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After many years of domesticity, Sukuna had developed what one would call a DadBod. It wasn't that obvious, but under his designer three piece suits and other clothes, it was there. And who'd blame him?
Thirteen, almost fourteen, years into a marriage with a world class chef, who was a doting and caring person, saw him eating good quality food. Add to the fact that being the CEO of a famous multi-cooperation, as well as focusing on their three children and taking care of them with his husband, saw that Sukuna had less time to work out and maintain his strong build. Sure, his biceps were still there, but his stomach was distended.
At first he didn't notice it, even when he walked around his home with his chest bare (twenty-one years in a relationship with Yuuji made both of them comfortable with their bodies), until Gojo made mention of it. Sukuna had thought nothing of it, happy to ignore the white haired bastard - like always - until two separate occasions.
The first was his youngest son, Ryujin, caressing his stomach out of the blue one day. The two years old boy had been lying on him as he and Sukuna lazed around on the bed. He had stood up, straddling Sukuna, and then patted Sukuna's belly.
"Does Papa have a baby?"
Sukuna blinked. "What?"
"Baby." Ryujin patted Sukuna's stomach again.
Sukuna chuckled, sitting up. "No, Papa isn't having a baby. Only Mama can have babies. But for now we're okay with you being our little hellion."
Sukuna started peppering Ryujin's face with kisses, getting loud giggles and screeches from the toddler. The pearls of laughter from the boy summoned Yuuji and he smiled at the scene he came upon.
Sukuna tried to not let it get to him, reminding himself that Ryujin's words were that of a little child, but hours later, the tattooed man found himself looking at the full length mirror. He prodded his stomach, the area soft but at the same time still toned with abs outlines. He managed to shake off the sneaking insecurity and went on with his day.
The second time involved Yuuji commenting on a film. The family of five were watching an action flick and Yuuji said,
"Wow! He's huge! And muscular too. He reminds me of when you all those years ago, Suku~" Yuuji poked his stomach, his eyes shining with mirth. "My food has really soften you up, husband mine. Now you're almost as big as me!" Giggling, he wrapped his arms around Sukuna's neck and started kissing Sukuna's cheek, getting groans from his twins and his husband.
Sukuna knew Yuuji was only teasing; he knew that his husband meant that as a compliment - but Sukuna's insecurity came crashing back with speed and force. He knew that Yuuji loved him and would never leave him, but he couldn't help but wonder how long will Yuuji's love last if Sukuna was not in tip-top shape.
Unlike Yuuji who looked cute being chubby due to his job and previous pregnancies, Sukuna felt that he wouldn't be that eye catching with fat. That annoying voice in his head whispered the sweet siren songs of doubt and soul crushing self-deprecating melodies.
Before he knew it, the chokehold of his insecurities had him weight lifting again. He began to skip meals, optioning to stay on a diet.
At first Yuuji thought nothing of it, but after two weeks of Sukuna refusing his meals and going on days with nothing but what he associated to bread crumbs, Yuuji became worried. Terribly so. He first thought that maybe his food tasted bad, but reassurances from Sukuna and the children put a stop to that. Then he thought the worst.
Was Sukuna cheating on him? Was that why he started rejecting Yuuji's meals, or spent less times with him?
Yuuji was on the verge of a meltdown when he saw Sukuna sneaking out of the bedroom one night and he followed after his husband. He frowned in confusion when Sukuna made his way into the gym room - which haven't been in use for a while now, might he add. He watched for some few minutes in confusion and bafflement as Sukuna started weight lifting heavy weights and doing some impossible and horrifying practices.
"Sukuna. What are you doing?"
Sukuna, who was bent over and trying to lift up some heavy weights, paused and looked up with wide eyes. He looked like a deer in headlights.
Yuuji, who had on just his sweatpants and robes, leaving his chubby belly open, walked forward - his arms crossed and a heavy scowl on his face.
