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Rodolfo wasn't just pissed. He was fuming.
The Colonel was a stubborn man with a short temper. It didn't take much to egg him on, to make him explode in anger. But by God, Rodolfo was so much worse when he wanted to be
-"Rudy, please-"
-"Don't ' Rudy ' me", he spat, furiously picking his clothes up from the floor. "I told you a million times how I felt about you treating me this way. I can't fucking do this, Alejandro"
Alejandro cautiously approached his fuming lover. "I know, but- you never say anything, how was I supposed to-"
-"You never ask !", Rodofo cut him off, slapping his hand away before Alejandro could touch him. He looked ridiculous, standing there in only his underwear, but Rodolfo hardly paid mind to that. "I know your work's important and all that, but for fucks sake..! I've spent all these nights without you, just for you to not even look at me when we have sex? Are you serious?!" His voice cracked with anger. "I get that you're busy, I do, but if you're not willing to put in the effort-"
-"Don't", Alejandro shook his head, his eyes slightly watery. He was trying his damn hardest to keep his composure, but was slowly starting to crack. "I'm begging you Rudy, don't do this-"
-"I don't want to leave you", Rodolfo said, but he wasn't sure he meant it. "All I want is.. I want a moment to think, alright? Stop jumping to conclusions, damn..!"
Alejandro rubbed his eyes, trying to show as little worry as possible. "I'm so sorry Rudy, is there nothing I can do-"
-"You can leave me alone for a bit. That's all I'm asking you to do" Rodolfo put his shirt and sweatpants back on. "I can't take this anymore, Ale. It's hard enough as it is, but I can't be the only one putting effort into this relationship. You think I enjoy eating all by myself every single day? Or sleeping alone?"
He gave him one last angry look before walking to the door. "If even sex won't get you to pay a little attention to me, then you can forget about this all. You need to do better"
Before Alejandro could even defend himself, he slammed the door shut. Some poor passerby had definitely heard his shouting and he couldn't bear embarrassing himself further.
Sometimes Rodolfo forgot he even had his own room. He had moved his belongings to Alejandro's years ago and just never felt the need to go back. They shared everything; their clothes, their food, their bed. But it seemed that Alejandro's priorities had changed.
Rodolfo didn't remember the last time he felt particularly sad. A man like him had experienced so much loss and tragedy in his lifetime, helplessness like that was foreign. Like a distant memory of being a child and scraping his knee from falling off the bike, or the loss of a beloved pet.
Yet the second Rodolfo arrived at his room and locked the door, the first thing he did was quietly weep into his hands. Very few tears came out, but Rodolfo couldn't stop the silent sobs that escaped his throat. It was like the glue that held him together was starting to melt, and no one was there to pick up the pieces. Not anymore .
Without Alejandro he was nothing. But the neglect had been going on for months now. When was the last time he had kissed his lover, or held his hand, or even had a proper conversation with him? He couldn't remember. It was like all those years of pining and terrible, awkward dates and all those nights spent together were for nothing. Like the foundation they had built together was starting to crack, all because Alejandro had decided to abandon the one who loved him the most.
Rodolfo's sobs didn't stop. He held a pillow close to his chest and face, letting out all the pent up anger and sadness he didn't know was building up inside of him. Normally he'd seek out hugs or kisses to calm his nerves, but now he was wondering if he'd experience that comfort ever again. To be held by someone, who'd whisper words of assurance and encouragement in his ear, who'd make him feel like the luckiest man alive. He had given up so much for Alejandro. His dreams, his livelihood. He was the first man he ever kissed, the man he sacrificed everything for. He swore he'd follow him to the end of the world, but now that they stood by the edge, neither were sure what to do. And all Rodolfo could think of was “What was all this for?”
Deep inside he hoped that Alejandro would come knocking at his door, on his knees and begging Rodolfo to forgive him. But even if he did, Rodolfo wasn't sure how he’d react. He wanted things to go back to normal more than anything else, but it seemed like it was a long time coming. Like nothing could be done to salvage what was left of their love.
So he sat at the edge of his bed, feeling disgusted and alone for the first time in his life. His life was nothing without Alejandro. The entire course of his life was built up on even the slimmest chance to get Ale to love him. And if he couldn’t have that, then what was he supposed to do? Leave the military? And go where? To what family? Alejandro was all he had and ever needed until that point. Of course, he entered this relationship knowing that there was a risk, but he never thought it would actually happen..!
But now it was too late for regret. Now all he could do was hope that he was just being dramatic and that things would fix themselves on their own.
