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“Do you think I’m… culturally deficient?”

Ilya didn’t even look up from his phone.

“No,” he said automatically. “You are many things. Annoying sometimes. Dramatic always. But culturally deficient? Nyet.”

Across the couch, Shane made a small offended noise.

“That wasn’t very convincing.”

Ilya finally glanced up. Shane was sitting cross-legged on the other end of the couch with his laptop open, three tabs of what looked like academic articles, and the expression of someone who had already fallen down a research rabbit hole and was now trying to pretend he hadn’t.

This happened often.

Usually with hockey statistics, occasionally with cooking. Once, memorably, with penguins.

Ilya leaned back into the cushions. “Why are you asking this?”

Shane hesitated.

Which immediately made Ilya suspicious.

Shane was not good at hesitating. His brain usually ran faster than his filter.

“I just,” Shane said slowly, “feel like maybe I don’t know enough about my own culture.”

Ilya blinked.

That was… not the answer he had expected.

“You are Japanese.” Ilya said carefully.

“Yes.”

“And you know that already.”

Shane rolled his eyes. “That’s not what I mean.”

"Isn't being Japanese enough?”

Shane shifted on the couch, pulling one knee up to his chest.

“I grew up in Canada,” he said. “My mom didn’t really talk about it much. We didn’t celebrate anything. I don’t speak the language. I don’t know the traditions. I barely even know the history.”

Ilya watched him quietly.

Shane rarely talked about this kind of thing.

Usually when something bothered him, it came out immediately in a dramatic emotional spiral that involved pacing the apartment and making hand gestures.

This was… quieter.

Thoughtful.

A little uncertain.

“I guess I just feel weird about it,” Shane continued. “Like there’s this whole part of my identity that I never really connected with.”

Ilya considered that.

Then he shrugged.

“So connect with it.”

Shane blinked.

“That’s it?”

“Yes.”

“You’re not going to give me a deep motivational speech?”

“I am Russian,” Ilya said. “Our motivational speeches are suffering and vodka.”

Shane snorted.

“Helpful.”

Ilya nudged Shane’s foot with his own. “If you want to learn more, then learn. Read books. Take classes. Do cultural things.”

“What cultural things?”

“I don’t know,” Ilya said. “Tea ceremonies. Calligraphy. Samurai swords.”

“Samurai swords?”

“You would look good with sword.”

“That feels like a terrible idea.”

“Probably.” Ilya agreed.

Shane was quiet for a moment, tapping absentmindedly on the laptop trackpad.

“You really think I should?”

“Yes.”

“You won’t think it’s weird?”

“Shane,” Ilya said patiently, “you once spent three hours explaining migration patterns of penguins to me.”

“They’re fascinating.”

“They are birds.”

“Fascinating birds.”

Ilya waved a hand. “My point is nothing you do surprises me anymore. Go explore roots. Discover yourself.”

Shane’s eyes lit up slightly.

Which, in hindsight, should have been a warning sign.

“Okay,” Shane said slowly. “Yeah. Okay. Maybe I will.”

Ilya smiled faintly and went back to his phone.

If he had known that this decision would eventually involve ropes, secret classes, and the very real possibility of being tied to furniture in his own apartment, he might have asked more questions.

Unfortunately for him, he didn’t.

Three months later, Ilya was becoming increasingly convinced that something extremely suspicious was happening in his marriage.

He wasn’t entirely sure what.

But it was definitely something.

The first clue had been the distraction.

Shane had never been energetic, talkative or emotionally expressive to the point where Ilya sometimes felt like he was married to a black cat in human form.

But lately?

Shane would sit on the couch staring into space like his brain had temporarily left the building.

Ilya would say something.

Nothing.

Say it again.

Still nothing.

The third time usually worked.

“Shane.”

“Yeah?”

“I asked you three questions.”

“Oh.”

Which was strange.

But manageable.

Everyone got distracted sometimes.

Then came the disappearing.

Not dramatic disappearances.

Nothing suspicious enough to start a fight over.

Just… frequent.

Shane would come home from practice, shower, eat something very disgusting and healthy, and then suddenly remember he had “something to do.”

What something?

Unclear.

How long?

Also unclear.

Where?

Vague.

“I’ll be back in a few hours.” Shane would say.

And then he would leave.

Which left Ilya alone in the house wondering why his husband suddenly had a mysterious evening life.

At first he tried not to think about it.

Then the sex got weird.

Not bad. Never bad.

Just weird.

And that was the part that really started bothering him.

Because Shane had always been… enthusiastic.

Emotionally involved.

Present.

Now?

Now sometimes it felt like Shane was physically there while his brain was somewhere completely different.

Like he was mentally solving a math problem.

Or remembering a grocery list.

Or thinking about hockey strategies.

Which was deeply insulting.

If someone was going to zone out during sex, it should be Ilya. He was the one with the reputation for emotional unavailability.

Shane didn’t notice the change.

Which somehow made it worse.

The breaking point came on a Thursday.

Shane was sitting at the kitchen table with his laptop open and a very focused expression on his face.

Not unusual.

What was unusual was the fact that he immediately slammed the laptop shut when Ilya walked into the room.

Ilya stopped mid-step.

“…What was that?”

“Nothing.”

“That was not nothing.”

Shane leaned back in the chair, attempting a casual expression that fooled absolutely no one.

“I was just reading something.”

“You closed computer like it was government secret.”

“I didn’t.”

“You absolutely did.”

Shane crossed his arms.

“You’re being dramatic.”

