morning comes too quick. And while Will still feels like it was worth it, he does almost regret it. When his alarm goes off (his real alarm, because he shut off his early one before falling asleep), he groans loud and buries his face into Hannibal’s stomach. 

“No more middle-of-the-night sex,” Will says, muffled by where his mouth is pressed to Hannibal’s skin. He rolls away and lays on his back beside Hannibal. “God, why did we do that?”

Hannibal laughs next to him and rolls over onto his side. Will looks over at him, hair in his face, a tired smile on his lips. Will turns on his side and faces Hannibal, presses in close so their mouths are only an inch apart. 

“Should we both just call in sick today?” Will asks. 

“We should not. I do have a twenty-four hour cancellation policy,” Hannibal responds. He pushes the hair out of Will’s eyes, then kisses his forehead.

“You’ve cancelled less than twenty-four hours before,” Will points out.

“There are exceptions to every rule, but I do believe sex at three in the morning falls under the saying, ‘you play, you pay,’ does it not?” Hannibal says with a smirk.

Will groans again. “I guess so.”

He sits up and looks down at Hannibal, who just lays in the bed, blankets pooled around his hips. 

“Shower?” Will asks with a yawn. 

Hannibal nods and sits up, too. “Or we could skip a shower and sleep for twenty more minutes,” he says.

“What happened to you not needing as much sleep as a normal person?” Will asks. Still he lays back down on his stomach and puts his chin on Hannibal’s blanket-covered thigh. 

“You have changed me,” Hannibal whispers, running a hand through Will’s hair. 

Will moves around in the bed, feeling the nice sheets on his bare skin. Hannibal runs a hand down Will’s back, over the curve of his ass. 

“Are you sore this morning?” Hannibal asks. 

“Mm. A bit. Not too bad,” Will says. Hannibal’s fingers start to roam and Will knows exactly where he’s planning to go, so he rolls over and sits up, shielding his ass from Hannibal. “Do not.”

Hannibal smiles at him, then leans forward to kiss him before getting out of the bed. Will lays back down on his back and he hears the shower start running. 

He allows himself to lay there for ten more seconds before he’s hauling himself out of bed and toward the bathroom. He opens the door and Hannibal peeks around the shower curtain, wet hair dripping onto the bathroom floor. 

Will brushes his teeth first, then gets into the shower behind Hannibal. Will wraps his arms around Hannibal from behind and rests his head between his shoulder blades. 

“Fuck. I’m tired,” Will sighs. The water barely hits him, Hannibal getting most of it, but the drops that do are warm against his skin. He feels like he could curl up on the floor and go back to sleep.

“I know, darling,” Hannibal says. He lays a hand over Will’s, which are clasped together on his stomach. “I should tell you that I won’t be returning tonight.” 

Will frowns against his back. “Okay. You have a hot date?”

Hannibal laughs. “I wish, but no. Some preparation for what I am doing this weekend.”

“Murder,” Will says. 

“Yes.”

“What night are you doing that?” Will asks. He lets go of Hannibal and reaches for the soap so he can actually start washing himself. 

Hannibal turns to face him. “Saturday night.”

“That’s… that’s the night we’re going out and I’m staying over.”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. “I will only be gone for a few hours.” 

“Am I just coming over to confirm your alibi if the police knock on your door in the morning?” Will asks, somewhat offended. A little more than somewhat. “Jesus, Hannibal. You really know how to plan a date.”

“That’s not the only reason, my love. If you don’t want to spend the night, that is okay. I would like for you to, though.”

“Ha! Yeah, you’re just saying that to placate me,” Will scoffs. He takes a breath, knowing he’s just going to say something he regrets if he doesn’t relax. He knew Hannibal was a killer before their first date. He should have known this type of thing would happen.

Hannibal leans down and kisses Will’s forehead.

“I have upset you,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“No, no. It’s fine, Hannibal. Really,” Will says. “I’ll stay over and I’ll vouch for you if anyone asks.”

“I can postpone. We can have a nice night on Saturday,” Hannibal offers. He pulls Will into a wet hug and says, “We can have sex in the middle of the night with nowhere to be in the morning. Or we can just be in each other’s presence.” 

Will laughs into his chest. “I would actually like that, I think.”

“Mm. Then I won’t kill this weekend,” Hannibal whispers into Will’s hair. “Which means I can come over tonight if you would like me to.”

Will shakes his head. “Go home and get some sleep tonight. I could use a night to myself.” 

“Very well. But if you change your mind, do call.”

“Okay,” Will agrees. 


Hannibal has no idea why he actually agrees to postpone his kill. He doesn’t have a compulsion, rather treats it like one would a hobby. Like painting or knitting. But he does enjoy it enough to not want to stop. And he’s running low on meat.

But Will was upset with the idea of Hannibal killing during their night together. Which really puts a pause on his plans, as he really hates to see Will upset. He doesn’t want to ruin what they have over something he does not need to do. 

And even though Hannibal solved the thing that made Will upset, Will doesn’t want to see him tonight now that he’s free. Which must mean Will is still upset. 

“Were you really going to fuck me again?” Will asks when they step out of the shower. “Or were you just being an ass?”

Somewhat surprised by the question, he just looks at Will for a second. It takes him a second to remember what Will is referring to, then he smiles. 

“I was going to finger you until you came on your sheets, actually,” Hannibal says. He reaches for his toothbrush as Will just stands there, mouth gaping in surprise. Hannibal lifts a hand to Will’s chin to push his mouth closed. “Unfortunately we don’t have time anymore.”

“No I guess not. I shouldn’t have asked, now I’ll just think about it all day,” Will mumbles. 

Hannibal spits his toothpaste into the sink. “As I said, if you change your mind about wanting to be alone tonight, just call.”

“I won’t change my mind,” Will says. He walks out into the hall and towards his dresser as Hannibal continues to do his routine in the bathroom. Will calls out from the other room, “I like having you here, but it’s starting to feel like you live here.”

“Is that such a problem?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Will says. 

Hannibal frowns as he starts to shave his face. When he finally wipes his skin clean and steps into the other room, Will is fully dressed and heading toward the kitchen to start the coffee. 

After getting dressed quickly, Hannibal follows Will into the kitchen and checks the clock on the stove to see if they have time for breakfast. When he sees that they do, Hannibal starts pulling out eggs and sausage to cook. 

Will leaves to take care of the dogs, and comes back a few minutes later. 

“I wasn’t aware you didn’t like me spending so much time here,” Hannibal says quietly. 

“I asked you to stay last night,” Will says. “I wouldn’t have if I didn’t want you here.”

Hannibal doesn’t respond to that. He just starts cooking their food. Will sighs and comes to stand behind Hannibal at the stove, wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist and rests his head against his back. 

 “I like having you here,” Will whispers. He rubs his face between Hannibal’s shoulder blades as he says it. “I just think… We are relying too heavily on each other.”

Hannibal waits, knowing Will is going to continue explaining himself. He ignores the feeling of the man pressed to his back in order to focus on making breakfast. 

“We don’t live together. There’ll be times when I need to go out of town, or you’ll have things to do, and I don’t want to need you,” Will says finally. “I miss you when you’re gone, and I need to get used to that feeling. And to do that, I need to sleep alone some nights.”

Hannibal turns off the burner and Will steps away to get plates, bringing them back so Hannibal can serve them their eggs and sausage. 

Finally, Hannibal says, “You're right.” 

“And you’re upset,” Will says. 

Hannibal turns to look at him, adjusts Will’s glasses so he can see his eyes. 

“I am not upset,” Hannibal tells him. “I know you are correct and that we need to spend some time away from each other once in a while. I have no right to be upset as I was not even planning on coming over tonight, but then the possibility that I am able made me hopeful.”

“I’m sorry,” Will whispers. He grabs his plate and quickly moves to sit at the kitchen table. 

“Don’t be,” Hannibal says. He sets his own plate down, then gets them both cups of coffee. He reaches across the table when he sits down and takes Will’s hand in one of his own while he starts to eat with his other. “I’m not upset.”

“Okay. Don’t come over tonight, but, maybe tomorrow?” Will offers. 

Hannibal shakes his head. “I have a late appointment tomorrow. I usually do on Wednesdays, I’ve told you that.”

“Right. Yeah, I knew that,” Will sighs. “So I’ll see you Thursday then?” 

“Of course,” Hannibal says. “And Saturday.”

“No Friday?”

“Friday morning if you stay over Thursday night.”

Will shakes his head. “The dogs won’t be happy with me. And I won’t be happy with myself having to wake up that early.”

“No, of course not,” Hannibal says. 

Hannibal can hide all of his disappointment from everyone, but never from Will. Will squeezes his hand in his own and looks at him across the table.

“I’m sorry, baby,” he says. 

And of course, that one word, baby, is enough to put a smile on Hannibal’s face. He has got it bad. Hannibal has never been big on being called pet names with other partners, has never been big on that one especially, but Will. 

“What are you doing Friday night then?”

“I am having a small dinner party,” Hannibal answers. “Fairly last minute, but a few friends reached out to me saying they’ll be in town for a conference.”

“Oh,” Will says. 

“You can come,” Hannibal offers. “I didn’t know if it would be something you would like to do.”

“Probably not,” Will sighs. He takes a sip of coffee. “How many people?”

“Just four besides myself.”

“Okay. I’ll come,” Will says. “If you want me to?” 

“Of course, my love. You can wear that suit I bought you quite some time ago,” Hannibal says. He checks his watch. “Oh, we should go soon.”

“I’ll see if I can get a sitter for the dogs and stay the weekend if you’re okay with that,” Will says quietly. “Say no if you aren’t.”

“I am okay with that.”

Will nods and releases Hannibal’s hand, then stands to take his plate to the sink. It’s apparent that Will is still upset with him, but the reason evades Hannibal. He solved the murder schedule issue, he invited Will to his dinner. He doesn’t know what more he can do. 

Hannibal decides that Will just needs some space and does not want to fully ask for it. Will said he doesn’t want to need Hannibal. So, Hannibal will give him that space until Will does decide he wants to need Hannibal. 


After kisses goodbye, they get into their separate cars and go off to their jobs. Will walks into his lecture hall with a few minutes to spare, so he checks his email, answers a few questions from students then begins teaching.

There’s a chime of text alert halfway through his second lecture and he has to apologize for not putting his phone on silent. After the class is dismissed, he sees the message is from Beverly, asking him to stop by the lab. 

So he goes. 

“What have we got here?” Jimmy asks when Will walks in. “Sweet William, what has happened to your neck?”

Will brings a hand to cover the marks and gives him a sheepish smile. “My partner spent the night.”

He can see Beverly smirking at him from where she stands next to a body. 

“She's an animal!” Brian calls out. Why Brian keeps assuming Will is with a woman is beyond him. 

“Yeah, he is,” Will says. 

“So, Will, when you are going to tell us more about this mystery man?” Jimmy asks with an eyebrow raised.

Will clears his throat. “Why did you need me down here?”

Beverly smiles. “We didn’t. Jimmy caught wind your neck was covered in hickeys and asked if I could get you down here so he could see.”

“Why didn’t you just come to my lecture hall?”

“And make a big deal out of it in front of your trainees? Come on, Will, I’m not that evil,” Jimmy says. 

“And how did you catch wind?” Will asks. 

“Trainees were talking about it in the hall,” Jimmy shrugs. “They can’t believe you fuck.”

“They really said that?” Will asks with a groan. 

“Sure did,” Jimmy answers. “Though, I can’t imagine why they would think you don’t. You’re a pretty man.”

“Thanks,” Will mutters. “I better go.”

“Hey, Will wait up,” Beverly calls, following him out into the hall. “What are you doing this weekend?”

“Dinner party with Hannibal on Friday night, some art gallery on Saturday. Why?” 

“I was wondering if you wanted to hang out and tell me all about... Everything. I’ll take a rain check, though.”

Will frowns. He’d like to hang out with Beverly. It’s been a while since he’s seen anyone besides Hannibal, and every time he did see someone else it was cut short by him needing a nap. 

“I could probably make Saturday afternoon work. I’m spending the night at his house Friday night and Saturday night, but our plans don’t interfere with Saturday afternoon,” Will says. “We could get lunch.”

“Okay, sure. Give me a call if anything changes,” Beverly says. 

Will nods and heads back to his lecture hall for his last class of the day. He sits down and writes out emails seeing if it would be possible to get a few of his lectures covered over the next two weeks while he continues to recover. 

He finds himself really wanting a nap as he sits, waiting for his next class to start. More importantly, a nap with Hannibal. 

Defeated, he calls Hannibal after his last lecture. Despite all of his insistence that he would not change his mind, he calls. 

“Hey, baby. You’re probably in an appointment right now,” Will says when the phone goes to voicemail. He sits in the driver’s seat of his car, shivering while he waits for it to warm up.“I, uh, I changed my mind. I figure since we won’t see each other tomorrow and I can't stay over on Thursday…” he trails off. “Anyways. If you want to come over tonight, you can. I want you to. Even if just for a little bit,” a pause. “Actually, that would be better. Just… for dinner maybe. And then you can go home and actually get some sleep without me trying to fuck you in the middle of the night,” Will laughs. “Give me a call. If I don’t answer, I might be asleep… you can still come, just let yourself in.” 

He ends the call and throws his phone onto the passenger seat of his car. When he gets home, he still hasn’t received a response, and after the dogs are taken care of, he changes into pajamas and crawls into bed. Exhausted. 

His phone rings on his nightstand and he wakes to it, checking the caller ID before answering. 

“Hey, Hannibal,” he mumbles. 

“Did I wake you?” Hannibal asks. 

“Mm. Yeah. It’s okay,” Will says. He rubs at his eyes and looks outside to see the sun has already set. “Did you get my message?”

“I did, but unfortunately Jack asked to have dinner tonight,” Hannibal says. “I accepted before I listened to your message.”

“Oh, that’s okay,” Will says, trying to hide his disappointment. “I’ll see you on Thursday, then.”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. “How did today treat you?”

“Fine. Got called down to the lab so Jimmy could ask about the marks on my neck. I’m doing less lectures until break, too. Got that settled.”

“Good. What did Mr Price have to say about your neck?” 

Will laughs, recalling the conversation. “The trainees can’t believe I fuck, and Jimmy said he doesn’t understand why, then called me pretty. You might have competition, baby.”

“I would sure hope not,” Hannibal says. 

“Brian thinks I’m seeing a woman,” Will says.  “I’ve never hidden being bisexual, but I guess he’s never really caught on. You know something?”

“Hm?”

“I thought Jimmy and Brian were together when I met them. Have you seen them working together?”

“I have. They seem quite close,” Hannibal says. “Are they not together?”

“I have no fucking idea,” Will laughs. “Nobody mentions it.”

“Mm, peculiar. I should let you get back to sleep.”

“No, no. I, um, can you stay on the phone a bit longer? How was your day?” Will asks. 

“Long,” Hannibal sighs. “I nearly fell asleep during all of my appointments.”

“I’m not sorry,” Will says. “You felt really good last night. I needed that.”

“As did I, my love. Just tiring. I am not as young as I used to be,” Hannibal says.

“You’re not old,” Will laughs. “Anyway. I don’t want to keep you if you have plans. And if we keep talking about last night I might get in my car and drive to your house, so I should probably hang up.”

“I have time if you want to keep talking,” Hannibal offers. 

“No, that’s okay,” Will says. He looks across the room. “The dogs are staring at me, so I should probably see what they want.”

“Of course,” Hannibal says. “We can talk tomorrow if you want, but I will let you go for now. I love you.”

“I,” Will starts. “Goodnight, Hannibal.”

Hannibal hangs up first and Will whispers, “I love you too,” to himself. He had been so close to saying it, but he just could not make it happen. 

He feeds the dogs, and then feeds himself. He showers, then gets back into bed, so exhausted still. 

The nightmare feels worse than all the others, far scarier, but he can’t remember it when he wakes up. Shaking, nearly sobbing, he reaches in the dark for Hannibal, but remembers he isn’t there. 

Rusty and Winston both pop their heads up form where they lay on the floor and Will pats the edge of his bed. Both dogs get up and walk over, their nails clicking on the hardwood. Rusty curls up on Hannibal’s pillow, and Winston curls up right next to Will. 

For a second, he thinks about calling Hannibal, but shakes the thought. Hannibal needs sleep, not a middle of the night phone call because Will had a nightmare. 

He gets out of bed on shaking legs and goes over to the laundry basket, pulling out one of Hannibal’s worn sweaters. He brings it to his nose, inhaling the familiar scent, then he pulls it on over his t-shirt and gets back into bed, pulling the covers tight around him. 

Wednesday he wears the sweater to work, and Alana raises an eyebrow at him when she comes in to ask him something. 

“Whose sweater is that?” Alana asks. 

“Mine,” Will responds. But he knows the marks on his neck are still on display, the sweater is large on his frame. “What did you need Alana?”

“I’ll be taking over a few of your lectures over the next few weeks. I was wondering how you’re doing.”

“I’m fine, just… Doctor Lecter suggested I ease back into teaching rather than going back in head first. I’m tired a lot,” Will tells her. 

She nods sympathetically, says something about recovery not being linear, then she leaves. 

When Will goes home after just two lectures, he gets into bed and calls Hannibal, who doesn’t answer. 

“You’re probably with a patient,” Will sighs when the call goes to voicemail. “I miss you and I’m going to lay down for a while. Call me tonight if you want.”

He falls asleep and when he wakes up a few hours later, a text from earlier on his phone from Hannibal. 

I have a lot of work to do tonight, so it would be unwise for me to call, but I will see you tomorrow. Sleep well, my love. 

It’s somewhat disappointing. Surely Hannibal could spare five minutes for a phone call, but Will pretends it doesn’t bother him. 

The rest of the night is spent in front of the TV, dogs surrounding him. 

Will shows up for therapy on Thursday, gives Hannibal a quick kiss at the door, as they agreed upon, then follows him into his office. 

They settle into their opposite chairs and Hannibal looks tense, uncomfortable. Will doesn’t mention it, and figures he’s just taking their professionalism agreement seriously. His eyes look sad, and Will decides Hannibal must just be tired. He doesn’t ask.  

Will stands and walks over to the window, watching as snow lightly falls outside.

“I had a nightmare Tuesday night,” he says after a moment.

“Did you want to talk about it?” Hannibal asks. 

Will sighs and walks back toward Hannibal, then decides to sit in the chair at his desk instead. He looks at Hannibal and sees him shift in his seat, then adjust his suit jacket. Annoyed. Why is he annoyed?

It’s not like Will is just some random patient sitting in his desk chair. They have keys to each other’s houses. It shouldn’t matter, but for some reason it seems to. Will stays put, trying to see if Hannibal will mention it at all. 

“I don’t remember it. Rusty came and slept on your pillow afterwards, and Winston slept pressed against me. I put on one of your sweaters just so I could fall back asleep,” Will says. Hannibal frowns and Will sighs. “These sessions are a bad idea, aren’t they?”

“No, Will. I just need to try being more objective than I want to be,” Hannibal says. 

“Well, what do you want to say?” Will asks. 

“That I wish I could have been there when you woke up. So I could have whispered into your hair while you tried to stop trembling, and then held you against my chest until you fell back asleep,” Hannibal tells him. He gets up, crosses the room and perches on the desk, right next to where Will sits in the chair. “But if you were my patient, telling me about a partner… I would suggest you and your partner are likely on your way to fostering codependency.” 

Will sighs. “Well, doctor, what do you suggest me and my partner do?” 

“I really can’t answer that question,” Hannibal says. “I’m far too selfish.”

Will laughs quietly. “Last night I was okay,” he offers. “Just the nights when I’m alone and have those nightmares. Sometimes I want to call you, but I would rather one of us get some sleep.” 

Hannibal frowns and Will feels that tension again. Something is wrong, and Will doesn’t know what, and it is starting to worry him. 

“Is everything okay with you?” Will asks softly. 

“I have had a long day,” Hannibal sighs. “I know I promised you dinner after this, but,” he says, trailing off with a shrug. “I would rather go home and go to bed after I finish up here.”

“Hey, baby. It’s okay, don’t exhaust yourself more for me,” Will soothes. He puts a hand on Hannibal’s knee and rubs his thumb along the fabric of his pants. “You’re okay, otherwise, though?”

“Just tired.” Hannibal picks Will’s hand off of his knee and sets it down on the desk, only letting his own hand linger for a second before they’re no longer touching. 

Will leans forward and rests his head on Hannibal’s thigh and Hannibal drops his hand to Will’s hair. 

“This isn’t professional,” Hannibal murmurs. He moves his hand away after just a second, and Will knows he’s overstepping their agreed upon boundaries. He can’t help it.

“No. But I’ve missed you,” Will sighs. Still, he stands and walks back to the armchairs and sits down in his, waiting for Hannibal to follow. 

When Hannibal is settled across from him, he crosses his legs and looks at Will. 

“This is your hour, of course,” Hannibal says. “Though, perhaps we talk about something other than our sleeping arrangements.”

“Yeah,” Will says. “Field work, then.”

“Field work,” Hannibal agrees. 

A safe topic. 

“When I go back, I have a feeling Jack’s gonna want some sort of supervision on me,” Will says. “To see what was encephalitis and what parts of me are just crazy.” 

“We discussed that possibility over dinner, yes. Not in so many words, of course.”

“I suppose not,” Will says. “What was the decision on that?”

“I am going to be accompanying you to crime scenes. Just the first few cases you work on,” Hannibal says. “I won’t be taking many appointments for that time period, just in case we go out of town. Only those who are okay with flexibility. The rest of my patients will be referred, but can choose to come back to me after that period.”

“You can’t just… stop working to babysit me,” Will protests. 

“I personally do not see it that way,” Hannibal counters. “And truth be told, I could live comfortably without my practice for quite some time.”

There is something Will has been thinking about lately, and he feels as though now would be as good a time as any to bring it up. Not that how he feels is how he’s going to act, but he knows Hannibal will listen.

“I don’t even want to do field work,” he says quietly. “It’s not good for me.”

“No, it most certainly isn’t. Not going into the minds of killers, at least. Consulting isn’t as hard on you,” Hannibal says. “Do you think you would stop?”

“No,” Will says. “It would… benefit us if I keep doing it.”

Why, goes left unsaid. Will knows Hannibal knows what he means, that Will doing field work and consulting work can help keep the FBI off of Hannibal’s trail. 

Hannibal just gives him a nod and Will changes the subject. 

“Do you think the Ripper is going to come back soon?” 

Once again, Will watches Hannibal shift uncomfortably in his chair and Will really cannot figure out why Hannibal is acting this way. 

“It’s possible. Would you want to be on the case if he did?” Hannibal asks after a moment. 

“I’m not sick anymore, so, maybe,” Will shrugs. “Last sounder was just… weird for me. I went to the scenes because I was upset with you and upset with myself.”

“You were feeling self destructive,” Hannibal says. 

“Yeah,” Will agrees. He scratches at the back of his neck nervously, then, “I wasn’t like… going to hurt myself or anything, but I was feeling… I didn’t feel the need to take care of myself.”

Hannibal frowns slightly and Will wants to close the distance and sit down in his lap, kiss him until the frown goes away and he’s not so distant. Instead he just stays where he is. He doesn’t mention it. Because Hannibal said he’s tired, and they both agreed to be professional. 

They don’t say much else for the rest of the session, and when they stand for Will to leave, Will kisses Hannibal once on the cheek at the door. 

“What time should I come over tomorrow?” Will asks. 

“Six o’clock should work just fine,” Hannibal says with a weak smile. “Wear the suit I bought you. Let yourself in when you get there, I will likely be busy in the kitchen.”

“Okay. And I didn’t get a sitter for the dogs, so I’ll be leaving Saturday morning and coming back in the afternoon,” Will tells him. “I’ll be having lunch with Bev on Saturday. You can come with me if you want.”

“We’ll see,” Hannibal murmurs. He kisses Will lightly on the lips, then opens the door for him. “I would walk you out, but I have a few things to finish up before I leave.”

“It’s alright,” Will says. He puts his hand on Hannibal’s cheek, rubs his thumb over the bone, then turns to go, pulling his jacket on as he walks out through the waiting room. 

Hannibal being distant, cancelling their dinner plans, giving Will the lightest kiss as he left. All of that gives Will a weird feeling. The distance makes more sense, because they agreed, but the kiss, and the dinner plans… that was all separate. He didn’t even walk Will to his car, not that Will needs an escort, but it would have been nice. 

Will goes home and worries about it for the rest of the night. His dreams are plagued by the idea that Hannibal doesn’t want him anymore, and is trying to push him away before inevitably breaking up with him. Because he knows that Hannibal knows about his insecurities and wouldn’t be distant if not for good reason. 

When it’s clear he’s not getting any sleep, Will gets out of bed and sits on the porch in the cold, watching the snow fall. The first snow of the season, nothing that will stick to the ground, but still coming down. The moon is bright, lights up the fields, but there are shadows out there. Shadows that are moving in the dark. 

Will shakes his head and squeezes his eyes shut. The encephalitis is nearly cleared up, he doesn’t think he should be having any sort of hallucinations. When he opens his eyes again, he looks out again and the shadows are still moving. Will realizes it’s a family of deer, moving slowly through his field, watching him to see if he moves at all. 

When Will stands, the deer dart off into the woods. He goes back inside and puts on one of Hannibal’s sweaters, then curls up under his blankets. He stays awake until his alarm goes off. 

Only one lecture he has to give today, but he decided to keep his early morning one, and keep his office hours. He’ll sleep for a few hours when he gets home, he decides. 

He gets through his day, doesn’t see anyone other than trainees, which he’s glad about because he’s fucking exhausted, then he goes home and naps until he has to get up and get ready. 

In his suit, he feels uncomfortable and too dressed up, but he still wears it. Adjusts his tie so it’s straight, wears the waist coat even though he doesn’t want to, and pulls on the suit jacket. He attempts to tame his hair, but it’s gotten quite long over the last month and a half, so it mostly just stays as it is. 

If Hannibal has a problem with his appearance, he can fix it, Will decides. So, he leaves a bit early so he can get there before six. He gets there at fifteen to six, and lets himself in with his key. Hannibal isn’t in the kitchen, so he calls out to him. 

“Upstairs!” Hannibal calls back. 

Will follows his voice up to the bedroom and sees Hannibal in front of a mirror, adjusting his tie. Will stands in the doorway, leaning against the frame. Hannibal stays in front of the mirror. 

“We’re matching,” Will points out, seeing Hannibal’s dark blue suit, with black shirt, dark blue and black tie, and blue waistcoat. Much like Will’s black suit with blue waistcoat and tie. 

“So we are,” Hannibal murmurs. He checks his watch. “You’re early.”

“Wanted to make sure I looked okay to your standards,” Will says. “When are your guests arriving?” 

“Quarter after six.”

“Do they know we’re together?” 

“I did not mention you were coming, but I will be introducing you as my partner,” Hannibal says, glancing over at Will. There’s a smile in his eyes, though none on his lips. 

Will doesn’t really know how to take that. 

“Well, do I look okay? Anything you want to change?” Will asks, realizing he never got a comment about that. 

“You look wonderful, darling,” Hannibal says. He walks over and kisses Will’s cheek, then his forehead. He doesn’t kiss Will’s lips, and Will wants to grab him by the face and kiss him. Hannibal still seems reserved like he did last night. Distant. Even though it has only been a few minutes since Will’s arrived, he has picked up on that. 

And that makes Will nervous. Like Hannibal is just waiting to give him bad news, or something. They’ve barely talked since Tuesday morning, besides their session, and Will wonders if Hannibal is still upset he had to postpone his murder that he had planned for tonight. 

Will doesn’t ask because Hannibal is slipping past him in the doorway, grabbing his hand and pulling him along. Will drops his overnight bag down on the floor, just inside the doorway, then allows Hannibal to pull him from the room. 

“I only have a few more things to do. Did you want a glass of wine while you wait?” Hannibal asks, pushing Will to sit in the armchair in the corner. Hannibal takes off his suit jacket and drapes it over the arm of the chair next to Will, then starts rolling up his shirt sleeves. Will has to ignore how attractive the man looks, averts his eyes to the ceiling, and takes a deep breath. 

“Sure. I can get it myself,” Will says, starting to stand, but Hannibal shakes his head. He’s handing Will a glass only a moment later, then going back to the counter to work on the food. 

Will watches him move around the kitchen, plating different foods, cutting tomatoes to look like roses. Everything he does looks planned and rehearsed. 

It’s all so distracting that, when the doorbell rings, he realizes he’s been sitting there for twenty minutes and has barely touched his wine. Hannibal gives him a smile, kisses the top of his head when he retrieves his suit jacket, then leaves the kitchen. Will gets up and sets his glass on the counter before following behind Hannibal. 

Hannibal opens the front door as Will stands behind him, a hand on Hannibal’s hip. A man and a woman step into the house, exclaiming how glad they are to see Hannibal again, how long it has been. Will stands awkwardly behind him, gripping Hannibal’s hip tight. Hannibal brings one hand down to rest on top of Will’s. 

“This is Will Graham,” Hannibal says, turning to look at Will. “Will, this is Doctor Elizabeth Matthews, and Doctor Richard Matthews.”

“Nice to meet you,” Will nods, stepping out from behind Hannibal to shake their hands. 

“You as well,” Elizabeth says. “How do you two know each other?”

“Will is my partner,” Hannibal answers. “Please, let’s step out of the doorway. Wine?” 

Both doctors nod at Hannibal and follow him off towards the kitchen. He’s out of the foyer before Will can even process he’s moved. Will follows after them and steps into the kitchen, standing close to Hannibal as he pours them each a glass of wine. 

Will kisses Hannibal’s shoulder, then leans his face against him, standing very close as Hannibal finishes plating the food. 

“Yes, darling?” Hannibal asks. He asks it like Will needs an excuse to touch him, to want to be close. Will is bothered by all this coldness Hannibal has been giving him. As if he’s trying to push Will away, or make Will uncomfortable for some reason. Or maybe Will is just reading into it too hard. 

The night before Will figured it was mostly just because of where they were, but now Hannibal is acting like Will is doing something strange by leaning against him. Now it feels like his other suspicions are more true. That Hannibal is putting distance between them, or that he is upset about something. Will wishes he could ask without it making it seem like they have relationship issues in front of Hannibal’s guests.

“I’ve missed you,” Will murmurs. He kisses Hannibal’s neck, then steps away to pick up his own glass of wine from where he left it on the counter. 

The doorbell rings again and Hannibal wipes his hands on a towel before stepping out of the kitchen, not even waiting to see if Will is following. 

Will doesn’t, just stays in the kitchen, sipping his wine. Hannibal’s two guests talk quietly to themselves in the corner, while Will stares down into his glass. 

“Ah, there he is,” Hannibal says, walking back into the kitchen. A blonde woman follows him in through the doorway. “Will, this is Bedelia Du Maurier. Bedelia, this is Will Graham.”

“Pleasure to meet you,” Bedelia nods towards Will. She doesn’t extend her hand to shake, so neither does Will. 

“You, as well,” Will says. He doesn’t know why he wasn’t introduced as Hannibal’s partner this time. Why he only said it after he was asked before. 

He looks over at Hannibal, who is looking between all of his guests and smiling, then seems to catch Will’s gaze. Which is slightly more of a glare, than a gaze, and Hannibal tilts his head at him. Will looks away, and murmurs, “Excuse me,” before leaving the room, going toward the bathroom. 

Something has shifted in their relationship,  and Will doesn’t know what or why. He closes the bathroom door behind him and leans against it, digging the heels of his hands into his eyes. He can’t help but think Beverly was right. That Hannibal won’t stick around if Will can’t get his shit together and tell Hannibal he loves him. But he still doesn’t feel like he can. 

Because he still feels so much self doubt, so much doubt about who Hannibal really is. Because he feels like the second he does say it, the second it becomes real, that his feelings will stop, or that Hannibal will decide he doesn’t love him anymore, and then he’ll just be left with nothing but a broken heart. 

Will hears the doorbell ring again, then a minute later, there’s a knock on the bathroom door. 

“Will?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yeah?” Will tries to keep his voice steady, despite all of the feelings trying to cloud it. 

“Are you okay, my love?” Hannibal’s voice is so soft and concerned and Will wants to cry, but he just pushes away from the door and opens it. 

“Yeah, just needed a second. You know how I can be,” Will says, shrugging. Hannibal reaches out and cups his face, then kisses his forehead. 

“You don’t need to stay for dinner, if you don’t want to,” Hannibal murmurs. “I know it is not always comfortable for you to be around new people. You can sit in my study until they all leave, if that suits you better.”

Will shakes his head. “No, I’m okay.” 

“Tell me what’s wrong darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will shakes his head again and doesn’t say anything further, just pushes past Hannibal in the doorway and goes back toward the kitchen. All of Hannibal’s guests seem to be in the dining room, but Will stands in the kitchen, finishing his glass of wine at the counter. 

Hannibal walks in, plucks the glass out of Will’s hands, sets it on the counter behind him then boxes Will in. 

“Did I say something?” Hannibal asks quietly. He nuzzles at the stubble on Will’s jaw, leaves light kisses on his neck. His hands settle on Will’s hips, holding him in place. It’s the most affection he’s given tonight and Will basks in it. He feels warmth and fondness coming from Hannibal. 

Will sighs and shakes his head again. He pushes his head into Hannibal’s neck, tucking himself under his chin. “Can we talk after dinner?”

“Of course, love,” Hannibal whispers. “Tell me how to make it better now. What can I do to ease whatever is on your mind in this moment?”

“Kiss me,” Will whispers and looks up. 

Hannibal smiles at him and brings a hand to Will’s chin, leaning down to kiss him softly, just a brushing of lips. 

“Hannibal,” Will whispers. “Like you mean it.” 

“I did mean that,” Hannibal whispers back. He steps away and suddenly the moment is gone, and Will is left feeling cold again. “Our guests are waiting. I have you seated across from me at the head of the table. Go find your seat, please.”

“Oh. Okay,” Will says. He had been hoping to at least sit next to Hannibal, but they’ll have a whole table and four people between them. 

He finds his seat at the end of the table, Bedelia to his left and the latest comer, a man, to his right. Hannibal comes in a moment later carrying four plates, which he sets down in front of his guests, then he turns back to bring out two more. He sets his own down at his seat before bringing Will’s to the other end of the table. 

Hannibal presses a kiss to the top of Will’s head as he sets the plate in front of him, just as he always does every time they eat together. It makes Will feel like things are okay, normal. Even if it otherwise feels far from. 

“So, how did you and Hannibal meet?” the man to his right asks when they’re all seated and have begun to eat.

“Oh, uh,” Will says, he glances up at Hannibal who gives him a faint smile. “Work.”

“Are you a psychiatrist, too?” the man asks. 

Will shakes his head and takes a sip of his wine. “No. I work for the FBI. Hannibal was consulting on a case with me when we met.”

“Oh? Which case was that?” Mrs Matthews asks. 

Will winces. He does not want the attention on him, doesn’t want to talk about work at Hannibal’s dinner party. He looks at Hannibal, silently asking for help across the table. 

“The Minnesota Shrike,” Hannibal supplies. “Garrett Jacob Hobbs. Will is the one that solved the case.”

“Oh! I heard about that. You’re the Will Graham? The one that shot Hobbs?” Mr Matthews asks. 

Hannibal clears his throat, then says, “Perhaps we don’t discuss this at the dinner table. Will didn’t come here to be interrogated about a traumatic event.” 

“Of course, sorry, Will,” Mr Matthews says. 

Will mouths, ‘thank you,’ to Hannibal across the table and he’s met with another smile. 

The conversation moves towards Hannibal’s departure from surgery, everyone but Bedelia and Will participating.

“So how do you and Hannibal know each other?” Will asks her, quietly.

“He didn’t tell you?” Bedelia asks, looking up at him. 

“No. Should he have?” Will asks. Several possibilities flash through his mind. Ex girlfriend, side piece, drug dealer. He does not expect the one that she actually says. 

“I’m his psychiatrist,” she says, very quiet. 

“That… makes a lot of sense actually,” Will says. That explains why Hannibal didn’t introduce him as his partner to her. She already knows. 

Bedelia nods. “We are friends as well. Has kept promising to invite me to his next dinner party. And kept telling me he wants me to meet you.”

“Really?” 

“Yes. He regards you very highly. I’ve never heard him speak of anyone the way he does of you,” Bedelia says. 

Will looks up and sees Hannibal watching him, eyes soft, smile wider than it has been. Hannibal winks at him across the table and Will looks down into his plate, feeling a lot better about the entire night. Not completely, but enough. 

When the dinner plates are cleared, and dessert has been finished, Hannibal sees everyone to the door. 

“Wine in the study? Or bed?” Hannibal asks, returning to Will, who stands in the kitchen.

“Study,” Will says. “I’m not tired yet.”

“I didn’t mean we would sleep,” Hannibal says with a smirk. 

Will laughs once, then says, “Still. Wine in the study. I’ll wait for you.” 

He heads off down the hall towards the study while Hannibal gets another bottle of wine and clean glasses. Will sits down on the couch, against one of the arms. He takes his tie off and lays it over the coffee table, then sits up and removes his suit jacket too. He then unbuttons his sleeves and rolls them up to his elbows.

Hannibal comes in, extends a glass to Will, who takes it in one hand, then lifts his other arm, expecting Hannibal to settle into his side. When Hannibal sits down on the opposite end of the couch, Will frowns, and sets his glass on the coffee table. He scoots over and noses against Hannibal’s jaw, sets a hand on his thigh. 

Will presses kisses to Hannibal’s neck, then pushes his body in closer, before deciding to sit across Hannibal’s legs. He buries his face into Hannibal’s neck and inhales. Hannibal doesn’t bring his arms around Will’s waist like he has every other time Will has sat across his thighs. He doesn’t tilt Will’s face up for a kiss. 

It’s… frustrating. Upsetting. Before he even knows it, a tear is slipping out of his eye and dropping onto Hannibal’s shoulder. He pulls in a deep breath, and when he exhales, it’s caught on a sob, unable to stop it from happening. 

“Is everything okay?” Hannibal asks quietly. 

“No.”

Then one of Hannibal’s arms does come around his waist, and his other hand pulls Will away from his neck, tilting his chin up. 

“Will. What’s wrong?”

“You… you’ve been distant, Hannibal. Do you still want me?” Will asks, voice broken, making no attempt at making himself sound firm. He feels so small. 

“Will, of course I do. You said we needed some space on Tuesday morning. I’ve just been respecting that,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“I… what?” Will asks, very surprised by that answer. “You…”

“You didn’t want us relying too heavily on each other. Your dependency on me lies more so with me being there when you wake from nightmares, or how you miss me when I’m gone. My own issue is needing to always be touching you, and hearing you talk to me, and look at me,” Hannibal explains. “So I have been distant because I need to get used to not having that in case I ever cannot.”

God, Will feels like an idiot. Thinking Hannibal was going to break up with him, or didn’t love him anymore.

“We’re both stupid, aren’t we?” Will asks with a quiet laugh. “I thought you were going to break up with me.”

“I couldn’t bear doing that,” Hannibal whispers. 

“No more of this shit. If we want to spend time together, then we do it. If you want to touch me, then you do,” Will says. “I thought that last night you were just trying to keep professionalism in the office, like we agreed, but when you cancelled dinner, and were still acting this way tonight. I was scared, Hannibal. Like, seriously.”

Hannibal brushes Will’s bangs away from his eyes, then kisses his forehead. Will frowns, then catches Hannibal’s lips with his own, their first proper kiss in days. Will shifts so he can straddle Hannibal’s thighs, and Hannibal’s hands move down to cup Will’s ass. They kiss, a slide of lips and tongues, small nips at each other’s lips, and jaws, until Will decides he can’t go anything further than this. Not tonight.

When Will pulls away, slightly panting, he leans his forehead against Hannibal’s and closes his eyes. 

“I don't,” Will starts, then swallows and tries again. “I want to go upstairs, but I don’t want to have sex tonight.”

“Okay,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will nods against Hannibal’s face, then pulls himself out of Hannibal’s lap and stands. 

“A bath, though?” Will asks. He holds out his hand for Hannibal to take. 

“Of course. Let me bring our glasses to the kitchen,” Hannibal says, taking Will’s hand and standing. 

“Actually, bring them. And the bottle,” Will says. He picks up his own glass and goes toward the door, heading towards the stairs while Hannibal goes into the kitchen to retrieve the bottle. 

Will gets upstairs, and goes to the bedroom, Hannibal only a few feet behind him. He sets his glass of wine down on the nightstand, then goes to pick up his bag from the doorway, bringing it to the bench at the foot of the bed. 

The water starts running in the bathroom, and Will picks up his glass of wine again, following Hannibal in. He’s undressing himself when Will walks in, and Will follows suit until they’re both naked. Hannibal looks as good as always, and Will needs to look away for a second to take a deep breath.

Will almost changes his mind about fucking, but instead just climbs into the bath and sits resting against the back of it, letting himself relax in the warm water. He spreads his legs and opens his arms, and Hannibal gets in, sitting with his back to Will’s chest. It’s a reversal of how they usually sit, but Will likes being able to hold Hannibal just as much as Hannibal likes holding him. Will rests his chin on Hannibal’s shoulder, and tightens his arms around his chest. 

“Sorry for being weird tonight,” Will whispers. 

“You weren’t.”

“I couldn’t even answer their questions,” Will murmurs. “I wanted to leave the room every time one of them looked at me.”

“They were asking you questions about traumatic events, and they should not have been,” Hannibal says. “I had a feeling you wouldn’t be comfortable tonight. That is why I almost didn’t invite you.”

“Mm. You were right,” Will murmurs. “Bedelia was nice. She’s your psychiatrist?”

“Yes. She is nice,” Hannibal agrees. 

“Who was the other guy next to me?”

“He didn’t introduce himself?” Hannibal asks, dismay in his voice. “That was just another one of my friends from my surgeon days. No one important, really. You’ll likely never see him again.”

“No?”

“No,” Hannibal says. He leans over the edge of the tub to pick up his glass and the bottle, filling his glass higher. He takes a sip, then Will takes the glass from him, drinking it, as well. His own glass is too far away, set on the bathroom counter. Hannibal doesn’t seem bothered with sharing. 

“Will you come with me tomorrow?” Will asks again. “To lunch with Beverly. And to feed the dogs.”

“If you would like me to,” Hannibal says. 

“I would,” Will whispers. 

“Then, yes, I will,” Hannibal agrees. 

They sit there until the water starts to get cold, until the bottle of wine is nearly gone, and Will is starting to really feel the effects of everything he has drank tonight. 

“Let’s get out,” Will murmurs. Hannibal nods and climbs out, using the edge of the tub to steady himself. Will laughs, “Too much to drink?”

“Maybe a bit,” Hannibal says, standing straight and walking unsteadily to the cabinet to get a towel. 

Will gets out after him, similarly holding the edge of the tub until both feet are on the ground. Hannibal is smiling at him when he straightens himself, then wraps a towel around them both, pulling Will close to his body. 

“I love you dearly,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will, soft and tender, arms and towel wrapped around him. Saving Will from a response, it seems. Hannibal truly doesn’t seem to need one, doesn’t ask, doesn’t seem disappointed when Will doesn’t give him one.

Will smiles against his lips and kisses him once more before stepping out of his arms, and into the bedroom. He doesn’t bother putting on any clothes, and just gets into Hannibal’s bed, burrowing under the covers. Hannibal turns on the electric fireplace, stands naked in front of it for a moment, hands extended towards it to warm up, then comes to get in bed too. He lays slightly on top of Will, crushing him into the mattress. 

He feels warm and safe, more than he has in days. Will thinks he loves Hannibal just as dearly, but when he opens his mouth to say it, Hannibal is already snoring lightly. Will whispers it anyways. Knowing Hannibal won’t hear it, but hoping Hannibal still knows even without the words.

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“Hannibal.”

He blinks slowly awake, the room still dark. Will is laying almost entirely under him. 

“Hm?” Hannibal hums sleepily. 

“You’re crushing me,” Will says with a quiet laugh. He pushes at Hannibal’s shoulders, trying to move him. 

Hannibal rolls over to his own side of the bed and lays on his stomach, turning his head on the pillow to look at Will. Will turns on his side and Hannibal can’t keep his eyes open, but he can feel Will squirming on his side of the bed, trying to get comfortable. 

“My sincerest apologies, my darling” Hannibal murmurs. He moves closer to Will again and extends an arm to pull him close, turning to lay on his side with Will’s face in his chest. “Sleep, love.” 

“Trying,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal frowns and kisses the top of Will’s head. “Is something troubling you?”

“No. I’m okay, I was just uncomfortable before,” Will whispers. “This is better.” 

“Good.” 

The next thing Hannibal says, he’s not quite sure why he does. Why he thought it now of all times, but he does. 

“You are the best thing to happen to me,” Hannibal whispers. 

Whatever Will says in response, if he says anything, goes unheard because Hannibal slips back into unconsciousness. 

Will wakes up gasping for breath, and Hannibal, too attuned to Will’s nightmares and now wide awake, shifts away slightly, giving him some space to breathe until he’s ready for comfort. When Will settles a bit, he moves until he’s on the far side of the bed, away from Hannibal. The older man wishes he knew what the dream was about—if it was about him. 

He doesn’t reach for Will, as much as he wants to, and he doesn’t ask him what’s wrong. He just scoots a bit closer, still leaving miles of space between them, and falls back asleep.

Hannibal wakes again in the early morning, Will pressed firmly to his back now. Will is hard against him, slowly grinding against his ass, quiet moans escaping his mouth. Hannibal grins and turns his head to see Will is still asleep, presses a kiss to Will’s forehead. 

Will’s hips stop moving against him, and his eyes slowly blink open. 

“Fuck,” Will mumbles. He scoots back a bit from Hannibal, then says, “Sorry.”

Hannibal leans forward, opens his nightstand drawers and fishes for his lube, then turns and hands it to Will without another word. 

“Yeah?” Will asks, taking it. He’s still blinking sleep out of his eyes. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says, laying back on his side, facing away from Will. He turns so he’s leaning more onto his front and pulls one knee up to give Will better access. “Were you dreaming of me, Will?”

“Mhm,” Will hums, kissing one of Hannibal’s shoulders. He shifts his whole body, getting onto his knees, trails kisses down Hannibal’s spine, kisses the small of Hannibal’s back. He pauses, sits back on his heels.  

Hannibal turns his head to see what stopped Will, who quickly wipes at his face. A clear sign that he’s began to cry. Will is quick to slick up his fingers with lube and press one into Hannibal before the older man can ask what’s wrong. Hannibal turns back to face forward again, allowing Will his moment that seems to have passed. 

After he sniffles several times, though, Hannibal sighs and decides that’s enough. They need to talk about it.

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers. “Come here.”

Will pulls his fingers out and Hannibal turns to lay on his back, Will still kneeling between his legs. 

“What is the issue?” Hannibal asks. 

“When Bella dies, are you going to break up with me and ride off into the sunset with my boss?” Will asks, tone sad. He keeps his distance, doesn’t touch Hannibal anywhere. “Or… or Bedelia? Are you going to, I don’t know, but me aside the second someone becomes available to you who isn’t me? I just can’t help but feel like you’d rather be with anyone else.”

“Where is this coming from, love?” Hannibal asks with a frown. He reaches out to take hold of one of Will’s hands, running his thumb over the back of it. 

Will shrugs. He doesn’t look like he’s going to say anything, but then he sighs, deep and long. He extracts his hand from Hannibal’s and runs it through his unruly hair. 

“I was thinking about how often you and Jack have dinner together… I wonder about what else you two do when I’m not around because you say you have dinner, and I trust you, of course I trust you, but sometimes I don’t know what to believe, with how close you are to other people, too. I had a nightmare about being abandoned by you. Just… looking at you, I’m… I can’t lose you.”

“First,” Hannibal starts, tone firm. “I am not breaking up with you for Jack Crawford. Not now, not when Bella dies, not any time after. Second, you are allowed to go off with your friends and do as you please, and I don’t accuse you of having romantic feelings toward any of them.”

“That’s a lie!” Will practically yells. “You thought I was fucking Beverly when we were separated and only backed off when she told you she’s gay! Were you projecting? I mean Alana thought you two were going to fall in love. I bet Jack thinks the same. You’re just waiting until I’m out of the picture again.” 

Hannibal sighs. “Will.”

He sits up, pulls Will toward him, wraps him tight in his arms, then lays back down, pulling Will with him. 

“Hannibal let me go. I’m mad at you,” Will mumbles. 

“You are being difficult, is what you are,” Hannibal says, pulling Will tighter to his chest. “I love you, and only you. I don't know where all of this is coming from, but if it makes you feel better, I will not spend so much time with others, or I will check in with you more often, but I wish you would tell me how you're feeling about these things before it becomes too much like it did just now."

"Okay," Will breathes. "You don't... you don't have to stop being friends with anyone on my account. I was just being stupid, but I... I really do miss you when you're not around, and especially after how I felt last night, I guess I've been on edge about our relationship."

“Are you really upset with me, my dear?” 

Will sighs. “No. I don’t know. Yes.”

Hannibal lowers his voice and whispers, "Let me show you how much I love you."

He turns Will around so they're sitting back to chest, with Will in front of him. Hannibal trails his hands down Will's front, lower and lower. Will lets out a gasp when Hannibal reaches for his cock, stroking him back to hardness as he kisses the side of his neck. 

He pulls moans out of Will's lips, feels him tense and writhe against his body. He runs his other hand up and down Will's body, holding him, and touching him with as much reverence he can muster into the touches. He whispers sweet nothings into Will's ear, causing him to become louder and louder.

Hannibal pulls his hands away when he knows Will is close, earning a quiet groan of frustration from the man in front of him. 

"Do you still want to fuck me, darling?" Hannibal asks. 

Will nods emphatically and just moments later, Hannibal is laid out beneath his boyfriend. Will's fingers find his entrance and finish the job of stretching him open before Will replaces his fingers with his cock, pushing in slowly, both of them groaning with every inch. Hannibal's legs come up to wrap around Will's waist as he begins to fuck him at a slow pace. Will reaches between their bodies to wrap a hand around Hannibal's erection, and leans over him to press kisses to his face.

“You’re mine,” Will whispers. He bites into Hannibal’s neck, not hard enough to break skin, but Hannibal knows he’ll be marked. “No one else can have you.” 

“No one else does,” Hannibal says. “Only you, Will.” 

“As long as you know it,” Will says. 

“As long as you are mine and no one else’s,” Hannibal whispers. 


“I’m yours, baby,” Will says. He leans down to kiss Hannibal, sucking his bottom lip into his mouth, drawing a low moan from Hannibal. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers. “I have never loved anyone as I have you.”

Will kisses him again, kisses his lips, the corner of his mouth, his jaw. Doesn’t respond, but god he feels the same exact way. 

Hannibal pulls Will’s hand away from his cock and laces their fingers together. His other hand is splayed across Will’s back, pulling Will closer to him while Will thrusts into Hannibal’s body. 

Their interlaced hands are brought up and Hannibal kisses at Will’s knuckles, a small smile on his face. Will kisses his forehead in return. 

“Sorry for being... well for jumping to baseless conclusions,” Will murmurs, burying his face into Hannibal’s throat. “Let my emotions get the best of me because I'm just so scared of losing you it makes me feel crazy.”

“All is forgiven, darling,” Hannibal says. 

“I feel like I keep messing everything up between us,” Will whispers. He kisses Hannibal’s neck where his face is buried, sucks on the spot, hoping to leave a mark. So everyone knows Hannibal is taken, not available for anyone else to even look at. 

“No,” Hannibal breathes. “You could never.” 

“You say that now but-”

“Will,” Hannibal growls, cutting him off. “Please can we discuss this later?”

Will laughs. “I’m killing the mood, aren't I? I digress.” 

He can feel his orgasm building up and begins to thrust into Hannibal harder, changes his angle until Hannibal is moaning loud and grasping at the bed sheets. 

Will smiles smugly into Hannibal’s throat, then lifts his head to meet his lips with his own. He continues to snap his hips into Hannibal, moves back to suck at Hannibal’s neck, leaving bruises along the way. 

“Will, close. Don't stop,” Hannibal moans out. Hannibal’s mouth finds Will’s shoulder and bites down, causing Will to groan. 

“I got you,” Will whispers. He takes Hannibal in his hand again, working his cock in time with his thrusts until Hannibal is tensing up underneath him and clenching around him, biting harder into his skin. Will fucks him through his orgasm until he’s falling over the edge too, coming deep inside of Hannibal. 

Will pulls out and rolls over to lay on his back next to Hannibal. Hannibal turns on his side and looks at him. For a few seconds, they both just stare at each other, no words, no touches, nothing but looking into each other’s eyes. 

“Okay?” Will asks.

Hannibal nods. “Perfect.”

Will rolls over to kiss his forehead, then settles back on to his back, looking up at the ceiling through his bangs. He feels guilty for being so upset with Hannibal for something he didn't actually do. He doesn't actually know where it came from—one minute he was perfectly fine, and the next he was remembering the nightmare he woke up from in the middle of the night. The details were hazy, but the big picture was clear: Hannibal had left him for someone else. Hannibal had left him in order to comfort a grieving friend, or to sleep with a faceless blonde woman, and the images had flipped back and forth until Will woke up gasping and couldn't even think about asking for Hannibal's embrace after something like that. 

But after feeling so insecure the night before, Will isn't surprised that something inside him broke and caused this kind of reaction.

Finally Will gets up and stumbles toward the bathroom, only glancing back to see if Hannibal’s going to follow. 

Once they’re both in the shower, getting clean together, Will finally speaks. 

“I'm sorry. Again. I really do trust you, you know.” He has his back to Hannibal, and Hannibal reaches for his shampoo then starts washing Will’s hair. 

“It's okay, my love," Hannibal promises. "Truly, there is nothing you need to apologize for. I understand."

“I think I’m just bothered that you don't tell me much,” Will says. He turns and faces Hannibal. “I really don’t know any of the things you do when we aren’t together. You tell me you're having dinner with people, but you never really tell me how those dinners go, or tell me about the other things you like doing with your friends. I just like to hear those little things so I don't feel like you and I are stuck in this bubble we've created by keeping our relationship quiet.”

“I understand. I can be more open about my activities, Will,” Hannibal says. He leans down and kisses Will, then reaches around him to shut off the water. 

“I… yeah. I guess I just feel like I barely know anything about you,” Will shrugs. 

“You know a lot more than most, I would say,” Hannibal says. He steps out of the shower and Will follows. Hannibal hands a towel to him and takes one for himself and they both wrap them around their hips, then go back into the bedroom. “I admit that I have never had anyone in my life who I would tell mundane things to. Most things I would not even think to repeat.”

“I guess that makes sense,” Will says. He drops his towel and pulls on a pair of underwear from his bag. “But you'll try for me, right? And I'll try to be less... like how I've been."

Hannibal shrugs. "I'll try.” 

"That's all I ask,” Will says. He pulls on a pair of jeans, then goes to Hannibal, standing next to him where he stands in front of his closet. He presses a kiss to his cheek. “What are you wearing today?”

“What are you wearing today? A shirt I hope,” Hannibal says. Will watches his eyes move up and down his bare torso.

“I was hoping for one of yours.”

Hannibal hums and pulls a black long sleeve from a hanger, handing it to Will. 

Will pulls it over his head and it fits too well. 

“Did you buy this for me?”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. He starts pulling a suit out of his closet, grey with red plaid. 

“Why?” 

“Because I want you to have clothes at my house,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“What else did you get?” Will asks. 

“Several shirts, some underwear,” Hannibal says. “I wasn’t sure what kind of pants you would like.”

Will raises an eyebrow at him. “What kind of underwear?”

“The exact kind you told me not to buy you,” Hannibal answers. 

“Why?” Will sighs.

“When you wear suits, there won’t be underwear lines,” Hannibal explains. “I suppose you could always wear no underwear with them instead.”

“You plan on having me in suits a lot?”

“Of course. We have that opera date in January that I know I told you about,” Hannibal says. 

Will remembers, and he’s been dreading it since Hannibal first mentioned it. “Yeah. Get dressed. Then we’re letting the dogs out.”

“Breakfast?” Hannibal asks. He starts to get dressed, pulling in his own stupid silk underwear, then his pants. He gestures as his ass to show Will the lack of underwear lines and Will laughs.

“You can cook at my house. I have food,” Will says. “Or we can just wait until lunch. I’m not starving.” 

“If you’d prefer to wait, then we can,” Hannibal says, buttoning up his shirt.

Will nods. 

He sits down on the edge of the bed and waits for Hannibal to finish getting dressed. 

“Look, Hannibal, I um,” Will starts. “I’m sorry for being a jealous and possessive asshole, and I know you say I don’t fuck things up, but it really feels like it. And I’m sorry it.”

“Will, please believe me when I say all is forgiven. I like seeing you possessive, but I don't want you to feel that way when it's unfounded. There is nothing you need to worry about, and I will continue to prove that to you as often as I can,” Hannibal says.

He moves to stand in front of Will, placing his hands on his shoulders and stepping between his spread legs. He leans down to press a kiss on Will's forehead, and stays where he is.

“I will work on communicating more” Hannibal whispers. “Starting with telling you that I will be having dinner with Alana next Friday.” 

Will tenses slightly under Hannibal and tries to relax quickly, but Hannibal still notices. 

“You have nothing to worry about,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“I know.” Will kisses Hannibal’s jaw and then says. “I worry too much, don’t I?”

“I do not worry enough, so I suppose it balances out,” Hannibal says. 

“Thank you,” Will whispers, sincerely.

“For what?”

“Making me realize I’m being ridiculous and should just trust you.”

“Hm. I would not say you’re being ridiculous, but yes, I believe you should trust me.”

Hannibal pulls away just a bit so Will can actually get a good look at the marks he left. He trails his fingertips over an especially dark one. 

“I got you pretty good,” Will says. “Is that okay? God I guess I never really think about whether or not I should leave marks on you.”

“It’s alright. I do the same to you,” Hannibal says. His fingers touch Will’s throat, and Will knows Hannibal is doing the same thing he is. Hannibal moves Will’s shirt to look at the mark on his shoulder and presses in. Will winces. “This is a good one.”

“Yeah I can feel it.”

“I broke skin. Not bleeding, though. I’ll keep an eye on it.”

“You and your sharp fucking teeth. It’s like you file them into points,” Will laughs.

Hannibal laughs, flashing those sharp teeth at Will. He kisses Will once on the lips then stands. “We should go.”


They take Will’s car to Wolf Trap, Hannibal sitting in the passenger seat, slightly turned so he can look at Will. Will drives with one hand on the wheel and the other holding Hannibal’s hand. 

Hannibal can’t help but wonder if he should cancel his next dinner with Alana, with how uneasy Will has been feeling. How he tensed when Hannibal mentioned it. But then Hannibal has a different idea.

“Did you want to join me and Alana on Friday?” he asks. 

“No,” Will says, eyes focused on the road. “Maybe another time.”

“Can I not convince you this time?” 

“No. Sorry, but that would be too obvious.”

“Not if you arrive after her and leave before,” Hannibal suggests.

“Fuck no, if I’m making the drive out on a Friday night I’m staying over.” 

“You know you curse a lot?” Hannibal muses. 

“Yes, I am aware. Is it a problem?”

“Not with you, I suppose. I typically don’t tolerate it with others,” Hannibal says. 

“You changed the subject.”

“Ah, yes. I wasn’t suggesting you go home after dinner. Just drive around the block until she leaves,” Hannibal says. “Also remind me to get you an opener for my garage. You don’t need to be parking on the street when it’s this cold.”

“Probably a good idea in case anyone stops by your house while I’m over,” Will agrees. “I’ll… think about Friday, okay?”

Hannibal gives Will’s hand a squeeze and smiles. “Of course.” 

They reach Will’s house and the dogs all come streaming out of the house the second the door is open. Rusty jumps up and puts his paws on Hannibal’s stomach, and Will calls him down, but Hannibal cups Rusty’s head between his hands and leans down to kiss the dog on the snout.

“You should take him home,” Will says.

“Why would I do that?”

“Because he likes you.”

Rusty runs a circle around Hannibal before running off into the yard to do his business. 

“All of your dogs like me,” Hannibal says, walking in through the door Will is holding open. 

“Rusty sleeps on your pillow when you aren’t here and sits on the couch in your spot,” Will says. “None of the others do that.”

“I am not taking him home. I am not home a lot and he would be lonely. He has a better life here than he would in Baltimore,” Hannibal says. “I’m quite fond of him, though.”

“Well, he’s your dog then. Your dog that lives at my house. How does that sound?”

“Sounds like he is our dog then,” Hannibal says.

Will smiles, bites his lip like he’s holding something back, then walks into the kitchen.

Hannibal knows exactly what Will wants to say. He always knows, every time he opens his mouth, then closes it again. Every time he kisses Hannibal over and over after Hannibal says ‘I love you.’ Will doesn’t need to say it. Hannibal knows. 

Even if Will hadn’t said it that one night when he thought Hannibal to be asleep, Hannibal would know. 

Because Will says ‘I miss you when you’re gone,’ and ‘Please don’t get caught,’ and ‘You’re mine, no one else’s,’ and that’s enough. That’s his own way of saying it, Hannibal knows that. 

“Hey, so, I was thinking,” Will calls out to Hannibal from the kitchen, snapping Hannibal out of his thoughts.  

“What about?” Hannibal asks. He follows Will into the kitchen and leans against the door frame. Will is bent over, filling up the dog bowls with food.

“Could we come back here tonight? After the gallery?” Will asks, quiet, not looking at Hannibal. 

“If you’d like.” 

Will nods, then stands up straight. He walks toward Hannibal and slips past him in the doorway. 

“I don’t like leaving the dogs alone overnight if I can help it,” Will says, letting them in. “Especially when it’s so cold out. I don’t like leaving the space heater on when I’m not here, but it gets cold for them.”

“Alright,” Hannibal says. It doesn’t make much of a difference to him where they are. Especially now that he is not killing tonight and doesn’t need to worry about location. They rarely spend time together at Hannibal’s house to begin with. “Is there another reason?”

Will shrugs. “You feel at home here. I can’t say the same about myself at your house. Maybe with time, but, you know. Not yet.”

“I understand, Will. Whatever makes you more comfortable,” Hannibal says. He goes to stand in front of Will near the front door, pushes his bangs out of his eyes. “When are we meeting Beverly for lunch?” 

“Eleven,” Will says. “Hope you like Applebee’s.”

“Yes, that is fine,” Hannibal answers. “I hope you know I am buying.”

“Can I say no?”

“No, you cannot.” 

“Okay, fine. Can you drive home after?” Will asks. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says, slowly. Skeptical. “May I ask why?”

“They’ve got one-dollar margaritas,” Will says. 

“Do they,” Hannibal deadpans.

“Yeah. They're called Dollaritas.”

“How clever,” Hannibal says. “And how many of these margaritas-”

“Dollaritas,” Will corrects. 

“- do you plan on drinking?” Hannibal finishes. 

“Hard to say,” Will shrugs. 

“We do have plans tonight,” Hannibal reminds him. “I do not need you intoxicated at this event.”

“I’ll be fine. We can come home and take a nap before then,” Will shrugs. 

“If you insist.” 

“Yes. We have some time before lunch. What did you want to do?” 

“Perhaps we should go back to my house and get my car so it can be here in the morning,” Hannibal says. 

“Or I'll just drive you home in the morning? We don’t have time to drive all the way back to Baltimore right now.” 

“No I suppose not.”

At that moment the dogs all come running out of the kitchen and form a circle around both men. Will turns to his hall closet, opens it, and pulls out two pairs of boots. 

“These should fit you,” he says, handing a pair to Hannibal. “Dogs want a walk.”

Hannibal sighs, but pulls on the pair of boots offered to him. He buries his hands deep inside his pockets as they step outside. Will puts a hat over Hannibal’s head, then puts one on himself. 

“Thank you,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Despite the cold, they both remove a hand from their pockets so they can walk with them together. Rusty stays by Hannibal’s side the entire walk, the other dogs all running after sticks that Will throws for them. 

Will finally declares they need to head back, so they do. 

“You’re too dressed up for Applebee’s,” Will tells him once they’re inside. 

Hannibal looks down at his suit, then up at Will. “I don’t think it matters. Do you not like my suit?”

“No, I like it a lot,” Will answers. “And so will everyone else.”

“Ah and you don’t want people to look at me,” Hannibal realizes. “Very well. I will change for lunch, but I am putting this back on tonight.”

“That’s fine,” Will says. “What should I wear tonight? The suit you got me is still at your house.”

“A button down and slacks will be just fine. It’s not formal by any means,” Hannibal says. “You would be okay in that shirt even. If you change your pants.”

“Hm. Okay,” Will agrees. 

Hannibal goes to the drawer he has taken over for his own clothes and finds a sweater that can go with his current pants. Will frowns slightly, but doesn’t say anything. 

They end up back in the car a few minutes later, Will driving, holding hands between their seats. 

They pull up and park in front of the restaurant and Will looks around the lot. 

“She’s already here,” Will says. 


They get out of the car and Will takes Hannibal’s hand in his own again as they walk to the door. 

Beverly is at a booth across the restaurant and waves to them, gesturing them over. 

“You didn’t say you were bringing Doctor Lecter,” Beverly says, an eyebrow raised. 

Will shrugs and slides into the booth, pulling Hannibal down into the seat. 

“He’s paying, so don’t complain,” Will says with a wink. He turns and kisses Hannibal on the cheek and Hannibal smiles fondly at him. 

“Wasn’t planning on complaining. It’s good to see you, Doctor Lecter,” Beverly says, looking at Hannibal. 

“You can call me Hannibal,” he says. 

Will takes hold of Hannibal’s hand again and rests them on the table together, giving one gentle squeeze. 

A waitress comes over and asks for their drink orders, Hannibal ordering a diet soda, much to Will’s surprise, and Will ordering a margarita just as he promised Hannibal. 

“Soda?” Will asks him. 

“I don’t know why you think I am incapable of drinking something other than coffee or wine,” Hannibal whispers. “I am human. We are out for lunch.”

“That day you brought me breakfast in my motel room you said you’re very careful about what you put into your body,” Wil reminds him. 

“A diet Pepsi is hardly going to kill me, my love,” Hannibal says. 

“Are you sure you two haven’t been married for twenty years?” Beverly asks. 

Will laughs, cheeks going slightly red. He is still not entirely on board with the marriage talk, and the way Hannibal squeezes his hand might suggest he isn’t entirely either. 

When his drink is set down on the table, Will wastes no time drinking half of it in one go. 

The waitress takes their food orders, and Will is surprised Hannibal is actually eating something. He supposes he did make them skip breakfast, so this is really the man’s only shot to eat until dinner. 

Will makes it through three drinks before the food gets there and he’s starting to feel it a bit, but that doesn’t stop him from ordering another. 


Hannibal sits with an arm behind Will’s shoulders, listening as Beverly and Will talk to each other. 

Hannibal zones out after some time, allowing the friends time to catch up with a bit of privacy, but he's pulled back into the conversation by Will laughing in a high pitched, giddy kind of way. He's holding his hands out in front of him as if to measure something.

He only realizes what they're talking about when Beverly lowers her voice and says, "And that fits inside you?"

Will laughs even harder at that, and turns to look at Hannibal who glares at him. Will feigns innocence on his face and presses a sloppy kiss to Hannibal's cheek.

He starts drinking his fourth drink and Hannibal takes it out of his hand. He sets it on the edge of the table, and while Will could reach it, he seems to know Hannibal will not be happy. 

“Hey!” 

“Will, I am not carrying your drunk self out of here,” Hannibal responds. “Slow down.”

The waitress sets down their food and asks if they need anything else. 

“Could I please get a glass of water?” Hannibal asks with a polite smile. 

She nods and leaves, returning a minute later with a glass of ice water. 

“Thank you,” Hannibal says. He hands it to Will. “Drink this.”

“God you’re annoying,” Will mutters. 

“And you will be, too if you keep drinking. Actually, I rescind that. You are already annoying.” 

“Whatever. You love me.”

“I do,” Hannibal agrees, voice soft, mouth pressed close to Will’s ear now. 

“God,” Beverly says. “You two are perfect for each other.”

Will smiles and starts eating the pasta he ordered, looking down into the bowl. 

“Seriously. Will it’s good to see you so happy,” Beverly says. “And Hannibal, you really do a good job to make him happy.”

“Thanks, Bev,” Will says. 

“I will say that if you come back to work crime scenes, and Hannibal comes with, you cannot have bite marks on your necks,” Beverly says. “I mean, the guys keep asking me if I know who you’re with.”

“Do they suspect?” Will asks, shifting awkwardly in his seat. Hannibal sets a hand on his thigh and squeezes. Light and reassuring. 

“No. Brian and Jack both think you’re with a woman,” Beverly shrugs.

“I corrected Brian the other day.” 

Beverly shrugs again. “He probably didn’t hear you.”

They continue to eat their food, and Will takes his drink back from the edge of the table. Hannibal looks like he’s going to stop him, and Will raises an eyebrow to say ‘I dare you to try,’ so Hannibal backs off. 

Will is getting visibly more intoxicated the longer they sit there, and when the waitress comes back to ask if he’d like another margarita, Hannibal decides it’s time to cut him off. Considering he just finished his fifth. 

“Yes, please,” Will says, just as Hannibal says, “No, thank you.”

Hannibal whispers, “No,” in Will’s ear and Will sighs. 

“I’m fine, thank you,” he says to the waitress. 

“I believe we are ready for the check whenever you have a moment,” Hannibal says with a smile. The waitress turns and leaves the table, and Hannibal looks at Will again. “I am beginning to think you only wanted me here so I would drive home.”

Will rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder, forehead rubbing at his sweater as he shakes his head. 

“You two are both important to me and I want you to be friends,” Will says. 

Hannibal glances up at Beverly and she gives him a look that Hannibal reads as ‘He’s lost his mind,’ and Hannibal returns the look with a look that says ‘Tell me about it.’ 

The check is placed on the table and Hannibal pulls out his card and hands it to the waitress, then sets a generous cash tip on the table. When his card is returned, Will is still resting his head against Hannibal’s shoulder.

“Let’s get you home, love,” Hannibal murmurs, kissing the top of Will’s head. “Miss Katz, it was wonderful to see you. We will have to do this again.”

“Of course,” Beverly agrees. 

Hannibal slides out of the booth and pulls on his jacket, Will and Beverly following suit. Will takes a few stumbling steps toward the door, and Hannibal wraps an arm around his waist to steady him. 

He earns a hand swatting him away. 

“I’m fine,” Will says. “Seriously. I didn’t have that much.”

“Forgive me for not believing you,” Hannibal says into his ear. He pulls Will close into his body and leads him to the car. “Keys?” 

Will hands him the car keys and Hannibal unlocks it, taking Will to the passenger side and opening the door for him. When Will is inside the car, Hannibal leans down and kisses him on the lips. They taste of sugar and tequila. 

Hannibal gets into the driver’s seat and starts driving back to Will’s house. Will stares at him the entire time. 

“Yes, Will?” Hannibal asks after five minutes. 

“You’re really good looking. Have I ever told you that? Like wow,” Will says. He reaches out and touches Hannibal’s cheekbones, then trails his fingers to Hannibal’s lips. 

“Touch me later, darling. I’m trying to drive,” Hannibal sighs. 

“Or I can touch you now,” Will whispers. His hand makes its way to Hannibal’s thigh, and moves up, closer and closer to Hannibal’s groin. 

“Will,” Hannibal warns. He sets his hand down on top of Will’s, laces their fingers together and rests them on his knee. 

“Seriously, why are you so beautiful? Like absolutely gorgeous,” Will continues, seemingly unbothered that Hannibal redirected his hand. 

“You need to lay down and sleep for a bit when we get home,” Hannibal says. 

“Ooooor,” Will says, drawing it out. “We could have sex again.”

“No,” Hannibal says. “You’ve had far too much to drink.”

“Boring,” Will huffs. “Fine. Later?”

“If you still want to, yes,” Hannibal says. 

“Oh, I’m sure I will,” Will says. Hannibal can see him grinning out of the corner of his eye. “You know something?”

“Hm?”

“I like you a lot,” Will says, very matter of fact. “Like, so much. And I know you…” Will lowers his voice and says, “Kill people,” then brings his voice back to a normal volume to continue, “But you’re really nice to people. And you’re really, really good to me.” 

“I dislike rudeness,” Hannibal says. He’s smiling at Will’s drunken ramblings, how his filter has begun to go away. Hannibal just hopes that Will does not accidentally drink too much around someone else in the future and tell them things he shouldn’t. 

“I know, but I’m rude. Really rude,” Will points out. “But you never get mad at me for it. And you are really understanding all the time. And it’s really,” Will pauses, seeming to look for the right word. He settles on, “Nice.”

Hannibal squeezes Will’s hand. “Your rudeness is rather endearing. I am very fond of you, if you have not noticed.”

“Mm, I’ve noticed,” Will agrees. “If you weren’t I think I’d probably be on your dining table by now.”

“That can still be arranged,” Hannibal says with a wink. 

“Doctor Lecter, you wouldn’t. Not on your nice table where all of your friends eat. You’re too polite.”

“Mm, I think I would. It is my house after all,” Hannibal says. “You have sex in your living room.”

“That’s because my bed is in my living room.”

“Would you have sex on your couch?”

“Yeah,” Will says. 

“Where all your friends sit?”

“Okay, okay. Fine. Touché,” Will huffs. “That’s a good idea, actually.”

“Sex on your couch? But why, when your bed is just feet away?” Hannibal asks. 

At this time they pull up in front of Will’s house, and Hannibal shuts off the car. 

“First, you brought it up. Second, you don’t want to be bent over the back of the couch? Or you could ride me,” Will shrugs. “I know you like looking at me.”

“I do,” Hannibal agrees. “Come on, let’s go inside. We can discuss this further tonight.”

The dogs are all excited they are back, and both men stand on the porch waiting for the dogs to be ready to come back inside. Will has stopped rambling for the moment, just stands behind Hannibal with his arms wrapped around him, rubbing his face between Hannibal’s shoulders.

Inside, Hannibal gets Will another glass of water while Will takes off his jeans and climbs into his bed. Hannibal sets the glass down on the nightstand, then goes to walk away. To go sit on the couch so Will can sleep it off, but Will reaches out and grabs his wrist. 

“Lay with me,” Will requests. So Hannibal lays down next to Will, on his side facing him. He pushes Will’s hair away from his face and Will smiles up at him. He brings a hand up to cup Hannibal’s cheek, rubbing the bone with his thumb. “Did you mean it last night?”

“Mean what, darling?” Hannibal whispers. 

“I’m the best thing that’s ever happened to you?” Will asks. His voice is strained and it looks like tears are starting to well up in his eyes. 

“Of course,” Hannibal whispers. He wipes a tear that falls down the side of Will’s face. “What’s wrong?”

“You make me so happy,” Will says. He wraps his arms around Hannibal’s neck and pulls him closer. “What did I do to deserve you?”

“I don’t know,” Hannibal whispers. “I ask myself the same of you every day.”

“God. I think I’m drunk. Sorry,” Will says with a sniffle. 

“Yes, I know,” Hannibal whispers. “Sleep it off.”

“That’s a good idea. You’ll stay in bed with me, right?” Will asks. He turns over, pushes Hannibal off of him, and turns him so that Will can press against his back. “I won’t try and fuck you in my sleep, don’t worry.”

Hannibal laughs. “I trust you.”

Will kisses the back of Hannibal’s neck a few times, then under his ear, sits up slightly so he can kiss Hannibal’s jaw. Hannibal turns his face so Will can kiss his lips. 

“What time are we leaving?” Will asks, lips close to Hannibal’s, sharing each other’s breath. 

“Around five.”

Will nods, presses their lips together again and then lays back down behind Hannibal, pulling him close. It’s only a few minutes before Will’s breathing has evened out and he’s snoring lightly into Hannibal’s neck. 


When Will wakes up again, there’s a terrible taste in his mouth. 

“Ugh,” he groans. He props himself on his elbow and leans forward so he can see Hannibal’s face. “Are you awake?”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. His eyes are closed, and remain closed. Will kisses him and Hannibal’s nose scrunches up in disgust. “Go brush your teeth.”

“Yeah. That’s a good idea,” Will says, getting out of bed and heading towards the bathroom. When he returns, Hannibal is out of bed and is buttoning up his waistcoat. “Hey, so did I start crying? Or do I remember that incorrectly.”

“Yes, you did,” Hannibal says simply. “You also told me how good looking I am.”

“Yeah, I remember,” Will groans. “I’m sorry.”

“You have no reason to be. I like to hear it.”

“Yeah because you’re a narcissist. I meant sorry for drinking too much,” Will says. He goes to his drawers to pull out clothes, choosing a dark sweater and a gray blazer to go over it, along with a pair of dark slacks. “Is this okay?”

“Yes, that will look very nice on you.”

Will nods and starts getting dressed. 

Just before five they get into Will’s car, Hannibal driving, holding hands on the center console, just as they always do. They find a parking spot in a structure a few blocks from the building where the art gallery is. Hannibal grabs onto Will’s hand again as they walk through the parking structure and down the stairs to the street level.

It’s freezing outside and Will walks pressed as close to Hannibal as he can. It is a huge relief when they finally make it to the warmth of the building, but Will still stays close, still holds his hand. 

They walk around, looking at the art on the walls. Hannibal stops and talks to nearly everyone in the building. He lets go of Will’s hand and Will is about to reach for him again when Hannibal’s arm comes around him and the hand rests on his hip instead. 

“Sweet William? Is that you?” A voice calls out. 

“Oh fuck,” Will mutters. Hannibal pulls Will closer to him just as Will turns around to see Jimmy Price coming up behind them, forcing Hannibal’s arm to drop. “Jimmy!”

Hannibal is still facing away, and Will knows it’s really not doing anything to conceal his identity, not when he’s the only man in Virginia and Maryland that wears suits like that. 

“Is this your mystery man?” Jimmy asks. His mouth drops open. “Hold on a second… Doctor Lecter?”

Then Hannibal finally turns to face Jimmy too. “Mr Price. Pleasure to see you again.”

“Hold the phone here,” Jimmy says, looking back and forth between the both of them. Will watches as his eyes go from his face, to Hannibal’s, back and forth between both of their marked up necks, then down to the arm that is behind Will’s back again, the hand on his hip. “I am surprised to say the least.”

Will sighs. “You cannot tell anyone.”

Jimmy makes a gesture of zipping his lips and throwing away the key. “Really, though? Wow!” 

“Yes, really,” Will sighs. Hannibal stays silent next to him, slightly tense. Will turns, puts a hand on his chest, and whispers, “It’s okay, baby. Really. Jimmy won’t tell anyone,” then he looks back to Jimmy and says, “I am serious. Nobody can know.”

“Does Beverly know?”

“Yes,” Will answers. 

“So I can gossip with her, then. Got it. Assuming Jack Crawford is the biggest ‘do not tell,’ right?” 

“That would be correct,” Hannibal answers. “But besides Jack, no one else can know either.”

“Yeah, not Brian, not Jack, no one higher up than Jack, either.”

“Your secret is safe with me, guys. Really. I’m not going to out anyone,” Jimmy says. 

“Thank you,” Will says with a sigh of relief. “What brings you here, then?”

“A fan of the arts. I’m assuming Doctor Lecter is the reason why you’re here.”

Will nods. He feels the need to leave. Get out of public before anyone else shows up. He knew it would be a bad idea to have a public date like this. But it’s not like they have never gone out in public together. This morning was fine. 

“So how long have you been together, then?”

“Since Minnesota,” Will answers. 

“The day you killed Hobbs?” Jimmy asks in disbelief. “Didn’t Lecter do your psych eval after that?”

“No, no. The day we found Marrisa Schuur’s body,” Will says, waving a hand to get Jimmy to stop talking and listen. “Hannibal asked me out that morning before we went to the hunting cabin.”

“Really? Wait, so that means... “ Jimmy looks at Hannibal with a hint of anger. “You’re the guy that broke Sweet William’s heart during that Ripper sounder.”

“That’s not,” Will says, shaking his head. “That was more my fault, trust me. I’m a jealous bastard and said hurtful things. Hannibal has been really good to me, Jimmy.”

“Well,” Jimmy says. He looks at Hannibal and points a finger. “If you do hurt him, I know how to hide a body pretty damn well.”

“Of course, Mr Price. I do not intend on hurting Will for as long as I live, though,” Hannibal says, ever so polite. Will is a bit nervous about how Jimmy is talking to him. It’s not meant to be rude, and Jimmy is just protective over his friends, but Will has no idea what Hannibal’s tolerance level is. Has no idea if he would kill a friend. 

“Jimmy, it’s really good seeing you, but I think Hannibal and I would like to get back to our date,” Will says. 

“Yes, of course. Sorry for keeping you,” Jimmy says. He turns to go, but gives Hannibal one last warning look before he does. 

“Can we go?” Will asks. “I’m sorry. I know we just got here, but I’m-”

“Will,” Hannibal whispers.

But Will keeps talking, “- uncomfortable and if it were anyone other than Jimmy, we could have been in huge trouble.” 

“Darling,” Hannibal says. He turns to face Will and cups his cheeks in his hands, looking down into Will’s eyes. Will searches Hannibal’s for any sort of anger, or irritation, but doesn’t find any. He relaxes just a bit, then even more when Hannibal says, “We can leave.” 

Hannibal leans down to kiss Will once, adjusts Will’s glasses on his face, and pushes his hair out of his eyes. He kisses Will’s forehead and Will moves closer so he can wrap his arms around Hannibal. He squeezes him tight in a hug before letting go.

“Thank you,” Will whispers. 

They get their coats from the coat check and walk hand in hand out to the car. 

“Why does he call you Sweet William?” Hannibal asks when they’re in the car and leaving the parking structure. 

“Because the fucking Chesapeake Ripper put sweet williams in the chest cavity if the third victim,” Will groans. “My name isn’t even William.”

“Did you tell him that?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Will says. 

“Is it my turn to be jealous?” Hannibal asks. 

“You can be whatever you want. I’m not leaving you for Jimmy Price, though. Just so we’re clear,” Will says. 


Hannibal does not like the idea of Jimmy Price calling Will by that name. Especially when it happened because of a Ripper display. He does feel jealous, possessive. Jimmy was a bit rude… but no. Hannibal won’t kill him. He is protective of Will, and Hannibal knows that’s a good thing. 

Jimmy does know about their relationship, now though. Which is not great, truth be told. Hannibal does not know how trustworthy he is, even if Will trusts him. 

Hannibal reaches across the space between them and puts a possessive hand on Will’s leg, giving him a squeeze, and leaving it to rest there. 

“Should we get dinner? Or should I cook?” Hannibal asks. 

“Do you want to cook?” Will asks. 

“If I’m being honest, I want to take you to bed, but I do think we should eat.”

“We can order takeout from somewhere and bring it home?” Will suggests. 

“That would work. Do you have a place in mind?” 

“Yeah, I’ll call the Chinese place by my house. It’s good. How are you with spicy food?”

“Not my favorite,” Hannibal says. Meaning his tolerance is actually quite low. 

“Okay. Sweet and sour chicken, then? Fried rice and noodles, too?” Will asks, pulling out his phone. 

“That is fine,” Hannibal says. 

Will calls the restaurant and places their order, then tells Hannibal how to get there. 

“Hey, sorry I made us leave early. I know you’ve been looking forward to this,” Will says.

“I was looking forward to spending time with you, not necessarily the art gallery. I saw what I wanted to see, besides,” Hannibal says. “You weren’t comfortable there, and your comfort is more important than some mediocre artwork.” 

“Just so you know, I’m rarely comfortable anywhere,” Will laughs. “I really don’t want that to be a problem, but it is sometimes. I mean, if people we know don’t show up, then I probably won’t ask to leave early.” 

“Will, really. You don’t need to explain yourself,” Hannibal says. 

“Maybe not for you, but I always feel the need to justify everything to myself, you know?” 

“I understand,” Hannibal says. “I am a psychiatrist, you know.”

Will laughs. “Yes, Hannibal, I know.”

They stop at the restaurant and Will runs in to get the food, insisting it’s his treat this time. At Will’s house, Hannibal takes out the dogs while Will unpacks the food on the coffee table in front of the couch, and they eat next to each other while watching TV. 

When they finish eating, Will yawns, stretches, then settles into Hannibal’s side. Hannibal wraps his arm around him, and kisses the top of his head. Will ends up falling asleep on the couch, resting against Hannibal. 

Eventually he gets up from under Will and takes the takeout containers to the trash, then lets the dogs outside again. When he goes back inside, Will is still asleep. Not wanting to disturb him, Hannibal puts a blanket over him, then goes to sleep in Will’s bed.

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Will wakes in a panic in the middle of the night, not knowing where he is. He falls off the couch and onto the floor in the process with a loud thump. 

“Fuck!” Will yells, rubbing at the hip that hit the ground first. He knows it’s gonna bruise. 

He lays down on the ground, defeated, trying to steady his breathing. 

“Will?” Hannibal’s voice comes from across the room. The lamp turns on and there’s footsteps coming toward him. 

Will looks up at him from the floor. Hannibal is in just his stupid silk underwear, hair mussed up from sleep, eyes tired. 

“Help me up, would you?” Will groans, reaching a hand out to Hannibal. Hannibal ignores the hand and bends down, picking Will up off the floor in a bridal carry and taking him to the bed. 

Hannibal puts him down on the bed and shuts off the lamp again, then crawls in next to Will. Will kicks off his pants and throws his sweater into the laundry basket. He pulls the blankets over them both. 

“Why did you let me sleep on the couch?” Will asks, yawning. 

“You looked comfortable,” Hannibal says. 

“I was until I fell off,” Will mutters. Then he remembers. “We were going to fuck on the couch tonight.”

“You fell asleep,” Hannibal says. He buries his face in Will’s neck, kisses him there, then whispers, “Maybe in the morning.”

“What time is it?”

Hannibal sighs, and Will knows he’s irritated. “I don’t know. I woke up because I heard you yell an expletive. Forgive me for having other things on my mind than the time.”

“God, sorry for asking.” 

Will checks the clock himself, and it’s not even three in the morning yet. 

“Hey, Hannibal,” Will whispers. 

“What?” 

“Never mind. You’re grouchy.”

“Will,” Hannibal sighs. “What is it?”

Will rolls them over and gets on top of Hannibal, straddling his hips. 

“You said we could have sex in the middle of the night because we have nowhere to go in the morning,” Will whispers. “Do you want to?”

“I’m tired, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will nods, leans down to kiss Hannibal, then starts to get off of him. Hannibal grabs his hips and pulls him back down. Will winces, still feeling where his hip hit the hardwood floor when he fell off the couch. 

“Stay where you are. Keep kissing me,” Hannibal requests. 

“Are you going to fall asleep on me if I do?” Will laughs. Still he leans back down and kisses Hannibal, soft, slow. Loving. He is tired himself and knows he won’t last long before he needs to lay down on the bed and sleep, but he just keeps kissing Hannibal.

Will starts a slow rotation of his hips, grinding his hardening cock against Hannibal’s. Hannibal moans into his mouth, grabs at Will’s ass, pulls him even tighter to his body. 

Hannibal pulls his mouth to the side, away from Will’s, and Will backs off, bringing his hips to a halt. He rests his hands on Hannibal’s chest and waits for Hannibal to say something.

“Okay?” Will asks.

Hannibal nods. “I’m just trying to decide if I’m too tired or not.” 

“I’m in the same boat,” Will laughs. “I’m up for whatever you are.”

Hannibal runs his hands up and down Will’s thighs, and Will can see him biting his lip in thought. He drums his fingers on the fabric of Will’s boxers. 

“Take these off,” Hannibal says, tugging at the hem. “Then lay on your back.”

Will gets up and does as he’s asked, and watches as Hannibal pushes his own underwear down without getting up from the bed.

Hannibal sits up, turns on the lamp next to the bed again, then frowns when he looks at Will.

“What?” Will asks.


Hannibal gets on his knees and moves so he can straddle Will’s thighs. He trails his fingers over the bruising skin of Will’s hip. 

“You hit the ground fairly hard,” Hannibal murmurs. He leans down and kisses Will’s bare hip. “I will go get you some ice.”

“I’m fine, Hannibal. Do not get up right now,” Will says. 

Hannibal smiles against Will’s skin, kisses his bruised hip again, then moves up Will’s body to kiss his lips. He takes himself in his hand and starts to stroke himself to hardness. He’s starting to wake up now, not feeling the irritation he was a few minutes ago, but below him Will appears to be fading fast.

“Are you sure you aren’t going to fall asleep on me?” Hannibal asks, taking both of their cocks in one hand. 

Will gasps out in response and arches his back, pushing into Hannibal’s hand. Hannibal leans down to kiss him on the mouth, and is met with tired, lazy kisses. Soft noises come from Will as Hannibal holds them tighter and moves his hand quicker. 

Hannibal rocks his hips and Will pushes up against him, both men moaning into each other’s mouths. 

“Hannibal,” Will whispers. 

“Yes, Will?”

“Can I- ah. Fuck. I want to be inside you,” Will says, panting heavily. Hannibal smiles against his throat, kisses his neck, then pulls his hand away. 

Hannibal reaches for the nightstand drawer without getting off of Will, and retrieves the lube. He slicks up his own fingers and slides two into himself, working himself open. Will watches him with sleepy eyes and a lazy smile while Hannibal fingers himself open.

“You are really pretty,” Will murmurs. He reaches up to touch Hannibal’s face, and shuts his eyes, still smiling. He opens his eyes again, slow, as if it’s a chore. “Really. I could look at you forever.”

Will drops his hand to his stomach and slowly closes and opens his eyes open again. Hannibal knows they are not gonna get much further than this tonight, so he pulls his fingers out of himself and leans down to kiss Will.

“You ready?” Will asks, reaching for his own cock to line himself up with Hannibal. Hannibal moves his hips away and shakes his head. 

“Let me just kiss you for a minute,” Hannibal whispers. He knows Will is on the verge of sleep now. Hannibal decides he’ll just let Will fall asleep while they’re kissing. 

Will pulls his hand back up and cups Hannibal’s cheeks. Hannibal kisses him soft, a lazy slide of tongues and lips, until Will stops moving under him entirely, and his hands drop back down to his chest.

Hannibal laughs quietly to himself and climbs off of Will, heading towards the bathroom. He knew this was going to happen. He gets into the shower and jerks himself off. He’s climbing back into bed next to a sleeping Will before long.

Will lets out a quiet sound in his sleep when Hannibal pulls the blankets over them and pulls him close. 

“Love you,” Will murmurs into Hannibal’s neck. And Hannibal’s heart jumps in his chest. Will definitely is not awake, said it in his sleep. But it’s still good to hear. 

Hannibal maneuvers Will and holds him against himself, Will’s head resting on Hannibal’s chest, legs tangled together. Will’s cock is still hard against Hannibal’s hip, and while he saw it coming from a mile away, he cannot believe Will actually fell asleep. 

In the morning, Hannibal wakes up to Will sitting on him. 

“Did I fall asleep after asking to fuck last night?” Will asks when Hannibal blinks his eyes open. 

“You did.”

“Sorry,” Will laughs. 

“All is well. I took care of myself in the shower,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will leans down to kiss him and Hannibal is entirely too focused on Will’s morning breath. 

“Would you mind brushing your teeth before we continue this?” Hannibal asks. 


Will laughs and climbs off of Hannibal. He stumbles toward the bathroom and takes his time brushing his teeth so Hannibal won’t complain. When he comes back, Hannibal is laying on his side, eyes closed again. 

He walks right past the bed and to the front door to let the dogs out. A gust of cold wind hits his naked body and he shivers, a full body one. He looks longingly back towards the warm bed, and Hannibal, wanting to climb back in and lay together for the rest of the day. 

He shuts the door and stands near it until he hears the dogs on the porch again. He lets them inside and watches as Rusty goes to the bed and licks Hannibal’s face. 

“Will, stop,” Hannibal murmurs. He puts his hand out, eyes still shut, and opens them wide when his hand touches the dog’s head. “Oh. Russel. Go lay down.”

Will laughs and gets back into bed with Hannibal, pulling the blankets up over both of their shoulders. 

“You’re freezing,” Hannibal whispers, nuzzles Will’s neck with his face. 

“I’m fine,” Will says. But he’s shivering from the few seconds he had the door open. Shaking uncontrollably, really. 

Hannibal wakes up a bit more fully and rolls out of the bed. Will frowns until he sees Hannibal grab the blankets off the back of the couch. 

Will takes them when Hannibal hands them to him and he wraps himself up tight, then pulls the other blankets over him, sighing when his body finally stops shaking. 

Hannibal lays down next to him and Will opens the blankets again so Hannibal can be under them too. Hannibal presses close, buries his face in Will’s neck, holds him tight around the waist. 

“Should we visit Abigail today?” Will asks. 

“If you want,” Hannibal says into his neck. His voice is tired, accent thicker than usual. “I’ve been considering the possibility of taking her out of the facility if she is willing. I believe she has been there long enough.”

“I agree. Where would she go, though?” Will asks. He runs his fingers through the hair on the back of Hannibal’s head and Hannibal makes a sound that could almost be described as purring. 

“She can live with me,” Hannibal says. “Or go to school. She could even likely start next term if she has a school in mind. I can always use some of my connections.”

“Hm. We can discuss it with her today then. Did you tell Alana yet?” Will asks. 

“It was going to be the topic of discussion at dinner this Friday. I was planning on talking to Abigail at some point before then,” Hannibal answers. “That said, it may be a good idea for you to come on Friday and would give you good reason to be there.”

Will considers that. Wonders how long Hannibal has been thinking of that possibility. He nods, then kisses the top of Hannibal’s head. 

“I’ll come, then,” Will says. “Why didn’t you tell me that before?”

Hannibal shrugs. “It felt like an odd time. And I didn’t want you to feel pressured into joining in the moment, nor did I want you to feel like that’s the only reason I wanted you there.”

“Baby, I know that’s not the only reason. Don’t worry,” Will says. “And that’s not the only reason I’m coming, either.”

“I know,” is all Hannibal says. 

“Sleep for a few more hours. It’s still early,” Will whispers. 

They finally get out of bed around half past ten. Hannibal cooks them breakfast and Will sits at the kitchen table watching him. Always so mesmerized by the way Hannibal moves around a kitchen. 

Hannibal shows off, throwing eggs in the air and cracking them on his spatula, and he winks at Will when he does. Will just smiles back, completely enamoured. 

As always, when Hannibal sets Will’s plate down, he kisses the top of Will’s head. 

After breakfast, and after the dogs are fed, they get into Will’s car. Hannibal drives, and Will holds his hand, occasionally bringing it to his mouth to kiss Hannibal’s knuckles. Hannibal smiles faintly every time Will does it. 

They don’t hold hands walking into the building, and good thing too, because Freddie Lounds is walking out the doors as they are walking in. 

“Agent Graham and Doctor Lecter,” Freddie says, a mocking tone in her voice. 

“What are you doing here, Lounds?” Will asks. 

“Trying to convince Abigail she should let me do the book. Thanks to you she still won’t agree,” Freddie scoffs. 

“Good,” Will says and pushes at the back of Hannibal’s shoulders to get him walking again, leaving Freddie where she is. On the stairs, out of earshot from everyone else, Will mutters, “Still think you should have her for dinner.”

Hannibal reaches out and squeezes his hand, then whispers, “No.”

Abigail is happy to see them both, pulls them both into a hug at the same time. 

“I haven’t seen either of you since the hospital,” she says when she lets them go. “Thought you were leaving me here to rot.”

“Of course not.” Hannibal says with a smile. “We actually wanted to discuss how you would feel about leaving this place.”

“Permanently,” Will adds. Hannibal and Will both sit down in the chairs in Abigail’s room while she sits down on her bed.

“When?” Abigail asks, voice hopeful. 

“We are going to talk to Alana on Friday,” Hannibal says. “Maybe you can be out by Christmas if she agrees with us.”

“Where would I go?” 

“You can live with me for the time being,” Hannibal answers. “If you decide you wish to go to school, then you may.” 

“I think I want to study abroad,” Abigail says quietly. 

“Then you shall. Whenever you are ready,” Hannibal says. “Depending on which school you choose, you may be accepted before the spring semester if you send out applications in the next week or so.”

Abigail nods. “I’ve actually sent a few out. Doctor Bloom helped me. She said it would be good for me to have my sights set on the future.”

“And she would be right. I take it she would be quite agreeable to taking you out of here soon, then?” Hannibal asks. 

Abigail shrugs. “I think she wants me to wait a while, and defer any acceptance I get, but maybe you can convince her otherwise. She doesn’t think I would have a stable enough support system right now, or something like that.”

“We’ll talk to her,” Will says. “So what schools did you have in mind?”

“I went to England with my parents a few years ago on a trip. I was considering going out there.”

“Why not somewhere in France or Italy?” Hannibal asks wistfully. “Oh, you would love Florence. Or Paris.”

“Alright, baby, just because you want to be there, doesn’t mean Abigail does,” Will laughs. “She likes England. Take her to Italy or France on vacation.”

“A family vacation,” Hannibal says. “Very well. You go to your English school, and Will and I will visit you during your spring break and take you all across Europe.”

“Will we?” Will asks. “I might not have a break at the same time.”

“Then don’t teach at all that term,” Hannibal says. “It is really quite simple, Will.”

“No. Hannibal, it’s not,” Will says. “And beside that, it would be really obvious to everyone if we go on a vacation together, don’t you think?”

“Get your lectures for the week covered,” Hannibal says. “And we tell them we are visiting Abigail.”

“And what happens if, oh I don’t know, Alana decides she also wants to come see Abigail and she thinks it’s just some friendly vacation between all of us. I mean we may be Abigail’s fathers in a sense, but Alana is definitely a mother figure,” Will points out. “She’d find it weird if you and I share a hotel room with only one bed.”

“Then you get Alana to cover your lectures so she cannot, darling,” Hannibal says. 

“Jesus, you guys argue like an old married couple,” Abigail says. 

Will’s face goes red and Hannibal looks like he’s about to say something but decides against it. 

“We saw Freddie Lounds coming out of the building as we were walking in,” Hannibal says after a moment. “Has she been bothering you?” 

“She still wants to write the book and keeps trying to tell me Will only tells me not to so he doesn’t look insane,” Abigail says. “I told her neither of you guys or Doctor Bloom think I should do it.”

“I’m going to see if we can get her blacklisted from visiting you,” Will says. 

“That would be nice. Thank you,” Abigail says. 

Not too long after, Hannibal and Will take their leave, going to Hannibal’s house. 

“Come in for a bit?” Hannibal asks when they pull into the driveway.

Will shakes his head. “Errands to run, dog food to make. If I come in I won’t leave.” 

“Okay,” Hannibal says. “Thursday in my office? Unless you want to see me sooner.”

“You can come over any night, just call,” Will says. “Or I’ll come to you.” 

“I know you don’t prefer to,” Hannibal says. “The drive is no trouble for me, and you have the dogs to worry about. I’ll come to your house. Tuesday?” 

“Tuesday,” Will agrees. When leans over and kisses Hannibal. Hannibal brings his hands to cup Will’s cheeks while he kisses back. When their mouths part, Hannibal noses at Will’s jaw, then kisses his throat. Will wants to take back what he said, and go into Hannibal’s house, but he forces himself to have some restraint. 

“I shall see you soon, love,” Hannibal whispers. Then he’s getting out of the car and Will is watching him walk up to his front door. He only drives away once Hannibal is inside and his front door is shut again.


After Will pulls away, Hannibal goes straight to his basement, gathering supplies for the kill he put off. He still did his stakeout the previous Tuesday, after the dinner he had with Jack. He has learned all of his victim’s patterns, and he is going to kill tomorrow. 

On Monday when he gets home from the office, he goes back downstairs to make sure everything is set to go.

He remembers Will asking to be told about these kills. And Hannibal said he would tell him, too. Not Ripper kills, of course, but this won’t be attributed to the Ripper. With a sigh he dials Will’s phone number. 

“Hey, is everything okay?” Will answers. His voice is distant, and Hannibal figures he is connected to the bluetooth in his car.

“Yes, of course. You are alone, right?” Hannibal asks.

“Yeah, I’m driving home from Quantico,” Will answers. “What’s up babe?”

“I am going to kill tonight. I wanted you to know,” Hannibal says after a moment. 

He can hear Will’s sharp intake of breath and is about to cancel the whole thing, knowing that Will is not happy about it. 

But then Will says, “Okay. Please don’t get caught, baby. I know you’re good at this, but fuck. I need you, you know. I, um, how long do you think it’s going to take? Like when will you get home?” 

“I’ll leave home around ten. I will do some work, and then go to where I will leave the body, then return home. I should make it home by two or three,” Hannibal says. He tries to sound as ambiguous as possible, not wanting Will to know he’s doing the work at his own house. That would raise too many questions, and with Miriam Lass in his basement, he would not be able to show Will his work area should he be asked to.

“Okay. Would it be terrible if I asked you to come to my house when you’re done? Just. Just so I know,” Will says quietly. 

“I can do that.”

“Thank you. I just worry about you. I’d rather know you’re home safe with me,” Will says.

Hannibal’s heart clenches at Will referring to his house, as well as himself, as Hannibal’s home. In a way, it’s really become that way. Hannibal’s own house is just a place to sleep after work and a place to work on some of his kills. Neither of which have been happening a lot lately. His home is wherever Will is now.

“I understand, darling. I’ll let myself in tonight. Please don’t stay up, I’ll wake you when I get there,” Hannibal says. “I have to go for now. Much to prepare.”

“Okay. Be safe,” Will pleads. “Bye, Hannibal.”

“Goodbye, my love.”


Will hangs up the phone and spends the next several hours worrying about Hannibal. He tries to pass the time, but his thoughts keep circling back. His mind keeps telling him that Hannibal is going to be caught and that there is nothing he can do about it.

Over the course of the rest of the evening, he tries to stay busy. He tries to eat something for dinner, but his stomach is twisted in anxious knots and he can barely get anything down.  

After a while, he just curls up on the couch with a book, but he can’t focus on that either. Eventually he falls asleep, warm and cozy under several blankets, and the space heater a few feet away.

His couch nap only lasts an hour and by then it’s not even eight pm. He turns on the TV, but barely pays attention to what is on. He absentmindedly pets Winston on the head while he watches and he waits until he’s tired enough to get in bed, but that doesn’t happen.

Hannibal calls just before ten, when Will is still wrapped up in several blankets on the couch, watching a movie that he has paid any attention to. 

“Hello, Will,” Hannibal says as soon as Will answers. “I wanted to check in with you. How are you?”

“Nervous,” Will answers honestly. “I took a nap. Couldn’t eat dinner tonight. I’ll probably get in bed soon.”

“I’ll be with you in just a few hours. Try and get some sleep, love,” Hannibal says. 

“I’ll try,” Will sighs. “Do you have to hang up yet?”

“I have some time,” Hannibal answers. “Everything is going to be perfectly fine, darling. You truly have nothing to worry about.”

“I believe you, and I trust you, but I am worried, still. I can’t control it.” 

“I know,” Hannibal responds. 

“Distract me for a minute,” Will requests. “Tell me anything.”

“Hm. Well,” Hannibal pauses for a second. “I do have a patient I could tell you about.”

“Breaking confidentiality, doctor?” Will asks.

“Technically, no. He has been growing increasingly… interested in me,” Hannibal says. “It is quite odd. He has shown up to several of the same events as I have in the last couple of months. And that is… bothersome considering I have barely even gotten out. He is just always there.”

“Is he stalking you?”

“Possibly, but he’s no physical threat. You’ll likely meet him one day,” Hannibal says. “He shops at the same grocery store in Baltimore as I do. He eats a lot of cheese.”

Will laughs. “Do you think he has a crush on you?”

“It’s quite likely.”

“I better watch out, then,” Will jokes. “You and I both know you have a thing for patients.”

“Will,” Hannibal sighs. “You were never really my patient.”

“I know. I'm just joking around.”

“Yes, well. Do not worry about this man,” Hannibal says. 

“I won’t. When do you think I’ll end up meeting him? Might do him some good to know you’re taken,” Will says. 

“Hm. The opera next month is quite likely,” Hannibal says. “I’m unsure if he’ll get the hint or if he’ll just become obsessed with you, as well.” 

“You could always have him for dinner.”

“Will,” Hannibal says. “Absolutely not.” 

Will tries to suppress a yawn, then, but Hannibal catches it. 

“Love, go to bed,” Hannibal says. “I will be there as soon as I can.”

“I will after I let the dogs out,” Will says. “See you soon.” 

Will hangs up, and takes care of the dogs. He strips down to his underwear and climbs into bed, falling into a fitful sleep. 


Hannibal finishes his call with Will and gets into the car he uses for such occasions. He waits on the road his victim drives home each night. He’s a piano player at a restaurant Hannibal has gone to once or twice, but not in many years. The man blew smoke in his face one night while Hannibal was walking out of the building.

He already made sure the car would break down in the area, and sure enough, while he’s waiting at the side of the road, obscured by trees, the car slows to a stop on the shoulder. Hannibal pulls out of his hiding place and gets out of his own car, offering help. This is a method he uses often because it works.

The man starts to panic when he realizes Hannibal is walking toward him, focused on him, rather than the car. Just as they always do. But he doesn’t run. Hannibal jabs a needle into the man’s neck and drags him back to his car, tying up his hands and feet, just in case he should wake. 

Hannibal pulls into his garage and carries the body down to his basement, restrains him, then waits for the man to wake up before he starts cutting into him.

The screams fill the basement, the pleads for Hannibal to stop as his kidneys are being removed, one and then the other. Hannibal sighs and decides he’s far too annoyed, and it’s not as if it matters much to make all mutilations before death, seeing as this isn’t a Ripper kill. so he puts the man out of his misery by snapping his neck. 

Then he makes quick work of removing the heart, lungs, and intestines, vacuum sealing them, and putting everything in the freezer he doesn’t plan on eating in the next week. 

The kill isn’t his typical method, nor does it take the time he normally puts into it, but he has Will on his mind tonight. While drawing it out brings him great joy, he feels satisfied with the work he did tonight. And this one won’t even be found, most likely. 

He drives the remaining body out to the woods, to a location he followed the other killer to one night. When he went back on his own, after watching the man bury a body, he found there to be several graves in the area. He brings the body and a shovel out, digs a grave just like the other nine that he knows of, and dumps it there. 

Luckily, it’s been warm all day, and the ground isn’t completely frozen with it being a week until Christmas. It helps that the other killer has been around and has been keeping the soil loose. Planning on more kills, likely. 

The shovel gets left, he stole it anyway, and there’s nothing to link it back to him. He considers calling in an anonymous tip about the area, but decides against it. 

He brushes the dirt off of his plastic suit, and heads back to his car. He carefully removes the suit before driving away. Deciding to save some time he leaves the car in storage, then drives directly to Will’s in his Bentley, instead of going home first. 

It’s nearly three by the time he makes it there. He parks in the barn, then lets himself inside, greeting the dogs as they swarm him. After locking the door, and removing his coat and shoes, he finally gets a look at Will across the room. 

He’s thrashing in his sleep, laying on his stomach, body tangled in blankets. As Hannibal gets closer, he realizes Will is mumbling in his sleep. 

“Hannibal,” he murmurs. “Jack, no. Please, let him go.”

More thrashing, then a loud, “No!” 

Hannibal places a hand on Will’s back and rubs lightly between his shoulder blades. 

Will wakes with a start and turns, sitting up and scrambling back towards the headboard. He’s breathing heavily and shaking and Hannibal just watches him, waiting for him to remember where he is.

His face softens and looks relieved when he realizes Hannibal is standing in front of him.

“Hey,” Will says, as if none of that just happened, as if he has been fine this entire time. “Have you been here long? Take off your clothes, get in bed.”

“Only a few minutes,” Hannibal answers, and starts removing his suit. He drapes all of his clothes over a chair, and gets into bed in just his underwear. “Nightmares?”

Will nods, rolling over to rest his head on Hannibal’s chest. 

“Did everything go okay tonight?” Will asks.

“Yes,” Hannibal says. 

“When is the body going to be found, you think?”

Hannibal considers if he should tell Will about a mass burial site, how he would react, if he would tell Hannibal to call it in, or not. He decides to be honest. 

“I left it somewhere a man has been dumping bodies for likely years now. At least nine other graves, though I suspect more,” Hannibal murmurs, wrapping an arm around Will. 

“You know about a mass burial site, and you’re just keeping it to yourself?” Will asks, disbelief in his tone. A hint of a hard edge, as if he would be angry in other circumstances. 

Hannibal opens his mouth, then closes it, then opens it again, and just says, “Yes.”

“You’re lucky I like you,” Will says, snuggling closer to Hannibal. “If you were to call it in, would you have left any evidence behind?”

“No. I take all sorts of precautions. I left a shovel there on purpose.”

“Why?” The word is caught on a yawn.

“So the other killer knows that he is being watched. To taunt him, I suppose,” Hannibal shrugs. “To see what happens.” 

Will hums in response, then lifts his head and gives Hannibal a kiss. 

“I’m glad you came back to me,” Will says.

“I always will,” Hannibal responds. 

Chapter 14

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Chapter Text

When Will wakes up to his alarm, Hannibal is curled around his body, mouth open, drooling on Will’s chest. Sleeping like the dead. Will shakes him gently, tries to slide out from under him, but Hannibal’s arm tightens around his waist. 

“Are you awake?” Will asks. 

Hannibal makes an incoherent comment, then snuggles closer to Will. 

“I have to get up,” Will says. 

“Don’t you have an hour?” Hannibal asks, accent thick, eyes still closed. 

“No, I turned off that alarm for this morning. It’s seven now,” Will answers. He runs his fingers through Hannibal’s hair and lets the man cling to him for another thirty seconds before he extracts himself from his arms. “Let’s shower.”

“My first appointment is not until eleven. I will shower at home,” Hannibal says. He rolls onto his side and pulls the blanket up over his head. “I love you, and would love a shower with you but I would rather have two more hours of sleep if it is an option.”

“Well. Lock up when you leave,” Will sighs. 

“Of course,” Hannibal mumbles. “Kiss me before you go.”

“Do you have an alarm set?” Will asks. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says into the pillow. “Am I still coming over tonight?”

“If you want,” Will says, gathering clothes from his drawers to take into the bathroom. “If you want to stay home and get some sleep I won’t blame you.”

“I’ll come over, but I may fall asleep on the couch tonight.”

“I can’t carry you to bed,” Will says. 

He kisses Hannibal’s head through the blankets then goes into the bathroom. He goes through his morning routine, dresses himself, then puts the dogs outside while he starts making coffee. 

Hannibal shuffles into the kitchen in just his stupid silk underwear and stands in the doorway, leaning against the doorframe. His eyes are tired, his shoulders slumped, hair messy. 

“Eat breakfast,” he mumbles. 

“Go back to bed,” Will tells him. He picks up an apple off the counter and holds it up to show Hannibal he’s eating, then takes a bite. 

“I’m going to call Miss Katz and tell her to take you for lunch,” Hannibal says, going back into the living room. Will follows him out while the coffee is brewing so he can let the dogs back inside. 

Hannibal is actually holding his phone to his ear while he lays in bed. “Beverly, I hope I am not interrupting anything.”

There’s a pause and then Hannibal says, “I’m going to send Will to work with some money and if it is not too much trouble, I was wondering if you could drag him out for lunch.”

Another pause, then Hannibal winks at Will and says, “Excellent. Thank you.”

Hannibal hangs up the phone, throws it onto the mattress next to him, then leans over the edge of the bed to pick up his pants and dig for his wallet. Will goes back into the kitchen to pour himself his coffee and gather his laptop and bag.

Will is about to walk out the front door when Hannibal clears his throat. 

“Aren’t you forgetting something, darling?”

“I’m not taking your money,” Will says. 

“Hm, you promised me a kiss,” Hannibal says, raising his eyebrow. 

Will sighs, sets his coffee by the door, and walks across the room. He leans down next to the bed, trying to kiss Hannibal, but Hannibal grabs Will around the waist and pulls him down on top of him. Will just barely drops his bag before it can hit Hannibal in the head. 

“Fuck,” Will yells as he goes down. When he’s settled on top of Hannibal, he looks down at his sleepy face, and says, “Don’t do that.”

“Don’t do what?” Hannibal asks innocently. “Hug you?”

“Don’t grab me and pull me into the bed when I’m carrying things. You’re lucky I already set my coffee down,” Will says. 

“I wouldn’t have done it if you were carrying your coffee, Will.” 

Will kisses Hannibal then attempts to pull away, but Hannibal’s still holding him. 

“You have some time,” Hannibal whispers. His hands travel to cup Will’s ass, pulling him down just as his own hips shift upwards.

“Not enough time for what you’re suggesting,” Will whispers back. He kisses Hannibal again, gives a teasing roll of his hips, then feels Hannibal’s hands slip into his back pockets. “Did you just put money in my pocket?”

“Of course not,” Hannibal says. He lets go of Will, allowing him to get up. “I will see you later, love.” 

Will leaves after that, checks his back pockets on his way out to his car and finds a hundred dollar bill folded inside one of them. 

He sighs and puts it into his wallet before driving to Quantico. 

He gets a text from Hannibal at 9:30 saying the house is locked and the dogs are inside. 

Around noon, Beverly shows up to his lecture hall just as he’s finishing up his slides. 

“He gave me a hundred bucks for lunch,” Will mutters while they’re walking out to his car. “Where did you wanna go?”

“Anywhere is fine with me,” Beverly says. 

So Will picks a nearby restaurant and Beverly sits across from him, looking like she wants to say something. She just keeps looking at him, and he looks back. 

Finally, Will says, “Out with it.”

“Jimmy,” Beverly says. 

“Ah. Yeah Jimmy saw us Saturday night,” Will says with a sigh. “Hannibal didn’t seem too thrilled.”

“And what about you? How thrilled are you?”

“I made us leave right after because it just felt like too big of a risk to be out in public,” Will says. “On one hand I hate having to hide and I wish we could just have a normal relationship, but on the other hand I don’t like people finding out.”

“It’s different telling someone on your own terms than it is them seeing you out together,” Beverly says. “Jimmy isn’t going to tell anyone.”

“I know he’s not. I’m just worried that Hannibal doesn’t believe him,” Will says. “I mean, it’ll look worse for him than it will for me.”

“You know Jack probably won’t actually care, right?”

“Not a risk I’m currently willing to take,” Will answers. “Hannibal has his reasons, too, I’m sure.” 

After lunch, Will is done for the day and heads home after dropping Beverly off at Quantico. 

Will lays down in bed and scrolls through his phone for a while before getting out his laptop and checking his email. 

After a while he starts to doze off and wakes again when the bed dips and an arm comes around his waist. Hannibal kisses Will’s cheek and buries his face in his neck and they fall asleep together without any words. 

Will’s dreams take a different turn than they usually do. This one no longer has him killing Abigail, and it’s not like last night’s when Hannibal got caught and he was pleading for Jack Crawford to let him go.

This nightmare has him facing Hannibal, standing in Hannibal’s kitchen, a knife slicing across his lower abdomen. Gutting him. Just like Abigail did to Nicholas Boyle. Holding him up as he cries out in pain and feels his body tear open. 

Hannibal lets him slump down to the floor as he bleeds out. Will cries, pleading, trying to hold his body together with his hands.

“You should have known,” Hannibal says, his body covered in blood, tears coming down his face. “That my love could only last so long.”

“No, no,” Will pleads. “You can’t mean that. You can’t.” 

“Why do you even care? It’s not as though you feel the same. I’m a monster, Will. I know you don’t love me back,” Hannibal says, leaning down so his mouth is just inches from Will’s.

Will is shaking uncomfortably, there’s too much pressure on his abdomen, it feels like his head is being petted, but he’s stuck on the floor in Hannibal’s kitchen, unable to do anything.

“Will,” Hannibal’s voice says. 

That’s when he wakes up, still somewhat stuck in his dream, sees Hannibal and has to scramble away. Get away. Get away from the man who would try and kill him when his love runs out.

“Love, come here,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will shakes his head and gets out of the bed, takes a look around. He’s in his own house, his bed. Not bleeding on Hannibal’s floor. And Hannibal is watching him with concern in his eyes. 

Breathing heavy, Will digs the heels of his hands into his closed eyes. 

His voice is small when he says, “Tell me you’d never hurt me. Tell me you love me. Please.”

“I love you, and will never intentionally hurt you,” Hannibal says. “Come here. Tell me what happened.”

So Will climbs back into the bed, sits between Hannibal’s legs with his back to Hannibal’s chest, and tells him. 

“I don’t know why I had that dream,” Will whispers when he finishes telling him. He does know. He knows it’s because he doesn’t truly know what Hannibal is capable of, what lengths he’s willing to go to, or if he’ll stick around when Will can’t tell him how he feels. Will knows exactly why he had the dream. Because he’s scared. 

“Last night was the first time I have killed since we began our relationship, and your subconscious is scared of what I am and what I do, even if you don’t believe yourself to be,” Hannibal whispers. “I can assure you that you will never see that side of me unless you choose to. It will never be directed toward you.”

Will nods and turns in Hannibal’s arms so he can kiss him.

“Dinner?” Will asks.

“Of course.”


Hannibal cooks them dinner and watches Will for the remainder of the night. The way he’s hesitant about Hannibal’s touch, the way he flinches when Hannibal picks up a knife to use for dinner preparations. 

Will’s eyes carry an apologetic look after that particular instance, and it’s clear none of it is voluntary. He clearly doesn’t want to be frightened by Hannibal, but he is now. And Hannibal knows that means he needs to blind Will to the Ripper even harder now. Because Will would likely never touch him again if he finds out. 

After dinner, Hannibal stretches out on the couch, an invitation for Will to lay down on top of him, but Will sits down in one of the armchairs instead. It takes an hour of TV before Will finally moves out of the chair and settles down on Hannibal, laying on top of him, his head on Hannibal’s chest.

Hannibal is dozing off when it happens, and makes a confused noise when the man’s weight pushes him into the couch. 

“Will,” he murmurs sleepily. “My love.”

Will doesn’t respond, but he gets his arms under Hannibal to squeeze him tight. Holding on for dear life, it seems. Hannibal rubs his hands up and down Will’s back and kisses the top of his head. 

“I don’t think I want to have a session this week,” Will says after a while. 

Hannibal frowns. “No?”

“No,” Will sighs. “Can I just… come over instead? Spend the night with you?”

“If you would like,” Hannibal murmurs. That’s a relief. He was thinking that Will didn’t want to see him at all, but that’s not the case.

Will nods against his chest and Hannibal hugs him tight. 

Hannibal’s eyes slip shut again at some point, letting Will’s weight on top of him push him into sleep. He wakes again to Will shaking on top of him, sniffles coming from the man. There’s a wet spot on his shirt under Will’s head. 

“Will?” Hannibal whispers. 

Will clears his throat. “Yeah?”

“Are you okay?” Hannibal asks.

“‘m fine,” Will mumbles. He starts getting up, off of Hannibal, but Hannibal just sits up with him, sees the tears drying on his face, his red eyes. 

Hannibal brushes the tears away with his thumbs and leans forward to kiss Will’s forehead. He doesn't think Will is going to tell him the problem, so he doesn’t ask again. He has a feeling the problem is himself, anyway. 

“I’m going to bed,” Will says. “Can you let the dogs out?”

Hannibal pushes Will’s hair away from his face and nods. He watches Will get up from the couch and go into the bathroom. Hannibal gets up and calls the dogs toward the door, putting them outside and standing on the porch with his hands in his pockets. 

Back inside, Will is stripping down to his underwear and crawling into bed just as Hannibal shuts the door behind him.

Will pulls the blankets up over his head. There’s a bottle of aspirin sitting on the nightstand next to an empty glass of water. 

Hannibal takes the glass and refills it in the kitchen before turning off all the lights. Will makes a noise that could almost be ‘thanks,’ when Hannibal sets the refilled glass back down, but he doesn’t emerge from underneath the blankets. Hannibal gets undressed and gets into bed next to him, laying on his side facing him.

He doesn’t expect much, but Will still rolls over and buries his face into Hannibal’s chest. 

“Sorry,” Will whispers. “I’m not upset or anything, my head just hurts really bad.” 

Hannibal kisses his head through the blanket and wraps his arms around him, holding him close. 

“How many classes do you have tomorrow?” Hannibal asks.

“Just the one.”

“Cancel it and sleep in. Your brain is still recovering.”

Will just nods into Hannibal’s chest. 


In the morning, after barely sleeping, Will finds his laptop and cancels his lecture before Hannibal is even awake. He gets back into bed, head still pounding, and drinks the glass of water Hannibal set down the previous night and closes his eyes again.

Hannibal’s alarm goes off and Will sits up, watching as Hannibal rolls out of bed and heads for the shower. He waits a few minutes until he hears the water running before he gets out of bed, kicking his underwear off on the way to the bathroom. 

He knocks, unsure if Hannibal wants company or not, and listens. 

“Come in, darling,” Hannibal's voice calls over the spray of the water. 

Will steps in the bathroom and gets into the shower behind Hannibal. He rests his head against the older man’s back, right between his shoulder blades, and wraps his arms around his waist. 

“Are you feeling any better this morning?” Hannibal asks. 

“No,” Will sighs. 

“Mm. Let me wash your hair for you,” Hannibal says, and spins them around so Will is actually under the spray of the water. He has Will face him, studies his face before saying, “You need to sleep more.”

“Not entirely possible,” Will mumbles. He moans when Hannibal starts massaging shampoo into his scalp, easing some of the tension in his head. “I take naps when I can, but nightmares keep me up. You know that.”

“I could prescribe you something,” Hannibal suggests. 

“No,” Will says, shaking his head. “I’m fine.”

“If you change your mind, let me know.” 

Will shakes his head. He won’t change his mind. He doesn’t want to have to rely on sleeping pills. He doesn’t want Hannibal to get in trouble once their relationship becomes public. He’s not desperate enough for a good night's sleep. 

“Do you have your late appointment tonight?” Will asks. 

“Yes, but I can come over after if you’d like,” Hannibal says. He reaches for the conditioner and works it through Will’s wet curls. Will closes his eyes and nods, then rests his forehead against Hannibal’s chest. 

Will can’t focus on anything but the pain in his head and the hot water flowing down his back. Hannibal’s fingers end up back in his hair, no doubt helping rinse out the conditioner, but Will barely even notices. 

He doesn’t understand how a serial killer can be so gentle and kind to him. It’s been on his mind all night and he’s sure thinking of it is what brought on the headache in the first place. Part of him feels like Hannibal is just putting up a front for him, making him believe he’s actually this caring, just so he can turn on him later.

“Will,” Hannibal whispers. He rubs his hands up and down Will’s back, making soft shushing noises. Will realizes he’s crying again and just wraps his arms around Hannibal’s body and holds on tight. 

One hand leaves Will’s back and the water gets shut off, then Will is being directed out of the shower. 

Hannibal wraps a towel around him, then gently pushes him out of the bathroom and back to the bed. Will crawls in, still wrapped in the towel, hair still wet, and lays down. Hannibal kisses his forehead, then picks up his phone and disappears into the kitchen, just a towel wrapped around his hips. 

Part of Will is screaming that Hannibal is dangerous, that he needs to be turned into the FBI. The other part of Will, the part that’s winning the fight, can’t let Hannibal go. And the internal battle is tearing him apart. 

This just makes him curl up on his side and cry harder, unable to fully rationalize the idea of being in a relationship with a serial killer. Unable to understand why Hannibal is more important to him than all the lives he could be saving instead. The thoughts make his head pound, and his chest clench. 

After a few minutes, Hannibal gets into bed next to Will and pulls him into his chest.

Will takes a shaky breath, clears his throat. “Don’t you have to leave?”

“No,” Hannibal whispers. “I cancelled my appointments today.”

“You didn’t have to do that,” Will protests. 

“I’m worried about you,” Hannibal murmurs. “Would you like to tell me what is troubling you? It’s not just the headache.”

Will shakes his head and buries his face into Hannibal’s chest. Hannibal pulls the towel out from under Will’s body and wraps it around his hair, ruffling it to dry Will like one would with a dog. 

“I’m just being stupid,” Will whispers after a minute.

“I don’t believe that.” 

“It’s not like it changes anything,” Will prefaces. “I mean… What I’m thinking about, it’s not…” 

Will shakes his head and swallows. Hannibal holds him tight, tangles fingers in Will’s hair.

He’s waiting for Will to speak.

“I think I’m just having a hard time wrapping my head around you,” Will finally says. He doesn’t say anything else. It feels dumb, and he doesn’t think he can really explain it in a way that actually matters. 

“Are you having second thoughts?” Hannibal asks. 

“No, no. God no,” Will says. For good measure, “No.”

Hannibal stays silent, waiting. Always waiting because he knows Will is always going to say something else if he just waits. Will knows that’s what he’s doing, and he’s always right.

“I’m with you,” Will says. “For as long as you’ll have me. And that’s what scares me.”

“I’ll have you forever. Is that so scary?”

“No, the scary part is that you could get bored of me, and get rid of me, and add my to your fridge,” Will whispers. He almost hopes Hannibal doesn’t hear any of it, but of course he does.

“Ah,” Hannibal says in understanding. “I won’t kill you.”

“You say that now, but-” Will starts.

Hannibal cuts him off. “No,” he says firmly. Almost raising his voice, but not quite. The tone rattles Will. “Stop with that line of thinking right now.” 

“I can’t shut it off,” Will says. “My job is to get inside the heads of people like you. I know how this can go.”

“You can rest assured knowing that I am not like those other killers,” Hannibal says. 

Will sighs. “I’m just saying. One day I’m going to push too many buttons, or I might let something slip to someone I shouldn’t, and you’re going to kill me for it.”

“Did you ever consider that I could just kill whoever you tell something you shouldn’t?” Hannibal asks. “Instead of you, I mean.”

Will frowns but doesn’t answer that. Instead he says, “I think I’m having a hard time with how gentle and… loving you are with me.”

“Would you prefer I wasn’t?” Hannibal asks.

“I don’t know. I know it’s not you,” Will mumbles. 

“It’s me when I am with you,” Hannibal says. “I am capable of violence, yes. I am capable of love, too.” 

“How long can you keep the violence under the surface? You’re bound to crack,” Will says. He rolls away from Hannibal and stares up at the ceiling. “I know there’s a monster in you. It bothers me that I haven’t seen it.”

“It’s the uncertainty that bothers you,” Hannibal says. “Come with me next time I kill. See for yourself.”

“And then I’ll just have a real reason to be scared of you. At least with uncertainty I can pretend you’re someone you’re not.”

“Who I am with you now is who I will always be with you,” Hannibal says. He pushes Will’s hair out of his eyes and kisses his forehead. “Your hair is getting long.”

“Yeah, I'll get a haircut soon,” Will mumbles.

“Not too short, I hope,” Hannibal says. 

He can tell Hannibal likes his curls, likes knotting his fingers in them, likes being able to push them out of Will’s face because it’s an excuse to touch him. Will wonders how Hannibal would feel if he got his hair cut really short. He wonders if Hannibal will kill him if he shaves his head. He wants to test the theory, if he’s being honest. Just to prove a point. 

“No, not too short,” Will lies. He rolls over and pushes Hannibal so he can sit on top of him. He looks down at him for a minute, trying to decide where he wants to go from here. 

“Mm. Yes, Will?” Hannibal asks, raising an eyebrow. He runs his hands up Will’s bare thighs.

Will leans forward and kisses Hannibal, hands on either side of his head. 

“I thought you weren’t feeling well this morning,” Hannibal says against Will’s lips.

“I’m fine, and I’m tired of talking,” Will says, and kisses Hannibal again. “And we haven’t had sex in a while.” 

“Yes, if I recall, you fell asleep last time we tried,” Hannibal says with a smile. He rolls them both over and holds himself up on his hands, hips grinding down slowly. Will pushes his hips up, his cock coming to attention as it drags against Hannibal’s. “What would you like?” 

“Anything. Just make me come, and maybe I’ll be able to sleep,” Will says. 

“As I said, I can prescribe you something,” Hannibal murmurs. He kisses Will’s neck and rolls his hips. 

“An orgasm will do just fine,” Will says. 

“Anything?” Hannibal asks, picking up on Will’s answer. He raises an eyebrow. 

“Maybe not anything, but I trust you to judge that,” Will says. “I don’t care. Fuck me if you want.”

“I cannot believe I told my patients I was having a family emergency just for you to be completely fine now,” Hannibal says. “And demanding sex, no less.” 

“I’m not demanding,” Will protests. “And I didn’t ask you to stay home.”

“No, I suppose you’re right on both accounts,” Hannibal says. 

Hannibal pushes himself up and crawls across the mattress to open the nightstand drawer on Will’s side of the bed. Will spreads his legs so Hannibal can settle on his knees between them. 

Just as Hannibal starts to push a slick finger into Will, there’s a knock on the front door. Loud, pounding knock. 

“You have got to be kidding me,” Will groans. “Maybe if we ignore them, they’ll go away?” 

Will turns his head toward the door, where the dogs are milling about, sniffing at the door and barking.

“Shit!” Will yells. He pushes Hannibal’s hand away, his fingers slipping out of him and he sits up. He scrambles off the bed and pulls on a pair of underwear from the floor, then Hannibal’s robe that he keeps next to the bed. “The curtains are open. You need to hide.” 

“Whoever it is might see me if I run upstairs,” Hannibal says. 

“Uhh,” Will says, thinking as he looks around. Then he pushes Hannibal’s down on the mattress and pulls a blanket over his head. “Pretend to be asleep.” 

Will adjusts himself in his underwear (which he realizes are actually Hannibal’s), pulls the robe around himself and goes to the door. 

“Jack,” Will says when he opens it. The dogs run outside the second the storm door is unlatched. “I wasn’t expecting you.”

“You weren’t at Quantico today and your phone kept going straight to voicemail. Can I come in? I had a few things I wanted to discuss with you,” Jack says. 

Will glances toward Hannibal laying unmoving under the blankets. 

“I’m, uh,” Will looks back at Jack. “My partner’s here. Sleeping.” 

“Oh,” Jack says, curiosity on his face. 

“We can go in the kitchen if we’re quiet,” Will suggests. “Sorry, rough morning for both of us.”

“Is everything okay?” Jack asks. 

Will moves out of the doorway to let Jack in, and gestures toward the kitchen. Will glances over at Hannibal pretending to sleep, laying on his stomach under the blankets. He hopes Jack doesn’t look too hard and notice that Will’s partner is the exact height and build as Will’s psychiatrist. 

“Yeah,” Will says, thinking fast. He comes up with a fake story to throw Jack entirely off Hannibal’s trail. “He works nights, and has loud roommates at home, so he comes here to sleep during the day sometimes, and I’ve been having headaches, so that’s why I stayed home today.” 

“How has your health been otherwise? I know you’re doing less lectures now than normal,” Jack says, sitting down at the kitchen table. 

“I’ve been fine. Headaches come and go. Last night and this morning were especially bad,” Will shrugs. 

“I wanted to see how you’re feeling about fieldwork.”

“I was considering coming back after Christmas,” Will says. He goes to the coffee maker and starts brewing a pot. He stands next to it, pulling the robe tighter and tying it better. The underwear he’s wearing keeps slipping down from his hips. He crosses his arms over his chest so the robe can’t come untied and fall open, like it keeps threatening to do. 