Rodolfo rolled his eyes as he crumbled yet another apology note. Well, calling it an “apology” would imply that Alejandro seemed genuine and was admitting his mistakes. Instead, it only narrowed down to “I am sorry you feel this way” instead of “I am sorry for making you feel this way”. Couldn’t he tell that that was not the damn problem?! Rodolfo made sure to look into his eyes from across the cafeteria as he threw the note in the garbage bin. Alejandro was a damn good actor, because Rudy could hear his heart shatter from miles away, all while the former looked unfazed to any third party watching from afar.
Ten days passed since the initial argument. They never formally agreed to go their separate ways. In fact, it felt like they were still together, just more careful about hiding their love from the public eye; As it’s expected, since neither wanted to deal with the stigma of being a queer man in the military. But this was different. They weren’t apart because they were being sneaky, they were apart because they were petty . Or, well, Rodolfo was. It didn’t take him long to get his emotions under control and realise the deeper root of the issue. He never truly intended to break up with Alejandro, he was just not doing well after feeling ignored for an extended period of time. In fact, the very next day after his mental breakdown, he cringed at the memory of crying over a man . He was better than that.
But Rodolfo intended to admit his wrongs and talk it out. He truly did! But when he woke up to apology notes and love confessions, roses and boxes of chocolates hidden in places only he would find them in, he couldn’t help himself. The desperation in Alejandro’s eyes whenever he didn’t respond to his greetings, or threw his notes away.. it made Rodolfo feel a little.. Powerful .
Can you blame him? He had never realised it before, but he was sick of mindlessly following the Colonel’s every command. Having Alejandro beg for his attention, for his forgiveness, it was so foreign and strange, Rodolfo could simply not get enough. He was finally getting a taste of what Alejandro must feel on the daily, and he was not about to give it up anytime soon.
So their refusal to talk like adults led them there. Avoiding each other for over a week, which was the longest they hadn’t spoken in. Even after their regular arguments, they’d make up within hours. This was new! And Rodolfo could tell, Aleandro didn’t want him to leave, so the consequence of avoiding him and breaking his heart from day to day was mostly inconsequential. All it did was give the Colonel a taste of his own medicine.
After the first few days, Alejandro got desperate. He started leaving the notes everywhere, even in Rodolfo’s gear. He made sure to put Rodolfo on the same teams and missions as himself, just to force them to be close. As frustrating as it was, Rodolfo only ever showed indifference to Alejandro’s desperation.
Eventually, the expensive gifts rolled in. A box of chocolate was replaced by huge gift baskets and notes were replaced with letters. And of course, every time Rodolfo went to bed, he was sure to find an expensive bottle of champagne in his room, or jewellery he couldn’t even wear because of the dress code. But fuck if Rodolfo was about to say No to a fancy new watch. He was petty, not an idiot.
But on this particular night, Rodolfo knew that it was time to talk to Alejandro again, as the Colonel’s desperation was clear in his newest gift; A fancy, expensive looking set of make-up and lingerie Rodolfo had shown him on his phone months prior when they first started exploring that part of themselves, and Rudy mentioned wanting to try that brand.
He wanted to be angry. How dare that asshole assume he’d want to have sex with him again after the shit he pulled?! But at the same time, it was delicious . To know Alejandro still thought of him that way, and that he was probably realising what he had lost. Rodolfo wanted to regret it, but finally he took a piece of paper from a notebook and scribbled a short sentence down. He waited until he knew Alejandro would be asleep - he had memorised his schedule years ago - before sneaking to his office and using the spare key he never gave back to unlock it. When he was sure the coast was clear, he placed the note on top of a closed laptop, where he knew Alejandro would see it the next morning.
“We need to talk.” was all it said. Rodolfo didn’t want to waste any more ink on that desperate attention whore of a man, even though he found it a bit cute.
-”Rudy I am so so-”
-”Sit down and shut up” Rodolfo didn’t look up from his menu for a few agonising seconds. Alejandro immediately went quiet before sitting by his usual seat.
Rodolfo didn’t need to read the menu, because he knew what he’d order. They were at this restaurant millions of times before, he knew what they offered by heart. He just wanted to waste time and stretch the evening out for longer than it needed to be.
It was kind of amusing, watching Alejandro squirm in his seat. Clearly there were a lot of things on his mind, and he looked like he was about to explode. But he remained patient until a waitress took their orders. Only when she disappeared did Rodolfo neatly put the menu to the side before leaning into his seat, crossing his arms.