“I am Russian,” Ilya said. “Dramatic is baseline setting.”

Shane snorted.

Then stood up very quickly.

“Anyway I actually have to go.”

Ilya blinked.

“You just got home.”

“Yeah.”

“And now you leave again?”

“It’s just… a thing.”

“What thing?”

Shane grabbed his jacket.

“Just a thing thing.”

“That is not explanation.”

“It’s a temporary thing.”

“What kind of temporary thing?”

Shane hesitated for half a second.

Which was all the confirmation Ilya needed that something extremely suspicious was happening.

“Just a class.” Shane said finally.

“A class.”

“Yes.”

“What class?”

Shane’s brain visibly stalled.

“A… cultural class.”

Ilya narrowed his eyes.

“Very specific.”

Shane smiled nervously.

“I’ll be back later!”

And then he fled.

Actually fled.

Door closed. Footsteps down the hallway. Silence.

Ilya stood in the kitchen staring at the empty space where his husband had just been.

Across town, Shane Hollander was trying very hard not to embarrass himself.

The studio was warm and softly lit, with polished wooden floors and shelves neatly stacked with coiled ropes.

Actual ropes.

Many ropes.

Different lengths.

Different textures.

Shane had never thought this much about rope in his entire life.

Now it was all he could think about.

“Okay,” the instructor said calmly. “Try again.”

Shane looked down at the knot in his hands.

It looked less like a knot and more like an abstract sculpture.

“This cannot possibly be correct.”

“You’re close.”

“I feel like I’m committing rope crimes.”

“Just tighten the friction wrap.”

Shane attempted to do that.

The rope immediately slipped.

He sighed.

“I swear I’m not usually this bad with my hands.”

The instructor raised an eyebrow.

“Do not phrase it like that.”

Shane immediately turned red.

“Oh my god.”

Several other students laughed quietly.

Which did not help.

Shane stared at the rope like it had personally betrayed him.

This had seemed so much easier when he was watching videos online.

Now his fingers felt clumsy and uncoordinated.

Still.

He couldn’t stop thinking about it.

The structure.

The patterns.

The way a few pieces of rope could create something intricate and beautiful.

It scratched the same part of his brain that loved hockey plays and strategic formations.

Except… artistic.

Also mildly scandalous.

Which he was still trying not to think about too hard.

Back at the house, Ilya was lying on the couch staring at the ceiling. Anya curled up in her dog bed near the fireplace, completely ignoring the mental anguish her dad was currently going through.

Shane had been gone for two hours.

Again.

The suspicion had evolved into a fully formed theory.

One he didn’t like.

One he couldn’t stop thinking about.

Because if Shane wasn’t cheating…

Then why was he acting like someone who was definitely hiding something?

Ilya rolled onto his side and grabbed his phone.

There was exactly one person who might know what was going on.

Unfortunately that person was Hayden, Ilya’s least favorite human being.

Not because Hayden was objectively terrible.

Just… irritating. Too smug. Too perceptive.

The kind of person who always seemed like he knew more than he was saying.

Their conversations usually lasted about four minutes before turning into passive-aggressive insults disguised as jokes.

Still.

Hayden knew Shane better than anyone.

If something was happening, he would know.

Ilya opened his contacts.

Scrolled.

Stopped.

The contact “NHL disappointment" appearing on the screen

His thumb hovered over the call button.

He imagined the conversation.

Hello Hayden, I suspect your best friend might be cheating on me.

Hayden would absolutely never let him live that down.

Ever.

The man would bring it up at every possible opportunity for the rest of their lives.

Weddings. Holidays. Possibly funerals.

Ilya sighed and dropped the phone onto his chest.

“Nyet.” he muttered.

Absolutely not.

He would rather solve this himself.

Even if solving it meant eventually confronting Shane.

Which he really didn’t want to do.

Because there was still a chance he was wrong.

A small chance.

A fragile, hopeful chance.

And Ilya wasn’t ready to destroy that yet.

An hour later the front door opened.

Shane stepped inside quietly.

He looked slightly flushed, hair messy, jacket slung over one shoulder.

Like someone who had just finished doing something mildly physical.

Ilya sat up immediately.

“Where were you.”

Shane froze mid-step.

“…Hello to you too.”

“Answer the question.”

Shane kicked his shoes off slowly.

“I told you. A class.”

“What kind of class lasts three hours.”

Shane hesitated.

Again.

Which was really not helping his case.

“Just… a cultural one.”

Ilya narrowed his eyes.

“About what.”

Shane opened his mouth.

Closed it.

Opened it again.

“…Art.”

Ilya stared at him.

“You are terrible liar.”

“I’m not lying!”

“You are hiding something.”

Shane rubbed the back of his neck.

“I’m just not ready to explain it yet.”

That answer, unfortunately, made Ilya feel worse.

Because people usually only said that when the explanation was going to be a problem.

He leaned back on the couch and crossed his arms.

“Fine.”

Shane blinked.

“…Fine?”

“Yes.”

“You’re not going to interrogate me?”

“I will later.”

Shane groaned softly.

“Great.”

Ilya watched him disappear into the bedroom.

His mind immediately started spinning again.

Because now he had confirmation, something was happening.

Shane was definitely hiding it.

The only question left was what.

And somehow Ilya had a feeling the answer was going to be extremely inconvenient for him.

He just didn’t know yet that the inconvenience would eventually involve ropes.

Many ropes.

And the very real possibility of being tied to the bed by his own husband.

