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Featherington Residence
Penelope stood by the drawing table, her fingers brushing over swatches of fabric and neat squares of paint that Varley had laid before her. Light cream, soft beige, and a particular shade of blue caught her eye—calm, dignified, and to her mind, a perfect reflection of the life she wished to build.
“My lady,” Varley began, “the plasterers will await your final word before commencing. Shall I give the order?”
Before Penelope could answer, the familiar rustle of silks and the decisive tread of her mother broke the quiet. Portia Featherington swept into the room, her expression bright and already triumphant.
“Oh, dear! Penelope, I see you have started without me, but you must know I have already spoken with Varley upon this very matter,” Portia declared, chin high. “I have said, and I say again, this house requires a transformation worthy of the Featherington name. I cannot stop thinking of the colours of our last ball—orange, violet, radiant splendour! Everyone loved it so much. Nothing less will do.”
Penelope’s lips pressed together. With gentle resolve, she lifted her eyes.
“Indeed, Mama, you may have spoken, but the final decision is mine. And even though I appreciate your eagerness to help, I have chosen otherwise.”
Portia’s brows arched. “Otherwise? Pray, what colours could rival the brilliance of orange and violet?”
“Something gentler, something that might bring comfort to the family,” Penelope replied, her voice firm though not unkind. “A shade of cream upon the walls, and blue for contrast.”
Portia blinked, astonished. “Cream? Blue? Such pallid tones! That is no Featherington hue. That belongs to the Bridgertons.”
“Exactly, Mama,” Penelope answered softly, though with unmistakable pride. “For I am now Mrs. Bridgerton.”
Portia’s hand flew to her bodice in indignation. “And yet you remain a Featherington, Penelope! Do not forget it. Your son is the next Lord Featherington, and our house has ever stood for bold colours, vibrant and commanding. What you propose is… insipid.”
“No, Mama.” Penelope straightened, her voice cool but steady. “What I propose is ours. Colin and I are the ones entrusted with this home, and I believe a change of colours is exactly what we need for a new start as a family. The colours are chosen, and they are final.”
Portia’s face tightened, her pride wounded, her voice quivering with frustration. “I cannot believe this! This is still my home, Penelope.”
“It is, but now I am the one who takes care of it. And you gave me your word that you would respect my decisions when I gave birth to Thomas.”
Portia inhaled sharply, for she recalled it was true; when Penelope’s son had inherited the title, she had indeed promised not to interfere with the choices Colin and Penelope would make as the new heads of the Featherington household. She drew herself up, lips pursed.
“I sought only to aid you. Very well—have it your way.” With a whirl of skirts, she swept from the room.
Varley cast Penelope a sympathetic glance. “Shall I attend to her, madam?”
“Yes, Varley,” Penelope sighed, though her tone remained calm. “She will need comfort, and you have always been her ally. Go with her.”
When the housekeeper had departed, the room fell still again. Penelope exhaled, shoulders heavy, only to feel another presence at the doorway. She turned—and there stood Colin, arms folded, his expression unreadable.
“I heard,” he said quietly.
Penelope exhaled, a long, steady sigh that seemed to carry the weight of the room.
“I—I… did I… was I wrong?” she asked, her voice trembling just slightly, betraying the worry beneath her composed exterior.
He shook his head gently, taking a step closer. “No, my love. I do not believe you were wrong for standing by your thoughts. Quite the opposite, in fact. I am proud of you… of the way you are slowly learning to make your voice heard in our home.”
Her lips pressed together, and she shook her head lightly. “I know my mother meant no harm… truly, I do not think she did. But… I fear that if I start yielding to what she says, even just a little, she will begin to believe she is still the head of this house. And she is not. I am.”
Colin reached out, brushing a loose curl from her temple. “And I understand that, Pen. I see it clearly. You are the mistress of this home, and you have every right to claim it. Portia may offer her counsel, but the choice—the final word—is always yours. I will stand with you, whatever you decide.”
Penelope’s shoulders relaxed just slightly at his words, the tension easing, though her resolve remained strong.
“Then you know there will be no orange. Nor violet. Nor green. And most certainly, no yellow.”
Colin stepped forward, the hint of a smile playing about his lips, though his eyes were keen.
“I understand your aversion, Pen. But perhaps—perhaps—you might allow one concession. If not orange, nor violet… then yellow. A shade to lighten the cream. Nothing harsh, I promise.”