He doesn’t need Jack to see him in silk boxer briefs. 

“That works for us,” Jack nods. “I’m assuming Doctor Lecter told you about the arrangement we have planned.”

“Yeah, he told me he’s babysitting me on cases for the time being,” Will sighs. “Do you think it’s necessary?”

“Him and I both agreed it would be a good idea,” Jack says. “It’ll be better for you. I know you feel comfortable with him.”

You have no idea, Will thinks. 

“Yeah, I guess so,” Will says instead. He pours himself a cup of coffee, then offers one to Jack who shakes his head. 

“I’ll let you get back to bed,” Jack says. “Hope you feel better. I’ll call about any cases after Christmas. And plug in your phone.”

“Yeah, yeah. Maybe I let it die so people can’t contact me, ever think of that?” Will asks, only half joking, as he walks Jack to the door. Last night, he really wasn’t himself and was thinking more about wanting to die because of the pounding in his head than he was about plugging in his phone. 

Jack smiles, then opens the front door and leaves, letting Will shut it behind him after the dogs come back inside.

Will shuts all the curtains on the ground level of the house, then fills all the dogs bowls with food, deciding they’re good for the morning. He goes back into the living room and sighs. He’s really tired now.

Hannibal throws the blanket off of him and sits up, opening his arms for Will to come back to bed. Will takes off the robe, then pushes down the underwear and gets into the bed. 

“There’s coffee,” Will mumbles, crawling into Hannibal’s lap, facing him, his legs straightened out on either side of Hannibal’s hips. 

“If you’re trying to go back to sleep then you should not be drinking coffee, darling,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will’s jaw, then his cheek, then his lips. “But I have other things in mind for now.”

“I don’t think I’m in the mood anymore,” Will says with a sigh. “Kind of a boner killer to talk about fieldwork with my boss.” 

“Mm. Okay,” Hannibal says. “If you change your mind, I will be here all day.”

Will laughs and gets out of Hannibal’s lap. He lays down next to him, pulling the blankets to his shoulders. Hannibal lays down too, and reaches out to push Will’s hair away from his eyes just as he always does. 

They end up falling asleep at some point, Will laying completely on top of Hannibal, Hannibal’s arms around him. 

At some point during the day, they both wake up, half-hard, and Will sits up and takes both of their cocks in one hand, stroking them until they both come. Moaning each other’s names, leaving a mess on Hannibal’s stomach. 

Without cleaning up, Will collapses on Hannibal’s body again and falls asleep. When he wakes up again, he’s on his back, and cleaned up, and Hannibal is nowhere to be seen. 

He gets up, pulls on underwear and a t-shirt and goes into the kitchen. Hannibal is sitting at the kitchen table with a book and a cup of coffee, in nothing but his underwear. 

“Good morning,” Hannibal says when Will walks in. “Or should I say almost evening?”

“What time is it?” Will asks with a yawn. 

“Nearly four pm.”

“Shit. Slept all day?” 

Hannibal nods. “I took care of the dogs and made fresh coffee. I’ll start dinner soon, but there’s options if you want something light before that.”

Will heads over to the coffee machine and pours himself a mug. “How long have you been up?” 

“An hour. Maybe a bit longer,” Hannibal shrugs. “I showered again, as well.”

“Yeah, you wiped me down without waking me up,” Will says. “I guess you’d have experience cleaning up limp bodies.”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. He doesn’t say anything else on the subject. 

“I told Jack you’re my partner that works nights and has loud roommates which is why you were sleeping here,” Will says when he sits down. “So he probably thinks I’m either dating a stripper or a grave digger.” 

“Will, my love, there are plenty of other night jobs besides those,” Hannibal says with a fond smile. “Such as an emergency room surgeon. Like I used to be.”

Will smiles. “Right. Well. So he thinks I have a doctor boyfriend, which is the exact opposite of what I wanted him to think.”

“Perhaps he does think I am a stripper. We will never know,” Hannibal says. He reaches out and squeezes Will’s hand. “Don’t worry, my love.”

“Okay. Okay,” Will nods.  “I’m going back into the field after Christmas.”

Hannibal nods. “Are you looking forward to it?”

“No,” Will answers. “You’ll be there, though.”

“Yes, I will,” Hannibal says. “For as long as you need me. How would you feel about me tipping off the location of that mass burial site?”

Will squeezes Hannibal’s hand. “Only if you’re sure there’s nothing there that can link back to you.”

“I’m sure,” Hannibal answers. He lifts Will’s hand to kiss his knuckles. “I can even point you in the correct direction of the man who uses the site.”

“As long as it’s not obvious,” Will says. 

“I have a plan. I always do.”

Will trusts him enough that he just nods and hopes Hannibal isn’t about to fuck up their entire lives. 

Hannibal starts dinner a little bit after that, neither of them bothering to get dressed. They end up back in bed after, finishing what they started before Jack showed up. 

Will lays out on the bed, legs open with Hannibal between them. Hannibal stretches him open with his fingers before slowly pushing his cock in. 

Hannibal leans forward and rests his forehead against Will’s and Will closes his eyes, letting Hannibal take the time he wants to take. Strong arms end up making their way underneath Will’s body and holding him tight as Hannibal begins a slow rock of his hips.

Will opens his eyes when something warm and wet falls in his face. 

“Baby, what’s wrong?” Will asks. He wipes the tears away from Hannibal’s eyes, tilts his chin up and kisses him.

Hannibal shakes his head. “Nothing.”

“Hannibal. Tell me.” 

“I don’t deserve you,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will’s forehead, then his nose. “You’re scared of me, yet you open yourself up to me both in a physical sense like now, but in a mental capacity as well. Despite all your fear, you let me hold you in my arms and sleep in your bed, and make love to you, and I do not deserve that.”

“Yes, you do. Because I care about you and because you’re good to me,” Will whispers. “I believe you when you say you aren’t going to hurt me, okay? You deserve to be happy.”

Hannibal kisses him again, and again and again. 

When they both finish, and get cleaned up, Will sits against the headboard and pulls Hannibal toward him to sit between his legs, back against his chest. 

“Stop saying you don’t deserve me,” Will whispers into his ear. “Stop thinking that way.”

Hannibal turns his face so he can kiss Will’s cheek, then tilts his head back to rest against Will’s shoulder. 

“Hey,” Will says after a few minutes of silence. 

“Hm?” 

“I’m not going to come over tomorrow night, if that’s okay,” Will says. “I actually have some work to do, and I think I’ll schedule a haircut for tomorrow evening. It would be too much time to leave the dogs on their own.”

“I can come over tomorrow night,” Hannibal offers. 

Will shakes his head. “We’ll see each other Friday for dinner with Alana, right?”

“Yes. You’ll spend the night?”

“Yes,” Will says. He turns his face so he can kiss Hannibal’s cheek. Will sighs, and says, “You've been here all week and I like having you here, but I’m used to having time alone.”

“Of course, Will. You could have just said that,” Hannibal says. “I do understand the need for personal space.” 

“I know but last time you got weird about it,” Will says quietly. “We should go to bed.”

“I will not get ‘weird’ about it this time,” Hannibal says, and Will can hear the quotes around the word ‘weird’ without Hannibal making the air quotes with his fingers. He wonders if Hannibal would even do air quotes like that. The thought makes him smile.

Hannibal gets out from between Will’s legs and they lay on their sides facing each other.

“So, Friday we’re having dinner and on Saturday…” Will says.

“Whatever you would like. Christmas Eve is Monday. Did you decide if we’re spending it here or my house?” 

“Here, I think. If you’re okay with that,” Will says. “Saturday, actually… Would you mind helping me bring the bed upstairs?”

“Of course.”

“Thanks. We cut it real close this morning. I like being able to see the ground level of my house, and being close to the dogs, but after Jack almost saw you…” Will sighs. “Plus it would be nice to be able to shut the door every time we want to have sex without the dogs watching us, or trying to get in the bed.”

Hannibal smiles. “You can always bring your old bed down here and sleep downstairs if you feel the need to be down here.”

Will nods. “We can do that Saturday, then.” 

“Friday night in Baltimore, Saturday, Monday and Tuesday here?”

“You can be here on Sunday, too,” Will says. He yawns, and his eyes are getting tired. “When do you get back to work after Christmas?”

“I have my office closed until the second of January, but I may take some calls from patients during that time,” Hannibal answers. 

Sleepily, Will says, “Just stay here all week then.” 

“I’m having a New Year’s Eve party at home. I’ll have to prepare for that a few days before.”

“Like… ‘murder’ prepare or just…”

“No, love. Just getting my house clean and ready for guests.” Hannibal reaches out and pushes Will’s hair away from his eyes. Eyes that keep getting heavier each time he blinks. “We can talk about it this weekend. You’re invited, but there’ll be a lot of people in attendance.”

Will nods and rolls closer to Hannibal, burying his face in his chest. “I’ll come, but I won’t have fun.” 

“Jack will be there,” Hannibal adds.

“So no kiss at midnight. Got it.” 

“Maybe if he looks away,” Hannibal jokes. “Sleep, Will.” 

Will hums, then whispers, “Goodnight.” 


In the morning, Will gets up first, tending to the dogs while Hannibal lays back on the bed and watches him. Will wears one of Hannibal’s sweaters and nothing else while he stands by the door, waiting for the dogs to come back. The only barrier between Will and the cold is the storm door. Even Hannibal can feel the air coming in from across the room and under the blankets. 

“Shut the door,” Hannibal says. “Get back in bed with me. Or we can go shower.”

Will just turns and glares at him before turning back to watch the dogs through the screen. His arms are crossed in front of his chest and Hannibal can see him shivering, but he stays where he is in front of the door. 

Hannibal sighs, gets up and crosses the room naked. He pulls Will away from the door, shuts it, then scoops him up into his arms. 

“Hannibal!” Will yells.

Hannibal carries him off towards the shower. 

“The dogs are fine out there for now. You are going to get sick if you stand in front of the door in nothing but a sweater. And I would like a shower with you this morning,” Hannibal lists off. 

“They’re probably ready to come in,” Will tells him as Hannibal sets him to the floor. 

“Get in the shower,” Hannibal says, pulling the sweater off of Will’s body and pushing him in the direction of the shower. “I will go let them in.” 

“You’re being weird this morning,” Will mumbles as Hannibal steps into the hall again. Hannibal doesn’t think he was supposed to hear it, but he still did. 

Truth be told, Hannibal is well aware that he’s being overbearing this morning. He finds himself wanting to be close to Will, would shove him in his pocket and carry him all day if he could. With the cancellation of both Will’s appointment, and then their other plans for the night, Hannibal finds himself… clingy. 

He gets the dogs inside and nearly runs back to the bathroom, eager to have Will back in his arms for just another few minutes if he can’t do it tonight. 

Hannibal steps into the shower behind Will and wraps his arms around the smaller man, pulling him tight against his chest. 

“What is your problem this morning?” Will asks. His tone is harsh, but there's clearly an attempt to sound lighthearted. It just doesn’t entirely come across that way. He pulls himself out of Hannibal’s arms and Hannibal lets him go, a frown on his face as he watches Will reach for his soap.

“Am I not allowed to hug you?” Hannibal asks after a moment. 

“You can, but it’s like you’re scared you’re about to lose me or something,” Will sighs. “You didn’t want me standing on the other side of the room for five minutes, you carried me to the bathroom, you ran to let the dogs in. What’s going on?”

“I just love you,” Hannibal says. “Isn’t that reason enough?”

He doesn’t want to tell Will about how he’s thinking about how he’ll miss him tonight. Or how he wants Will to be with him at all times and never see nor talk to another person that isn’t Hannibal himself again. He wants Will to have time for him and only him, all the time. He doesn’t say any of that. Because he knows that’s not healthy behavior. He wants it that way, won’t stop wanting it that way, but he does still know it’s not necessarily good. Just like murder. 

“I guess,” Will says. “Wash my hair?” 

Hannibal smiles and grabs the shampoo. He loves this part. Loves tangling his fingers in Will’s hair, washing his curls for him. Loves the sounds Will makes when Hannibal massages his scalp. Quiet moans that he’s not sure Will is even aware of.

He hopes Will doesn’t get his hair cut too short. He would be so disappointed if they couldn’t have mornings like this, if he couldn’t knot his fingers in Will’s hair, or push it from his eyes. The way Will looks at him every time he does - either grateful, or annoyed, no in between - is always endearing. 

When the conditioner is rinsed out of Will’s hair, Will turns and pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal. Hannibal wraps an arm around Will’s back and pulls him close. 

Will buries his face in Hannibal's neck and holds onto him and for a few minutes they just cling onto each other in the shower. 

Hannibal reaches around Will and shuts off the water. They each take turns in the bathroom after that, then get dressed and have breakfast. 

“I’ll see you tomorrow, okay?” Will says when they get to his car. Hannibal kisses him once, then twice, then nods. 

“Come over around six,” Hannibal says. “Alana is supposed to arrive at six thirty.”

“I might not be able to make it until six thirty,” Will frowns. “I have lectures until four. Forty five minutes to get home. An hour to you, but there’ll be traffic around that time, so maybe longer. And I have to take care of the dogs, and-”

Will is rambling, a frantic and apologetic tone in his voice and Hannibal cuts him off with a kiss. 

“Arrive when you can,” he says. “Dinner won’t be until seven.”

Will nods and after that they part ways. 

Hannibal has an appointment with Franklyn Froideveux today. The man, who has been possibly stalking him, that he told Will about. 

He sits across from the short round man, who is currently sobbing and reaching a hand out for Hannibal’s box of kleenex. Hannibal hands it over and watches Franklyn pluck one out of the box, loudly and rudely blow his nose, then crumble up the tissue and set it on the table next to him. 

Hannibal’s nose crinkles in disgust no matter how hard he tries to make it not. 

Had Will not cancelled tonight, this would be much more bearable. He would have something to look forward to. But instead, this is just how the day is going to go. 

“Franklyn, as I said before, I am your psychiatrist. Not your friend,” Hannibal finds himself repeating for the third time this session. “Of course you would like for me to be your friend, I have intimate knowledge of you. But, be that as it may, you pay me to have that knowledge and provide therapy for it.”

“I wish I didn’t have to pay to see you!” Franklyn exclaims. “We would be such great friends, maybe even something else. We like all the same things-”

“Ah, unfortunately that concludes your hour, Franklyn,” Hannibal says, checking his watch. It’s a few minutes before time, but he cannot bear to have Franklyn keep talking. 

He directs Franklyn to the door and immediately goes to his desk to pull his cell phone out of the drawer. Without even thinking, he calls Will. It rings several times before Will answers and Hannibal comes back to himself, remembering Will is at work and could be teaching. 

But Will answers. A concerned sounding, “Hannibal, what’s up?” 

“I apologize if you’re busy, I’m afraid I called without thinking,” Hannibal says. 

“No, no, I’m between lectures. I was just talking to Jack for a minute and couldn’t answer until he left my office,” Will says. “Are you okay?”

“Yes, yes I’m,” Hannibal swallows. “I’m fine. I should let you go.”

“Hannibal,” Will says. “You’re worrying me, baby. What’s going on?” 

“I’m just a bit flustered,” Hannibal explains. “I should not be telling you this, but that patient I told you about… do you remember him?”

“Yes…” Will says slowly. “The cheese guy with the crush on you.”

“Him, yes. I showed him out the door five minutes early today because he was suggesting he wants a romantic relationship with me,” Hannibal says quietly. “Well, more than suggesting, really.”

“What did he do?” Will asks. There’s anger there. Possessiveness. 

“Nothing, nothing, love. He just said he wants to be friends, or something else because we like the same things, and I quite rudely cut him off,” Hannibal says. “I called you without even thinking because of how it bothered me.” 

“Can you- can you refer him to someone else?” Will asks. 

“I fear that would give him the wrong idea at this point,” Hannibal sighs. “I would be better off getting him arrested so he can no longer stalk me, either.”

“Well,” Will sighs. “I guess you can try. I don’t know how well it would work if he hasn’t actually done anything.” 

“I’ll keep treating him until it gets to be too much,” Hannibal decides. He could always find a way to kill him if necessary. “I should let you get back to work.”

“I don’t have anything to do for an hour,” Will says. “You’re still bothered by this, I can tell. You can keep talking to me if you want.” 

Hannibal settles back in his chair, tips his head against the backrest and sighs. “Yes. Okay. Tell me how your day has been. What did Jack want?” 

“Just to see how I’m doing,” Will says. “Make sure yesterday was just a fluke and that I’m not still sick.”

“Hm. You are feeling better today, yes?” Hannibal asks. He opens his appointment book to see when Will’s next brain scan is. Not until after New Years. “You have another appointment on the sixth.”

“Yeah, I’m fine today. Are you coming with me for that?” 

“I was planning on it. I wrote it down so I wouldn’t forget.”

“Thanks. I don’t like being alone with Sutcliffe.”

“No, I don’t blame you for that,” Hannibal says. 

He wonders if he could kill Sutcliffe as his next non-Ripper kill. Get rid of him after Will’s next scan. The inflammation should be cleared up by then, as long as Will is still taking his prescriptions as directed. 

“Are you sure I can’t see you tonight?” Hannibal asks. 

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “I’ll see you tomorrow and all week. You can go one night without me.”

“Will you at least send me a picture after you get your haircut tonight?” Hannibal asks. 

“No. You can see it tomorrow. It won’t be anything special,” Will laughs. There’s a noise in the background of Will’s end, then Will says, “Hold on, someone’s at my office door. I’ll call you back?” 

“I have an appointment soon, but I will call tonight,” Hannibal says. “Goodbye, love.” 

“Bye, baby,” Will says. 

Hannibal smiles to himself while he looks over the notes for his next patient, recalling what they talked about the previous week. 

The rest of the day is boring, and Hannibal is counting down the hours until he can go home and call Will back. 

When he finally sits down in his study with a glass of wine and his sketchbook after dinner, he picks up his phone and calls. 

He puts pencil to paper while he talks to Will, mindlessly sketching on the page. 

“The dogs are being a pain in my ass tonight,” Will says. There’s barking in the background, Hannibal can hear Will’s feet shuffling around the house, then the sound of the front door opening. He yells, “Go out, then!”

There’s just more barking and the sound of nails clicking on the hardwood floor. A loud sigh, then the door shuts again. 

“Seriously, they’ve eaten, they don't want to go out, they aren’t interested in playing. No idea what’s going on with them,” Will says. 

Hannibal smiles and looks down at his drawing. It’s clearly Will’s eyes, there’s no doubt about it. Sleepy. He thinks of Will’s whole face when he looks sleepy like that and starts to really focus on what he’s drawing, rather than absentminded doodling. 

“They miss me,” Hannibal says. 

“I’m sure,” Will says sarcastically. “Or they’re just excited my attention is actually on them.” 

“Or that,” Hannibal agrees. “What did you have for dinner tonight?”

“If you must know,” Will says. “I had Kraft mac and cheese.”

“Not my first choice of cuisine, but as long as you like it, then I cannot judge,” Hannibal says. 

“No you cannot. I’d ask what you had, but it’s probably a language I don’t speak,” Will laughs. 

Hannibal smiles. “You’d be correct. What are you doing now?”

“Sitting down on the couch with a glass of whiskey and the dogs still pacing around the room,” Will says. “Might watch the news.”

“Hm, an interesting night then,” Hannibal says. 

“What are you doing?”

“Drawing you. Drinking a glass of wine.”

“Do you draw me a lot? I’ve never seen you do it.”

“If the mood strikes,” Hannibal answers. Honestly, though, he has pages filled with drawings of Will. Most from memory, but some of Will while he’s sleeping. He doesn’t tell Will this, for fear he won’t like that type of attention.  “What else did you do today?”

“I got your Christmas present, actually. That’s why I didn’t want you to come over, really.”

“Oh,” Hannibal says. “I haven’t gotten you anything yet.”

“You don’t have to get me anything,” Will says. “You get me enough as it is.”

“No, no. I’ll leave you for a few hours on Sunday to get your gift,” Hannibal says.

Will yawns on the other end of the line, and Hannibal knows he’s tired. Only staying awake to talk to Hannibal. 

“Go to sleep. I’ll see you tomorrow,” Hannibal says. “I should get ready for bed, as well.”

They say goodnight to each other and hang up. 

The next day drags on for Hannibal. He only has a few appointments, but he can’t think of anything besides Will during them, and he knows that’s a problem. Bedelia would definitely tell him he’s obsessed with Will Graham. Of course, she would be right. 

He gets home and changes into a white button down and gray pants, out of his dark blue plaid suit that he wore to the office. He knows Will likes him dressed down, so of course he has to indulge. He combs his hair so it’s no longer slicked back with gel, but rather falling into his face. Again, how Will likes him. 

Alana arrives first, ten minutes early, and he helps her out of her coat, hanging it up in the hall closet. 

“You are just in time to help me with dinner,” Hannibal says with a smile. “Will is going to be joining us tonight, as well.”

“Oh, really?” Alana asks, somewhat surprised.

“Yes, we had a few things to discuss with you, but I would prefer to wait until he arrives.”

“Yeah, of course,” Alana says. 

Hannibal gets her an apron and a glass of the beer he brews for her, and directs her toward a stack of vegetables to chop. 

They talk about nothing in particular while they wait. 

“I think I will tell Will to just let himself in when he gets here,” Hannibal says after a while, taking out his phone to text Will. “That way I do not need to worry about anything burning.”

After a few more minutes, nearing quarter to seven at this point, the front door opens and shuts. After another minute, Will walks into the kitchen and Hannibal’s jaw drops. 

“Your hair!” Alana exclaims. 

Just as Hannibal hisses in pain because he cut his finger with the knife in his hand. 

Will runs a hand over his buzzed head, a sheepish smile on his face. Neither seem to notice that Hannibal is bleeding out. He rinses his finger under the sink and assesses the damage done. A bandage will be just fine, but he’ll have to throw out what he was cutting up, which is unfortunate. The cut of meat was a particularly good one. 

When he looks up Alana is rubbing her hand over Will’s scalp and Hannibal has to grip the counter to make himself not react. 

Hannibal clears his throat. “Will, would you assist me in setting the table?”

“Sure,” Will smiles. 

Hannibal hands him a stack of plates and picks up glasses and cutlery himself, following Will into the dining room. 

“What did you do?” Hannibal laments, looking at Will’s hair. “It’s so short.”

“I like it,” Will shrugs. “Don’t you?”

Hannibal sighs. “Your head is going to get cold. We will talk about it later.”

Will laughs once, shaking his head. “Sure.”

He picks up Hannibal’s hand, looks at the cut on Hannibal’s fingertip, then brings it to his lips, pressing a kiss to the wound. 

“Are you upset with me?” Will asks, an innocent look on his face. 

Ah. Hannibal thinks. “You’re testing me.” 

Will smirks and walks back into the kitchen, leaving Hannibal to finish setting the table on his own. 

“I think it suits you,” Alana is saying when Hannibal walks back into the kitchen. There’s a flirtatious smile on her face, and Hannibal has to ignore it. 

He opens a cupboard and pulls down a first aid kit, putting a bandaid on his finger, and going back to his cutting board. He’s lucky that most of the meat was already cut and put off to the side, and he throws away what is contaminated by his own blood. 

It’s not as though it matters that much seeing as he’s already feeding his guests human meat, but he wants to keep up appearances. Not that Alana’s attention is focused on him, and not that Will would care at all. 

“You may go sit in the dining room,” Hannibal says. “I’ll bring dinner out momentarily.” 

Hannibal brings out dinner, sits down at the head of the table, with Alana and Will on either side of him. 

“Will and I were hoping to discuss the idea of taking Abigail out of the facility,” Hannibal says after a few minutes of eating in silence. 

“And she wants to go to school abroad- which, I believe me and Hannibal would be more than okay with splitting the cost of,” Will says. 

Hannibal looks at him, but doesn’t say anything about how Hannibal plans on covering the entire cost of her schooling. 

“And where is she going to live before that?” Alana asks. 

“Here,” Hannibal answers. “I have more than enough room. She’ll be close to the city here. She will have freedom to come and go, but she will always have a place to stay here.”

“Is she comfortable with that arrangement?” Alana asks. “Is she going to have a car? A job?”

“I said I’d buy her a car as long as she doesn’t do Freddie’s book,” Will says. “And if she ever wants to stay with me instead of Hannibal, she can.”

“And we can help her look for apartments if that’s what she chooses instead,” Hannibal adds. “She will not be alone.”

“I still don’t know if she’s ready.”

“She’s being punished for her father’s crimes, Alana,” Hannibal says. He sets his knife down, and wipes his face with his napkin. “She has trauma and being surrounded by people who only talk about what is wrong with them cannot be helping her at all.”

“She needs a controlled environment,” Alana counters. 

“She will never be able to live in the real world if she stays in that facility,” Will says. “We’re all fucked up, and we’re just all doing just fine.” 

“She’s only nineteen. She’s seen far more than any nineteen year old can effectively handle on their own,” Alana says. 

“I’m a psychiatrist, Alana. Just like you. I can provide a stable environment for her, just like that facility, but the difference is that I will allow her the opportunity to grow,” Hannibal says. “Keeping her there will just force her to stay as she is, never move on from what has happened.” 

Alana sighs. “We take her out for a few days, but keep her room open there. If she doesn’t adjust well, then she goes back.”

“A trial run,” Will says. 

“A trial run,” Alana agrees. 

Hannibal smiles at both of them. 

After dinner, Hannibal offers dessert, but Alana shakes her head. “I have to get going, actually.”

“Of course,” Hannibal nods. “More for Will and I, then.”

The second Alana is out the door, Hannibal locks it and walks briskly back to the kitchen. He finds Will leaning against the counter, dessert bowl in hand already, eating the ice cream Hannibal had in the freezer. 

“I had toppings for that,” Hannibal says. 

Will shrugs and puts another spoonful in his mouth. 

“Did you shave your head to see if I would get mad?” Hannibal asks. 

Will doesn’t answer, just watches him while he eats his ice cream. 

“Did you think I would hurt you?” Hannibal asks. “You had this idea the other morning, didn’t you? Right after we talked about how I would never hurt you. You are purposefully testing me on this.”

“No idea what you’re talking about,” Will says. 

Hannibal sighs and crosses the kitchen to stand in front of Will. Will tenses for a second as Hannibal gets into his space, then relaxes. Surely an attempt to seem like he was not just frightened by Hannibal’s quick movements. 

“It’s just hair,” Hannibal says. He lifts a hand to rub across the prickly hair. “But, oh how I loved your curls.”

“They’ll grow back,” Will says. 

“I am aware. Which is why I cannot be upset about this,” Hannibal says. “I will miss your hair, though.”

“I know, baby.”

“Am I the only reason you’ve done this?” Hannibal asks. 

“No, of course not. I like it. Alana says it suits me.”

“Alana was flirting with you tonight,” Hannibal says. “What is to be done about that?”

“I could be like you and wait until she tries to make a move before I reject her,” Will suggests. 

Will sets the ice cream bowl on the counter behind him, then puts his fingers through Hannibal’s belt loops to pull him forward. Hannibal puts his hands on Will’s cheeks, then runs one to cradle the back of his head. Nothing to tangle his fingers into. Nothing to push away from Will’s face. Instead he pushes Will’s glasses up so they sit more properly on his nose, instead of hanging off. 

“You haven’t gotten to kiss me all night,” Will says, an eyebrow raised. 

“Or yesterday because you were too busy cutting off all of your beautiful hair,” Hannibal says. He leans forward and kisses Will softly, just once. “You should pull your car into the garage.”

Hannibal goes to a drawer and pulls out an opener for his garage door, handing it to Will. He says, “This is yours.”

While Will is outside, Hannibal gets a text from Alana. 

Made a few calls. Abigail can leave as soon as tomorrow. Let me know what works for you.

Will comes back inside and shakes his head. “Alana is still sitting outside your house. I can’t bring my car in yet.”

“She was making some calls and just texted me saying Abigail can leave tomorrow,” Hannibal says. “I believe I’ll say that works. We can take her shopping for some clothes not chosen by Alana.” 

Hannibal sends back a message saying he’ll pick her up tomorrow. 

Both men go and stand in the front of the house, watching between the curtains until Alana finally drives away. Will sighs in relief and goes out to pull his car into the garage for the night. 

“It has been a long day,” Will says when he comes back into the kitchen from the mud room. He sets his car keys down on the kitchen counter, then goes to a cupboard to pull down a glass. He fills it with water from the sink. 

“Should we go to bed?” Hannibal asks. 

“You aren’t tired,” Will says. “We can sit in the study if you want.”

“If you’d like to go up to bed, I have no problem with joining you.”

Will shakes his head. “I’ll lay on the couch if you want to read or draw.” 

“Will. I want to lay in bed with you,” Hannibal says. “Come on.”

Will just nods then follows Hannibal up the stairs to his bedroom. 

“You didn’t bring a bag?” Hannibal asks. 

“I have my phone charger in my pocket, and you have clothes here for me, don’t you?” Will asks. 

“Yes, I do.”

“Well, then I didn’t need a bag.”

Hannibal flips the switch on the fireplace, then goes into the bathroom. 

When he comes out, Will is laying naked on top of the blankets. Hannibal quickly strips off his clothes, puts them into his laundry basket, then goes to join Will on the bed. Hannibal lays on his stomach next to Will, and Will turns his head to look at him. 

“Do you actually like my haircut?”

“I would like any haircut on you, my love. Your hair is not the reason I am with you,” Hannibal says. He moves closer so he can kiss Will’s cheek. “And I know you were expecting me to be upset, for whatever reason, but I would prefer if you trust me when I say that the way I am is the way I will always be toward you.”

“You do understand why I have doubts, though right?” Will sighs. 

“Of course I understand,” Hannibal says. 

He gets up and shuts off all the lights before going back to the bed and getting under the blankets. 

“Are you going to lay on top of the covers all night or are you going to join me?” Hannibal asks. 

Will gets up, peels back the covers and slides under them, then curls around Hannibal’s body and rests his head on Hannibal’s chest. 

“Abigail has a driver’s license, right?” Will asks. 

“Yes, she does,” Hannibal answers. 

“Then we pick her up in the morning, give her a bunch of cash and my car keys and let her buy what she needs for your house,” Will says. “We can take your car to Wolf Trap to take care of the dogs while she does that. Maybe she can come to my house for lunch, too. I don’t think she’s ever met the dogs.”

Hannibal rubs Will’s head and says, “Okay.”

Will kisses Hannibal’s chest and wraps an arm around his torso. Will falls asleep after that, leaving Hannibal to stare at the ceiling in the dark. Thinking about how certain Will must have been that Hannibal would become violent over something as simple as a haircut. He doesn’t want Will to be scared of him, but it seems that’s where they have ended up. 

He knows he needs to keep proving himself to Will, keep proving that his love is true, and that this side of him is real. He rubs his hand over Will’s short hair again, and again. Will wakes after a while. 

“Stop that,” he mumbles. 

Hannibal smiles and wraps his arms around Will’s back instead, holding him close while he tries to fall asleep.

Notes:

Let me know if you’re still reading!! And let me know what you think, of course!

Also my friend Kaira said not to shave Will’s head, so I was like “well now I’m just going to shave it harder,” so sorry Kaira. And everyone else. I mentioned a few chapters ago that his hair was getting too long. I couldn’t just leave that hanging (I really could have, though).

Chapter 15

Notes:

Quick warning that Hannibal commits a murder and stages it as a suicide. I’m not at all graphic in explaining it, but I want people to be aware of that and prepared beforehand.

Chapter Text

The next morning, they do everything as Will had laid it out the night before. 

Abigail is so happy she’s finally getting out of the facility, hugs them both when they tell her the news. She packs up all of her belongings and practically skips out of the building. 

Hannibal hands her a stack of cash and Will’s mouth drops open as he watches her count it in the back seat. 

“Don’t feel the need to spend it all,” Will says. 

“Or if it’s not enough for everything, just let me know and I will take you out sometime this coming week,” Hannibal says.

They drop her off at Hannibal’s house and Will hands her his car keys. 

Will holds Hannibal’s hand on the center console the entire ride back to Wolf Trap. He watches Hannibal from the passenger seat, and Hannibal turns to him every time they stop at a light or a stop sign. 

It takes them the better part of the morning to get Will’s bed upstairs and set back up, and get the bedding back onto it, and when they finally do, they’re both sweating and in need of a shower. 

Will sends Hannibal into the bathroom to get the water to a comfortable temperature, and says he’ll be in after he puts the dogs out again and feeds them. 

The dogs are fine, though. He knows that. The second the bathroom door shuts, Will goes into the guest bedroom that has been closed all day, and looks under the dresser in there. 

“You can come out, it’s okay,” he whispers to the tiny kitten he got for Hannibal for Christmas. Of course, Hannibal expressed that his house is not suitable for a cat, but Will figures he spends enough time in Wolf Trap that the cat can live with him. A joint gift, really. 

The black cat hesitates before crawling out from under the dresser, then she climbs into Will’s lap and starts purring. 

“Your other dad is here today,” Will whispers to the kitten. “I think I might give him his gift early.”

The kitten just looks up at him and blinks. Will scratches under her chin, then deposits her on the cat tree he bought her. He checks on her water bowl, then goes down to the kitchen to refill it. He sets it down, makes sure the automatic feeder is working, then leaves the room to join Hannibal in the shower. 

“Hello, love,” Hannibal says, turning to kiss Will. 

“Hi. I want to give you your Christmas gift today,” Will tells him. “I know it’s not for a few days, but I’d rather not wait, and I’m sure you’ll understand why after I give it to you.” 

“If you insist,” Hannibal says. 

Will reaches for the soap and starts to wash his body, and Hannibal just watches him do it. It is honestly kind of weird how intensely he’s staring at Will.

“Jesus, what?” Will asks after a minute. He avoids Hannibal’s eyes, not liking the sort of attention he’s giving him. Doesn’t want to know how Hannibal is actually feeling right now. He knows it’ll be too much input. 

Hannibal turns, shuts off the water, then turns back and lifts Will by his upper thighs, hoisting him up so Will has no choice but to wrap his arms around his neck and his legs around his waist. Will doesn’t even protest, just lets Hannibal carry him from the bathroom to Will’s new bedroom. 

Will laughs when Hannibal throws him down onto the bed and climbs over him. 

“What’s gotten into you?” Will asks, pushing up on his elbows to kiss Hannibal. 

“You are beautiful,” Hannibal says against his lips. “And I want you right now.”

“Well, it’s a good thing I’m here,” Will says. He reaches down and takes his cock in his hand, stroking himself until he’s hard. Hannibal sits back and watches him, eyes wide, mouth slightly open. He looks at Will like he’s the best thing he’s ever seen. “Are you just going to stare at me, or are you going to get the lube from downstairs?”

They haven’t brought up the nightstands yet, and Hannibal groans impatiently, getting off the bed and running from the room. Will spreads his legs out and waits for Hannibal to come back, which he does in just a matter of seconds. 

Hannibal gets between his legs and leans down, leaving kisses along Will’s throat, and jaw. He moves down and kisses his stomach, and hip bones, and thighs. He doesn’t put his mouth on any of the places Will would like it to be, though. 

“Baby, I know you like savoring this and taking your time, but I don’t think we have much time today,” Will tells him. 

He picks up the lube himself and gets his fingers coated before pushing one inside himself. Hannibal sits back again and watches him finger himself open. 

After Will stretches himself with three fingers, he pulls them out and looks at Hannibal expectantly. Hannibal smiles and slicks up his cock before pushing all the way into Will in one thrust. Will arches his back and moans out at the suddenness of it all. He wants more of that, and he wants it now. 

“Move, move,” Will says, grabbing at Hannibal’s back, his hair, any part he can reach. 

Hannibal pulls out slowly, before pushing back in, setting a rhythm, but not at all the pace Will wants. 

“Harder, Hannibal,” Will says. “Faster.”

Hannibal snaps his hips harder, pushing Will up the mattress. 

“That’s it, like that,” Will nods. He pulls Hannibal down by the back of his neck, reeling him in for an eager kiss. Mostly teeth nipping at lips and hot breath against each other’s mouths. 

Will reaches between them, taking his own cock in hand and stroking a few times until Hannibal pushes his hand away. Hannibal grips both of Will’s hands in his own, lacing their fingers together. Hannibal is still staring at him in that same intense way as in the shower, and Will doesn’t want to deal with the way that makes him feel right now. 

“Wait, hold on,” Will says, words breathless. 

Hannibal slows his hips and Will moves, letting Hannibal slip out of his body while he twists around to get on his knees in front of Hannibal, holding himself up by his elbows. 

“Will,” Hannibal says. “I-”

“Yeah, yeah, you want to see me. I want you to fuck me like this. Look at me later,” Will says. He pushes his ass up and looks back at Hannibal over his shoulder. “Come on, babe.”

Hannibal looks utterly taken aback at the display in front of him and Will just smirks and reaches back toward him. Hannibal takes Will’s hand, giving it a squeeze before letting Will retract it, bringing it back so he can lean on his elbows. Will feels Hannibal’s hands grip his hips, move to spread his butt cheeks. 

Will groans and buries his face into the mattress when Hannibal pushes back inside him. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers. He thrusts into Will hard, getting the perfect angle that causes Will to cry out, muffled by the pillow his face is buried in. He grips at the sheets, moaning loud.

“So good,” he says, because he knows Hannibal needs reassurance that it is. “You feel so good, baby.” 

Hannibal leans down, kisses the back of Will’s shoulder. Will flattens himself further onto the mattress, letting his cock grind against the sheets. Hannibal drapes himself over Will’s body, continuing to thrust into him at just the right angle. 

Will turns his head to catch Hannibal’s mouth with his. Kissing and licking, sucking Hannibal’s bottom lip between his own two, and then tugging it between his teeth. 

Hannibal pulls out just as Will’s starting to get close and he reaches back, looks back to see where he went. Then Hannibal is flipping Will over, picking him up and sitting on the bed against the headboard with Will in his lap.

“Hannibal,” Will protests. Now Will’s eyes are in Hannibal’s line of sight again, and has to let Hannibal watch him with that intense stare. It’s a lot, how much love and utter obsession Will is able to read from him. It’s too much, but Will really wants to finish, so he lines himself up and sinks down on Hannibal’s cock. 

“Beautiful, my dear Will. My love,” Hannibal is whispering. “You are my everything.”

Will drops his face down to Hannibal’s shoulder while he moves on him. Hannibal has one arm wrapped around Will, hand on his ass, fingers touching where Hannibal’s cock is moving in and out of him. For a second Will thinks Hannibal is going to push a finger in, but then Hannibal’s hand moves to the small of his back instead. 

“Look at me,” Hannibal whispers. His other hand moves between their bodies, taking Will’s cock into his hand, letting Will thrust into it while he moves on Hannibal’s cock. 

“I can’t,” Will admits. “It’s too much.”

The truth feels good to let out. To be honest with the fact that sometimes he just cannot deal with how Hannibal feels about him. 

Hannibal doesn’t ask again and soon enough they’re both coming and Will pulls off of Hannibal and lays on the bed next to him. 

Will catches his breath after a minute, then gets up to finish the shower he barely started before he was whisked away to the bedroom. Hannibal doesn’t follow him, which is disappointing. Will just hopes he isn’t upset. 

When he finishes up in the shower, no more come or sweat sticking to his body, he walks back out into the hallway and to the bedroom where he left Hannibal. 

Hannibal is laying in the bed on his back, eyes shut, hands clasped over his stomach. Will walks in slowly and lays down next to him, then rolls over to rest his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. 

“I’m sorry,” Will whispers. 

“Whatever for, my love?” Hannibal asks. One of his hands ends up on Will’s head, rubbing at the buzzed hair. 

“I know how you like eye contact and I couldn’t give it to you,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal moves, sits up so he can pull Will into his lap, leaning him against his chest. 

“I don’t care,” Hannibal says. “I know how eye contact is a problem for you sometimes. Tell me, darling, what was the issue today?”

“You were being very intense,” Will answers. “It was uncomfortable how obsessed and possessive you were.” 

“Then I suppose I’m the one that should be apologizing,” Hannibal says. 

“You didn’t push when I said I couldn’t,” Will says. “You were good about it. I just feel bad.”

“Well, don’t,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses the top of Will’s head. Then, “I am afraid we don’t have long before Abigail finishes her shopping and shows up here. Perhaps we should get dressed.”

“Yeah. Perhaps,” Will agrees. “Clean clothes are still downstairs.”

“Yes, I suppose they are,” Hannibal says. 

Neither one makes an attempt to move. Will wants to stay like this, his cheek pressed to Hannibal’s chest, curled up against him, arms around his body. After a few minutes, Will finally sighs and extracts himself from Hannibal’s embrace. 

“I’ll bring you something to wear,” Will says. He leans down and kisses Hannibal once. “Stay here.”

Will brings him back one of his own long sleeve shirts and a pair of Hannibal’s underwear and pants. He gathers clothes for himself too and brings the pile back up to the bedroom. 

“This is yours,” Hannibal says as he pulls the shirt on. 

“And you look good in it,” Will tells him, eyes raking over the stretched fabric on Hannibal’s chest. 

When they’re both dressed, Will sits Hannibal down on the edge of bed and leaves the room, telling him to stay where he is and close his eyes. 


Hannibal, of course, already knows what his gift is. Could smell it on Will the second he stepped into the shower earlier. Still, when Will sets the tiny black kitten in Hannibal’s hands, he instantly falls in love with her. 

“She’s mine?” Hannibal asks. 

Will is standing in front of him, a smile on his face, eyes full of love. 

“Of course. I know you said your house isn’t suitable for a cat. She can stay here, though,” Will tells him. Hannibal finds himself nodding while he holds the kitten to his face, rubbing his forehead against her tiny head. She meows at him and sticks her paw out to tap his cheek. “You’re here all the time anyway, so you’ll always see her.” 

“I love her. What’s her name?” Hannibal asks. 

Will sits down on the bed next to him and scratches the kitten under her chin. She yawns big, and Hannibal sets her down in his lap where she curls up in a tiny ball. 

“You get to name her,” Will says. 

“Beatrice,” Hannibal answers without even thinking of it. “Her name is Beatrice.”

“Beatrice it is,” Will smiles.

Hannibal turns his head to kiss him, soft and slow. He raised a hand to cup Will’s cheek then rests their foreheads together. He smiles, eyes closed, then kisses Will again. And again. 

He wants to tell Will how much he loves him, but considering the fact that Will said he was being too intense before, he refrains. He also doesn’t want Will to feel obligated to say it back. He knows Will feels bad every time he doesn’t say it back to him. He doesn’t want to ruin this moment with Will feeling suffocated by either of their feelings. 

“Thank you,” Hannibal says instead. 

“You’re welcome,” Will says. 

They pull their faces apart after another minute. Beatrice jumps from Hannibal’s lap and walks out of the bedroom. Hannibal looks at Will, wondering if she’s safe with the dogs or if they need to chase after her. 

“She’s okay,” Will assures him. “Winston loves her. So does Rusty. The others don’t really care much.”

“Well that is good,” Hannibal says. 

They sit there for another moment, then Will puts a hand on Hannibal’s knee. 

“Hey, so, really quick,” Will starts. “I think we should talk.”

Hannibal’s heart drops, but he just nods, pretending to stay unaffected by Will’s words. It could be any number of things. Will finding out about the Ripper, Will breaking up with him, Will saying he needs a break. He tells himself he’s being idiotic. Will just gave him a kitten. There’s no way he’s breaking up with him. 

“Abigail needs a car,” Will says instead. Hannibal feels a flood of relief, even having known the conversation wouldn’t be anything bad. “And I’m also curious to know how you plan on getting away with murder while she lives in your house.”

“Car after the holidays,” Hannibal answers. “Murder does not occur in the house,” he lies. “If I ever leave at night, she will likely never notice. If she does, I say I am here.”

Will seems somewhat skeptical, but doesn’t ask any further questions. 

“Has she decided on school?” Will asks.

“You’ll have to ask her,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods, then kisses Hannibal’s forehead. “We should change the sheets.”

“Or we can wait until they are even more of a mess later,” Hannibal suggests. 

“Round two later?” Will asks with a smirk. 

“That is what I was saying, yes.” 

Will kisses him once then stands up and offers a hand to Hannibal, who takes it and stands with him. 

They go downstairs, take care of the dogs, and Hannibal starts making dinner while they wait for Abigail. It’s early for dinner, but he wants to stop at home to lock his pantry and help Abigail bring her things up to one of the guest bedrooms. 

When she does arrive, Will asks about school while they sit in the kitchen. She holds Beatrice in her arms at the kitchen table, petting her while she purrs. 

“I think I’ll wait until the fall. Maybe get some work experience here first,” Abigail answers. 

“Perhaps that will be good for you. Too big of a transition may be difficult, but that should be an easier option,” Hannibal says from the stove. “You could take some classes at a community college in the meantime if you wish.”

“I considered that. Maybe I will,” Abigail says. “Some general education credits would be useful.” 

Both men agree with her and Hannibal starts carrying plates over to the table. He kisses the top of Will’s head when he sets his down in front of him. He misses the soft curls. Will tips his chin up before Hannibal can walk away and Hannibal pecks his lips too. 

“Gross,” Abigail mutters. 

Will grins and Hannibal sits down in his seat without saying anything about it. 

“I need to run home tonight for a few things,” Hannibal says. “Abigail, you can use my car for the week. I’ll be staying here.”

“So I have your house to myself?” Abigail asks. 

And Miriam Lass, Hannibal thinks, but does not say. “Yes. I believe I should tell you no parties.”

“Oh yeah, you have to worry about that,” she says, completely sarcastic. 

“You can come back Monday night for Christmas Eve and stay for Christmas morning,” Will says. “It won’t be much fun, but it’s better than spending the holiday alone.”

Abigail nods and they finish eating their dinner. 


With the plates washed and everyone fed, Will wonders what the rest of the night is going to be like. When they sit down in the living room, Abigail in a chair and Hannibal and Will on the couch, Hannibal gets a ding on his phone. Will looks over to see a notification from Tattlecrime. 

“You have notifications for that garbage?” Will scoffs. There’s a feeling of betrayal in his chest, though he knows it is ridiculous. Hannibal needs to keep up with things like this. It’s likely the best source of news for someone like him. 

Hannibal looks at the screen and frowns. “Can I talk to you in the kitchen, love?” 

Will glances over at Abigail, not paying attention to either of them, scrolling on her phone. He nods and stands. 

In the kitchen, Hannibal looks at him. “I need to go out tonight.”

“Tonight,” Will says, not quite a question, not quite agreeing. He hopes Hannibal senses his tiny bit of disappointment and worry. This isn’t how he was hoping the rest of the night would go like. 

“Yes. Tonight.” 

“Why?” Will asks. 

“Someone I have been keeping tabs on has just struck again, and I believe I know where he has gone.”

“So then call the police,” Will says. He’s starting to sound desperate. He doesn’t want Hannibal going after another killer alone. He doesn’t want Hannibal being away from him after promising to stay the night. 

“My love, everything will be just fine. I’ll come back to you after I dispose of him,” Hannibal murmurs. He reaches out and rubs his hand over Will’s head. “It will be easy. I’m not taking anything, I’m not moving him from his home.”

“How are you going to do it?” Will asks. 

“Stage it as a suicide,” Hannibal shrugs. “He kills children. Hurts animals.”

Will sighs. Of fucking course. Will can excuse the murder of adults, but when Hannibal brings children and animals into it, he has no choice but to let him go. “You asshole. You knew that would change things.” 

“Hm yes. Let me go do this and I’ll come home to you after,” Hannibal says. 

Home. How Hannibal always says it in reference to Will’s own house now. His entire body feels warm, his hands tingling with the need to reach out and pull Hannibal close. 

“Fine. Help me move my old bed down first. I think I’ll sleep downstairs whenever you’re not here,” Will says. 

Hannibal agrees so that’s what they do. They do move both nightstands upstairs and Will moves a chair to sit next to the downstairs bed to leave his things on. He’ll get another nightstand after the holiday. 

“I’ll bring your car back,” Hannibal tells him after Abigail leaves. Hannibal has been lingering for a few minutes, waiting until she’s gone. 

Will looks at him, worried, concerned. Hannibal answers for him.

“I have spare cars for what I do, darling. No one will see your car anywhere near his house,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods and pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal’s cheek. Hannibal wraps his arms around him and pulls him in close. Will can feel him breathing in against his head. 

“Stop smelling me,” Will mumbles. 

“Alas, I cannot,” Hannibal says. “I will see you tonight. Don’t wait up for me.” 

Will does, of course. 


Hannibal rarely, if ever, gets injured on hunts. He doesn’t even want to call this an injury. It does however, make things difficult for him. 

A punch to the nose, sustained just before he can knock his victim unconscious. It causes his vision to blur and Hannibal swears. A concussion, likely. Not ideal at all, but not debilitating. 

Once his victim is unconscious he checks the man’s knuckles to make sure there’s no bruising. Nothing to suggest he was fighting someone off. Even so, if it’s not ruled a suicide, staging them isn’t an MO he commonly uses. The hunt for his killer will not be seen as the Ripper or any of Hannibal’s current aliases as copycats. 

Hannibal finds the man’s laptop then and pulls up a Word document, typing some lie of a suicide note. He knows this man. He has a public Facebook page that Hannibal has been checking up on. Hannibal knows how he writes things, even if it’s usually just posts on social media. It’s not difficult to emulate. 

He suspends the body with a noose he tied, places a kicked over chair under his feet; a suicide by hanging. Not very original, but it satisfies him well enough.

Hannibal killed this man because he was one step too close to finding out Hannibal is the Ripper. He was in a spot where Hannibal was planning on leaving a body during his last sounder. He let it slide for some time, knowing that this man could not easily go to the police unless he wanted to explain why he was in a place where a dead body was found. 

The Tattlecrime article showed just how close the FBI was to finding the man. If the FBI found him on their own, the man would likely give Hannibal up in a second to try and get a lesser sentence. So Hannibal killed him for himself. Also because he kills children. 

That one detail really drove it home. Hannibal is against harming kids, and with his own life being in danger because of the man possibly knowing his identity, he had no choice but to do it this time. He only told Will about the children and animals, though. Knowing that would be enough for Will to be okay with him doing it. 

It will help make Will see him as more of a vigilante than a monster by killing other monsters. 

Except tonight Will is most likely to see him as an idiot. He knows this because his head is swimming and he knows he’s going to end up vomiting at some point tonight from the head injury. He just hopes he gets himself together before he crawls into bed with Will. 

He cleans up, hopeful that his injured head didn’t mess anything up. He’s careful on the drive back, with street lamps even feeling too bright. Gets Will’s car. Goes home. To Will. 

Nausea hits him in waves. It hits him too hard when he steps out of Will’s car and he stops where he is, unable to hold himself together any longer. As he’s throwing up his dinner into the yard, holding onto the porch railing, the front door opens. 

Hannibal wipes his mouth and tilts his head to look up at Will, who rushes toward him. 

“Baby, what happened?” Will whispers. He’s rubbing Hannibal’s back where he’s still hunched over.

“Concussion, I believe,” Hannibal says. God his head hurts. And he’s tired. 

“Let’s get you inside,” Will whispers. Hannibal lets himself be assisted in standing up right and accepts the arm around his waist as Will walks him into the house. 

They go straight up the stairs after Will closes the door. Up into the bathroom where Will hands Hannibal his toothbrush and toothpaste, then starts the bathtub. 

“I’m afraid I may fall asleep if I get in that bath, darling,” Hannibal tells him. He brushes his teeth, getting the taste of vomit out of his mouth. He brushes them again just for good measure. 

“I won’t let you fall asleep,” Will tells him. He gestures at Hannibal’s body. “Strip.”

So Hannibal does and gets into the bathtub. Will closes the toilet lid and sits on top of it, watching Hannibal as he sinks into the water. Hannibal just barely pays attention to him.

“You wanna tell me what happened?” Will asks again. Hannibal’s eyes flutter shut when Will reaches out a hand to push his hair away from his forehead. 

“Punched,” Hannibal tells him. 

“Tell me where the victim’s house is,” Will says. That takes Hannibal by surprise. 

“What, my love?” Hannibal asks. 

“If you got punched and concussed I need to make sure you actually finished the job and didn’t leave evidence,” Will says. “Not that I don’t trust you. I just need to be sure.” 

“My love. My darling. My Will,” Hannibal says. He reaches out for his sweater sleeve and tugs. “Come here. Kiss me.” 


Will indulges him. Leans forward and presses a soft kiss to his lips. He’s surprised Hannibal made it home in one piece, surprised that Hannibal remembers what happened. Mostly he’s surprised that Hannibal can get injured in the first place.

It seems so below him. Hannibal never quite seems human to Will, though he knows he is. This has proved that even Hannibal is susceptible to being hurt. And that pulls on Will’s heart in a way he doesn’t want to address, but knows he has to. 

What Hannibal does is dangerous for him and tonight has made that perfectly clear. No matter how good he thinks he is at everything, there’s always a chance of Will finding him puking in the bushes from a head injury. Always a chance of something much, much worse. 

His eyes look so tired, not quite focused. Will wipes away the blood coming from Hannibal’s nose. He needs to go to the victim’s house and make sure there’s nothing on the man’s hands. 

“Alright, baby,” Will says. “Let’s get you to bed.”

“Bed. Yes,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will gets him a towel and holds it open while Hannibal gets out of the bathtub. 

“Clothes?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head and steps toward the towel so Will can wrap it around him. “No, thank you.” 

“Let me change the sheets,” Will tells him. He directs Hannibal toward one of the armchairs he brought upstairs while Hannibal was gone. Hannibal sits down in it and Will can feel Hannibal’s eyes on him while he strips the bed and puts new sheets on it. Will looks at him again. “I need the address.” 

Hannibal looks like he’s thinking hard, then says, “Business card in my wallet. Written on the back. You’re not going now, are you?”

“I am. Get in bed,” Will says. Hannibal stands up, leaving the towel on the chair and moves to the bed. “It’s fine for you to fall asleep, right?”

“Mhm,” Hannibal hums. “Research has been done on that. I will be fine.” 

“Okay. Call me if you need anything.”

“Leave your phone, darling,” Hannibal says. He lays on his stomach, bunches a pillow up in his arms as if he’s holding Will instead. Will wants to crawl into bed and replace the pillow, but forces himself to stay where he is. 

“If you need me how-”

“You in prison because your cell phone corroborates a location you were allegedly seen will be much worse than me needing you in the next hour and a half while I sleep off a very minor head injury,” Hannibal says. 

Completely aware, as if the concussion is already healing. Which can’t be right. Hannibal is just that good at getting himself under control. 

Hannibal continues speaking, his eyes now closed as he snuggles further into the pillow. He adds, “Now, if you leave your cell phone here, and make sure you do not park your car anywhere near his home, then both your phone and myself are here to say that you were also here. Phone stays.” 

“Phone stays,” Will huffs. He looks down when he sees a dart of black run across the floor. Beatrice circles the room, then jumps onto the bed and lays on top of Hannibal’s naked back. 

“Is that my sweet Beatrice?” Hannibal asks. He opens his eyes and lifts his head, turning to see the kitten. “My lovely little girl.” 

Will smiles. So fond and in love. He takes his phone and snaps a picture of the sight. He wants to see this forever. He wishes he could set it as his lock screen, but Hannibal’s ass is out and it wouldn’t be easy to explain Jack or Alana. 

One last look at Hannibal, then he can’t help himself and climbs into the bed, kisses every inch of Hannibal’s exposed shoulders, his neck, his face. Hannibal turns his head, careful not to disturb Beatrice on his back, and Will kisses his lips too. 

“I’ll be back as soon as I can,” Will whispers against his mouth. “Bea will keep you company. Do you want me to send a few dogs up, too?” 

“Russel and Winston,” Hannibal murmurs. As an afterthought, it seems, he says, “And all the rest.”

Will laughs quietly, shuts off the lights and puts a blanket over Hannibal’s bare legs. 

“Will, darling,” Hannibal says, reaching out for him. “There’s a plastic suit and gloves in the duffel in your trunk. Please put it on before you go into the house. It will be large on you, but it’s just a precaution.” 

“Sure, baby,” Will says. He kisses the hand holding his, then sets it back down on the bed and leaves the room. 

He goes into the bathroom and picks up Hannibal’s pants, taking his wallet and finding the business card he was talking about. 

Maps it out on his phone, writes down directions, then sets his cell phone on the kitchen counter. 

He snaps his fingers in the living room to wake up the sleeping dogs, then when a few lift their heads, he says, “Go see Hannibal.” And points to the stairs. 

Rusty gets up first and runs up the stairs, followed by Winston and Buster. The rest just drop their heads and go back to snoring. 

Will looks around for his keys, sighs, goes back up to the bathroom and takes them out of Hannibal’s pants pocket, then finally leaves. 

He parks half a mile away and walks the rest of the way. The plastic suit bundled up tightly in his pocket. He slips it on and zips it up, pulling on a pair of gloves, when he gets to the front porch. It takes Will a minute to find the body in the basement, hanging from the beams going across the ceiling. 

Certainly dead. Hannibal finished that job. He lifts the man’s right hand and there’s a slight bruising on the knuckles, but nothing too noticeable. If the man kills people, and he’s certain Hannibal made sure there would be a link to the murders somewhere, then fights are to be expected at times. 

There doesn’t appear to be any blood anywhere and he trusts that Hannibal wore his suit and gloves the entire time. 

Part of him wants to close his eyes, let the pendulum swing, see what Hannibal did. He doesn’t. He cares more about getting home to his concussed boyfriend and sleeping in his arms. 

The scene is up to his standards so Will leaves. He peels off the suit again when he gets outside. He makes the half mile walk back to his car then heads home. 

Inside the house again, the dogs all perk up to look at him then put their heads back down. He picks up his phone off the counter and checks the time. He’s exhausted, and it’s after four now. He toes off his shoes, gets a glass of water, then walks up the stairs. 

Beatrice passes him on the steps and rubs against his legs. He bends down to pick her up and carries her up to the bedroom. 

He doesn’t turn on the bedroom light and has to get by with just the hall light coming through a small crack in the door while he gets undressed. Beatrice jumps into the bed and curls up on Hannibal’s back again. Hannibal is exactly how Will left him. 

Will sets the water down on the nightstand, then gets into bed and rubs Hannibal’s back softly. 

He stirs, makes a quiet, confused noise, then lifts his head off the pillow. 

“Will,” he murmurs. “Get Beatrice off of me.”

“What? Why?” Will asks. 

“My entire back is covered in scratches,” Hannibal mumbles. Still half asleep. 

Will turns on the lamp and looks at Hannibal's back. Sure enough it’s littered in scratches. 

“She is a menace,” Hannibal says. 

“She’s otherwise been so sweet,” Will says. 

“Only when you are here, it seems. Come, lay down with me,” Hannibal says. 

“Here, drink this.” Will holds out the cup of water and Hannibal rolls over to sit up, taking the glass from Will’s hand. “How’s your head?”

“Hurts,” Hannibal says into the glass. 

“I’ve had a few concussions,” Will tells him. “They’re not fun.”

“No, and pardon my French, but I feel like shit,” Hannibal says. 

Will can’t help but laugh. “Do you need anything?”

“Turn off the lamp and lay down with me. Please,” Hannibal says. 

So Will does as he’s asked and Hannibal curls around Will’s body, head on Will’s chest. 

“I’m tired,” Hannibal says. 

“I know, go to sleep. We can talk in the morning,” Will whispers. “Do you want a Tylenol?”

“No. Stay here,” Hannibal says. 

Will falls asleep after Hannibal does. The sun had already been coming through the curtains, but he knows their day is going to be spent in bed or on the couch, anyway, so he doesn’t care much. 

He wakes up gasping for air because he has a nightmare of that man’s body swinging in the basement. In the dream Hannibal stands there, but instead of just hanging the man and leaving, he’s cutting open his body, a line from sternum to pelvis. Letting his organs fall into a pile on the floor. 

Awake, though, Hannibal is holding him tight, whispering that it’s okay. 

After a second to catch his breath, Will nods. “I’m okay. I’m okay.” 

Hannibal starts kissing him all over. Chest, neck, face, the top of his head. Will laughs and pushes him away. 

“Stop it,” Will laughs again, but Hannibal just kisses his cheek again. 

Will kisses Hannibal’s lips then, earning a satisfied smile from Hannibal. Will asks, “How’s your head?” 

“I will recover just fine, darling. A minor setback,” Hannibal answers. 

“Do you want to eat? I’ll cook,” Will offers. 

Hannibal’s face scrunches up and he shakes his head. 

“My cooking isn’t that bad,” Will says. 

“I do not feel like eating at the moment,” Hannibal tells him. “Can we lay on the couch?” 

Will nods. “Get dressed, though.”

Hannibal looks around the room, then says, “Did you bring the dressers up?”

“I had time while you were gone last night,” Will shrugs. He gets up and walks toward the closet where he hung Hannibal’s suits. “Suit?” 

“Sweater,” Hannibal answers. Will moves from the closet to the drawers instead as Hannibal says, “I do need to go out today if I may borrow your car.” 

“I would prefer going with and driving,” Will says. He pulls a sweater, pants and underwear out of Hannibal's drawer and tosses them to him before opening his own drawers and pulling out a hoodie and jeans. 

Hannibal frowns and stands up to get dressed. “I need to purchase your Christmas gifts.”

“Hannibal,” Will says. He walks over, puts his hands on Hannibal’s hips. “Don’t get me anything. Take care of yourself today.”

“But-”

Will shuts him up with a kiss. “Your present to me can be laying on the couch with me all day. That is what I want. And if you still insist on buying me things, you can go another time.”

“Christmas won’t be particularly special, then,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will shrugs. “We’ll be together. Abigail will be here. It’ll be nice.” 

They move downstairs, Will cooks himself something for lunch while Hannibal lays on the couch. Will eats in the kitchen, knowing Hannibal’s appetite is next to none, and he’s likely nauseous. 

When Will finishes eating, he goes into the living room and Hannibal is sleeping on his back on the couch. Will carefully settles down on top of him like he’s done so often. Hannibal’s arms wrap around his back, then he’s asleep again, breathing even under Will’s ear. 

Hannibal’s phone starts ringing on the coffee table and Will opens his eyes. He lifts his head to see who’s calling just as Hannibal asks, his accent thick. Sleepy. 

“Alana,” Will answers. 

“I suppose I should not ignore her,” Hannibal sighs. He picks up his phone and answers with, “Hello?”

There's a pause where Will can hear her voice, but can’t understand her words. 

“I’m afraid I am out with Will buying a gift for Abigail at the moment,” Hannibal says. “The three of us were going to spend Christmas together as none of us have family to spend it with. I suppose we can be at my house by dinner time if you would like to come over then. Seven o’clock?”

Pause. 

Hannibal says, “Excellent. We shall see you then.” 

When Hannibal hangs up and sets his phone down on the coffee table again, he says, “Alana wants to see how Abigail is adjusting.”

Will starts talking without lifting his head from Hannibal’s chest. 

“We are both supposedly seeing people,” Will says. “Who are not supposed to be each other. And yet we are spending Christmas together.”

“Yes,” Hannibal agrees. “Though I suppose we can both just say we are no longer seeing our partners or that our relationships are too casual for spending Christmas together, yes?” 

“I guess,” Will sighs. “I just think that you were really close to fucking this up with that phone call.”

“She doesn’t suspect and she won’t. I do believe she is unaware you’re seeing someone,” Hannibal says. “Unless Jack told her, of course.”

“He wouldn’t.”

“No, then I can just tell her the person I am seeing went to visit family for the holiday, so that I am spending it with you and Abigail,” Hannibal says. He rubs a hand over Will’s head. “I do miss your curls.”

“I know you do,” Will sighs. “This means we have to actually go get Abigail a gift and go have dinner at your house, doesn’t it?” 

“Yes, love. We do have a few hours, though. I was thinking about buying her a laptop and a new cell phone,” Hannibal says. 

“She has a cell phone,” Will mumbles. 

“Yes, but she is a teenager and I am sure she would not deny a new one.”

“She needs a car more.”

“That will come after Christmas, as I said,” Hannibal says. 

“Well,” Will sighs. “Let’s go now then. You should eat something before we go.” 

Will gets up and offers a hand to Hannibal, pulling him off the couch. Hannibal picks up an apple out of the bowl on the counter and eats it. Better than nothing, Will tells himself. 

They both pull on jackets and get in the car. They stop at the nearest Best Buy and buy both items for Abigail. Hannibal pays for both even though Will offers to split the cost. Hannibal always refuses such things. 

On the way to Baltimore Hannibal makes a small whining sound from the passenger seat, then rubs his temples. 

“Tylenol in the glove box,” Will murmurs. 

Hannibal opens it, takes out the bottle then shakes pills into his hand. Will hands him the half empty, nearly frozen, bottle of water sitting in his cup holder and can see Hannibal frown out of the corner of his eye. Still he takes the pills with the water, then rests his head against the window. 

After a few more minutes, Hannibal sits up and is reaching a hand towards Will, and Will takes one of his off the wheel so they can intertwine their fingers together. Will rests both of their hands on his knee. 

“How are you feeling?” Will asks. 

“Not particularly well,” Hannibal answers. Will can tell in the way Hannibal is actually letting it be known in how he shifts in his seat and makes noises of discomfort. 

“We’ll be at your house soon,” Will tells him. “It’s still early. You can take a nap when we get there.”

“Only if you take one with me,” Hannibal says.

“Mhm,” Will hums. “You have wrapping paper, right?” 

“In the study.”

“I’ll wrap Abigail’s presents and then go up to lay down with you,” Will says. 

“Make sure she does not see them.”

Will smiles and squeezes Hannibal’s hand. 

The rest of the drive is spent in silence. Will glances over a few times to see Hannibal’s eyes closed. Will pulls into Hannibal’s garage, into the spot designated just for him, and brings Hannibal knuckles to his lips after he shuts the car off. 

Hannibal stirs, having actually fallen asleep, and looks at Will with a tired, lazy smile. 

Will sends Hannibal straight up the stairs to lay down when they get inside and takes Abigail’s gifts to the study to wrap. Abigail comes downstairs and Will finds her looking through the fridge when he emerges from the study. 

“What’s wrong with Hannibal?” Abigail asks. 

“Concussion. Alana’s coming over for dinner,” Will says, changing the subject quickly. 

“How did he get a concussion?” 

“Slipped getting out of the bath and hit his head,” Will lies. “He’ll be fine. Are you hungry?”

Abigail shrugs. “He doesn’t have much in terms of snacks.”

Will takes out his wallet and hands her a twenty dollar bill. Then, on second thought, he hands her another. “Go find a grocery store and buy as many snacks as you can with that.”

“I still have money left over from yesterday,” Abigail says. 

“Then buy even more snacks.”


If Hannibal’s being entirely honest, he’s fine. But the concern in Will’s eyes, his gentle touches, and how he’s taking care of Hannibal… Hannibal has decided to play it up just a bit. 

The nausea is real. The persistent headache is real. The exhaustion is real. It’s nothing he cannot usually ignore. He’s choosing not to ignore. 

Hannibal goes up to his bedroom at Will’s gentle prodding toward the stairs. He passes Abigail on the way, mumbles a “Good afternoon,” and keeps walking to his own room. 

He shuts the door, pulls the blinds shut tight, keeps all the lights off, and climbs into bed in just his underwear. 

When the door opens, light floods into the room from the hall, but it’s quickly shut again. Hannibal keeps his head buried in the pillow, but he can hear Will’s belt buckle while he undoes it, and he hears Will’s jeans and belt hit the ground. 

Will gets into the bed next to Hannibal and Hannibal reaches out an arm to pull him in close. He's met with the fabric of Will’s hoodie. 

“Take this off,” Hannibal murmurs, turning to look at him and tugging at the sweatshirt. Will sits up and removes his sweatshirt before laying down next to Hannibal again. 

Will pushes Hannibal’s hair away from his face and kisses his temple. 

“I sent Abigail to the grocery store to get snacks,” Will tells him. “And I told her you hit your head getting out of the bath last night.”

Hannibal hums in response and pulls Will closer to him. “Wake me at six please.” 

“Can I help with dinner?” Will asks. 

“If you’d like,” Hannibal answers. 

Hannibal drifts off after that, letting himself sleep now that Will is pressed close to him. He wakes a few times to Will stroking his hair and kissing his forehead. He can’t help but smile each time. 

“Hannibal.”

He stirs at the sound of his name, a hand on his shoulder shaking him awake. 

“It’s six, baby,” Will whispers. He’s sitting up, looking down at Hannibal, a fond smile on his face. 

“So soon?” Hannibal asks, trying to put more exhaustion into his voice than there really is. 

“I know. We’ll make dinner, then send Alana home right after she’s done eating, okay?” Will says. “Then you can come back to bed.”

“Your dogs,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I was going to go home tonight,” Will says. That causes Hannibal to frown. 

“Then I shall go with you.”

“If you want. I was just going to come back in the morning,” Will shrugs. 

“I’ll go home with you.” 

“Alright, get up and get dressed, then. Alana will be here at seven,” Will says. He kisses Hannibal once then rolls out of the bed. 

“Put on something nice, darling,” Hannibal says. He goes to his closet to put on a suit. Something less casual, that doesn’t suggest he spent the day lounging in bed or on the couch with his boyfriend. He hands Will a blue button down shirt and a pair of slacks. 

When Hannibal holds out a pair of the silk underwear he bought Will, Will gives him a glare and shakes his head. He puts on the other clothes given to him, though.

They make it downstairs and a few minutes later, Abigail emerges from the living room and sits down in the chair in the corner of the kitchen. 

“Doctor Bloom still doesn’t know about you two, right?” she asks. 

“Correct,” Hannibal says. 

He has Will peeling potatoes while he starts cooking the meat. 

“So if you’re ever not home and she asks, what am I supposed to say?” Abigail asks. 

Hannibal frowns slightly, trying to think of a good excuse as to why he doesn’t sleep at home most nights and is going to be leaving Abigail often. 

“Tell her he has a girlfriend,” Will supplies. “She already thinks he does.”

“Alana would find it irresponsible for me to leave Abigail here several nights a week to spend time with a girlfriend,” Hannibal sighs.

“Well, it’s not far off from the truth, so maybe you are irresponsible?” Will teases. “I can spend more time here, I guess.”

“No, I’m fine here by myself,” Abigail assures them both. “I’m sure Doctor Bloom won’t even ask. I was just wondering in case she does.”

“Go with the girlfriend thing,” Will says. “Keep it clear that Hannibal isn’t available.” 

Hannibal is met with a pointed glance and he tilts his head before saying, “Love, you know she has moved on already. To you, I reckon.”

“She hasn’t. She’s just naturally flirty,” Will mumbles. “It doesn’t mean anything when she does it to me.”

“If you insist,” Hannibal murmurs. 

He squints at the lights and rubs at his temples again, wanting Will to be doting once more. 

As expected, Will leaves the kitchen and runs up the stairs. He comes back not a minute later with a bottle of Tylenol from Hannibal’s medicine cabinet. 

Will kisses Hannibal’s cheek as he places the bottle in his hands, then moves to get Hannibal a bottle of water from the fridge. 

“I think we’ll be having a quiet couple of days,” Will whispers to him. “Are you going to be okay for your New Year’s party?”

Hannibal nods. He’s not cancelling a party for something as minor as a concussion. He’s not going to tell a soul about it other than Will, and Abigail. 


Will can tell Hannibal is playing up his symptoms a bit. Of course he can. It doesn’t take an empath to see how much Hannibal enjoys being taken care of. Will just wants to please him, and make him feel loved. If Will can’t bring himself to say he loves Hannibal, he’s sure as shit going to show him instead. 

He can tell especially when Alana arrives and Hannibal is completely normal. Not wincing or squinting from the lights. Not shying away from her talking loudly. Will just smirks to himself. Files the thought away to tell Hannibal he’s full of shit when they get home. 

Home . Because Will feels like Hannibal’s house is just a place for Hannibal to host friends and sleep twice a week. Home is in Wolf Trap with Will and the dogs, and now Beatrice as well. For both of them, not just for Will. 

He knows Hannibal feels similarly. The way most of his clothes have made their way to Will’s house, the way he looks almost more comfortable in Will’s kitchen that he does now in his own. He can be more himself at Will’s house and Will can see that clearly. 

Alana rubs a hand over his buzzed head again. It seems that’s going to become a routine every time she sees him. 

“Darling, would you mind setting the table?” Hannibal asks, barely looking up from his meal prep. Will can hear the edge in his tone, suggesting that he’s pissed off about Alana having her hands on him. 

Will freezes at the term of endearment and looks at him, then glances at Alana out of the corner of his eye.

“Who?” Alana asks. Will groans internally. He was hoping she hadn’t heard Hannibal’s slip up. 

“Pardon?” Hannibal asks, looking up from his knife and cutting board. 

“You said ‘darling,’” Alana says. 

Hannibal hums in confusion, just barely flashes a glance at Will, then says, “No, I don’t believe I did.”

“You did,” Alana says. 

“I didn’t hear it,” Abigail says with a shrug. 

Will does not want to do this to Alana, knowing what it’s like to think you’re hearing things, but then he says, “Neither did I.”  

“Really?” Alana asks in disbelief. “Oh, I… okay.” 

As if he didn’t say it before, as if it is a fresh thought in his mind, Hannibal says, “Oh! Abigail and Alana, would you mind setting the table?”

Alana looks completely puzzled, but doesn’t say anything other than, “Yes, of course.”

Hannibal hands her a stack of plates, and Abigail the utensils and cups. As soon as Alana is out of the kitchen, Hannibal throws Will an apologetic look from across the room. Will throws him a look back that he hopes says ‘ We’ll talk about it later,’ and Hannibal just nods once and finishes with the food. 

“So,” Alana says when Hannibal and Will finally sit down at the table. Will next to Alana, across from Hannibal, who sits next to Abigail. “How is everything, Abigail?” 

“Good. I have a nice room and Hannibal and Will said they’ll get me a car,” Abigail shrugs. 

“Good, good,” Alana smiles. She turns to Will. “Your car wasn’t outside.”

“Uh,” Will starts. He glances at Hannibal across the table, looking for help. 

“I picked Will up this morning before we went shopping, and we came straight here after,” Hannibal explains. “I’m bringing him home after dinner.”

“Oh, well I could drive you home, Will. I’m already going in that direction. It’s not a problem, really,” Alana says. 

Will tries not to frown, and Hannibal gives him the slightest nod, so he says, “Okay, sure. Thanks.” 

He gives Hannibal a pleading look, asking why he would encourage him to say yes to Alana’s offer. Hannibal shrugs, a barely there movement of his shoulders. 

Alana just keeps talking to Abigail while they all eat. When they finish, Hannibal picks up all their plates. 

“Will, would you help me with dessert?”

“Yeah,” Will says, trying not to jump up too eagerly. He walks right into the kitchen, not waiting to see if Hannibal is following yet. 

Hannibal sets the plates in the sink then goes to the freezer to pull out ice cream. Will gets bowls down from the cupboard and finds a scoop for Hannibal. 

“What the fuck, Hannibal?” Will asks, voice barely above a whisper while they stand next to each other. Hannibal scoops ice cream into their bowls while Will holds the bowls for him. 

“She will take you home and not suspect a thing. I’ll drive your car home to you after waiting twenty minutes after your departure,” Hannibal whispers back. 

He moves to the fridge and opens it, standing there a moment before deciding on what he wants. He brings back a bowl of berries and starts dropping them into the ice cream bowls. 

“I don’t want you driving,” Will says. 

“Love, she heard me slip up and call you ‘darling,’ and then we lied to her about it. She does not need any more reason to believe we’re together,” Hannibal whispers. He turns, looking to the dining room entrance  then kisses Will’s jaw. “You parking in my garage does not help.”

Will huffs out a breath of air, annoyed, but doesn’t say anything. He takes his keys out of his pocket, takes his house key off the key ring, then hands the car keys to Hannibal. He carries two bowls into the dining room, leaving the other two for Hannibal to bring in. 

When dessert is finished, Will and Alana leave. Will gets into the passenger seat of Alana’s car and a thought occurs to him. He immediately texts Hannibal before they’re even out of the driveway. 

what happens when she sees my car isnt in front of my house where it always is?

He sees the typing bubbles right away and can picture Hannibal in a panic. Not that Hannibal ever panics. 

Buy some time. I will leave as soon as you’re off my street.

“Shit,” Will mutters. Alana turns and looks at him while she drives. “Sorry. Would you mind stopping at a Petsmart? I just remembered I need cat food.”

“You don’t have a cat,” Alana says. 

“I kind of just got one,” Will tells her. “The vet I take the dogs to had a litter of kittens dropped off and I took one home. They only gave me enough for two days, then I did some running around today with Doctor Lecter for Abigail’s gift, and then dinner… I completely forgot I’m out.” 

“Yeah, no problem. Can I meet the kitten?” Alana asks. 

“Uh yeah, sure,” Will says. 

He sends another text to Hannibal. 

stopping at petsmart. said i need food for bea. now alana wants to meet her. do you have your key for my house? hide in the bedroom when you get there

Hannibal doesn’t text back, so Will just hopes for the best and that he’s already on the road. He supposes the spare is still where it normally is, but since he took his own to let himself in, he hopes Hannibal either has his own or remembers where the spare is. 

Buying cat food earns them about twenty extra minutes, and when they’re nearly to his house, he gets a text back from Hannibal. 

Home. Hiding in the bedroom, just as you asked. See you soon, my love. 

Will lets out a sigh of relief. 

Alana pulls up in front of Will’s house and kills the engine of her car. They both walk up the porch next to each other and Alana scrunches up her nose. 

“Did someone throw up out here?” She asks. 

“Winston,” Will lies. “He ate something bad last night. He was feeling better this morning.”

“Well, that’s good.” 

The dogs come rushing out of the house as soon as Will unlocks and opens the door. Hannibal didn’t turn on any of the lights and he didn’t leave his coat or shoes by the door. 

“She might be upstairs. I’ll bring her down,” Will says. “Did you want a drink? Coffee? Water?”

“Oh no, I’m okay. Unless you have a beer?”

Shouldn’t have asked, Will tells himself. 

“No, sorry,” Will says, shaking his head. “You can sit on the couch. I’ll be right back.”

Will runs up the stairs, running into Beatrice in the upstairs hallway. He scoops her up so she doesn’t run down yet, giving him some time to stop in the bedroom. Hannibal is laying on his back, tapping on his tablet

“She asked me for a beer,” Will whispers to Hannibal. “I said I don’t have any even though there’s a whole case in the fridge and another next to it. I’m hoping she doesn’t wander into the kitchen.”

Hannibal doesn’t say anything, just reaches for Will to come closer. He shifts Beatrice to rest in the crook of his elbow, then gives Hannibal’s hand a squeeze with his free hand. Hannibal tilts his face up and parts his lips and Will leans down to kiss him once. 

“I’ll let her meet Bea, then I’ll send her home and come back up, okay?” Will says. 

Hannibal nods and lets go of Will’s hand. 

“If I’m not up here in twenty, call my landline pretending there’s an emergency,” Will says. 

Hannibal gives him a smile and says, “Of course.” 

Thankfully, it doesn’t come to that. 

Alana sits on the floor with Beatrice, cooing and telling Will how cute she is while he stands off to the side. After ten minutes, Will starts yawning, then fakes a headache by very obviously and loudly shaking two aspirin out of a bottle and downing them. 

“I should let you get some rest,” Alana says. “Everything’s okay with you, though?”

Will nods. “Headaches come and go, but I do have another scan on the sixth, so we’ll see how I’m doing then.”

He goes to the door and lets the dogs inside, and holds it open for Alana to leave through. Beatrice attempts to run out but Will leans down and grabs her before she can. Alana lingers in the doorway and Will pretends to be unaware of her looking at his lips. 

“Have a good night, Alana,” Will says. “And thanks for the ride home.”

“Any time, Will,” she says. With one last look at his mouth, she turns and goes down the porch steps. He shuts the door and lets out a shaky laugh before going to feed the dogs. 

When he finally gets upstairs, Hannibal is asleep, his tablet open to Candy Crush on his stomach. Will picks it up, locks it, then plugs it in across the room, setting it on the chair he brought up. He undresses down to nothing and gets into bed next to Hannibal. 

Will kisses Hannibal’s cheek, his forehead, the corner of his mouth. Repeats that pattern until Hannibal wakes up and smiles at him. Hannibal reaches a hand out to cup Will’s cheek and Will leans in to kiss his lips properly. 

“Take off your suit,” Will tells him. 

Hannibal nods and gets out of bed. He undresses and gets under the covers next to Will. Will wanted to talk about the ‘darling’ mishap, and the fact that Hannibal is full of shit, but Hannibal’s eyes are barely open. Will just kisses him and curls up next to him. They both fall asleep like that. 

Christmas Eve is nothing special. Abigail comes over, Hannibal cooks dinner. They sit and watch TV until Hannibal starts falling asleep on Will’s shoulder. 

“Go up to bed, baby,” Will whispers. 

“I’m okay here,” Hannibal mumbles. “Go out to my car and bring Abigail’s gifts inside. In the trunk.”

“When did you put them there?” Will asks, already standing up. Abigail holds Hannibal’s car keys out for him. 

“Last night before I left home,” Hannibal answers. 

Will does as he’s asked and by then, Hannibal is out like a light. Will sets the gifts on the kitchen table, then goes back into the living room. 

“We’re going up to bed,” Will tells Abigail. “You can take the couch or the bed over there. Your choice. There are more blankets in the closet by the stairs if you need them.”

Abigail gives him a thumbs up, then laughs when Will tries to wake up Hannibal. 

“Come on. I can’t carry you,” Will tells him. 

Hannibal sighs and gets up from the couch, stumbling tiredly towards the stairs. Will gets him a glass of water from the kitchen before following him. Winston and Rusty come along with them, but the rest of the dogs and Beatrice stay downstairs with Abigail. 

They both lay down in bed, door closed, in sweaters and pajama pants. Hannibal lays behind Will, chest pressed to Will’s back, and arm slung over his waist. 

“You’re full of shit, you know,” Will finally says. 

“Sorry?” Hannibal asks, pretending to have no idea what Will’s talking about. 

“I know you just like me taking care of you,” Will whispers. “Your concussion isn’t that bad, you just like when I’m like this.”

“Mm,” Hannibal hums. “Go to sleep.”

Will just laughs. 

They don’t spend Christmas day getting drunk like they had originally planned, but it’s still nice nonetheless. 

Abigail is happy with her gifts, and Hannibal keeps complaining that he wished he had gotten something for Will. Will just rubs the back of Hannibal’s hand with his thumb and kisses his cheek. 

After Abigail’s presents are opened, and after breakfast, Abigail decides to go home to Hannibal’s house, leaving Hannibal and Will alone for the rest of the day. They rest on the couch and watch movies together. Hannibal makes them lunch, then dinner. 

Hannibal makes a few calls after dinner, in the other room so Will can’t hear him, then announces that he’ll be going out. 

“No,” Will says firmly. “You’re not.”

“I must,” Hannibal counters. “I’ll leave after you go to bed and be home before you wake up.”

“No,” Will says again. 

Hannibal just shrugs and lays back down on the couch, opening his arms for Will to lay on top of him. Will goes to him, thinking he’s won this argument. They don’t discuss it again, and get into bed together that night. 

Will really thinks he won the argument when Hannibal initiates sex and asks Will to fuck him. He thinks it even more when Hannibal doesn’t even bother with any cleanup, after they’ve both finished, before he’s falling asleep with his head against Will’s chest. 

Sure enough, he wakes from a nightmare in the middle of the night to an empty bed. He decides he’s going to kill Hannibal for leaving him. He didn’t win the argument at all. He feels entirely played. 

Will stays awake until Hannibal comes back, but pretends he’s sleeping when Hannibal walks into the bedroom again. Hannibal removes all of his clothes and gets into bed beside Will and that’s when Will gets angry. 

“You absolute asshole,” Will nearly yells. “I told you no! And then you lead me to believe you were staying tonight before just leaving.”

“Darling, I never said I wouldn’t leave,” Hannibal reminds him. “It’s not my fault you believed I would stay.”

“So what? You didn’t just ask me to fuck you so I’d be in a good mood?”

“We had sex because we both wanted to and were in the mood for it,” Hannibal shrugs. “If it put you in a good enough mood to excuse me leaving tonight then that is just an added bonus.”

“I’m going to kill you,” Will mutters. 

“Of course, darling. Make sure you wear one of my plastic suits, of course. Wouldn’t want you to leave any evidence or get messy,” Hannibal says. 

“Fuck you,” Will says, but he doesn’t really mean it. Hannibal looks at him with those big brown eyes and his messy hair and Will decides to just kiss him instead of being mad. 

Hannibal kisses him back just for a second, then lays down, pulling Will to lay half on top of him. 

In the morning, Jack calls. 

“It’s after Christmas,” Jack says when Will answers. “And we have a case.”

“Yeah, text me the location,” Will mutters. “Did you call Doctor Lecter? He’s babysitting me, right?”

“Yeah, I’ll call him.”

Jack hangs up. Will glares at Hannibal. 

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Will opens his mouth to say something as Hannibal holds up a finger to tell him to wait. He answers his phone. 

“Good morning, Jack,” Hannibal says. There’s a pause and then, “Yes. If it’s all the same, I could actually pick Will up on my way. I don’t believe he should be on the scene without me there. This way he and I can arrive at the same time.” 

Another pause. Will sits with his hands in his lap waiting for Hannibal to hang up. He wants to go back to bed and not worry about any fucking crime scenes. Especially not a mass grave, assuming that’s the one they found. 

“Yes. I can leave home in about half an hour,” a pause. “No, I’m afraid I’m still in bed,” a pause. “Yes and then an hour to Will. How far away is the crime scene from Will’s?” another pause. “Very well. I will call him and we will be there in two hours,” pause. “No, Jack. Goodbye.” 

Hannibal sets the phone down on his nightstand and looks at Will again. Will just glares at him, arms crossed over his chest. 

“Darling, don’t look so upset. I just bought you an hour and a half before we need to leave your home,” Hannibal says. “Jack wanted you to arrive before me and I said no.”  

“It’s your fault they found the scene in the first place,” Will mutters. “Is it selfish that I want a killer to go free just so I can have a peaceful week of doing nothing with my boyfriend?”

“Perhaps, but I assure you this case is open and shut,” Hannibal says. 

“But how?” Will asks. 

“The body I dropped off last week is related to our killer,” Hannibal says. “Last night I made sure someone would find the scene, though I did not leave another body.” 

Will frowns. He really didn’t like that Hannibal is leaving bodies for another killer - to either claim, or not - to begin with, and now the killer will be caught and say one wasn’t him. What happens if the killer has alibis for the night Hannibal dropped the body? They’ll arrest the killer, but keep searching for a second. 

“Darling,” Hannibal murmurs. He moves over so he can push Will back down on his back and climb over to straddle his hips. Hannibal leans down and kisses Will softly on the lips, kissing Will’s frown away. 

“I just worry about you,” Will whispers. “And I guess I’m just upset that my winter break with you is going to be spent at crime scenes or in the lab watching them dissect bodies. Because of you.” 

“Let me make it up to you,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will’s neck, nipping lightly at the skin. Hannibal slowly rolls his hips against Will’s.

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “You can’t use sex to make me forget about murder.”

“Can’t I?” Hannibal asks. 

“Later, okay?” Will says. He kisses Hannibal’s lips once, then taps him on the side to get him to move off him. Hannibal gets off and lays down next to Will on the bed. “ You’re supposed to pick me up in an hour and a half, but we’re taking my car? Will Jack not find that weird?” 

Hannibal shrugs and they both turn on their sides to look at each other better. 

“I’ll just say you wished to drive your car instead,” Hannibal says. “Or that Abigail came along to your house, and took my car back home so she could use it today while we were at the scene.”

Will nods. “Alright. I don’t know how much longer we’re going to be able to hide this.”

“We will keep it up at least until Jack feels you are equipped to work in the field without me coming along,” Hannibal says. “Though, I do know how you value your privacy, and I value mine as well, so perhaps we just never tell anyone that would become too nosy.”

“Alana, you mean,” Will says with a smile. 

“Yes, I fear she would pry,” Hannibal sighs. 

Will nods and then yawns. He checks the alarm clock and sees it’s barely after six in the morning and he was up late. 

“If we have time I’m sleeping another hour,” Will says, already closing his eyes and pulling the blankets more snug over him. 

“I’ll shower and cook breakfast, then,” Hannibal says. 

Will makes a noise in agreement and feels the bed shift as Hannibal gets out of it. 

When he wakes again, Hannibal is in the room, fully dressed for the day, setting a mug of coffee and a plate on the nightstand next to Will. 

He sits up, blankets pooling at his bare hips, and picks up the mug, just and Hannibal disappears from the bedroom again. He comes back a minute later with his own coffee and plate, and sits on the bed next to Will. 

“Breakfast in bed?” Will asks. 

“Yes.” 

“Thanks, babe. You spoil me,” Will says. He leans over for a kiss, then starts to eat the eggs, bacon, and fruit Hannibal gave him. “This is great.”

“I’m glad,” Hannibal smiles. “We should leave in thirty minutes.”

Will hums and nods, shoveling another forkful of eggs into his mouth. 

After a few minutes, Hannibal speaks, “I should be more honest with you about this.”

That causes Will to look up, his heart beat to accelerate, and too many thoughts to go through his head. 

“Elaborate,” Will says. He tries to keep himself from asking any of the questions he’s thinking. 

“The killer is already dead,” Hannibal says. 

“Okay,” Will nods. “And…”

“And he’s the man from Saturday night,” Hannibal says. “And I may have lied to you about some aspects of my Saturday night…”

“Hannibal.”

“I killed someone else and dumped him at the same burial site before killing the other man. They're brothers. And he’s the man that sat next to you at my dinner party,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Oh,” Will says. That’s not at all what he expected. He supposes he should have known when Hannibal said, ‘It’s likely you’ll never see him again,’  that Hannibal meant he was going to kill him. 

“Yes, so you see, you may not wish to make it known you have met one of the victims before,” Hannibal says. 

“Why would you kill one of your friends? You’re going to be questioned,” Will says. “And if they find any reason to suspect you, I don’t know if I can stop them.”

“I killed him because he was rude to you. And it’s not going to be a problem. They will go to his brother’s house to not only share the news, but to question him, only to find him dead in the basement, and his brother’s heart in his freezer,” Hannibal shrugs. “I will tell them that I knew him.”

“So… the story is that this guy killed his brother, then felt so overwhelmed with guilt that he killed himself?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods. “That was the idea.” 

“Yeah, I can work with that,” Will says. He glances at the clock again. “I should get dressed.”

He gets out of bed and Hannibal takes their empty plates down to the kitchen. Will gets dressed for the day, goes to the bathroom, brushes his teeth, then finds Hannibal in the kitchen making fresh coffee. 

“Hey, Hannibal?” Will says when he walks in. Hannibal turns his head to look at him over his shoulder. “Just be honest with me, okay? Don't hide things until it’s necessary to tell me. Just tell me.”

“Of course, my dear,” Hannibal says. He turns back to the coffee pot and starts pouring it into two travel mugs. “I will admit it was mostly so you would not worry about me.”

“I know, but I would rather know these things than not,” Will says. “Have the dogs been out?”

“Yes, and fed. And Beatrice is still a menace,” Hannibal answers. He twists a cap onto Will’s cup and hands it to him. 

“What did she do?”

“Attempted to climb the leg of my pants,” Hannibal sighs. He looks down at the floor and Will follows his eyes to see Beatrice walking into the kitchen. 

Will bends down and scoops her up with his free hand, bringing her to rest against his chest. 

“She’s a sweetheart,” Will says. He kisses her little head then sets her back down on the ground. 

With coffee mugs in hand, they put on their shoes and jackets and head out to the car right on schedule. Will drives, squeezing Hannibal’s hand where they rest on his knee. He’s nervous, a bit jittery, he knows that. Hannibal doesn’t ask what the problem is, so he knows Hannibal is well aware of the reason. 

He has to go to a crime scene and pretend his boyfriend did not leave two of the bodies. Then he has to pretend he does not know the original killer is already dead. He has to play it perfectly or else Jack will know something is off about it all.

On the other hand, he’s glad he doesn’t need to actually go into any killers’ minds for this one. He can fake that to Jack, come up with something without looking too closely. And Hannibal will be not even five feet away if he does decide to look close. 

That helps ease some of his nerves, but he still holds Hannibal’s hand tight. 


“Love,” Hannibal whispers. Will’s grip on his hand is starting to hurt. “It’s going to be just fine.”

“I know, I know,” Will responds. He takes a shaky breath, then releases Hannibal’s hand to put his own on the steering wheel. “Maybe going back into the field is a bad idea. I don’t feel ready for it.”

“No, darling, you just don’t feel ready for this specific case,” Hannibal tells him. “You aren’t used to knowing exactly what happened and having to lie about it.”

“Right,” Will says with a sigh. 

He pulls off onto the side of the road where police cars and FBI SUVs line the shoulder. There’s a few agents standing at the edge of the trees, presumably waiting for Hannibal and Will to arrive.

Hannibal already knows his way through the woods, yet he knows he can’t allow anyone to know that. 

Will shuts off the ignition, then grabs Hannibal’s hand again. 

“I don’t want to do this,” Will whispers. 

“I know, love,” Hannibal responds. He lifts Will’s hand to kiss his knuckles. “Go out there, I’ll be right behind you and tell Jack that reading the scene is the extent of what you are doing today. Then we can go back home and do anything you’d like.”

“We need to go grocery shopping,” Will says. “And I think we’re almost out of lube. And I think we should do a load of laundry.”

“If you want to buy groceries, and lubricant, and then do laundry, then that is exactly what we will do,” Hannibal smiles. He kisses Will’s knuckles again, then glances over his shoulder to check if the agents are looking. 

When he confirms the car is out of their line of sight, he leans forward and presses his lips to Will’s, a soft kiss. Will presses further, kissing back more soundly, with more want. Hannibal has to pull back before anything else can happen. 

“Can we go out for lunch after?” Will asks. “Instead of cooking at home.”

“Of course, darling,” Hannibal says. “Anywhere you would like.”

Hannibal figures that letting Will control the rest of their day is only fair, considering they’re only where they are now because Hannibal chose to act when he did. Against Will’s request not to, at that. 

Will nods and unbuckles his seat belt, getting out of the car and waiting for Hannibal to follow. 

“My love, don’t you have a hat?” Hannibal asks. 

“No,” Will shrugs. “I didn’t think of it.”

Hannibal sighs. “You’re going to catch a cold.”

“You don’t have one either,” Will points out. 

“I do not have a buzz cut.”

“Stop nagging. People might think we’re married,” Will mumbles. Then he flashes Hannibal a smile, all teeth. 

“Very well,” Hannibal sighs. Not at all meaning the words, he adds, “I will no longer make comments based on my concern for your health or well being.” 

They walk side by side and Will bumps into Hannibal playfully, nudging Hannibal’s arm with his shoulder. They’re still out of hearing range from the agents waiting for them, but what Will says next still comes as a bit of a surprise. 

“We should go on a date soon. A nice dinner, or a movie, or something,” he says quietly. “I know we’re going out for lunch, but,” he shrugs, trailing off. 

“I would love to go on a date with you,” Hannibal responds. 

“Cool. I just… I don’t know,” Will sighs. “I want to show you off more, I guess. Even if no one there knows who we are, I want everyone to know I managed to catch you. We don’t really go out a lot.” 

Hannibal smiles, but doesn’t respond as they’re coming up to the edge of the woods now. The agents both nod at them and start off into the woods, Hannibal and Will following close behind. Their hands brush once or twice, but their fingers never intertwine. 

It’s more difficult to resist that Hannibal thought it would be. His attachment to Will is unmatched to any attachment he has ever felt, and his need to touch him when they’re near is astronomical. He shoves his hands into his pockets after their fingers brush the second time. 

Will glances at him, understanding in his eyes. It seems they’re both similarly affected by the secrecy of their relationship. It makes sense to Hannibal why Will requested lunch out and a date, why Will wants to show him off more. He knows they need to discuss this particular thing, but not as they’re traipsing through the woods toward ten or more corpses. 

They come up to the spot, and FBI agents are everywhere. Jack meets them and immediately pulls Will away, leaving Hannibal to stand where he is. 

“Hey,” a voice comes from next to him. He turns his head to see Beverly Katz has taken Will’s place at his side. “How have you guys been?”

“Quite well. And you?” Hannibal asks. He watches Will go to the edge of the graves, where many of the bodies have already been dug up. 

Beverly shrugs. “This isn’t my first choice of how to spend my morning.”

“No, I wouldn’t suppose it is,” Hannibal agrees. He was truly the only one actually prepared for this and knew they’d all be called out this morning. 

He looks over at Will again, standing there with his eyes closed. Jack clears the area as best as he can, pushing everyone back fifteen feet. 

“How was this found?” Hannibal asks, trying to play it as if he doesn’t already know. 

“Someone called Freddie Lounds last night. Might have been the killer, but it might have been someone else,” Beverly shrugs. “Of course, the caller said they just came across it while on a hike.”

“Is the call traceable?” Hannibal asks, already knowing it isn’t.

“Nope. Whoever it was knew what they were doing.” 

“That’s unfortunate. It could have been a lead,” Hannibal says. “Did Miss Lounds call it in or did law enforcement find out from a Tattlecrime article?”

“She called about it about five minutes before the article went up,” Beverly sighs. “That’s usually how it goes.”

Hannibal nods. Deciding to change the subject, he says, “I’ve only been to one scene with Will. How long does he usually stand in front of a scene?”

“Depends,” Beverly says, shrugging. “Anywhere from five minutes to over an hour. Doesn’t he talk to you about this stuff?”

“He should. We haven’t had a session in quite some time,” Hannibal says. “He doesn’t particularly enjoy our appointments.”

“Did he say that?”

“No, but I can tell. It’s difficult for him to hide this from everyone. Acting professionally, especially when we are alone, is difficult for both of us,” Hannibal says. 

He looks over toward Will again and sees his eyes are open now, that he’s discussing something with Jack. Jack listens intently, then nods and pats Will on the shoulder before they both turn and walk toward Hannibal and Beverly. 

“Doctor Lecter,” Jack greets him.

“Good morning, Jack,” Hannibal responds. “Would you mind talking privately for a moment?”

Jack nods and they walk several feet away before stopping. One last glance at Will, and he can see Will staring at him, arms crossed just for a second before he turns to talk to Beverly instead. He’s upset then, Hannibal notes. He files the observation away for later when they’re alone.

“What can I do for you, Hannibal?” Jack asks. 

“Will discussed with me that he is… hesitant about being back at crime scenes,” Hannibal says. “I have to agree with him that it may be difficult getting back into the field. I can’t help but suggest you borrow Will’s imagination sparingly.”

“He doesn’t want to be out here?” Jack asks. 

“He admitted to me that he feels quite unready,” Hannibal answers. “I did tell him I would discuss this with you. From my own standpoint, I do not think he should do much more today than he has already done. Of course, I cannot stop him from working, that is just my opinion.”

“Alright. Thank you,” Jack nods. 

Conversation over, they walk back over to Will, standing alone now that Beverly is able to look at the scene more closely. 

“Am I free to go? I have errands to run,” Will says to Jack.

Jack nods and pats Will’s shoulder again, then walks away to direct people around the area.

“Ready, darling?” Hannibal murmurs.

Will nods, face straight and takes off walking through the woods, back toward his car, hands stuffed in his pockets. He doesn’t turn back to see if Hannibal is following, and Hannibal knows that is not at all a good sign. He keeps a safe distance behind Will, giving the space he’s clearly seeking.


Will slams his car door shut as soon as he’s in the driver’s seat and immediately starts the car. He knows he needs to wait for Hannibal, but he just wants to leave, get his head back on straight, and not have to worry about anyone else until he does.

Hannibal slides into his seat and Will pulls away from the side of the road as soon as his door is shut. 

“Darling, what’s the matter?” Hannibal asks.

Will grits his teeth and shakes his head. He’s not fully out of this killer’s mind yet, and he knows that’s not Hannibal’s fault, but it still feels like it. He doesn’t say anything, knowing it’ll come out all wrong. He’s upset, but he’s not. He’s angry, but it’s not him. 

Both Hannibal and this other killer are in his head, and somehow he’s not bothered by the presence of Hannibal inside his brain, but it only does so much to combat what he saw reliving the scene before him.

Needing to show Hannibal his mood isn’t because of him, he reaches out and grips Hannibal’s hand in his own, and takes a deep breath.

“Give me a minute,” he manages to say. 

“Pull over,” Hannibal instructs. Authority in his voice that Will just can’t ignore. He pulls off onto the shoulder again and puts the car in park. “Out.”

Will gets out of the driver’s seat as Hannibal gets out of the passenger seat. Hannibal walks around the car and is standing in front of Will in less than a second, pressing him up against the door of the car and kissing him hard. Hannibal licks into his mouth, and rocks their hips together, pulling a groan from Will’s throat. 

One of Hannibal’s hands grips his hip hard enough to bruise, and the other is placed gently on his face. The contrast reminds Will of the killers inside his head. It’s grounding for him, and Will realizes these points of contact are meant to do just that. To ground him.

Hannibal pulls back, and says, “I’m driving.”

Will just nods, unable to find any reason to say no, mind swimming from the way Hannibal is taking charge, swimming from the kiss he just gave him. Head swimming with just Hannibal, and no longer the other killer.

He braces himself against the car door, trying to catch his breath for another second, Hannibal standing a foot away from him. Finally, when his breathing is normal, he steps away from the car and walks around to the passenger side.

The car is warm when he slips into the seat. He sits, his knees pulled up, arms wrapped around his shins. He’s facing Hannibal as best as he can. He makes himself as small as he can. It’s comforting. 

Hannibal reaches out to him without looking away from the road and cups his face with one hand, running his thumb along Will’s cheek bone. Will pushes into the touch, but it’s gone too soon. 

Instead Hannibal drops his hand to rest on Will’s knee.

“Better?” Hannibal asks after a few minutes. 

Will just nods, not in the mood to talk about it right now. Not in the mood to discuss the things his mind recreated while he looked down at all of those bodies. 

“Do you still want to go out for lunch?” Hannibal asks. Will could cry at the patience and understanding in his tone. He doesn’t know how he managed to get someone like Hannibal Lecter to fall in love with him. 

Will sighs, steadies himself. “Can we go home?”

“Of course,” Hannibal says. 

“Thanks,” Will says. He rubs his eyes with his hands and lets out a strained sigh. “Sorry. That was just a lot.”

“You have no need to apologize, Will,” Hannibal says. “Would you like to talk about it?”

“No,” Will says without even hesitating. “Not now. Maybe later, or tomorrow. I want to talk about anything else right now.”

Will puts his hand over Hannibal’s on his knee and Hannibal turns his over so they can lace their fingers together. Will squeezes Hannibal’s hand and Hannibal squeezes back.

“Tell me about this New Year’s party you’re having,” Will requests. “Menu, guests, what I’m wearing.”

“Are you so certain I‘m choosing your outfit for you?” Hannibal asks. He keeps his face forward, focusing on the road, but Will can see the corner of his mouth pulling up.

Will can’t help but laugh. “Yes. I am. And knowing you, we’re going to match and you’re going to tell everyone it’s a coincidence.”

“Am I really so predictable?” Hannibal asks. 

Will sits up and leans over to kiss Hannibal’s cheek before settling back down into his seat. He doesn’t pull his knees back up to his chest, doesn’t make himself feel small again. He’s coming back to himself bit by bit. 

“Is your pack okay for a few more hours?” Hannibal asks.

“Why? We’re not going to my house?” Will frowns. He’s in the mood to lay down and take a nap. Nothing else.

“If you’d be amenable, I would like to go home for a few things,” Hannibal says. “I also think Abigail wouldn’t mind lunch. I can take you home first if you’d like.”

The idea of being alone is worse than waiting to go home, so he shakes his head. “I’ll go with. Dogs are fine.”

Hannibal nods and keeps going past the exit for Wolf Trap, starting the hour drive to Baltimore.

“Okay, so tell me what I’m wearing to your party,” Will says. “You did avoid the question.”

“I suppose I did. I bought you a suit,” Hannibal answers. “Which reminds me. Next Thursday at 6:30 we are visiting my tailor.”

Will groans. “For your opera?”

“Yes. I figured you would prefer that over therapy.”

Will laughs quietly. “You mean you think I would prefer being touched by a stranger as opposed to telling you my problems?”

“Yes, I believe you would. I know you hate our sessions.”

Will scoffs. “We’ve had one session since we started dating and you were being weird that night. I don’t hate them, I just hated that one.”

“You hated them before we started dating,” Hannibal points out. 

“Don’t give me that. What was I supposed to do when the most gorgeous man I had ever seen was assigned as my unofficial therapist? Being friendly would’ve just made it worse when you had to inevitably reject me. I was trying to lessen my chances of growing attached,” Will says. “Funny how that worked out.”

“Yes, quite,” Hannibal agrees. 

“You wanna know something?” Will asks. He bites his lip, holding back the nervous laugh he wants to let out. 

“Hm?”

“First time I stepped foot in your office I thought about how badly I wanted you to rail me against your ladder.”

“Darling, you mustn’t say such things,” Hannibal murmurs. “I may just have to drive right to my office so we can make that happen.” 

Will chokes on his spit and has to cough a few times. “You’re joking.”

“I am not, but perhaps we refrain today. I don’t have my keys with me,” Hannibal sighs. “Besides, I know you’re tired, and I would like for you to eat something and relax before anything else.”

“Yeah, you’re right,” Will agrees. He’s exhausted, physically and mentally. After staying up most of the night waiting for Hannibal to come back, then getting into the mind of the killer, he could easily fall asleep now. 

They fall silent for half the drive, hands clasped together on the center console. The heat in the car makes Will drowsy, but he fights to stay awake, watching Hannibal while he drives. 

“How’s your head?” Will asks after a while. 

“Much better,” Hannibal tells him. “You have been taking care of me, so of course I’m recovering well.”

“You’re so full of shit sometimes,” Will laughs. “The most I’ve done is give you a glass of water and Tylenol.”

“That’s not all you do for me, Will,” Hannibal says, completely serious. “Your love is better than any medicine.” 

Will squeezes his hand, then brings it to his lips to kiss his knuckles. Now would be a good time, Will thinks. Now would be the perfect time to say it. 

But of course, Hannibal already knows, or he wouldn’t have phrased his words in that way. Will decides that he doesn’t need to say the words for Hannibal to know. 

When they reach Hannibal’s house, Hannibal pulls the car into the garage and leans over to kiss Will again the second he shuts off the engine. Will brings his hands to Hannibal’s face and holds him there, kissing him like his life depends on it.  

Hannibal is the one to pull away, but only separating their lips enough to breathe. They rest their foreheads together and share air. 

“When we left the scene,” Will starts. “How did you know what to do to immediately bring me back?”

“I didn’t,” Hannibal answers. “All my knowledge of grounding patients flew out the window, and all I could think of was getting my hands on you so no one else could grip your mind.” 

“Well, it worked. So thank you,” Will whispers. He kisses Hannibal one more time before pulling away and getting out of the car. 

The afternoon is spent at Hannibal’s house. After eating a quick lunch, Will goes upstairs and climbs into Hannibal’s large bath tub, letting the water warm the parts of him still cold from what he saw. It’s a bone deep chill that he can’t seem to shake. 

It gets considerably better when Hannibal comes in and sits behind the tub, rubbing tension out of Will’s shoulders with his firm touch. Will can’t help but groan at the pain each time Hannibal hits a particularly tense spot, and Hannibal places kisses on the top of his head every time he does. 

“I sent Abigail to see to the dogs,” Hannibal tells him. “I told her she could just stay the night in Wolf Trap if she would like to, so we can stay here without worrying about them.” 

“You want to stay here tonight?” Will asks. “That’s fine. The dogs listen to her.”

“I would like to get started on preparations for my dinner party starting tomorrow,” Hannibal answers. “Staying here tonight will make that easier. Besides, I thought it would be a nice change for us to have some privacy without worrying about Jack or anyone else coming to look for you.”

That makes Will laugh. “I get it. You sent Abigail away for the night, and you’re probably going to hide my cell phone, aren’t you? So no one can call and interrupt us. Honestly? Thank you.”

“Of course, darling. I’ll admit it’s as much for me as it is for you,” Hannibal responds. 

Will tips his head back and up and Hannibal leans down to kiss his lips, both of them smiling against each other’s mouths. 

“Did you want to sleep?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head. “We both know we have other things in mind for this afternoon.”

Hannibal just leans down and kisses him again, then continues to massage Will’s shoulders and neck. 

When he gets out, Hannibal directs him naked toward the bed and finishes massaging his back, Will laying face down while Hannibal sits over his thighs. And Will is so hard by now that he can’t help but thrust against the sheets. When Hannibal settles his weight down on Will, and he feels Hannibal’s clothed erection against the back of his thigh, Will twists his body to lay on his back underneath Hannibal. 

He pulls Hannibal down by the back of his neck for a kiss, Hannibal’s hands on his chest for balance. Will’s hands find Hannibal’s zipper and push at his pants until Hannibal gets up and removes all of his clothes. 


Hannibal looks down at Will, eyes tired, body relaxed. He climbs back over him and leans down to kiss him again and again. He feels as though he needs to make up for the way this morning made Will feel. 

Had Hannibal left the site as is, Will would have never had to go through that. He was hoping Will would stand there and pretend, but that was not the case today. The draw to see what happened was too much for him to resist, and Hannibal only has himself to blame for that. 

Will makes a quiet impatient moan against Hannibal’s lips, pushing his hips up against Hannibal. 

Hannibal takes both of their hard cocks in one hand and begins to slowly move his hand, drawing more moans from Will’s throat. 

“You know, I’ve been thinking,” Will gasps out. How he wants to have a conversation right now is beyond Hannibal.

“Perhaps I should make you stop thinking, then,” Hannibal says against his mouth. He moves down Will’s body to take Will’s cock in his mouth before he even gets a chance to respond. 

“Ah, fuck, Hannibal,” Will moans. His fingers dig into Hannibal’s hair while Hannibal takes him all the way into his mouth. “But seriously - fuck - okay, seriously,” Will says again, pulling Hannibal’s hair so Hannibal has no choice but to come up, letting Will’s cock fall out of his mouth. 

“What, darling?” Hannibal asks, looking up at Will from where he’s positioned between his legs. 

“I was thinking,” Will repeats. “That you can’t just kill people because they’re rude to me.”

“I am attempting to, how would you say, suck your cock, and this is what you wish to talk about?” Hannibal asks. 

Will nods. “I, yeah, I guess? Come up here.” 

Hannibal moves up and lays on the bed next to Will, both men turning on their sides to look at each other. Will pulls him closer, wraps an arm around his back and pulls him flush to his body, so they can move against each other. 

“As I said, you can’t kill people for being rude to me,” Will whispers. “Because then you would have to kill quite literally everyone.”

“And if it were feasible, I would, darling,” Hannibal responds, kissing Will on the forehead before rolling them over so he can straddle Will. “I will not kill anyone else just for being rude to you. Although I can assure you that this kill wasn’t just for you. I’ll admit I never quite liked him.”

Will laughs and shakes his head, then runs his hands up and down Hannibal’s thighs. Finally he says, “Fine. I suppose this conversation is out of the way.”

“May I proceed, then?” Hannibal asks. 

“God, yes,” Will says, eagerly, clearly being pulled back to where he is, rather than where he was coming from with the conversation. “Anything you want. Sorry for getting sidetracked.”

“It was bothering you,” Hannibal says. “I do not blame you for needing to discuss it.”

He reaches over and pulls open his nightstand drawer, pulling out lube. He reaches behind himself and pushes two fingers in, stretching himself before lining up and sinking down on Will’s cock. He leans down to kiss Will while he adjusts, then starts a slow rock of his hips. 

Will’s hands hold Hannibal’s hips, fingers gripping hard enough to leave marks while Hannibal rides him slowly. 

He wants this to last, wants Will to focus on Hannibal and his own pleasure for as long as possible. No more thinking about the killer inside his head, unless the killer inside his head is Hannibal. 

Will pulls Hannibal down so their chests are pressed together, their bodies gently rocking against each other. 

Hannibal leaves kisses across Will’s neck and throat, biting down lightly, pulling moans from Will’s lips. Will holds Hannibal so tight against his body that Hannibal couldn’t sit up if he tried. 

When he feels himself starting to get close, Hannibal starts moving faster, Will’s cock hitting his prostate while his own cock moves between their stomachs. He knows he won’t last much longer and continues to pick up his pace, despite the burn starting in his thighs from exertion. 

Will comes inside him with Hannibal’s name on his lips and his fingers on one hand tangled in Hannibal’s hair, the other arm wrapped tightly around his shoulders. His hands drop down to his sides and Hannibal is able to sit up, taking his own cock in his hand, stroking himself until he comes on Will’s stomach. 

Then Will is pulling him back down to kiss all over his face, to wrap his arms around Hannibal’s back and hold him tight. 

“Thanks,” Will says after a while. “I needed that.” 

Hannibal kisses him, then pulls himself out of Will’s arms and off the bed, feeling Will’s release coming out of his body and going down the back of his thighs. 

“Come shower with me,” Hannibal says. 

Will shakes his head, and shuts his eyes, mumbling, “Too tired. Just stay in bed with me.”

Hannibal smiles fondly and kisses his forehead. He grabs a Kleenex from his nightstand and wipes off Will’s stomach, then goes into the bathroom. He cleans up, then finds himself back in bed with Will. 


Will feels Hannibal settle back down onto the bed with him, waking briefly from the half-asleep state he was in. He immediately moves closer to Hannibal, deciding to roll over and settle completely on top of him. 

Hannibal doesn’t seem to mind, wrapping his arms around Will while he tries to fall back asleep. Will inhales the safe, familiar scent of Hannibal and buries his face further into the man’s chest. 

“I love you, Will,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will makes a sleepy humming sound in response and holds Hannibal tighter.

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It’s unusual for them to separate while they sleep. The need to be close and touching usually overrides the need for a comfortable sleeping position. Today, however, Will ends up rolling off of Hannibal’s body in the darkened room and curls up small on his own side of the bed. 

He drifts in and out of consciousness for long minutes, unable to do anything other than lay there. Body too heavy to move, too tired to even pull the blanket up, or roll back close to Hannibal’s warm body. He feels Hannibal roll closer and kiss the back of his neck before retreating just a few inches. Then a blanket is placed over his shoulders. 

Will makes a quiet noise that could be a sound of gratitude, but he’s so tired from the morning that he doesn’t care what comes out. He just needs to sleep. 

He finally falls into a nightmare filled slumber after several long minutes of laying there half conscious. 

Behind his eyes, he sees twelve more sets staring back at him. All of them pleading with him to show mercy, to please stop. He removes some of their organs before they’re dead, kills others first. 

All different; sometimes a snapped neck, sometimes strangulation, other times the light fades from their eyes when their heart is removed. 

Some children, some teenagers, some adults. And Will sees it all. Over and over again. The blood, the pain, the words coming from their lips. 

On top of that, so much evil. The killer felt so angry, felt so much disdain for his victims. It washed over Will when he left the scene, and it threatens to take hold again in his dreams. 

“Will.”

In his dream he turns away from the bodies, looks around for where Hannibal’s voice is coming from. The only saving grace at the scene, knowing that Hannibal was only feet away, but also feeling Hannibal there when looking at two specific victims.

“Darling, wake up.” 

He’s pulled out of his dream by Hannibal’s voice in his ear, then Hannibal’s lips on his skin. He wakes with a start, shaking, tears streaking down his face. 

Hannibal just sits up and pulls Will into his lap, holding him close to his chest and whispering to him. Will doesn’t know what he’s saying. Doesn’t know if it’s English or something else. He can’t focus on the words. 

“I’m okay,” Will whispers after a minute. “Thank you.”

“Let me give you something to help you sleep, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will finds himself nodding for a second, then he shakes his head. “I want to get up for now. Shower, maybe. Eat something.”

Hannibal kisses the top of his head. “I can go start dinner while you shower.”

Will’s hand ends up gripping the hair on Hannibal’s chest, and he can’t stop the word, “No,” from coming out of his mouth. 

“Don’t leave me,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal holds him for another few minutes before Will finally pulls himself out of his arms. He stretches his arms above his head and catches Hannibal watching him while he does so. 

“I’m sure you don’t want to shower again,” Will says. “But can you sit in the bathroom with me?”

Hannibal nods, goes to his dresser to pull out a pair of sleep pants, puts them on, and follows Will into the bathroom. Will showers, keeps poking his head around the curtain to make sure Hannibal is still sitting on the closed toilet seat. 

When he shuts off the water, Hannibal is standing there with a towel at the ready. Will takes it from him and dries off his body. 

He puts on a pair of boxers, then looks at Hannibal. “Abigail’s gone, right?”

“Yes,” Hannibal nods. 

“I’m not getting dressed, then,” Will decides. 

They go down to the kitchen and Will leans against the counter while Hannibal makes them something simple to eat.

“Grilled cheese?” Will asks. He raises an eyebrow. Of course it’s not Kraft singles on Wonder bread, like he would make at home, but rather three different types of cheese that came from a block, and bread Hannibal baked himself. There’s meat and tomatoes in it, too. Still a grilled cheese, though. 

“Yes,” Hannibal answers. He plates both sandwiches and nods to Will to pick up the glasses of wine. 

Will is surprised when Hannibal doesn’t walk into the dining room, but rather goes right up the stairs with both of their plates. 

“Two meals in bed today?” Will asks, completely amused. “You've lost your mind, Doctor Lecter.” 

“I figured you’d be more comfortable up here,” Hannibal shrugs. “We needn’t eat in bed. There are other places to sit in my room.”

“Bed is fine,” Will says. He sets their wine on the nightstand on his side, then gets into bed next to Hannibal.

They eat their sandwiches and set their plates to the side, and then Will feels the need to check if Jack has tried contacting him about the case. He looks to the night stand, then gets up to check his pants, but sees they’ve been moved to the laundry. 

“Did you hide my phone?” he asks when his search comes up with nothing. 

Hannibal is sipping his wine on the bed, his legs criss crossed, his brow raised. “Perhaps you just misplaced it.”

“No. Fuck you,” Will says, no heat behind his words. He sits back down on the bed and moves closer to Hannibal until he’s practically in his lap, and nuzzles Hannibal’s neck with his face. “It’s fine if you did. I just don’t want to think I’m going crazy, misplacing things, okay?”

“Of course,” Hannibal breathes. “Then yes, love, I put it somewhere so no one can reach you. At least until tomorrow.” 

Will nods against his throat, kisses his neck, then moves away, back to his own side of the bed. He sips his wine, contemplating whether he wants to finally talk about this morning, or not. He decides to go for it. 

“When I was looking at the bodies you left,” he starts. Hannibal looks over, turns his body fully toward him, but Will just stares down into his wine glass. “I could tell the difference, of course. The other guy had so much… hatred, so much violence. It was so ugly seeing what he did. Scary, really. I felt that anger, and it scared me. Being in the car with you… I was scared I was going to say something or do something I wouldn’t have been able to take back.”

Hannibal reaches out then drops his hand, as if he’s going to touch Will, but decides against it. Will takes the initiative himself and sets his glass back down before pushing Hannibal down on the bed and laying with him, head on Hannibal’s shoulder. 

Will doesn’t start talking again until Hannibal relaxes, so tense underneath him. Strong arms wrap around Will’s shoulders, but so hesitant about it. Will hums his assent and splays his hand on Hannibal’s chest. 

“With your bodies, though,” Will says finally. “I could tell that you just saw it as a means to an end. You were clearly preoccupied; rushed, I guess. Only because you felt you had other, better things to be doing. That was comforting. Because I knew that you were just doing what you had to do, so you could come home to me as soon as possible.”

“Your mind amazes me,” Hannibal murmurs. “Although, I was under the impression you were going to stand there and pretend for Jack.”

Will frowns, grasps Hannibal’s chest hair, releases it, then smooths his hand over Hannibal’s chest. He kisses Hannibal’s collarbone.

After a long silence, a few minutes of Will carefully selecting his words, even though he knows there’s no need and Hannibal would understand him either way, Will shrugs. He hasn’t really found all the words he wants to say, but he’s waited long enough to talk that the silence is about to seem like avoidance. 

“I wasn’t going to look,” Will finally says. “And then I decided to.”

Hannibal runs one hand over Will’s head, and Will knows this is a moment Hannibal would try to play with Will’s curls if he still had them. He sighs and throws his leg over Hannibal’s hip, wraps his arm tightly around Hannibal’s torso. Wanting to be closer. Wanting to show Hannibal his love, and how he needs to be near. 

He realizes he’s shaking a bit now, remembering the scene in such vivid detail. He decides to keep pushing through his explanation, even though panic is rising up and he knows he should stop. 

“Then, I uh, I saw the bodies. And it felt, um,” Will says. He takes a breath trying to steady himself again closes his eyes, but sees those bodies behind them. Kids, teenagers, adults. Mostly the kids. 

“Will,” Hannibal whispers. “Don’t.”

“I-” Will starts. 

Hannibal cuts him off. “We can talk about it tomorrow, darling. You’re overwhelmed, and reliving this crime while you try to explain yourself. I don’t need the explanation if it causes you distress to recall it.”

Will whispers a quiet, “Okay,” and holds Hannibal just a little bit tighter. 


Will falls asleep not long after and Hannibal carefully extracts himself from his embrace. He takes their plates and empty wine glasses back down to the kitchen and washes them. 

Hannibal takes Will’s cell phone out of the drawer he hid it in and powers it back on. He checks the messages, just to ensure there’s nothing dire Will needs to be aware of. 

A missed call from Jack, which Hannibal doesn’t care about in the slightest. A photo from Abigail of Winston and Beatrice curled up in the same bed together, which makes Hannibal’s heart warm. Several text messages from Beverly. 

The first one around noon. 

Hey, man. Just checking in. You didn’t look too hot at the scene this morning. Call me? 

Second at quarter to two.

Your phone must be off or maybe you’re sleeping, but text me when you get these. Let me know you’re okay. 

The third directly after that. 

Not that I don’t trust Doctor Lecter to make sure you’re okay, but a friend can worry, okay? Give me a ring. 

A fourth barely fifteen minutes ago. 

I would call Lecter to see what’s up with you, but I don’t want to disturb either of you, so I won’t. I’m sure you’re fine, but that scene was rough. 

Hannibal types back a message of his own. 

Apologies, Miss Katz. I hid Will’s phone today so he wouldn’t feel obligated to work. He’s a bit shaken up, but otherwise he’s well. He’s sleeping now, but I will tell him to call in the morning. HL

He shuts the phone off after hitting send, then puts it back into the drawer to be dealt with in the morning. He fills a glass up with water then takes it back upstairs to the bedroom. 

Will sleeps on, arms wrapped tight around a pillow. Hannibal sets the glass down, then goes downstairs to the study to retrieve his tablet. He’s not tired, but Will may wake up soon from a nightmare, so he goes back upstairs and gets into bed. He sits against the headboard, catching up on Tattlecrime, as well as  a few psychiatric journals he follows. 

After a while he switches to a game, playing that until Will starts to shake and whine in his sleep. Will’s hands clutch the pillow he’s holding and he starts to move more, kicking his legs and shaking his head. 

Hannibal sets his tablet to the side and puts a hand on Will’s head, rubbing slow and carefully. He moves his hand to Will’s shoulder and squeezes lightly, then shakes him, but Will is so far into this nightmare that it doesn’t wake him. 

“Will,” Hannibal says, loud and firm. “Wake up now, beloved.” 

His thrashing stops and he opens his eyes just for a second. He reaches out for Hannibal and Hannibal moves closer to him. Will puts his head in Hannibal’s lap and wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist. He’s still trembling and Hannibal rubs his back until he falls back asleep. 

Hannibal reads some more, then ends up falling asleep sitting against the headboard, not wanting to disturb Will while he seems to be sleeping peacefully for once. 

In the morning, he’s being shaken awake by Will, and then kissed on the forehead.

“Baby, wake up,” Will whispers.

Hannibal opens his eyes and sees Will right in front of his face. His own body has slumped slightly during the night and his neck is stiff.

“Did you sleep well, darling?” Hannibal asks. He stretches with a groan, and pulls Will into his lap.

“Yeah, fine. Where’s my phone?” 

“Drawer under the toaster,” Hannibal answers. “Beverly wants you to call her.” 

“Thanks,” Will whispers and kisses Hannibal once before getting out of bed. 

He comes back a while later with a mug of coffee in one hand and his cell phone in the other. He hands the coffee to Hannibal, who murmurs his gratitude, and lays back down, pulling the covers over him. 

“Why did you sleep sitting up?” Will asks. 

“You were wrapped so tightly around my waist while I read last night that I didn’t want to wake you so I could lay down,” Hannibal answers, sipping his coffee. 

“Don’t do that,” Will says. Hannibal just nods and after a while, Will says, “I’m going to go back to Wolf Trap today.”

“I’ll come with you,” Hannibal offers. But he knows he needs to start cleaning the house for the dinner party in a few days. 

“Alone,” Will amends. “I need a couple days.”

Hannibal nods, though he really doesn’t want to accept that. He wants to keep Will in his bed, by his side, in his arms, as much as possible. More than what is possible. He understands Will’s need to retreat, though, as much as he doesn’t want to believe that Will would ever need to retreat from him. 

“Hey, don’t look so forlorn,” Will murmurs. “I’ll come back for your party or if I decide I’m too lonely sooner than that. And I’m not leaving right this second. It’s 6 in the morning.” 

Hannibal sets his coffee down on the nightstand next to him and lays down, his body finally relaxing from the night’s uncomfortable sleeping position. Will moves closer to him and they sleep for a few more hours in each other's arms. 

When Will removes himself from the bed, Hannibal can’t help the whimper that leaves his throat. He feels idiotic, and pathetic because of it, but Will just smooths Hannibal’s hair away from his forehead and kisses his lips softly. 

“I’ll text you when I get home, okay?” Will whispers. 

Hannibal nods without even opening his eyes, too scared that he’ll see pity in Will’s. Will kisses his forehead and moves away to get dressed. Hannibal can hear the closet door open, the sound of pants being pulled up Will’s legs. He just turns over in bed and faces the other way, unable to watch Will go. 


Will feels bad leaving Hannibal in such a vulnerable state. He needs some time alone, though. Plans to go fishing if he can find the time. Needs to do his grocery shopping like he planned the day before. He knows once this week is over, once they both go back to work, they’ll go back to spending time in Wolf Trap. 

He misses the dogs, most of all. It has been less than a day, but the comfort they bring and the care they require are the entire reason Will has them. He needs to feel responsible for something, rather than being taken care of by Hannibal like he has been. 

Abigail is asleep on the couch when he gets in, and he gently shakes her awake. 

“Huh?” 

“I’m home,” he tells her. 

“Hannibal, too?” she asks, her voice sleepy, her eyes barely open. She yawns and rubs his eyes as Will tells her he’s not. 

“Still in Baltimore. I needed some space,” he shrugs. 

“Something happen?” Abigail asks. 

Will sits down on the couch next to her and shakes his head. “No. Just been spending a lot of time together. It can be overwhelming.”

“He’s intense sometimes,” Abigail agrees. “Well, I'll get out of your hair, then.” 

“You can keep sleeping if you want. I have to go grocery shopping anyway,” Will shrugs. He takes his phone out of his pocket and sends Hannibal the word, ‘Home’ and then decides to add a red heart emoji after the fact. 

Hannibal sends one back instantly, but nothing else. 

“He will likely want his car at some point, but whenever you want to stay here, you can, okay?” Will says. “I’ll get a bed in the spare room upstairs for you.” 

“Thanks,” Abigail mumbles. She’s already laying back down on her side and pulling the blanket back over her shoulders. 

Will pats her shoulder and gets up again, taking the dogs outside for a quick walk around the fields. 

He puts them back inside, then goes to do his errands for the day. He decides to get another key made for his house so Abigail can come and go after she gets her own car. 

He goes to a furniture store and buys a bed frame and mattress for Abigail, to be delivered the next morning. 

Groceries after that, then he heads home. Abigail isn't there when he gets back, just a note on the kitchen counter that says, ‘Went back to Baltimore. Fed the dogs at 1.’ 

Will decides to finally call Jack back. He texted Beverly when woke up at 6, telling her he’s fine and just needed to sleep it off. He saw the photo Abigail sent of Winston and Beatrice and set it as his lock screen photo. He put off calling Jack back. 

“Will, finally,” Jack answers, relieved but impatient all at once. 

“Sorry, Jack. Doctor Lecter advised me to shut off my phone for the night,” Will lies. 

“I assumed as much,” Jack sighs. “Well, anyway. We found the killer.” 

“Oh?” Will asks in his best fake-surprised tone. An invitation for Jack to tell him more, while completely eliminating the chance of revealing anything himself with a more pointed question. 

“You were right about the last victim having some sort of familiarity” Jack says. “He was the killer’s brother.”

“Yeah, it felt familiar,” Will says. “As in, it felt like the victim knew his killer. Like there was remorse there in the way he was killed.”

That’s true, too. Though Will is sure that feeling had less to do with who Hannibal killed, and more to do with the fact that he kept it hidden from Will the night he did it. 

“Yeah, well, you’re right about that, too. The killer killed himself the same night,” Jack tells him. 

“Well, shit. And we're sure it’s him?”

“He left a note on his laptop confessing to everything. His brother’s heart was in his fridge,” Jack answers.

Will feels a wave of relief, relaxing for the first time in days. They believe the scene, Hannibal won’t be arrested. Everything is fine. 

“Opened and shut, then,” Will concludes. 

“Opened and shut,” Jack agrees. “Look. If we get any more cases in the next few days, I’m only going to call if it’s really stumping us, okay?”

“Sure,” Will agrees. “If there’s nothing before then, I’ll see you at Doctor Lecter’s party.”

“You’re going?” Jack asks, surprised. “You’re not the party type.”

“He’s bribing me with copious amounts of liquor,” Will tells him. And if Hannibal doesn't offer him copious amounts of liquor, he’ll help himself. 

Jack laughs at that and Will can imagine he’s shaking his head, too. 

“Bye Jack,” Will says, and hangs up. 

He plans to spend the next few days around the house. The bed for the spare room arrives on Friday morning, and he spends the afternoon setting it up. He walks the dogs, and he plays with Beatrice. 

It feels good to have time alone after spending so much time with Hannibal. He loves Hannibal, but it has been starting to feel oppressive how doting he is sometimes. 

He wants to let Hannibal have time to prepare for his party without Will as a distraction. And Will doesn’t like spending time in Baltimore, regardless. He likes being with his dogs, and he likes being able to take a walk outside when he feels too trapped inside. At Hannibal’s there’s too much noise outside, too many people to watch him, too many cars driving by. 

Wolf Trap is a safe haven for him, and a few days alone are exactly what he needs. 

Which is why it pisses him off immensely when Hannibal arrives on Saturday morning. Will wakes to the sound of the front door opening, and sees that Hannibal brought coffee and a garment bag. 

He sleeps on the bed on the ground floor when he’s alone, so he sees Hannibal the second he walks into the house. Sees how the dogs are overjoyed to see him, sees Beatrice weave through his legs. 

Instead of greeting him, Will grumbles to himself, and pulls the blanket over his head then rolls over to face the opposite wall. Hannibal goes into the kitchen, and Will can hear him moving around in the other room. Then the footsteps approach and Will hears Hannibal set the coffee cup on the nightstand before feeling the bed dip. 