Which, if anyone had told him three months ago, he absolutely would not have believed.

Snow had started falling while they were still inside the restaurant.

Not the aggressive, sideways kind that made driving home miserable, just soft flakes drifting lazily past the windows. The kind that made the streetlights glow and the sidewalks look quieter than they actually were.

Shane had spent most of dinner watching it collect on the glass.

Ilya had spent most of dinner watching Shane.

Which was not entirely unusual. Shane had a very expressive face. It was entertaining.

But tonight there was something else mixed in there. Anticipation maybe. Nervousness. A weird little smile that kept appearing and disappearing like he was thinking about something funny he wasn’t allowed to share yet.

The looks he shot at Ilya the whole night were downright sinful, not really helping the situation currently happening in his pants. Barely focusing on the food, when Shane was directly in front of him. 

Wearing those tight pants that hugged him perfectly and that fucking black shirt he couldn´t wait to tear off of him the second the front door opened.

Dinner itself had been good. Really good.

The place was called Kumo Izakaya, tucked onto a quieter street with warm lighting and a small menu written partly in Japanese that Shane had spent several minutes enthusiastically trying to pronounce.

Most of it sounded surprisingly native and accurate.

But the effort alone had made him grin like an idiot.

Which meant Ilya considered the evening a success.

Because tonight had been his responsibility.

Every year they switched who planned Valentine’s Day. It had started accidentally, but at some point it had turned into a competition neither of them openly acknowledged but both of them absolutely participated in. The rivalry bleeding into their marriage, even years after it had ended.

Last year Shane had rented a tiny cabin outside the city and attempted to cook dinner.

Attempted being the important word.

The pasta had somehow been both undercooked and burned, the smoke alarm had gone off twice, and at one point Shane had looked personally betrayed by a frying pan.

But it had been thoughtful.

Which meant Ilya had taken his turn very seriously.

Research had been done. Reservations had been made.

He had even practiced saying thank you in Japanese in the car beforehand.

It had come out sounding vaguely Russian.

Shane hadn’t cared.

Ilya did not make it very far into the house before deciding he had waited long enough.

Technically he had waited through dinner.

Which, in his opinion, was extremely impressive self-control.

Because Shane had worn that shirt.

The stupidly well-fitted dark one that clung just enough across his shoulders and chest to make Ilya’s brain stop working every time Shane leaned forward across the table. The one that kept shifting slightly when he moved, revealing the faintest glimpse of collarbone that Ilya had absolutely not been staring at for the entire meal.

He had been very patient.

Patient while Shane smiled at the waiter.

Patient while Shane leaned his elbows on the table and talked with his hands like he always did.

Patient while that shirt continued existing.

So the second the apartment door shut behind them, Ilya reached the very reasonable conclusion that patience had expired.

Shane barely had time to kick his shoes off before Ilya grabbed the front of his jacket and pulled him forward.

“Whoa—”

The rest of the sentence disappeared when Ilya kissed him.

Not gently.

Not patiently.

Hungry, like a man who had not eaten in days. 

Shane made a surprised sound against his mouth that quickly melted into laughter, his hands automatically landing on Ilya’s shoulders to steady himself.

“Ilya—”

“You wore that shirt on purpose.” Ilya muttered against his mouth. Grabbing Shane´s jaw to adjust the angle for better access to his neck.

“I did not—”

“You absolutely did.”

Shane laughed again, breath warm against his lips.

“And what if I did?”

“It is very criminal shirt.”

“That’s not a thing.”

“It is now.”

Ilya slid his hands up under the hem of it before Shane could argue further.

Warm skin. Cold, wandering hands.

Shane inhaled sharply.

“Okay wow—”

“I have been looking at this all night.” Ilya informed him, already dragging the shirt up over Shane’s stomach.

“You could have said something!”

“I did say something. With my eyes.”

“That explains nothing.”

The shirt came off halfway before Shane grabbed at Ilya’s wrists, still laughing.

“You’re unbelievable.”

“You married me.”

“Yes and I’m starting to think that was a mistake.”

“Too late now.”

Ilya leaned down and kissed him again just to shut him up.

Shane didn’t complain.

If anything he leaned into it, hands sliding up Ilya’s chest, fingers curling into the fabric of his shirt as Ilya walked them backward across the living room.

They bumped into the edge of the couch.

Then the hallway wall.

Neither of them seemed particularly concerned about it.

“Bedroom.” Shane muttered between kisses, already breathless.

“Good idea.”

Ilya was already moving in that direction.

They made it halfway up the staircase before Shane started laughing again.

“You’re in a hurry.”

“It is Valentine’s Day.”

Okay, that was enough explaining.

By the time they reached the second floor Shane’s hair was already messy, his shirt completely gone, and Ilya had started working on the buttons of his own.

The bedroom door swung open as they stumbled inside.

Anya lifted her head from the foot of the bed immediately.

Her tail started wagging.

“Nyet.” Ilya said automatically, pointing toward the hallway.

Anya tilted her head.

“Out.”

She stared at him.

Then at Shane.

Then back at Ilya.

Clearly evaluating whether this was a serious command or just one of the weird human noises they made sometimes.

Shane laughed breathlessly.

“Anya, go.”

That did it.

She hopped off the bed with a dramatic sigh and trotted out into the hallway like she had been personally inconvenienced by their existence.

Ilya shut the door behind her with his foot.

Then immediately turned back to Shane.

Who was standing there shirtless in the middle of the room looking extremely pleased with himself.

“Finally.” Ilya said.