-"So", he started, raising an eyebrow. "What do you have to say for yourself'
-"I.. I didn't think when I gave you that package", Alejandro looked at the table in shame. "It was totally impulsive. I'm sorry"
-"That's not what I'm talking about Ale", Rodolfo sighed. "You had all this time to think and you still don't get it"
Alejandro finally looked up. The tears in his eyes almost made Rodolfo melt. He wanted to devour him whole, right then and there. But he held it back for now.
-"I don't understand, what-"
-"All I ever wanted", Rodolfo frowned, "was a little bit of attention from the man who swore he'd love me until the end. Where did that man go, Ale?'
-"Rudy please, don't do this.." He looked like the dam was about to give in.
-"I am a man with needs. I can't initiate sex every time I want you to pay attention to me. And even then, you have the audacity to be unhappy"
-"I-I really didn't mean it like that Rudy, please-"
-"What do you take me for, Ale?", he didn't let him finish, further pushing the topic into the direction he knew would only break the Colonel more and more. "Did you ever mean it when you said you loved me? Or did you just like being seen with me?"
He smiled at the waitress and thanked her when she brought them their drinks. Alejandro was too focused on not breaking down to even acknowledge her.
-"I don't know anymore, Ale.. What do you want me to do? How am I supposed to forgive a man who won’t treat me right?”
-”Rudy, I’m begging you-”, his voice cracked in his desperate attempt to not break down then and there. “Don’t throw away what we built for years-”
-”Are you serious?!”, Rodolfo scoffed. “I can’t fucking believe you! All this time and still, all you think about is yourself and what we built? Don’t you get it?!”
-”Please, don’t-”
-”Ale, listen to me very carefully” Alejandro’s ears immediately perked up as he finally made eye contact with Rodolfo. He looked terrible with dark bags accentuating his lack of sleep the past few days. His hair was oily and his skin dry. Clearly he had stopped using the chapstick Rodolfo had bought him not long ago. “I want to believe you’re better than this, you know”
Alejandro nodded, his eyes widening with hope.
-”Of course”
-”And quite frankly, leaving you would be a hassle. I want to give you a chance to prove yourself”
-”Anything you want Rudy, please..!”
-”I don’t doubt it” Rodolfo chuckled. “We both have the week off soon, you know?”
-”What do you have in mind?”
-”I want us to be alone, and fix this together” Rodolfo took a sip from his wine. “And just in case it doesn’t work out, I can get all my stuff out while we’re at it”
Watching fear spread in Alejandro’s eyes at the idea of losing Rodolfo was straight up delicious. Who could blame Rudy for wanting to torture the Colonel a little? “Is that understood?”
-”Yes”
-”Perfect” Rodolfo looked around, waiting for their food impatiently. “Also, don't think that I'm paying”
-”Yes of course, Rudy”
Perhaps the only reason Rodolfo didn’t want to lose Alejandro wasn’t out of true love, or out of the realisation that he was wrong. Perhaps he missed having someone who’d love and pamper him as if he were royalty.
Alejandro spared no expense on his Rudy. Not only did he pay for dinner as promised, he made sure to buy some new sheets for their bed in Alejandro’s room. He must have hoped that it would end like that, Rodolfo thought, but he didn’t care much. He was perfectly content with being carried inside and tucked in, the Colonel following his every command. For once it was not the other way around, and Rodolfo started understanding why Alejandro loved being in control so much.
-”Is there anything else I can do for you?”, Alejandro asked as he poured them a glass of water each.
-”Hm, I think there’s one more thing”, Rodolfo smirked. “Will you get on the bed?”
Rodolfo sat up before leaning over to rummage through the nightstand. He made sure Alejandro didn’t see it, but of course both knew in what direction this was going.
-”Nothing I won’t do for you”
-”Perfect” Rodolfo gave him a sweet smile. "Then I need you to get on your back for me”
With a curious and nervous look on his face, Alejandro obeyed. He made himself comfortable on the sheets, excited to see what Rudy had in store.
-”I think it’s time we try something new, no?”
-”How ominous” Alejandro chuckled as Rodolfo made his way between his thighs.
-"Indeed" Rodolfo grinned cruelly, letting his fingers dance under Alejandro’s shirt. He moved it up, exposing his chiselled, tanned chest and happy trail. "I'm sure I'll enjoy it. Not so sure about you"
-"What are you saying, Rudy..?"