“Go away,” Will murmurs. It comes out almost involuntarily. It’s definitely how he feels, but he didn’t want to say it in that way, or right this second. 

A hand settles on his shoulder and rubs small circles. Will relaxes into the touch, but he still wants Hannibal to leave again. Not that he hasn’t missed Hannibal, but it’s the principle of it all. He stated he wants time to himself and now Hannibal isn’t respecting that. Even though Will wants to roll over and take Hannibal’s clothes off and have sex all morning, he’s angry that Hannibal didn’t just listen to him. 

“Are you feeling okay, darling?” Hannibal whispers. 

“Fine. Please leave,” Will says. 

Hannibal sighs and lays down next to Will, which is the opposite of what Will wants, or needs, right now. 

“Do you remember,” Hannibal starts, “when we first started dating? How we had split up for those awful two weeks because of misunderstandings and jealous remarks?”

“If you have a point, get to it,” Will mutters. He buries his face further into the pillow as Hannibal presses his body against Will’s back. 

“You told me if you ever pull away again, that I should come here,” Hannibal says. 

Oh. 

Will pulls the blanket off his head and rolls over, softens his features from the anger he had originally felt. 

“Hannibal,” Will whispers. Hannibal’s eyes are closed, and Will leans forward to kiss his forehead. “I’m not pulling away, baby. I just needed a few days.”

“You didn’t answer my calls,” Hannibal whispers. 

“My phone’s been off,” Will sighs. 

“You told me to go away.”

“Because I told you I needed some time and I thought you weren’t respecting that,” Will says. He tries to keep from sounding confrontational, but he fails miserably at it. Softer, this time, he says, “I didn’t realize you would think I was pulling away. I’m sorry.”

“I’m sorry for assuming. You must understand why I felt insecure,” Hannibal says. Will rests his forehead against Hannibal’s and nods. Hannibal pulls away and sits up. “I’ll leave you, then. I brought your suit for Monday night.”

“You can stay for a while. Not- not all day,” Will says. He gets out of bed and pulls on a pair of pants and a dirty t-shirt. “I have missed you. Even if I don’t want to admit it.”

Hannibal smiles weakly at him and shakes his head. “I should get home.”

Will frowns and moves closer, pushing Hannibal back to sit down on the bed and putting his knees on either side of Hannibal’s thighs. Hannibal clearly hesitates before setting his hands on Will’s hips. 

“Stay for breakfast,” Will whispers. He cups Hannibal’s cheeks with his hands, and kisses him soft and slow. 

Hannibal pulls back and nods, so Will gets out of his lap and offers a hand. Hannibal lets himself be pulled to his feet, then heads off toward the kitchen. 


Will doesn’t join Hannibal in the kitchen right away, stopping in the bathroom while Hannibal starts making breakfast. 

When Will does join him, Hannibal can smell toothpaste and hand soap on him. He has changed into one of Hannibal’s sweaters from the laundry basket, and shuffles across the floor to stand behind Hannibal at the stove. 

He looks small and cautious, in a way that Hannibal knows is meant to be placating and endearing at the same time. Will is scared and Hannibal would be understanding of that if he were actually upset in any way. 

He’s not. 

He knows he should not have come. And now Will seems to think they’re holding together this morning by a thread, and at any moment he’ll say something and Hannibal will leave. 

Hannibal knows he shouldn’t have tried to leave, should have just said yes the first time Will asked him to stay. Now he has Will trying to seem okay with a situation he isn’t entirely okay with, just so Hannibal doesn’t lose his temper. Hannibal sees right through all of it. 

Will’s arms make their way around Hannibal’s waist and it’s so hesitant, Hannibal decides he needs to say something. 

“I’m not upset, Will. I’m not mad, and I’m not going to leave unless you ask me to,” Hannibal says. He shuts off the burner and plates the sausages he cooked. “Please do not be scared of me.”

“Scared? I’m not-”

“Cautious, then,” Hannibal says, cutting him off. “Stop being cautious, or hesitant, or worried.” 

Will huffs out a breath of air against Hannibal’s back, but doesn’t say a word. 

So Hannibal continues, “I’m not going to do anything to you.”

“I didn’t think that,” Will murmurs. “I know you won’t hurt me.” 

“Yet you are acting like one wrong move may set me off. You are wearing my sweater because you know how I like you in my clothes,” Hannibal points out. “You’re letting me stay because you know I like cooking you breakfast. Did you think I would be upset if you didn’t insist I stay? Do you think you’re somehow placating me by wearing my sweater? As if I would, for some reason, leave you for good, or kill you if I still believed you to be pushing me away?”

“Stop,” Will whispers. He lets go of Hannibal’s waist, and takes his plate to the table. 

“Very well. Just something to think about, I suppose,” Hannibal says. 

Will doesn’t talk again while they eat breakfast, and Hannibal knows he pushed it too far. Will does kiss Hannibal before he leaves, but his heart clearly isn’t in it and his body is stiff when Hannibal attempts to pull him closer. Hannibal doesn’t push it and leaves. 

He picks up Abigail and takes her to a car dealership, letting her choose one. Even though Will wanted to buy her a car, it’s been long enough, and Hannibal would rather her have unrestricted access to transportation. Instead of being trapped in the house whenever Hannibal is gone. Especially since he goes back to work next week. 

“Are you and Will fighting?” Abigail asks on the way to the dealership.

“No. Why?”

“I thought you were spending the day and night with him,” Abigail says. 

“He didn’t want me to,” Hannibal shrugs. “I intruded on his alone time.”

“If you guys break up I am killing you both.”

The corner of Hannibal’s mouth pulls into a minuscule smile at the threat. “We are not breaking up. I will hold you to that, though.” 

“You guys can’t act like a couple at the party, right?” Abigail asks out of nowhere. 

“Correct.”

“So Will is going to have no one to talk to there except Jack because he can’t stay by your side all night,” Abigail says. 

“He can talk to you,” Hannibal tells her. “That reminds me. You need a nice outfit.”

“Fine, yeah, but,” Abigail pauses. “You should invite Beverly.”

“It’s quite late notice if I do.” 

“Yeah, but she’s Will’s best friend,” Abigail shrugs. “He hates parties.”

“Yes, yes. I will call her when we get home, then,” Hannibal sighs. 

Hannibal does, and she accepts the invitation. 

It comes as no surprise that Will shows up on Monday evening, still in a sour mood about Saturday. No surprise, but Hannibal still doesn’t like it. 

It starts off just fine. Will does park in the garage, and he does carry in an overnight bag, which makes Hannibal a little less worried about how their last encounter went.

“Hey, baby,” Will murmurs, kissing Hannibal on the cheek when he makes it fully into the kitchen. “Beverly’s gonna come a bit early and we’re just gonna tell everyone we arrived and are leaving together, so no one asks where my car is.”

Hannibal nods and finishes arranging a final prosciutto rose before taking a step away from the counter. He looks Will up and down and nods in approval at the suit and how it fits on him. Hannibal gestures for Will to turn, and he does. Hannibal squeezes one of Will’s butt cheeks, and Will swats his hand away, turning back around. 

“It fits you well,” Hannibal says. “You look lovely.”

“Thanks,” Will says. He looks Hannibal up and down, and frowns. He then turns and heads out of the kitchen abruptly and Hannibal wonders what he did wrong. 

When Will returns, the bag is no longer slung over his shoulder. And now he’s tense, like Hannibal did expect him to be, but hoped he wouldn’t be. 

“Tell me what’s wrong?” Hannibal asks. He looks at the staff helping him around the kitchen and makes a gesture with his head for them to clear the room. They all go out into the hall so the two men can talk privately. 


“Can you, um,” Will says, scratching the back of his neck nervously. Hannibal pulls something out of the oven while Will does it, and barely glances over at him. Will takes a breath and tries again. “Can you change?”

“Why would I do that?” Hannibal asks. 

“Really?” Will asks in disbelief. “Your shirt is the exact same shade of blue as my suit, Hannibal. My shirt is the exact same gray as your suit. It should be completely obvious why I would want you to change your clothes.”

“Merely a coincidence, my love,” Hannibal smiles. 

“It won’t look like one to Alana after you called me ‘darling’ last week,” Will points out. “It won’t look like one to Jack when Bella asks how long we’ve been together because she seems like the type of person who would pick up on that, not knowing us well enough to think otherwise.”

“I’m not sure about that,” Hannibal says. “Bella would have no reason to believe we are.”

“You can’t hide the way you look at me, you do know that, right?” Will groans. “People we know are used to it and don’t notice it, but Bella might notice it, Hannibal. And she will say something in front of Jack. If we are wearing matching suits, then we might as well just make out in front of everyone.”

“I’m not changing,” Hannibal says firmly. 

“Then I am,” Will huffs. 

“No.”

That feels like a final straw and the next words that come out of Will’s mouth can’t be stopped.

“I’m not your fucking pet, Hannibal,” Will says through gritted teeth. “I’m not a fucking dog that you an just command and expect me to listen. I’m not a fucking doll that you can just dress up as you please, and expect me to lay there and let you. And you’re not my fucking keeper, either. So stop acting like you always need to be taking care of me, or telling me what to do, or telling other people what I can or cannot do. I’m changing.” 

Will turns on his heel and starts going up the stairs to Hannibal’s bedroom. He doesn’t know what’s gotten into him, or why he said any of that. Except he does know. He knows it’s Hannibal dressing him up, he knows it’s Hannibal barring him from doing work with Jack, he knows it’s Hannibal showing up to his house on Saturday and saying everything he says. 

And he knows he should have stayed home tonight instead. Because it’s not just Hannibal, and he knows a lot of his emotions are misplaced. And Hannibal doesn’t deserve Will’s volatile mood right now, but Will can’t stop it. 

Will can’t stop any of it, not after what he found out earlier, when an old friend from Louisiana called.

He can hear Hannibal’s footsteps coming up the stairs two at a time, and Will walks faster. He goes through Hannibal’s bedroom to the en-suite and slams the door, locking it behind him. Hannibal tries turning the knob, and Will knows he’s about to go for a key next, so he sits against the back of the door, knees pulled up to his chest. 

“Will, darling, let’s talk about this,” Hannibal says through the door.

“Fuck off,” Will mutters. 

“This has nothing to do with the suits. What’s wrong?” Hannibal presses. 

“Hannibal. Leave me alone for ten minutes. Please,” Will says. 

“Will,” Hannibal sighs. 

Will can hear and feel Hannibal sliding his body down the other side of the door to sit on the floor. His head hits the door, right behind Will’s. 

“I will sit here for ten minutes until you are ready to talk, but I am not leaving,” Hannibal says after a moment. 

“You need to finish making your dinner,” Will says. 

“The staff can handle the rest,” Hannibal responds. “No guests are to arrive for another hour. I have time.”

“I shouldn’t have come tonight,” Will says. Better to get the conversation over with instead of letting Hannibal sit on the other side of the door. “I’m angry. Partly at you. Mostly. And I’m… sad.”

“Whatever for, darling?” 

Will feels tears prickle into his eyes. He takes a deep breath, shaky on the exhale. He stands up and opens the door, collapsing to the floor again, but this time in Hannibal’s arms. 

“My, um, well. She was sort of like a grandparent to me, I guess. When I was living in Louisiana, I mean. Me and my dad moved around the state a bit, but I was always welcome at her house, and she uh, she let me live with her my senior year when my dad needed to move out of state because I wanted to actually graduate,” Will says. He knows he’s not making any sense. He knows. Hannibal just lets him talk, holds him, rubs his back and head. Will swallows and continues, “Anyways, she died. This morning. I got the call a few hours ago.”

Hannibal holds Will tighter and Will just sinks into his chest. It’s a while before either speak again, but Will is the first one to do so.

“I didn’t mean to lash out at you,” he says. “A lot of things have been building up, I think? And then I got the call about Lucille. I’m sorry.”

“Love, it’s alright,” Hannibal whispers into his head. “There was truth to your words downstairs, and I know I have been overbearing, and don’t always ask you your wishes before I act. I will work on it.”

Will nods into Hannibal’s chest. 

“If you’d like to stay up here during the party, or if you would prefer going home, I will be happy to let you do either,” Hannibal says after a stretch of silence. 

“No. I’ll go to the party. I’m already here,” Will murmurs. “I want to change, though.”

“I have a black suit for you, if you would like,” Hannibal offers. “You may choose any color shirt to go with it.”

“Can I wear one of your shirts?” Will asks. “Something that smells like you.” 

“It might be big, but yes. If you wear your suit jacket all night no one will notice it isn’t yours.”

“Until Alana gets too close and smells your cologne on me,” Will whispers. “And when she asks I’ll just say I must have bought myself the same one.”

“Do you want her to know you’re mine, or not? Might as well just wear the suit you have on,” Hannibal whispers. 

“It would be more subtle. Let people speculate, but in a way that can boil down to the fact that we’re in your house that smells like you,” Will shrugs. 

Hannibal hums in agreement. They sit on the floor for a few more minutes before Will stands up and moves over to Hannibal’s laundry basket, digging through it until he finds a dark purple shirt. 

“Oh, not that one,” Hannibal says. “Jack saw me in it last week.”

Will drops it back into the basket and picks up a salmon colored shirt, holding it up to non verbally ask if it’s okay. Hannibal nods and Will walks across the room to drop it onto the bed. 

Hannibal brings the black suit over from his closet as Will starts to strip off the blue suit he’s wearing. He can feel Hannibal’s eyes on his back while he undresses. 

“Is there going to be a funeral?” Hannibal asks. 

“I can’t do funerals,” Will answers. “Especially not alone.” 

“No one said you need to be alone,” Hannibal says. 

“Still, I can’t,” Will says again. “I’ll… visit her grave and say a few words one day. She always understood me and how I couldn’t be around people all the time. Especially when emotions are running as high as they are at a funeral. She, of all people, wouldn’t have expected me to go.”

“She seemed to have cared for you very much, and you clearly cared deeply for her. This must be extremely difficult for you to deal with, but you can always talk to me, darling,” Hannibal says. He kisses the back of Will’s neck, and Will hadn’t even realized he was standing that close until he did it. “I understand both your anger with me, and your sadness over Lucille, and I do not find fault with your emotions getting the best of you in the kitchen.”

“Thanks, Hannibal,” Will says. He starts to redress then, pulling on the pants, then the shirt, buttoning it. Hannibal leaves his spot behind Will and goes back to the closet. Will turns to look at Hannibal and sees him pulling out a black tie. 

“Would you like to be alone for a few minutes, or would you like for me to stay?” Hannibal asks. He lays the tie down on the bed next to the black waistcoat that Will is debating on wearing or not. 

“I want to be alone. I’ll come down when I’m dressed.”

Hannibal nods, kisses him once on the cheek, a touch that Will pushes his face into, then Hannibal leaves. He shuts the bedroom door behind him, leaving Will alone with his own thoughts. 

He knows they’ll have to talk about the things he said after the party, but for now he finishes getting dressed (opting to wear the waistcoat, after all) and heads downstairs. He can pretend for a few hours that everything is fine, but at least now he doesn’t have to pretend with Hannibal, who knows everything is not. 

He finds Hannibal in the kitchen, the staff once again helping him arrange food on trays to be carried around later. Beverly is sitting in the armchair in the corner. She stands and hugs him, pulling him as tight as possible. He told her earlier, and she whispers an, “I’m sorry,” into his neck. 

Will just squeezes her once then lets go. He can see something in Hannibal’s eyes when he looks over at him, but it’s quickly masked when Hannibal pulls his walls back over his emotions. Zips his person suit back up. 

With that, Will walks over to the fridge, brushing a soft kiss against Hannibal’s cheek when he passes him. He takes out a bottle of wine, then moves to the cupboard to get himself a glass, filling it nearly to the brim. He knows it’s going to be a long night. He might as well try to enjoy it.

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Will finishes his first glass of wine, and pours another before the other guests start to arrive. Hannibal takes it upon himself to take the glass from Will and replace it with a glass of water instead. Will looks at him like he just kicked one of his dogs. 

“Have you eaten today?” Hannibal asks.

Just as Hannibal expected, Will shakes his head, so Hannibal goes to the fridge and starts gathering what he needs to make Will a grilled cheese. Will enjoyed the one Hannibal made him the other night, likely more than he’s going to like any of the food for the dinner party. This way, he can also ensure Will eats enough, where he can’t be sure Will would actually take the food from the servers while they walk around during the party.

“Isn’t the party soon?” Will asks. 

“Do you not want a sandwich now?” Hannibal asks. “Beverly, would you like one?”

“Oh, sure,” Beverly shrugs.

“Okay, fine. I’ll have one,” Will mumbles. He looks around the room, then meets Hannibal’s eyes again. “Where’s Abigail?”

“Getting dressed, I would imagine,” Hannibal answers. “She bought a dress with my money, but would not let me see it yet.”

“Did she buy a car with your money too?” 

Hannibal nods. “I did see that when it was purchased, though. I know you wanted to, but…”

“But I was being flakey all weekend, I know,” Will says, waving his hand dismissively. He moves to the corner of the kitchen and sits down in the armchair, his head back against the backrest. His eyes are still sad, even if he’s trying his best to stay composed.

Hannibal wants to call everyone and tell them not to show up, then take Will upstairs and wrap him up in his arms. He wants to hold Will and whisper how much he loves him, but it’s too late. Guests will start arriving in half an hour, most of them likely already on their way. 

Beverly sits at one of the stools at the counter, scrolling on her phone. 

Hannibal wants to know why Will told her about the death in his family before he told Hannibal. Why it seems like he was hesitant to even tell Hannibal at all. He knows asking is not a good idea, not now, and maybe not later either. He still feels a pang of jealousy over Will confiding in Beverly rather than him. 

He becomes preoccupied with his thoughts and the food he’s making that he didn’t realize Will stood up until his arms come around Hannibal’s waist, and his face is resting between his shoulder blades. Will rubs his face on the back of Hannibal’s shirt, then kisses his shoulder. Hannibal’s used to Will clinging to his back like this while he’s trying to cook, but that never makes it any easier to resist leaving the food to burn so he can turn around. He wants to turn and gather Will into his arms and hold him as close as possible for as long as possible. 

Will makes a quiet noise in the back of his throat, almost needy, almost impatient. Upon hearing it, Hannibal shuts off the burner and uses a spatula to put the sandwiches on the plates, then turns and does exactly what he wanted to do. 

Beverly looks up and Hannibal points to her sandwich, which she stands to take with a nod of thanks, just as Hannibal turns and wraps his arms tight around Will. Will slumps against his chest, and practically hangs where Hannibal is holding him up, and it breaks Hannibal’s heart to see him this way. 

“You’re okay, darling. I’m here,” Hannibal murmurs into Will’s short hair. He kisses Will’s head and holds him tighter. 

Will stands up straight and pulls away after a minute. He pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal softly and Hannibal cups his cheeks with his hands. 

“Okay?” Hannibal asks. 

Will nods and kisses him one more time. He pulls away so he can pick up his sandwich and takes it over to the armchair in the corner of the room. He eats it slowly, but as long as he finishes it, that’s all Hannibal cares about. 

Abigail walks into the kitchen just as Will stands to carry his plate to the sink, and everyone stops to look at her. 

“Your dress is beautiful,” Beverly tells her with a big smile. 

Abigail is wearing a long, forest green dress. The outer layer of the skirt is a forest green tulle with silver mixed into it. The sleeves are the same material. Hannibal nods in approval. 

The doorbell rings and Hannibal knows the first guests are arriving. Will looks at him with a pained expression. 

“Abigail, would you mind getting the door?” Hannibal asks. 

Abigail nods and leaves the kitchen. 

Hannibal goes to Will and cups his cheeks with both hands, drawing him in for one more kiss. Unless they can sneak off at some point during the party, this is the last one Hannibal gets until everyone goes home. 


Will pulls away from the kiss after just a second, but kisses the corner of Hannibal’s mouth before he moves away. Alana Bloom walks into the kitchen right as Will steps away and he tries to pretend nothing was going on. 

Alana doesn’t seem to notice how close they’re still standing, and if she does, she doesn’t mention it at all. Instead she comes up to them both and pulls Hannibal into a loose hug, whispering something to him that Will can’t hear. Hannibal barely touches her as he hugs back and Will can’t help but smirk, wondering if Hannibal’s doing it to not make Will jealous, or if he just doesn’t want to hug Alana back. 

She releases Hannibal and pulls Will in for a tight hug. Will is completely surprised by it and gives Hannibal a confused look over her shoulder, causing Hannibal to shrug. There’s both possessiveness and amusement glinting in his eyes as Will awkwardly returns the embrace. 

“It’s good to see you, Will,” Alana says when she releases him. 

“You, too, Alana,” he responds. 

Abigail seems to see the interaction go down and immediately removes Alana from the kitchen. She glances back and Will nods in thanks to her as they both leave the room. 

More guests start to arrive after that, and Will desperately tries to avoid them all, hanging in the kitchen while everyone else gathers in Hannibal’s large living room. 

He picks up the glass of wine Hannibal took away from him and drinks the rest. He glances over at Hannibal to see if there’s any reaction, and when there isn’t, he goes in for another. 

“Why don’t you drink something else? There’s an assortment of beverages in the other room,” Hannibal says as he puts finishing touches on the food. 

Hannibal nods to the servers and they all pick up trays and start carrying them into the other room. He puts his suit jacket back on, and Will sets his glass down to fix the lapels for him. He smooths his hands over Hannibal’s chest and sighs, wishing it could just be them tonight. 

Will sneaks one last kiss to the corner of Hannibal’s mouth, then grabs Beverly’s hand and guides her out into the other room. 

There is, indeed, a wide assortment of beverages in the other room. Will walks right past Jack Crawford, still dragging Beverly by her hand, to get to the bar set out. He picks up a glass and fills it with Hannibal’s best whiskey. He wastes no time before he starts drinking it. 

Beverly just watches him, but doesn’t say anything, which he’s grateful for. She just pours herself a glass of wine and picks up something off a tray to eat. 

Hannibal comes into the room after a few minutes and Will immediately wants to go to him, wrap his arms tight around him and never let go. Instead he just turns around and faces Beverly. 

“You good?” she asks. 

Will just nods and continues to sip his drink, deciding to slow down for the moment. He does feel fine. He’s sad, but he’s fine. He’s dealt with enough loss in his life that he can push it to the back of his mind and think about other things when dwelling on death is not convenient. 

His fine mood only lasts a half an hour. Then Doctor Frederick Chilton walks up to him and starts talking and Will immediately feels the need to get out. 

“Will Graham,” Chilton greets him. “You know, you’re quite the talk in psychiatric circles.”

“Yeah,” Will answers, curt and disinterested. He turns to look for Beverly, but she’s been pulled into a conversation with Jack and a few people Will doesn’t recognize. He’s alone with Doctor Chilton. 

“Doctor Lecter is your psychiatrist, is he not?” Chilton presses. 

“Yeah,” Will says again. “Kind of.”

“And by ‘kind of’ I don’t suppose you mean you’d be open to… speaking with anyone else? I will admit there’s not much research done on your particular…” 

Will stops listening, then, and scans the room with his eyes, looking for someone, anyone that can get him out of this conversation. His eyes meet Hannibal’s and he pleads with his eyes for rescue. 

To his relief, Hannibal says something to the person he’s talking to and makes his way over to Will and Chilton. Frederick is still talking about how he wants to pick Will’s brain apart and see how it works, but Will is staring right past him, only focused on his boyfriend making his way through the party of people. 

“Doctor Chilton,” Hannibal says with a forced smile. “So glad you could make it tonight.”

Frederick stops saying whatever he’s saying to Will and immediately turns to face Hannibal. Hannibal gives Will a look over Chilton’s shoulder, and Will knows it means to get away while he can. Will nods, walks around Chilton so he can brush Hannibal’s hand with his own as he passes. A small gesture that he hopes Hannibal understands as gratitude and love. 

Will gets himself another drink, despite already feeling quite unsteady on his feet, and goes to sit down next to Abigail. She’s sitting on one of the couches, her elbow on an armrest, and her head resting on her fist. The image of pure boredom.

“Great party,” Will says drily. 

Abigail snorts a laugh and nods. “Awesome.” Her tone is just as dry as Will’s. 

“I knew it was gonna be boring, but I love him, so you know,” Will says, waving his hand noncommittally as he trails off. Then he realizes what he just said out loud. He whispers to himself, “Wow.”

“What?”

“Nothing,” Will says quickly. It’s not like he didn’t already know that he loves Hannibal. It’s not like he hasn’t said it while Hannibal’s been asleep, or murmured it after hanging up the phone. He’s just never said it out loud to an audience before. 

“Are you guys always going to keep it a secret?” Abigail asks. 

Will shrugs and slumps further into the couch. “It’s not ideal that I can’t be by his side tonight, but it is actually very nice that no one is prying into my personal life.”

“That makes sense, I guess,” Abigail nods. 

A second later the cushion next to him dips and he looks over to see Hannibal taking the spot to his right. 

“Doctor Chilton won’t be bothering you anymore,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Are you going to kill him?” Will asks before he can stop himself. He’s lucky he whispered it and that Abigail is the only person near them at the moment. 

Hannibal just pats Will’s thigh, but doesn’t answer, which Will thinks is answer enough, but it’s also a dismissive gesture. They’ll likely talk about it later, Will thinks. 

“Would you like to help me in the kitchen for a moment?” Hannibal asks. 

“I’m not sure that’s a good idea.”

“No?”

Will leans in close so absolutely no one can hear him beside Hannibal. “No, because I’d want to bend you over the counter and fuck you.”

“Darling, I think you’ve had enough to drink,” Hannibal whispers. He doesn’t make a move to take away Will’s glass though, and he leans further away before anyone can see them so close. 

Hannibal stands up and raises an eyebrow, silently asking Will if he’s coming or not. Will nods, throws back the rest of his whiskey and stands. 

In the kitchen Hannibal turns to Will, grabs his hand, and pulls him into the pantry, shutting the door behind them. 

“Are you okay?” Hannibal asks. He cups Will’s cheeks with his hands and tilts Will’s face up, so Will has no choice but to meet his eyes. 

Will nods as best as he can with Hannibal’s grip on his face. 

“Do you want to leave?” Hannibal asks. 

“Not… I'll be fine.”

“If it’s too much, just go up to my room at any time,” Hannibal murmurs. “I’ll make excuses if anyone asks.” 

Will nods again then leans forward so he can kiss Hannibal. He wants to tell him he loves him, but he can hear a woman calling out Hannibal’s name and the moment is lost. 

Hannibal sighs, kisses Will on the forehead, then murmurs, “Wait a minute or two before you leave the pantry.”

“Okay.”

Hannibal grabs a bottle of wine out of the wine cooler and steps out of the pantry, leaving Will against one wall where he can’t be seen. 

“Mrs Komeda,” Hannibal greets. “I was just getting more wine.” 

The voices trail out of the kitchen and Will takes a deep breath before walking out of the pantry. He shuts the door behind him and leaves the kitchen, but he goes down a different hallway so he can go into the sitting room from a different direction. 

He enters the room and starts walking back toward Abigail, but he’s intercepted by Jack Crawford.

“Jack,” Will nods.

“Will,” Jack responds. “Your boyfriend couldn’t make it tonight?”

“Boyfr-” Will starts in confusion, then quickly recovers, “Oh, uh. No. We broke up,” Will lies. Better than Jack asking questions about things Will doesn’t have answers to.

“Oh, I’m sorry to hear that, Will,” Jack says, his voice full of sympathy that Will doesn’t even deserve.

“It was mutual,” Will shrugs. He decides to change the subject. “How’s Bella?”

“She’s good. Finally talked her into getting treatment,” Jack answers. 

Will spends the next ten minutes letting himself be distracted by conversation with Jack. He responds at the right times, asks questions when it’s appropriate, but he barely follows along. A server walks past with a tray of champagne and he takes one. He drinks it, then takes another the next time he’s passed.

And that’s when he officially decides he has had too much, and should likely go lay down. He takes his finished glass into the kitchen and finds Hannibal in there finishing up the desserts. He checks the clock on the stove and sees it’s after ten now. 

Hannibal looks up at him as he stumbles over to the sink. Will doesn’t even have to ask before Hannibal is getting a cup from the cupboard and filling it with water. 

Will mumbles a ‘thanks’ when Hannibal hands it to him, and immediately starts to drink it. 

“I told Jack I broke up with my stripper boyfriend,” Will says after a minute. 

“Did you call him that?” Hannibal asks. He leans against the counter, arms crossed, regarding Will like he’s trying to make a decision. 

Will shakes his head. “No. Didn’t say anything about stripping. Did say it was mutual.” 

Hannibal hums in response and nods. 

“I need to lay down,” Will says. “Sorry for getting drunk at your New Years party.”

“I really do not think anyone else has noticed,” Hannibal says. He steps forward and offers Will his arm. “I’ll accompany you upstairs for a few moments.” 

“Won’t your guests wonder where you are?” Will asks. He takes Hannibal’s arm, anyway, and lets the man walk him into the hallway and to the stairs. 

“I’m not concerned. They are very immersed in their own conversations. Abigail disappeared to her room an hour ago and no one mentioned it,” Hannibal says. “No one seems to notice when I am in the kitchen for half the party, either.”

They get to the stairs and Hannibal moves his arm to Will’s waist, and Will is about to push it off, saying he doesn’t need help, but then he stumbles and Hannibal makes sure he doesn’t fall. He lets Hannibal hold him tighter after that, letting himself be taken care of because Hannibal enjoys it, not because it’s something Will necessarily wants. 

In Hannibal’s bedroom with the door shut, Hannibal stops them both before Will can crawl into bed in his suit.

“Did you plan on coming back down later, or did you want to undress?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shrugs. He doesn’t really want to go back down to the party, but the fact that Hannibal is asking, makes him feel like Hannibal wants him to come back down. He doesn’t get to dwell on that because Hannibal knows him too well, and starts to undo Will’s tie, and then unbutton his waistcoat. 

“I can undress myself,” Will mumbles. 

“I know, darling,” Hannibal responds. “Let me take care of you.” 

Will doesn’t have it in him to protest, so he lets Hannibal remove all of his clothes until he’s standing there in his underwear. Then he lets Hannibal guide him over to the bed and pull the covers up to his shoulders. Hannibal kisses his forehead, then hands him the remote for the TV. Will doesn’t remember them ever turning it on while Will’s stayed over, didn’t even really notice it until now, but he accepts the remote and turns it on. 


With one more kiss to Will’s forehead, and then one to his lips because Hannibal finds himself unable to resist, he takes Will’s empty glass and refills it in the bathroom. He sets it down on Will’s nightstand and turns to go. 

Hannibal stops in the doorway and looks at his partner laying in bed, curled up small, a vacant look in his eyes as he flips through the TV guide. Hannibal hasn’t had to deal with loss in a long time, but he knows what it looks like on other people. 

He knows Will is trying his best to seem okay, but his lack of protests when Hannibal undressed him and tucked him into bed is proof enough that Will wants to be outside himself. His drinking, his sad eyes, him standing in the corner of the room for much of the night. Hannibal knows. 

After a moment of watching Will, Hannibal opens the door again and leaves into the hallway. He shuts it again and goes back to his party. No one asks where he went, and he’s glad. 

He falls into a conversation with Alana about a recipe he had given her to try, and after a few minutes, she stops mid sentence. 

“Did Will go home?” 

“Hm? Oh. No, he wasn’t feeling well so I sent him upstairs to lay down,” Hannibal answers. “He had too much to drink.”

“Oh. Does he have a ride home?” Alana asks. She sips her own glass of wine and pretends to seem uninterested, casual, but Hannibal can read her like a book. 

“Miss Katz drove him here, but I think I may have him stay the night in my guest room,” Hannibal answers. “He’s been going through some hardship, and I believe he needs some uninterrupted sleep.” 

“Hardship? What happened?”

“I don’t believe it’s my place to say,” Hannibal shrugs. “I may not be bound to confidentiality in regards to Will, but I do believe he would say something to you if he wanted you to know.” 

He knows how the words could cut, and he hopes that they do, but if Alana is bothered at all, she doesn’t let on. Hannibal wishes she would make a scene about it, or walk away with tears in her eyes at the implication that Will is not interested in her. 

Hannibal has noticed how friendly she has become, how she moved on from himself, and is looking at Will with the same eyes. Will has noticed it, too, but neither of them seem to be putting a stop to it. Hannibal has to admit he’s curious about what will happen. He’s sure Will just doesn’t know how to let her down when she’s not being quite forward enough to warrant it. 

Instead, Alana just goes back to talking about the recipe, then mentions how glad she is that Abigail is adjusting well to life outside the facility. 

Hannibal is pulled out of the conversation by Beverly tapping him on the shoulder.

“Just a moment, Alana,” he says, turning and following Beverly across the room. 

“Is Will okay?” Beverly asks when no one can hear. 

“He’s in my room,” Hannibal answers. “He seems upset. I didn’t want to leave him alone, but I didn’t have much of a choice.” 

“Do you mind if I go check on him?” 

“Up the stairs, third door on the right,” Hannibal says instead of answering. He reaches out to touch her arm. “Thank you.”

“It’s nothing. I know you’d be up there if you weren’t hosting right now. He’s really lucky to have you,” Beverly says. 

Hannibal pulls her in for a friendly hug because he knows that’s the thing to do when someone cares so much for his loved one. He releases her, then watches her turn and go to the hall, disappearing up the stairs. 

A few more of his friends come around to talk to him, but his mind is elsewhere. His mind is in his bedroom with Will, not in his living room with people he barely cares about. 

At 11:30 he turns on the TV because he knows everyone will want to watch the ball drop in NYC, and he doesn’t mind watching the festivities as they happen in Times Square. 


Will rolls over in bed when he hears the bedroom door open. It’s dark in the room, and whoever is at the door hasn’t come into view yet. 

“Hannibal?” he mumbles. 

“Sorry, just me,” Beverly answers, coming into the bedroom. “Scoot over.”

Will moves over into Hannibal’s side of the bed, making space for Beverly on his. He lifts to blankets so she can slide into the bed next to him, still in her fancy dress. She sits down against the headboard, and he can’t help but move closer to her, resting his head on her shoulder. Her own head tilts to rest against the top of his. 

“What are you watching?” Beverly asks. 

“Marmaduke,” Will answers, looking up at the TV. 

Neither of them talk, but Will is glad for the company. Eventually his eyes start to grow tired and he scoots closer to Beverly’s warmth, pulling the blankets tighter before he drifts off. 

He jolts awake when the door opens again, having not completely fallen asleep yet. Beverly is still in bed with him, snoring softly into his short hair. 

Hannibal comes around the other side of the bed and puts one knee down, moving close to Will, but not quite getting into bed yet. 

“Happy New Year, my love,” Hannibal whispers. He shows Will the display on the alarm clock and it shows it’s midnight on the dot. Hannibal leans forward and kisses him softly on the lips, then on the forehead. 

“Happy New Year, baby,” Will whispers. 

“I’m going to send everyone home within the next hour, then I’ll come back up,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods, but already feels himself falling back asleep. He distantly hears the door click shut again. 

The next thing he knows, Hannibal is climbing into bed, and Beverly is no longer next to him. 

“Bev go home?” Will mumbles. He rolls over and buries his face in Hannibal’s bare chest. 

“Yes. Everyone is gone now,” Hannibal whispers. “Beverly said she would feed your dogs and let them out.”

“Mm. Late isn’t it? She should just go home,” Will yawns. “I could take care of them in the morning.”

“I reckon you’ll have a hangover in the morning,” Hannibal whispers. “Let her take care of your dogs.”

“Beatrice, too?” Will asks. It comes out as no more than a tired, mumbled sound, but Hannibal understands. 

“Beatrice, too.” 

“Good,” Will whispers. 

He buries his face further into Hannibal’s chest and wraps his arms tight around him. Hannibal runs a hand up and down Will’s back, then pulls him close, but Will still feels the need to get closer. He moves so he’s laying directly on top of Hannibal’s body and lets out a content sigh. 


Hannibal holds Will close to his chest, letting Will have whatever he needs. If he needs to be close, that’s the least Hannibal can do for him. 

He’s beyond surprised when he hears a muffled, “Tell me about your family,” spoken into his chest. 

“My parents died when I was quite young,” Hannibal says after a moment. “Murdered.” 

“Sorry,” Will whispers. “You don’t have to tell me.”

Hannibal ignores that, and continues, “The men that killed my parents ended up killing my sister too.”

Will kisses Hannibal’s chest and Hannibal realizes he’s shaking. He told Bedelia only that part of the story, not what he’s about to tell Will next. 

“It was winter, there was no food. Just my sister, myself, and these three men in our house, holding the two of us hostage. The snow helped them with that, it wasn’t as if either of us would survive if we left. Mischa grew sick, and they decided she should not go to waste,” Hannibal whispers. “So they killed her, turned her into soup.”

“You ate her,” Will whispers.

“Yes.” 

Will hums against his chest, but seems to know that he shouldn’t apologize or offer pity. It was thirty years ago, and Hannibal can pretend well enough that he has moved on. He’s never spoken that part of the story out loud to anyone before Will, and he knows Will understands that as well. 

“Did you kill them? The men?” Will asks. 

“Yes. Years later, but yes,” Hannibal answers. 

He would tell Will more if asked, but he is very grateful when Will begins talking about his own family instead. “I told you I lived with Lucille my senior year because my dad was moving out of state. He died that year. While I was living with her.” 

“And your mother?” Hannibal asks. 

“Never knew her,” Will says. “Dad said she walked out right after I was born. I have no memories of her.”

Silence hangs in the room for a few seconds before Will continues. “I went to my dad’s funeral. A week before graduation. Barely eighteen, and both my parents were gone. I didn’t quite understand how my empathy worked at the time, but everyone around was mourning my dad, but I could tell who was faking it, and who cared a little too much, and it was too difficult for me. All those emotions were too heavy inside me. I haven’t been to a funeral since.”

“And that’s why you cannot go to Lucille’s,” Hannibal supplies. 

“She was there with me, and understood what was happening to me. Helped me a lot through that. Told me I should never put myself into situations that are too much for me, where I carry the weight of everyone else’s emotions on top of my own,” Will says. “I don’t always listen to that advice.”

“No, you don’t,” Hannibal agrees. “But you know your limits.”

“Yeah,” Will sighs. “You help me a lot. Just by being here.” 

“I’ll be here as long as you need me.”

“And if I need you forever?” Will asks, voice quiet, full of uncertainty. 

“Even then,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I- okay. I’m going to sleep now,” Will says. 

He moves off of Hannibal, but doesn’t go far, laying on his side facing away. He reaches behind him and Hannibal understands what he needs, turning over so he can press his chest to Will’s back, holding him tight and safe while they both fall asleep. 

Hannibal wakes up to Will pulling himself out of bed and sitting on the edge with his head in his hands. 

“Will?”

“Go back to sleep,” Will whispers. He stands and walks off toward the bathroom, shutting the door behind him. 

Hannibal lays back on the bed, looking up at the ceiling. He doesn’t even notice Will coming out of the bathroom until the man is back in bed and wrapped around his body again. 

“I feel like shit,” Will murmurs. 

“Can I get you anything?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head into Hannibal’s shoulder. “Just lay with me.” 

Hannibal lays with him for much of the day until Will decides he feels fine enough to get up. He puts on a pair of Hannibal’s pajama pants and a sweater, and Hannibal dresses in slacks and a white button down, both of them opting for their more casual wear. 

Abigail offers to take care of the dogs and Will, to Hannibal’s surprise, doesn’t rush home to do it himself. 

Hannibal is even more surprised when Will asks to stay the night again. 

“I have appointments all day tomorrow,” Hannibal reminds him. 

“I know. I’ll leave in the morning,” Will shrugs. 

He doesn’t want to sleep alone, Hannibal realizes. Even though Will hates staying in Baltimore, he doesn’t want to sleep alone, and he doesn’t want to ask Hannibal to stay in Wolf Trap because Will doesn’t work in the morning, and Hannibal does. 

“Would you like me to come to Wolf Trap tomorrow night?” Hannibal asks. He busies himself with making breakfast, giving Will time to consider it before answering. 

“Sure,” Will answers. 

So that’s what they do. Will is quiet over the next two days, and Hannibal doesn’t blame him for it. Hannibal was mute for years after his family died. 

On Thursday evening, Will meets Hannibal at his house and they go to see Hannibal’s tailor. 

Will grumbles throughout the whole thing, telling Hannibal he doesn’t need more than one tux, while Hannibal picks fabrics for three. Will’s measurements will stay on file, and they’ll come back for adjustments as needed, so Hannibal knows he can have suits made for Will whenever he desires to see his partner in something new. He doesn’t tell that to Will. 

There’s a frown on Will’s face the entire night, so when Hannibal pulls into the garage, he shuts off the car and climbs over the center console into Will’s lap. He intends on kissing the frown off of Will’s face. 

“Hey, baby,” Will says, the hint of a smirk showing on his lips. 

Hannibal kisses him soft and slow, grinding down until Will’s lap until they’re both hard. Then Will pulls his face to the side, but doesn’t remove his hands from where his fingers are digging into Hannibal’s hips. 

“We shouldn’t do this here,” Will whispers. 

“No?” Hannibal asks, reaching down to palm Will’s cock through his pants. 

“What if Abigail comes out here?” Will asks. 

“She isn’t home,” Hannibal whispers, kissing Will’s cheek. 

“If she comes home?”

“She’s in Wolf Trap for the night,” Hannibal reminds him. 

“Right,” Will says. “As hot as it would be to fuck in your car, I think I would prefer a bed.” 

“Very well,” Hannibal says. He opens Will’s door and slides off his lap and stands on the garage floor. He offers a hand to Will, who takes it and lets himself be pulled out of the car. 

They get to the hall by the stairs before Will is on him, pushing Hannibal up against the wall to kiss him hard, and push their hips together. He gets a thigh between Hannibal’s, and Hannibal can’t stop himself from grinding down against it, moaning into Will’s mouth. 

“Upstairs, upstairs,” Will gasps, pulling away. 

Just their luck, though, there’s a knock on the front door. 

Hannibal sighs. “Get yourself ready for me, I’ll be up in a moment.”

Will turns and bounds up the stairs, leaving Hannibal to catch his breath, leaning against the hallway wall. He adjusts his cock in his pants, trying to make his erection less obvious, then goes to answer the door.

“Jack,” Hannibal says with a forced smile. “To what do I owe the pleasure?”

“I went to your office, but you weren’t there,” Jack says, making his way into Hannibal’s house. “I wished to talk to both you and Will, but it seems your appointment did not take place in the office today.”

Hannibal must look confused because Jack goes on, “That is Will’s car outside your house, isn’t it?”

“Oh, yes,” Hannibal answers. He remembers now, Will didn’t intend on staying when he arrived, but then Abigail offered to stay in Wolf Trap for the night, and Will hadn’t had a chance to bring his car into the garage. “We were out for dinner, and just arrived a few minutes ago. He’s in the restroom.”

“You and Will are growing quite close, Doctor Lecter,” Jack says. 

Hannibal shrugs just enough to be counted as a shrug, and says, “I consider him a friend, yes.”

“You had dinner in place of therapy, and now he’s back at your house,” Jack says. Hannibal really wants him to get to the point so he can go upstairs to his love. “It almost seems like a date.”

“I have dinner with friends often, Jack. Will was distracted by hunger during our session, so we went to a nearby restaurant, and now he is using my restroom before he drives an hour home. Is that so wrong?” Hannibal asks. 

They’re still standing in Hannibal’s entryway, Hannibal having the intention of sending Jack away the first chance he can get. Jack has other ideas, and starts off toward Hannibal’s kitchen. Hannibal takes the chance where Jack’s back is turned to send a message to Will.

Jack is here. He saw your car. He believes you to be in the restroom, and thinks we went out to dinner for our conversation. Please make an appearance at your earliest convenience.

Will’s response comes when Hannibal is standing in the kitchen, a counter between himself and Jack. The response is a thumbs down emoji, followed up by another message that says, ‘fine, be down in 5,’ and then a face blowing a kiss. Hannibal smiles at his phone, then realizes Jack is still in front of him. 

“You are supposed to be Will’s stability,” Jack says after a minute. “I don’t claim to know what’s going on between you two, but dinners, Will coming to your party and staying in your guest room after… You are aware he is going through a breakup, right?”

“I am aware,” Hannibal answers simply. 

“I am just worried that Will is going to see your kindness as romantic gestures. And I’m worried that your kindness may actually be romantic gestures,” Jack says. His voice is slow, his words calculated. “I can’t have you guys entering a relationship and causing Will to lose you as a therapist.”

“Ah,” Hannibal says. “Rest assured, that is not at all what is going on.”

“But you understand why I’m concerned.”

“Of course, Jack, but Will and I are both adults, and don’t need you to be worried about our friendship. Will and I continue to have our conversations, and I continue to be a source of stability for him, no matter whether our conversations happen in my office, or over dinner,” Hannibal says. 

Will comes into the room then, and the sight of him causes Hannibal’s cock to twitch in interest. He had gone soft almost immediately after he saw Jack at the door, but Will standing in the doorway, cheeks flushed, clothes thrown back on haphazardly, has Hannibal’s pants feeling tighter and tighter. 

“Thank you for dinner, Doctor Lecter,” Will says. “I should get home to the dogs.”

“Of course,” Hannibal says. “Allow me to walk you out.”

“Actually, Will, I wanted to talk to both of you,” Jack says, stopping them. 

“Oh, Jack. I didn’t see you there. What’s up?” Will asks. 

“Field work,” Jack says. “The last scene was difficult for you.”

“It was difficult to get out of the killer’s head,” Will answers. “There were too many deaths at once. I’ll be fine as long as I’m not looking at twelve bodies at once.”

“You’re sure?” Jack asks. 

“Pretty sure. Doctor Lecter agrees with me that I’ll be fine at future scenes.”

Jack turns to look at Hannibal, and even though they didn’t really talk about it, he still nods, agreeing with Will. 

“Really, Jack. I’m good. And I need to get home,” Will pushes. 

Hannibal nods and walks toward Will, walking him to the front door while Jack waits in the kitchen. 

“Call me when he leaves,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal nods, pats his cheek, then goes back to the kitchen as Will leaves the house. 

“Jack, would you like coffee?” Hannibal asks, going to his coffee maker so start a pot. 

Jack shakes his head.

“Just remember what I’ve said,” he says. “You’re his paddle. I can’t let you become too unobjective in his therapy, Doctor Lecter.”

“It’s hardly therapy, Jack. We have conversations,” Hannibal says. Always making it clear that it’s just conversations, that he and Will are not bound in a doctor-patient relationship, that they just consult together. That sometimes Hannibal offers Will a shoulder, just like he would to his friends, just as he does to Jack and Alana. That he’s a sounding board, not a therapist. 

“It’s good enough,” Jack says in response. “Just be smart.”

“I do have a boyfriend, Jack,” Hannibal says, finally. An attempt at shutting Jack’s thoughts down where they are. “Will and I are just friends.”

“Right,” Jack says slowly. Hannibal knows he’s not fully convinced, but he can’t bring himself to care much. 

If Jack is so against him and Will being in a relationship, they’ll just never come out and say they are in one, not until long after Will is done with field work, or after Jack is out of the picture. 

Hannibal doesn’t mind keeping Will all to himself, just as he has been doing all this time. Will is his and his alone, and no one else can have him. As much as Hannibal wants to stake his claim and make sure everyone knows who Hannibal belongs to, and who Will belongs to, he won’t risk it all being taken away just because Jack has a problem with it. A problem with them.

He would sooner kill everyone on the planet before he even considers the possibility of Will being taken away from him.

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Will leaves Hannibal’s house with the intention of driving around the block until Jack leaves, but seeing as they didn’t actually go out for dinner, Will decides to go pick something up. Then, he realizes his wallet is still in Hannibal’s car, so he just waits outside a restaurant for Hannibal’s call. 

When Hannibal finally does call, Will is starving. 

“Hey, baby,” Will answers. “You wanna meet me at that Italian restaurant down the road?”

“You don’t want to come home and finish what we started?” Hannibal asks. 

“I haven’t eaten since breakfast,” Will sighs. “I was going to bring something back, but I left my wallet in your car.”

“Darling, if I had known you were hungry, we could have eaten before our appointment,” Hannibal says. Will can hear the jingle of car keys on Hannibal’s end, and the door to the garage open and shut. 

“Yeah, well. I wasn’t sure if we’d have time,” Will says. “Are you on your way?”

“I am. I’ll be there in five minutes.”

“I’ll get us a table,” Will says, then hangs up.

He gets out of the car, digging his hands into his pockets to shield them from the cold. He gets a table for two, and looks at the menu while he waits for Hannibal. 

A man stops next to the table and Will looks up at him, but it’s not Hannibal, nor is it a waiter. He’s wearing a tie like Hannibal would wear, though. An ugly paisley thing that doesn’t quite work for him, but Will knows would work beautifully for Hannibal.

“You’re Will Graham,” the man says. “You’re one of Doctor Lecter’s patients. I’ve seen you in Tattlecrime.”

Will sighs and nods. “I am. And you are?”

He already knows, though. This has to be the patient that is overly interested in Hannibal. And of course Will chooses the one restaurant this man is in today. He has half a mind to call Hannibal and warn him, or ask if they should go somewhere else, but then Hannibal slides into the chair across the table from Will. He doesn’t even glance at the man as he sits. 

“Doctor Lecter,” the man says, surprised as all hell. 

“Ah, good evening, Franklyn,” Hannibal says. The smile he gives Franklyn is one of the most forced ones Will has ever seen on him, and Will can’t help his own smug smile from forming. 

“I didn’t know you took patients out for dinner,” Franklyn says. 

“We work together, as well,” Hannibal says. “This is a work related dinner.”

“Oh,” Franklyn says, face dropping considerably. 

“Now if you will please excuse us, we have much to discuss,” Hannibal adds. 

“Sure. I’ll see you next Thursday,” Franklyn says. 

Hannibal nods once, then directs his attention away from Franklyn, staring at Will instead. Franklyn hovers for ten more seconds before finally turning and leaving. When Will is sure he’s out of hearing range he leans forward across the table.

“So that’s the guy, huh?” Will asks. 

Hannibal looks up from his menu and nods. 

“He thought you were taking patients out for dinner now,” Will says. “That’s really too bad that you aren’t. He seems like he’d be great company.”

Hannibal glares at Will over the top of his menu, but doesn’t say anything about it. 

“Did you bring my wallet in from your car?” Will asks. Even though he knows Hannibal definitely did not, and is going to insist on paying for both of their meals. 

“It must have slipped my mind,” Hannibal says. “I am still recovering from a concussion, afterall.”

“Uh huh. Give me your keys,” Will requests, holding his hand out. Instead of Hannibal handing his keys over, he takes Will’s hand in his own and kisses Will’s knuckles. 

“No,” Hannibal whispers against Will’s fingers. 

Will sighs, but knows when it’s not worth it to argue, so he doesn’t bother. 

A waitress comes by and takes their drink orders, and Hannibal never lets go of Will’s hand, just drops them to rest on the table instead. When their sodas are set down on their table, Will has to yank his hand out of Hannibal’s in order to open his straw. 

“Jack told me he is worried that you and I are going to start dating,” Hannibal says just as Will takes his first sip. Hannibal doesn’t look up from his menu, says it as casually as he can, as if it’s no big deal.

Will chokes on his drink and starts to cough. Hannibal still doesn’t look up from his menu while Will tries to stop coughing. When Will finally gets his breathing back under control, he shakes his head. 

“Okay, don’t leave me hanging here,” Will says. “What did he say? What did you say?”

Hannibal looks up at him then and gives him a fond smile. “He said that us going to dinner, and you spending the night on New Year’s makes it seem like we are getting too close.”

“And he knows I stayed the night, why?” 

“People asked where you went, and I simply said you were staying in my guest room,” Hannibal shrugs. “Even so, I told Jack I have dinner with friends often. I should have mentioned it is not unheard of for people to spend the night at my home after parties. You aren’t the first person to overindulge on alcohol in my home, and you certainly will not be the last.”

“So Jack thinks you and I are about to start dating, but it didn’t cross his mind that we have been for over three months?” Will asks. 

“Apparently not.”

“What else did he say?”

“He can’t risk you losing me as your therapist,” Hannibal answers. “I believe if we came forward and said we have been together since Minnesota, then perhaps he would realize his fears are unfounded. You have been doing just fine.”

“No,” Will says, shaking his head. “He’ll make me get a new therapist. I don’t know how many times you and I have discussed this, but surely you have not forgotten this.”

Hannibal shrugs. “My concerns mostly revolved around how this may affect how our relationship develops over time.”

He pauses, but Will knows better than to interrupt, or ask questions about what specifically Hannibal means. Will does know; going on vacations together, moving in together, marriage. Hannibal goes on to say as much. 

“I won’t be presumptuous about your own feelings regarding these matters, but should we become even more serious, and take further steps in the development of our relationship, it would be harder and harder to hide it,” Hannibal says. “I would also like to point out that Jack has interrupted us on our way to the bedroom on multiple occasions now.” 

“So what do we do?” Will asks. 

“The reason you come to me for unofficial therapy is because Jack doesn’t know how equipped you are for field work. However, I couldn’t ask you to quit.”

“I don’t… I don’t know if it would be a good idea for me to quit,” Will says. He leans forward and brings his voice low so no one can hear them. “I have access to every case file, I know where investigations are going, and I’m their best profiler. You know how that helps, right?”

“Yes, darling,” Hannibal says. 

“I… I have clearance to talk to you about all of my cases because of this arrangement. I would rather get interrupted once in a while when we’re about to fuck, and then have to lie about it, than… well, the alternative,” Will whispers. “I quit, and go back to teaching, and I can’t access everything I need, I can’t sway investigations, or give profiles that…” Will looks around to make sure no one’s listening “...lead away from you. Or I don’t quit, we still tell Jack, then I would get assigned a new shrink, and then I can’t tell you about anything.”

“So we’re back where we started,” Hannibal concludes. “We keep going as we are.”

“I know it’s not ideal,” Will says. He can’t help the grimace that forms on his face, remembering how he told Abigail that it wasn’t ideal he couldn’t be by Hannibal’s side at the party. He knows they’re in for a long line of parties where Will isn’t hanging onto Hannibal’s arm. He reaches across the table and takes Hannibal’s hand again. “I wanted nothing more than to be next to you during that party, you know. I really wish it wasn’t like this. I just think we’ve dug ourselves too deep. And with Jack so adamant about us having conversations right now, it’ll be a long time before any of this can change. We were concerned about the psych eval part, but you keep clearing me, and especially after I spoke for you in the kitchen tonight, it’ll look bad.”

“Indeed. Jack is worried about my objectiveness,” Hannibal agrees. “Don’t look so upset, love. We are doing just fine.”

“I know, it’s just,” Will sighs. “I don’t want you to think I’m ashamed of being with you, or anything. I want to tell everyone you’re mine.”

“I know you are not ashamed of me. You’re protecting us both, but me especially. For that, I would hide for a hundred years, as long as it meant having you by my side.”

Their waitress comes back, and they both order their food then. When she takes their menus, and walks away, Will lifts Hannibal’s hand to kiss his knuckles, just as Hannibal had done before. 

“When we move in together, then the cat will be out of the bag, but we can cross that bridge when we get there,” Will says.

“You said when. Not if?”

“Not if,” Will confirms. 


After they eat, Hannibal pays for both of their meals, and they agree to meet back at Hannibal’s house. Hannibal can’t stop thinking about what Will said at the restaurant, about how they will end up moving in together. That may cause problems if Hannibal keeps killing as the Chesapeake Ripper, but just like their other concerns, Hannibal will cross that bridge when their relationship gets there. 

By then, it’s possible Will already knows, and is perfectly fine with the extent of Hannibal’s crimes. He seems fine enough with what he already knows, which Hannibal sees as a good sign.

They both pull into Hannibal’s garage and Hannibal can hear the loud rock music coming from Will’s car. Will turns to look at him, and he’s singing along to the words with a smile on his face, which Hannibal can’t help but return, even if he can’t make out what the singer is saying. 

Hannibal gets out of his car first and runs around to Will’s door to open it for him. 

Will steps out and immediately wraps his arms around Hannibal’s neck, kissing his cheek. 

“You know, if we would’ve fucked in your car earlier, we wouldn’t have even known Jack was knocking at the front door,” Will says. 

“He would have wondered why your car was in my driveway,” Hannibal points out. 

Will shrugs and kisses Hannibal quickly on the lips, then lets him go and walks into the house. He glances over his shoulder, seemingly checking to see if Hannibal is coming inside, so Hannibal follows him at a quicker pace.

“Can we stay in Wolf Trap this weekend?” Will asks in the mudroom. 

“If you’d like. I’ll come over after work tomorrow. You do have an appointment on Sunday, though. We would need to come back for that.”

“I figured as much,” Will answers. They keep walking through the house, into the kitchen where they both drop off their keys, and Hannibal puts both of their wallets on the counter next to them. “I don’t go back to teaching until the fourteenth, so I might just stay over Sunday night.”

“If you want to.”

“Yeah. I do.”

Will goes to the fridge and looks through it while Hannibal leans against the counter behind him.

“We just ate,” Hannibal says.

“I was seeing if you have anything for dessert,” Will says. He reaches for a bottle of wine instead, pulls it out and shuts the fridge door. “I need a drink.”

“I put you through a stressful situation with that suit fitting,” Hannibal says. “Pour me one too.”

“Suit fitting was fine,” Will shrugs. He pulls down two glasses from the cupboard, then says, “Your patient makes me want to drink an entire liquor store.”

“Yes, Franklyn has that effect on people,” Hannibal agrees. 

“I mean, what are the odds he’s at the same restaurant I picked?” Will asks. He hands Hannibal a glass of the leans against the counter opposite him, just a few feet between them.

“He found out that I stop there some nights after late appointments. I don’t always feel like cooking after a long day,” Hannibal explains. “He knows Thursdays are late nights.”

“He is actually stalking you, Hannibal.”

“Yes, so it seems.”

“Why don’t you do something about it?”

“I stopped going to that restaurant on Thursdays because we don’t have our appointments. That counts, I would say,” Hannibal says. “I will admit I’m curious to see what comes of it. He’s no danger to me.”

“Hannibal, what if he follows you one night? What if he sees you kill someone?”

“He won’t. And if he does, I’ll take care of it.”

“Yeah, but what if you can’t?” Will asks, his voice wavers and Hannibal sets his glass down behind him and crosses the few feet between them to take Will’s glass, set it on the counter, and wrap his arms around him. “I can’t lose you, Hannibal.”

“Will,” Hannibal breathes. “You won’t. I promise you.”

“I can’t lose any more people.”

Will starts shaking, and Hannibal just holds him tighter, cradling the back of his head, letting Will bury his face into Hannibal’s neck. He kisses the top of Will’s head. He can’t promise Will won’t lose anyone else, but he knows he can do everything in his power to make sure Will doesn’t lose him. 

“Let’s go upstairs, darling,” Hannibal murmurs. “I know you’re tired. You tossed and turned all night last night.”

Will shakes his head. “Can we sit in your study instead?”

“If you’d like,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Did I keep you up last night?” Will asks. “I don’t need to stay tonight if you want to sleep. I can’t promise I’ll sleep much better than I did last night.”

“I have told you since our very first night together that I do not mind,” Hannibal says. “Would you allow me to give you something to help you sleep?”

Will shakes his head. 

“Then I won’t,” Hannibal says. 

He lets go of Will and picks up both of their glasses, nodding at Will to go to the study. Hannibal follows after him. 

Will ends up falling asleep with his head in Hannibal’s lap while Hannibal reads a book. He holds the book in one hand, and lightly rubs Will’s chest with his other hand. Will makes soft noises in his sleep, but after a while his breathing picks up and the noises become more distressed. 

Hannibal is about to wake him when Will wakes with a sharp intake of breath, sitting up abruptly. He takes in his surroundings with a scared look in his eyes, but his face softens as soon as he sees Hannibal. 

“What time is it?” Will asks. 

Hannibal checks his watch. ”Nearly midnight.”

“You should’ve woken me to go up to bed.”

“I was enjoying my book,” Hannibal says. “We can go up now.”

Will nods and rubs his eyes, then looks around. Hannibal picks up Will’s glasses from the table next to the couch.

“Did you take them off me?” Will asks, putting them back on.

“Yes. They were digging into my thigh, and I didn’t think it would be comfortable for you, either.”

“Thanks,” Will mumbles. He rolls off the couch, just barely planting his feet in time, then stands. Hannibal watches as he picks up his half empty wine glass, and drinks the rest in two gulps. 

Will hands the glass to Hannibal, then turns to go upstairs. Hannibal takes both of their glasses to the kitchen, and washes them. By the time he gets upstairs, Will is already under the blankets, a pile of clothes next to his side of the bed. His eyes are already closed. 

Hannibal puts Will’s clothes into the laundry basket, then undresses himself, and uses the bathroom. When he gets into bed, Will is laying in the center, eyes fighting to stay open. 

“Come ‘ere,” Will mumbles, reaching for Hannibal. “Freezing.”

“You wouldn’t be freezing if you put on pajamas,” Hannibal whispers. He goes into Will’s arms, and lets the man snuggle close. Will digs his cold toes into Hannibal’s shins, and releases a content sigh. He’s asleep within minutes. 

He doesn’t stay asleep, though, and starts tossing and turning in his sleep. Hannibal gets out of bed when that starts and goes to the kitchen to make some tea for the both of them. 

Will comes down as he’s pouring it into two teacups, fully naked as he comes into the kitchen. 

“I woke up and you were gone,” Will mumbles. 

“I apologize. I was making tea,” Hannibal says. “Go back upstairs, I was just on my way up.”

Will turns to go and Hannibal follows after him. He hands Will both cups when he reaches the bedroom, then goes to the electric fireplace and switches it on. 

“You know, I’d have figured you would have a real fireplace,” Will says, sipping from one of the cups of tea. The other is sitting on Hannibal’s nightstand. 

“It’s not convenient in my bedroom. By the time I come upstairs I’m usually ready to get in bed, and I don’t like leaving fires overnight. The one in my study is real, as is the one in my office.”

Will nods. “Makes sense, I guess. Do you ever use the one in your office?”

“Sometimes,” Hannibal says. He gets into bed, sitting next to Will. Will scoots over and rests against Hannibal’s side, dropping his head to his shoulder. 

“Sorry I woke you up.”

“Will,” Hannibal warns. “I’m not going to say it again.”

“I know you don’t care, but I’m still sorry, okay? Thanks for the tea.” 

“Of course.”

“When’s the opera?” Will asks after a minute of silence. He sets his empty cup on the nightstand and lays down, resting his head on Hannibal’s thigh. 

“Two weeks from tomorrow. You’ll need to go back to my tailor next Thursday to see if the suit needs any adjustments, then they should have it ready for you the following Thursday, then the opera is that Saturday.”

Hannibal sets his cup down on his own nightstand and lays down, moving Will so his head rests against Hannibal's shoulder. Will kisses Hannibal’s collarbone, then rolls over onto his side to face away. He doesn’t reach for Hannibal, so Hannibal takes it as a request to sleep apart, and shuts off the lamp on his own nightstand. He stays facing away, laying on his side with his back to Will.

“What are you doing?” Will asks. “Get over here.”

“I wasn’t sure,” Hannibal murmurs. He rolls over and presses his front to Will’s back, and puts an arm over his waist. 

Will’s hand finds the one Hannibal has splayed against his stomach and laces their fingers together. “If I don’t want this, I’ll tell you.”

“I didn’t want to assume.”

“Well, I’m telling you to assume. You’ll know if I don’t want you to touch me, Hannibal.”

Hannibal doesn’t respond, just kisses the back of Will’s neck and breathes in. He doesn’t smell inflammation anymore, which is a good sign that Will has recovered from his encephalitis. If Hannibal could be completely sure, he would tell Will to cancel his appointment with Sutcliff, but he can’t risk it. 


When Will wakes up in the morning, Hannibal isn’t in bed anymore, but his side is still warm. Will sits up and sees him standing in the closet, a towel wrapped around his waist. 

“Morning,” Will says from the bed.  

Hannibal looks over his shoulder and smiles at him. “Good morning. I have to leave soon.”

“Figured. Mind if I catch a few more hours here?”

“Not at all. If you’d like to stay until lunch, I can come home today.”

“Yeah, I’d like that,” Will agrees. 

It’s so simple, so easy to adjust to each other’s schedules, to not worry about overstaying a welcome. It’s something Will has really never had in any of his relationships. Hannibal makes it all so easy, makes Will feel welcome at all times. Even if Will keeps Hannibal up all night, even if Will falls asleep on the couch in the middle of conversations, even if Will is having a bad day and his temper is short. Hannibal adjusts, and he never makes Will feel like a burden. Never makes Will feel like Hannibal has made drastic changes, which Will knows Hannibal has. It makes Will feel loved.

The next few days are full of simplicity and love, as well. They have their lunch together, then Will goes home and relieves Abigail from dog duty. Of course, she decides to hang around for the afternoon. Beatrice follows her around everywhere, Will notices. 

“She hasn’t given you any trouble, has she?” Will asks. 

“She’s a sweetheart,” Abigail answers. “Why? Does she give you trouble?”

Will shakes his head. “Hannibal insists she’s a menace when I’m not around.”

“I’ve never had a problem.”

They both glance at each other and grin, both knowing that Beatrice has it out for Hannibal. Even though she’s technically Hannibal’s cat, and he loves her almost as much as he loves Will. 

Will teaches Abigail how to make fishing lures, but tells her fishing will have to wait until the spring unless she wants to go ice fishing and sit out in the cold for little reward. Will doesn’t particularly want to go ice fishing, so he’s glad when Abigail declines the offer. 

Hannibal shows up in the evening, and Will greets him at the door with a chaste kiss. Abigail leaves after dinner, going back to stay in Baltimore. Hannibal and Will take the dogs for a walk, deciding not to go far because it has been cold, but still enjoying the walk, bumping shoulders as they move across the snowy fields. 

Will doesn’t even think they discuss immediately getting into the bath after they go inside, they just do. And it’s so simple. Will almost tells Hannibal he should officially move in already, but he bites his tongue. Just sinks further into the warm water with his back pressed to Hannibal’s chest.

When they get out, Will pushes Hannibal up against the bathroom wall and drops to his knees. Hannibal was hard the entire time they were in the bath, with his cock against Will’s ass. Will doesn’t bother finding towels for either of them, just takes Hannibal into his mouth and sucks him until Hannibal is coming down his throat.

Will pulls back, letting Hannibal’s cock fall from his mouth, and looks up to see Hannibal looking right back. Hannibal runs a thumb along Will’s bottom lip, then joins him on the floor, pushing Will to lay on his back, and spread his legs so Hannibal can lay between them and return the favor. 

Eventually they find towels and make it to bed, curling around each other like they do every night. It’s so simple, and Will wishes everything about their relationship could be as simple as days like these.

Not worrying about other people, not having to think about murder, or crime scenes, or anything else that causes them stress. Just the two of them in a bubble forever. 

By the time Sunday comes, Will isn’t worried about the appointment, not like he had been the first time Hannibal reminded him of it. Not even Doctor Sutcliffe can ruin the good mood he’s been in all weekend. Besides, Hannibal already told him that he’s confident the encephalitis is gone, so the good mood can only be ruined if he’s told he’s dying.

“Ah, I see you two are still together,” Sutcliffe says when he sees them. 

“Yes, we are,” Will answers, taking Hannibal’s hand in his own and lacing their fingers together. 

Hannibal gives his hand a gentle squeeze, and they both sit down across from Sutcliffe to discuss Will’s symptoms. 

“I’m still having the nightmares, and the occasional headache,” Will shrugs. “Nothing else, really.”

Sutcliffe writes that down, then looks to Hannibal. 

“I haven’t noticed anything else,” Hannibal says. 

Sutcliffe nods once, and then Will is being directed toward the MRI machine. 

When his results show that Will has made a full recovery, he immediately turns and kisses Hannibal, unable to contain his happiness, and wanting to share it with the love of his life. 

“I believe this calls for celebration,” Hannibal says once they’re back in the car. “A dinner party? Quite small, and only people that know about us.”

“Okay,” Will agrees. 

“Likely not until next month, though,” Hannibal says after a moment. “I do have other ideas for how we can celebrate before then.”

“What did you have in mind, Doctor Lecter?” Will asks.

He watches as Hannibal’s expression changes into surprise for just a split second, then his face goes blank again. 

“What was that?” Will asks.

“Hm?”

“You looked caught off guard. Was it because I called you Doctor Lecter?”

“You haven’t done so in quite some time,” Hannibal says. 

“I said it on Friday.”

“When Jack was there. And you didn’t make it sound so flirtatious then.”

Will laughs once. “I can do it next time. Give Jack more reasons to worry about us.”

“That would be playing with fire, darling.”

“It would be kind of funny, though. We flirt around him, but never give him quite enough to prove anything,” Will says. “Oh, come on. He calls us to crime scenes at five in the morning, and shows up at our houses. We could get back at him. It would drive him insane not being able to do anything about it.”

The corner of Hannibal’s mouth lifts into a smile, and there’s a twinkle in his eyes. He lifts a hand from the steering wheel and sets it on the center console, which Will takes in his own hand. 

“It would be amusing,” Hannibal says finally. “We will just have to see what happens, I suppose. We are good at keeping it professional, so it may not even end up happening out of habit.”

Will nods in agreement.

“And to answer your question, I believe you will just have to wait until we get home to see what I have in mind,” Hannibal says. He turns his head slightly so Will can see him wink.

Will almost tells him to pull over right there, but he patiently waits until they pull into Hannibal’s garage. Will’s car is parked right next to Hannibal’s, since they learned their lesson about waiting on Friday. 

“Abigail’s still home,” Will sighs. 

“I’m making us dinner before she leaves to take care of the dogs,” Hannibal says. 

Will groans. He was hoping to go straight upstairs and eat later, but apparently Hannibal always has other plans. Will thinks this is worse than Jack Crawford interrupting them on Friday. 

Dinner is a quiet affair, Abigail not having much to say, and Will growing more and more tired as he makes his way through his plate of food. Abigail leaves right after the plates are cleared from the table, claiming she wants to catch a show that airs in an hour. Will finishes his glass of wine and meets Hannibal in the kitchen where he washes the dishes. 

“You were yawning all through dinner,” Hannibal says when Will hands him his empty glass.

“Sorry,” Will mumbles.

“It was an observation, not a condemnation,” Hannibal says. “I have a few things to finish up tonight for work, but you’re welcome to go to bed early.”

“Weren’t we going to have celebratory sex?” Will asks.

“Did I say that?” Hannibal asks innocently.

“You heavily hinted at it, Doctor,” Will scoffs, crossing his arms while he leans against the counter next to the sink.

“I never said sex. Maybe I was going to give you a massage,” Hannibal says.

“Last massage you gave me lead to sex.”

“So it did,” Hannibal smiles. He leaves the plates to air dry and wipes his hands with a dry towel. “But you are very exhausted, darling. We have all the time in the world, but you should rest tonight.”

“Where are you doing your work?”

“Study.”

“I’ll lay on the couch, then,” Will decides. 


They end up in the study, Hannibal at his desk, and Will on the couch in front of the fireplace. Hannibal had started a fire and laid a blanket over Will before taking his place at his desk. The back of the couch obscures Hannibal from Will’s eyes, which is good because Hannibal is in no way doing psychiatric work. 

He’s drawing up diagrams and doing research for his next Ripper kills. He keeps glancing toward the couch every few seconds in case Will sits up to look at him, but after a while he hears soft snores instead. He uses those noises as assurance that Will isn’t going to look. 

A buzz on his cell phone pulls him out of his planning. He shuts his sketchbook and puts his tablet on top of it, then unlocks his phone to check the message.

Beverly Katz: Did you know Will’s birthday is on Friday? 

Hannibal frowns, having not known that. He sends back a message saying, ‘ I was unaware. I suppose he keeps it a secret for a reason. How did you find out, might I ask?’

Her message comes through a few seconds later. 

Jack found out, I guess. Probably on some paperwork. If you two don’t have plans, I was going to take him out for drinks. If he says yes, you’re welcome to join us. I’m sure he’d prefer if you did. 

Hannibal types his response and hits send. 

Of course. We do not currently have plans, considering I didn’t know. Tell me if you get him to agree. I will not mention it to him before then.

Beverly sends back a thumbs up emoji, and Hannibal goes back to his planning, listening to Will’s quiet snoring. He is distracted now, though, so he shuts his sketchbook, and clears the tabs on his web browser, then locks the sketchbook in one of his desk drawers. 

He puts out the fire, then sits down on the couch next to Will’s hip. He lightly touches Will’s shoulder, rousing him from his sleep. 

“Huh?”

“I’m going up to bed,” Hannibal says. He leans down to kiss Will’s forehead. “Are you joining me?”

“Tired,” Will mumbles, closing his eyes again. He reaches out his arms. “Come here.”

“We are not sleeping on this couch tonight,” Hannibal says, pulling out of Will’s reach. “Come upstairs.”

“Carry me.”

Hannibal kisses his forehead again, then whispers, “No.”

“I’m breaking up with you,” Will mumbles. “Won’t carry me to bed, so you must hate me.”

Hannibal laughs and kisses the corner of Will’s mouth. Will pushes him away and pulls the blanket higher around his shoulders.

“Come now, my love,” Hannibal says gently. He leans down to whisper in Will’s ear. “If you get up, I’ll suck your cock when we get upstairs.”

Will sighs, annoyed and tired, but it’s clear the offer is enticing enough, then sits up and pushes the blanket off of him. Hannibal takes it and folds it in half, laying it across the back of the couch. Will takes Hannibal’s hand and pulls him from the room, barely giving Hannibal enough time to shut off the lights before he’s pulled through the door frame. 

“Hold on, darling,” Hannibal says, pulling himself free from Will’s grip. “I left my phone on the desk. I will be right up.”

Will takes off up the stairs, and Hannibal goes back into the study to pick up his phone. He stands there a few more minutes in the dark, ordering Will’s birthday gift, and then clearing his browser history just in case Will decides to get curious. 

Upstairs, Will is laying naked on the bed, hand slowly stroking his cock. 

“Took you long enough,” he mutters.

Hannibal smiles at him,then picks up Will’s clothes off the floor and puts them in the laundry basket, then starts removing his own. He leaves his underwear on and gets into bed, sitting with his back propped up by pillows. 

He pats his thighs and Will moves to straddle him, hard cock nudging Hannibal’s stomach. Hannibal pulls Will forward by the hips so he’s sitting across his chest, and begins to kiss WIll’s bare stomach. He gets Will better situated in front of him, and takes his cock into his hand. 

“Don’t be gentle,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Wh-” Will starts, but he cuts himself off with a moan when Hannibal takes him into his mouth. One of Hannibal’s hands moves to grip the back of Will’s thigh, and his other hand finds one of Will’s and places it in his hair. 

Will’s other hand moves up to the headboard, and Hannibal knows he’s likely gripping the top of it hard while he sucks Will’s cock. Hannibal releases the hand on his head, and brings it to grip Will’s other thigh, and pulls Will forward again, then back again, moving Will’s hips until he gets the hint and starts fucking into Hannibal’s mouth without the extra help. 

Hannibal releases one of Will’s thighs and brings it up to Will’s hand on the headboard, resting his own over Will’s while Will continues to thrust into his mouth. Hannibal wants to tell Will to stop holding back his sounds, to stop choking down his moans, but he’s not in the right position to do so with Will’s cock hitting the back of his throat. 

“Hannibal, I’m-- fuck, baby-- I’m close,” Will pants. He tries to pull out of Hannibal’s mouth, but Hannibal just hums around him and continues to bring Will closer and closer. 

He comes with a loud moan, his head bowed, and his eyes shut tight. Hannibal feels his hand under his grip the headboard tighter while he fucks Hannibal’s mouth through his own orgasm. Hannibal keeps his lips tight around him until Will is whimpering and trying to pull back again. Hannibal lets him go this time, and Will releases both Hannibal’s hair and the headboard, and sits back on his heels on top of Hannibal’s chest. 

It takes him a minute to catch his breath, his hands resting on his thighs. Hannibal sets his own hands on top of Will’s and squeezes them both gently. 

“Good?” Hannibal asks. 

Will laughs quietly and leans down to kiss Hannibal on the top of his head. 

“Very good,” Will responds. He sits up straight and looks over at his shoulder, down toward Hannibal’s groin. “Can I do something for you?”

Hannibal is hard, and as much as he wants to say yes, he shakes his head. “This is not about me tonight. Beside, love, you look as though you could lay down and fall right asleep.”

“I probably could. Or I can give you a hand job if you want? I think I would definitely like to,” Will whispers. 

“If you insist,” Hannibal whispers.

So Will climbs off of Hannibal’s chest and pulls Hannibal’s underwear down off his hips, and throws them in the general direction of the laundry basket. Hannibal doesn’t have to look to know Will missed.


After Hannibal comes into Will’s hand, and on his own stomach, they both get up and go into the bathroom. Will washes the come off his hand, and Hannibal wipes down his stomach, then they both turn to regard each other in front of the sink. 

“Shower?” Will asks. A hot shower sounds really, really nice, but at the same time he feels like he could fall asleep on his feet. He knows Hannibal could catch him, though, so he asks anyway. 

Hannibal shakes his head. He picks up both of their toothbrushes and the toothpaste, and hands Will his. They brush their teeth side by side, and after they both spit and rinse, Hannibal scoops Will up into a bridal carry and carries him from the bathroom. 

Will is thrown down onto the bed, a laugh coming out of his mouth, but the laugh is quickly interrupted by Hannibal’s mouth on his own. Will tangles his fingers in the hair on the back of Hannibal’s head and pulls him closer, deepening the kiss. 

Hannibal pulls back and moves from where he’s kneeling over Will to lay down next to him. He rolls on his side, facing away.

Will hesitates for a second, but Hannibal reaches behind him and Will sighs in relief, turning over on his side to press himself along Hannibal’s back. 

Just as Will is about to drift off, Hannibal speaks, pulling him out of the half asleep state he’s in.

“Why didn’t you tell me your birthday is on Friday?”

Will’s breathing stops for just a second, then he tugs Hannibal closer to his body with the arm draped over his waist. He kisses the back of Hannibal’s neck, then starts to suck, attempting to leave a mark, but he can’t see his work in the dark when he pulls away. 

“Will?”

Will sighs. “I don’t know.”

Truth is, he hates birthdays. He can hardly remember ever having a good one. He doesn’t want Hannibal to feel obligated to buy him anything. He hates parties. He doesn’t like being reminded that he’s getting older. The list goes on and on.

“How did you find out?” Will asks. 

“Beverly told me.”

“I didn’t tell her,” Will says. 

“Jack found out, and told her,” Hannibal clarifies. 

“I don’t like birthdays,” Will admits. 

“So you would object to a gift, then.”

“Yes,” Will answers with no hesitation.

“And if I already ordered it?” 

And Will knows he absolutely has already, so there’s no winning here. He grips Hannibal’s chest hair with his fingers, releases, then does it again, trying to think.

“Fine,” he finally settles on. “But no parties, or anything, okay? I just want a quiet night. You and me, and the dogs, and Abigail if she wants to hang out with us.”

“I will make dinner. Any requests?”

“I don’t suppose you have any pizza recipes?” Will asks.

“I am sure I can think of something.”

“Okay,” Will yawns. “Is that all?”

“Yes, goodnight, Will.”

“Goodnight, Hannibal.” 

Will wraps his arm around Hannibal’s waist again, and lets sleep take him.

Chapter Text

Will wakes up before Hannibal and finds that their sleeping positions entirely changed during the night. He also finds that Hannibal got up and plugged his phone in at some point during the night because Will knows he didn’t do it himself. 

The time shows that it’s way too early to be awake yet. There’s a message from Beverly that he reads with a slight frown. 

Drinks on Friday? Bring your bf if u want.

Will quickly sends back his own message. 

cant. dinner with abigail and hannibal that night. another time? 

He sets his phone back down and rolls over to press himself to Hannibal’s front. Hannibal’s arms open up and Will goes into them, burying his face in Hannibal's chest. 

“You awake?” Will asks. 

“No,” Hannibal responds sleepily. 

Will wraps an arm around Hannibal’s waist and falls back asleep. He wakes again when Hannibal’s alarm goes off and he pulls himself out of Will’s embrace. Hannibal disappears into the bathroom, and comes out a few minutes later. 

“Can I stay tonight?” Will asks, rolling to lay on his back. He tilts his head so he can watch Hannibal walk naked across his bedroom to his closet. 

“I’m having dinner with Alana tonight,” Hannibal says. He pulls on a pair of briefs, way too small to be practical, then a pair of black pants. 

“That’s not a no.”

Hannibal smiles at him, a warm, fond smile that makes Will want to drag him back to bed and kiss him all morning. 

“You can stay as long as you’d like, but I believe you may have to stay hidden while she’s here,” Hannibal answers. He pulls on the same salmon shirt Will wore on New Year’s eve, and starts to button it. 

“I can do that.”

“Abigail would not be able to stay in Wolf Trap tonight. Alana would likely ask questions about where she is, and why,” Hannibal says. He puts on a black tie next. 

“So? Just say she’s staying with me.” 

“Hm, yes, so then Alana can go to your house to see how she’s doing there, and then find out you are not even home,” Hannibal says. 

“Then I should probably go home tonight so the dogs aren’t alone,” Will concludes. 

“I can come over after Alana leaves,” Hannibal offers. 

Will shrugs. “If you want. I won’t make you drive all that way.”

“I do want to. I can bring you dinner,” Hannibal says. He buttons his black waistcoat, and then pulls on a black suit jacket. 

Will yawns. “I’ll probably just order something.” 

“Unfortunate. Did you want breakfast?”

“Sure. I’ll get up, just give me a few minutes,” Will says. He yawns, but tries to suppress it, not wanting to show that he’s still tired. He’s been really tired lately, but winter does that to him. He’s sure Hannibal would likely tell him grief does that as well. Hannibal will also say it's because he tosses and turns too much during the night, and doesn’t actually sleep. All would be true.

“Go back to sleep, darling,” Hannibal says. He comes to the bed and sits on the edge of Will’s side. “I’ll leave you something for lunch in the fridge. Eat when you get up.”

“You don’t have to. I’ll stop and get something on the way home,” Will says. 

“You wound me,” Hannibal whispers. He leans down and kisses Will softly on the lips. Will grabs him around the waist and pulls him closer. Hannibal kisses him again, then pulls away. He says, “I will see you tonight.” 

Will kisses him one last time before he lets Hannibal go, and watches him leave the bedroom and shut the door behind him. He checks his phone to see another message from Beverly.

Damn. Lecter said you two didn’t have plans that night. Oh well. Another time.

He sighs and thinks about inviting her over on Friday, but then decides against it.

Will sleeps for a few more hours, then decides to go home. He stops and picks up groceries on the way, deciding to make lunch for both him and Abigail instead of picking up fast food like he planned to. 

Abigail is sitting on the couch with a blanket over her legs, and Beatrice purring in her lap, when Will comes in the front door. The dogs all run across the house to greet him excitedly, and Will knows they’ve been missing him.

He’s started to feel better about staying in Baltimore now that Abigail is available to take care of the dogs, but he knows he can’t keep staying away as much as he has been. He sets the groceries in the kitchen, then sits on the floor in the living room and lets them climb all over him, licking his face, and demanding pets. He ends up laying down and lets the dogs lay on top of him.

“Can I stay here?” Abigail asks. “Doctor Bloom is going to be at Hannibal’s tonight and I don’t want to talk to her.”

“Yeah, of course. Hannibal’s coming over tonight after dinner, by the way,” Will answers. 

“So I should leave tonight.”

“You don’t have to always stay wherever we aren’t, you know,” Will says. 

He sits up, pushing the dogs off of him.

“I don’t want to listen to you guys having sex. You’re kinda loud,” Abigail says, not taking her eyes off the TV.  

Will chokes on his spit and shakes his head. “We haven’t- not while you- Oh. Christmas morning. Sorry about that,” he manages to get out. Then, “I’m going to make lunch.” 

He gets into the kitchen and leans against the wall, head in his hands while he considers just how much money he should give Abigail to make up for the trauma. Instead of dwelling on his embarrassment for too long, he pulls out his phone and texts Hannibal.

call me when you get a chance?

Will’s phone starts ringing before he can even push himself away from the wall. 

“Are you okay?” Hannibal asks as soon as Will answers. 

“Yeah, I’m good,” Will answers. He walks toward the back door and Winston comes running into the room when he opens. He steps outside and leans against the back wall of the house. “Just wanted to talk.”

“Did something happen?” Hannibal asks.

Will sighs. “I’m just being weird. Abigail heard us having sex on Christmas morning.”

“Hm,” Hannibal responds. “And she told you this?”

“Yeah, in different words, though. She asked if she could stay tonight, and I told her you were coming over after dinner, and she said she should leave because she doesn’t want to hear us,” Will explains. 

He watches Winston circle around the yard, nose in the snow. He looks like he’s found something to eat so Will calls his name, tells him to knock it off. 

“Sorry, did you say something?” Will asks. He realizes he heard Hannibal’s voice, but absolutely none of the words he said. 

“I said you need to work harder to keep your voice down when we aren’t alone,” Hannibal repeats. “Or, we just refrain altogether when we’re in your house with Abigail down the hall.”

“Yeah. Yeah, okay,” Will says. “What do I say, then? Tell her she can still stay and that she doesn’t have to worry about it?”

“I can talk to her if you’d prefer to not have that conversation with her.”

“I… sure.”  

“Then I will,” Hannibal says. “Have you eaten yet?”

“I stopped for groceries to make lunch, but I haven’t gotten to it yet.”

“Be sure to do that.”

“Of course, dear,” Will says sarcastically. “I’ll see you later, baby. I should go back inside.”

“Until tonight, my love,” Hannibal responds.

They say goodbye, then hang up. Will goes back inside after another minute of standing outside, and he can hear Abigail talking on the phone in the other room.

Abigail says she’ll stay the night, and neither one of them mentions any of it again. 

After lunch, Will starts drinking because he feels like it and because he has nowhere to go and nothing else to do. The problem is that, apparently, when he drinks, he thinks about Hannibal a lot. 

He turns on a football game to distract himself. 

But then Abigail asks what time Hannibal’s coming over, and the flood gates open. 

“I don’t know, but I hope it's not too late,” he answers. “I miss him.”

“Uh huh,” Abigail responds. 

“He’s the best thing that has ever happened to me, you know? Oh, I love Hannibal,” Will says. He gets himself another drink as he says it. “I’ve never even told him! He has no idea how much I love him.”

“He knows,” Abigail responds.

Will ignores her. “I should say it. I should tell him, but it’s-” he shakes his head. “Then it becomes real and I don’t know if I can handle that.”

“Do you really think it’s not already real?”

Abigail, you don’t understand,” Will tells her, shaking his head. “I’ve never felt like this about anyone, and then Hannibal comes into my life, and suddenly he’s everything. He gives me everything, and he expects nothing, and I don’t know if I can ever tell him how much he means to me because words will never do my feelings justice.”

If Abigail responds to that, Will doesn’t catch it because he keeps talking.

“Abigail, he’s perfect. I don’t know what he sees in me at all. That’s why it can’t be real. Because maybe once he realizes the feelings are reciprocated, he’ll realize it’s not what he wants anymore. He likes a game, he likes a chase, and maybe if I tell him I love him, he’ll feel like he has nothing to work toward anymore,” he says. 

“You’re so stupid,” Abigail mutters.


Hannibal finishes up at the office, then goes home to start on preparations for his dinner with Alana. She wants to discuss how Hannibal thinks Abigail is doing, and that makes it easier without Abigail home. It cuts the conversation time in half because Alana would’ve wanted to talk during dinner with Abigail, and then privately afterward. 

Will calls just before Alana is due to arrive, and Hannibal answers, holding the phone with his shoulder while he removes something from the oven. 

“Hello, darling,” Hannibal answers. 

“Hey, baby,” Will says. He laughs when he says it, like something is amusing.

“Have you been drinking, love?” Hannibal asks. He sets the pan down and shuts the oven, then leans against the counter to talk to Will. 

“Mhmm.”

“How’s Abigail?” Hannibal asks. 

“She’s laughing at me.”

“Why is that?” 

Will sighs, loud and dramatic, then there’s a shuffling on his line, and Will calls out, “Hey! Give that back!”

“Hey, so Will is a really talkative drunk,” Abigail says. Hannibal understands now that she was taking his phone. 

“Why is Will drinking in the first place?” Hannibal asks.

“He said it’s what he does when he’s home and has the next day off. And he’s watching Monday night football,” Abigail answers.

“Will watches football?”

“He has no idea what’s going on.”

Hannibal laughs. 

“Anyway, he would not stop talking about you. Hannibal this, and Hannibal that. He is so in love with you,” Abigail says. “I told him to call if he wasn’t going to shut up.”

The doorbell rings, so he leaves the kitchen to answer the door. As he walks he says, “And yet you have taken the phone from him to embarrass him for talking about me.”

He opens the door to let Alana in. 

To Alana, he says, “I’ll meet you in the kitchen in just a moment, Alana.”

Hannibal steps outside onto the front step and shuts the door behind him. 

“May I speak to Will again?” Hannibal asks. 

Abigail agrees and there’s a shuffle on the other end while the phone gets handed off to Will, then Will starts talking. 

“Hold on I’m going upstairs.”

Hannibal waits, hears a door shut, then Will says, “Fuck, I miss you.”

“I’ll be there fairly soon. Alana just arrived,” Hannibal says. He pulls his suit jacket tighter around him while he stands outside. He’s glad he had the foresight to leave his shoes on when he got home. “You miss me? I just saw you this morning.”

“I can’t stop thinking about you,” Will admits. “Your hands, your mouth, god. Everything about you.”

“You flatter me,” Hannibal says. 

“I want you,” Will whispers. “I want you inside me.”

“Not tonight, love,” Hannibal tells him. “I would love to engage in phone sex with you, but alas Alana is in my kitchen, and you, my love, are drunk.”

Will groans, but says, “Fine. Also can you bring dinner?”

“I thought you were going to order something,” Hannibal reminds him.

“Yeah, but I want you to cook for me,” Will says. 

“I will see what I can do. I do have to go now. Alana is inside my house without me,” Hannibal says. 

“Bye, then. Mwah,” Will says, making an exaggerated kissing noise before he hangs up. 

Hannibal sighs and rubs a hand over his face, then slides his phone into his pocket. He needs to get through this dinner and then force Will to eat a meal and drink a gallon of water, then he needs to apologize to Abigail for leaving her to witness Will drunk on a Monday night. 

“What was that about?” Alana asks when Hannibal walks into the kitchen.

“It was Abigail. She is staying with Will tonight,” Hannibal answers. 

“Oh. Really? I didn’t know she was spending any time at Will’s,” Alana says. 

Hannibal nods. “She has her own bedroom there, and she likes the dogs, and the quiet.”

“Well, it’s good she has options, I suppose.” 

Hannibal nods in agreement, then goes to the fridge to get Alana a beer, and to pour himself a glass of wine. 

“I promised to bring dinner over for them later, so Abigail was calling to ask when I’d be there,” Hannibal says. 

“Oh, I could stop and drop it off on the way home if you don’t want to drive all that way. It’s no problem.”

Hannibal knows she wants to see Will, and he knows it’s only a matter of time before she makes a move on him, so Hannibal shakes his head. 

“It’s not a problem for me whatsoever. I wanted to see for myself that she has everything she needs over there,” Hannibal lies. 

Alana nods. “Well, if you change your mind, I’d be happy to stop in.”

Hannibal starts to plate both of their meals, the conversation coming to a pause while he does so. When they sit down at the dining room table, Alana is appreciative of the meal as always, and they eat in silence for a few minutes.

“I need to be honest, Hannibal,” Alana says to break the silence.

Hannibal sets his silverware down and takes a sip of his wine, an eyebrow raised. 

“I’m not here to talk about Abigail.”

“No? Then do tell what you are here to talk about.”

“Jack Crawford thinks you and Will are becoming too close,” Alana says. 

“Yes, Jack expressed his concern to me as well,” Hannibal says. “Will and I are friends. We have conversations in my office because he needs a sounding board and because he needs someone to make sure he is stable. Our friendship has no effect on those things.”

“I usually wouldn’t… I wouldn’t consider it any of my business if you two were just regular coworkers, but Will looks to you for stability, and you and I both know how patients can become enamoured with us. We have intimate knowledge of their lives, and they often mistake trust for love.”

Hannibal has to stop himself from picking up his knife. He answers as calmly as he can, though he’s not happy with how Alana is talking about Will. Especially since she sees him as a romantic prospect. 

“Will and I know where our boundaries lie, and I certainly believe that is enough. Will is not officially my patient, and I don’t appreciate you acting as though he is incapable of separating our professional relationship from our friendship. Nor do I appreciate you implying Will is some lovesick patient of mine.” 

“That’s not… I was just saying, it’s possible he may develop feelings for you,” Alana stammers. “If he does, it’ll not only cause friction in your friendship, but it’ll harm your professional relationship. You know that. And you knowing so much about Will, but him not knowing anything about you-”

“Will knows plenty about me,” Hannibal cuts her off. “Our friendship is not as unbalanced as that of a therapist and patient, Alana.”

“I’ve known you for a decade, Hannibal, and I barely know anything about you,” Alana counters. “You’ve known Will for what? Six, seven months? You’re very reserved.”

Hannibal shrugs. “I do not think I need to explain the extent of my discussions with Will. Is it so hard to believe I found a friend I enjoy talking about myself to? Will and I have a lot in common.”

“And we don’t?”

“We share a profession and are interested in good cooking, but Will and I never run out of things to discuss,” Hannibal answers. He starts to clear the table, a clear indication that the conversation is over. 

Alana takes it for what it is, and stands, helping Hannibal carry plates and glasses to the kitchen. 

“I should go. Just be careful, Hannibal,” Alana says. She turns and goes, not waiting for Hannibal to walk her to the door, knowing she doesn’t need a proper send off, and likely not wanting one anyway.

He hears the door shut, then pulls out his phone to call Will. 

“I’ll be leaving home shortly,” he says when Will answers. 

“Okay. Abigail convinced me to order pizza, so we don’t need dinner,” Will says. “And I might be asleep when you get here.”

“Should I wake you when I get in?”

“If you want,” Will yawns. “I’ll see you soon.”

Hannibal hangs up and goes upstairs to pack a bag, and then he’s in his car within minutes. 

When he arrives at Will’s, the porch lights are on, but all the lights inside, except for Abigail’s, are turned off. He parks in the barn and uses his phone flashlight to make it to the house in the dark. When he opens the door, the dogs all come to greet him, and Will is curled up on the couch under a blanket. 

The glow of the TV is enough for Hannibal to see Will’s eyes are open, and Will turns his head slightly to look at him. Hannibal removes his coat and shoes, then crosses the room to sit down next to Will’s hip. Will reaches for his hand, and pulls it to his face so he can kiss it. Hannibal places his hand on Will’s cheek and notices Will is warmer than usual. He puts his hand on Will’s forehead, and frowns. 

“Have you been feeling unwell?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shrugs. “I’ve been really tired.”

“You feel warm. Let me know if you start to feel worse, darling.”

Will nods and sits up. He pulls Hannibal down on top of him, wrapping his arms tight around Hannibal’s neck. Hannibal laughs and pulls himself free, then picks Will up without even asking. He takes him over to the bed in the living room and sets him down more gently than he normally would, then starts to undress himself down to his underwear and undershirt. 

“If we’re sleeping down here, you should put some pants on,” Will says. He sits up and puts his feet on the floor. “We should sleep upstairs.”

“If you wish,” Hannibal says. He offers a hand to Will, and pulls him up, then Will turns off the TV and goes upstairs, blanket wrapped around his shoulders. Hannibal follows him, his overnight bag over his shoulder, and the suit he took off bundled in his arms. 

“How did dinner go?” Will asks once they’re in his bedroom. 

Hannibal can hear Abigail playing music over a speaker in the room next door. Will doesn’t mention that it’s loud, so Hannibal doesn’t ask if he should ask her to turn it down. Instead he recounts his conversation with Alana to Will as they get into bed under the blankets. 

Will rolls over and lays half on top of Hannibal, one leg slotted between Hannibal’s, his head on Hannibal’s chest, while Hannibal talks. Will’s body is warm against his, and Hannibal is certain he’s coming down with the flu. He rubs a hand up and down Will’s back. 

Will waits until the end until he says anything. 

“Do you think she’s warning you away so she can have me to herself?” Will asks quietly. 

“It’s likely,” Hannibal whispers. “You don’t care about how she was talking about you?”

“She was right. I did develop feelings for you.”

“Hm, yes, but I developed them for you the day I met you, so that’s quite different than what she’s worried about.”

Will laughs quietly, and it turns into a cough. 

“Fuck,” Will groans. “Encephalitis is gone and now I’m getting a goddamn cold two days later.”

“If you get off me I will go make you some tea,” Hannibal whispers. 

“No. Please, I’m fine. Just stay where you are.”

Hannibal reluctantly agrees.

In the morning, Will’s feeling considerably worse, and tells Hannibal not to come back later, and sends Abigail home. 

“I’m coming back,” Hannibal tells him. 

“I don’t want you to get sick,” Will argues. 

“Please, Will.”

Will sighs. “Fine. No kissing, though.”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Hannibal teases. “Now, go back to bed.”

“Yes, Doctor,” Will grumbles. He gets into the bed in the living room and wraps himself up in blankets. 

Hannibal finishes cooking breakfast and brings Will a plate in bed, then goes back to the kitchen to make soup for lunch. He checks his watch, making sure he has enough time, then runs to the store to get Will juice and cold medicine.

When he lets himself back into Will’s house, the plate is set on the nightstand, breakfast half eaten, his tea half drunk, and Will asleep again under the blankets. 

Hannibal sets a bottle of orange juice on the nightstand, then takes the plate to the kitchen. He puts the rest of the drinks in the fridge, and leaves Will a note with instructions for heating up the soup. 

“I’m leaving now, Will,” Hannibal says, bending down to kiss Will’s head through the blankets. “Call me if you need anything. I left juice and cold medicine on your nightstand. Soup for lunch in the fridge. Please try and eat some of it.”

“Thanks, baby,” Will mumbles. He doesn’t pull the blankets away from his face, just stays buried under them. “Did you put the dogs out?”

“I did, and I fed them. They’re laying in their beds now.”

“Thanks. See you later.” 


Will sleeps all day, only getting up to reheat soup at the stove and let the dogs out a few times. He nearly overdoses on NyQuil on purpose, and lays down in front of the TV after he eats a bowl of chicken soup. 

He’s passed out cold when Hannibal wakes him up, and it takes him a minute to wake up and understand his surroundings, the couch under him rather than a bed, Hannibal’s hand on his forehead. When he fully comes around, he smiles lazily and pulls Hannibal down to lay on the couch with him. 

The next few days follow the same pattern of Hannibal making Will breakfast, Will only eating half of it, then Will loading himself up on cold & flu medicine and sleeping until Hannibal shows up in the evening. Hannibal takes care of Will, and Will only protests it a little bit, only enough to show Hannibal he doesn’t have to be doing it, but not enough that Hannibal actually stops. Because Will enjoys it.

Hannibal informs him on Thursday morning that he won’t be going in for adjustments on the suit until Monday evening, giving him enough time to recover from whatever sickness he’s got. 

By Friday he’s feeling a lot better. Abigail decides she is definitely not coming over to have dinner for Will’s birthday because she doesn’t want to get sick, but Hannibal comes over after his last appointment, a gift wrapped box in one hand, and bags of groceries in the other. 

Will kisses him on the cheek and takes a few of the bags from him. 

“You’re still unwell, darling. Allow me to take care of the groceries,” Hannibal says. 

Will shakes his head and carries the grocery bags into the kitchen and starts pulling everything out of bags. All fresh ingredients to use to make pizza. Will can’t help it, he moves around the corner and cups both of Hannibal’s cheeks and pulls him in for a kiss. 

Hannibal pulls back and looks at Will with the hint of a smile on his lips. “Are you no longer worried about getting me sick? You haven’t kissed me since Monday.”

Will shrugs. “You just make me really happy.”

Hannibal kisses him again. “Would you like your gift now, or after dinner?”

Will thinks about it for a second, then decides, “After dinner. And after that, I want to take you to bed.”

“Are you sure you’re feeling well enough?” Hannibal asks. He feels Will’s forehead, but Will knows he doesn’t have a fever anymore, and Hannibal doesn’t make his frown he normally does every time Will is too warm. 

“I’m fine. I want to fuck you tonight,” Will whispers, kissing Hannibal’s jaw. He grazes his teeth along Hannibal’s jawbone, and pushes his hips toward Hannibal’s, just a light teasing motion. Hannibal groans quietly, and steps away.

“Enough of that if you want dinner first,” Hannibal states, moving toward the counter where all of the groceries are set out. He points to a stool at Will’s island, and Will sits on it. 

Will watches Hannibal make crust and sauce from scratch, and watches as he shreds cheese, and puts it all together, topped with seasonings and different kinds of meat. Will isn’t sure what, exactly, the meat is, but he knows that it’ll still taste excellent as long as Hannibal’s the one cooking. 

The pizza goes into the oven, then Hannibal starts mixing something in a bowl. 

“Are you making me a cake?” Will asks. 

Hannibal glances up. “Cupcakes, yes.” Then he looks back down to his mixing bowl. 

“I don’t have a cupcake tin,” Will says.

Hannibal goes over to a cupboard and pulls one down.

“That’s not mine.”

“No,” Hannibal agrees. “I have made quite a few changes to your kitchen over the last few months.”

“I can see that,” Will laughs. 

When the pizza comes out, the cupcakes go in, and Hannibal directs Will to sit at the kitchen table. He cuts the pizza, and Will puts two slices on his plate. Hannibal kisses the top of Will’s head as he sets a glass of wine in front of him.

“Wine with pizza?” Will asks. 

Hannibal sits across from him. “What would you have preferred?”

“No, it’s fine. It’s just funny. The juxtaposition, I guess,” Will says. “This bottle of wine probably cost over a hundred bucks and you’re pairing it with pizza.” 

Hannibal shrugs and takes a sip. “I lived in Italy, Will.”

And that explains it. While Will grew up drinking orange soda or cheap beer with cheaper pizza, Hannibal lived in Italy, where they drink either water or wine with meals. 

“Right. Well,” Will shrugs. “I’m just used to really greasy pizza made by underpaid teenagers.”

“I’m sorry to hear that,” Hannibal says with a satisfied smirk. “I do hope this is up to your standards.”

Will takes his first bite and holds back a moan. “It’s great. Thank you.”

“My pleasure,” Hannibal smiles, biting into his own slice. 

They finish their dinner, and their glasses of wine, and after Hannibal takes the cupcakes out of the oven to cool, they move into the living room. They sit next to each other on the couch, Will leaning into Hannibal’s side, and Hannibal gives him the gift box, a blank expression on his face. 

Will slides his finger under the seam on the wrapping paper, peeling the tape carefully. He feels as though Hannibal would give him a disappointed look if he rips it open, so he’s careful about it. He sets the wrapping paper off to the side, but Hannibal picks it up and crumples it, much to Will’s surprise. 

He lifts the lid of the box in his lap, and Will laughs. “What is this, Hannibal?”

Hannibal has a tiny smile on his face as Will lifts a pair of underwear out of the box. Black, fully lace, and tiny. They almost look like women’s underwear, if not for the extra room in the crotch. There’s several pairs of these briefs in the box, an assortment of colors. 

“I’m not wearing these,” Will says. 

Underneath the lace briefs, are a pair of tiny white cotton shorts with red hearts on them.

“I might wear these, though,” Will decides, holding them up. “Hannibal, why did you buy me all this lace?”

“You wouldn’t wear silk,” Hannibal shrugs. He picks up a pair of light blue ones, and Will buries his face in Hannibal’s shoulder. Hannibal just goes on to say, “You’d look very handsome in these.”

“You suck,” Will murmurs. 

“If you wanted something else, perhaps you should have told me about your birthday sooner,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Fuck you,” Will laughs. “I’m not wearing them. You can wear them.”

“Happily,” Hannibal says. He takes the box out of Will’s hands and sets it on the coffee table, then moves so quickly, Will can’t even register the movement before he’s being picked up and thrown over Hannibal’s shoulder like a sack of flour. 

Will gets carried up the stairs and into the bedroom, then dropped onto the bed. Beatrice jumps up from where she lays on Will’s pillow and runs from the room. 

Hannibal wastes no time unbuttoning his shirt while Will lays on the bed, still processing Hannibal picking him up and carrying him up the stairs. 

He stops zoning out after a moment, and pulls his own t-shirt over his head and kicks his jeans off, tossing everything to the floor. 

Will leaves his boxers on, and turns to look at Hannibal, still working on the buttons of his shirt. Hannibal pulls his shirt off, and folds it neatly, then sets it on the dresser. When he unzips his pants, Will can see bright red peeking out. Bright red lace, and Will sees that his underwear are the same style of briefs he bought Will. 

“You weren’t even planning on getting laid tonight, and yet you still wore those because you knew exactly what I’d say,” Will says as Hannibal’s pants drop to the floor and he steps out of them. He picks them up and folds them, setting them next to his shirt. 

Hannibal flashes him a smile and moves toward the bed, climbing over Will on his knees. He leans down and kisses Will on the lips, soft at first, and then more insistent. Hannibal slips a hand under the waistband of Will’s boxers and wraps it around his cock. 

Will pushes his hips up into Hannibal’s hand, and reaches to hold Hannibal’s sides, pulling him closer. Hannibal kisses down Will’s jaw, and neck, biting lightly, just grazes of teeth. 

“Leave marks,” Will whispers. 

He can feel Hannibal’s smile against his neck just before Hannibal starts to bite down harder. He pulls his hand away from Will’s erection and sits back on his knees, looking down at Will like he’s the most precious thing in the world. 

“Beautiful,” Hannibal murmurs. He runs his hands up and down Will’s chest, lightly grazing his fingers over Will’s nipples, just exploring Will’s body with his hands. 

Will reaches a hand out to trace Hannibal’s cock through the thin underwear he’s wearing, then he pulls Hannibal forward by his waistband. When he gets Hannibal where he wants him, straddling his chest, Will tilts his head so he can mouth at Hannibal’s length through the lace. 

“I hate these underwear and I hate how you can look good in anything,” Will mutters. He pulls the underwear down just enough to free Hannibal’s cock, and takes him into his hand. Hannibal rests one hand on Will’s cheek and looks down at him with all the fondness in the world. 

“You would look lovely in a pair of these, too,” Hannibal says. 

“Not gonna happen,” Will says. 

He licks a stripe up the length of Hannibal’s cock, just to tease him, then uses all of his strength to throw Hannibal off of him and onto his back on the mattress. Will pushes off his boxers and throws them to the floor, then rolls over and situates himself between Hannibal’s legs. 

Hannibal goes to push his underwear down, but Will stops him, grabbing both of his wrists.

“No, no… leave them on,” Will says. 

Will leans forward and kisses him again, then moves back, assessing, deciding how he wants to do this. 

“On your knees, baby,” Will says. 

Hannibal doesn’t even protest, doesn’t try to tell Will he wants to see him, just turns over and pushes himself onto his elbows and knees. Will groans at the sight of Hannibal in front of him, red lace underwear on display. Will puts his hands on Hannibal’s ass over the fabric, squeezing gently. He rubs his cock against the back of Hannibal’s thigh, seeking friction, then scoots back and bends down. 

Will pulls the underwear down enough to expose Hannibal’s ass, urging his knees apart so the fabric is stretched across the back of his thighs. Will leans down and kisses the small of Hannibal’s back, one, twice, then his hips and down to his thighs, then kisses the top of his left ass cheek, then his right. 

“God,” Will murmurs. “I love your ass.”


Hannibal thinks for a second that Will was saying “I love you” and he’s about to spin around and tackle Will down to the bed and kiss him senseless, but when the rest of the sentence comes out, Hannibal can’t help but be disappointed. 

Still, he hides that disappointment, and wiggles his hips in response, earning a chuckle from Will. Will squeezes his ass again, and then spreads his cheeks. Hannibal looks over his shoulder to see Will lean down again, and before he can ask any questions, Will flattens his tongue against Hannibal’s hole. 

Hannibal can’t stop the groan that comes out of his throat. “Will, you don’t-” 

Another lick, then Will spits directly onto his hole, distracting Hannibal from what he was about to say. 

“Hm?” Will hums, alternating between kissing and licking. Hannibal can feel his hot breath against his spit-covered entrance, when Will asks, “Should I stop?”

“N-no,” Hannibal breathes out. “I was just going to say you don’t have to do that.”

“Mm, but if I want to?” Will asks. He bites into Hannibal’s left buttcheek, a light nip at first, and then harder. Certainly hard enough to leave a mark. Hannibal whimpers, but doesn’t tell Will to stop. He wants to be marked, wants to be bit, wants to give Will everything he could possibly desire, and more. He doesn’t feel like he can verbalize all of that with Will leaving bites all across his ass. 

“Carry on, darling,” Hannibal manages to say. 

“I need you to relax a bit, babe. You’re all tensed up,” Will murmurs. He leaves kisses over the stinging bite marks, then spreads Hannibal’s cheeks again with his hands and goes right back in with his tongue. 

Hannibal does his best to relax, and eventually Will is able to work his tongue into him, then he pushes one fingertip in alongside it. He desperately wants to touch himself, or to lower his hips so he can thrust against the mattress, but he doesn’t do it. He just lets Will do as he pleases.

Hannibal hasn’t had this done to him in a long time, and only once or twice. He’s never offered to do it to anyone else, feeling as though the act is vulgar and slightly unsanitary. Considering how much Will sweats, Hannibal hopes he doesn’t have to return the favor. Especially not tonight when he knows Will hasn’t showered in days. 

He makes a mental note to drag Will to the bathtub when all is said and done tonight. 

Will pulls away and gets off the bed, Hannibal watching him. He opens the nightstand and pulls out the bottle of lube, then shuts it and gets back on his knees behind Hannibal. Will’s mouth is back on him immediately, tongue pushing its way inside. Hannibal can hear the cap of the lube click, and then a finger joins Will’s tongue, sliding in easily.

Another finger joins, and Will pulls his mouth away, kissing Hannibal’s left ass cheek instead while he works Hannibal open with his fingers now. He does it for what feels like ages, but Hannibal is too proud of himself to beg. And it’s Will’s birthday afterall. If he wants to tease Hannibal with his fingers, never hitting the spot where Hannibal wants them, then he’ll allow it. 

“Turn over,” Will murmurs after he pulls out his fingers. 

Hannibal lets out a sigh of relief, finally able to roll over and look at his love. 

“I’ll be right back,” Will says as Hannibal rolls over onto his back. The underwear is still at his thighs, but Will didn’t tell him to take them off, so he leaves them where they are. 

Will leaves the room on quick feet, and comes back two minutes later smelling of toothpaste. He gets between Hannibal’s legs and leans down to kiss him, Hannibal pulling his hips forward so Will’s cock slides against his own.

“Happy birthday, darling,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will smiles against his mouth and kisses him again. He moves back to pull the lace underwear all the way off Hannibal’s legs, and tosses them onto the floor. He rests his forehead against Hannibal’s and Hannibal opens his eyes to see Will’s are closed. His breath is warm against Hannibal’s lips, just a centimeter away. 

Hannibal watches as he moves his hand around the bed in search of the lube, but Will keeps his forehead pressed to Hannibal’s instead of looking for it. 

When his hand finally finds it, he says “Ah ha!” and kisses Hannibal one more time before Hannibal hears the click of the cap, and then a few seconds later, Will is pushing into him slowly. 

Will fucks Hannibal slow, almost painfully so. He pins Hannibal’s hands to the bed on either side of his head and laces their fingers together, holding each other’s hands. Their chests are pressed together, their foreheads touching, lips grazing every few seconds while Will rocks his hips into Hannibal. 

A phone starts buzzing nearby, and Will whispers, “Ignore it.”

“I plan on it,” Hannibal responds. 

When it stops ringing, the other starts buzzing on the other end of the room. Someone trying to contact both of them at the same time. There’s a possibility it’s an emergency, and he tells Will as much. 

“It might be Abigail,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will sighs and pulls out, searching for the phone that is still buzzing. 

He finds it in Hannibal’s pants and rejects the call, throwing it onto the nightstand, then getting right back between Hannibal’s legs and sliding back inside him. 

Will’s phone starts ringing again, and Will groans. “Oh for fucks sake.” 

Hannibal smiles and rolls them over, putting his hands on Will’s chest for leverage while he rides him. 

“Ignore it,” Hannibal whispers, leaning down to kiss him, then sitting up again. 

“I plan on it,” Will responds with a smirk. He grips Hannibal’s hips, controlling Hannibal’s pace. “It’s Jack by the way.”

“He knows it’s your birthday,” Hannibal says. “He shouldn’t be calling you to a crime scene.”


Will’s hands start to push and pull Hannibal faster, and once Hannibal finds a pace Will is satisfied with, he moves one hand away to wrap it around Hannibal’s cock, stroking him hard and fast in time with Hannibal moving on him. Will is getting close, and even though he wants this moment to last forever, he needs to come. 

He knows that they’ll have the rest of their lives, that they’ll have more moments like this, where they’re both happy, and moving in sync with each other. He sits up, wrapping one arm around his waist to make sure Hannibal doesn’t fall from the sudden movement. He kisses Hannibal soft, lovingly, and Hannibal’s hips start to move more erratically, thrusting up into Will’s hand and back down onto Will’s cock. 

“Come for me, baby,” Will whispers against his mouth. 

Hannibal buries his face into Will’s neck and comes with a low groan, and Will rolls them back over, coming after a few more hard thrusts. He stays buried deep inside of Hannibal, laying on his chest, until he goes soft, and rolls off of Hannibal’s body. 

Will picks up Hannibal’s phone off the nightstand and passes it over for Hannibal to use his thumbprint to unlock it. He slides through Hannibal’s contacts until he finds Beverly and hits call. 

“Jack’s trying to call you, Doctor Lecter,” Beverly says when she answers. 

“It’s me,” Will says. “It’s my birthday, I was getting laid.”

Hannibal gives him a disapproving look and Will grins at him. 

“Yeah, okay, I’ll be sure to tell him that,” Beverly retorts. “You want me to tell him who you’re with, too?”

“Haha, very funny,” Will responds, voice dripping with sarcasm. “Tell him you just remembered I’m out of town visiting an old friend, or something.”

“Will do. We think it’s the Ripper,” Beverly says. 

“Think? You aren’t sure?” Will asks. 

“Zeller is convinced, me and Jimmy, not quite. Jack wants your opinion,” Beverly sighs. 

“Hold on. Don’t tell Jack anything, I’ll call him back once I find my phone,” Will says. “Stall him for like ten minutes?” 

“Yeah, I’ll try,” Beverly responds. “See you soon?”

“Yeah, I’ll be there as soon as I get an address,” Will agrees. 

Hannibal reaches out to cup his cheek, still slightly disapproving. Will gives him an apologetic look, then hangs up the phone and gets out of bed. 

“Will?” Hannibal asks. Will turns to look at him, laying where Will left him. 

“They think it’s the Ripper,” Will sighs. “They don’t know and they need me to look.”

“I’ll come with,” Hannibal says, getting up. 

Will shakes his head. “Go take a shower, and I’ll be home soon. I won’t go into the lab even if they beg.” 

He picks up his pants and pulls out his phone, hitting the missed call from Jack and holding his phone to his ear. He walks down the hall to the bathroom to get a cloth to clean the come off his chest and stomach while the phone rings. 

“Will, I tried calling,” Jack answers. 

Will runs the water, wetting the cloth, then wipes himself down as he says, “I know. Sorry. I wasn’t near my phone.”

Hannibal comes into the bathroom behind him and kisses his shoulder. Will lifts his free hand to pat Hannibal’s cheek, then slaps his ass when Hannibal turns to step into the shower. Will steps out of the bathroom and shuts the door behind him, going back to his bedroom to start pulling on clothes. 

“Well, we think it’s the Ripper. Can you get here?” 

“Yeah. Text me the address?” Will asks. “Did you call Doctor Lecter?”

“No answer,” Jack sighs. “In fact, I think he rejected the call.”

“Yeah, well, it’s Friday night. I don’t blame him for having something better to do. I’m hanging up now. Text me the address.”

“See you soon, Will.”

Will hangs up and looks at the clothes scattered around the room. Everything he took off has been worn all week, so that’s not an option. 

For some reason, he feels bad that he’s leaving Hannibal, and he wants to make him happy, even if Hannibal has made it clear the day is all about Will. Will goes downstairs, ignoring the dogs that look at him with their heads tilted. 

He picks up the gift box and brings it back upstairs. He sets it down on the bed, then considers it for a second. Hannibal knew he wouldn’t want the underwear when he bought it for Will, but Will really likes how Hannibal looks in something similar, so with a sigh, he pulls the black pair out and puts them on. 

The lace against his skin isn’t itchy like he thought it would be, but he still doesn’t know how he likes the feel. He doesn’t give himself a chance to dwell on it because he hears the shower stop, and knows he only has a few minutes before Hannibal comes back. And suddenly he’s feeling shy, so he quickly pulls on a pair of  jeans from his drawer, and dumps the rest of the underwear into his underwear drawer to be folded later. 

Just as he shuts that drawer and sets the box aside, the bedroom door opens and Hannibal comes in with a towel wrapped around his waist. Will glances over at him, then back to his dresser to open another drawer. He pulls out a long sleeve shirt, then pulls it over his head. On second thought, he grabs one of Hannibal’s sweaters and pulls it on over the long sleeve shirt. 

“Sorry,” Will says. “I’ll be home as soon as I can.”

“It’s alright, darling. It’s important,” Hannibal says. He’s pulling on a pair of his normal cotton briefs, and then a pair of pajama pants. He doesn’t put on a shirt, and Will doesn’t want to look away from him. He lets his gaze linger for another second before he turns away and picks up his phone from the bed. He checks the address from Jack.

“Would you mind taking the dogs out for a bit?” Will asks. 

“Of course.” 

Will nods, and is about to leave the bedroom, when he turns back around and grabs Hannibal by the face and kisses him one more time. 

“Okay. I’m leaving now,” Will whispers against his lips. 

“Okay,” Hannibal breathes.

Will kisses him again, and again, and Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s waist, pulling him even closer. 

“Okay, okay,” Will laughs, pulling himself out of Hannibal’s arms. 


Hannibal watches Will go, and decides to put a shirt on afterall. He goes downstairs, and puts on his shoes, and coat, and stands on the porch until Will drives off. He opens the door and lets the dogs come out, then walks off toward the fields with them all running around him.

Winston looks up with a sad look and whines, and Hannibal reaches down to pat his head. 

“Will won’t be gone long,” Hannibal assures the dog. “It’s not the Chesapeake Ripper, and he will clear that up within seconds of looking.”

Hannibal stays out with the dogs until the January night proves to be too cold, and he calls everyone inside. 

With the dogs in, and fed, Hannibal starts frosting the cupcakes he made for Will. He pipes roses onto each one, and sets them in the fridge for later. Will is still gone by the time he finishes, so he decides to snoop for a moment, looking in Will’s drawers upstairs. He knows Will put the underwear in his dresser, but he’s very pleased to find a pair missing.

Hannibal can’t help but smirk as he closes the drawer and goes back downstairs to wait for Will. 

Beatrice comes and jumps into Hannibal’s lap the second he sits down on the couch with a book and a glass of wine. She’s being sweet to him for once, and he pets her gently while he reads. He stops to pick up his glass, and takes a small sip before setting it back down again, and focusing all of his attention to the book in his hand. 

He’s so absorbed in the story, that he doesn’t notice Beatrice jump out of his lap and knock the glass over until it rolls off the coffee table and lands on his foot. Thankfully it doesn’t shatter, but there’s wine all over the floor now. 

He sighs and takes the glass into the kitchen, and gets a towel to wipe it up. He pushes Buster away from the puddle on the floor, and just as he starts to clean, Will comes back into the house. 

“Have too much to drink?” he asks.

“No. Beatrice knocked it over,” Hannibal says. He stands up and looks at Will. “Was it the Ripper?”

Will groans and pulls his hat off his head. He shoves it aggressively into his coat pocket, then pulls off his coat, too. He hangs it up, kicks off his boots, and paces around the living room for ten seconds before he finally answers. 

He throws his hands in the air and mutters, “No it’s not the fucking Ripper.”

“You’re upset about that,” Hannibal observes. 

“No, not upset that it’s not the Ripper. Upset that Zeller is convinced it is, and keeps insisting I’m fucking wrong about it,” Will says. His voice is raised, but he’s not yelling, not yet. 

“Come here, sit down,” Hannibal says, gesturing toward the couch. “I’ll just be a moment.”

He goes into the kitchen as Will sits, and pulls two cupcakes out of the fridge, and pours two fresh glasses of wine. He carries the plate with his arm, and a glass in each hand back into the living room. Will is laying on the couch, head on one armrest, with his hands over his face, and his feet propped on the other armrest. 

Hannibal carefully sets the glasses and the plate down, and pulls Will’s hands away from his face. Will sits up, making room for Hannibal, then picks up the glass of wine intended for him. 

“These are beautiful, Hannibal,” Will says, looking at the cupcakes. 

“There are more in the fridge,” Hannibal tells him. “Tell me about your killer, Will.”

Will shakes his head. “Not a killer. Not on purpose, at least.”

Hannibal tilts his head, and waits for Will to continue. 

“The victim was missing organs, and it was done by someone with skill. Much like the Ripper, yes, but whoever did this was trying to save his life,” Will says. Hannibal watches him pick at the wrapper on the cupcake before peeling it all the way off. “The victim clawed open his own sutures.”

“The organ removal wasn’t meant to kill him,” Hannibal says. 

“Whoever did it to him sliced open his chest to perform an internal cardiac massage. His kidney was missing, by the way,” Will adds. “Zeller keeps listing how many similarities to the Ripper there are, even though I keep telling him there aren’t enough.”

“Why don’t you believe it’s the Ripper?” Hannibal decides to ask.

“He was just in a bathtub. The Ripper’s last sounder was all flowers, love, and apologies. Another sounder had a guy in a church pew with his tongue as a page marker,” Will lists. “A bathtub body dump isn’t really his style. Neither is trying to save his victims life after taking an organ.”

“What did Mr Zeller say to all this?”

“He thinks the Ripper was interrupted,” Will groans. He takes a bite out of the cupcake, getting frosting on the corner of his mouth. Hannibal reaches out to wipe it away with his thumb, and brings his thumb to his mouth, licking the frosting away. Will swallows, and continues, “The Ripper doesn’t get interrupted. He’s not stupid enough to work where he could get interrupted.”

“I would have to agree,” Hannibal says, inclining his head just once in a nod. 

“Sorry. I’m just really pissed off that I’m called into these scenes and then some asshole always needs to contradict me,” Will says. He sets the cupcake down and moves closer to Hannibal, resting his head on Hannibal’s knee as he lays back down. “Well, okay. Zeller’s normally fine, and usually he’s fine with whatever I add, so it’s not like it’s a common occurrence, so it’s unfair to say always . I’m just pissed anyway.”

“You’re allowed to be upset when you’re called out of bed on your birthday,” Hannibal says. He rests his hand on Will’s head and combs through the short hair with his fingers. 

“Kinda wish it was the Ripper just so I could have said so and come right back home instead of arguing for close to an hour about why it’s not,” Will says. “Jack didn’t even say happy birthday to me.”

“That’s quite rude. He certainly knew.”

“I know,” Will mutters. “God, whatever. I’m happy to be home.”

“I’m happy you’re home,” Hannibal smiles down at him. “So, this not-killer took a kidney?”

“Yeah.”

“And attempted to save the victim’s life afterward,” Hannibal goes on. On Will’s nod, Hannibal asks, “Have you considered he was performing a transplant of some sort? One that went wrong.”

“An organ harvester, maybe? Maybe he sells them,” Will ponders aloud. “I’ll call Jack and suggest it in the morning.”

“Not now?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head. “I’m exhausted. Don’t wanna talk to anyone but you.”

“That can be arranged,” Hannibal says. 

He trails his hand down to the waistband of Will’s jeans and feels Will tense slightly. Hannibal would smirk if he wasn’t trying to keep his expression blank. He pushes Will’s shirts up his stomach, then undoes the jean’s button, and pulls down the zipper. Will’s breath catches in his throat, and Hannibal reaches into his jeans and tugs on the waistband of the underwear, pulling it so it’s visible to them both. 

“I see you changed your mind,” Hannibal says. 

“I figured you would be pleased.” 

“I am,” Hannibal says. He pulls Will’s zipper back up and buttons his jeans again. After smoothing Will’s shirts back down, he stands and pulls Will up with him. “Come take a bath with me.” 

They go upstairs and spend the rest of the night in each other’s arms.

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In the morning, they end up going for a drive. Will has been stuck in the house all week and he’s itching to get out. They end up in Baltimore for lunch, eating at Hannibal’s house. Will can’t stop shifting uncomfortably in his chair, wishing he could go upstairs and get out of the lace underwear Hannibal handed him that morning. 

They’re the same light blue ones that Hannibal held up the night before, and Will wants to please Hannibal. So he put them on, but now he doesn’t like how the fabric feels against his skin, and he can’t stop thinking about Hannibal wearing a similar pair the night before. 

“Are you alright, Will?” Hannibal asks. 

Will nods, and Hannibal raises an eyebrow at him, but doesn’t push it. He just looks back down to his plate and continues to eat. Will continues to shift in his seat. 

Luckily, Abigail ate lunch before they arrived and she’s not in the room to question Will’s behavior. He knows Hannibal already knows and that he’s smiling inwardly about it. 

“Do you want to go back to Wolf Trap when we’re done?” Will asks, taking a sip of water. 

Hannibal frowns for a second, then nods. “I do need to get my car, but I have work to do this weekend, so I should come home tonight.”

“Can you bring your work to my house?” Will asks. 

Hannibal looks like he’s thinking, then nods. “I suppose I can.” 

“Good,” Will nods. “I have to get prepared for my lectures this week, anyway. I just think this upcoming week might be a bit hectic so I want to spend the weekend with you.”

Hannibal nods, and stands, picking up both of their empty plates. 

“Hey, is everything okay?” Will asks, walking into the kitchen. Hannibal fled from the dining room quite quickly, and is now flipping through a rolodex. Will finds the behavior to be odd, somewhat avoidant. 

Hannibal gives him a small smile. “Of course, love. Just lost in thought.”

“What’s with the rolodex?” Will asks. 

“I’m looking for a business card for one of my patients,” Hannibal answers. “He asked me about my watch, and I told him I would find the name of the jeweller for him. I couldn’t remember off the top of my head at our last appointment.”

Will nods and stands behind him, looking over his shoulder and taking in each name as he passes through them. No names seem familiar, but Will didn’t particularly expect any to. He and Hannibal shop in different cities, with entirely different budgets. It’s apparent, though, that it’s not just stores, but other doctors, restaurant owners, musicians. It’s quite well stocked with all the information Hannibal could possibly need. 

“You keep it in the kitchen?” Will asks. “Why not your study?”

“My house phone is in the kitchen,” Hannibal answers. 

He glances at Will over his shoulder, and Will decides that’s his cue to give Hannibal a few feet of space. 

“Sorry, I’m being distracting,” Will says in surrender. He backs away, and then on second thought, says, “I’m going upstairs to change these underwear. I can’t wear these.”

Hannibal nods without looking at him again, too concentrated on finding the business card. 

Will heads up the stairs to Hannibal’s room and finds a pair of his regular boxers in Hannibal’s closet and puts them on, then puts his jeans back on. 

Downstairs, Hannibal is no longer in the kitchen, so Will goes to the study to see if he’s there. Hannibal isn’t. He leaves the study again, and he bumps into Hannibal coming down the hall from the direction of the kitchen. 

“Where were you?” Will asks. 

“Kitchen,” Hannibal answers. 

“I checked the kitchen,” Will frowns. 

“I must have been in the pantry, then,” Hannibal says. He cups Will’s cheeks and kisses his forehead. 

Will shakes his head. He knows Hannibal was not in the pantry, and he even called out Hannibal’s name while he was in the kitchen. There is no way Hannibal was in the pantry, but Hannibal just kisses his forehead again, then lets go of Will’s face. 

“I have a few things to get from my study, and then we can go,” Hannibal says. 

He walks past Will and goes into the study, Will watching him from the doorway. He opens a drawer and pulls out a sketchbook, and puts it into a shoulder bag. He gathers a few books, what Will recognizes as his appointment book, his laptop, and another notebook. 

Hannibal’s behavior feels weird, but Will doesn’t question him. He figures Hannibal is just in his own head reworking his schedule for the night, and changing around his expectations of what he needs to get done. 

Before long they’re back in Will’s car, heading back to Wolf Trap. Will holds Hannibal’s hand on the center console while he drives with his other hand, and Hannibal stares out the passenger window the entire drive. 


Hannibal does not want to postpone his Ripper kill tonight, but Will asking him to stay isn’t something he can decline. He can never say no to Will, and it’s becoming a problem. Will seems to be picking up on his lies, but not enough to say anything about it.

When Will was looking for him in the kitchen, Hannibal was in the basement gathering supplies that aren’t already in his car. Namely, drugs to keep Will asleep tonight. He’ll drug his wine after dinner, or perhaps the food itself if Will doesn’t feel like drinking.

This kill and display will only take one night, and he has a cooler in his car to keep the meat in, so it should be quick. He could likely get away with not drugging Will, but it’s a risk he doesn’t want to take. There is always a chance he will wake up looking for Hannibal, and Hannibal needs the assurance that Will thinks he was there all night. 

Hannibal stares out the window on the way back to Will’s house, and Will’s hand is holding his in a tight grip. Hannibal knows he needs to reassure Will that everything is fine, so he squeezes his hand, and brings it to his lips to press a kiss to his knuckles. He does that every ten minutes. 

When they pull up in front of Will’s house, Hannibal turns and pulls him in for a kiss before getting out of the car. He holds the front door for Will to come in and the dogs to go out, he takes Will’s coat and hangs it up for him. He feels like he’s just going through the motions of their relationship, trying to suppress the monster inside him for just a few more hours. 

He leads Will up the stairs after the dogs come back inside. Tugging him by the hand without any words. Will goes with him without a question. 

“Are you sure you’re okay?” Will asks again when they get to the bedroom. 

Hannibal gives Will a smile and pulls him to his chest. “Of course, darling.” 

Will kisses him softly, then his fingers start untying Hannibal’s tie. He tosses it to a chair on the other side of the room, then starts on the buttons of Hannibal’s shirt. 

“What can I do for you?” Will whispers. He pushes Hannibal’s shirt off of his shoulders, and throws it to the same chair he tossed the tie to. 

Hannibal kisses him again, not wanting to ask for anything, wanting Will to take control and decide for him. 

Because if Will feels like he has some control over his own life, over the situation at hand, and over their relationship, he’ll never see any of Hannibal’s manipulations (Which is just another manipulation to add onto the pile, Hannibal thinks to himself). He’ll believe he’s been making his own choices, choosing to be with who he’s with, choosing everything, and he won’t be able to fault Hannibal when the truth about the Chesapeake Ripper does come out. He should have expected that anything is possible. 