Shane raised an eyebrow.

“You were the one attacking me.”

“Yes.”

“So technically this is your fault.”

“I accept responsibility.”

Ilya grabbed him again.

Another kiss.

Slower this time.

Shane’s hands slid up his neck, fingers threading briefly into his hair as Ilya walked them back toward the bed.

Mattress hit the back of Shane’s knees first.

He fell back onto it with a quiet laugh, pulling Ilya down with him.

For a second it looked like the night was going to go exactly the way Ilya had planned.

Which was very simple.

Step one: get Shane into bed.

Step two: remove remaining clothing.

Step three: absolutely ruin him.

Very straightforward plan.

Unfortunately Shane Hollander had other ideas.

Because just as Ilya leaned down to kiss him again, Shane pressed a hand flat against his chest.

“Wait.”

Ilya frowned slightly, chasing his lips again.

“…Why.”

Shane sat up.

Which was suspicious.

Then he said something that made Ilya pause completely.

“Sit up against the headboard.”

Ilya blinked.

“…What.”

“Headboard.”

Shane gestured behind him.

“Sit.”

There was a brief moment where Ilya considered arguing.

Because technically tonight had been his plan.

His year.

His Valentine’s Day victory.

But then Shane said it again.

“Sit, Ilya.”

And there was something about the tone. Something that had Ilya obeying him without another word.

Like he knew exactly what he was doing.

Which was new.

Extremely new.

And apparently extremely effective. 

And hot.

Ilya slowly shifted backward until his shoulders hit the headboard.

“…You are very bossy suddenly.”

Shane smirked slightly.

“And you’re talking too much.”

That did something extremely unhelpful to Ilya’s brain.

And, more importantly, to the rest of him.

He glanced down briefly.

Yep.

Still a problem.

A very obvious problem.

Fantastic.

He leaned his head back against the headboard with a slow exhale.

“…You know is usually me barking orders.”

Shane stepped off the bed.

Which was even more suspicious.

“Oh?”

“Yes.”

“And yet here you are.”

“…Here I am.”

Shane grinned.

“Trust me?”

Ilya looked at him.

At the confident posture.

At the faint flush across his chest from earlier.

At the way he clearly expected Ilya to listen.

And honestly?

Ilya would do almost anything that man asked.

Which was a dangerous personality trait but unfortunately a very accurate one.

“…Yes.” he admitted.

Shane nodded once.

Then turned and walked toward the door.

“Wait here.”

“You are leaving?! NOW?”

“Just a minute.”

“Da blyad’.”

The door clicked open, and Ilya jerked his head up, expecting Shane to stride back in, finally ready to give in. But instead, Shane just poked his head through and fixed him with a stern look. 

“Stop complaining!”

He snapped, then shut the door again, the click echoing in the silence.

Ilya sat there for a long beat, blinking at the empty space. He looked down at himself—still half-hard, still mostly clothed, thanks to his very mean husband’s insistence on making him wait.

 He groaned, palming himself through the fabric, but almost immediately, Shane’s voice barked from the other room.

“And no touching!”

Busted. Ilya sighed dramatically and yanked his hand out of his pants, muttering under his breath about cruel husbands and crueler rules. But he wasn’t above a little petty rebellion, he stripped out of the rest of his clothes, tossing them into the far corner in a messy heap. Shane hated it when he did that. He’d get a lecture for sure, little did he know that was exactly the plan.

Finally, after what felt like ages, the bedroom door opened again. Shane emerged, this time with something coiled in his hands. He was barefoot, shirtless, every line of muscle on display, and there was a wicked glint in his eyes.

“Fantastic, now can we get to it?” Ilya said, flopping back against the headboard and raising his hands in mock innocence. “My poor dick is feeling neglected.”

Shane just smirked, not breaking eye contact as he backed toward the en suite bathroom. 

“Patience, Ilya. I have to get ready.”

He held his hands behind his back, rope hidden but not invisible, drawing it out just enough to make Ilya’s curiosity spike.

“Shane. Malysh. That’s what I’m here for, no?”

Ilya called, voice thick, his cock twitching in anticipation.

“Alone,” Shane replied, eyes lingering on Ilya before he disappeared into the bathroom “No touching, remember!”

Ilya huffed, but he couldn’t deny he was getting off on the anticipation, the way Shane was making him wait. He stretched across the bed, naked and flushed, letting the tension simmer.

He heard the click of the bathroom door. Heard water running, the muted noises of movement—he wondered what Shane was doing in there, apart from the apparently very unsexy process of douching and more importantly what he was planning.

When Shane finally reappeared, the answer became clear. He carried a coil of red rope, his confidence radiating from every step. He looked at Ilya the way a predator might look at its prey, hungry, assured, already seeing the outcome.

Ilya’s heart started to race, arousal and curiosity mixing together.

“What… are you up to?” he asked, eyes flicking to the rope, then back to Shane’s face.

Shane just grinned, climbing onto the bed. He straddled Ilya’s hips, lowering himself until their bare skin touched, heat sparking everywhere they made contact. Shane bent down, kissing Ilya with a kind of desperate, claiming hunger. Tongues tangled, teeth scraping, both of them groaning into each other’s mouths, so fucking needy it was almost embarrassing.

When Shane finally broke the kiss, both of them were breathless. Shane asked, softer now, running his fingers over Ilya’s cheek. 

“Color?”

Ilya rolled his eyes, but he felt the sincerity in the question.

“Green,” he said, voice already trembling with need. “You planning to make me use it?”

