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eight is fate
Today 11:06 AM
i’m baby:
what kind of fish would i be
baby bear:
um
why😂
i’m baby:
IM JUST CURIOUS
mother:
a damn clownfish
father:
clownfish
literal angel:
clown fish
LMAOOOOO
hot mountain:
💀💀💀
baby bear:
pfft
mother:
LMAO
WELL ITS SETTLED😂😂😂
father:
😂😂
i’m baby:
i
i dont know if i should laugh or be offended help😭😭
puppy:
😂😂😂😂😂😂
i mean i was gonna say like a goldfish
hot mountain:
same😂
our real baby:
queen angelfish
puppy:
ooo fancy👀
i’m baby:
GASPS
omg i just googled them
THEYRE SO PRETTY????
wait are u saying im pretty🥺
our real baby:
they are!!
yes i am 😂
baby bear:
oh they really are wow
i’m baby:
LEMME SMOOCH U RN
literal angel:
how do you even just know that😂
our real baby:
🤷😂
omg😂😂
puppy:
HE KNOWS A LOT OF THINGS HES LIKE A WALKING ENCYCLOPEDIA I SWEAR
father:
seriously like how big is that damn brain😂
i’m baby:
FOR REAL
JUST LAST WEEK WE WERE AT A SANDWICH SHOP
AND HE WAS LIKE
DID U KNOW THE INVENTOR OF SANDWICHES INVENTED THEM SO HE WOULDNT HAVE TO LEAVE HIS GAMBLING TABLE TO EAT??
literal angel:
i’m
you know what if we ever go to a trivia game we are bringing mingi😂😂
mother:
HOW DOES HE JUST KNOW THAT???
baby bear:
for real😂
the amount of facts i have heard from this man
puppy:
HAHAH OMG LETS DO THAT THO
our real baby:
😂😂😂😂
man idk i just have questions and i like finding answers🤷
and i love trivia!
jeopardy is my favorite show
mother:
that explains
SO MUCH
i’m baby:
oh my god it makes sense now😂
okay yeah we are taking mingi on a trivia night date next
father:
hell yeah
our real baby:
🥺
mother:
omg yes
puppy:
YES
i’m baby:
HEHEHEH THEN IT IS SETTLED
our real baby:
🥺🥺🥺
~
gym buddies 💪
Today 1:34 PM
san:
okay i hate that we’re avoiding each other
we should talk about it
yun:
yeah
i’m sorry for kissing you
i don’t know what came over me
san:
yunho
i liked it😅
yun:
oh
wait really?
san:
bruh i like you😭
yun:
oh
OH
san:
YEAH??
i just didn't know you liked me too
yun:
pfft
i’ve liked you since before i started dating mingi
san:
EH???
yun:
since like
maybe less than a month of us being friends😂
like before you got together with hongjoong and wooyoung actually
and then you three started dating and then i started dating mingi and so i shoved these feelings away
and i didn't let them just be until i started dating seonghwa and realized it was okay for me to also like other people
so yeah
i like you
a lot
san:
oh
THAT LONG???
yun:
yeah😭
san:
oh😅😅
yun:
well
i like you
and you like me
san:
so
i mean
wanna go for it?
a relationship, i mean😂
yun:
WAIT I WANTED TO ASK YOU OUT
san:
TOO LATE HAHAHAH
yun:
NO IM ASKING YOU OUT PROPERLY 😤
san:
HAHAH OMG PLEASE
i do not need a whole grand gesture😭
yun:
too bad ure getting it-
gimme like
a day
san:
oh god😭😭
-
wooyoung’s servants
Today 5:19 PM
joongie:
okay
i've been doing a lot of thinking about what you said
and i realized that my anger issues do get out of hand sometimes and i don't really know how to deal with them often and i really don't want to end up like my dad
so i just made a therapy appointment
sannie:
:o
that's good!
when?
joongie:
tomorrow
and it'll be over video chat so even when i'm back at uni i can still have the appointments
sannie:
that's wonderful
i’m really glad
but hongjoong, please don't worry about turning into your father
even if you have the same issues, you will never be him
he was the way he was because he chose to be, not because he had all these mental problems
hey, you’re recognizing that you have a problem and you’re taking that step to get help for it
that was something he never did, right?
so boom, you’re already better than your father ever was
joongie:
yeah
i guess u’re right
i think the reason i’ve been avoiding therapy was because i didn't want to be diagnosed with anything yk
like i don't want to go in and then hear like yeah you have borderline personality disorder
like honestly i know i do already, i just don't want that confirmation
sannie:
i get it
it’s different because then it’s like, set in stone
like it makes it more real
joongie:
exactly
and when my dad got diagnosed with bipolar that’s when everything really fell apart, u know
after that big psychotic break he had, it was like a huge 180 in him
and he kept refusing to get help even though we all knew that he needed it badly
his episodes were just getting more and more frequent and his mania would get so bad that half the time we didn’t even know if he would make it out the other end
and his depressive episodes were always so low we basically had him on suicide watch half the time
and when my mom started drinking because she couldn't cope, it was just straight downhill after that
they just.. they weren't the parents i knew and loved anymore
and i fucking regret not standing up to them and sticking up for my brother every time they abused us, whether it was my dad on his anger spiel, or my mom during one of her benders, or literally just because they fucking felt like it
bumjoong always protected me, and i was always too scared to do the same
like i keep thinking if i had.. he’d probably still be alive today
he wouldn't have gotten so fucked up mentally
maybe i’d still be living in california with him or something
maybe we actually could've been happy
sannie:
joong :(
baby, you can't blame yourself for bumjoong’s death
he took his own life, not you
and you were still so young, nobody’s blaming you for being afraid to defend yourself
joongie:
i just still feel guilty about it
like i could've done something
or stopped him
sannie:
i know you do baby
i know you miss him
but think of it this way
what if it was the other way around?
would you want bumjoong to blame himself?
i know i've never met him, but i'm so certain he wouldn't want you to feel this way
joongie:
...
no
no i wouldn't
he wouldn’t
sannie:
exactly baby
maybe try thinking about it that way?
joongie:
i guess i should
u know u should really consider going into psychology 😂
sannie:
i get told that so much😂
joongie:
well that’s not surprising
u’re practically like a therapist
sannie:
😂 eh i just have good advice sometimes
i think mingi would be better than me
or maybe seonghwa
joongie:
well honestly i can totally see mingi as one😂
he is really good at comforting us
sannie:
he is! he’s such a sweetheart 😅
joongie:
yeah
hey do u think mingi might be
i dunno
open to having another boyfriend
sannie:
omgggg
do you like mingi?🫣
joongie:
pffffft
no
maybe
just a little?
sannie:
oh you are CRUSHIIING😂
joongie:
shut up😂
… okay maybe i am😂
sannie:
cuuuuuuute😂
yeah he actually is he told me
joongie:
oh?🫣
sannie:
yeahh😂 we were just talking about our relationships one day and he like said that he wouldn't mind being poly
and at first i thought he meant seonghwa
but now that i’m thinking about it… i think he was thinking about you😂😂
joongie:
👀👀👀👀👀👀
HE IS MINE NOW
sannie:
oh god😂😂😂