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    Shane and Ilya had to go through so much to finally be together, and they are supposed to be experiencing their happy ending, so why was Shane acting so weird?

    After a particularly bad game, Ilya gets overly rough with Shane when they sleep together. He thought he controlled himself, but what if he didn't? Was Shane upset with him for his lack of gentleness? Did his roughness scare him away?

    Ilya had it all wrong, Shane was not put off by him in the slightest...Shane wanted more. But how could he ever say it to his face!

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    10 Jun 2026

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    "Oh yeah, I can hold," Shane's voice is much less collected now, pupils wide even as he gives Ilya an incredulous but firm shake of his head.

    Ilya wants nothing more than to drop to his knees in front of him and do something about the thick, electric spark that seems to have filled the air between them in the last few minutes. But Shane would definitely kill him if he did; he would definitely—

    A different thought interrupts his attempts at reigning himself in, a new wave of desire rushing over him at the memory of another phone call just weeks ago.

    Going from their weeks at the cottage to being long-distance between Montreal and Boston for the 2017-2018 MLH Season sucks. Shane deciding to take this stupid phone call during a rare holiday weekend together sucks even more. Thankfully, Ilya has enough evidence to suggest his boyfriend might not really mind if he interrupts said call. 

    He never expected this result though...

    Aka: Trying your best to stay quiet while your boyfriend discusses home renovations and brings you off at the same time, The Ilya Rozanov Dilemma

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    08 Jun 2026

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    There was nothing standard about Shane and Ilya's relationship, so it really shouldn't have been so surprising that they had their first date over a decade after meeting each other.

    It also shouldn't be surprising that it took roughly five minutes before it turned into a competition.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    03 Jun 2026

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    “Hello,” Ilya repeats, still kind of stuck on those freckles.

    “Hi?” the man says.

    “Hi,” Ilya says—again.

    Oh god, he's said hello three times now. He should literally say anything else. His name, probably. His phone number, preferably.

    “Hi,” Ilya says again, because he can’t help it. “I am—”

    “Are you Nick?” the man asks, and it comes out as a breathless sound.

    OR: Shane gets stood up on a blind date, and Ilya comes to the rescue, and proceeds to make a series of questionable decisions.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    “And you’re sure there’s nothing for you?” David says suddenly. “You’re not—you’re feeling okay? You’re not sick? Shane wouldn’t have any reason to think that you’re sick?”

    Ilya blinks and turns to him. “I am fine. Totally fine. Better than fine, even, before today.”

    “It’s just—Shane’s acting like you’re dying, Ilya.”

    “Not as far as I’m aware,” says Ilya. “And I do not think he would learn this before me.”

    The summer before Ilya joins the Centaurs, Shane wakes up nervous. It doesn't stop from there.

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    29 May 2026

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    Oh. He’s ducking under the covers, under Ilya’s shirt, crawling up until he’s fully inside it—head pillowed safely on Ilya’s chest. The love that rushes through Ilya feels catastrophic, and he chokes with it. “Shane,” his voice trembles. Ilya pulls him closer, always closer. “Shane.” 

    Shane makes a high, soft noise in his throat, burrowing deeper into Ilya—almost like he’s trying to crawl inside Ilya’s body. Ilya would let him, if it were possible. Would carve out a place for Shane within himself, offer it with his bruised and bloody palms. Here, all of this—is for you. Shane makes that noise again—soft, pleading, like a whine—and Ilya succumbs, is helpless to. 

    He recognises it for the wordless plea it is, and gives Shane exactly what he wants. “Shanebug,” Ilya says softly, and Shane melts into his chest, every last string holding him up cut. “I love you.” 

    —a nickname, and all the love that comes with it.

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    29 May 2026

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    Shane steps closer, standing between Ilya’s legs. “I guess that explains it, hm? You don’t have to be confident or good when you’re packing that, do you? You just let people use your big,” Shane accentuates the word by leaning down and touching Ilya’s cock for the first time, only it’s not a caress or a stroke, it’s a rude poke that makes Ilya’s cock jerk in the air, “cock, however they want to? Is that it? Just a thick, fat cock for people to ride when you get too fucking stupid to do anything else?”