Shane’s smile turned slow and dangerous.

“Only if you need to. Say it and everything stops. Understood?”

Ilya nodded, adrenaline prickling in his chest.

“Understood.”

“Good.”

Shane’s hands moved to Ilya’s wrists, guiding them above his head. The rope felt smooth and cool, Shane’s fingers steady and confident. As Shane looped and knotted, Ilya felt a flush of realization hit him, how certain Shane was, how practiced.

All the little mysteries of the last month fell into place—Shane’s sudden disappearances, the weirdly timed errands, the texts he’d never quite explained. The times Shane had come home late, smelling vaguely of something earthy, flushed and secretive.

“You’ve been… learning this?”

Ilya blurted, voice breathless as Shane secured another knot.

“All those afternoons you were gone, this is what you were doing?”

Shane paused for just a second, then smiled, pride glowing in his eyes.

“Yeah. I’ve been taking shibari classes. I wanted it to be perfect. Wanted you—wrapped up, just for me. Like my own, personal present.”

Ilya stared at him, heat lighting him up from the inside out.

“You went to actual classes? For me?”

Shane finished a final knot, running his palm over Ilya’s bound forearms.

“For you. Weeks of lessons. I wanted to get it right. I wanted you like this helpless, mine. So I could take my time.”

Ilya shivered, the ropes tight but not painful, making him feel claimed in a way he’d never felt before.

“You’re ridiculous. And also…so fucking hot right now.”

Shane’s eyes darkened. He leaned down, kissing Ilya deeply, then trailed his lips along Ilya’s jaw, down his neck, a thousand little bites and licks. With every touch, Ilya strained against the ropes, desperate for more, for everything. Each grind of Shane’s hips made Ilya gasp, the friction just enough to drive him wild.

“Look at you,” Shane whispered, dragging his fingers along the rope, his voice all rough velvet. “All wrapped up. My own Valentine’s present. You have no idea how long I’ve wanted this.”

“Then take it,” Ilya said, writhing under him.

“Take all of me. I’m yours.”

“I plan to.”

Shane pushed Ilya’s bound wrists up higher, pinning him to the headboard, his mouth everywhere, claiming, worshipping, devouring.

“I want to make you beg, Ilya. Want you desperate. Want you to remember you belong to me.”

Ilya’s laugh was broken and breathless.

“You are so fucking cruel.”

Shane grinned, lips brushing Ilya’s ear.

“And you love it.”

He shifted his weight, grinding down, both of them hissing at the pulse of friction. Shane’s free hand roamed everywhere, over rope, skin, down Ilya’s chest, teasing, making Ilya squirm and whine and laugh, every touch building the ache between them. Every knot, every inch of rope, a reminder that Shane had done all of this—learned all of this—just for him.

Shane’s gaze lingered on Ilya, drinking in the sight of him flushed, bound, panting with anticipation. The ropes already wound around Ilya’s wrists were intricate but clearly just the beginning. Shane shifted his hips, grinding down against Ilya in slow, maddening circles. The friction was intoxicating, every roll of Shane’s body sending a fresh shock of pleasure through Ilya’s cock.

“You like that, don’t you?”

Shane murmured, his voice low and teasing, lips brushing against Ilya’s ear. He nipped at the lobe, then soothed it with his tongue, his hands roaming possessively along Ilya’s sides.

“You like being helpless for me.”

Ilya’s breath hitched, heat blooming in his chest. He arched up, trying to chase more contact, but the ropes kept him in check.

“Fuck yes,” he gasped. “Please, Shane… don’t just tease me.”

Shane just smirked, grinding harder, making sure their cocks slid together, making Ilya squirm with every measured movement.

“Oh, I plan to tease you until you’re begging, baby. I want you at my mercy.”

Ilya moaned, his body trembling. He ached for more, every nerve ending alight from Shane’s relentless teasing. Shane dipped his head, kissing his way down Ilya’s throat, the press of his lips alternately gentle and demanding, leaving Ilya dizzy with want.

Shane finally pulled back, sitting upright. He ran his hands down Ilya’s chest, pausing at the rope.

“On your knees, gorgeous,” he ordered gently. “Up.”

Ilya obeyed as best he could, awkwardly shifting until he was kneeling on the bed. Shane helped him, steadying him with a hand at his elbow. The ropes pulled tight across Ilya’s chest and arms, making his body strain deliciously.

“Good boy.”

Shane murmured, admiration and hunger mingling in his voice. He grabbed the coil of rope he’d brought from the bathroom and began working, looping it around Ilya’s wrists behind his back.

Ilya shivered at the sensation, the rough-smooth friction of the cord, the surety of Shane’s touch. He felt Shane’s breath on his shoulder as he worked, felt the warmth of Shane’s body pressed close as rope wound around his wrists, pinning them securely together.

Shane’s hands were steady, sure. He threaded the rope with a precision that spoke of hours of practice. Each knot was tightened with care, not too tight, never painful, just enough to make Ilya feel owned, caught, displayed. The feeling sent a fresh wave of arousal through him, his cock throbbing, precome already pearling at the tip.

“You learning fast?” Ilya managed, his voice half-laugh, half-moan.

“Shh,” Shane whispered, kissing the nape of Ilya’s neck, fingers busy at the knots. “Let me enjoy this. I’ve been dreaming about having you like this, helpless. Beautiful.” 

He trailed his hands down Ilya’s sides, then looped the rope around Ilya’s waist, anchoring his wrists to the small of his back.

