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    When Shane is injured in the game with Boston, routine medical testing reveals an unexpected surprise. He has to navigate difficult choices including telling Ilya, dealing with the league, and navigating the public.

    The story will follow Shane, Ilya and other canon characters and minor OCs through an entire journey to sorting themselves and their unexpected situation out, grappling with the world and each other for their happy ending.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    Even after getting married, Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov are still a secret. No one, aside from their most trusted people, knows about their relationship.
    Sick of hiding, they make a plan to soft launch their relationship for the world to lose its mind about it.
    If that goes as smoothly as they plan it, is for their future selves to find out.

    sequel fic for infiltrators, but can be read as a standalone story

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    05 Jun 2026

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    After the All-Star game in Tampa, Ilya flies home to deal with his father’s death; Alexei is arrested, and Ilya assumes custody of his niece. After months away from the NHL, Ilya returns to Boston with a child, and Shane hears rumors of Ilya with Svetlana and a 3-year-old with curly hair.

    Or: Ilya doesn’t communicate, Shane makes assumptions, and they’re both idiots. Featuring brattiness, pining, and second chances.

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    05 Jun 2026

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    16/?
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    03 Jun 2026

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    Shane's plan to get Ilya back at the All-Star game is foolproof, until he realizes Ilya has a girlfriend.

    -*-*-

    "Where's your movie star girlfriend?"

    Shane huffed out a breath and looked at Ilya. "There's no movie star girlfriend. We broke up."

    Ilya's eyes widened.

    "She's great, but—" Shane swallowed hard. "We're just not compatible, I guess?"

    The look on Ilya's face was completely indecipherable.

    "What about you? Where's your—" Shane broke off, unable to bring the word "girlfriend" to his lips.

    Ilya began to say something, but was interrupted by the girlfriend in question.

    "Hey, baby," she said sweetly, sliding in front of Ilya with her back to Shane.

    Ilya's eyes darted to Shane. "Ah, hi. Tatyana, this is—"

    "I want to go swimming," she said, and Shane couldn't see her face, but heard the pout in her voice.

    Her Russian-accented voice.

    Shane felt sick.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Luca Haas grew up idolizing two hockey legends: Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander.
    Now he’s on their team, skating beside them every day—and trying very hard not to embarrass himself in front of his captain.

    Unfortunately, Luca has never been particularly good at hiding his crush.

    Ilya notices everything.
    Shane notices too.

    Eventually, curiosity turns into an invitation.

     

    *********

     

    The handprints keep flashing in his mind. Dark against Shane’s skin. Fingers splayed. Too deliberate to be an accident.

    Bruises happen. Hockey players bruise like breathing is involuntary. Like ice is cold.

    But those had not been from a hit or a fall or a puck to the wrong place.

    Those were hands.

    Ilya’s hands.

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    31 May 2026

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    Left off chapter 15

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    Shane Hollander only meant to attend a few hockey games — a small act of rebellion against the boyfriend who controlled every part of his life. But that night changes everything. The arena becomes a refuge, Rose becomes a friend, and the Montreal Metros become the first place he’s felt safe in years.

    No one knows he’s living with domestic violence.
    No one knows he’s planning to run.
    No one knows how much he’s breaking.

    And no one expects him to fall for Ilya Rozanov — the loud, brilliant, closeted Russian winger recently traded under suspicious circumstances.

    Ilya has secrets he can’t share, a past he can’t escape, and feelings he doesn’t know how to handle.

    Shane is learning how to live again.
    Ilya is learning how to feel again.
    Both are learning how to trust.

    But when the truth about their pasts threatens to surface, they’ll have to decide whether they can face it together — or lose each other trying.

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    Or: A story about healing, found family, and the terrifying, beautiful risk of choosing love after surviving what was meant to break you.

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    24 May 2026

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    All the fics I (Mars) have written for Shane Hollander/Ilya Rozanov, most are unconnected unless they're listed in separate series!