Because Will is choosing to be with a killer, not fully knowing everything Hannibal is capable of. Not knowing how many people he’s killed, how he’s killed them, leaving it all to chance because Will is starved for love and affection. 

And because Hannibal provides love and affection in exchange for protection. 

Will seems to understand that Hannibal doesn’t want to make the first move, and pulls Hannibal over to the bed, pushing him to lay down. Will climbs into his lap, and leans down to kiss him, pressing their bodies together. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers. He needs to say it, needs to remind Will, needs to remind himself that he loves Will. Knowing what’s to come later, knowing he’ll be betraying Will’s trust by drugging him after dinner, knowing how different it is now than it was months ago when they were a week into their relationship. He loves Will. But he has to do this. 

Will kisses him again, then sits up and pulls his shirt over his head. 

“Whatever’s going on with you, you can tell me, you know,” Will whispers. 

“Everything is perfect, my love,” Hannibal whispers. He reaches to unbutton Will’s jeans and frowns when he sees Will’s regular cotton boxers, rather than the lace briefs he was wearing when they left the house. He vaguely remembers Will saying he was going upstairs to change, and tries to cover his frown when it comes back to him. 

Will laughs, taking it as a different frown than what it is, not understanding how preoccupied Hannibal was when Will went to change. “Sorry, they felt weird.”

Hannibal smiles. “It’s alright. Your comfort is more important than aesthetics.” 

Will hums in response, then stands to push down his jeans. “What do you want, baby?”

“Just you,” Hannibal murmurs. He unbuttons his pants, and lifts his hips off the bed to push them down along with his underwear. He reaches out for Will again, to pull him back to where he was before. 

Will, now fully naked, gets back on top of Hannibal, their cocks lined up next to each other, both half hard. Hannibal takes them both into his hand and strokes them in his dry grip, both hardening further in his hand. Will rocks his hips, thrusting into Hannibal’s grip, then seems to get a different idea and climbs over Hannibal to the nightstand. 

He opens the drawer and gets the lube, and wastes no time squeezing some onto his fingers and reaching behind himself. Hannibal puts both hands on Will’s thighs and watches him finger himself open. 

Will pulls his fingers out, and Hannibal knows it’s much too soon, but before he can say anything, Will is lining up with Hannibal’s cock and taking him inside. Hannibal grips his thighs tight and grits his teeth, Will squeezing tight around him. Hannibal has to control himself, stop himself from slamming his hips up into Will, stop himself from throwing Will onto his back and fucking him into the mattress.

He closes his eyes and waits while Will takes Hannibal in slowly.

“Fuck,” Will groans. “Bigger than I remember.”

“You didn’t adequately prepare yourself, darling. Over eager,” Hannibal says, eyes screwed shut, focusing on his breathing so the monster begging to be unleashed doesn’t take over. 

Will laughs quietly. “Yeah, maybe you’re right.”

“We have time, Will. No need to hurt yourself.” 

Hannibal releases Will’s thighs and taps Will’s ass with one hand, gesturing for him to pull off. He does, and Hannibal picks up the lube, coats two of his fingers, sliding them easily into Will, then adds a third. 

Will puts his hands on Hannibal’s chest and rocks his hips, fucking himself on Hannibal’s fingers and letting out quiet moans as Hannibal rubs his prostate. 

Hannibal pulls out his fingers, then says, “On your hands and knees, love.”

Will looks at him with a slightly confused look on his face, knowing it’s not a request Hannibal would usually make, but does so anyways. Hannibal gets on his knees behind him and pushes two fingers back in.

“Hannibal I’m more than ready,” Will says, moaning as Hannibal fingers him, setting a pace against that spot inside him. 

“I know,” Hannibal whispers. He leans down and kisses Will’s shoulder, keeping his fingers moving inside him. 

Will starts to rock back into his hand, his face buried into his pillow, muffling the pretty sounds Hannibal so desperately wants to hear. 

He turns his head away from the pillow after a while so he can say, “Hannibal, that’s enough. I’m-”

He doesn’t let Will finish his sentence before he pulls his fingers out abruptly, not wanting Will to come yet. 

“Not yet,” Hannibal says. He spreads Will’s cheeks, and gives them both a squeeze, then drags the length of his cock between them. He lets the tip catch on Will’s hole, teasing, threatening to press inside, but Will reaches behind himself to swat Hannibal away. 

“Fuck. Give me a minute,” Will whispers. “I’ll come in about two seconds if you put your cock in me now.”

“Take all the time you need,” Hannibal says. He lays down on his back next to Will and waits. 

Will stays with his head resting on his pillow. He’s still up on his knees, ass in the air, catching his breath. He turns his head toward Hannibal, and Hannibal turns his toward Will. 

“One day I’ll make you come just from my fingers, but not today,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods, then sits up. He climbs over Hannibal to straddle him again. Hannibal notices that Will is having no issue with eye contact today, no problem with absorbing the emotions Hannibal knows he’s letting loose. Much different from previous times, when intimacy was difficult for the both of them. When Hannibal was unfamiliar with the feelings he had for Will, and Will was unfamiliar with being loved. 

“What are you thinking about?” Will asks. He’s still just sitting over Hannibal’s thighs, not making any move to take Hannibal back inside him yet. He moves his hips back and forth, sliding his cock along Hannibal’s own. It’s not enough to get off from, but it’s enough for the moment.

“Us,” Hannibal answers. “How far we have come. How much easier intimacy between us is.”

“Yeah,” Will agrees. “It has gotten easier, hasn’t it? You’re still really fucking intense sometimes, but I’m getting used to it.”

Hannibal nods. “You’ve started to accept my feelings for you.”

“I suppose I have.” 

He leans down and kisses Hannibal before sitting up and taking Hannibal’s cock into his hand again. He sinks down a lot easier this time, and starts to move right away. 

Hannibal doesn’t try to hide his love and adoration for the man on top of him, and Will doesn’t look away or close his eyes. 

He keeps his hands on Hannibal’s chest, and Hannibal takes Will’s cock in his hand, jerking him off tight and fast until Will’s moaning loud and coming on his hand. 

Will stops moving, and pulls off of Hannibal, panting hard. Hannibal hasn’t come yet, but before he can wrap his hand around his cock to bring himself off, Will gets between his legs and sucks him into his mouth. 

When Hannibal comes, it’s with his fingers tangled in the short hair on Will’s head, barely long enough to grip. He pulls Will up for a kiss, tasting himself on Will’s tongue. 

“We’re not going to get much work done tonight, are we?” Will laughs. He kisses Hannibal one more time before getting up and leaving the bedroom. 

He leaves the bedroom door open and Rusty runs in and jumps on the bed, licking Hannibal’s face. 

“Russel, go lay down,” Hannibal says. 

Will comes back with a wet cloth and tosses it to Hannibal, then gently tugs Rusty out of the bed by his collar. He shuts the door again while Hannibal wipes himself down.

After taking the cloth and putting it in the laundry basket, Will gets back onto Hannibal, sitting with his knees on either side of Hannibal’s stomach. 

“I have a lot of shit to do, and I don’t want to do any of it,” Will sighs. “Should we just stay in bed for the rest of the day?”

“No, we should not,” Hannibal smiles. 

Will lays down on top of Hannibal and rests his head on his chest. 

“A nap, then,” Will says. “Wake me in an hour.”


Comfortable and sated, Will falls asleep on top of Hannibal. Will overlooks Hannibal’s odd behavior from earlier, the distant gestures and conversation he had made at his house and in the car. Because it’s not worth it to get upset about something that is likely nothing. 

If he doesn’t want to talk, Will won’t force him, doesn’t think he even could. He’ll just hold Hannibal tight and kiss him, and give him a chance to talk if he wants to. Show him that he’s with him no matter what. Show him that he loves him, wants to be close, wants to be anything Hannibal needs him to be. 

Will wakes up to him being moved, and Hannibal getting up.

“Been an hour?” Will mumbles.

Hannibal kisses the top of his head. “Not yet.”

He leaves the room, and shuts the door behind him. Will drifts off, and wakes again when he comes back in, and Hannibal informs him it’s time to get up. He’s still naked and Will reaches out to pull him toward the bed. He wonders if he can convince Hannibal to get back in bed with him. Wonders if Hannibal wants to go for round two.

“Will,” Hannibal says. “We should get up.”

“Or you could fuck me again,” Will suggests. 

“Maybe later,” Hannibal says. 

“I’ll hold you to that,” Will says, sitting up on the edge of the bed. “What were you doing while I slept?”

“Laundry,” Hannibal answers. “And I got a few things done.”

“Naked?”

“My clothes are in the wash,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will shakes his head and stands, going to his own drawers. He pulls out a pair of Hannibal’s underwear and a sweater, and throws them at him, then gets dressed himself. 

They go downstairs and Will sets up his laptop and case files at the kitchen table, working on his lectures for the week while Hannibal sits across from him with his own laptop and books. 

“Are you writing a paper?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods and begins explaining what he’s working on, while Will half listens. He likes hearing Hannibal’s voice even if he’s not listening to any of the words he says. Eventually Hannibal stops talking and Will looks up from his screen to see Hannibal staring at him.

“Hm?” Will asks. 

“You didn’t hear a word I said,” Hannibal responds. 

“No.” 

“Are you going to be hungry for dinner soon?” Hannibal asks, shutting his laptop, and stacking his books on top of each other. 

“Not yet. Focused on this,” Will says, looking back at his screen and continuing to type his script for Tuesday, having already finished Monday’s. 

“I’ll take the dogs out.”

Will nods, and distantly hears the front door open. While Hannibal and the dogs are gone, Beatrice jumps up on the table and lays across Will’s folder of crime scene photos and information. He absentmindedly pets her with one hand while he reads over what he has written. She gets bored and walks away when Will goes back to typing. 


Hannibal stands in the doorway to the kitchen, watching Will work from behind him. It’s past the time Hannibal would normally start cooking dinner, but he doesn’t want to pull Will away from his work when he’s so focused. But he has plans, and he needs to get them underway if he wants everything to work out. 

While he waits for Will to finish his work, he decides to make the dog food, knowing that has to be done tonight. He gets it into the fridge and then Will sits up straight, no longer hunching over his keyboard. 

“I’m going to finish this up, and then I’ll be done for the night,” he says. “If you want to start dinner now, I’ll be done when it’s ready.”

Hannibal gets started on making dinner, and sets a glass of wine down next to Will. Just a little bit, not drugged. He’ll make sure Will wants more after dinner, and if he doesn’t, Hannibal will have to find a different way to administer the drugs. 

Thankfully it doesn’t come to that. Will sits down on the couch after dinner and Hannibal is able to crush a rohypnol pill and put it into his wine glass while he refills both of theirs. He carries it out to the living room and Will takes it with a smile. 

Hannibal sits next to him, resting against Will’s side. Will puts an arm around Hannibal’s shoulders and drinks his wine. He doesn’t drink all of it before it starts to slip from his hand. Hannibal grabs it quickly before it can fall to the floor. 

With Will's last bit of consciousness, he gets him upstairs and into bed. He manages to undress him, and he lays down next to him, waiting for Will to fall asleep. 

Hannibal waits a bit longer, just to make sure he’s really sleeping, and kisses his forehead before he gets up. He knows Will is going to feel unwell in the morning, so he sets a glass of water on the nightstand, and makes sure Will has aspirin in his drawer. He takes one last look at Will, a wave of something unfamiliar going through him as he thinks about the state he is leaving his love in. He leaves the room, sneaks past the dogs, and tries to figure out what that feeling was while he drives.

He is very pressed for time now, and knows Andrew Caldwell will be on his way home very soon. He meets his friends at a restaurant on Saturday nights, and Hannibal needs to make it there before he leaves for home. 

After switching out his cars, he makes it to the restaurant and finds Andrew Caldwell’s car in the lot. He gouges the gas tank and leaves, waiting until Caldwell leaves, at which point Hannibal follows him until his gas tank runs out on an empty, lonely road. 


Will wakes in the morning feeling worse than he has in a long time. Even when he was sick throughout the week, he didn’t feel this terrible. His entire body aches, his head pounds, and he feels like if he moves too quickly he might throw up. 

Hannibal is sleeping soundly next to him, mouth open on the pillow, a spot of drool darkening the fabric. Will doesn’t remember going to bed last night. Certainly doesn’t remember undressing himself, or watching Hannibal get undressed. They’re both naked, but he can’t remember anything after dinner last night. 

“Hannibal,” Will murmurs. “Hannibal, wake up.” 

His eyes blink open slowly. He gives Will a sleepy smile and reaches out to cup his cheek.

“Good morning, beloved,” Hannibal mumbles. 

“Did we have sex again last night?” Will asks. 

“No,” Hannibal murmurs. He rolls closer to Will and buries his face into Will’s neck. “Do you not remember last night? I didn’t think you drank much.”

Will shakes his head. 

“No, I- um,” he takes a breath. “No, I don’t know. I guess I don’t-”

He’s starting to breathe heavy now, panicking, unable to comprehend how he could have an entire night missing from his memory. Hannibal doesn’t react at all, and he realizes Hannibal has fallen back asleep, an arm tight around Will’s torso. It’s comforting, even if Hannibal is unaware he’s doing it, or unaware that Will is even distressed. 

His breathing gets under control after a few minutes, and he tries not to think too hard about what it could all mean. He doesn’t think an encephalitis relapse would be likely so soon after recovery, but he wants to ask Hannibal about it as soon as they are both awake and cognizant. 

Last time he felt this bad was months ago, when he woke up to a call from Jack about the Ripper. At the time he figured it was because he was sick, but now he really isn’t so sure. He runs down a checklist in his head of the symptoms he’s experiencing and compares it to what he knows and he… No, Will tells himself, shaking his head. 

No, he knows he couldn’t have been roofied. He’s been with Hannibal all night, and Hannibal wouldn’t slip him anything. But he can’t remember last night, and all signs point to drugs. 

But why? Will asks himself. 

He looks down at Hannibal, sleeping on his chest, drooling on his bare skin now. 

Hannibal wouldn’t drug him so he could go out and kill, right? But Hannibal told Will very early on that Will doesn’t see all of him, so now Will isn’t quite sure at all. And Hannibal was acting weird the night before, flipping through his rolodex for a business card… 

A business card. 

Just like the business card in Hannibal’s wallet the night Hannibal got concussed and Will needed to check on the scene. 

Hannibal saying he had work to do, then zoning out when Will asked him to stay the night, as if he were rearranging all of his plans in his head. 

Because he was. Because he was figuring out how he could take a life while spending the night at Will’s house. Because for some reason he couldn’t postpone. 

Flipping through the rolodex, glaring over his shoulder at Will, hoping Will would get the hint and walk away. 

Selecting a victim. 

Will shakes his head, because no, that can’t be… because Hannibal wouldn’t… but Hannibal did. And Will knows it. Understands clear as day that Hannibal did exactly that: drugged Will, and killed someone last night. Someone that he couldn’t tell Will about, even though he’s been nothing but honest for their entire relationship.

Except he hasn’t been honest, Will tells himself. He feels his breathing start to pick up again and his chest hurts. Hannibal just sleeps on, completely unaware that Will is putting pieces together, likely thinking he’s done everything perfectly to keep Will blind.

The way he told Will he was in the pantry last night when Will was looking for him. Will knows he wasn’t. He knew then that he wasn’t. But there’s nowhere else he could have been. Unless… a secret room. A secret room where he works, or where he keeps essential supplies, or something. 

The last time he felt like this was when the Chesapeake Ripper began his last sounder. 

And that makes Will pull himself out of bed and run down the hall to the bathroom. He shuts the door behind him, and slides down against it, sitting on the floor with his head in his hands. 

Hannibal can’t be the Chesapeake Ripper. 

He can’t be. 

He can’t. 

But he is, and Will knows now. Knows that the victims were left as messages to him. The flowers, the love, the pain, the apologies. It was all for Will. 

Hannibal’s no vigilante. He doesn’t just kill other killers, doesn’t leave it at that, not how he has led Will to believe; that he kills for reason, to show Will a killer and close an investigation, to rid the world of someone vile. No, he’s one of those monsters Will has been looking for. 

Encouraging Will to stay away from the Ripper investigation, convincing Jack he doesn’t need to call Will in for the scenes… it’s all making sense. 

Will thought it was all out of love, but it’s out of Hannibal’s own fear of being caught, knowing Will would be the one to do it. Whether they got together or not, Hannibal knew it would be Will. 

Tears are falling freely down his face and he’s gasping for air now. He tries to focus on the cold tile he is sitting on, the feel of it on his skin to ground him, but all he wants is for Hannibal to hold him and whisper that he’s okay, to pull himself back to reality. Focusing on the cold tile isn’t enough, not when he wants the arms of the man causing him this turmoil. 

He can’t pull himself out of his head, back into the bathroom, too stuck on the thought that Hannibal might not actually love him, afterall.

He can’t do it himself, can’t focus on his surroundings, can’t stop crying, can’t get his breathing under control. Can’t. 

Hannibal is the only thing he wants, who he needs, and as if summoned, he comes to Will. He is finally pulled out of his thoughts, out of his internal struggle, when there’s a knock on the bathroom door. 

He has to make a choice. Confront Hannibal, or wait for Hannibal to come clean. 

“Sweetheart, are you alright?” Hannibal asks through the door. The term of endearment melts Will’s heart, and he wonders, for a second, why he would ever doubt Hannibal’s love. Even when that second passes and he remembers his boyfriend may be lying to him about everything, he can’t bring himself to truly doubt Hannibal again.

Will takes a shaky breath, and makes his decision. “Yeah, just don’t feel well. I’ll be out in a minute.”

“Can I get you anything?”

“No,” Will answers. “I’m just going to shower, and I’ll be fine. Don’t worry about me, baby.”

“You know I always will,” Hannibal says. “I’ll be in bed, come back after your shower. We can sleep in today.”

“Okay.”

Will stands and listens until Hannibal’s footsteps lead away from the bathroom before getting into the shower. He stands under the water running through his possible options, his course of action. 

There are three things he knows for sure. 

Number one. Hannibal is a killer, and has been honest about that. He was upfront about there being more to him than Will knew. This is that. He wasn’t ready, still isn’t ready, to tell Will. Will doesn’t think he can blame Hannibal for that, for hiding a part of his identity that he isn’t ready to share.

Number two. Will has definitely been drugged. More than once. Which means he needs to start overseeing his drinks being poured, and the food that Hannibal cooks. He knows he can blame Hannibal for drugging him, but if he’s not going to confront him about it, then he needs to take steps to ensure it’s not going to happen again.

Number three. He loves Hannibal so desperately that he knows he can’t let him go. Not now, not ever. Because Hannibal has shown him endless love, has given him comfort, and affection, and feels like home. He knows what Hannibal has given him has been real, even if everyone thinks he’s a psychopath and can’t feel love. Hannibal has proven time and time again that he can. Will can’t give that up, but he doesn’t know what that makes of him. 

But maybe it’s possible Hannibal isn’t the Chesapeake Ripper. A body hasn’t been found, and the Ripper can’t pass up the chance to display his work, to show it off and taunt the FBI. So it’s possible Will is reading into things that are not there. 

Baltimore has one of the highest murder rates in the country, there are hundreds of murders a year. What are the odds that his boyfriend is the same killer the FBI has its sights set on? Out of every murderer in that one city alone, the Ripper could be anyone. And the Ripper doesn’t only work in Baltimore, so the pool of possible killer is even larger than just that one city. 

Hannibal could have killed anyone last night. It doesn’t mean Hannibal is the Ripper. He doesn’t even know if the Chesapeake Ripper struck again. It seems too soon for another sounder to start. 

As he continues to stand there, he keeps finding more reasons why Hannibal can’t be the Chesapeake Ripper. 

Will shuts off the shower and steps out. He dries himself off, and goes back to the bedroom. 

Until he gets a call about a Ripper kill, Will won’t jump to conclusions. And even if he does get a call, he doesn’t think Hannibal being the Chesapeake Ripper could cause Will to cut himself out of Hannibal’s life. Not with the way Hannibal is looking at him now, the way he lifts the blanket and opens his arms for Will to slide into bed and go into his awaiting embrace. 

“Are you feeling better?” Hannibal asks. 

“Not really,” Will sighs. “Must just be whatever I’m still getting over.”

“Perhaps,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Hannibal, I-” Will starts. “When did we come up to bed last night? I don’t- Everything after dinner is blank for me. Is it possible the encephalitis is back already?”

“No, love. Don't you remember?” Hannibal asks. He cradles the back of Will’s head with one hand. “You asked me if I had anything to help you sleep because you didn’t want to keep me up with your tossing and turning. I gave you valium as it is what I keep in my car. It can cause memory issues, though I didn’t think it would. My mistake.”

“I took a valium last night?” Will asks. 

“Mhm,” Hannibal hums. “Fell asleep on the couch. I carried you up and undressed you.” 

“Oh,” Will whispers. 

He guesses it makes sense, and maybe he’s just experiencing worse side effects than Hannibal was hoping for because he was sick all week. He doesn’t think he would have asked for something, but maybe he did, after all the work he did yesterday, maybe he just wanted to sleep, just wanted to relax. His focus was still on his work even through dinner, he knows that. So that could explain why he doesn’t remember asking. 

Hannibal can’t be the Ripper. There is no body. And Hannibal takes care of him, and doesn't hurt him. And he asked to be drugged last night, and that’s why he feels like he was drugged. He doesn’t think valium would’ve given him side effects so strong, and would think these are more on par with something stronger, which is why he first thought it had been rohypnol. He’s never been roofied before, has only taken valium on one or two occasions, so he supposes he wouldn’t know. 

Instead of thinking about it too hard, he lets himself fall asleep again in Hannibal's arms. He snuggles closer to the man he harbored so many doubts about. Even if so many other things line up, he’ll choose to believe Hannibal for the time being. Until there’s a body to suggest otherwise. 

No body, no crime. 

But Will wakes again to his phone ringing on the nightstand and his entire world comes crashing down again when he sees Jack’s name on the display. He feels numb when Jack tells him it’s the Ripper and says he’s texting the address. 

He doesn’t even fully comprehend Hannibal sitting up and answering his own phone. He sees it all, but he hears nothing, as if he’s stuck inside a bubble. His vision feels like it’s closing in, and he grabs the cup of water on the nightstand, drinking as much as he can stomach in the moment. Anything to hold onto while he waits for Hannibal to hang up. 

The second Hannibal’s phone is back on the nightstand, Will sets his cup down and turns, falling into his arms. Wanting to be wrong, hoping he’s wrong. He has to be wrong. 

“I don’t want to go,” Will mumbles into Hannibal’s chest. 

“Then don’t,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses the top of Will’s head, and rubs his back, and Will thinks it’s impossible that someone so gentle could be someone so sadistic and brutal as the Ripper. 

“I should,” Will sighs. “Where is it?” 

“It’s about thirty minutes north of here,” Hannibal replies. “Nearly halfway between my house and yours.”

Will nods. “So we can leave at the same time, then.” 

“Yes. I do need to shower, though. Perhaps you could leave a few minutes earlier than I do, so we do not arrive at the same time,” Hannibal suggests. 

Will doesn’t respond, just gets up and starts pulling on clothes. He finds clean laundry in his drawers, and knows Hannibal did laundry last night. He had time to fold and put everything away, so maybe he didn’t kill anyone. Maybe it’s still just one big coincidence and Will is going crazy. 

His boyfriend cannot be the Chesapeake Ripper, and Will is definitely not about to walk onto the scene and start changing the profile slightly as he reconstructs the crime. 

Someone with medical experience, a lover of the arts, meticulous, thoughtful, well educated, a narcissist who loves to perform. It’s all Hannibal. It’s always been Hannibal. 

“Will,” Hannibal says from directly behind him. 

Will realizes he’s just standing in the middle of the bedroom with his shirt half-buttoned, fingers frozen. He turns his head and kisses Hannibal’s cheek. He continues to button his shirt as if he didn’t stop. Hannibal’s arms come around his waist and Will can’t help but tense for a second, then relaxes. 

He reminds himself that he doesn’t know for sure. He could just be finding coincidences, not substantial evidence. 

Hannibal kisses his neck and jaw, and holds him tight.

“You don’t need to go,” Hannibal whispers. “I will call Jack back right now.”

Will shakes his head. He has to face this head on. Decide what to do after he knows for sure. 

“I’m heading out now. Don’t take too long,” Will murmurs. He pulls himself out of Hannibal’s arms, turns around to kiss him once, then leaves the bedroom. 

He lets the dogs out for a few minutes, then drives to the address Jack sent him. 

On the way he plans. If it’s Hannibal… if Hannibal is the Chesapeake Ripper… he’ll never look at him the same way again. He’ll never be able to look Jack in the eye again, knowing what he knows. But he can’t turn Hannibal in. 

He’s filled with dread at the very thought of it. 

But he’s filled with dread at the thought of letting his friends and himself run themselves to the ground searching for a killer they will never catch. Knowing that Jack won’t rest until the Ripper is captured, knowing everyone else in the BAU won’t stop looking, won’t stop trying to connect dots that won’t ever connect. Not in the way they have connected for Will. 

To turn Hannibal in, or not. To confront Hannibal, or not. To leave, to disappear, never to do either, or not. To do any of those things... or to do nothing, and carry on as they have been for months. 

He can’t ask anyone for advice, not on this, but he thinks a vague chat with Beverly may help him make a decision. She can be a voice of reason even if she doesn’t know what kind of reason Will is looking for. 

He gets out of his car at a bus yard and gets waved through by Jack. He looks around for Beverly, but doesn’t see her, and asks Jack where she is. 

“Some sort of family emergency,” Jack shrugs, guiding Will toward a bus, and up the stairs. The smell of blood and death finds him instantly. “Called her, she’s out of state. She wanted me to tell you she’ll call you when she can.”

Will nods, barely paying attention. He can see the body now, propped in one seat, and as he gets closer he realizes he just saw the top half at first. The bottom half is in the seat across the aisle, legs and torso connected by intestines. 

“Kidneys and heart,” Zeller says, kneeling in the seat in the row in front. “Which is what he was doing on the last body before he got interrupted.”

“Last one wasn’t the Chesapeake Ripper,” Will says. He looks at the body again. “This one is.”

The amount of mutilation, the blood, the gore… there’s no way Hannibal could have done this. Gentle, loving, beautiful Hannibal. Who takes care of Will when he’s sick, who holds him after nightmares, who cooks for him, who makes him feel so good. It can’t be.

“Victim is Andrew Caldwell,” Jack says from behind him. “Friends said they last saw him leaving a restaurant around ten PM last night. His car was found on the route he takes to get home, gas tank gouged. No cameras at the restaurant or surrounding areas picked up anything.”

When Will hears his name, a card flashes into his mind. Andrew Caldwell, Independent medical examiner. Hannibal’s fingers had lingered on it for a split second too long yesterday, and Will can see the image clearly in his head. 

He has to make his decision. He has to figure out what he’s doing. 

Will turns to face Jack, just as he hears the sound of feet on the steps, and Hannibal’s head comes over the front seats of the bus. Will knows what he has to do.

Chapter Text

“Good morning, Doctor Lecter,” Jack and Will both say at the same time.

Hannibal nods to both of them and makes his way down the narrow bus aisle. Will looks at him, sees that he’s wearing one of Will’s winter hats. There’s a fond smile on Hannibal’s face, that Will knows Jack won’t see, but Will does. Because it’s only for him. Will would die if he never saw that smile again.

Will turns back to face the body without another word. Jack retreats, and Zeller climbs over the seat he’s in to get past Will without interrupting him. He can feel Hannibal behind him, then there’s a hand on one of his hips to keep him steady. Something Hannibal is so good at. 

“Windows,” Will murmurs. He knows there’s no one looking that can see them, but he feels the need to mention it anyway. 

“Tinted,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Take a few steps back anyway. An agent can come in at any moment,” Will says. 

So Hannibal does, then asks, “Is it the Ripper?”

You would know, Will thinks. 

“Yeah. It’s the Ripper,” Will nods. 

Will turns back to the body and is about to look more closely, but then turns around again and looks at Hannibal.

“Can you actually wait outside? I don’t like doing this in front of people.”

Hannibal nods and turns to go. Will waits until he sees Hannibal walk over to Jack through the bus windows before he looks again.

He now finds himself looking at the scene through the eyes of the Chesapeake Ripper- the eyes of Hannibal.

“I find myself torn in two,” Will says, reading the scene. “My heart is at stake, my love is under threat. If I’m not careful, I will lose both things I’m torn between.”

Will pulls himself out, shaking his head. He knows he needs to pretend that he doesn’t know. So that Hannibal doesn’t fear Will leaving, or turning him in. He’s trying to choose between Will and the Chesapeake Ripper, but Will is going to let him have both by waiting. 

He doesn’t need to know anything else, doesn’t need to keep looking at the scene. He can’t.

Instead of telling Jack what he has actually seen, he starts to construct a different story. One that could lead the investigation away from a man with a committed partner. One where if Hannibal were ever suspected, it would save his ass for Will to tell Jack they’ve been in a healthy relationship for months. Even if Will knows now their relationship is quite unhealthy, Jack wouldn’t have any reason to think it.

Outside the bus, Hannibal is standing alone, waiting. Jack comes up to Will and starts asking him what he saw, and Will pulls Jack out of everyone else’s earshot. Except for Hannibal. Will makes certain that Hannibal is listening. 

“Remember the last sounder?” Will asks. “The Ripper was in love, and he was apologizing, but this… he’s torn in two, his hearts been ripped out. I think they’ve either broken up, or the lover is actually dead now.”

Jack nods, listening intently. 

“Makes sense,” Jack agrees. “Could be a very recent thing… it seems quite soon for another sounder, doesn’t it?”

Will nods. He had thought the same thing earlier. “So, his partner is dead or otherwise out of his life, so he immediately starts a sounder. There’s no love left in this one, not like the others. I wasn’t sure then, but this feels definitely like something happened. Maybe there was hope during the last sounder, but there’s no hope left during this one… That’s all I’ve got.”

“Thank you, Will,” Jack says. “Real quick— do you think the school bus had anything to do with his message?”

“I don’t know. Possibly?” Will shrugs. “I didn’t think much of it.”

“Alright, well, if you do think about it, give me a call.”

“I will,” he nods. “I’m going to head out, then. I should talk to Doctor Lecter about this.”

Jack pats him on the shoulder and says he’ll see him later, and Will turns and leaves Jack where he’s standing. 

“Let’s go home,” Will says as he passes Hannibal. 


Hannibal hears everything Will says to Jack, and he is torn between being glad that Will isn’t on to him, and being disappointed that Will’s interpretation is so far from correct. Will comes back to him and says ‘let’s go home’  and Hannibal knows everything is still perfectly fine between them. Will doesn’t specify a house, just home. Because Hannibal knows either house could be home for both of them.

Outside of the busyard, in the parking lot where they left their cars, out of earshot, Will says, “Do you have plans for today?”

Hannibal shakes his head. He parked next to Will’s car, so now Will is leaning with his arms on top of the Bentley, talking to Hannibal across the roof from opposite sides of the car.

“Let’s go out,” Will says. “Can we go to the mall?”

Hannibal is taken aback, surprised that Will would want to go to a mall for any reason, but especially on a weekend when there’ll be tons of people. It would cause him to be flooded with other people’s emotions. Still, if Will wants to, Hannibal doesn’t see why not.

“If you’d like,” Hannibal says. “You don’t want to go home?”

“No. I want to go to the mall,” Will says. He tells Hannibal which mall parking lot to meet him in, then taps the roof of the Bentley before getting into his own car. 

Hannibal was hoping to take Will home, take him back up to bed, or to the bathtub, or the couch. Anywhere he could hold Will close and continue to show him love and safety. Now he has to wait. He has already made the decision to stay at Will’s for the night, and for Will to come over after his last fitting at the tailor tomorrow.

His plans to kill this week involve two victims on Tuesday, a single victim on Wednesday, and another one on Friday. Working fast, and doing more than he normally would. One on Tuesday is going to be similar to Will’s organ harvester, the other a Ripper kill. Wednesday, another Ripper display, and Friday another like the organ harvester. He thinks he can do the Friday one with Will’s knowledge. 

He follows close behind Will to the mall, and they park next to each other. 

Will reaches out for Hannibal’s hand as they walk through the lot and into the building. He reaches up with his other hand and tugs on the hat Hannibal’s wearing.

“I like you in my things,” Will says. 

“I will admit I only put it on because my hair was wet,” Hannibal says. 

Will shrugs. “Are you staying tonight?”

“Yes. Are you staying with me tomorrow night?”

“Sure.”

They get into the mall and Will walks with no clear direction, just wandering, not going into any stores.

“Do you plan on purchasing anything?” Hannibal asks. 

“You can buy me things. I just need to not be in my head right now,” Will explains. 

He stops in front of a shoe store and looks inside for a second before deciding to go in. 

“I have other methods of keeping you out of your head, love,” Hannibal points out. 

Will shakes his head, preoccupied with a rack of work boots. He picks up a few different styles and sets them back down. 

“What size shoe do you wear?” Will asks. 

“Twelve.”

Will glances down and Hannibal follows his eyes, knowing they landed on Hannibal’s crotch. 

“Yeah, that makes sense,” Will nods. 

“Will,” Hannibal sighs. 

Will smirks then picks up another pair of boots. 

“Do you like these?” he asks. 

“Why?”

“You need boots for my house, babe,” Will says. “Especially in the spring when the fields turn to mud.” 

Hannibal looks at the boots Will is holding up, but they’re not particularly his taste, or style, so he shrugs. He’s more so thinking about how Will is certain they will still be together come spring. Considering he didn’t have high hopes the morning Hannibal asked him out. It’s a good sign, Hannibal decides. Will hasn’t caught on to who he is, and still wants him around. 

He gets pulled out of his thoughts when Will snaps his fingers in front of his face.

“Baby,” Will says, further drawing Hannibal’s attention back to him. “You aren’t even paying attention to me.”

“I’m paying attention, love,” Hannibal says. “No, I don’t like those.”

“I can tell,” Will says with a smile. “Okay. If you don’t want anything here, I’m going to look around for myself, then.”

“Very well, darling,” Hannibal says. He finds a chair to sit in and waits while Will looks at the shelves of shoes. 

After a while he sits down next to Hannibal and is brought several different boxes by an employee. 


Will decides that the mall is likely the best place to spend his day. Being overloaded with other people’s emotions will help keep him from spiraling. Seeing Hannibal in a normal, every day setting will help him see Hannibal as his boyfriend, rather than the Chesapeake Ripper. 

Having Hannibal buy him things will make Hannibal happy. Seeing Hannibal happy makes him happy. 

He knows standing in front of a Chesapeake Ripper victim, and deciding to do nothing just because Hannibal looked at him with love in his eyes is likely going to blow up in his face. One day he will have to come clean, and will have to tell Hannibal he has known for a while, but for now… he can pretend everything is just fine. 

“By the way,” Will says, carrying two boxes of shoes (a pair of tennis shoes, and a pair of boots) to the checkout counter. “I forgot my wallet at home this morning.”

Hannibal already has his own in his hand by the time Will finishes his sentence. 

“I can see the outline in your pocket,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will turns to quickly kiss his cheek, then sets the boxes down on the counter. The teenager at the counter reads a total, but Hannibal puts his card into the reader before he has even begun to speak, obviously not caring about the price. 

“Did you eat breakfast?” Hannibal asks as they walk out of the store. He’s carrying the bag with Will’s shoes, even though Will insists he doesn’t need to.

“Not hungry,” Will shrugs. He glances up at the shops around them and stops in front of one. “Although…”

“Ice cream,” Hannibal deadpans. “Don’t you think you should eat something substantial?”

“Maybe later,” Will says. He goes in and buys himself a cone and a cup of soda, coming back out of the shop to see Hannibal leaning against the wall with a disapproving look on his face. He doesn’t say a word. 

Will finds himself distracted by just about everyone around him. Mothers annoyed with their children, husbands bored with their wives, teenagers being teenagers. It’s perfect, enough for him to stop thinking about how Hannibal Lecter, his boyfriend, the only person he has ever truly loved, is the Chesapeake Ripper. 

Hannibal walks next to him with a hand behind his back, fingers stuck into Will’s back pocket. Will isn’t sure how he feels about such a public display. He thinks he would prefer casually brushing hands while they walk side by side instead, but his hands are full with his ice cream cone and his drink. 

He’s sure Hannibal would remove his hand if Will expressed his concern, but Will finds no reason to voice it. No one’s giving them odd looks, no one’s really looking at them at all. Still, he can’t help but feel like everyone’s staring with judgemental eyes. 

“You’re tense,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Just thinking about homophobia,” Will says lightheartedly. 

“You’ve been tense all morning,” Hannibal corrects himself. 

Will shrugs, and is saved from having to answer by his phone ringing in his pocket. 

“Phone, front left pocket,” Will says, and Hannibal pulls it out. “Put it on speaker.”

Hannibal does as he’s asked and holds the phone up so they can both hear Beverly on the other end.

“Hey, I don’t have much time, but if you had a kid what would you name it?”

“Oh, I don’t-” Will starts.

Hannibal cuts him off by saying, “Mischa.”

“For a boy or girl?” Beverly asks. 

“Either,” Hannibal answers. 

“Okay, give me one more name,” Beverly says. 

“Bev, what’s going on?” Will asks. 

“Explain later, okay? Name now,” Beverly says, his voice full of urgency. 

“Uhh, fuck, Bev, I don’t know,” Will says. He considers for a second, then answers, “Lucy would be good for a girl.”

“Thanks guys, I’ll call you back in a few hours,” Beverly says. 

Before Will can ask what is going on, she hangs up. He looks at Hannibal. 

“So that was weird,” Will says. 

“Indeed.”

“You were quick to answer about a kid’s name,” Will points out. “I… is kids something you would want?”

“I never intended to share a life with someone, or to have someone I would consider having children with, but I’ve never been opposed to the idea,” Hannibal answers.

“So you’d want kids with me, is what you’re saying.”

“Perhaps,” Hannibal says. “We have been together for four months, darling. I don’t expect children at this point.”

“Yeah, but don’t you think… No, never mind,” Will says, shaking his head. 

“Tell me,” Hannibal whispers. He leans over and licks Will’s ice cream, then takes the drink out of his hand and takes a sip through the straw. 

“No, I was just thinking that time feels irrelevant,” Will shrugs. “Maybe we’ve been together for a short amount of time, but I don’t see us breaking up. Ever.”

Will knows that he is sort of baiting Hannibal. Essentially saying ‘There’s nothing you could do to make me stop loving you,’ but not quite— not at all— saying that. Or even saying, ‘Because there’s no reason for us to break up, right, Hannibal?’ as a way of almost tricking him into revealing that, yes, Will, I am hiding a terrible, horrible secret from you that would make any sane man run for the hills and never look back. Really, his true words say none of that, but all of that, and quite possibly even more than just that. He thinks one day when Hannibal finally reveals himself, that they’ll both look back on this day and maybe, for once, Hannibal will realize he is a gigantic idiot. Will may realize that as well. In fact, he is currently thinking that he is a gigantic idiot for falling in love with the Chesapeake fucking Ripper, finding out he’s the Chesapeake fucking Ripper, and then turning around and asking to go to the mall so he can spend a ton of the Chesapeake fucking Ripper’s money as a form of fucked up retail therapy. 

Hannibal speaks again, completely unaware of Will’s inner monologue berating himself, completely unbothered by the way Will’s hand is about to crush the ice cream cone in his hand. When Will realizes it himself, he lets up on his grip and brings himself out of his thoughts, directing his attention to Hannibal again. 

“That’s rather ambitious. Four months ago you didn’t think we would last more than a few dates,” Hannibal reminds him. “Now you think time doesn’t matter if we want kids. We can go acquire a child right now if you so wish.”

“Jesus. This is why I said never mind,” Will mumbles. He rubs his now free hand over his face. “I’m just saying, I think these are things we can talk about regardless of how long we’ve been together.”

“Yes, I agree, love. I was teasing you,” Hannibal says. He takes another sip of Will’s drink, then passes it back and takes the ice cream cone instead. “Personally I don’t see us breaking up any time soon, either. If ever, if I’m being perfectly honest.” 

“Keep eating my ice cream, and I think we might break up, actually,” Will says. 

“You’re taking too long, and I would like to hold your hand,” Hannibal responds, biting into the ice cream and the cone. 

Will takes it back from him and finishes it quickly, then sighs and takes Hannibal’s hand in his own. 

“You expressed you were thinking about homophobia,” Hannibal says gently. He gives Will’s hand a tiny squeeze, then continues, “We don’t have to hold hands if you are uncomfortable.”

“No, fuck, it’s just,” Will sighs. “It was a fleeting thought, I don’t know. I haven’t really held hands with another man in public, I guess. The grocery store by my house, or your art galleries feel different than the mall. At those places I really don’t think about it, but there’s so many people here.”

“You held onto me quite hard when we were at the airport in Minnesota. There were many more people there than here,” Hannibal says. 

“Yeah, well, who’s going to commit a hate crime in an airport security line? Like it doesn’t seem very wise. A mall would be easier to get away with.”

“We don’t have to hold hands.”

“No,” Will says quickly. “I want to hold hands.” 

“Will, if you’re concerned-”

“Holy fuck, Hannibal,” Will groans. “Just one afternoon where Doctor Lecter doesn’t make an appearance, okay? That’s all I want. No psychiatric bullshit, that’s all I ask.”

“I wasn’t,” Hannibal says. His tone isn’t quite defensive, but Will supposed it never really gets to that point. It’s as defensive as Hannibal gets. 

“You were getting real close.”  

He pulls them into a clothing store and holds Hannibal’s hands while he walks amongst the racks of clothes. The store is relatively empty, only a few people shopping, and one or two employees around the shop. 

“Then I will simply not speak,” Hannibal says quietly. 

“God, don’t-- don’t be like that. We’re having a nice time, right? Nice time at the mall,” Will says. “I’m sorry.”

“You have nothing to apologize for,” Hannibal says. “I’m having a nice time.”

“I’m just out of it,” Will mumbles. Understatement of the year. “I mean, this morning was weird for me.”

“Yes,” Hannibal agrees. “Are you going to tell me why you were crying in the bathroom at six this morning, or is that considered a forbidden Doctor Lecter question?” 

Will groans and lets go of Hannibal’s hand so he can pick up a green and blue flannel shirt. He busies himself with touching the fabric and sticking his hand into the breast pocket, examining the buttons and seams. 

“I take it I’m not allowed to ask that, then,” Hannibal says. He takes Will’s drink again and finishes it off, then holds the cup at his side. No longer giving Will the option to hold hands unless Will takes it back or takes the bag of shoes from him. 

“No, it’s fine. You can ask that, Hannibal,” Will sighs. “I just woke up scared, I guess.”

“And instead of coming to me for comfort, you locked yourself away in the bathroom,” Hannibal points out.

“Why are you acting like I did something wrong by wanting to be alone? I was on the verge of a panic attack and you fell back asleep. Forgive me for assuming you didn’t care,” Will mutters. “It’s not as though I can just shut it off and think rationally, okay?” 

“I understand that, darling,” Hannibal murmurs. Will holds the shirt over his arm and picks out another in a different color, as well. They move through a few more racks before Will speaks again. 

“I just didn’t remember last night and I assumed the encephalitis came back,” Will shrugs. He decides to get bold, to say something that he knows Hannibal will tense up at. “Then my next thought was that I was fucking roofied. But that’s impossible because I was with you the entire night, and you wouldn’t have done that to me.”

And sure enough, Hannibal’s steps falter a minuscule amount before he recovers. Will catches it out of the corner of his eye. 

Will just continues, “And I really don’t remember asking you for a valium, or taking one, you know? I didn’t think it caused memory loss like that, but hey, you’re the doctor, I guess. It was just scary, okay? My mind rapidly flipped through horrible possibilities when I should have just asked you.”

Hannibal kisses his cheek and murmurs, “I’ll be back in a moment.”

Will thinks he’s said something wrong, that Hannibal knows he knows, but Hannibal just goes to throw the empty cup away and comes back. He wraps an arm around Will’s waist and tugs him close to his side. 

“Wake me up next time,” he whispers in Will’s ear. 

“Yeah, okay,” Will shrugs. “I’ve just had a lot going on, and I’ve been trying to keep myself together, but this morning was too much, and the crying was all those things inside needing to get out.” 

“My love, you’re allowed to feel vulnerable.” 

“Yes, I know,” Will says. “And this turned into therapy real fast, so enough about me.”

Will picks up some more clothes, sets the ones in his hands down so he can hold a flannel up to Hannibal’s body. 

“Is that for me?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yeah, you can’t keep wearing three-piece suits all the time at my house, okay? And if I’m dressing up for you and your opera, then I suppose I should be allowed to choose things for you,” Will says. 

Hannibal nods and complies, holding out his arms to hold the clothes Will picks out. Flannel shirts, t-shirts, a new green army jacket for himself, winter hats. He eyes a leather jacket, then looks at Hannibal, then back at the jacket. 

“You’re contemplating,” Hannibal murmurs. “Give it here. Get one for yourself, too, and we can take out my motorcycle when the weather is warm again.”

Will chokes on his spit. “You have a motorcycle? You can ride a motorcycle?” 

“Yes, darling. Don’t look at me like that. Why are you so surprised? Am I truly so boring?”

Will shakes his head and puts the jacket on the growing pile in Hannibal’s arms. He lets the subject drop for the moment in favor of bringing up what else is on his mind. 

“Okay, so…” Will says, trailing off. “That was weird, right? That call with Beverly?”

“Yes, I would say it was odd.”

“Okay, so I should call her back, then,” Will says. 

“She said she would call you. She sounded busy, beloved.”

“And I hear you, but it really seems like she has two kids she needed to name. That, or dogs,” Will says. “She wouldn’t have said ‘baby’ names if it wasn’t human children, right?” 

“I don’t know, darling,” Hannibal says. “Just wait for her to call.”

“Oh, but the suspense is killing me, baby. But also, I’m really worried about her.” 

“Call her, then.”

“Hannibal, I am just thinking that we should consider the idea that she does actually have a kid she needed to name,” Will says, slowly. “And she may have taken our suggestions and used them.”

“Yes, Will, it’s possible,” Hannibal says. 

“So, you gave her Mischa’s name,” Will whispers. He cups Hannibal’s cheek, and would lean in to kiss his forehead if the clothes in Hannibal’s arms weren’t obstructing him. “Are you okay with that?”

Hannibal nods, but doesn’t say a word. Will drops it and directs Hannibal toward the checkout, done with this store. He puts an arm behind Hannibal, holding the small of his back while the cashier rings up their clothes. 

“Did you want lunch?” Hannibal asks after he pays for the clothes. Will takes the bags from him as they walk out, but leaves Hannibal to carry the shoes. 

“Sure,” Will answers. He reaches out and grabs onto Hannibal’s hand, lacing their fingers together. 

Hannibal walks them over to a mall directory to see what restaurants there are, and Will sees a mane of hair that causes him to yank his hand from Hannibal’s and take a step back. 

“Will?” Hannibal asks, voice full of concern. 

“Freddie Lounds,” Will hisses to him. “At your 2 o’clock.”


Hannibal feels a sense of relief knowing it is just Freddie Lounds that caused Will to pull away rather abruptly. Will has been saying things that have caused Hannibal to pause, and Hannibal couldn't help but think every time that Will knows, but he knows he’s still in the clear by the time Will finishes each sentence. 

Knowing full well what Will means by ‘at your two o’clock,’ Hannibal pretends he doesn’t, just to distract Will, so Lounds doesn’t notice Will is staring at her. She will walk by without even noticing them. 

“Two o’clock? What do you mean by that?” Hannibal asks.

“Are you-- no, you can’t be seriously asking me that,” Will says, exasperated. He turns and faces Hannibal his back now to Freddie Lounds.

Hannibal just tilts his head in question. He keeps Freddie Lounds in his periphery as he shrugs his shoulders at Will.

“You want me to explain clock directions to you?” Will asks, clearly unsure if Hannibal is being serious or not. Hannibal does his best to prove himself genuine. 

“It would be helpful.”

Will starts to explain, “So like a clock, right? Twelve o’clock would be directly in front of you, and six o’clock would be directly behind you, so where would two o’clock be?”

“I’m unsure. Explain it again? Where’s twelve?” Hannibal asks. Freddie Lounds is approaching them now, her eyes on the stores, rather than on them. As long as neither of them direct their attention toward her, she won’t turn toward them. 

“I just don’t understand, Hannibal. You can wake up in the middle of the night and recite poetry in seven different languages, which most people can’t even speak one language upon waking up, but you don’t know clock directions?” Will asks. His voice is hushed, clearly not wanting other people to notice them. Saving Hannibal from looking stupid in front of others, likely. 

“Six languages,” Hannibal corrects.

“Oh, no it’s seven because you speak fluent bullshit, too. There’s no fucking way you don’t know this.”

Will throws his hands in the air, completely frustrated by this conversation. 

“I just don’t understand, Will,” Hannibal says. “So twelve would be up? But why would someone be above me? Although, I suppose if we were in bed…”

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “Just. Never mind.”

“Good,” Hannibal smiles. “Miss Lounds is gone.”

“What?”

“I was distracting you, darling. I know what you meant,” Hannibal says. He places a hand on the small of Will’s back and directs him toward a restaurant on the other side of the mall. 

“I’m going to kill you,” Will mutters. 

“Uh huh, of course, beloved,” Hannibal smiles. 

Will shakes his head in disbelief. 

When they reach the restaurant, they get a table for the both of them and take their seats. Hannibal reaches across the table to pick up Will’s hand in his own. He brings it to his lips to kiss his knuckles, then sets it down again. 

“You are… jittery,” Hannibal observes. 

“Yeah, well, I’m thinking about how Beverly hasn’t called, and I’m also thinking about Freddie Lounds being here at the same time as us,” Will says. “And I guess I’m thinking about that scene today, too.”

“Hm, would you like to talk about any of those things?”

“No. Not currently, no,” Will answers. He picks up his menu, and Hannibal knows the conversation is over. 

After lunch, they go into several other stores, Will choosing different items and handing them to Hannibal, Hannibal paying for everything, then Will kissing him on the cheek each time Hannibal pulls his card out of the machine. 

They each carry bags, but Hannibal is certain Will is forcing him to carry more. Will walks into another shoe store and asks Hannibal if he likes any of the boots. 

“I have boots at home, Will,” Hannibal says. “I can just leave them in my car in case I need them at your house.”

Will frowns. “I want you to have a pair at my house. You wouldn’t have to worry about always putting them back in your car.”

“I won’t worry about it, I’ll simply remember,” Hannibal says. 

“Please just pick a pair of boots, Hannibal,” Will says. 

“I’d prefer my own.”

“And I want you to have a pair at my house,” Will says through gritted teeth. 

Hannibal surrenders and chooses a pair, buys them, then says, “Happy now?”

“Yeah,” Will answers, but it’s clear he isn’t. 

“What’s troubling you, Will?”

By now they are both carrying too many bags and Hannibal can’t reach out to hold Will’s hand like he wants to.

“I’ve told you at least four times,” Will says. He turns his head and glares when Hannibal doesn’t supply the reason for Will’s poor mood. “It’s like you don’t listen to me. Isn’t that literally your job?”

“You told me no Doctor Lecter appearances for the afternoon,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will groans. “Yeah. You’re right. My mistake.”

Hannibal stops walking and turns to face Will. 

“What?” Will sighs. “No, don’t look at me like that.”

“Like what?”

“Like I’ve broken all of the wine glasses in your kitchen, or ripped all the buttons off all your shirts. You do this thing with your face when you’re annoyed, but it’s like whoever’s on the receiving end has done something almost, but not quite, unforgivable, and you don’t quite know how to respond,” Will says. “You make the same face when I sit in your chair in your office, or when I want to order carryout instead of letting you cook dinner.”

“That can’t be right.”

Hannibal knows he keeps his facial expressions blank unless he wants to show something else. The only time he has no choice is when Will makes him smile, but now he’s realizing that might not be true. 

“You made the face again right before you said that,” Will says, and he starts walking again. “I’m done here if you are. Meet you at my house?”

“Of course.”

“Do you still have my phone?”

“I put it in my pocket after Beverly called earlier, yes.”

Will nods, but his hands are full so he doesn’t make a move to take it back. After a minute he speaks again. 

“It’s fine, by the way,” he says. “The face you make, I mean. It’s… cute.”

“I am not cute,” Hannibal protests. 

“No, of course not,” Will smirks. 

Hannibal stops in front of a store and turns to look at Will, then at the lingerie on mannequins. 

“For me? No,” Will says, looking inside. “For you? Sure.”

“You are against silk, and lace, so perhaps they have something else you may like.”

“I am not against silk and lace. I’m against underwear that don’t cover my junk,” Will retorts. “And there’s the face again! I knew I was annoying, but not that annoying.”

“You are not annoying,” Hannibal assures him. 

Will just laughs once and starts walking again. It takes a second for Hannibal’s feet to come unstuck from where he’s standing and follow after. 

He walks a few steps in front of Hannibal all the way back to their cars, and Hannibal isn’t quite sure where his first misstep was today. He doesn’t even know if Will is upset with him, or if it’s something else. Surely it can’t all be his worry about Beverly, and it can’t be Freddie Lounds being at the mall when she didn’t even see them. 

Hannibal drops it for the moment.

He nearly opens his trunk to place the bags in when he remembers Andrew Caldwell’s heart and kidney in a cooler is sitting there. With Will standing right next to him, he can’t open the trunk without suspicion. 

“Your car has more trunk space,” Hannibal says, talking past his own car to Will’s. “I also need to stop at home for a few things, but I will meet you at yours.”

Will starts piling shopping bags into the back of his car, shuts it, then turns to Hannibal. “I can stay over if you don’t want to drive all the way back to Wolf Trap. Or we can just spend the night apart.”

“If that’s what you want,” Hannibal says, looking past Will, then down at his feet. “I will see you tomorrow night?”

“What? No, that’s not what I want, I was just suggesting it in case that’s what you wanted,” Will says, shaking his head. “I know I’ve been annoying today, so I get it if you don’t want to be around me for a bit.”

“Why would you think that?”

“It’s not uncommon,” Will shrugs. 

Hannibal steps closer and cups Will’s cheeks with his heads. 

“I love you, and would rather spend every moment together than apart,” Hannibal murmurs. “I’ll come back to your house after I go home to get a few things, and check on Abigail. I need to make sure she has enough food for the night.”

Hannibal kisses his forehead and lets go of Will’s face. 


Will grabs Hannibal by the tie and pulls him in for a proper kiss. He can feel Hannibal smiling against his mouth, and feels the smile turn into a frown at the exact moment he hears a camera shutter click. 

“No, no no,” Will murmurs, pulling away from Hannibal and turning to see Freddie Lounds with a camera a few cars away. 

“I thought that was you two arguing by the directory earlier,” Lounds calls out. “I figured you were just having some weird public therapy session, but this is so much better.”

“Miss Lounds, I must ask you to delete that photo,” Hannibal says, calm as ever, but Will can see the monster lurking under the surface. A fire in his eyes, his top lip trying to pull into a snarl despite Hannibal’s best efforts to keep his expression neutral.

“Oh, I don’t think I should, Doctor Lecter,” she says with a smirk. 

“Freddie, this goes beyond just a story,” Will says. “You could potentially out us and put us in a dangerous situation.”

“Mmm, pretty sure neither of you are in the closet,” Freddie shrugs. “I’ve done my research.”

“Miss Lounds, how much can I pay you to delete that photo? You truly have no use for it,” Hannibal says.

“Actually, I think my readers would love to know that Will Graham is sleeping with his psychiatrist. It would really prove the rumors he’s just as much of a psychopath as the killers he catches,” Lounds says. “I take it you’ve been together since the psych eval, right?”

“Of course not,” Hannibal says. 

Will senses something change in his posture, and he grabs Hannibal’s hand and pulls him back before Hannibal can even move forward. 

“It’s not worth it,” Will whispers. “Don’t do anything you can’t take back.” 

“What research have you done?” Hannibal asks, circling back. 

“You’ve taken a lot of dates to the opera, Doctor Lecter. Men included,” Freddie shrugs. “You’re in the society page of the newspaper a lot. And I’ve asked around.”

“That has nothing to do with me,” Will says. 

“No, maybe not,” Freddie sighs. “But it wasn’t hard to find out you’ve been in relationships with men in the past.” 

In the minutes they have been speaking, Hannibal and Will have made it closer to Freddie, close enough, now, that Hannibal is able to grab the camera out of her hand. Luckily enough, she doesn’t have the strap around her neck, and he’s able to easily remove it from her grip. 

“You can’t do that,” Freddie says. 

“I take it you have many important pictures on this camera?” Hannibal asks, pressing the memory card so it pops out. 

“Yes,” Lounds says through gritted teeth.

“Right. I will take this, and I will return it next time I see you,” Hannibal says, handing the camera back to Freddie, but slipping the memory card into his coat pocket. 

“Why don’t you just delete it?” Will asks. “You could have just turned the camera on and deleted the photo.”

“I want it,” Hannibal whispers. “I will put it on my laptop, make sure it cannot be recovered on the memory card, and I will return it to her.”

“You are ridiculous,” Will mumbles. “I’m really tired, so I’m going to go now, okay? See you at home?”

“I’m still here,” Freddie reminds them. “Do you two live together?”

“No,” Hannibal and Will both answer at the same time. 

“Oh, I just thought because Will said home…” Freddie trails off.

“Right. I’m going now,” Will says with a nod. 

He hurries to his car and gets into the driver’s seat, letting Hannibal continue the conversation with Freddie. Will doesn’t even want to think about what he is saying to her, but he knows Hannibal is better with words than he is and after the whole ‘It’s not smart to piss off someone who thinks about killing for a living,’ from a few months back, it’s probably best to keep his mouth shut. 

Instead of pulling away and driving home, he rests his forehead against his steering wheel and lets out a loud sigh. If there was no risk of Hannibal and Freddie Lounds hearing, he would have screamed instead. 

The entire morning, all of his realizations, everything is coming back to him, now that he no longer has the distraction of the busy mall to keep his mind off Hannibal being the Chesapeake Ripper.

He reaches for his phone, hoping to call Beverly and take his mind off of everything, and to put his worries about her to rest, but it’s not in any of his pockets. 

“Fuck,” Will breathes out. 

He checks the mirror, then gets out of the car again. He walks right up to Hannibal, grabs his phone out of Hannibal’s back pocket, and goes right back to his car without saying a word. 

No messages, no calls. He hits Beverly’s contact, his body shaking with anxiety. 

“Please pick up,” he begs as the phone rings. 

It goes to voicemail.

He calls Jack instead.

“Will,” Jack answers after one ring. 

“Hey, ah,” he takes a deep breath, realizing just how much he’s shaking. “Did Beverly tell you anything when you talked to her?”

“Not much, something about her sister,” Jack answers. “You okay?” 

“A lot on my mind. Just worried about her. I’ll be fine,” Will says. “Thanks, I’ll let you go then.”

“Did you talk to Doctor Lecter about the scene today?” Jack asks before Will can hang up the phone. “It might be helpful.”

“We didn’t talk about it a lot, no,” Will answers. “I was going to call him next.”

“With all due respect, Will, you sound like you’re losing it,” Jack says. “I can’t afford to have you lose it with a new Ripper sounder, and this other guy you say isn't the Ripper.”

“I’m not losing it, Jack.”

“Good,” Jack responds. “We’re gonna catch the Ripper this time, I can feel it.”

Not on my watch, Will thinks.

“Yeah, totally,” Will says instead. Hannibal taps on his window, then and gives him a concerned look. “I have to go. Call me if you hear anything from Beverly.”

“Okay. Bye. Take care of yourself.”

“I will. Thanks, Jack.” 

Will hangs up and rolls his window down. 

“Are you okay to drive?” Hannibal asks, eyeing Will’s shaking hands, glancing up at his eyes that are no doubt red. 

Inhale, shaky exhale, push everything aside so Hannibal has no reason to keep questioning him. Will says, “I’m fine.” 

Hannibal leans through the window and kisses Will just once on the lips before circling around to his own car and getting behind the wheel. Will gives him a weak smile when he looks over again, then pulls out of the parking spot and heads home. 

Will doesn’t bother with the bags in the back of his car, feeling too empty to worry about them. He just opens the door to let the dogs out, and props it open. He bends down and grabs Beatrice before she can run out the door and sits down on the couch with her in his arms. 

He must fall asleep because at some point he wakes to a hand shaking his shoulder. Will sits up and has to stop the panic rising up in him when he realizes it’s just Hannibal. But Hannibal is the cause of his problems, the reason he’s not feeling right.

“You left the door open, darling. It’s freezing in here,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will looks around and the dogs are all laid in their beds, with Beatrice curled up with Rusty in his. A shiver rips through his body, and Hannibal takes the blanket off the back of the couch and wraps it around Will’s shoulders. 

“Sorry, I didn’t mean to fall asleep,” Will mumbles. 

“What is troubling you, Will? You haven’t been yourself today,” Hannibal says. He sits down on the couch next to Will and wraps an arm around him. “Jack called me while I was driving home. He sounded very worried about you.”

“I’m fine,” Will says. He slumps back down onto the couch, and decides he doesn’t care if Hannibal is who he is. He just wants him, just wants his arms around him. “Just lay down with me and I’ll be fine.”

Hannibal stands and removes his coat and shoes, and takes them to set by the front door. 

“I’m not going to let you stay silent,” Hannibal says when he settles behind Will on the couch, both of them laying on their sides, wrapped up under the blanket together. “Please tell me what’s troubling you.”

“Beverly didn’t answer when I called her,” Will says. “And Freddie Lounds has me freaking out. And I had to see a body cut in half sitting across a bus aisle from itself this morning.”

He can feel Hannibal’s frown against the back of his neck. 

“So do you get why I’m out of it? I thought the mall would be a good distraction, and it was, but then we left and I lost my grip on myself, Hannibal.”

“Alright, yes I see. Well-”

“No, Hannibal. Don’t try to give me solutions, or therapy, or say whatever you were about to say. Just hold me, and let me be in my head for a while.”

For once, Hannibal stays silent and just tightens the arm around Will’s waist. 

Will knows the exact moment Hannibal falls asleep because his head falls back against the couch instead of his face staying pressed to the back of Will’s neck. 

That gives him some time to think while having Hannibal’s arm wrapped around him. Two things he wants. Needs. 

He knows he can’t turn Hannibal in and still keep him. He wants the Chesapeake Ripper to stop killing, but he knows that is not something he can ask for. If Hannibal isn’t ready to tell him, and if he has any reason to think Will is plotting against him, he could do something. He could take Will away, hold him prisoner, or he could kill him, or he may even just leave. And Will doesn’t think he could handle any of those things. Except maybe the being killed option, but he doesn’t think it’s likely for Hannibal to actually do that. 

Will grabs onto Hannibal’s hand resting over his stomach and holds it tight, then brings his other hand to his mouth to quiet the sob trying to make its way out. Hannibal makes a quiet noise in his sleep when Will starts to squeeze his hand tighter. 

“Stop thinking so hard,” Hannibal mumbles into the back of his head. 

“Yeah,” Will breathes. “Yeah, you’re right.”

Will forces himself to stop thinking as best as he can and focuses on how warm and safe he feels cuddled close to Hannibal on the couch. 

Unfortunately when Will concentrates on not thinking, on trying not to dwell on everything that is wrong, he stays quiet. Hannibal doesn’t mention it through dinner at all, but Will knows he’s less talkative than normal, doesn’t try to get Will to talk after while he sits at the kitchen table working on his lectures for the week. 

Hannibal gives him space, which Will is really grateful for from a conversational standpoint, but not as great for the part of Will that wants Hannibal close to him. Hannibal holds him tight while they lay in bed that night, kissing all over his face and neck. It helps Will forget who the man in bed with him really is.

They wake in the morning after Will tosses and turns all night, and Hannibal gives him a concerned look as they get dressed. 

“Did you sleep well?” Hannibal asks. 

“Fine,” Will sighs. He goes to walk away, but Hannibal grabs his wrist. “What, Hannibal?”

“You have an appointment with the tailor tonight. Did you want me to come with you?” Hannibal asks.

“Sure,” Will says. “Just meet me there. I might be late coming home from work, so I won’t have time to stop at your house first.”

Hannibal pulls Will closer and kisses his forehead. 

“You do not need to talk to me if you don’t want to, but I am very good at listening if you change your mind,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I know.”

Hannibal lets him go and Will goes downstairs to make coffee and take care of the dogs. He doesn’t wait for Hannibal to make breakfast before he’s out the door and on his way to Quantico.

Halfway there, his phone starts ringing and he hits the button on his steering wheel to answer it.

“Will, hey,” Beverly says through the speaker. She sounds exhausted, but Will feels a sigh of relief upon hearing her voice. 

“I’ve been so worried about you,” Will says.

“I’m fine, I’m fine. Are you going to be home tonight?” Beverly asks.

“No, I’ll be at Hannibal’s. I have an appointment at his tailor, then I’m spending the night,” Will answers. 

“Alright, well can I stop by? I have a surprise and I won’t be at work for a while.”

“Yes!” Will says a little too eager. “Yeah, Bev. We should probably be back at his house around eight. Is that too late? I could see about getting into the tailor earlier?”

“Will, slow down,” Beverly laughs. “Eight is fine.” 

“Okay, okay. See you at eight at Hannibal’s house, then.”

When he hangs up, Will feels like a weight has been lifted off of his shoulders. He sends a text to Hannibal as soon as he gets to his lecture hall. 

beverly is fine :) she’s coming over to your house tonight at eight and has a surprise for us. 

He gets through his lectures without worrying about anything, without checking his phone, without thinking about how his boyfriend is the Chesapeake Ripper.

He goes down to the lab and sees Brian and Jimmy working on yesterday’s body, and he offers up nothing actually useful. 

“You know who cuts people in half?” Will asks conversationally. “Magicians.”

“You think the Chesapeake Ripper is a magician?” Jimmy asks. He thinks about it for a second, then glances at Brian with a shrug that looks like it could be plausible. 

“I mean, no. But maybe someone interested in magic tricks. You know how magicians pull flowers out of things?” Will says, letting the question hang open. 

“So we should be checking pet stores to see if anyone buys a rabbit,” Brian says, his tone mocking. 

“I’m just throwing ideas out there, Zeller,” Will says defensively. “It’s not like anyone else has anything useful.”

“Hey, man, no you’re right,” Brian says, hands up in the air, attempting to placate Will. 

Will feels his phone buzz in his pocket and opens the message from Hannibal.

Wonderful. I will see you soon, my love. Abigail offered to take care of the dogs tonight.

The time says he’s cutting it real close if he wants to make it on time so he excuses himself from the lab and hurries to his car. He sees Freddie Lounds lurking around the parking lot and puts his head down so she doesn’t see him.

Somehow he manages to get to his car without her seeing him, and soon enough he’s on his way to Baltimore. 

Just knowing Beverly is okay, and having avoided a conversation with Freddie Lounds, makes him feel so much lighter. He sings along to the radio the entire drive. 


Hannibal is waiting in the parking lot for Will for just a few minutes by the time Will pulls up and parks next to him in the parking lot. Hannibal is very surprised and pleased when Will presses him up against the Bentley to kiss him. Will looks happier, more at ease tonight.

“How was your day?” Will asks. He kisses Hannibal again, then says, “I’ve missed you.”

“I’ve missed you, too. And my day was fine. Much better now that you seem to be feeling better.”

Another kiss, and Will nods. “Yesterday was weird, but I’m good now. Perfect, even.” 

Will doesn’t complain at all while the tailor makes adjustments on his suit. He even smiles each time he looks at Hannibal. Hannibal even puts in an order for four more suits for him, and Will doesn’t say a single word. 

Hannibal wonders why Will went from not wanting Hannibal’s money for anything, to letting him spend thousands of dollars on him in two days, but Hannibal doesn’t mind. He’s glad Will is finally comfortable asking for what he wants, and taking the things Hannibal offers to him.

He wonders if, one day, Will would let Hannibal take care of him even more; buying him a new car, or moving in together, into a house Hannibal pays the bills for, or even just going back to buying all of Will’s groceries like he has wanted to do for months, now. He doesn’t know what it is, but he wants that a lot. He wants Will to not worry about anything other than being happy. He stores those thoughts away for later, knowing it’s much too soon, and he’s already done a lot as it is.

They make it back to Hannibal’s house just before eight with no incident, and the second they’re in the house, Will cannot stop talking about his day. Hannibal smiles while making dinner for them both and Beverly, just in case she’s hungry.

“I suggested the Chesapeake Ripper might be a magician… or at least interested in that shit,” Will says, taking a sip of wine. He looks beautiful standing across the island from Hannibal. His eyes are alight, his mouth in a wide grin. 

Hannibal tries not to make the face Will says he makes so often, and instead offers an amused smile. 

“Why would you think that?” Hannibal asks, trying to keep his tone light. He has nothing against those who channel their creativity through magic tricks and illusions, but it’s not for him, and his art is more sophisticated than that.

“I was just thinking about how they pretend to cut people in half, and they pull flowers out of things,” Will shrugs. “No one else has anything useful, just giving them what I can, you know? Anything helps at this point.”

“I would have to agree,” Hannibal says, quite reluctantly. 

He knows he needs to seem interested, and helpful in the investigation, but not in a while that would implicate himself in any way. Not even subtly, especially not to Will. Hannibal has been on edge enough thinking that Will is putting pieces together. 

He is thankfully saved from continuing the conversation when the doorbell rings. He watches as Will runs out of the room to the front door. He can’t help the smile that forms as he thinks about how much Will’s mood has shifted since he woke up yesterday morning.

Chapter 23

Notes:

This chapter ended up being over 12k words so I split it. I'll have the second part up in a day or two, but make sure you comment on this! Let me know what you think.

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Will’s jaw drops open when he opens the front door to see Beverly standing there. 

A baby carrier car seat in each hand, her eyes and body completely exhausted, but a smile on her face. 

“Holy shit,” Will says. “Holy shit! Come in, come in.”

Will steps out of the way, then takes both baby carriers from her, then notices the bag over her shoulder. 

“Hannibal!” Will calls out. 

Hannibal appears a second later, but his movements are hesitant. 

“Take her bag,” Will says. “And her jacket. Oh my god.”

Will knows he is properly freaking out now, a million questions going through his mind. He heads off toward the kitchen while Hannibal does as he’s asked, and sets both carriers on the kitchen counter. 

“Beverly, what is going on?” Will asks when she comes in. 

“A lot,” Beverly sighs. She flops down into the armchair in the corner of the kitchen, and her body deflates even more. “My sister gave birth.”

“And now?” Will prompts. 

“She, ah,” Beverly takes a breath, and wipes tears from her eyes. “Died.”

“Shit, Bev,” Will breathes. 

He sits down on the arm of the chair and pulls her into his side. He looks up and sees Hannibal looking at both babies, a fond look on his face. 

“The dad was never involved, so they’re mine now,” Beverly says. “She always told me if she ever had kids and something happened to her, they’d be mine but… I didn’t think it would actually happen.”

“So these infants are only a few days old,” Hannibal says, looking over at them.

Beverly nods. 

“You must be exhausted,” Hannibal says. Will doesn’t think he has ever heard him sound so sympathetic before. “I’m terribly sorry for your loss. If you need us to ever take them for a night, so you may get some sleep, please do let us know.”

“And if you need anything at all, just tell us. You know we’d do anything for you,” Will says. 

“I did want to talk to you about something,” Beverly says hesitantly. “It’s a lot, and feel free to say no, or sleep on it, or think about it as long as you need to, but… You know how risky the job I do is. Anything’s possible, and I need to put plans in place sooner rather than later. If anything happens to me-”

“Yes, Beverly,” Will says, cutting her off. “One hundred percent, yes.” 

Beverly lets out a sigh of relief. “It’s just, you know, with my sister… It's just a reminder about mortality. And I don’t think I trust anyone like I trust the both of you, and if anyone could step up in the very off chance something happens to me, I know it would be you.”

Will feels tears in his eyes and doesn’t know what to say. He looks up at Hannibal and sees him making faces at the babies and in that moment he wants to get down on his knee and propose to him, but he bites his tongue. 

“What are their names?” Hannibal asks. 

Beverly stands and walks over. He points at one, the one dressed in blue, and says, “This is Mischa,” then points at the one in pink, and says, “This is Lucy.”

“May I?” Hannibal asks, gesturing to pick up Mischa. 

“Yeah, yeah, of course,” Beverly nods.

Hannibal picks up the baby boy and holds him close to his chest, smiling down at him. Will’s heart melts entirely, and he pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal’s cheek.

“Will? Did you want to hold Lucy?” Beverly asks. 

Will swallows and nods, then picks up the tiny baby girl. She’s sleeping soundly in his arms, and Will can’t stop the tears from falling from his eyes. He’s never wanted to be a dad as much as he does at this moment.

“So this is why you asked for names,” Will says. 

“Yeah, I hope you don’t mind,” Beverly says. “I was kind of panicking. I wanted to get them home, and I figured I shouldn’t wait to name them, and I have never really thought of it.”

“I don’t mind,” Hannibal murmurs. “They’re wonderful.”

“Aren’t they? They cry a lot. And I haven’t slept at all in days, with finding out about my sister, and rushing to the hospital, and bringing home two kids last night, but fuck, I do love them,” Beverly says. 

“What’s your plan for childcare?” Will asks. “How long are you off work?”

“I haven’t figured it out yet, but a few weeks,” Beverly says.

“Abigail would watch them, I’m sure,” Will says. “Any time.”

“I could take them with me to my office if you ever need,” Hannibal offers. “I do not believe they would understand anything my patients say.”

“Thank you guys. So much,” Beverly says. 

“Are you hungry?” Will asks. 

“Starving,” Beverly groans. 

“Dinner is in the oven,” Hannibal says. He rocks the baby gently in his arms, looking down at him while he speaks. “About fifteen more minutes.”

Will sets Lucy back down in her carrier, feeling a bit overwhelmed by everything going on. 

“I’ll be right back,” he mumbles, and walks out of the room. He leans against the wall in the hallway and takes a deep breath, then slides down to sit on the floor. 

He doesn’t get much time before Beverly is sitting on the floor next to him, setting a hand on his knee. 

“You okay?” she asks. 

“I should be asking you that,” Will mumbles.

“Well, I’m asking you, so how about you answer, and then you can ask me after?” 

Will sighs. “It’s been a weird couple of days for me. Ripper scene yesterday, then worrying about you, and Freddie Lounds saw me and Hannibal kissing yesterday, and got a picture and now you have kids.” 

“Okay,” Beverly says. “That’s… Freddie Lounds?”

“Yeah. Hannibal got her memory card, but that won’t stop her from writing an article or telling Jack,” Will whispers. “I’m scared.”

“Did Hannibal talk to her?”

“Yeah, I got in my car while he talked to her in the lot,” Will nods. 

“Then trust he probably paid her off,” Beverly laughs quietly. “So, at this moment, what has you sitting on the floor in the hall?” 

“Seeing Hannibal with Mischa,” Will admits. 

“Ah, seeing your boyfriend doing absolutely amazing with a baby?” Beverly asks. 

Will nods. “We talked briefly about kids, but nothing was conclusive, really. He said he’s never found someone he’d ever think about having kids with before.”

“Until you, I’m guessing?”

“Until me. And seeing him with the baby made it so real,” Will whispers. “I’m terrified of things being too real. I haven’t even told him I love him. It never feels like the right moment, you know?” 

“You’ll get there,” Beverly says. She rests her head on his shoulder. “You’ll know the exact moment when it comes.”

“Yeah, I know,” Will says. “How are you?”

“I’m sad, and tired. I’m sorry I didn’t call again yesterday,” she says. 

“Hey, no, it’s okay. Really,” Will assures her. “You’ve been busy.”

“Do you think Hannibal would accept me as a patient? I think it might be good for me. Just a few sessions.” 

“You know he would.”

“It’s not a conflict of interest, or anything?” 

“Bev,” Will laughs. “I sleep with him more nights than I don’t, and I still go to his office for therapy. You’ll likely get better therapy than I do.”

“Yeah you’re right.”

“Does he know we’re sitting here right now?” Will asks. 

“We heard you slide down against the wall,” Beverly whispers. 

“Right,” Will sighs. He stands and offers a hand to Beverly to pull her up. He pulls her right into a hug and holds her tight. “I’m serious. Anything you need at all, we’re both here for you. Me, especially. If you need a sitter, or diapers, or groceries, or just to hang out. Call me any time.” 

“I know, Will. Thank you.” 

They go back into the kitchen to find Hannibal putting food on three plates. 

“What would you like to drink, Beverly?” Hannibal asks. 

“Just water is fine, thank you,” Beverly says. 

“I’ll get it,” Will says. 

Beverly carries both baby carriers into the dining room, while Hannibal carries all three plates. Will grabs both his and Hannibal’s empty wine glasses in one hand, tucks the bottle under his arm, and carries Beverly’s water with the other hand. 

They all sit down to eat, and after a few minutes, Lucy starts to fuss in her carrier. 

Before Beverly can stand up to pick her up, Will shoots out of his chair and goes to the end of the table they were both set on. He picks the crying baby up in his arms and holds her, gently bouncing until she settles down again. 

“Is she hungry?” Will asks. 

“Not yet. She just wanted to be held,” Beverly says. “I’ll feed them both after dinner.” 

Will is about to set her back down when she gets fussy again, so he brings her back to his chest and holds her there. He can eat later, he decides. 

He looks over to see Hannibal looking at him with all the fondness in the world on his face. Will ducks his head and turns, hiding the smile and blush rising on his own face. 

Hannibal finishes eating and stands, offering his arms out to take Lucy from Will. Very reluctantly, Will passes her over, and takes his own seat again, finishing his dinner while Beverly gets bottles ready. 

Seeing Hannibal with them, being so gentle, makes it even easier for Will to forget who he is. And Will realizes that Hannibal is still who he has always been. Finding out he is the Chesapeake Ripper changes nothing. Because Hannibal is still caring and loving. Still kind and gentle. 

As bad an idea as it would be for a serial killer to have children, Will can’t help but want them with Hannibal. Not now, not any time soon. But one day. 

He can’t help but feel like Hannibal would be the best father in the world. Will feels like he wouldn’t be great himself, unsure what to do or how to parent, but with someone like Hannibal by his side, he thinks he could do it. He thinks he could be better than his own father was, could learn from the mistakes his own dad made, and learn from the way Hannibal is naturally good at taking care of those he loves. 

Will can tell Hannibal already loves these kids, only an hour after finding out they exist. 

Beverly comes back into the room, distracting Will from his thoughts. She hands a bottle to Hannibal, then picks up Mischa herself. Will looks back down at his own plate while they both feed the babies next to each other. 

“They like you guys,” Beverly says. They’ve retired into the living room, Hannibal holding Mischa, and Will holding Lucy. They sit side by side on the couch, slightly leaning into each other. Beverly sits in one of the armchairs near the fire. 

Will just smiles, and he can see Hannibal’s out of the corner of his eye. 

“It’s getting late. Did you want to stay in a guest room tonight?” Hannibal asks. “Will and I would be happy to get up for their feedings during the night.”

“Oh, no,” Beverly says, shaking her head. “I can’t ask you guys to do that.”

“I’m guessing you have their bassinets in the car, though,” Will says. 

“Yeah, I have two at home, and two in the car,” Beverly sighs. “Just in case.” 

“Bring them in,” Hannibal says. “Will and I don’t sleep much, anyway.” 

“It’s true, we have terrible sleeping habits,” Will says. “You need some sleep, we can handle it.” 

Will knows he’s getting absolutely no sleep this week. Might as well be helpful while he is awake. 

Beverly goes outside and brings in two travel bassinets. 

Hannibal stands from the couch immediately and says, “This way.”

Will stands carefully, not wanting to jostle the baby sleeping in his arms, and follows them both up to Hannibal’s bedroom. Hannibal is setting up both bassinets on his own side of the bed while Beverly holds Mischa. Will sets Lucy down, and Hannibal takes Mischa back from Beverly.

“Will you show Beverly to a guest room, love?” Hannibal asks without even looking at Will. 

“Sure, babe,” Will mumbles. 

He takes Beverly down the hall to one of the guest bedrooms, finds her a toothbrush in the cabinet, then runs back to Hannibal’s room to grab her pajamas to wear. 

Hannibal is sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at each baby side by side. Will leans against the doorframe for a minute, watching Hannibal from behind. 

“You can’t steal Beverly’s kids,” Will says after a second.

Hannibal turns to look at Will with a faint smile on his face, then turns back to the babies. 

Will gets a pair of pajama pants for Beverly from his own drawer, and one of Hannibal’s sweaters, then takes them back to the guest room. 

“No Abigail tonight?” Beverly asks. 

“She’s with the dogs,” Will says. 

He sits down on the edge of the bed, while Beverly brushes her teeth and changes in the bathroom. 

“Hannibal is going to steal the babies,” Will says when she comes out. 

“Yeah, I can tell.”

“You don’t seem bothered,” Will laughs. 

Beverly flops down on the bed. “I have no idea how to be a mother, so if he wants them, they are his.”

“Not yet, I don’t think,” Will says, laying down next to her. “We will watch them whenever you need, but I think we’ll wait a bit before we get our own.”

“He’s good with kids, I can tell,” Beverly says, turning on her side to face Will. “Fuck, Will. How am I going to do this? I have a job with the FBI, I’m constantly travelling, I have crime scene photos scattered across my house more often than not.”

“You’ll be a great mom, Bev. Other people in the FBI have kids and they do just fine. And you’re not alone, either. Me, Hannibal, Abigail. Heck even Winston could watch them,” Will laughs. “You’ll never be alone.”

“Thanks, Will,” Beverly smiles. “Now get out of here and let me sleep.”

Will laughs and gets out of the bed. 

He finds Hannibal laying in bed on his back with one of the babies laying on his chest. Will goes right into the bathroom after grabbing a sweater from the laundry basket. He changes into it, drops his own shirt and jeans into the basket on the way out, then crawls into bed next to Hannibal.

“Put him down,” Will whispers. 

“I don’t want to,” Hannibal whispers back. 

Will kisses his shoulder, and pulls the blanket up over his own shoulders. 

Hannibal sighs, and puts Mischa back, and gets under the blankets, resting his head on Will’s shoulder. 

Will falls asleep with Hannibal wrapped around him and when he wakes up to a crying baby not too long after, Hannibal pushes him back to the bed with a hand on his chest. 

“I’ve got it,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will on the forehead, then gets out of bed and takes care of both babies while Will goes back to sleep. 

The same thing happens several more times through the night.

“I can do it,” Will murmurs the third time Hannibal gets up.

“No, you can sleep,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will keeps trying to get up, but Hannibal pushes him back down, a firm hand until Will surrenders and lays back down. 

He wakes to his alarm in the morning, and gets out of bed, realizing both babies and bassinets are gone, and Hannibal is already in the shower. 

“You’re up early,” Will mumbles, stepping in behind Hannibal. 

Hannibal turns and kisses him. “Beverly woke up, and took them home already. I figured I may as well get up.”

“Don’t seem so sad. You’ll be the first person she calls next time she needs a sitter,” Will says. He turns steps around Hannibal so he can be directly under the hot spray of the water. He doesn’t face Hannibal when he says, “I think I want to be a dad one day.” 

Hannibal kisses his shoulder, and Will can feel him smiling against his skin. 

They get dressed and Will decides he has enough time for breakfast before he leaves, so Hannibal cooks. 

“Why didn’t you want me getting up for the feedings?” Will asks. 

“I wanted you to sleep,” Hannibal says, putting a plate down in front of him, and kissing his head, just like he always does. He sits down across from Will at the dining room table. “You haven’t been.”

“I know I haven’t been,” Will sighs. “I think I need to sleep alone for a couple of nights, but I’ll stay over after our appointment on Thursday night, okay?”

Hannibal nods. “And this weekend?”

“The opera’s on Saturday, right? I’ll stay Saturday night.”

Will eats a bit, then checks his phone, and realizes he’s running late. He stands, and goes to take his plate to the kitchen, but Hannibal stops him. 

“I’ll take care of it,” he says. He kisses Will just once and Will turns to leave. 

Will goes through the day, knowing it’s only a matter of time before Hannibal drops the next Ripper victim. He goes down to the lab, alters everyone’s view of the Ripper just slightly from what they currently see. 

He knew it was only a matter of time, but he finds it to be quite rude that Hannibal drops two bodies on Tuesday night, while Will is tossing and turning in bed wishing he didn’t decide to sleep alone. He goes to each scene on Wednesday, one Ripper, and one that is clearly Hannibal trying to be the organ harvester from last week.

Another body is found Thursday morning, another Ripper kill. Will doesn’t go to that scene, telling Jack he really can’t cancel lectures this often, this early into the new term. 

He picks up his tuxedo before going to Hannibal’s office for their scheduled appointment, and he’s glad to see there’s only one. Although, he supposes there’s likely six more on the way, or already stored in Hannibal’s closet, and this one was just to throw Will off of the scent of those. 

Will walks into Hannibal’s office, kisses Hannibal on the corner of the mouth, then lets him take his jacket. 

“I have not slept in two days,” Will starts, walking straight to the window to watch snow fall lightly outside. 

Hannibal settles down into his desk chair and picks up a pencil just as Will turns to look at him when he doesn’t respond. 

“I don’t think it has anything to do with us sleeping apart, by the way,” Will says, turning back to the window. “I didn’t sleep Sunday or Monday night much either.”

“You didn’t,” Hannibal agrees. “Come over here.”

Will walks over and sits on the edge of Hannibal’s desk.

“Why do you think you haven’t been sleeping?” Hannibal asks, looking up at him. 

Will stands again and paces just in front of Hannibal’s desk. 

“Stress,” Will answers simply. Not at all untrue. “The Ripper is back, this organ harvester is dropping bodies. Beverly has kids now. Freddie Lounds could tell someone what she saw. At least we’re doing fine right now.”

“I would say we are doing more than fine,” Hannibal says. “Shall we talk about the Ripper? Jack said you turned down coming to the scene today.”

“Yeah, I can’t really keep cancelling classes, can I?” Will mutters. He decides to press some buttons, see if Hannibal comes clean about anything, or gets defensive. “I think we’re all wrong about him.”

Hannibal just raises an eyebrow and waits. 

“He’s just some guy. Flies under the radar because no one really cares about him, you know? I’m sure he spends time online, or in libraries, just trying to seem more cultured than he is by doing research about art and literature,” Will says. “Like I said the other day, he could be a fucking magician, for all we know. Although, the medical training is likely real.”

Hannibal just nods and looks back down to his drawing. 

“No insight on any of that?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head, and Will just keeps pacing, hands over his face. He needs something from Hannibal, anything. He needs Hannibal to say his own ideas are plausible, to approve of them so Will knows he’s going in a good direction leading them away from Hannibal. Or he needs Hannibal to come clean and tell him exactly how to rework the profile. Instead Will is being given nothing. Before he can stop these thoughts from growing, his breathing becomes uneven, his heart rate quickening.

“God, I’m losing it, I think,” Will says, shaking his hands out at his sides to try and get some of whatever is going on out of his body. 

“You aren’t losing it,” Hannibal says, looking up and meeting Will’s eyes again. “Tell me why you think you are losing it.”

“I have no grip on anything right now,” Will admits. “I’m confused about everything, really. The only thing that makes sense is when you’re holding me and I don’t need to think about anything else.”

“Would you like me to hold you now?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head and walks away, laying on the blue velvet couch against the wall. He tries to control his breathing, staring at the ceiling above him— the loft that he suddenly wants to climb up to, but instead he forces himself to stay where he is. 

“That goes against our office professionalism agreement, doesn’t it?” Will asks. He puts his feet up on the opposite arm rest from his head, and turns his face to watch Hannibal’s reaction. 

He doesn’t make the face he normally makes when he’s annoyed, so that is a good sign. 

“Sweetheart, come here,” Hannibal sighs, holding a hand out in Will’s direction.

“Terms of endearment surely go against that agreement, Doctor Lecter,” Will counters. He doesn’t know why he’s resisting Hannibal when all he wants is to walk over and drape himself across Hannibal’s lap. Wrap his arms around Hannibal’s neck while Hannibal’s arms wrap around his waist. He wants to bury his face into Hannibal’s neck and smell nothing but him, see nothing but him. Feel nothing but him. 

“Will.”

Will shakes his head, but stands anyway. Instead of going to Hannibal, he goes and sits in one of the armchairs. 

Hannibal stands from his desk chair and sits in the armchair across from Will, crossing his legs and resting his hands on his knee. 

“What did you say to Freddie Lounds after I got in my car?” Will asks after a minute. 

“I’m surprised you didn’t ask me that sooner,” Hannibal says. 

“I didn’t really talk much at all that night,” Will shrugs. “It never felt like the time to bring it up any time after that, but now we’re here, and that’s what’s on my mind.”

“I told her if she tells anyone I would ensure her career would end,” Hannibal says simply. “I also wrote her a check.”

“Did you?” Will asks, not at all surprised. “How much?” 

“It’s not important,” Hannibal says. “Tell me why you looked so distressed in your car. Did you not believe I could handle it?”

“No, it wasn’t that,” Will says. “I felt unmoored, and I honestly still do. I will often turn to Beverly for things I don’t want to talk to you about, but I couldn’t get a hold of her. I ended up calling Jack instead, and he had to point out that he felt I was losing it, as if I didn’t already know. That wasn’t very helpful, but,” Will shrugs. “He was just looking out for me. I can’t blame him.”

“You’re lucky to have such a strong support system,” Hannibal says, his tone disinterested, his words and meaning somewhat distant. Instead he goes right into something else, with much more interest. He asks, “What was it you didn’t want to talk to me about and felt Beverly would be the other option?” 

Will wonders if Hannibal’s patients get met with that disinterest when they speak about their problems, only to gain interest when the conversation has something to do with him. Will isn't usually met with this, but he knows it has more to do with their setting. At home, Hannibal would be much quicker to reassure him that he can talk about anything to Hannibal, rather than jump right into asking what it was, or say something so absently. 

“Nothing, really,” Will decides to say. Then, he changes his mind, and adds, “I just felt a bit ignored by you on Sunday, I guess. I was really worried about Bev, and you just weren’t. I decided to call her instead of bothering you with how neurotic I was being, then when she didn’t answer, I called Jack to see if he knew why she wasn’t answering.”

“Will, come here, please,” Hannibal says, instead of addressing anything he just heard.

“Why don’t you come here?” Will asks. Challenging him. 

Except it’s not really a challenge because Hannibal stands up without another word and crosses the short distance between their chairs. He raises an eyebrow at Will, likely giving him a chance to take it back, then sits down across Will’s lap when there’s no more opposition. 

“You do this with all your patients?” Will asks, wrapping his arms around Hannibal’s waist, feeling the weight of Hannibal’s body pressing into his thighs. He doesn’t think he has ever had Hannibal in this position— it’s normally the other way around— but he enjoys it. The safe, warm feeling, the comfort in knowing Will doesn’t have to do anything but sit there and let Hannibal rest his head on his shoulder. 

“Just you,” Hannibal murmurs. Will can feel his smile against his shoulder, then a light kiss. “I apologize that you have felt neglected by me. It has never been my intention.”

“It’s fine,” Will whispers. “You tried your best, especially when you got to my house. You asked, but I wasn’t in the mood to talk. I expected you to read my mind, and that’s on me.” 

“Still,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will’s neck, bares his teeth to bite lightly. Will grabs him by the hair on the back of his head and pulls him away before he can even think about making a mark.

“Everyone knows I’m with you tonight,” Will says. 

“Only for an hour. Surely you would have had enough time to let someone else bite into your skin who they could blame marks on,” Hannibal responds.

Will shakes his head. “Still. I’d rather you didn’t right now.”

He feels too unstable right now to worry about anything. He would rather sit here with Hannibal on him for the rest of the hour, just as they are. He doesn’t want to kiss Hannibal right now, would prefer if Hannibal didn’t bite into his neck. Doesn’t want anything that could lead to anything else. Just the simplicity of being together; no other expectations of Will, no need for Will to reciprocate anything physically. He doesn’t even want to talk now. 

“Tell me about your week,” Will finally decides to say. 

He rests his head back against the backrest of the chair, and looks up at Hannibal’s face. 


Hannibal thinks for a second, going through any information about his week he could share with Will. He thinks about his kills this week, how he has already closed off a Ripper sounder in such a short amount of time. How he has killed one person attributed to the organ harvester the FBI has been looking for. He knows after the man is caught, he might have alibis for the nights Hannibal drops bodies, but he is mostly just doing it to keep things interesting this week. 

Of course, he can’t tell Will any of that. He can’t really discuss any of his patients, either. There’s not much else to say. 

“I will admit I haven’t been sleeping well, either,” Hannibal says finally. It’s not a lie whatsoever. His lack of sleep is entirely by choice, but it’s still a lack of sleep. “I believe it’s because I’ve missed you, and I’ve been concerned since Sunday.”

Will hums in response, and Hannibal understands now that Will doesn’t want to talk about himself, and likely doesn’t want to talk at all. So Hannibal rests his head back down on Will’s shoulder, finds one of his hands and laces their fingers together, letting their conjoined hands rest on his thigh. 

“I’ve talked to Beverly a few times in the last two days,” Hannibal says after a second. He nuzzles his face into Will’s neck gently, then continues, “She said she wants to start having sessions with me, which she said she mentioned to you already. I told her I would be happy to see her free of charge.”

Will doesn’t respond, but then Hannibal didn’t expect him to. 

So, Hannibal just keeps talking. He tells Will about the dinners he has shared with Abigail, tells him about how he’s going back to taking more patients, seeing as his presence isn’t always required at crime scenes, tells him how Jack called this morning, then called him back two minutes later to say ‘never mind’ because Will was not going.

“We’ll most definitely be seeing Franklyn at the opera this weekend,” Hannibal says, remembering his conversation with the man earlier. He’ll be attending with his friend Tobias, whom he claims to have told a lot of good things about Hannibal to. Franklyn’s obsession is becoming somewhat inconvenient, but Hannibal doesn’t currently have a plan of action against him, so he will let it proceed. 

Will speaks up, then, “We’re going to be a couple at the opera, right?”

He sounds tired, somewhat defeated. Hannibal understands that Will’s mind has been running him ragged the last few days, but he can’t quite pinpoint the reason for Will’s current instability. It doesn’t seem as though it’s entirely true that he’s spiralling because of Freddie Lounds, or because he is still worried about Beverly. He knows Will is definitely not worried about Beverly in the same way, and Freddie Lounds has never been this big of an issue. The amount of cases he’s on is no more than usual, either. 

It has to be something else, but Hannibal really can’t see what. Will’s question now makes a few things fall into place, and he needs to be careful about how he answers, to let Will know that it’s entirely his choice; whatever he’s more comfortable with. He pulls his head away from Will’s neck to look at him. His eyes are shut, his head back against the chair. His jaw clenches and unclenches, but there’s no other discomfort in his posture.

“If you are hesitant about us being a couple in public, then no,” Hannibal says softly. “But I would prefer we allow ourselves one night of being ourselves in public. We don’t get it very often.”

Will nods, but doesn’t open his eyes, or sit up. He mumbles, “Want everyone to know you’re mine.”

“Are you tired, love?” Hannibal asks, ignoring the warmth in his stomach from Will’s words. 

“Exhausted.”

“Would you like to go back to my house?” Hannibal asks. “We can have an early night.”

“Probably shouldn’t drive,” Will mumbles. “I’ll fall asleep behind the wheel.”

Hannibal stands, removing himself out of Will’s lap, then leans down and kisses his forehead. 

“Allow me to get my things, then I will drive us both,” Hannibal whispers. “You can go up to bed, and I can bring Abigail to get your car.”

Will stands with a groan, then stretches. “I'll be fine.”

“If you’re sure,” Hannibal says. 

Will nods. “Are you going to make dinner?”

“I was planning on it, yes,” Hannibal answers. He goes over to his desk to start gathering his things that he needs to take home. 

Will goes over to the coat rack by the door and pulls his jacket on, his movements slow and tired. 

“I’ll meet you at your house,” Will says with a yawn. 

Hannibal nods at him, then continues getting ready to leave for the night, watching as Will walks out the door and shuts it gently behind him. 

After gathering his sketchbook, appointment book, and a few patient notebooks he wants to finish up after Will goes to bed, he locks up the office and leaves, going out into the cold winter night. Snow falls lightly, and he sighs when he realizes he needs to wipe off his car. 

He gets into the driver’s seat, and by then he’s sure Will is already at his house, and while he waits for his car to warm up, he checks his phone. There’s a message from Will. 

pick up some lube. wanna fuck ;-)

Hannibal sighs at the crudeness of the message, and he is almost certain there’s lubricant in his bedroom, but Will probably checked before sending the message, so perhaps there isn’t. Even so, if there is some it won’t hurt to buy more, he supposes. He sends Will back a message that says he will, then pulls away from the curb to drive to a nearby drugstore. 

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Will doesn’t even go up to Hannibal’s room when he gets into the house, but he needs something to stall Hannibal for a few extra minutes, and he couldn’t think of anything else to text him. He doesn’t even plan on following through with his request to have sex, as he is really tired, but if it does happen, he won’t complain about it. 

He refused Hannibal’s offer to drive together, and at the time he already knew Abigail was gone, having said she’d check on the dogs tonight, so Hannibal’s plan wouldn’t have worked anyway. No, Will needs to be alone in Hannibal’s house, and he needs more than the few minutes it would take for Hannibal to drive home from the office tonight.

The second he gets inside and has his shoes and coat off, and after he texts Hannibal, he goes into the kitchen and turns on the lights. He looks down at the floor, stomping every couple of feet, looking for a possible trap door. He knows Hannibal was in a secret room on Saturday, and he knows it has to be below them. Under the kitchen would make sense if it’s a work space considering he eats parts of his kills. Will knows all that, and has since very early into their relationship, and now he knows the Chesapeake Ripper is a cannibal which isn’t part of the profile the FBI has on him, but Will certainly isn’t going to add it.

No luck under the floorboards of the kitchen, so Will goes to the pantry. He tries the handle, but it’s locked. The only reason Hannibal would do that is so Abigail won’t drink his wine, but that doesn’t seem likely for Abigail to do, and even if she did, Will doesn’t think Hannibal would care much. He’s hiding something, then. 

Will tries the key on his keyring-- the one to Hannibal’s front door and the one between the garage and the mudroom, and he’s not surprised when it doesn’t work. He pulls out his wallet and slides out the lock picking set he keeps in there. He knows that after he gets the door unlocked, he won’t have much time to spare.

When the pantry door does swing open, he pulls out his phone and calls Hannibal, quickly thinking of a way to stall him even longer. Especially if what he’s looking for isn’t in the pantry and he has to check elsewhere.. 

“Hello, love,” Hannibal answers. Will can hear the smile in his voice, can hear a car door shut, and he knows Hannibal is likely on his way home from the drug store now. 

“Hey, baby, are you still at the store?” Will asks, holding the phone with one hand, and kneeling down on the floor to feel around the wood with his other hand for any cracks.

“I’m just about to leave,” Hannibal answers. “Is everything okay?”

“Yeah, sorry, if you’re already leaving, never mind,” Will says.

“What is it, darling?” Hannibal asks, sounding concerned. 

“Could you get me an energy drink? Monster, or Redbull.”

“I can make coffee when I get home,” Hannibal offers. 

Will makes a disgusted noise, then says, “No I need something that tastes like battery acid and sugar. Just send me a picture of the selection, and I’ll tell you which flavor to get.”

“You won’t sleep at all tonight,” Hannibal sighs. 

Will finds a crack, pounds lightly on the boards near it, and underneath is hollow. He has to stop himself from exclaiming in triumph. 

“I won’t anyway,” Will says. He really needs to push for a few extra minutes if he’s going to find anything interesting in his investigation. “Please? I’ll pay you back.”

“That is not necessary, and you know it,” Hannibal says. “Very well, but I’m going to a different store.”

“Did you get lube?” Will asks. He gently lifts the trap door in the floor, and sets it down even more gently. The opening in the floor has a full staircase leading down, but it’s very dark down there. He doesn’t have a flashlight beside the one on his phone, so he can’t explore until he hangs up the call. 

“I did, but I am fairly certain there was a substantial supply in my bedroom,” Hannibal says. 

Shit. 

“Oh, I didn’t even go upstairs,” Will answers honestly. 

“No?” Hannibal asks. “May I ask why not?”

Will decides he might as well just come up with something, so after a second, he says, “I guess I can ruin the surprise. I thought about a conversation we had a while ago about… uh… your dining room table. Going upstairs to get lube felt like such a chore, so I’m currently waiting for you in the dining room.”

Hannibal hums in response. “And you need an energy drink so desperately that I cannot come home right now?”

“If you want me to get through this, yeah, I need an energy drink,” Will laughs. 

“I suppose I couldn’t convince you to go upstairs and retrieve a condom, could I?” Hannibal asks. 

Will frowns. “We never use condoms.”

“No, but I’d like to minimise the amount of ejaculate on my dining room table if that is where you insist we have sexual intercourse,” Hannibal answers. 

“Less come on the table when we fuck, got it,” Will says, simplifying Hannibal’s words just to annoy him. “But no, I really don’t want to run upstairs.”

“Very well,” Hannibal sighs. “I’m about to drive, so I’m going to hang up now. I’ll send you a picture of the energy drink selection.”

“Thanks baby, see you soon,” Will says, then he hangs up. 

He turns the flash on, then carefully goes down the steps, down into the basement. The air is cooler down there than the rest of the house, and Will feels a shiver rip through him. He doesn’t know if it’s really from the cold, or if it’s because of what he thinks he may find. 

On the way down he considers what he knows. The last sounder is most likely over, but Hannibal has been copying the organ harvester, so he wonders how possible it is for there to be a body in the basement. It doesn’t smell like decay or death down there, likely because of the colder temperature. It smells of disinfectant mostly. 

He doesn’t know what he expects at all. He’s seen countless work spaces for killers; all different. 

When he gets downstairs to the ground, he finds a lightswitch on the wall, and realizes it’s exactly what he should have expected of Hannibal. Perfectly clean and organized, much like his kitchen. Almost everything looks like it could have come right out of an operating room, or a butcher shop. 

Will realizes the hand holding his phone is shaking, and he takes a deep breath before venturing further into the basement. 

The ding of his message tone makes him jump two inches off the floor, his heart rate accelerating to a near dangerous speed. Realizing what it is, he unlocks his phone to pull up his text conversation with Hannibal, looking at the flavors of energy drinks absently, and typing with shaking fingers, tells him to just get the original Monster. 

With the lights on, he no longer needs his phone flashlight, but he doesn’t put his phone back in his pocket yet. He waits about two more minutes, not moving at all, then texts Hannibal again asking to get him a candy bar and a bag of chips, too. Will stands where he is, trying to calm down, to stop the shaking in his hands. 

Careful not to touch anything just in case, he walks through the room, taking in all the tools-- knives, syringes, scalpels. A giant walk-in freezer along one wall. Meat hooks, and operating tables. Pill bottles and shackles. He shuts his eyes and counts to ten, trying to keep himself calm, but the shaking and the feeling of dread persist. 

He wonders if Hannibal will be able to smell his fear lingering down in the basement. If he’ll know Will was down here next time he comes down. Will made sure to shower mainly with Hannibal’s products this morning, and didn't touch the dogs at all, trying to minimize his normal smell. He figures if any of his smell stays, Hannibal will just think it is because they’re starting to merge, both of their lives becoming one, their scents blurring. He hopes that’s how it works. 

I’m making dinner, Will. Hannibal sends back, and only then does Will remember he texted Hannibal again. 

please?  Will texts. Then another message that says, i’ll be hungry in the middle of the night when i’m not sleeping.

Then you should sleep instead of planning not to. Hannibal responds. Then, But yes. I will get you your snacks. Anything else?

no, that’s it. thanks. Will responds, then slides his phone back into his pocket. He bought a few more minutes, but not many, so he has to concentrate. 

What he didn’t realize he knows-- which he really should have, all things considered-- is that Miriam Lass’s body was never found. He didn’t think she would be alive. In Hannibal’s basement. She’s in a cell in Hannibal’s basement. A cot, water, food, and a toilet. Hannibal must come down to give her more food and water every so often. She’s laying on the cot, facing the opposite wall, and Will slowly backs away, knowing if she turns, she will see him. 

When there’s no way she can see him, he turns and nearly starts running. He just manages to shut the lightswitch off before he runs up the steps, careful not to slip on the metal in his socks. He shuts the trapdoor, and shuts off the pantry light, locking the door from the inside before he steps out into the kitchen. 

He leans against the pantry door and takes a deep breath, eyes shut tight. He knows he needs to get a hold of himself before Hannibal gets home, he needs to push himself away from the pantry door, and act like nothing’s wrong. 

After a minute he moves, stumbling toward the armchair in the corner of the dining room, and falls down into it. Just in time for the garage door to open, and shut. 

He tips his head back against the chair, and shuts his eyes, waiting for Hannibal to come in through the mudroom. 

“Hello again, darling,” Hannibal says. 

Will opens his eyes and sits up straight again. 

“Hey, baby,” Will murmurs. 

Hannibal opens one of the bags in his hand and pulls out Will’s drink, extending his hand toward Will to take it. When Will does, Hannibal turns to set the bags on the counter, and turns to look at Will, his arms crossed over his chest, a contemplative look on his face. 

Will gazes back, not breaking eye contact as he sets the can down on the floor next to him without opening it first. He doesn’t even really want it, and he wants to hear what Hannibal has to say anyway. He hopes Hannibal comes to him, pulls him out of the chair, and drags him to the dining room. He wonders if Hannibal picked up condoms, or if he’s going to leave Will for a minute to get one from upstairs. Or even better, throwing his ‘minimal ejaculate on the dining room table’ rule out the window and letting Will fuck him ra—

“We are not having sex tonight,” Hannibal finally says, cutting off Will’s thoughts where they are. “I am going to make dinner, you are going to take a hot bath, and then you are going to bed.”

“I’m not going to be able to sleep,” Will says under his breath. Then, he says, “I’m not hungry. I’m just going upstairs now.” 

“Will, you should eat,” Hannibal says. 

Will stands and shakes his head. He mumbles, “Sorry for making you drive all around town for nothing.”

On his way out the kitchen, Hannibal grabs his wrist and pulls him back, gathering Will into his arms. Will stands there, not letting his own arms embrace Hannibal back. He doesn’t know why, but it feels better to just stand there and let Hannibal do all the work for him. 

“I’m concerned about your mental state,” Hannibal whispers into his short hair. “You’re shaking.”

“Yeah,” Will sighs into Hannibal’s chest, realizing he is, in fact, shaking. “I guess I am.” 

“Tell me what you need.”

Will shrugs, and Hannibal guides him back to the chair, sitting down and pulling Will down into his lap when they get there. Will just curls up and rests his head against Hannibal’s collarbone. He feels childish, unable to take care of himself, but it feels nice to just be held. As fucked as it is, Will feels safe in Hannibal’s arms even though Hannibal is the entire reason he hasn’t been sleeping-- the whole reason why he’s shaking right now, even.

Knowing what is right below them right now doesn’t help at all. He doesn’t even know why he went down there. He knew before finding the trapdoor that Hannibal uses that space as a workshop for his kills. He knew, and yet he still went, and he knew, yet he still feels like he didn’t know. 

It’s all so confusing, and he doesn’t know what to do, or what he wants, or what he needs. He doesn’t know what to say to Hannibal, doesn’t know if he can ever confront him, or if he should just let it go. He wants things to be as they were. He wants to go back to a week ago when he thought Hannibal killed other killers, or to help investigations when they were stuck. 

But it’s not last week, and he’s no longer blind. He knows how much it makes sense now, how he should have seen it during that first sounder of the Ripper’s return. 

“Fuck,” Will sighs without meaning to. He wants to scream if he’s being honest. 

“Hm?” Hannibal questions. He rubs his hand up and down Will’s back, tightens the other arm around Will’s waist. 

“Nothing,” Will says quickly. “Nothing. Just… really tired, but when I close my eyes… I don’t know.”

“Nightmares?” Hannibal asks. 

“No, not nightmares. Just the things I see behind my eyelids, I guess,” Will admits. And now he just has even more to add, knowing now that Miriam Lass is in Hannibal’s basement. Will thinks of the shackles on the wall and wonders just how many people have been held there. The meat hooks, the walk-in freezer. How many corpses-- or parts of corpses-- have utilized the things in Hannibal’s basement? 

Will’s stomach churns thinking about it. He thinks about how often he eats human meat, which is something he just pushed aside when he found out about it, but now he doesn’t know if he can. He doesn’t know. What he does know is that he needs to get to the bathroom, and quickly. 

He pulls himself out of Hannibal’s lap and just barely makes it to the bathroom before he’s throwing up the contents of his stomach. Having not eaten since breakfast, and even then only a small amount, there isn’t much for him to vomit, and it turns into painful dry heaves after a minute. 

Hannibal’s hand was on his back before he even hit the floor, and when Will finally finishes and leans away from the toilet, Hannibal continues to rub his back, sitting just a few inches away. Hannibal flushes the toilet with his other hand, and Will scoots over and sits between Hannibal’s legs, resting against his chest. 

He’s still shaking, even more now than he was before. His mouth tastes awful, but he doesn’t think he can get up, and he doesn’t want Hannibal to leave him, so he ignores it. 

Hannibal holds him close, puts his chin on top of Will’s head, whispers in a soothing tone, words that go right through one ear and out the other, but the sound of Hannibal’s low, purring voice, the feel of his chest quietly rumbling with every word, puts Will at ease just a bit. 

“Okay?” Hannibal asks in his normal tone. 

Will clears his throat. “Yeah.”

“You smell anxious,” Hannibal murmurs.

Will snorts. “You and your fucking nose. I probably smell like vomit.”

Hannibal hums in response, neither affirming, nor denying Will’s claim. He doesn’t bring up WIll’s anxiety again, doesn’t comment on the smell of fear, the way Will can’t stop shaking, either. 

“Let’s get you upstairs. You’ll be more comfortable,” Hannibal says. 

He carefully lifts Will as he stands. So strong. Strength meant to carry corpses. Will feels another wave of nausea at the thought, but he pushes it down, and wraps his arms around Hannibal’s neck, accepting the man’s attempt to carry him up the stairs. 

Will gets set down on the bed very gently, way more gently than Hannibal has ever placed him on a mattress. 

“Mm,” Will moans quietly. He pushes himself back up, despite Hannibal’s attempt to make him lay down. He mutters, “Need to brush my teeth.”

He goes into the bathroom, brushes his teeth, then decides to get into the bath, afterall. Hannibal comes in when Will starts the water, and just leans against the doorframe, watching Will. 

“I should eat something,” Will says, turning to look at Hannibal as he sheds his clothes.

“Something plain,” Hannibal agrees. “Would you like some tea, too?”

Will nods, then steps closer and kisses Hannibal on the cheek. 

“Thanks for being so good to me,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal closes his eyes, seeming to bask in the praise, in Will’s close proximity. Maybe trying to stop himself from kissing Will properly, maybe, or trying not to have a reaction to Will standing fully naked in front of him. 

“Hey, um,” Will says as Hannibal turns to go. 

Hannibal stops and looks at him, an eyebrow raised in question. 

“No meat, okay?” Will says hesitantly. “I’m, uh, I don’t-- I think--”

“No meat,” Hannibal agrees, cutting Will off. He reaches out and cups Will’s cheek. “Has that been bothering you?”

Will shuts his eyes and nods. He takes a deep breath, then answers. “It sunk in? I guess. With the organ harvester, and the Ripper, and all the blood and death I’ve seen this week-- I guess I didn’t really believe you at first, or maybe it didn’t feel real, but now… now after seeing more from other killers taking similar things… it does feel real. I don’t know how I really feel about it, but right now… No cannibalism.” 

Hannibal is just staring at him when Will opens his eyes again. 

“You aren’t mad, are you?” Will asks. 

“No, Will,” Hannibal sighs. “But this is something that has been bothering you, and you didn’t feel like you could tell me. Why?”

Will shrugs. “Because I can’t explain it. Because I don’t know if it really bothers me, or if I’m disgusted that it doesn’t bother me. I don’t want to deal with this confusion right now.”

Hannibal just nods once, and turns away again. “I will bring dinner up. Enjoy your bath.”

Hannibal leaves then, and Will tries to shut off his brain as he sinks into the warm bath water. 


Finally knowing what has Will so bothered, Hannibal lets himself sigh in relief as he walks down to the kitchen. It’s an easy fix, after all. He just won’t feed Will any meat from now on, or until Will decides to let his guilt-- or lack of guilt-- go. Hannibal is sure it’s only a matter of time before Will starts to accept more of Hannibal’s proclivities, and only a slightly longer matter of time before Will begins to participate. Cannibalism, killing for the sake of killing, taunting the FBI, turning kills into art. 

When all of that is accepted, then-- and only then-- Hannibal can reveal that he’s the Ripper. 

He thinks of Will upstairs in the bathtub, all alone. He thinks of how Will wanted to have sex on the dining room table, how Will is feeling more and more comfortable in Hannibal’s home, and life. 

Hannibal cooks white rice for Will, something plain that won’t upset his stomach even more, then heats himself up leftovers from the night before. While the food is cooking, Hannibal makes tea for Will, and carries it upstairs to the bathroom. 

“Darling, don’t fall asleep in the bath,” Hannibal says when he walks in. 

Will opens his eyes and smiles faintly at him when Hannibal sits on the edge of the tub. 

“Feeling better?” Hannibal asks. He hands Will the mug of tea.

Will nods, but not very enthusiastically. 

Hannibal leaves him after kissing his head. 

When Hannibal gets back upstairs, carrying a tray of food, Will is in bed, sitting against the headboard. He has a book in his hand, but he doesn’t appear to actually be reading. In fact, he’s staring off toward the foot of the bed, as if the pattern on the blanket is more interesting than the story. 

“I hope I’m not interrupting your thoughts,” Hannibal says. 

Will’s head jerks toward Hannibal, as if he’s surprised to see the older man, but then he smiles. 

“No, no. Come here,” Will says, setting the book on the nightstand. 

Hannibal circles to his side of the bed and sets the tray down in between them, picking up his own plate first. 

“Eat what you can,” Hannibal says, gesturing toward the bowl of rice, and an assortment of cheese, fruit, and crackers. 

Will eats slowly, but finishes everything Hannibal offered him, and when he finishes, he lays down on his side of the bed and turns toward Hannibal. 

Hannibal caresses his face with one hand, then takes the tray and brings it downstairs. 

When he returns, Will is lying with his eyes closed, though Hannibal isn’t sure if he is actually asleep, or just lost in thought again. Hannibal goes into the bathroom and goes through his nightly routine, then strips down to his underwear. 

He shuts off all the lights, and while it’s still early, he doesn’t mind. Especially not when Will moves closer and wraps his body around Hannibal’s, slotting their bare legs together, pressing themselves chest to chest. Hannibal barely sleeps, with Will constantly moving, making noises of discomfort, trying to move closer, then rolling over and moving away, just to move closer again. 

“How can I help you fall asleep?” Hannibal asks after several hours of this. He knows he sounds annoyed, even if he tries to hide it. 

“Suck my dick,” Will groans, more irritated than Hannibal has ever heard him.

And Hannibal knows it’s not a literal request, but rather a request telling him to shut up. Still, he says, “If you want.”

“It’s a saying, Hannibal,” Will mumbles. “It means to fuck off and shut up. I was nearly asleep.”

“I apologize,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will gets up then, and says, “I’m going to sleep on the couch in the study.”

“Are you upset with me?” Hannibal asks, watching as Will picks up his pillow and steals one of the blankets from the bed. 

“No, I just can’t get comfortable in this bed,” Will sighs. He pulls Hannibal’s robe on over his naked body, then leans down and kisses Hannibal softly on the lips. Hannibal finds himself chasing after Will’s lips when he parts from the kiss, but Will is too quick. 

“Why don’t you sleep in the guest room instead?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head and heads for the door. “Couch is fine. I prefer it.”

“Come back up if you can’t get comfortable down there,” Hannibal says as he watches Will leave the room. Hannibal is disappointed, but he knows not to push Will, or force him to stay if he doesn’t want to. 

Hannibal ends up getting a few hours of sleep, and when he wakes, he’s sad to find that Will has already left for Quantico. A note on the kitchen counter reads:

I’ll see you tomorrow night. I ate breakfast, don’t worry. Thank you for taking care of me last night. Call me tonight if you want. -Will

He sends Will a text just before he leaves the house. 

May I come over tonight?

Will’s response comes while he’s sitting in his office, listening to one of his patients. He checks it as he’s showing her to the door. 

not tonight, sorry. 

Hannibal frowns, but he has to admit he is somewhat relieved. He’ll be taking one more victim tonight, and leaving it to look like one of the organ harvester's. He won’t have to tell Will about it now. 

That night, Hannibal finds his victim, removes half of his intestines, and leaves him in some woods. Hopefully not to be found for a few days, just so Will isn’t dragged away from him at all this weekend. 

In the morning, he wakes up to his phone ringing. 

“Hello?” Hannibal answers. 

“Hey, baby,” Will responds. He sounds well-rested. Much better than he did Thursday night. Hannibal is happy to hear it, but not entirely happy that he feels so much better after being apart, than he did when they were together. 

“Good morning, darling. What time is it?”

“Mm, after eleven. Did I wake you? You don’t usually sleep this late,” Will says. 

“Stayed up late finishing my work for the week, so we’d have the whole weekend together,” Hannibal says. 

Will hums in response. “That’s good. I’m a few minutes away.”

Hannibal sits up straight in bed. “Are you?” 

“Yeah, I wanted to take you out for lunch,” Will says. 

Hannibal hears the garage door open, both over the phone and through the walls of the house. 

“Very well. Come upstairs,” Hannibal says. 

He stays in the bed for a little bit longer, hoping that he can get Will to come lay down with him for a few minutes. Maybe something else, if Will feels up to it. Getting his hopes up just a bit, Hannibal takes off his underwear under the blankets, and tosses them across the room to the laundry basket, just barely missing. 

Will walks in a second later, a garment bag containing his suit in hand, and Hannibal holds a hand out to him, telling him to come over. Will shuts the door behind him, hangs the bag in Hannibal’s closet, then moves over to the bed. 

“Get dressed,” Will says, yanking the blankets off Hannibal’s body, leaving him cold and exposed.

“Surely we have time before lunch,” Hannibal says. 

“Not really,” Will sighs. “We’re meeting Beverly in about twenty minutes.”

Hannibal raises an eyebrow at that. “Does she have the children with her?”

“No. If you’d woken up at your normal time, you’d know Abigail is currently babysitting at Bev’s apartment,” Will says. “So get up. Let’s go.”

Hannibal sighs, long and dramatic. He was hoping to see the babies again, but that isn’t happening. As nice as it will be to see Beverly, Hannibal isn’t as close to her as Will is, and sometimes he feels awkward watching them interact and not being in on some of their jokes. At least if the babies were there, he’d be able to ignore Will and Beverly in favor of holding them. 

He lays there for another second, Will glaring at him with his eyes narrow, a scowl on his face. Finally he gets up and walks directly to his closet. He pulls on the pair of red lace underwear that he wore on Will’s birthday, knowing Will likes them. 

He turns to look at Will, who isn’t paying him any mind. Just sitting in one of the chairs in front of the fireplace, typing something on his phone. 

“Will,” Hannibal says, trying to get his attention before he puts pants on. 

Will’s eyes stay on the screen for another second, before he slowly looks up, as if he’s being torn away from whatever is on his phone.

“Yes?” Will asks, eyes darting down to Hannibal’s groin, then back to his face. He shifts in his seat, then looks back down at his phone. 

“Where are we going for lunch?” Hannibal asks. 

“Applebees again,” Will answers. “And I know you just wanted me to look at your underwear. Don’t think you’re getting laid any time soon.”

“I don’t know what you’re talking about,” Hannibal says. “You aren’t drinking today, are you?”

“No,” Will answers, going back to typing on his phone. 

Hannibal continues to get dressed, wearing one of Will’s tight long sleeve shirts because Will likes him in his things. He pulls a pair of pants on then goes into the bathroom, leaving Will where he sits, completely uninterested in what Hannibal is doing, or wearing. 

When Hannibal comes out of the bathroom, Will stands and goes to him, then gives him a quick kiss. 

“Sorry I’m rushing you, but we should go,” Will whispers, then kisses Hannibal one more time. 

By the time they arrive at the restaurant, Beverly is already seated at a table. Hannibal and Will sit across from her in the booth, and Hannibal puts his arm behind Will’s shoulders, encouraging Will to sit closer, maybe even lean into his side. Will doesn’t at first, but after they order their drinks, he does move closer, and tucks himself under Hannibal’s arm, resting his body against Hannibal’s side. 

“So,” Beverly says, directed at Will. “What did Lecter get you for your birthday?” 

Hannibal looks down in time to see Will’s cheeks go pink. Will picks up his drink and takes a sip, avoiding the question. 

“I bought him underwear,” Hannibal answers for him. “Which he refuses to wear.”

“They’re lace, and I hate the way they feel,” Will mutters. 

“They would be less uncomfortable if you shaved your pubic hair,” Hannibal suggests. “Less likely to snag or sweat.”

Beverly snorts a laugh just as Will chokes on his drink. He sits forward as he coughs, and Hannibal pats Will’s back. 

“Is that why you have hairless balls? Because of your fucking underwear?” Will asks. 

“Partly, yes, Will,” Hannibal answers. “It’s actually quite common for men to shave their pubic region.”

“You guys are cute,” Beverly says, a sly smirk on her face. “But maybe I shouldn’t have asked about the birthday gift.”

“You think?” Will asks. “I need a drink.”

“You said you weren’t--”

Will cuts him off. “I’m not. I'm just saying.”

Will turns and tilts his head up, and Hannibal leans down to peck his lips. They both have fond smiles on their faces, only caring about each other. Beverly doesn’t say anything to ruin their little moment, and for that Hannibal is grateful. He hasn’t had many soft moments with Will in the past week, with Will on edge about various things, and not feeling well, or sleeping at home, or on the couch. Hannibal kisses Will one more time before the waiter comes back to take their food orders, and once the menus are removed from the table, Will rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. 

Hannibal wonders if Will has actually been sleeping, or if he just seemed energetic because of those energy drinks he consumes. He thinks Will could easily fall asleep at the table, and each time his head becomes heavy, Hannibal shakes him awake with a hand on the shoulder, not wanting him to fall asleep at the restaurant.

“How are the infants?” Hannibal asks Beverly. 

“Exhausting,” Beverly sighs. “But if Abigail enjoys babysitting them, and things go well, I think I’ll be able to return to work really soon.”

“That’s great,” Will mumbles.

“Did you sleep last night?” Hannibal asks Will. He kisses the top of Will’s head, and pulls him closer.

“A few hours,” Will says. 

“You haven’t been sleeping?” Beverly asks. 

“I’ve been sleeping enough,” Will says defensively. “What about you?”

“I have two newborns at home. No, I’m not sleeping,” Beverly says. “It helps that I don’t have anywhere to go during the day, though. You pull twelve hour days sometimes.”

“I haven’t been this week,” Will shrugs. “And if you need sleep, just bring them over and we’ll watch them any night. If I’m not at my house, Abigail usually is, but just call and we can take them any night.”

“It’s true,” Hannibal says. “And I can bring them to the office, as I said.”

“I know, guys. Thank you,” Beverly says. 


Will keeps nodding off the entire time they wait for their food, as hard as he tries to stay awake. It’s been a tough couple days of no sleeping, his mind constantly reeling. From Hannibal being the Chesapeake Ripper, to his own thoughts on cannibalism, to Hannibal’s basement and Miriam Lass. Then to Freddie Lounds, and the article she could still write even if she doesn’t have the photo. 

The idea of going back to Hannibal’s house to spend the night doesn’t sit very well with him, but he doesn’t know if Hannibal would want to sleep in Wolf Trap. It’s not that he has anything against Hannibal’s house-- it’s still the same as it has always been-- but he just feels more comfortable at home. In the bed on the ground level with all the dogs and Beatrice nearby. The sound of their breathing, instead of the constant silence of Hannibal’s house. It’s just easier for him to be at ease there. 

When the food comes, Will sits up and it’s easier to stay awake, but his eyes are so heavy it hurts to keep them open. Hannibal keeps his left hand on the back of Will’s neck, his thumb rubbing lightly. It keeps Will’s mind from wandering, keeps him where he is. 

In the car, on the way back to Hannibal’s house, Will rests his head against the window and shuts his eyes. 

“What are you thinking about?” Hannibal asks. 

“Can we stay in Wolf Trap tonight?” Will asks after a pause. 

“Certainly,” Hannibal says. 

“Thanks,” Will whispers. “We can drive my car to the opera tonight, and I’ll bring you home tomorrow.”

“You should rest before tonight,” Hannibal says as he pulls into the garage. 

Will unbuckles his seatbelt and gets out of the car. He takes Hannibal’s advice and goes into the study. He throws himself down on the couch and wraps himself in the blanket draped over the back of it. Hannibal comes in a minute later and sits down on the end where Will’s feet are. He pulls Will’s feet into his lap and picks up a book. Will is asleep before Hannibal even opens it. 

When he wakes to Hannibal gently shaking his shoulder, they both go upstairs to get dressed. Hannibal ties Will’s bowtie for him, even though Will insists he can do it himself. 

They each take a step back and look at each other, and Will momentarily thinks about ripping the tuxedo off Hannibal and fucking him right there, but he pushes those thoughts away in favor of telling Hannibal he looks really good. 

“You look magnificent, darling,” Hannibal responds with a smile. “Everything is comfortable, yes?”

Will moves around a bit, then decides that everything fits him perfectly. He nods and Hannibal grins. 

“Wonderful,” Hannibal whispers. 

He moves forward and places his hands on Will’s hips. They both lean in at the same time for a quick kiss before parting completely and leaving the room together. 

Hannibal stops and knocks on Abigail’s door. 

“Yeah?” She calls out. “Come in.”

Hannibal opens the door, Will standing behind him to peer over his shoulder. Abigail is sitting on his bed cross-legged with her laptop open in front of her. 

“We are leaving now,” Hannibal tells her. “We will be staying at Will’s tonight, so do not worry about the dogs. There’s dinner in the fridge for you to heat up.”

“I’ll leave twenty bucks on the counter if you want to order take out instead,” Will says. 

Hannibal turns and glares at him, but doesn’t say anything. 

“Alright. Bye,” Abigail says. Then with a wink, she adds, “Have fun.”

Hannibal shuts the door again, and ushers Will down the stairs and helps him into a grey wool coat when they get to the mudroom.

“This isn’t mine,” Will frowns. It fits perfectly though.

“No, I purchased it for you to wear on more formal occasions,” Hannibal explains. 

Hannibal wraps a soft black scarf around Will’s neck before putting on his own overcoat. 

They get into Will’s car, Hannibal driving to the theater. They hold hands on the center console, and only part when they get out of the car, rejoining their hands as they walk into the building. 

Hannibal checks both of their coats, then leads Will directly to the bar, which Will is grateful for. Hannibal knows him well, knows how he fares in social situations with a lot of people. 

And there are a lot of people. All dressed to the nines. Their eyes all follow Hannibal and Will, making Will feel somewhat self conscious. 

Will finds a glass of wine in his hand within minutes, and his other hand is being tugged by Hannibal. He’s led to a corner of the lobby, he sips wine and looks around the room. Hannibal removes his hand from Will’s, but places it on the small of his back instead. Will pushes back into the touch.

“People are staring at us,” Will murmurs. 

“Yes. It has been a while since I have brought a date,” Hannibal whispers. “And I do not believe I’ve ever brought one whose appearance outshines mine.”

“Oh, shut up,” Will mutters. 

“I will not. You look wonderful tonight, Will. Without even trying, mind you,” Hannibal whispers into his ear. 

Will spots Hannibal’s patient across the room, standing with another man. Before Will can point him out, Hannibal pulls Will in for a kiss. It lasts longer than most of their kisses in the past week have. Their lips move against each other, and Hannibal’s hand squeezes Will’s hip, pulling their bodies closer together. Even when Hannibal pulls back from Will’s mouth, they stay close, sharing each other’s breath. 

After a second, Will glances back to Hannibal’s patient, and sees him staring at them. 

“Oh, he’s pissed,” Will murmurs. 

“Yes, I thought he would be,” Hannibal smiles. 

“You think he’ll want to talk to us?” Will asks. 

“Most certainly. Afterward, though,” Hannibal answers. 

He leads Will to their seats after that, and Will rests his head against Hannibal’s shoulder while they wait for the show to start. 

Will doesn’t last long before he’s asleep. He jolts awake a few times at different noises, sits up straight each time and acts like he’ll stay awake through the rest. His head always gravitates back to Hannibal’s shoulder, and he nods off again. At intermission Hannibal gets up and comes back with another drink for Will, which he throws back in a few gulps. He’s asleep again within minutes of the next act.

“Shit, sorry,” Will mumbles when the lights come up at the end of the show. 

“You haven’t been sleeping. I don’t blame you,” Hannibal murmurs. He stands and offers a hand to Will, which Will accepts and lets himself be pulled off the comfortable seat. Hannibal speaks again as they’re walking up the aisle and out of the auditorium. “I have a few people I’d like to converse with before we go, if that’s okay.”

“Yeah, it’s fine. Just don’t expect me to be good company,” Will shrugs. 

Hannibal squeezes his hand and turns his head to kiss Will’s cheek. 

“Hannibal, so wonderful to see you again,” a woman says as they stand in the lobby. 

Hannibal smiles. “Mrs Komeda, always a pleasure.”

“And who’s this?” Mrs Komeda asks. “You were at the New Year’s party.”

“Yeah,” Will nods. He extends a hand to shake. “Will Graham.”

“Pleased to meet you again. So you and Hannibal are…” she trails off, leaving the question open.

“I’m Hannibal’s boyfriend,” Will says. He doesn’t get to say it often, if at all, but when he does he feels a surge of warmth spread through his entire body. 

“Is this recent?” she asks. 

“Since October,” Hannibal answers. 

“Oh I just assumed because at the party it didn’t seem like… Oh I suppose it’s none of my business.”

“It’s alright,” Will says. “Our colleagues don’t know we’re in a relationship.” 

“I see. A secret romance,” Mrs Komeda winks. “Well, Hannibal is going to have to have another dinner party without your colleagues to make it up to you, then.”

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. “As soon as inspiration strikes, you’ll have a spot at my table.”

Will sees Franklyn out of the corner of his eye, and wonders how long he’s going to stand there, or if Hannibal is ever going to acknowledge his presence. 

Mrs Komeda is the one who does, saying, “I believe this young man is attempting to get your attention.”

Hannibal turns then and looks at Franklyn, offering a quiet, “Hello.”

“How do you two know each other?” Mrs Komeda asks. 

“Ah, there should be some mystery to my life outside the opera,” Hannibal says. 

Will snorts out a laugh, and tries to cover it up by taking a sip of the champagne Hannibal handed him before they stopped to talk to people. 

“I’m one of his patients,” Franklyn says. He adds, “Just like Will Graham.”

“Not his patient,” Will mutters. 

