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“Hey, Tsukasa-kun? Tsukasa-kun, are you still up?”
Someone shook Tsukasa’s shoulder gently. Tsukasa, who was surprisingly still awake, turned around to see Rui gazing at him.
The two have been together for about a year at that point. They were third years now and, blessed with luck, got to be in the same class as well. One of their classmates was throwing a big sleepover party, mainly for their class only, but there were also a few other students from their year. Most were already asleep, and if they weren’t, then they were making out somewhere in another room.
“Hmm?” Tsukasa replied with a curious look on his face.
“Come closer,” Rui whispered, patiently waiting for Tsukasa’s next move.
The blonde naturally got closer. After all, how could he refuse to do as his boyfriend asked? When Tsukasa was close enough, Rui grabbed him by the collar of his sweater and pulled him down for a kiss. The kiss was short but left the star baffled for a moment nonetheless.
“What was that for?” Tsukasa giggled out, a soft smile adorning his face.
“I missed my hourly does of Tsukasa-kun, fufu~” Rui answered the question with the same lovesick expression on his face.
Tsukasa couldn’t help but reach back down to kiss Rui again. He adored the feeling of their lips together. He believed they fit together like two puzzle pieces of the same set. They kept exchanging soft kisses and quiet laughter, careful not to wake their classmates up.
Tsukasa and Rui have never hid their relationship, but at the same time, they’ve never officially announced it to people other than their close friends. They wouldn’t be surprised if some people still believed there were only platonic feelings between them. Though, it seemed unrealistic, considering how they behaved at school.
As the two went on and on with kissing each other and laughing like the idiots they are, one of Tsukasa's hands went up to cup Rui’s cheek while the other helped him keep his balance above Rui. Both of Rui’s hands were clutched on the blonde’s sweater, then they slowly moved down to Tsukasa’s waist.
“Don’t you dare go any further down,” Tsukasa threatened lightheartedly.
“I wasn’t going to, my dear,” Rui chuckled with his signature cat-like grin plastered on his face and pulled Tsukasa down to make him lose his balance so he was lying on top of him.
Tsukasa groaned at his boyfriend’s teasing a bit too loudly.
“Shh, you don’t want our secret to be revealed to the others like that, now do you?” Rui responded to Tsukasa’s groan.
Really, their relationship was hardly a secret, but Rui just liked to treat it as one nonetheless. They both enjoyed these moments for themselves and didn’t feel the need to show everything to the world all the time. People thought whatever they wanted anyway, so what use was there in telling them they were a couple?
“Hey, wanna go out on the balcony?” Rui asked a short while after.
“But it’s cold outside…”
“You wear a sweater, though.”
“And shorts??? I don’t want my legs to freeze!”
“Wanna wear my sweatpants, then?”
“They’re too big for me…”
“Oh, so my sweatpants are too big, but stealing my hoodies is fine?”
“That’s a completely different story! And I’m not stealing them either!”
“Okay, then when was the last time you gave me one of my hoodies back?”
“Ugh, okay, let’s go to the balcony…”
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Rui and Tsukasa silently stepped out on the balcony and sat down on the floor. It was a pretty cold night, just as Tsukasa said. His face immediately scrunched up after sitting down.
“Guh, it’s freezing…” Tsukasa complained. Rui was quick to wrap his arms around Tsukasa’s waist and leaned his head on his shoulder.
“Better?” Rui asked as Tsukasa put his hands above his.
“Better,” the star’s cheeks were flushed with a soft shade of red.
They sat in silence for a moment. Rui’s eyes were closed, breathing steadily and feeling comfort in the embrace. Rui wished they could forever stay this way. Tsukasa on the other hand gazed up to the sky, admiring the stars and feeling the warmth of his beloved director so close to him.
“Say, Rui, did you ever think we’d end up here one day? Together?” Tsukasa finally curiously asked.
Rui opened his eyes, taking time to think of a response.
“No, never,” he simply answered and then continued, “I never thought I’d one day end up with the love of my life admiring the starry night sky.”
Rui’s words were sincere. They left Tsukasa speechless because of the way Rui said them ever so softly and genuinely. Rui took this as a chance to elaborate.
“If I’m honest, I never believed I’d fall for you, let alone end up with you together. I’ve heard things about you even before you chased me down on the rooftop, fufu,” Rui couldn’t help but chuckle at the memory, “From what I had heard, you were quite the annoying and eccentric character.”
“H- hey!” Tsukasa exclaimed but was soon interrupted in his attempt to complain.
“My thoughts were quickly confirmed after we met and especially after you blamed Nene for the failure of our first show. But then…” Rui fell silent for a short moment, seemingly lost in thought, “Then you showed me your true feelings. Your gentle and caring side. Your wonderful personality that was hidden for a while.”
Silence.
“And then our feelings turned into something beautiful that has brought us here.”
Both were blushing.
Rui tightened his grip on Tsukasa’s waist.
“You are the first person that has ever made me feel truly happy with myself,” Rui’s voice was barely above a whisper.
“But… What about Nene and Mizuki?” Tsukasa finally spoke up again and asked.
“Well, I cherish them both of course. Nene was with me since we were children. I appreciate her a lot for sticking with me for so long. I don’t know if I would’ve been able to deal with me for so long.”
A short pause.
“But I’ve always seen her more as a little sister of some sort. We’re neighbors, after all. I was never comfortable with myself despite her efforts.”
“Mizuki was with me through the lowest point in my life. We felt both miserable in middle school… Neither of us had a place where we belonged to or where we felt comfortable until we met on the rooftop. We couldn’t help each other but at least we could share our loneliness and ease the pain.”
While Rui was holding his monolog, Tsukasa was listening carefully to every single word he spoke and was drawing circles on the back of Rui’s hands.
“But when I met you, and came to learn more about you, I found a place to feel safe and to be myself. That made me incredibly happy. I finally felt understood by someone. By someone who shared the same passion, the same love. I felt loved by you.”
When Rui finished, Tsukasa almost immediately turned to pull his director into a tight hug. Rui was surprised at first but soon reciprocated the hug. They sat in silence once again. No words were needed for them to understand each other’s feelings right at that moment.
Then Tsukasa spoke up.
“I am so happy to hear that, Rui,” His voice was a little shaky and he could feel his eyes almost tearing up, “I am so damn happy.”
“Haha, you sound like you’re about to cry, but… I am happier than ever right now,” Rui’s voice was just as shaky as Tsukasa’s before.
“Pff, I love you, you idiot,” Tsukasa whispered ever so lovingly.
Rui whispered back, with the softest and most loving tone,
“Fufu, I love you too, my star.”