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book club
Today 10:35 AM
sang🥰:
you’re in love with wooyoung aren't you
jjongie🥰:
oh
let’s call
i think this conversation would be better that way
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“So you are,” Yeosang says when Jongho picks up. “You’re not denying it.”
“How did you…”
“I had a feeling for a while, but I didn’t really know for sure until that night.” Yeosang chews on his lip, fiddling with a stray thread on his comforter. His heart was racing, anxiety bursting through his veins.
“Was that the real reason you were so upset about what happened?” Jongho asks calmly. Yeosang’s quiet for a moment, bouncing back and forth in his mind. Yes, it was, but how could he just admit that? How could he admit that he practically threw away his entire family just because he was insecure?
“Baby,” Jongho sighs, “I want to know what’s going on in that pretty little head of yours right now.”
Despite how anxious and stressed he was, Yeosang couldn’t help the blush that crept on his cheeks. The effect that Jongho so easily had on him was ridiculous, honestly, always making him feel like a lovestruck fool who folds at just the tiniest bit of praise.
“It wasn’t that I was mad that you love him, really. I don’t mind that you want to date him, if you do, that is. It’s just, I was just jealous, and scared. I just…” He trails off, tears welling in his eyes. He didn't want admit it, couldn't admit it.
But of course, his boyfriend had grown to know how to read his mind, even over the phone.
“You were thinking I’d leave you for Wooyoung, weren't you?”
Silence.
“Aish, baby, ” Jongho frowned, “why? You know I love you more than anything.”
“I mean… How could I not? Wooyoung is… He’s perfect. He's fun, outgoing, charming, pretty, and I’m… I’m just me.”
Jongho felt his heart sink at how broken Yeosang sounded. He had always known Yeosang had felt insecure about himself, always comparing his looks to others, his personality to others, everything to others.
“I know that you think that you’re not enough,” he starts, “but baby, sweetheart, my love, I can promise you, you are so much more than what you’re painting yourself out to be. You’re so fucking stunning, Sangie. And you’re funny, and sweet, and so ridiculously smart. And you’re so talented too, seriously, every painting or drawing or sculpture that you show me always leaves me in awe. You’re also strong as fuck, and genuine, and a sarcastic little shit but god, god fucking damn it, I absolutely adore that about you. I adore everything about you, I love everything about you, I love you. It’s insane how in love I am with you, really. And yeah, maybe I love Wooyoung too, but… You’re still my other half, romantically and platonically. You're not just my boyfriend, you're also my soulmate, I know it. You will always be that, Yeosang, you’ll always have my heart. And I don’t care how long it takes, how much I have to keep trying to convince you, to make you believe that you are just as worthy of love as anyone else, ‘cause I’m not gonna stop until you do. I’m not gonna stop until you love yourself just as much as I love you.”
Yeosang was fully in tears by the time Jongho finished speaking, soft, whiny cries only breaking the younger’s heart further.
“Aish, where are you right now? Let me come so I can hold you, baby.”
“My dorm,” Yeosang stutters out in between shaky breaths.
“Okay, I’m on my way. Stay on the phone with me?”
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jongho defenders (but really he’s our defender)
Today 1:34 PM
boyfriend:
hey
bestie:
oh
hi
boyfriend:
i’m sorry
bestie:
dont be :(
its my fault
i should be the one apologizing
boyfriend:
no
just lemme speak for a minute
i’m sorry for how i acted
it wasn’t because i was upset over jongho being hurt
it was because i was insecure
and i took it out on you
and i am so, so fucking sorry about that
bestie:
oh
:( sangie
can i ask why were u insecure?
boyfriend:
i realized something
and i can't say what just yet
but it just made me feel really shitty and insecure about myself and i ended up blaming you about it when really, i was the only one to blame
bestie:
oh sangie :(
im so sorry that u felt that way
thank u for telling me
but pls dont blame urself, we cant help our insecurities
boyfriend:
you don't have to apologize, really
and i know
jongho helped me feel better about it
but i realized just how fucking shitty i was being to you and the others
and i’m so sorry, i wish i could take it all back
can we be friends again?
bestie:
oh of course
we never stopped
we were just having a little bump in the road, thats all
boyfriend:
okay
okay yeah, it was just a little bump
bestie:
yeah 😊
yayyy i missed u so much
boyfriend:
i missed you too😅
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eight is fate
Today 2:09 PM
literal angel:
hey guys
i’m sorry for how i was acting
i was being stupid
and i’ve already talked to wooyoung about it privately and i’ve already apologized and we're good again
i hope you can forgive me?
hot mountain:
oh of course we forgive you
you were just concerned about jongho, we completely understand
father:
we all let our emotions get the best of us sometimes
i know i do
but we could never blame you for ur love
i would’ve probably done the same had it been wooyoung or san😅
mother:
ah, welcome back sang
of course we forgive you, we were hardly even mad in the first place
just so worried about the three of you
we missed you
puppy:
yayyy yeosang is baaack
i missed u🥹
i was never mad
but ure still very forgiven
literal angel:
🥺🥺
you guys really are just the sweetest
this is the best family ever
i don't deserve you😭
hot mountain:
you do deserve us🥺
we love you sangiee
literal angel:
🥹🥹🥹🥹
baby bear:
🥹🥹🥹
our real baby:
ahh we’re completed again🥺
i’m baby:
we are 🥺
hot mountain:
we will always be eight 🥰
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book club
Today 5:34 PM
sang🥰:
well
since i know about wooyoung
i think i should tell you something too?
jjongie🥰:
what's up baby?
sang🥰:
i
think i like seonghwa?