Then, Franklyn’s friend steps in and redirects the conversation, saying, “Franklyn was more interested in watching you than he was in the performance.”

Will leans closer to Hannibal, then. He wraps his arm around Hannibal’s waist and pulls him close. 

Something about Franklyn’s friend doesn’t sit well with him. The way he holds himself, or perhaps the cold eyes. Will can see and feel the monster inside him. He knows something… Will can’t tell what, but the way he speaks to Hannibal, Will knows he knows something.

“I think we should go,” Will whispers into Hannibal’s ear. Not loud enough for anyone else to hear him. Will feels the need to get out. He needs silence to think, which isn’t something he can have in the crowded building. He adds, quiet but firm, “Now.”

Hannibal nods enough for Will to notice, then excuses them both from the group. They don’t speak the entire way out to the car, but they stay close to each other. Will keeps his arm tight about Hannibal’s waist. Protective and possessive.

Chapter 25

Notes:

Warning: there's a tiiiiny bit of homophobia in this chapter! (Usage of the f slur, and a short discussion about that.) Just figured I'd warn so it doesn't come out of nowhere.

Chapter Text

“You drive,” Will says, walking around the car to the passenger side. “I need to think.”

Hannibal doesn’t entirely understand Will’s abrupt ending to their night, but he can only assume Will was uncomfortable around Franklyn. 

He stands in the cold, looking across the top of the car at Will, for just a second before unlocking the car, and opening his door. Will slides into his seat and slams his own door shut. His movements are frantic and full of stress while he takes off his scarf and loosens his tie. He makes several attempts before he manages to jam the seatbelt into the buckle. 

Hannibal glances over at him, deciding to let him mull over whatever he’s worried about in silence, then puts the key in the ignition. 

About ten minutes into the hour long drive—ten minutes spent watching Will tap his foot restlessly out of the corner of his eye—Will finally speaks. 

“Can we stop for something to eat?”

Hannibal glances at him for a split second before looking back to the road. He has to admit he’s a bit disappointed that Will doesn’t want him to cook, or talk about what has him so bothered tonight. 

“Of course,” Hannibal answers. 

He can see Will nod out of the corner of his eye, then the younger man reaches out and rests his hand on the center console, palm up. Hannibal rests his right hand into Will’s offered left hand and they lace their fingers together. 

“Sorry for making us leave,” Will says after another long stretch of silence. He adds hesitantly, “I had a really bad feeling, but now that I think about it, it might be nothing.”

“Do tell me,” Hannibal says. “Your feelings are rarely nothing.” 

“I felt like Tobias knew something,” Will says, voice soft. Barely audible over the sound of the car’s engine. 

“Perhaps he does,” Hannibal responds, voice indifferent. He doesn’t show Will that he finds this troublesome at all because Will is worried enough as it is. He doesn’t need his love losing any more sleep than he already has. 

“You don’t seem bothered,” Will says. 

“If he knows something, it is likely because he is doing something he shouldn’t be,” Hannibal answers. “I shall keep an eye out. I haven’t been killing, so if he does know something then he has not alerted anyone, nor do I think he will.” 

“I don’t know, Hannibal…” 

Hannibal squeezes his hand gently, reassuring, then says, “It will be perfectly fine, beloved. Now, where did you want to stop for dinner?”

Will gives him directions to a restaurant, then calls and places an order for them to pick up. All the while, Hannibal thinks about what needs to be done about Tobias. 

Naturally he is going to have to kill him. 

He doesn’t mention this to Will, but he keeps it in the back of his mind. He doesn’t know how he’s going to do it yet, or when, but he knows it’s going to happen soon. 

Will takes Hannibal’s credit card when he offers it and goes inside the restaurant to pick up their food when they arrive. Hannibal watches him through the windows, a nervous energy exuding from his boyfriend while he waits in line. 

On top of that anxiety, Hannibal notes the exhausted slump of his shoulders. His darling is barely holding it together these days, and Hannibal feels useless in attempting to help him.  

Hannibal tracks his movements as he pays for their meal and gets handed a bag. As Will turns around to walk out of the restaurant, he’s stopped by a woman who stands much too close, and smiles much too broadly. 

She reaches out and touches the lapel of Will’s new coat, and looks like she’s asking a question, to which Will shrugs and glances out to the car when he answers. The woman’s face drops and she walks away abruptly after saying something that causes Will’s brow to furrow and his mouth to fall into a frown. Hannibal grips the steering wheel tighter, fighting the urge to get out of the car and investigate.

Will, though, recovers quickly, his face going back to the neutral, albeit exhausted expression he’s had most of the night. When he reaches the car, he just slides into the passenger seat, settling the bag of food into his lap, and hands Hannibal his credit card back. 

Hannibal waits for Will to say something before he puts the car in reverse to pull out of the parking spot, but Will doesn’t. 

“Are we leaving?” Will asks when he realizes the car is not moving from its spot. 

“What did that woman say to you?” Hannibal asks. 

“She tried flirting with me,” Will mutters. “Then she tried to see if I’m married by asking if my wife picked out my coat, and when I said my boyfriend gave it to me, she called me a slur and stormed off.”

“That is unacceptable,” Hannibal says. He reaches for his seat belt buckle, ready to get out of the car and confront this lady. 

Will stops him by taking Hannibal’s hand in his own. 

“It’s not the first time I’ve been called a fag, and it’s not the last time I will be, either, Hannibal,” Will says. He brings Hannibal’s hand to his lips, pressing gentle kisses to his knuckles. “You can’t kill everyone who’s been rude to me.”

“I can certainly try.” 

“Not tonight,” Will whispers. Another kiss to Hannibal’s knuckles, then his hand is dropped. Will adds, “Let’s go home, baby.” 

Hannibal surrenders, pulling out of the parking spot and heading toward Will’s house. 

He parks, takes the bag of food from Will to carry himself, but doesn’t get out of the car right away. 

“Would you tell me what exactly she said after you told her about the coat?”

“You’re still on this?” Will groans. “She said ‘should’ve known you were a fag,’ and walked away. I’m not bothered by it.”

“You looked bothered by it,” Hannibal points out. 

“I was surprised,” Will says. “Hannibal, just forget about it, okay? I know you want to be some savior for me, but I don’t need it. I don’t need you to come save me from every little thing. I was doing just fine on my own before you came along.”

Hannibal wants to say that it did not seem that way when he met Will, but he holds his tongue. If Will were doing just fine before Hannibal came along, he likely never would have said yes to Jack asking for help on the Shrike case. He would have told Jack the work is bad for him and that there was no way. It would have stopped Hannibal from even needing to come along at all. So no, Hannibal doesn’t agree with Will, but he will not say a single word about it. 

Will gets out of the car, then, but he waits for Hannibal before going up to the house. Hannibal knows they’re okay, and that he’s not overstepping too far by wanting to see that woman’s demise, as long as Will is still lingering close by. No abrupt exits, and they’re both fine. Hannibal knows he only needs to worry if Will storms off and locks himself in another room, or goes downstairs to sleep on the other bed without asking Hannibal to join him. 

The dogs come rushing out when Hannibal unlocks the door. He hands the keys over to Will, watching as he tosses them onto the table by the door. Will bends down and picks up Beatrice after he shrugs off his coat and throws it over the back of a chair. 

Hannibal picks it up and hangs it on the coat rack with his own, then carries the bag of food over to the coffee table. 

He takes in the room, noticing that in just the last few days, Will has created a bit of a mess. Plates and glasses line the coffee table. Chip bags and pop tart wrappers on the side table next to the couch. Clothes strewn across the entire living room. The bed on the other side of the room isn’t made, towels lining the mattress over the sheets, likely where Will has sweat during his nightmares. 

Hannibal decides not to say anything about it. If he does, Will may feel embarrassed, or he may think Hannibal is about to ambush him. Hannibal isn’t in the mood to do so, knowing either thing may cause Will to retreat further into whatever depression he’s sunk into this time. 

“I’ll be back in a minute,” Will mumbles, and takes the stairs two at a time. 

Hannibal stands again and goes to the door to let the dogs back in when they start whining on the porch. He takes them into the kitchen and fills all of their bowls with the last of the week’s food for them. He spots another batch behind the first, next to several takeout containers that Hannibal can tell need to be thrown out by scent alone. He frowns, knowing Will has been stressed as of late, barely taking care of himself, but Will must have still made the dogs’ food early in anticipation of being gone tonight.

He turns when he hears the floor creak behind him, and Will is standing in the doorway in just a pair of flannel pajama bottoms. His arms are crossed over his bare chest, and he rubs his upper arms with his hands, as if trying to warm himself up. 

Hannibal shuts the fridge and moves toward Will, stopping just a few inches in front of him. He runs his hand through the short hair on the top of Will’s head, tugging lightly with a slight smile. Will closes his eyes and lifts his head, pushing into Hannibal’s touch. Will releases a content sigh as Hannibal moves his hand to cradle Will’s cheek. Will nuzzles his hand, and turns his face just enough to kiss Hannibal’s thumb. Hannibal leans forward to kiss his forehead, and Will’s eyes flutter open when he pulls away. He sways slightly as he stands, his eyes look like they’re fighting to close again. 

“Come eat, sweetheart,” Hannibal murmurs. 

A lazy smile spreads across Will’s face, and instead of turning to leave the kitchen, he throws his arms around Hannibal’s waist, and buries his face in Hannibal’s neck. It takes Hannibal by surprise, and it takes him a second for his brain and body to catch up with Will before he returns the embrace and pulls their bodies even closer together. 

“You’re warm,” Will mumbles against Hannibal’s neck. “‘m freezing.”

“You’re not wearing a shirt,” Hannibal reminds him, rubbing his hands up and down Will’s back, trying to warm him up. 

He starts walking forward, forcing Will to stumble backwards as neither of them release the other. Hannibal walks him toward the couch, and Will lets go of Hannibal so he can sit. 

“I’m going to change. Did you want a shirt?” Hannibal asks. 

Will nods. Hannibal picks up his bag from where he dropped it by the door, and makes it to the stairs, then Will calls out, “One of yours.” 

Hannibal changes into a pair of pajama bottoms, and a sweater, then finds a worn sweater in the bottom of his bag that smells like himself. He brings it downstairs and finds Will laying on the couch with one of the takeout containers balanced on his chest while he eats out of it with a plastic fork. The dogs sit in a semi circle around him, with Beatrice on the arm rest next to his head. He ignores all of them, Hannibal included, as he watches the show on TV. 

Will finally notices Hannibal when he leans over the back of the couch to pick up the container off of Will’s chest, and drops the sweater into its place. 

“Thanks,” Will says around a mouth full of food. He sits up and pulls the sweater over his head, then holds his hand out to take his food back.

Hannibal hands it over, and walks around the couch to sit down next to Will. 

Will lays back, laying back over Hannibal’s thighs, and putting his head back on the armrest. 

“You gonna eat?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head and directs his attention to the TV. After a few minutes, Will sets his empty container down on the coffee table and turns on his side to face Hannibal. He buries his face in Hannibal’s stomach, rubbing his nose against his sweater. Hannibal places a hand on Will’s head and massages his scalp. 

Will makes a content noise and kisses Hannibal’s stomach. Hannibal stays watching TV, his hand resting on Will’s head. Slowly, Will starts to shift and move, and he pulls his legs up and sits up so he’s sitting in Hannibal’s lap. He rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder and nuzzles his neck in a clear attempt to gain attention. 

“Hm?” Hannibal questions. 

Will tilts his face up, and Hannibal looks into his tired eyes, then down to his slightly parted lips. Hannibal pecks his cheek, then tips his head back to rest against the backrest, not wanting to be the one to take things further, with Will as tired as he is. Will shifts until he has his knees on either side of Hannibal’s thighs, and leans forward to claim Hannibal’s lips with his own. 

Hannibal sets his hands on Will’s hips, and debates whether he should pull him closer, or push him away, as Will kisses him lazily. Will moves his lips from Hannibal’s mouth to kiss at his jaw, then his neck. Hannibal feels a light graze of teeth over his throat and he tilts his face further so Will can have better access. A firmer press of teeth, the feeling of Will’s erection against his stomach, and Hannibal comes back to his senses. 

“Darling, not tonight,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will pulls his face away, and looks at Hannibal with a look that could either be disappointment or utter exhaustion, then moves off Hannibal’s lap. He stands up, and gathers the leftovers, and trash from the coffee table, and takes them into the kitchen, leaving Hannibal on the couch. 

Hannibal sighs, and waits for Will to come back. When he does, it’s on quiet feet, and Hannibal doesn’t realize he’s in the room until Will leans over the back of the couch and wraps his arms around Hannibal’s neck. The gesture causes Hannibal to jump a bit, his hands flying up to his neck to try and pull the arm away from his throat. 

It nearly causes Hannibal to fight back before he realizes it’s a hug, and not a threat. Not violence. 

He sets his hand gently on Will’s forearm and rubs it lightly. Will kisses the side of his head, then releases him. 

“Come to bed,” Will whispers. “Is it okay if we sleep down here?”

“Is that wise?” Hannibal asks. He stands up and turns the TV off.

Will is already moving the towels to the laundry basket, and climbing into the bed in the living room, Winston and Beatrice claiming spots in the middle of the bed. Will makes a noise at them and the animals give him a look before getting off the bed entirely. 

“C’mon,” Will says to Hannibal. “Curtains are closed, and if anyone comes here in the morning, I just won’t answer the door. Just please come here.”

Hannibal stands where he is for another second, looking at Will curled up on his side under the blankets, eyes barely open. 

Will lifts the blankets when Hannibal finally walks over to the bed after shutting off the lights. Hannibal gets under them and lays on his back. Will sits up and looms over him in the dark, covering Hannibal with the blanket, leaning over him to make sure it covers him completely. Hannibal can see his hesitation, and realizes he’s been pushing Will away again. 

“Darling,” Hannibal breathes. He opens his arms and Will immediately slumps on top of him, wrapping himself tight around Hannibal. 

“Hannibal?” Will asks into his neck. 

“Yes, love?” 

“I’m worried about what I saw in Tobias tonight,” Will whispers. “Franklyn’s been stalking you, and… what if he has sent Tobias to watch you. What if he saw you doing something?” 

“My dear, I assure you that everything will be just fine,” Hannibal whispers. “Do you trust me?”

Will tenses slightly on top of him, which Hannibal takes as a no, but Will whispers, “Yes.” 

The tension in his body washes away, but Hannibal finds himself wary. 

“Will,” Hannibal says, firm but still gentle enough that Will won’t feel scared. “Don’t lie.” 

“No, it’s just—” Will says quickly. “I trust you, I do. I just feel like you’re disregarding my feelings about this.” 

“I’m attempting to reassure you that anything that Tobias may know will be taken care of as I see fit,” Hannibal says. “He is likely to speak to me first before going to the authorities. Especially if he knows who you are and saw you on my arm tonight.” 

“But how can you know?” 

“If Tobias saw me doing something and did not immediately call the police, then it is likely he sees me as a possible asset,” Hannibal explains. “Darling, we have nothing to worry about tonight. Please get some rest.” 

Will sighs, clearly annoyed, but also in surrender. He rolls over, moving off of Hannibal, then reaches out and pulls Hannibal closer. 

“Hannibal,” Will whispers, tugging on Hannibal to get him even closer.

Hannibal already has his head on Will’s chest, and an arm slung around his stomach. Any closer, and he’ll be on top of Will. 

Will lets out a frustrated groan, and Hannibal realizes that’s exactly what he wants. Hannibal moves over, resting half of his body on top of Will. 

“Better?” Hannibal asks into Will’s neck. 

Will hums an affirmative, and wraps his arms tight around Hannibal’s back. Ensuring there’s nowhere he can go, or move, without Will knowing. 

After some time, Will’s arms around him go slack and it’s clear he’s asleep, but Hannibal doesn’t dare move from where he is. If this is what it takes to get Will to sleep through the night for the first time in over a week, then that’s what Hannibal will do for him. 

Hannibal wakes up for a second to Will pushing him away. Hannibal goes to wrap his arms tighter around Will so he can’t leave, but after taking off his sweater and tossing it across the room, Will lays back down again. He pulls Hannibal to lay back down where he was, half on top of Will, face buried in his neck. 

He wakes in the morning to the dogs barking at the door, but Will is still soundly asleep next to him. They drifted apart while they slept, or Hannibal just rolled off of him, and now Will is curled up on his side facing Hannibal. His mouth hangs open slightly, and his eyes move behind his eyelids. He’s dreaming, but it doesn’t seem unpleasant like it usually is. 

Another bark, and Hannibal is drawn away from his attention to Will. Winston paws at the front door, and Hannibal gets out of bed, ready to let them outside until he hears a knock. 

He freezes where he stands, listening for another to ensure it wasn’t his imagination. Another knock. It’s light but persistent. Smaller hands. Alana, or Beverly, perhaps. If it were Beverly, she would have called one of their cell phones, so it must be Alana. 

A minute later, the sound of high heels on Will’s porch tells him their guest is leaving. 

“Baby?” Will murmurs. 

Hannibal turns to see Will rubbing the sleep from his eyes. 

“Someone was here,” Hannibal says. He goes to the door and opens it, staying behind it so Alana can’t see him, but the dogs can get outside. If Alana sees them and comes back to the door, at least Will is awake now. 

“Are they still out there?” Will asks. 

He gets out of bed and stumbles over to the door, peeking around it. He pushes it closed quickly, and that’s all Hannibal needs to know. He finds himself letting out a quiet chuckle. 

“Alana,” Will sighs, leaning against the back of the door. “She might have seen me. She saw the dogs, that’s for sure.”

Will looks out the window next to the front door and sighs. 

“She’s leaving,” he says.

“Good,” Hannibal says. “Come back to bed.” 

“In a minute,” Will tells him. “Dogs.”

“I will take care of them. It is still very early, darling. Get some more rest.” 

Will goes back to the bed, removing his pants as he does so, so he’s just left in his boxers. Hannibal opens the door for the dogs again when he’s certain Alana is gone, then he feeds them in the kitchen. 

By the time he makes it back to bed, Will is asleep again. Hannibal slides into bed next to him, pressing his front to Will’s back, breathing in the scent at the back of his neck. Unmistakably Will, but there’s the scent of stress mixed with his natural scent. Hannibal already knew that Will has been feeling this way, but even after spending time by Hannibal’s side, it hasn’t subsided like it typically would. 

Hannibal can’t help but feel like he’s the cause, but he doesn’t know which thing he has done that would be the specific cause. Perhaps disregarding Will’s feelings about Tobias. Or perhaps the fact that Will knew Hannibal wanted to rip that woman from the restaurant to shreds for the way she spoke to him. 

Will rolls over, burying his face in Hannibal’s chest. He makes a quiet, sleepy noise and presses himself as close as possible. Hannibal keeps his arms wrapped tight around his beloved, and kisses the top of his head. He knows they’re okay by the way Will continuously seeks him out. Knows they’re okay because Will feels safe falling asleep around him.

They spend most of the day in each other’s close company. Will seems particularly keen on staying as close to Hannibal as possible, and Hannibal won’t deny him that. Hannibal cleans up around Will’s house, does a few loads of laundry, throws out the food in Will’s fridge that is no longer edible. 

Will seems embarrassed that he has let himself get to this point, but Hannibal doesn’t mention it as he cleans. 

He convinces Will to allow him to make him lunch for the week which means taking a trip to the grocery store. Will even lets Hannibal pay for his groceries with minimal protest. 

“Can I stay with you tonight?” Will asks on the way home from the grocery store. 

Hannibal wants to say that Will should stay home and get some rest—that he shouldn’t have to wake up so early in the morning to drive all the way to Quantico from Baltimore. He knows, though, that Will is unlikely to get any sleep at all if he’s alone. He also knows that Will likely already feels like Hannibal is pushing him away, if his clinginess from last night is anything to go by. So he finds himself nodding. 

“Yes, darling. You know you can stay any time,” Hannibal tells him. 

“Good. I just don’t want to drive home after I take you home,” Will says. 

Hannibal knows that isn’t the entire truth. 


Will is miserable in every sense of the word. His mind is warring with itself, his entire body is angry at him for not sleeping well the entire week. He can’t stop thinking about how wrong it is that he hasn’t done anything about Hannibal being the Chesapeake Ripper. He wants to be with Hannibal so badly, but he knows that his morals are in shambles. 

Every time he sees Jack at Quantico he tenses up, thinking Jack is going to read him like a book. Every time he gets a call or a text from anyone he knows from the FBI, he thinks it’s going to be about catching Hannibal. Every knock on his front door, every trainee that comes up to his podium to ask a question, every time he’s called down to the lab. Everything makes him jump, and everything makes him think Hannibal is being taken away from him. 

With Tobias at the opera, and what Will saw lurking behind those vacant eyes, he can’t leave Hannibal for even a few minutes, or else he thinks he’ll walk in on Hannibal being arrested. Every time he closes his eyes, he sees Hannibal on the ground, either thrown onto his stomach, or down on his knees, with guns aimed at every inch of his body. 

They unload the groceries at Will’s house, stocking his fridge and cabinets. Hannibal makes a late lunch for them both, and Will holds one of his hands across the table while they eat. Every time Hannibal attempts to pull away, even just for a second, Will tightens his grip, flashes him a glare. 

Hannibal’s touch is the only thing that keeps Will from spiraling. It’s the only proof he has that Hannibal is real and in front of him. It’s the only proof that Hannibal isn’t being taken away. 

“What if we both called in sick tomorrow?” Will asks as they wash dishes. Needing their hands free while Will washes and Hannibal dries, Will keeps his arm pressed to Hannibal’s. 

Hannibal sets the plate and towel down and turns to face Will. There’s a resigned look on his face, and Will can’t read anything else off of him. He sighs, then turns and picks up the plate again to finish drying it. 

“Tell me what is going through your mind,” Hannibal says after a few seconds of silence. “I am not about to complain, but you have been rather…”

“Clingy?” Will offers when Hannibal trails off. 

“Yes,” Hannibal answers. “I enjoy your company, but you know we cannot call in sick tomorrow. Tell me.”

“I keep thinking I’m going to lose you,” Will murmurs, quietly, not really wanting Hannibal to hear such a vulnerable statement from him. 

“You aren’t going to lose me. Not for any of the reasons your mind conjures up,” Hannibal says. “Never, Will.”

Will stays silent. It’s easier that way, he thinks. Anything he says, he may give away a little more of what he knows, and he doesn’t know how Hannibal would react to that. It’s not something he wants to find out just yet. And everything else he may say, Hannibal will just contradict him, throw his worries aside and act as though he can tell the future, the exact outcome of any of the possibilities Will throws at him. 

It’s infuriating, so he stays silent. 

He finishes washing dishes and as he does so he thinks about last night and how Hannibal denied his advances on the couch. At the time he felt as though he miscalculated immensely, that Hannibal is pushing him away, possibly wishing Will wasn’t so damn needy. Now he thinks maybe that just isn’t true. If Hannibal were pushing him away, he wouldn’t allow him to stay over tonight without trying to make at least one excuse. 

He could tell Hannibal wanted so badly to give in, the way his hands were reluctant to pull away, and his lips were eager to reciprocate Will’s kiss. He decides not to bother asking about it. 

Hannibal takes the plates to put away, and he asks, “What do you think Alana wanted this morning?”

“Fuck if I know,” Will shrugs. He does know. He knows that she has been slowly trying to seduce him—subtle touching, blatant flirting, standing in the back of his classroom to watch his lectures. He doesn’t tell Hannibal about it because he doesn’t want Hannibal to do something stupid. 

He wonders if Hannibal would ever kill Alana. No, Will, he thinks to himself. He knows he can’t indulge those thoughts. Instead he just gives Hannibal a little smile and goes upstairs to pack a bag. He decides to text Abigail.

hey, kid. probably gonna stay at hannibal’s all week if you want to watch the dogs. 

Her response is near instant.

ig, but I’m babysitting all week. Beverly’s going back 2 work tmrw. 

ig?

it means ‘i guess’ how old r u??

Will laughs and leaves her message on read, then slides his phone back into his pocket. 

“Hannibal?” Will calls out. 

Hannibal pops his head around the door frame to the bedroom. 

“Did you know Beverly’s going back to work?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head. “Did she tell you? So soon?”

“Abigail told me,” Will says. “She’s watching the babies. It must have gone well yesterday morning, then.”

“Perhaps you should give Beverly a call, then,” Hannibal suggests. 

“Yeah,” Will agrees. 

He does just that, finding out that Beverly is ready to return to work and help on the organ harvester case. She trusts Abigail enough to watch the kids, even if it is very soon. She mentions the Chesapeake Ripper, and Will doesn’t look up at Hannibal at all during the conversation.

“Yeah, I’ve been throwing out ideas,” Will says into the phone. He looks down at the comforter on the bed where he sits. He picks off a piece of lint and flicks it onto the floor, then smooths out the blanket again. “They all might seem far-fetched, but the more probable ideas haven’t been getting us anywhere.”

“That’s true,” Beverly agrees. “Well, I’ll be back tomorrow to help go over all of the evidence from the last sounder. We’ll see if anything jumps out at us. Did Hannibal have anything good to add?”

Will freezes for a second, then says, “No, not much. Look, I gotta go. I’ll see you tomorrow, though.”

“Take care of yourself, Will. You sound exhausted,” Beverly says, then hangs up. 

Finally, Will looks up at Hannibal standing in the doorway still, leaning casually against the frame. He raises an eyebrow, silently asking about the conversation, but Will shakes his head. Nothing to say about it. 

“Well,” Will says, standing up from the bed. He slings his bag over his shoulder. “I’m ready when you are.”

Hannibal smiles, reaches out for Will. Will steps closer so Hannibal can place a hand on his cheek. He strokes Will’s cheekbone with his thumb, then leans forward to press a kiss to the top of Will’s head. Will pushes his face into the touch on his cheek, then lifts his head to catch Hannibal’s lips in a quick, soft kiss. 

The moment is so gentle and tender that Will can entirely forget who the man standing in front of him really is. In this moment, he isn’t the Chesapeake Ripper, he isn’t Hobbs’s Copycat, he isn’t the copycat of any other killers he has proven himself to be. He’s just Hannibal. He’s just the beautiful, smart, accomplished psychiatrist that Will met in Jack Crawford’s office. He’s just Hannibal Lecter, the man Will calls baby, and holds tight nearly every night. 

Still, reality comes back to Will. It always does. When they pull up to Hannibal’s house just over an hour later, Will remembers what lies beneath. All the secrets that reside under their feet as they walk through the mudroom and into the kitchen. 

It’s a big reason why Will still can’t say those words to Hannibal. Can’t, in good conscience, say I love you even if it’s how he feels. Because he can’t ever take those words back once they’re spoken and he still doesn’t entirely know how he feels about everything or anything. 

Will takes his bag upstairs the moment they make it inside. He leaves Hannibal in the kitchen, leaving his side for the first time all day. When he gets up to Hannibal’s room, he decides to strip off all of his clothes and climb into Hannibal’s large bed, pulling the blankets tight around him. He doesn’t think he wants to sleep. He doesn’t think he wants Hannibal to come upstairs to coax him back out of bed. He doesn’t think he wants to do anything. He doesn’t think because he doesn’t want to think, he just wants to feel safe. 

It only takes Hannibal ten minutes before he comes in search of Will. He looks down at the pile of Will’s clothes on the floor. He doesn’t move them to the basket like he usually does, and instead undresses and gets in bed with him without another word, gathering Will close to his body, holding him in a firm embrace. They lay on their sides, facing each other, holding tight. 

The heat of their bodies, the safety of Hannibal’s strong arms, the press of Hannibal’s lips against his neck, and he’s back to where he was before they left his own house. Back to feeling like Hannibal is the only person for him, back to feeling like there’s no way he would survive if Hannibal were taken away from him. 

“What do you need, darling?” Hannibal whispers, petting the back of Will’s head gently. 

That’s when Will realizes he’s shaking. He doesn’t know why, he doesn’t know when it started. He just knows he needs to stop before Hannibal starts asking questions. 

“I’m okay,” Will murmurs. “I’m alright.” 

Hannibal moves then, maneuvering Will so he’s laying on his back with his legs slightly spread, then situating his own body firmly on top of Will’s in a way that cannot be ignored. Their bodies are pressed from chests to hips, with Hannibal’s legs between Will’s. 

Will feels himself growing aroused, his cock hardening where Hannibal’s own is pressed against it. Hannibal doesn’t move at all, and Will knows he hadn’t meant for this position to be sexual, but Will can’t help but seek friction, pushing his hips up as best as he can. 

Hannibal's teeth graze Will’s neck, a quiet groan coming from his lips as Will rubs against him. They’re pressed so close together—Hannibal weighing Will heavily into the mattress—that it’s not getting Will anywhere. He trails his hands down Hannibal's back, over the curve of his ass, and grips both of Hannibal’s asscheeks, encouraging him to start moving. 

“C’mon,” Will murmurs, turning his face to kiss the side of Hannibal’s head. 

Hannibal nods into his throat and starts to thrust against Will, their cocks rubbing against each other. Hannibal lifts his body enough to get a hand between them, taking them both into his hand, stroking while they both move against each other. 

Will moves his hands back up and wraps his arms around Hannibal’s shoulders and neck, cradling the back of his head where his face is pressed into his neck. 

Their moans filling the air around them, the press of Hannibal’s body against his own, Hannibal’s big hand jerking them both off as they move rhythmically against each other—it’s exactly what Will needs right now. 

Every point of contact, every sound, every breath, every bit of pleasure he feels, it all takes him out of his head again. It allows him to fully forget everything he’s been worried about, if only for a short amount of time. 

All he knows at this moment is that Hannibal is murmuring soft praises into his neck between kisses, and that he feels so good and so loved right now. He feels suffocated in the best way possible, as if he’s drowning in Hannibal. 

“Beautiful, my love,” Hannibal whispers. A kiss to his neck, then, “My Will.” 

Will feels his orgasm approaching and he squeezes his thighs around Hannibal’s hips, then pulls Hannibal’s head up by the hair on the back of his neck. He pulls Hannibal in for a kiss. 

Hannibal’s hand starts to move faster, bringing Will closer and closer until he pulls back from Hannibal’s kiss with a loud moan and comes into Hannibal’s hand, all over his own stomach and chest. Hannibal continues to stroke them both until he’s also coming, then still until it’s too much and Will is nearly whimpering. 

He reaches between them and swats Hannibal’s hand away, watching the smug smile that creeps up on Hannibal’s face before the older man leans in for another kiss. This one quick, a final peck before he starts to get up from the bed. 

“No, come here,” Will whispers, pulling Hannibal back down on top of him. Uncaring of the mess between their stomachs.

“We need to clean up,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I need you here,” Will says, wrapping his arms tight around Hannibal’s back. “Right here.” 

“I’m here,” Hannibal whispers. 

Hannibal rests his weight against Will again, pinning him to the mattress. Will lets out a content sigh and lets himself drift off. 

Some time later, he’s woken by Hannibal wiping him down with a warm, damp cloth. 

Will moans quietly, half in protest for being woken up, half because Hannibal’s touch feels so good. He doesn’t open his eyes when he reaches out for Hannibal, blindly grasping for him to come back to bed. 

He hears Hannibal chuckle quietly, then feels the press of lips against his forehead. Hannibal retreats and Will opens his eyes to see him walking into the bathroom, a pair of pajama pants low on his hips. 

Hannibal returns a second later and gets into bed, straddling Will’s hips. He sets his hands on Will’s chest, picks a piece of fuzz off the blanket separating their bodies. 

“I thought we might go out for dinner,” Hannibal says. 

“What time is it?” Will asks, looking over to the nightstand where he left his glasses and cell phone.

Hannibal reaches over and grabs Will’s glasses for him, as he says, “Just after seven.”

“Alright,” Will agrees. “Where were you thinking?”

They end up going to the same restaurant they saw Franklyn at. The conversation is pleasant, the food is good, and Will ignores the need to clutch onto Hannibal’s hand across the table like he did during lunch. 

At Hannibal’s house, they each take a glass of wine up to bed. Will insists on pouring both of their glasses, not wanting a repeat of the night Hannibal slipped him a drug in his drink. 

Their glasses are abandoned on their nightstands after only a few sips before they’re peeling off the pajamas they put on when they got upstairs. 

Will rolls over onto his stomach after Hannibal prepares him, and Hannibal drapes his body over Will’s back—flattening himself against Will’s body, pressing him down, and wrapping both arms under him to hold his chest tight—after he slides into him. He seems to know that Will needs the feeling of him all over tonight. 

They end up tangled together after Hannibal fucks him, holding each other close as they both try to fall asleep. Will lays his head on Hannibal’s shoulder, tangles his fingers in his chest hair. Hannibal’s breathing evens out after several long minutes. 

“Hannibal?” Will whispers. When there’s no response, he looks up at Hannibal’s face, making sure he’s asleep, and whispers, “I love you.”

He drops his head back to Hannibal’s shoulder and lets sleep take him. Satisfied, warm, safe, loved. 

In the morning, they part ways early with a quick kiss. Hannibal shoves a thermos of coffee and a lunch bag into Will’s hands as he pushes him out the door. Will is already running late as is, but he runs back into the house and kisses Hannibal one more time before he finally leaves. 

He makes it to Quantico just minutes before his class is due to start, and he rushes through the halls to his lecture room. He passes Alana on the way, and she calls out his name. 

“Will, I’ve been meaning to—”

But he cuts her off with, “I’m late! Lunch later?” Not thinking of the lunch bag in his hand, containing one of Hannibal’s meals, nor the thermos of coffee engraved with Hannibal’s initials. Two things she will see and recognise, which he realizes as he walks into his lecture hall. 

He’ll just have to hope she doesn’t deduce anything from it. 

After his first two lectures, he checks his phone to see a picture of Bev’s babies from Abigail, along with a text saying she left the dogs this morning after taking care of them. Luckily, she’s going back to Wolf Trap when she’s done at Beverly’s, so that Will can go directly to Hannibal’s after work. 

The next text is from Hannibal, and Will realizes he never told Hannibal of his plan to stay the week. 

Hello, darling. I hope your morning is pleasant, and I hope you are feeling well. I am aware that you haven’t quite been yourself, and if there’s anything you need from me, please do not hesitate to ask. I can come over tonight if you wish, or you may come to me. I love you.

Will sends a message back, nowhere near as thoughtful and loving as Hannibal’s, but he’s on a schedule, and he needs to start his next lecture in just a few minutes. No time for discussion, no time for a confession of how exactly Hannibal’s message makes him feel (like he’s the most important thing in Hannibal’s world, like he’s cherished and cared about). 

i’m fine, baby. i’ll come over tonight. abigail’s taking care of the dogs. see you later. 

He reaches one more class before he’s able to break for lunch, and of course Alana is in the back of his classroom as he finishes up his last slide. He knows he’s playing a dangerous game because he knows Alana has some sort of feelings for him, but he can’t find it in him to be rude and turn her away. 

He remembers that Hannibal disposes of rude people, and it tends to drive him toward being more approachable and kind to others. 

He answers a few questions from students about due dates, and clarifications on some of his points—something he’s happy to do, especially if it buys him just a bit more time to think of a lie about why he has Hannibal’s thermos and lunch with him—before he packs up his things. The last of the students leave the room, and Alana finally makes her way up to the desk. She leans against it, a lunch tote in her own hand, waiting. 

Will slides his laptop into his bag, just as Alana picks up the thermos of coffee from the desk. 

“Is this Hannibal’s?” she asks, running her thumb over the engraving on the center. 

“Huh? Oh,” Will says, pretending to be confused about it. He lies, “Yeah, it was in my cupboard. I think Abigail brought it over and forgot about it.”

“Huh,” Alana says, confused still, but in a way that sounds like she’s going to drop it anyway. 

Will stands up straight, no longer leaning over his bag to put things in it, and puts it over his shoulder. He picks up his lunch, and his coffee. 

“Well, shall we?” he asks, waiting for Alana to stand before they start walking out of the lecture hall together. 

They end up in the cafeteria, a decision based on the fact that Will doesn’t want to have lunch in one of their very small offices. Not like he would if Hannibal or Beverly wanted to eat with him. Hannibal has pointed out Alana’s attraction, as has Abigail, and Beverly, and Will has noticed it himself, of course. 

He doesn’t know how to change that, and he doesn’t want to lose Alana as a friend, so a bit of distance is likely for the best. Making it so there’s a table between them, rather than sitting side by side at his desk. 

After lunch, which was filled with too many flirtatious smiles, and gentle touches to his hand, Will leaves hastily. He has time to kill before his next lecture, so he locks himself away in his office, and pulls his phone out. 

Without thinking about Hannibal’s schedule, he hits the call button on his contact and waits, his free hand tapping an erratic rhythm on his desk. 

“Will?” Hannibal answers. “Is everything okay?”

“Shit, sorry,” Will says when he hears the level of concern in Hannibal’s voice. “You’re not in an appointment, are you?”

“No, of course not. I wouldn’t have answered if I were,” Hannibal says. “Tell me what’s wrong, beloved.”

“I had lunch with Alana,” Will says. He calms himself, feeling better just hearing Hannibal’s voice. “I mean, it was fine. I’m fine. I just feel weird.”

“Weird how?” Hannibal asks. 

“She wouldn’t be in a room alone with me six months ago, and now she’s getting very friendly,” Will sighs. “I feel weird about allowing her behavior.” 

“Well, how would you put a stop to it, then?” Hannibal asks. 

“I don’t know!” Will groans. “It’s not enough as it is to flat out reject her, is it? What would I even say? ‘Look, I know you’ve got the hots for me, but I’m gay,’ wouldn’t really work at this stage.”

“You’re not gay,” Hannibal says. Then, “Are you?” 

Bisexual, yeah. I know. But that leaves it open for her to think there’s a chance. I mean, I’m not breaking up with you, ever,” Will shrugs. “If I’m with a man for the rest of my life, then she’ll never know that I lied.”

“Will, darling, I’m not sure that’s the correct method to use in rejecting her,” Hannibal says. “And I appreciate your faith in our relationship, but you never know what may happen.”

“Don’t,” Will whispers. “Don’t talk like that right now.” 

“You’re bothered by the suggestion,” Hannibal states. 

“Yes, I’m bothered by the suggestion that we might break up, Hannibal!” Will exclaims. “Have a little optimism.” 

“Trust me, I have quite a lot of optimism regarding us, dear,” Hannibal says. “I am simply saying that maybe you should rethink your plan for stopping her flirtations.”

“I have no plan,” Will says after a second. “I was just going to let this flirting run its course until she asks me out and I can say no.” 

“If that’s what makes you most comfortable,” Hannibal says in response. Will can tell he wants to say something else, or to take matters into his own hands. Instead, he continues, “I have to go soon. What time shall I expect you tonight?”

“Seven, maybe? I don’t know,” Will answers. “I might go see what they’ve got Beverly investigating, so it could be later if I get drawn into that.”

“You don’t need to get drawn into anything.”

“No, but you know how I am. I’ll call when I leave, okay?”

“Yes, okay. I’ll start cooking dinner when you leave. It should be done by the time you arrive,” Hannibal says. 

“You don’t have to wait for me.”

“I will. I prefer eating with you,” Hannibal whispers. “I must go now.”

“Bye, then,” Will sighs. 

He hangs up first, setting his phone on his desk and dropping his head into his hands with a quiet, exhausted groan. 

A few minutes later there’s a knock on his door and he mutters, “Come in.”

The door opens, and Beverly’s there, two cups of coffee in hand. She shuts the door behind her with her hip and hands a cup off to Will. 

He nods in thanks and takes a sip. Not as good as Hannibal’s, but that’s been empty since his second lecture. 

They sit in silence for a minute before Beverly finally speaks up. 

“You’d tell me if something were wrong, right?” 

“Does it seem like something is wrong?” Will asks, setting his cup down on his desk, and looking up at her. He doesn’t look her in the eye, slightly to the right, but he pretends. 

“You always seem like something's wrong, Will,” Beverly sighs. “But you seem worse today.”

“No, I’m fine,” Will lies. “What about you, Beverly? You’re a mom, you’re dealing with a great loss. How are you?” 

He thinks this isn’t the best approach to seeing how his friend is doing, but he doesn’t take it back, or apologize. 

“I’m fine, Will. I have an appointment with your boyfriend on Friday.”

Will nods and makes a noise in acknowledgement then takes a sip of coffee. He sets his cup down and starts shuffling papers and case files on his desk. Something to do with his hands while he waits for his watch to alert him that he needs to go. 

Beverly doesn’t say anything else, doesn’t ask more questions, but Will can tell she isn’t bothered by what he said. They just sit in each other’s company until it’s time for him to leave. 

He doesn’t go down to the lab when he’s done with his classes. He turns and walks the other way when he sees Jack walking down the hall with someone else. He sends Hannibal a text saying he’s on his way, and he gets in his car and drives straight to Baltimore. 

Hannibal kisses him when he walks into the kitchen from the mudroom, and Will sets his bag down on the floor to pull him in for an embrace. He rests his head on Hannibal’s chest and squeezes his body tight before letting go and moving over to the armchair in the corner. He flops down with a long, loud sigh and watches Hannibal pull something out of the oven. 

“Dining room?” Will asks, getting ready to stand.

“Yes. Would you mind pouring us some wine from the bottle on the counter?”

Will does, and follows Hannibal into the dining room. 

Tonight goes much like the previous—dinner, taking wine upstairs, then Will lays on his back while Hannibal rides him, leaning down over Will’s body so their chests press together and their lips can meet. 

When Hannibal moves off, he doesn’t bother getting anything to clean them up with, just rolls over and sprawls out on his back next to Will. He grabs one of Wills hands and laces their fingers together, resting both of their hands on Wills stomach. 

Will knows he’s using Hannibal as a crutch right now, but he can’t help it. He’s the only thing that makes Will feel right, even if he’s the biggest problem Will has at the same time. He’s using sex as a distraction, he’s using Hannibal as a distraction, and he’s not himself at all. He knows all that. He knows he’s been depressed, withdrawn, and snappy. And he knows he’s been having terrible nightmares, or just hasn’t been able to sleep at all. He feels like he’s absolutely losing it. 

“I think I’m mentally ill,” Will says after a while. He stares up at the ceiling, and Hannibal doesn’t respond right away. He doesn’t move at all, and Will thinks he may have fallen asleep, so he turns his head. 

Hannibal has a small smirk on his face, as if he’s trying not to laugh. He reverts back to a neutral expression within a split second of Will looking at him, but not soon enough for Will not to see it. Will just sighs and lets go of Hannibal’s hand, attempting to get out of bed. 

“Will,” Hannibal says, stopping him. “Come back.”

“You were going to laugh,” Will says. “You never listen to my concerns. I don’t know why I mentioned it.”

“No, darling,” Hannibal whispers, shaking his head. “I just thought… Perhaps that was obvious? Did you just recently come to this revelation?” 

“I don’t know,” Will shrugs. He goes to the backroom to wash the dried come off his stomach, then goes back and lays back down, He turns on his side to face Hannibal. The fight has left him, and he doesn’t care if Hannibal was laughing at him, or being unhelpful. 

Hannibal lifts his arm so Will can settle into his side and rest his head on Hannibal’s shoulder. 

“Did you want to talk about it?” Hannibal whispers. 

“No, I guess not,” Will sighs. “Can you turn off the light?”

“You were just up,” Hannibal says. “Why didn’t you do it?” 

Will shrugs, and Hannibal disentangles himself from Will’s body, disappearing into the bathroom for a few minutes, then coming back and shutting off the light. 

In the morning, he wakes up and Hannibal is no longer in bed with him. He likes waking up next to Hannibal, but apparently his boyfriend didn’t want to wait today. 

Will dresses, and brushes his teeth. He doesn’t shower today, feeling like there’s no need. He’s sure whenever he finds Hannibal, the man is going to scrunch up his nose in disgust, but he really cannot bring himself to care. 

Dressed, and ready for the day, Will finds Hannibal in the kitchen making pancakes. 

“Hm,” Will hums, unsure if he wants to tell Hannibal how not hungry he is this morning. His stomach feels like it’s in knots, and he just feels completely empty otherwise. At least he slept for a few hours, but not much. 

Hannibal looks up at him, a smile on his face, which instantly fades. 

“What’s wrong, darling?” Hannibal asks. 

Will bites his lip, and grips his bag strap tighter. “I’m not hungry.”

“No?” Hannibal asks. He turns off the stove. “Well, I have coffee and lunch for you, if you’d like it.”

Will nods and takes the thermos and lunch bag off the counter. The image feels so domestic that Will wants to cry. He can’t believe he’s being made coffee and handed a lunch by the Chesapeake Ripper before leaving for work. 

He quickly kisses Hannibal’s cheek, and tells him to come over tonight, then leaves as quick as he can. Once he’s in his car he allows himself to let out a shaky breath. He knows he’s unravelling, and he knows he needs to get it together. 

He allows him just a few minutes before he starts his car and pulls out of the garage. He avoids everyone when he gets to Quantico, leaves his lecture hall right as his class is dismissed without answering questions, and he doesn’t answer any of the knocks on his office door. 

Hannibal calls during Will’s lunch break. He contemplates not answering, but then does. 

“Hey.”

“Will, I am outside your office,” Hannibal says, then hangs up.

Surprised that Hannibal is the one that has been knocking on his door for the last two minutes, he spins around in his desk chair and goes to the door. The second it opens, Hannibal pushes through and wraps Will up in a tight embrace. 

“No one’s seen you today,” he murmurs into Will’s hair. “Beverly called, and said you weren’t answering your door. I thought perhaps you never made it here this morning.”

“Wh—” Will starts, but he’s cut off by Hannibal squeezing him impossibly tight, pushing all the air out of his lungs. With a flailing arm, Will reaches out and pushes the door closed behind Hannibal. “Hannibal. Can’t breathe.”

Hannibal releases him just a bit for Will to be comfortable, then noses at the top of his head. He pulls back and kisses Will’s forehead several times. 

“Hannibal, what the hell?” Will breathes out. “I’m fine. I’m fine. What’s gotten into you? Why are you here?”

“I wanted to make sure you were okay,” Hannibal whispers, rubbing his cheek into the top of Will’s head. 

“I’m fine, Hannibal. Christ,” Will mutters. “I appreciate your concern, but it’s unnecessary. You drove all this way for nothing as I need to get to my next class soon.”

He pulls himself out of Hannibal’s arms and starts gathering all of his things. Hannibal doesn’t move from where he’s standing, and Will has to move around him to get around his tiny office. 

“I’ve told you I don’t need you constantly taking care of me, okay?” Will says, remembering New Year’s Eve when he snapped at Hannibal. Nothing has changed since then, it seems. He just hopes he can hold it together and not storm off again. “Just call me next time. I always answer when you call. And if I don’t answer, then you can show up at my work looking for me.”

“Of course,” Hannibal says. He still hasn't moved, and there’s a completely blank expression on his face. “Did—did you eat your lunch?”

“No, I wasn’t hungry. I’m sorry,” Will sighs. “I’ll be hungry for dinner though. Come over when you’re done tonight.”

“I am already done,” Hannibal says. “I don’t have any more patients today.”

“Well, then go to my house. I have one more lecture,” Will says, pulling his bag over his shoulder. He pushes up on his toes so he can kiss one of Hannibal’s high cheekbones. “Sorry I’m like this.”

“We can talk about it later if you’d like,” Hannibal offers. 

“This can be a Thursday conversation,” Will decides. “As long as I still have my appointment slot open?”

“Always,” Hannibal says, kissing Will’s forehead, then finally stepping out of his way. 

Will leaves, does his last lecture, then goes home to find Abigail, as well as the babies, Mischa and Lucy, in his living room. Will goes to the babies immediately, picking Lucy up, and bouncing her lightly as he walks into the kitchen to find Hannibal. 

“What’s for dinner?” Will asks, walking over to kiss Hannibal’s cheek. 

“Lasagna,” Hannibal answers, leaning his face further into Will’s kiss. “Something simple.”

“Did you know Jon Arbuckle killed Odie’s former owner?” Will asks. 

“What?”

“You’re making lasagna. Garfield loves lasagna, but Jon killed Lyman. Odie’s former owner,” Will says again. 

“I didn’t know that,” Hannibal says, sliding the pan into the oven. 

“Yeah, he was Jon’s roommate, and then he was written out of the comic in… ‘83, I think?” Will explains. “And there’s a list of the top ten explanations for his disappearance. Number one was ‘Don’t look in Jon’s basement,’ so… he murdered him to take Odie for himself.”

“You know a lot about this,” Hannibal points out.

Will shrugs. “There’s other theories. Also there’s scenes of Garfield trying to kill himself in several comics. Garfield lore goes deep and dark. Very dark. Well, not for us, I guess.”

“No, I suppose that wouldn’t be dark for us,” Hannibal agrees. 

Abigail walks into the kitchen then, and goes straight to the fridge to get a can of soda. 

“Is it alright if I stay here tonight?” she asks. 

“Yeah, kid. You don’t need to ask,” Will says. “Hey, hand me a soda too, please.”

She grabs another from the fridge and slides it over to him across the counter. Hannibal washes his hands, then takes Lucy from Will, so Will can open his drink and take a sip. 

Abigail leaves the room again, and Hannibal follows, leaving Will alone in the kitchen to either follow them, or not. He waits a few seconds, then goes to the back door to step outside. The dogs hear the door open and come sliding across the hardwood floor in the kitchen to go outside with him. 

Hannibal reappears after a few minutes, stepping outside and leaning against the wall of the house. 

“Did you want to talk about today?” Hannibal asks. 

“I really do not,” Will answers, picking up a tennis ball and throwing it for the dogs. 

So they don’t. 

They eat, then they watch TV. Beverly comes to pick up the kids, and Hannibal sends her home with leftovers. They watch more TV, then finally Will yawns and decides he’s going up to bed. He stands, says goodnight to Abigail, then bends down to kiss the top of Hannibal’s head. Hannibal goes to stand up, but Will shakes his head. 

“You can stay up if you want,” he tells him. “You look pretty engaged in your book.”

“I’m not,” Hannibal assures him. He stands then, wishes Abigail a good evening, then follows Will up the stairs to the bedroom. 

They sleep pressed against each other, Hannibal’s back to Will’s front. Will keeps his arm tight around Hannibal’s waist all night as he tries to get a few hours in, waking up periodically. Hannibal sleeps on, unaware of Will’s constant inner conflict regarding him. 

In the morning, Will wakes to a call from Jack, pulling him out of state for the day to a crime scene. 

“I’ll be home late,” Will tells Hannibal over the phone. “Don’t come over tonight, okay? Just get some sleep at home.”

“I could sleep at your house and be there when you come home,” Hannibal says. Will can hear him shuffling papers on the other end of the line, opening and shutting drawers. 

“No, babe. I’ll see you tomorrow, alright?” Will says. 

Hannibal sighs. “Yes, of course.”


On Thursday morning, Hannibal goes about his morning routine. He feels bereft without Will sharing his space in the house. He wishes he would’ve gone to Will’s last night after Will got home from his crime scene, even though it was late, and Will told him not to. 

Hannibal understands he has a problem if he feels empty after one night away from Will. To be fair, Will had been hanging very close to him all week. Hannibal got used to it. He came to expect it. 

He just hopes Will slept well without him. 

His first appointment of the day isn’t very notable—she never has anything interesting to say. Hannibal sometimes wishes to refer her to someone else just so he doesn’t need to listen to her drone anymore. Still, he sees her every other week, regardless. 

Franklyn, though, is always a notable appointment. Hannibal usually keeps a tally of his infractions—setting used tissues on the table, attempting to ask Hannibal personal questions, standing up and touching things around the office. 

Today is no different. 

“I don’t understand why you would date a patient,” Franklyn says, holding Hannibal’s letter opener. Hannibal hopes it slips and he stabs himself with it. 

“I’m not dating a patient,” Hannibal tells him. He crosses his legs and clasps his hands over his knee. “Will and I were colleagues and now we are in a relationship. He was never my patient, but this hour is not about me and my partner.”

Franklyn lets out a big, dramatic sigh and sets down the letter opener. Hannibal knows it’s crooked, and he wants to walk over there, jab it into Franklyn’s jugular, then set it down correctly—lined up with the dish he keeps it in, perfectly parallel to the edge of his desk. 

“But, Hannibal,” Franklyn starts, and Hannibal tenses up, about to tell Franklyn not to call him by his first name, to correct this sense of familiarity Franklyn is reaching for, but Franklyn continues, “We both know that’s not entirely true.”

“Do we?” Hannibal asks innocently. 

Franklyn moves over to the seat opposite Hannibal’s and sits down, leaning forward with his elbows on his knees. Eager to converse with Hannibal, while Hannibal sits back in his chair, as far away from Franklyn as the arrangement allows. 

“You did his psychological evaluation for the FBI, didn’t you?” 

“Before we started seeing each other, yes, but as I said before, this is not about me,” Hannibal tells him, voice firm and with authority. 

“It’s something that has been on my mind. Shouldn’t I be allowed to talk about things which are on my mind?” Franklyn asks. 

“Not this,” Hannibal says. Then he suggests, “Tell me about your friend Tobias.”

Franklyn rubs his sweaty hands on his pant legs, and smiles down into his lap. “Tobias is my best friend, even if I’m not his. I’m a great friend, but he’s not always interested in hanging out with me.”

“That is unfortunate,” Hannibal says, making a note in his book sitting on the table next to him: Tobias; too busy to spend time with Franklyn—possibilities of stalking and murder causing this, which is an indicator of how often he partakes. 

He looks up at Franklyn again, and the man is craning his head to see what Hannibal has written. Of course, he hasn’t written any of it in English, choosing Italian instead for this exact reason. Franklyn has problems with boundaries. 

“You’ve said you have told Tobias about me,” Hannibal prompts, setting his pen down. 

“Just the basics,” Franklyn says. No shame in being caught snooping, nor in sharing information about Hannibal. “He asks me about you sometimes. About the kinds of things you do, and the places you frequent.”

“And I suppose you answer all of his queries,” Hannibal says, an eyebrow raised. “You don’t find it odd that he’s so interested in a person he doesn’t know?” 

“Well, he does know you,” Franklyn says. “You two met on Saturday.”

Hannibal doesn’t try to argue that meeting someone once is hardly knowing someone. And he doesn’t mention that he knows Tobias has been asking after him for much longer than the previous Saturday. 

Franklyn changes the subject before Hannibal can ask him any more about Tobias, but Hannibal knows he’ll be able to ask next week. When Franklyn’s hour is up, he walks him to the door, and all but pushes him out of it, shutting and locking it behind him. 

He sits down at his desk and calls Will. 

“Yeah?” Will answers. He sounds distracted, and there’s noise in the background. A cafeteria, maybe. It’s Will’s lunch time, after all.

“Are you alone?” Hannibal asks, knowing the answer. 

“No, I’m having lunch with Alana right now,” Will whispers. “Did you need something?”

“No, it’s alright. I had an appointment with Franklyn, and I have drawn a few conclusions, but we may speak tonight,” Hannibal says, opening a different notebook to write down his conclusions about Tobias. He scratches out the words written on the book he keeps for Franklyn, so they won’t be found and translated. He continues, “Nothing to worry about, of course. Enjoy your lunch.”

“Thanks, I will,” Will whispers. “See you later.”

“Bye, darling,” Hannibal says, then hangs up. 

He busies himself with work, and appointments, trying to distract himself from how much he wants to see Will. 

After seven thirty, he walks over to the door with a smile on his face, but when he opens it, his waiting room is empty. Will is never late. 

He calls him, but no answer. 

Hannibal curses under his breath and calls Abigail instead. 

“Hello?”

“Good evening, Abigail,” Hannibal says, going to his desk to gather his keys and coat. “Are you at Will’s house?”

“Yes, I am. He asked me to check on the dogs tonight,” Abigail answers, sounding as if this should be obvious. 

“So Will is not home? Has he been home?”

“No,” Abigail says, confusion riddling her voice. “Why?”

“He didn’t show up to his appointment. I’m on my way to Quantico,” Hannibal says. “I’ll call you when I find him.”

He hangs up and runs to his car, not wanting to waste any time. He just barely remembers to lock up his office before leaving. 

He thinks back to just a few days ago when he had assumed Will never made it to work, after none of his friends had seen him, and Beverly called. He instantly cleared his appointments for the day to go search for him, worried he was going to be in a ditch on the side of the road. With the obvious depressed state Will has been in, Hannibal can’t help but fear the worst. 

He speeds all the way to Quantico, driving extremely recklessly given the fact that it’s the middle of winter, and it’s so dark out. He needs to get to Will, needs to find him. 

He flashes the visitor badge Jack Crawford has given him at the door, and nearly runs to Will’s office. There’s no light that he can see through the crack under the door, and he doesn’t even bother knocking, just goes right to Will’s regular lecture hall. Sometimes if Will needs more space to lay out files, he’ll use a lecture room, Hannibal knows that. 

A wave of relief overcomes him when he gets to the open door, and sees Will behind the desk, head resting on his folded arms, slumped forward. Sleeping. 

He sends a text to Abigail, saying Will is fine, then walks across the room to the desk. He squats next to Will’s chair so he’s more on level with Will’s face, then sets a gentle hand on his shoulder, rubbing lightly. 

“Will, my love,” Hannibal whispers in his ear. “Wake up now, darling.”

Will jolts up right, one hand swinging out toward Hannibal. Hannibal catches it before it can collide with his face, and laces their fingers together. He watches as Will slowly wakes fully, coming back to himself. 

“Shit,” he mutters. “What are you doing here? What time is it?”

“Nearly nine,” Hannibal whispers. “I take it you didn’t sleep well last night.”

“Slept like shit,” Will murmurs. “Sorry. I didn’t mean to miss our appointment. I was working and I must have fallen asleep.”

Hannibal stands then, and looks at all the photographs on the desk. Ripper, and organ harvester victims alike. One of the ones Hannibal disguised as the organ harvester is on the Ripper side, and Hannibal frowns. 

“Why do you have this one with the Chesapeake Ripper?” Hannibal asks, picking up the photo, and handing it to Will. 

Will rubs at his eyes before taking the photo and shrugs. “Seems like him. He’s messing with us.”

For that, Hannibal wants to grab Will and kiss him senseless, to fuck him over this desk, then bring him home and do it all over again. He is so utterly in love with this man, that he almost lets his mask slip entirely. Almost tells Will everything. Instead, he grabs a hold of himself, and asks, “You think so?”

Will nods, then stands and starts piling all the photos together, sliding them back into their designated folders. He doesn’t say anything else about the two killers, and just as Hannibal is about to pick up Will’s coat, and help him into it, Jack and Beverly walk into the room. 

“Good, you’re still here,” Jack says. “And Doctor Lecter, too. What a pleasant surprise.”

Beverly gives both of them a sneaky grin from behind Jack’s back, as they both greet Jack in turn. 

“We got a lead. How would you like to help us catch the Chesapeake Ripper?” Jack asks, looking between the two of them with a satisfied smile on his face. 

Hannibal notices Will tense next to him, which is weird, but not completely uncharacteristic. Will has had a long week, afterall. He likely wants nothing more than to go home, eat dinner, then crawl into bed. That’s what Hannibal wants, at least. 

Instead of saying no, like he so dearly wants to, Hannibal knows he has an image to uphold. He says, “How could we refuse?”

Will turns and gives Hannibal a tired, pleading look. 

“Perhaps we should allow Will to sit this one out,” Hannibal says. 

“Well, whatever we do, we have to move now,” Jack says, turning to leave the room. “We’ll be in the van. You have five minutes to decide before we’re out of here.”

Jack walks briskly out of the room, a man on a mission, but Beverly lingers behind. 

“Will, it’s totally fine,” Beverly tells him. “Lecter, you take him home. We’ve got this. And it’s not the Ripper, it’s just that organ harvester.”

“No, no I’m fine. Let’s go catch this guy,” Will says. He reaches out and grasps Hannibal’s hand in his own and gives it a squeeze, which Hannibal returns before they both let go and follow Beverly from the lecture hall. 

Hannibal stands as close to Will as possible the entire walk out to the van, and slides into the back seat with him. Will rests his head against Hannibal’s shoulder in the dark car. With Will in the middle seat, and Beverly on his other side, it doesn’t seem like Jack or the agent in the front passenger seat think anything of it. It was either Hannibal’s shoulder, or Beverly’s seeing as Will doesn’t have a window to rest his head on instead. 

“Wake up, sleeping beauty,” Jack says, much too loud, when they pull up to an ambulance bay. 

Hannibal knows it’s all in good fun, but he can’t help but feel the need to wring Jack’s neck for attempting to wake Will in such an abrupt and rude way. He rests his hand on one of Will’s thighs, and waits for Will to fully wake up before letting go and getting out of the car. 

He stays as close to Will as he can without raising anyone’s suspicions, and Will is the one that ends up reaching for his hand every so often as they listen to Jack and Beverly talk to the manager of the ambulance company. If Jack suspects, then it’s definitely not Hannibal’s fault. 

“This is very educational,” Hannibal whispers in Will’s ear. 

Will shivers at the proximity—of Hannibal’s breath so close to his ear. Hannibal can’t help but smirk as he follows everyone back to the van.

They find the ambulance they’re looking for, and Hannibal, so distracted by Will’s exhausted state—and the beauty that comes with it—just barely hears Jack calling out his name. 

When he woke up this morning, Hannibal did not expect to be performing surgery to save someone’s life. Certainly not in the back of an ambulance while a man is being arrested before his eyes.

Will watches him while he reattaches the man’s kidney, their eyes locking for a brief moment before Will is whisked away to get back to Quantico. Oh, how Hannibal wishes he could just allow this man to die, just so he can go home with Will, but instead he has to finish the surgery well enough to keep him alive, and then follow in the ambulance so he can tell the surgeons what he has already done. 

He doesn’t get done until well past midnight, and by then he’s so hungry and tired that he drives straight to Will’s house, as it’s much closer than his own. Luckily, Will’s own car is parked outside, and all the lights in the house are on. 

When he stumbles up the steps of Will’s porch, overtired and ready to collapse, the front door opens and a sea of dogs come out to greet him. Will follows all of them, pushing through them to throw himself into Hannibal’s arms. They stand on the porch embracing until it becomes too cold to bear it any longer. 

Hannibal is so hungry by the time they make it inside, that he doesn’t even wrinkle his nose at the room temperature pizza Will offers to him. They don’t talk about the night, just curl up together on the couch, watching a movie Hannibal doesn’t catch the name of.

They end up falling asleep on the couch together. Will lays with his entire body on top of Hannibal’s own, crushing Hannibal in the best way possible. Will seems to finally get some much needed sleep, and that’s all Hannibal needs in order to let himself drift off, as well. Knowing that Will is safe, and warm, and cared for—Hannibal thinks he could die knowing nothing else besides that.

Chapter 26

Notes:

Sorry if this chapter kind of feels like a filler. Some things being set up here, though. I know it may seem like this fic is going on forever, but I do have a clear ending in sight. I can’t promise it will all be pleasant for everyone, but I can 100% promise a happy ending for Hannibal and Will.

Let me know what you’re thinking!! Love feedback and reminders that people are still reading!!

this chapter is dedicated to gabe and matthew because everything in it can be blamed on them <3

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Will wakes first, tucked between the back of the couch and Hannibal’s body, half on top of him. The sound of the dogs getting up is what caused him to stir, he realizes. He attempts to sit up, but Hannibal’s arms tighten around him. The dogs don’t seem to need to go outside—just waking up and moving positions, switching beds. He lets Hannibal pull him back to his warm spot on the couch. 

He feels stiff from sleeping on the couch; uncomfortable as he’s still in his jeans and button down from yesterday. He can’t imagine how Hannibal feels, having laid beneath him all night, still in his waistcoat, shirt and pants. 

The sun hasn’t risen yet, so it’s still quite early, but Will knows they will both need to get up soon, regardless. He rests his head back down on Hannibal’s chest, then drops one hand to the floor to blindly search for his phone. With the last bit of battery percentage left, he cancels all of his classes. 

“Cancel today,” Will mumbles. He knows Hannibal is awake now and listening, even if his eyes are closed still. “I just did.” 

Hannibal groans quietly in response and tightens his arms around Will’s body. 

“I shouldn’t,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“You are exhausted. I’ve never seen you like you were last night,” Will says, the end of his sentence catching on a yawn. “Cancel your appointments and come upstairs to bed.”

Will climbs over Hannibal and off the couch, standing up on exhausted, wobbly legs. He checks his phone again and it’s not even five yet. They only slept for about four hours, but it’s the best four hours of sleep Will has gotten in nearly two weeks. 

He looks down and Hannibal has already closed his eyes again. He gives him a few more minutes by letting the dogs out who are still up, and getting himself a glass of water. 

The dogs come back in and curl up in their beds again, content to sleep until morning. Will sits on the couch next to Hannibal’s hip and leans down to kiss his forehead. 

“Come up to bed,” Will whispers when his eyes flutter open. 

Hannibal sits up, and picks up his suit jacket from the floor next to the couch. He searches for the weight of his cell phone in his pocket, and Will watches him type something out quickly, then lock his phone again.

“Appointments are cancelled,” Hannibal murmurs before standing. 

They go up to bed and shut the door behind them. Will plugs in his phone, then strips off all of his clothes until he’s left in just his boxers. Hannibal, on the other hand, strips completely naked before climbing into his side of the bed and wrapping himself in the blankets. 

Will gets in beside him, lifting the blankets so he can wrap himself up, too. Hannibal opens his arms and Will goes into them, laying with his head on Hannibal’s shoulder, and one hand splayed across his chest. 

He’s content to lay here, to have some to hold and be held by. Before Hannibal, it had been so long since he’d had so much affection directed toward him. And even longer since he felt the need to be affectionate back. 

He briefly lets himself think of where he’d be now if Hannibal weren’t his boyfriend—if they’d continued with a strictly professional relationship, just doctor and patient. Surely they’d consider each other friends, but nothing more. No obligations between them. It’s likely Will would have never seen a doctor for the encephalitis until it got too late. It’s possible he’d have broken down from work by now without Hannibal’s ever soothing presence. He doesn’t want to think about a life without Hannibal holding him close, but he can’t stop his wandering mind. 

“Do you ever wonder what would’ve happened if we never got together?” Will asks, drawing a swirling pattern on Hannibal’s bare chest with his finger. He glances up to see Hannibal looking down with his eyes half closed. Exhausted, but clearly interested in the conversation Will is presenting. 

“I often think of many outcomes for every situation I’m put in. I had quite a long plan with you,” Hannibal murmurs. “My end goal was always us together, like this.”

Will hums in response and presses his face into the crook of Hannibal’s neck. “I suppose I threw a wrench in all of your planning that morning in Minnesota, didn’t I?” 

“Indeed,” Hannibal murmurs. “I must confess—I always knew you would find out about me being the copycat, but your reaction was much different than I had predicted.”

“What were you going to do?” Will asks, yawning. He doesn’t really want to know the answer, knowing all the things Hannibal is capable of, but he still has to ask. 

Hannibal doesn’t answer right away, and Will is about to drop the conversation, when Hannibal finally murmurs, “I was… going to do something terrible the moment I saw you begin to catch on. And I’m glad it never came to that.”

“Okay,” Will whispers, kissing Hannibal’s neck lightly, trying to tell him it’s fine, and that he doesn’t need to say anything else. 

“Oh, Will,” Hannibal breathes. His voice shakes when he says, “Oh, my love, I—It would have been such a betrayal to you. I was going to let your encephalitis melt your brain away until you were barely functioning,” he whispers. He wraps his arms so tight around Will, he can’t breathe, but he doesn’t tell Hannibal so. Hannibal continues, “I was going to let you descend into madness, and I was going to—oh, my darling, please forgive me—I was going to frame you for my crimes and get you locked away somewhere you wouldn’t be able to find out anything more.”

“Okay,” Will says again. He kisses Hannibal’s neck, pets his chest in a gentle motion, trying to calm Hannibal down from his speech. “It’s okay.”

“Will, I don’t think you understand,” Hannibal whispers. “I was going to cultivate your trust over months, then take advantage of it, and your illness, both.”

Will whispers, “It didn’t happen.”

“In another world, it did,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Would you have freed me?” Will asks. 

“Yes, eventually,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Then… let’s just forget about it,” Will decides. He nuzzles Hannibal’s neck, then laughs quietly. “I’m glad I asked you out when I did. It was obvious how into me you were, and it was impulsive for me to even mention it, but I thought if I didn’t then we’d end up dancing around each other and ignoring our mutual attraction for years.”

“I wouldn’t have allowed years to pass before I made you mine,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Mm, I don’t believe you,” Will whispers, then lightly bites Hannibal’s throat. “You wouldn’t have ever made the first move.”

Hannibal just hums, “Mhmm,” and shuts his eyes again, tilting his head back against the pillow and relaxing his entire body. He whispers, “Sleep now, Will.” 

And Will does. 


Hannibal wakes to a knock on the door to Will’s room, and Will calls out a muffled, “Yeah?” 

The door creaks open just a crack and Hannibal finds himself sitting up and scrambling to make sure the blanket is covering both of them. Abigail pokes her head into the room. 

“Are you guys getting up anytime soon? Don’t you have to work today?” she asks. There’s a skeptical look on her face, an eyebrow raised. 

Hannibal rubs the sleep out of his eyes to get a better look at her, then looks to the clock, then to Will laying face down on his pillow. 

“It’s still quite early,” Hannibal says to Abigail. “We both cancelled for the day. I think our dear Will may need some more sleep.”

Will makes a noise that sounds like a confirmation of some sort. 

“Okay, well I have to leave for Beverly’s in twenty minutes. I’ll take care of the dogs,” Abigail says. 

Hannibal thanks her and lays back down, curling his body around Will’s as Abigail shuts the door again. 

“Good morning, darling,” Hannibal murmurs in Will’s ear. 

“No,” Will mumbles, and turns on his side so he can bury his face in Hannibal’s neck. “Sleep.”

Hannibal kisses the top of his head and holds him close. 

He hears the dogs scrambling to the door downstairs, barking and yipping, then Abigail talking to them as she opens the door— No, Hannibal realizes. She’s talking to someone else. 

A second later there's heavy footsteps running up the stairs and then a fist knocking on the door again. She opens the door before either of them answer, and Will pulls away from Hannibal’s neck to look at her. 

“Alana’s here to check on you because she saw you cancelled your classes,” Abigail says, breathless from her dash up the stairs. “What should I tell her?” 

“Sleeping,” Will says. His eyes are shut again and he settles back down onto his pillow. Hannibal knows there’s no way they’re getting a full sentence out of him any time soon. 

“Tell her Will is catching up on some much needed rest and he will call her later,” Hannibal translates. 

Will tries to pull the blankets more toward him then, and Hannibal has to reach out and grab it before he’s no longer covered up. Part of him really wishes he didn’t decide to sleep naked, but now it’s too late to do anything about it.

Abigail seems to understand what is happening, and quickly shuts the door. 

“You’re a menace,” Hannibal whispers, grabbing Will around his stomach and pulling him close. He drags Will over to lay on top of him.

“Stop with the manhandling. Too early,” Will mumbles into his throat. 

“I take it you’ve slept well,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Mhm,” Will hums, leaving a kiss on Hannibal’s throat. “I’d like to keep sleeping, if that’s alright.”

“Of course,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will stays right where he is on top of Hannibal, and they fall back asleep for a few more hours. 

Eventually they get up and make it toward the shower together, then don robes and nothing else while they make breakfast together. 

If Will is bothered by Hannibal’s admission from last night, he doesn’t make it known at all. He doesn’t flinch away, or tense up, when Hannibal is near. In fact, he hangs even closer than earlier in the week, which Hannibal didn’t know to be possible. 

It’s only a matter of time, Hannibal thinks, before they're so intertwined, before Will is so dependent on Hannibal that he could never dream of leaving. By then, Hannibal will be able to tell the truth about everything. 

He thinks about this while they lounge on the bed downstairs together. Hannibal sits up against the headboard, the blanket covering him up to his bare hips, and Will lays with his head in Hannibal’s lap. 

They talk a bit, but mostly Hannibal reads on his ipad, and massages Will’s scalp with his other hand, while Will makes noises of contentment. 

Will gets restless after about an hour of that and his hands begin to wander. Hannibal lets him touch, up and down his thighs, a ghost of a touch over his cock, the blanket still serving as a layer between them, up to his stomach. Hannibal pretends to not notice it, continuing to read from his ipad. 

“It’s quite fortunate Miss Lounds has made good on her promise not to write about us,” Hannibal says when Will starts to kiss his stomach, trailing wet kisses across his lower abdomen. 

Will makes a noise in acknowledgement, but continues his mission. He rolls over and pushes up on his hands and knees, moving over Hannibal’s legs so he’s right in front of him. Tempting, but Hannibal finds it amusing to pretend he doesn’t notice. 

He continues to scroll through his article as Will slides closer, sitting down on Hannibal’s thighs. He leans forward and catches Hannibal’s lips in a kiss, and Hannibal smirks when Will brings a hand to his face and pulls his eyes away from the tablet. Hannibal looks back as Will starts to mouth at his jaw, and then his neck. 

“Hannibal,” Will murmurs.

“Hm?” Hannibal hums, trying not to laugh.  

“Want you,” Will whispers. 

“I’m right here,” Hannibal says back. “You’re distracting me from my reading.”

“Fuck your reading,” Will says, biting Hannibal’s neck hard enough to hurt, but not hard enough to break skin. There’ll be imprints of teeth, for sure. He starts to suck on the spot, and there’s definitely going to be a mark. Much too high for Hannibal to cover with a shirt collar. 

Hannibal still doesn’t set his tablet down, just rearranges his arms so he can still see it with Will planted firmly in his lap. He wills his cock to stay uninterested in Will’s advances, despite Will grinding his ass down into Hannibal’s lap. He wonders how long he can push this little joke until he can’t hold himself back anymore. 

Will lets out a noise of frustration and climbs out of Hannibal’s lap entirely. He goes upstairs without another word and Hannibal sighs. He sets his tablet down on the nightstand, and throws the blanket off of his hips. He swings his legs out and puts his feet on the cold hardwood flooring, a shiver going through his body before he composes himself and follows Will. 

He half expects Will to be in the bathroom, possibly masturbating in the shower. The other half of him expects Will to be laying in the bed waiting for him. 

He doesn’t expect Will to be in the bedroom pulling on clothes for the first time all day. Underwear, jeans, tshirt, flannel, sweater. Not one of Hannibal’s sweaters, though. Which means Hannibal is in the metaphorical dog house. 

“I have plans tonight,” Will says. He goes to Hannibal’s bag and rummages through it until he finds a pair of underwear. He tosses them at Hannibal, and he catches them in his hand. He hasn’t gone further into the room than the doorframe. “Which means you have to leave.”

“I see,” Hannibal murmurs. “Will, if this is because—”

“No,” Will says, cutting him off. “It’s not.”

“I was fully planning on giving you attention after a few more minutes,” Hannibal says. 

“Look, Hannibal,” Will says. “I don’t give a single shit if you don’t want to have sex with me at any given moment. You never get upset if I’m not in the mood, and I don’t don’t get upset when you aren’t. I’d rather you just tell me with words that you don’t want to fuck instead of ignoring me until I leave. I wanted your attention, at the very least, and you didn’t even seem to see me.”

“Will, I wanted to,” Hannibal protests. “It was just amusing to let you do as you pleased.”

“It wasn’t amusing for me,” Will mumbles. 

Hannibal pulls the underwear on as Will says it. 

“It was lonely, Hannibal,” Will says, looking down at the floor. “I don’t like when you’re closed off. I don’t like when I’m doing everything in my power to be the only thing on your mind and you won’t give me the time of day. It just didn’t feel funny to me.”

“I apologize, then,” Hannibal says. “I didn’t realize… What can I do?”

“Get dressed, first of all,” Will says, taking a pair of pants and a long sleeve shirt out of Hannibal’s bag. He holds them out and Hannibal steps forward to take them. “Then go home.”

“Really?” 

“I said I have plans tonight,” Will says again. “So, yeah.”

“Do you really?” Hannibal asks. “With who?”

“Does it matter?” Will asks. 

“I’d like to know because I’m curious,” Hannibal tells him. He pulls the shirt over his head and watches as Will sits down on the mattress. 

It’s not even two pm yet, and Hannibal knows all of Will’s friends aren’t off work until later. He also knows that had he not ignored Will, they would be in bed for a good amount of time. So, Hannibal thinks it’s safe to say that Will doesn’t have plans at all, and is just making excuses to kick Hannibal out. 

“I don’t find I quite understand why you are responding to feelings of loneliness in a way that will just make you feel more lonely,” Hannibal says, slow and careful. “You felt lonely, and now you will be alone, as well. Surely making me leave is not the correct solution.”

Will glares at him and fists the blanket in his hands on either side of his thighs, like he’s trying not to stand up and get in Hannibal’s face. He shuts his eyes and takes a breath, then releases one hand to scratch at the stubble on his chin. Something he does when he’s carefully thinking about what to say next. 

“I would like for you to leave,” Will says. “So that I do not say something I will regret.”


Will knows Hannibal loves him. He knows, he really does. Hannibal loves him, Will is certain. 

He does, he does, he does. 

Will knows. He knows it. 

Except maybe he’s not certain, and maybe he doesn’t know. 

Will does know that Hannibal was just being funny because he found it amusing to deny Will what he wanted at that moment. To ignore while Will attempted to kiss him and touch him and love him.  

Maybe before, Will would have found it amusing too. Amusing that Hannibal was pretending to be indifferent toward him. But now, knowing what Will knows about him—it scares him to see Hannibal like that. Devoid of emotions, unaffected by Will grinding naked in his lap. 

Fuck, Hannibal wasn’t even hard at all the entire time. Barely even a twitch. Unaroused by the man he calls his beloved

Will sends him home because he doesn’t want it to come out that he should’ve known Hannibal could turn it on and off at a moment's notice. 

He’s barely gotten over those nightmares he had at the beginning of their relationship, the ones where Hannibal guts him and leaves him on the floor to die. 

Sitting in Hannibal’s lap while he kissed his neck, and touched his chest, while Hannibal just held his tablet aloft over Will’s shoulder and pretended he wasn’t there—that moment felt like Hannibal’s love had really run out. 

If it was even there to begin with. 

It’s why he has to make him leave the house. So he doesn’t bring any of this up, so he doesn’t let it slip that he knows the exact kind of monster Hannibal really is. So he doesn’t end up as another Ripper victim. 

Hannibal’s confession from the night before set Will on edge. Now as he listens to Hannibal head down the stairs, and as he hears the front door open and shut, he allows himself to really process what he has learned. 

The fact that his health has been entirely in Hannibal’s hands—and truly, it has been because Will would never have gone to the doctor without Hannibal by his side—and the fact that Hannibal had plans that could destroy his entire life… It's unpleasant and unnerving to think about. 

Will knows that realistically Hannibal doesn’t feel any different today than he ever has. And he knows that he’s felt Hannibal's love for him so deeply that it couldn’t have been fabricated. 

He just needs a couple of days where he doesn’t need to worry. A few days without the possibility of seeing the monster under Hannibal’s skin. A few days where he doesn’t have to see Hannibal close off his emotions like they aren’t there at all. 

For that, he needs to not see Hannibal at all. 

Decision made to not see Hannibal for a few days, he lays in bed for about an hour, just staring at the ceiling. He figures Hannibal should be home by the time he finally gets up, and fights the urge to pack a bag and drive to Baltimore.

He cleans up his bedroom a bit, changes the sheets, and folds a basket of laundry he’s been meaning to fold for days. 

Not wanting to lie to Hannibal, he does call Beverly to make plans, but she’s going out of town to visit her parents. He doesn’t want to try and make plans with anyone else, so if Hannibal questions him, he’ll just say plans fell through. Not that Hannibal doesn’t already know. Will knows he didn’t do a good job of lying to him.

Will finally goes downstairs after he hears the dogs whining, ready to go outside. 

When he counts the dogs, as he often does, he pauses. 

“Rusty?” Will calls out. 

No sound of nails clicking on the hardwood floor. He checks the hook where he keeps all their leashes, and one is missing. 

“You’ve gotta be kidding me,” Will mutters. 

He puts all the dogs outside, and makes sure Beatrice is in her usual spot by the window in the kitchen, then he pulls out his phone. 

“Did you steal my fucking dog, Hannibal?” Will yells when the call is answered. 

“You said he’s mine,” Hannibal says, calm as ever. Will hears a bark on Hannibal’s line and takes a deep breath, counting to ten. 

“Fine,” Will says, pinching the bridge of his nose. “Fine. Okay. Just needed to make sure he’s with you and didn’t run away. Take care of him? And yourself.”

“Of course, darling,” Hannibal murmurs. “Call me if you want to see me.”

Will sighs, then says, “Yeah. Bye, then.”

The house feels weirdly empty over the next couple of days, with no Hannibal and one dog missing. Will does his best to not think too hard about it. He needs a stress free weekend, and with Hannibal being the cause of a lot of his stress, he pushes the man and all of his crimes from his head as he goes through his weekend routine. 

He goes to work on Monday, and doesn’t call Hannibal, nor does Hannibal attempt to reach him, which is good because it means he's being respected, but he misses him. 

Tuesday he gets to Quantico and doesn’t even get to his classroom before Jack and Beverly walk past him. Beverly grabs his arm to pull him in the direction they’re walking while Jack briefs him on the case they just got called to. 

“I parked on the other side of the building,” Will says as he’s dragged out to one of the parking lots. 

“Ride with me,” Beverly says. “I’ll bring you back later.”

Will nods and gets in Beverly’s car. 

“Where is the scene?” Will asks once they’re on on the road, heading north. He didn’t listen to Jack at all. 

“Baltimore. A concert hall,” Beverly answers. “Where were you when Jack was explaining?”

“Not there, I guess,” Will sighs. “I’ve been… out of it.”

“I can tell,” Beverly says. “Not sleeping? No offense, you look like shit.”

“No, not really,” Will shrugs. “Haven’t seen Hannibal in a few days and we left each other on… not ideal terms.”

“Shit. Was it bad?”

Will shakes his head. “Just needed some space, but that was on Friday and neither of us have bothered calling. I do miss him.”

“You want me to drop you off at his house when we’re done?” Beverly asks. 

Will thinks about it for a second before answering. He misses Hannibal, even though it has only been a few days, and he knows he needs to make the first move if he ever wants to see him again. 

“Yeah. Thanks.”

They pull up in front of the concert hall and both flash their badges to the local police at the entrance. On the stage is a body propped in a chair and as Will gets closer, he can’t help but wonder if it’s the Ripper. Beverly seems to understand what he’s thinking and loops her arm through his as they walk to the stage. 

“No trophies taken,” she says. “It’s not the Ripper.”

Will nods, a flood of relief filling his body. Relief until he realizes that whoever did kill this man is serenading someone, and the display and amount of artistry put into this kill… it’s clear who is being serenaded. 

He doesn’t tell Jack who, just what. 

“Rosin from a bow…” Will murmurs, walking around the body with the exposed vocal chords, and cello neck sticking out. Then he says louder, “He wanted to play him.”

“His name is Douglas Wilson, trombonist for the Baltimore Metropolitan Opera,” Beverly tells him. 

“Was he any good?” Will asks. 

“Ask your boyfriend, I’m sure he would know,” Beverly shrugs. “He likes that stuff, right?”

Will nods. Meaning if this killer was serenading the Ripper, then it’s very, very possible the trombonist was terrible by the standards of someone who would know the difference. 

He can’t explain why, but his mind immediately goes to Tobias Budge. 

He has no proof, no evidence, nothing at all, just a hunch. He will bring it up to Hannibal tonight, but for now he stores that thought away. Instead, he steps into the mind of the killer, trying to find his reasoning behind this kill. Trying to figure out how it’s different from his others—and there are certainly others. No one could kill like this the first time. 

If it is Tobias, Will needs solid proof. If Tobias does know about Hannibal… then Tobias needs to die. He can’t let this man step foot into an interrogation room where he could possibly give Hannibal up as part of a deal. Will has to kill him if Hannibal doesn’t do it first. 

“Will,” Jack calls, pulling Will out of his head. 

Will glances up and sees half the agents staring at him. He looks down at his hand wrapped around the neck of the cello, one hand extended as if holding a bow. He lets go of the neck immediately and takes a step back, separating himself from the scene. He shakes his head a few times, to pull himself out of the killer’s mind. 

“Sorry,” Will mumbles. 

He looks out into the seats, and for a second he swears he sees Garrett Jacob Hobbs sitting in the center. 

“No, no, no,” Will whispers to himself. He can’t be hallucinating. It’s been so soon since he’s been cleared… but he knows stress can cause encephalitis to come back. He knows everyone’s experience is different, and while his last scan seemed fine, he doesn’t know for certain if the illness is truly gone. 

He squeezes his eyes shut and when he opens them, Hobbs is gone, and Beverly has a hand on his upper arm. She looks concerned, but Will just shakes his head.

 “Can you take me to Hannibal’s now? I need to not be here.” Will says. 

She nods and goes over to Jack. Will watches her say something to him, sees Jack turn to look at him, then Jack nods. 

They make it to Beverly’s car and shut both doors before Beverly says anything. 

“Do you want me to drop you off at his office instead so you don’t have to be alone? You seem…” Beverly trails off. 

“I’m fine. His house is fine,” Will mutters. “I just need to take a nap.”

“Alright,” Beverly says. “I told Jack I’m bringing you home, by the way. I didn’t say you’ll be at Hannibal’s house.”

Will nods, not really caring one way or another. Maybe it would just make everything easier to tell everyone about their relationship. Working in the field is once again draining him. All of his stress the last couple of weeks means the encephalitis might be coming back. It would be easier to quit altogether. Then he wouldn’t even need therapy with Hannibal, and all of their concerns wouldn’t matter anymore. 

Every time he walks into Quantico, he feels like one of the profilers is going to take one look at him and know everything. Meaning… Will realizes that means he would have to quit teaching, too. He would have to find a whole new job completely. 

It doesn’t sound so bad anymore. 

He wants to save lives, but the lives he cares about are Hannibal’s, and his own with Hannibal. 

He’s about to say something about quitting to Beverly, but then they pull up to Hannibal’s house, and he gets distracted by the idea of curling up in bed and waiting for Hannibal to get home and cook him dinner. He fishes his keys out of his bag, and thanks Beverly. 

It feels like he’s on autopilot while he walks up to the front door and unlocks it. He’s met in the foyer by Rusty, and when he closes the door, he bends down to kiss the dog on the head. 

“Need to go outside, buddy?” Will asks him, holding the sides of his face, and resting their foreheads together. 

Rusty pulls back and licks his cheek, then dances around on the tiled floor before running off toward the dining room. 

Will opens the slider to let him out into Hannibal’s small, fenced off backyard, and watches him as he runs outside to pee. He wonders how Hannibal feels about the yellow snow in his yard. If it ruins his perfect yard’s aesthetic. It makes him laugh to himself. 

When Rusty comes back to the door, Will finds a towel on one of the dining room chairs that he hopes is meant for wiping off paws, and does exactly that. 

Rusty runs off to do something else, and Will wanders into the kitchen and opens up the fridge. There’s a pitcher of iced tea, and he pours himself a glass. He downs it in two gulps, and goes back for another glass, but the aftertaste stops him. 

He calls Abigail, not ready to talk to Hannibal just yet. 

“Hello?”

“Hey, what’s in that tea in Hannibal’s fridge?” Will asks, going to the sink to fill a glass of water. 

“Uh,” Abigail says. 

“Thought so,” Will sighs. “Great. I had a glass. You know I get drug tested for work, right?”

“Hey, Will. It’s not my fault you showed up after days of radio silence, and the first thing you did was drink our weed tea,” Abigail says, defensively. 

“How long will it take to kick in?” Will asks. He drinks a glass of water and refills the glass. 

“Probably like an hour? Why are you even there?” Abigail asks. 

Will sighs. “There was a case in Baltimore so I’m off for the rest of the day. Figured I would surprise Hannibal, but now I’m going to be stoned.”

“It’s alright. He won’t mind,” Abigail laughs. 

“Do you guys do drugs together?” Will asks. He’s surprised Hannibal keeps anything about the house, but then he remembers that Hannibal gave Abigail shroom tea at some point. 

“Yeah, sometimes. I asked why we don’t ever invite you, and he said it’s because you get drug tested,” Abigail says. “Just go take a nap. And bring water because your mouth is going to get dry.”

“Right,” Will huffs. “Can you let out the dogs later? And then maybe come back here so you can drive me to Quantico in the morning?”

“Sure,” Abigail answers. “Have fun.”

Abigail hangs up and Will goes to the fridge to make a sandwich, using only meat that comes from the grocery store (glad that Abigail sometimes does her own shopping and picks up sliced chicken for sandwiches) and cheese. He wonders if Abigail knows Hannibal keeps human meat stocked in his fridge. Surely she’d taste the similarity between it and her father’s cooking. Will knows he can’t ask without giving any of Hannibal’s identities away to her. If she doesn’t know, he isn’t going to be the one to tell her. 

By the time he gets upstairs, his brain is starting to feel like it’s outside of his skull, not quite up to speed with the rest of his body. He thinks about texting Hannibal to let him know where he is, but the idea of trying to type the correct words seems much too daunting a task. 

Hannibal’s bedroom door is open, and he lights up at the sight in front of him, letting out a big laugh. 

“Are you supposed to be here?” Will asks, looking at Rusty curled up in Hannibal’s bed. 

The dog wags his tail at a rapid pace, stands, barking once at Will from the bed. He watches Rusty stand on the bed, wiggling his butt for what feels like ten minutes, but when he checks his phone again, it’s only been two minutes since he last checked the clock in the kitchen. 

With a frown, he starts undressing himself, and crawls into bed in his boxers, letting Rusty curl up next to him. There’s dog hair already all over the bed, so Will guesses Hannibal has been letting the dog sleep with him the last few days. 

“I won’t tell Hannibal I know, if you won’t,” he whispers to the dog. Rusty licks his face and Will laughs again, nearly a giggle. God, I’m pathetic, Will thinks. He pets his face and kisses his head, then whispers. “Good boy.”

Will hasn’t been high in years. Not since before he joined the force at eighteen. He’s forgotten what it’s like.

When he just lays there, it’s easy to forget, but when he moves his body, he can certainly feel it. Again, he considers texting Hannibal, but his arms don’t quite see the point in moving, so he just lays there. He knows he has had way too much, and it starts to scare him just a little bit. There’s nothing he can do, though. He knows that. 

Now that he’s down on the bed, laying there, he doesn’t think he ever wants to get up. He honestly doesn’t know if he could. 

He eventually finds the remote next to him, tangled in the blankets, which means Hannibal is more of a mess than he previously thought. He clicks on the TV and shuffles through channels, his eyes half closed, his brain on another fucking planet, until he finds Emperor’s New Groove on the Disney channel. 

He closes his eyes for a while, but when he opens them again it’s the same scene he closed them during. It’s a bit disorienting, and he finds himself using the movie as a way of measuring the time that is passing. 

He flips through the channels again until he finds The Hangover, and settles back down on the pillow to watch it until he falls asleep. It’s a lot funnier than he remembers. 


Hannibal arrives home, and gets straight to cooking dinner. He takes off his suit jacket, and drapes it over the chair in the kitchen, then rolls up his sleeves so he can get to work. He has Jack coming over for dinner tonight, and plans to drive to Wolf Trap after to see how Will is doing. He wants to waste no time getting dinner ready and in the oven, so that him and Jack don’t have to wait to eat. 

Rusty comes into the kitchen just a few minutes after he arrives home, appearing very well rested, stretching as if he just woke up from a nap. He fills up the dog bowl with food and gives him a loving pat on the head. 

It’s nice to have a reminder of his life with Will even when Will isn’t speaking to him. 

He sets about cooking for himself, and Jack, making sure to make a third and fourth portion, as well. In case Abigail comes home hungry, and so he can bring Will something if he hasn’t eaten yet. 

Rusty leaves him eventually, heading down the hall toward the stairs. He doesn’t normally leave the kitchen while Hannibal is cooking, so he’s surprised the dog has today. He tries not to think too much of it. 

The doorbell rings, and he lets Jack inside. He pours them each a small glass of wine to start off with while they talk in the kitchen about Bella’s treatment. Hannibal knows the topic of Will is bound to come up any minute, and he tries not to look too eager. He has things to say from a professional standpoint, and beyond that, he always wants to talk about his beloved to anyone who will listen to him.

At the table, the conversation is finally brought there. 

“Our friend Will came to a scene today,” Jack says before taking a sip of wine. 

“And how did he fare?” Hannibal asks. 

“Not great, I must admit,” Jack sighs, shaking his head. “Checked out worse than normal. He looked scared, Doctor Lecter. It was as if he had seen something that spooked him. Beverly drove him home long before we were finished. Has he reached out to you at all today?”

Hannibal frowns. “I will admit, I haven’t spoken to Will since Thursday evening—even then we didn’t get to have our weekly session because he had fallen asleep at his desk. That was why we were both at Quantico that evening,” Hannibal explains. He takes a sip of his wine then sets it back down, straightening the silverware that he set down beside his plate. He adds, “I have been worried about him.” 

“Anything I should be worried about?” Jack asks. 

“He has been stressed, isolating himself from others, and hasn't been sleeping… I’m afraid the amount of stress he has been exhibiting may be enough to cause a relapse in his encephalitis,” Hannibal says carefully. “I was planning on checking in with him tonight, but there’s a chance his work is leading him down an unhealthy path again. It’s troublesome to see how soon in his recovery he is exerting himself like this.”

“What are you suggesting?” Jack asks. 

“I’m suggesting we, at the very least, keep an eye on him, but ideally I’m suggesting we pull him out of the field again.”

Truthfully, Will needs to be separated from these cases because Hannibal knows they’re getting close to Will figuring him out. If he can’t put Will away in a cell, then he needs another way to pull Will away. It was a close enough call when Will suspected he had been drugged that morning—the morning after Hannibal had drugged him. Any number of factors could’ve been the one that led Will in the correct direction that morning. It’s not time yet. 

Hannibal hears the garage door opening, and shutting again. A few seconds later, the mudroom door does the same. 

“That must be Abigail. Excuse me while I fix her a plate,” Hannibal says, standing up. 

He meets Abigail in the kitchen and she takes off her coach and hat, draping them over a chair. 

“Who’s here?” she asks. 

“Jack Crawford,” Hannibal answers. 

“Really… that’s,” Abigail pauses. “Have you talked to Will?” 

“I’m going to go over there tonight,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“You mean he’s not—” Abigail cuts herself off, a puzzled look on her face. 

Hannibal ignores it in favor of pouring her a glass of wine, carrying her plate into the dining room for her. 

“Hannibal,” Abigail murmurs. She looks between him and Jack Crawford then closes her mouth again. 

Peculiar. 

But then Rusty comes barreling into the dining room again, and behind the scent of the dog, Hannibal can smell his love. He hears the quiet footsteps coming down the hall, and stands abruptly, excusing himself. 

The footsteps stop dead in their tracks when Jack says, “When did you get a dog?” 


Will wakes and he’s starving. His head isn’t quite right yet, his mouth is beyond dry and he doesn’t know if he can speak, and his limbs feel all wrong, but he gets up anyway. He stumbles down the hall, Rusty chasing after him. 

He hopes Hannibal is home now so he can kiss him and kiss him. And then so he can yell at him for leaving unlabeled drugs in the fridge. 

He gets to the hall outside the dining room, and hears Hannibal’s quiet, smooth voice murmur, “Excuse me.” 

He wants to run the rest of the way so he can grab Hannibal by the tie and kiss him and hug him. He assumes Hannibal was excusing himself from dinner with Abigail, but then he hears Jack’s voice and stops. 

Showing up in his psychiatrist’s dining room in just his underwear, high off his ass, while his boss from the FBI is sitting there would be suicide at this point. 

He doesn’t register Hannibal in the hallway with him until he’s over Hannibal’s shoulder with Hannibal’s arm secured behind his knees. He almost yelps in surprise, but keeps his mouth clamped shut. 

“You smell of cannabis,” Hannibal says when they’re on the stairs. 

“Huh? Oh, yeah,” Will says. “Label the shit in your fridge.” 

“I think you’ve learned your lesson about consuming things when I’m not here,” Hannibal sighs. 

He enters the room, still carrying Will over his shoulder, and gently sets Will down on the bed. 

Hannibal kisses Will’s forehead, and caresses his cheek. 

“I’m high, Hannibal,” Will whispers. 

“How do you feel?”

Will considers it for a second, licks the inside of his own mouth with his dry tongue, then says, “Thirsty.”

Hannibal picks up the glass from the nightstand and goes into the bathroom. He comes back a minute later with it filled with water and hands it to Will. 

“Gotta admit,” Will says between sips of water. “I just had the best nap of my life.”

“Yes, that can happen,” Hannibal says. He sits down on the edge of the bed, takes Will’s water when Will holds it out, and sets it on the nightstand. He looks at Will so fondly it makes Will sit up and wrap his arm around Hannibal's neck so tight he might kill him. 

“I need to talk to you about something when my head’s clearer,” Will says. “You should get back downstairs before Jack gets suspicious.”

Hannibal hums in agreement, but wraps his arms tight around Will’s waist. He gives him a squeeze before letting go and disentangling from Will’s grip. 

“Send me a message if you need anything,” Hannibal says. He kisses Will’s head, then leaves the room. 

It doesn’t take long before Will remembers how hungry he is. He remembers a line from The Hangover that made him laugh until he gagged earlier, then picks up his phone to text Hannibal. 

paging doctor faggot… 

Then because he doesn’t think Hannibal is going to understand at all, he adds—

i’m starving, babe. bring me something to eat? i was quoting a movie btw

Abigail ends up being the one to bring Will a plate up to bed. She sits down cross legged at the foot of the bed and watches as Will eats. 

“Why do you have that tea, anyway?” Will asks. 

“I qualify for medical marijuana in the state of Maryland because of my PTSD,” Abigail shrugs. “We make things together.”

“Hannibal’s exploiting your mental illness for drugs. Got it,” Will mutters. 

“I mean not entirely,” Abigail says. “He grows his own, too.” 

“Of course he does. Jesus Christ. We’re all going to be arrested,” Will says. “I’m going to be fired.”

“Well, you slept well, right?” Abigail asks. 

“God, yeah. Best nap of my life. Hey, go check if Jack is gone yet.” 

Abigail nods and pushes herself off the bed to go downstairs. 

She comes back around fifteen or twenty minutes later and tells Will he’s finally gone. Will puts on Hannibal’s robe that he keeps hanging behind the bedroom door and goes down to the kitchen. He’s feeling mostly back to normal when he finds Hannibal at the sink, washing dishes.

Will sets his own plate into the sink then stands behind Hannibal, pressing against his back and resting his head in between his shoulder blades. Will snakes his arms around Hannibal’s waist and smiles as Hannibal melts into his embrace. 

“I’ve been thinking,” Will says after a minute. 

Hannibal makes a noise of acknowledgement and continues to wash the dishes. 

“I want to quit,” Will whispers. “Maybe go teach… somewhere else. No more field work, no more murderers.”

“That’s…” Hannibal cuts himself off, then starts again. “I was just suggesting to Jack we pull you from field work. I was going to speak to you about it tonight.”

“I hallucinated today,” Will whispers. “I saw Garrett Jacob Hobbs for the first time since I started my treatment.”

“When was this?” Hannibal asks. 

“At the crime scene,” Will sighs. He rubs his nose against Hannibal's back. It’s comforting, which is exactly what he needs.  “And… I have absolutely no proof at all, but part of me thinks this killer is Tobias.”

“I’ll have to look into the files,” Hannibal says, clearly brushing off the subject of Tobias. “Will, if you are hallucinating again, then I think you should hand in your resignation first thing tomorrow.”

“I need to find another job first. The term just started a few weeks ago… If I wanted to work at a university, they wouldn’t be able to take me until the fall semester.”

Will lets go of Hannibal and steps around him so he can push himself to sit on the counter. 

“Don’t worry about finding another job so soon,” Hannibal says. He shuts off the water and dries his hands on a dish towel. 

Will parts his thighs so Hannibal can step between them, then puts his arms on Hannibal’s shoulders, clasping his hands behind his neck. 

“I need a job. I have bills to pay and dogs to feed,” Will tells him. 

“I could support both of us, even living in separate houses, for the rest of our lives if I never worked another day. Let me take care of you,” Hannibal whispers. “Quit as soon as you can, and let me take care of everything.” 

“I’ll close this case, and make sure my students and replacement are both in good places for me to leave them… and then I will stop,” Will whispers. He rests his forehead against Hannibal’s and breathes him in. “I realized that I… I do care about the lives I’m saving, but there will always be more, and I know I could never save them all. It’s time I care about us. And all this stress I’m facing is exactly what drives me away from you every time there’s a hint of conflict. I’m sorry about Friday.”

“Think nothing of it, beloved,” Hannibal whispers. “You’re here with me now, and that’s all I could ask for.”

Chapter 27

Notes:

Here is a chapter you have all been waiting so patiently for.

Warnings: mentions of homophobia (blink and you’ll miss it, but it’s still there), references to (past) suicide (nothing graphic), and canonical character deaths (all are off screen in this fic)

Chapter Text

Will spends that night at Hannibal’s, then gets a ride to Quantico from Abigail in the morning. Hannibal knows that Will isn’t going to stick with what he said about finishing the case of the dead trombonist, and then quitting. Sure enough, Will texts him letting him know he’ll be out of state for a few days on another case. 

“I thought you would not be taking on more cases,” Hannibal says over the phone that night. He’s laying in bed at Will’s house in Wolf Trap, having promised to look after the dogs during their brief text conversation that morning. 

His darling’s answering sigh is loud and long. 

“It’s not a new case,” Will murmurs. Quiet as if he has to worry about someone overhearing his conversation. “It’s one we haven’t solved yet.”

“Who are you sharing a hotel room with?” Hannibal asks, knowing that’s the exact reason why Will is so quiet. He knows Will is somewhere in Tennessee, likely in a room with one or two other people. Possibly Jack, though he doesn’t know why he couldn’t have shared with Beverly. 

“Zeller and Price,” Will mumbles. “I’m in the bathroom. Zeller might be asleep. I don’t know. I guess it doesn’t matter if Jimmy knows who I’m talking to.”

“You should have requested Miss Katz,” Hannibal says. “Then you could have explained you wanted some privacy so we could talk.”

“Is that the kind of phone call you were hoping for?” Will asks, with a bit of humor in his voice. He lowers his voice to the point that Hannibal is pressing his phone firmly to his ear to hear him. “Are you touching yourself, doctor?”

Hannibal laughs. “No, I’m not. And no, that’s not the type of phone call I was hoping for, darling. I was merely suggesting you’d be more comfortable talking alone. Why didn’t you share with Beverly?”

Will sighs again. “She’s sharing with Alana, actually. So it was either Brian and Jimmy, or Jack, which… Well, who would you choose?”

“I wasn’t aware Alana was called out for this case,” Hannibal says quietly, ignoring Will’s question. It was rhetorical, anyway. He pauses, and Will doesn’t try to fill the silence. Hannibal adds, “Will, love, I think you should come home.”

“Because Alana’s here?” Will hisses. 

Hannibal rubs a hand over his face and turns over onto his side in the bed, holding his phone to his ear not on the pillow. 

“No. Because I’m worried about your health,” Hannibal clarifies. “And because I am sleeping in your bed and you are not here. I would much prefer it if you were here with me.”

“Fucking sap,” Will mutters. “Look, I, um, I can’t come home yet. I’m doing some interviews tomorrow, and as long as they don’t need me after that… I was going to rent a car and drive down to New Orleans.”

“Alone? That’s quite a drive,” Hannibal says. 

“It’s less than six hours from Memphis,” Will says. Hannibal can imagine his shrug, the wave of his hand to dismiss Hannibal’s worries. “I’ll leave after dinner and make it by midnight.”

“Let me fly to Memphis to accompany you,” Hannibal whispers. “I can get on a flight directly after my last appointment tomorrow.”

“Hannibal… I—” Will starts, then pauses. Hannibal knows exactly what he’s going to say next. “This is something I want to do alone.”

“I understand,” Hannibal says. He doesn’t want to accept that. He wants to be there for Will, knowing exactly why he would drive down to New Orleans, but if Will doesn’t want that, then Hannibal can’t push him. “Come home to me as soon as you're ready to.”

“I will,” Will promises. “I have to go, okay? Say hi to the animals for me.” 

“Of course, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will hangs up and leaves Hannibal there, clutching his phone to his ear. He wishes he could be with Will to hold him together, but he figures he’ll have to settle for picking up all the pieces when he returns home. 

Hannibal reschedules his Thursday and Friday appointments just in case Will changes his mind. 


Will leaves the bathroom in the hotel room and stops in the doorway when he sees Jimmy laying with his head in Brian’s lap. Brian sits up against the headboard of the bed that he and Jimmy said they would share. He has a hand resting in Jimmy’s hair, and Jimmy has a hand on Brian’s thigh. It’s so obvious now that Will can’t believe he didn’t see it sooner. 

“Was that Doctor Lecter?” Brian asks, turning his head away from the TV to look at him. 

“That… would depend on how much of the conversation you heard,” Will says carefully. 

“I know, dude. I have known for a while,” Brian says. 

“I didn’t tell him,” Jimmy mumbles. “Figured it out on his own.”

“So you two… you’re…” Will trails off. 

“Bingo,” Brian smirks. “Now you know, and now you know that I know.”

“Does Jack know about you guys?” Will asks. He finally walks further into the room and gets into his own bed. 

“Yeah, Jack knows, but none of us talk about it,” Jimmy answers. “It’s easy to keep it professional. I think if we didn’t, then we wouldn’t be allowed to work together.”

“I think if anyone found out about me and Hannibal we wouldn’t be able to work together, either. Not for the same reasons,” Will says. “I think even if we met under different circumstances and he wasn’t supposed to be my therapist, we still wouldn’t have really told anyone.”

“Does that cause problems? Being so closeted?” Brian asks. “You don’t have to answer… I’m just curious I guess.”

“No, it’s fine,” Will tells him, dismissing his concern about overstepping. “Yeah, sometimes it causes problems. I almost walked into Hannibal’s dining room in my underwear while Jack was over for dinner the other night.”

The three of them laugh about that, make jokes that it’s a good thing Jack didn’t see him like that. Will tells them about how Hannibal stole Rusty for the weekend, and the only reason he stopped walking toward the dining room was because Jack asked about him. Will still has no idea how Hannibal explained the reason behind having one of his dogs. 

In the morning, Will interviews neighbors and a couple shop owners in the neighborhood where the murder took place. He doesn’t really get anything useful, but gives his notes and recordings to the team so they can try and find something themselves. 

He decides to start the drive to New Orleans much earlier than he told Hannibal he would. At the car rental he pulls out his ID for the first time in days to hand it to the person at the desk. Behind it, in the same slot in his wallet, there’s a debit card. One he’s never seen before. He pulls it out, and his name is on the front of it, with a post-it on the back with a four-digit pin in Hannibal’s handwriting written on it.

Not very secure, Will thinks. If Hannibal doesn’t care about the card being lost, and the pin being found, then Will supposes there’s not enough money in the account that would put a serious dent in Hannibal’s finances. 

Once he’s on the road, after he figures out the Bluetooth for his phone, he calls Hannibal. 

“Hello, darling,” Hannibal answers on the second ring. 

“Hey,” Will greets him. “Quick question. When did you put that card in my wallet?” 

“Ah, you just noticed? I was hoping you’d find it at the airport when you removed your ID at the TSA checkpoint, no?”

“I gave them my passport,” Will says. “I just saw it now when I rented a car.”

Hannibal hums in response. “Well, I put it there on Tuesday evening after you went to bed. I figured after we had our conversation about you quitting—did I overstep?”

“What? No, no, Hannibal,” Will assures him. “It’s fine. It’s good, thank you. I was just—I was surprised to see it. You’ve had it for some time? Waiting for me to accept it?”

“Yes,” Hannibal answers. “You need not use it unless you want to. It’s simply there in case you wish to use it.”

“How much?”

“You have access to all of my funds should you need it. Don’t concern yourself with numbers and specifics,” Hannibal says. 

“Hannibal, I—it’s a lot,” Will says. He knew it was coming eventually. “I mean… this is getting serious. I don’t… Maybe we should have this conversation while I’m not fourteen hours away and driving.” 

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. “Drive safely and call me when you check into a hotel.” 

“Alright, babe,” Will agrees. “Bye.”

Will keeps on driving through the day, and by the time he makes it into New Orleans, it’s late. He wonders if Hannibal would be asleep by the time he checks into a hotel and gets settled in. Still, he finds one with a vacancy, and books a room for tonight and the next, and flops down on the bed when he gets there. 

He calls Hannibal, who answers after a few rings, his voice slow and his accent thick when he greets Will. 

“Did I wake you?” Will asks. 

“Mm,” Hannibal hums. It almost sounds like a yes, but as if he doesn’t quite want to admit it. 

“I made it and I’m in my hotel room,” Will tells him, anyway. “I miss you.” 

“Miss you more,” Hannibal mumbles. “Come home to me.”

Will laughs quietly, feeling so fond. It’s endearing how sleepy Hannibal sounds. No one else ever gets to hear him like that besides Will, and his chest tightens with how much love he feels. He wants to get on the next flight to Virginia so he can crawl into bed with Hannibal and his dogs, but he has things to do before he can go home. 

“Soon. I promise,” Will whispers. 

He doesn’t have to whisper tonight. He has the entire room to himself, no Zeller or Price and their eavesdropping ears. Still, it’s a conversation just for him and Hannibal, and it feels right to keep his voice low. Just for Hannibal to hear. 

“Not soon enough,” Hannibal protests. “Get some rest, darling.”

“It won’t be any good,” Will sighs. “But I’ll try. You have the dogs in bed with you?”

Hannibal yawns on the other end of the phone, but he doesn’t answer the question. 

“I know you do. Give them all a kiss for me,” Will requests. “I’ll see you soon. I can come home on Saturday unless I meet some old friends—Sunday at the latest, okay?”

“Saturday,” Hannibal whispers, and Will knows he’s deliberately ignoring the possibility that Will is going to stay until Sunday. “Sounds lovely. I shall see you Saturday.”

Will can’t help but laugh. “We’ll see. Now go back to bed.”

He doesn’t end up telling anyone he’s in town. He doesn’t want this weekend to be spent drinking with old friends from the force. He knows it’ll be a lot of time spent where everyone’s trying to figure out if he’s with anyone, what he’s doing for work, if he still does that thing at crime scenes, and other things he doesn’t feel ready to talk about with people he hasn’t seen in years. 

There’s only two people he wants to talk to, and neither of them are in any position to start asking questions. 

He stops at a store to pick up a few things then heads over to the cemetery Lucille is in. 

The weather is so much nicer than Virginia now, that Will wants to spend the entire day outside walking through the cemetery. He easily could, but he knows his thoughts are just an excuse to stall.

He walks through the cemetery gates, a bouquet of flowers in one hand, and a map to the plot in the other. When he finds the tomb Lucille is in, he sets the flowers down in front of it, and stands there, thinking about what he needs to say. What he wants to say. 

Even without anyone else in the cemetery, Will feels self conscious about speaking, but he knows he won’t feel right unless he does. 

He shuffles on his feet a bit, shoves his hands into his jeans pockets, pulls one out to run it through his short hair, then takes a deep breath. 

“It’s been a while,” Will says with a sad laugh. “I called you before I got called into the field… I said I’d come down to see you in the summer when I was done with classes... I didn’t think that would be the last time we talked.” 

Will wipes a tear off his face, his throat tight with emotion, but he pushes on. “I met someone. I think you would’ve liked him just because he’s good to me, if not for any other reason. He’s a great cook even if his ingredient choices are… Well, I’ll let you rest in peace not knowing,” he laughs again, and it catches on a sob. He takes a second before continuing, “My best friend has kids now, and she named one after you… I think little Lucy and her brother Mischa are the closest I’ll get to raising a kid. I have Abigail Hobbs, too, but only because I killed her father. She’s nineteen, so it’s not like I’m raising her, but she’s still like a daughter to me.” 

Will sighs. He screws his eyes shut, and tries to ground himself. He suddenly wishes he hadn’t done this alone. Hannibal being here would’ve made it all so much easier. He should bring him down here one day to visit. He wishes he could’ve met Hannibal a few years sooner so he could have brought him to meet Lucille in person. They would’ve gotten along. Afterall, they both have taking care of Will in common. Lucille took care of him when he needed it, and Hannibal does it because he wants it. 

“I don’t know if I like the person I’m becoming, but I… I’m loved, and you’ve always known that’s something I’ve been scared would never happen. Anyway… I’ll forever be grateful for the home you gave me, and for all the nights we spent on your porch talking about everything and nothing. I should’ve called more, I should’ve come down to visit more often. God knows I need more vacations,” Will laughs again. “That’s… that’s it, I think.”

He sets his hand on the tomb, and runs his hand over her name. Below her, her husband who died before Will came along is resting, as well. Will never knew him, but he heard stories every day. He saw so many pictures. Lucille had never married again after her husband died. Will thinks he would do the same if Hannibal ever died before him. 

He pushes that thought away. He doesn’t want it. 

“Goodbye, then,” Will says. 

He doesn’t know how else to end his speech, but Lucille never made him talk if he didn’t want to, and never cared if he didn’t make any sense when he did. He turns and walks from the cemetery. He feels better having gone, but he doesn’t think he’ll ever get rid of the guilt he feels for not calling more, and for not going to the funeral. 

Even though she would have understood, Will feels like he still should have gone. He should’ve brought Hannibal. 

Will’s next stop is infinitely harder. He drives with shaking hands, and blurry eyes. He knows he should pull over and get a grip, but he wants to get this done and get on a flight home, so he keeps going. 

Standing in front of another grave now, he bends down and sets a bottle of his dad’s favorite whiskey and a pack of the cigarettes he always smoked next to the headstone. He stands again and stares down at the name engraved in the stone. 

William Graham

Everyone called him Bill, though. Will thinks he was given the name Will instead of William so no one would call him Bill instead. He never thought to ask. 

“Hey, daddy,” Will whispers. “I know it’s been… shit, eighteen years? I think the last time I came to see you was the day I got accepted into the police academy. I’m here now, though.”

Will looks down at the bottle of whiskey, and the cigarettes, and can hear his dad saying something about wasting money, so he picks them back up. He slides the pack of cigarettes into his pocket, and tucks the bottle under his arm. Maybe he’ll have a drink and a smoke later in honor of his father, rather than leaving them as a gift. 

“I know you always told me… you said ‘Will, grow up and marry a nice woman with a rich daddy, and get the hell out of here,’ and well… I got the hell out of here, didn’t I? I can tell you now I’m not marrying a nice woman with a rich father… in fact I’m with a nice man, and yes he’s rich, but that’s not… that’s not why I love him. And you know what? Even if he’s not a woman, he fits all your criteria for a good wife, so I don’t think you could ever be disappointed about it,” Will laughs. “You’d’ve hated Hannibal at first. I know I didn’t really like him when I met him, but he grows on a person. Charming as hell, easy on the eyes. He has his issues, but… he’s good to me, and I think I’ll end up marrying him.” 

He can’t help but wonder how his dad would feel about him being with a man. When he was a kid and had long hair, and didn’t mind if the only shoes at Goodwill in his size were pink, his dad never really said anything. The other men that worked on the docks would always say something whenever Will was around to help out as a teenager. Like he told Hannibal—the woman in the restaurant wasn’t the first person to ever call him a homphobic slur. His dad never joined, but he never really stopped the other guys, either. 

“You might be rolling in this grave right now thinking about me marrying a man, huh? Well, I guess I don’t fucking care,” Will mutters. “I wish… I wish you were still alive today. I wish you would’ve told someone you were struggling, and maybe you could’ve gotten the help you needed. I don’t… fuck, dad. Do you know what it was like to get the call you… anyway, when I got to the hospital and just had to sit there and wait for you to either die or not, and then you fucking did because…” Will shakes his head. 

“Sorry,” Will mumbles. “It just sucks, okay? You were my best friend growing up, and then I was barely eighteen, and you were fucking gone. And I have to live every day wondering if there was something I could have done… if I would have gone with you when you left for that job instead of staying in New Orleans, then maybe things would’ve been different.”

Will sits down then, pulling his knees to his chest, and resting his forehead on them. 

“Good thing I’m dating a psychiatrist, I think. It’s pretty fucking clear mental illness runs in the family, even if neither of us were ever diagnosed,” Will sighs. “Hannibal keeps thinking I’m going to kill myself, I think. I couldn’t leave him alone like that. Not that I even considered doing it, but he’s been worried because I’ve been depressed. God knows he’d go on a spree if I did, though. He would make sure everyone that ever contributed to any of my issues was destroyed. Probably shouldn’t say that shit out loud though, huh?”

Will figures no one’s around, and his dad is in the fucking ground, so why not tell him that his boyfriend is a serial killer? Who’s he going to tell? Besides, Will thinks if his dad were bothered that he’s with a man, he’d get over it real fast if he ever found out about the cannibalism part of him. 

That causes Will to laugh a bit, and he really feels crazy, but he can’t help it. 

He tells his dad about his dogs, about Mischa and Lucy, and about Abigail. He even mentions that he’s planning on quitting at the FBI because, for some reason, telling his dead father about it makes him feel like he’s actually obligated to go through with it. 

He leaves the cemetery and stops at a gas station to pick up a lighter, then stands outside the car smoking his first cigarette since moving to Virginia. All he can think about is how Hannibal is going to smell it on him, but it doesn’t make him stop. 

Jack calls as he drops the butt into a cigarette receptacle, and he bites back an annoyed groan. 

“Yeah?” Will answers. 

He goes back into the gas station to get himself some snacks and drinks because he knows what’s coming next.

“Is there any way you can get back to Memphis? We have another scene,” Jack says. 

“Yeah,” Will answers. “I’m driving, though? From New Orleans.”

“We don’t need you to read the scene, but we’ll need you to read everything else. Just get here when you can,” Jack says. 

Will hangs up, and buys himself a sandwich too. He goes back to his hotel and checks out early, then realizes he needs to call Hannibal again. 

“I’m going back to work on the case,” Will says when Hannibal answers. “I’m not going to be home until… Well, I don’t know when I’ll be home.” 

“I really wish you would say no to Jack,” Hannibal says. “I’m booking a flight.”

“And what? How am I going to explain why you’ve shown up to a crime scene you weren’t asked to work?” Will asks. He finishes shoving his clothes back into his bag and slings his bag over his shoulder. “I’ll call you when I get there.”

Hannibal sighs louder than Will’s ever heard him sigh. 

He does call when he gets there, but Hannibal is asleep and doesn’t answer. 


Hannibal sees Will’s missed call in the morning, and listens to the message. 

“Made it back to Memphis. Sharing a room with Jack this time, unfortunately for us. I won’t be able to call tomorrow, I don’t think, but I should get some time alone at some point. Text me?” Will’s voice sounds tired and rough. Hannibal wonders if he’s slept at all since he left, if he’s taking care of himself at all. Likely not. 

Hannibal texts him before getting up to feed the dogs. 

Jack is likely a better roommate than Mr Zeller and Mr Price. I imagine they bicker like an old married couple over the TV guide, or what to order for dinner. Sharing with Jack is not ideal for our communication, though, you are correct. Call me when you are able to. I’ll be waiting eagerly. 

He enjoys staying in Wolf Trap and wouldn’t mind moving there permanently if Will just says the word. Will just doesn’t seem quite ready for that level of commitment yet. The biggest issue is that he would need some sort of hidden room to conduct business, and that’s not quite possible in Will’s home. 

They can’t move in together until Will knows the full truth, and Hannibal… Hannibal isn’t ready for that. 

Sunday means Hannibal has nothing to do except for grocery shopping. He decides to go to a high end pet store and buy new collars, beds, and toys for each dog. He even gets Beatrice a new cat tree, even if Hannibal doesn’t believe she deserves it after how many of his ties she has latched onto with her front claws and attempted to choke him with. 

As promised, Will doesn’t call. It leaves Hannibal disappointed, even though he knew it would be this way. 

Monday morning he has to get to the office early. Franklyn insisted on Thursday that he needed to have two appointments this week if Hannibal was cancelling their regular session. Hannibal reluctantly agreed to squeeze him in Monday morning, so that’s where he is now. 

Across from Franklyn, who is twitchier than usual. He’s sweating profusely. Fear and anxiety pouring out of every pore. Hannibal wants to plug his nose and back his chair up a few feet. 

It’s apparent why Franklyn is acting this way, the second he opens his mouth and starts with, “If I think someone was involved in a murder, do I have to report it?”

Tobias, Hannibal thinks. 

“Do you have any reason not to?” Hannibal asks. 

“What if I’m wrong?”

“What if you are not?” Hannibal asks. 

“I’m always wrong,” Franklyn exclaims, throwing his hands in the air. 

He goes on to explain the dark things Tobias has said, and how they line up with the murder at the symphony hall. Hannibal makes a note to pay Tobias a visit at his shop during his lunch break. 

He makes the decision not to tell Will about any of this until he comes home. He doesn’t need Will worrying himself about Hannibal’s safety while he’s several states away, and unable to do anything about it. 

He also needs to come up with a plan. 


Will does end up getting to call on Monday, and Hannibal tells him he had an appointment with Franklyn—the first of two this week. Will asks if he said anything about Tobias, but Hannibal dodges the question. Which means yes, but Will doesn’t push. 

Hannibal doesn’t tell him about Tobias, and well, Will doesn’t tell him he’s picked up smoking again, or that Brian Zeller now knows about their relationship, or that he is definitely losing his mind on this case. If Hannibal can keep secrets, then Will is going to as well. 

Will ends up staying in Tennessee until the case is closed early Wednesday afternoon. Alana gives him a ride home from the airport. 

“Did you want to come in for a coffee?” Will asks, feeling like he has to after the allnighter they had, and then the plane ride. 

“Sure,” Alana says with a smile. 

Will knows Hannibal is home in Baltimore, as is Abigail. Will assured them he’d be home tonight, and come over Thursday night after his appointment, even though he wants to see Hannibal as soon as Alana goes home. 

He unlocks the door and lets the dogs swarm, running out to meet him. No Rusty again. Will smiles, rubbing Winston’s head while Zoe nudges his leg. Alana stands in the doorway behind him. 

“You missing one?” Alana asks. 

“Abigail took a liking to Rusty, so I guess she took him with her after feeding them this week,” Will lies. 

He stands and walks into the kitchen, turning his head to make sure Alana is following. 

He turns around and switches on the light in the kitchen, and she bumps into him, obviously not paying attention to where she’s going. Distracted by something. 

He grabs her by the arms to steady her, and lets go as soon as she’s properly on his feet again, but it seems that Alana has other ideas. She puts her hands on his cheeks and tilts her face up, moving closer. Before he can really process what’s happening, her lips are on his. He doesn’t move, he doesn’t breathe, and then he pulls away when his brain finally catches up to the situation. 

“Ah,” Will says. “No, I’m sorry.”

He steps away, shaking his head, and Alana’s face flickers through several different emotions. Confusion, hurt, confusion again, then— 

“I thought…” Alana whispers, shaking her head. “I… God, I cannot believe myself.”

“Hey, look, it’s just that… I’m dating someone. I have been for months now,” Will says. 

“I cannot believe this happened again,” Alana says, completely exasperated, throwing her hands in the air. “I should go. I’m sorry.” 

Will doesn’t know what to say, so he just turns and lets her leave. He counts to fifteen, goes and lets the dogs inside and feeds them all, then makes sure Beatrice’s automatic feeder is working. All the water bowls are full. 

He changes his clothes, knowing his own smell like cigarettes and the airplane. He doesn’t want to waste time showering, so he doesn’t, and Hannibal can just deal with that. 

On the drive to Baltimore, Will has time to think about what he’s going to say—how he’s going to diffuse Hannibal before he can do anything rash. 

He thinks he should’ve called ahead seeing as Hannibal is not expecting him tonight, but if he does, Hannibal will know sometimes wrong. If he finds out what’s wrong before Will gets there to tell him first, then everything Hannibal decides to do after is out of Will’s hands. 

He parks in the street, not wanting to waste time with the garage door opening, and runs up to the front door. It’s unlocked when he tries it, so he pushes through into the house and immediately kicks off his shoes and shrugs off his jacket. 

Hannibal comes into the room, his body clearly in defense mode, but softens when Will’s eyes meet his. 

“Alana Bloom kissed me,” Will says in lieu of a greeting. 

Hannibal looks at him, dumbfounded, and Will just walks forward, kisses him on the cheek and pulls him in for a hug. 

“And hi,” Will murmurs. “Missed you like crazy.” 

“You smell of cigarettes and Alana’s perfume,” Hannibal whispers, breathing Will in. 

“Yeah,” Will agrees. 

He lets go of Hannibal and starts explaining what happens as he walks toward the dining room. 

He pauses. 

“You had a guest?” Will asks. Abigail wouldn’t have left a plate on the dining room table like the one currently left there. She wouldn’t have left in the middle of dinner, at all. 

“A colleague. You just missed him,” Hannibal says, picking up both plates. “Good for us, I have dessert for two.”

Will knows Hannibal is lying. 

“Who was it, Hannibal?”

“Another therapist.”

“Hannibal, cut the shit,” Will warns. 

“It was Tobias. Perhaps you should interview him tomorrow at his music shop,” Hannibal says. “Bring backup.”

“How did you find him?” Will asks. 

“If anyone asks, I nearly broke doctor-patient confidentiality to tell you,” Hannibal says, simply. He goes into the kitchen then, and Will follows. “Franklyn did tip me off about things Tobias said in regards to the concert hall murder.”

“I have to call Jack,” Will says, reaching for his phone. 

“Tomorrow,” Hannibal says firmly. “Tonight you are here with me.” 

“Okay. Tomorrow,” Will agrees. 

They skip on dessert, and Hannibal instead guides Will up to the bedroom, and slowly undresses him. Will returns the favor, but much faster. 

Hannibal takes his time touching and kissing every part of Will’s body, as if it’s all new and he has to map out every inch of it. Will supposes it’s been a while, and Hannibal feels the need to relearn everything he knows. Will finds himself needing to make sure Hannibal is truly there, and he pulls the man up for a kiss, then wraps his arms around Hannibal’s waist to pull him down on top of him. 

They rock together, erections sliding against each other between their stomachs, gasping into each other’s mouths as they attempt to get off. 

Hannibal bites into Will’s shoulder as Will feels his release between their stomachs. Will follows not too long after, holding Hannibal close as the man on top of him shakes. 

Will rubs a hand up and down Hannibal’s back, trying to get him to calm down. It’s a state Will doesn’t think he’s ever seen Hannibal in. Not like this. He’s shaking, and breathing heavily. 

“Alright?” Will asks. 

As if Hannibal can just turn it all off with the click of a button, he stops. 

“Perfect,” Hannibal murmurs into Will’s neck. 

He rolls over and lays on his back next to Will, and they turn their heads to look at each other. Hannibal inhales again, scenting the air. All Will smells is sex and sweat, but he knows Hannibal is smelling something else. Will knew he would only get away with it for so long after brushing Hannibal’s observation off in the foyer. 

“You have been smoking?” Hannibal asks. 

“Bought a pack to leave at my dad’s grave, and decided to smoke it instead,” Will explains with a yawn. He feels sleep fast approaching, and shuts his eyes, mumbling, “I’ll quit when the pack’s gone, don’t worry, sweetheart.” 

Hannibal makes a pleased noise, whether at the term of endearment, or at Will’s promise to quit, Will doesn’t know. He gets out of bed, leaving Will where he is.

Will only vaguely registers the feeling of Hannibal wiping off his stomach and dick, and pulling the blanket up and over him. 

“Thanks,” Will mumbles. 

Hannibal pushes Will to lay on his side rather than his back, and Will feels the press of his boyfriend's chest against his own back. It feels good to be home. 

“Don’t you have to clean up the kitchen?” Will mumbles. He sinks back into Hannibal’s chest and pulls his arm tighter around him. 

“It can wait,” Hannibal murmurs. He kisses right below Will’s ear, and Will turns his face for one more proper kiss. “Goodnight, darling.”

“Night, baby,” Will whispers. 

Will sleeps in later than he planned on, and when he gets out of bed, Hannibal is no longer in the bedroom at all. He gets dressed, skips a shower, and heads downstairs to find Abigail sitting at the counter, with Rusty on the floor next to her stool. 

“Morning,” Abigail says. 

“Hannibal’s already at work?” Will asks. He goes to his coffee contraption and tries to make it work. Usually Hannibal is still home to do it for him. He decides he’ll get a coffee from a gas station on the way to Tobias’s shop. 

“Yeah. He had an early appointment, I guess,” Abigail shrugs. “He’s been rearranging a lot of appointments lately.”

“Has he?” Will asks. He sees a pan of brownies on the counter and reaches for a knife to cut one. 

“Don’t eat those,” Abigail says. 

Will sighs and aborts his mission. “Is there anything in this house that will not get me high?” 

“That loaf of bread is fine,” Abigail says pointing to the loaf on the counter. 

Will slices two pieces off and puts them in the toaster. 

“I have to call Jack,” Will mumbles, taking out his phone. 

“Graham,” Jack answers. “You better have something good for me.”

“I have a lead on Douglas Wilson’s murder,” Will tells him. “One of Doctor Lecter’s patients has a friend that owns a shop in Baltimore specializing in stringed instruments. I’m going to interview him, but I need backup.”

“I’ll call Baltimore PD,” Jack offers. “They might be able to spare a few guys today. Should they expect you in a little over an hour, then?”

Not wanting to put it off that long, Will says, “No, I’m already in Baltimore. More like twenty minutes.”

“Alright,” Jack says. No questions asked, which Will feels relieved about. “I’ll tell them to meet you there.”

Will arrives at Chordophone String Shop exactly twenty minutes later, and meets two Baltimore police officers outside the shop. 

Inside, Tobias greets them. 

“Will Graham, yes, I remember you,” Tobias says, shaking Will’s hand. “You’re dating Doctor Lecter.”

Will glances at the two police officers beside him, but they don’t show anything on their faces about it, so Will just nods, and says, “Uh yeah. I am.” 

“What can I help you gentlemen with today?” Tobias asks, a polite smile on his face. Will knows it’s forced—practiced. 

“We’re investigating the murder of Douglas Wilson,” Will says. 

“The trombonist,” Tobias confirms. 

“Did you know him?” Will asks.

He watches as Tobias adjusts something on an instrument next to him, and Will can’t help but wonder if he’s searching for a weapon. He knows Tobias killed the trombonist, he just has to prove it through his questions. He needs to find something substantial that they can arrest him on. 

“I knew of him,” Tobias answers. “Baltimore is a small city. Even smaller is our cultural arts community.”

“That’s why we’re here,” Will nods. 

The officers stand silent next to him, and Will can tell they’re getting bored. Dropping their guards down because Tobias doesn’t seem like a suspect to them in this case, with his polite smiles, calm demeanor, and his obvious signs of wealth. It’s easy for them to overlook him. Will knows that’s a big reason why Hannibal continues to get away with his crimes, as well. 

“I heard someone cut him open and tried to play him like a violin,” Tobias says. 

“Why do you say try?” Will asks. 

“Well, strings have to be treated, of course,” Tobias answers. “You can’t expect to open someone and make a sound.”