-"Well", Rodolfo slipped a finger under his belt. "I have noticed something about you, Colonel"
Alejandro bit his lip as his blood travelled south. "Hm?"
-"I think this whole.. military thing is making you difficult" He took his sweet time removing Alejandro's pants. "The power that comes with being a leader.. you think you're superiour in some way, and that you can get away with things"
-"What are you-"
-"Someone needs to put you in your place, Ale" Rodolfo wore a cruel smirk.
Alejandro had little time to prepare for when his pants were pushed down to his thighs. Rodolfo wasted no time mouthing his clothed member through while softly stroking his thighs. He bit his lip as Rodolfo brushed his tongue over his tip, which was peeking through his waistband.
-"Fuck, Rudy..", he hummed, burying a hand in Rodolfo's hair. "So good.."
-"Mhm, tell me about it", Rodolfo smirked confidently.
He finally pulled his boxers down when they became damp with sweat and spit. Precum was leaking from Alejandro's tip, making Rodolfo chuckle. How desperate..
He licked a stripe up Alejandro's cock before taking it into his mouth. Ale gasped at the sudden warmth, to which Rudy could only roll his eyes. It's only been ten days or so , he thought, and the dog is already so desperate..
He looked like he was about to cry, like a heavy weight was lifted from his shoulders. Rodolfo tried to seem unfazed on the other hand, not wanting the Colonel to grow too cocky again. His objective was to humble him, not make his ego worse.
-"I love you so much Rudy", Alejandro whined, playing with his hair as Rodolfo took in more and more. "I couldn't bear losing you.."
-"Mh..", Rodolfo groaned in an annoyed manner while moving his head, completely dismissing the Colonel. He wrapped his fingers around the rest of his cock, stroking him in time with his head bobs. He brushed his tongue over his veins, knowing how sensitive they could get; and for sure, Alejandro was beyond blue-balled from being abandoned by his lover for so long.
-"I will do better, I promise" Ale threw his head back. "You're priceless to me, Rudy.. I couldn't let you leave.."
Rodofo hummed, sending vibrations up his cock. Alejandro could only groan in response as Rudy picked up on pace, using his tongue like a champ.
He relaxed his throat, taking in more and more. How convenient was it, that his gag reflex was practically nonexistent? It certainly made him popular with the guys (and by guys he meant Alejandro - he had never slept with anyone else in his life). Alejandro certainly loved it, thrusting his hips up and ruining him. He used Rodolfo's mouth like a fleshlight, which was dehumanising as it was arousing.
It didn't take Alejandro long before he shot ropes of spent down Rudy's throat, leaving a bitter taste in his mouth. He gasped at the sudden fullness, pulling off to gasp for air.
-"Ugh" Rodolfo rubbed his throat. "I'm getting rusty, I think"
-"You're doing wonderfully, darling", Alejandro raved, rubbing his eyes. He was clearly overwhelmed from being untouched for so long.
-"Bet" Rodolfo chuckled. "I sure hope you enjoyed this, then?"
-"Of course..-"
-"Because you won't get much more until I decide to forgive you"
Alejandro finally noticed what Rodolfo was hiding. "Are you.."
"Dead serious, Ale"
As soon as Alejandro’s cock was soft again, Rodolfo carefully put it into the cage. "That might teach you some discipline"
-"Fuck, you can't do this to me-"
-"I can. And I will" Rodolfo didn't so much as look at him as he lubed up a short metal rod. "I hope you went to the bathroom earlier, cuz that thing..", he teasingly brushed over his now caged cock, "is gonna be useless"
-"Aw come on, at least let me piss"
-"Oh, I will" Rudy chuckled, teasing his slit with the rod. "You just need to ask nicely"
Alejandro’s breath hitched as the rod was inserted. He hadn't done it many times, only twice or thrice. The rod wasn't even long, but he had no time to prepare mentally. How unfair..!
-"You're impossible", he cried.
-"I can always leave" Rodolfo ate up the terrified look on his face that mixed with pleasure and pain so beautifully. "But it will help you. You may not like it Ale, but you need to give up control"
-"N-Not like this.." Alejandro’s eyes became watery as the rod was further pushed into his urethra. "It's humiliating.."
-"That's exactly why it will help"
When it was all the way in, Rodolfo made sure it would stay in place before pushing Alejandro’s boxers up again. "Good boy"
-"Ugh.." Alejandro's face was flushed from embarrassment as he covered himself with the blanket. "You're lucky I love you.."
Rodolfo laughed. "That's what you think"