Shane’s hands kept moving, sliding down, looping the rope around Ilya’s thighs. He pushed Ilya’s knees apart, spreading him obscenely wide. The rope snaked around his upper thighs, securing them open, leaving Ilya both exposed and unable to close his legs.

“Hold still for me,” Shane murmured, his voice velvet and command, his fingers grazing Ilya’s skin as he worked. “I want you open. Want you perfect.”

Ilya whimpered, shuddering at the intimacy of it, the way the rope pressed into his flesh, the way every knot forced him into absolute vulnerability. He could feel his pulse pounding in his wrists, beating in time with the knots as they tightened.

Shane’s hands were everywhere, adjusting him, fingers grazing the inside of Ilya’s thigh, brushing against his cock just enough to make him twitch. Ilya groaned, hips trying to thrust, but the rope wouldn’t allow it, he was trapped, on display, every inch of him accessible to Shane’s hands and mouth.

“You look so good like this.”

Shane whispered.

“All for me.”

He knelt behind Ilya, arms wrapping around Ilya’s front, pulling him close. Their skin pressed together, Shane’s cock hot and hard against Ilya’s ass, his breath hot against Ilya’s neck.

Shane reached up, grabbing a soft black blindfold from the bedside table. He held it in front of Ilya’s eyes, letting him feel the silk.

“Yes?” he murmured, pausing, waiting for Ilya’s nod.

“Yes,” Ilya breathed, voice wrecked with want. “Please.”

Shane slid the blindfold over Ilya’s eyes, cutting off his sight. The world narrowed to sensation. The feeling of rope, the heat of Shane’s body, the brush of fingers and lips.

“Now you really are mine,” Shane whispered, voice right at Ilya’s ear. “Helpless. Every part of you mine to play with.”

Ilya shivered, the words sinking deep, leaving him raw and needy. The ropes bit into his flesh, holding him open, his cock throbbing, leaking. He couldn’t see anything, couldn’t do anything but feel.

Shane’s hands roamed, slow and meticulous, as if memorizing Ilya’s shape all over again. He traced the line of rope over Ilya’s thighs, down to his knees, then back up, fingers gliding along the sensitive skin just inside his legs. Ilya gasped, hips jerking instinctively, but there was nowhere to go.

Shane’s mouth found his throat, biting and sucking, leaving blooming marks. His teeth grazed Ilya’s shoulder, nipping just hard enough to make Ilya gasp. With his other hand, Shane cupped Ilya’s cock, stroking lightly, barely enough to satisfy.

“Shane, please—” Ilya choked, desperate for more, for anything.

Shane laughed softly, wicked and fond, his thumb rubbing a lazy circle at the base of Ilya’s cock. 

“You’re so beautiful like this. All mine. My perfect present.”

He squeezed just hard enough to make Ilya buck, then let go, drawing out a frustrated whine.

“Patience.”

Ilya strained against the ropes, desperate, every nerve ending on fire. He could feel Shane’s breath, Shane’s hands, the silk of the blindfold making everything more intense. Every touch was amplified, every brush of skin or rope like lightning.

Shane shifted, moving around to face Ilya. He knelt between Ilya’s spread knees, running his hands up the insides of Ilya’s thighs, fingers grazing dangerously close to Ilya’s cock, then veering away. Teasing, tormenting, dragging out Ilya’s need until it was a living thing between them.

“You have no idea what you do to me.”

Shane murmured, voice rough. He leaned in, licking a stripe up Ilya’s cock, tongue swirling around the head, tasting the precome there. Ilya moaned, head thrown back, hips trying to thrust, but the ropes held him fast.

Shane sucked the tip into his mouth, just for a moment, then pulled away, leaving Ilya trembling and wanting. 

“So fucking responsive,” Shane whispered. “I could do anything to you right now. Anything.”

Who was this man and where had his precious husband gone? Not that he was complaining at seeing this side of Shane, the side he rarely got to see.

“Please,” Ilya begged, the word a broken gasp. “Do it. Anything you want.”

Shane grinned, though Ilya couldn’t see it, and pressed a slow, filthy kiss to the inside of Ilya’s thigh. He trailed his fingers up, over Ilya’s hipbones, then back down, over the ropes, tracing the intricate knots he’d so carefully tied. He admired his handiwork, each line straight and perfect, each knot symmetrical, each loop a testament to the hours he’d spent practicing for this moment.

“You’re so fucking hot like this.”

Shane whispered. He leaned in, licking and nipping at Ilya’s stomach, his ribs, his chest, biting at Ilya’s nipples until Ilya was gasping, writhing as much as the ropes would allow.

Shane’s hands were greedy, possessive. He squeezed Ilya’s thighs, massaged his hips, ran his palms over every inch of exposed skin. He sucked a bruise into Ilya’s neck, then licked it better, every gesture a mix of tenderness and claim.

Ilya was undone, helpless, blind, bound and aching. Each touch felt like too much and not enough, his body straining for more, for release, for Shane’s mercy.

Shane pressed his mouth to Ilya’s ear, voice intimate, low.

“You’re mine. All mine. No one gets to see you like this but me. No one gets you—tied up, begging, desperate.”

He trailed his hand down Ilya’s chest, then curled his fingers tight around Ilya’s cock, finally giving him the friction he craved.

Ilya sobbed with relief, hips jerking, but Shane kept his grip firm, controlled.

“That’s it,” Shane whispered, stroking him slow and deep, thumb rubbing the head, gathering slick and spreading it down the shaft. “Let go for me. Show me how good I make you feel.”