“The strings were treated. Similarly to how catgut strings are treated,” Will tells him. “We kept those details out of the press.”

Will’s phone starts ringing in his pocket, but he ignores it. Whoever it is can wait just a few more minutes. 

“Looking for someone who manufactures catgut strings?” Tobias asks, raising an eyebrow and tilting his head. 

Will knows Tobias is suspicious. He has to know Will knows at this point. With Will’s relationship to Hannibal, it has to have been obvious since the moment Will walked in the door. 

His phone stops ringing and immediately starts again.

“Sorry, I have to take this,” Will says, pulling his phone out of his pocket and walking outside to the street. “Hello?”

“Will,” Alana breathes. “I hope I’m not interrupting anything?”

“I’m, uh, interviewing a suspect right now,” Will admits. “Is everything okay?”

“I wanted to apologize,” Alana says. “I should have realized sooner that you were ignoring my advances and avoiding me… I’m sorry for kissing you.”

“It’s alright, Alana,” Will sighs. “Look, I need to get back inside. Maybe we could have dinner? As friends.”

“I’d like that,” Alana agrees. “Sorry for keeping you.”

“It’s fine,” Will says. “Bye, Alana.”

Will goes back inside, looking at his phone as he walks into the main room, muttering an apology. He looks up and doesn’t see anyone. 

“Officers?” Will calls out. Nothing. 

He goes into a room off to the side, and sees the pooling blood first, and then the body. He immediately calls for an emergency response team and pulls his gun out of its holster. 

He finds an open door leading to a basement, and downstairs he can hear a faint scratching noise. Gun held out in front of him, he moves slowly down the stairs, following the sound. 

The basement makes him stop in his tracks, thinking of Hannibal’s basement. He tries to keep himself focused, but the memory of Miriam Lass and surgical tools show up in his mind, and then in front of him, too. 

Now is not the time for hallucinations, Will tells himself, blinking twice to push the images away to reveal new ones. 

Ropes of intestines in jars on shelves, over basins drying, and Will knows this is where Tobias makes his “cat” gut strings. There are different stages of the string making process all over the room. 

Will hears the sound again, and moves further into the basement room, toward a white curtain separating the room in half. 

He pushes it aside and finds the second officer on his knees, strings wrapped around his face, bent over a basin. The scratching sound coming from his hand, metal strings dangling from his arm, swinging against the cement floor. 

Distracted, Will barely gets his hand up in time to stop Tobias’s strings attempting to get around his neck. The man is pressed against his back, trying to strangle him. Will lifts the gun over his shoulder and shoots, uncaring about the proximity to his own head, uncaring of how loud it’s going to be in his ear. 

One shot and he’s released, but he’s much too disoriented to chase after. 

He must stand there for a while, his hands covering his ears, trying to get rid of the ringing, for a long time. He nearly punches an EMT when he opens his eyes to see someone standing in front of him. 

“Mister Graham?” the woman asks. 

Will nods. 

“Are you hurt?”

Will feels the searing pain in his arm where Tobias’s strings cut into the skin. He lifts his hand and shows her, blood trailing down his wrist, over his fingers. His jacket sleeve is ripped, and below it he can see the lacerations. 

“Let’s get you upstairs, and fixed up,” she says. 

Will nods, and he’s led up the stairs and back into daylight. Jack is on the scene, calling out orders. 

“We need to find him!” Jack calls out. “Will! Do you know where he would’ve gone?”

All Will can think about is how he wants Hannibal. He doesn’t want some stranger tending to his wounds, he wants Hannibal to do it. He’s more than qualified, and he sent Will here, so he might as well fix it. 

He sent me here, Will thinks again. He gave Tobias up to the Feds, and Will knows exactly what happens to people who do that. 

“Hannibal,” Will says to Jack. “He’s the one that told me. Tobias is going there, Jack. We have to go.”

“Sir, I need to bandage you up,” the EMT says. 

“No. No,” Will yells. “No! We need to get to Hannibal’s office now, Jack!” 

“Will, calm down,” Jack says. 

Will can’t. He can’t. He needs to get to Hannibal, and he needs to fucking kill Tobias before he can hurt Hannibal. He’s about to run across the street to his car when Jack grabs him by the arms from behind. Will fights against him, trying to break free, but Jack is so much bigger and stronger than him. 

“Let me go!” Will screams. “I need to go!” 

“Will, get a grip. I’m sending officers over there now. You need to calm the fuck down,” Jack growls in his ear, arms wrapped tight around Will as he continues to struggle. 

“He’s going to kill Hannibal, Jack. He’s going to kill him,” Will sobs. He deflates against Jack’s chest, and feels himself being lowered to the sidewalk as tears stream down his face. 

He hears Jack calling out to people, but doesn’t hear the words. He feels gentle hands on his arm, and looks down to see someone covering it with gauze. He’s already been cleaned up, no more blood all over his hand. Bodies are on stretchers, and ambulances are already being packed up and sent away. Will didn’t register most of that happening. 

“Will,” Jack says, a hand on his shoulder now. 

Will looks up at Jack, crouching on the ground next to him. Will’s eyes are still blurry, and his throat feels so raw. He must have been screaming more than he thought…

“Doctor Lecter just called me, Will,” Jack says gently. “He’s hurt, but he’s alive.”

“I need to see him,” Will says, pushing himself off the ground. He pats his pockets for his keys, but can’t locate them. “I need to know for sure. I need to see him. I’m—I need to go. Jack, where are my keys?”

“You need to give me a statement, and go home, Will,” Jack says. “You just spent the last ten minutes screaming your head off and not responding to anything anyone said to you, and now someone is going to drive you and your car home.”

“No!” Will yells. “I need to go, Jack. I need to know he’s okay. I just need to.”

“Alright, alright,” Jack says, putting his hands out like he’s trying to calm a spooked horse, and Will wants to scream again. “I’ll drive you.”

Jack holds Will’s keys up, then, to show him that he has them, and Will runs across the street to his car, standing on the passenger side while he waits for Jack to unlock it. Will thinks of the key to Hannibal’s house on his keychain, and wonders if Jack knows what door it belongs to, or if he’s going to ask. He doesn’t ask. 

Will finally gets into the passenger seat, and Jack gets into his driver’s seat. He knows that letting Jack drive is the best way to make this go smoothly. He’d never let Will drive in the state he’s in, and that’s probably for the best. Will thinks he might drive off the road if he gets behind the wheel now.

A pair of Hannibal’s sunglasses sit in a cup holder, and one of Hannibal’s ties is hanging from the rearview mirror for some reason. A pair of shoes in the backseat, a waist coat in Will’s foot well. Jesus, Will thinks to himself. 

“That’s considered a windshield obstruction,” Jack says, nodding to the tie. “You could get pulled over for that in Maryland and Virginia.”

“Huh,” Will says. “I wasn’t aware.”

He yanks the tie down, and throws it into the back seat. He doesn’t notice these types of things until someone that doesn’t know about him and Hannibal are around. Like books on both nightstands, or Hannibal’s coat by the front door. 

Jack turns on the car then, and starts the drive to Hannibal’s office. Will shakes in the passenger seat. He doesn’t know if Hannibal’s really okay, or if Jack was lying to calm him down from the explosive state he was in. 

They pull up outside of Hannibal’s office, and Will doesn’t even wait until the car is in park before he gets out and runs through the line of police outside the building, under the police tape at the door, and into the waiting room. Someone yells after him—maybe Jack, or maybe an officer who doesn’t know him, or why he’s here. 

He runs right into Hannibal’s office and freezes. He calms himself down. There’s too many people, and he knows he can’t cause two scenes in one day, at two different crime scenes. One deep breath, two, three. 

He looks around frantically, taking in the scene before him, but he can’t focus on any of that until he knows Hannibal is okay. His shoulders slump, relief flooding into him when he sees him.

Hannibal sits at his desk, looking down into his lap. Wounds on his face, blood on his suit. Bodies on the ground. Two of them. One could have been Hannibal. This could have been it for them. 

People are cleaning up the room, Jack Crawford has just come in and is now talking to several agents, not paying attention to Will or Hannibal at the moment. 

He could have lost Hannibal today. He could have died himself, down in the basement of Tobias Budge’s shop. And all this time he has been too scared to tell Hannibal how he really feels. He was so close to never getting the chance. 

It takes everything in him not to run to the man. When Hannibal stands, looking at Will, so much relief and adoration on his face, Will can’t help it anymore. He closes the distance between them and throws himself at Hannibal, not at all concerned about who is around them or what just happened. 

He wraps his arms tight around Hannibal’s neck, kisses his cheek once, then again, careful of the wounds there. He doesn’t even think about the other people in the room. Just the fact that Hannibal is okay, and that he won, and that Tobias is no longer a threat. That Will has one less thing to worry about. 

Hannibal’s arms don't immediately come around his waist like Will expected them to. They hang in mid air, hands inches from Will’s body. 

“Will, someone’s going to see us,” Hannibal whispers. 

And at that moment nothing matters. Nothing except him and Hannibal and how badly Will needs the embrace to be returned, to know Hannibal is really here and really alive and not in one of those body bags on the floor. 

“I don’t care. I don’t care,” Will repeats. “I love you. I love you so much. Don’t fucking scare me like this again.”

He doesn’t even realize he actually said it until Hannibal’s arms are finally around his waist, pulling him tight to his body. 

“Will,” Hannibal breathes.  “My love. I thought you were dead.”

“I thought—I thought today was it for us,” Will sobs. “I thought Tobias was going to kill you. I thought I wouldn’t get here in time. I don’t—I don’t,” he shakes his head, not knowing what he’s going to say, so he stops completely.

“We both survived,” Hannibal whispers, pressing his lips to the top of Will’s head. 

“Come home with me,” Will whispers. “Don’t leave my side for days.”

“I wouldn’t dream of it,” Hannibal whispers. 

Someone clears their throat behind Will, and he pulls away to see Jack looking at both of them from a few feet away. 

“Doctor Lecter, a word, please,” Jack requests. “Will, could you give us a moment?”

Will nods, and steps away, going to the ladder in the corner. The upper level is the only place no one is standing, so he climbs up and walks along the shelves, looking over the railing. 


“You can’t be Will’s therapist anymore,” Jack says. “I knew something was going on between you two.”

“I don’t know what you mean, Jack,” Hannibal says. “Will and I are just fr—”

“Do not say ‘ friends,’ Doctor Lecter,” Jack hisses. “He just spent fifteen minutes screaming bloody murder at the thought of you being hurt. He refused to go home because he needed to see you. Your clothes are in his car! His dog was at your house last week!”

Hannibal shuts his mouth when he realizes it’s been hanging open. He frowns, and thinks of what words to say, but for once, nothing comes. He glances up and see’s Will’s eyes trained on him from where he stands on the mezzanine. He knows Will heard what Jack said, just as he knows the entire room did because every pair of remaining eyes is on them now. Hannibal is glad most of the scene is cleared and it’s just Beverly, Zeller and Price and a few local police lingering behind. Mister Zeller doesn’t seem surprised, and Hannibal knows then, that he also knows. 

“What do you want me to say, Jack?” Hannibal asks. “You want me to say I’ve fallen in love with Will Graham? That we have been dating since the day Nicholas Boyle attempted to kill Abigail? That I am the one person who has kept him together all these months while he’s been run to the ground by this work? Then fine, but I am not going to stop being Will’s support. If he continues to work for you, then he will continue to see me just as we have been doing the entire time.”

Hannibal watches as Zeller, Price, and Beverly, back out of the room. He sees Will’s mouth hanging open, complete surprise on his face. 

Jack looks like he’s about to burst. 

“Then I’m going to report you for ethical violations,” Jack says. 

“On what grounds? Will has never officially been my patient, except for the psychological evaluation I did over a month before we began seeing each other. It’s by your design that there are no records of our appointments other than my private patient notes,” Hannibal says. “It’s your call Jack. You may do as you please, but I would advise you to make certain that your lawyer is available should you find yourself in court for a defamation case when you can’t provide substantial proof of unprofessionalism between Will and I.”

Jack turns and Zeller, Price, and Beverly are standing in the doorway, poking their heads into the frame. Will climbs down the ladder then, and slowly walks over to Hannibal and Jack. He grabs onto Hannibal’s hand, standing slightly behind him. He holds Hannibal’s left hand in both of his. Hannibal gives him a reassuring squeeze. 

“Those three know, don’t they?” Jack asks, turning back around to address Hannibal again. 

“Yes, Jack,” Will answers. 

“For how long?”

“Beverly has known the entire time,” Will says. “Jimmy maybe two months ago, and Brian found out last week.” 

“No, I found out a month ago, I think,” Brian says from the doorway. “I only told you a week ago.”

“Well,” Jack says. 

“Jack. You’re not going to tell anyone,” Will says. “I was going to quit after this case, which I know you do not want. If you want me to stay, everything continues as it has been. Hannibal and I have sessions, and you pretend you don’t know we’ve been together for months.”

Jack looks completely dumbfounded, and Hannibal can’t help the swell of pride in his chest from Will standing up for himself. Even though Hannibal would prefer Will quit working for the BAU, he loves Will even more because he’s doing it for the both of them. Even if Hannibal knows Jack has no ground to stand on, and even if it doesn’t matter if Hannibal loses his practice. 

At the end of the day, Will loves Hannibal, and not only has he said it, finally, but he’s proving it as he stands in front of Jack right now. Confronting someone who people are usually too scared of confronting. 

“Jack, if you’ll please excuse us,” Will says. “If my boyfriend isn’t needed here anymore, I’d like to take him home now.”

Chapter 28

Notes:

Dedicated to everyone who has ever disagreed with me on one specific thing that comes up in this chapter. What happens may surprise you after everything I’ve said about this subject. If you know, you know. If you don’t... be glad.

Hesitant about this chapter if I’m being honest. I feel like my smut just is not very good and that I’m getting majorly OOC with a lot of the dialogue but.... it is what it is.

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“I actually still need your statement, Will,” Jack says. 

Will thought he would have a dramatic exit, but of course he has to tell Jack what happened at Tobias’s shop. Will tells him, then waits even longer as Hannibal gives Jack his own statement of events. 

He doesn’t really know why he doubted Hannibal’s ability to defend himself. 

Hannibal sits back down in his desk chair as he tells Jack what happened. Will stands a few feet away, arms crossed, and staring daggers at Jack’s back. Will sees that Hannibal is pressing his hand against his thigh, and then he sees the blood soaking through his dark suit. 

“Jack,” Will says, stepping in between them. “Hannibal’s hurt.”

Will crouches down next to Hannibal, and rips the hole in his pants a bit bigger to see what happened. Hannibal winces, but Will knows it’s not in pain. Not physical pain, at least.

“Sorry, baby,” Will murmurs when he rips them even further. He picks up some of the supplies left by the EMTs, but Hannibal opens his desk drawer and points to a more extensive first aid kit. Will wipes away the blood and assesses the damage. “You got stabbed?”

Hannibal nods. 

“You should go to a hospital,” Jack tells him. “We can continue our conversation there.”

“No,” Hannibal and Will both say at the same time. 

“I’ll tend to my own wounds once I leave here,” Hannibal tells him. 

Jack reluctantly agrees and they go back to the conversation while Will stays crouched by Hannibal’s side. 

Will presses gauze to the wound for now, to help keep pressure on it so Hannibal doesn’t bleed out before it can be stitched up. Will’s hands shake like crazy and he keeps fumbling the gauze, losing the amount of pressure he knows he needs to use. Hannibal’s steady and sure hands push Will’s away, and take over. 

It’s too much like what happened on the Hobbs’ kitchen floor. Hannibal seems to know where Will’s mind is going and he leans down and presses a kiss to the top of Will’s head. It’s so weird being affection in front of others—especially Jack—but it comes so easily, nonetheless. 

Jack presses more for more answers, asking Hannibal more questions. The same ones over and over. Who was he serenading? Why did he come here? Why kill your patient? Why attack you?

Hannibal looks about ready to pass out. 

“Enough,” Will says, cutting him off. “You’ve asked him all the questions you could possibly ask him, Jack. Multiple times.”

“Jack, he is losing a bit of blood,” Jimmy says from a few feet away. 

The scene has practically been cleared, just stains of blood in different areas of the office, and a few broken items. Jimmy, Brian, and Beverly are standing, waiting for instruction, or possibly just for moral support. Will flashes them all a grateful smile. 

Jack backs off, but still watches them from several feet away. 

“C’mon,” Will mumbles, standing up and pulling Hannibal up carefully by his hand. 

Hannibal moves slowly, and nearly collapses into Will’s chest when he stands. Will wraps his arms around him to hold him upright, whispering quietly to him while he gets his footing. He can tell Hannibal is fully capable of standing, fully in control of his body even as he slumps against Will’s. 

“You’re so full of shit,” Will whispers, so quiet no one else can hear but Hannibal. 

He can feel Hannibal’s responding smile against his neck. Hannibal nods slightly, telling Will all he needs to know about Hannibal’s current state. 

“Alright, it’s okay,” Will says, louder for their audience. “You’re alright.” 

“Doctor Lecter, I apologize– I didn’t realize,” Jack says. 

Hannibal stands up right, and turns toward Jack. Will keeps an arm secured around his waist to keep up the appearance that Hannibal needs to leave as soon as possible lest he collapse. 

“You’re doing your job, Jack,” Hannibal says. “I understand, even with friends, you must be thorough.”

The emphasis he puts in the word ‘friends’ doesn’t get past Will. Hannibal has done so much to be there for Jack during this, has encouraged him to find ways to hold her close and get through this difficult time. He wonders if Jack is thinking about that--about a friend who has been with him during this time of need, while Bella is sick. Will wonders if Jack is thinking about Hannibal’s friendship, and the fact that Hannibal doesn’t want him to go through anything alone. 

Will forces down a smirk at Hannibal’s blatant manipulations. 

He starts gathering Hannibal’s planner, and tablet, gently putting them into his bag. He reaches for the first aid kit, but Hannibal shakes his head. 

“I have many patients to call– perhaps it would be easiest if you tell Bella that we will not be able to meet until further notice,” Hannibal suggests. “Please give her my best.”

“Of course,” Jack murmurs. “I’ll let her know. Thank you for your time today.”

Hannibal nods, and Will puts the bag on his shoulder and starts leading him from the room. The few agents linger behind, and crime scene cleanup is bringing in supplies for the blood as they walk out. Will hopes Hannibal doesn’t have anything incriminating in his office. 

Outside, Will guides Hannibal to his car, opening up the passenger side door for him. Hannibal gets into the seat, and begins applying pressure to his wound again. It will need to be seen to, Will knows that. Even if Hannibal has been faking how poor he’s doing, he’s still human, and still has a finite amount of blood in his body that can come out before he dies. 

“Your house or mine?” Will asks when he gets into the driver’s seat. They’ll have to come back for Hannibal’s Bentley, but Will doesn’t want to part from him long enough to drive anywhere separately. 

“I require supplies from mine… but I would prefer we stay at yours,” Hannibal answers. 

“Sure,” Will agrees, and starts driving. “How are you really feeling?”

“Like I’ve been stabbed,” Hannibal shrugs. “I feel no remorse over killing Tobias. I will admit that it was the plan all along.” 

“I thought that I would kill him if you didn’t first,” Will whispers. He has a thought pop into his mind, and as they come, he verbalizes them. “I… you wanted me to kill him, didn’t you? You sent me there, but… last night… you were shaking and couldn’t catch your breath… you were scared, weren’t you? You thought there was a possibility I wouldn’t survive him.” 

“Yes,” Hannibal murmurs. “Fear is often a foreign feeling to me.”

“I believe it,” Will says. “I thought you were going to die today.”

“But I didn’t.”

“You didn’t, but I had a full blown meltdown on the sidewalk like a child, anyway, and it fucking outed us,” Will mutters. “If Jack follows through on reporting you, then what?”

“I have told you I could never work another day in my life and still have enough money to support us both,” Hannibal says. “I keep my practice open… well, because someone with my extracurricular activities is less likely to be a suspect if they have a full time job, and social life, that would keep them from having spare time.”

“You don’t kill that many people,” Will murmurs. 

“No, but regardless,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“Did Tobias really kill Franklyn?” Will asks. 

Hannibal seems surprised by the abrupt turn in the conversation. Will can see him open and close his mouth out of the corner of his eye. 

“No,” Hannibal says after a full minute of silence. “I did that.”

“No witnesses?” Will asks. 

“Tobias was going to do it no matter what. I just wanted to cut to the chase, so I could kill Tobias before you and the FBI showed up,” Hannibal says. He reaches out and puts a hand on Will’s thigh. “Darling, believe me when I say he felt nothing. I cannot say the same would be the case if Tobias had his way.”

Will sets his hand down on the one on his thigh and laces their fingers together. He knows Hannibal is trying to make himself seem like the good guy by making it sound like he kills ethically. If there’s such a thing, Will thinks. 

“I would like to take a look at your arm when we get home,” Hannibal says. 

“It’s fine,” Will mumbles. 

“I would still like to look at it,” Hannibal repeats.

Will pulls into Hannibal’s garage and shuts off his car. He doesn’t move to get out, and keeps Hannibal’s hand grasped in his own so he can’t get out yet, either. 

“Is there anything in your office the FBI shouldn’t find?” Will asks. 

“I wouldn’t doubt it, but they would have to look through my patient notes, and pick locks to cabinets and drawers to find anything incriminating,” Hannibal says. 

Will is satisfied with that answer and lets go of Hannibal’s hand to get out of the car. Hannibal follows, limping slightly, but otherwise he seems just fine. 

In the mudroom, Hannibal carefully peels off his jacket, and hangs it in the closet. Will looks him up and down. Covered in blood, hair falling over his face, clothes torn and rumpled. He looks too human for what monstrous act he did to get to this state. 

Will goes to him and places a hand on his chest, the other on his hip.

“I do love you, you know,” Will whispers. “I wasn’t just saying that because I thought you were dead. I really do, and I have for a long while now. I was scared to say it, but I shouldn’t have been because I have no doubt in my mind anymore that I do.”

“I know, darling,” Hannibal whispers. He tilts his face down so he can kiss Will’s forehead, then whispers, “I love you, as well.”

Hannibal pulls Will into his arms and he allows Hannibal to pick him up and carry him through the mudroom and into the kitchen. Hannibal puts Will on the counter, and steps between his spread legs. Will locks his ankles behind Hannibal’s thighs, and squeezes his hips with his knees, pulling him in closer. 

“Now, allow me to see your arm,” Hannibal says, tilting his face up and pressing a quick kiss to Will’s chin. 

Will has to lean back, away from Hannibal, to take off his jacket without the risk of hitting Hannibal in the face. He tosses it aside, then unbuttons and rolls up the sleeve of his flannel shirt. He presents his arm to him.

The gauze is carefully removed by Hannibal’s steady hands, a slight frown on his face as he does so. Will reaches up with his other hand to run his thumb against the corner of Hannibal’s mouth, attempting to wipe away the downward tilt of his lips. 

Will leans forward to kiss his forehead, but Hannibal pulls back to not be distracted. 

He drops Will’s arm, and removes Will’s legs from his waist, then steps away. He limps over to a cupboard and pulls down a med kit. 

Will hops down from the counter and directs Hannibal over to the armchair in the corner of the kitchen. Hannibal sits with a groan, and tilts his head against the backrest while Will washes his hands at the sink. 

“I have some experience suturing,” Will says. He crouches down in front of Hannibal and puts his hands on his knees. “Only if you want me to.”

Hannibal nods, so Will gets to work. Will’s hands shake as he unzips Hannibal’s pants to pull them down, and he tries to calm himself down enough that he won’t hurt Hannibal, but at this point it seems inevitable. 

Left in just his briefs and the top half of his suit, Hannibal settles back down into the chair and starts pointing out all of the supplies Will is going to need. 

“Do you have a local anesthetic?” Will asks, pulling on gloves. 

“Not on hand, unfortunately,” Hannibal sighs. 

“Alright, this is going to hurt then, baby,” Will says. 

“Not as bad as being stabbed, I’d imagine,” Hannibal whispers. He reaches out and cups Will’s cheek, offering him a reassuring smile that doesn’t reassure Will in the slightest. 

He glares at Hannibal for the comment, but chooses to ignore it otherwise.

Will takes a deep breath and properly cleans out the wound, then gets a new pair of clean gloves, hands still shaking. He almost tells Hannibal to do it himself because it’ll look like a jagged mess with Will unable to calm himself down. Hannibal looks at Will’s trembling hands and doesn’t say a word, and if he is apprehensive about Will doing it, then Will trusts him to say so. He doesn’t, so Will starts. 

As he expected, each pass of the needle through Hannibal’s skin has the older man wincing. His leg twitches away and Will has to stop and set a hand on his thigh to keep him where he is. He glances up and Hannibal’s eyes are twisted shut, his entire face contorted into a pained grimace. 

The stitches are in no way as neat as they would have been if Hannibal did them, but Will finishes and Hannibal nods approvingly when he looks at them. Will bandages Hannibal’s leg to protect the stitches, then stands up to discard all of the trash he’s accumulated. 

“Your arm, please,” Hannibal says after a few minutes. He stands carefully and pulls a chair from the dining room in, so he can sit in it while Will takes the armchair.

Hannibal takes care of Will’s arm, cleaning it better than the EMT could have done while he was thrashing and screaming. It doesn’t need stitches—just several long slashes, not at all deep—but Hannibal says he’ll keep an eye on it. 

“Are you sure you don’t want to stay here?” Will asks. 

“I would much prefer being in your home,” Hannibal says. “Just allow me to change and fetch a bag.” 

“I can bring you something down if your leg hurts too much,” Will offers. 

Hannibal declines the offer and leaves Will sitting in the kitchen. Rusty comes down the stairs and into the room a minute after Hannibal leaves. He rests his head on Will’s knee and looks at him with big, sad eyes. 

“We’re okay, buddy,” Will says, petting the dog’s head. “Are you lonely? This big house to yourself all day?” 

Rusty nudges his hand, demanding more pets, and Will takes that as a yes. 

Hannibal comes down in another three piece suit, though Will doesn’t know why he’s so dressed up just to go back to Wolf Trap. They get into Will’s car together, with Rusty in the back seat, and Will starts driving home. 

He itches to be closer to Hannibal, and even considers pulling over so he can climb into the other man’s lap and just hold him, but he powers through it, speeding toward home. 

“You’re upset, darling,” Hannibal says, about twenty minutes into the hour-long drive. “Pull over and let me drive.” 

“I’m fine, Hannibal,” Will mumbles. He tightens his grip on the steering wheel, but the tension pulls at the cuts on his arm and he nearly cries out in pain. At that, he sighs and signals so he can pull over. 

Will pulls into a Walgreens parking lot and gets out of the car. He fumbles around in his pockets for his pack of cigarettes and his lighter, but freezes when he sees Hannibal watching him from next to the car. 

“Is the smell going to bother you?” Will asks. He hopes Hannibal says no because he could really use a cigarette, and he knows he shouldn’t have started smoking again, but here he is. His hands are shaking so bad, he doesn’t even know if he’ll be able to use the lighter, but god knows that won’t stop him from trying. 

Instead of answering, Hannibal holds his hand out, and Will reluctantly passes them over. He expects Hannibal to pocket the lighter and toss the cigarettes in the garbage, but instead, Hannibal pulls one out and puts it between his lips. 

He lights it, takes a drag, and then passes it over to Will, who stands there completely dumbfounded, mouth surely hanging open, eyes definitely wide.  

“I am not about to tell you how unhealthy smoking is,” Hannibal says eventually. “You aren’t making it a heavy occurrence.” 

“Good, don’t tell me,” Will responds, turning his face away from Hannibal to blow out smoke. “I sense there’s a ‘but’ here.”

Hannibal gives him a playful glare, “ But I will help you quit when you decide to again. Don’t fall back into old habits, darling.” 

Will just nods and finishes the cigarette, stomping it out on the ground, and shoving his hands in his pockets. 

“You need anything?” Will asks, turning toward the door to go inside.

Hannibal nods, and follows Will in. 

Will goes to the drink aisle and gets himself an energy drink. Hannibal stands behind him, and Will can see the disapproving look in his eyes in the reflection of the glass door. Hannibal grabs a bottle of juice, and then disappears into another aisle, leaving Will to choose another drink in peace. 

He picks up a bottle of Coke, and then puts it back, deciding to get a twelve pack by the checkout instead. He picks out some chips, and a few types of candy, then goes to the pain relief aisle for a new bottle of aspirin. He ran out during the case in Tennessee. 

An aisle full of pink and red reminds Will that Valentine’s day is coming up really soon—less than a week. He feels terrible that he hasn’t brought it up to Hannibal at all, but part of him feels like Hannibal would find the holiday trite and unnecessary. He walks past the aisle quickly, but tells himself he might bring it up when he finds a chance. Probably not though, because he’s not really the romantic one, and if Hannibal wants to do something, he’ll just do it whether Will mentions it or not. 

By the time Will finishes his shopping, Hannibal is waiting by the sliding doors, a plastic bag already in hand. Will sets his things down on the counter, then grabs a pack of Coke, and brings that over too. He starts to pull out his wallet, but Hannibal stops him with a hand on his wrist. 

Hannibal puts his own card in the reader without a single word. Will doesn’t glance up at the cashier because he doesn’t want to know what she thinks about it. Hannibal takes the case of Coke and Will’s bag from him, leaving Will to carry nothing at all. 

Will watches him limp, but Hannibal doesn’t express his discomfort at all as they walk back to the car. Will opens the car door for Hannibal, and takes his own bag back, taking out his energy drink and cracking it open while Hannibal puts his own bag, and the Coke in the trunk. He slides into the passenger seat, and turns to pat Rusty’s head while he waits. 

Hannibal gets into the driver’s seat with a small gift bag in hand, and Will looks at him with a raised eyebrow. Even in the short amount of time Hannibal was out of the car, he was able to put something into a gift bag and arrange tissue in a decent manner. Will is impressed, though he shouldn’t have expected anything less. 

He takes the bag from Hannibal and carefully pulls the tissue out and sets it aside, then looks in the bag to find a small stuffed dog inside next to a bag of sour gummy worms, and a heart shaped box of chocolates. 

“What’s this for?” Will asks. He pulls the stuffed animal out of the bag and sees a pile of cash in the bottom. “Stop giving me money.”

“No,” Hannibal says. “And do I need a reason to give you a gift? I felt it was appropriate given the difficult week you have had. I’ve barely gotten to see you.”

“So you’re making up for lost time by giving me…” Will trails off, grabbing the stack of cash in the bottom of the bag. “Holy fuck. Two hundred dollars?”

“Think nothing of it,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“I can’t take your money,” Will says. He tries to give it back to Hannibal, but Hannibal just keeps his hands on the wheel and keeps looking at the road. He ignores Will’s attempts to hand it back. 

“You can,” Hannibal answers. “Put it in your wallet, don’t lose it.”

“Hannibal,” Will sighs. “Please take it back. I don’t want your money.”

“And I never want you to spend another penny of your own ever again,” Hannibal says. “Which is why I am, once again, going to suggest you quit working for Jack.”

“I can’t now,” Will protests. “I made a deal with him! He’ll make you lose your job, Hannibal.”

“I appreciate what you think you are doing, darling, but Jack really will not do anything one way, or another,” Hannibal says. “You should quit like we discussed last week. You needn’t sacrifice yourself for me.”

“If you lose your practice because of me I will never forgive myself,” Will says. 

“My sweet Will,” Hannibal says wistfully. “I don’t need it if I don’t have you. I need you healthy and alive, and continuing as you have will not yield such results. You’ve been a mess of anxiety today because of what happened, and instances like today are only going to keep happening.”

“Okay, say I do quit,” Will says. He tries to word his next sentence in a way that won’t give too much of his own knowledge away. “We’ve talked about how it’s beneficial for you that I’m with the FBI, given that fact that you… kill people… and I’ve changed profiles and pointed the FBI in other directions, and can only keep doing that if I’m still working for Jack.”

“If I accept a position as a consultant, would you feel better about leaving?” Hannibal asks. 

“Maybe,” Will shrugs. “Can we not talk about this right now?”

“Of course,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Okay,” Will nods. “Will you give me your hand please?”

“No,” Hannibal whispers.

Will laughs. “I’m not going to try giving you the money back again. I want to hold it.”

Hannibal gives Will his right hand, and as promised, Will laces their fingers together. 

When they get to his house, Will is vibrating in his seat, wanting to be closer to Hannibal as soon as possible. He nearly climbs over the center console when the car is turned off, but Hannibal puts a hand on his shoulder to stop him. 

Will just sighs, and gets out of the car, knowing Hannibal is right—the car is going to be freezing in minutes, and the house is less than thirty feet away. He can wait. 

He runs up the steps of the porch to let the dogs out, and they join Rusty in the yard, each of them running over to Hannibal to sniff him for treats he doesn’t have. They get bored of him, and go into the yard to relieve themselves after such a long time stuck inside. 

Hannibal carries all of their purchases up to the house, and moves past Will in the doorway. Will has his gift bag clutched in his hand while he watches the dogs.

He can’t remember where he put the other stuffed dog Hannibal bought him at the beginning of their relationship, but he supposes he should find it and place the two of them together. If Hannibal keeps buying him stuffed animals every time they’re apart for a week, Will might end up with a collection. 

The dogs come back to the porch, and Will steps inside, finding Hannibal laying on the couch on his back, his hands crossed over his stomach, and one leg hanging off so his foot is on the floor. He looks comfortable and inviting. 

Will ignores him for the moment to feed the dogs, and to put his drinks in the fridge, but he finds Hannibal already put everything away. He sets the gift bag on the counter, and goes back into the living room. 


Hannibal smiles at Will when he walks into the room again. He hesitates, standing a few feet away from the couch where Hannibal lays, but Hannibal offers a hand to him, and he immediately takes it. He doesn’t immediately lay down on top of Hannibal, though, which was the older man’s goal.

Instead, Will bites his lip, teeth tearing at the skin—a terrible habit, but Hannibal understands the compulsion, so he never tells Will to stop doing it, as he knows it won’t be well received—and steps away again. 

Will peels off his jacket, a wince on his face as it slides over his injured arm, then goes to hang it by the front door. He toes off his shoes, and kicks them aside, then steps back closer to the couch. He removes his belt, sliding it out of his belt loops and coiling it into a circle, and sets it down on the coffee table. 

Then he finally gets on the couch, laying on his stomach over Hannibal’s body. He buries his face into Hannibal’s chest, and it only takes a few seconds before his breathing becomes erratic and there’s warm tears soaking through Hannibal’s shirt. 

Hannibal wraps his arms tightly around Will’s back and squeezes him. He pulls the leg he had hanging off the couch up and wraps it around Will’s hip, giving him all the points of contact he possibly can in this position. 

Will wraps his own arms tight around Hannibal’s neck as he sobs.

“I need—” Will gasps, struggling to get closer. He tries again, “I need—” but words seem to be lost to him.

“Shh,” Hannibal soothes. “I know, darling. Sit up for a moment.”

Will shakes his head hard against his chest

“I love you,” Will whispers. “I can’t– I can’t stop thinking about what it would be to lose you.”

“You won’t, my darling,” Hannibal whispers. “No one could ever keep me from you. I promise.”

“You can’t promise that,” Will says. “You could go to prison, or—or you could’ve died today—one wrong move and you could’ve been killed! Anything can happen. You can’t promise.”

“I can, and I have,” Hannibal murmurs. 

It takes Will a few minutes to stop shaking and for the tears to stop falling. 

“I need you,” Will sobs. 

It hurts Hannibal’s heart to hear his anguish, to feel the clutch of his fingers, knuckles white, against his shirt, to feel the labored breathing from the man on top of him. 

Everything he orchestrated for today has come to this point—Will suffering. Hannibal doesn’t feel guilt or regret enough (ever) to know if that’s the feeling tugging deep in his gut, but he can only assume. 

After a few more gasping breaths, Will composes himself, and looks up at Hannibal. He pushes up and crashes their lips together. Will kisses him like he needs it to live. He shoves his tongue into Hannibal’s mouth and fists his shirt even tighter into his hands. He sits fully in Hannibal’s lap now, gently rocking and pushing closer to the point where Hannibal can feel and think of nothing but his beloved. 

When Will pulls back for a breath, there’s a hunger in his eyes, and Hannibal feels similarly. Hannibal needs him like he needs air to breathe. Needs him close, and safe, and alive. He hasn’t been so concerned with another person’s wellbeing since Mischa was alive. It’s been so long since he’s cared about someone. He hasn’t felt love, or felt loved, in so, so long. He suddenly needs to hear those words again just to know he didn’t dream them.

“Tell me again,” Hannibal murmurs against Will’s lips. 

Will knows exactly what he means, and whispers, “I love you.”

Hannibal smiles against his mouth, and Will nips at his bottom lip, pulling it between his own lips to suck on it. 

There's suddenly too many layers between them, too many clothes keeping them from each other. 

“Will,” Hannibal murmurs. “Sit up. Please.”

Will pushes up so he can kneel between Hannibal’s legs, one hand on the back of the couch to keep himself upright. Hannibal reaches out for Will’s jeans, undoing the button and pulling down the zipper. Will seems to get the idea, and begins unbuttoning his flannel shirt as Hannibal pushes his jeans and underwear down, freeing his half hard cock from its fabric confines. 

Hannibal takes him in his hand, stroking slowly, a light, teasing grip that causes Will to groan both in pleasure and impatience. 

He pushes his hips forward, but Hannibal pulls his hand away entirely to sit up and begin unbuttoning his waistcoat and shirt. 

Will stands to kick off his jeans and underwear, then tugs on Hannibal’s to pull them off too, all the while Hannibal strips himself from the top half of his ensemble. 

“Should we go upstairs?” Will asks when they’re fully naked. 

Hannibal shakes his head and pulls Will back to where he was before, kneeling between his legs, his hands now on the armrest above Hannibal’s head.

“Will,” Hannibal whispers, pulling Will down by the back of his neck for a kiss. “I need you inside me.”

He grabs one of Will’s hands and kisses his knuckles before sucking two fingers into his mouth. He needs Will as close as possible or else he may lose it. 

“The lube is upstairs,” Will whispers, pulling his slick fingers out of Hannibal’s mouth. 

Hannibal reaches between the cushions and procures a bottle he hid there while Will was outside with the dogs. He passes it over to Will. 

“When did you put that there?” Will asks. 

“About twenty minutes ago,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will rubs one slick finger against Hannibal’s entrance, and breathes out a laugh. 

“You were planning for this outcome,” Will murmurs, kissing Hannibal’s forehead. 

He begins pushing one finger inside, and Hannibal turns his face and moans quietly into Will’s cheek, pressing his lips against stubble. It feels like it has been an eternity without Will, even though they were together just the night before, and just this small amount of contact has Hannibal falling apart. 

Will turns his face to catch Hannibal’s lips with his own in a quick kiss. He removes his finger and grabs both of Hannibal’s hips to adjust him on the couch, pulling him further down, so his lower back is lifted by Will’s knees. 

“The couch isn't the best place to do this,” Will whispers. “One of us is going to fall off.” 

“I’ll catch you,” Hannibal whispers. No matter what happens, he will always, always catch Will. 

He gasps when Will pushes two fingers inside him. He reaches out and grips Will’s arm because it feels like the only thing he can do, the only way he can keep Will where he is, even if he’s made no attempt to leave. 

But today he could have. He could have been killed, and it would have all been Hannibal’s fault. Tobias killed two police officers—what stopped him from killing Will, too? It was too close. Too close of a call, and Hannibal can’t help the pained whimper that escapes his throat at the thought. 

“You okay?” Will asks.

Hannibal nods, shutting his eyes tight. Tears threaten to escape and he can’t get a grip. He thought he knew what he was doing when he sent Will to Tobias’s shop, but now faced with the reality, it feels like his entire life stands on a cliff—one gust of wind would be enough to knock him into a free fall. One wrong move and everything crumbles into oblivion. 

Sending Will to Tobias’s shop was nearly that wrong move. 

“Hannibal? Baby, what’s wrong?” 

Will pulls his fingers out and Hannibal shakes his head vigorously, pulling his arm back between his legs. 

“Please,” Hannibal whispers. “Darling, my love, my sweet Will. I need you.” 

“Tell me what’s wrong,” Will whispers. He leans down over Hannibal again, moving off his knees so he can lay flat across his body. 

It feels wonderful to have Will’s weight above him, to have their chests pressed together, and their cocks sliding against one another as Will adjusts his body. Hannibal moves his hands to Will’s hips and grips them tight, moving him against himself. 

“I love you beyond belief,” Hannibal whispers. “Never did I think I could feel this way toward another person, and I fear everything in our lives is too fragile. Too easily, could I have lost you today. I would not have been able to live with myself had Tobias killed you.”

Will kisses his neck, moaning quietly in response to Hannibal’s words. 

“I had genuinely thought you were dead when Tobias walked into my office saying he killed two officers… I was broken,” Hannibal admits. “I killed him because I thought he had killed you.”

“I know,” Will whispers. “Baby, I know. I can’t… I don’t want anything like this to happen ever again. I can’t go through this again. The idea of losing you at this point… It’s the ugliest thing in the world.”

Hannibal remembers when Will said those words about killing. Tears well up in his eyes and he has to squeeze them shut again so he doesn’t cry in front of Will. He needs to be strong for his love. His beautiful partner who feels too much and can never, ever shut it off. Hannibal can shut it off… he can, right? He tells himself he can shut it off. 

Will stops moving his hips and pulls back to pick up the lube again, coating his fingers once more. He pushes two in again and Hannibal arches his back against the couch. He misses Hannibal’s prostate with each thrust of his fingers, and whether it’s deliberate, or not, Hannibal doesn’t know, but he finds himself getting desperate. 

“Please Will, I need,” Hannibal pants. “You. Now.”

“A little bit more,” Will whispers. He turns and kisses the knee Hannibal has bent by his face, then pushes in a third finger. “It’s been a while.”

“I don’t,” Hannibal whispers, swallows the lump in his throat, then tries again, “I don’t need it. Please, Will.”

Will is not close enough, Hannibal laments internally. He needs Will in him and on top of him and he needs it as soon as humanly possible. 

(Perhaps he cannot shut it off.)

He pushes himself up on his elbows and grips Will’s upper arm with one hand, trying to pull him down to where he wants him. 

“Alright, baby, hold on,” Will says. He brushes his thumb against one of Hannibal’s cheeks, and Hannibal realizes he’s wiping away a tear. 

Hannibal shuts his eyes again, focusing on the feeling of Will’s hands on him and his fingers leaving his body. He listens for the click of the lube cap, the sound of Will’s breathy moans as he strokes himself a few times. Focuses on the press of the head of Will’s cock against his entrance. 

Before Will pushes in at all, he cups Hannibal’s cheeks, runs his thumbs over his eyelids. Will’s cock nudges against his ass, and Hannibal finds himself squirming down the couch to get closer, but it doesn’t give him the results he needs. 

He opens his eyes when Will’s thumbs leave his eyelids, but his hands stay cupped around his cheeks. Will looks absolutely beautiful above him. His eyes are still red from crying and his cheeks are flushed from arousal. There is a circle of teeth shaped bruises on his shoulder from where Hannibal bit him the night before. 

Hannibal reaches out and thumbs at Will’s nipples, both of them hardening at his touch, Will groaning quietly in response. 

He removes one hand from Hannibal’s face and reaches between them to line his cock up and push inside. They both gasp out each other’s names at the same time, as Will slowly pushes in halfway before pulling out and doing it again. He slides all the way in and stays there for a moment, not moving, just breathing, eyes shut. Still sitting on his knees between Hannibal’s legs. Too far away. 

“Please,” Hannibal murmurs. He drops his hands to Will’s waist and tries to pull him forward, tries to pull him to lay down on top of him, but Will has other ideas. 

He pulls Hannibal up by his arms to sit up, pulling out again so he can get his legs out from under him. Hannibal nearly whines at the loss, then does when Will let’s go of him entirely and moves away. 

He turns so he can sit on the couch with his feet on the floor, then holds a hand out for Hannibal to come to him. 

Despite the sharp pain in his leg, and the dull ache in his entire body, Hannibal scrambles over and straddles Will’s thighs. He immediately sinks down on Will’s cock and begins to move, a steady roll of his hips. 

His wounded and stitched leg pulls and hurts as he moves, but he ignores it, focusing on his pleasure, and on Will’s as he picks up his pace. 

Will’s arms wrap tight around his waist, so tight that Hannibal can barely lift himself up at all. It doesn’t matter. 

“Love you,” Will whispers into his neck. “So much. I love you, I love you.” 

“I know, I know,” Hannibal pants. “I love you.” 

“You’re mine,” Will moans. He nips at Hannibal’s throat, sucks at his jaw, kisses his collar bones. Hannibal presses closer, burying his face into Will’s hair. Into the short little curls that have begun to grow back. Something he has been waiting for since the day they were shorn from Will’s beautiful head. 

He breathes in deep, and is pleased to find Will smells perfectly healthy. He’s been worried that has not been the case. 

“No one—” Will says through gritted teeth, snapping his hips up, driving his cock into Hannibal’s body. “—Else—,” Another hard thrust. “—Can—” Another. “—Have you.” 

Hannibal just moans and nods in response, wrapping his arms tight around Will’s neck. He kisses Will’s head over and over and he moves on top of him. 

By this point his thigh is really hurting, and his pace slows considerably for a moment. 

He cries out in pain when he tries to move hard again, feeling a tear in his leg. 

Fuck,” Hannibal swears. 

Will keeps thrusting up into him until Hannibal cries out again, and he immediately stops. 

“My leg,” Hannibal explains. “I– I don’t want to stop just– a change of position.”

Will breathes out, “Okay,” against his throat. He loosens his hold around Hannibal’s waist and Hannibal pulls off him. 

He’s about to lay on his back on the couch, when he decides to just limp over to the bed in the corner instead. They should have started here, he knows. Both of them are injured, in a way that makes fucking on the couch more difficult than it needs to be. 

He glances over and sees Will, lingering on the couch for another moment. He gets up after a few moments and follows Hannibal, and the other man can’t help but wonder what had Will distracted. 

“Are you okay?” Will asks. He walks over to the bed, his hard cock standing out from his body, bobbing with each step to the bed. He has the lubricant in his hand and sets it on the nightstand. 

“Of course. More than,” Hannibal whispers, laying down on the bed and taking his own neglected erection into his hand. 

Will just stands there watching him touch himself, and Hannibal looks over at him. He has a look of excitement and disbelief on his face. Disbelief of what, Hannibal doesn’t know. 

There’s a hunger in his eye as he watches Hannibal with parted lips and reddened cheeks. Will’s hand drops down to his own cock as he stands next to the bed. 

Hannibal removes his hand from himself and reaches out for Will, who snaps out of whatever trance he was in, and practically jumps into the bed and between Hannibal’s legs. 

“You’re bleeding,” Will says, gently touching the bandage on Hannibal’s thigh. 

“I believe a stitch tore,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will frowns, and looks ready to go into doctor mode, but Hannibal grabs him by the chin and directs his attention away. 

“We will check it later,” Hannibal says firmly. 

Will nods and picks up the lube, handing it to Hannibal, who raises an eyebrow. 

Will gives him a sheepish smile, then moves so he’s straddling Hannibal’s stomach. 

“You want—” Hannibal starts, cutting him off when Will takes the lube again and squeezes some on Hannibal’s outstretched hand. 

“Yes,” Will murmurs, leaning down to kiss him. 

Hannibal hums against his lips, then takes Will’s cock in his hand, stroking him with the hand covered in lube. He pulls needy moans from Will’s throat as Will thrusts into his tight grip. 

“Hannibal, this is not what I– ah– not what I asked for,” Will murmurs against his forehead, where his lips are now pressed. 

Hannibal knows exactly what he is asking for. 

“Turn around for me, darling,” Hannibal murmurs. “Hands and knees.”

Will pulls back and raises an eyebrow, confused. Hannibal just raises his eyebrow back and waits until Will does as he’s been asked to do. 

“I will admit,” Hannibal says, grabbing Will’s hips and drags him back toward his face. Will yelps out and his arms collapse under him, causing him to faceplant against Hannibal’s lower abdomen. He continues, “I’ve never done this to anyone before.”

“Hm?” Will questions, nosing at Hannibal’s cock now. Hannibal spreads his cheeks with his hands, then lifts his head enough so he can lick a stripe across Will’s hole. Will gasps, “Oh. You don’t— I mean, if you want to, but you know I haven’t showered in—”

“Hush now,” Hannibal says, turning his head and biting into Will’s inner thigh.

“Okay, okay, yes,” Will continues to babble. “Yes.”

Hannibal chuckles quietly, breathing hot air against Will’s ass. Will breathes heavily against him, and his ass clenches as Hannibal spits directly onto his entrance. He licks again, not as firm this time. Testing, experimenting, seeing what Will likes. He uses his fingers and spreads some of the lube still on his fingers, and presses his thumb against Will’s hole. 

“Please,” Will whispers. 

A bite to Will’s left buttcheek, a firmer press of his thumb, but not quite breaching yet, and Will whispers it again. Hannibal bites harder, then moves over an inch and bites again, hoping to leave bruises that Will will feel each time he sits down. 

He moves his thumb and replaces it with his tongue. 

While it’s true that Will hasn’t showered in days, likely, and his entire body is covered in a conglomeration of unpleasant scents—Alana’s lingering perfume, stale cigarettes, an airplane and all of its inhabitants—Hannibal doesn’t find that he minds. Because it’s still Will. Hannibal isn’t going to complain about all of his senses being possessed by Will. 

He continues to lick at Will’s hole, alternating between a hard, firm tongue, and light licks with just the tip, and Will writhes on top of him, pressing further back into Hannibal’s face. Hannibal’s able to press his tongue inside just a bit and Will nods enthusiastically against his hip.  

Hannibal reaches around his thigh and takes Will’s leaking cock in hand, squeezing, holding, but not yet jerking him off. He thumbs over the slit, spreading precum around the head, causing Will to moan out and grasp at Hannibal’s thigh. 

Will’s wiggling and pressing turn into stronger thrusts into Hannibal’s hand, and back against his tongue. He freely gasps and moans, not biting it back like he normally tries to, and Hannibal thinks he might be the most beautiful thing he’s ever heard. 

He knows Will’s getting close, so he removes his hand entirely, and drops his head back onto the bed, giving him a minute to cool down. Will drops his hips to Hannibal’s chest and starts rubbing his cock against him, racing toward a release Hannibal doesn’t want to grant him yet. 

Hannibal wraps his arms around his waist and lifts him so he can no longer rub against him. 

“Bastard,” Will groans. 

He presses two fingers into Will’s relaxed, spit-soaked entrance, stretching him out more than his tongue could. He grips Will’s asscheek with his other hand, pressing his fingertips into the forming bruises left by his teeth. 

“Harder,” Will groans.

Hannibal complies, pressing even harder, knowing the bruises will be much more livid. Will pushes back against his fingers, fucking himself on the two Hannibal has inside him. He’s clearly trying to get them to hit his prostate, but Hannibal keeps away from it, denying Will. 

He pulls his fingers out suddenly and Will continues to thrust his hips onto nothing but air for a second as Hannibal’s reaches for the lube again.

Just as Hannibal pushes three fingers into him, Will takes his cock into his mouth and sucks at the head. Hannibal resists the urge to thrust upwards, to press deeper into Will’s warm, wet mouth. He has to screw his eyes shut and focus on his breathing before he can continue the task at hand. 

Will pulls him in deeper, setting a slow and leisurely bob of his head, only enough to give Hannibal something, without suggesting he wants him to finish in his mouth. He pulls off after a minute, and moves away from Hannibal’s hand, too. 

“I’m ready,” Will tells him, turning around and moving up Hannibal’s body again to sit on his stomach. His voice is deep from his arousal, his throat sounding a bit raw from both taking Hannibal down it and from his loud array of sounds. “How do you want me?”

“I’m afraid you’ll have to ride me, dear,” Hannibal tells him, pretending it’s something unfortunate, even though he’s really not going to complain about it. In fact, he really wants it. “Any more exertion on my part and I will bleed out. My leg hurts quite a bit.”

“I was going to look at it but you said no,” Will reminds him. He slides back to sit on Hannibal’s thighs, then gets Hannibal’s cock lubed up. 

“Mm, yes this is much better, and definitely worth the ris— oh,” Hannibal moans as Will sinks down on him and immediately starts moving. 

He runs his hands up and down Hannibal’s chest, gripping his chest hair in tight fists, leaning down to use his body as leverage while he bounces on Hannibal’s cock. 

“Yes, yes,” Hannibal groans, gripping Will’s thighs hard enough to bruise. Will’s pace has Hannibal arching his back, and curling his toes. 

He finds himself babbling in Italian, telling Will how much he adores him, and needs him, and wants him forever. He thinks he might even say ‘marry me,’ but it’s lost to the sound of Will laughing, and even if Will hadn’t laughed at his complete lack of control, it’s not likely he would have understood anyway. 

His beloved is beautiful above him, a breathless laugh spilling over his lips. And those lips—swollen and red from kissing, pulled into a radiant smile, showing off his white teeth. 

His eyes are no longer red from crying, but shining from utter happiness. 

“I love this. I love you,” Will laughs. “God, baby, you feel so good.” 

Hannibal can’t do much else besides nod and stare up at the beauty moving on top of him. 

“Gorgeous,” Hannibal manages to say in English. “My everything.”

Will leans down to kiss him, slowing his pace down considerably. He presses their bodies together and buries his face into Hannibal’s neck, moaning into his skin. He mouths at Hannibal’s throat, and bites down into his shoulder. 

Hannibal can think of nothing better at that moment than the press of Will’s chest against his own, the feeling of his own cock moving in and out of Will’s warm body. The teeth against his shoulder, the fingers tugging at his hair. The smell of Will, the feel of Will, the—he pulls Will up by the hair on the back of his head and kisses him fiercely—taste of Will. Everything about him. Everything. 

People may know about them now, but they’ll never, ever understand the way Will makes him feel. They’ll never know what Will does to him. That’s for them, and them alone. 

“Hannibal,” Will moans, tensing up as he comes nearly untouched between their stomachs. “ Fuck.” 

“Will,” Hannibal responds in kind. 

Will rides out his orgasm, moving hard and fast again to try and draw Hannibal’s out of him. 

Ignoring the protesting pain in his leg, he flips them over, causing Will to land on his back, pulling off of his cock in the process. He thrusts back into Will, and fucks him hard and deep until he falls over the edge, spilling deep inside of Will with a curse on his lips. 

Hannibal collapses on top of him, not yet pulling out. 


Will moves his hands up and down Hannibal’s back, soothing the man who is now shaking on top of him. Will is filled with so, so much love, and it feels liberating to finally be able to tell Hannibal how he feels. 

Saying it once has made it easier to say it again, and again, and again. 

And just because he can, he whispers it now, a soft, “I love you,” into the top of Hannibal’s head. 

Hannibal doesn’t respond, but Will doesn’t need it. He knows Hannibal’s having a hard time accepting everything that has happened today, so he lets him cope with it how he wants to. By being close, and retreating into his mind. 

He imagines Hannibal is building rooms in his memory palace for all of today. It’s been a monumental day in their relationship, after all. 

He continues to rub his hands up and down Hannibal’s back. Hannibal’s lips start moving against his throat, not quite kisses, but no sound coming out to indicate he’s speaking, either. Unless Will is just inside a vacuum of his own thoughts, unable to hear his surroundings. 

No, that’s not true, Will thinks. He can hear the TV across the room, and the dogs quietly breathing from where they all lounge around the house. 

Hannibal finally makes a quiet, whimpering noise in the back of his throat, and Will can’t help but wonder if he’s crying again. He feels the bandaging around Hannibal’s thigh rubbing against the inside of his own and hopes the damage to the stitches isn’t too terrible. 

The amount of blood seeping through had alarmed him when he saw it, but Hannibal didn’t seem bothered at all. 

“My love,” Hannibal murmurs. “My darling Will.”

“Are you back with me?” Will whispers. “Where did you go?”

“Just thinking,” Hannibal whispers. “I’m here.” 

He sounds like he’s on the verge of falling asleep, so Will rolls them over, causing Hannibal to slip out of his body. Come is drying on both of their stomachs, coming out of his own ass, and it’s uncomfortable, but he doesn’t want to get up to clean up. 

Will lays on his back and lifts an arm so Hannibal can settle into his side, curling around him with a content sigh. 

“Did you know,” Hannibal whispers. He yawns, then continues, “Studies have shown sleeping on your back causes more nightmares than sleeping on your side.”

“I was unaware,” Will whispers back. He turns to face Hannibal, wrapping and arm tight around his waist. “It would make sense.”

“Uh huh,” Hannibal agrees, eyes shut, mouth hanging open slightly now. 

He’s on the verge of conking out, and Will lifts a hand to brush his hair away from his forehead and presses a kiss there. He starts to get out of bed, needing to clean up and call to cancel dinner with Alana. 

“Don’t leave,” Hannibal pleads. “Whatever thing you were about to allow to take you away from me, I can assure you that it can wait.”

Will sighs and settles back down on his side, pulling Hannibal’s head to his chest and holding him. He pulls a blanket over both of them. 

“Yeah,” Will whispers. “Okay. You’re right.” 

“Usually am,” Hannibal mumbles. “Don’t let me sleep for long.”

“I might fall asleep, too,” Will admits. “My phone is by the couch so I can’t set an alarm.” 

“No matter,” Hannibal murmurs. Then louder, he says, “Alexa, set a timer for one hour and thirty minutes.” 

“What—“ Will starts, just as an electronic woman’s voice confirms Hannibal’s request. Will looks around the room and sees a blue light on the table with his fly-tying equipment. “When did you put that there?”

“While you were gone on your case,” Hannibal whispers. “Quite useful.” 

“Do you have one at your house?” Will asks. 

“Abigail has one,” Hannibal answers. “She showed it to me. I was wondering who this Alexa girl she was talking to was. Typically I wouldn’t consider it to be my business but she was making requests I wouldn’t expect to be asked of a real person.” 

Will laughs and kisses the top of Hannibal’s head again. 

He lays there feeling satisfied and warm. Hannibal clings to him as he sleeps as if his subconscious is telling him Will is going to leave if he doesn’t hold on as tight as possible. As if Will could never leave now.

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Will must end up drifting off at some point because he wakes up to a sound he’s never heard before. It takes him a minute to realize it’s the timer on the device Hannibal bought for his house. 

“Alright, baby,” Will mumbles. “Time to wake up.”

“No,” Hannibal whispers. “Stay.”

“I have to piss, Hannibal,” Will tells him. “And your wound needs to be looked at before you bleed out.”

Hannibal sighs and lets go of Will’s waist. He rolls over onto his back and looks at Will with sleepy eyes and a tired smile. 

It’s starting to get dark outside, which means it’s nearly dinner time. He thinks he might make something tonight, so Hannibal can relax a bit longer. As invincible as Hannibal seems, he had a much more physically taxing day than Will did. 

He pushes up on an elbow to look down at him, smiling right back as Hannibal’s eyes flutter open and shut. 

“You’ve never eaten ass before?” Will asks. 

“Must you call it that?” Hannibal sighs. 

“What do you want me to say?” Will laughs, leaning down to kiss the corner of Hannibal’s mouth. 

“Never mind,” Hannibal sighs again. “No. I have not done it before.”

“Did you like it?” Will asks. 

“It was not unpleasant, but I have a concern,” Hannibal says. 

Will rests his hand on Hannibal’s bare chest, swirling a pattern with his finger tips. “If it’s about me smelling like an airplane and a morgue, I did warn you.”

“No,” Hannibal says, shaking his head. “I’m just concerned because saliva has digestive enzymes that can dry out your—”

“Alright, alright, I get it. Stop talking. Stop it,” Will cuts him off. “I’m fine. You were fine when I did it to you, right?”

“Well, yes, I suppose, but—”

“Nope. End of discussion,” Will tells him, putting a finger over Hannibal’s lips to shush him. 

Will gets up and stumbles over to the bathroom to relieve himself without bothering to shut the door. He scratches at the dry come on his stomach and around his dick, then turns on the shower. He removes the bandage on his arm, figuring it could use some air, and he doesn’t want to deal with the feeling of wet gauze. He steps into the shower and closes his eyes, letting the hot water hit his chest and stomach, warming him from the outside in. A shiver rips through him at the feeling of cold air on the rest of his skin. 

About thirty seconds after Will gets in, Hannibal comes into the bathroom, too. 

He steps into the shower behind Will, and wraps his arms around Will’s waist. He rests his chin on Will’s shoulder, and Will shifts his weight back, resting himself against Hannibal’s chest. 

Hannibal’s hands roam up and down Will’s chest, and stomach, then down to cup his rapidly filling cock. 

“You wanna go again?” Will smirks. He turns his face and kisses Hannibal’s cheek, keeping his face there to nose at Hannibal’s cheekbones. He feels so beyond happy to be standing where he is, with the person he’s with. 

Hannibal shakes his head and releases Will’s cock, and sets his hands on his hips instead. They gently sway together under the spray of the water, as if moving to a song neither of them can hear. 

They don’t do too much in terms of cleaning themselves. Hannibal stays behind Will, most likely so he doesn’t get his stitches wet, and Will just leans back and lets Hannibal hold him. 

The water goes cold, and Will rushes to soap himself up and rinse himself off as quickly as he can. They step out and find towels, taking their time drying off, stealing kisses while they do. Will decides to trim his facial hair and Hannibal sits on the closed toilet seat tending to his stab wound. 

They’re alerted by the sound of the dogs barking, and the front door opens and shuts. 

“Hello?” Abigail calls out. 

“In the bathroom! Be out in a minute!” Will calls back. He turns to Hannibal and murmurs, “Did you tell her we were here?”

Hannibal shakes his head. “No, but I suspect Beverly told her what happened today.”

Will shuts the bathroom door, which has been open the entire time. 

“It’s a good thing she came now instead of earlier,” Will murmurs. 

He finishes up his face, then wraps a towel tight around his waist, making sure it’s secure before he steps out of the bathroom. Hannibal is still sitting naked on the closed toilet seat, restitching his wound, so Will closes the door behind him. 

“I’ll be back down in a minute,” Will says to Abigail before running up the stairs to his bedroom. He hears Abigail go into her bedroom next door, and is grateful that he’ll have time to clean up the living room without her watching. 

He gets dressed quickly and gets something comfortable for Hannibal to wear from his drawers. 

He walks into the bathroom when he gets back downstairs and hands Hannibal the folded stack of clothes, then hurries out to the living room to start picking up their mess. 

He gathers their discarded clothes, and pulls the sheets off the bed, and throws them all into the washing machine. The room reeks of sex, so he sprays Fabrese all over, which doesn’t completely work, but it works enough. 

Hannibal comes out of the bathroom as Will is on his hands and knees on the floor, attempting to get his glasses out from under the couch. He doesn’t even know how they got there, or taking them off, but somehow that’s where they are. 

“Why not just move the couch?” Hannibal asks from directly above him. 

Will jumps, not having expected for Hannibal to be so close, and with his head halfway under the couch, he bumps the back of it on the couch. 

“Ow, fuck,” Will groans, moving out from where he is to sit up on the floor, victoriously holding his glasses in his hand. “Don’t fucking do that.”

“Hm?”

“You walk completely silently, even in this old, creaky house. I don’t know how you do it.”

Will looks up at him and sees a flash of amusement on Hannibal’s face. It’s gone just as quickly as Will notices it. 

“Lots of practice,” Hannibal shrugs. He holds out a hand to pull Will off the floor, and Will accepts it, being dragged to his feet like he weighs nothing. 

For the first time in hours, Will remembers who exactly Hannibal is. Why he can lift bodies like nothing, and why he needs to be able to walk on quiet feet. It all comes flooding back. His boyfriend is still the Chesapeake Ripper. Even after such a tender, loving, and vulnerable afternoon. Nothing will change that. He came out of the fight with Tobias with two more kills under his belt, and Will just has to accept that. Even knowing, even coming back to this realization, Will still can’t let him go.

“You are staring,” Hannibal murmurs, pulling Will out of his thoughts. 

“Huh?” Will asks, trying to catch back up with reality. “Oh. I find the view to be very pleasant.”

Hannibal smiles and leans in to kiss him. Soft, and chaste at first, but Will pulls him closer, hands gripping his hips, and deepens the kiss. He moans softly into Hannibal’s mouth when Hannibal licks at his teeth. 

“Ugh, get a room,” Abigail groans. 

Will jumps back from Hannibal, his cheeks heating up. 

“You guys just weren’t going to tell me you almost died today? I had to find out when Beverly got home from work,” Abigail says. She stands with his arms crossed, as if she’s a mother scolding her children for staying out too late. “I’ve already had one set of parents die. I don’t want you guys to, either.”

“You’re right,” Will sighs. He rubs at the back of his neck, nervous for some reason. “We should’ve called.”

“It won’t happen again, Abigail,” Hannibal adds. 

“It better not,” Abigail warns. Her face softens from the scowl she was throwing at them and she crosses the room, and hugs them both in turn. “I’m glad you’re okay.”

“Me too,” Will murmurs into her hair. He pulls away, then looks at both of them, one after the other. “You guys hungry? We can order something. I don’t think there’s much food in this house.”

“I can cook,” Hannibal says. “I’ve been grocery shopping while you were gone.”

“You should get off your feet and relax,” Will says, setting a hand on Hannibal’s chest, and pushing him gently to the couch. “I’ll cook.”

So Will throws something together, then brings plates out to the living room. He sits next to Hannibal on the couch, and Abigail sits in one of the armchairs by the fireplace that now has a fire blazing in it. The dogs circle them, getting bored and moving on to a different person each time it’s clear they won’t be given any of their food.

He takes all of their plates when they’re done, then takes the dogs out with Abigail. 

When they’re about a hundred feet from the house, Abigail speaks. 

“Will?” 

Her voice is so quiet, and uncertain, and Will feels a rush of anxiety over what she could possibly say; over what needed to wait until they were without Hannibal to be said. 

“Yeah?”

“Have you ever…” she pauses, and Will knows exactly where this is going. “Have you ever noticed anything weird about Hannibal?”

He pretends the question doesn’t make his blood run cold. 

“No, why?” Will lies. “What… what are you suggesting?”

“I’m just… I’ve noticed things. Things like… like living with my dad,” Abigail whispers. “Maybe it’s just in my head, but… the meat Hannibal serves… it’s… it… Will…”

Abigail sounds terrified to admit what she knows. 

“You think Hannibal is a cannibal?” Will asks. “That’s…” he feels terrible for what he’s about to say, but he has no way of knowing what Abigail would do if he entertained her (true) suspicions. “Abigail, that’s ridiculous,” Will says, shaking his head. “When would he even have time to… we’re with each other nearly every night, Abigail. He has a full-time job, and hobbies, and a shit ton of events that he goes to. How would he?”

“Maybe you’re right,” Abigail whispers, disappointment and shame rolling off of her in waves. She feels stupid, Will can tell. He feels terrible for dismissing her like this, but Hannibal told him Abigail can’t know, and he’s kept his promise for months now. He’s not going to reveal anything to her until Hannibal says something to him first.

“Hannibal’s just… too caring to do that,” Will whispers. “He’s too polite.”

“My dad was caring… until he wasn’t,” Abigail whispers. 

“Hannibal killed someone today,” Will tells her. “And he’s been falling apart since. And he did it because he had to. I just don’t see how he could do it willingly.”

“I… okay,” Abigail whispers. Will can tell that she’s moving from feeling stupid, to feeling reassured, which is good. He just hopes that if it ever comes out, that she doesn’t resent him for lying tonight. “Please don’t tell him I said anything, okay?”

“I won’t, kiddo,” Will lies, yet again. “If you notice anything else… let me know, okay?”

Abigail nods. 

Will puts an arm around her shoulders and walks her back toward the house, the dogs following after. 

Hannibal is snoozing on the couch, a book resting on his chest. His mouth is hanging open, and his neck is bent in a way that will be uncomfortable if it stays like that much longer. 

Abigail goes right upstairs after she takes off her shoes and coat. 

Will sits on the couch next to Hannibal and props his feet up in the older man’s lap. Hannibal sits up, looks around with scared eyes, then relaxes when he realizes where he is and who’s sitting with him. 

“Beloved,” Hannibal whispers, sleepily. He sets the book down on the coffee table, and sets a hand on Will’s ankle. He curls his fingers around bones and holds him tight. 

“You wanna go to bed?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head and closes his eyes again. 

“Lay down, at least,” Will tells him. He opens his arms up, and adds, “Come here.”

Just as Hannibal settles his weight against Will’s chest and Will wraps his legs around Hannibal’s waist, possessively, a phone starts vibrating on the coffee table. His own. 

“If that’s Jack…” Hannibal murmurs, leaving the threat wide open as Will reaches for his phone. 

Will checks the display and sighs. 

“Hey Alana,” he answers. 

Hannibal bites into his pectoral after Will says her name. His teeth are sharp even through Will’s flannel shirt and he nearly yelps. Instead he lifts a hand and lightly pushes Hannibal’s face away. Hannibal nips his finger in response.

“Hi, Will. I heard what happened today,” Alana says. “I figured you’d want to postpone dinner until you’re less shaken up about things.”

“Yeah… that would be good,” Will agrees. He’s currently trying to fight off the mouth of his cannibal boyfriend, now attempting to leave hickeys on his neck. Sharp teeth pierce his skin and he has to muffle the whimper with his hand.

“Are you okay? If you need someone to talk to…” Alana trails off. 

“Nope! I’m good. I’ll call you about plans, bye Alana!” Will says, hurriedly, and hangs up before she can even respond. 

He sets his phone down on the coffee table again, and Hannibal looks up at him with big, fake innocent eyes. He glares back at him, unamused, but a bit turned on at the same time. He tries to think of anything else to keep his thoughts away from Hannibal biting and kissing and sucking at his skin.

“Hey,” Will whispers. “You wanna go for a drive?”

“It’s late,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I know,” Will agrees. He keeps his voice low. “I need to talk to you, but not here.”

“Very well,” Hannibal agrees, pushing himself off of Will and the couch. 

Will tells Abigail they’re going out for a little while, and she seems like she’s suspicious about what he might say to Hannibal, but she just nods, and looks back at her laptop.

In the car, Will holds Hannibal’s hand on the center console. He stays quiet for the first five minutes of the drive, then he carefully tells Hannibal about his conversation with Abigail. 

“I told her there’s no way,” Will reiterates when he finishes telling him. “I just wanted you to know so you can make sure she doesn’t find out anything else. Please don’t tell her you know anything. She’ll never trust me again for telling you.” 

Hannibal squeezes his hand. “Thank you for telling me, sweetheart.”

“I really don’t know if I like that one,” Will mumbles. 

“Which do you prefer?” Hannibal asks. 

“I think ‘darling’ is my favorite?” Will says, hesitant, somewhat embarrassed, even. “I like when you call me ‘love,’ too. Dear isn’t a favorite, either. It sounds condescending.”

“I don’t mean for it to be.”

“I know that. Sweetheart and dear just have that… I don’t know. Sweetheart makes me think of creepy old men hitting on waitresses and dear makes us sound like we’ve been married for years and feel bored with each other.” 

“I could never feel bored of you. And you called me sweetheart just last night,” Hannibal reminds him. 

“I have no excuse,” Will mumbles. He doesn’t really know why he used it, other than it felt right at that moment. It was an itch he had to scratch, and now that he has, he doesn’t think he’ll use it again. “We got off track a bit.”

“Is there more to discuss in regards to Abigail?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shrugs and keeps driving. He pulls into a McDonald’s drive thru, ignoring Hannibal’s puzzled expression. 

“I just… expected you to be scared… or mad? Not mad,” Will corrects, shaking his head. “No offense, I thought maybe you’d do something rash.”

“Is that why we had to leave the house?” Hannibal asks, raising an eyebrow. 

“No, no,” Will says. “I just didn’t want her hearing me telling you. And an M&M Mcflurry sounds really good. Did you want anything?”

“No, thank you,” Hannibal declines. 

Will orders, gets the total and pulls up through the drive thru. He fumbles for his own wallet, but realizes he left it on the coffee table. Hannibal pulls his own out without a word and hands it to Will when they get to the window. 

He opens it to go straight for Hannibal’s card, but his eyes linger on his driver’s license encased in plastic. He distractedly hands the card over, and looks at Hannibal’s ID again. 

“Admiring my photo?” Hannibal asks. “I do quite like this one.”

Will flicks his eyes over to the photo, and yes Hannibal looks really good in it, but he always does. He didn’t need to see the photo to know that he would. That’s not what caught his attention to begin with.

“Why does it say birthday is January first?” Will asks. 

Before Hannibal can respond, Will is handed the card and a receipt back and is told to pull up to the next window.

“Because that’s my birthday, darling,” Hannibal says, slowly. As if he has to explain how a driver’s license works to Will. That’s not what Will is getting at. 

He takes his Mcflurry from the worker and sets it in the cup holder. He pulls out into a parking space and looks at Hannibal’s license again. 

“We were together all day on New Year’s day and you didn’t say a word,” Will accuses. 

“I don’t think of my birthday,” Hannibal says. “And you were in a state where my birthday was the least of my concerns. I felt it wouldn’t be right to tell you.”

“That’s… you can tell me anything, you know,” Will says. “No matter what state I’m in. You can tell me anything,” Will repeats. He’s testing the waters, seeing if Hannibal will finally come clean about being the Chesapeake Ripper, but he doesn’t.

“From now on, yes, I will keep that in mind,” Hannibal says. 

Will doesn’t say anything more on the subject. He doesn’t actually want to goad Hannibal into revealing himself. 

He picks up his Mcflurry from the cup holder and starts to eat it, offering Hannibal a spoonful after he eats a few bites himself. Hannibal reluctantly opens his mouth and Will feeds him, watching the way his eyes close in a way Will assumes is pleasure. 

“Good?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods slowly, but doesn’t ask for another bite. 

“Should we talk about today?” Will asks, stabbing the spoon into the ice cream repeatedly. “I outed us.”

“We don’t need to talk about it,” Hannibal offers. “Do tell me about your conversation with Alana, though.”

“Hm?” Will hums. “Oh. She called because this morning I told her we could have dinner together. She was worried she ruined our friendship and all, but I couldn’t really talk when she called, so I said dinner. Tonight she called to ask if we should postpone.”

“What time did she call today?” Hannibal asks. 

“When I was at Tobias’s shop. I stepped outside to take it and came back and that’s when he killed the officers,” Will mumbles. 

“Alana’s call potentially saved your life,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will shrugs. He guesses that’s about right, but her call could’ve just gotten him out of the room long enough to kill the others. Tobias saw they weren’t on guard and took his shot when Will—the only one on high alert—was gone. He doesn’t mention this to Hannibal. 

“I’ll admit I was quite… angry that she kissed you last night,” Hannibal says. “But I suppose I can let that go after what she did today. Perhaps some thanks are in order.”

“I mean she didn’t know I was taken, and she had no way of knowing she was calling at such an inconvenient time…” Will pauses, then whispers,  “Don’t tell Alana about us.”

“It’s quite possible she already knows,” Hannibal says. He takes the cup out of Will’s hands, which Will has been stabbing with his spoon for the better part of five minutes, and sets it in the cupholder. He takes both of Will’s hands in his own, and Will knows he’s waiting for him to make eye contact. As soon as Will looks at him, Hannibal continues, “I love you, and I do not care what anyone has to say about that. If Alana has a problem, then Alana will no longer be a part of our lives until she no longer has that problem. But if you truly do not want me telling her, then I will respect those wishes.”

“Don’t tell her yet,” Will repeats. Truth be told, he knows Alana will have a problem with it, and that’s how he knows that she does not know anything about them. And he also knows that Hannibal would have no problem pushing her out of their lives, and Will doesn’t really want that. 

“Then I won’t.”

“Okay, um… What are you going to do about Abigail?” Will asks again. 

“Should I do something?” Hannibal asks him. 

Will shrugs. He thought Hannibal might kill her or something, but he doesn’t seem bothered, which is a good sign. 

Finally, Will says no, and they head back home. 

There’s a bad feeling in the back of Will’s mind. His stomach keeps flipping at random intervals throughout the rest of the night. He finds himself shaking as he and Hannibal sit on the couch tangled together. They sit watching TV, Will leaning against Hannibal, situated under his arm, until two in the morning, when Will remembers he still has lectures to teach in the morning. 

“Shit,” Will hisses at the realization, jumping out of his place next to Hannibal.

The other man has been relatively quiet about, and unbothered by, Will’s issues tonight, but now he jolts up right and grabs Will around the waist. Will has no choice but to fall back into Hannibal’s lap, his back against the older man’s chest, as there’s nowhere else to go. 

“You are a mess. Sit here and relax, or you will tell me what is wrong,” Hannibal says firmly. He tightens his hold around Will’s waist with one arm until it’s near painful.

It feels like a threat to Will and he feels the need to get away. Hannibal’s other hand moves from holding Will’s chest to his throat and Will gasps, and grabs at Hannibal’s wrist. Hannibal isn’t blocking airflow, but if Will tries to pull out of his lap again, there’s no doubt he will. Will knows the place he has his hand is not going to change, and if Will decides to move forward, the hand will stay and add pressure. It is a threat. 

“Let me go,” Will says. “Please let me go.”

He’s panicking now, but he can’t figure out why. Hannibal has never hurt him, and isn’t hurting him now. He’s just holding him in place, but it feels like he’s trapped. Hannibal has never hurt him, but he could, Will reminds himself. One wrong move and Hannibal could snap his neck and no one would ever find his body. 

“Shh, shh,” Hannibal hushes him, nosing behind his ear. “You’re alright, darling. It’s just me. I’m here.”

But he’s not alright, and the shaking gets worse, and he can’t breathe now, but Hannibal still isn’t blocking his airflow. He should be able to breathe, he should, but he’s trapped, and his chest hurts, and he wants to scream and move away and, and why is Hannibal so calm? How can he be so calm while Will is panicking in his lap. 

“What’s the matter?” Hannibal whispers. His fingers gently rubbing at his neck, and there’s a slight pain, and Will thinks Hannibal must be touching a bite mark. The hand on his waist is also rubbing small circles into his hip bone. 

Will relaxes, realizing Hannibal is just giving Will points of contact to focus on, rather than what’s going on inside his head. Hannibal is unaware, though, that those points of contact are what worsened Will’s panic. 

“I’m okay. I’m okay,” Will mumbles, slumping back into Hannibal’s chest again. No fight left in him. Hannibal never had any intention of choking him if he tried to move, it was all in his head. He only put his hand there as a reminder that he’s here, and that Will is safe. Even if it didn’t feel safe in the moment, now that Will feels the gentle touch and his mind isn’t plagued by thoughts of the Chesapeake Ripper, he can feel safe again.

Hannibal is his safe harbor. Even if Hannibal is the one that creates the tumultuous seas in Will’s life. 

God, I’m fucked, Will groans internally. So, so fucked.

Hannibal noses at the space behind his ear again and kisses his neck. His hand moves back down to Will’s chest, right over his heart. 

“I work in the morning,” Will murmurs. “I forgot. I need to go to bed. I’m sorry I freaked out.”

“You do not work in the morning,” Hannibal whispers. “You’re staying home with me. You’re going to lay in my arms for the rest of the night, and we are going to sleep until early afternoon. Perhaps I will drag you into the shower, and fuck you against the wall until your knees are weak and you can’t stand without my arm around your waist. Or perhaps I will prepare myself before you wake, and sink down onto you while you’re still rubbing sleep from your eyes. Or I could even make you come from just my fingers inside you, and then fuck you into an overstimulated, whimpering mess.”

“Fuck, don’t say that,” Will groans. Arousal pools in his gut, and his pants feel like they’re getting tighter. Hannibal is going to kill him with this kind of talk, if he doesn’t kill him with a hand around his windpipe, or a blade in his stomach first. 

“Or…” Hannibal breathes. “I could take you right here, right now.”

One of Hannibal’s fingertips trails from the base of his zipper up to the top, then pops open the button. Will grabs his wrist, but neither pulls it away, or pushes his closer. He lets Hannibal do as he pleases, and can’t help but squirm in his lap. 

“Abigail’s here,” Will remembers. “She might come down here.”

Hannibal nips at the side of his neck, and slowly pulls down Will’s zipper. 

“She won’t,” Hannibal whispers, dipping his hand into Will’s underwear to palm at his cock. 

As if on cue, her bedroom door opens, and Will hears her footsteps crossing the hallway upstairs. Hannibal quickly pulls his hand out of Will’s pants, and pulls the blanket over them both. Will slides out of his lap, and leans back against his side. 

Abigail comes downstairs in just her pajamas, and drapes herself across one of the armchairs. 

“I can’t sleep,” she explains, dropping her head back over the armrest to look at both of them. 

“Neither can we,” Hannibal responds. 

“If my dad killed girls at all the schools I applied to, and all of the girls went missing during weekends we were signed up for tours, could the FBI do anything with that?” she asks. The way she says it suggests that it’s something that has been bothering her for a long time, but she’s trying to act like it just came to mind. Overcompensating on the amount of nonchalance in her voice. 

Will sits up straight, making sure the blanket stays in his lap. 

“You’re just now thinking of this?” he demands. 

Abigail flinches at Will’s tone, and he offers her an apologetic smile. 

“We’re lucky they haven’t found it yet,” Will mutters. “Fuck, okay. Hannibal?”

“Hm?” 

“How much time would you reckon we have?” Will murmurs. “Can’t be long, can it?”

“Not long at all,” Hannibal agrees. He’s contemplating something, and Will wishes he knew what. 

“Well, what can we do?” Abigail asks. 

“I’m afraid, there may not be much to do, my dear,” Hannibal says. “Destroying evidence, perhaps, but it would definitely be a race against the FBI, if they haven’t found it already.”

“We’d have to do the plan,” Abigail murmurs. 

Hannibal nods.

“What plan?” Will asks. 

“Don’t concern yourself,” Hannibal says. “The less you know, the better.”

“Hannibal, what plan,” Will repeats through gritted teeth.

“It’s nothing, Will,” Abigail assures him. 

“Abigail, can you give us a minute?” Will asks. 

Abigail nods, and goes to the front door, calling for the dogs to follow her. She pulls on her coat and her boots and steps outside into the cold. 

Once the door is shut behind her, Will turns and looks back at Hannibal. 

“Not long ago you told me you were planning on faking her death and framing me,” Will hisses. “Is that your fucking plan?”

“No,” Hannibal says simply. “I just want to keep you uninvolved. It’s safer this way. If anyone found out you were in on it—” Hannibal shakes his head. “I couldn’t live with myself. Please, just let this go. It may not even become an issue.”

“Hannibal, I don’t know what to do,” Will whispers. “I can’t hide the evidence. It’s only a matter of time before they find something, and then I can’t help her anymore. Her entire life is going to be thrown away because of her father, and now we… We can’t save her either. We’re giving her just as much of a death sentence as he tried to.”

“Will,” Hannibal whispers. He pulls Will into an embrace, and it’s awkward, the way Will twists and slumps against Hannibal’s chest. “You are not Garrett Jacob Hobbs. Your inability to help Abigail is out of your control. His choices are not indicative of your own love just because you cannot undo what he has done.”

“I’m scared,” Will admits. “Terrified. We’re supposed to do better by her than Garrett Jacob Hobbs did.”

“And we are,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses the top of Will’s head. “No matter which way we save her, Abigail Hobbs will live on, whether that’s the name she goes by, or not. She will never be caged. We must never allow that.”

Caged like Miriam Lass, Will thinks, but does not say. 

“Go upstairs, darling. I’ll be up soon,” Hannibal whispers. 


Hannibal is, to put it simply, annoyed. Annoyed that Abigail has shown up at Will’s house while he was trying to have a romantic night with just the two of them. Annoyed that she has decided to come downstairs and drop this bomb on them just as Hannibal was sticking his hand down Will’s pants. 

No warning at all that she was spending the night there with them. Rude. 

He knows she came to see if they were both okay, and he understands that to a certain degree. She doesn’t want to lose another set of parents, and Hannibal understands that type of loss, but he’s still annoyed. 

He can’t kill her. He wouldn’t kill someone for something as petty as cockblocking. Of course not. In that case, he’d have to kill half of his acquaintances for all of the times someone knocked on the door or called while he was attempting to drag Will to bed.

Her realizing what kind of meat Hannibal serves is more than enough for him to do it, but Will would never forgive him. Will begged so beautifully in the car for Hannibal not to say a word to her, even when Hannibal made no indication he would do so to begin with. He won’t deny Will that. 

But Hannibal needs to make sure she won’t bring up her concerns to anyone else. He will set the plan in motion, now that he has enough information from Abigail herself. While both he and Hannibal told her to come to them about this, it has damned her. The life she is comfortable in now is all temporary, and she’s living it on borrowed time. It’s always been this way.

He can’t tell Will the plan. Not yet. Because this beautiful man has such a beautiful mind, and he is too perceptive. There’s no way he won’t ask questions, and the more he asks, no matter how vague Hannibal keeps his answers, there is no doubt he will immediately figure out this plan is one of the Ripper’s.

He sends Will upstairs, and goes to the door to tell Abigail she can come back inside now. He kisses the top of her head, and wishes her a goodnight, then follows Will up to the bedroom. 

Will is laying in bed, with just the corner of a blanket covering his groin. He has his phone in his hands, and is typing something out when Hannibal opens the door. He just barely glances over when Hannibal walks in, then goes back to typing. 

Hannibal undresses, and shuts off the light, then climbs into bed next to Will. He finishes typing, locks his phone then plugs it in and sets it on the nightstand. 

“I cancelled my lectures for tomorrow, but I don’t know how many more times I can do that before they find someone to replace me,” Will murmurs. He rolls over and rests his head on Hannibal’s shoulder, rubbing his hand up and down Hannibal’s bare abdomen. 

Will is relaxed for the first time since they got home from their drive, and Hannibal doesn’t want to ruin that calm, so he doesn’t say anything. He knows that mentioning anything may set him off into another fit of shaking and anxiety, and he doesn’t want that. He knows that Will freaked out earlier because of the way he was holding him, but he also knew it was the only way to get him to think of something other than work, and Abigail, and the events of that morning. It worked, so Hannibal finds no reason to worry about it.

“Sleep, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

In the morning, Hannibal doesn’t actually get to do any of the things he was telling Will he wanted to do. Instead he wakes to an empty bed, the space next to him cold, as if Will hasn’t been laying there for several hours. Upon further inspection, there’s a note on Will’s pillow. It says two words:

Gone fishing. 

Hannibal frowns and pulls himself out of bed, then shrugs on his robe and slides on a pair of boxers from Will’s dresser. They’re Will’s, so they don’t fit quite right, but he doesn’t care. 

Downstairs, he finds Abigail at the kitchen table with her laptop in front of her. He pretends he doesn’t see her minimize her window when he walks in. It looked like the red of Tattlecrime, and he wonders if she’s looking into murders in the area where organs have been taken from the victims. 

“Did you eat breakfast?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Abigail answers. “Will went ice fishing.”

“He left me a note,” Hannibal says. “You didn’t want to go with? He’s been wanting to take you fishing.”

And he may not get another chance, Hannibal doesn’t add. 

He spends the morning lounging on the couch, typing away on his own laptop. He has to plan the next set of events meticulously and down to the perfect timing. So much of it is going to fall down to chance, and he needs to control every possible variable he can in order to make it work. 

Will comes in the front door late in the afternoon, stomping snow off his boots on the rug by the door, and ripping his hat off his head. There’s a small cooler in one hand and Hannibal can immediately smell fresh caught fish. 

Hannibal shuts his laptop and goes to help Will with his catch, earning a quick kiss on the lips as Will passes the cooler over. His lips are freezing, and Hannibal almost tells him to go warm up in the bath, but Will beats him to it. 

“Put those in the fridge and come join me in the bath?” Will asks as he takes off his winter coat, and toes off his boots. 

Hannibal does as he’s asked, then slips Abigail his debit card and tells her to go grocery shopping for a few items he can pair with the fish for dinner. 

He goes up the stairs and finds Will already lounging in the bath, bubbles built high around his body. He opens his eyes when Hannibal comes in and starts removing his robe and the boxers he has on. Will sits up and slides forward so Hannibal can sink in behind him. He keeps his injured leg over the edge of the tub, his foot dangling outside. The water nearly reaches the stitches on his thigh, but it’s out of the way as best as it can be.

Will scoots back until he’s snug against Hannibal’s chest and lets out a loud content sigh. He’s relaxed, and Hannibal supposes a morning spent fishing can do that for someone who enjoys it. 

“I sent Abigail grocery shopping,” Hannibal whispers, mouthing at the side of Will’s neck. “We are all alone.”

He trails his hands over Will’s chest, then down further and further, until Will is arching against him, reaching behind himself to knot his fingers in the hair at the back of Hannibal’s head. Hannibal grips his cock firmly and strokes him slowly. 

Water sloshes where his hand moves, and each time Will squirms against him. Hannibal continues mouthing at Will’s neck, and uses his other arm to pull Will closer to him. His own cock slides between Will’s asscheeks, and all he can do is rut against him. It’s not nearly enough. 

“Take me to bed. What the fuck are you waiting for?” Will groans. He pushes Hannibal’s hand away, and Hannibal knows it’s because he’s gotten close but doesn’t want to end this here in the bath. 

Hannibal growls against his neck, and bites down, unable to stop himself. 

He uses the leverage from his leg over the side of the tub to pull himself out. Will has no choice but to get pushed out as well. As Hannibal stands straight, he lifts Will with the hold around his waist, so Will’s toes can barely touch the ground as Hannibal walks them both out of the bathroom. 

Hannibal throws him down onto the bed, face down, still wet and covered in suds from the bath. Will, clearly unhappy with being handled in such a way, flips over and lunges himself at Hannibal, pushing him into the nearest wall. He bites down into Hannibal’s shoulder and roughly grabs both of their cocks in one tight grip, pulling a moan from Hannibal’s lips.

Will reaches over and slams the door shut with his other hand, even though they’re alone in the house besides the dogs, and in his distraction, Hannibal is able to pick him up again. He throws Will over his shoulder and throws him back onto the bed, this time on his back, which makes Will no happier. 

It’s a clear fight for the upper hand, and Hannibal doesn’t know what sparked it in either of them. 

Hannibal climbs over him, but next thing he knows, he’s flat on his stomach, and Will is settled over the back of his thighs, rubbing his erection against Hannibal’s ass. 

He grabs both of Hannibal’s wrists, and slides his hands up the bed so they’re pinned above Hannibal’s head. Will’s weight is firm over him, strength putting pressure on his wrists. Hannibal could easily move if he wanted to, and he knows Will knows that, but he stays put. 

Hannibal turns his face so his cheek is against the mattress, and Will kisses the one facing the ceiling. 

“Did you have a nice time fishing?” Hannibal asks. 

Will laughs, giddy. No hard feelings, it seems. Their battle wasn’t sparked by any sort of rage on Will’s end. He wasn’t truly mad about Hannibal’s rough handling of him. He sighs in relief. 

“Yes,” Will says. He rolls his hips, sliding his cock against Hannibal’s ass. Hannibal feels him shift, and then the nightstand drawer opens and Will comes back with a bottle of lube. He rubs a dry finger against Hannibal’s hole, and Hannibal tenses up briefly. “Can I?”

“Of course, darling,” Hannibal breathes. 

He pulls Hannibal up by his hips, and Hannibal allows the movement, and the fingers digging into his hip bones. 

Hannibal loves that. The way Will clings to him, the way his fingers dig into his skin, trying to leave bruises behind. It’s as if Will is always trying to rip him open and claw his way inside. Hannibal rests on his forearms, his ass in the air, waiting. He turns his head back and the way Will is looking down at him—Hannibal loves that too. How could he not?

All he’s wanted since he met Will Graham is to become Will Graham’s one and only. And slowly, ever so slowly, Hannibal is making sure that is what’s happening. Will has a solid support system behind him, but Jack’s trust in him has certainly waned, and Abigail will only be around for so much longer. Eventually, Hannibal will convince him to move away, somewhere Will doesn’t know the language. Where he would have to rely on Hannibal for most things, if not for everything. Oh, how Hannibal wants to see that day. 

And as soon as Will picks up on enough of the language, or when he gains friendship from others, Hannibal may just move them again. 

He knows isolating Will would be unhealthy, but he’s a possessive man. And Will is his. 

He voices this as Will pushes two slick fingers inside him. 

“You’re mine,” Hannibal growls. 

He says it again when Will finally pushes the head of his cock inside him. 

“You belong to me,” Hannibal says this time. “No one else.”

Will drapes himself over Hannibal’s back, thrusting hard into him. It sends Hannibal pitching forward, nearly face planting into the pillow. He pushes back up on his forearms and pushes back against Will, meeting him thrust for thrust. 

“I don’t belong to anyone,” Will whispers, breath hot in his ear. “You don’t own me.”

His beloved is correct. To claim ownership in any way would be to put Will on a leash, and mould him into his ideal version of the man. That just won’t do. Will can only flourish if he’s allowed to change on his own. Hannibal can only whisper into the chrysalis and hope something beautiful will emerge. What is deemed beautiful, is up to Will alone. 

“You don’t own me, but you have me,” Will murmurs. “No one else has a hold on me like you do.”

“No one else ever will,” Hannibal moans. 

Will lifts one hand from beside Hannibal’s elbows and reaches under him to wrap it around his cock, stroking Hannibal in time with his thrusts. Hannibal comes onto the sheets with a low groan, thighs trembling as Will fucks him through it. 

Hannibal whines when Will pulls out, and he turns over, knowing Will hasn’t finished yet. Will is still hard, leaking at the tip, and Hannibal reaches out for him, just as Will leans over Hannibal’s body and takes himself into his hand to jerk himself off. He comes on Hannibal’s softened cock, on his stomach, over his own hand.

He bites hard into Hannibal’s shoulder, undoubtedly drawing blood and leaving bruises. Marking. Claiming. 

Maybe Hannibal doesn’t own Will, but maybe Will owns Hannibal. That’s fine with him.

He runs two fingers through the mess on Hannibal’s skin, then brings his hand to Hannibal’s lips. If Hannibal were twenty years younger, he’d likely be interested in another round already, at the sight of Will in front of him, at the taste of Will’s come as Hannibal accepts Will’s fingers into his mouth. 

Will makes a pleased noise as Hannibal sucks on his fingers. 

“This was a lovely surprise, my darling,” Hannibal says as Will pulls his hand away. “You have gone from timid and unsure during our intimacy to taking what you want when you want it.”

“The way you were talking last night has had me riled up since,” Will laughs. 

He reaches over to the nightstand and drops the bottle of lube inside, then pulls out a pack of wet wipes. He pulls one out and wipes Hannibal down, then tosses it toward the small garbage can in the corner of the room. He misses, and sighs, then gets up from the bed to walk over and drop it in. 

A clean pair of sheets come out of a drawer next and Hannibal groans impatiently, and stands up to help Will pull off the dirty ones and fit the new ones. 

“Fishing kind of took it out of me. I’m gonna nap, okay?” Will asks. “You can join me. Unless you have other things to do?”

Hannibal shakes his head and lays back down, pulling Will close to him. He forgets about his plans for now. It can wait. 

Will wakes him up some time later, a hand splayed on his chest as he kisses all over his face. 

Hannibal turns his face and catches Will’s roaming lips with his own. He sees Will is fully dressed in a button down and slacks and laments the missed opportunity to see Will naked again so soon. 

“Can you stay up here for a bit?” Will whispers. “Alana’s coming here for dinner.”

Hannibal nods and grabs the hand on his chest to bring it to his lips to kiss his knuckles. 

“Do you want me to bring your laptop up?” Will asks. 

“Please, darling. Thank you.”

Will kisses his forehead, then gets out of the bed again. He returns a minute later with Hannibal’s laptop under one arm and Beatrice cradled in the other. Will hands both to Hannibal and the older man glares. 

“She hates me,” Hannibal mutters. 

“She doesn’t. And she keeps walking all over the counter while I’m trying to cook. Please be nice to her.”

“I’ll be nice if she does too,” Hannibal murmurs. 

Will shuts the door and Hannibal waits until his footsteps fade away down the steps before he opens his laptop and sets it on the bed in front of him. 

He pulls up a document and begins typing a letter to Freddie Lounds, which he will print off in a few days and deliver to her mailbox in the dead of night. This letter is Hannibal’s easiest way to set the plan in motion.


Will finishes frying the fish while Abigail makes a rice side dish with different ingredients Hannibal told her to pick up. He feels bad that Hannibal has to stay upstairs for the duration of the meal, but he’s just not ready to tell Alana. Not so soon after he rejected her. Alana knowing he’s with someone is one thing, but Alana knowing that person is Hannibal is another. 

He sets aside a serving as he serves the three of them, and puts it on a plate in the fridge while Alana isn’t looking. 

“Sorry for intruding on your plans,” Abigail murmurs sheepishly. “I kinda just showed up today without telling Will.”

“It’s okay, Abigail. It’s always wonderful to see you. It’s been some time since we’ve had a session. Are you doing okay?” Alana asks. 

Will pretends not to listen to the conversation, and instead wonders what Hannibal might be doing, or thinking upstairs. He tries not to get aroused at the thought of Hannibal lounging naked in bed just a floor above him. He definitely forces himself not to think about the amazing sex they’ve had the last two days. It has him distracted. 

“Will,” Alana says, dragging him away from thoughts of his boyfriend. 

Will looks up from his plate, but avoids her eyes, staring just past her left ear. 

“I wanted to apologize for the other night. Had I known you were with someone, I really wouldn’t have… done that,” Alana says. 

“Seriously, Alana. No worries,” Will assures her. “I actually wanted to thank you… Yesterday your call saved my life.”

“Oh?” Alana asks, head cocked with curiosity. 

Will nods as he takes another bite of fish. He can’t help but think Hannibal’s would’ve been so much better than what he made with it. 

“I took a step outside to answer it while at Tobias’s shop. If I hadn’t, he would’ve killed all three of us at once,” Will explains. 

“Well… I’m glad you made it out alive. I don’t know if I can take credit for saving your life, but I’m relieved I called when I did.”

Will nods, not quite sure what to say in response. Abigail is very quiet too, likely feeling awkward about having not gone back to Baltimore or up to her room. 

By the time he shows Alana to the door, the dogs are growing restless, so Abigail takes them outside. 

He texts Hannibal that he can come back down, and he does, dressed in one of his ridiculous three piece suits. 

“I was thinking you and I could return to Baltimore tonight,” Hannibal says as he breezes into the kitchen.

“Sit,” Will says, pointing at the kitchen table. 

He goes, and Will brings him a plate of food, kissing the top of his head as he sets it down. 

“Why?” Will asks, going back to Hannibal’s previous question. 

“Is it so wrong I want you all to myself?” Hannibal asks. “It’s lovely being here, but I can’t quite send Abigail to the grocery store each time I want to touch you.”

“I don’t think I can go again tonight, anyway,” Will laughs. “Can we go tomorrow? I had a few glasses of wine with dinner.”

“I can drive,” Hannibal offers. 

Will sighs. “Please, can we just… stay here tonight?”

He wants to just lay down on the couch with his head in Hannibal’s lap and watch TV. With Abigail a few feet away, joking back and forth while they watch movies. The reality that Abigail may not have much longer with them before the FBI is on her has hit Will like a bag of bricks. He just wants to spend time with the family he has made for himself while he can. 

Hannibal agrees without a fight and finishes his dinner. 

When he finishes, they all assume the positions Will previously decided on. Hannibal plays with Will’s short curls while he lays his head in his lap. Abigail sits in an armchair with Beatrice purring in her lap. It feels like family.

Chapter 30

Notes:

Going forward, this fic is going to explore some things that may be potentially triggering or upsetting. This includes: kidnapping, quite a bit of death (both canonical and non canonical), depictions of panic attacks, hallucinations, unhealthy relationships, gaslighting, paranoia, and just overall angst. Consider this a warning for the rest of the fic.

That said, there's still happy moments, and a guaranteed happy ending for Hannibal and Will.

Also-- this chapter contains a surprise perspective from Abigail!

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When Abigail presented her concerns to Hannibal and Will, Will knew there was only so much time before the FBI realized the same thing she did. He had no idea it would happen so quickly. A week to be exact. He knows he should have known, but he has to admit that he thought they had so much longer. This found family of people with too many secrets, and too many burdens. It could only last so long. 

It still surprises him, though, when he’s walking down the halls of Quantico after his final lecture the following Thursday—Valentine’s Day—that he hears Zeller’s voice in Jack’s office. 

“...crime article about Abigail Hobbs helping her father,” his voice says. 

Will stops dead in his tracks. 

“What did it say?” Jack asks—demands.

Will stands there, not breathing, not moving, not making himself known. 

“It says to check the tour registries at the schools girls went missing from… It mentions that the FBI should have thought of this way sooner,” Jimmy chimes in. 

Will can’t believe what he’s hearing, but he has heard enough. They are going to check as soon as Jack orders them, and then Abigail is going to be arrested. He runs to his car, unable to breathe until he’s locked safely inside with his phone to his ear. 

Will speeds out of the parking lot and toward home while he waits for the line to connect.

“Hello, darling,” Hannibal answers, bright and cheerful like he’s been waiting for a call from Will all day. 

“They know,” Will breathes. “Abigail.”

“I see,” Hannibal murmurs. “I’ll send her the word.”

“This plan… Do you need to be there for it?” Will asks.

“No. She is fully equipped to handle it on her own.”

“You and I need a solid alibi then. How soon can you be at my house? I suspect they’ll go there first,” Will says. “It’ll be less likely for them to suspect we helped if we’re both far away from Baltimore.”

“I’m already at your house,” Hannibal says simply. “I will admit I had plans tonight to cook you dinner and then make love to you, but… Perhaps—”

“Whatever you’re thinking, yes. I trust you. Call Abigail, okay?” Will says. “I’ll be home in half an hour.”

Will hangs up then and speeds home. 

When he gets there he lets himself in, packing and frantic. 

He stops when he sees Hannibal laying on a plush blanket in front of the fireplace, completely naked, with his fingers disappearing inside him. 

There’s rose petals strewn across the floor, and Hannibal’s clothes trail from the kitchen to the fireplace as if he’s setting a scene for the FBI to walk in on. To see that they’ve definitely been preoccupied for some time now. 

He suspects there’s not much time to work with, so he adds his own clothes to the piles, and moves over to where Hannibal is on the floor.

“Where are the dogs?” Will asks, settling on his knees between Hannibal’s spread legs. 

“In the bedroom upstairs,” Hannibal pants. 

Will picks up the lube next to Hannibal’s hip and slicks his fingers before pushing one in next to two of Hannibal’s. 

“This was your idea of an alibi?” Will whispers. “Fucking when Jack Crawford gets here, so we look busy?” 

“Mhmm,” Hannibal hums. “Kiss me, darling.”

So Will does.

By the time Will is fully hard, and pressing into Hannibal’s warm body, he’s nearly forgotten what’s going on. 

He thrusts slowly, pulling back only a fraction of his length before pressing back in. Hannibal locks his heels behind Will’s back, kisses his neck, holds his arms. 

He feels a flood of adoration toward the man below him. Who planned an entire Valentine’s Day evening for them, down to spreading rose petals across the house, and buying a large blanket to fuck on in front of the raging fire. It’s warm in the room, and the lights are dim, and there’s classical music playing on Will’s record player,  and it’s so goddamn romantic, Will thinks he would cry if there was no ulterior motive for their current activity.

“This is insane. You’re insane,” Will mumbles, claiming Hannibal’s lips with his own. “Jack Crawford is going to be here any minute and we’re making love on the floor.”

Hannibal moans in response and grips Will’s arms just a little tighter. 

A flash of headlights come through the front window and Will glances up to confirm that, yes, the curtains are open. 

“That’s by design,” Hannibal whispers. 

“You want them to see us,” Will breathes. 

Hannibal nods against his neck and Will picks up the pace a bit, not wanting to leave this hanging to go answer the door when they knock. He won’t be able to focus on anything until he and Hannibal both come. 

There are heavy steps on his porch, and Will just continues to thrust into Hannibal, even as pounding knocks hit his door. 

Casually, but hopefully loud enough for Jack to hear, Will says, “Maybe if we ignore them they’ll leave.” He finishes the sentence with a particularly loud moan, and then bites into Hannibal’s neck. 

“Harder, Will, more, more,” Hannibal moans obscenely. Will smirks into his neck at this blatant act he’s putting on, but Hannibal doesn’t stop making those noises. 

Another pounding knock, and then Jack’s booming voice through the door. 

“Will!” he calls out. 

“I’m not answering until I come,” Will whispers. He glances over and sees a face in the window, watching them with her jaw hanging open. Alana. They make brief eye contact, and Will catches Hannibal looking too. 

“Look at me, Will,” Hannibal whispers, pulling Will back to him. “Come on, darling.”

Will feels his orgasm building up and goes to pull out, to really put a show on by jerking off and coming on Hannibal’s chest, or even his face, but Hannibal locks his legs around him so tight. He’s locked in place, only able to pull back enough to thrust back inside. 

There’s still pounding on the door, and Jack threatening to knock the door down, and Alana calling out, “No!”

Will is only focused on Hannibal. 

“Come inside me, darling,” Hannibal whispers. “Make me yours.”

Will groans at the words, wanting to breathe out that Hannibal already is his, but his orgasm renders him incapable of coherency. All he can do is moan and hiss out, “Oh fuck, fuck, fuck,” as he comes inside Hannibal. 

He slumps against his boyfriend, forehead on his chest, completely forgetting about the FBI at his doorstep. He pulls back and out of Hannibal, a mess of come following his cock. He pushes it back inside with one finger, then pushes in another, angling them toward Hannibal’s prostate.

Fingers rubbing at that sensitive spot is enough to have Hannibal tensing up with pleasure, and as soon as Will gets his mouth on Hannibal’s cock, and takes him down his throat, Hannibal is letting out a stream of curses, interlacing with Will’s name, and declarations of love. 

Will moans loud around Hannibal’s cock as he comes into his mouth. 

“I love you,” Will whispers when he comes back up. 

Hannibal wipes his thumb at the corner of Will’s mouth, then brings it to his lips, licking away his come. 

“That’s it!” Jack’s voice calls out. 

Instead of kicking the door down, like Will expected, a key is slotted into the lock and the door is pushed open. That’s what I get for giving Alana a key, Will thinks. 

“Where is Abigail Hobbs?” Jack demands, coming into the house. 

Will turns around and stares at Jack with a confused expression on his face. 

“Well, I sure hope she’s not here,” Will retorts. “Why are you here?”

“We have a warrant for Abigail’s arrest,” Jack explains. “Get fucking dressed. I know you heard me knocking this entire time.”

“Abigail’s… What?!” Will demands. He scrambles to his feet and can see several agents and Alana standing in the entryway, too scared to come any further. “Jesus fucking Christ. Well, she’d be in Baltimore if she’s not here. For fucks sake!”

Will stamps his foot on the ground and turns to see Hannibal awkwardly covering himself with the corner of the blanket. 

Jack just stands with his arms crossed in front of them, uncaring of either of their nudity. Will can feel come drying on his soft cock, and he’s suddenly very self conscious. 

“Well, Jack, I don’t know, maybe you should go to Baltimore? Maybe let me and Hannibal have a minute?” Will asks. He picks up the blanket off the couch and wraps it around his body. 

“I’ll wait right here. You understand— I can’t have either of you calling to warn Abigail,” Jack explains, more gentle than any of his previous words. “Please get dressed, so we can go.”

“Can you explain what is going on?” Hannibal requests. “And why you have interrupted my first Valentine’s Day with Will to announce you are arresting our daughter?”

Will walks toward the kitchen doorway to pick up the trail of clothes as Jack starts to explain what the hell is going on. Will still doesn’t know how they found out, and he desperately hopes Abigail is going through with the plan. 

“Freddie Lounds posted an article today,” Jack says. “Stating that she is surprised the FBI has not checked into train companies in Minnesota, or college tour registrations from where the girls went missing. Something about it being negligent on our part to overlook such details for so long. We looked into it. Abigail’s name is next to her father’s everywhere. Same tours, same hotels, same trains.”

“Well, no shit, Jack!” Will exclaims, pulling his boxers on. “They went on these tours together. It doesn’t mean she had any part in it! Separate hotel rooms? He could’ve worked in the middle of the night.”

“We need to be sure,” Jack insists. “We have evidence to make an arrest, and we are doing it.”

Just then Hannibal’s phone chimes, and he reaches for it on the coffee table. Will turns and sees that he’s nearly dressed, his belt and shirt hanging open, but pants are on. 

“Nope, sorry Doctor Lecter, but I will look at that first,” Jack says. He picks up the cell phone before Hannibal can reach it, and then looks up at them both. “It’s your security system company. There’s an alert for your back door.”

Then the phone starts ringing, and Will sees Abigail’s name pop up on the display. He rips the phone out of Jack’s hand, and slides to accept. 

“Abigail?” Will answers. He puts it on speaker to appease Jack.

“Will! Will!” Abigail hisses. There’s huge amounts of fear in her voice when she whispers. “I think there’s someone in the house.”

“Hannibal just got an alert about the back door. Where are you?” Will asks. 

“My bathroom,” she whispers. She sounds so terrified, Will doesn’t know if this is real or not. It’s possible someone really did break in. Maybe when they read the article on Tattlecrime. Someone trying to get revenge for the death of their daughter before it’s too late. She whimpers on the other end. “Will, they’re coming up the stairs.”

“Listen to me, Abigail,” Hannibal says, stepping up behind Will. “The Baltimore police department has been alerted to the break in. Lock your bathroom door, darling. Do not open it until you hear me or Will on the other side.”

“Okay,” Abigail whispers, voice shaking. “Okay, okay.”

They pull shoes and coats on and start running out to Jack’s SUV, Abigail still on the line. Will clutches the phone in shaking hands, still not quite sure how much of this is real, or part of the plan. Hannibal’s face has concern on it, and it looks too real. He knows Hannibal is fully capable of faking it, but he gives nothing away. Not even a reassuring smile. 

In the car, the next sounds they hear on the phone are splintering wood, and Abigail screaming for both of them. Will starts to hyperventilate when her screams are muffled by what sounds like a hand, and the line goes dead. 

“Abigail?” Will calls out, but there’s nothing. No one. “Oh god. Oh fuck,” Will sobs. 

“Shh, shh,” Hannibal soothes, pulling Will across the back seat and into his lap. 

Alana sits up front, lips pressed tightly together, staring dead ahead at the road. Will can feel the car accelerate, but he knows they’re too late. He knows. 

Hannibal rocks him back and forth as he shakes and cries into his chest. He doesn’t say if it’s part of the plan or not. He plays the role of the concerned parent who has his shit together, while Will is living the role of the hysterical parent who doesn’t.

“What are we going to do?” Will sobs. “Oh my god.”

“Darling, we will find her,” Hannibal soothes. “Our girl is fierce and strong. The intruder is no match.”

“You don’t know that,” Will wails. “Why would someone… why would…”

“Freddie Lounds’s article,” Jack answers from the driver’s seat. “Someone saw it and saw this as their last chance.”

“Last chance for what?” Alana finally speaks. 

“Revenge,” Will whispers. “To teach a lesson to her… Oh god, they’re going to kill her.”

“We’re going to look into the family and friends of all the Shrike victims. See if anyone at all related to any of them has flown here from Minnesota.”

“I don’t know if it’s that simple, Jack,” Alana says. “We live in a digital age. Any of their friends could be online friends that already live here, and that’s hard to track. They were all college girls—several friends could live in the area. There would be a lot of people.”

“We need to start somewhere.”

“You’re talking about her like she’s already dead!” Will accuses. Hannibal squeezes around his waist as Will starts muttering, “No, no, no. Oh god.”

“Will, we don’t know anything,” Jack says. “If the Baltimore PD got there in time, they might not be out the door.”

That doesn’t help at all. The fact that Hannibal hasn’t said a word to him about what the plan is has him wanting to kill the man trying so hard to soothe him. 

“I’m sorry, I can’t—” Alana says. She rolls down her window despite the chilly February air. “You two reek.”

“Sorry,” Will murmurs. “We didn’t realize what you were here for—we thought—we thought—” Will gasps for air, trying to choke down another sob. “It’s just that—we’ve been interrupted so many times lately, we didn’t—I didn’t think it was that important. I mean it usually isn’t—”

“Darling,” Hannibal whispers. “You need to breathe.”

“I can’t, I can’t!” Will cries. “Oh, Hannibal.”

“Jesus, someone give him a valium,” Jack mutters. “I know one of you has one.”

Alana starts digging through her purse, and Will actually accepts the pill when it’s given to him. 

“It’s five milligrams,” Alana tells him.

“Just take half, my love,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will nods and breaks the pill in half, then accepts the bottle of water Jack passes back to him. 

He holds it in his hand, and hesitates. He thinks back to the day Hannibal roofied him and told him it was valium instead. 

“I didn’t like the side effects last time,” Will whispers. Playing it safe, suggesting he still doesn’t know that Hannibal lied about the drugs he was given over a month ago.

“I gave you a larger dose,” Hannibal murmurs. “This should relieve your anxiety for now, and we will monitor the side effects.”

“Okay,” Alana interrupts. “I have to ask.”

Will throws the pill back with a sip of water and braces himself for the conversation. 

“How long?” Alana asks. 

“Since the morning we went to the Hobbs’ hunting cabin,” Hannibal answers. 

“You know what I’m about to say next,” Alana says. She doesn’t wait for either of them to answer. “You’re supposed to be his paddle, Hannibal! You weren’t supposed to start fucking him. He’s your patient! I am majorly disappointed in you.”

“I am his paddle, Alana. Will doesn’t need therapy, he needs to be loved unconditionally and understood, and that is the way I have been his stability for months now,” Hannibal spits out. “I am the most stable person he has. The only person in his life, save perhaps Beverly Katz and Abigail Hobbs, who doesn’t demand anything of him he doesn’t freely give. Even you with your professional curiosity and desire to gain his affections—and especially you, Jack, who sacrifices Will’s health and happiness until I have to intervene—”

“Baby,” Will murmurs, gripping Hannibal’s jaw in his hands. His eyes are wild and his hands are trembling where they grip Will’s waist so hard it’ll no doubt leave bruises. “That’s enough.”

“Will,” Hannibal breathes, pulling his calm demeanor back over himself like a veil. All it takes is Will’s eyes boring into his in order for his own to put out the roaring fire and come back to himself. He addresses Jack and Alana, then, “I apologize for my outburst.” 

Jack breaks in front of Hannibal’s house and there’s police officers walking around with flashlights and dogs. 

They all get out of the car and Jack flashes his badge at them, then explains that Hannibal is the owner of the house. 

They go in through the front door, Will clutching at one of Hannibal’s hands as they both move through the house to the back door. The sliding door is shattered and outside, mixed with the pool of glass, is spots of blood in the snow, along with footprints and drag marks that suggest a body was pulled through the glass. 

It’s too real to be staged, and Will drops to his knees in the broken glass on the dining room floor. There's no way a single person could have pulled this off. 

A hand settles on his back, and he looks up to see Hannibal crouching next to him. They’re alone in the dining room now. 

“Tell me,” Will whispers. 

“I love you,” Hannibal murmurs. “We will get through this.”

It’s not what Will wants to hear. He wants to hear that Abigail is safe somewhere and that this is all a trick. He needs to know that all of this is fake so he can stop freaking the fuck out about his daughter. 

He doesn’t know what Hannibal is trying to hide from him, or why he can’t say anything when no one else is around. A simple, “Everything is going according to plan,” or “This wasn’t part of the plan,” just so Will knows. But Hannibal won’t even grant him that much. 

It makes him wonder how much else he’s hiding. 

“Well, her room was ransacked,” Jack says. “I believe whoever it was, was looking for something. There’s no way of knowing if he found it or not.”

“He?” Hannibal asks. 

“Footprints look like men’s size ten and a half, so we’re assuming at the moment, yes,” Jack says. “Whoever it was is strong enough to drag her down the stairs and out the backyard. Tire marks on the street suggest he fled fast. He has some experience kicking doors down, as the bathroom door frame looks like it was made from sturdy wood.”

“Yes,” Hannibal breathes. “And we heard him do it.” 

“Could he have been looking for money?” Will murmurs, mostly to Hannibal. 

“Perhaps,” Hannibal shrugs. “I would like to check my hiding places for cash around the house.”

“We have Zeller and Price up there scouting for prints or hair, or anything,” Jack continues. “I’ll get them down here as soon as they’re done, and they can bring you back to Wolf Trap, if you want. If there’s anywhere on the main floor you two would like to sit for now, I can keep the officers away for the time being. I apologize that it would be easier if you don’t go upstairs.”

“My study,” Hannibal nods. 

Will just barely registers Hannibal pulling him to his feet, and when his feet won’t move under him, Hannibal gently picks him up in a bridal carry. He grunts from the lift, as if trying to show Jack that it’s difficult for him to lift a body, when Will knows he has no trouble doing it at all. He’s trying to give Jack less reasons to suspect him down the line. 

“I can walk,” Will mumbles. His voice barely comes out. It feels lodged in his throat and he thinks he might cry if he has to speak any louder. 

“I’ve got you,” Hannibal whispers. 

They pass a bleary eyed Alana in the hallway outside the dining room, and Will turns his face inward towards Hannibal’s neck instead of meeting her gaze. He feels so small and fragile, and he thinks back to his first breakfast ever shared with Hannibal—when Hannibal said Jack views Will as a fragile little teacup. 

Maybe Jack’s right, Will thinks. 

Hannibal sits on a couch with Will still in his arms and cradles him close to his chest. They’re completely alone now, but Hannibal still won’t say anything. The realization that Hannibal may be hiding from him twists his heart up and crushes it. The realization that Abigail may actually have been taken from the house hurts just as bad. 

Will ends up drifting in and out of consciousness. Hannibal wraps a blanket around them both and plays with his hair. Jack comes in and Hannibal and him whisper back and forth, trying not to disturb Will. 

Something about her car still being here, and a few brown hairs in her bed too short to be hers. Her phone was left smashed against the bathroom sink. When Hannibal asks about her laptop, Jack says they didn’t see one in the room, but it’s possible they overlooked it. They’re looking for prints, but it doesn’t look like there could be any.

“Probably Rusty,” Will murmurs. 

“What, darling?” Hannibal whispers.

“The hair,” Will murmurs. “Rusty’s been here.” 

“Yes, I see,” Hannibal says. Then to Jack, “The hair is likely belonging to the dog.”

“Right,” Jack sighs. “We’re going to post officers outside both of your houses for at least a few days for your security or in case he comes back.”

Will nods and buries his face in Hannibal’s throat again. He’s drowsy and upset, and just wants it all to go away. He wants Abigail to come back. He wants Hannibal to tell him what’s real and what isn’t. 

Jack and Hannibal speak a few more words before Jack leaves the room and shuts the door behind him. 

Will noses at Hannibal’s neck, which earns him a hand in his hair, fingers tangling with the short curls. He wants to be closer to Hannibal, to feel his touch all over, and be reassured that everything is okay. He wants to be allowed upstairs so he can see Abigail’s room—the crime scene—and figure out what happened. Then he wants to curl up in Hannibal's bed with the other man and sleep off his exhaustion. 

“Are you uncomfortable?” Will asks when Hannibal squirms underneath him. He knows there’s likely a wet spot in the back of Hannibal’s underwear and pants, a mess of come and lube drying between his cheeks. Hannibal had asked him to come inside him—both of them knowing full well Will was about to pull out for this exact reason. 

“Yes,” Hannibal admits. “I made my bed. I will lie in it.”

“Just go ask Jack if you can change your pants. Your bedroom isn’t a crime scene for you to potentially tamper with,” Will murmurs. 

“Come with me and see if we might be allowed a shower,” Hannibal whispers. He doesn’t wait for a response before he’s hauling them both off the couch and setting Will firmly on his feet. 


This wasn’t the plan. This was not what Abigail and Hannibal planned for. Abigail was simply supposed to pack up and leave, heading to an address left by Hannibal—somewhere outside Baltimore. She looked it up online when they first discussed this plan. A small cabin from the looks of it. 

But no. That is not what is happening. 

The person who drags Abigail from her bedroom kicking and screaming isn’t much larger than her. If at all. Definitely a woman—that much is obvious despite the large shirt obscuring her figure, and the ski mask covering her face—but she’s wearing shoes that are much too large on her feet. Abigail guesses that she’s trying to throw the FBI off her tracks, but Abigail knows that Will won’t be fooled. 

There’s a familiarity to the eyes under the mask, and the way the woman holds herself. Whoever it is has to be someone from her past. Maybe a mom of one of the girls she helped lure to her death—seen on the news while Abigail’s family sat around the TV eating dinner. Dinner that she knew, even then, was the daughter of whichever woman was pleading for her baby to be brought home safely. 

Or perhaps an old friend came to Baltimore to give her what she has had coming for years. Everyone back home believes she helped, anyway. Soon, it’ll be public knowledge. 

There’s a knife in the woman’s hand and Abigail knows she needs to cooperate if she wants to get out of this alive. 

One of the only things she can think of is that Hannibal is going to be upset that she didn’t leave in time and turned the house into a crime scene. The other thing that crosses her mind is how absolutely devastated Will is going to be. 

She’s terrified for her life as her mouth is covered with a cloth. She knows chloroform takes minutes to take effect and yet she finds herself unable to break from the grip this woman has on her. Her feet are bound now and she doesn’t remember when that happened. Somewhere in her screaming and pleading, and fear, she must not have registered it. She knows her hands are next. 

As she slips from consciousness she feels shards of glass under her body, being dragged over them. The broken back door, she thinks hazily. 

Abigail is put into the back of a van and everything around her is gone. 


Zeller and Price wiggle their eyebrows at Hannibal and Will as they pass each other in the upstairs hallway. Will rolls his eyes at them, irises completely leaving the front of his face to roll back into his skull. It’s an amusing sight to Hannibal, but he pushes down his smirk in light of the current situation in his home. 

Will grabs onto his hand and nearly drags him down the rest of the hallway to Hannibal’s own bedroom. He pushes the door open and shuts it quickly, shutting them both off from the outside world. 

Their own bubble, it seems. Free of the issue that has had Will so distressed for hours now. 

The drugs seem to be working, as he’s hazy and unfazed about everything at the moment. No longer is there a tremor in his hands, or the rapid beat of his heart. 

Will sits on the floor of the shower at Hannibal’s feet, clearly too exhausted from the day to stand. Hannibal offers that they take a bath instead, but Will refuses, and nuzzles his face into Hannibal’s shin. He’s like a dog in the way he noses at him, and Hannibal fights the urge to reach down and pet him. He instead works on quickly washing himself, ignoring the man at his feet, who doesn’t do much more than let the spray hit him. 

“You didn’t have to join me if you were too tired,” Hannibal tells him. “You could have stayed downstairs or gotten into my bed.”

“Wanna be with you,” Will responds. “Don’t make me be alone.” 

Hannibal feels an ache in his chest at the display of vulnerability in front of him. The quiet request in a pained and broken voice sends Hannibal down to his knees to cradle Will against his chest. 

He wants to tell Will that everything is going to be okay, but the truth is: he doesn’t actually know. Too many variables are at play. Despite his best efforts to make everything go his way, there’s always a hitch in every plan when more participants than just himself are involved. 

All he can say is, “Abigail will never be found guilty of her or her father’s crimes.”

Because it’s true, and it’s the one thing Hannibal actually promised Will. It’s the one promise he can continue to keep. 

Hannibal eventually pulls Will to his feet, and guides him out of the shower and into the bedroom wrapped in a towel. Will stumbles over to the bed and falls into it on Hannibal’s side, burying his face in the pillow, then wrapping his arms around it. Hannibal covers him with a blanket, kisses the top of his head, and goes to the closet to find something to wear. 

Dressed in dark grey slacks and a navy blue sweater, Hannibal walks out into the hall. He follows the plastic yellow markers on the floor right into Abigail’s open bedroom. 

Jack looks up at him and his face falls when he realizes it’s Hannibal and not Will gracing his presence. Hannibal pretends not to notice. 

“I would like to enquire how long it will be until my home is mine again,” Hannibal states. “And if I could perhaps get a ride back to Wolf Trap to retrieve my car.” 

“Zeller can drive you right now. Right Zee?” Jack asks, grabbing the man’s attention from where he stands with Mister Price in the corner. 

They’re both pulled out of their conversation. Irritation smooths away and contorts into confusion before they both catch up to the question Jack was asking. Irritated that—Hannibal realizes—they have been called to a crime scene for a mere kidnapping on Valentine’s day. Missed dinner reservations, perhaps. 

“Yes. I can drive Doctor Lecter. I need to get to the lab, anyway,” Zeller agrees. “What about Will? You aren’t staying here tonight, are you?” 

“I think we may,” Hannibal sighs. “He is in quite the state, currently and I don’t think he’ll feel up to relocating again. He has always had a lot of trouble turning off his emotions—especially when others are involved. His compassion and empathy are too high for situations such as these.” 

“You can say that again,” Jimmy says, a sympathetic look on his face. As if he understands at all what Will is going through. 

“Well,” Jack cuts in. “I can see about getting something to cover up that door downstairs. You’re still injured from the incident in your office last week, and it would be no trouble for me to try something.”

“Thank you, Jack,” Hannibal nods. 

“It’s the least I could do,” Jack shrugs. 

And Hannibal understands, then, that Jack is feeling guilty about what he has said regarding Will and their relationship. Not only that, but he feels bad that Hannibal and Will have gone through such an ordeal today—from finding out Abigail was being arrested, to finding out she has been kidnapped. 

Hannibal gives Jack a weak smile to show he appreciates him, but that he’s saddened by the current circumstances.

Zeller finishes up his final tasks while Hannibal goes back to his bedroom to tell Will he’ll be gone. Will reaches a hand out for him and Hannibal bends down to kiss his forehead. Will’s eyes flutter shut and fight to open again as Hannibal caresses one of his cheeks. 

“Sleep now, darling,” Hannibal whispers. “I’ll be home soon.”

Will shakes his head and forces his eyes open again, then reaches out and grabs onto Hannibal’s wrist. 

“I’m coming with you. I want to stay at home tonight,” Will says, suddenly more alert than he has been since they arrived. 

Hannibal eyes him curiously, then nods and takes a step back so Will can have room to get off the bed. 

Will stumbles toward the closet and begins rifling through Hannibal’s clothes. He holds a pair of pants up to his bare waist to check the size, then looks at Hannibal.

“Yes, those were purchased for you, darling,” Hannibal confirms his unasked question. 

Will finds a pair of underwear from his own drawer in Hannibal’s closet, then finds a flannel shirt that also belongs to him. Hannibal watches him get dressed, and then grab another sweater and pull it on over everything. It’s one of Hannibal’s. The first one that Will ever borrowed from him, to be exact. 

Dressed, Will leaves Hannibal’s closet and puts his arms around Hannibal’s neck for an embrace. Hannibal slides his hands around Will’s hips to his back and pulls him close to his own body. 

“Is there anything in the open that could put you in prison?” Will whispers. He adds, “In the kitchen especially.”

Hannibal keeps all of his equipment used for human remains locked in the pantry or down in the basement. There may be a piece of meat or two in his freezer in the kitchen, though, and he tells Will as much. 

“We’ll take it with us if we can,” Will says. “It’s not likely, but I don’t want to risk them testing anything. If they think Abigail is still killing people, they might check. And when the meat matches one of the victims that fits a profile closer to you than her… Well, you know.”

“I understand,” Hannibal whispers. “That’s enough now. No reason to risk being overheard.”

Will nods against Hannibal’s neck, places one kiss on his throat then pulls away. 

They descend the stairs, hand in hand, and find Alana in the kitchen, a glass of water in her hand as she leans against the counter. She looks up when they both walk in, and her eyes are rimmed with red, and her normally neat makeup is streaming down her cheeks. 

It shouldn’t surprise Hannibal that Will drops his hand and goes to her, pulling her into a tight hug, cradling the back of her head with one hand, the other arm wrapped tightly around her midsection. Hannibal allows them their moment with a pang of jealousy. He wants to rip them apart and claim Will right in front of Alana—sinking into him, both cock and teeth, and show her that Will is his—but he knows that won’t be entirely appreciated by his darling partner. 

Mister Zeller comes in as Hannibal is filling a cooler with different food items that may go bad in the coming days, as well as all human remains in the kitchen. If anyone asks, he’ll say he doesn’t want perfectly good food to go to waste, and that he won’t be home for days. 

No one asks, though Hannibal is almost sure it’s not typically allowed to remove items from a crime scene. For all they know, the assailant could have stopped in the kitchen for a snack, and there are prints on everything Hannibal is taking. He supposes exceptions are being made for him because of who he is and who he’s dating.

“Doctor Bloom, did you want a ride back to Quantico?” Zeller asks. 

Price comes into the room carrying a box of evidence and several of Abigail’s belongings, which rips a sob out of Alana’s throat. All she does is nod and wipe away her tears, as Will comes back to stand by Hannibal’s side. 

Hannibal leads the way out of the house through the mudroom and the garage, out to the driveway. They cross the street and neighbors yell, asking what’s going on. Nosy, all of them. 

Zeller apologizes for the tight fit in the car as he opens a passenger door and pulls the seat forward to let Hannibal, Will, and then Price into the backseat. Will sits in the middle, being the smallest of the three, and Hannibal pulls him as close as possible into his side. Alana sits in the front passenger seat as a result of all three men in back wanting to be polite. 

“Were you aware Abigail has a boyfriend?” Price asks as Zeller pulls away from the curb. 

“Yes,” Alana says, just as Will shouts in disbelief, “What?”

Hannibal shifts uncomfortably next to Will, and the younger man turns to look at him. 

“You knew?” Will deduces. 

Hannibal shakes his head. “I smelled an extra person in the house, but I have never met him, nor had she ever told me about him.”

“She was trying to think of a way to tell you guys,” Alana sniffles. “She thought you’d both want to kill him, or interrogate him for hours.”

“Well,” Will sighs. He turns his head to address Price again. “Okay… how did you find this out?”

“There was evidence suggesting a young male had been in her room, and when plugged into a laptop to view the contents, her phone had several photos of them together,” Price says. “We have other agents going to his house to question him.”

“It wouldn’t have been him,” Will decides, shaking his head. “He wouldn’t be stupid enough to try it when she lives with an FBI profiler and babysits another agent's kids regularly.”

“We need to be thorough,” Jimmy shrugs. 

“I know, and I’m telling you it won’t be him,” Will counters. “She was terrified. And if it were him—why would he set off the alarm and give himself less time? No, it’ll be someone close, but not that close.”

“You know who I blame?” Alana puts in. “Freddie Lounds. I know I shouldn’t say this in front of two and a half FBI agents, and a psychiatrist, but sometimes I just want to… ugh, rip her head off.”

“Amen,” Jimmy says. 

“You can say that again,” Zeller mutters. 

Knowing that he is the one to blame for Freddie Lounds’ part in this, Hannibal doesn’t say a word. Will huffs out in annoyance and leans over to rest his head against Hannibal’s chest. 

“Are you feeling okay?” Hannibal murmurs, deciding to play the concerned boyfriend role. He needs Will to continue thinking he’s monitoring the side effects of the Valium he was given, even if it really wasn’t Valium last time that caused Will’s rough morning. 

“‘m fine,” Will mumbles. “Headache.”