Her answer came at once, with decisive force.
“Absolutely not.”
Penelope’s refusal rang in the air like a gavel struck.
Colin’s brows lifted a fraction, though his eyes did not soften. “You dismiss it so quickly?”
“I do,” she replied, her chin tilting in quiet defiance. “Yellow shall never cover these walls. Not while I draw breath.”
“Penelope… do you know what kept me alive when I was at sea, aboard those endless tours? When the wind lashed and the waves roared, when night swallowed all around me, black sky above and the dark blue of the ocean beneath… it was your letters. Every single one. The only light, the only warmth, that reached my heart with the force of the sun… was you. You, Penelope. And I was too foolish then to know it properly.”
He drew a slow breath, letting the memory settle between them, then continued, voice lowering with a tender gravity:
“And that is why… the colours. The blue, yes—it represents my family, the legacy my father left me. But it also represents the sea, where I imagined you with every glance at the horizon. And more than that… it represents the blue of your eyes. Your very gaze, Pen.”
Penelope’s breath caught, her heart racing.
“And the yellow,” he said, stepping closer, “that is the hope I felt with every letter. The brightness of your smile, the sparkle in your eyes. The colour I searched for at every ball, every event—not because it was different from all the rest—but because it brought me warmth, security, and calm. Because it reminded me… of you. My sun. My light.”
He smiled softly before he added: “And that is why these colours belong in our home. Not as a whim, not as defiance—but as a promise. That no matter the darkness around us… there will always be light, Pen. Yours.”
Penelope took a deep breath before she could answer.
“Colin… I… I hear you,” she whispered, her voice trembling. “I feel every word, every memory you shared, and it fills my heart in ways I cannot fully describe. Our letters, your thoughts of me… they were light in the darkness, and I see now why you would like these colours for our home.”
She swallowed hard, emotions threatening to spill over. “But… even so, I cannot… I cannot allow that yellow to surround us. Not yet, not here. It carries too much of the past for me… the way it made me feel when I was a child and as a debutant. And though your words bring me warmth, and hope, and… everything you say is true, my heart still trembles at the thought.”
She leaned slightly against him, voice soft but resolute. “I wish I could, Colin. Truly. But I must… I must keep this for myself, at least in our home. I hope… I hope you understand.”
A muscle flickered along his jaw, the faintest sign of his displeasure. He stepped closer, lowering his voice. “Penelope, it is but a colour. Would it harm you to allow—”
“It is not but a colour,” she cut in, her tone sharp but not raised. “It is the echo of my unhappiest years, when gaiety was forced upon me with every citrus gown, every lemon shade that mocked rather than celebrated. I will not bring that sorrow into the home we build together.”
Colin studied her, his eyes searching her face, as though willing her to relent. But she did not falter; her gaze remained unwavering, her voice resolute.
“You are my husband, Colin, and I honour your counsel,” she said, softer now, though steady. “But on this I cannot yield. The matter is final, and I expect—nay, I require—that you respect it.”
The silence stretched, taut as a drawn bow. Colin’s lips parted, then closed again. His jaw tightened once more, and he drew a slow breath, the struggle plain upon his features. At last he inclined his head.
“As you wish,” he said, though the words were spoken with the restraint of a man biting back his true thoughts. He reached for her hand, pressed his lips to her knuckles with a tenderness that belied the tension in his frame, and added, more quietly, “Whatever you choose for our home shall please me well enough.”
Her heart softened at the gesture, yet she saw the set of his shoulders, the clipped nature of his bow. He was not content; she knew it.
“I must attend to certain matters,” he murmured, releasing her hand. With a brief kiss to her brow, he turned, his figure retreating through the doorway.
The chamber seemed colder in his absence. Penelope drew a breath, steadying herself, though unease coiled in her chest. For though she had won the argument, the manner of his leaving troubled her more than she wished to admit.
Three weeks had passed. In that time, Portia had taken up residence with Phillipa and Albion, while Colin and Penelope had temporarily settled at No. 5 with Violet, Hyacinth, and Gregory. The Featherington home had been left in careful hands as the renovations continued, every corner planned, every wall awaiting its new colours.
The era of anticipation had settled over them like a held breath. Colin walked beside Penelope, little Thomas cradled against her chest, the weight of the past weeks evident in the quiet set of his shoulders. Each step toward the home was heavy with expectation and the thrill of what awaited inside.