Ilya couldn’t think, couldn’t breathe, could only feel—Shane’s hand, the ropes, the blindfold, the ache of being so thoroughly claimed. He moaned, louder now, no longer caring how desperate he sounded.

Shane shifted, leaning in to kiss Ilya, swallowing his cries, his hand never stopping, relentless and perfect. 

“You’re beautiful,” Shane murmured against his mouth. “Perfect. Mine.”

Ilya felt himself coming apart, everything narrowing to the heat coiling in his belly, the relentless pleasure of Shane’s hand, the rope biting into his skin, the blindfold making every sensation sharper. He gasped Shane’s name, coming hard, body shaking, helpless and free all at once.

He trembled beneath Shane, the world reduced to the slick heat of their bodies, the sting and comfort of rope, and the dizzying, helpless pleasure still rippling through him. He barely registered anything beyond the frantic thud of his heart, his senses now full of Shane, straddling him, flushed and radiant, sweat pearled on his brow, eyes glassy with need.

But even as the last shudder of Ilya’s orgasm faded, Shane didn’t let up. He shifted his hips purposefully and, before Ilya could even think to ask for mercy, reached behind his back and tugged off Ilya’s blindfold, tossing it carelessly aside. The world exploded with color and light, and Ilya’s eyes locked on Shane, his husband, his lover, his tormentor and his sanctuary.

“Don’t look away,” Shane ordered, his voice smoky and raw. “You’re going to watch me use you. You’re going to see just how much I want you.”

Ilya’s pulse leapt, but he was powerless to do anything but obey. His arms were still bound, his legs still splayed open by the intricate web of knots. He felt utterly exposed, every nerve ending raw. And then Shane, not missing a beat, braced himself with a hand on Ilya’s chest, lifted his hips, and guided Ilya’s cock—still thick, still slick and overly sensitive—back to his entrance.

Shane lowered himself in one slow, agonizing motion, his lips parted, a deep moan vibrating through him as he took Ilya in to the hilt. The sensation was almost too much. 

Ilya’s head snapped back, a gasp ripped from his throat, the sensitivity bordering on pain, but Shane was relentless, rolling his hips in slow, grinding circles that made Ilya’s vision blur all over again.

“Shane—fuck—too much—”

Ilya choked, but there was no real protest in his voice, only desperation, only want.

Shane just bared his teeth in a wicked smile, eyes never leaving Ilya’s.

“You can take it,” he purred, voice full of dark promise. “You love it. Let me see you.”

He started to move, at first slow and deliberate, then faster, riding Ilya with confidence and abandon. Sweat dripped down his chest, his cock hard and bobbing against his stomach. Ilya’s hands flexed uselessly in the ropes, desperate to touch, to anchor himself—anything, just to ground himself under the onslaught of sensation.

Shane braced himself on Ilya’s chest, fingertips digging in, fucking himself harder, chasing his own pleasure shamelessly. 

“You feel so fucking good,” he gasped, voice rough and thick with want. “I love having you like this. Mine. Helpless. Just for me.”

Ilya couldn’t look away. The sight of Shane, hair messy, skin flushed, eyes wild with pleasure and power was its own kind of sweet torture. Ilya felt himself growing hard again, impossibly, his cock twitching inside Shane, the overstimulation turning to a sharper, almost unbearable edge.

Shane arched his back, riding Ilya harder, the sound of skin on skin echoing off the walls, the rhythm wild and unrestrained now. He grabbed his own cock, stroking it in time with his movements, throwing his head back with a guttural moan.

“You going to come for me again?” he growled, voice splintering on the last word. “I want it. I want everything.”

Ilya sobbed, hips jerking, helpless under Shane’s weight, pinned by the ropes and the force of Shane’s will. He could feel his orgasm building again, impossibly close, the pleasure so sharp it almost hurt.

“Shane, please—” he gasped, not sure if he was begging for more or for mercy.

But Shane was beyond mercy. He rode Ilya ruthlessly, never breaking eye contact, his hand flying over his own cock.

“Come with me,” he demanded, voice breaking into a desperate whimper. “Fill me up. Now.”

The command sent Ilya over the edge again—he cried out, body wracked with a second, brutal orgasm, spilling inside Shane, eyes wide and frantic as he watched his husband fall apart above him. Shane’s own climax followed in a heartbeat, his whole body going rigid as he arched, cum splattering across Ilya’s chest and stomach. For a moment, everything was heat and pounding hearts and the ragged sound of their breathing.

Then, as the last tremors faded, reality came rushing back.

Shane’s dominance melted away, replaced by worry and tenderness. He eased off Ilya with trembling, careful movements, hissing at the oversensitivity but never letting go of Ilya’s gaze. He cupped Ilya’s face with both hands, thumbs stroking his cheeks. 

“Hey,” he whispered, voice suddenly small and gentle, “you okay? Are you here with me?”

Ilya blinked, dazed, a lazy grin blooming on his lips. 

“Yeah,” he rasped, letting his head loll back against the pillows.

“Never better. You… fuck, Shane, you’re incredible.”

Shane’s eyes softened, relief flickering across his face. He pressed a slow, loving kiss to Ilya’s lips.

“Color?” he asked quietly, running his hands through Ilya’s sweat-damp hair.

“Green,” Ilya whispered, smiling against Shane’s mouth. “So green.”

Shane’s smile was shaky, fond. “Good boy. Let’s get you free, hm?”

