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It's always Raffy.
It's always his fault.
He is always wrong
Whether or not he does something, that doesn't matter, who cares when it's easier to blame.
And fighting back is not an option, because of course that is wrong too.
Of course it was his fault to be born in a rich family. It was nobody's fault but his that his mother was a famous actress who wanted him to follow her steps. It was his fault that he chose this major because his mom wanted him to follow behind her steps. And it was absolutely his fault that he wanted his mother to be proud of him.
Whose else could it be?
And yes it was his fault that he started liking Jack. It was his fault that he decided to make his move when Jack had finally broken up with his ex. It was his fault that he thought he was good enough to join that damn play. It was his fault that he tried to pursue a single man who he had secretly liked from afar for years. It had always been his fault, even when Dean kept provoking him, kept telling him how much he didn't matter, how he was beneath him, how bad of an actor he was, because who cares whether he has the skills or not? As long he has the connection.
That was his fault too; being capable to pull the string, even if he hated to have that privilege.
And then it was his fault that he hooked up with someone, it was his fault that this someone turned out to be Jack's step-brother. It was his fault that this hook up—Rome kept following him even after he had wanted it to be no more than a one time thing. It was his fault that Rome picked up an interest in him and even after knowing his feelings for Jack, and then of course it was his fault that Rome suddenly fell for him and he couldn't return that feeling because of course he was wrong for forgetting about the man he had liked for years and fall in love with someone that was meant to be just a hook-up.
Obviously, it was his fault, because how dare he have the right to be confused.
And it was his fault that he tried to get revenge on Dean, exposing him with a video after getting looked down on one to many time, even he knew that was low of him, that he shouldn't have gone that far, but who cares because it was his fault, of course it was.
It was his own wrong that Jack gave him the main role without his knowledge just so he could bag those sponsorships and it was his fault that he wasn't able to play the role up to expectations, because who gives a shit if he never got to properly rehearse. He should've been good enough. He is never good enough.
It was his fault that he kept his pursuit on Jack going, because Jack never rejected him openly and he was sure Jack was aware oh his feelings for him yet never pushed Raffy away. It was Raffy's fault that he continued that damn pursuit on a single man. Completely, utterly, his fault.
It was also his fault that he ran into Arnold and Dean almost kissing in the woods and it was his fault that he wanted Jack to know about it, because even if not as a person who liked him, but as a friend he couldn't understand why he should do otherwise. Didn't Jack deserve someone better then someone that almost cheated on him? But, once again, who cares because it was his fault anyway. Who cares about the fact that he could've shared that video to Jack right then, but didn't do so, who cares about the fact he didn't go and rub that video in Deans face the first thing next morning, as soon as he found out they had gotten back together, who cares that he didn't mention that video to Dean until, and only until Dean, once again, randomly started to provoke him.
Who cares that Dean started telling him how bad of an actor he was and how he'd never be as good as him, because of course all Raffy deserve is to be told that he is a nobody and the only reason he's standing up straight is because of the silver spoon his mother fed him. So, yes, it was his fault that he threatened Dean with something wrong Dean did, but it didn't even matter since that video was no longer there.
Once again, his fault.
How dare he trust someone? How dare he finally let someone in? How dare he think there is someone that wouldn't use him, because that's why Raffy exists: To be used like a tissue and thrown away whenever you're done with it and if he tries to fight back, it's his fault.
It was his fault that he had rejected someone that had just betrayed his trust and it was his fault that he missed that someone, because he had been the only one to understand Raffy, to stay by Raffy's side, or at least that's what raffy thought. So, yes, it was his fault that he thought so.
And now, it was again his fault that the video got released, because who cares if he was not the one to upload it, who cares that no one even knew Raffy had such a video, because it was Raffy's fault anyway. It's always Raffy's fault. Even Rome, who had himself deleted that fuck ass video from Raffy's hone didn't believe him, so why should he give a damn if anyone else does or not.
It's his fault anyway.
Who gives the slightest shit if he did it or not if its obviously Raffy's fault all along, who gives a damn anyway because even if it's not, it's still Raffy's fault.
Raffy's always the one on the wrong side.
It's always his fault