Batgrldes



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    Shane is technically moving on.

    Objectively, he’s doing great. He has a stable relationship with James, an emotionally healthy businessman who texts him good morning every day, folds laundry correctly, and somehow makes stability feel both comforting and slightly alarming.

    The problem is that Shane has unfortunately never loved anything normally in his entire life, and definitely not Ilya, his ex-boyfriend, former secret, and current ongoing psychological condition.

    Shane and Ilya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and have both theoretically moved on. Now Ilya has Alice and Shane has James.

    Unfortunately, they are still completely in love with each other and handling that with the emotional maturity of two men who communicate primarily through hockey and prolonged eye contact.

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    Or basically Shane and Illya broke up after the Boxing Day fight and they "moved on" but not really because they physically and mentally cannot fully give themselves to other people.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “Ilya, are you deflecting because YOU don’t want to go?” The brown eyes Ilya folded for every time narrowed, flashing from pleading to suspicious in an instant. “C’mon, it would be so nice to just be in real nature for a bit.”

    Okay, fine. Ilya did not want to go. As much as he loved their team, he did not want to share his precious summertime with Shane paddling around a lake like some kind of 1800s fur trader. And frankly, he did not want to find out what constituted “real” nature in Shane’s mind.

    Or: When Shane insists they partake in the annual Centaurs canoe trip, Ilya wants no part in it. Throughout the trip though, Ilya gets to reflect on all the ways he and Shane have grown individually, together, and by being well-loved by their team.

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    28 May 2026

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    Shane leaves that Vegas penthouse suite feeling wretched, and like an idiot, and like he never wants to see Ilya Rozanov again.

    Except, well. Then there are zombies.

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    28 May 2026

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    Ilya wondered if his heart was still beating in his chest. Ilya spoke words to Galina that did not resonate with him. He spewed bullshit and half lies and assured, “No, no thoughts for a while. They’ve been going away,” even though they were the only thing that echoed through his mind with each beat of his pulse. Ilya was dying. Slowly. With every breath. Either that, or going insane. Probably, most likely, insane. But above all, Ilya was lonely, and could not take the silence anymore.

    Ilya, 3:52 PM: This is the worst thing you have ever done to me, Shane Hollander.

    He felt so pathetic. Begging on his hands and knees for love. He wondered what he had done in a past life to constantly be pleading to god for any kind of love.

     

    Ilya Rozanov sustained a bad injury late last season that he just can't seem to shake. He feels himself start to slowly unravel, unable to face the fact that the one thing he has always been able to hold on to may not be his at all anymore. As his performance declines, his mental health begins to take a tumble with it.

    Set after the long game, where Ilya needs therapy, is in denial, and at war with himself.

    Title inspired from song Silver Spoon by Erin Lecount

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    14 May 2026

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    He killed Shane Hollander's family. Now Shane is trapped in his camp, forced to heal soldiers under Ilya Rozanov's cold command. The plan is simple: wait and drive a knife through the monster's heart. But when Ilya discovers Shane isn't just a healer, but the rarest omega in existence, the mission turns into a brutal, possessive game of survival. Shane hates him with every fiber of his being. He just can't figure out why his body—and his heart—refuse to listen.

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    12 May 2026