9 Works by dharmaa

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    Summary

    Shane and Ilya get into nasty fight that leads them to a break up. They will have to learn how to live without the other one's presence after so many years.

    When they eventually meet up again, Ilya is playing for Ottawa and everything falls apart again. At least now they can have confrontation, and maybe finally close a chapter.

    Shane can't forgive him. Ilya can't live without him anymore.

    Series
    Language:
    English
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    15,563
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    44
    Kudos:
    411
    Bookmarks:
    111
    Hits:
    8,922
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    He didn’t see the thunder coming.
    He flinched so hard his body almost lifted from the mattress. Shane understood.
    “Oh, Ilya,” he said it so gently, like he was speaking to a child, or a scared puppy. Or maybe both. At the same time, “Come here, sweetheart. It’s ok.”

    “I just can’t sleep. And you always said I could come to you if– If I needed it,” Luca’s voice was low, he was staring at the floor.
    “Yes, Luca, you should come to me when something is wrong. I am captain, so I am like mama duck with her ducklings."

     

    or

    While in Tampa for a game, a tropical storm hits the city and both Ilya and Luca find out how much easier it gets if you let yourself be vulnerable enough to get comforted.

    Language:
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    4,145
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    28
    Kudos:
    2,122
    Bookmarks:
    241
    Hits:
    15,289
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    The Ottawa Centaur's plane needs to do an emergency landing. Between scared partners and teammates Ilya takes young Luca Haas under his wing and tries his best to make him feel better.
    All while fixing some of his relationship problems.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,276
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    26
    Kudos:
    1,731
    Bookmarks:
    193
    Hits:
    13,764
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    Shane wakes up to find out that an old hookup has made a video about their night together. Before he can even see the video, his phone is exploding with texts and articles.
    Between the teasing and joking of his teammates he finds out some things about Ilya's past.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,856
    Chapters:
    2/?
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    203
    Bookmarks:
    38
    Hits:
    3,124
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    He got up from the floor, dizzy and uncoordinated. He managed to find his way to the bathroom and to the medicine cabinet, grabbed the pill bottle and stared at it. He didn’t grab one like he usually did, instead he held the whole bottle in his shaking hand as he walked into the living room. This time he sat on the couch, he looked around as if he was waiting for someone to stop him. He was alone, he knew it. He stared at his phone. Maybe he should try calling Shane again. He didn’t.

     
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    What if the detail that made Shane stop doubting their relationship wasn’t the almost plane crash. What if instead Ilya’s depression flared way earlier, when all he wanted was someone he couldn’t have, and what if he tried to do something he would’ve never forgiven himself for.

    Language:
    English
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    11,108
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    16
    Kudos:
    537
    Bookmarks:
    78
    Hits:
    5,950
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    Summary

    He knew he needed the pills. In any situation he would’ve swallowed those pills in a second at the idea of being able to be a functional human being again. But he didn’t feel himself right now. Well, maybe he felt too much like himself. Like a version of himself he thought he had buried with his mom. His head was pounding and his thoughts felt like they were swimming in thick fog that didn’t really give Ilya the chance to understand them completely.

    or

    Ilya gets sick on his summer at the cottage but the idea of taking pills makes his feverish mind think about his mother.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    4,650
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    5
    Kudos:
    249
    Bookmarks:
    29
    Hits:
    3,540
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    Shane turned towards Ilya, it felt too quick, like he was mad at him. God, he would have every right to. Ilya feels himself flinch. He’s still looking at his feet, feeling the hot liquid burn his skin. He deserves it, he thinks, that’s what you get when you do something so stupid.

    or

    Ilya spills something at the cottage and, for a moment, he reacts like he would've with his father.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,331
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    14
    Kudos:
    950
    Bookmarks:
    66
    Hits:
    9,926
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    Summary

    Ilya and Shane decide to come out to the public before the Hayden incident™.

    Ilya decides to do it with a gender reveal cake.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    1,270
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    43
    Kudos:
    2,543
    Bookmarks:
    211
    Hits:
    17,397
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    Summary

    Ilya's hands are on Shane’s back, keeping him checked against the glass. He doesn’t even know if the puck is still under them.

    Please look at me in the eyes. Have I fucked up?

    A whistle, fuck, the puck is definitely not under them anymore and now it only looks like Ilya’s fighting Shane. But Shane is letting him.

    Am I losing you for good?

    or...

    what if Ilya told Svetlana about Shane that time in Boston? And Shane found out.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    8,316
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    7
    Kudos:
    418
    Bookmarks:
    58
    Hits:
    6,238

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