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    “Chuuya?”

    “Hm.”

    “I promise to stay by your side for the rest of your life.” It’s a promise he knows he can keep.

    Dazai cannot die. He lives on as the world changes around him, finding Chuuya in every lifetime and learning all the little things that make Chuuya, Chuuya through all the different people Chuuya is.

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    23 May 2026

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    “Can you fix my eyes?”
    “It’s not your eyes that need to be fixed.”
    For a moment, he’s back in the hospital with his head throbbing and immense pain coursing through his veins, his lungs on the verge of collapse, his body begging for it all to end. He’s tired, so tired. Tired of not knowing anything, tired of the constant aches, tired of trying to find himself with nothing to show.
    “I don’t understand.” His voice, over the flames and screams in his head, comes out quiet. He’s not sure if he even said the words out loud or if he merely moved his lips, mute with nothing but ragged breath escaping.
    A strong arm pulls him back into the priest’s warm chest.
    “You reek of monkey.”

    Temporary amnesia due to severe trauma. It’s all the doctor can tell Satoru when he wakes up bloodied and bruised with no ID on him and no fingerprints matching any record. Plagued with the idea that his life must have been meaningless if no one is even looking for him, Satoru finds himself in front of a buddhist temple that proves him otherwise. As the haze around his memories clears, the guesses of who did this to him and why turn muddier and muddier.

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    16 May 2026

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    Chuuya’s life is unexpectedly great: Yokohama is at peace, he hasn’t seen Dazai since Meursault and his wine cellar is always full.

    But, when Double Black is asked to take care of a Gifted child, Chuuya faces the ghosts of his past: his heart, his old partner, his loyalty.

    He can’t fail this mission. He owes it to the child, to the Flags, to his family, to himself.

    Enter Dazai.

    Or: Nakahara Chuuya’s guide on how to raise a child with your traitor ex-partner (that you might be in love with).

    And of course there’s only one bed.

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    04 May 2026

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    "When we're older, I'm going to marry 'Samu. I promise. I swear."

    If someone had told Dazai he would be fake dating the sister of one Nakahara Chuuya - his childhood best friend, current housemate and first love - he would have called them crazy. There's just no way.
    Alas, that’s exactly what he’s doing.

    Or: Chuuya's unofficial guide on how to stay (almost) sane when your childhood crush is dating your sister.

    Russian translations: here and here

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    19 Apr 2026

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    There is no clear moment, not really, but there is one that sticks out in his mind, when he knew with a sickening sort of thud inside him, a punch to the jaw in an anything goes bare-fist fight, no chance to hide his weak spots in the aftermath.

    “No.” Suguru says, enunciating carefully, as though his lack of diction is the issue.

    “But Suguru,” Satoru whines, heavy on the last syllable, and Suguru can feel Shoko shift beside him.

    “Why do you say his name like that?” She snips before Satoru can continue with his impassioned plea or Suguru can try to intercede, cut him off. “Just say it normal, be normal.” She kicks out and misses Satoru, standing at the edge of the bed, and hits Suguru, who grunts in response. “Oops.”

    Suguru waves it off.

    “When is he ever normal?” He asks, rolling his eyes at her. Shoko snorts out a laugh, her leg resting over Suguru’s shin, a comforting warmth.

    “So true.” Shoko responds, flicking open her phone.

    “I’m literally right here.” Satoru practically shouts, tossing his sunglasses haphazardly onto Suguru’s bedside table, “terrible friendship, terrible friends,” and Suguru closes his eyes because he knows what is coming next, “Suguru,” Satoru whines again.

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    05 Apr 2026