Hannibal sets a hand on the top of Will’s head, and takes one of Will’s hands into his other, giving a gentle, reassuring squeeze. 

“We’ll be home soon,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will nods against his chest. 

“Sooo,” Jimmy Price says, drawing the o’s out like he’s about to say something he absolutely shouldn’t. It’s unfortunate that Hannibal is right. “I heard you two put on quite the show at Will’s house.”

“Where did you hear that?” Will says in a quiet, tired, and somewhat irritated voice. 

“Well, I didn’t hear it from anyone, actually. I saw it,” Jimmy admits. “You are both very attractive men, if I do say so myself.”

“Alright, that’s enough, Jimmy,” Zeller says from the driver’s seat. “Leave the poor men alone.”

“I have to say,” Alana states. “I was very surprised, but now it all makes sense.”

“Yes, I believe it would,” Hannibal says. “We did not do the best job at hiding our relationship.”

Will snorts. “No shit.”


With each passing minute of the car ride, Will keeps praying that everyone will just shut up. He doesn’t follow the conversations, as it’s mostly just Jimmy and Brian bickering while Alana interjects as a mediator. Hannibal holds him close, rubbing a hand up and down his back. 

His head is throbbing, and he feels warm, like the fever is coming back. 

“Can you smell me?” Will requests, quiet so no one else can hear the odd question. 

Hannibal inhales against Will’s short hair, but makes no indication anything is off. 

“Nothing?” Will asks. 

“What would you have me attempting to smell?” Hannibal murmurs. 

“Encephalitis,” Will mutters, sitting up straight and turning his head to look at Hannibal. 

“You don’t have encephalitis, my love,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses the top of Will’s head as if to sear the words into his skull. “You smell normal. It’s just a headache.”

“Do I not feel warm to you?” Will asks, voice coming out in an embarrassing whine. He’s desperate to have answers. He’s been hallucinating a bit lately, just small things—a bug crawling on his bedroom wall, a hand reaching for him in the dark, blood in the shower drain—but he hasn’t told Hannibal about any of it. It’s all momentary. 

Hannibal feels his forehead, and Will sees a crease between his eyebrows, a slight frown on his lips. 

“You’ve made yourself sick from all of this stress, darling,” Hannibal murmurs, leaning forward to kiss his forehead after he removes his head. “I prescribe a lot of rest, and a home cooked meal.”

Somewhere in the conversation, the rest of the car has fallen silent to listen. Or maybe out of courtesy because of Will mentioning his headache again. Will thinks it’s the former. 

When they arrive in Wolf Trap, the dogs are ready to be let out of the upstairs bedroom, having been pawing at the door when Will gets upstairs. He lets them out of the room, and they go running down the stairs. He hears the front door open and shut, and is glad Hannibal is around to take care of them. 

He falls into bed fully dressed and buries his face in the pillow, trying to sleep for a bit. Thoughts of Abigail being kidnapped, of officers outside his home, of Freddie Lounds’ article, of Hannibal not telling him anything , and the idea that his encephalitis could easily be coming back, all plague his mind. 

Well, no, that’s not true about the encephalitis, Will reminds himself. Hannibal told him he smells normal, and that the fever is from a sickness brought on by stress. 

His headache is already waning, now that he’s laying in the dark and quiet of his bedroom. It’s just the warm feeling in his cheeks that remains. 

He dozes off at one point, because he’s being woken up by Hannibal, and is handed a plate of food. 

“Mm, thanks,” Will murmurs. He looks over at Hannibal’s plate, which is slightly different from his own. “No meat?”

“I didn’t think you’d appreciate it,” Hannibal admits. 

Will picks up his fork and stabs one of the pieces of meat on Hannibal’s plate, then brings it to his lips. He moans at the way it practically melts in his mouth. He takes another, has a similar reaction, then digs into the pasta on his own plate.

“I… I can get you more from the kitchen,” Hannibal says, completely breathless. 

Will shakes his head. The two pieces were a big enough step in that direction for the day. Two, and he can pretend he didn’t just eat and enjoy a human, but any more than that right now, may send him spiraling again. He knows his limits at the moment. 

“We’re going to find her, right?” Will asks after a minute of silent eating. 

“I believe we will,” Hannibal says. 

He still hasn’t given up any information, and Will can’t help but think this isn’t the plan he discussed with Abigail. He suspects that Hannibal doesn’t want to admit that something has gone wrong. Or he doesn’t want to admit that he has no idea what the future holds. Usually a steady fixture in Will’s life, Hannibal’s stability faltering could mean trouble for all of them.

Chapter 31

Notes:

This chapter is dedicated to Cleo for helping me with a very important part. And also dedicated to Jos because we all miss you and your threads.

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It takes Hannibal by surprise when Will eats the meat of a previous Ripper victim right off his plate. He hasn’t indulged since that day he rushed from the kitchen and vomited at the idea of eating human flesh. Now, though, Will doesn’t run, and he doesn’t get sick from it, either. He just finishes his own meal, and lays back down, settling against the pillows and burrowing under the blankets. 

Hannibal takes both of their plates downstairs and leaves them in the sink for later, wanting to check the news, and get back upstairs to Will as soon as possible. After all, there are things to discuss regarding Abigail’s disappearance and how they plan on moving forward. 

He sits down at the kitchen table with his tablet and pulls up Tattlecrime. Already, there is an update from Freddie Lounds. 

A Taste of Her Own Medicine: Justified Revenge or Misplaced Blame? 

Abigail Hobbs—daughter of the Minnesota Shrike, and alleged accomplice of her father’s crimes—has been kidnapped from her home in Baltimore, where she was living with renowned psychiatrist Doctor Hannibal Lecter. 

This has stirred up great controversy as to whether this is revenge, or if someone is targeting girls like her yet again? If it’s revenge, that raises the question: Was Abigail involved in her father’s crimes? Or is she being wrongfully punished for something she had no part in? 

Until she’s arrived home, there is no way of knowing.. Much like the fate of eight other Minnesota teens, Abigail Hobbs has been taken from her family and her life, and there is no way of knowing what is going to happen to her.

Sadly, I admit tonight that we should have seen this coming sooner. There is a lot of evil in the world, and there is a lot of pain linked to the existence of Abigail Hobbs. 

The FBI locating Abigail safely is the first priority in the investigation I wrote about this afternoon. After she is found, and her kidnapper imprisoned, the FBI is going to continue their investigation and follow through with the arrest. 

They are doing their job, rest assured, to ensure criminals are being brought to justice. If anyone in Baltimore, or in Wolf Trap, where she resides part time with Special Agent Will Graham, has seen Abigail Hobbs, or has any information to her whereabouts, submit it to the FBI tip line. 

Hannibal smiles down at the screen, silently commending Freddie Lounds for a job well-done. An informative article, that the FBI will, no doubt, be happy with. Hannibal is quite pleased by the message.

It’s beautiful, Hannibal thinks wistfully, that his darling, who is asleep upstairs, soft and warm, will want to kill Miss Lounds the second he reads it. He will be absolutely furious that Freddie takes no ownership over the fact that her article is the reason Abigail is no longer with them. Perhaps Hannibal will be able to get Will to follow through. 

A smirk on his face, Hannibal locks his iPad, and leaves it where it is on the kitchen table. He spots the two stuffed dogs he has purchased for Will on the bed in the corner of the living room, and picks them up. Hannibal hasn’t been around the last few days, and he can quickly come to the conclusion that Will has been sleeping with the stuffed animals because he has missed Hannibal, and they remind him of him. 

The real dogs are curled up in their beds and on the couch, settled in for the night, so Hannibal doesn’t worry about them anymore. Winston gets up and follows him toward the stairs, climbing up next to him. 

As soon as the doors open, Winston runs into the room and jumps onto the foot of the bed, curling up next to Will’s feet. 

He lays in bed on top of the covers now. He’s on his stomach, pants off, but Hannibal’s sweater still on him, as if he got halfway through undressing and decided he was too tired to finish. 

He turns his head against the pillow to face Hannibal, who’s frozen in the doorway looking at him. He still clutches the two stuffed animals in his arms and Will sleepily raises an eyebrow at him, then extends his hand out. 

Hannibal unsticks himself from the floor and goes around to the other side of the bed. He sets the stuffed animals down between the two pillows, then gets undressed. He carefully folds all of his clothes, then slides into bed next to Will in just his underwear. 

“You don’t have to get in bed yet,” Will mumbles. “If you want to stay up, that’s fine.”

“I’m alright,” Hannibal whispers, pulling Will into his side. 

Hannibal’s phone pings on the nightstand. Another Tattlecrime article, most likely. 

Will moans irritably into Hannibal’s shoulder when he shifts to pick up his phone. Hannibal tilts his head down to kiss his forehead, then unlocks his phone to see what he expected. 

The photo of him and Will kissing in the mall parking lot, followed by an article. 

He turns his phone away from Will as he starts to lift his head to look, but that makes Will snatch his phone out of his hand. 

“What the fuck?” Will groans. “Why would she do that? I thought you paid her off?”

“Perhaps she found out Jack Crawford already knows,” Hannibal murmurs. He settles his head against his pillow as Will looks at his phone. “Read it to me.”

“Well, the headline is,  ‘Federal Agent Graham Gets Outstanding Therapy,’ which is an acronym for faggot, isn’t it,” Will deadpans. He hands Hannibal’s phone back to him, and rests his head back down on Hannibal’s chest. “I don’t want to read it. I don’t care. I just want Abigail to come home.”

“I know, Will,” Hannibal whispers. “Sleep for now.” 

Hannibal holds Will all night, staring up at the ceiling and feeling Will’s steady breaths coming from his nose. He feels warm, but Hannibal still doesn’t suspect encephalitis. Just being worked too hard for him to handle. The amount of stress he feels, from his work, from being outed, from Abigail being kidnapped—Hannibal isn’t surprised it’s taking a toll on him. 

First thing in the morning, Hannibal decides, I’m telling him to quit. 

With that thought settled into his mind, Hannibal falls asleep with Will still pressed close to him. 

When he wakes, Will is rubbing a hand up and down his stomach, and slowly rubbing his hard cock against Hannibal’s hip. 

“Mm. Morning, love,” Hannibal purrs. He turns his head and catches Will’s lips in a kiss. They both need to brush their teeth, but Will doesn’t seem to care, so Hannibal doesn’t complain either. He rolls over as he kisses Will and covers him with his body, grinding down as he feels himself growing hard, too. 

Will groans into his mouth as Hannibal puts a thigh between his legs, allowing Will something to move against.

“Want you inside me,” Will murmurs when Hannibal moves to kiss his throat.

Hannibal hums, pulling back and sitting up between Will’s legs. He pulls Will’s boxers over his hips, and then helps Will pull the sweater off over his head, then unbuttons the flannel shirt and pushes it off Will’s shoulders. 

Will flops back down on the bed and wraps his hand around his cock. Hannibal watches as he slowly strokes himself, eyes closed, back arching against the mattress. 

Hannibal raises an eyebrow at Will, though Will still has his eyes twisted shut as he works himself in his hand. He begins to move his hand a bit faster, and Hannibal would take over for him if he wasn’t enjoying the sight in front of him as much as he is. 

“Gonna just watch me?” Will pants.  

“Yes,” Hannibal decides. “You look beautiful like this. No one can ever compare. You are truly a god walking amongst men, dear Will.” 

“Stop,” Will mumbles. 

“Never,” Hannibal smiles. He pulls the waistband of his boxers down and hooks it under his balls, taking himself into his hand while he watches Will. He’s still on his knees between Will’s legs, looking down at him, the only contact being Will’s thighs locked around his hips. “Tell me what you’re thinking about.”

“You,” Will groans. “Always you. And how badly I want you to fuck me right now—as hot as you look right now, jerking off to the sight of me, I would rather have you touching me and you inside me.”

His voice is pleading, just a bit, and Hannibal can’t resist him. He reaches over to the nightstand for the bottle of lube, and holds it in one hand while he lightly rubs Will’s entrance with one dry finger, just to watch Will squirm. He smirks and opens the cap on the lube. 

Except, as it so often does, the doorbell rings before he can get any further. 

“I will get it,” Hannibal whispers. He pulls his waistband back into place and climbs off of the bed to pull on a pair of pajama pants from Will’s dresser. 

He pulls a robe on and glances at Will once more, splayed out on the bed, looking at him from under his lashes. He’s no longer touching himself, hands on the mattress by his sides. 

When he opens the front door, he realizes he really should have expected this. 

“Beverly,” Hannibal greets with a smile. 

She’s holding a baby carrier in each arm, and a diaper bag over her shoulder. He suspects there’s more stuff in her car. 

“Sorry to barge in on you this morning, but I—Abigail’s, well… and I have to go into Quantico today,” Beverly says quickly. “I’m really sorry, but you—”

“Of course, Beverly,” Hannibal says, stepping out of the doorway to let her in. “Will and I are taking the day off, so we’d be honored to babysit today.”

“You don’t know how grateful I am for you guys,” Beverly sighs in relief. The sets the baby carriers down on the coffee table, and turns to look at Hannibal again. “I have more stuff in the car. I’m sorry, I would’ve called ahead, but I panicked a bit.”

“No need to apologize,” Hannibal assures her. He goes to the stairs, then, and calls out, “Will, darling, Beverly’s here.” 

Will comes running down just a minute later in a sweater much too large for his frame, legs bare. He immediately goes and pulls Beverly into a hug, and Hannibal gives them a moment while he goes out to her car to bring in the rest of the baby stuff. 


“How are you holding up?” Beverly whispers when Will pulls her into an embrace. 

“Not great,” Will mumbles. “We were supposed to protect her. Now she’s gone, and the second she gets back, Jack is going to arrest her.”

“Jack needs to let it go,” Beverly whispers, surprising him. It’s not like her to overlook evidence for the sake of the alleged criminal. “She’s a good kid. It was her own father. I mean—even if she did know, what could she have done?”

“Nothing,” Will sighs. “Nothing at all. I mean we saw what happened when… He tried to kill her when he saw us coming. It would’ve been the same if she’d been the one to tip us off. If she knew, she kept it a secret in self defense.”

Beverly pulls away from the embrace and looks Will in the eyes. “Do you think she knew?”

Will finds himself at a crossroads. Beverly is a friend, but he knows it’s more than possible that her words could’ve all been a trick into getting him to admit what he knows. He can’t risk revealing any more. 

With a sigh, he shakes his head, and lies, “I don’t think she did. I hope she didn’t.”

Hannibal comes back into the house carrying several baby items in his arms. 

“I gotta go. Thanks again, guys,” Beverly says, kissing Will on the cheek, and then Hannibal, before running out the door again. 

Will closes the door behind her, and turns to look at Hannibal, now setting up the bassinets. 

“Well,” Will sighs. “There goes our morning.”

Hannibal glances up and smirks at him before returning his attention to the task at hand. 

“I’m going to shower,” Will announces. 

He goes back upstairs to gather clean clothes from the bedroom, then locks himself in the bathroom. 

Will still has no idea whether or not Abigail is safe. Hannibal not telling him feels as though he also does not know. Or, if he does, then it’s too much of a risk to tell Will. 

As Will stands under the hot spray of the water, not washing, just standing and thinking, he realizes that Abigail is a pawn in some way. If Hannibal’s being untruthful, Will knows it has something to do with the Chesapeake Ripper. 

If he’s lying about this… Will doesn’t want to think about what else. 

Sometime later, the water has gone cold, but Will hasn’t made any move to actually clean himself, nor does he make any move to get out of the shower. It must be a long time because Hannibal eventually knocks on the door. 

Will shuts off the water, then, and grabs a towel. He opens the door to find Hannibal standing there, concern written across his face. Will doesn’t want to deal with that. Not today. Not when Hannibal is the reason Will feels so… adrift. He isn’t himself. 

“Are you good to watch them?” Will asks. “I… I want to sleep longer. Not feeling very good.”

“Of course. I can bring them upstairs and lay in bed with you,” Hannibal offers. 

Will shakes his head, but doesn’t elaborate further. He pushes past Hannibal in the doorway, but realizes he isn’t doing a good job of acting, so he leans in and kisses Hannibal’s cheek.

“Love you,” Will murmurs. 

“And I you,” Hannibal whispers. “Should I wake you for lunch?”

“No,” Will says. He doesn’t want to be woken up at all, he decides. 

Will leaves him where he stands, and goes into the bedroom, shutting the door behind him. He drops the towel on the ground, pulls open his drawer to get a bottle of Advil, and swallows four pills dry. 

He falls into bed and curls up on his side on top of the covers, unable to do much else. 

Sleep, when it comes again, is full of Abigail’s screams, dreams of him finding her dead on the bathroom floor, too late. He wakes up and remembers that he was too late. Too late to save her from the FBI. Too late to save her from whoever kidnapped her. And if she wasn't, truly, kidnapped, then he was too late to save her from Hannibal’s influence. 

He shakes as he lays there in bed, unable to move, unable to find any semblance of comfort following his nightmare. 

“H-hannibal?” he calls out, shaking and stuttering. He feels locked in place, curled up on his side. He doesn’t hear Hannibal coming up the stairs, so he calls out, once more, louder. 

Hannibal comes into the room then, dressed in a three-piece suit, shoes and all. 

“Yes, darling?” Hannibal asks, coming to sit on the edge of the bed. He caresses Will’s cheek, and looks down at him with a warm, fond smile. 

“Lay with me?” Will asks. “W-where are the babies?”

“Beverly got done early today and picked them up already,” Hannibal explains. He kicks off his shoes and removes his suit jacket. 

“Take it all off,” Will murmurs, reaching out to palm at Hannibal’s chest. 

“I was about to leave, you sweet thing,” Hannibal whispers. Still, he begins unbuttoning his waistcoat and then his shirt. 

“Why?” Will asks. 

“I thought you wanted some time alone.”

“No,” is all Will says. 

Hannibal stands to take off his pants and goes to the closet to hang up his suit again. He gets into bed and pulls Will into the center with him, holding him tight to his chest. 

“You’re warm,” Hannibal whispers. Will hears and feels him inhale deeply against the top of his head. “Did you have a nightmare, my darling?”

“Mm,” Will hums into Hannibal’s neck, nearly an affirmative sound. He mumbles, “Think it’s encephalitis.”

“It’s not encephalitis,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Want another scan,” Will murmurs. “Please.”

“Of course, darling, but they won’t find a thing.” 

“Want to be sure, baby,” Will yawns. “‘m so tired.”

He snuggles against Hannibal’s chest, feeling certain that his next bit of sleep will be peaceful now that he’s in Hannibal’s arms. 

“I love you,” Will whispers just before he drifts off again. 

He doesn’t understand it. He knows there’s some sort of disconnect in his mind, but for some reason, as much as he finds himself worried about who Hannibal is, he continues to seek comfort in the same man. He doesn’t understand how he can find solace in the same man that makes him feel so many confusing and painful things. 

The next few days, Will ignores his fatigue, and his feelings of illness, to attempt to baby-proof his house. He knows that if he and Beverly both get called out on a case, Hannibal will have to stay in Wolf Trap to take care of both the dogs, and the babies. 

Jack Crawford shows up on Sunday and sits across from Will at the kitchen table while Hannibal makes lunch for all three of them. 

Will repeats for the third time, with tears in his eyes, “I don’t know who would take her.”

“But you know whether or not she helped her dad,” Jack prompts for what feels like the sixth time this morning. 

“No!” Will insists. “She never told us a thing. How many times do we need to tell you?”

“Until I get the answers I’m looking for, Will,” Jack says firmly. “I am clearly not thorough enough in my questioning, considering you two kept an entire relationship from me.”

“Jack,” Hannibal warns. “Our relationship is separate to the fact that our daughter has been kidnapped from my home.”

“Is it separate, though?” Jack asks. 

“What… what are you implying, Jack?” Will asks. “You don’t think we had to do something with that, do you?” 

“Of course not,” Jack says, putting his hands in the air. “I just have to cover all my bases.”

Will’s stomach turns, and flips, and he glances over at Hannibal slicing meat at the counter, and it’s all too much. He covers his mouth, and runs out the backdoor, vomiting into the snow behind his house. Even with the cold air around him, he feels much too warm. He’s sweating, in fact. 

He rests his forehead against the wall of the house, and tries to calm his breathing down. The door beside him opens, and he turns slightly to see Hannibal coming outside. He crouches in the snow next to Will, and puts a hand to his forehead. 

“You should get back in bed,” Hannibal tells him. “You’re making yourself sick from this stress.”

“I just,” Will starts. He turns and falls into Hannibal’s arms, breathing in the comforting scent of him. “She was torn away from us, and I can’t stop having nightmares that it’s all my fault somehow. Even when I’m awake I keep reminding myself that I couldn’t protect her. And now Jack thinks we had something to do with it just because- just because we didn’t want to out our relationship at work.”

Will sobs, and it turns into retches again. He throws up again in the snow, and falls back against Hannibal’s chest when he’s done. 

“I’ll see myself out,” Jack says through the screen door. “I hope you feel better, Will.”

“What did you say to him?” Will asks once Jack is gone. They sit in the snow still, Will feeling too weak to stand just now. His pants are getting wet, and he knows Hannibal’s are too, but neither of them move from where they’re seated, Will’s back against Hannibal’s chest.

“I told him you’ve been unwell, and that we’ve been talking about another brain scan,” Hannibal whispers, kissing the side of Will’s neck. “Just before I came out here.”

Will hums and tips his head back against Hannibal’s shoulder and sighs. Hannibal rubs a gentle hand over his stomach, trying to soothe the nausea that keeps surfacing. Will breathes slowly, trying to regain control over his body, but he still feels much too shaky to trust himself to stand. 

Hannibal eventually helps him up, an arm around his middle as they walk back into the house. Once Will is sure he’s steady on his feet, he swats Hannibal’s hand away, and starts removing his clothes to throw directly into the washing machine. He raises an eyebrow at Hannibal, who does the same. 

“Do you still want lunch?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head and shuts the washing machine, then starts it. He goes into the living room and lays down on the bed, shivering, even as he covers himself in blankets. 

Hannibal goes into the bathroom and comes back with a cup of mouthwash, which Will takes, gargles, then spits back into the cup. Hannibal takes it again and disappears for several long minutes as Will shakes beneath his blankets. He’s sweating and cold at the same time, and feels unbelievably uncomfortable. 

After either five minutes, or five hours, Will doesn’t know, Hannibal comes back with a mug and a plate. 

Will shakes his head, refusing anything Hannibal wants to give him, but he knows he won’t get off that easily. 

“You need to go home and get your backdoor repaired,” Will says as Hannibal sits down next to him in bed. 

“It’s been done,” Hannibal says. “Drink this.”

Will sits up and takes the mug from Hannibal, knowing it’s a lost cause to try arguing. He sips the tea, and eyes the plate of crackers and fruit in Hannibal’s hands. 

Hannibal catches his eye and picks up an apple slice, bringing it to Will’s lips as soon as the mug is out of the way. 

“You don’t have to feed me,” Will mumbles. He still takes a bite out of the offered apple slice and swallows it. 

Hannibal kisses his temple and sets the plate in Will’s lap, then lays on his side beside him. 

“The earliest Doctor Sutcliffe can see you again is the fourth of March,” Hannibal tells him. 

“Two weeks?” 

“Yes, darling,” Hannibal sighs. He rolls over and lays on his back, staring up at the ceiling, rather than looking at Will. “I still firmly believe you are simply dealing with large amounts of stress.”

Will doesn’t really want to have the conversation because Hannibal won’t change his opinion on it. It bothers him deeply, but he isn’t going to make that known. 

He finishes the plate of food and the tea, and lays back down, curling into Hannibal’s side. Beatrice comes and curls up on Hannibal’s stomach, right next to where Will’s arm is draped over him. It’s only been a few days, but Will knows the cat can sense that Abigail is gone. 

Will fights back tears as he tries to fall asleep, and Hannibal rubs circles on his back, pretending he doesn’t notice. 

Over the next week, Will goes to work, actively fighting his way through his illness, much to Hannibal’s dismay. Will knows if it were up to his boyfriend, he’d never work another day in his life—especially not when he’s sick. 

He isn’t intercepted by Jack, which is a big surprise to him. He doesn’t see Alana once, which is also a big surprise to him. Even Beverly is keeping her distance. That’s unsettling. 

Each night he either goes home to find Hannibal cooking in his kitchen, or he goes to Baltimore and finds dinner already made and waiting for him. They eat, they read, they go for walks, they fuck, they hold each other. It just feels like going through the motions—like Will isn’t truly himself anymore. 

Hannibal says it’s depression, and anxiety, and stress, and possibly even PTSD. Mental illness. 

Will can’t bring himself to believe him.

He finds himself in Delaware on a Monday morning—over a week since Abigail’s kidnapping—standing in front of a crime scene, not completely sure how he got there. It feels as though he constantly has a hand on his shoulder guiding him places. The most recent hand had to have been Jack Crawford’s, directing him from his lecture hall to his car for his go-bag, then to one of the FBIs SUVs to be taken to the scene. 

He can’t help but think of Hannibal’s hands which simultaneously guide him towards safety and danger. Hands that have so much blood on them, and yet… 

Will looks down at the body, confused. He looks at his own hands thinking about how every victim Hannibal has taken since he found out has been blood on his own hands. 

Even knowing, truly, that Hannibal could not have killed Beth Lebeau, Will has that thought pressing in his mind. Because of that thought, Will has convinced himself that he’s responsible for this death, as well. 

Glancing between the bloody pool on the floor, and to his own hands again, the two things fuse together and suddenly it truly does look as though there’s blood on his hands. A lot of it. 

It doesn’t help how much this young woman resembles Abigail. 

He can’t tell if the familiarity of the bedroom is something from his own mind or the killer inside his head. 

Something keeps telling him this death is his fault. That he killed her. He couldn’t save her, couldn’t save Abigail, couldn’t save the eight other missing girls, couldn’t save any of the last Ripper sounder. Might as well have killed them, he thinks. Like he thinks he had to have killed this girl at his feet. 

Next thing he knows, he feels more hands on his back, and realizes his knees are on the floor, blood soaking into his jeans. 

He can’t breathe, not now, not when all he can see is blood, and all he can think is that everything is somehow his own fault. 

He distantly hears someone speaking… Beverly? He thinks it’s Beverly. He glances up through hazy eyes and sees that it’s definitely Beverly touching his back. Trying, now, to lift him off the ground. She’s strong, but not as strong as Hannibal. 

Hannibal. 

He needs Hannibal. 

Beverly does get him to his feet, and he knows he’s somehow carrying himself on his own two legs down the stairs, away from the crime scene in the bedroom. 

He’s sat down on a couch, then can’t resist sliding down and laying across it. 

“Hannibal,” Will murmurs. 

“I’ll call him, okay?” Beverly says. “Just stay here.”

Will nods. 

A second—or maybe an hour? Will can’t tell—later, a phone is pressed to his ear. He hums as a way of greeting. 

“Darling,” Hannibal’s voice comes through. “Can you hear me, sweetheart?”

“Don’t call me that,” Will mumbles. 

“Well, it seems you are just fine,” Hannibal jokes. Or at least—Will hopes it’s a joke. He doesn’t want Hannibal to hang up yet, not when he needs him. 

“Hannibal,” Will mumbles. 

“Yes, darling, I’m right here. Tell me what has happened,” Hannibal says gently. 

“You’re not here,” Will laments. 

“No,” Hannibal agrees. “I can be. Give me two hours and I can be right there with you.”

“Hannibal, I’m—” Will starts, then stops. He finds it in himself to sit up and look around the room. He appears to be alone, so he continues, “I’ve been hallucinating again. Not- not very often. But… since Budge’s basement.” 

“Oh, Will,” Hannibal sighs. “Why didn’t you tell me?”

Will huffs in response, not having an answer that would satisfy Hannibal. He didn’t tell him because he hates feeling so dependent on Hannibal at all times. It’s enough that he’s on the phone with him now, being talked down from a panic attack. It’s too much to hear the tone of voice Hannibal adopts now—much too patronizing. 

Instead, he asks, “Can you come get me? I don’t even remember getting here.” 

“Of course. Two hours, darling,” Hannibal promises. “Can I speak with Beverly again?”

Will hums and sits up on the couch. “I have to find her.”

He ends up finding Beverly just outside the living room and hands the phone over to her. He leans against the wall next to her while she talks to Hannibal about Mischa and Lucy. 

When she hangs up, she grabs him by the arm and pulls him out of the house and onto the porch. She stops outside, and looks at him with a glare. 

“What?” Will asks. 

“Tell me what made you freak out in there,” Beverly says. “I know you hate when people are concerned about you, so I’m not going to do any of that. Tell me what happened.”

“I got confused,” Will shrugs. 

“Will, we’ve all seen you confused. We have never seen you scared like that,” Jack says from behind him. 

Will spins around and finds Jack on the other side of the storm door. 

“You were listening to us?” Will asks. 

“You just contaminated a crime scene,” Jack reminds him. “And you haven’t told me your analysis on it.”

Will looks back over at Beverly, who stands with her arm crossed, but now her glare is fixed on Jack rather than himself. 

“It feels like I’m not saving lives anymore, Jack,” Will tells him. “That girl in there looks like Abigail, doesn’t she? The person I swore to protect, but couldn’t. Ring any bells?” 

“Will…” Jack sighs, voice and face softening. 

“Whoever killed that girl knew her. They’ve been in this room before, been in this house,” Will says, gesturing. “They know this land, too. I wouldn’t be surprised if they’re still close.”

“We’ll look into ex-boyfriends,” Jack tells him. 

That feels wrong, though. 

Will shakes his head. “A different kind of familiarity. Try family or childhood friends.”

“How do you know?” Jack presses. 

“I don’t know, Jack! I can’t tell you,” Will yells, throwing his hands in the air. “I can’t do this anymore.”

He stomps down the steps of the porch and starts walking toward the edges of the property, all while Jack calls after him. No one chases after him, though. 

When he gets to the main road, he pulls out his phone and calls Hannibal. 

“I’m driving, darling, so I would prefer not to talk long if it can be avoided,” Hannibal says. “Is everything okay?”

“No,” Will grumbles. “I left the house and I’m walking down the street. I can’t be there anymore.”

“Will, please go back to the house,” Hannibal sighs. “I’m worried about you, dear.”

“Everyone’s worried about me,” Will groans. “I’m tired of it.”

“You’re simply tired,” Hannibal says. “Did you sleep last night?”

Will groans and kicks at the slush on the side of the road. He’s lucky it’s starting to warm up again, or else he’d never be able to be outside this long. 

“You know I didn’t,” Will says. “You kept waking up and squinting at my phone screen.”

“You were on it all night,” Hannibal says. “Please return to the crime scene. I will be there soon.”

“Fine,” Will sighs. He turns around and starts walking back toward the house. “I should tell you… I told Jack I can’t do this anymore.”

“We will deal with that together,” Hannibal says. “If that’s what you want.”

“No, I can handle it. I’ll see you.”

Will makes it back to the house to find Jack standing on the porch again. Will comes up the stairs, and Jack gestures to one of the chairs, so he sits down in it. 

Jack just watches him, waiting for him to speak first. Will doesn’t want to give him the satisfaction. He could easily stay quiet for the next two hours waiting for Hannibal to show up. 

Having told Hannibal he’ll handle Jack, he thinks he should probably say something, but instead they sit in silence for close to thirty minutes. 

Eventually Jack gets up and goes back into the house, leaving Will on the porch to wait it out. 

He shuts his eyes—Hannibal was right, he’s exhausted, and his earlier panic attack didn’t help that fact at all. 

He sits up, jolting awake, when a hand is placed gently on his shoulder. 

“Shh,” Hannibal soothes, cupping Will’s cheek. “I’m here.”

Will relaxes instantly and pushes his face into Hannibal’s hand. 

“Did you speak with Jack?” Hannibal asks. He crouches down in front of Will and cups both of his cheeks. His hands are cold against Will’s warm face and it feels so good. He was with Hannibal just this morning, but he’s been craving his touch again since they got out of bed. 

Will shakes his head and leans forward to kiss Hannibal’s forehead. He looks over and sees Beverly moving the baby car seats from Hannibal’s Bentley into her own car. Will feels momentarily guilty that he’s made Hannibal come all this way while babysitting.

“Wait,” Will says, realizing, “Didn’t you work today?”

“Have I not told you that you are more important to me than my practice?” Hannibal whispers. He picks up one of Hannibal’s hands and kisses his knuckles. “Are you still needed here, or may I steal you away?”

“We can go,” Will says. 

“Perfect,” Hannibal smiles. “I called Doctor Sutcliffe on the way here. Due to your hallucinations, which you should have told me about sooner, he agreed to make time for you tonight.”

Will sighs in relief. 

“Doctor Lecter,” Jack says, coming back onto the porch. “I’d like to speak with both of you.”

They both turn their attention toward him, and Will dreads whatever could possibly come next. 

“I do think Will could use some proper therapy if he’s going to continue this work, and I was hoping you could refer—”

Will cuts him off. “I’m not continuing this line of work, Jack.”

“Now, Will, you shouldn’t make a hasty decision,” Jack protests. “You save lives.”

“Jack, I can assure you that this is not a hasty decision. I was going to quit after Budge, but, well…” Will trails off. “Our relationship is out. Lounds posted an article. Anything you can say to anyone, well, they already know. Our deal is off.”

Hannibal stands and places his hand on the back of Will’s neck, thumb rubbing light circles at his nape. Will shuts his eyes, and nearly shivers at the touch. 

It calms him down from all the lingering anxiety he’s felt since he was in that bedroom. Hannibal steps closer and leans so his thigh presses against Will’s upper arm. 

“I quit, Jack,” Will says, feeling brave now that Hannibal is here to support him. “This work isn’t good for me. I’ve been hallucinating again. I’m getting a brain scan tonight and—” Will pauses, choking up a bit. “If it’s not… if it’s not physical then…”

Hannibal squeezes the back of his neck gently.

“That’s alright, Will,” Hannibal murmurs. He addresses Jack. “If Will is suffering from a relapse in encephalitis, then he will need to take more time off work. Indefinitely. If it’s not physical, as he was saying, then we need to be open to the fact that it is a mental illness caused by this very job. Will doesn’t even remember arriving here today, which may suggest he’s dissociating. It’s a desperate survival mechanism for a psyche that endures repeated abuse.”

“I’m not abused,” Will protests. 

“You are overwhelmed by your empathy disorder, but have chosen to ignore it until now. You do not take care of yourself, either,” Hannibal says gently. “That is the abuse I am referring to, darling.”

There’s no point in protesting that. Will knows it’s all true. 

“I’d be more than willing to help consult and work on profiles if you need an extra hand,” Hannibal says, addressing Jack again. “But Will says he wants to quit, and that means he will. I shouldn’t need to speak for him in order for people to listen.”

“If you go back to that classroom, Will, and you see these cases—”

“I’m not going back to my classroom, either, Jack,” Will says. “No, I’m going to live off my savings until I can find a new job teaching at a university or fixing boat motors.”

Hannibal gently squeezes the back of his neck again, as if to say none of that is necessary. Will knows, but he’s not telling Jack that Hannibal can take care of him. It would just give Jack more fuel to protest that he’s making a mistake. 

Will stands up, and adds, “I’ll help you finish this case if you need it, but don’t call me tonight.”

With that, they both leave.  

“My car’s still at Quantico, I think,” Will says once they’re in Hannibal’s car. 

“I’ll drive you there tomorrow.”

“You really don’t think I’m going to be hospitalized?”

“Forgive me for saying so, darling, but I truly just think you need good sleep,” Hannibal says, not taking his eyes off the road. “Which is why I wrote you a prescription for a sleep aid and had it sent to your pharmacy. I know you likely don’t want it, but please do consider it.”

Will doesn’t respond to that. He rubs a hand on his forehead, feeling a headache coming on.  

“You have any painkillers?” Will asks. 

Hannibal opens up the center console and Will looks inside to find a wide array of pill bottles, both over the counter and prescription. He pretends not to notice that one of them definitely contains rohypnol. Hannibal is playing a dangerous game by keeping illegal drugs in his car, and Will is very close to mentioning it. 

Instead, he just finds a bottle of Advil and swallows three pills, then shuts the center console again. 

Will rests his head against the window and tries to fall asleep. 

He feels every single bump and hears every single sound, though, and he feels like ripping his skin off. He shifts restlessly, wanting to reach out and shut off the music on the radio, but knowing silence might be worse. He tries resting his head against the headrest but he feels uncomfortable that way, too. 

If he doesn’t get out of this car soon, he thinks he may scream. He also thinks that getting out of the car is the last thing he wants to do. 

He wants to touch Hannibal, but he doesn’t want to. He wants to take off his coat, but he doesn’t want to. He can’t get comfortable, and he wants to jump out of the car to escape the feeling. 

A distressed noise escapes his throat against his wishes, and Hannibal places a hand on his knee. 

“Should I pull over?” Hannibal asks. 

“No,” Will insists. “Just. Home. Please.”

The rest of the ride is uncomfortable, but Will gets through it. He’s out of the car the second they’re in Hannibal’s garage and he’s inside the house before Hannibal can even unbuckle his own seatbelt. 

Will goes right to the fridge and gets a bottle of water, drinking most of it in one go. It helps settle him just a bit, but his body craves something else and he can’t figure out what. 

Hannibal comes up behind him and settles his hands on Will’s hips. He sets his chin on Will’s shoulder, and Will rests against his chest. 

“Do you feel good about quitting?” Hannibal asks. 

“I don’t know,” Will answers. “In general, I don’t feel good at all right now.”

Hannibal releases him, and takes a hand instead, pulling him toward the stairs. 

“Come, you should get some rest,” Hannibal says. “We have several hours before your appointment.”

“Not tired,” Will tells him. 

Hannibal ignores that, pulling him up the stairs and into his bedroom. He starts removing Will’s clothes, and once Will is naked, he’s directed into the bathroom. Hannibal draws a bath for him and holds his hand as he steps over the edge and sinks into the warm water. 

“Don’t wanna join me?” Will asks. 

“I’m afraid not,” Hannibal says with a smirk. “You need rest, not temptation.”

“Mm, you’re tempting anyway,” Will tells him. He shuts his eyes and sinks lower into the water, letting it come up to his chin. “Besides, sex would help me rest, don’t you think?”

Hannibal kisses his forehead and Will pushes up against his lips. 

“Yes, but not now,” Hannibal whispers. “I’m going to make lunch, and I want you to eat it when you get out. Then you should try sleeping for a while.”

“Fine,” Will mutters. 

He isn’t hungry, but he didn’t eat breakfast, either. This is what Hannibal means by him not taking care of himself, so he knows he should at least make an effort. 

One more kiss to Will’s forehead, and then Hannibal leaves the bathroom. 


Hannibal can tell that Will isn’t in the mood to be washed, and as much as he’d like to at least wash Will’s hair, he knows he shouldn’t try. 

He’s in the middle of making a grilled cheese for Will, when the man comes downstairs in just Hannibal’s robe. He has at least dried himself off, or else Hannibal thinks he may have pushed him out of the kitchen. 

A quick glance at Will’s face tells Hannibal that the younger man is annoyed with something, but Hannibal doesn’t dare ask what. As much as he loves the man he fell in love with, he has to admit he prefers the one that isn’t prickly with him. 

“I’d like to go home and be with my dogs after the appointment,” Will says. 

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. “I was planning for that.” 

Will nods and paces around the kitchen, that irritated look still on his face. He walks behind Hannibal at the stove, running a hand along his lower back as he passes. He goes to the fridge, opens it, shuts it, then sighs, loud and long. 

Hannibal still doesn’t ask. 

He paces a few more times, circling the island, and taking the plate Hannibal offers him. He starts eating it right at the counter instead of going to sit down somewhere. 

They both eat their sandwiches, and when Will is done, he takes his plate to the sink to wash it. As his hands are in the soapy water, he finally speaks up. 

“When did you have time to clean out Abigail’s bedroom? And why did you clean it out?”

Hannibal had no idea this would cause a problem for Will. It seemed like the logical thing to do at the time for many reasons. 

“I began picking up the mess, and decided to pack things away while I was in there,” Hannibal says. 

Will scoffs, tears in his eyes when he finally turns to face Hannibal. “You don’t think she’s ever coming home.”

Hannibal frowns. “If she does, she'll be arrested or put in another psychiatric facility.”

“We don’t know that,” Will mutters. 

If neither of those are the case, I would prefer she lives at your house full time instead,” Hannibal adds. 

“That doesn’t answer my first question,” Will says. He’s gripping the edge of the counter, his teeth are gritted. Hannibal wants to reach out a hand and touch his face in a gentle caress, but he stays where he is on the other side of the kitchen. “When did you have time? You’ve been with me every minute you’re not working.”

“I haven’t been taking many appointments as of late,” Hannibal admits. “I’m in the process of closing down my practice.”

“Why? Why are you doing that?” Will asks. 

“Because you need me,” Hannibal says. “And because if you quit, we need someone else with a connection to the FBI.”

“Hannibal, you can’t just throw your life away for me!” Will yells, slamming his hand on the counter. “I’ll keep working for Jack! Don’t uproot your entire life just because I can’t handle being alive. That’s not for you to fix.”

“You’re the one risking your life for me, if you didn’t realize,” Hannibal retorts. “I’m the killer, Will. I’m the reason we need a connection to the FBI. It’s not your responsibility to be that connection when I’m the one causing the need.” 

“I knew what I was getting into, Hannibal.” 

“As did I.” 

“Oh, you mean you knew I’d end up so crazy I couldn’t do my job? You knew you’d have to quit your practice because I have too many issues?” 

Will is pacing again, the robe slipping open as he moves around the kitchen. Hannibal wants to tell him to adjust it, but he doesn’t think it’s the right time for such an observation. Instead he has to decide how much he can reveal, or if he should just continue to keep the Ripper, and everything related, a secret.

He must be silent for too long because Will groans impatiently and leaves the room, toward the direction of the stairs. 

Hannibal follows after him from a safe distance, and calls out to him once Will reaches the upstairs landing. Hannibal stays a few steps down, letting himself stand down to offer a less intimidating perspective for Will. He looks down at Hannibal, and no longer has a defensive stance. 

“I don’t think you’re crazy,” Hannibal says softly. “I was referring to myself, darling. I meant I knew what I was getting into the first time I took a life. And I know what it meant each time after.”

Will looks as though he already knew this is what he meant, but just needed to actually hear it. He nods and gives a forced smile. Tears well in his eyes as they stand there looking at each other, but none of them fall. He can’t imagine how tired Will is, but he can imagine that’s the cause of the hallucinations. 

Hannibal closes the distance between them, taking the last few steps to the landing, and turns Will by his shoulders to direct him to the bedroom. 

“Shall I stay with you?” Hannibal asks as he practically forces Will to lay down and get under the blankets. 

Will shrugs, and curls up on his side, offering no further answer. 

Hannibal sighs and starts removing his suit. 

The second he’s in bed with an alarm set, Will rolls over and wraps his arms and legs tight around Hannibal’s body. He kisses Hannibal’s chest twice, then his neck, then he turns around so his back is to Hannibal’s chest. 

Hannibal tightens the arm around Will’s waist and lays there while Will tries to sleep. 

He knows that Will didn’t get much sleep at all by the time the alarm goes off, and he wishes he could do more for him. 

As they wait in the waiting room, Will bounces his knee and flinches each time a door opens or the secretary sharpens her pencil. Hannibal sets a hand on the bouncing knee to stop it, but the other one just takes over. He leans over and whispers in Will’s ear that everything is going to be just fine, then he kisses his cheek. 

“Will Graham,” Doctor Sutcliffe says from the door. 

They both stand to follow him, Will gripping his hand tight. 

As they sit in Doctor Sutcliffe’s office, and Will explains the symptoms he’s been experiencing, Hannibal suspects it has more to do with sleep deprivation than anything else, but he keeps his mouth shut. It won’t be good to disagree or disregard Will’s worries until he knows for sure. 

Sutcliffe writes everything down, and keeps glancing at Hannibal to see if he has anything to add, but Hannibal wants Will to speak for himself. The fact that Sutcliffe thinks Will can’t only makes Hannibal want to kill him sooner. Maybe he will. 

“Babe,” Will says, drawing Hannibal out of his thoughts. 

Hannibal turns to look at him, then over to Doctor Sutcliffe who is now standing by the door. 

He gets up and follows as Will goes into the hall behind the doctor. Will gets ready to go in for the MRI, and Hannibal goes into the observation room with Doctor Sutcliffe. 

“You didn’t have anything to say,” Doctor Sutcliffe points out. “Didn’t smell anything on him this time?”

“No,” Hannibal answers. “But I cannot risk relying completely on my sense of smell.”

“Of course not,” Doctor Sutcliffe agrees. 

The way he says it makes Hannibal want to wrap his hands around the other man’s throat and snap his neck, but he refrains. With Will just on the other side of the glass, desperate for results, he knows he has to wait just a bit longer before he does anything at all. And he will do something soon. 

“We likely won’t be able to have results interpreted until tomorrow at the earliest, but possibly closer to a week,” Doctor Sutcliffe mentions. “It doesn’t sound like the encephalitis is back based on his symptoms, so it’s not an emergency.”

“You’ll have them for us as soon as possible,” Hannibal corrects. “Will is your priority right now.”

“Is he?” Sutcliffe asks. 

Of all the things Hannibal wants to say ( ‘If you know what is good for you,’ ‘You won’t be alive to give any other results,’) he bites his tongue, and says, “Yes,” instead. 

Will comes out of the MRI, and changes back into the clothes he previously exchanged for a gown. 

“We’ll give you a call tomorrow, Mister Graham,” Sutcliffe says. He glances over at Hannibal, fear in his eyes, and Hannibal nods once in agreement. 

Will’s eyes shift between the two men before he says, “You had my results right away last time.”

“Last time, half of your brain was inflamed,” Doctor Sutcliffe retorts. “It’s not quite so obvious this time.”

“Come now, Will,” Hannibal cuts in. He wraps an arm around Will’s waist and pulls him out of the building without another word to Doctor Sutcliffe. 

In the car, Will makes a noise that sounds like he’s in complete agony. A wail that Hannibal doesn’t think he’ll ever be able to unhear. Will brings a hand to his face and bites down on his knuckle to stop himself from making any more sounds as he cries. 

Hannibal starts the car to turn the heat on, but leaves it in park. He pushes his seat back as far as it goes, and pulls Will across the center console and into his lap, holding him tight while he tries not to cry.

“We should go home,” Will says with a strained voice. 

“We will soon,” Hannibal assures him. “Just allow me to hold you.”

“I don’t need it,” Will protests. He tries moving back into his own seat, but Hannibal holds him tighter. “Hannibal, I don’t.” 

“We should discuss this,” Hannibal whispers, kissing Will’s  jaw. “I do not think there is anything physically wrong with you that will show up on those results. What I do think is that you are suffering from severe sleep deprivation. That is why you see things that are not there, and why you have had an increase in paranoia and depression.”

“I sleep,” Will mumbles. 

“Very little. I think you forget just how light of a sleeper I am,” Hannibal says. “You think I don’t notice when you leave bed to watch TV or sit on the porch until morning? Or when you get up and pace around the room? I do.”

Will rips himself out of Hannibal’s arms and gets back into his seat. 

“If sleep deprivation explains all of that, then how would you explain the fact that…” Will trails off. He swallows, a loud click in his throat. “I felt like I was the one that killed that girl.”

“Impossible,” Hannibal assures him. “They found diseased skin tissue, and came to many conclusions while you were sitting on the porch. I didn’t wake you immediately upon arriving because it looked like the first sleep you’ve gotten in over a week.”

“But why, Hannibal? Why did it feel like I did it?” Will sobs. 

Hannibal sets a hand on his knee, and searches for his eyes. 

“You have killers too far inside your head to properly cope with what you see,” Hannibal tells him when Will’s eyes meet his. “That does not mean you are the killer.”

“Every time you take a life and I don’t stop you, does that make me a killer?” Will asks. 

Hannibal pats his knee and withdraws his hand, finally putting the car in drive. 

“Of course not,” Hannibal says. “I make my own choices, just as you make yours.”

“And I’ve chosen to keep letting you make those choices,” Will says. He sets his hand on the center console, waiting for Hannibal to have a chance to take his hand in his own.  “Which means all that blood is on my hands. You won’t even tell me the amount. It really can’t be that bad, and even if it was… I’m too far gone to pull out of this now.”

Hannibal knows this is his chance to be honest with Will and lay it all on the table. He’s been prompted, he’s been met with nothing but acceptance, and his darling is still waiting for his hand to be held. This is the perfect moment, and yet he can’t. He sets his hand over Will’s and laces their fingers together. 

“It’s not an answer you want,” Hannibal decides. “Not tonight, at least. You don’t need to think about all of this.”

“I love you no matter what,” Will tells him. 

If only you knew, Hannibal can’t help but think. You’d run away and never look back.

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Hannibal doesn’t respond again after that. He just squeezes Will’s hand in his own and waits to see if the other man will push the topic. Instead, Will takes it a different route. 

“Aren't you going to say it back?” Will mumbles. “I just said that I love you.”

Hannibal is taken aback by Will's words and can’t help but pull his hand out of Will’s grip to rub it over his face in an attempt to hide any surprise on his features. 

“Of course I love you too, darling,” Hannibal answers after a moment. “Did you doubt that?”

“No,” Will says much too quickly. “I just wanted to hear it.” 

Hannibal takes Will’s hand back into his own and brings it to his lips. He places a gentle kiss across his knuckles without taking his eyes off the road. 

He pulls into the pharmacy he sent Will’s prescription to, and Will is very reluctant in his movements as he gets out of the car. Hannibal follows him, but decides not to wait in line at the pharmacy, but rather shops around the rest of the store for anything that may cheer Will up. 

Will finds him in the candy aisle and plasters himself against Hannibal’s back. He tightens his arms around Hannibal’s neck, letting the prescription bag hang in front of his chest. Hannibal takes it from him, and holds it by his side. 

“Don’t buy me anything,” Will murmurs, kissing Hannibal’s neck. “Really. I know that’s the only reason why you’d be in this aisle. I just want to go home.”

Will practically drags him from the store and out to the car. 

When they reach Will’s house, Hannibal goes ahead while Will gathers his bag, and looks for the gloves that fell out of his coat pocket. Hannibal senses he just wants a few minutes alone before he comes into the house, so he goes inside and lets the dogs out, giving Will the time he needs. 

While he takes off his coat and shoes, he receives a text message from Beverly saying the babies will be staying at her parents’ house for the next couple of days so they can have time with their grandparents. That gives Hannibal some free time now. He wishes he had his Rolodex to choose a victim, but Will needs him tonight. 


Will pulls his phone out of his pocket the second Hannibal gets out of the car, and dials Beverly’s number. She answers after just a few rings. 

“Hello?”

“Hey. I have a weird request,” Will says. He opens up the center console and makes sure Hannibal is inside the house with the front door closed. He sees the dogs come running out, and the door shuts again. “Is there any way you can get a sitter for the kids tonight who isn’t Hannibal?”

“Yeah, my parents have been wanting me to drive them up for weeks now. I could give my mom a call right now,” Beverly answers. “Why?”

“I need to go back to the house,” Will says. “I need to look at that room again.”

“Okay…” Beverly says, skeptical, but not asking any more questions. “Tonight?”

“I’m going tonight whether you come with me or not,” Will answers. He looks up toward the house again. “Look just… okay I’ll go alone tonight, but I… I may need you free another night soon. Very soon. I can explain more later, but…”

“It’s fine, Will,” Beverly says. “Just tell me you’re okay?”

“Yeah, I’m okay,” Will answers. 

“I’ll still call my mom right now, okay? You get some rest this week.”

“Yeah,” Will agrees. “Okay. Thanks.”

Will hands up and gets back to his task at hand. He finds the bottle of Rohypnol and shakes a pill into his hand, then shoves it into his pocket. He just hopes Hannibal won’t be able to smell it when he crushes it up and puts it in Hannibal’s wine after dinner. 

He finds the gloves he told Hannibal he was looking for and finally gets out of the car. 

Inside, Hannibal is already in the kitchen starting dinner. 

By the time he serves them, Will is so tired. He knows he needs to stay awake longer if he wants to go back to the crime scene tonight. He goes and starts a pot of coffee. 

“Will, darling, that’s not a good idea,” Hannibal says as he sits down at the table. 

“I need to make it through dinner,” Will tells him. 

Hannibal doesn’t say anything further, and begins cutting into his steak. 

When they finish, Will asks if he’d like another glass of wine while Hannibal goes to start a fire in the living room. 

He crushes the pill and puts it in Hannibal’s glass, hoping Hannibal’s nose or palate don’t pick up on the drug. He’ll surely know he’s been drugged by the time it begins kicking in, but Will knows it’s too late then, and he just has to deal with the aftermath. 

He gets a text from Beverly just as he hands Hannibal his glass. 

I’ll drive you tonight. Your car is still at Quantico.

He quickly sends a text back. 

i can be ready in an hour

Hannibal doesn’t take long to drain his glass while they sit on the couch together. He runs a hand up Will’s thigh, settling it just next to his groin. Two fingers slide to stroke Will’s soft cock through his jeans, causing him to twitch in his pants. 

“Not tonight,” Will says. He takes Hannibal’s hand in his own and laces their fingers together. “You wanna head to bed? I’m tired.”

Hannibal nods once and stands. 

“Beverly suggested the killer today couldn’t see the victim’s face,” Hannibal says. “I thought it looked as though the killer was trying to peel back a mask.”

Will nods, and assumes Hannibal is going to keep talking, so he just walks over to the bed in the corner of the living room and starts undressing. 

“Her skin is quite diseased. She may not even know she’s alive, which may be the reason for not taking care of herself,” Hannibal continues. “I suggested it may be Cotard’s syndrome if the lack of facial recognition is truly the reason she tried peeling away the skin.”

“She doesn’t know what’s real or not,” Will concludes. He can relate to that. 

Hannibal makes a humming noise and gets into bed naked. 

“Not propositioning you,” he mumbles. “Too tired to put on pajamas. This is uncharacteristic of me. I’m not usually so unable to stay awake. Long day, perhaps.”

Will watches Hannibal as he tries to get comfortable under the blankets, but it’s clear his body isn’t moving with the same grace it usually does. He can’t believe he drugged his boyfriend, and for a split second he feels absolutely terrible before he remembers Hannibal has done it to him on more than one occasion. 

“It’s alright. Sleep, baby,” Will whispers. He kisses Hannibal’s head, and rearranges the blankets on top of him. He slides in next to him and lays with him until he falls asleep. 

When he’s sure Hannibal is asleep, he redresses in the clothes he just took off and waits by the window until he sees Beverly’s headlights in the night. 

He quietly shuts the door, even though it’s unlikely Hannibal will regain consciousness now.

“Hannibal’s here?” Beverly asks. 

Will nods. “Passed out cold.”

“He doesn’t know where you’re going,” Beverly states. “What if he wakes up?”

“He won’t,” Will assures her. “Let’s go.”

Beverly puts the car in drive and taps her fingers on the steering wheel a few times before saying, “Did you drug him?”

“Are you going to arrest me if I did?” Will asks. 

“No, I guess not,” Beverly shrugs. 

It’s over two hours to Greenwood, Delaware from Wolf Trap, and Will finds himself fighting to stay awake the entire ride. Beverly tells him a few times that she doesn’t mind if he wants to sleep, but he just shakes his head and sits up straight in his seat to fight off his tiredness. 

An hour into the drive, Beverly starts telling him about developments in the case that Jack called her about after she left Delaware. 

“We have a suspect, but no leads on her whereabouts,” Beverly tells him. “Jack was able to track down her mom, but she hasn’t seen her daughter in a long time. She’s sick and suffers from mental health issues that line up with what Doctor Lecter and the body both suggested. She may think she’s dead already.” 

“Her name?” Will asks. “And what was her relationship with the victim?”

“Georgia Madchen,” Beverly answers. “They were childhood best friends.”

Will nods, taking that information in. He suspected as much. 

“Why are you going back, Will?” Beverly asks. 

“I’ve gotten some sleep, I’ve eaten two meals, and I’ve had a brain scan that seemed to have nothing of note on it,” Will lists off. “I want to look at the scene again with a clearer mind.”

It’s not completely true. Even knowing that they have a suspect, he still needs to look at the room again to make sure he has never actually been there before. He needs to make sure it really was someone else that killed Beth Lebeau. And if not him, he needs to know it couldn’t have been Hannibal either. 

When they arrive, Beverly stays in the car upon Will’s request for less distractions. He needs a clear head and no one else’s emotions getting through to him like they would if Beverly’s eyes were on him. 

Inside the bedroom again, he feels the familiarity that he felt earlier, as he stares at the dried blood stain on the floor. He does not turn on any lights, just uses a flashlight that Beverly handed to him before getting out of the car. 

He shakes his head, trying to get the killer out of his head so he can look at the scene as himself, but it barely works. He can say with almost certainty that he has never been in the room before this morning, but he can’t say it with one hundred percent certainty.

He crouches down next to the blood stain and shuts his eyes. When he opens them again, he sees movement under the bed in his periphery and flashes the light in that direction. 

Just then he’s knocked over the head but the bed frame and mattress, and is pushed down to sit on his ass on the hardwood flooring. He reaches out to grab her arm, but a sleeve of skin comes off as she continues to run from him. Footsteps are running away from him as he tries to reorient himself. 

His head pounds as he stands, and he thinks he calls out, “Georgia Madchen?” 

A door downstairs opens and slams shut, and Wills finally gains his bearings enough to chase after her. He thinks it was the backdoor, out of sight from Beverly. He has a choice— chase after Georgia himself, no weapon, no gun, or get Beverly to help him and risk Georgia getting away quicker. 

He takes the first option, running out into the night, ignoring the pounding in his head, knowing he may have a concussion from the impact. 

He remembers that night he sleepwalked and called Hannibal. When the man showed up to his house despite their two weeks of silence, he helped Will figure out what was real or not. He remembers the exercise Hannibal had him do. 

“If you can hear me,” he calls out. “Your name is Georgia Madchen. It’s,” he checks his watch. “Twelve thirty-two in the morning, you're in Greenwood, Delaware, and you are alive.” 

“Will? Will?” Beverly calls out. She’s running through the woods toward him and Will keeps turning around, looking for any sign of the girl from the bedroom. 

“She was here,” Will says. “She ran off.”

He rubs his head with one hand where the bed hit him and lets out a frustrated groan. He lifts up his other hand, realizing the skin from her arm is still there. He drops it, freaked out. 

“Call Jack,” Will tells her. He sinks down to the ground and cradles his head in both hands, elbows on his knees. He tries to ignore the pile of loose skin next to him and the nausea that comes in waves. 

“You hurt?” Beverly asks, crouching down next to him. “I can call Hannibal, too if you want.”

“No,” Will says. “No he’s not waking up tonight. He can’t know I left without telling him to stay up all night at a crime scene. He can’t know.” 

“I’m worried about you,” Beverly says. 

“Well, don’t be,” Will snarls. “Everyone’s so fucking worried about me. Please just call Jack and tell him what happened.” 

Beverly stands up and walks away from him, digging her phone out of her pocket as she goes. Will sits there for a while longer with his head in his hands. 

It’s not much later when police show up with dogs to search the area. 

“C’mon, Will,” Beverly says, lifting Will up under his arms. “We can go. They’ve got it covered.”

Will nods weakly and let’s Beverly guide him back to the car. 

“Think I’m concussed,” Will says once they’re in the car again. He takes off his boots and puts his feet near the heat vents, trying to warm up. His jeans are wet from sitting in the snow and it’s uncomfortable. 

He can’t help the quiet whine as he shifts in his seat trying to get comfortable enough to ignore it. 

Beverly reaches in back and grabs a blanket from the backseat. 

“Take your jeans off,” she says, handing it to him. “Cover up with this.”

He does as he’s told, knowing Beverly isn’t likely to drive away until he does. 

“You’re telling Hannibal about tonight the second you get home,” Beverly tells him. 

“I did actually drug him,” Will admits. “I’ll tell him in the morning.”

“As long as you tell him.” 

Will ends up falling asleep, his exhaustion winning despite his best efforts to stay awake. 

Beverly shakes him with a hand to his shoulder and he sits up, realizing the car has come to a stop. He looks up and sees that his house is in front of them. 

“Thanks, Bev,” Will murmurs. He leans over the center console to give her a hug. “I need to ask you another favor.”

“Anything, Will,” she agrees. 

“I got a brain scan tonight, but… I feel like I need a second opinion, but I don’t want to go with Hannibal this time.” 

“Why?” Beverly asks.

“I don’t know, just…” Will thinks of a lie quickly. “He knows all the doctors and it’s just how they all look at us like…”

“Ah,” Beverly says, cutting him off. “I get it. Yes I’ll go with you. Let me know when. As soon as you get an appointment, okay?”

Will nods. 

He manages to get his pants back on and tosses the blanket back into the back seat, then gives Beverly one last hug before he gets out of the car. 

The dogs all greet him at the door, riled up and jumping around because he’s returning home so late. He looks over to Hannibal in bed, who doesn’t stir at all. He lets the dogs go outside, and picks up Beatrice when she’s about to chase after them. He holds her close to his chest, petting her head as he watches Hannibal sleep. 

He momentarily has a vision of Dr Evil holding Mr Bigglesworth in the exact same way. He wonders if Hannibal has ever seen an Austin Powers movie. Probably not. It would be helpful if Hannibal’s underground lair had a self-destruct button like Dr Evil’s did, though. That way they could just put the Ripper behind them by pretending Hannibal’s house caught on fire, or something.

But, of course, Hannibal would just buy a new house and new equipment, so it wouldn’t really do Will any good. 

The dogs bark at the door and Will leaves his spot by the bed to go let them in. While they settle, he goes upstairs and changes his clothes, then brings his wet ones back down to put in the washing machine. 

Beatrice gets into bed, curling up on Hannibal’s chest just as Will walks into the room again. 

He sets his own alarm for his normal time, and makes sure Hannibal’s is set, too. He’s not even sure what Hannibal’s schedule is like anymore. He has no idea if Hannibal works, or if he just says he does so he can do other things. Like cleaning out Abigail’s room. Or maybe even committing murder. 

He wonders if he’s going to fake Abigail’s death. He wonders if Hannibal even knows where she is to begin with. If he does, then that’s just another thing he’s hiding from Will. If he doesn’t, then Will doesn’t know why he can’t just say so. 

If he does know where she is, Will thinks as he slides into bed and turns off the bedside lamp, then what’s stopping him from using me in his plans?

He kisses Hannibal’s forehead and curls up next to him, head on his shoulder. He gently pets Beatrice as she purrs on Hannibal’s chest. 

Will knows that Hannibal planned in the past to use Will’s encephalitis against him to frame him for Abigail’s death. He knows that, and now he can’t forget that. He has no idea what Hannibal could’ve said to Dr Sutcliffe, or how much he could have paid the doctor to keep quiet about the results. 

“Oh god,” Will murmurs. 

He gets out of bed and goes to find his laptop on the coffee table. He sits on the couch and starts looking up neurologists in the area that are not Sutcliffe. He knows it’s too late to make an appointment, but he writes down all the phone numbers and names and folds up the sheet of paper. He shoves it into his bag, clears his search history, just in case, then shoves his laptop in his bag, as well. He’ll call when he’s at Quantico tomorrow. 

Hannibal can’t know. 

If Hannibal is hiding results from him, then he cannot know. 

Will gets back into bed and takes his place against Hannibal’s side again, pretending everything is just fine. 


Hannibal wakes in the morning, and immediately knows that he was drugged the night before. He sits up and sees that Will is still curled up next to him, sleeping soundly. 

He lays back down and inhales deeply. 

He smells Beverly Katz, and the scents that come with her. He must have been in her car. He lifts one of Will’s hands and inhales again, immediately picking up on the scent he smelled at the crime scene the previous afternoon. The scent of disease, the smell of the perfume that Beth Lebeau used, that lingered in her bedroom, the smell of the woods by her house. 

Will went there last night with Beverly Katz. Based on the smell on Will’s hands, Hannibal can assume he had a run-in with the suspect. 

He drops Will’s hand band down to the mattress and kisses him lightly on the lips, waiting for him to stir. 

Will hums a bit, and his eyes flutter open. 

“Hey, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick from sleep. His eyes are dazed, and his hair is sticking up in different places. He looks like he’s still exhausted, and Hannibal wonders what time he finally came to bed last night. 

“Morning, darling,” Hannibal whispers. He kisses Will again, and Will’s lips respond this time, just enough to notice. His kiss is weak, and he turns his face away after just a second, groaning with exhaustion as he does. 

“Time?” Will asks. 

Hannibal checks his phone. “Still early. I’m going to shower and make breakfast. You sleep a while longer.”

Will nods, shutting his eyes again and curling up on his side again.

When Hannibal comes back from his shower, he checks Will’s phone to see if Doctor Sutcliffe has called yet, but it doesn’t seem that he has. There’s a message from Beverly, though, and Hannibal can’t help but read it, curiosity getting the best of him. 

Make sure you tell Hannibal. We’re all worried about you.

He frowns, wondering what could have happened that he would get a text like this so early in the morning. He gently sets Will’s phone down again, and goes into the kitchen to start breakfast. 

Will stumbles in while he’s cooking, dressed in nothing but his boxers and a t-shirt. He’s rubbing his eyes, and when he pulls his hands away he squints at the lights, and immediately goes to the drawer where he keeps his Aspirin. 

“Headache this morning, love?” Hannibal asks.

Will just grunts in response, but it sounds like an affirmative. 

Hannibal eyes him carefully.

“What happened last night, Will?” Hannibal asks. 

“Huh?”

“I saw a message from Miss Katz when I checked your phone to see if you had an alarm set,” Hannibal tells him. “She told me you’re supposed to tell me something because everyone is worried about you.”

“I, um,” Will starts. He scratches at the stubble on his chin. “Surprised you didn’t notice I was gone last night, honestly. I went back to the crime scene, and I may have gotten hit in the head.”

“I slept like the dead,” Hannibal says. Will isn’t going to admit to drugging him, so Hannibal won’t admit to knowing. “How did you get hit in the head, darling?”

“Bed frame,” Will mumbles. “Georgia Madchen was under the bed and threw it at me when she ran from the room.”

“Were you checked for a concussion on the scene?” Hannibal asks. “And was she caught? Surely you didn’t go in alone.”

“No, and no, and yes, I did,” Will sighs. “Beverly waited in the car to give me privacy. She was more worried about me on the ground in the snow, than she was about chasing after Georgia.”

“She still hasn’t been apprehended?” Hannibal confirms. He has plans spinning in his mind now. He can use Georgia Madchen, for sure. He wonders if he can sneak back into the house and find any sort of skin tissue. Or even in the woods outside the house. He could use that… 

“I think I’m just going to go back to bed,” Will says. He gets a glass down and fills it with water, then looks at the food on the stove with a look of disgust on his face. “Not hungry.”

“Do you have classes today?” Hannibal asks. 

Will groans, loud and irritated. “Yes.”

“I don’t suppose you can cancel.”

“Not again.”

“Very well. I do have a full day of appointments booked today,” Hannibal tells him. 

“Really?”

“Yes. I haven’t gotten around to giving these patients referrals yet.”

“Don’t refer them. Keep your practice. Please,” Will says. He moves to stand behind Hannibal at the stove, kissing the back of his neck, the side of his neck, and rubbing his hands up and down Hannibal’s stomach. 

Hannibal grabs his hands and stops them from moving any lower. 

“Go get dressed. We can talk about it later,” Hannibal tells him. “And call me as soon as you get results from Doctor Sutcliffe.”

Will nods against his back, then steps away. 

He has to leave before Will is out of the shower, so he leaves breakfast on the counter, and a note next to it saying to call him when he gets results, and not a moment later. 

He doesn’t receive a call all day, and has to call Will himself when he finishes with his last appointment. 

“Hey, babe,” Will answers. “Sutcliffe hasn’t called yet.”

“I suspected as much. I was actually calling to see if I should come to your house tonight,” Hannibal says. 

“Ah, no,” Will answers. “I’m on my way to yours already.”

They end up sending the night together, but Will is distant. Hannibal suspects it has something to do with not receiving a call about his results yet. Even when Will initiates sex, and pushes Hannibal onto his back before sinking down onto his cock, Will seems far away, as if he’s closing himself off from all outside emotions. 

He lays down on Hannibal’s chest when they both finish, and buries his face in his neck. He avoids eye contact even when Hannibal tries to pull him up for another kiss.

Will falls asleep where he is without even bothering to get cleaned up. 

Hannibal ends up staying awake half the night, rubbing his hands up and down Will’s back as he sleeps on top of him. His rest is fitful, and he keeps mumbling incoherently as he shakes. 

Something is troubling Will, and it’s breaking Hannibal’s heart. 

If it’s because he hasn’t been called around his results yet, then Hannibal is going to have to kill Sutcliffe even sooner rather than later. 

He plans on the next night he and Will aren’t together. 


On the night of Will’s appointment, he calls Hannibal and tells him he wants a night alone. He is sure he can expect Hannibal to respect that much, after days of them being together. And his excuse of being exhausted is no lie. He plans on getting this scan, and going home to bed right away. Or perhaps being put in a hospital bed and sedated. 

Will picks Beverly up and drives them both to Baltimore. While all the doctors there could possibly know Hannibal, he’s sure it’s impossible that Hannibal could pay off all the doctors to hide results from him. And this was the only one that could take him on such short notice. 

It’s only been three days since his last scan, but he still hasn’t gotten results yet. He wonders if he ever will. 

Beverly waits with him, sits with him while he talks to the doctor about his symptoms. Beverly seems surprised to hear half of them, but she doesn’t say anything. 

“Anything else we should know?” the doctor asks. She’s nice, and doesn’t make any indication that she knows about his relationship with Hannibal. Unless she’s really good at shutting people out, Will doesn’t sense any sort of recognition from her at all.

Beverly nudges him in the side. 

“I received a blow to the head a few nights ago, but all of these symptoms started before that,” Will says. “I had a brain scan earlier that day, but I’m here for a second opinion.”

The doctor nods, and tells him they’re ready to bring him to the MRI. 

In the hall, he sees Doctor Sutcliff walking toward him. 

“Mister Graham,” he says, surprised. His eyes dart from him to Beverly, then back to him again. “I was going to call you about your scan on Monday, but perhaps you can just come down to my office when you’re done here.”

“Yeah, I can do that,” Will agrees. 

“I’ll be in the waiting room, okay?” Beverly says, patting Will on the shoulder.

Will nods once, and is directed to change into a hospital gown. 

An hour in the machine, and he’s told that results Will take a few days to be interpreted. He trusts this doctor a lot more than Sutcliffe, especially since Hannibal isn’t around at all. 

He can’t believe he’s thinking that way. 

Shouldn’t he trust the man he shares a bed with almost nightly? The man that has a key to his home? 

But he’s also the man that has hidden being the Chesapeake Ripper… may even be hiding Abigail’s whereabouts… He could easily be hiding an illness from Will, or plans that could harm him. 

He goes down to Sutcliffe’s office, remembering the way. The hallways are deserted, and Will checks his watch. He must have been the last appointment of the day, and feels somewhat bad for keeping Sutcliffe waiting like this when he probably just wants to go home. The hallway feels too eerie to be walking down it alone, and he decides he doesn’t want to be alone, anyway. He decides he doesn’t feel too bad about making Sutcliffe wait, so he turns around and walks down the hallway to the waiting room on the other end of the hall. 

“Can you come with me?” Will asks Beverly. 

She lowers her magazine and looks him up and down, then nods, and stands. Will wonders what she sees. If she can see the way he shakes, or perhaps he looks as scared as he feels. He has a bad feeling. 

“Will,” Beverly says, grabbing Will’s arm just as he’s about to knock on the door to his office. 

He turns and looks at her, wondering what the problem is, but she’s already pulling a pair of latex gloves from her pocket, and putting them on her hands. 

He looks back at the door and sees the blood on the handle, then. 

“Call Jack,” Beverly tells him, pushing her phone at him. 

She opens the door carefully, gun pointed into the room. 

Will calls Jack, tells him they might have a situation, then hangs up after Jack says he’s on his way. 

“Oh god,” Beverly says, lowering her gun. Will follows her into the room, and it takes him a second to see Doctor Sutcliffe. 

His face is cut open into a smile just like Beth Lebeau’s was. 

“She’s here,” Will murmurs. “She has to be.”

Beverly picks up the phone on Sutcliffe’s desk and calls the security office, telling them to guard the exits just in case she’s still trying to leave. 

Will looks at the body, and lets the pendulum swing. 

It takes him less than a second to understand that this is not Georgia Madchen. 

He knows that Hannibal has wanted to kill Dr Sutcliffe for a long time now. He knows Hannibal is good at copying other killers. And he knows that Hannibal saw the scene earlier that week. 

But that doesn’t explain… Will turns and sees that Jimmy and Brian and Jack are all filing into the room, along with local police officers. 

“The murder weapon has the same diseased tissue as what was found at Beth Lebeau’s house,” Jimmy says, pilling up a pair of scissors with a pair of tweezers. “But what does this guy have to do with the other victim?”

“Just me,” Will offers. He’s going to continue to let them believe it’s Georgia, but he’s really going to hand it to Hannibal when he gets the chance. Killing as a copycat without telling him. Killing his doctor without telling him. He killed someone and he doesn’t even have Will over as an alibi.

“What do you mean, you?” Jack asks. 

“Georgia Madchen heard me the other night. I told her she was still alive, maybe it hadn’t occurred to her in a while,” Will shrugs. “She can’t see faces. Maybe she was trying to kill me because I knew who she was.” 

“Does your Doctor Sutcliffe make a habit of taking patients after hours?” Jack asks. 

Will shrugs. “I was going in for an MRI for a second opinion, and he told me to stop by after to discuss the results from my scan on Monday.”

Jack takes another look around the room. “Doctor Lecter didn’t come with you tonight?” 

Will shakes his head, somewhat worried that Jack may imply he suspects him. “He doesn’t know I’m here for another scan. It was something I had to do without him.”

Jack seems to accept that as an answer. 

Beverly puts a hand on his shoulder. “You should get out of here, and get some rest.”

Will nods. “You can get a ride with someone else?”

“Yeah, don’t worry about me,” Beverly says, pulling him in for a hug. 

Will hurries out to his car, and calls Hannibal as soon as he’s alone. 

“Hello, my love,” Hannibal answers. Will can hear a crowd of people speaking in the background. 

“Where are you?” Will asks. 

“A dinner party,” Hannibal answers. “Is everything okay?”

“Can you come to my house? I need to talk to you,” Will says. 

“Of course. I can be there in an hour and a half. Allow me to say my goodbyes, and I’ll leave as soon as I can,” Hannibal says. 

“Love you,” Will says. 

“And I you, darling. I’ll see you soon.”

Hannibal hangs up and Will starts driving home. 

Will gets home, takes care of the dogs, and then showers, not wanting the smell of a crime scene and the hospital on him. All the while, he tries to plan what he’s going to say to Hannibal. This is just a copycat killing, which fell under their agreement for honesty all the way back at the beginning of their relationship. Will can let the Ripper stuff slide for now, but he will not let Hannibal get away with being dishonest about this. 

He gets out of the shower just as Hannibal is coming in through the front door, and Will quickly gets dressed, not wanting to be caught naked should the conversation go south. 

“Will, I need to tell you something,” Hannibal says when Will comes out of the bathroom. Will stops in his tracks and just waits. “I killed Doctor Sutcliffe tonight.”

“I know,” Will says. “That’s what I wanted to tell you about. The FBI has already found the scene, Hannibal. Me and Beverly were at the hospital. Do you realize how stupid you are?”

Hannibal stops taking off his coat and looks at Will. 

“Why were you at the hospital?”

“I was getting a second opinion,” Will states. “Be honest with me, Hannibal. Do I have encephalitis?”

“No, Will,” Hannibal says. 

“So you didn’t kill Sutcliffe to hide results from me?”

“No,” Hannibal says again. “I killed him because he is insufferable and rude, and did not call with your results as soon as I told him to. He has had you worried for days because of this.”

“Well, now I still don’t know and won’t for a week because he’s dead!” Will yells. “I haven’t been worried because of him, I’ve been worried because of you!” 

The look on Hannibal’s face becomes one of complete hurt. “Why me?”

“You’re really asking me that?” Will scoffs. “You told me not long ago you had a plan to hide my sickness from me to frame me for Abigail’s death. Now Abigail is gone, and I’m having symptoms and you know what? It didn’t seem like such an illogical jump.”

“Will, darling, I don’t want to do that anymore. You know that,” Hannibal whispers. He moves closer, but Will takes a step back. “I could never hurt you like that any more. I love you too much.”

“How can I know that for sure, Hannibal?” Will whispers. His throat feels tight and the words barely get out, but he can’t keep living if he’s questioning if Hannibal really loves him or not. 

“You’ve felt it, haven’t you?” Hannibal asks. 

He cups Will’s cheek with one hand, and wraps the other around around Will’s waist, pulling him closer. 

“Since the beginning, you have always felt it,” Hannibal whispers. “You’ve changed me, don’t you understand? I could never hurt you like that. Can’t you trust me?”

No, Will thinks. But he knows Hannibal is right, he has felt it since the beginning. Hannibal loves him, and he knows that, but he doesn’t know if he can trust him about anything else. 

“Yes,” Will answers instead. “Yes, I do trust you.”

“Good,” Hannibal smiles. “You are everything, Will.”

Will closes his eyes and nods, then drops his face to Hannibal’s chest, letting him hold him tight. 

Eventually they end up in just their boxers and undershirts, cuddled in bed next to each other. 

Will doesn’t know how it always comes to this. He can be so upset, and so worried about who Hannibal really is, and somehow, he always ends up back in the man’s arms. It’s as if he will never be able to resist Hannibal’s pull, no matter what the other man does. No matter how many times he breaks Will’s trust, or does something that should be unforgivable. For some reason, Will always forgives him, and forgets, just to seek comfort in the very man that hurts him so often. 

Small amount of honesty shouldn’t outweigh all the lies, Will knows that. For some reason, though, they always do. 

Will wakes in Hannibal’s arms, and can easily forget that the man is a serial killer, who eats people. In their time together, he has told Will about five kills. Plus the six Ripper victims. Eleven people in six months. 

That’s more than a lot of killers in an entire lifetime. 

Still, the way Hannibal slowly wakes and smiles at him, with his bangs covering his forehead, and his sleepy eyes. Will falls more and more in love. 

So in love, in fact, he thinks he wants to ask Hannibal to marry him. To prove his love, but also to prove his commitment to Hannibal. Then, maybe, Hannibal will come clean to him about being the Ripper. 

The coming days, he looks online for rings, and proposal ideas, but nothing screams Hannibal to him. He goes to several ring shops, but can’t find anything within his budget that feels worthy. After leaving the third shop empty handed, he thinks it could be a sign that he’s rushing into things too quickly. 

He gets a call the following Monday, just a few days after his second brain scan, and he’s told there’s nothing physically wrong with him. 

Thinking about it, though, his hallucinations have gone away since he started sleeping better. He doesn’t want to admit that the prescription Hannibal got him is working, but it clearly is. Hannibal tells him the headaches and nausea are likely from the concussion he got at Beth Lebeau’s house. He still decides to quit field work as soon as Georgia Madchen is caught.

That night, he and Hannibal end up in Wolf Trap after a late dinner, and immediately go to shower and then get ready for bed.

He wakes up in the middle of the night to the dogs growling in their direction, and hits Hannibal in the chest to wake him up too. He points to the other side of the bed, and then down to the floor, then puts a finger to his mouth to tell Hannibal to be quiet. 

Will jumps down to the floor, on his stomach, just as Hannibal goes off the other side of the bed to do the same thing. 

Underneath the bed is a girl that Will would think was a corpse if she wasn’t moving toward him. 

Will makes a shushing sound at her panic, and starts saying the grounding technique Hannibal taught him. 

“Your name is Georgia Madchen, it’s the middle of the night, and you’re in Wolf Trap, Virginia,” Will says. 

She lunges for him, but she’s pulled by her foot from the other end of the bed. She screams as she goes, and Will immediately jumps off the floor to see Hannibal pinning her to the wall by her throat. 

“Hannibal!” he calls out. “Let her go!”

Hannibal turns just his face to look at him, and the wildness in his eyes is enough to make Will’s heart jump out of his chest, and his stomach drops to the floor. There’s pure wrath on his face, his upper lip pulled into a snarl. 

His hand is clearly tightening around Georgia’s throat, and Will can see her trying to pull the hand away, trying to claw at him to let go. 

“Hannibal!” Will yells. 

Hannibal finally lets her go and she slumps against the wall, scrambling to cower in the corner. 

Will calls Jack. 

“She’s at my house, Jack,” Will tells him. “Hannibal might have incapacitated her for now, but you need to get someone here as soon as you can.”

“On it,” Jack mumbles. “Be careful. Does she have a weapon?”

“I don’t know, but she tried to attack me. I’ll tell you about it when you get here,” Will says, and hangs up. “She needs a hospital. I can tell just by looking at her.”

Hannibal turns to look at him, looking slightly more like himself than the monster Will saw just two minutes ago. He knows immediately that Hannibal was about to kill her for even trying to lay a hand on Will, and despite the circumstances, Will feels his heart swell at the protectiveness. 

An ambulance shows up first and loads Georgia Madchen into it, strapping her down so she can’t hurt anyone else. Jack shows up next, and Will tells him what happened, only briefly touching on Hannibal getting a hand around her throat in self defense. 

By the time everyone leaves, Will is exhausted, and just wants to crawl back into bed. Hannibal, though, drags him up the stairs to the bathtub and lets it fill while he checks Will over for injuries. 

“I’m fine,” Will mutters, slapping Hannibal’s hands away. 

“What if I weren’t here?”

“You were, though,” Will tells him. “What about you? Let me see.”

He lifts up Hannibal’s arms and sees the scratch marks on them. He disinfects them, then kisses each one. 

Will ends up falling asleep in the bath, laying against Hannibal’s chest. 

He dreams of the face he saw on Hannibal. The monster below the surface. The first time he ever saw Hannibal in the act. 

He wakes up, gasping for air. 

“Shhh,” Hannibal soothes, petting Will’s hair. 

Will looks around, and somehow they’ve gotten back into bed without him waking up. Hannibal must have carried him, but he doesn’t recall it. 

That happens each night for a week, until one night there are no dreams at all. When he wakes up, he knows he’s been drugged. He fully expects, when his phone rings, for there to be a Ripper display. 

Instead, Jack just says, “Georgia Madchen is dead. A fire started in her hyperbaric chamber.”

Will looks over at Hannibal sleeping soundly next to him. 

“How did that happen?” Will asks. 

“We’re trying to figure that out. I’ll call you if we find anything,” Jack says. 

“Okay,” Will says. “Bye Jack.”

He hangs up, and drops his phone back to the nightstand. 

He tries to fight tears back, not sure if he’s crying for Georgia, or for himself.

Chapter 33

Notes:

Warning: Death in this chapter. Happens in canon, might still hurt/come as a surprise.

(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)

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Will spends the next week pretending he doesn’t know that Hannibal caused Georgia Madchen’s death. There’s no proof it was a homicide, and they’re even ruling it a suicide, but Will still knows. 

It just brings the paranoia right back.

So much so, that he tells Hannibal to fuck off for three days of that week—although he puts it much nicer than that. Will grows bored though, with it being his spring break, and by day four without Hannibal, and with no work to keep him busy, he finally gives in and calls him. 

Will starts smoking again, which he knew would happen, even though he said he’d be done after the pack he bought in Louisiana. He uses smoke breaks as an excuse to leave Hannibal for a few minutes every time he needs to take a step away. 

Even though he’s pretending not to know about the drugging, or the murder, Will still watches Hannibal every time he pours them drinks, every time he cooks, and doesn’t accept anything he didn’t see be poured or made. If Hannibal is suspicious at all, he doesn’t make it known. 

After that week of either tiptoeing around Hannibal, or straight up avoiding him, Will is relieved when Hannibal gets a call from Jack asking him to get on a plane to Oregon. He even helps Hannibal pack, and drives him to the airport. Will practically pushes him out of the car with a kiss, and a promise to water Hannibal’s herb garden and get his mail. 

He calls Beverly as soon as Hannibal is out of the car, asking if she’s going with them. 

“No, I’m taking some time off,” Beverly responds. “The kids need me for now, and Hannibal actually offered to help me out with necessities, believe it or not. I made an offhand comment during a session that I can’t afford to take more time off and he convinced me to let him help. I actually can’t believe I gave in.”

“He’s very persuasive,” Will laughs. “He has way more money than he’ll ever need, and he likes taking care of people close to him.”

“You’ve got quite the catch, Graham” Beverly says. 

“Yeah. I think I do,” Will says. “Hey if you want to bring the kids over tonight, I can make dinner for the both of us.”

“Sounds like a plan.”

After quick goodbyes, Will hangs up and drives to his grocery store. 

Dinner ends up being exactly what he needed. He spends quality time with each baby, learning how to change their diapers, and figure out what they need. He and Beverly talk about all sorts of things, but keep circling back to Hannibal. 

“I was looking at rings,” Will says as he bounces Mischa in his arms. “Do you think it’s too soon?”

“You love that man, and he loves you,” Beverly says. “You’ve got a good thing going, so why not get married? What’s stopping you?”

“You know Hannibal,” Will sighs. “Nothing I can find is good enough for him.”

“As long as it comes from you, he’ll love it,” Beverly says. “You ever thought about making one? You find all sorts of things for your lures, you could carve one out of an animal bone or antler.”

Will thinks about that. Hannibal would love something carved from bone, if just for the morbidity of it. And while he’d probably enjoy something carved from one of Will’s own bones best, he will have to settle for something Will finds on his property instead. 

“That’s a good idea, actually,” Will says. “Thanks, Bev.”

“Remember, I’m going to be your best man!” 

“I know, I know,” Will laughs. 

She ends up going home soon after that, and Hannibal ends up calling just as Will is getting into bed. It’s a three hour time difference, so Will is sure Hannibal is just getting done with dinner.

“I miss you,” Will says after they talk about their days. “It’s only been a few hours, but I’m thinking about how long you could be gone.”

“If it’s more than a week, I’ll come back before the case is over,” Hannibal promises. “I love you, darling. Sleep well.”

“I love you too,” Will says. “Goodnight, Hannibal.”

The next morning, Will goes out into the woods in search of things to make his lures with, and for something to carve into a ring. He realizes he doesn’t know Hannibal’s ring size, and he can’t possibly ask, so that’s how he finds himself digging through Hannibal’s box of cufflinks and watches in search for a ring.

He finds one and looks at it, thinking about the size of Hannibal’s fingers in relation to make sure it’s still a good fit. 

When he decides it is, he takes it home and gets to work, carving a piece of bone he found in the woods into the same size. He decides he’ll get it inscribed professionally, not trusting himself on something so small. 

It’s several more days, and Will finds himself unable to call Hannibal first, for fear Hannibal might ask him for the reason he called. Will would, without a doubt, let it slip that he’s been spending the last few days making the perfect ring for Hannibal. 

With it being the first time in a while that Hannibal is out of town, Will finds himself aching for him, needing to be close, but he refuses to call Hannibal and tell him that. He knows Hannibal would answer with a smile, and kind soothing words, but Will can’t take that. It would just make it even more painful that he hasn’t seen him in days. 

Just a few days ago, Will was beyond paranoid about what secrets the man could be hiding, and terrified over the fact that he’s fallen in love with a man capable of such violence and manipulation. He spent days pretending he didn’t want to hide from the man. Now, he just wants to pretend he’s not attached to the man to the point where separation physically hurts. 

So on the fifth day of Hannibal being gone, he calls Beverly and asks her to come over, and she does. She says the kids are at her parents’ for the night because she wants to follow a couple leads in Baltimore later that evening.

They sit on the couch watching movies and eating pizza, and if Will complains too much about how he wishes Hannibal were here, Beverly just pours Will another glass of whiskey and pats him on the back. Will doesn’t even know half the things he says, but Beverly makes no indication that she’s annoyed. Instead she listens to him with her full attention. 

“Fuck, hey, you’re driving toward Baltimore, right?” Will asks Beverly when she’s standing up, ready to leave. 

“Yeah, why?”

Will groans. “I was supposed to go check on a few things at Hannibal’s tonight while he’s gone, but,” Will holds up his half empty bottle. 

“I can do it,” Beverly says without hesitation. “I’m heading up there to check on a lead, anyway. It’s no problem.”

“Okay,” Will swallows a hiccup. He gives her the security alarm code, knowing Hannibal arms it when he isn’t home. “There’s a key under his potted plant. Just make sure you lock the door again and put it back when you leave, and arm the system again.” 

“Of course, Will,” Beverly smiles. 

She leaves soon after that with a list of things Will was supposed to do; watering the plants, throwing out a few things in the fridge that aren’t good any more, getting the mail from the mailbox. Simple things. He has full faith that Beverly can do them without Hannibal knowing it was her instead of Will. 

Will stumbles to the kitchen after she leaves and drinks a glass of water, knowing Hannibal would tell him to if he were there. He lets the dogs out, feeds them, lets them out again, then gets in the shower. 

He sends a message to Beverly when he falls into his bed, dressed in just his underwear and another of Hannibal’s sweaters that smells like him. 

let me know when you get home safe

Then he texts Hannibal. 

i’m going to bed, i love you and miss you. call me when you wake up tomorrow.

He sets his phone down on the nightstand and lets the dogs pile into bed with him. He rolls onto the side Hannibal normally sleeps on when he’s over and inhales the scent of the man he misses so much, then falls asleep.


Hannibal arrives home from the case early, not wanting to be away from Will any longer, and hopes Will is going to be at his house taking care of the things he asked him to do, but Will isn’t there. Instead, there’s a car in his driveway that does not belong to Will, but he recognizes it as Beverly’s, instead. The front door is unlocked when he gets to it. 

He checks the car, and doesn’t see any baby car seats, so they’re either inside with her, or they aren’t with her at all. 

He opens the door slowly, toes off his shoes in the foyer, sets his bags down as quietly as possible, then makes his way through the house to his kitchen. 

The pantry door is open and inside the pantry, the trap door is lifted and light pours into the kitchen. He takes the steps down as quietly as possible and see’s Beverly Katz standing there, hands over her mouth, taking in her surroundings. 

“Miss Katz,” Hannibal says with a smile. He’s right behind her now, having moved as quietly and quickly as possible. She attempts to reach for her gun, but she’s off duty, and it must be in her car. He wraps his arms around her small body and restrains her, one hand around her throat, another around her middle. 

“You’re… you’re the Chesapeake Ripper,” Beverly gasps as she struggles in his arms. 

“Yes, and you have somehow gotten into my house and have done some snooping in places you should not be. Tell me, what drove you here?” Hannibal asks, voice soft and smooth. He glances to the cage in his basement that holds a sleeping Miriam Lass. He’ll have to move her soon. 

“Will was drunk tonight, asked me to come here to do his list of tasks, I,” she sobs. “He had too much to drink and the way he talked about you. I was suspicious, so I encouraged him to keep drinking, so he’d keep talking.” 

“What did he say?” Hannibal asks, taken aback. 

“Something about falling in love with someone he shouldn’t. How he,” another sob, “how he knows he’s doing the wrong thing by being in love with you and keeping you, but that he can’t bring himself to do anything about it. He kept repeating that he should hate you.” 

Oh Will . “And you connected the dots, didn’t you?”

“I knew he meant that you do bad things.” 

“You know, Will doesn’t know I’m the Chesapeake Ripper,” Hannibal says conversationally. His grip around Beverly tightens but she’s barely fighting anymore. She knows she won’t survive this encounter. “He just thinks I’m several copycats, which is true, but he doesn’t know about the Ripper part. I’m sure he will figure it out sooner or later after this. You deserve to be elevated into art, Beverly. I do respect you greatly, but you have jeopardized my life.”

“Will is never going to forgive you,” Beverly whispers. “If you kill me, he’ll never forgive you. He’ll know. He knows I’m here. Please don’t do this! My kids—”

“Your kids will be just fine, don’t worry. You have my word that they will be taken care of by us,” This causes Beverly to fight harder and scream louder, but Hannibal just continues, “Will believes me to still be out of town, and I will bring your car to your house and make it look like you were taken from your driveway,” Hannibal explains. “He may make the connection, but not right away, and I’ll be the one to pick up his broken pieces when he finds out what happened to you. I’ve attached Will to me in a way that he will never be able to give up.”

“Do you even love him? He loves you so much, and you’re just… using him!” Beverly yells. “You can’t even love. You’re not capable.” 

“I love Will with all my heart, Miss Katz. I cannot let him go, and sure I have used some… questionable tactics to ensure he’ll never leave me, but it’s only because I love him,” Hannibal replies, calm as ever. “For you to suggest I do not is entirely insulting.” 

He tightens the grip around her throat, cutting off airflow until she goes limp against him. Her pulse is weak, but she’s still alive for now.  

Beverly’s phone vibrates in her pockets as he lays her down on an operating table. He straps her unconscious body down, dons his plastic suit and gloves, then removes the phone from her pocket to see a text from Will, requesting a text when she arrives home. 

He’s glad he didn’t turn his own phone back on after the flight, no one will have any idea he had come home. Hannibal makes sure Beverly is secured to the table and he takes her car keys, her cell phone and leaves, locking the pantry door from the outside, then gets in her car and drives to several locations around Baltimore, another in Virginia, and then to her home, avoiding traffic cameras that could catch his face, but making sure her phone location services are turned on and might log it or in case she’s sharing location with any friends. 

Once he makes it to Beverly’s house, he takes her phone out of his pocket again and replies to Will’s text. 

Home safe. 

He arranges the car so it looks like she was taken just as she got out of the front seat, dropping the car keys and phone on the ground to look like there was a struggle. 

Making sure no one else is around, he peels off his plastic suit and folds it up small enough to fit in his pocket, then starts walking back toward his house. When he’s far enough from Beverly’s, he hails a cab to get him the rest of the way, paying cash. 

When he arrives home, he makes quick work of removing Beverly’s kidneys, then draining her blood. He puts her in his large freezer, already having a plan for this display.

Finally he turns on his phone, and sees a message from Will. Despite Will saying he went to bed, Hannibal knows he needs to call and pretend he got home just now. 

“Hm, hello?” Will mumbles through the phone.

“Sorry to wake you, my love,” Hannibal says softly into the phone. “I got an early flight home and wanted to say goodnight.”

“You’re home?” Will asks, a little more awake now. 

“Yes, my flight just got in about an hour ago. I arrived home a little bit ago. I wanted to hear your voice, I have missed you so much,” Hannibal says. He takes his bags upstairs to his bedroom. 

“I’ve missed you too,” Will says with a sigh. “Can you come over in the morning?”

“I’m tempted to get in my car and come over right now,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Would you?” 

“If you asked, I would in a heartbeat,” Hannibal says. 

“Please. I know you’re tired, and I would offer to come to you, but I drank half a bottle tonight,” Will groans. “I’m still a bit drunk. I just want to see you.”

Hannibal laughs quietly. “Of course, love. I’ll be there soon.” 

“I’ll probably be asleep. Wake me when you get here,” Will yawns. 

“Of course.”

Hannibal hangs up and gets in his car, driving towards Wolf Trap, leaving Beverly’s body to be dealt with later. 

When he arrives, he unlocks Will’s door with his key, and the dogs all get up and lick his hands and sniff his pockets as he shrugs off his jacket. He takes off his shoes and crosses the room to Will’s bed, seeing the man asleep on the side of the bed Hannibal usually sleeps on, face buried deep into the pillow. 

Hannibal takes off his pants and gets into bed next to Will, causing the other man to stir. 

“Hey, baby,” Will says sleepily and Hannibal’s heart aches. “Come here.”

So Hannibal goes into Will’s now open arms and rests his head on Will’s chest, clad in one of Hannibal’s own sweaters. 

“I’ve missed you, darling,” Hannibal whispers and presses a kiss to Will’s chest. 

“Me too,” Will yawns. “I love you.”

“And I love you, more than anything I have ever loved. Never forget that,” Hannibal whispers. 

“I won’t.”

And oh how Hannibal wishes that could possibly stay true. When Will finds out about Beverly, he knows Will is going to doubt how Hannibal feels about him, after he finds out Hannibal is the man who killed her.

“Will, darling?” Hannibal says into the dark. 

“Hm?” And it’s clear Will really isn’t awake enough for the coming conversation, but he has to bring it up. 

“Have you ever considered marriage?”

“Are you proposing?” Will asks, slightly more awake than he has been all night. 

“I don’t have a ring, but if I di—”

Hannibal is cut off by a firm, “Yes.”

“Yes?” 

“Yes, I’ll marry you.”

Hannibal tilts his head up so he can kiss Will’s chin. “I’ll get you a ring.”

“I don't need a ring, but please stop talking so I can sleep.”

Hannibal laughs at that and squeezes Will around the waist. He knows that he’s just trying to hold onto Will in any way he can, reminding Will how much they love each other, how far they’ve come since Hannibal asked him out that morning in Minnesota. He’ll get the ring before he displays Beverly’s body, so Will can wear it for a time, so Hannibal can see it before the inevitable anger he knows is to come. 

With his head on Will’s chest, the man so trusting below him, sound asleep and clutching onto him, Hannibal feels tears start to fall from his eyes. He lifts his hand to wipe them away, considers getting out of bed to compose himself without the risk of Will seeing, but he stays and holds on tighter. 

Is this what guilt feels like? Hannibal hasn’t experienced the feeling over taking a life… ever. He doesn’t know how to deal with the feeling and a sob makes its way out of his chest no matter how hard he tries to contain it. 

The arms around him tighten and Will is sitting up, pulling Hannibal between his legs, holding him against his chest.

“What’s wrong, baby?” Will asks, voice so heavy with sleep but still so concerned for Hannibal. 

“Nothing, Will. Go back to sleep,” Hannibal says, but he sobs and gasps for air as he says it. 

A kiss is dropped to the top of his head. 

“You’re shaking,” Will whispers. “Tell me what’s wrong.”

“Nothing,” Hannibal repeats. He remembers something Will requested of him so many months ago, and whispers, “Drop it, please.”

Will sighs in resignation, but just holds Hannibal tighter as he cries into Will’s chest. 


Will is worried about Hannibal for possibly the first time ever. He’s never seen the man display emotions in such a way, and Will can feel so many rolling off of him. Anguish, guilt, even humiliation. He holds Hannibal, shushing him softly as he rocks him back and forth. 

“Baby,” Will whispers into his hair. “I have something for you.”

He doesn’t wait for a response before he reaches over to his nightstand and opens the drawer. He feels around the ring box, and when he finally grabs it, he takes a deep breath. 

“Your proposing saves me from coming up with the perfect proposal for you,” Will whispers. He opens the ring box and holds it into front of Hannibal, looking down with his chin on Hannibal’s shoulder. “I’ve been trying to think of the best way to do it, but…”

“Oh Will,” Hannibal cries. He takes the ring out of the box and holds it out to Will. He straightens his fingers so Will can slide it on for him. 

Will holds it for just another second, and whispers, “There’s an inscription, but I’ll let you read it in the morning.” 

He slides the ring onto Hannibal’s finger and kisses his neck. 

Hannibal turns around in Will’s arms and kisses him on the lips. Will can taste his salty tears, and can feel how warm his face has become.

He pulls back and pushes Hannibal’s bangs away from his forehead, then places a kiss there, too. 

“I’ll be right back, okay?” Will whispers. 

Hannibal nods and climbs out of Will’s lap. 

Will reluctantly gets up from bed and stumbles into the kitchen, careful not to trip over any dogs or the cat as he walks through the dark house. In the kitchen, he gets two glasses for water and fills them up, then carries them back into the living room. 

He hands one to Hannibal who drinks it slowly, and Will just sets his own on his nightstand. 

“You want to talk about it?” Will asks. 

Hannibal shakes his head and reaches out. Will is helpless to do anything but go to him. 

He falls asleep tangled with Hannibal, but he keeps waking up to Hannibal sniffling.

In the morning, he wakes up and Hannibal is finally sleeping. Will gets up and lets the dogs out as quietly as possible, then gets in the shower. 

Hannibal ends up coming in behind him and wraps his arms around Will’s waist. He kisses his neck, and grips his hips. 

“You okay?” Will asks. 

Hannibal hums against his neck. 

“Beyond,” Hannibal whispers. “I apologize for last night. I was so overwhelmed that you had said yes to me.”

Will smiles and turns around so he can kiss Hannibal on the lips. 

“I know you’re going to want a big, fancy wedding, but—”

Hannibal cuts him off with another kiss. “Not at all. Let’s go get married at the courthouse right now.”

“Right now?” Will asks. 

“This afternoon,” Hannibal murmurs. 

“I’ll have to see if Beverly is free,” Will smiles. “I said she can be my best man. She can serve as a witness.”

“I suppose I should ask Alana to be mine,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will nods and wraps his arms around Hannibal’s neck. They kiss under the spray of the water for a few more minutes, but when Will tries to go further, Hannibal stops him. 

“I have appointments today,” Hannibal whispers. “But I have a long lunch.”

“Are we really doing this?” Will asks. “We’re getting married?”

“I don’t see why not,” Hannibal smiles. 

He steps out of the shower, and wraps a towel around his waist. Will follows after him and sits in a towel on the closed toilet seat while Hannibal shaves. 

“Should we, uh, talk about our living situation?” Will asks. 

“Naturally, I assumed we could live here, but keep my home in Baltimore just in case,” Hannibal says. “I know you prefer living here, but there may be nights we’re at an event in Baltimore and it would make more sense to stay there for the night.”

He knows Hannibal just can’t give up his murder basement. 

“That’s fine with me,” Will says. 

Hannibal leaves for work, leaving Will alone for the morning. 

He calls Beverly, but it goes straight to voicemail for some reason. He tries again, but it happens again. He wonders if she might be on a plane going out of state for a case, but remembers she’s been taking some time off. It’s still very early, so maybe she’s just not awake yet. 

He cleans up around the house while he waits for a decent hour to call her again. 

Hannibal sends him a message that tells him where to be and when, and with what documents. 

can’t get a hold of beverly, Will texts back. 

He tries calling Beverly again, but to no avail. 

Hannibal doesn’t respond, so Will calls him. 

“Hey, we can’t get married if I can’t get a hold of Beverly,” Will says as soon as the call connects. “I’m sorry, but I can’t. I promised her six months ago.”

“Darling, I’m sure her phone is just dead,” Hannibal says gently. “Why don’t you stop at her house on the way to the courthouse this afternoon?”

“Okay, okay,” Will agrees. “I’ll do that. I’ll see you later okay? Love you.”

“I love you, too darling.”

“Did you read the inscription on your ring?” Will asks quickly. 

Hannibal hums, and Will knows he’s pulling the ring off his finger to check. 

“Remember tonight?” Hannibal asks. 

“For it’s the beginning of always,” Will completes the quote. The whole thing wouldn’t fit, so he just got ‘Remember tonight’ engraved, hoping Hannibal would know the rest. 

“Dante,” Hannibal whispers. “Lovely, darling. What is the ring made of?”

“Bone,” Will answers. “I carved it myself. It fits okay?”

“Perfect,” Hannibal says. Will can hear his smile through the phone. “I have to go soon, unfortunately, but I will see you at the courthouse. There’s a suit in your closet I’d like you to wear.”

“When did that get there?” Will asks. He heads upstairs to look in his closet. 

“It has been there for a while. In the black bag.”

Will opens the closet and unzips the bag and chokes. 

“It’s white,” he says. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says. “Mine is as well.”

“No other options?”

“No,” Hannibal says. “Goodbye now, Will.”

“Hannibal, wait—” 

But Hannibal hangs up before Will can protest any more. 

Will gets dressed in the white suit, and carefully avoids the dogs as he makes his way through the house to retrieve his car keys and find his wallet. 

He shakes on the entire drive to Beverly’s house, buzzing with both nerves and anticipation over the fact that he’s getting married today. He didn’t think it would happen so quickly, or that Hannibal would agree to such a private wedding. It occurs to him that they’re quite literally eloping, only telling their two witnesses what they’re doing. 

Abigail doesn’t even know, Will thinks.

He wishes he could call her and tell her the news, though he’s quite certain that Hannibal does, in fact, know where she is, and would likely tell her himself. He hopes so. He hopes she’s safe, at least. 

Pulling up at Beverly’s house, Will immediately sees something is wrong. Her car sits parked in her driveway, but one door is ajar. The house is completely dark. 

He barely manages to shut off his car before he’s getting out, phone in hand, ready to call someone. On the ground next to the open driver’s side door are her keys, and her phone. The screen is cracked, and he wants to see if it’s on, but he shakes his head, and pulls his own phone out instead. 

“Will,” Jack answers. 

“Jack, I just stopped at Beverly’s house and— and she’s—” Will rushes out, frantic and on the verge of a panic attack. 

“Breathe, Will. She’s what?” Jack asks calmly. 

“Been taken! I don’t know? I couldn’t get a hold of her, and I just got here and it looks like she’s been taken!” Will wails.

“I’m on my way,” Jack says, and hangs up. 

Will collapses to his knees, not caring about his white suit. 

His best friend is gone. She was following leads, and one of them must have… she must have found who she was looking for. 

Will’s phone starts ringing in his hand, and he checks to see Hannibal’s name on the display. 

He can’t get married now. Not when the one person he promised to invite can’t be there. He doesn’t know what to say, so he doesn’t accept the call. It rings again, and he lets it go to voicemail again. Alana calls next, and he ignores that, too. 

Jack shows up on the scene, trailed by more agents, including Zeller and Price. 

“What’s with the getup?” Jack asks. He looks at Will down on the ground, taking in the white suit, now dirtied by gravel, and maybe even blood. 

“Me and Hannibal were going to get married,” Will mumbles. His voice is hoarse, and he realizes he must have been yelling during his crying. His cheeks have tears drying on them, but he really doesn’t recall any of that happening. 

“Today?” Zeller asks. 

Will nods. “I came to see if Beverly was free to be my witness. She wasn’t answering her phone.”

“Where’s Lecter now?” Jack asks. 

Will shrugs. “At the courthouse waiting for me, probably. He called me, but I don’t know what to do.”

“Jimmy, call Hannibal,” Jack sighs. “Get up, Will.”

He offers a hand and Will takes it, letting himself be pulled to his feet. 

“Tell me what you know,” Jack says gently. 

“Beverly came over last night to hang out with me. She said she was going to follow a few leads in Baltimore when she left. I told her to text me when she got home safe, and she did,” Will says. “But someone must have followed her. I don’t know.”

“Where were you?”

“At home, drunk off my ass,” Will mumbles. 

“Anyone that can confirm that?” Jack asks.

“You think I had something to do with this?” Will scoffs. “But yeah, Hannibal came over last night, he can tell you my level of inebriation.”

“You said she was following leads. Any idea who?”

Will shakes his head. “She said she was going to stake something out, but we talked about so many people last night, I have no idea if she even told me a name.”

“Is there anything else we should know?” Jack asks. 

“I asked her to check on a few things at Hannibal’s last night because I thought he’d be out of town for a while longer. Speaking of which, when did you get home?” Will asks. 

“Crack of dawn this morning. Hannibal bought a ticket for an earlier flight as soon as we wrapped up. He didn’t mention seeing Beverly?” Jack asks. 

Will shakes his head. “He called me to tell me he got home way after she told me she was home.”

“Can I see your call logs?” Jack asks. 

Will nods and pulls his phone out of his pocket, giving Jack free range of his phone. 

Jack frowns. “Took Lecter a while to call you after his flight was supposed to land. You’re sure he didn’t get home sooner than this?”

“Will?” Hannibal calls. Will turns to see Hannibal and Alana pushing through the police line and rushing toward them. 

He’s dressed in a suit that matches Will’s own. A blood red tie offsets all of the white, and Will realizes he isn’t wearing a tie at all, himself. 

“Doctor Lecter, I’d like to ask you a few questions about your whereabouts last night,” Jack says, just as Hannibal pulls Will into an embrace and kisses his hair. 

“Of course, Jack,” Hannibal says. He doesn’t let go of Will, but Will knows Hannibal is looking at Jack over the top of his head. “As you know my flight got in last night around eight thirty, I was out of the airport by nine. I ran a few errands before arriving home at eleven thirty, then I showered and drove to Will’s house.”

“You didn’t go home before your errands?” Jack asks. 

“No, it was time sensitive.”

“Do you have proof of your errands?” 

Hannibal lets go of Will, and tells Jack he’ll be back in a moment. He comes back with a small box and a receipt. Will’s heart stops. 

“You…” Will trails off. 

“I bought an engagement ring last night, but I hadn’t planned on proposing until later this week, hence me not having the ring last night when I did end up asking,” Hannibal explains. “Unfortunately, Jack, I do not have receipts for my other purchases last night, but if you were to ask the cashier at the drug store I frequent, she would likely be able to help you.”

“So you are completely unaware Beverly Katz was in your home last night, then?” Jack asks, pushing in a way that makes Will grow uncomfortable. Why he suspects Hannibal, Will can’t quite figure it out. Hannibal would never hurt Will’s best friend. 

Hannibal turns to look at Will, an eyebrow raised.

“I asked her to get the mail and water the plants,” Will admits. 

“I had seen those were done, but I assumed you did that earlier in the day before you drank yourself into a stupor,” Hannibal says. “I didn’t realize Miss Katz was the reason for my security system not being armed when I arrived.”

Will groans. “I told her to arm it again before she left.”

“It’s alright, no harm done,” Hannibal murmurs. He kisses Will’s temple. He turns to Jack again. “I apologize I can’t help more. I wish I knew of Beverly Katz’s whereabouts so she could be safely returned home. Has her mother been contacted?”

“Shit,” Will mutters. “The kids. Her parents can’t take care of them full time.”

“We’ll contact her mother, and hope someone else can take them in,” Jack says. “You two go get married. Congratulations to you both.”

Will shakes his head, and bites his lip, and turns to his fiancé. “I can’t, Hannibal. Not until she comes home. I’m sorry.”

“It’s entirely understandable, my darling,” Hannibal whispers, right into Will’s ear. He looks at Jack again. “Will was named a guardian for the children. We can talk to her parents.”

“If you’re sure,” Jack says, looking between the both of them. 

“Yeah,” Will breathes. 

He really hopes Beverly is found because he is not ready to become a father. 


Hannibal tosses his keys to Alana, and asks her to drive his car back to his office, where they met today. He takes Will’s keys out of his pocket, and brings Will to his car. Will gets into the passenger seat, and Hannibal drives away, toward Beverly’s parents house. Hannibal was given their address for emergency purposes, and it’s about an hour drive there. 

He takes the ring box out of his pocket again, and holds it out for Will to open while he drives. 

“I didn’t realize you got rings last night,” Will says. 

Hannibal smiles, but doesn’t tell Will that he absolutely did not pick them up last night. He has a jeweler friend who owed him a favor. Hannibal helped him after an attempted burglary of his shop resulted in a dead burglar on his showroom floor. 

All he needed from the man today was a receipt dated the night before, and to corroborate the story that Hannibal was there for a decent amount of time before and after the purchase. He reminded the man that if he doesn’t comply, Hannibal has something to hold over him. He didn’t say so, as much as implied it, reminding the jeweler of the attempted robbery. He trusts the shop owner to play along should the FBI go to him for further proof of Hannibal’s whereabouts. 

Will opens up the ring box and Hannibal hears his breath hitch in his throat. 

“This is just an engagement ring,” Hannibal says. “I told my jeweler we would most definitely come in together to pick out our wedding bands, but of course we would not have had time considering we were going to elope.”

“We rushed into it,” Will murmurs. He snaps the box shut, then says, sincerely, “It’s beautiful, Hannibal.”

“Put it on,” Hannibal encourages. 

Will slides the box into Hannibal’s pocket, much to Hannibal’s disappointment. Is it rejection?

“Properly propose how you wanted to,” Will whispers. “I’ll say yes, don’t worry.”

“I will admit that I have always planned on proposing at a dinner party in front of all of our friends and acquaintances,” Hannibal tells him. “Given the circumstances, a dinner party seems inappropriate. I’ve been scrambling to find an alternative since Abigail was abducted.”

“You’ll figure something out.”

Hannibal nods in agreement, and takes Will’s hand in his own, clasping them together, and settling them on his knee while he drives.

Will breaks the news to Beverly’s parents, tears streaming down his face as he does. Hannibal catches Mrs Katz from falling to the ground, and guides her over to the couch. Mr Katz asks Will how this could have happened. 

“These are not the circumstances I hoped to meet you under,” Mrs Katz says to Hannibal. “Beverly spoke very fondly of the both of you.”

Hannibal smiles, and returns the sentiment, telling her Beverly has always been appreciative of everything her parents do for her. He feels that same stabbing feeling in his chest that he felt last night as he tells her that he’s confident Beverly will be returned home safely. 

“Why are you dressed like that?” Mrs Katz asks after a few minutes. 

Will is still explaining what he knows to Mr Katz out of the front entryway of the house, and Hannibal can faintly hear them. 

“Will and I were going to marry today,” Hannibal says. “Beverly was going to be one of our witnesses, but when Will arrived at her house to pick her up, he unfortunately noticed that there were signs of a struggle outside her car.”

“Beverly is strong and smart. Whoever took her, she’s likely just biding her time until she can make a proper escape,” Mrs Katz says confidently. Hannibal’s heart clenches in a way he’s never felt before. 

Tears escape his eyes against his permission, and Mrs Katz pulls him into a hug. They sit there on the couch, crying for two different reasons. 

For a man with a plan for every single outcome, he’s at a loss for what he’s supposed to do regarding Beverly’s death. He doesn’t know how he can possibly hide it from Will when it weighs so heavily on him. Perhaps with time, it’ll get better. Perhaps once he elevates her to art, and honors her by eating, and sharing her kidneys, then it won't be so hard. Until then, he has to bite his tongue, and hold his breath, lest something escape that he can’t take back.

They leave after coffee and more conversation. Hannibal gets the babies’ seats secured in the backseat, and Will sits in the passenger seat nervously biting his nails. 

Once Hannibal’s in the driver’s seat, he turns to Will. “I have to finish my appointments for the day. Would you be comfortable driving home from my office and watching the children for the rest of the day? I can come over tonight, though it may be late.”

“Yeah, that’s fine,” Will mumbles. “You’ll bring dinner, right?”

“If you wish,” Hannibal smiles. 

Hannibal drives to his office, and watches as Will gets out and walks around to the driver’s side. He pushes up on his toes to kiss Hannibal once before getting into the car and driving away. 

He waits until Will is out of sight, then gets into his own car and drives home. 

It’s difficult to maneuver Beverly’s frozen body through the trapdoor, but he manages it then gets her into a tarp in his trunk, then takes her to a remote cabin he owns under a different identity. It’s a bigger space to work, and he has more materials there, such as sheets of glass that will aid in his tableau. 

He spends the afternoon cutting Beverly into sections and putting together his display. He decides he’ll have to make an appearance at Will’s tonight, and display her body later. 

It’s a clear Ripper kill, which means he’ll need two more, and soon. He can wait until after Beverly’s body is displayed to have a full idea of what he’s doing next, but he’ll have to be careful not to take a longer break than usual during this next week. If the FBI suspects Ripper’s taking a break because he’s busy—which he will be, with the investigation and funeral, and becoming a parent, and getting Will to marry him—then they might conclude that the Ripper is someone close to Beverly, and the FBI. 

His next week needs to be planned down to the second, with hardly any room for error. 

He gets to Will’s house to find him asleep on the couch, both babies in bassinets in front of him. The TV is on a children’s channel, even if the children are too young to understand what’s happening on TV. 

He sets the tote containing dinner on the counter in the kitchen, and returns to the living room to find Will stirring slowly. 

“Hey, baby,” Will mumbles, voice thick from sleep. 

“Are you hungry?” Hannibal asks. 

Will hums and nods then pushes himself off the couch. 

“Do we have a stroller?” Will asks. 

“Yes, there’s one at my house,” Hannibal answers. “I can bring it here tomorrow. Along with cribs, as well.”

“Okay.”

“We can set them up in Abigail’s room,” Hannibal offers. 

Will stops walking, but quickly recovers and nods in agreement. He opens the bag of food and pulls out containers. Will doesn’t bat an eye at the meal, and devours it quickly, having no idea that part of it is made from his best friend, and having no idea that he’s been drugged. 

Hannibal just needs two and a half hours to get to the observatory, break in, display the body, and get back to his fiancé. Two and a half hours, and he’ll be back beside him. 


In the morning, Will wakes and knows that it has happened again. He glances over at Hannibal sleeping beside him, and has no idea what to expect for the day. A feeling of dread washes over him. Everything that has happened in the last few weeks has had him completely on edge, and this is no different. 

He gets a call from Jack, and the first thing he can hear is the roughness in his voice that accompanies crying. 

“It’s the Ripper, Will. The Chesapeake Ripper got Beverly,” Jack says into the phone. 

Will drops his phone on the mattress in shock. 

He hadn’t expected the reason for him being drugged to be this. 

“Are you sure?” Will asks when he gets the phone back in his hand.

“Almost entirely. Look, you don’t have to come—”

“I’m on my way. Send me the address,” Will says, and hangs up. 

He knows Hannibal is the Chesapeake Ripper and has stayed with him. He must have said something to Beverly that made her suspicious because he knows the man he loves would not kill his best friend for no reason, but god it hurts so fucking bad. 

He needs to stay strong until he knows for sure. He can’t let Hannibal know he knows it was him just yet, not until he can say goodbye to Beverly, and know for sure. 

He kisses Hannibal’s head, causing the man to move, chasing Will’s lips with his own. Will laughs even if it should be the last thing he wants to do. 

“Jack called,” Will whispers. “I have to go.”

“I’ll come with,” Hannibal says, getting out of bed. 

“No,” Will says, pushing him back down. “Stay here with the kids.”

“Mm, I have appointments,” Hannibal murmurs. “Come to Baltimore tonight.”

“Yeah,” Will agrees. 

Will spends the entire drive in tears, both for himself, and for Beverly. He gags once or twice, thinking about how possible it is that he ate her last night. Because he didn’t even question the source of the meat. He remembers how Hannibal was sobbing against his chest the other night, asked about marriage, then pushed for a quick ceremony. He bets the rings weren’t actually bought after his flight got in, but that he called in a favor to fabricate a receipt. 

He pulls up to the observatory, finding FBI agents in different states of distress and sadness, depending on how well they knew Beverly. Zeller and Price hide around the side of the building, and Will can see them in an embrace from afar. Jack waits for him at the door, cheeks stained with tears. 

“No Hannibal?” Jack asks. 

“He had appointments this morning. Just me,” Will says. 

Will is led inside and up the stairs to find the display. He has to grab onto Jack’s arm when he sees Beverly in slices behind glass panels. Jack puts a hand over his, and offers him the support he needs while Will tries to get himself together. 

Fresh tears fall freely from his eyes now, no doubt dripping on the floor and contaminating the scene. 

He gains his bearings, then glances over to Jack, who promptly nods, and leaves, giving Will privacy to read the scene. 

He thinks he can feel Beverly standing at his shoulder, and can hear her speaking to him, saying, “You did this. You’ve come to me scared about whether or not you had a hand in past murders, well…”

He knows it’s just his subconscious, but it sounds so real to him.

Will takes a step closer. He closes his eyes, and the pendulum swings, pulling him into Hannibal’s head. The second he sees the first bit of evidence—strangulation—he pulls himself out again and turns on his heel to leave the building. 

“Well?” Jack asks, following him toward his car. 

“I can’t,” Will says. “I took one look at her, and I’m sorry, Jack, but I can’t.”

“No, you’re right,” Jack says, rubbing his shoulder with one hand. “I shouldn’t have told you to come out here. Take care of yourself, kid.”

Will nods, then turns. “Are Brian and Jimmy doing the autopsy?”

“They want to,” Jack sighs. 

“I’m coming in. Today?”

“As soon as we get the scene finished, yes.”

“I’ll wait in my car and leave with the rest of you. I… need to call Hannibal, and Mr and Mrs Katz,” Will says. He dreads both of those calls. 

“We’ve sent officers to her parents’ house already,” Jack says. “Call Hannibal.”

Will takes a deep breath and nods, then turns and gets in his car. 

He dials Hannibal’s number. 

“Hello, love,” Hannibal answers. 

Too calm, too happy. Pretending he doesn’t know the exact reason Will is at a crime scene right now. Still thinking Will has no idea that he’s the Chesapeake Ripper. 

“It’s Beverly, Hannibal,” Will sobs. “She’s been killed by the Chesapeake Ripper.”

“Oh, darling,” Hannibal whispers. Pretending to be shocked, and saddened, and… 

Will wants to strangle him like he did to Beverly. 

“Just…” Will stops, then stops, voice catching on a sob. “Hannibal.”

“Darling, come home to me,” Hannibal whispers. “I can leave my office now. Come home.”

“I have to go to the autopsy,” Will tells him. “Hannibal, I think we should get married as soon as possible, and adopt the children.”

“Yes, I agree,” Hannibal says. 

“Tomorrow,” Will says, not leaving any room for argument. He needs spousal privileges in case Hannibal is ever suspected. He can tell everyone it’s for the children, so it doesn’t seem suspicious that they’re marrying so quickly after the death of a friend. 

“Tomorrow,” Hannibal agrees. 

Will goes to the autopsy and watches as Zeller, Price, and Jack try not to cry. He doesn’t keep himself as composed as they try to be. Eventually, he gets up and leaves the room for some air. He comes back, and Jack stops him with hands on his arms. 

“This is not your responsibility, Will,” he says. He turns to Zeller and Price. “It’s none of yours. Allow yourself to grieve the loss, not wade through it.”

“What about you, Jack?” Will asks. 

“I can’t afford the luxury of grief.”

“No luxury in feeling this way,” Zeller mutters. 

“If I grieve Beverly, I’m not catching the Ripper,” Jack grits out. 

No one’s catching the Ripper, Will thinks. 

“We’re not running away from this, Jack. Beverly wouldn’t,” Jimmy says. 

Will lets out another sob, and has to excuse himself again. 

“Go home, Will,” Jack says. He shuts the door behind Will, and Will doesn't try to go back inside. 

He goes home, lets the dogs outside, and props the door open so they can come back on their own. He dumps a bunch of dry dog food on the floor so they can eat, then he scoops Beatrice up so she can’t follow them outside. 

He goes upstairs to the bathroom, and shuts the door. Beatrice jumps up on the counter and sits there, head tilted as Will fills the bathtub and gets inside. He stays in there for as long as he can, the water going completely cold. 

His phone rings multiple times and he ignores it all, not wanting to talk to anyone at all. 

He can’t talk to any of his friends knowing that his fiancé killed Beverly. He can’t talk to his fiancé without letting something slip. He just sits there, shivering in the cold water, but unable to get out and dry off. 

Winston paws at the door, but Will can’t get up to let him in. 

He wishes Hannibal would have just killed him instead, so he wouldn’t have to live with the fact that his best friend is gone, and it’s all his fault for never turning Hannibal in. 

Eventually the door bursts open and he’s pulled out of the bathtub. He’s enveloped in a warm towel, and a strong embrace, then carried, and set down in his bed. 

He curls up on his side, knowing the man spooning him is the killer that caused all this pain. He lets that killer hold him tight, and offer him comfort, even after everything. He drifts in and out of sleep in Hannibal’s arms, held tight and safe. 

It tears him apart to know that he’s still choosing Hannibal after what he did. 

It’s an insult to Beverly’s life, and all of her work, and their entire friendship, but now Hannibal is almost all he has left, and he can’t let that be taken away, too. 

In the morning, they don’t even discuss it. They just get dressed in two new, clean suits that Hannibal brought over. Will’s is a deep red, and Hannibal’s is black, with a red tie to match Will’s suit. They go to the courthouse and sign the papers for the marriage license, and Alana, as well as Bedelia du Maurier, who Will remembers from a dinner party so many months ago, serve as their two witnesses for the ceremony. 

They exchange their engagement rings as their wedding bands, and Will realizes Hannibal never did end up properly proposing, but he’s too sad, and exhausted to care. 

Their marriage is sealed with a kiss, and signatures, and they leave the courthouse with their babies in their arms. Will carries Lucy, and Hannibal carries Mischa. Will looks down at the baby in his arms, then the one in Hannibal’s, and starts sobbing all over again. Knowing they will grow up not knowing their birth mother, nor the aunt that took them in as her own when their birth mother died. Knowing that they will never have a normal life, not with two dads, and one being a serial killer and a cannibal, and the other being too in love to do anything about it. 

“Let me take them for the night,” Alana offers when they get to Will’s car. “You two have a night to yourselves.”

“Thank you, Alana,” Hannibal smiles. He kisses her on the cheek, and hands the baby to her so he can move their car seats into her car. 

“We’re closer to your house than mine,” Will mumbles. 

Hannibal nods. “Alana, would you also mind taking care of the dogs tonight? Will and I will be staying at my house for the evening.”

“Of course,” Alana agrees. 

They all part ways, and Will feels no different as a married man than he did before. Will Graham-Lecter has a nice ring to it, he thinks. The only difference he truly feels is that they’re now legally bound.

At Hannibal’s house, Hannibal makes dinner while Will watches. He puts on music while he cooks, and when their dinner goes in the oven, he extends a hand to Will. 

“Dance with me,” Hannibal says. 

Will can’t help the smile, and the blush that spreads on his cheeks as he accepts Hannibal’s hand. 

He puts his arms around Hannibal’s neck, and his husband sets his hands on Will’s waist. They just sway together, looking into each other’s eyes with tears of both sorrow and joy. Will rests his head on Hannibal’s chest and holds him tight as they spin around the kitchen together. 

Eventually a timer goes off, and Hannibal pulls away, leaving a lingering kiss on Will’s lips as he goes. 

They eat quietly, the hands not holding forks, clasped together. 

They finish and both go into the kitchen to wash dishes together. Hannibal tells Will to go upstairs, and says he’ll bring up more wine, and Will leaves the room, a smile on his face. 

He remembers he left his cellphone on the counter, though, and in case there’s problems with the dogs and Alana needs to get a hold of him, he wants to have it near. He spins around and goes back into the kitchen just as he sees Hannibal slip something into his wine glass. He backs out slowly and quietly, then makes noise as he comes in again. 

Hannibal turns with a smile and hands Will the drugged glass of wine. Will looks down into it and lifts it to his lips.

Notes:

I'm sorry! Direct all complaints toward not me.

About a third of this chapter was written all the way back in January when I first started this fic, so this has always been the goal, and many people know that I've been working up to this all along, but if there's any inconsistencies with this chapter and the rest of the fic let me know. I tweaked as much as I could, but I'm sure a few things slipped by me.

Chapter 34

Notes:

I think this might be the shortest chapter I've written for this fic, but it tells exactly what I needed it to tell. We're truly getting to the end of this fic. I have it outlined but it's hard to say how many words each of those scenes will become. I'm thinking 2 more chapters and an epilogue if I can get everything into that many chapters. Keep leaving comments please!!

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Hannibal watches as Will lifts the glass to his lips, but Will doesn’t take a sip. The glass comes crashing down to the floor, spreading both wine and shards of glass everywhere. Will picks up the bottle of wine on the counter and throws that to the floor too, then sweeps the drying rack full of dishes and silverware off the counter with one of his arms. 

He screams, one loud sound of anguish, and pushes Hannibal in his chest with both hands. Tears flow from his eyes, and he begins opening cabinets and sweeping glasses and plates off the shelves, letting them crash down onto countertops and the floor. A storm of glass and porcelain brought on by the storm inside his husband.

“You were going to drug me! On our wedding night?!” Will screams. “Two days after taking my best friend away?”

Will shrieks, and throws himself to his knees on the floor. Hannibal just stands there, mouth hanging open with the inability to form words. 

“You’ve taken Abigail away and put her somewhere I can’t find her! You’ve taken Beverly away forever, and you’ve isolated me from everyone who’s not you!” Will yells. “I trusted you! I’ve always trusted you! I’ve hidden what I know and I pretended I didn’t because you weren’t ready to tell me, but I just fucking married you! I’m committed, Hannibal, and you can’t even have the decency to be honest with me! Fuck you.”

Will slams his hands on the ground, and Hannibal knows he’s going to get shards of glass stuck inside. He can already see blood when Will lifts his hands and slams them down again. 

“Say something, you asshole!” 

“I don’t quite know what to say,” Hannibal murmurs. He’s about to begin explaining why he had to kill Beverly, and he even gets as far as saying, “She found my—” before pausing, and asking, “How long have you known?”

“Since Andrew Caldwell,” Will yells. “Since you fucking drugged me the day after my birthday and went and killed a guy!”

“Why haven’t you turned me in?” Hannibal asks. 

He crouches down next to Will and picks up one of his hands. Will yanks it away before Hannibal can examine the damage done. 

“Because I love you!” Will shrieks. He gets up and pushes Hannibal down by his shoulders, causing him to land in a mess of glass and wine. “I love you so goddamn much I can’t imagine a life without you and that’s fucking terrifying because you’ve hurt me really bad, Hannibal, and that’s something you promised to never do.”

“Killing Beverly was the only way to ensure our freedom,” Hannibal says gently. 

Will starts shaking his head rapidly, back and forth. He paces to the opposite end of the kitchen, then back to where Hannibal still sits. Will cries and shakes as he moves, shaking his hands out at his sides in a clear sign that he doesn’t know what to do with himself. Hannibal wants to take him upstairs and hold him tight under a blanket until Will feels no more pain. He wants to turn back time and come home before Will could accidentally slip to Beverly what he knows. He wants—

“I should leave you,” Will says firmly, cutting Hannibal’s thoughts off and replacing them with a cold feeling throughout his entire body. 

Hannibal’s heart clenches painfully, but he ignores it. He whispers, “If you wish. We can get an annulment right now.”

“I’m not fucking leaving you,” Will grumbles. “Stand up.”

Hannibal gets to his feet quickly, and suddenly realizes that from here on out, Will is going to be calling all of the shots. He’s going to put Hannibal on a leash, or dictate what he can or cannot do. There’s going to have to be complete honesty—or better deceit.

“Why were you going to drug me?” Will asks. 

“I have to move Miriam Lass,” Hannibal admits. 

“Do it, then. I’ll be in bed.” 

Will turns and stomps off toward the stairs. He stops in the doorway off of the kitchen. 

“Hannibal?” he asks softly. 

Hannibal looks over at him. 

“Come back home in one piece, okay?” 

Hannibal nods once and watches Will turn to leave. 

He quickly gets an unconscious Miriam Lass into the trunk of his car, blindfolded and restrained since her sedatives are supposed to wear off during the drive. He plays a recording of Frederick Chilton’s voice over the car’s speakers the entire drive, knowing it will be the first thing she hears when she wakes. 

Still hazy from the drugs he’s been pumping her full of, she doesn’t put up any fight as he moves her into the same cabin he built Beverly’s display at. He gets her down into one of the cisterns in the basement. He leaves a jug of water that will last her long enough until she’s found. 

There’s no evidence of Hannibal in this building, so there’s no tracing this back to him. He really needs to convince Will of this when he gets home because he knows Will is going to demand answers. 

He thinks of his story the entire way home—every point that he will have to make in order to keep Will from worrying. 