He climbed off the bed, moving with careful, practiced efficiency. Ilya watched through heavy-lidded eyes as Shane padded to the nightstand, grabbing the safety shears and fresh towels. Shane settled at Ilya’s side, murmuring praise and reassurance as his fingers worked the knots loose one by one.

The ropes peeled away from Ilya’s skin, leaving behind red indentations and a tingle of pins and needles. For a moment, Ilya worried it would hurt, but Shane was so gentle, so focused—checking his wrists, massaging warmth into his hands, tracing his fingers over every mark with reverence.

“You did so good for me,” Shane whispered, kissing the inside of Ilya’s wrist. “So beautiful. You made this perfect. Thank you for trusting me.”

Ilya melted under the attention, letting Shane guide his arms down, rubbing warmth back into his muscles. Shane lingered over every spot where rope had bitten a little more deeply, his touch feather-light, his concern obvious.

“Move your fingers for me,” Shane said, voice low and careful, watching Ilya flex his hands. “Any tingling? Any pain?”

“No, just weird. Good weird,” Ilya murmured. “You always take care of me.”

Shane’s gaze was soft, and he pressed another kiss to Ilya’s knuckles before turning to the mess on Ilya’s chest and thighs. He grabbed a clean, warm washcloth, gently cleaning the evidence of their pleasure, moving with infinite patience and care. Every pass of the cloth was a silent apology, a promise that Ilya was safe and cherished.

When Ilya was clean, Shane grabbed the bottle of lotion from the nightstand, squeezing a generous portion into his palm. He warmed it between his hands, then smoothed it over every rope mark and reddened spot, massaging gently, careful not to press too hard.

“I read that this helps the marks fade,” Shane murmured, working the lotion into Ilya’s skin. “But I kind of like seeing them. Proof that you’re mine.”

Ilya smiled, reaching out to stroke Shane’s cheek.

“You could paint me in rope every day if you keep pampering me like this.”

Shane laughed, low and shaky, and pressed his face into Ilya’s palm.

“Deal.”

When he was satisfied, Shane tucked himself under Ilya’s arm, pulling the covers over both of them. He curled close, still naked, pressing soft, lingering kisses to Ilya’s jaw, his temple, his collarbone.

“You okay? Still here?” he whispered.

“Yeah. Just… happy.” Ilya confessed, emotion thickening his voice.

They lay together, Shane tracing lazy circles on Ilya’s chest, grounding him with every gentle touch. The adrenaline began to fade, replaced by the warm, floaty feeling that always came after something intense—a sense of peace, of safety, of being exactly where he was meant to be.

Shane tilted his head to look at Ilya, his thumb stroking the hollow of Ilya’s throat.

“Do you want anything? Water? Chocolate?”

Ilya grinned.

“Both, obviously.”

Shane gave a soft, fond snort and slid out of bed, rummaging in the mini-fridge for a bottle of water and the bedside drawer for a bar of chocolate. He broke off a square and fed it to Ilya, watching with a self-satisfied smile as Ilya chewed and then sipped water, grateful for the simple, thoughtful care.

Shane climbed back into bed, pulling Ilya into his arms. For a while, they just lay there in silence, Shane’s fingers drawing slow, contented patterns on Ilya’s skin. The room was thick with the scent of sex, sweat, and the faint tang of lotion, but also with something else, something sacred, a sense of deep, abiding trust that went beyond words.

“Thank you for letting me do that,” Shane whispered, his voice unsteady with emotion. “I know it’s a lot. I know I can be… intense.”

Ilya kissed him, slow and sweet.

“I love every side you have. Especially intense ones. You make me feel wanted.”

Shane’s eyes shimmered, and he tucked himself closer.

“You are wanted. Every part of you. Always.”

They lay together, talking quietly—about the rope marks, about how Shane had practiced for weeks, about what felt good and what didn’t. Shane listened closely, asking for feedback, making notes in his mind for next time. Ilya teased him about his “dungeon master energy,” but there was nothing but warmth in his voice.

When Ilya’s eyes finally started to droop, Shane pressed a last kiss to his forehead.

“Sleep, baby. I’ll be right here.”

Ilya drifted off, wrapped in Shane’s arms, feeling safe and cherished. When he woke, sunlight was spilling across the bed, and Shane was already up, busy in the kitchen. A tray waited for Ilya—toast, eggs, coffee, another square of chocolate, and a glass of orange juice. Shane hovered by the door, watching anxiously, his hair wild, a smile tugging at his lips.

“You’re spoiling me.” Ilya teased, sitting up and stretching, wincing a little at the pleasant ache in his limbs.

Shane grinned, crossing over to kiss the top of Ilya’s head.

“You deserve it. Every bit.”

Ilya ate, Shane fussing over him with little touches and soft words, refilling his coffee, massaging his shoulders, checking the rope marks with gentle, careful fingers. Afterwards, Shane drew a warm bath, lowering Ilya into the water and sitting with him, washing his hair and tracing his skin, never straying far from his side.

They talked about everything and nothing. Shane apologized again for being too rough, and Ilya just laughed, reassuring him, sharing what he loved and gently suggesting what he might need next time.

And when the day faded and the marks on Ilya’s body turned faint, the care Shane had shown lingered—knotted into every loving gesture, every gentle word, every moment he spent holding Ilya close. The ropes were gone, but the trust they wove remained, a binding stronger than anything else they could ever tie.

And Ilya knew, no matter what, he’d gladly let Shane wrap him up and unwrap him, again and again, as long as it always led them back to this.

Safe, loved, and completely, beautifully theirs.