As they approached, the doors opened before them, revealing walls painted in yellow and blue. Penelope froze, her heart skipping a beat.
Yellow. Blue. Yellow. Blue.
Blue. Yellow. Blue. Yellow.
Every inch of the room vibrated with colour, defying the firm decisions she had made weeks before. Her gaze shot to Colin, brows furrowed, lips pressed tight in anger and disbelief.
Before she could speak, Colin stepped forward, arms open, eyes alight with intensity.
“Penelope,” he began, voice low yet unwavering, “I know you forbade it. I heard every word, and still I could not stop myself. Do you not see? Blue without yellow is but half of us. This colour—this cursed shade that brought you pain—was never sorrow to me. From the first moment, it was you. You in your bonnet, you in your laughter, you when you thought no one saw you. You think it mocked you, but I swear, Pen, it kept me alive in ways I cannot explain.”
Penelope’s grip on Thomas tightened, chest fluttering with emotions she could not immediately name.
“You are my sun,” Colin continued, stepping closer, gaze unwavering. “Without you, I am naught but shadow. I could not build these walls without honouring that truth. Look at them, Penelope—look at them and see what I see. Not grief. Not shame. Only the woman I love. My wife. The mother of my child. The light of my life.”
Tears pricked at her eyes, unbidden. The anger she had felt melted into something far deeper, far more tender. Slowly, she adjusted Thomas in her arms, allowing herself to absorb the full weight of Colin’s words.
He reached for her hands, clasping them gently. “This is our home, Pen. Not just mine, not just yours, but ours. Every colour, every corner, is a testament to us. To the life we are building. To Thomas. To the love I swear I will guard with all that I am.”
Penelope’s lips quivered, eyes shining. “Colin…” she whispered, voice thick with emotion. “It is… perfect.”
He smiled, brushing a stray curl from her forehead. “Perfect because it is you. And because it is us.”
She leaned into him, their foreheads touching, Thomas nestled safely between them. “I love you, Colin Bridgerton,” she murmured.
“And I love you,” he replied, pressing a tender kiss to her temple. “Forever, Penelope. Our blue, our yellow, our sun and our ocean.”
Penelope rose upon the very tips of her toes, her lips parted with quiet expectation. Colin bent without hesitation, lowering himself just enough for his mouth to find hers in a kiss both tender and unhurried—soft, steady, and filled with the unspoken devotion that had long since bound them together. When at last he drew back, his voice was low, almost conspiratorial, as though sharing a secret only she was worthy of knowing.
“Tell me, Pen—if you permit yellow upon our walls, might I also hope to see you again in one of those gowns you once wore?”
Penelope’s eyes widened a fraction, her lips curving despite herself. She met his gaze with a mixture of affection and warning.
“Do not push your luck, Colin,” she replied softly, though the glimmer of a smile betrayed her. “One step at a time. Perhaps… perhaps one day.”
Colin’s gaze lingered on her, amusement flickering in his eyes. He leaned a fraction closer, lowering his voice as though sharing a most daring thought.
“Very well. Oh, I think you should know,” he murmured, brushing his thumb lightly along her cheek, “that when I explained to your mother what I intended to do, she sought to dissuade me. But I told her precisely why I needed our home to be surrounded by your light.”
Penelope blinked, her brows rising in astonishment. “She tried to stop you?”
Colin inclined his head gravely, though his lips quirked with mischief. “Yes, she insisted that we needed to respect your decision even if we didn’t enjoyed them.”
“That was kind of her.”
“Yes, until I bribed her. I promised that if she kept the matter quiet, you would allow her the privilege of assisting in the selection of some of the curtains.”
Her gasp came swift, followed by a half-indignant, half-amused, “Colin!”
He chuckled, unrepentant. “Do not worry, my love. She knows the rules—no purple, no orange—and she understands that you must approve every choice she makes. Varley shall serve as the intermediary, though I confess I rather hope the two of you might find a decision together.”
Penelope’s expression softened, her heart swelling as she placed a hand against his chest. “Thank you, Colin… for everything you do for our family.”
He covered her hand with his own, his gaze holding hers with unwavering warmth. “You need not thank me, Penelope. I love you. You deserve this… and far more.”
Thomas stirred slightly in her arms, a tiny movement that made them both smile, their hearts swelling with the quiet joy of family and home at last.