When he gets home, all the lights are off in the house, but he can tell that the glass hasn’t been cleaned up off the floor yet. He turns on the light in the kitchen and gets cleaning supplies from the pantry. He looks up from his spot on his knees on the floor to see Will standing in the kitchen doorway, wearing nothing but one of Hannibal’s sweaters. 

“Don’t come in here with your bare feet,” Hannibal says.

“You’re worried about me getting hurt?” Will scoffs. 

Hannibal sighs and stands. The rest can be cleaned up tomorrow. 

“You were going to let my brain burn in my skull,” Will starts. He starts counting on his fingers as he lists off more items. “You’ve drugged me several times over the last six months.  You’ve let me believe Abigail was kidnapped, and still haven’t told me where she is. You sent me to Tobias Budge’s shop knowing he would be able to kill me, and would have if Alana hadn’t called me that morning. You killed my best friend… and now you’re worried about me stepping on some glass?”

“Yes, I am,” Hannibal answers. “Come upstairs. Let me look at your hands.”

“My hands are fine! I, on the other hand, am having a very hard time.”

“You found out I was a killer before we even shared our first kiss,” Hannibal reminds him. “I had told you there was much, much more that you did not know. You stayed with me.”

“And I’m going to stay with you,” Will sighs. “I am. I’m just allowed to be upset, okay? Right? I’m allowed to feel pain over this? You’re a psychiatrist, right? What would you tell a patient who just married a serial killer who killed their best friend and then tried to drug them on their wedding night?”

Hannibal goes to Will in the doorway, and lifts a hand to his cheek. Will pulls away, arms crossed over his chest. 

“Don’t,” Will growls. “You don’t get to touch me.”

“Why did you marry me?” Hannibal asks. “You knew the moment Jack called you that I had killed Beverly, and you still married me. Why?”

“We’ve gone over this,” Will says. “Because I love you. And because if it comes down to it, if you’re ever suspected and they ask me to testify, they can’t force me to. I know more than anyone else ever will, and it’s going to stay that way.”

“Oh, darling,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will turns away and goes back to the stairs. “You should finish cleaning that up. And you’re sleeping in the guest room tonight.”

“As you wish,” Hannibal says. 

Hannibal does as he’s asked, finishing up cleaning the kitchen, then deciding to go down to the basement. He cleans all of his equipment thoroughly and starts packing it away into boxes to either be melted down, sold anonymously, or brought to Frederick Chilton’s house for his plan to frame him. 

By the time he’s ready to go up to bed (which he has been avoiding because he needs to go into his own room for pajamas and his toothbrush), the sun is coming up through the windows in the kitchen. 

He figures Will is definitely asleep and he can make it in and out of his room and into the guest room for a few hours of sleep without waking him. 

Will, when Hannibal makes it upstairs, is sitting against the headboard of the bed, pillow wrapped tight in his arms, face buried. He looks up when Hannibal comes in, and Hannibal knows without the lights on that his eyes are rimmed with red, and that he hasn’t slept a wink all night. 

“Come here,” Will whispers. “Please.”

His voice is strained, and right as he finishes his words, he pulls in a huge gasp of air. 

Hannibal goes to him, not bothering to change into pajamas. He sits against the headboard and pulls Will between his legs, Will’s back to his chest. He wraps his arms around Will’s chest, and puts his chin on one of his shoulders. 

“I went to look for you,” Will whispers. “You weren’t in the guestroom.”

“I was cleaning the equipment in my basement,” Hannibal whispers. “I assume you’ve been in the basement, haven’t you?”

Will laughs quietly, and while it’s accompanied by tears and a shaking body, it’s still music to Hannibal’s ears. 

“I have,” Will admits. “I didn’t actually want to sleep alone, you know.”

Hannibal hums in response and kisses Will’s neck, taking advantage of the touch he’s being allowed.

Will leans into the touch of his lips, then turns around completely, wrapping his arms around Hannibal’s neck, and his legs around his hips. He kisses Hannibal softly on the lips, and presses their bodies closer. 

Hannibal is so stunned by it that it takes him a moment before he kisses back. By then, Will is making quiet, desperate noises, clawing at Hannibal’s shirt, and rutting their hips together. 

“Will, darling,” Hannibal breathes as Will undoes the buttons. “We don’t have to do this.”

“It’s still our wedding night, right?” Will whispers, leaning down and kissing Hannibal’s exposed collarbones, and shoulders. He gently bites down on Hannibal’s shoulder, just over a scar from a previous bite that Hannibal didn’t allow to heal properly. 

Hannibal grips his hips tightly and rolls them over so Will is laying on his back. He reaches over and turns on a lamp so he can get a good look at his love. His eyes are glossed with tears, the whites now a painful red. His cheeks are tacky and salty when Hannibal bows his head to kiss each one. 

All the pain Will has felt at Hannibal’s hand is evident in every inch of him, and yet he clings to Hannibal for comfort, anyway. Hannibal kisses his forehead, tender, and loving. 

“I love you,” Hannibal whispers. “I told you to never forget that, and I hope you haven’t, darling.” 

“You have a weird way of showing it,” Will grumbles. 

“I know,” Hannibal whispers. 

Will pushes Hannibal over and lays out on top of him. Hannibal can feel Will’s erection against his hip, and it causes his own cock to twitch in response. Will kisses his lips, his neck, down his chest. 

He licks one nipple, then the other, then slides down to unbutton Hannibal’s suit pants. Hannibal lifts his hips so Will can pull his pants and underwear down over them, and then Will is descending onto his cock, wet, warm mouth causing him to harden further. 

Hannibal knows how badly Will needs this, and Hannibal is eternally grateful that his beloved still wants him. His husband still wants him. Even after everything he’s done. Hannibal feels himself starting to fall apart. The emotions he’s experiencing will not be held behind his forts for much longer, and it’s only a matter of time before they overwhelm the both of them.

When Hannibal tries putting his fingers through Will’s hair, the other man growls around his cock, shows his teeth, and snatches both of Hannibal’s hands. He pins them to the bed by his wrists, not letting Hannibal touch. If Will weren’t so visibly angry with him, he would find it exciting that Will was treating him roughly, denying him what he seeks, but now Hannibal just wants to soothe the anger into something gentle. For Will’s sake, rather than his own.

Will pulls off before long at all, kissing the head of Hannibal’s rigid cock as soon as it’s free from his mouth. He licks lightly, and teasingly several times, as he looks up at Hannibal from under his lashes. Hannibal wants to pull him up for a kiss, but he knows that now is not the time to direct any of Will’s actions. Whether they say so, or not, Will holds all the power in this exchange, and Hannibal knows his husband will put him in his place if the need arises. 

In truth, Hannibal expects a hate-fucking. He expects to be prepared just enough that he won’t tear, and then to be fucked quick and hard with no regard for his pleasure, only Will’s. He’s taken by surprise when Will hands the bottle of lube to him and climbs off the bed to remove his boxers. 


Will climbs into bed and straddles Hannibal’s hips, rubbing their cocks together. He can tell Hannibal is painfully aroused, and if he weren’t as well, he would leave Hannibal where he lies to make a point. As it is, Will wants to have his husband inside him. He wants to feel good, and he wants to remind Hannibal what he has. 

Not that Will has forgiven Hannibal at all. Not that he can ever forget what Hannibal has done. He can’t leave him, either, though. Hannibal saw to that, and Will knew deep down since the beginning that their relationship would come to something like this. He could see it in every interaction—Hannibal has always wanted him to himself. That’s what he got. 

Will knew what was happening, and he stayed. Will can’t forgive Hannibal for killing Beverly, but he’s staying. Because Hannibal is all he has left. The only person he can find comfort in. 

He leans down for a kiss, sucking lightly on Hannibal’s top lip. Hannibal’s bottom lip quivers against Will’s chin, and it’s clear that he’s scared. Scared to make a wrong move, and cause Will to walk away. As if Will could walk away. 

“Prepare me,” Will orders gently when he pulls away and sits up. 

Hannibal’s hand tightens around the bottle of lube and he shuts his eyes, nodding with a harsh swallow. He doesn’t move. 

“Hannibal,” Will murmurs. He leans down and kisses his forehead. “We don’t have to, baby.”

Hannibal shakes his head and uncaps the bottle. “I want to. I want you.”

“You have me forever, now,” Will whispers. He turns around and rests on his knees and elbows facing away from Hannibal. A finger slides into him, and he rocks back onto it. One becomes two at his request, and not a moment sooner. When he gives the word, two becomes three, and when he decides he’s ready, Hannibal removes his fingers as quickly as he can and reaches for the lube again to slick his cock. 

Will turns around again and pulls on Hannibal’s hands to make him sit up. Will sinks down slowly on his cock, and wraps his arms around his neck. 

“Hold me,” Will whispers against Hannibal’s neck once he’s fully seated. 

Hannibal’s arms, previously at his sides, make their way around Will’s waist, holding him in place. He gently rocks in Hannibal’s lap, pulling quiet moans from both of their mouths. 

“If you ever kill one of my friends again,” Will whispers. “I’ll lock you up in your murder basement and make sure you never see anyone but me for the rest of your life.”

He seals the promise with a hard kiss, then pitches forward so Hannibal is pushed onto his back again. Will removes the tight hold of Hannibal’s arms around his waist and pins his wrists above his head. He begins to move on Hannibal’s cock in earnest, riding him hard and fast, his thighs aching in protest. 

“You’ll only be able to see me when I decide you deserve it,” Will continues, trying to keep his voice steady. It’s difficult, and he can feel his own walls crashing down, and Hannibal’s emotions slamming into him like waves against the face of a cliff. “You’ll only be able to come if I think you deserve it. You could only read the books I choose, and listen to music when I say so. Maybe I’ll let you outside for an hour each week if you promise to be good.”

Hannibal is gasping and bucking his hips up into Will. He tries to rip his wrists free from Will’s grip, but Will just puts more weight on them as he moves. 

“Do you think you deserve to come tonight?” Will whispers. He halts his movements and pulls off of Hannibal’s cock, earning a whimper from the man below him. 

“Please, Will,” Hannibal whines. Oh god, Will has never seen him in such a state and it’s marvelous

Hannibal is below him, eyes screwed shut, tears streaming down his face. He’s breathing so heavily, one would think he has just run a mile. Each breath comes out like a sob, and when he finally opens his eyes, they’re full of emotion. 

Will can feel everything. 

He knows that Hannibal would not have such a physical reaction to his emotions if he actually knew how to deal with them, but it’s so clear that Hannibal is experiencing feelings that he hasn’t—either ever, or in a very long time. 

Will can’t stop the gasp that comes from his mouth at the heavy remorse that settles over him. The chilling fear that spreads through his veins. The aching guilt that sits painful in his stomach. The sadness that goes from his head to his chest and out through his arms. 

Suddenly, seeing Hannibal this way, it isn’t marvelous anymore. 

“Oh, baby,” Will whispers, grief stricken by both his own and Hannibal’s emotions. “I know.”

Tears are streaming down his own face now, and he lets go of Hannibal’s wrists, no longer comfortable denying him what they both so desperately need. He knows they both need to touch and hold. Hannibal needs to know that Will is still here, and still needs him. 

“I know, I know, I know,” Will repeats, climbing back into Hannibal’s lap. He knows, and he sees, and he understands. Hannibal truly loves him, and can’t live with the idea of ever losing him, the idea of not being able to love and touch him freely, the idea of being denied the comfort they find in each other. 

Will is going to be upset and angry for the rest of his life over Beverly’s death, but it’s clear that Hannibal did not want to kill her. He respected her, and he truly saw it as the only way. He risked Will’s trust to keep their freedom, and Will knows that had Beverly lived, it would have been both of their freedoms at risk. She knew that Will knew enough to be considered an accessory, or aiding Hannibal in at least one murder. He let that all slip, and he’s sure Hannibal knew that. He’s sure Beverly told him. 

It hurts knowing that he had a hand in Beverly’s demise. It hurts more remembering that Hannibal had promised him months ago that he would spare Will if he told anyone, and would kill the recipient of the information instead. He tightens his hold around Hannibal’s body, unable to fully accept his own part in this, not sure where Hannibal’s guilt ends and his own begins. He sobs into Hannibal’s neck, wishing they could both go back to that evening and change everything. 

What if Hannibal had gotten home a few hours earlier, and Will hadn’t felt the need to fill his time with Beverly and alcohol? What if he had kept his mouth shut instead of accidentally oversharing in an attempt to confide in his friend about his fears? What if he went back even further and never got himself so entangled with Hannibal? What if he never made that joke about being on a date together all the back in Minnesota—the joke that prompted Hannibal asking him out on a real date—and allowed their relationship to stay as it was: unofficial doctor and patient. Sure, they would have been friends, but it would have never gotten to the point where Will can’t let him go, right?

If he spoke any of this aloud, Hannibal would tell him not to dwell on what they can’t change. 

He takes the advice of the Hannibal inside his head, and kisses the real Hannibal’s neck, and murmurs, “Please touch me. I won’t break.”

Hannibal’s hands are hesitant at first, but when Will tightens his own embrace even more, the older man takes when he wants and holds Will tight around his middle. Their hard cocks are pressed between their stomachs, aching for release. Will would pull away and take Hannibal back inside him, but the hold around him is so tight, he couldn’t if he tried. 

“I don’t truly want to cage you,” Will whispers. 

“A cage of your making would be better than losing you at all,” Hannibal whispers. “I would gladly go if you told me. Anywhere. I would call Jack Crawford right now if that’s what you requested of me.”

The idea of Hannibal behind bars is too much to bear, and he cries out at the searing pain in his chest. At first he thinks he has been stabbed, but he knows that cannot be true. It’s the feeling of both of their hearts breaking at the idea of being separated. 

“Never,” Will pleads. “You’re mine. Jack Crawford can’t have you.”

Hannibal rolls them over so Will’s on his back on the bed. Will’s legs go around Hannibal’s hips, and Hannibal reaches for the bottle of lube again. He freezes before he can open it, looking down at Will. Scared. Scared he’s overstepping, or that Will stopped because he didn’t want it anymore. 

“Yes,” Will urges him. 

When Hannibal pushes back inside, he falls forward and buries his face in Will’s neck, inhaling deeply at his throat, and biting down once he's fully inside. 

Will clutches at his shoulders, his back, his thighs, anywhere he can reach, hands searching for more contact as Hannibal thrusts into him. Hannibal moans against Will’s throat, and nips at his skin. They get a steady rhythm going, rocking against each other. Hannibal hits his prostate just right, grinding his cock against it, steady movement lighting up his entire body with pleasure. He could come from this alone, but he doesn’t want to—not yet. He shifts and moves, trying to make it so Hannibal’s angle changes, but Hannibal just moves with him.

It’s impossible not to let out a stream of curses and moans as he arches his back, pressing his stomach up against Hannibal’s. Hannibal seems to be in the same sort of state. He’s not looking at Will, but Will can still tell that Hannibal is treating this moment as if it could be their last together. He’s treating it like he also needs to remind Will what they have, just as Will was reminding him what he could lose. 

Hannibal keeps whispering that he loves Will, over and over, and Will believes it. 

He feels so good that he never wants it to end,  so when Hannibal reaches in between them to take Will’s cock into his hand, he grabs his wrist and stills him. 

“Not yet,” Will says. 

“I’m so close, darling,” Hannibal moans, looking down at Will with a pleading look on his face. He speeds his thrusts, and Will’s not even sure if he’s aware that he has. He must be teetering right on the edge, but Will can’t let this end yet.

“Slow down,” Will demands. He’s so close himself, that he needs Hannibal to slow down for both of their sakes. “Don’t come yet.”

“I can’t— I—,” Hannibal stops mid thought, mouth hanging open as his hips stutter. Will can feel him coming inside him as he murmurs apology after apology. Each ‘sorry’ makes it more and more clear that Hannibal isn’t only apologizing for climaxing before Will wanted him to—which is not something Will would want an apology for, anyway—but for everything else that has occurred. Will knows that Hannibal is not guilty over the act of killing, but that he feels guilt for what has come as a result of it. 

“It’s okay,” Will soothes. He cups Hannibal’s cheek, moves his hand to push Hannibal’s bangs out of his face. He pushes up on his elbows so he can kiss Hannibal’s forehead, and whispers again, “It’s okay.”

It’s not okay that Hannibal killed his best friend, and it truly never Will be, but right now, it’s enough that Hannibal feels anything at all about what he has done, and that he will give up his pride to say so. 

“I love you,” Will whispers. “Forever, Hannibal.”

Hannibal drops his face to Will’s neck, and Will pets the hair at the back of his head, shushing him as he shakes. Hannibal finally collects himself and pulls out, leaving Will feeling empty. He moves down Will’s body and takes him into his mouth, and Will’s hands stay in his hair as Hannibal sucks him off. 

He comes down Hannibal’s throat with nothing more than a tug on his hair as a warning, then pulls Hannibal back up the bed to curl against his side. Hannibal rests his head on Will’s shoulder, and throws one leg over Will’s, pressing their bodies together. They don’t bother getting cleaned up now as it’s not really a priority. Hannibal needs some time to come back to himself, and Will needs some answers as soon as that happens.

When Will is sure Hannibal will be capable of forming coherent sentences, he finally asks what he’s been dying to know for weeks. 

“You know where Abigail is, right?”

“Mhm,” Hannibal responds. He’s still out of it, that’s for sure, but Will won’t save any of these conversations for later. Not when they could possibly be time sensitive.

“I want to see her.”

“Soon, my love,” Hannibal murmurs. He kisses Will’s chest, lazy presses of lips. His tongue darts out and licks Will’s nipple, then he places a kiss there. Will can feel Hannibal’s lazy smile against his skin. 

It’s frustrating, but it seems that’s the only answer he will get about Abigail tonight. Hannibal is too distracted by whatever is going on in his mind to think a more forthcoming answer is worth it. He keeps laying kisses against Will’s skin, occasionally sinking his teeth into Will’s pectoral, one hand rubbing small circles around Will’s lower stomach. 

It’s not enough to settle Will, though. He still needs more answers and these matters seem pressing. If Hannibal can’t get his shit together, then Will will just drag him into the shower and blast him with cold water until he comes to his senses. 

“What is your plan with Miriam Lass?” Will asks. 

“Hm?” Hannibal hums. He traces circles on Will’s chest with his finger now, poking in where his teeth have left indents, surely wanting them to bruise quicker. To leave his mark, and remind Will of their love.

“You moved Miriam Lass. What is your plan?” Will repeats. 

“For her to be found, of course,” Hannibal answers. He sounds far away, like he’s locked away inside his mind, trying to distance himself from his emotions, and the real world. Will wants his undivided attention. Surely he deserves it after everything. 

“Hannibal,” Will says firmly. 

Hannibal looks up at him from where his head rests against Will’s chest. 

“Why do you want Miriam Lass to be found?”

“To set my final plan in motion. My final sounder,” Hannibal says. 

“What do you mean?” Will asks. There’s no way Hannibal plans on turning himself in now, but that’s the only outcome Will can see from what Hannibal is saying to him. 

“Do you trust me?” Hannibal asks. 

“I can’t say I do. You have to understand that,” Will whispers. “I want honesty, Hannibal. No more half-truths or requesting trust in place of answering me. Is that clear?”

“Crystal,” Hannibal murmurs with a yawn. 

“What do you mean by final sounder?” Will asks again.

“You said no more killing your friends,” Hannibal whispers. “But if Miriam Lass were to kill Frederick Chilton, surely that would not count, yes?”

“Elaborate.”

“Miriam Lass will be found in about three day’s time, if the FBI catches onto a small piece of evidence I planted in…” Hannibal trails off. 

“Beverly,” Will whispers. “You planted evidence in Beverly. You can say her name.”

“Yes,” Hannibal admits. “In the end, she will have been key in catching the Ripper, after all.”

“But you’re not going to be caught,” Will growls. “You aren’t.”

“I am not the Ripper that will be caught,” Hannibal assures. “As I was saying, Miriam Lass will be found, and there will be evidence pointing to Chilton being the Ripper. He will be brought in for questioning, likely as will I—we both fit the profile, you see—but she will identify Doctor Chilton by voice. With our luck, she will reach for the nearest gun and shoot him through the glass. I have been fostering those urges in her for over two years.”

“You can’t seriously think this will go through without a hitch, Hannibal,” Will mutters. “What if Chilton doesn’t die? What if Miriam identifies you?”

“She won’t,” Hannibal tells him. “She’s heard nothing but a recording of his voice for months. She’s been hypnotized and shown photos of his home and office.”

“I’ve been in your basement,” Will says. “What if she saw me?”

“Did she appear to be awake?”

“Well, no but—”

“Then she didn’t see you,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“What if your basement isn’t as soundproof as you think? What if she heard me smashing your kitchen to pieces? What if she has heard the babies crying? What if anything?” Will presses. “I don’t like your plan. I won’t let you go through with it.”

“It’s not up for negotiation,” Hannibal says. He’s smug as shit. Completely arrogant. As if it’s only him he has to worry about, and not the family he has sworn to protect—he’s already put Abigail somewhere unreachable, and Will is not going to allow Mischa and Lucy to lose another parent. Hannibal has more than just himself to worry about now, and Will wishes he could drill it into his husband’s skull until there’s no other thoughts in his brain.

“Besides,” Hannibal continues. “I have safe houses in the area, as well as everything we would need to flee the country at a moment’s notice. We would take the children and leave—likely to Florence, or Paris. We would be safe.”

Will pushes Hannibal away from him and gets out of bed. He lets out a frustrated groan as he tugs on the ends of his hair, trying to think of what to say and how to calm down. 

He shivers at how bare he feels, and cringes at the feeling of Hannibal’s come going down his thighs. He’s uncomfortable, no longer safe and secure and warm in their bed. He’s furious now, unable to properly pull together his thoughts as it is, and the cold air of the bedroom embracing his body makes it even more difficult. 

Just minutes ago he understood Hannibal fully, but it doesn’t seem Hannibal understood all the compromises and conditions that would come along with that. While Will would never ask Hannibal to stop killing, he feels as though something needs to change if they don’t want to be caught. Being caught isn't an option. That is what is non-negotiable about this situation. He would sooner put Hannibal in hiding, never to see the light of day again, than to be apart from him. 

Hannibal doesn’t seem to believe he’s not invincible. As much as Will wants to believe his husband could go up against anyone, and come out victorious, he knows one of them has to be the realistic member of the relationship. 

“I think you’ll find that it is up for negotiation,” Will finally says. “I think you’ll find that nothing you do will go unapproved by me lest I make due on my promise to imprison you in the cage downstairs. And I like the life we have now, Hannibal! I don’t want to be on the run with our children for the rest of our lives. What happens when they find out why we keep moving, or why you and I can’t come back to America? And if Chilton can prove he’s being framed before he’s even pulled into an interrogation room, then we are absolutely fucked. Do you understand? We are not going through with this plan.” 

“It is the plan I have, and Miriam Lass will be found quite soon. This is the only place I can hide her without killing her and the building will be found whether she is there or not,” Hannibal says. “If we do not take this opportunity, there is nowhere else I can leave her where she will be found alive that will not implicate me.” 

“Then she won’t be found alive,” Will decides. “She won’t be the one to kill Chilton because she will already be dead.”

“I’m not killing her,” Hannibal shrugs. 

“I didn’t say it has to be you who does.” 

Chapter 35

Notes:

I know I said the updates would be more regular as we get toward the end, but unfortunately I lied. Week from hell + no motivation = no writing. But I got it done! So here you go. Only a couple more after this one.

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Will knows that he has been played the second he picks up one of the scalpels in Hannibal’s basement. Hannibal stands directly behind him, Miriam Lass laying on a table in front of him, and he knows that this is the exact outcome Hannibal was hoping for. He has wanted Will to be a killer since the day they met, and he saw his opportunity to make him take a life again. 

An arm snakes around his waist, crinkling the plastic suit Hannibal insisted he put on, and lips attach themselves to the side of Will’s neck. Hannibal is pressed fully to his back, and Will is stuck right where he is, holding a scalpel in his right hand, just inches away from making an incision. 

He clears his throat and moves his shoulder to try and shake Hannibal off his neck, but Hannibal just shows his teeth, a slight press of sharp canines threatening to clamp down. 

“How should I start?” Will whispers, throat tight. 

“How would you like to?” Hannibal murmurs, grazing his lips up Will’s neck to rest right below his ear. “You know the Chesapeake Ripper, darling. How would he do it?”

“I shouldn’t have to answer that when the real Ripper is breathing down my neck,” Will mutters. 

Hannibal pulls his lips away from Will’s neck and rests his chin on his shoulder instead. He reaches out with his right arm, the left still tight around Will’s waist, and rests his right hand over Will’s. 

“Have you ever considered framing Miriam Lass as the Ripper?” Will asks. 

Hannibal’s fingers curl around Will’s and he directs Will’s hand toward Miriam’s bare chest. The scalpel breaks the skin between her breasts as Hannibal presses down and drags Will’s hand. Will’s breath catches in his throat as blood spills out and his hand is lifted again. 

“I mean, think about it,” Will continues as Hannibal guides him to make a few more incisions across her abdomen. “The Chesapeake Ripper has always been profiled as a man, but that doesn’t mean it’s impossible for him to be a woman, and it especially wouldn’t be impossible for a woman in this line of work to be capable.”

Hannibal hums, encouraging Will to keep going. 

“So she gets pulled out of her classroom,” Will whispers. “She reads the profile, pretends to be a part of the investigation, tries to alter the profile a bit, then says she’s going to interview doctors. She goes missing.”

“Yes,” Hannibal says. Hannibal’s hand stills over Will’s, and doesn’t let him continue with the dissection. Will realizes his eyes have been closed, and looks down to see several bloody incisions, but none of them are enough to have killed Miriam Lass. She is still very much alive, just unconscious like when they started. Hannibal, after a moment of silence, whispers, “Go on.”

“Well, if you were on the verge of being caught, and were living on your own with no one else to worry about at home, what would you do?” Will asks. 

“I’d go into hiding. Preferably leave the country,” Hannibal answers. “I would first plant evidence elsewhere to ensure the investigation ignores me and my departure.”

“Exactly, so if Miriam Lass were the Ripper, and wanted to throw the investigation away from her, it wouldn’t be too off base for her to fake an abduction that made it look like someone took her so she would be seen as a victim rather than the one who committed these crimes,” Will tells him. “She could have been laying low in an abandoned house, or in a property she owns with an alias, and continued to kill as the Ripper.”

“It could have worked,” Hannibal agrees. “I think that would be sound enough for Jack Crawford to believe. Unfortunately—”

Will cuts him off, “Unfortunately, it won’t work now, yes I know.”

“Yes, but it was a wonderful idea, dear,” Hannibal says. “Now, though, we must finish what we have started before Alana calls to ask if she can bring Mischa and Lucy home.”

“When I started yelling this morning,” Will says. “You were goading me into this position.”

“I would call it strategically influencing you to reach the conclusion you wanted,” Hannibal whispers, kissing Will’s neck just one more time. 

“Tell me what to do,” Will requests. 

He knows he is about to take a life that doesn’t deserve it, not like Hobbs did. Miriam Lass, unconscious on the table in front of him, slowly bleeding out of the wounds along her torso, is no immediate threat. There’s no self defense going on here. It will be straight murder. 

As long as Hannibal continues to guide him and tells him what to do, though, he can set the blame aside. He can put it on the Chesapeake Ripper and pretend he isn’t the one that is about to end her life. 

Will closes his eyes again as Hannibal brings the blade up to Miriam’s neck, and pulls it across her throat. 

Blood pours out, soaking the table and flowing onto the floor. Arterial spray hits his suit and face, no doubt hitting Hannibal as well. Will feels weak in the knees, but Hannibal’s arm around his waist holds him steady. 

“How did it feel?” Hannibal whispers, breath hot against Will’s ear. 

How did it feel? 

Will shrugs—he doesn’t know. 

“Do you have a design in mind?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head, unsure of much of anything at the moment. His breaths have a hard time coming out, and he opens his eyes to see all of the spilled blood. Hannibal has already let go of his hand to begin reaching for other tools, never leaving his place at Will’s back. 

Hannibal starts to carve open her abdomen, starting with the incisions he already made, and peeling skin away. 

Will sees Beverly in Miriam’s place. He sees her dying on the table in front of him, blood spilling out. Blood that should have never spilled. A life that should not have been taken. And he feels like it’s all his fault. 

“I can’t,” Will breathes, turning his face to the side. “I need to get out of here.”

His knees threaten to collapse, and Hannibal drops his tools to wrap both arms around his waist. He allows Hannibal to half carry, half drag him over to the other end of the room. Will rests against Hannibal’s chest heavily as Hannibal unzips his suit, arms reaching around Will’s body. 

“Will, stay with me,” Hannibal says. It sounds like he’s in another room, even if his body is pressed firmly to Will’s back. 

“I’m here,” Will whispers. 

He allows himself to be lifted and placed on the metal table. He lays down, curling up on his side, and Hannibal leans down to kiss his forehead before disappearing to another part of the basement. 

Will can hear water running. 

He can hear footsteps. 

He can feel something on his face, damp and warm, wiping away what he assumes is blood. 

But he’s not entirely himself. 

He isn’t laying on a metal table being taken care of by his husband. 

He’s on a metal table with his throat being slit. He’s bleeding out while two men stand above him in a loving embrace, being sprayed by his own blood.

Then, he’s no longer Miriam. Instead, he’s standing in the middle of the basement of someone he should have never trusted. He’s being restrained and tied down and sliced. 

He’s Miriam Lass, and Beverly Katz, and every single Ripper victim. Every single Ripper and Copycat victim who has been slaughtered in this very room. 

And yet, all he feels from the Ripper himself is overwhelming love and pride. 

“Darling,” he hears. “Stay with me, my love.”

“Where else would I go?” Will murmurs, momentarily coming back to himself. He knows exactly where he would go because he just went there. 

He’s empathizing with the dead woman ten feet away. Dead by his hand, even if Hannibal forced the blade. 

He’s empathizing with Beverly, who died on one of these tables. His best fucking friend, who he’ll never see smile again. 

He’s empathizing with every life that he’ll never, ever grant justice to. 

He’s being lifted again, being carried bridal style through the basement and to the stairs. Through the trapdoor and into the kitchen. 

He distantly hears a phone ringing, but no one stops to answer it. 

Hannibal takes him upstairs and into the bathroom, where he sets Will to his feet. Will stands, but just barely, resting against the counter as Hannibal starts to undress him. 

He feels so empty now. 

“Why couldn’t it have been me?” Will asks in a small voice. He feels so empty, and so broken, and so small. Like everything in his life is too big for him to handle. Like no matter what he does he can’t save the people close to him. He couldn’t save himself, he couldn’t save Abigail, he couldn’t save Beverly—what happens when he can’t save Hannibal? When the FBI finally comes knocking because Will can’t save him either? 

Hannibal doesn’t respond to Will’s question, or maybe he didn’t hear it. Maybe Will didn’t actually say it out loud? 

He just unbuttons Will’s jeans and pushes them over his hips along with his underwear, leaving Will completely bare now. 

Will is gently guided to sit on the cold tile floor while Hannibal moves away from him. Will wants to reach out and pull him back, but Hannibal is too quick to cross the bathroom to the bathtub. 

He can hear the water start, and a cabinet opens and closes. He’s lifted again and walked over to the tub, which Hannibal helps him step into and carefully sit down. 

“Will you be alright?” Hannibal asks, crouching next to him. “I need to clean up downstairs, but I will join you when I’m done.” 

Will nods, even though he absolutely does not want Hannibal to leave him. Not even for a minute. 

By the time Hannibal comes back, the water has gone cold, and Will didn’t even notice. 

“Did you finish?” Will asks, tilting his head to one side as Hannibak reaches for the drain plug between his feet. 

“The meat is packed away, and the remainder of her body will be frozen until I can make the display,” Hannibal answers. 

The water drains around Will’s body, swirls of pink from the blood in his hair going down the drain. Hannibal offers a hand to him, and Will shivers as he’s pulled from the bathtub. A towel is quickly wrapped around him, and Hannibal takes a step away so Will can dry off. 

“Alana called. She will be here in fifteen minutes,” Hannibal continues. “Should I tell her you are sleeping, or will you come downstairs?”

“I’ll come down,” Will whispers. 

Hannibal hands him a stack of clothes that he had set on the bathroom counter. 

“You asked me something,” Hannibal says, looking away from Will. “You asked me why it couldn’t have been you instead.”

Will doesn’t attempt to catch his eye at all. He, instead, looks down at his underwear while he steps into it. 

“Do you truly feel as though I should have killed you instead of Miriam?” Hannibal asks. 

Will scoffs. “Not Miriam.”

“Beverly, then,” Hannibal says. “What good would it have done me to kill you?”

“It would have saved me from feeling like I do now,” Will mutters. 

“You will feel better with time,” Hannibal says. 

Will decides not to respond to that. He doesn’t want to wait to feel better. He doesn’t think he will ever be completely okay. 

“Can I see Abigail?” Will asks. 

“Soon.”

“That’s not good enough for me, Hannibal. I need something more definitive,” Will says as he pulls sweatpants on over his boxers. He’s surprised Hannibal gave him pajamas instead of real clothes seeing as Alana is coming by, but he’s grateful for the comfort. 

“You must understand how much of a risk it would be to go see her right now,” Hannibal sighs. “Miriam Lass’s body needs to be displayed and left for Jack to find. If we leave for days following that, he may suspect something. I feel he already suspects me for Beverly.”

“Because you were stupid about it,” Will mumbles. 

“Of course, but I did not have much choice,” Hannibal says. “Finish getting dressed please.”

“Yeah, yeah,” Will says, waving him off. “Miriam will be the second of this sounder. Who’s the third?”

“Miriam was not meant to be the second. Beverly was not even meant to be the first. I hadn’t planned for this sounder, which is why I have the perfect plan for the third,” Hannibal says. Will finally looks up to see the faint beginning of a smirk on Hannibal’s lips. “When Jack tells you that I fit the profile, I need you to point out that Frederick Chilton does as well. You could even go on to say that Donald Sutcliff did too.”

“Sutcliffe is dead,” Will says. “You killed him.”

“Yes, but I am just pointing out that I am hardly the only doctor in the area that could have been the Chesapeake Ripper,” Hannibal clarifies. “Name any doctor you wish, just as long as Frederick Chilton makes that list.”

“You’re still framing him.”

“I am.”


Alana drops off Mischa and Lucy, and notes how tired the two men look. It’s true, they were up all night, but she likely thinks they fucked all night, so it doesn’t raise any questions beyond her initial remark. Will immediately takes Mischa from his carrier and cradles the baby in his arms. Hannibal watches as Will kisses the baby’s tiny forehead and whispers something with a fond smile. 

Hannibal decides that it’s good to see Will happy, even if it is a fleeting instance.

“He’s great with them,” Alana comments. 

“He is,” Hannibal agrees. “He’s perfect.”

Will glances up at them and offers a faint smile, then looks back down to the baby in his arms. 

“I don’t mean to be confrontational, but I have to ask why you never told me you two were together,” Alana says. 

“It was impossible to predict what your reaction would be,” Hannibal answers. He picks up Lucy and goes over to stand by Will on the other end of the room. 

“Well, I can see how much you two love each other,” Alana says. She shoves her hands into the pockets of her jacket, and continues, “Jack thinks you had something to do with Beverly’s death.” 

“That’s ridiculous,” Will mutters. 

“I told him the very same thing,” Alana says. “I guess I just need to be sure.”

“You need to be sure I didn’t kill Beverly?” Hannibal asks, pretending to be offended. “She was very close to both Will and I, and we valued her dearly. Maybe I was not as close as Will was, but that doesn’t mean I killed her. The Chesapeake Ripper killed her.”

“You do fit the profile, Hannibal,” Alana says. 

“Hannibal was with me the night she went missing,” Will reminds her.

“The whole night?” Alana asks. 

“If Jack Crawford had something substantial on Hannibal he would have made an arrest by now. But he doesn’t because Hannibal is not the Ripper,” Will tells her. He’s getting worked up and Hannibal sets Lucy down and takes Mischa from his arms. “Accusing my husband of murder! Who does Jack Crawford think he is?” 

“He’s getting desperate,” Alana shrugs. 

“If Hannibal fits the profile, then so do you, and so does Frederick Chilton, and so do all of the other doctors in Baltimore,” Will scoffs. He pats his pockets with. shaking hands, and Hannibal knows he won’t find what he’s looking for in the sweatpants he’s wearing. “Where are my cigarettes? I need a fucking smoke.” 

“In the car, I should think,” Hannibal answers. 

Will shakes his head. “I was smoking on the patio last night while you were, uh,” he glances at Alana and Hannibal tenses for a second. He reminds himself to trust Will. He lies, “At the drugstore buying uh,” another glance to Alana, then back to Hannibal, a blush covering his cheeks, “You know.” 

“Oh, yes,” Hannibal says with a smirk. 

“Okay, I think that is my cue to leave,” Alana huffs. She turns to leave the living room, then looks back over her shoulder, and warns, “Jack’s going to be keeping an eye on you.”

“He won’t see anything,” Will mumbles. “I’ll be right back.”

Will leaves the living room, past Alana, and takes a turn toward the back door of the house. Alana leaves right after him. 

Hannibal sits down in an armchair, a baby cradled in each arm and waits for Will to come back. He looks down at Mischa, the little boy that was given the name of his sister, and can’t help but feel as though he was supposed to raise this child. No matter how Will feels, Hannibal feels as though killing Beverly was his right. Not that this little boy in his arms is his beloved sister, but they share a name, and Hannibal will protect this Mischa like he couldn’t do for the last. 

Will comes back in, along with the smell of cigarette smoke on his body. He stands in the doorway to the living room, a troubled frown on his face.

“I need to quit,” he says. “With the kids, I just can’t risk it.”

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. “Why don’t you go up to bed, and I will get them situated in their room, and come join you. You haven’t slept in twenty four hours.”

“Kinda had other things on my mind. And neither have you,” Will says. “If Jack’s watching us, then it is crucial we keep an eye out. It might be easier to do that in Wolf Trap. We’d be able to see if anyone has surveillance on us. If this becomes a full blown investigation, they might start looking at your security system to see when we leave and come home, but if we stay in Wolf Trap, they won’t have any way to prove any doors have opened.”

“There are secret ways in and out of this house, darling,” Hannibal says. “The security system saying no doors have been opened, and that it has been armed all night may be more beneficial if I were to leave with the body.”

“The dogs?” Will asks. 

“We can bring them here,” Hannibal offers. “You go up to bed, and I will go pick up the dogs.”

“Would you do that?” Will asks. 

“Of course, darling,” Hannibal says. “Go upstairs. I’ll put the babies down for a nap and I will bring you the monitor.”

Will nods, and turns to go. 

Hannibal spends a few more minutes in the chair before he stands and carries both children to Abigail’s old room. He puts them in the cribs that were already there for when Beverly would go out of town and needed Abigail to watch them, then turns on the baby monitor. He brings the receiver into their bedroom and sets it on the nightstand next to Will. 

With one last quick kiss, Will settles down to the mattress with a relieved sigh, and Hannibal leaves. 

While Will was in the bathtub earlier, Hannibal finished with his work on Miriam Lass, and all of the meat he wanted to keep has been packed away. The only thing left to do is finish fitting her into an arrangement, which won’t be too difficult. It won’t be his best work, but that is going to work in his favor. 

In the basement now, he gathers the rest of his supplies and moves Miriam’s body out through the tunnel connected to a hidden door in the garage. She goes into the trunk, as do the rest of his supplies, and he drives toward where he wants to leave her. 

He is overly aware of every single car that passes by and every person that looks his way, needing to be more cautious than ever during this time. He avoids traffic cameras that would place him in this area, and pulls off a backroad toward a wooded hiking trail. It’s mid afternoon and just at the very end of winter, and most people would be at work now or don’t often hike this time of year, but that doesn’t mean he can risk staying too long. 

Keeping an eye out for anyone near him, he assembles the rest of the display in his trunk, wearing his plastic suit as he works. 

By the time she’s left in the woods, he starts to feel his exhaustion set in, but he knows he needs to get the dogs and get home before Will wakes, or Jack comes to visit. 

The entire drive to Will’s house, he speeds, needing to get there and home in an amount of time where Alana and Will can confirm his whereabouts. 

He drops his supplies somewhere he knows will never be found, no longer needing half of them anymore, and not wanting to risk being pulled over with a bloody tarp in his trunk. His murder suit gets folded up as small as possible, and he puts it inside a hidden panel in his car. He’s glad he did because when he gets there, Jack Crawford is snooping around Will’s property. 

“Jack,” Hannibal says cautiously. 

“Doctor Lecter,” Jack responds in kind. 

“What are you doing at my home?”

“I was just going to stop by for a visit, but neither of you were home. Where’s Will?”

Hannibal knows that’s not the full story. Jack Crawford was trying to find any sort of evidence that could bring one of them in. 

“Asleep in Baltimore, last I left him. I came to get the dogs, and bring them home,” Hannibal tells him. 

He uses his key to open the front door and the dogs are joyous to see him. He laughs as Rusty runs and picks up one of Will’s shoes off the floor and brings it to him, his butt wiggling as he offers the gift. 

“You will see Will very soon, Russel,” Hannibal says with a smile. “Jack, I would love to stay and chat, but I’m afraid I didn’t get much sleep last night.”

“And why would that be, Doctor Lecter?” Jack asks. 

“Will and I were married yesterday, and Alana offered to watch the children last night. Of course you understand, surely,” Hannibal says with a faint smirk. “How is Bella?”

Jack’s face turns into a sad fondness at the mention of his wife. 

“Taking a turn for the worse, I’m afraid,” Jack sighs. 

“I am very sorry to hear that, Jack,” Hannibal murmurs. He opens his arms to give Jack a gentle hug, showing him his capacity for empathy, no matter how much Hannibal is currently forcing it. “This must be a very difficult time for you. With both Bella’s cancer, and with Beverly… Well, I know how much Beverly meant to Will and I, and I know you have known her much longer than both of us. The world needs to be more kind to you.”

That seems to do it just fine for Jack, his emotions running high, and his need for comfort ultimately winning over his suspicions of Hannibal. The need for a friend at this moment outweighs the need to catch the Chesapeake Ripper. 

“I do apologize, but I fear I have already been away from my husband for too long. He is very fragile right now,” Hannibal explains. He plays into Jack’s beliefs so many months ago that Will is delicate like a teacup, ready to shatter if pushed too hard. He hopes that Jack will see how badly Will is hurting very soon, and think there’s no way Hannibal could do that to him, so he asks, “Is there any word on when Beverly’s funeral will be?”

“Her parents are trying to get her body moved to a funeral home for cremation as soon as possible. We want to keep her body for a bit longer to find more evidence, but,” Jack shrugs. 

“I do hope you find what you are looking for,” Hannibal says.

His phone buzzes in his pocket, and he pulls it out. A text from Will. 

are you on your way home yet? need you. 

“Is something wrong?” Jack asks.

Hannibal shakes his head. “Will is asking when I’ll be home. He knows it only takes an hour at most to get here, and that I would be on my way by now if we hadn’t stopped to talk. I must insist that I do need to go.”

“Of course,” Jack nods. 

Hannibal texts Will back. 

Jack Crawford was walking around your property. It would have been rude not to stop and speak with him. I am getting the dogs into the car now. 

Jack tries to discreetly peer through the tinted windows of Hannibal’s car, and Hannibal pretends to ignore him. He needs to get evidence planted on Frederick Chilton, and fast, or else Jack will find something to link Hannibal to the murders. 

It’s difficult to get all eight dogs and Beatrice into the Bentley, but he manages. He keeps Beatrice in a crate, and piles all of their food, bed and toys into the trunk. He knows he said they would be living at Will’s house, but at the moment it seems much more logical to stay in Baltimore. 

Will is correct about the possibility of surveillance being harder to pin down in Hannibal’s neighborhood, than in a place like his home in Wolf Trap, but that is exactly why it was so important Hannibal removed the body from his house already. Now, all surveillance will see that they have not left Hannibal’s garage. Moving some of his equipment to Chilton’s house may be difficult, but it will be easier than transporting a body. If anything, the most he needs to worry about is documents that show he owns some properties where evidence will be found, as well as enough evidence to prove that Chilton has had human meat in his kitchen. 

The drive home is slow, with Hannibal wanting to be careful that none of the dogs get hurt, but he makes it there eventually. 

Hannibal allows the dogs and Beatrice to explore his home in the meantime, and goes upstairs to his room to find Will, both babies crying in his arms. 

“They aren’t hungry, they don’t need to be changed, they don’t want to sleep,” Will lists off. He looks like he’s about to start crying himself. “I don’t know how to make them stop.”

Hannibal takes Lucy from Will, and begins to bounce her gently as he walks around the bedroom. He shushes her quietly until she stops crying, then places her in the bassinet next to the bed that Will must have set up at some point. It’s clear he didn’t want to be alone. 

“They miss Beverly,” Hannibal tells Will. He takes Mischa and does the same, getting the crying baby boy to settle. 

“That doesn’t explain why they’re fine with you,” Will hisses. “I just did the same thing you did for the last hour, but the second you come home they’re fine.”

“I spent a bit more time with them than you did when you and Beverly were away on cases,” Hannibal shrugs. 

A dog pushes open the door to the bedroom then, and runs to Will. 

“Hey, not on the bed, Winston,” Will reprimands before the dog can even get close. 

“It’s alright, darling,” Hannibal tells him. “Just not all of them.”

Will beams at him, then pants the bed beside him, telling Winston he can get into bed. 

“Do you have an alternative entrance to your basement?” Will asks. 

Hannibal gets into bed beside Will and rests his head on his shoulder. He splays a hand across Will’s belly and kisses his collarbone.

“I do. It’s behind some shelving in the garage.” 

“And Beverly found the one in your pantry,” Will says. 

Hannibal nods. 

“I’m going to replace the flooring in the pantry tomorrow or later tonight and seal the trap door,” Will murmurs. “If Beverly found it, then Jack will, too. Is the basement on the blueprints of this house?”

“Of course not,” Hannibal says. 

“Good. If they get a warrant, we need to make sure they don’t find anything. Buy new cutting boards and knives, and get rid of everything that has ever been touched by human remains,” Will says. “Do the same for my house, too. If they don’t find anything here, they might look there. You said Jack was already looking around?”

“Yes, but he didn’t make it inside,” Hannibal answers. “He tried to get something from me, but I was able to get him to leave without asking anything I knew he wanted to ask. It’s only a matter of time, I’m afraid.”

“I know,” Will sighs. He places a hand on Hannibal’s head, playing with his hair. “When are you displaying Miriam?”

Hannibal takes a second too long to answer, and Will sighs again. 

“You already did, didn’t you? I knew you were taking a while,” he says. “When will she be found?”

“Hopefully not until after we get some rest,” Hannibal answers. 

“What did Jack have to say?” Will asks with a yawn. 

Hannibal tells him about their conversation, tells him he hopes they won’t be called out to a scene so soon. Will yawns a few more times, then tugs on Hannibal’s hair to pull him up for a kiss. 

Either Will is too tired to be mad at him, or he’s slowly coming back around. Either way, Hannibal is content to fall asleep curled around his husband. 


Will wakes up to a phone ringing on the nightstand. He silences the call before it can wake up anyone else—the babies, the dogs, and Hannibal all finally getting some quality sleep. Of course Will can’t be so lucky. 

He manages to answer the phone with a raspy, “Hello?”

“Will, where are you?” Jack asks. 

“At Hannibal’s house,” Will answers. Hannibal blinks awake and reaches out to wrap an arm around Will’s waist. 

“Where is Hannibal?” 

“In bed with me,” Will answers. “What do you need, Jack?” 

“We’ve got a Ripper kill.” 

Will groans and flops back down on the bed. 

“Do you need me?” Will asks. 

“If you could, yes,” Jack answers. “Hannibal, too.”

“We’re not bringing the babies to a crime scene,” Will sighs. “Someone has to stay home with them. Text me the location.”

Will hangs up and tosses his phone onto the nightstand. 

“I have to go,” he murmurs. 

“I know,” Hannibal says. 

“I’ll be back as soon as I can.”

“I know,” Hannibal says again.

“I love you.”

“I love you, too, darling. Now go see what I have made of your kill,” Hannibal smiles. “I wish I could see your reaction, but I suppose I’ll have to wait until you come home and can repeat it to me.” 

Will leaves Hannibal with a kiss before he gets up to get dressed. By the time he’s done in the bathroom, Hannibal is asleep again, one hand resting on Winston’s stomach, his face buried in Will’s pillow. He thinks about calling Jack back and telling him he can’t come. He thinks about crawling back into bed with Hannibal, and being close to him for as long as he can.

With a sigh, he picks up his phone again and leaves. 

He follows the directions Jack sent him and finds the location easily. He follows an officer from the parking lot down a hiking trail, deep into the woods. 

What he sees when he gets there takes his breath away momentarily. He has to tear his eyes away from the display when Jack comes up to him. Will glances to the side and sees Alana about ten feet from the display. Beside her, is Frederick Chilton. He looks almost giddy to be at a Ripper scene. 

Maybe it won’t be so hard to frame him, after all, Will thinks.

“The victim is Miriam Lass,” Jack tells him.

“What?” Will asks. “Why now?”

“I’m hoping you can answer that for me,” Jack says. 

“Let me take a look,” Will says. 

Jack calls for everyone to clear the scene.

Will finally allows himself to get a good look at the display Hannibal left. 

Fishing line strung between two trees resembles a spider web, intricately knotted and delicately placed. Miriam Lass is tied in the middle, held up by fishing lines, her arms are held up to the sides by lines connected to branches of the tree—resembling the crucifixion of Christ. Her eyes have been removed—she saw too much. Her body is bare, and the incisions on her abdomen have been stitched neatly, but not as neatly as Hannibal is capable of. He either didn’t have time, or wanted to show that the Chesapeake Ripper is getting sloppier. Will knows the Chesapeake Ripper is in no way sloppy. 

“Well?” Jack asks. 

“I’m still not clear why it was her now, ” Will says. “This message is pretty clear, though.”

“Tell me.”

“Well, Miriam Lass made a connection to the Ripper,” Will says. “She’s posed in the formation of a cross, which means the Ripper sees her actions as something that crucified her. She died for what he perceived as her sins, and likely ours, too. This is saying that anyone that attempts to put him away is going against a god.”

“And why is she in a spider web made of deep sea fishing line?” Jack asks. 

“Spiders trap their prey in webs. Some go hunt on foot. There’s duality in the symbolism of spiders, wouldn’t you say? They’re artists in their own rights, they’re important to the environment, they’re smart creatures, but we have an evolutionary response to being scared of them,” Will says. “The Ripper probably relates to that. He wants to leave a legacy of fear, but he sees what he does as art. The fishing line is also symbolic of the fact that, while the Ripper is capable of hunting and capturing his prey, just as a fisherman is capable, Miriam Lass was lured into the trap. Not hunted down.”

Jack nods. “You’re a fisherman.”

“I fish, yes,” Will answers. “I lure fish to my line, Jack. Not people.”

“You don’t think you could lure the Chesapeake Ripper?” Jack asks. 

“How would I do that?”

“Two FBI agents have turned up this week, dead by his hand. I wonder how he wants to finish this sounder,” Jack says. 

“Even if I were to lure him by pretending to be prey, or whatever you’re thinking, he would never fall for that,” Will says, shaking his head. “I wouldn’t know where to find him to start with.”

“Will,” Jack says. “You surely can’t be so blind to the fact that Hannibal Lecter fits the profile.”

Will scoffs. “That’s Hannibal Graham- Lecter in case you’ve forgotten. And I haven’t left his side in days.”

“That’s not true,” Jack presses. “I saw him at your house today.”

“When he was picking up the dogs?” Will asks. “Yeah, he told me.”

“What time did he leave to pick up the dogs?”

“Around one, probably?” Will guesses. “You can ask Alana, she was over until about twelve-fifteen, if I had to guess. We got the babies settled in for a nap, and then we took a shower together. He left not long after that. I texted him an hour later, he texted back. He was home an hour later.”

The shower part is a lie, and Hannibal left probably twenty minutes before one. That still wouldn’t have given him enough time to do all this unless most of it was already put together and he sped the rest of the way to Will’s house. Will is sure that is exactly what he did, but Hannibal has no record of traffic violations—Will has checked himself—so it wouldn’t hold up if anyone accused him of that. 

“And you truly think there’s no way?” Jack presses. 

“I’ve been with him, Jack! He came to several Ripper scenes with me because he was at my house the night before,” Will seethes. “You’re accusing my husband of being a notorious serial killer, for god's sake! Just because he used to be a surgeon and because he, what? Enjoys the arts? Is that it? Well, in that case, why don’t you go fucking talk to Chilton or half the staff at John’s Hopkins. Hell, even Jimmy Price knows his way around a museum and a scalpel.”

Will sees Chilton’s head turn at the mention of his name, and he throws the doctor a glare. 

“Hannibal told me he didn’t sleep last night. Did you? You don’t think it’s possible he works while you’re asleep?” Jack asks. 

“If you really need to know what we were doing last night, you can test the stains on our bed,” Will mutters. “I’m going home. Call me if you get something substantial enough to arrest Hannibal with, and then maybe I’ll entertain your accusations.”

Will turns to leave the scene, but stops short. He turns and faces Jack again. He says, tears in his eyes, “Beverly would be disappointed in you.” 

Jack is rendered speechless, his mouth opening and closing again. 

Will turns on his heel and stomps away from the scene, wiping tears away from his cheeks as he goes. 

He figures there’s still quite a bit of time before anyone else can leave the scene, so if Jack wants to question Hannibal, or snoop around his home, Will has time to sort a few things out. 

He calls Hannibal first. 

“Hey, baby, I’m on my way back,” Will says when the phone is picked up. “I need you to start clearing out your kitchen now. Tell me what to buy to replace enough to make it not seem too empty, and I’ll go do that now.”

“Well, fortunately, you destroyed most of my plates last night, so that much is taken care of,” Hannibal answers. “I have brand new cutting boards, silverware and dishes packed away. Pick up wine glasses, and regular glasses, if you would. Do you have cash?”

“I’ll get some from my house,” Will answers. “What do I need to get rid of in my own house?”

“Cutting boards, pans, plates, and silverware. Dispose of it, and begin putting other belongings in boxes,” Hannibal says. “We will tell anyone that you are in the process of moving into my house.”

“I thought we were living at mine?” Will asks. 

“I was waiting to discuss the idea that we move into a new home altogether, actually,” Hannibal says, quietly. “We can talk about it later, darling.”

“Right, okay. I’ll do a bit,” Will agrees. “I’m replacing the flooring in your pantry. Give me specifics.”

Hannibal tells him the color of the wood, and a close match that he looks up on his tablet while they’re on the phone. He memorizes it instead of having Hannibal text a link, not wanting to risk someone getting a hold of their messages. Will is already unlocking his front door by the time they hang up. 

He packs up his entire kitchen as promised, along with putting most of his clothes into suitcases. He packs up his fishing lures, and the rest of the dog toys, putting them all in bins and baskets. He pulls the sheets off the beds, packs up his nightstand drawers, and folds up his blankets. He gets all of the essentials from his bathroom, and makes sure it looks like they’ve been packing up in their free time. 

With a garbage bag full of meat and kitchen utensils in his trunk, his essentials in his backseat, and a stack of cash in his pocket, he gets to a Home Depot to buy everything he needs to replace flooring. He finishes there, and is able to buy a set of cheap wine glasses to replace Hannibal’s expensive ones. 

He knows he likely destroyed hundreds, if not thousands, of dollars worth of kitchenware last night, but Hannibal didn’t say a single word about it besides the jest over the phone. 

By the time he gets home to Hannibal’s house, Hannibal has already removed the trap door from the pantry floor. He’s standing a few steps from the top, hammering wooden planks into the ceiling. 

“We can’t have it seem too hollow under the new floor boards,” Hannibal explains. 

“Yeah,” Will breathes. He didn’t even think of that. 

Hannibal comes up the rest of the stairs, squeezing himself through the space still left over. He sets the hammer and nails down and kisses Will on the forehead once he’s safely on solid ground. 

“Come,” Hannibal says. 

He walks out of the kitchen and toward the garage. In the garage, he pulls back a unit of temperature controlled shelving that houses his wine. Behind the wine fridge is a paneled wall. Will doesn’t quite understand what he’s supposed to be looking for. 

Hannibal pulls his wallet from his pocket and pulls a card out of a slot. He takes the card to the garage door opener next to the door into the house. He holds the card up and the wall in front of Will makes a clicking sound. 

“This is very high tech,” Will mumbles. “There’s no record of that, right?”

“Of course not,” Hannibal says. 

He crosses the garage and crouches down to presse in on the wall. A small door that only comes up to Will’s waist swings inward. 

“No one else will be able to push this door forward unless they have my magnetic key card, and know the censor is in the garage door button,” Hannibal explains. “All the wiring was done by a person who is no longer living, nor was he ever connected to me in any way.” 

Will nods and watches as Hannibal crawls in, immediately descending as soon as his body is through the hole in the wall. 

“Watch your step,” Hannibal warns. 

A light turns on so Will can see where he’s going. He takes a few steps down, then stops. 

“Wait,” Will says. “Mischa and Lucy?”

“Sleeping. I have the monitor in my pocket,” Hannibal assures him. “You brought everything from your house that I told you to, correct?”

“Yeah,” Will says. “And all the meat in my fridge.”

“That is all animal meat,” Hannibal smiles. “But, very well. As you can see if you just continue down the steps, there will be another door at the bottom which leads into the basement.”

Hannibal pulls a key from his pocket and hands it to Will. “Go get everything from your car and bring it down here. I will finish with the boarding in the pantry, and then I will make us dinner while you do the flooring.”

Will nods, turning to go back up the stairs with Hannibal in toe. The wall panel stays open while he carries everything in, and it’s a bit awkward crawling through with a bag of kitchenware, but he makes do. If Hannibal can get through this entrance with a body, then Will can do it with this. 

Hannibal meets him downstairs, the boards covering the open space above the stairs now, and they ascend back into the garage together. 

The new wine glasses find their places in cabinets, and Hannibal doesn’t make a single comment about them being cheap. Hannibal has already brought in all new cutting boards, pans, and knives. He already replaced all human meat in the fridge with animal meat. 

Will gets to work tearing out the old flooring in the pantry and putting new boards in, covering the space that was once the trap door. 

The work takes them all evening, and by the time they finish eating dinner, they’re both ready for bed. Will is relieved that Jack didn’t come knocking before they could finish everything, and now it’s late enough that it’s unlikely he will show up any time soon. 

“I yelled at Jack,” Will says as they crawl into bed together. “I said some things I maybe should not have said. Nothing incriminating, just… something I feel bad about. Never mind.” 

“You can tell me,” Hannibal whispers. He rolls on his side to face Will, so Will does the same, facing Hannibal. Hannibal reaches out and cups his cheek, swiping his thumb back and forth across Will’s cheekbone. 

“He just kept pushing. He keeps trying to get me to admit something, or he wants me to lead an investigation against you, but I won’t and I was about to just leave, but,” Will stops and takes a shaky breath. “I told him Beverly would have been disappointed in him.”

“And you feel bad about using your friend in that way,” Hannibal murmurs. 

It’s weird. Will’s so mad at Hannibal for what he did. He hates him for it. But he is risking everything to make sure Hannibal gets out of this safely. He moves closer and pushes Hannibal back onto his back so he can wrap himself around his body. He holds Hannibal’s waist tight and rests his head on his chest. 

“I guess, yeah. I mean… He’s right, and Beverly found you,” Will says. “If I pull the card that she trusted us to be her first choice of guardian for the kids, then… I mean I’m sure as soon as she found out she would’ve rescinded that if she could. So it’s just… I'm using both her and Mischa and Lucy to say Jack should be ashamed of questioning her judgement, basically. It just feels wrong. I don’t know. That’s why I said never mind. It’s hard to explain.” 

“It may feel like a betrayal now, but it will save us both for a bit longer. Just as your idea to cover the floor in the pantry, and get rid of any evidence from my kitchen,” Hannibal whispers. “Anything that happens next, whether they get a warrant to search my home, or if we get to Chilton in time, we will be safe.”

Safe. They’ll be safe, no matter how many other lives are destroyed in the process. Will thinks there may be more than a few. But he knows they aren’t out of the woods yet, not by a long shot. Even if they can fall asleep together tonight, Will has no idea what could come tomorrow. He doesn’t know the plan from here on out, and he’s riddled with uncertainty and anxiety. 

Hannibal sleeps beside him while he thinks about a life without him. The thoughts are so cold and lonely and Will begins to cry, curled up on his own side of the bed, away from Hannibal. Away from the reminder of everything going wrong in his life. 

The bed shifts beside him, and an arm wraps around his waist, Hannibal’s soft breathing against the back of his neck tells Will that Hannibal is still asleep. He cries harder at that, realizing even in sleep, Hannibal sensed his distress, or just coincidentally subconsciously decided he wanted to be close again. Either way, it’s what Will needed. 

Noise comes from the baby monitor, and Hannibal shifts behind him again. It turns into downright wailing coming from the other room, and Hannibal sits up with a groan.

“I can do it,” Will says, sitting up. “Go back to sleep, baby.”

“They will cry all night,” Hannibal mumbles. Still, he falls back onto the mattress, and Will goes down the hall to check on them.

Lucy is the one crying, so he takes her from the room before she can wake up her brother. He takes her downstairs to the kitchen, and sits in the armchair in the corner while he feeds her a bottle. He hears Hannibal coming down the hall, and turns his head to watch as he walks in through the doorway, carrying Mischa in his arms. 

He leans down and kisses Will’s head before going to make another bottle. It feels like pure domestic bliss. A family he never thought he would ever have. 

Hannibal gazes out the kitchen window into the backyard, then he turns to Will again, a concerned look on his face. He steps out of the line of the window, and gestures for Will to come to him. 

“What is it?” Will asks. 

“There’s someone in the yard.”

Chapter 36

Notes:

I've spent a long time on this chapter, going back and forth, even going as far as reworking the entire plan and rewriting what I originally had. I'm terribly nervous about it since it's the last chapter before the epilogue! I hope it lives up to expectations, but I'm very scared about how it will be received because this fic has a good number of people invested and I would hate to disappoint. Let me know what you think.

Epilogue will be up ASAP

Chapter Text

“What do you mean?” Will asks. “It’s one in the morning.”

Will tries to look out the window, but Hannibal yanks him back with his free hand, cradling the baby in his other arm. If Will weren’t still holding Lucy, he would rip himself from Hannibal’s grip and walk right outside to see who the fuck is out there, but as it is, his hands are tied. 

“It may be the FBI,” Hannibal whispers. 

“Okay?” Will asks. “That doesn’t mean I can’t look out there.”

“It could be a killer, Will,” Hannibal says. “Go back upstairs.”

Will looks at him with a glare, then turns and leaves with Lucy in his arms. She sleeps soundly now, and all he has to do is set her back in her crib. 

He goes straight back downstairs to find Hannibal in the kitchen with all the lights off, looking out into the backyard. 

Will goes to the back door and slides it open, yelling outside into the night, “Did Jack Crawford send you to spy on us? Huh?” 

“Will,” Hannibal hisses. 

“Fuck off, Hannibal,” Will growls. He addresses the shape moving toward him in the dark, “Who are you?”

The dogs have woken up by now and several run out into the yard after him, going straight to the person standing by the shed. He expects them to bark, or growl, but instead Buster lets out an excited yip, and all the dogs wiggle in front of the person. He hears a girl giggle and sees her bend down to pet all of them. She stands and moves into the light coming out through the dining room, and then Will sees who it is. 

“Abigail?” Will whispers. 

He’s pulled into a hug. and he’s instantly aware that she is covered in blood. He doesn’t know whose blood it is, but he knows he needs to get her inside just in case Jack Crawford did send someone to spy on them. 

Hannibal is standing in the doorway, Mischa still in his arms. Will watches him look Abigail up and down the second she’s inside. Will has a chance to get a good look now, too. 

Her clothes are soaked with blood, but since they’re dark, it’s not too noticeable. There’s scratches and bruises around her throat, and on her face. 

“Abigail, tell me what happened,” Hannibal says firmly. 

“How long were you going to let me think I had genuinely been kidnapped?” Abigail asks, ignoring Hannibal’s request. 

“Until it was safe for me to come see you,” Hannibal answers. “Follow me.”

He turns and walks out of the dining room and toward the stairs. He doesn’t speak another word as he settles Mischa back into his crib, and out of the babies’ bedroom again. 

“Whose blood is that?” Hannibal asks. He briskly walks off toward his bedroom, and Will and Abigail have to nearly jog to keep up. 

“Freddie Lounds,” Abigail says. 

“Is she dead?” Hannibal asks. 

“Yes,” Abigail answers. 

“Good.”

Hannibal continues through the bedroom and into the bathroom. He closes the toilet seat and gestures for Abigail to sit down. 

“All of your clothes were packed away and sent off, but I believe Will can find something from his wardrobe that will fit you,” Hannibal says.

He pulls a first aid kit from below the sink and sets it on the counter. Will stands in the bathroom doorway, watching as Hannibal tends to the wounds on Abigail’s face, and throat. She removes her stained jacket to show more scratches on her arms. Hannibal tends to those, as well. 

He turns and looks at Will expectantly, and Will just stares back at him. 

He’s pissed. Pissed that in just the few words Abigail has spoken, he has found out that she thought she was genuinely kidnapped. Pissed that she had to kill someone. Pissed that she came here covered in blood and Hannibal didn’t even save any of her own clothes for her to change into. 

“Will,” Hannibal says. “A change of clothes for Abigail, if you would.”

Will huffs out a breath of air, his irritation high, then turns and goes to his drawers. He finds a sweater for her, and a pair of sweatpants that she’ll have to tighten with the drawstring, but it’s better than being covered in blood. 

“Where is the body?” Hannibal asks her as Will walks back into the bathroom with the change of clothes. 

“Still at the house,” Abigail murmurs. 

“How did you get here?” Will asks.

“I stole her car,” Abigail whispers, looking down at the change of clothes in her lap now. “I parked it a mile away and walked.” 

“Your prints and her blood would be all over it,” Will points out. “If the FBI finds that car, they’ll know this is the first place you went to.” 

“Then they won’t find it,” Hannibal says. “Darling, I need you to dispose of the car while I finish tending to Abigail and find a safe place for her.”

“Yeah, fine,” Will mutters. 

“I saw you guys in the kitchen,” Abigail says. “Do you have Mischa and Lucy for the night? Is Bev out of town?”

Will pauses. He hadn’t realized Abigail would have no idea that Beverly is dead now. She has no idea because Hannibal had her locked away from the entire world. Abigail was close to the woman and never got a chance to say goodbye. 

“Beverly’s dead,” Will whispers. “The Chesapeake Ripper killed her.”

Abigail looks up at him, tears already forming in her eyes. She looks between Will and Hannibal, looking at Hannibal with the most hurt expression he has ever seen on another person. It’s then that Will realizes Abigail has also figured it out. 

Neither one of them has any more words about it, and Hannibal doesn’t offer anything himself. He just continues cleaning Abigail’s wounds as tears fall down her face. 

Will takes the keys and directions to Freddie’s car from Abigail and dons one of Hannibal’s plastic suits, leaving her to process the information. 


“You have been reckless, Abigail,” Hannibal comments after Will leaves. He packs up his first aid kit and gathers the bloody materials and garbage from the counter. He stands, grabs a towel from the cupboard in the bathroom, and hands it to Abigail. “You understand, I can’t have you shower here. There’s a possibility Jack Crawford will get a search warrant for my house. Even more likely if the car is found before Will can get to it. I’ll show you to the basement.”

Hannibal notices her hesitation before following him. 

“You may ask your questions,” Hannibal says as they walk down the stairs toward the garage. 

“Why couldn’t we go through the original plan?” Abigail asks first. “Why did I need to think I was actually being kidnapped?”

“It needed to be authentic. I couldn’t yet tell Will where you were because you were part of a bigger plan that he could not know about,” Hannibal explains. “After you shower, I will tell you the revised plan, and I expect your utmost cooperation.”

“Why did you kill Beverly?” Abigail asks. 

Clever girl, Hannibal thinks. 

“She found me out,” Hannibal answers. “I had no choice.”

Abigail nods and follows him down to the basement. He shows her to the shower in the corner of the room, and lets her know he’ll be upstairs in the kitchen. He starts to put together sandwiches for all three of them, whether Abigail and Will are hungry, or not. 

Will comes in through the backdoor before Abigail comes up from her shower, and looks at him with sneer on his face. 

“Where is she?” Will asks. 

“Downstairs in the shower. You got the car somewhere?” 

“Yes. I left at a train station. They’ll think she skipped town,” Will answers. “How could you put her in a situation where she would have to kill Freddie Lounds?” 

“I was actually saving Freddie Lounds for you,” Hannibal shrugs. “Abigail has not yet told me what happened, but I am assuming Freddie broke our agreement.”

Agreement?” Will yells. “What agreement did you have with Freddie fucking Lounds?”

“I paid her a large sum of money to kidnap Abigail from this house and move her to one of my safe houses,” Hannibal tells him. 

“And what? She just did it?” Will scoffs. “Right. How could you trust her not to turn you in?”

“Oh you see, darling,” Hannibal smiles. “She thought that the request was coming from a Doctor Frederick Chilton. He does not practice very strong cyber security. I was able to get into his office at the Baltimore State Hospital for the Criminally Insane quite a long time ago to gain access to his online calendars. I also gained access to all of his email accounts, and can even control his computer remotely if I wished to.”

“So you sent the email from his account?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods, and says, “I promised her interviews with all inmates she could ever want to interview, and sent her ten thousand dollars from one of my hidden accounts to stay quiet. She, of course, agreed. She wrote an article with a secret message for Chilton after that. The first paragraph started with the first word, the second with the second, and so on and so forth until there was a message stating Abigail made it to the house safely.”

“Did you tell her she could post that photo of us making out?” Will asks.

“Yes, but I had done that as myself a few days previously, telling her nearly everyone already knew, and that by Valentine’s day the entirety of our acquaintances would know.”

“Yeah, but—”

Hannibal shakes his head and holds up a hand to stop Will. “No, you’re correct. We wouldn’t have known the FBI would come to your house to see us fucking on the floor, but I had implied to Miss Lounds that I was going to send you flowers at Quantico. The story is that I, as they say, chickened out in the end.”

“So why is Freddie Lounds dead now? And why were you saving her for me?” Will asks. He points to a sandwich on the counter. “Is one of those mine?”

Hannibal nods and pushes it to him, as he explains. “I was going to tell you soon enough that Miss Lounds was the person to kidnap Abigail. I had a feeling you would insist she needs to be disposed of, and I was going to hand you the blade. When Abigail comes up, we can ask for her side of the story, but I’m assuming Freddie went to the Baltimore State Hospital for the Criminally Insane to get an interview, and Frederick didn’t have any idea what she was talking about.”

“So she went back to where she took Abigail to find some clues,” Will concludes. “Abigail must not have known who it was, or why. She probably just… stabbed before getting a look at her.”

Hannibal nods, agreeing. He knows that’s probably exactly what happened. 

“We have to go through with another plan,” Hannibal tells him. “We will discuss it when Abigail comes back up, and we will have to get started on it as soon as possible.”


Will doesn’t like the plan that is laid out in front of him, but he knows it’s the only option they have to ensure all of their safety. 

This is how he finds himself inside Frederick Chilton’s home, putting a syringe of a sedative into the already sleeping man’s neck. He will be dealt with later. 

Will wears one of Hannibal’s plastic suits as he fills the house up with different equipment from Hannibal’s basement, and from the contents of his fridge. It’s prudent that Chilton dies before he can find any of this stuff, but important that it is during hours Will could justify being at his house. 

He could call Jack in a day or two and ask if he can go to his house for an interview. From there, he’ll just have to see what Jack says and adjust the plan from there. 

When he’s finished, he starts the hour drive to an address Hannibal gave him, taking Chilton’s car, in case any neighbors are awake and could confirm he left his house this night, and came back in the early hours of morning. And if no one is awake, seeing Chilton’s car leave the garage, then a traffic camera may see him instead. It’s why Will has sunglasses on, and a hood covering his hair. Hannibal assured him they’re of similar sizes and it would look like a disguised Frederick Chilton should he come up on footage.

He knows the address is for the house where Abigail has been a prisoner for the last month, not knowing who put her there or why. Not knowing if she was safe, or if her captor would come back to kill her. He could kill Hannibal for that alone, but he pushes the thought from his mind, knowing he needs a clear head for the rest of this to work out. 

It is after three in the morning when he gets there, and he is exhausted. Having not slept the night before, and only getting a few hours of sleep before being woken up by crying babies, he doesn’t know how much is left in him. 

Hannibal greets him at the door with a kiss, and pulls him in for a hug, tight and warm. Will deflates against him, and wraps his arms just as tight around his husband. 

Abigail is sitting on the counter, waving toys in front of the babies while a needle is in her other arm, collecting blood in a bag next to her. Will sees blood every day, but he can’t help feeling queasy seeing the amount of blood coming from such a small girl. And knowing what comes next… Will doesn’t know how she will survive. 

“That’s enough,” Hannibal says, and begins unhooking her from the blood bag. “Will, I would like to show you what became of Miss Lounds.”

Will follows Hannibal out onto the patio overlooking a cliff edge. He notices the body displayed in the middle immediately. It’s charred beyond recognition, sitting at a table with a laptop and camera in front of her. He knows it’s Freddie. 

“I had to burn her to hide the fact that she was killed by a standard steak knife,” Hannibal explains. “The cut was very jagged, and I did what I could to make it more precise, but this made more sense to me.”

“Freddie burned enough people in her career to suffer the same fate,” Will comments. “I think that it’s messy compared to your usual work. I think Miriam was a bit messy too, actually. Not as precise, not as much time spent on them. This works.”

“I wish I could hear your interpretation in front of Jack, but—”

“Yeah I know. I don’t want to think about that yet,” Will murmurs. 

He wanders off toward the cliff edge and looks down into the ocean below. He looks back at the house and sees Hannibal inside speaking with Abigail, handing her a plastic bag with several papers in it. She nods, clearly listening intently. Will is going to miss her. 

He looks over the edge of the cliff again, and the sea, luckily, is not violent tonight. 

It gives him some comfort. 

He turns away from the cliff edge and wanders back into the house, past the display of Freddie Lounds, taking in the spacious, open room. He tries not to think of anything that comes next. 

“Will, darling, would you mind taking Mischa and Lucy out to the car, and waiting there for me?”

Will nods. As much as he wants to be here for Abigail, he knows the arterial spray can’t be obstructed by another body, and they won’t risk the babies getting covered in blood. He picks up both carriers and takes them out to Hannibal’s Bentley, and gets into the passenger seat. 

 

Hannibal holds Abigail in front of him while she presses the button, spraying her blood across the kitchen of his beloved safe house. They won’t be able to come here should the need arise, which is quite unfortunate, but with Freddie Lounds’ blood already staining the carpet in the hall, they might as well make good use of the situation. 

“You know where you’re supposed to go, yes?” Hannibal asks. 

Abigail nods. “You’re sure I can survive that drop?”

“Of course,” Hannibal says. “Now, are you ready?”

“Yes.”

She drops to the ground and Hannibal grabs her by her ponytail, and drags her. 

“Ow, fuck,” Abigail groans. Hannibal ignores the foul language because he knows it’s justified. “Can’t you drag me by my arm instead?”

Hannibal sighs, then grabs her hand instead, though he has to admit he’s worried about dislocating her shoulder. If she can’t use both arms, then swimming to safety would be near impossible. It would be easier to just kill her now. But Will would never forgive him for that, and would surely leave him if he did. 

“So why can’t I just walk down the path?” Abigail asks. 

“They’ll find your footprints and know it wasn't real, dear,” Hannibal says, continuing to drag her toward the cliff edge, leaving a trail of blood smeared through the rocks and dirt. 

“They’re going to see my footprints at the bottom when I get out of the water.”

“And they will think you got to the road and hitchhiked, but you will be turning down through the woods like I showed you and to the car I brought you to on the drive here. You have your laminated map, yes?”

“Yes,” Abigail mutters. 

They’re at the cliff edge now and Hannibal just has to haul her over and send her flying toward the water, but as he looks down at her, and sees she’s not trembling or afraid, he finds himself smiling. He pulls her up off the ground and into a hug, cradling the back of her head in one hand. 

“We will reunite one day,” he assures her. “I wish I could have prevented this outcome.”

“I’ve been living on borrowed time since the day I was born,” Abigail whispers. “At least now I’ll have a shot.”

“Please do try to go into the water feet first,” Hannibal says as he pushes Abigail off the edge. 

He watches her go down, not even a scream coming from her as she descends toward the water. The moon shines bright, and he sees her body hit the surface just as he hears the splash. Long seconds go by and Hannibal holds his breath until he hears a loud gasp from down below as Abigail pulls in her first breath of air. 

With that, he turns and walks back through the house and to his car. 

He taps on the passenger seat window and Will sits up straight, opening his eyes. 

Hannibal walks to his trunk and rummages through the gas station bag back there, pulling out one of the energy drinks Will likes. On the way, he and Abigail stopped at the car she’s to be taking once she swims to shore, and stocked it with enough snacks for her to not have to stop anywhere except to get gas. Just as long as she is able to find the car, she will be just fine. The FBI will see her blood at the top of the cliff and assume she died in the water, somewhere in the woods if they find her footprints. He isn’t too worried about them finding her footprints. 

Will has already gotten out of the car and is making his way to Hannibal by the time the trunk is closed. He gratefully takes the drink from Hannibal and drinks half of it in one go. 

“Thanks,” Will murmurs. 

“I would offer to let you sleep here for a few hours, but we really do need to get Frederick’s car back, and to be home by no later than seven,” Hannibal says. He rubs Will’s back with one hand, and Will leans heavily into the side of his body. 

“Abigail’s poor boyfriend,” Will murmurs. “I was thinking about him just now. He thinks she’s been kidnapped, and soon he’ll think she’s dead.”

Will lets out a sigh, and Hannibal smirks.

“She told me on the way here she was trying to figure out how to break up with him,” Hannibal whispers. “This saved her the trouble.”

Will laughs, an exhausted one, but a laugh nonetheless. 

“We should probably pay him a visit after the news breaks. Maybe bring him some baked goods,” Will suggests. “Did she say why she wanted to break up with him?”

“It’s not my secret to tell,” Hannibal says quietly. 

“I see,” Will says. 

Hannibal kisses the top of his head, then steps away. 

“We should be off,” Hannibal tells him. 

Will nods, and drinks the rest of his drink, handing the empty can to Hannibal. 

By the time they’re both home, the sun is up, and Will is dead on his feet walking through the house. Hannibal puts both babies to bed, then goes back downstairs to find Will slumped in the armchair in the kitchen, head lolled to the side. 

He doesn’t even try waking Will before he scoops him up and carries him up to bed. 

“Thanks,” Will whispers on the stairs.  

It’s truly the least he can do given everything that has happened, and is about to happen moving forward. 

He undresses Will after he sets him into bed, then undresses himself, bringing both sets of their clothes to the basement to be incinerated later. He cleans the bathroom thoroughly next, wiping down everything Abigail touched, and everywhere she could have gotten traces of blood. 

When he does finally get into bed, his entire body aches with exhaustion. Will moves closer, and wraps an arm around his waist, head on Hannibal’s shoulder. They fall asleep like that, waking up several times throughout the morning to take care of the dogs and the babies. 


Around noon, they wake up again, both of their stomachs grumbling, but neither one wants to leave the safety of their bed. Will knows what is to come, and he wants to spend as much time in this bubble he has built around himself. He tries not to think about whether Abigail made it to safety, and he tries not to think about how Hannibal killed his best friend only days ago. He just wants to be here, now, for as long as possible. 

It’s impossible to forget the feelings of impending doom, though. 

“I’m a bit freaked out by all of this,” Will murmurs, nuzzling Hannibal’s chest. 

“We should return to Wolf Trap when we get up,” Hannibal continues. “You’ll feel better there.”

“Okay,” Will whispers. “Abigail?”

“I have not heard from her just yet,” Hannibal tells him. “She won’t be able to safely get to a phone for some time.”

Will yawns and nods against Hannibal’s chest. 

He decides to sleep for a little bit longer, having nowhere to be for now. 

Will hears a phone ring hours later, pulling him out of his sleep, and Hannibal speaking in hushed tones, and when he hangs up, he presses a kiss to Will’s temple. 

“Abigail made it to Canada. She will be getting on a flight to Lithuania tomorrow,” Hannibal tells him. “She’s safe.”

Will sits up and kisses Hannibal softly. The honesty of this plan, and the assurance that Abigail is safe, have Will slowly trusting Hannibal again. 

“I love you,” Will whispers. He kisses Hannibal’s lips again, then his cheeks and his forehead, kissing frantically all over his face as Hannibal lets out a rumble of laughter. 

He wraps his arms around Will’s waist and rolls them over, pinning Will to the bed, and smiling down at him. Will laughs and lifts his head for another kiss. 

“Is this all going to work?” Will asks. 

Hannibal hums in thought, then kisses Will again. He whispers, “I sure hope so. You’re too pretty for prison.”

Will scoffs and pushes Hannibal off of him. Hannibal looks at him, hurt in his eyes, but Will shakes his head and throws himself on top of Hannibal again, cupping his cheeks with both hands. 

“You’re the one that’s too pretty for prison,” Will whispers. “I’m prickly enough that people won’t come near me, but you? You’re a magnet for weirdos, babe. Everyone in prison would want a piece of the Chesapeake Ripper.”

Hannibal hums and then smiles, showing his teeth. He turns his face and nips at Will’s thumb. “I’d plead insanity and be put in the Baltimore State Hospital.”

“Really?” Will laughs. “And you’d leave me alone in some prison to fend for myself? Because god knows they won’t find me insane.”

“They may,” Hannibal whispers. “Perhaps they would allow us to share a cell. It would be the only way I’d behave.”

“Oh, sure,” Will says sarcastically. “You’re going to bite orderlies until they put me in your cell, so then you can bite me instead.”

“Of course not. They would surely put an anti-bite mask on me before handling me,” Hannibal whispers. “It’s fortunate we are not going to be imprisoned, either way. We will finish this.”

“Can we go to Wolf Trap?” Will asks, changing the subject. 

“Of course,” Hannibal says, understanding that Will doesn’t want to entertain this conversation any longer. 

The mere thought of them being separated in prison is enough to make Will’s throat tight, and tears to prickle in his eyes. After everything they’ve gone through—after everything Will has done and hidden—there is no way he will allow their relationship to come to such a sad ending. He’ll kill everyone and run with Hannibal and the babies if he has to. He just doesn’t want it to come to that if he can prevent it. Which means he has to be on top of his game as they move forward these next few days.

“When this all dies down,” Hannibal starts. “I would like to renew our vows. In Italy if you’d be inclined.”

“Where?” Will asks. 

“The Norman Chapel in Palermo,” Hannibal says. “We may spend our honeymoon in Italy. I would quite like to show you Florence, Will.”

“Then show me Florence,” Will whispers. “When this is all over.”

Hannibal smiles and kisses him once more before they both get out of bed and start packing up for Wolf Trap. 

They drive separately, Will with all the dogs in his car, and Hannibal with Mischa, Lucy, and Beatrice. They arrive at the same time, and the dogs are happy to have the space of the fields again. Will lets them stay outside as long as they want to, and he and Hannibal take the babies and Beatrice inside to start on dinner. 

Having slept through the entire day, Will knows he won’t sleep much at all tonight, and he’ll spend most of the night worrying about what comes next, but he tries not to let that fact known to Hannibal. 

His worst nightmares may be just days from coming true, but he tells himself to stop thinking about that. 

Will is reluctant to go back to teaching on Monday, but knows he has to. He knows he needs to keep up all appearances right now, and so does Hannibal. 

As expected, Jack storms into his classroom just as his last class is finishing for the day. 

“We found Freddie Lounds’ car covered in her blood,” Jack says without greeting him. “We also found Abigail Hobbs’ prints on the steering wheel, and her hair on the headrest.”

Will throws his bag over his shoulder, looking at Jack with what he hopes is a dumbstruck expression.

“Where?” Will asks after a minute of staring at Jack. 

“Baltimore Penn Station,” Jack answers. “We’ve brought the car here for analysis. We did not see Abigail Hobbs on any of the cameras inside the station.”

“Could she have been disguised?” Will asks. 

“Or maybe she didn’t leave Baltimore,” Jack offers. 

“Where would she have gone?”

“Well, that’s what I was hoping you could tell me,” Jack says. “Have you seen Abigail Hobbs since she went missing in February, Will?”

“No, I haven’t, Jack,” Will answers. 

“We have a warrant for Hannibal’s house,” Jack says. “She was living there beforehand, and now she is suspected of murder.”

“Her room was picked clean by forensics when she was kidnapped,” Will says, confused. “And you think she killed Freddie Lounds?”

“All signs lead to yes,” Jack says. “Abigail Hobbs helped her father, and killed Nicholas Boyle. She already has a body count. Come with me.”

“But there’s no body? Just a bloody car?” Will asks, following after Jack. 

“You know who else never left bodies?” Jack asks, looking over his shoulder. “We don’t need one. There probably isn’t one if she’s anything like her father.”

Will follows Jack quickly out of the room, and he knows that the warrant has nothing to do with Abigail, or else there would be a warrant for his own house, too. Jack wants to find proof that Hannibal is the Chesapeake Ripper. They walk side by side, and Will knows Jack is going to usher him into the same vehicle as him, so there’s no way he can warn Hannibal without Jack knowing. 

The work they did the other night better be enough. And Hannibal better not be in the basement when they get there. Will knows Hannibal cleaned up the bathroom while he was sleeping, but Will never checked to make sure it was good enough. It better be good enough. 

“Beverly’s funeral is this Friday,” Jack tells him once they’re in the car driving toward Baltimore.. 

Will knows this already. Beverly’s mom texted him this morning. He knows he won’t be attending, but he nods anyway. 

Hannibal is pulling into the driveway just as Jack and Will do, a line of cars following behind. Zeller and Price are directly behind them, and Will catches Jimmy in the rearview mirror offering him an apologetic smile. 

A look of genuine confusion covers Hannibal’s face, and Will knows he has no idea if this is an arrest, or simply a visit by half the FBI. 

Hannibal parks in the driveway instead of the garage and gets out, opening the back door to pull out both baby carriers. 

“We have a warrant to search your house,” Jack says, holding it up. “We have reason to believe Abigail Hobbs murdered Freddie Lounds, and possibly came back here.”

Hannibal just nods, and hands Lucy’s carrier to Will, so he can unlock the front door. 

“The babies need to be changed and fed,” Hannibal says to Will as several agents walk past them on the front step. “It is actually the only reason I was coming home. I was going to do that then go to your house.”

Will nods and follows the last agent into the house. Jack is standing in the foyer, pulling gloves onto his hands. 

“You can just sit tight,” Jack says, pointing to a bench against the wall. 

“We need to change and feed them,” Will says, holding up the baby carrier in his hand. “And we’re going to do that in the nursery and in the kitchen.”

With that, he breezes past Jack and to the stairs. Hannibal follows, with Jack tailing them both. 

Jack stands in the doorway, watching their every move as they change the diapers side by side and redress the both of them. Will kisses Hannibal on the cheek, then moves away with Mischa in his arms. 

They’re watched just as carefully in the kitchen as they get bottles ready. Will sits in the armchair in the kitchen, holding Mischa as he feeds him. Hannibal comes over with Lucy and sits on the chair’s arm. 

Agents are paying special attention to the kitchen, and are removing all the meat from Hannibal’s fridge. Will tilts his head up and looks at Hannibal, offering a small smile. He tilts his head to the side, then glances over to the fridge. 

Hannibal leans down to press a soft kiss to Will’s lips, pretending that’s the reason why Will looked at him. Before he pulls away, he whispers quietly in Will’s ear.

“Everything is in order,” he whispers, pressing another kiss just below Will’s ear. 

Hannibal sits back up straight, and they both finish feeding the babies. 

By the time they’re done in the kitchen, and the bottles are washed and put away, Jack is impatient to get them out of the way. 

Hannibal goes upstairs and comes back down with Lucy in a sling strapped to his chest. 

“You didn’t want to bring me one too?” Will scoffs playfully. 

“I know you prefer holding them. I like having my hands free if necessary,” Hannibal shrugs. 

Will smiles, and hopes Jack is listening to their conversation, and realizing some things about them. He hopes Jack is creating associations that would put them further away from murderers, and make it clear that they’re loving fathers and husbands.

They sit on the bench in the foyer that Jack originally wanted them to sit on, and Jimmy sits watching them. 

“I don’t think they’re finding anything,” Jimmy says. “Zee did show me your underwear drawer, though, Doctor Lecter.”

Will hides his face in one of his hands and groans quietly. He knows Hannibal is smirking in satisfaction next to him. 

It’s very late by the time they finish, and most of Hannibal’s kitchen ingredients and utensils have been taken for testing. 

“Why are they taking your shit if they’re investigating Abigail?” Will huffs. 

“You know what Jack thinks, Will,” Jimmy says quietly. “You know it’s not about Abigail.”

“This can’t really be legal,” Will mutters. 

Jimmy shrugs. “Well, when they don’t find anything here, I’m sure someone will find a reason to search me and Brian’s apartment.”

“There are so many people who fit the profile,” Will mutters. “Why does he automatically think it’s someone close to him?”

“He thinks it’s someone with access to the case files,” Jimmy answers. 

Just then, Jack comes through the foyer and Jimmy closes his mouth. Will understands that none of them are supposed to be talking about what Jack thinks. Maybe Jimmy isn't even supposed to know. 

“We’re finished here,” Jack says. “Stay in town.”

“We’ll be in Wolf Trap,” Will tells him. 

“Fine,” Jack says. 

When everyone is out of the house, they still don’t speak of the day. Will knows it’s not completely likely, but there’s always a chance someone bugged Hannibal’s house today. Waiting for a confession Hannibal will never give. 

They drive to Wolf Trap together because Will’s car is still at Quantico. The first ten minutes of the drive are spent in silence, and Will knows Hannibal is having many thoughts go through his mind. He’s planning, and adjusting his plans, reworking everything and solidifying it all. 

“We’ll have to do it tomorrow,” Hannibal tells him, grasping Will’s hand in his own. 

Will releases a shaky breath and squeezes Hannibal’s hand. 

“Okay. You’ll be okay on your own for a while?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods, but keeps his face forward on the road.

“You’ll have to write your schedule down for me so we can time it perfectly,” Will says after a minute. “If you tell me, I’ll be nervous and mix up numbers. Write it down and I’ll put it somewhere safe so no one else finds it after.”

“Of course,” Hannibal agrees. 

The rest of the drive is spent in quiet contemplation, the both of them mentally preparing for the final phase of their plan. Will is truly feeling the weight of the situation, and it’s heavy in his gut, and his arms, and down his back. He knows it will work, but he can’t help the feeling that it won’t.

He can’t help the feeling that this will be the last night he will spend in Hannibal’s arms for one reason or another. 

Hannibal makes them a simple dinner, and by the time they’ve eaten, and the babies are put to bed for the night, Will is desperate to have Hannibal all to himself. 

He pulls him into their bedroom, and guides him over to the bed without undressing, in no hurry to speed things along. They spend long minutes with their hands roaming up and down clothed bodies, their legs tangled while they kiss. 

“I’m still extremely angry with you,” Will murmurs against Hannibal’s lips. 

“I know,” Hannibal whispers, rolling them so he’s above Will. 

Will spreads his legs for Hannibal to settle in between, and reaches up to cup Hannibal’s cheeks. They just stare at each other, Will taking in the sight of his beautiful husband. He moves his hand to push it through Hannibal’s hair, messing it up, and making his bangs fall forward into his face, just like Will likes. 

Hannibal presses another kiss to Will’s lips, and pulls away less than an inch, inhaling deeply against Will’s face. Probably memorizing my scent, Will thinks. 

The older man pulls away abruptly and pauses, holding a finger to Will’s lips. Will doesn’t know what he heard, but there’s alarm on his face. 

Will hears the second pound on the bedroom door and chuckles. 

“It’s the cat,” Will tells him, pulling him down for another kiss. 

He caresses Hannibal’s cheek, moves one hand to cup his neck, and when Hannibal pulls away from the kiss again, Will smooths his thumb over the line between Hannibal’s brows. An attempt to soothe his obvious stress. 

“We’re going to be okay,” Will promises. Tears fill his eyes and threaten to fall. He whispers, “Florence, remember? When all this is over.”

“Florence,” Hannibal agrees. A gentle kiss to Will’s forehead is all it takes for Will to let the tears fall from his eyes. Hannibal brushes them away with gentle fingers, reminding Will of the kindness he is capable of and always will be. 

Will tugs on Hannibal’s shirt collar. 

“Take this off,” he whispers, sitting up for another kiss. 

Hannibal unbuttons his waistcoat, and then his shirt, shrugging them off his shoulders and drops them onto the floor. Laying on his side, Will runs a hand up Hannibal’s bare chest when he settles onto the bed next to him. His hand stops at his neck, and he holds Hannibal there for a moment as he rests their foreheads together. 

Even with his eyes closed, he knows Hannibal is staring at him. He knows Hannibal has a slight frown on his face, even if he’s trying to hide it. Will opens his eyes, and pulls his head back just enough to see Hannibal furrowing his brow again. He’s worried, and Will knows that. Even if he’s trying his best to pretend he is completely confident in their plan. 

Will sits up and begins unbuttoning his own shirt. Hannibal plays with the hems of Will’s shirt lazily, turning the fabric between his thumb and finger as if he hasn’t felt the shirt a hundred times already. 

“Stop thinking for tonight,” Will says, tossing his shirt to the floor. “Just be here with me.”

Hannibal looks up at him, eyes lingering on Will’s stomach before they reach his face. 

“I’m only thinking about you,” Hannibal says. “How beautiful you are in this moment. How dearly I love you. How desperately I need for us to finish this and put it all behind.” 

Will ignores the compliment, and doesn’t want to argue that this will never truly be behind them, so he gets up from the bed and pulls off his pants. He tosses them off into the corner of the room, and Hannibal gets the idea and lifts his hips to push his own pants off without getting up from the bed. 

He reaches out and Will goes to him, climbing between his spread legs. He presses his hips forward, rubbing his cock against Hannibal’s, just layers of underwear separating them. 

Hannibal’s hands settle over Will’s own, placed on Hannibal’s chest. Will leans down, bending over Hannibal’s body so he can kiss his neck, sucking and biting. Leaving his mark for when they are apart. Hannibal wraps his arms around Will’s back, pulling their bodies flush together. 

Will continues to rock his hips, thrusting his erection against Hannibal’s. He groans into Hannibal’s neck and has to force himself to pull back before they can both come in their underwear. 

He sits back and tugs at Hannibal’s waistband, silently telling his husband to lift his hips so he can pull them down. Once Hannibal is free, he removes his own and tosses both pairs to another corner of the room. He gets back between Hannibal’s legs, and brings his mouth to Hannibal’s face, leaving a trail of kisses across his jaw and down his throat. 

Hannibal reaches over to Will’s nightstand and pulls the drawer open, stretching to find the lube. He lets out a frustrated groan when he can’t quite reach it and Will kisses his forehead with a laugh, and grabs it himself. 

Will takes his time opening Hannibal up with his fingers, listening to each hitch of breath, and every quiet moan. He basks in the way Hannibal looks at him with so much love and devotion and wishes tonight could last forever. But it can’t, and he knows that, so he withdraws his fingers when he knows Hannibal is ready and replaces them with his cock. 

Hannibal grabs him as soon as he starts pressing inside, wrapping his arms around Will and pulling him down as close as he can. Hannibal’s legs wrap around Will’s waist, and Will couldn’t pull away if he tried. 

“No matter what happens,” Hannibal whispers into his neck as they rock together. “I have always loved you, and I always will.”

“I know,” Will assures him. 

“It’s going to hurt, but everything is going to be just fine,” Hannibal tells him. He sobs into Will’s neck, rubs his nose against his throat. “It’s going to be just fine,” he repeats. 

“I believe you,” Will whispers. 

Will doesn’t know how long they stay like that, holding each other tight and rocking against each other, but eventually Hannibal tenses, squeezing Will’s cock inside him as he comes between their bodies. Will thrusts several more times before he follows him, kissing Hannibal as he comes inside him. 

He pulls out and rolls over to lay next to him. Hannibal grabs a tissue from the box on his nightstand and wipes off his stomach and then Will’s. 

Will is nearly asleep when he feels Hannibal roll out of bed and leave the bedroom. He hears the shower start, and lays there, debating whether or not to go join him. He lays there contemplating so long, too exhausted to truly move, that he doesn’t reach his decision until it’s too late. 

The shower stops, and Hannibal comes back into the room a minute later. Will is just barely awake enough to watch him pull some clothes out of their dresser, but he knows they’re pajamas. He recognizes that Hannibal isn’t leaving—something that crossed his mind several times since he rolled out of bed—so he allows himself to fall asleep, content that Hannibal will always come back to him. 


Hannibal puts the dogs outside after getting dressed, and calls Chiyoh from the porch. She doesn’t answer for several rings, but when she does, Hannibal feels a flood of relief. 

“Is she there?” Hannibal asks. 

“She is sleeping,” Chiyoh answers. “You put that girl through quite a scare, Hannibal. She was very frightened and exhausted when I saw her come through customs.”

“I know,” Hannibal agrees. “She’s resilient, and she knows she is safe now. You two will get along.”

“When will you be coming?” Chiyoh asks. 

“I still have to discuss it with Will,” Hannibal answers. 

“Will,” Chiyoh repeats. “Abigail mentioned him, as well, but I figured I would wait until I spoke with you to ask questions.”

“My husband,” Hannibal says with a smile. “Will is my husband.”

“You never tell me anything anymore, Hannibal,” Chiyoh sighs. “You should call me more often. Especially when you make drastic life changes.”

“It’s been a busy couple of weeks,” Hannibal tells her. 

“And how long were you dating before you got married?” Chiyoh asks impatiently. 

“Six or seven months,” Hannibal says. “I need to go back inside and check on… Well, I suppose I should tell you I’m a father now, too.”

“Of course you are. Send me a picture of your child. And I’ll be sending you my phone bill for this call. Goodnight, Hannibal.”

“Goodnight, Chiyoh,” Hannibal says. He hangs up and slides his phone back into the pocket of his pajama pants. He whistles for the dogs, and counts them as they walk into the house and go off to lay down in their beds. 

He goes back in to make sure Mischa and Lucy are still sleeping, and then he goes into his and Will’s room. He sets his phone on the nightstand, and finds a notepad and pen in the drawer so he can write down their schedule for tomorrow for Will. 

As he’s writing, he hears Will make noise behind him, a sleepy groan, and incoherent mumbling. He looks behind himself to see Will trying to open his eyes, but they keep fluttering shut. Will reaches a hand out across the bed, lightly running his finger along the waistband of Hannibal’s pajama pants. 

“Are you awake?” Hannibal asks. 

Will shakes his head, telling Hannibal no. 

“Very well. I will wait until morning to tell you Abigail made it safely,” Hannibal says, turning around to finish writing. 

“You just told me, anyway,” Will mumbles. 

“Because I know you’re awake.”

“Don’t wanna be,” Will murmurs. “Shut off the light and lay down.”

Hannibal does as he’s asked, unable to deny Will a single thing. 

In the morning, Hannibal hands Will the note he wrote everything down on, and tells him once again that Abigail is safe in Lithuania with Chiyoh. He has to drive Will to Quantico, and Will leans across the center console for a kiss when they arrive. 

Hannibal cups his cheeks and rests their foreheads together, letting them sit in each other’s presence for just a little bit longer. 

The moment ends too soon, and then Will is getting out of the car and heading into the building. Hannibal pulls out of the lot and heads toward Baltimore. 

 

Will shakes through his entire first and second lecture. Lunch comes and goes, but he’s too nervous to eat anything. He heads down to the lab to see Jimmy and Brian instead, trying to get any word on the stuff from Hannibal’s house. 

They can’t tell him anything, and he knows he needs to just trust Hannibal that everything was in order, but anything is possible and the uncertainty kills him. 

Locked away in his office during office hours, he goes over the schedule written in Hannibal’s neat handwriting. He has to leave in twenty minutes, and come up with an excuse as to why he would be going to Frederick Chilton’s house. 

On the drive there, he calls Jack just like he and Hannibal planned. 

“Will,” Jack answers. 

“Hey, so Frederick Chilton asked me to come over,” Will tells him. “With Beverly and Miriam both getting killed, I feel like I need to tell someone where I’m going to be, and Hannibal’s at work, and maybe I’m just being paranoid, but I—I got in my own head about Chilton fitting the Ripper’s profile.”

“Breathe, Will,” Jack says, and Will knows his real nerves are working in his favor at the moment. “Do you want me to send people for backup?”

“I don’t—I mean, it sounded like he just wants me to come over for a social visit. If other people show up with me then he might think we’re investigating him, but…” Will trails off. “I’m just freaked out, Jack. He’s always had a weird interest in me. Hannibal had to save me from him at the New Year’s party. I can’t imagine what he would want me to come over for.”

“He didn’t say?” Jack asks, just as Will pulls up to Chilton’s house. 

“He said he wanted to have me for dinner,” Will answers. “He invited Hannibal, too, but he has late appointments tonight.”

“Check in with me when you get home tonight. I’ll inform the Baltimore PD that you might be following a potential lead.”

He can hear the genuine concern in Jack’s voice. It’s a good thing he’s spent months catching killers for them, and has managed to keep his credibility even as his husband and surrogate daughter were suspected of murder.

He hangs up and runs toward the house, just as the front door opens. Hannibal is there in his plastic suit, holding the door open for him. Will leaps into his arms, and Hannibal spins him around, laying kisses on his cheek and temple.

“We don’t have much time. Jack might send backup,” Will whispers when Hannibal sets him down. 

“Perfect. This is what I planned for,” Hannibal whispers. “Frederick is down in his cellar. You have your gun?”

“Yeah,” Will says, tapping his holster.

“And you’re ready?”

Will takes a deep breath, and nods. Hannibal goes to the cellar door, and opens it again, and Frederick comes running up the stairs. 

“What the fuck is going on?” he yells. 

“Oh, Frederick,” Hannibal smiles. 

He turns to Will, and lifts a hand to his cheek, caressing it gently. Will shuts his eyes, knowing Chilton is too confused to move at the moment. The next thing he knows, there’s a searing pain in his gut, a blade being pushed in and pulled across. It’s complete agony and he cries out, trying to grip Hannibal as he feels nothing but pain. He tries gripping him to hold onto reality, to focus on anything but the burn, and the urge to collapse. He can hear the blood dripping, and can feel it pouring out of him. 

It’s like his worst nightmares, but instead of the words his nightmares would usually bring, Hannibal whispers in his ear, “I love you with all my heart.”

Hannibal steps away, leaving Will to slump against the wall. 

“What the fuck?!” Chilton shouts. He rushes to Will, getting himself covered perfectly in blood to make it look like he was the one that gutted Will. Hannibal lets the blade clatter to the ground as he carefully steps around Will’s blood. 

“Shoot him, darling,” Hannibal says from a few feet away. 

Will pulls his gun from the holster and it feels almost impossible. More impossible, yet, to kick Chilton away far enough to bring the gun up. He shoots. 

“Do you need me to retrieve your phone?” Hannibal asks as Will slides down to the floor. 

Chilton lays dead in front of him, and Will feels like he’s not too far off himself. He nods. 

“I’ll be there when you wake up, love,” Hannibal tells him. 

The phone is slid out of his pocket and he sees Hannibal has already dialled for him as it’s set in his hand. 

“I need an ambulance,” Will groans into the phone. His words slur together as he explains, “Losing a lot of blood. I’m Special Agent Will Graham-Lecter of the FBI. I’ve shot and killed the assailant.”

He doesn’t hear what the person on the other end says, but is able to say, “Call Jack Crawford… and my husband,” before his phone slips from his grasp. 

He hears sirens within a few seconds, and he hopes Hannibal is already out the door.


Hannibal runs. He knows Will is going to be just fine, but he needs to be back in his office and free of blood by the time emergency services get to Frederick Chilton’s house. So he runs. All the way back to his car, with his bloody suit and gloves tucked under his arm, inside his jacket. He gets to his office, and runs to the bathroom next to the waiting room. He removes his ruined garments and puts them in a bag with his plastic suit. 

He’ll burn the clothes later, but for now he needs to change into the clothes he brought with. The bag of bloody items goes into a hidden compartment in the bathroom, and he puts on his new suit. 

Inside his office, he smiles at Bedelia, who sits in one of the armchairs with both Mischa and Lucy cradled in each arm. 

“I suppose it’s important for me to say you’ve been here for the last twenty minutes,” Bedelia says slowly as he takes Lucy and sits in the chair opposite. 

“Yes,” Hannibal says. “We have been in an appointment since five o’clock.” 

“I suppose we are even now,” Bedelia adds. 

Hannibal nods just once. He looks down at the baby in his arms and smiles, leaning down to press a kiss to her forehead. He doesn’t want them to be in any sort of childcare just yet, and without a regular babysitter, Bedelia was his only option. 

Usually he keeps them in the room off to the side of his office—which he turned into a small nursery—with a baby monitor in his pocket, but today he needed someone to watch them. 

Bedelia was the first person to come to mind who wouldn’t ask any questions. They sit in silence regarding each other for long minutes.

Hannibal taps his foot in a nervous gesture, but Bedelia doesn’t comment on it. He waits patiently for his phone to ring, and even though he’s expecting it, he jumps when his office phone starts. 

He stands up, still holding Lucy in his arms. He picks up the phone, and presses accept. 

“I apologize, Jack, but I’m in an appointment right now—”

“Will’s in the hospital,” Jack says, cutting him off. 

“What?” Hannibal asks. “What hospital? What happened? Is he—is he—”

“He’s alive,” Jack confirms.

Jack tells him what hospital, and what entrance to come to. He explains what to expect, and what doctors have already told him. Hannibal knows it all, but he still makes a point to be loud as he gathers his jacket and keys and frantically tries to get the babies situated. 

“Doctor Lecter, take a minute to breathe,” Jack says through the phone. “Bring the babies. Bella and I can watch them if you need.”

“Yes. Yes, thank you, Jack. I’m on my way,” Hannibal says quickly. He hangs up and sets his phone down. He turns to Bedelia. “Will is in the hospital. Would you please drive me? I’m afraid I’ll get in an accident in my current state.” 

Bedelia stands and gathers her stuff. Both babies are in carriers and in the backseat of Hannibal’s car when Hannibal receives another call on his cell. 

“Hello?” Hannibal answers. 

“Doctor Lecter, it’s Jimmy Price,” Jimmy responds. “If you need any help at all with Mischa and Lucy—I mean, I was sitting next to Jack when he talked to you, but I just want to let you know that Zee and I can take them for a few hours if you need. I know Jack is going to be really busy with all this.”

“Yes, yes, thank you Mister Price. I’m on my way to the hospital now,” Hannibal tells him. He hangs up without a response. 

Bedelia drives him to the hospital, and Hannibal runs inside, leaving her to gather Mischa and Lucy from the back seat of the car. 

Jack is in the waiting room, typing frantically into his phone as it dings over and over again. Jimmy is speaking in hushed tones on his own, as Brian Zeller sits next to him, holding Jimmy’s hand in his own. 

They all three look up as Hannibal bursts through the door, and Hannibal tries his best to look extremely terrified. He goes right up to the desk. 

“I’m Hannibal Graham-Lecter. My husband—” 

“Yes, sir, if you could take a seat, a doctor will be out in just a moment,” the woman sitting there tells him. 

He nods, and turns wiping tears from his eyes as he goes to sit down. Bedelia comes in with a carrier in each hand and sits down next to him. Hannibal takes Mischa out and cradles the baby boy to his chest, kissing his head and rocking him back and forth. 

“May I?” Brian asks, pointing to the carrier on the floor with Lucy. 

Hannibal nods, and Brian picks her up. 

“Hannibal,” Jack finally greets. He leans forward and looks at Bedelia. “And you are?”

“Bedelia du Maurier,” she answers, holding out her hand to shake. “I’m Hannibal’s psychiatrist. We were just in the middle of an appointment.”

“I see,” Jack nods. 

“Is he okay?” Hannibal asks, turning to look at Jack. 

“He’s in surgery now,” Jack tells him. 

“Can you tell me what happened?” Hannibal asks. “He told me he was going to Frederick Chilton’s for dinner.”

“Yes,” Jack nods. “It appears that Chilton attacked him. Will was gutted. Clean across his abdomen by the looks of it. He was just able to call 9-1-1 before he lost consciousness.”

“Where’s Chilton now?” Hannibal asks. “Did—was he arrested for this?”

“Will shot him.”

“Killed?” Hannibal asks. 

Jack nods. 

“Oh my darling,” Hannibal breathes to himself, playing the role of a concerned spouse. “Killing Hobbs nearly destroyed him. I’ll need to find him a new therapist after this. He wasn’t even supposed to be back in the field.” 

“I shouldn’t have let him go into that house without backup there and ready,” Jack says. “We have people searching his premises now. They’ve found a lot of questionable stuff, but it all needs to be brought in for testing. There was a deed in his home office to a house under an alias that we’re sending officers to now. We found prints that match Abigail Hobbs’ and Beverly Katz’s in his basement.” 

Hannibal just stares at Jack, his head tilted slightly in confusion. 

“Are you saying…”

“We have strong reason to believe Frederick Chilton was the Chesapeake Ripper,” Jack confirms. 

“Abigail,” Hannibal whispers.

Jack shakes his head. “Still haven’t found her. Just a few prints.”

Hannibal slumps back into his seat. 

They sit there for ages, everyone tapping away on their phones except for Hannibal. He stares at the door he knows Will is somewhere behind. A few times, he stands up and takes the babies to change in the bathroom, but he ends up right back in his seat. 

Jack tries telling him more, but he shakes his head. Even as Jack explains they found the remote cabin workshop, he just holds up a hand and says he doesn’t want to hear about it. 

Until Jack says, “We found Freddie Lounds’ body.” 

Everyone turns to look at him. 

“And there’s evidence that Abigail Hobbs was kept in the same house,” he adds. “There’s blood. It could be hers.” 

“Shouldn't you be there?” Hannibal asks. “Or anywhere? Why are you sitting in a hospital waiting room waiting for Will?” 

“I need his statement as soon as he wakes up,” Jack says. 

“He will have no idea what he’s saying, if he’ll even be able to recall it so soon after coming out of surgery,” Hannibal says, shaking his head. “And I won’t allow him to be bombarded with questions the moment he wakes up. I will be the first and only person he sees beside his doctors and nurses, at least for a full day after he wakes up.”

Jack huffs and mutters, “Fine, but I’m staying.”

“Fine,” Hannibal says. 

Bedelia leaves at some point, Jimmy going with so he can return with Hannibal’s car. Brian offers to take the babies to Wolf Trap to let them sleep for a bit and to take care of the dogs. 

Hannibal thanks them all, and he’s left alone with Jack.

“I’m, uh, sorry that I accused you,” Jack says. 

Hannibal just nods and crosses his arms. 

After what feels like an eternity, a doctor comes through the door and says Hannibal can see Will now. 

Hannibal leaps from his chair and follows the doctor down the hallway and to a private room. Will is asleep in the hospital bed, hooked up to machines, and covered in bandages. His entire torso is wrapped in white. Hannibal pills a chair up next to him and sits down, reaching out to grab one hand. 

He ends up falling asleep with his hand resting over Will’s, and he’s woken up to his hand being squeezed. 

Will looks at him with a faint smile and he knows everything is going to be okay. 

Hannibal and Will barely speak in the first two days, knowing Will needs as much rest as possible, and to not strain himself at all. Things like laughing could easily hurt more than the stabbing itself did, so they sit in comfortable silence. 

Hannibal only goes home to shower and get clean clothes. Jimmy and Brian have the kids and Alana took the dogs to her house for the time being. 

Jack comes on the third day, and Hannibal holds Will’s hand as he recounts their made up version of the story. 

“I walked into his house and went to follow him toward the cellar to help him pick out some wine, but he crowded me against the wall,” Will says quietly. “I honestly thought he was going to kiss me, or something with how close he was. I was about to struggle when I felt the blade go in and I was able to kick him away and draw my gun. I barely got my phone out of my pocket to call an ambulance.”

Jack writes it all down, and Hannibal forces tears to fall from his eyes while he listens to the story. 

With a sigh, Jack pulls up another chair. 

“We found Abigail’s blood at the house where we found Lounds,” Jack tells them. “It appears she was thrown from the cliff the house rests on, after being cut in the kitchen and dragged across the patio. Agents searched the beach for more blood, and the nearby woods for any sign of her, but we found nothing. We think she died in the water.”

Will brings a hand to his mouth, muffling the cry that comes from his throat. Hannibal drops his forehead to rest on their clasped hands and lets out a choked sob. 

“We think she killed Lounds and got away, but Chilton found her and brought her right back,” Jack explains further. “Lounds’ body was burnt, and it appears to be a Ripper display, but not a Ripper kill. There was correspondence between Chilton and Lounds planning Abigail’s kidnapping on both of their laptops.”

Hannibal sobs again, and looks up at Jack, knowing his eyes are red, and his cheeks are stained with tears. 

“I can’t help but feel responsible,” Hannibal cries. “We were supposed to protect her.”

“You didn’t find her body?” Will asks. 

“No, Will,” Jack sighs. “We’re searching the water, but it doesn’t look promising.”

“Oh god,” Will cries. 

“I’ll leave you two to process this,” Jack says. He stands and leaves. 

When he’s gone, Will lets out a quiet laugh that turns into him groaning in pain. Hannibal sits up and kisses his cheek. 

“We did it,” he whispers into Will’s ear. Another kiss, and he says again, “We did it.”

Will turns his face and captures Hannibal’s lips in a proper kiss, then settles back against his pillow again. 

Unless they find something they haven’t yet found, they’re completely in the clear. 


As Will lays in his hospital bed, he can’t help but stare at the man who refuses to leave his side. Even as he sleeps in uncomfortable positions, Hannibal never complains. Maybe it’s because he knows Will is in agony because of him, both mentally and physically, or maybe it’s just because he truly loves Will so much he wouldn’t complain about a sore neck if it means staying by his side. 

Jimmy and Brian bring the babies to visit one day, and Hannibal looks truly grateful for their help. He knows it kills Hannibal to share him with others, but he knows Hannibal recognizes how important it is to keep friends right now. 

As hard as it is without Beverly, and as much as Will wishes she were not gone, he knows that she would at least be happy to know how many people stepped up to take care of the children she had to step up to take care of first. Her death will be hard on him for years to come, especially knowing he has to miss her funeral because he’s in a hospital bed. 

Hannibal goes, though. He takes the babies and pays his respects, as he told Will. Will doesn’t know how much respect her could have paid, having been the one to murder her in the first place, but he appreciates the gesture. 

As hard as it all is, for some fucked reason, he loves Hannibal more now than he ever has before. 

To think it all started in Jack’s office, to think Will hated him that day. To think he was annoyed that morning Hannibal showed up at his motel room with breakfast, to think that he was only joking when he suggested Hannibal ask him on a date. Half joking. 

Not joking, he admits to himself. 

Everything Hannibal has done has been for them. Even if it hurts, it’s always been for them. 

And even as he lays in a hospital bed, a bloody line across his belly, drugged out of his mind on painkillers, he’s never felt better. He has never felt more loved. 

And Hannibal has hurt him, but he knows Hannibal’s love outweighs it all. He knows Hannibal would die for him— has killed for him. He knows that Hannibal has risked it all to ensure that Will wouldn’t be the one to take the fall for any of his actions if it came down to it. 

His entire life has been uprooted by Will, and he has changed to welcome Will into that life, rather than push him away like he very easily could have. Like he probably should have. 

After everything, they still love each other desperately. Will could never imagine a life without Hannibal now. Not when they’ve shared what they have together, not when they know what they know about each other. They’re too intertwined for separation now, and Will knows neither of them could survive without each other. 

The ways in which they have changed each other, the ways in which they love each other, it’s all for them. No one else knows, or will ever know, just how deep their love goes, but Hannibal and Will know. 

Will knows that is the only thing that matters. 

Chapter 37: Epilogue

Notes:

(See the end of the chapter for notes.)

Chapter Text

A year and a half later

Will smiles and thanks Hannibal as he sets a glass of water down in front of him. He turns the page in his book and basks in the last sunlight of the day out on their balcony. 

Hannibal goes back inside and Will turns to see him walking with Lucy waddling in front of him, her hands held above her head by Hannibal’s. Will’s face breaks out in a grin, and the toddler giggles at him.

Mischa sits at his feet playing with his toys, and Will sets his book on the table next to him to pick the boy up. He sets him on his lap and kisses his cheek. He still has toys clutched in his hands, most of the pile still on the floor at Will’s feet. 

Hannibal picks up Lucy and rests her on his hip as he comes back onto the balcony and takes the seat across the table from Will. 

They’ve been in Italy for a month now, staying in an apartment Hannibal owns. Abigail, and Hannibal’s friend, Chiyoh, are to arrive tomorrow for their vow renewal ceremony. It’ll be the first time Will has seen Abigail in over a year. 

“I think it’s bedtime,” Hannibal says. 

Will looks over and sees Lucy slumped against his chest, rubbing tiredly at her eyes. She shakes her head. 

“No?” Hannibal asks with a quiet laugh. “Are you not sleepy, sweetheart?”

“No!” Lucy yells. “No, Papa. No sleep.”

Will’s heart melts every time the kids want to stay up later with them, and every time one of them calls Hannibal ‘Papa.’ Seeing Hannibal so gentle with their children has made it so much easier to love him. Even given the circumstances for which Hannibal is now their Papa, Will wouldn’t trade these moments for the world. 

Will announces,  “Let’s get you both to bed.”

“No!” Mischa yells from Will’s lap. 

“Yes, buddy,” Will tells him. 

“No, Daddy,” Mischa insists, shaking his head. He holds up the wooden toy knife from his kitchen set, and jabs Will’s chest with it. It doesn’t hurt, but the fact that it happens causes Will to force down a laugh. It wouldn’t be good to encourage that type of behavior. 

Will looks over at Hannibal, who looks at them both in amusement. 

“That’s not how we play with knives,” Will tells him seriously, taking the utensil from his hand, and setting it into the bin of toys. 

“Sorry, Daddy,” Mischa says with a pout. 

Will kisses his head. “I forgive you.”

He looks over and sees Lucy asleep against Hannibal’s chest, and smiles. 

“C’mon, big guy,” Will says to Mischa. “Time for bed.”

He stands, holding the boy in his arms, and gestures with his head to Hannibal. Hannibal shakes his head, and leans back in his chair, Lucy still sitting on his lap. He picks up his book, and flips to his page. 

Will stands there for a moment longer, and watches them. His beautiful husband and daughter, sitting in the soft light of the setting sun. At complete peace with where they are. Will feels that peace, too. 

Mischa yawns and buries his face in Will’s neck, pulling Will back to the task at hand. He takes his son into his bedroom and gets him ready for bed. After his teeth are brushed, and he has his pajamas on, Will tucks him into his bed, and sits down on the edge. 

“Are you excited to meet your big sister Abigail tomorrow?” Will asks. 

Mischa smiles and nods. 

He knows introducing the kids to her might not be the best idea, given the fact that young kids tend to repeat things they shouldn’t, but Will wants them to know her. If they repeat her name around Alana, then Will can come up with excuses later, but they still have another month in Italy, and don’t have to worry about that just yet. 

“She used to take care of you when you were born, did you know that?” Will asks. 

Mischa thinks for a second, then shakes his head.

“She did,” Will confirms. Mischa yawns again, so Will decides it’s time to let him sleep. “Goodnight, Mischa.”

“Night, Daddy,” Mischa mumbles. “Papa…”

“Papa will come in soon,” Will promises. 

Will leaves the room and goes back out to the balcony to find Hannibal and Lucy where he left them. He leans against the doorframe for a moment, letting Hannibal sit there for just a little while longer before he sighs and interrupts the moment. 

“Mischa wants you to tuck him in,” Will whispers, careful not to wake Lucy. He takes Hannibal’s book from his hand, and picks up his own to bring inside for the night. He crouches down and begins picking up all of the toys Mischa was playing with, tossing them into the bin. 

Hannibal stands slowly and follows Will into the apartment. Will sets the toys and books on the counter, and shuts and locks the door to the balcony. He follows Hannibal into Lucy’s room, and hears his husband whispering to her in Italian to wake her up. 

She looks extremely unhappy, but still cooperates as Hannibal changes her into her pajamas. They both tuck her in, and she fights to keep her eyes open. 

“Night, pumpkin,” Will says, kissing her head. 

Hannibal says goodnight to her in Italian, and then they shut off her light and leave her to sleep. 

Mischa is asleep already when Hannibal goes in to say goodnight to him, so it doesn’t take long. 

“Ready for bed, babe?” Will asks once they’re in the hall. 

“I thought we might enjoy a bath together,” Hannibal says. 

Will hums in response, and leads the way to their bedroom and to the connected bathroom. He pulls his shirt over his head and sees Hannibal’s eyes go directly to the scar on his abdomen. He does that a lot. Will looks down at the white line above his belly button, then up to Hannibal again. 

“Are you excited for tomorrow?” Will asks casually. Hannibal is still staring at the scar across his abdomen as he nods absently. It’s going to be one of those nights, then, Will thinks to himself.

Over the last year and a half, Hannibal has paid a lot of attention to Will’s scar. Long after the wound healed, he still checked it constantly for signs of infection, or anything that would suggest a complication. Nothing ever came of it. Will had some issues during recovery with pain, but otherwise he was fine. Hannibal cut him perfectly so that no organs were damaged. 

The skin feels tight around the scar, and it gets uncomfortable, so Hannibal spends time moisturizing and massaging his skin. His hands always find the scar when they’re laying in bed, or on the couch, or sitting on the balcony. 

Now, Hannibal drops to his knees on the bathroom floor and buries his face in Will’s stomach, kissing gently across the raised tissue. Will drops a hand to Hannibal’s hair and tangles his fingers in it. He feels warm tears on his skin, and pulls Hannibal’s head back so he can make eye contact with him. 

“I love you,” Will whispers. “I know you wish we could have done everything differently, my love. I know you didn’t want to hurt me. I need you to forgive yourself. It was part of the plan that I agreed to, baby. If I were angry, we wouldn’t be renewing our vows tomorrow, we wouldn’t be here in Italy, raising two kids together. I’m here, with you. And that’s because I forgive you. Please forgive yourself.”

“I promised,” Hannibal whispers, pushing his face back to Will’s stomach. “I promised I would never hurt you, and then I did. You were so scared of me, darling. You had nightmares of this very same injury at the beginning of our relationship, and yet—” 

“Hannibal,” Will says firmly. He cups Hannibal’s cheeks, and pulls his head away again. Looking down at his weeping husband, he feels tears form in his own eyes. He slowly brings himself to his knees in front of Hannibal and rests their foreheads together. “We had to, remember?”

Hannibal nods against Will’s face, but Will knows he needs to reiterate everything again. 

“You had to hurt me,” Will whispers. “You had to do it because it was one of the only ways we could get out of it. Baby, you know that. Even if they linked it all to you, even if they found out you harmed me, they wouldn’t have thought I was involved, right? Because only someone who is fucking crazy would allow themselves to be injured like this,” he says with a chuckle. He whispers, “And the FBI doesn’t know just how batshit I am.”

Hannibal doesn’t respond, so Will opens his eyes and pulls back to see him smiling. He brushes away the last of Hannibal’s tears, and kisses the tip of his nose. 

“Okay?” Will asks. 

Hannibal nods, and whispers, “I’m okay.”

“Good,” Will says. “Seriously, Hannibal. I’m fine. It’s all fine.”

“I can’t help but feel I have… manipulated you,” Hannibal says slowly. “I abused so much of your trust in me.”

Will lets out a single bark of laughter. “No shit, you did. But that’s… I knew you were a killer since before we even kissed. I knew what I was getting into, yeah? We’ve gone over this plenty of times. It’s not as if I’m innocent in all of this. Not by a long shot. Do we have a healthy relationship? By no fucking means. Are we perfect for each other? Without a fucking doubt.”

“You’re perfect,” Hannibal murmurs. “But you deserve better than me.”

Will pushes Hannibal away and stands. 

“Don’t say that ever again,” Will says, pacing the bathroom. “I’m serious.”

“You would be living a completely different life if not for me,” Hannibal says quietly. 

“You want to go there?” Will challenges. “Without you, I would have let the encephalitis kill me because I didn’t want to admit something was wrong. Or I would have gotten so sick, and pushed myself so hard working for Jack that I would have become one of the killers inside my mind. I could have killed someone, and could have been too sick to cover it up, and I would have gone to prison. I don’t know about you, but to me, this,” Will says, gesturing to the large, opulent bathroom, and the bedroom beyond the door, “is a hell of a lot better than a prison cell, or a coffin.”

“I suppose you’re right, but—”

“No,” Will says, shaking his head. “No, ‘buts’ this time. I’m with you, and I don’t want to change a thing. Not now. Just… get off the floor, and come to bed. And tomorrow, let’s get married again.”

Will leaves the bathroom to give Hannibal some time to compose himself, and takes off his pants to throw into the laundry basket. He gets into bed in just his boxers, and waits. It’s several minutes before Hannibal comes into the bedroom, wearing his undershirt and briefs. He shuts off the lights and gets into bed beside Will. After a minute, he rolls over and rests his head on Will’s shoulder, and his hand on his stomach. 

“I wanted to have a bath,” Hannibal murmurs. Will knows he’s pouting, and he wishes he could see it. 

Will laughs, and brings up a hand to stroke Hannibal’s back. 

“Tomorrow, after the ceremony, Abigail is going to watch Mischa and Lucy for the night,” Will whispers. “Which means, we can do whatever the hell you want all night.”

Hannibal hums in response and kisses Will’s chest. He drags his finger in circles around Will’s stomach, and Will knows there’s still something on his mind. 

“You know I do love you, right?” Hannibal whispers. “I know that a lot of articles have been written about the Chesapeake Ripper, and they all say I’m incapable of love, and that I’m a psychopath.”

“They say Chilton was incapable of love,” Will corrects. 

“Based on what I did.”

“Was another article written?” 

Hannibal nods against his chest. 

“Stop reading that shit,” Will mutters. “Yes, I know you love me. And I know you love Mischa and Lucy, and I know you care for Alana, Abigail, and Chiyoh. You’re not a psychopath, and you know it, and I know it, and everyone who knows you, knows it. You don’t fit into a label.”

Hannibal doesn’t respond, but he keeps drawing circles on Will’s skin with his fingertips. He doesn’t seem to want to continue, or tell Will what else is bothering him, so Will fills the silence himself. 

“I never did tell you how much I enjoyed killing Chilton,” Will murmurs. Hannibal’s fingers stop moving and he looks up at Will from where he’s laying on his chest. Will glances down into the curious eyes, and  smiles. “It was… like everything had just fallen into place. I knew I only had strength for one shot, and I was in so much pain, but I knew that, as long as you got out of his house and back to your office, that everything was going to work just fine. It took me nine shots to take down Hobbs, but just one to kill Chilton. You know why?” 

Hannibal whispers, “Why is that?”

“Because I was doing it for you,” Will whispers. “The only thing that mattered when I pulled the trigger was that it killed him, and that was because of you. Even directly after you cut me open, as I was bleeding on the floor, I felt so much love for you that I killed someone. Do you understand? I don’t give a shit about the wound, okay? Because you did it for us. And you made me realize something about myself.”

“What was it?”

“That I like killing people,” Will breathes. “The only reason I don’t go with you when you kill is because we have two toddlers and someone needs to watch them.”

“But tomorrow night…” Hannibal trails off. 

“Tomorrow night, we can do whatever you want,” Will repeats. “I don’t know how much I’ll… participate, but I want to go with you.”

Hannibal moves so he can kiss Will on the lips. He moves to straddle Will’s hips, but Will just laughs against his lips and gently pushes him off.

“We have to be up early,” Will reminds him. He kisses Hannibal one more time, and then pulls the blankets back over their bodies as they lay on their sides facing each other. 

Will turns around, and grabs Hannibal’s hand as he goes, pulling Hannibal’s arm across his waist. Hannibal presses against Will’s back, and kisses the back of his neck, holding him close as they drift off to sleep. 

Tomorrow is going to be the beginning of something beautiful. Tonight, Will feels content and loved, anticipating a long, happy future. 

Notes:

I purposefully left several things open like that, with hopes that you all trust me that everything mentioned goes forward smoothly. If I wrote out the vow ceremony, it would likely just be exactly what they said to each other in the bathroom/in bed. Writing out them starting a life of killing together isn’t something I’m interested in writing for this story specifically, but I wanted to show that Will is opening up to the idea, anyway. Also — the dogs are safe at home, being watched by Alana while the Graham-Lecters are in Italy.

This was way, way longer than I ever intended for it to be. (Seriously — I was going to write a 30k secret relationship AU that had mainly fluff and humor and one of my original scene ideas didn’t even make it into this fic.) It’s the longest thing I have ever written, and I honestly cannot believe that I actually did it. Each update I would see the word count go up and I was just like… what the hell is wrong with me?

Now that it’s over, I’ll explain what happened: I wanted to write the aforementioned 30k words of secret relationship, but a friend made a tweet about a headcanon that Will destroyed all of Hannibal’s kitchenware post-Mizumono and cried in the wreckage. I was given permission and encouraged by her to use that in one of my fics, but the issue was that I wasn’t going to have a Mizumono — I had to come up with another reason Will would be so mad at Hannibal that he would do that to Hannibal’s kitchen. So, Beverly’s death was added into the fic as one of the canonical elements I wanted to use. So I wrote Beverly’s death scene in mid-January. This was when the fic was already around 30k words, and I realized I was royally fucked.

I had to develop Will and Hannibal’s relationship as I originally planned, and I had to develop Will and Beverly’s friendship in order for her death to hit even harder. Then ideas kept coming to me to make it even worse — giving Beverly children, having Beverly want to be Will’s ‘best man’ when he and Hannibal got married, etc. I almost even paired Beverly with Alana to make that into something too, but I scrapped that. It was a lot.

I had all this planned out, then I realized I forgot about Abigail, so I had to rework my final outline for like the fourth time. Then I needed to frame Chilton, and had several ideas on how to do that over the last six months, but then I ended up changing my mind 4k words into that chapter and deleted three thousand words of it to completely change the idea to something I hadn’t thought of even once in the timeframe of this entire fic. So that was another thing.

Things got out of hand in several places, and I took suggestions I probably shouldn’t have, but it got done, and I’m proud of myself for that. And I was/am blown away by how many people actually read this one. When I started writing fanfiction a year ago, I didn’t expect anyone to read it at all, so needless to say, my expectations were exceeded.

This has been such a big part of my life these last several months and I am so sad to see it end, but I’ll be honest, I’m relieved, too. When I planned this all out, it seemed like such a daunting task, but somehow I got to the end of it.

This was long winded, as was the fic itself, but I just want to say thank you to everyone who read/commented/left kudos/bookmarked over the course of this. This work was extremely self indulgent, and I’m glad other people liked it too. Please let me know your final thoughts on this, and please check out my other fics if you enjoyed this one!

 

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