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    Uni AU, loser, stoner frat bro Ilya, pining after popular, jock Shane

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    27 May 2026

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    paramedics!hollanov verse. (it’s mostly porn)

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    21 May 2026

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    That thought settles into his brain dangerously. Ilya’s been with everyone. Girls. Guys. Others. What's another person on the list?

    If Shane wants experience…

    If he wants to stop feeling behind…

    Why not Ilya?

    Yes, he was a complete asshole that Shane wished he could choke to death sometimes and his brother's childhood bestfriend, but it wouldn’t mean anything. It's for the experience, the education of it all.

    For hockey.

    Obviously.

    Or: Ilya Rozanov has always been Shane Hollander’s older brother’s best friend. He was never supposed to become Shane’s first everything.

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    18 May 2026

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    “I don’t think we should see each other until the First Round is over.”

    Rozanov just blinks at him like a drowsy—albeit handsome—cat. For a brief moment, Shane thinks that perhaps the other man hadn’t heard him. Maybe Rozanov can do that freaky thing where he sleeps with his eyes fully open. Shane wouldn’t know—after all, neither of them has ever spent the night.

    But then Rozanov tosses his head back and laughs.

    And laughs.

    And laughs.

    or;

    Montreal and Boston are set to face off in the first round of the playoffs. Shane has some concerns about that.

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    16 May 2026

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    "Oh, it looks like you’re doing better! With those scores, I guess we won’t have to meet as often anymore." Shane was beaming, proudly looking down at the transcript. Ilya’s smile immediately dropped.

    Needless to say, he scored 20 points lower on the next midterm.

    In which popular hockey fuckboy Ilya Rozanov falls madly in love with the university's golden boy Shane Hollander. Somehow, they go from being the talk on campus to becoming that couple.

    Alternatively, my take on the Jock!Ilya x Nerd!Shane trope bc it is desperately underrepresented.

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    16 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    15 May 2026

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    "Ilya knows, logistically, that fucking his roomate is a terrible idea. Right up there with poking a bear, or calling his brother just to say hello, or sticking a fork in an electrical socket.

    The first time was an accident.

    The second and third (and fourth) times were all, also, most definitely accidents."

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    13 May 2026

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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    13 May 2026

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    Every Boston Raider knows that although their captain has a girl in every port, he’s got a soft spot for the one in Montreal. Dr. Shane Hollander knows it’s better to have a semi-regular source of casual sex than try to make a relationship work during residency. Ilya Rozanov knows that the doctor he’s fucking in Montreal is unaware that he plays hockey, and in fact probably thinks he’s Bratva.

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    03 May 2026

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    “Think you can be good for me, Hollander?”
    Hollander swallowed. There was that vaguely panicked look in his eyes, like every other time Ilya had introduced something new to his understanding of sex.
    “What does, uh. What does that mean, exactly?”

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    02 May 2026

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    Shane wakes up feeling overstimulated.

    Ilya is already ready with the clippers.

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    23 Apr 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t celebrate his birthday, and this one is no different. He’s spending it alone, with only a bottle of vodka and his spiralling mind for company; at least, until the doorbell rings. Expecting a teammate, or Yuna and David, Ilya reluctantly greets his surprise visitor, who ends up being exactly the person he needs.

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    Shane surprises Ilya by visiting him on his birthday, and unwittingly pulls him back from the precipice of a downward mental spiral.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    Hoodies have always been Shane’s go-to clothing item when his brain is on overdrive and scrambling for safety. He even has a designated hoodie that regulates him better than the others. He can't really explain why it provides him with the sense of security it does, it just does, okay? When he wraps his arms around himself and fists his hands into the fabric, his mind slows and unknots itself.

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    Shane loves wearing Ilya's hoodie.

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    28,671

    21 Apr 2026

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