    Yes most of them have the tag "no beta we die like Irina Rozanova" bc my friend thought it was funny :)

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    14 Apr 2026

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    We Dem Boyz
    Vaughny added J.J, and unknown number.

    Vaughny: Fellas, I just spoke with the rookie in Ottawa, Boodram, and we realized there is no safe space in the league for minorities for us. I would make a big group chat, but I think the four of us is good enough.
    J.J: Ahhh, shit. Sounds good to me. Welcome to hell – I mean welcome to MHL Boodram!
    Vaughny: No, you were right J.J. Welcome to hell.
    Boodram: 😂😂. Thanks guys. I appreciate it.
    Shane: Yes welcome!
    Shane: Also, what does the name of the chat mean?
    J.J: Ahhh Captaine….

    Or Carter Vaughn creates a group chat with Shane, J.J and Zane and they become each other's support system.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    22 Mar 2026

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    Shane swallowed heavily. “We should talk, I-”

    “Go. Leave, Hollander. You did it before. So go.”

    “Rozanov…”

    “You got what you wanted. Now you can go.”

    Ilya didn’t even look at him as he delivered his final words, his voice cold and devoid of any emotion. Shane waited for a few silent seconds before he gave up, realising Ilya wasn’t going to change his mind. He pulled open the door, hovering in the doorway, waiting for words that never came. His feet refused to move, his heart half hoping Ilya would call his name. But there was only silence. And now that the silence was turned on him, he had no right to hate how much it hurt.

    This was exactly what he’d done months ago - turned away, shut down, left Ilya sitting there alone, confused... hurt. Back then, Shane had told himself it was easier this way. Cleaner.

    Now he knew what it felt like to be the one left behind.

    *****

    Shane walked away from Ilya after the tuna melt incident.

    But what if Shane never turned up at the All Stars Game in Tampa?

    What if that moment had never existed?

    Would it have been easier if they’d never become anything at all?

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    20 Mar 2026

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    What if Shane got so jealous at the club in Montreal, he ends up losing his shit in front of Rose and coming out to her that same night? What if Ilya's father dies early and he has to miss the All Star game? What if Shane starts to notice just how bad the Metros are and decides to leave, ending up in Boston?

    Canon divergence post the tuna melt incident.

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    17 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Not finished

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    13 Mar 2026

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    13 Mar 2026

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    Shane recovered at his parents’ house. For once, he didn’t watch any hockey games after the Metros were knocked out of the playoffs. He knew it baffled his mom, but how was he supposed to tell her that the only thing he wanted to do while watching was analyze and pick apart the plays with Ilya fucking Rozanov — the man who had eviscerated his heart?

    Some days Shane felt so empty he didn’t know if he even cared about hockey anymore. That always sent him spiraling into a panic, because how could he not care about hockey?

    All Shane Hollander was supposed to care about was hockey.

    --

    Or, what if Ilya had ended things in the hospital when he went to visit Shane?

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    12 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Not finished

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    Comments:
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    07 Mar 2026

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    Not finished

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    Shane has always trusted the Montreal Voyageurs, but it seems that trust was misplaced. In a post-game interview, a reporter informs him that his parents were in a car accident before his team ever did, and everything fractures in that moment.

    Months of patterns that have excluded him finally come to a head. Shane makes a decision that detonates across the league — and his life.

    A two-shot of Shane being ready to burn it all to the ground and finally choosing himself!

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    Words:
    11,313
    Chapters:
    4/5
    Comments:
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    6,216
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    86,380

    06 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Not finished

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    05 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is hockey’s closeted golden boy with everything to hide. Ilya Rozanov is a professional Dom with everything to lose and an expired visa.

    Through their arrangement at a discreet Montreal kink bar, where NDAs protect secrets and sessions are charged per hour, they discover the most dangerous thing isn’t being caught—it’s wanting more than those hours allow.

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    180,137
    Chapters:
    14/?
    Collections:
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    Comments:
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    43,820
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    01 Mar 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Not finished

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