"Gaki. What are you doing up?"
"I should be asking you the same. What in the world are you doing?"
Sukuna shrugged, rubbing the back of his sweaty neck. "Nothin'. Just burning off some fat."
Yuuji's eyes narrowed. "Sukuna, this isn't nothing." He gestured at the frankly heavy looking weight Sukuna was about to carry. "You could rip your muscle tissue just by lifting that!"
Sukuna sighed. "It's fine, Gaki."
"No, it's not fine! Sukuna, what is going on?" Yuuji walked up to his husband and looked up at him with a soft and worried look. "Suku, you have been behaving strange for the past few weeks now. You don't eat my food like you and even reject your favourites. You don't spend much time with me like you used to. Heck, we haven't even fucked for weeks now! Did... did I do something wrong?"
"No!" Sukuna felt his heart clench at the sad look in Yuuji's eyes. "No, you did nothing wrong." He gently carcassed Yuuji's chubby cheek. "It's me." He heaved a tired sigh. "I'm the problem."
Yuuji's brows furrowed into a frown. "Whatever do you mean?"
Reluctantly, Sukuna bared down his burden for Yuuji. He told Yuuji how insecure he was feeling about his body changing; how he felt that Yuuji wouldn't love him any more due to his abs going away as he becomes fat. Yuuji couldn't help but laugh after Sukuna was done.
"Oh, 'Kuna. You big idiot. You really are something else." Yuuji smiled beautifully at his husband, reaching out and laying a warm palm on Sukuna's cheek. "Sukuna, hear me and hear me well: I'll always love you. You're my world; my light in the darkness. You and our children keep me sane and grounded, even though that is questionable sometimes."
Both of them chuckled at that, flashes of various shenanigans going through their minds.
"Fat or slim, chubby or ripped - I'll always love you and will never stop loving you. I didn't marry you for your body, my love. I married you because you're you. You're the person I fell in love with all those years ago when your attitude was honestly shitty and horrifying. Not saying that you still aren't a shitty person, it's just a minimal now."
Sukuna rolled his eyes, a small smile on his lips.
"Sukuna, I love you for the man that you are. Please, never doubt my love and devotion to you. Heck, we even made a Binding Vow under the rare blood moon and I intend to keep that vow."
Yuuji laid his other palm on Sukuna's other cheek and Sukuna wrapped his large hands around Yuuji's wrists.
"I'm sorry." Sukuna muttered out. "I just got carried away by my insecurities and worried you over nothing."
"It's fine." Yuuji's smile spread. "You're human after all. Our minds play tricks on us and make us see the worst in ourselves even though we're perfect in everyway that we are. Never compare yourself to others, my love. You're a different work of divine art - a separate design from the sea of multitude. Trying to look at others and copy them will do you no good. Bringing yourself down and trying to be the same as others will bring you nothing but sorrow and misery. I love you the way you are. You're my divine gift. Never change your core self to please others."
Sukuna's heart felt lighter than it had ever been before in weeks. Hearing those words from the one who held his heart made his eyes watered.
Sukuna leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on Yuuji's lips before resting his forehead against Yuuji's. He closed his eyes and said, "I love you."
"I love you too. Never forget that you big old grandpa."
Sukuna chuckled deeply. "I won't."
The two stayed like that for some few moments before Yuuji moved back.
"Besides, you're now like this because you're at rest." Yuuji informed him. "That and my good food is fattening you up!" He laughed, reaching for Sukuna's stomach and giving it a rub and a shake.
"Ha! I doubt that, Gaki. You and our hellions keep me on my toes everytime." Sukuna said with a teasing grin. "And my money keep you all well fed! And you looking sexy and cute~"
Yuuji let out a shriek of happiness as Sukuna grabbed his folds and started fondling them. He turned and tried to run away but Sukuna wrapped his strong arms around him and continued fondling and tickling him, causing loud pearls of laughter to fill the room.